This is HOW I FEEL driving home from work each night. Alone, with no one to talk to on the drive back. No one to greet me at the shack I call home. No one to wake up with. No one to talk to until the next shift starts. No one to talk to during the shift. No one to talk to when the shift is over. Sometimes I do just ... sit in the car for awhile. But - it never snows here. I love the snow, too... BLESS YOU for this channel friend. At least I could come home to this, tonight.
You can call the place you're living "shelter" but it's the familiar faces greeting you each day that makes it truly "home". I feel you sir, I hope you'll find human beings to get closer to and maybe you other half, to share moments with and make your shack home. Stay strong, unknown person of the internet, thank you for being there ❤️
Simon Henriksson: “I’ve always felt alone. My whole life. For as long as I can remember. I don’t know if I like it, or if I’m just used to it. But I do know this; being lonely does things to you. Feeling $h!t and bitter and angry all the time just… eats away at you…” That quote has stuck with me along with a few other ones.
I‘m so scared of live.i‘m scared of being alone.I‘m scared if I could lose someone important in my life.I‘m insecure.I‘m afraid because I feel so different like the others.But still I‘m so thankful of my life that god has gave me.I love him.And you.Maybe no one will read this anyways,still I just wanted to say,I‘m so Proud of you!
There is a home but it's not here friend. It's Heaven. Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ for salvation. He lived and did the things that needed to be done so man can get in to Heaven. You can be saved today just by believing in Jesus Christ for salvation. Nothing more is required the only question left to ask is do you believe or not?
I feel you. I made the perfect group of friends in a dream. Had conversations with them, went on adventures, made some good memories; it felt like months flew by. At one point while with them I started to suspect I was dreaming and this made me worry. I immediately started asking them “Are.. are you guys real?” And they wouldn’t answer me. So I kept asking if they were real, telling them I have to know, to please tell me, I wanted them to be real. That’s when I see one of them whisper to the other “What do we tell him?” “Tsk, just tell him we aren’t so he stops asking” Hearing this completely shattered the illusion I had of them being good friends. In a blind fit of anger I assumed they were saying that to get rid of me because he said “so that he stops asking.” I got up pissed off, said “So that’s how it’s going to be” and went to go release some anger. This is the 2nd group to break my trust like this and make me think I was welcomed when they never truly respected me, but as each punch into the wall drained more and more of my rage, I began to feel calm and relaxed, and started thinking that maybe I misinterpreted that line. Immediately after that thought, one of them pops out into the hallway with a concerned look and simply says my name in a worried tone, followed by “are you alright?” I’m left confused on what to feel, but believe I can talk about it to try to fix things and that the image of them being good friends isn’t fully gone yet. This was more than my last friend group ever did, but as I reach my hand up, and am about to let out my first word, I wake up knowing that perfect friend group never existed. It’s happened quite a few times with different people and situations.
I'm noticing something, some people are saying that they feel depressed here, while some are saying they feel peace. This is amazing in the since that it feels like the line from Jacob's ladder. "So the way he sees it, if you're frightened of dying and... and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth. It's just a matter of how you look at it, that's all." It's all about how look at it. Pain will always be apart of life, and it's you who decides whether you suffer or not, you decide whether you see the angels or demons. Break the cycle, love yourself and your flaws. Yes this better said than done, but you gotta try, and you'll find the peace within.
Seems like some people are momentarily depressed because bad things happened. They'll bounce back. Some others would rather stay in the mud and do nothing. They're not fighting, but they're not willing to die either. Strange world we live in
@@x_DeanD It's sad, but true. Some people never escape the cycle. I had a friend that was always like that and I had to distant myself from him and ultimately stopped being his friend because it. it's good to be there for somebody, but not if it is hurting you.
It’s beautiful and I find it more peaceful than depressing. So many people find things depressing and gray that are actually, beautiful and are such great works of art! ❤
Dealing with depersonalization/derealization for several months its left life feeling like this ambience every day, hour and minute. Practically impossible to remember the things done throughout the day, observing like a robot on auto pilot. Aware of the surroundings but never able to focus on it, to actually look and notice the environment. Everything is blurry and dull as being in a zoned out stated 24/7, noises muffled. Watching a body walk around in life, only to pay attention and listen to the outside noises of cars driving past, trains on tracks, birds chirping, dogs barking, sirens blaring. Those everyday activities in life appear to completely skip forward, being there only for the few moments of waking up, the moments of sitting outside or looking out the windows watching the sky and tree's, listening to every noise that can be heard. Never actually there in place with others, talking to friends and family in the same room, but being stuck alone somewhere outside. It feels like a quiet drive, getting further and further away from everything, a road with no one else, everyone far behind. There isn't a feeling of sadness, not a state of depression, instead a genuine blank emotion, trying to dig through feelings to find this person is endless, not sure how they really act, their true intentions or how others perceive them, changing and being a completely new person towards each individual they meet. A new person every day. I want to finally find this person... or instead, I want to find *myself* , I want to find me. I want to be there. Time goes by far too quick without the ability to stop and actually be there in the moment.
Me too. Like I’m just the outline of a person, not even a shadow of myself. I hope I can find someone that understands this in real life. I won’t… but I wish I could.
My name is Duke Faircloth. I’m 31 years old. I believe in taking care of myself, and a balanced diet and a rigorous exercise routine. In the morning, if my face is a little puffy, I’ll put on an ice pack while doing my stomach crunches. I can do a thousand now. After I remove the ice pack I use a deep pore cleanser lotion. In the shower I use a water activated gel cleanser, then a honey almond body scrub, and on the face an exfoliating gel scrub. Then I apply an herb-mint facial masque which I leave on for 10 minutes while I prepare the rest of my routine. I always use an after shave lotion with little or no alcohol, because alcohol dries your face out and makes you look older. Then moisturizer, then an anti-aging eye balm followed by a final moisturizing protective lotion. There is an idea of a Patrick Bateman. Some kind of abstraction. But there is no real me. Only an entity. Something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours, and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable, I simply am not there
My grandma just passed away yesterday. I hadn’t had to deal with loosing a loved one in a long time. Although I knew it was her time as she was 94 years old, it still hit me like a wave. I had told myself when the time came I wouldn’t be upset or be sad, but when it did, I found myself just sobbing. Now i’m laying in bed listening to this and just thinking about what’s next to come.
@@MaryLaniii I've been wondering about my grandparents recently. They're both almost 90 and are starting to show their age at last. They won't last forever and the final piece of my childhood will be gone for eternity. Anyway, just some thoughts in my mind. May your grandma rest in peace.
my grandparent passed away too, they were a piece of your childhood that you'll never get back but you get to remember forever. It hurts, but just know that the world is small and there are people out there that are here for you.
In my restless dreams, I see that town. Silent Hill. You promised me you'd take me there again someday. But because of me, you were never able to. Well, I'm alone there now… In our ”“special place.” Waiting for you… Waiting for you to come to see me. But you never do. And so I wait, wrapped in my cocoon of pain and loneliness. I know I've done a terrible thing to you. Something you'll never forgive me for. I wish I could change that, but I can't. I feel so pathetic and ugly lying here, waiting for you... Every day I stare up at the cracks in the ceiling, and all I can think about is how unfair it all is... The doctor came today. He told me I could go home for a short stay. It's not that I'm getting better. It's just that this may be my last chance... I think you know what I mean... Even so, I'm glad to be coming home. I've missed you terribly. But I'm afraid James. I'm afraid you don't really want me to come home. Whenever you come see me, I can tell how hard it is on you... I don't know if you hate me or pity me... Or maybe I just disgust you.... I'm sorry about that. When I first learned that I was going to die, I just didn't want to accept it. I was so angry all the time, and I struck out at everyone I loved most. Especially you, James. That's why I understand if you do hate me. But I want you to know this, James. I'll always love you. Even though our life together had to end like this, I still wouldn't trade it for the world. We had some wonderful years together. Well, this letter has gone on too long, so I'll say goodbye. I told the nurse to give this to you after I'm gone. That means that when you read this, I'll already be dead. I can't tell you to remember me, but I can't bear for you to forget me. These last few years since I became ill...I'm so sorry for what I did to you, did to us... You've given me so much and I haven't been able to return a single thing. That's why I want you to live for yourself now. Do what's best for you, James. James... You made me happy. “I love you, Mary.” As the car began to slowly sink to the bottom of the lake, James pulled his wife close and gently held her. Their wish had finally come true. They would be together. And now they had an eternity to enjoy their happiness.
I miss you so much Macy Krezman. You brightened up my days and warmed my nights. No matter what we think of each other now, after all this time, I loved you with all of my heart & soul.
This ambience is giving me some wanted peace after my brother passed away 2 months ago yesterday. It’s been a rough time and will be going forwards but this ambience provides sanctuary from the constant thoughts in my head.
I didn't ask to be a Lone Wolf. A life with no love is So Hard No family, No Friends, No Loved ones. Rite before i fall asleep and im laying in bed on my phone its completely silent, even when i leave the TV on. Sometimes it gets to quiet. I'll take a break from playing ps5 or watching TV and step outside thru out the day and smoke a cigarette and look at the sky, the trees, the clouds... feel the wind hit me, hear the birds... the only thing i feel like i have a connection with and thats sad. I live in Northern Cali so when it starts to get dark ill step out and smoke a cigarette snd look at the stars and night sky... wondering if offing myself would be a type of release for me... idk .. you get tired of being alone after awhile and not having no one. Birthdays, Holidays, Special Events with family and friends, bbq's, camping trips, Weddings, graduations..... None of that 🫤 Family was so toxic and fake once i got old enough i cut them all off and moved away to get away from them. Fuck em. theyll never have contact with me again. I never asked for it to be like this... but it is what it is.
you are not alone you have yourself the best friend you gonna ever have . i had to do same stuff like you did about the family and like you said We never asked for this but it what it is
Jesus loves you and has plans to prosper your life like you couldn’t imagine all you have to do is put your faith in him he will send you a man who would never harm you physically or emotionally Christ is the prince of peace king of kings lord of lords John 14:2 In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you
I thought I was the only one alone and broke , lol. Things will come together for you. Sometimes bad things happen to us but good things always follow. Take care from 🇨🇦
@@jeffmclean9411 well when did good things happen to you? I dont recall. My last good memories was from 2006. 2006! After that, total disappointment. Whatever. I lost my hope. I dont expect much.
There are a lot of really sad, lonely people here. And yet, none of us are alone. When I was in a really bad place last year, so stressed I couldn't eat or sleep much, trying to cope with my job turning toxic, feeling like a failure and unsupported; i listened to music and podcasts and took long walks. Those walks helped me gain perspective. I'm lucky, a new job croped up with help from a friend. And I'm still here. Doing OK, good family and partner. Life is hard, it is. But we can make it through. Reaching out for support is always good. Even if it's strangers. That's what humans are good at. My mother gave me some good advice about life when I told her how I was feeling; life isn't lived in a straight line of sucess. Setbacks, life changes, pain, joy and triumph are all part of it.
I feel myself becoming older, the responsibilities keep getting more and more, i can't please everyone's needs, I can't be there for everyone and that hurts. I try to be there for everyone and that pulls down my mental till i reach rock bottom. After a while i stopped hanging out with these groups, to recollect my thoughts. Now, the issue is that i can't really reconnect with them or be with them like i used to. Now I'm laying in bed, thinking how i can make things good again.
I often think of happy moments, like a vague memory of a distant time. I think of the feelings of light, warmth, and love. I am hurt, lost, alone, sick, in distress. The good feeling of being loved, of feeling balanced. Today, darkness surrounds me. The moment I close my eyes and stop fighting, the demons will have my skin
Ive come to the conclusion that my hope in life is founded upon the anticipation of “moments” Pure, blissful, hopeful, spirit fueling moments. They can be big: making progress in my career, traveling somewhere, helping someone, seeing a friend. Or small: making someone laugh, seeing an animal living its best life, receiving a hug, rain… just rain In a world that is seemingly more dark than ever, I have to pay attention to those moments. They are always a reminder to keep going. Appreciate Time Never deny yourself satisfaction from success. And always take a really deep breath every time you go outside.
I’ve really lost everything. I lost my job, my friend that was like an older sister died from cancer, I lost my dogs, I can’t get a new job or pay any bills, I watched some girl I cared about lose feelings for me, and I’m weeks away from losing my house.. I’m really on the edge. I genuinely don’t want to wake up anymore
I’m really sorry to hear that you’re going through so much loss especially of someone so close to you who clearly was a wonderful person to have made such an impact, I hope you have a good support system as well as simply knowing that you’re not going through it on your own 💙 genuinely praying for you and that the light at the end of the tunnel makes itself present soon
I don't even know how to put my emotions into words. I just feel lost. I'm here eating fast food in hopes it'll make me feel better and fill the void, but it never does. I want better for myself.
I thought loneliness was the biggest issue in my life. But now, when time when time has passed, i understood that it was blessing, that guided me to the right path
I hate existing. I wish he was softer to me and realised that his words hurt more than his hands ever could. I find peace here, just sitting here, feeling like Silent Hill isn’t a place, but something deep within my heart I’ve yet to face.
I was a security officer for 5 years in a student accommodation, just recently changed my job to a Maintenance man in the same building, as the job became available, the Manager who I have known for 5 years and was happy to give me the job even though I have no experience in the role. Recently I have been struggling to work fast, and I am slowing my colleagues down, Realising I miss my old job even though I am in the exact same building, and on top of it the manager won let me have my old job back ! Never felt this sad as I have known him for 5 years. So I have left, while him knowing I want to seriously go back and do the security role in the building, and its all in his control. So here I am now back with my old Security company in a brand new building feeling soo alone like this song. I HAVE LOST EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE !
Hello, I’m a random person on the internet. I’m getting ready to pass tests at the end of this school year to go in 10th grade. I’m currently living a bit of a chaotic life, feeling quite tired and lonely. I can’t organise myself and the world feel bad. I feel like a mess and I feel so lost because I lost so much people over the last years. But it feels a bit good because there’s Silent Hill 2 remake that is going to be out in 4 days and I’m excited! I think I’ll cosplay as a character from it for the upcoming Halloween at the end of this month. Video games and cosplay are my safe spaces and those hobbies comfort me. For whoever reading that in the future, I hope you are okay, and I wish you a good life. It was nice sharing a bit of my life with you. Well, farewell and maybe see you if you cross paths with my comment and this video again. ( 10/04/2024 )
a part of living is losing, but you'll always have yourself, and you should be complacent with that no matter what. dont worry too much about the future too, focus on whats infront of you right now, enjoy the current moment because you wont get it back. thank you for the nice comment though, you seem like a good kid. also definitely play the SH2 remake, game rocks lol
She let go of me so easily, why is it so easy for people to let go of me? I try so hard to make it easy for them to stay, but they always end up leaving me behind. I must be the problem. I really miss her so much.
I know you're expressing your emotions right now and not really asking for a solution, but...women are complex creatures and they're not often attracted to men who are needy. Be career driven, be masculine, and NEVER put her on a pedestal. It's ok to think your girlfriend is special to you, but the moment you make it all about her is the moment she stops being attracted. Always strive to increase your standing in life and be the man she wants to keep up with, not the man she has an easy time staying with. Good luck with the next one, brother.
Had the same experience, I met a Russian girl which I always wanted and really liked, we had a really great time in the beginning, we cooked together and had phonecalls nearly every evening and stuff like that... after meeting her 4 times it started to become weird and she started keeping more and more distance, some days after she told me that she doesn't feels in the right position to keep getting more connected or to start a relationship... it really fcks me up, iam not even able to listen to Russian music without thinking about her, iam not able to improve my personality cuz it keeps pulling me down... I hope the pain of losing something you always wanted will go away someday, on some days I feel fine, but days like these kill me from inside, it tears my heart apart and the thoughts about her won't go away.. idk man, hope you were able to recover somehow, I'll keep on trying...
@@38s61 I don't think there is any way to recover from someone if you truly wanted to be with them and for them to be with you. I know that she'll never come back into my life, she's found a person that she wants to give her all to, and that's a good thing, I'm happy that she's finally found that for her, cuz regardless of how things end up for me, I truly love her. But just like you, I haven't gotten past her, and honestly I don't think there is any way to do that. She's engraved into almost every aspect of my life and that gave me happiness, and it's my fault that I did that, but even seeing her face makes me forget all the sadness I feel and have felt for the past few months. So I'm just accepting that she was my once in a lifetime, and that my sorrows are the price for her joy, if not then all this pain and all those precious memories would have been for nothing. It is what it is.
@@notgaryoldman1178 As a woman, it really depends. I've been with the same man for ten years, it's not that women are all super complicated. It's that many modern women and men like to leave relationships without trying to make things work first. It's OK to be who you are, men don't all need to be identical. But I will agree It's never healthy to worship your partner, and it's good to focus on yourself too.
Imagine that the owner of that car actually lives in the outskirts of Silent Hill and comes here to buy milk, town changed, and never returned home. Still gets mail about extending your car's warranty.
I hope I will get out of my current depression, but I honestly I don't see it. I'm just not built for the challenges of adult and career life. I wish I could start over from when I was a kid.
I've dreamed of finding love ever since I was a child. Now as an adult, I know that's it's not a possibility for me. It's been so difficult to accept this. I can't see anyone really wanting me. I can only see myself getting used. There's so much common frustration I feel in every day life, and it just never ends. I suppose I'd be a fool to think love will solve those problems. But it would be nice to experience the world with someone else, to share my life with others. To cherish life together. It's a weird grieving process. Life plays these cruel tricks on me. All I can do is accept that this is what life is.
7 years here and I thought I was fine, but clearly, something is not fine when you still have dreams, thoughts, feelings that you need to express but lost the vigor to do so as you once did. And you know they've changed and how could they be so rotten to you? How could you be so rotten to yourself?
@@ilomilo-001 You will come to terms with it. To lose is to live. We go through life meeting and saying goodbye forever. Anyway, once I lost a girl that I loved. It is something you learn to live with and your life will continue.
The biggest problem is not that im alone. Is that I don't have the will power to know people, and I think I never will. No one can help me, trust me, I've tried so many times already, doing all kinds of activities, I think it's not in me anymone. Seems like I don't belong here, this is madness
Again, one day I really hope Silent Hill capture this liminal space ambience for a game. Not necessarily for survival horror but for mystery and exploration. Even in this foggy snowy world, what might you find there? Cool collectibles? Stories and memories from time gone past? The girl of your dreams? Happiness? Or a nightmare? Perhaps when that time comes, there'll be an option to remain inside, look outside at the snow and snuggle with your loved one.
Sometimes I wonder if life would have been different if it never happened, it happened so early that I couldn't even know the taste of any life where nobody ever steal my innocence.
Theres something in these Playlist to these types of games and meromies that no support group or a therapist can provide. Anyone reading this. You are not alone with this feeling. You cant explain with words, but you just know there are others that share the same feeling.
Within the span of 5 months I've lost my dad to a stroke, I never met my mom, then my fiance cheated on me in our home, then we broke up so I had to leave the house and move to a dead end city into a shitty 1-room apartment. After some months I finally landed a great job and nearly doubled my income. Then the company hit layoffs and now I dont know how to pay rent. Life sucks. People suck. I dont know why I'm even carrying on. I think I'm gonna kms soon.
Dont let the fire that is your life burn out short. You've got a lot more fire left in you than you think. And its never too late to start over in anything. Untill the day our lord calls to you, burn bright brother.
life is full of ugliness, pain and suffering but life is also full of beauty, love and happiness. all of your problems are temporary and believe me I have had a life full of misery, death and addiction since i was a child but I found a way out of it and you will too just keep fighting and never give up. if anything we have our spirit and that can only be broken if we let it
I am 52. I have now come to the realization that I never had any real friends. Any real companionship. Nothing but a cold, brutal world that has taken advantage of my low intelligence to really screw me over but good. I have no friends, no money, no nothing. I just now sit in this abyss and pound out the remaining days of my life until I am good and dead.
I feel so lost with life right now. Im 26 about to turn 27 and i feel so hopeless. I don’t really know what i want to do with my life nor do i know if it’s all going to work out. I haven’t dated in 3 years because im still in love with my first love and i haven’t had any friends in that time as well. I feel so lonely and lost at times.
If it helps, my mother is 72 and told me recently she often didn't know what she wanted out of life. I'm about to be 30, and I'm still finding my path. Don't beat yourself up too much. Society wears us down, but when I talk to others, I find it becomes more clear; life isn't a straight path.
Yes... I lost them, I lost my best friend, who was my sunshine, my everything... I loved her in every way possible and now she doesn't want to see me I lost my best friend in high school, who tried to bring me down and yet I chose forgiveness... I lost my great-grandparents in the pandemic... I have lost many people for being a bad person, but still, I try to make this world a better place for them, even if they don't know it... I try, but I'm tired.
rare composition . rare flow. pulling up to stores in vehicles never stops being something that is entertaining and this picture gives you that feeling of snagging some kind of food from one of those joints and getting back in your car and being glad that your able to drive when your not.
I don’t know if anyone will see this, May of 2024 I lost the love of my life Vince the sweetest boy I ever met we were perfect but I let insecurities and getting in my head get in the way of that and treated him horribly for his past he was genuinely the only person I’ve ever had in life I’ve had friends but their all superficial nobody knew the real me but he knew me. If their is any advice I can say is enjoy every second with people you love because it can all crumble in seconds and always be yourself so people who are looking for you can find you never let yourself go, I have genuinely lost everything and I live a miserable life I considered him my home now I’m so far away from home with no way back I just feel cold and abandoned I just wish this life lesson didn’t come at such a cost, my name is Ellis and if anyone is reading to this point I thank you we may never meet but I love all of you with all my heart it does get better no matter how far from home you are
It doesn't matter what life gives you, loving parents and friends, a partner. Those are important but if you are born with broken crayons you can make art just as well as someone with brand new ones, broken crayons still color. Its how you use them, the time and strategy it took to get that picture made that makes it more valuable, things aren't important if handed to you. If there was no puzzle in life then everyone would be bored.
Everything is my life has been thrust into the air. I don't know what I can hold onto. I don't know whether I'm falling or floating. If I'm real to anyone. Being alone for so long, now alone is the only time I feel I'm real.
You just escaped the Otherworld. You are still in danger, that much is clear, but the worst is over for now. If it comes around again, you'll be more prepared, and you have a good idea of what to expect. You've got weapons to defend yourself, and medkits to patch yourself up. Take a health drink, and push on. This ride isn't over yet.
Do you ever feel alive but sometimes rotting? Like you died since your childhood broken apart and you’ve been living in a simulation for all these years? That all that pain, all those suffering, is now showing as you can’t have that protective bubble around you like you did younger? I just feel dead. I mourn my childhood, and as I get older, I want to dig my own grave.
Sounds like deep-rooted trauma and your brain is protecting you from those awful memories. In doing so, you now feel disconnected from yourself. It is so hard to comeback from this and self awareness really is the worst feeling. All I can say is that you find things that you love and enjoy and hold onto them no matter what. As long as I keep my mind focused on my art journey for example, that’s enough. Stay safe out there 🤍
It snows here. A lot. The nights are long and dark, with the city lights and the moon's reflection of the sun lighting up the ground. The snow answers to its call, it lights back. The air is almost purple, like in this video, but its fresh. Its cold out, but you've put enough clothes to shield yourself. Still, you feel it's cold. Your breath vaporizes in the air. It's calm, serene. Snowflakes just keep on dropping, slowly, they keep on dancing from the endless heavens to the ground, each of them in very unique patterns. You feel like you can breathe again. There is nothing. Nothing to worry about, nothing to look forward to, no stress, nothing. Just the air and the snow and the cold. You are finally at peace. I live in the arctic circle, where santa claus is from (no joke), and I feel this exact way. This is how I feel when things get to me, and I feel extraordinaly lucky that I have this pure nature in the winter to go out to, to relax, to reset my mind, to just... be. I wish everyone in the world had a place like I have. I wish you have a place like I have. Be well my friend, one day I wish to see you here, where I am, relaxed. But if you cannot travel here, close your eyes, listen, imagine, you are here. You will always be with me. (copy paste from a reply that I made)
I don't want to close my eyes, i want to see you. I want to look at you through that calm falling snow. I want to lend my hand through that darkness...and I'd like you to take it.. i want to be there with you. We can go in silence somewhere, but still in two. We can smile to each other with no reason under that moon. I'd give everything i have now to look at the rising moon with you in that place I was searching for you this long.. I can't stay here knowing in my heart that you are not even close. Where are you? Where i can find you?
@@andromeda5293 we can dream of that, but that wll not be us. We have these hopes, these dreams. But eventually, we are alone. I've asked myself a million years, why an I alone? I never heard an answer. It was not until I asked myself, _why_ am I alone? That's when it hit me. I have... Relatives. Lets leave it that. Thet tried to keep in touch with me but I ignored them. Why? I kept them off cause I thought I could handle it. And I did. It was until I started writing here where my eyes truly opened. You and I, we are everywhere. We are everywhere around the globe. But we aren't alone. You might feel you are alone, and you are, in your fight. But we are still here. Us, who are fighting the same fight. All around the world, we are here, for you, for me, for us.
I miss my girlfriend. I loved her so much and had imagined an entire life with her. But I ruined the relationship by getting annoyed on minor stuff (due to my depressive episode). I can't begin to describe what I feel most of the time now. It's been 4 months but I still feel heart wrenching pain and anxiety
The red sanctuary lamp by the tabernacle in a catholic church reminds us of the real presence of Jesus Christ amongst us in this vale of tears. I recommend pouring your heart out to Him, who alone can give true rest to our souls.
Social skills can be gained, as someone who was an awkward and not good-looking kid, it is best to be funny and keep good, smart people around you. They'll value you for who you are, not who others expect you to be.
I have become the nothing of the universe…i lack meaning…i lack substance…i just simply exist nothing more and nothing less …when i die i shall remain as nothing…nothing can save me…my heart is dead 💀 💔
I don’t have a sad story that happened recently I’ve just been depressed most of my life. I’m turning 18 in a few months and I haven’t truly been happy since I was 8 or 9. I hope everyday that something will change, maybe tomorrow.
Turning 40 soon. If you haven't already, try and set goals and work towards them tirelessly whatever they may be. Keep your mind occupied, because when boredom sets in, that can be a chance for your mind to manipulate you in negative ways. I wouldn't suggest fixating too much on the pursuit of happiness, as dark days will surely be there, it's just part of existence and I've wasted too much energy trying to figure out why they happen. They just do, and you're not alone. Seek out adventures instead and enjoy the small things in life. While aspiring for more, appreciate what you have. The roof over your head, the food you eat, your health and physical abilities. You don't know what you have until it's gone. A permanent injury I'm now dealing with really changed my perspective on things, and it's challenging me to stay positive daily and it's harder than ever. Take breaks or disassociate from toxic people, even family members that have a pattern of hurting you. You got this ✌🏻
I feel you pretty much my same situation ❤ I think it might be related to my mental Issues I never used to be this way, it started at the age of 13 and it's only gotten worse I feel like my demons are taking over. I feel extremely lonely like I have a bunch of really nice online friends however I can't help but feel lonely my social anxiety kills me I rarely leave the house only when absolutely necessary otherwise I'd be here for the rest of my life living out my life feeling lonely wish you the best of luck with everything
Literally. This is popped out in my recs, when i lost all my friends that i loved so much. Every fucking night I remember how good I felt with them. Now it's all gone. They just stopped talking to me. So painfull. I didn't appreciate what I had, now I'm paying for it.
I am in a happy pocket of life with my family that I enjoy every single day. Still, I'm mindful that nothing lasts forever. If I have to live to see a day where I am alone again, I know this will still be here, like I never left. - August 2024
The so called life is just gonna keep getting worst, our beloved ones gonna leave us. To everyone you have the right to be sad. Like we are all the only exception is that we are aware of it.
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This is HOW I FEEL driving home from work each night.
Alone, with no one to talk to on the drive back.
No one to greet me at the shack I call home.
No one to wake up with.
No one to talk to until the next shift starts.
No one to talk to during the shift.
No one to talk to when the shift is over.
Sometimes I do just ... sit in the car for awhile.
But - it never snows here.
I love the snow, too...
BLESS YOU for this channel friend. At least I could come home to this, tonight.
Love you man. Go fishing and make friends on the lake.
Is everything you have worth the isolation? God bless you brother
The sound really brings comfort and the image of the game too.
It’s going to be ok ..
you are never alone ..
do some activities where you can mingle with others and create wonderful memories 🌹
You can call the place you're living "shelter" but it's the familiar faces greeting you each day that makes it truly "home".
I feel you sir, I hope you'll find human beings to get closer to and maybe you other half, to share moments with and make your shack home. Stay strong, unknown person of the internet, thank you for being there ❤️
They've all gone, in one way or another. And the echos against the cold empty walls has never seemed so loud.
Simon Henriksson:
“I’ve always felt alone. My whole life. For as long as I can remember. I don’t know if I like it, or if I’m just used to it. But I do know this; being lonely does things to you. Feeling $h!t and bitter and angry all the time just… eats away at you…”
That quote has stuck with me along with a few other ones.
cry of fear best game
I‘m so scared of live.i‘m scared of being alone.I‘m scared if I could lose someone important in my life.I‘m insecure.I‘m afraid because I feel so different like the others.But still I‘m so thankful of my life that god has gave me.I love him.And you.Maybe no one will read this anyways,still I just wanted to say,I‘m so Proud of you!
You're scared and that's fine. There's nothing wrong with that. Stay faithful to God the all powerful
You experience what you fear. Change your perspective
there's no home for people like us. but still we continue on
Yah.
Bruh this hit me
There is a home but it's not here friend. It's Heaven. Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ for salvation. He lived and did the things that needed to be done so man can get in to Heaven. You can be saved today just by believing in Jesus Christ for salvation. Nothing more is required the only question left to ask is do you believe or not?
@@Donnie201 I believe God abandoned me and I am fucked up
Youre right...
I saw a girl in my dream a week ago, after I woke up this is how I felt.
sitting at the edge of my bed.
real, it happens sometimes with me too, dont who that girl is wish she could be real 😔
I feel you. I made the perfect group of friends in a dream. Had conversations with them, went on adventures, made some good memories; it felt like months flew by. At one point while with them I started to suspect I was dreaming and this made me worry. I immediately started asking them “Are.. are you guys real?” And they wouldn’t answer me. So I kept asking if they were real, telling them I have to know, to please tell me, I wanted them to be real. That’s when I see one of them whisper to the other “What do we tell him?”
“Tsk, just tell him we aren’t so he stops asking”
Hearing this completely shattered the illusion I had of them being good friends. In a blind fit of anger I assumed they were saying that to get rid of me because he said “so that he stops asking.” I got up pissed off, said “So that’s how it’s going to be” and went to go release some anger. This is the 2nd group to break my trust like this and make me think I was welcomed when they never truly respected me, but as each punch into the wall drained more and more of my rage, I began to feel calm and relaxed, and started thinking that maybe I misinterpreted that line. Immediately after that thought, one of them pops out into the hallway with a concerned look and simply says my name in a worried tone, followed by “are you alright?” I’m left confused on what to feel, but believe I can talk about it to try to fix things and that the image of them being good friends isn’t fully gone yet. This was more than my last friend group ever did, but as I reach my hand up, and am about to let out my first word, I wake up knowing that perfect friend group never existed. It’s happened quite a few times with different people and situations.
Dreams are how we experience other realities and what could have been.
Maybe it was your Twin Flame 🔥
@@dangeraimyt6427she's real, ur brain can't make up new ppl
To whoever is reading this, you are stronger than you think. You matter.
no you dont just give up already
I'm batman
Godbless you❤️
Fucken useless comment
I know...I just... ruined it all... thankyou for the reminder stranger.
*meaning*
People who listen to this music are the kinda friends I need.
I mean why not, but you pfp...
You will never have friends like this, communist 🐖
Запомни я твой русский друг 😢
Hello there
Don’t we all, stay strong my brothers
The first Silent Hill aesthetic hits very different, for me it's possibly the most "liminal spaces" of the series
I'm noticing something, some people are saying that they feel depressed here, while some are saying they feel peace. This is amazing in the since that it feels like the line from Jacob's ladder. "So the way he sees it, if you're frightened of dying and... and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth. It's just a matter of how you look at it, that's all." It's all about how look at it. Pain will always be apart of life, and it's you who decides whether you suffer or not, you decide whether you see the angels or demons. Break the cycle, love yourself and your flaws. Yes this better said than done, but you gotta try, and you'll find the peace within.
Seems like some people are momentarily depressed because bad things happened. They'll bounce back.
Some others would rather stay in the mud and do nothing. They're not fighting, but they're not willing to die either.
Strange world we live in
@@x_DeanD It's sad, but true. Some people never escape the cycle. I had a friend that was always like that and I had to distant myself from him and ultimately stopped being his friend because it. it's good to be there for somebody, but not if it is hurting you.
This is very beautiful, thank you very much
It’s beautiful and I find it more peaceful than depressing. So many people find things depressing and gray that are actually, beautiful and are such great works of art! ❤
For the better part of a decade I’ve thought about this quote
Dealing with depersonalization/derealization for several months its left life feeling like this ambience every day, hour and minute. Practically impossible to remember the things done throughout the day, observing like a robot on auto pilot. Aware of the surroundings but never able to focus on it, to actually look and notice the environment. Everything is blurry and dull as being in a zoned out stated 24/7, noises muffled. Watching a body walk around in life, only to pay attention and listen to the outside noises of cars driving past, trains on tracks, birds chirping, dogs barking, sirens blaring. Those everyday activities in life appear to completely skip forward, being there only for the few moments of waking up, the moments of sitting outside or looking out the windows watching the sky and tree's, listening to every noise that can be heard. Never actually there in place with others, talking to friends and family in the same room, but being stuck alone somewhere outside. It feels like a quiet drive, getting further and further away from everything, a road with no one else, everyone far behind. There isn't a feeling of sadness, not a state of depression, instead a genuine blank emotion, trying to dig through feelings to find this person is endless, not sure how they really act, their true intentions or how others perceive them, changing and being a completely new person towards each individual they meet. A new person every day. I want to finally find this person... or instead, I want to find *myself* , I want to find me. I want to be there. Time goes by far too quick without the ability to stop and actually be there in the moment.
I mean exactly that
How are you doing right now friend?
I feel this so deeply. It’s like you took the words out of my brain and described it all better than I ever could
Me too. Like I’m just the outline of a person, not even a shadow of myself. I hope I can find someone that understands this in real life.
I won’t… but I wish I could.
My name is Duke Faircloth. I’m 31 years old. I believe in taking care of myself, and a balanced diet and a rigorous exercise routine. In the morning, if my face is a little puffy, I’ll put on an ice pack while doing my stomach crunches. I can do a thousand now. After I remove the ice pack I use a deep pore cleanser lotion. In the shower I use a water activated gel cleanser, then a honey almond body scrub, and on the face an exfoliating gel scrub. Then I apply an herb-mint facial masque which I leave on for 10 minutes while I prepare the rest of my routine. I always use an after shave lotion with little or no alcohol, because alcohol dries your face out and makes you look older. Then moisturizer, then an anti-aging eye balm followed by a final moisturizing protective lotion. There is an idea of a Patrick Bateman. Some kind of abstraction. But there is no real me. Only an entity. Something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours, and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable, I simply am not there
My grandma just passed away yesterday. I hadn’t had to deal with loosing a loved one in a long time. Although I knew it was her time as she was 94 years old, it still hit me like a wave. I had told myself when the time came I wouldn’t be upset or be sad, but when it did, I found myself just sobbing. Now i’m laying in bed listening to this and just thinking about what’s next to come.
hang in there, king. don’t let it destroy you. love yourself and the rest will come
@@MaryLaniii
I've been wondering about my grandparents recently. They're both almost 90 and are starting to show their age at last. They won't last forever and the final piece of my childhood will be gone for eternity.
Anyway, just some thoughts in my mind. May your grandma rest in peace.
The beautiful things it will passed away always. so you must have to be courage if youre been lonely .God bless ur grandmom's spirit.
my grandparent passed away too, they were a piece of your childhood that you'll never get back but you get to remember forever. It hurts, but just know that the world is small and there are people out there that are here for you.
@@Flynetheus I appreciate it, and since her passing things have gotten slightly better. I hope things are going well for you c:
In my restless dreams, I see that town. Silent Hill. You promised me you'd take me there again someday. But because of me, you were never able to. Well, I'm alone there now…
In our ”“special place.”
Waiting for you…
Waiting for you to come to see me. But you never do. And so I wait, wrapped in my cocoon of pain and loneliness. I know I've done a terrible thing to you. Something you'll never forgive me for. I wish I could change that, but I can't. I feel so pathetic and ugly lying here, waiting for you...
Every day I stare up at the cracks in the ceiling, and all I can think about is how unfair it all is...
The doctor came today. He told me I could go home for a short stay. It's not that I'm getting better. It's just that this may be my last chance...
I think you know what I mean...
Even so, I'm glad to be coming home. I've missed you terribly. But I'm afraid James. I'm afraid you don't really want me to come home.
Whenever you come see me, I can tell how hard it is on you...
I don't know if you hate me or pity me... Or maybe I just disgust you....
I'm sorry about that. When I first learned that I was going to die, I just didn't want to accept it. I was so angry all the time, and I struck out at everyone I loved most. Especially you, James.
That's why I understand if you do hate me. But I want you to know this, James. I'll always love you.
Even though our life together had to end like this, I still wouldn't trade it for the world. We had some wonderful years together.
Well, this letter has gone on too long, so I'll say goodbye. I told the nurse to give this to you after I'm gone. That means that when you read this, I'll already be dead.
I can't tell you to remember me, but I can't bear for you to forget me. These last few years since I became ill...I'm so sorry for what I did to you, did to us...
You've given me so much and I haven't been able to return a single thing. That's why I want you to live for yourself now. Do what's best for you, James.
James...
You made me happy.
“I love you, Mary.”
As the car began to slowly sink to the bottom of the lake, James pulled his wife close and gently held her. Their wish had finally come true. They would be together. And now they had an eternity to enjoy their happiness.
I didn't know you felt that way about me...
that was depressing to read..... :(
@@Jamesenlyjames. You make him happy.
This was very emotional.
i miss my dad.
me too bud, same here
Same. I'd give anything to talk to him again
Same.
I miss you so much Macy Krezman. You brightened up my days and warmed my nights. No matter what we think of each other now, after all this time, I loved you with all of my heart & soul.
This ambience is giving me some wanted peace after my brother passed away 2 months ago yesterday. It’s been a rough time and will be going forwards but this ambience provides sanctuary from the constant thoughts in my head.
I’m sorry for your loss, hope you’re okay
@@GNOTEE Thanks man, it’s been a struggle but I’ll get there eventually!
I didn't ask to be a Lone Wolf.
A life with no love is So Hard
No family, No Friends, No Loved ones. Rite before i fall asleep and im laying in bed on my phone its completely silent, even when i leave the TV on. Sometimes it gets to quiet. I'll take a break from playing ps5 or watching TV and step outside thru out the day and smoke a cigarette and look at the sky, the trees, the clouds... feel the wind hit me, hear the birds... the only thing i feel like i have a connection with and thats sad. I live in Northern Cali so when it starts to get dark ill step out and smoke a cigarette snd look at the stars and night sky... wondering if offing myself would be a type of release for me... idk .. you get tired of being alone after awhile and not having no one. Birthdays, Holidays, Special Events with family and friends, bbq's, camping trips, Weddings, graduations..... None of that 🫤
Family was so toxic and fake once i got old enough i cut them all off and moved away to get away from them. Fuck em. theyll never have contact with me again.
I never asked for it to be like this... but it is what it is.
you are not alone you have yourself the best friend you gonna ever have . i had to do same stuff like you did about the family and like you said We never asked for this but it what it is
You aren't ever really alone, if that makes you feel better. You have neighbors, coworkers, and random human beings online to share with.
I love how the entire comment section is going through their own silent hill
Jesus loves you and has plans to prosper your life like you couldn’t imagine all you have to do is put your faith in him he will send you a man who would never harm you physically or emotionally Christ is the prince of peace king of kings lord of lords John 14:2 In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you
Lost my way. Afraid of not finding any right path. Alone, broke and hopeless. Life is good innit.
Good lucky buddy, hope you find your way.
I thought I was the only one alone and broke , lol. Things will come together for you. Sometimes bad things happen to us but good things always follow. Take care from 🇨🇦
@@jeffmclean9411 well when did good things happen to you? I dont recall. My last good memories was from 2006. 2006! After that, total disappointment. Whatever. I lost my hope. I dont expect much.
There are a lot of really sad, lonely people here. And yet, none of us are alone.
When I was in a really bad place last year, so stressed I couldn't eat or sleep much, trying to cope with my job turning toxic, feeling like a failure and unsupported; i listened to music and podcasts and took long walks.
Those walks helped me gain perspective. I'm lucky, a new job croped up with help from a friend. And I'm still here. Doing OK, good family and partner. Life is hard, it is. But we can make it through.
Reaching out for support is always good. Even if it's strangers. That's what humans are good at.
My mother gave me some good advice about life when I told her how I was feeling; life isn't lived in a straight line of sucess. Setbacks, life changes, pain, joy and triumph are all part of it.
These comments have been so comforting tonight, my heart aches but thank you nice and non judgemental people
I feel myself becoming older, the responsibilities keep getting more and more, i can't please everyone's needs, I can't be there for everyone and that hurts. I try to be there for everyone and that pulls down my mental till i reach rock bottom. After a while i stopped hanging out with these groups, to recollect my thoughts. Now, the issue is that i can't really reconnect with them or be with them like i used to. Now I'm laying in bed, thinking how i can make things good again.
I often think of happy moments, like a vague memory of a distant time. I think of the feelings of light, warmth, and love.
I am hurt, lost, alone, sick, in distress.
The good feeling of being loved, of feeling balanced.
Today, darkness surrounds me. The moment I close my eyes and stop fighting, the demons will have my skin
Ive come to the conclusion that my hope in life is founded upon the anticipation of “moments”
Pure, blissful, hopeful, spirit fueling moments. They can be big: making progress in my career, traveling somewhere, helping someone, seeing a friend.
Or small: making someone laugh, seeing an animal living its best life, receiving a hug, rain… just rain
In a world that is seemingly more dark than ever, I have to pay attention to those moments. They are always a reminder to keep going.
Appreciate Time
Never deny yourself satisfaction from success.
And always take a really deep breath every time you go outside.
So true, I agree!
I’ve really lost everything. I lost my job, my friend that was like an older sister died from cancer, I lost my dogs, I can’t get a new job or pay any bills, I watched some girl I cared about lose feelings for me, and I’m weeks away from losing my house.. I’m really on the edge. I genuinely don’t want to wake up anymore
That's awful, I'm sorry for your losses. Keep going though, you'll find a way. Sending love
I’m really sorry to hear that you’re going through so much loss especially of someone so close to you who clearly was a wonderful person to have made such an impact, I hope you have a good support system as well as simply knowing that you’re not going through it on your own 💙 genuinely praying for you and that the light at the end of the tunnel makes itself present soon
Rip bro
praying for you
I don't even know how to put my emotions into words. I just feel lost. I'm here eating fast food in hopes it'll make me feel better and fill the void, but it never does. I want better for myself.
Try some steak and eggs
You eat when you feel bad? I stop eating.
@@FrancisL4D different responses to stress and coping mechanisms
@pardus3049 easier said than done
You deserve better too, eating well can actually help your brain feel less stress and depression.
I thought loneliness was the biggest issue in my life. But now, when time when time has passed, i understood that it was blessing, that guided me to the right path
I hate existing. I wish he was softer to me and realised that his words hurt more than his hands ever could. I find peace here, just sitting here, feeling like Silent Hill isn’t a place, but something deep within my heart I’ve yet to face.
I'm so sorry to hear that I hope you have found peace in life if you wanna talk I'm here lemme know
I might’ve survived. But at what cost. What’s left to make me happy in life now that she’s gone. I will persist but I may never truly live again.
what made you happy before she was there
@ the things I thought were enough before i met her
Only when youve lost everything-are you then free to do anything.
In Tyler we trust.
I was a security officer for 5 years in a student accommodation, just recently changed my job to a Maintenance man in the same building, as the job became available, the Manager who I have known for 5 years and was happy to give me the job even though I have no experience in the role. Recently I have been struggling to work fast, and I am slowing my colleagues down, Realising I miss my old job even though I am in the exact same building, and on top of it the manager won let me have my old job back ! Never felt this sad as I have known him for 5 years. So I have left, while him knowing I want to seriously go back and do the security role in the building, and its all in his control. So here I am now back with my old Security company in a brand new building feeling soo alone like this song. I HAVE LOST EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE !
Hello, I’m a random person on the internet.
I’m getting ready to pass tests at the end of this school year to go in 10th grade. I’m currently living a bit of a chaotic life, feeling quite tired and lonely. I can’t organise myself and the world feel bad. I feel like a mess and I feel so lost because I lost so much people over the last years.
But it feels a bit good because there’s Silent Hill 2 remake that is going to be out in 4 days and I’m excited! I think I’ll cosplay as a character from it for the upcoming Halloween at the end of this month. Video games and cosplay are my safe spaces and those hobbies comfort me.
For whoever reading that in the future, I hope you are okay, and I wish you a good life. It was nice sharing a bit of my life with you. Well, farewell and maybe see you if you cross paths with my comment and this video again. ( 10/04/2024 )
a part of living is losing, but you'll always have yourself, and you should be complacent with that no matter what. dont worry too much about the future too, focus on whats infront of you right now, enjoy the current moment because you wont get it back. thank you for the nice comment though, you seem like a good kid.
also definitely play the SH2 remake, game rocks lol
@ Thank you for that comment, and I already finished two ending of silent hill 2 XD. Also, I love your Ricardo Milos pfp. X3
She let go of me so easily, why is it so easy for people to let go of me? I try so hard to make it easy for them to stay, but they always end up leaving me behind. I must be the problem. I really miss her so much.
I know you're expressing your emotions right now and not really asking for a solution, but...women are complex creatures and they're not often attracted to men who are needy. Be career driven, be masculine, and NEVER put her on a pedestal. It's ok to think your girlfriend is special to you, but the moment you make it all about her is the moment she stops being attracted. Always strive to increase your standing in life and be the man she wants to keep up with, not the man she has an easy time staying with.
Good luck with the next one, brother.
Had the same experience, I met a Russian girl which I always wanted and really liked, we had a really great time in the beginning, we cooked together and had phonecalls nearly every evening and stuff like that... after meeting her 4 times it started to become weird and she started keeping more and more distance, some days after she told me that she doesn't feels in the right position to keep getting more connected or to start a relationship... it really fcks me up, iam not even able to listen to Russian music without thinking about her, iam not able to improve my personality cuz it keeps pulling me down... I hope the pain of losing something you always wanted will go away someday, on some days I feel fine, but days like these kill me from inside, it tears my heart apart and the thoughts about her won't go away.. idk man, hope you were able to recover somehow, I'll keep on trying...
@@38s61 I don't think there is any way to recover from someone if you truly wanted to be with them and for them to be with you. I know that she'll never come back into my life, she's found a person that she wants to give her all to, and that's a good thing, I'm happy that she's finally found that for her, cuz regardless of how things end up for me, I truly love her. But just like you, I haven't gotten past her, and honestly I don't think there is any way to do that. She's engraved into almost every aspect of my life and that gave me happiness, and it's my fault that I did that, but even seeing her face makes me forget all the sadness I feel and have felt for the past few months. So I'm just accepting that she was my once in a lifetime, and that my sorrows are the price for her joy, if not then all this pain and all those precious memories would have been for nothing. It is what it is.
@@notgaryoldman1178 As a woman, it really depends. I've been with the same man for ten years, it's not that women are all super complicated.
It's that many modern women and men like to leave relationships without trying to make things work first.
It's OK to be who you are, men don't all need to be identical.
But I will agree It's never healthy to worship your partner, and it's good to focus on yourself too.
Imagine that the owner of that car actually lives in the outskirts of Silent Hill and comes here to buy milk, town changed, and never returned home. Still gets mail about extending your car's warranty.
I hope I will get out of my current depression, but I honestly I don't see it. I'm just not built for the challenges of adult and career life. I wish I could start over from when I was a kid.
I've dreamed of finding love ever since I was a child. Now as an adult, I know that's it's not a possibility for me. It's been so difficult to accept this. I can't see anyone really wanting me. I can only see myself getting used.
There's so much common frustration I feel in every day life, and it just never ends. I suppose I'd be a fool to think love will solve those problems. But it would be nice to experience the world with someone else, to share my life with others. To cherish life together.
It's a weird grieving process. Life plays these cruel tricks on me. All I can do is accept that this is what life is.
5 years since i was with her, was really happy then ngl
It’s been two years, still in high school and I see her everyday. It doesn’t get better does it?
7 years here and I thought I was fine, but clearly, something is not fine when you still have dreams, thoughts, feelings that you need to express but lost the vigor to do so as you once did.
And you know they've changed and how could they be so rotten to you? How could you be so rotten to yourself?
Yall had relationships?
I miss her so much.
real
These soothing sounds are like a mini-vacation for your mind. Just what you need when life gets too hectic.
Find your purpose. Follow your dreams. Be a good listener, and understand it’s just a bad day..not a bad life.
i dont wanna be alone
me neither man, me neither
if only one us will receive love, i hope its you, i've accepted it at this point.
I need love I’ve lost my girlfriend I feel so bad
@@ilomilo-001
You will come to terms with it. To lose is to live. We go through life meeting and saying goodbye forever.
Anyway, once I lost a girl that I loved. It is something you learn to live with and your life will continue.
Being alone and Feeling lonely are different things.
@@ilomilo-001if you can’t find someone to love you, you can always find yourself. Self love is important, give it to yourself, you deserve it.
Anyone reading this, just know it gets better life may seem pointless right now. Just give it time things always work out in the end.
Thanks bro
Thank you. I needed to hear that. Don't know what to do, but I'll take my time with it 🙏
yeah this year has been hell for me iv be wanting to commit suicide nothjng matters anymore
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"You have to finish an old tea". Things just ended in my life. Relationships. Work. Income. Its the longest dark night of my soul, ever.
The biggest problem is not that im alone. Is that I don't have the will power to know people, and I think I never will. No one can help me, trust me, I've tried so many times already, doing all kinds of activities, I think it's not in me anymone. Seems like I don't belong here, this is madness
I can relate....
Maybe the answer is to find some peace in it, like, yes, loneliness hurts, but it's not just sad... it's as peaceful as it gets also
Again, one day I really hope Silent Hill capture this liminal space ambience for a game. Not necessarily for survival horror but for mystery and exploration. Even in this foggy snowy world, what might you find there? Cool collectibles? Stories and memories from time gone past? The girl of your dreams? Happiness? Or a nightmare?
Perhaps when that time comes, there'll be an option to remain inside, look outside at the snow and snuggle with your loved one.
Some days I feel like the end gets closer and closer. Just waiting for the right feeling to know that it’s time to go.
this is how ive felt for years
And he still parked within the lines
Sometimes I wonder if life would have been different if it never happened, it happened so early that I couldn't even know the taste of any life where nobody ever steal my innocence.
i just want to see my mum again
I miss you so much catherine, praying the universe hears my cry & brings you back to me
Theres something in these Playlist to these types of games and meromies that no support group or a therapist can provide. Anyone reading this. You are not alone with this feeling. You cant explain with words, but you just know there are others that share the same feeling.
¡Gracias!
Finally, back in my comfort zone
Within the span of 5 months I've lost my dad to a stroke, I never met my mom, then my fiance cheated on me in our home, then we broke up so I had to leave the house and move to a dead end city into a shitty 1-room apartment. After some months I finally landed a great job and nearly doubled my income. Then the company hit layoffs and now I dont know how to pay rent. Life sucks. People suck. I dont know why I'm even carrying on. I think I'm gonna kms soon.
Don't be sad my friend. Everything will be alright. Just don't lose hope in yourself and never give up. You will succeed!
Don't do it bro, there is plenty of time to be dead. But first live your life as best you can, even if its hard sometimes.
Dont let the fire that is your life burn out short. You've got a lot more fire left in you than you think. And its never too late to start over in anything. Untill the day our lord calls to you, burn bright brother.
life is full of ugliness, pain and suffering but life is also full of beauty, love and happiness. all of your problems are temporary and believe me I have had a life full of misery, death and addiction since i was a child but I found a way out of it and you will too just keep fighting and never give up. if anything we have our spirit and that can only be broken if we let it
life is hard but love makes it worth while. i hate being sober but i’m working on it i swear. just cant get enough. ❤️ you all
I am 52. I have now come to the realization that I never had any real friends. Any real companionship. Nothing but a cold, brutal world that has taken advantage of my low intelligence to really screw me over but good. I have no friends, no money, no nothing. I just now sit in this abyss and pound out the remaining days of my life until I am good and dead.
I've lost her, and I never even had her. It was all in my head.
just a positive comment rolling by... =)
Heartbreak.exe over here hitting me right in the feels. 😢
please never go away; i need this to sleep peacfefully
dont worry we didnt lost anyone they've lost us
I feel so lost with life right now. Im 26 about to turn 27 and i feel so hopeless. I don’t really know what i want to do with my life nor do i know if it’s all going to work out. I haven’t dated in 3 years because im still in love with my first love and i haven’t had any friends in that time as well. I feel so lonely and lost at times.
@@Hehehehhehehehehehehehhe78 simp
If it helps, my mother is 72 and told me recently she often didn't know what she wanted out of life.
I'm about to be 30, and I'm still finding my path. Don't beat yourself up too much. Society wears us down, but when I talk to others, I find it becomes more clear; life isn't a straight path.
Yes... I lost them, I lost my best friend, who was my sunshine, my everything...
I loved her in every way possible and now she doesn't want to see me
I lost my best friend in high school, who tried to bring me down and yet I chose forgiveness...
I lost my great-grandparents in the pandemic...
I have lost many people for being a bad person, but still, I try to make this world a better place for them, even if they don't know it...
I try, but I'm tired.
empty notif page every night
My dearest Lily, wherever you are, whatever you're doing, with whoever you are please... Take care of yourself.
I will never stop loving you
I would sit in this car for days
rare composition . rare flow. pulling up to stores in vehicles never stops being something that is entertaining and this picture gives you that feeling of snagging some kind of food from one of those joints and getting back in your car and being glad that your able to drive when your not.
I don’t know if anyone will see this, May of 2024 I lost the love of my life Vince the sweetest boy I ever met we were perfect but I let insecurities and getting in my head get in the way of that and treated him horribly for his past he was genuinely the only person I’ve ever had in life I’ve had friends but their all superficial nobody knew the real me but he knew me. If their is any advice I can say is enjoy every second with people you love because it can all crumble in seconds and always be yourself so people who are looking for you can find you never let yourself go, I have genuinely lost everything and I live a miserable life I considered him my home now I’m so far away from home with no way back I just feel cold and abandoned I just wish this life lesson didn’t come at such a cost, my name is Ellis and if anyone is reading to this point I thank you we may never meet but I love all of you with all my heart it does get better no matter how far from home you are
Also to make it clearer than I said Vince isn’t dead at least not literally but that person I knew is dead
good moody music for cloudy, stormy days
It doesn't matter what life gives you, loving parents and friends, a partner. Those are important but if you are born with broken crayons you can make art just as well as someone with brand new ones, broken crayons still color. Its how you use them, the time and strategy it took to get that picture made that makes it more valuable, things aren't important if handed to you. If there was no puzzle in life then everyone would be bored.
Everything is my life has been thrust into the air. I don't know what I can hold onto. I don't know whether I'm falling or floating. If I'm real to anyone. Being alone for so long, now alone is the only time I feel I'm real.
You just escaped the Otherworld. You are still in danger, that much is clear, but the worst is over for now. If it comes around again, you'll be more prepared, and you have a good idea of what to expect. You've got weapons to defend yourself, and medkits to patch yourself up. Take a health drink, and push on. This ride isn't over yet.
I don't know about y'all but I already pre-ordered the remake... Can't fucking wait...
i wish i played the original back in the day
@@infiniteyouth18 it's so fun
The loneliness is deafening to me
Do you ever feel alive but sometimes rotting? Like you died since your childhood broken apart and you’ve been living in a simulation for all these years? That all that pain, all those suffering, is now showing as you can’t have that protective bubble around you like you did younger? I just feel dead. I mourn my childhood, and as I get older, I want to dig my own grave.
Sounds like deep-rooted trauma and your brain is protecting you from those awful memories. In doing so, you now feel disconnected from yourself.
It is so hard to comeback from this and self awareness really is the worst feeling.
All I can say is that you find things that you love and enjoy and hold onto them no matter what. As long as I keep my mind focused on my art journey for example, that’s enough.
Stay safe out there 🤍
Relatable. I feel like my whole life has been a lie.
@@Anadarme
It snows here. A lot. The nights are long and dark, with the city lights and the moon's reflection of the sun lighting up the ground. The snow answers to its call, it lights back. The air is almost purple, like in this video, but its fresh. Its cold out, but you've put enough clothes to shield yourself. Still, you feel it's cold. Your breath vaporizes in the air. It's calm, serene. Snowflakes just keep on dropping, slowly, they keep on dancing from the endless heavens to the ground, each of them in very unique patterns. You feel like you can breathe again. There is nothing. Nothing to worry about, nothing to look forward to, no stress, nothing. Just the air and the snow and the cold. You are finally at peace.
I live in the arctic circle, where santa claus is from (no joke), and I feel this exact way. This is how I feel when things get to me, and I feel extraordinaly lucky that I have this pure nature in the winter to go out to, to relax, to reset my mind, to just... be. I wish everyone in the world had a place like I have. I wish you have a place like I have.
Be well my friend, one day I wish to see you here, where I am, relaxed. But if you cannot travel here, close your eyes, listen, imagine, you are here. You will always be with me.
(copy paste from a reply that I made)
I don't want to close my eyes, i want to see you. I want to look at you through that calm falling snow. I want to lend my hand through that darkness...and I'd like you to take it.. i want to be there with you. We can go in silence somewhere, but still in two. We can smile to each other with no reason under that moon. I'd give everything i have now to look at the rising moon with you in that place
I was searching for you this long..
I can't stay here knowing in my heart that you are not even close.
Where are you? Where i can find you?
@@andromeda5293 we can dream of that, but that wll not be us. We have these hopes, these dreams. But eventually, we are alone. I've asked myself a million years, why an I alone? I never heard an answer.
It was not until I asked myself, _why_ am I alone? That's when it hit me.
I have... Relatives. Lets leave it that. Thet tried to keep in touch with me but I ignored them. Why? I kept them off cause I thought I could handle it. And I did.
It was until I started writing here where my eyes truly opened. You and I, we are everywhere. We are everywhere around the globe. But we aren't alone. You might feel you are alone, and you are, in your fight.
But we are still here. Us, who are fighting the same fight. All around the world, we are here, for you, for me, for us.
I don’t know if I can live without my friend. I’ve felt miserable since she left me.
I miss my girlfriend. I loved her so much and had imagined an entire life with her. But I ruined the relationship by getting annoyed on minor stuff (due to my depressive episode). I can't begin to describe what I feel most of the time now. It's been 4 months but I still feel heart wrenching pain and anxiety
Stay in it champ, if you really love her don't give up to easily!
It's all in your head. She doesn't truly love you if she went from you so easily. Get strong and be yourself. One day, you will find your person.
@@catnormall884 thanks man✨
@@catnormall884 but thinking that hurts too because I gave it my all. If it was not enough for her to stay with me, why would it be for anyone else?
@swapnilbanyal9569 because everyone is different. If she doesn't value you, why would you? Stop wasting your priceless time on the wrong person, bro
The red sanctuary lamp by the tabernacle in a catholic church reminds us of the real presence of Jesus Christ amongst us in this vale of tears. I recommend pouring your heart out to Him, who alone can give true rest to our souls.
I’m exhausted.
Seeing people physically more attractive than me and who are socially well-adjusted is what truly pains me in life.
Social skills can be gained, as someone who was an awkward and not good-looking kid, it is best to be funny and keep good, smart people around you.
They'll value you for who you are, not who others expect you to be.
I have become the nothing of the universe…i lack meaning…i lack substance…i just simply exist nothing more and nothing less …when i die i shall remain as nothing…nothing can save me…my heart is dead 💀 💔
I don’t have a sad story that happened recently I’ve just been depressed most of my life. I’m turning 18 in a few months and I haven’t truly been happy since I was 8 or 9. I hope everyday that something will change, maybe tomorrow.
Turning 40 soon. If you haven't already, try and set goals and work towards them tirelessly whatever they may be. Keep your mind occupied, because when boredom sets in, that can be a chance for your mind to manipulate you in negative ways. I wouldn't suggest fixating too much on the pursuit of happiness, as dark days will surely be there, it's just part of existence and I've wasted too much energy trying to figure out why they happen. They just do, and you're not alone. Seek out adventures instead and enjoy the small things in life. While aspiring for more, appreciate what you have. The roof over your head, the food you eat, your health and physical abilities. You don't know what you have until it's gone. A permanent injury I'm now dealing with really changed my perspective on things, and it's challenging me to stay positive daily and it's harder than ever. Take breaks or disassociate from toxic people, even family members that have a pattern of hurting you. You got this ✌🏻
I feel you pretty much my same situation ❤ I think it might be related to my mental Issues I never used to be this way, it started at the age of 13 and it's only gotten worse I feel like my demons are taking over. I feel extremely lonely like I have a bunch of really nice online friends however I can't help but feel lonely my social anxiety kills me I rarely leave the house only when absolutely necessary otherwise I'd be here for the rest of my life living out my life feeling lonely wish you the best of luck with everything
@ you too i hope everything gets better, nobody should feel like this at such a young age or even ever
Literally. This is popped out in my recs, when i lost all my friends that i loved so much. Every fucking night I remember how good I felt with them. Now it's all gone. They just stopped talking to me. So painfull. I didn't appreciate what I had, now I'm paying for it.
Quizá ellos no se dieron cuenta de lo que perdieron.
❤@@TheCrowzZz
You are not alone❤ you matter
I am in a happy pocket of life with my family that I enjoy every single day. Still, I'm mindful that nothing lasts forever. If I have to live to see a day where I am alone again, I know this will still be here, like I never left.
- August 2024
I want to go back to 2007-2012 and playing runescape again with my friends from back then
Naahhh they might be gone but the 1 who matters most is always with Me so never any worries .
Loneliness is a peace
The so called life is just gonna keep getting worst, our beloved ones gonna leave us. To everyone you have the right to be sad.
Like we are all the only exception is that we are aware of it.
J adore ecouter ceci pendant que je suis dans ma grotte, dans le noir et seul.
Life has been constant stress and hell
Goodnight
thank you i needed this ✨🖤
I miss feeling
what am i doing here.. 3:12a.m., nothing but my thoughts
Thanks to the comments
I dont feel as bad in my life anymore
Its way way worse for others
Reach out if you need someone ill be here and ill guide you
Wish I could connect to the people I love.