Ex Drug Addict Mom Reacts to How Could You Leave Us by NF | Jordan Villarreal
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- Reacting to NF's How Could You Leave Us was so hard for us both because of the vulnerability that comes with that situation. There is so much more to be said on the topic of substance abuse, but remember not to give up on yourself or your loved ones. Turn to God for help and he will sustain you. Thanks for watching!
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As an ex-addict, I get how it's much harder than people understand...but when is it about the kids? This entire discussion seemed to be about the mom's perspective even though the song is from the son's perspective. I don't mean to be harsh, but you're no longer an addict. Time to move past your own feelings and focus on your son's s feelings.
Understand that I was the one leading the conversation. Everyone knows how he feels. Everyone knows how we feel because the people who listen to this song are primarily the kids. I led the conversation to capture her heart and her remorse for not being what we needed. My mom has been so amazing and has become the mother I always needed, as well asl always understood what she did and how it affected her. To the point where that guilt eats her up. Please anyone who reads this don’t put the anger you have towards a parent towards her or this convo. I led the conversation to capture what could happen to a lost parent when God stepped in. I feel like all you guys wanted to see was her beg for forgiveness, something she’s done thousands of times off camera with her words and her life every single day.
@@JordanVillarreal Fair enough. I probably didn't have enough context to comment. I meant no disrespect and apologize of I was off base and/or out of line. God bless.
@@garrettpapit no bro I get you, and I get that in this video it seems like that. But my mom truly turned her life around and put her entire life on hold to give me and my sister a childhood we didn’t get. I’m 22 and my mom still spoils me to no end. The comment isn’t so much for you as it is a general statement that if the video comes across as one sided, that is because I wanted to capture her side of it. Please don’t feel as if you shouldn’t have commented I love all the people who take the time to watch. And I appreciate the people who can discuss it without being toxic. I pinned this comment so people would see it though, to anyone who reads, my mom truly has changed everything and been there as a true parent since she quit the drugs. I couldn’t ask for a better mom who has been there for me. To anyone who doesn’t have that all I can say is I’m sorry and that I know how it feels. Stay strong and don’t stop loving yourself. @Garrettpapit thank you for giving me the opportunity to say that where it didn’t have to be an argument. I agree when it comes to healing both parties need to be able to listen and understand, but I promise I have gotten that from her and then some
@@JordanVillarreal That's great. I'm glad to hear that she was able to make that transformation and focus on you and your sister. You seem very well adjusted so hopefully God will be graceful enough to let the cycle end here. These are the types of issues that can easily become generational. God bless!
As a recovering alcoholic and a mother I get this on every LEVEL, EVERY ASPECT, AND EVERY WAY! I’m so extremely grateful my child was younger and I went to treatment and I am now four and a half years sober. Addiction was in my childhood, my childhood caused PTSD. It was horrible, but I don’t agree that since you had the same parents is never (In my opinion) an excuse. Also, getting sober does not take failure over failure, relapse over relapse. I went to treatment and got sober. Once......Still Sober. I as well did it all for my baby, I stay sober for many reasons but I did it all for my daughter. CPS was never involved, it was her father. After he got married it was never about what was best for her (To have both parents). I’ve kept sober and will never go back and now it’s purely just out of spite to the point of moving her out of state and I continue to fight for her. Fight to just be equal as a parent. Addiction is hell. PURE HELL and everyday with addiction you hate yourself more than anyone could ever understand.
To this mother, you’re incredibly admirable for being on here and being able to watch this and admit that this was you and similar mistakes. Your incredible and so is your son for his forgiveness through his pain. I hope their are many more stories like this one!
He recorded the last part of the song alone in the studio. Everyone left him alone
@Andrew Hyatt That's not sad in the slightest? The song is, yeah. The producers knew how much pain this song really had. They gave him that moment, his moment, to say what he needed to.
That's not sad.
That's respect.
No he asked the to leave and the left it recording
But that's still sad and nice
@@d3voessti497 what that made no sense
Damn
I'm not recommend anybody to watch this while eatin. Cause I'm here, eating instant noodle while crying at 2 am
astari ratu mooooood 😭😭
Literally me every night 😂😂😂
astari ratu ME HAVING A BREAKDOWN
Been there done that lol
Honey, that's me every night with ramen noodles at 3 am.
NF has “recently” said that now at 28 he feels differently about his mom and he said he really wishes he could have a real conversation with her
I wish that too. It kills me. I just wanna say to her “Mom do me a favor get of drugs” but yet I’m so young
HistoricSkate67 {Minecraft TH-camr} don’t blame yourself.
I'm 22 and I've managed to really speak with my mom a couple of months ago, I was 11 when her gambling addiction got the best of her, she would gamble away all the money she had, I tried to kill myself twice and ran away from home aswell, at 12 I was the one responsible in the house, taking care of her and nagging her not to go gamble, I was the one going into casinos and trying to get her out of there arguing and promising her to leave the house at 18 and never looking back, leaving her to die alone. I've never had a childhood and I can't get that back, but I've got a daughter on the way and I wanted to patch things up with my mom so that she could be a grandma and enjoy her niece since she didn't enjoy me. I've got to say I've never had a conversation that hard, I've always thought that I was going to lash out on her, instead she apologised for fucking me up, for neglecting me and in that moment all my anger went away and I supported her, hugged her and told her I loved her and I am thankful for that because this song makes me think of how things could have turned out if I hadn't made that first step. Don't burn bridges with your parents guys, don't let the anger and frustration take the best of you, because you'll regret it when the curtains close.
P. S. Never had a father, the mofo didn't even want to put his name on my birth certificate
Im comment numero 1 k
Ghv thank you!
I PRAY THAT NF NATE SEES THIS VIDEO. I FELT NATE’S MOM SPEAK THROUGH YOUR MOM. CHILLS. HE NEEDS TO HEAR HER WORDS.
Veronica Anna Haddad absolutely. She could really relate to her point of view, and I’m sure it’s an insight NF is missing. Pray he sees it.
I'm going to be a part of an NF music video that is being shot tomorrow. I don't know the details yet about whether or not NF will be there in person. If he is, I'll make sure I mention this video.
Spencer Sasse thanks I appreciate that so much! 🙏👍
@@JordanVillarreal So update:
Nathan was at the video shoot, but unfortunately I wasn't able to get one-on-one time with him. I'm sorry!
@Andrew Hyatt It was a lot if fun! I signed a confidentiality form which basically prohibits me from saying anything on social media, so I'm sorry, I actually legally can't tell you anything. The contract said that once the project is released I can talk about it though!
The fact that they can sit together and digest these raw emotions is so beautiful. Keep fighting the good fight
Myriah Conlin I couldn’t do that with my parents if I wanted too 😞
@@loganharris7002 not all of us can
My ma went back to drinking and drugs when I was in high school. One of my siblings died and my parents divorced shortly after when I was around 9yo. Shit just fell apart. I hope to see my mom heal. I am 27 now and she attempts to reach out hesitantly because of guilt. I love my mom, she hurt me and all I can do is hope she finds her way back. Learning how to be okay without guidance is tough. It is true though, family is not always blood.
Keep your head up! This life has many good things to offer, sometimes we have to get our hands dirty first but good things rarely come easy.
Myriah Conlin stay strong 👍
TartChief 5 stay strong 👍
@@myriahconlin7571 I genuinely hope things get better for you and your family. I know the feeling all too well also. Having lost family the same way and having addicted family now as well.
I’m a step mother to two beautiful kids who’s biological mom has been in an out of jail and lost in addiction for 15+years. I’ve been struggling for the last 8 years hating her for “not loving them. Or choosing them”. I viewed it as I raise her kids day in and day out dealing with the “you’re not my mom” and the tears, and the rebellion, and the tears and disappointments when she wouldn’t show up. I NEEDed to see this. I needed so badly to remember she’s a human and she’s not just a monster that hates her kids. Thank u for giving me the other side of this. I’ve been so ate up with resentment for years. I’ve been loving her kids and raising them from sun up to sundown with very little gratitude. Ive cried myself to sleep countless nights praying they would just see me as their mom and not be so hurt by her. (I didn’t want to replace her but she litterally is never here.) I’ve invited her to church and to our home multiple times and it always ended in disappointment for all of us. Thank u
Don't give up. And remember that just because they hurt over a biological parents doesn't mean they can't see the love and care of a step parent. Give it time and patience.
The addict hates the addiction as much or more than the sober people around them do. Knowing that you are failing and wanting so much to do better and be better but you literally can’t. You can hate the disease and still love the person. Hating the bio mom for what she’s done won’t help anyone to feel better or do better - being able to love her in spite of her addiction will healing in the long run. Last thing, and maybe most important- that the children are able to show you their anger and fear and resentment means that deep down they trust in your unconditional love and support, they can vent and say mean and hurtful things to you because inside, even if they don’t realize it now, they know that no matter what you will always be there and you are giving them a relationship with a foundation of trust. They can’t say the mean things to bio mom because they don’t trust that she would still be there for them after. The kids you have chosen to love and parent are so very lucky to have you and I promise with time and maturity they will be forever grateful for you loving them when their behavior was unlovable.
They yo kids they'll realize that
You're a beautiful person and I admire your ability to look at the situation from a different angle.
I admire your strength and patience I will pray God keep giving you more strength
That song is why I'm not on opiates anymore. I couldn't bear the thought of leaving my son to struggle through these thoughts about me... the thought of him ever having to wonder if I actually loved him just wasn't something I could deal with. Been clean 17 months and tomorrow I'm taking him on his first real vacation ever. To all the addicts out there I promise you there is hope and a life waiting for you after addiction. But there is no quick fix or easy button. It's going to be hard work but it WILL get easier and life will get better if you just keep pushing forward one day at a time. You got this!!
MonsterBaby Steve Wilson I’m very proud of you, keep fighting that good fight! I don’t know you but I instantly love you and sending prayers for you to continue to stay on top and be the very best you for your son!
@@loganhernandez8745 thanks. Oh, and just an update.... the vacation was an absolute success!! Lol. We had a blast. And I just accomplished another goal and got us a new house. We just moved in Saturday!!
MonsterBaby Steve Wilson really proud of you!!
@@zocharett3327 thanks
Well done man. I hope your still doin good (im sure you are). Ive been clean now for just over 10 years from opiates. It gets a lot easier the longer you're clean. I dont even think about using anymore. It did take a toll on my mental health along with other things but im doin ok. I suggest anyone fighting addiction get a therapist. Im glad you got clean man. How'd your sons first vacation go?
This is the realist and most raw reaction I've seen to this song. Just made an already emotional song, even more so.
Mike Perkins thank you so much I really appreciate it! We felt that this was a story of Gods love and redemptions that people really needed to hear.
Thank you so much it means so much
Mike Perkins I agree this is a conversation a lot more people desperately need to be having :’(
This hits so hard... because in Mansion he addressed that his parents had a divorce, and his mom and her boyfriend abused him..
Bruh his mom didn't the boyfriend did
@toastygaming54 is dum lol his mom didn't abuse him only the boyfriend did
My mom died while she was pregnant with me at 39 weeks from a drug over dose , luckily I got to make it out . There's not a day goes by that I don't think of my mom , wish I could've got to know you . People always tell me I'm juss like you , I got the big smile and big laugh , the bubbly personality always trying to make other people happy . All around trying to brighten the world a little more , I'm living for you momma .❤️
God bless you❤️❤️
Your a beautiful person
God bless you, your mom loves you so very much, stay strong !!!!
Omg im sorry but that was so sad 😭
God bless u..❤️
I’m 13 and my mom died when I was 9. She died from drugs and in 2 days, is officially 5 years of her being gone... I have recently started watching people’s reactions to this song Bc I relate to it SOOOO much... your reaction is so wholesome and I’m happy that your mom is sober now:)
Edit 6/29/19: thank y’all so much for y’alls support. I just came back from church camp. Anyway y’all are amazing and this channel has such an amazing environment. Also the original comment was posted June 13th
Bryan Francis hey I’m so so sorry to hear about your mom. That is so tough. I’m glad you could relate and I pray that you let Christ be the center of your life. Growing up without a parent can leave a big hole in your life, but I promise that God can fill that hole and use what happened for good. I’m praying for you
Thank you Bryan and how strong you are! I am so sorry to hear what happened. God can make something so beautiful out of all the pain you have had to endure. If you will just let him. You are in my thought and prayers. Your comment weighs heavily on my heart.
Bryan Francis I’m sorry man, I’m 17 now but when I was 13 I lost my father and losing a parent early in life is never fun but like he said the hole in your life without them will be filled by god himself. Amen
Bryan Francis first off thank you for sharing this. I can’t fathom the loss of a parent. I’m sorry that you had to go through this. Although you were 9 years old , you may be too young at that time to comprehend but I’m sure you knew. But don’t stay bitter, keep her in your prayers, and paint a wonderful canvas for your future. I wish you all the best of luck.
Im so sorry.. being a recovering addict myself I am so sorry for what these drugs take from everyone...
He raps about his feelings and how he felt at the time. He isn't trying to portray the other perspective. His music is his journal. But it is good that you are giving the view from the other side. Thank you.
If you want my perspective she was trying to justify throwing her family and life away for no reason
exactly, he expresses his side and perspective, and many relate to it
I feel like NF lyrics are just brutally blunt and direct in a way that a lot of artists aren't (that I know of). There isn't a secret message, nothing to decode or figure out. It can really just punch you in the gut.
I LOVE NF simply because of how raw and honest he is. He is relatable on a deep level so people connect with him sooo much.
His songs are a slap in the face cause it hits you with the reality of the situation of so many peoplehe gives you their point of view and i love his music for that 💖😍
Pauciloquent Flibbertigibbet twentyonepilots has some songs like that but also some harder messages. Even in the ones with harder messages you feel it but doesn’t know what it is
@@chels144 thats what this a therapy session ;)
I love the gut punches.... keeps you on your toes.
Listening to his music makes me evaluate my life in a completely different way... sometimes makes me realize things aren’t as bad as they could be, sometimes makes me realize that if I’m not careful I could end up down a road I don’t want to be on. Either way, NF makes you THINK... something that has been a lost art in music for a VERY long time.
There are a handful of artists like NF whose music is enlightening, and from the heart....but it’s a very short list.
I understand the pain the NF feels though that anger it’s so consuming, my sister died in August and to hear it from her point of view. That anger he feels is so raw
May she rest in peace and may God help you through it!
NF does talk about struggling with anger and fear in his songs
My brother passed away June 2016 due to drugs. It never gets easier. They say time heals everything but I have to disagree
she explains addiction perfectly... i watched for reaction, then got hooked on what she said instead. "its bigger than you". true
Your kids are even bigger. So no excuses. You want to quit or you don't. Copout.
That's an excuse
It's bigger than you but it's not bigger than God.
It might just be bigger than your current mindset, but at some point, after hard work and dedication towards getting better, you will be bigger than it.
Why are the comments on this comment so mean like she wanted to stop but the addiction was so much bigger then her
Im really crying at work, i lost my momma to drugs. She just never came back. Im really happy that your mom pulled through, it gives me hope
Margo Kuuipo glad who’s mom pulled through?
Bryan Chipps the kid in the videos mom. His mom was talking about be a addict in her past life with her kids
Sammy thank you I can’t believe I was confused about that
God bless you, may you have everything you desire in this world
I'm so sorry for your loss- I hope life for you is better than your past ❤
YOU ARE WORTHY!!!
everybody who reads this.
YOU ARE WORTHY!!
Dosent feel like I am
Shit man I wish this were true
@@xo.yang1027 feelings can be deceiving! You are important and have value! You are NOT a cosmic mistake! Yeshua love you!
I don't think so... I can't be, i don't feel like i am...
@QJohnnieWalkeRQ man dude your speakin the truth i am worth nothing...
I love these dissections of real life problems and solutions. As a mom I struggle to know how to be better and sometimes I feel like my kids would be better without me. This shows that where there is life there is hope. Get help. Admit how awful you feel about yourself and get help.
Same, I go to this song and it makes me want to stay here. For my kids.
Praying for you!
hey ur pretty im 16 doe and i think ur like 20 lol
...maybe your kids would be better off without you...ever thought about that???
...why would a mum do this to her kids...then better just disappear out of your kids life and not fuck up your kids life as well...
@@insel8131 it sounds like U don't have a very real grasp of the situation. It's a lot more complex, not that black & white. What happens when mum does just take off. How do u know the kid will b better off, who will they stay with? Not everyone has other family. R u happy sending them off to foster Care being constantly moved from pillar to post. It's a broken system. And I'm not saying I have the answers
When I was 13, my mom turned to drugs. In and out of jail, and my dad was there but not really “there” for me. From 13-16, I watched my mom overdose, walked in on her dead at 12 years old when I had a friend staying the night, to see my mom not breathing. I called the cops and pissed my pants out of fear. They revived her. I remember when I asked my mom, *“Do you love the drugs more than me? What would you pick?”*
My mom straight up told me she’d pick the drugs, and that she was sorry and she cried. She said she was a slave to it. I ended up giving in, and started using drugs also. Fast forward past the trauma, neglect, time my mother spent in jail every other week, and many overdoses on my end - we ultimately ALL got sober. My mom was able to go to treatment, and came back and helped my father and I get sober. It was really tough, and I had a hard time respecting my mother *AS MY MOTHER* because, I was used to doing drugs with her, and not having boundaries and having a mom as a friend/drug dealer rather than a mother. Anyways, I’m now six years sober. I quit at 15 finally after many falls, and I’m now 21 years old and I have a beautiful baby boy who’s my life. Great relationships with my parents, specifically my mom. Things do and can get better. *God is always with us, even when you abandon him like I did out of hatred for the state of my life. God ALWAYS provides, and my life is great today. I’m praying for each and everyone of you.*
This was the hardest time of my life, and I left many details out about the horrific shit that happened in our “trap house” at the time. Shit that happened to me, I’ll never forget. Shit I can’t unsee. I’ll always remember walking in and seeing my mom not breathing, and slapping her over and over, pissing myself out of fear.
Life gets better, and if it’s not better it’s not done yet. I love all of you ❤️
Edit: I don’t normally comment shit like this, but this was so raw and real. And i can relate so much. Great video!
Cassidy Anne wow. That was amazing. This story, though painful is so beautiful. Both you and your mother are so strong.
Cassidy Anne May God bless you with strength.
Want a hug?❤🤗
@The Comment Above Me Doesn't Check Out op meant that the mum overdosed a few times but got revived by paramedics each time she effectively died
@@Rendr they said that when op was 13, their mom turned to drugs. They also said when op was 12, op walked into their mom being dead (even though she got revived.) Either it is fake or there are some holes or misunderstandings.
More people need to see this. These kids blame themselves for their parents death, but they never realized their parents still love them. The addiction was overwhelmed and the kids didn't know the struggle. Seeing both sides of addiction is a harsh reality.
You are blessed that your mother came back to you. You get to see her perspective from a sober view. NF will never get that cause his mother is dead. He'll never get closure.
I got frustrated with the video half way through when she would pause a part with a huge message and make it about her and how she had no choice when it was clearly directed at Nate and his siblings dealing with his mothers death. I’ve also been an addict and after 5 years it was MY choice to stop. Take some responsibility for your actions. Glad she’s sober but I don’t like this pity party the whole video when this is 100% her actions and choices (Which is literally the thesis of the whole song)
@@Chimichungus69 exactly bro. Like ik its hard to quit but blaming all it on just saying its hard? U chose to do it in the first place so u gota take responsibility. Nf is not wrong on what he is feeling i mean i see why he is so angry
He, in a way, got closure through his song. Sometimes you need to pour your heart out & be heard. He looks at his mom in a better light now bc of the song.
@@Chimichungus69 I completely agree.
Yes he is very lucky! My dad has been on drugs for 9 years its sad
Mom...be proud of yourself....I don't even know you and I'm proud of you!
❤️😢
Im proud of her as well n shit. But for real it was her choice to take drugs or not. So i mean..
@@generality1369 having been there personally, you don't know what drives people to feel so low that drugs are the only thing that numb the pain. It is not your place to judge because you do not know her circumstances. Yes it was a choice, but to have it be a choice in general, means that you're in a really bad place.
The fact that ppl dislike videos like this is beyond my understanding...i dont understand it
Because evil run rampant thru the internet
Well for me it was just because I was so frustrated at his mom for saying that no one can get out of addiction without god. I just hate it when people just make up their minds that they cannot do something. I can see how faith could pull someone out, but there are many other people who managed to get through because their family was reason enough for them and because they know its wrong..... Sorry just frustrated, I mean imagine any addicts who might watch this... that's basically an excuse for them; they cant rehabilitate without god. It makes it sound like the situation is not debatable in the least.
I agree with you to an extent you absolutely can get clean without God but I think her point whicH I agree with 100% is that you can’t fill that empty void without God
Barry Maieritsch yeah I just don’t like the word “can’t”, fill you he void with god, family, or love. But never say you can’t even when your ready to give up, if I did that I would’ve committed long ago.
Probably is because instead of watching the full video and getting its essense, they just keep pausing it and taking 10minute breaks for talking. People dont want to see family talk, they want to see a reaction. This is not a music video reaction, its a family debate over a music video. Next time watch the full video first and react and then have ur family talks
I use to play this song for my mom who had been on drugs for 20 years, I'm 23. I've only ever know my mom being on drugs. I remember all the pain of thinking my mom didn't love me more than the dope, all the broken promises, all these awful situations we were put in. Today she's 5 months sober and listening to this song now I still cry not because of the pain I remember but because I finally have the mother I always needed!! Mom I'm proud of you!
I hope she is still going strong
^ same.
My dad died last year because of his alcohol addiction and hearing of how a addiction feels, really makes me regret everything. I wanna turn back time and support and love him more, i hated him because of his addiction, i was full of anger and didn't think of how he feels. The verses "I got this picture in my room and it kills me
But I don't need a picture of my mom, (dad in my position) I need the real thing"
"Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?" & "I hate the way i remember you" really hit me, like it really hurts hearing this because i relate so much
I totally feel you I lost my dad to alcoholism coming up on 3 years now its terribly hard
@@shannonmateja3144 even harder for me because im a trans guy and my dad wouldve been the only person to accept me, but now since hes gone i dunno what to do with life. i wanna out myself so badly but i know that no one else in my family would understand and support me
My dad passed away last November due to his addiction to alcohol I agree I just want to turn back time
Same thing happened to my dad, my mom told me that they didn't make it in time to the hospital, I was left depressed.
I also lost my dad you his alcohol addiction.... this really fits hard!
Dammit.... I knew I was going to cry. Thank you for sharing this. I really hope NF sees this
Same 😂😭
I'm crying right now while I watch. I've never cried because of a video or movie before, but because my dad was nearly taken by addiction, I'm crying a lot tonight. He's been clean for 7 years. I love my dad so much.
R1OT Headshotz Aw! It hits home for you! 😢 Congrats on you dad for staying strong and fighting that addiction!!! I never gone through what you did but i feel for you and anyone who has seen a love one suffer from any type of addiction.
Yooooo this is hard. I’m crying and don’t know what having an drug addicted parent feels like. Every drug dealer needs to hear this song and how they’re getting rich off the demise of someone’s life. This is heart felt. They should make every person who enters a drug program listen to this. I bet they will turn their life around IMMEDIATELY
drug dealers are most of the time drug users as well. they use their profit from selling drugs to buy themselves drugs. they sell to make money to buy more if that makes sense
Unfortunately, as a still trying to recover addict (no kids though), it's not that easy. It wouldn't "turn their life around immediately". It's a nice sentiment, but if your own children won't make you turn your life around immediately, if yourself won't make you turn your life around immediately, then I'm sorry but a song won't either. No matter how well it resonates with what it's really like.
My best friends mom died from taking pills prescribed to her by a doctor. Big pharma doesn’t care about anyone, just getting rich. Unfortunately even the Sackler family that owned Purdue Pharma and created OxyContin got let off the hook for their crimes against humanity.
@@johnriley420 hey john, I hope recovery has been going well
@@johnriley420 how has it been going? Any good news?
Please give your mom a huge thank you for me.. she helped me realize my mom does love me but is battling something bigger than herself, and cutting her off only brought her closer to drugs.. I'm going to apologize next time I get to speak with her, for the ways I treated her after finding out. She's in rehab right now and I pray everyday she pulls through and becomes the mom I envisioned , even if it's a little late. It's better late than never right ..
Martin Lopez it is NEVER too late. I am glad this helped you realize that she does love you. She does. I know you love her too. Support her and give her time then hopefully you can have those much needed discussions about all the pain her addiction caused. Understand she is not herself, and won’t be for some time. She first must get over the addiction. She then needs to find herself and remember who she was. She must also face whatever it was that drew her into addiction. There’s a lot of healing to do and it is so much easier with God smack dab in the middle. Healing will come ! Hang in there
I'm proud of you both for doing this and putting this out there. LIfe is hard and these are real things people go through. This is brave. God bless you and your family.
Very brave
My mom passed away in 2011 over an overdose and in finding this song it really hit me hard. Never actually felt this close or touched by a song before. But I stumbled across your video just watching different music video reactions After like a while of not hearing this song.... and this hit home. Seeing your moms perspective and her telling how she feels, gave me a little closure. It helped me. Although I am almost an adult now, I was a kid then and didn’t fully understand. But this video was very touching. And I am so proud of your mom!
❤
Hope your doing great now
I just lost my pops November 2nd to an OD
@@kevinprzy4539 I’m very sorry to hear that! It doesn’t get “easier” id say, but you do learn to forgive and find a different perspective on how you look at things. Not all things are as they seem. You’ve got to remember he was human, all humans make mistakes. He was able to leave a piece of himself, part of his own creation behind…. You. Keep your head up!
if you are dealing with an addict parent please NEVER stop praying for their recovery. my mom has been clean for 3 years . i thought I would never get my mom back but I didn't lose hope. keep praying
Prayers do nothing. Only your actions can help you. Only you can go to your mom and hug her and tell her everything
Prayers will do nothing but make your loved one feel even more alone
that's Not True! Even of you don't belive, that god exist. Praying helps you to think of the Situation of your parent. To clear your mind and to front hidden anger. I think that accepting and loving your mom helps more than a hug. and praying helps you more to help your mom, than a hug would help her.
I never thought I’d get my mom back either. I go to therapy once a week because she’s been sober for a couple years and I just don’t know if I trust it.
Elf 11 stfu
Im not crying.
You are.
We're both😭😭😭
I am not tbh.
You’re right
yes i am
i’m not, i don’t feel things anymore
СЯΞΞР stfu
Man this is deep, literally sitting in my room, crying over this. I'm glad for you that she's sober now.
At the end of the recording he broke down in the studio. He asked everyone to leave him alone and the producers left it recording him in the booth. He cried and yelled because he is still angry. And when you hear the crying that was him, at the end when he is talking it was him talking alone in the booth.
Don't mind me, y'all. I'm just over here bawling like a baby.
Blessings on you guys and here's to second chances.
Dustin Paulson thank you 🙏
Dustin Paulson same😓
Lol man same! Idk how they aren’t just weeeeeping! This is so powerful
I feel like this wasn’t him necessarily trying to understand, even though that is really good to try and do, but him pushing out all the rage and pain he felt because his mother wasn’t there, at least not really. You can tell that he understands why she was like that but you don’t choose how you feel. He was understandably upset and frustrated with his mother because to a child, that feels like you’re being teased with the chance of having a mom and then having it ripped away.
NF says he didn't understand as a child and was only angry and frustrated then. But later comes to realise that it is hard for his mother and that she struggles to get away from them, that is why he personifies the pills. He should be angry. In this action they say that God is the only way out. While it is a way, it isn't the only one. If the mother really cared for her family enough, she would seek proper help and do all she can. Again, it is hard to get out of them, still she wasn't strong enough or thought of her family as more important than drugs.
I see the song as NF saying that he understands and is disappointed that his mother thought that the drugs were more important than being with her kids. My interpretation of "Telling me this isn't you, couple weeks later you're singing a different tune" is showing that his mother tried to get better but fell back in.
Just my thoughts.
This song kills me because even though she's still alive, I lost my own mother to drugs a long, long time ago.
I am glad that you were able to overcome your addiction, and I hope you stay strong for the rest of your life.
I can only pray that my mother can do the same one day, before it's too late.
His mom died. It’s stated in the song. She died right before he graduated
@@NeutronFTW yes, I know. I was talking about the mom doing the reaction and my own mother...
Keldek one day......
@@NeutronFTW read his comment again please
@@NeutronFTW it was after he graduated actually
Your mother is a beautiful woman. I’m truly glad she’s here not only for you and family&friends but also so we can she her for who she is and what she’s overcome.
- DANG! I got a lot of likes. Thanks y’all! 🙏❣️🥀
I'm not religious at all. But if this is how you got sober..litterally god has blessed you.
2:49 I want NF to hear that T_T
@nfrealmusic
@nfrealmusic
@nfrealmusic
NF doesn't speak for every single mom that takes drugs out there
@nfrealmusic true 100% man
I've never seen your channel before, but I have a huge amount of respect for you two for doing this.
Your mother is very brave and so strong for letting random people In on her story and I'm so glad she's doing better ❤️
it's nice to see this reaction. I'm a single dad with 3 kids, myself and the mother of my kids were addicted to opiates. she left us 2 years ago. I've been sober now 2 years. everyday I give my kids all my love but the pain of her leaving and watching my children struggle without their mom, that pain is in my heart every second of every day. I don't know how I get through most days but I need my kids to be happy and know I live them. still struggling, even now
Joe Praino much respect.
@@jenravese7946 appreciated
You really a good dade ❤
Damn man felt this. Raising my kids alone right now too because their mom is an addict. The hardest part is seeing my daughter ask for mom. Keep up the fight.
@@rarodrig6 I feel ya, 2 of mine are old enough to ask the same things, to miss her enough were I have to play damage control... keep ya head up
Geez, I didn't get 2 minutes into this video and the tears are blinding me. Don't worry mama, you fought the good fight and won. Not everyone comes out of the fog.. some are taken too soon.
I was addicted to pills. It was along time ago but i also was a single mom. God saved me as well. Way to go mom. I am so happy you got out of hell. Your son is so loving. What an awesome young man. I am happy for your family.
I’m happy to hear that you over your addiction, if your comfortable answering, how long are you sober?
I remember when I showed my mom this (also a ex drug addicted) she just broke down and kept saying sorry to me💜
FoodBaddie that was brave and proud of you, and your mom
😢😢😢😢😢
I’m so sorry to hear that. You never walk alone, purple you and your mom💜💜💜
my mom also has problems, but I feel hate i try to change that, but I can't she ruined everything I loved
@@kimnamjoon752 I've been there. If you can't help her. Don't
But if you want to help her and that all you care about. Be on her ass constantly. I did that to my mom. She literally HATED me and even kicked me out at one point. I kept being on her ass. Having the same conversation 5 - 10 - 50 - 100 times. It does not matter. If you want to help. You just keep watching and stopping her
He wrote this song, while he was still a “kid”, at like 16-18 years old right after his mom died, and he wanted to capture the feelings he felt as a child, so maybe he could help another mother, or father, from the death that his mother faced because of her overdose... he wrote this song from his perspective while she was popping pills... and I think he wrote this song perfectly...
My dad was a crack addict and a drunk, he and my mom got divorced when I was little. She was incredibly abusive in several ways. I'm 30 now, he and I have had a great relationship for the past 5 years, so I had him over for supper with my husband and my kids. My father loves finding Christian music that is not gospel, so I suggested he listen to NF. I honestly didn't think of this and his drug issues (he's been sober for 10 years now) when I pulled youtube up on the tv. He broke down and sobbed. He had already asked my forgiveness and said sorry many times over the past 5 years for not getting sober when I was a kid and getting me away from my mom, but he said how sorry he was and a few other things. He listens to NF constantly now lol.
Jeez that choked me up, when he broke down and apologised to you...
Most people run and hide from their past and You confronted your pain in front of thousands of people that takes more bravery than most people know thank you for sharing your story
I'm so happy your mom got herself together. I feel bad for the parents and the kids. It's hard! Thank God and bless you both.
yo WTF ... the fact that this boy and his mother are sitting together right now talking through the similar pain NF went through is POWERFUL
I wanna show this to my mom so bad. My dad was addicted to drugs for 2 years and my mom has been an alcoholic for since before I was born. This video is so powerful
I'm sorry to hear that hope they get better
I can only imagine the courage it took for both of you to do this video. You had such a powerful message to share. Congratulations on your 8 years of sobriety. Keep it up
i can tell your mom really loves you and im happy shes sober
My mom has been clean for 37 days this is relatable I am so proud of her she has come a long way from where she used to be and I love her so much ps I'm 13 and my mom pawned everything and stole my money to use for her addiction and addiction is not just affecting the person who is addicted it affects the family and friends of that person your not alone
gracie denton wow, I’m so amazed with your strength to be full of love for your mom. That’s what she needs. Love her through it and remember you are so important to God, no matter what anyone else makes you feel.
I love how she said "you did". And I respect your mother for that. Both of you are great people.
I have no experience with this and I’m bawling my eyes out 💔🥺
My mom suffered from depression and took overdose and left a note saying I'm sorry my baby but I cant do this anymore and more but I always blame my self
This by FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR the most moving reaction to this song, trust me I've watched A LOT. I cried with you guys and am so inspired and proud of you both. Jordan, your wisdom and strength is phenomenal, and Mom, you're a trooper, I understand your struggle as I've worked alongside people with addictions, I hear the internal screaming and pain however the drugs have such a tight hold on the minds biochemistry centres, it's as you said, a jail cell within yourself. I am so happy to see you both happy and healthy. Now it's time to dream big and spread your love and wisdom to others! Thank you for this moving video. I'll be sure to subscribe.
I just wanted to say to the mom! I’ve been there... I was addicted to pills prescribed by a doctor, but turned from bad to worse real quick! I never heard this song, and it’s very touching! I’m a mother of 3, and the oldest one remembers a lot and I feel like I will have to make it up to them for the rest of my life! I have also been clean for 8/9 years, and I have asked my kids for forgiveness and then I had to learn to forgive myself, which was the hardest! I will struggle my entire life and so will all true addicts, but we’re doing good now and we take it one day at a time!! So give your son a huge hug and tell him you love him... children are so forgiving and we are a little more stubborn in the forgiveness! I’m proud of you for 8 years and it shows in how wonderful your son is!! 🙏🙏
I'm a recovering IV heroin and meth addict. Im an addiction counselor now. It's incredibly brave of both of you to do this. And the openness and honesty you show here is really the only way to sustain relationships and recovery after getting clean. Hats off to both of you.
SickSequence7 what an amazing story. That is honestly the only way to heal is to openly discuss every painful detail with everybody you have hurt and everyone who has hurt you. Sounds like you are definitely qualified for the work you are doing now. God bless you for that, and for the wisdom to take the pain in your journey and turn it into healing
10 months clean on july 18 from herion and meth i am now with my sponser openening a rehab center
What makes someone want to try heroin? Ive used a lot of different drugs but never tried heroin.. always knew its a black hole. Nice to see youre doing well now 👍
@@anonymous4319 some people don't know what they're getting into i. Know first hand because I'm in recovery after ten years of using I'm 23 and when I started I had no clue what I was getting myself into I was never given a drug talk nobody told me how bad. It was I was told weed was bad but thats it that's the only substance I was ever told about and most of what I was told about it was wrong grief is hard to deal with especially as a child on his own
I remember when I first heard of Nf my cousin showed me this song. Now all his songs have touched my heart so much its unbelievable. I know its not the same but growing up my mom was addicted to smoking. She would smoke everyday and I remember waking up in the middle of the Night every single night from her leaving to party and hang out with friends leaving me a little kid with night terrors and no one to hold on to.... I know it's not the same and I know other people have been through more. But as a little kid waking up alone with your mom never there and always doing bad... It does stuff to you.... Im glad she has found god and is doing better but I can't really think of her the same.
Pain is pain sweetie. Im sorry for your pain. *hugs*
When he said, " It's like having two different moms "...I have ALWAYS thought of my Mamma as the good mamma before my parent's divorce, and the Mamma afterwards that did things that to this day, I still can barely comprehend. You're the only other person that I have heard say that. So proud of your Mamma! Never got my relationship back with her. She is gone now, but I still struggle with this.
I can't be the only one here just happy with the fact you still have your mom there for you!
Kevin Stewart no you are not the only one. We have had a lot of positive responses, most importantly, both of my children are very happy, as am I. We have a family and a church family who are also thrilled and a wonderful support system. This journey, though very difficult, has taught us all a lot and has been a way for us to reach out and help others in similar situations. Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment. God bless you
as an ex coke and pill addict, I just wanna say how proud I am of your mother. I lost my mom to drugs as well. some people just can’t come out of it. I’m so glad she seems to be in such a better place in every way. much much love. 🖤
My mother died from addiction to heroin. I was only five years old. I’m so happy to see your mother overcame her addiction.
This is the kind of content I'm looking for. I see a lot of reaction videos where they just record themselves and dont even talk. You guys analyzed the lyrics within personal situations and I loved it. You took your time to deliver an important message to your viewers. Thank you
This is straight up my favorite reaction to ANY video, let alone just NF's. Your stories are full of heartbreak, tribulations, lies, trust and love. I have family that are drug users and they've both been in and out prison many, many times. I'm going to show them your video first chance I get. I know "Mom" said she probably won't do a video again, but I would maybe second guess that. She has insight. The utmost from a user's point of view. I wouldn't consider showing this if I didn't think it could help. God bless both of you
Justin Fennell thank you for your words, they mean a lot, considering I wasn’t sure I wanted to do this video when Jordan first asked. There was a time I really didn’t believe I could ever be sober, but God pulled me through. My prayers go up for you and your family. Drug addiction IS indeed bigger than you. but God is bigger than any addiction. God bless you
@@kellianderson2795 Thank you for doing this video. Your openness and insight on the topic is incredibly valuable to those who struggle with addiction, and those who care about someone with an addiction. If you are willing, i would love if you and your son would react to Tom MacDonald - Anxiety
7 years clean...my oldest is 13... I'm sure you can do the math..
My addiction was infact pills..opiates..
I was so lost I couldnt found and in that my oldest watched me crawl thru my own darkness
I got sick and tired of being sick and tired..
I woke up one day... and brushed myself off... and beat this. I was not a good person to myself so how could I be a good mom?
Today I have sole custody of all 3 of my children a busniess owner ... and even tho every day will be a fight I can tell you I never want to be lost in that darkness ever again..
This hits so hard...thank you
The fact his mom can open up in this video and admit to her mistakes just shows how strong she really is.💯💯
This is raw! Praise the Lord for the healing he is continuing to do. Praying for those this impacts!
Thanks!!
Thank you Brisa! ❤️
Thank you very much for talking to me I really needed that so much and I’m so ready to go forward again thank you very much
This is honestly the realist TH-cam video ever, I feel this will live on to help and educate for years
My mother is an addict, and it makes me happy to see that this woman has turned her life around, and also that her son is so supportive, so much respect to them for doing this
i’m glad you got away from the addiction. so proud of your mother and you.
My mom is addicted to heroin and this really hit me hard....
Show her this video
My mom was to she got out of prison when I was 18 I’m going on 28 she got 10 years out and 15 years clean I’m proud of her but it still hurts
Hugs to you my girl......so is my brother. It's so hard.
My mom is addicted to pills and I believe cocaine
I'm so sorry, my mom almost lost me 5 times because of heroin. I'm clean now but I'm so sorry you are going through this, I don't know you, but I will say a prayer for both of you!
growing up I went into foster care when I was 3 years old with my 9 month year old sister because my father was throwing my sister up in the air and catching her and he accidentally broke ribs and because of that we got into foster care. While we were in foster care my father was sent to prison and from there he got deported back to mexico and never saw him again. Then we got out of the system and went back with our mother. It was so hard for her to provide for us, she did not work, she also did not go to middle school and she didn't have a job. She had to get food stamps to pride for us and that still was not enough and at the time my mom was getting addicted to drugs and she used the food stamps and money she got for that , so my mother didn't have money to get us food or clothes. We never had much and my mother also had me at the age of 14, which made it so hard for her. She had to have her mom which was our grandma help provide for us. It was a struggle for her. When I was 8 we moved into a house but still did not have money to provide for us. We had to leave and live in hotels and my mom got into arguments with the people who worked there because she could not pay so we became homeless for a while and had to live in the car. I had to ask people for money just to eat and to help my family. And at this time I was 8 or 9. Even though my mom had a boyfriend, he abused her and didn't care about where we were living and how we were struggling. He was controlling her and when he was mad he had my mom hit my sister and me. She didn't want to but he made her. My mom and him had 2 kids which is my brothers. When she had my brothers my aunt moved us up with her and we lived with her for 9 months. After that we had to move and We lived in apartments and most of the money had to go to the apartment so we didn't have money to get food and clothes so we had to go without and she used the extra money for drugs and never used it on us. Every time we ate we had to use just bread, or anything I Can find just to have food in my stomach and I was always worried to go to school because of my clothes. I felt like I was going to get made fun of and unfortunately I was. I was always that kid no one hung around which made me very insecure and brought up my anxiety up, which made it hard for me to communicate with others and have trust in people because of what I went through and to this day I still feel this way. From those apartments We got kicked out again and we had to live with a friend and we lived in her garage. There was no tv We had to watch the same one movie we had over and over. We had to leave because our mom got in an argument with her and had to move again to another of her friends and she had my little sister at this time and we had to live in the small cabin in the back And what sucked was they did drugs and my brothers, sisters and I were around it and I had to be the adult and take care of them since my mom was always on drugs and just slept. Then we got kicked out again and we found apartment and the same things as others we only had to use the money for the bills and no clothes and food. I had to go to friends houses to eat hoping I there family said yes I was able to come over. It was very hard i hated being in the same clothes. I was made fun of it and it hurt me because i didn't know what to do it was so hard to deal with. One day when i was coming home from school there was a social worker and she took me, my sister, and my little siblings and split us apart because of mom mothers addiction to drugs. It was hard to be in foster care without family i felt hopeless and lost and didn't want to talk to anyone i felt like i was nothing, i felt abandon, i felt like my mother didn’t love me anymore because of this. I had to get use to my foster parents and one day i did. Every time i saw my mom I did not show her i loved her i because of what happened, we always argue when i saw her and one day when i was first coming into my freshman year of high school i get a call that my mom was sick and we go to go see her and when we got to where she was i asked everyone what was wrong and they all looked at me with a crying face and told me and my sister that our mother has passed away do to overdose on drugs and was so painful because i regret everything I said to her and everything i put her through. Now i am still currently in foster care and i have been in foster care since i was 12 years old and now i am 18 years old and we live with a family friend who is my foster parent. She has 8 of us she has to provide for and it is extremely hard for her since she is a single parent and works everyday to make sure we have what we need but it still isn't enough. I want to be the first one to graduate in my family and look I did. Life isn’t easy it’s going to get much harder. My point across this is to let others know that your pass shouldn’t influence who you are going to become because we have the choice to make our own decision and not just use our pass as an excuse on why we give up and to let other know they aren’t alone. Whether if it’s as bad situation or not. Don’t let the negativity get to you and bring you down. Use all that negativity & hurt you been through as motivation to prove yourself you can do it, because god gives the toughest battles to the strongest of his people and in order to succeed in life you got to learn how to fail. I hope this helps others know not to give up no matter what obstacles are thrown at you. I mean till this day I struggle of knowing my mother is gone. Just how NF said at the end about the things his mother won’t be there for. That’s how I feel but I have to learn that there’s nothing I can do but just do my best to maker her proud. Thank you for this because hearing your mother what she said made it feel like that is what my mother was saying to me. Thank you
Jose Bermudez your life’s story, is a beautiful one. How strong you are. Only the truly strong can look at their past and have no bitterness or resentment, and when you can learn and grow from it, it means you will definitely be helping and teaching others. God has blessed you with a gift of strength and a beautiful heart. Continue on and achieve all your dreams!
Hope you're doing well now🙏
"people think that a person addicted to drugs is all parties, having a great time, that is really not the case. You are busy hating yourself. Yeah. And you are hiding and numbing the pain". WOW. That hit me like a truck. This is the kinda of love between mother and son we need to see. These are the topics we need to hear and talk about, where mental health and drug addiction is becoming global world problem, there are clearly more people struggling then being happy. THANK YOU to BOTH, for being brave and sharing this with us. Stay strong mom and to u, son, u are the best. U still support your mom, even tho, she let u down so many times. Love you both. stay strong.
I'm glad your mom got better, my mom still has a long journey to go to get better but shes getting there but yeah that's what I wanted to say
I Relate to your mom so much it’s crazy. I didn’t have kids when I used but I used for 13 yrs and have been sober 9 yrs . I tried to tell people I didn’t want to be that person. I cried daily but I hid it so well till it got really bad . I never asked God to take it from me I asked him to be with the people I love , to help them deal with and be happy in spite of the fact that I was dying. Killing myself slowly with alcohol....and drugs ... I truly believe because I prayed that they didn’t suffer and I didn’t pray for my suffering , God came to me ( literally) He called out my name twice and told me “ You’re going to die” . That’s all He said but He said it with concern in his voice . I went to detox and in 2 days I turned 28 , they told me if I don’t quit , physically I would die by 30. I gave my life to Christ in detox . God is the reason why I am sober and continues to be today. I have a 4 yr old now and I praise God she’ll never have to see me like that. I won’t lie I still struggle with moments where I think about using but I DONT ! I can’t ! I know that I’d die and that would be like slapping God in the face. I couldn’t do that to my daughter either. Thank you for this reaction. 🙏🏻🖤
Amanda Greenway I’m so happy to hear that God helped you in your journey. Keep praying He can and will take the struggle from you. When people have quit drugs for a long period of time , and they use again, it is very dangerous for them and very likely they will OD. God has blessed you with a beautiful daughter and He will carry you both through all your storms. You have a wonderful testimony to share with others, and you can help so many with your story. God bless you for sharing !
Amanda Greenway absolutely. I’m the midst of that struggle, you don’t love anybody any less except for yourself. It was easy to pray for others but hard to do it for yourself, but God loved you the same! His love doesn’t change just because we are struggling with an addiction. It’s almost impossible to feel that way, but that’s part of getting free. Knowing that even though you are where you are, you are still worth dying for! His love leads to our freedom.
Kelli Villarrael thank you so much much love to you and your family . God bless
jordan Villarreal I feel God is worth dying for but I never with me ,struggling
With mental illness doesn’t help especially when one is a form of Schizophrenia, which I just believe that our demon oppression but they keep pushing the pills on me
So fantastic. As an addict, she described this in a way that helps mother's understand so much more. It helped me in my personal life and relationships with showing others. Thank you.
respect. im dealing with this with my mom and its hard. i pray she can get past it... the part where he said "i do know what its like to be a witness it kills" is so true
Not even 30 seconds into the video I dropped in tears hearing what your mothers been through
SeKc Mamakwa - right behind you 😢😢
Young man you are a strong smart kid! To watch your wisdom come out in this video is commendable and I respect it.. And for you and your mama to openly share y'alls story no "FEAR" of judgement but willing to let it all be heard is simply amazing! Our words our stories are so much more powerful then us as humans allow ourselves to understand and or comprehend! And someone somewhere can and will relate and be able to hopefully face their fears and speak up and speak out too! Love this ❤🙌💯💪
So proud of your mama too great work on 8 years of sobriety! ❤❤❤❤
I remember asking my dad why can't u just stop! Its mind over matter! I'm so proud of him and my step mom . They have been clean for over 8 years.
The problem is a lot of people don't have the mind......😔..... at that point you've already allowed your addiction to steal it.
My mom has been an alcoholic for 16 years. She is not strong enough to stay sober. As much as I want a sober mother I quit letting myself get hurt.
@@ZoeBear93 I feel this...
Zoe Baér it’s absolutely okay to protect yourself emotionally.
I hope everything works out for you
I’m not a mother yet but I’m a recovering addict in active addiction from 11-21 and in recovery from my drug of choice and all other mood altering substances for the past 6 years and the way you explained the control addictions have over us is spot on! God bless y’all! ❤️
I'm proud of both of you, this couldn't have been easy.
Yea this was a great reaction. In a month and 2 days it will be a year since my biological mother died, she was addicted to multiple things and she actually did choose drugs and alcohol over my brother and I, my brother forgave her and spoke to her. I left her in my past. It was the only thing I could do to move on in my own personal life. This song messes with my soul everytime. It may be wrong for me to say but I feel free from her now that she is gone. My brother loved her and misses her alot. I'm glad he got to know her in a different light. She was sober from hard drugs but addicted to alcohol and rx drugs when she passed. I gave her so many chances to be in my life and love me but I was never good enough she resented my dad and I look and am just like him. I give my pain that I got from her abuse to God so he can help me move on. I'm turning 30 and I have no kids but I hope to adopt one day and show what a good mom I can be regardless of my past.
This is why I love NF no matter what he does he keeps a real this song is exactly what happened with me my mother was addicted to painkillers and cocaine left one day and never came back it's been 6 years now but when I listened to NF it makes me forget god bless anyone going through this like i am
Man thats sad, hope you are doing well
@@Random-mq9rk to me I say it is what it is griefing about it isn't bringing her back
To all who are on drugs or ex- addict I’m here for you. God bless you all and praying for you all!
I've watched a few reactions on this song and this is by far the most beautifully honest one yet. I wish I could like this a thousand more times. I was an addict when I had my first 2 boys and didnt get clean till they were almost 2 and this breaks my heart! It's been 9 years drug and alcohol free and praise God for that and them or I wouldn't be alive to post this today.
Great reaction 🙂 God bless you and your family ❤️
I'm glad there's a point of view based on someone who's dealed with this situation. I'm glad your Mother become stronger than her addiction. She won and now is there for you.
Such an open and honest family. I love that they give eachother space to be human and have those human emotions, all while looking to a deeper side of us that has forgiveness and understanding.
This really helped me to stop and take a reflection on myself. I'm in need of some change of mind. Positive change. I'm forgetful that my parents have struggles too. I'm forgetful that addiction runs in my tree... Thanks for this. God has always helped me in my best times and my darkest.
As a 14 year old who’s mom passed away to her addiction and me also struggling to put the drugs down hit me hard. Love this reaction and your mom is a lucky person and so are you. May y’all stay blessed.
My mother is still addicted and I can’t do this anymore this song brings me to tears ever night and I can’t do this anymore
Just hold on have faith that she will change before it's to late
Dont give up brother, I was addicted to meth after my mom died. Things do get better
Let her know how much u love her. She needs to hear it.
She loves you.
Just understand that she does love you and there is nothing you can do, it's not your fault. I hope one day she is healed and you can have a relationship but just know you have a bigger purpose yourself and while its 100 percent okay to hurt from this, use it-learn from your mother, if anything what not to do. Turn your pain into a tool and hold your head up
I have a very similar story as yours. My mom has been an Alcoholic and drug addict basically all me and my brothers life. That caused my parents to fight a lot. I was about 9 when it really hit me and got really worried about my mom, that is also the same age that I had my first panic attack because of that issue. I was the only one who was actually there for my mom and motivated her to quit both alcohol and drugs, she was always on and off drugs and alcohol even when I was trying by best, because the addition beat her. My brother, my dad, and any other family member was never ever there for her so as a kid that was really hard for me to handle helping her on my own, I also had no support on my side I was pretty much on my own helping my mom. I also had a lot of trust issues due to her addition because every time she went out I thought she was going to drink or do drugs so I made her promise me every time she left by herself she wouldn't go and do that, but she did she broke that promise most of the time, and I blamed it on myself a lot of the times cuz I always felt like I could have saved her from doing it, but I shouldn't have blamed myself because I really couldn't have saved her because it wasn't her talking it was the addition. Now she told me that she would never do that to me or my brother ever again, this time she wasn't lying, she ment it. Now she is almost 90 days sober, I gained most of of the trust back and I'm happy she is happy. But I'm still learning, I'm still a kid (I'm 12) and I'm going into 7th grade just trying to live my live. It may have some ups and downs but it's getting better and I know now that what ever pain that I'm going through is temporary. If you read all the way through this I hope you have an amazing day and if you're going through a lot right now just know you're going to be ok! Love you random stranger! 💙💙
@Kim Gow thank you sooooo much, she did end up relapsing about a few weeks ago, and my dad is extremely rude to us, but we're doing our best to stay strong
I'm sorry if I sound rude, but how is everything going? Are you ok? What happened with your family?
@@vanessaharris8664 is all going good? Like with you and your family or do you want to talk to me or just talk and have someone who listen to you?
Your mom is incredibly brave for speaking so openly about her past addiction, most people who had been through it wouldn't have the courage to do this, very happy to know that it's all in the past now and that herself, you and your sister are all doing better
This was absolutely beautiful. I love NF for the same reason y’all do. I have a mother who is still addicted to drugs 29 years into my life. We aren’t talking because I have a child who I just can’t bare to have to see this. But I have respect for both of you. I know it must be hard for your mom to have to truly hear this side. And I have nothing but respect for your struggle and overcoming it. I completely understand your side and it’s obvious that you love your kids but I don’t think it’s the same with my mother. However I wasn’t raised by her so maybe that’s the difference