one of his saddest songs. the ending part where he’s crying and talking is just raw emotion where he asked the people in the studio to leave so he could be alone.
@@wyeth1023 He actually had to stop when he was in the studio when he recorded How Could You Leave Us and Hate Myself, becuase he got so sad :( Love his music and especially those to (sorry for bad english)
For all of you who relate, please go Get help! Trauma is real, please seek help and heal. Everyone needs someone to talk to, no shame in it. For each step you take the next one will be easier. Think about people around you and stick around 💖
This is his hardest hit song emotionally. That last snippet he requested everyone exit the studio because he was just overwhelmed with such raw emotion. He decided to keep it in the song. You did a great job holding it together!!! I would only hope NF would see you reacting to his music!!! I hope you react to dream breathe and remember this soon!!!! Those are arguably my most favorite tracks from him!! Keep up the great work!
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial To add on, he went over the ending part with his engineer with the full 30 min auto clip and they decided on what the most powerful phrases were. Those phrases were the ones that made it into the song.
Ive heard this song over hundred times. I still cry by the end. My mother is also heavily addicted to xan and mixing it with alcohol. Has been sense I can remember, I'm 27 now. This song hits home and I just hope it isn't the same outcome one day...
I've watched dozens of reactions to this video. I never felt as emotional as I did with this one. I can tell, part of the pain of every patient you see is imprinted on you. Your empathy is tangible. What a great, awful reaction. Much respect.
I'm a mum, and I've hit rock bottom. The strange thing about mental illness is relentlessness of the voices. Mine constantly tell me my son would be better off without me. I took antidepressants which only intensified the suicidal thoughts, which is around the same time I stumbled upon this song. It dragged me back. I couldn't do this to my son. Thank you for your gentleness
Wow! Your comment just broke me in two. Thank the universe you heard this song when you did. Mother is the name for God on the lips and hearts of children.
Is there anything your son could've done to save you? My mom's been clean a while but there's something that's making her close to relapsing, and I just want her to stay clean because I love her but she always just shuts down and cries when I tell her anything.
@@CubeGoddI wish there was something you could do I imagine you fight till you drop to help her. In honesty there's nothing you could do but support her and tell her "she's doing a amazing job" or "your amazing mom" or other similar saying. I'm sorry man.
The breakdown you do in these videos makes these some of the best reactions. It's more than just watching you watch a video, it's getting the explanation too.
I never made that connection before until you mentioned it. In the last verse , when NF said he brought some of his music for his mom to listen to and she started crying saying this wasn’t her ... I wonder if the songs he was playing for her contained lyrics about how he felt about her addiction. Maybe he couldn't “talk” to her about it , so he was trying to get through to her the way he felt most comfortable ... through his music.
I remember when I first heard this song. I was out on a walk and the song literally stopped me in my tracks. So tough to listen to but great at the same time. I'm so thankful I was fortunate enough not to experience things like this when I grew up. I don't take it for granted, ever.
I remember hearing that NF actually had to step away from the mic several times while making this song. The cries and voice breaks you hear in this song are very much likely real and aren't just for the video/song. This song gives me chills every time.
This song gets me every time I hear it and believe I've heard it probably 100 times. He said in an interview that this was the toughest song for him to write and record in the studio. Things started getting o heavy at one time during recording that he and Tommee went yo see a movie and came back to finish recording. The end part he wasn't going to put in the song. He had written another verse, but he decided to leave it in because it was such a raw emotion in him and it meant more to the song. She died when he was 18 and now he is 30. He said he has since forgiven her and understands that it was the addiction disease getting her. It wasn't truly her. Great reaction, Tom!
NF is one of my child's favorite artists, and they only got visits with their dad in a supervised setting with a person taking notes on everything. I've listened to all of their favorite songs and artists to better understand, and this song always crushes me because I know they're hurting and using lyrics to communicate that. I'm so grateful they shared the music they love and connect with, because it's helped us connect more deeply, too. I'm thankful NF and other artists share this way because my child has needed them as an outlet and someone to relate with. Their therapist was great, and I've always been there, but hearing your experiences and feeling expressed by someone closer to your age is something else. So cathartic and healing. I'm convinced music like this helped my child get through. Thank you for your reactions and breakdowns of these songs.
I can't thank you enough for doing these reactions. NF is a voice for all of use that don't know how to express ourselves the way that he can. He is nothing short of a gift, shouldering the burdens of his fans and moving forward. Your reactions thus far have been really insightful and I look forward to more of your videos in the future. Keep up the amazing work!
When he recorded this song he had to leave the studio in the middle of it. He said he was so upset that he couldn't go back to the studio to finish the song for a few days. All that crying and pain is pure and raw.
NF's lyric's @ 12:57-13:03 about how much it took him to not scream @ his mother's Funeral & that the person who was speaking was pitiful really hit home with me instantly. I experienced similar feelings @ my father's funeral.
What kind eyes you have. I’ve heard this song many times with a saddened heart, but this is actually the first time tears flowed. Thanks for sharing your insight on these types of situations. You’re appreciated.
Thanks for reacting to this! It definitely is a harder one to get through, so we appreciate you sticking through it for us. You can definitely hear both the little kid missing his mom and the adult being angry at her for what she did, while still missing her. Keep up the great work!
Between your intro, calmness, demeanor, the tranquility in your voice and giving deeper meanings to these videos, you’re amazing. You’re in the right profession and helping so many. So glad this channel was on my recommendes. #newsubalert
8:05 Nate is the oldest child, and has 2 younger sisters. Nate was about 17-18 when his mom died. (Idk if he ever went to foster care) His parents divorced when he was young, and he was raised by his mother, who was an addict. She began falling in with the wrong crowd, and attracting the wrong kind of people. There was a boyfriend who started coming around, who would allegedly abuse NF and one of his sisters physically. Until his estranged (?) father took him away. I believe Nate has a good relationship with his bio dad.
Lost my mum in 2018. I was 16 at the time and to this day, everything I do is to make her proud. That’s another reason that I got so into nf, I relate to him and I feel like he relates to a lot of people the same way. This song makes me cry every time I listen to it at the end when he’s just talking and crying in the booth. Thank you for doing this reaction and giving me a therapists insight into the song.
These reactions to some songs I love are really helping me. I'm so glad I found this channel.NF helps me to, so this is just perfect. Another song from NF called "Let me go" or "The search" are also worth listening to.
This might have been the best analysis of this song I’ve ever listened to most people just listen to this and just says it’s sad and ends video you actually gave a thoughtful understanding and perspective on one of the most real and raw songs I’ve ever listened to
When he says “I wish you were here, Mama” I physically ache wanting to hug him. Makes me thinks of my boys calling me mama when they were young. I couldn’t imagine.
The same children you remember and know go through this are the same ones who listen and love NF for openly talking about trauma and internal pain. It’s sad but beautiful how pain can connect so many people.
I think you'd have a lot of insight on a couple of songs by Witt Lowry: Last letter - a story about losing a loved one Oxygin - the ordeal of someone struggling with substance abuse Great video as always. Really enjoy your content.
I love NF, but it wasn't until I listened to this guy that I realized NF is just in pain. He just has a beautiful way of putting his pain into musical form
Man, hits it right in the feelings indeed. That part when he sings "Feel like I lost something that I never had" I grew up on the streets without parents as well, fending for myself. That's exactly how it has often felt and sometimes still feels like. Such a unique gift these musicians have, to put all those things into words so accurately. I never was able to put all these feelings into words, and still often can't. But when listening to these kind of songs, it does helps sometimes just to let all these emotions out.
i can tell you screened this video and it broke tears, to then go through and assess this a second time almost immediately after is awesome. Raw emotion is human. good job.
Thank you for making this videos. I struggle with as who I am or why am I this way. I barely remember any happy childhood memories. Imagine having both parents but yet it feels like they we’re never there. Stuck with this unknown empty feeling. Life sucks man
this song makes me cry everytime. after my childhood and now as a mother... it shows a lot to see that a therapist can carry others feelings and that they really are affected by our problems. people underestimate that and its unfortunate. keep doing this for people who need that outlet and are too afraid to go out and search for that help.
My sister died of a heroin overdose in 2015 when she was 22 and I was 16. My mom and I adopted her daughter who was born addicted. From personal experience it is so hard and emotionally exhausting to grieve someone who you love but are so angry at for the things they did. Even 6.5 years later I think about her every single day and after a lot of therapy I realized it is okay to love and grieve someone and still not forgive for everything they did. This song made me sob the first I heard it about 3 years after she died
Therapy Session came out in April of 2016. In June of 2016 my mom overdosed and this song is the most relatable song I have ever heard in my life. This song hit me like a truck when I first heard it and a few months later I lived the song. It helped me get through one of the darkest moments in my life.
Something beautiful I've seen from NF is you can see a progression in his music, from talking about his past, to talking about himself, to talking about others, in his most recent album the song called "Just Like You" He changes the tone to directly talk to his audience, and supports them! I think it's amazing to see how (at least from an outside perspective making guesses based on his songs) he has overcome all the horrible trauma and struggles he's been given and been able to overcome it all, and make something to help others.
Everytime I listen to this song it reminds me of my relationship with my father. He was an alcoholic the first 13 years of my life. I would cry for him at night, my mom would have to comfort me and she was honest with me about where he was. It was always “you know where he is, sweetheart” and all I wanted was to see him but he chose alcohol over me for a majority of my life. After sometime, I became used to it. Used to him not being around and everything. Now, he doesn’t drink anymore but the relationship that I cried for when I was younger isn’t there anymore. I love him to death, but he chose alcohol over me, and that out a huge dent in our relationship and it just doesn’t and hasn’t ever felt like a normal father/daughter relationship.
my mother had the same addiction, she eventually got over 8 years ago. I'm 19 now, I can kind of relate to nf but on the level most people can. I still find myself sobbing to his music almost every time. It's beautiful.
This song means a lot to me personally bc my mother was never around as a child as well and sort of the same thing happened with me where she would always promise something and never follow through. And I’m 23 years old now and I can’t ever forgive her for not being in my life and making my childhood so sad and full of struggle. Watching this made me cry my heart out and that felt so great. I love your videos so glad I found you. I’ve always been scared to talk to a therapist about my trauma but music has always been my escape my way of coping with the pain. So seeing a therapist. React to some of my favorite songs truly is a blessing.
this song hits so close to me i cry every time i hear the pain in his voice, i helps me feel less along but i’m so sad he had to go through that as well
As a 20 year old who's been through a lot of the things discussed in this song, before I also fell into a deep cycle of drug abuse and self isolation. I appreciate your videos. Thank you for making these
As a sister with drug addiction this song always gets me in my feels. Just everything I had to witness and go through and the mean things she said and did to me, this song I relate to so much.
This song is just truly so heartbreaking. Even through all the anger and sadness you can feel that sense of forgiveness from him. Thank you for reacting to this
This was the first song I listened to by him. I was crying so hard to this song. Those are his true emotions. You said, “that music is his therapy” funny, he has an album called “Therapy”. His Genre is Christian Rap. He tried 5 times in the studio to get through the end of this song and he couldn’t do it without crying. When he tried to finish it for the 6th time the people in the studio walked out to give him privacy. He finished it. Then he decided he would publish it. This is his published version.
Appreciate the reactions! Helps me understand the addicts I work with daily as an addiction counselor and how I dealt with the trauma in my life as I progressed in recovery (15 years). Why I started my channel a while back..it forced me to get out, deal with my anxiety and panic attacks.. Best thing I have ever done. Figured I could sit at home and live with regret or get busy making a better/happier life. Thank God I did
wow, even as a psych major on my way to psychometrician exam never thought I would see PTs shed a tear after a lot of experiences throughout their careers.
I've talked to a couple over the years but you're the only one I've seen or heard that I'd be willing to talk to. You seem so understanding and comforting. Makin me rethink going back to talk to someone......
Wow man, I have never really believed in the whole "shrink" thing. But after watching you analyze this video I am a subscriber. The way you broke the video down really gave me a new perspective on the song. I could gather he was sad about his mothers addiction, but the way you described how the brain works got me pulled in. I used to think that therapists were just in it for the money and just told people what they already know. But after seeing your empathy and compassion for something you probably deal with weekly has got me thinking different.
This song defenitely hit feelings differently for me since I grew up without my parents but especially my mum… speaks right out of my heart… and what you said about it hits again.. thanks for this, appreciate it.
I've first listened to NF in 2020 and it didn't let me any strong feeling or anything like that but this evening I've decided to let him a real chance after seeing all your videos about his music and honestly I struggled not to cry listening to this one even if my mom isn't doing anything drugs related,if I had been alone in my room I think I would have cried,something that I haven't been able to do for nearly 1 year and a half,the last time I did cry was while I was breaking up with my girlfriend(now ex),I've never left any comments on this channel but I really had to do it on this video,keep making these reactions I like your way of explaining things and expressing your thoughts.
Very well said! Thanks for sharing that and for taking a risk and leaving a comment, I really appreciate it. Keep doing what you’re doing, it’s not easy for me to be that vulnerable with thousands of people watching but I know it makes me a better person so I took a chance. Thanks for supporting our mission😊👍
There's something about the way he pitches his voice in the chorus that manages to call out his raging anger & his despairing grief simultaneously and it carries over clearly to the listener - if you've lived any kind of life at all, this resonates. The video also brilliantly manages to capture the good times that were had & potential good life they could have lived had things been different as well as showing the hurt little kid inside the man.
my father didnt die to addiction, but the smell of unlit cigarettes still makes me think of him every time. he always had a pack in his front shirt pocket and climbing on his lap as a little kid i remember that smell like yesterday. the way the brain works is crazy
first time seeing one of your videos and I subscribed. Love the break down especially as an adopted kid who went through something similar but i love the educational aspect of your breakdown. Will be checking out more of your content
These videos have helped me realize situations in my past that have shaped me today. I truly thank you for giving these reactions and helping others understand why we feel the way we feel
I’ve heard this song and watched probably about 50 different reactions to it and I still can’t get through the first 10 seconds of the song without crying. My mom was an addict my entire life and she died about a year and a half ago and she was only 44. Then my younger sister died in September after suffering through addiction as well and she was only 24. The smell of cigarettes automatically make me thing of my mom as well. It’s gotten to the point that any time I smell it after she died is almost comforting to me. And on top of all of that my little brothers first child was born the same day my mother died
This reaction/explanation made me breakdown. Everytime I close my eyes and listen to what you're saying. It triggers my childhood trauma. It's really painful to remember all the things I've been through along with my siblings. But it hits hard when you're the eldest cuz you can't do anything yet... Now, that I am an adult they still can't understand why I'm like this, maybe the trauma made me like this. Cuz whenever I see the people that made me like this I get mad and annoyed with their faces. I just hope someday I could talk to a therapist and pour all things in my heart, mind, and soul.
I’ve heard this song many times. It really hits home for me. My mother abandoned me and my 2 brothers in 2004. Before that time there was physical and sexual abuse. I was 7 then and I’m 25 now. My life is a mess. I blame a lot of it on that experience. The older I get the more I learn. Like she tried to OD 9 times while growing up with her. It affects my relationship with EVERYONE!! One of these days I’ll be able to afford therapy. Thank you for doing this reaction.
I relate with this song so much and it kills me to listen to but helps me at the same time and the countless times NF has helped me stay on top when I just feel like being underground is unbelievable. I appreciate everything this man does. He has helped me through so much
i really enjoyed this and its great to catch it from someone whos had extensive experience with these experiences second hand. thank you for this. new sub
Thank you for this reaction. I have viewed inumberable reactions to this video. Several by mental health professionals. Yours was by far the best. Looking forward to viewing more from you. Thanks again.
Man. I watched Knox, Shaq and Cliff react to this, BUT, you RT, you are the right one to breakdown a piece like this.. Nice job. We owe you a box of tissues.
Loved your perspective on this song. The psychology angle you take is great but must get hard because it invites the hard, emotional songs. You're doing a great work with this. Someone else suggested Hopsin Hotel in Sydney, I'd second that. Also his song Your House. Another suggestion is Joyner Lucas- I'm Sorry (be sure it's the music video) I'd love to see your perspective on it.
Man! I wish you was a family member of mine, i would sit you down and tell you everything I'm mentally going through/struggling with! Life is a complex hard thing to get through sometimes. Keep up the good work Doc 🥃
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial I try to take every little bit of advice/information you give in your videos on board, it's almost like free Therapy to me😂 Kind regards 🥃
My daughter-in-law passed away from pill addiction. My son and I bought a house together so that I can help daily with the grandkids. We all relate to this song, as you can imagine. It made a huge impact with the youngest one. After hearing it, he told me, "I can't remember what she looks like anymore." So I got some pictures of her framed for his room. That seemed to help. ❤️
Sometimes when you talk about forgiveness in grief when it comes to abuse/ terrible developmental circumstances growing up. the forgiveness is not for the person who mistreated you but forgiveness for yourself. one of the biggest struggles for me growing up in almost the exact same situation was getting to the point of understanding that it wasn't my fault, it wasn't a reflection of me. it was their issue/choice. this, along with forgiving yourself for the way that you feel about the situation, is some of the toughest things to work through and it seems to be a constant "work in progress". to this day i can't listen to this song without bawling and feeling those feelings but its also interesting to see how over the years my understanding of my feelings about my own situation have developed. that pain is unfortunately something that will never go away because it is a foundation of how i developed but in a weird way i'm happy to feel it when i listen to this song because as an adult I can also feel the fact I have come to understand that it wasn't my fault.
I have a love hate relationship with some of NFs songs. They hit so deep that I don't wanna listen to them but then I see a reactor hearing it for the first time and I do enjoy seeing that. These are songs I do t have on my playlist because they are too heavy and gets me down. But they are masterpieces still.
I asked for this yesterday and you post it today, thanks buddy. I’m glad NF wrote this song for me (obviously not literally). But it’s nice as well as sad to know I’m not fucked up by myself. I love this song but can’t listen to it because it makes me cry every single time. Good news is my mom is clean now. She waited till I was groan though lol. Love your perspective on the songs and the issues they address. Thank You 🤙🏼
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial the fact you responded to one of your subs in itself is a good tell of your character as a person. I’m grateful you took the time out of your day to day that. Of your videos I’m going to start sharing the ones I feel are the most interesting. I hope that will help your channel. Thanks again for what your doing 🤙🏼💯💯
@@scottfontenot6193 I guess where I come from you do your best to appreciate people who reach out and comment, even though I can’t get to everyone I try my best and your comment stood out to me. Thanks so much Scott😊👍
one of his saddest songs. the ending part where he’s crying and talking is just raw emotion where he asked the people in the studio to leave so he could be alone.
I read ur comment and was sad then I looked at ur pfp and started dying💀😂
his saddest song, it was
That’s the realest thing I’ve ever read
Hate myself and this makes me cry
@@wyeth1023 He actually had to stop when he was in the studio when he recorded How Could You Leave Us and Hate Myself, becuase he got so sad :( Love his music and especially those to (sorry for bad english)
Don't ever stop making these videos they are my therapy they saved my life
I can agree these videos have helped me
Thanks Preston, for watching and commenting 😊👍
I relate 💯 please don’t stop reacting to music
For all of you who relate, please go Get help! Trauma is real, please seek help and heal. Everyone needs someone to talk to, no shame in it. For each step you take the next one will be easier. Think about people around you and stick around 💖
100% agree thank
You making these videos they help
More then you know
This is his hardest hit song emotionally. That last snippet he requested everyone exit the studio because he was just overwhelmed with such raw emotion. He decided to keep it in the song. You did a great job holding it together!!! I would only hope NF would see you reacting to his music!!! I hope you react to dream breathe and remember this soon!!!! Those are arguably my most favorite tracks from him!! Keep up the great work!
Thanks so much Zachary! And thanks for sharing!😊👍
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial To add on, he went over the ending part with his engineer with the full 30 min auto clip and they decided on what the most powerful phrases were. Those phrases were the ones that made it into the song.
Remember this is a really good song
Ive heard this song over hundred times. I still cry by the end. My mother is also heavily addicted to xan and mixing it with alcohol. Has been sense I can remember, I'm 27 now. This song hits home and I just hope it isn't the same outcome one day...
Stay strong brother. Hope for the best. Hope she overcomes it soon. Trust God 🙏🏻
the fact that shes made it this long mixing xans and alc must mean she still has a greater purpose on this earth dont give up on her man
Sometimes it's not in your power. All you can do is be there for each other. My blessings to you and your mother mate!
@@HC-sb5ck I hope you’re doing well and things get better for you brother
My mom beat her painkiller addiction I sent this to her and she teared up. if you need someone to talk to DM me.
I've watched dozens of reactions to this video. I never felt as emotional as I did with this one. I can tell, part of the pain of every patient you see is imprinted on you. Your empathy is tangible. What a great, awful reaction. Much respect.
Thank you Trent! Very kind of you, glad I got to watch this😊👍
I lost my mom 23 years ago to a drug overdose. I've heard this song a thousand times and it's still incredible every time.
I’m sorry for your loss, David
Im so sorry for your loss!
Be strong! 🥺✌
Oh
I'm a mum, and I've hit rock bottom. The strange thing about mental illness is relentlessness of the voices. Mine constantly tell me my son would be better off without me. I took antidepressants which only intensified the suicidal thoughts, which is around the same time I stumbled upon this song. It dragged me back. I couldn't do this to my son. Thank you for your gentleness
Wow! Your comment just broke me in two. Thank the universe you heard this song when you did. Mother is the name for God on the lips and hearts of children.
My mom is a user. Has had so many issues. I promise you as a son, that your son loves you and needs you tremendously
Is there anything your son could've done to save you? My mom's been clean a while but there's something that's making her close to relapsing, and I just want her to stay clean because I love her but she always just shuts down and cries when I tell her anything.
@@CubeGoddI wish there was something you could do I imagine you fight till you drop to help her. In honesty there's nothing you could do but support her and tell her "she's doing a amazing job" or "your amazing mom" or other similar saying. I'm sorry man.
The breakdown you do in these videos makes these some of the best reactions. It's more than just watching you watch a video, it's getting the explanation too.
Thank you 😊😁
I never made that connection before until you mentioned it. In the last verse , when NF said he brought some of his music for his mom to listen to and she started crying saying this wasn’t her ... I wonder if the songs he was playing for her contained lyrics about how he felt about her addiction. Maybe he couldn't “talk” to her about it , so he was trying to get through to her the way he felt most comfortable ... through his music.
Yep, very sad that she couldn’t see him and what he was doing!😊👍 thanks so much for sharing and supporting
I remember when I first heard this song. I was out on a walk and the song literally stopped me in my tracks. So tough to listen to but great at the same time. I'm so thankful I was fortunate enough not to experience things like this when I grew up. I don't take it for granted, ever.
I remember hearing that NF actually had to step away from the mic several times while making this song. The cries and voice breaks you hear in this song are very much likely real and aren't just for the video/song. This song gives me chills every time.
Such a powerful song, so sad. It really puts into perspective the fight against addiction. The impact addiction has on a whole family is so saddening.
This song gets me every time I hear it and believe I've heard it probably 100 times. He said in an interview that this was the toughest song for him to write and record in the studio. Things started getting o heavy at one time during recording that he and Tommee went yo see a movie and came back to finish recording. The end part he wasn't going to put in the song. He had written another verse, but he decided to leave it in because it was such a raw emotion in him and it meant more to the song. She died when he was 18 and now he is 30. He said he has since forgiven her and understands that it was the addiction disease getting her. It wasn't truly her. Great reaction, Tom!
Thanks for sharing…and thanks for the support!😊👍
Such a difficult but important part of NF’s journey.
Thank you Tom
I’ve heard this song often, yet every time I still burst out crying.
NF is one of my child's favorite artists, and they only got visits with their dad in a supervised setting with a person taking notes on everything. I've listened to all of their favorite songs and artists to better understand, and this song always crushes me because I know they're hurting and using lyrics to communicate that. I'm so grateful they shared the music they love and connect with, because it's helped us connect more deeply, too. I'm thankful NF and other artists share this way because my child has needed them as an outlet and someone to relate with. Their therapist was great, and I've always been there, but hearing your experiences and feeling expressed by someone closer to your age is something else. So cathartic and healing. I'm convinced music like this helped my child get through. Thank you for your reactions and breakdowns of these songs.
I can't thank you enough for doing these reactions. NF is a voice for all of use that don't know how to express ourselves the way that he can. He is nothing short of a gift, shouldering the burdens of his fans and moving forward. Your reactions thus far have been really insightful and I look forward to more of your videos in the future. Keep up the amazing work!
Thank you so much, I love doing these reactions and I loved this once 😊👍
When he recorded this song he had to leave the studio in the middle of it. He said he was so upset that he couldn't go back to the studio to finish the song for a few days. All that crying and pain is pure and raw.
NF's lyric's @ 12:57-13:03 about how much it took him to not scream @ his mother's Funeral & that the person who was speaking was pitiful really hit home with me instantly.
I experienced similar feelings @ my father's funeral.
What kind eyes you have. I’ve heard this song many times with a saddened heart, but this is actually the first time tears flowed. Thanks for sharing your insight on these types of situations. You’re appreciated.
Seeing you have real emotions as a therapist is refreshing. The therapists I’ve had just sit there and nod. That does nothing
Thanks for reacting to this! It definitely is a harder one to get through, so we appreciate you sticking through it for us. You can definitely hear both the little kid missing his mom and the adult being angry at her for what she did, while still missing her. Keep up the great work!
Thank you! Very good insight, it was tough but so good to see😊👍
Between your intro, calmness, demeanor, the tranquility in your voice and giving deeper meanings to these videos, you’re amazing. You’re in the right profession and helping so many. So glad this channel was on my recommendes. #newsubalert
8:05 Nate is the oldest child, and has 2 younger sisters. Nate was about 17-18 when his mom died.
(Idk if he ever went to foster care) His parents divorced when he was young, and he was raised by his mother, who was an addict. She began falling in with the wrong crowd, and attracting the wrong kind of people. There was a boyfriend who started coming around, who would allegedly abuse NF and one of his sisters physically. Until his estranged (?) father took him away. I believe Nate has a good relationship with his bio dad.
Lost my mum in 2018. I was 16 at the time and to this day, everything I do is to make her proud. That’s another reason that I got so into nf, I relate to him and I feel like he relates to a lot of people the same way. This song makes me cry every time I listen to it at the end when he’s just talking and crying in the booth. Thank you for doing this reaction and giving me a therapists insight into the song.
Thank you!!!😊
These reactions to some songs I love are really helping me. I'm so glad I found this channel.NF helps me to, so this is just perfect. Another song from NF called "Let me go" or "The search" are also worth listening to.
Thanks so much for this 😊
This might have been the best analysis of this song I’ve ever listened to most people just listen to this and just says it’s sad and ends video you actually gave a thoughtful understanding and perspective on one of the most real and raw songs I’ve ever listened to
as someone who has lost both parents to pill addiction this song hits me harder than any other song I've ever listened to
When he says “I wish you were here, Mama” I physically ache wanting to hug him. Makes me thinks of my boys calling me mama when they were young. I couldn’t imagine.
The same children you remember and know go through this are the same ones who listen and love NF for openly talking about trauma and internal pain. It’s sad but beautiful how pain can connect so many people.
When NF makes a therapist say, "this is too much" lol I just got a giggle out of that. Love your reactions!
I think you'd have a lot of insight on a couple of songs by Witt Lowry:
Last letter - a story about losing a loved one
Oxygin - the ordeal of someone struggling with substance abuse
Great video as always. Really enjoy your content.
Can second this, Witt Lowry Last Letter is a fantastic song and so is Oxygin
Last letter is one of the rawest songs out there
Witt Lowry is incredible
silicone kingdom too
it just feels so good to know im not alone in what ive been through this song hits on such a personal note
I love NF, but it wasn't until I listened to this guy that I realized NF is just in pain. He just has a beautiful way of putting his pain into musical form
Had to come back to watch this 1 year later because i just love your NF reactions and the way you break it down. ❤❤
Thank you Nikki 😊
Man, hits it right in the feelings indeed. That part when he sings "Feel like I lost something that I never had"
I grew up on the streets without parents as well, fending for myself. That's exactly how it has often felt and sometimes still feels like.
Such a unique gift these musicians have, to put all those things into words so accurately. I never was able to put all these feelings into words, and still often can't. But when listening to these kind of songs, it does helps sometimes just to let all these emotions out.
Sir you seem like such a genuinely good and kind person. Thanks for the react videos
i can tell you screened this video and it broke tears, to then go through and assess this a second time almost immediately after is awesome. Raw emotion is human. good job.
Thank you for making this videos. I struggle with as who I am or why am I this way. I barely remember any happy childhood memories. Imagine having both parents but yet it feels like they we’re never there. Stuck with this unknown empty feeling. Life sucks man
Hang in there and keep trying to make tomorrow a little better than today😊👍
this song makes me cry everytime. after my childhood and now as a mother... it shows a lot to see that a therapist can carry others feelings and that they really are affected by our problems. people underestimate that and its unfortunate. keep doing this for people who need that outlet and are too afraid to go out and search for that help.
My sister died of a heroin overdose in 2015 when she was 22 and I was 16. My mom and I adopted her daughter who was born addicted. From personal experience it is so hard and emotionally exhausting to grieve someone who you love but are so angry at for the things they did. Even 6.5 years later I think about her every single day and after a lot of therapy I realized it is okay to love and grieve someone and still not forgive for everything they did. This song made me sob the first I heard it about 3 years after she died
Therapy Session came out in April of 2016. In June of 2016 my mom overdosed and this song is the most relatable song I have ever heard in my life. This song hit me like a truck when I first heard it and a few months later I lived the song. It helped me get through one of the darkest moments in my life.
Something beautiful I've seen from NF is you can see a progression in his music, from talking about his past, to talking about himself, to talking about others, in his most recent album the song called "Just Like You" He changes the tone to directly talk to his audience, and supports them! I think it's amazing to see how (at least from an outside perspective making guesses based on his songs) he has overcome all the horrible trauma and struggles he's been given and been able to overcome it all, and make something to help others.
So glad this got posted again. Great reaction and commentary.
Everytime I listen to this song it reminds me of my relationship with my father. He was an alcoholic the first 13 years of my life. I would cry for him at night, my mom would have to comfort me and she was honest with me about where he was. It was always “you know where he is, sweetheart” and all I wanted was to see him but he chose alcohol over me for a majority of my life. After sometime, I became used to it. Used to him not being around and everything. Now, he doesn’t drink anymore but the relationship that I cried for when I was younger isn’t there anymore. I love him to death, but he chose alcohol over me, and that out a huge dent in our relationship and it just doesn’t and hasn’t ever felt like a normal father/daughter relationship.
Very nice! Thanks for sharing and putting it all out there!😊👍
my mother had the same addiction, she eventually got over 8 years ago. I'm 19 now, I can kind of relate to nf but on the level most people can. I still find myself sobbing to his music almost every time. It's beautiful.
Respect for not putting in the title “I cried!!” Because most people do that for views
YES!!! Thank you for reviewing this one :)
This song means a lot to me personally bc my mother was never around as a child as well and sort of the same thing happened with me where she would always promise something and never follow through. And I’m 23 years old now and I can’t ever forgive her for not being in my life and making my childhood so sad and full of struggle. Watching this made me cry my heart out and that felt so great. I love your videos so glad I found you. I’ve always been scared to talk to a therapist about my trauma but music has always been my escape my way of coping with the pain. So seeing a therapist. React to some of my favorite songs truly is a blessing.
this song hits so close to me i cry every time i hear the pain in his voice, i helps me feel less along but i’m so sad he had to go through that as well
As a 20 year old who's been through a lot of the things discussed in this song, before I also fell into a deep cycle of drug abuse and self isolation. I appreciate your videos. Thank you for making these
Thank you for watching and commenting 😊👍
As a sister with drug addiction this song always gets me in my feels. Just everything I had to witness and go through and the mean things she said and did to me, this song I relate to so much.
This song is just truly so heartbreaking. Even through all the anger and sadness you can feel that sense of forgiveness from him. Thank you for reacting to this
This song has always been so emotional to me. Honestly, this song and Paralyzed are the two songs that seemed to really hit home more for me
This song makes my eyes water every single time. It's 100 percent emotion
This was the first song I listened to by him. I was crying so hard to this song. Those are his true emotions.
You said, “that music is his therapy” funny, he has an album called “Therapy”. His Genre is Christian Rap.
He tried 5 times in the studio to get through the end of this song and he couldn’t do it without crying.
When he tried to finish it for the 6th time the people in the studio walked out to give him privacy. He finished it. Then he decided he would publish it. This is his published version.
Appreciate the reactions! Helps me understand the addicts I work with daily as an addiction counselor and how I dealt with the trauma in my life as I progressed in recovery (15 years). Why I started my channel a while back..it forced me to get out, deal with my anxiety and panic attacks.. Best thing I have ever done. Figured I could sit at home and live with regret or get busy making a better/happier life. Thank God I did
I rly wish i had someone like him in my life to talk about everything. Keep doing your videos i love them
wow, even as a psych major on my way to psychometrician exam
never thought I would see PTs shed a tear after a lot of experiences throughout their careers.
No matter how many times I listen to this song I always cry. Thank you for this reaction. I love your videos so much!!
I've talked to a couple over the years but you're the only one I've seen or heard that I'd be willing to talk to. You seem so understanding and comforting. Makin me rethink going back to talk to someone......
Wow man, I have never really believed in the whole "shrink" thing. But after watching you analyze this video I am a subscriber. The way you broke the video down really gave me a new perspective on the song. I could gather he was sad about his mothers addiction, but the way you described how the brain works got me pulled in. I used to think that therapists were just in it for the money and just told people what they already know. But after seeing your empathy and compassion for something you probably deal with weekly has got me thinking different.
This song can relate to people that didn't even go through this exact thing .. ❤️❤️❤️
I think you're right, feels like it anyway 😞
This song defenitely hit feelings differently for me since I grew up without my parents but especially my mum… speaks right out of my heart… and what you said about it hits again.. thanks for this, appreciate it.
Wish you a happy blessed life Tom.
The pause breaks help me swallow the knot in my throat. Ive heard it multiple times and i still cry everytime
I've first listened to NF in 2020 and it didn't let me any strong feeling or anything like that but this evening I've decided to let him a real chance after seeing all your videos about his music and honestly I struggled not to cry listening to this one even if my mom isn't doing anything drugs related,if I had been alone in my room I think I would have cried,something that I haven't been able to do for nearly 1 year and a half,the last time I did cry was while I was breaking up with my girlfriend(now ex),I've never left any comments on this channel but I really had to do it on this video,keep making these reactions I like your way of explaining things and expressing your thoughts.
Very well said! Thanks for sharing that and for taking a risk and leaving a comment, I really appreciate it. Keep doing what you’re doing, it’s not easy for me to be that vulnerable with thousands of people watching but I know it makes me a better person so I took a chance. Thanks for supporting our mission😊👍
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial 😄
There's something about the way he pitches his voice in the chorus that manages to call out his raging anger & his despairing grief simultaneously and it carries over clearly to the listener - if you've lived any kind of life at all, this resonates.
The video also brilliantly manages to capture the good times that were had & potential good life they could have lived had things been different as well as showing the hurt little kid inside the man.
my father didnt die to addiction, but the smell of unlit cigarettes still makes me think of him every time. he always had a pack in his front shirt pocket and climbing on his lap as a little kid i remember that smell like yesterday. the way the brain works is crazy
first time seeing one of your videos and I subscribed. Love the break down especially as an adopted kid who went through something similar but i love the educational aspect of your breakdown. Will be checking out more of your content
These videos have helped me realize situations in my past that have shaped me today. I truly thank you for giving these reactions and helping others understand why we feel the way we feel
I’ve heard this song and watched probably about 50 different reactions to it and I still can’t get through the first 10 seconds of the song without crying.
My mom was an addict my entire life and she died about a year and a half ago and she was only 44. Then my younger sister died in September after suffering through addiction as well and she was only 24.
The smell of cigarettes automatically make me thing of my mom as well. It’s gotten to the point that any time I smell it after she died is almost comforting to me.
And on top of all of that my little brothers first child was born the same day my mother died
Ohh myy good
Sabrina I hope you are doing okay
It's too much to suffer through
May God bless you and keep you safe and sound🙏
@@angad2264 thank you ❤️
This reaction/explanation made me breakdown. Everytime I close my eyes and listen to what you're saying. It triggers my childhood trauma. It's really painful to remember all the things I've been through along with my siblings. But it hits hard when you're the eldest cuz you can't do anything yet... Now, that I am an adult they still can't understand why I'm like this, maybe the trauma made me like this. Cuz whenever I see the people that made me like this I get mad and annoyed with their faces. I just hope someday I could talk to a therapist and pour all things in my heart, mind, and soul.
It's amazing to see how many people go through the same things in life. If you're going through things don't be afraid to seek help. One love 🙏💜
It brought me to tears when I heard this for the first time. 🥺 He's carried more than any child/person should have to. It's heartbreaking.
YESSSSS THIS SONGGGGG!!!!!
This song saved my life I owe NF my life he saved me I've been clean for 2 years and I still have my son I love NF ❤️💕🦋
I’ve heard this song many times. It really hits home for me. My mother abandoned me and my 2 brothers in 2004. Before that time there was physical and sexual abuse. I was 7 then and I’m 25 now. My life is a mess. I blame a lot of it on that experience. The older I get the more I learn. Like she tried to OD 9 times while growing up with her. It affects my relationship with EVERYONE!! One of these days I’ll be able to afford therapy.
Thank you for doing this reaction.
I relate with this song so much and it kills me to listen to but helps me at the same time and the countless times NF has helped me stay on top when I just feel like being underground is unbelievable. I appreciate everything this man does. He has helped me through so much
I wish you all the best tom:) great reactions.
i really enjoyed this and its great to catch it from someone whos had extensive experience with these experiences second hand. thank you for this. new sub
Thank you for this reaction. I have viewed inumberable reactions to this video. Several by mental health professionals. Yours was by far the best. Looking forward to viewing more from you. Thanks again.
Thank u Tom this is so heartbreaking i always cry when i hear or saw it
Man. I watched Knox, Shaq and Cliff react to this, BUT, you RT, you are the right one to breakdown a piece like this.. Nice job. We owe you a box of tissues.
Loved your perspective on this song. The psychology angle you take is great but must get hard because it invites the hard, emotional songs. You're doing a great work with this. Someone else suggested Hopsin Hotel in Sydney, I'd second that. Also his song Your House. Another suggestion is Joyner Lucas- I'm Sorry (be sure it's the music video) I'd love to see your perspective on it.
Just found your channel here when looking for more NF Reactors...Just wanted to say thank you for the content sir. New Sub.
I never had problems like he had and I have great parents, hearing the pain in his voice still gives me chills
Been waiting for this one
So glad u did this one!!!!!!
Greetings from Germany, love your videos, keep it up!!
Hey Germany!!! Thanks for the love!😊👍
Same 🔥
geht steil der Typ 😂
Man! I wish you was a family member of mine, i would sit you down and tell you everything I'm mentally going through/struggling with! Life is a complex hard thing to get through sometimes.
Keep up the good work Doc 🥃
That means so much Michael, thank you for those kind words!😊👍
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial I try to take every little bit of advice/information you give in your videos on board, it's almost like free Therapy to me😂
Kind regards 🥃
@@michaelmarley9900 thanks so much, made my day again!😊
Love the reactions! they just get better.
Thank you!😊👍
Thank you for this reaction. I loved it.
My daughter-in-law passed away from pill addiction. My son and I bought a house together so that I can help daily with the grandkids. We all relate to this song, as you can imagine. It made a huge impact with the youngest one. After hearing it, he told me, "I can't remember what she looks like anymore." So I got some pictures of her framed for his room. That seemed to help. ❤️
Very nice, thanks for sharing😊👍
Sometimes when you talk about forgiveness in grief when it comes to abuse/ terrible developmental circumstances growing up. the forgiveness is not for the person who mistreated you but forgiveness for yourself. one of the biggest struggles for me growing up in almost the exact same situation was getting to the point of understanding that it wasn't my fault, it wasn't a reflection of me. it was their issue/choice. this, along with forgiving yourself for the way that you feel about the situation, is some of the toughest things to work through and it seems to be a constant "work in progress". to this day i can't listen to this song without bawling and feeling those feelings but its also interesting to see how over the years my understanding of my feelings about my own situation have developed. that pain is unfortunately something that will never go away because it is a foundation of how i developed but in a weird way i'm happy to feel it when i listen to this song because as an adult I can also feel the fact I have come to understand that it wasn't my fault.
I have a love hate relationship with some of NFs songs. They hit so deep that I don't wanna listen to them but then I see a reactor hearing it for the first time and I do enjoy seeing that. These are songs I do t have on my playlist because they are too heavy and gets me down. But they are masterpieces still.
Well said!😊👍
its a very strong message nf has been through so much im glad he has music
the song was so sad it got the THERAPIST crying
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I asked for this yesterday and you post it today, thanks buddy.
I’m glad NF wrote this song for me (obviously not literally). But it’s nice as well as sad to know I’m not fucked up by myself. I love this song but can’t listen to it because it makes me cry every single time. Good news is my mom is clean now. She waited till I was groan though lol.
Love your perspective on the songs and the issues they address. Thank You 🤙🏼
Very nice take, thank you!😊👍
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial the fact you responded to one of your subs in itself is a good tell of your character as a person. I’m grateful you took the time out of your day to day that.
Of your videos I’m going to start sharing the ones I feel are the most interesting. I hope that will help your channel. Thanks again for what your doing 🤙🏼💯💯
@@scottfontenot6193 I guess where I come from you do your best to appreciate people who reach out and comment, even though I can’t get to everyone I try my best and your comment stood out to me. Thanks so much Scott😊👍
Anyone else learn something about their own childhood trama watching this. Thanks doc
Amen! Thanks for this😊👍