My mom was hospitalized for most of February for an unknown infection which resulted in sepsis. My birthday is February 29th and the only thing I wanted was to spend the day with my mom. I was able to spend the day at the hospital with her so she gave me the greatest gift possible. She ended up passing away at 3:50 am on march 1st, a few hours after my birthday was over. My mental health is now the worst that it’s been in a long time, but I am doing my best to be there for my 5 children and my dad while we are all processing this devastation. 💔
I just turned 83 so I have a different look at life. I’m just glad I wake up I’m healthy I don’t look my age. I was told I had cataract operation in January that went well on both eyes today I drove myself to Jacksonville Florida, which I live in Palm Coast so that’s about an hour away and I’ve never driven up there by myself, oh I’m a widow so my husband will take me everywhere so I got directions I didn’t get lost once I got to the city but I found a policeman and he was so sweet and guided me on my way had my appointment and will have my eyelids because they’re so droopy Operated on in May so that will make me look better. So I try to keep positive February for me was a little low. I was sad and I cry sometimes in the morning and if I don’t feel like doing anything I don’t do it I like when I accomplish something Makes me feel good but I don’t beat myself up. If I don’t I don’t have the strength I did when I was younger that’s gonna happen to everybody so I’ll do something and then I’ll rest and then I’ll get up and do some more that’s how I get through my day. Life can be a struggle. I do pray a lot that’s something new I mean I believe in God I always have, but I’m leaning a little bit more on him now, but that’s personal and private, but it helps good for you to see the doctors and take your meds. I am on an antidepressant Which helps me I am also on a pain pill because I have arthritis and I’ve had a knee replacement and you know I kind of hurt all over when I get up in the morning. Oh my goodness I think this is going on too long anyway, I wish you do a girl, health and happiness and you will get through it, the ups and downs. Oh boy happens to us all. You are so beautiful and lovely and of course young and you have a daughter which I think children being around them. I think that’s your comic relief. I love when I see my grand children step grand children, because they live the closest because they make me laugh and forget about myself, anyway, good luck Jeannie❤
It is Season Change Time, where... light changes, sounds change, colors change, routines change, sleep changes and spring cleaning commences after being shuttered for at least 3 months. Every season change, I get the same overwhelm because it is a lot of changes that we don't even realize. Took me years to figure out why I felt like this and then it hit me that it is normal for my system to buck at so much change all at once. More light shifts our sleeping pattern, birds chirping everywhere all day when it had been quiet. The colors go from quiet greys to bright yellows and blues. It takes time for our bodies and minds to adjust. It is like we have to relearn how to be busy. Welcome to the new Season.
I am right there with you. My job collapsed and I struggle to get up and out. Forget housecleaning or organizing -- I was quite proud of myself to get four contractor bags of garbage out of my house and up to the dump, but my energy fizzled after that. I am awaiting funds from unemployment and literally have $26 left and no way to pay my bills this month. Thank goodness for SNAP - at least I can feed myself! There is a song which has a choral line of: "If it t'weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all." As miserable as all of this is, I know it can't last. Things will get better, I will find a job, I will be able to pay bills and life will improve. I am hoping for sooner rather than later. I wish you all the best of fortune!
Sorry its been a bad month. I feel you, handed my notice in work as all just too much - I ended up covering 2-3 roles which was too much and I paid with my health. I'm privileged, I can take time out to figure out what's next. I'm pleased to hear that you're getting help and hopefully March will bring better days. Be kind to yourself 🤗
I think you are SO BRAVE to share all of this with us and I thank you for it, your honesty will help someone going through similar feel less alone in it all. I am not there right now but have been before. I hope the change in the season will give you a boost. Sending love from New England.
Thank you for being open and honest I’ve been sick for a over a month.. with different things…. It’s been a horrible month…. Starting to think I’m falling into depression too …. It’s just been very difficult
Life does have a way of sucking like that some times. What matters is that you are taking the steps to feel better. Thank you for getting vulnerable and sharing how you've been feeling with us. I wanted you to know that your content is that "motivational TH-cam videos" for me 😊
I've had some health struggles as well, where I can't get stuff done and it makes me feel down to think this could hamper my summer plans. It's refreshing to hear your honesty and real talk, especially in an online world where everything appears to be so perfect all the time. Here's to a better spring for all of us!
Sorry you are struggling. I see you. And I really appreciate your continuing to make content despite the low mood. I'm not where you are, but I am in a transition period, so sort of uncomfortable in lots of ways. We will all be OK. ☘
Thank you for your honesty. So helpful to have real talk about mental health struggles. Be as kind to yourself as you would be to a friend - don’t beat yourself up.
Hi Laura. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so low. I completely empathise as issues with my personal life have been a challenge. The latest piece of 💩 to hit the fan is my broken hand, so my February was crap. You can and will climb out of this. Best wishes from England. x
Dear Laura, as someone that has been fighting depression for some decades now, I can totally relate to what you're going through. I think you're reacting to it in all the right ways and now hopefully it is a matter of time and you'll feel better. Surviving is a huge goal to have when you're depressed so I guess all else you achieve in March is gravy 🙂. Thank you for being vulnerable online and showing what real life is all about. I sincerely hope you recover soon. Lots of love and good vibes. ❤
Hang in there Laura, this will pass (I’ve worn the T-shirt). Really think about how many hundreds indeed thousands of people you have helped with your wonderful videos. Sending lots of good vibes and hugs.
I've had bad months since mid november, starting out with colics, going on to a bad back, missing out on a lot of social and jojfull events for both of it (and having to change and limit my diet a lot) and then just when I was about to restart with actual living i sprained my ankle mid February and had to stay home and not moving again. That did a lot of bad things for my mental health as well... It's not been a good time so far. Wishing both/all of us that things will improve soon!
You get huge gold stars for honesty, my dear. I'm sorry Depression has reared its ugly head, but you are doing something about it; for which you get another dozen gold stars. My goals for March are to visit my mom, get some more submission packets out for my manuscript, and start seeds indoors for the garden.
It really is a cummulative thing, you cope with so much and then the brain and body feel the effect of constant worry and constantly being 'strong'. The dullness of February has seemed longer than ever, it is the greyness that drags one down also, hope it gets brighter for you Laura in all ways.
Sorry you are struggling, it's hard. I am older, single, retired woman and also have been struggling. I lost my mom in 2022 and have been dealing with bother her loss, and finalizing her estate. I've have been dealing with pain for a while and am now having shoulder surgery mid March. Like you, I've been trying to,get out more, it's just too easy to stay at home. I bought season tickets to the local theater which helps me get me out and I watch for different things going on in my area and usually can find a friend or two to go to something different. Here's to having a better March and hoping the surgery fixes my shoulder problem. Wishing you a better March.
I 've suffered with major depression year's back and it's not a good feeling, so sympathise with you, it took me ages to learn that you have to try and distract yourself from the negative thoughts that keep going around your head, not easy. Much better now, have ing said that, January wasn't my best month, my car broke down in the dark in a really dangerous place, thankfully a gentleman stoped and came to my rescue but cost me a fortune to get it fixed, was hoping February would be better and then I got two nasty colds one on top of the other must be over 4 weeks now and still left me with a lingering cough. At least spring is round the corner, but like you temperatures here in the UK are very up and down, gone cold lately.
Unfortunately in life there has to be rain to make rainbows, but you're doing great!! 👏💗 As others have said, you are one of the motivating channels to me. Thank you for being so realistic and relatable. Sending our love and wishing you the best x
Hi Laura, I’ve been watching your channel for years through the many seasons of your life. I’ve seen you rise to challenges with honesty, courage and humour. Depression is hard. You’ve taken already taken steps to make it less sucky, and things will improve, little by little. You are a woman who does hard things and you will get through this. Sending love and good wishes. Thank you for taking care of yourself.
Kudos to you that you have pushed thru to look for help ! I have tremendously valued your videos and have looked forward to each one . Amazing that during this trying time you have given us new insights , guided us thru a substantial purge of your upstairs and demonstrated how these monthly resets can carry us along ! Bravo Laura and thank you .
I'm sorry you are struggling right now, Laura. My February has also been dire! After 2-3 years of coping with my son's health related stress it has finally caught up with me. I too have started talking to a therapist through work and my second session I basically cried the whole time 😬. I think I can only have 6 sessions and we are narrowing down what to focus on. Many of my friends are going through tough times too so I don't want to offload on them. I know it will get better but I hate feeling like this. I think some of my issues are due to peri-menopause too. Big virtual hugs to all that are having a tough time x
I appreciate your honesty and vulnerability in sharing with us. It’s a tough road and I’m so glad you were able to reach out and get some help. I think that all of us have had some bad and/or sad moments. It is picking up and moving onward that can be painful and it can make the journey even more difficult. I’m going through my own sad times right now and although I should be honest with those involved, I just don’t have the energy to deal with the reactions. Sometimes adulting sucks…
You have so many things to be thankful for, I know it's hard to see all the good things when in the middle of depression. I only have my husband and suffer from several chronic illnesses so am indoors most of time. If it weren't for my personal relationship with my Lord Jesus I do not know how I could go on. Life is hard. Harder still with no family left, was only child and lost my beloved parent 27 and 30 years ago. An activity I learned to do on my hardest days was to look out the window and find one thing of beauty that I could be thankful for, it works! I'm happy you're seeing therapist and not giving up. Prayers for you going up friend🩷🙏
February was one of my worst months also, which is probably why I didn't make time to watch vids from my favorite creators and am just now getting to it. It seems like you're feeling a bit better in your more recent stuff - I'm glad to see that. I'm also feeling a bit better. And I'm proud of you too for just doing what you could given all the responsibility being on your shoulders while your husband was gone and then sick. You do more work for home and content creation than most people do on good days. It's amazing!
Thank you so much for being real and transparent - videos like this are so important - they help those of us who are struggling feel less alone. I admire your courage and ability to share the struggles as well as the triumphs. Thank you.
Dearest Laura sending you biggest hugs🫂 I totally understand what you are feeling as I have been through depression too and it can tough, so I am pleased you are looking into getting some support ❤ I am really wishing you all the very very best recovery and soon you will feel better, take good care of YOU and thank you for sharing real life situations we love you 🥰 xxxx❤❤❤❤
Wait Y2K=vintage 😱 I think of 1960s or older 💀 Separately, sending you love, gratitide, and health of all kinds. So glad you have a supportive bestie and are enjoying daughter time in these tough times. 🥰
Thanks for sharing, it is brave to admit the way you feel sometimes. I have lost all of this year so far. I have been ill, still am. It has not been easy as both my husband and son have serious conditions. I'm starting to recover but feel the depression lurking ready to pounce. Hope the year gets better for all. Stay strong and carry on! xx
It was good to hear you have a friend to support you. I also have friends that help me get through the down times. Sometimes just listening to their problems gives me a break from mine.
I love the idea of going to a Vintagefest. My 6 year old is always asking about the 80’s so that would be something fun for her to experience. I also loved the room declutter video you did with your kid. Very relatable with my own daughter
Sorry to hear about your days being rough. My February pretty much sucked my purse strings as wall thermostat broke /sink bathtub drain clogged up /and my vehicle transmission lines busted out all same week. My March intends to be low spend or no spend days and looking forward to springtime sun and warmth. Be good to yourself, we appreciate you ❤😊
Dear Laura, thank you for keeping it real. I had a lousy February too, all good intentions from NY out the window, just feel exhausted and disappointed in myself along with all the usual sh*t life throws at us. Hugs and here’s to a better month to everyone struggling ❤
I struggle so bad w mental health issues. All we can do is get through each dah. A day at a time. I also suffer from depression and anxiety especially anxiety. I am currently looking after two very elderly parents with no siblings to help me. Plus I am trying to work and deal with everything that goes along is looking after the needs of others on a limited budget and an unsupportive partner. Thank you for your honesty. It helps to know its not just me. Im sure in time things may improve, I hope they do for you. You are a lovely person
Very sorry you had a bad couple of months but love the way you phrased it “here hold my beer”. We all go through bad periods as they say this too shall pass. Hang in there and glad to hear you are taking time for you. You’re doing great!
All the ups and downs may feel like a burden... but, it sounds like you're doing great - keeping on, keeping on. You've got a lot of strength. It's difficult to feel like it when we're still trying to squeeze through the wringer. You've got this❤️♾️❤️🌈
Feb is a difficult month for me, actually Jan too. A year ago my husband was in the hospital for a month and passed in Feb. So this Feb was 1 year. We were together 34 yrs, married most of them. Days go by with me being in "hybernation". I've been going to a group support for widow/widowers for several months. That's been helping me get out of that hybernation more often. Thank you for sharing what you've been going through and how you're handling it. Hoping that the longer, warmer days and outside help will begin to clear the fog we're all in.
Hey Laura! I feel you. This year seems so hard even though my horoscopes are all so freaking great haha. I guess it's ok to suck sometimes. It might be bad now but it's not forever. I'm sending you a small ball of good thoughts, the best I can conjure atm haha. It's ok to not be at your best. You're still doing amazing as for someone struggling. Look at you, you made your own little enterprise and that's pretty cool. And even if you didn't, that's ok too. I kinda suck I have to accept that maybe it's ok to be no one and do nothing interesting and go nowhere and be friendless and push people away and maybe I still have an innate right to just be, even though it's not impressive existence. Hold on, Laura
Take good care of you Laura & feel proud, in the positive, wonderful way, you are handling everything. Sending warmest “get well soon” wishes & so enjoy & appreciate your channel xo 😘🌺❤️
I suffer from depression as well. Thank you for sharing, that life isn't picture perfect ❤ I also feel like these 2 months of the year, have gone by too quickly 😮 But impressed that you got so much stuff done, while struggling. Take care. Hugs from Denmark 🥰
Thank you for all of this! I totally understand that it doesn't seem like two months have went by already! Time goes by too fast! I haven't accomplished much of anything I wanted to yet for 2024, but I have to just keep thinking that I will and what I have done so far makes a difference. You have taught me that! I re watch older you tube videos too for motivation and ideas I may have missed or forgotten. Baby steps in decluttering, hiccups in life cause pauses in plans. To me and So Many others you show us the hiccups and the lets turn it around and be productive and make things better!! Only take on what you need too, don't create more of a mess by doing too much, and let yourself say it's ok! Life of course doesn't always allow that. I am taking on a change and not liking it, but I need to deal with it. (I always have New years hopes, never works out as well as I hope that's for sure ...) I will make it through it all with family and from your advice and videos!! I follow you because your Genuine and Real with life! You help other and you help yourself !!! I watch you and see the Beauty in you everyday! You ROCK Laura! ❤️❤️
You are a wonderful person! I have watched your videos when I was in Germany (back in my home country of Canada) and when you were in Ireland. You are inspiring! I started my decluttering way back then and it’s a process that continues. I was laid off from a company I’d been with most of my career in August but thankfully found a new job in February. It was a tough time for me. I had no purpose so you can be proud of yourself for being proactive . Your heart is in the right place…your daughter comes first! Your family is very important to you as are your friends. Thanks for your frank and honest videos, Laura! Take good care!
I am proud of you too! 🤩 I know how difficult it can be to seek help when you are depressed. I hope your medication (in combination with your therapy & sleep routine) will enable you to regain your enjoyment of life. I take antidepressants year round but needed to increase my dosage for this winter due to seasonal depression as well as regular depression. Please remember--you are not alone. And thank you for being open about your struggle. It really helps to lessen the stigma of treating mental health issues.
And you kept making videos for us during this down month! we appreciate you, Laura. take heart. ❤❤❤ check clothing pockets if you still haven’t found your car key.
Sorry to hear you are struggling and thank you for your honesty! I always dread February. Too much winter, too little sunlight, too many dreary days. Here’s hoping Spring is kinder to us all! 🙏🤞🏻🌷☀️🌈.
This year also hasn't been going how I had hoped, but I think things will get better in the next few months when winter is behind us. I really appreciate you sharing this. It is very relatable and helpful.
Laura, your hopeless feelings sound very difficult. Keep doing what serves your healing and know this WILL pass. It really will. I'm so glad you have found a good therapist to be alongside you. ❤
So sorry you are struggling - May the Lord bless you with healing mercies and fill your heart with renewed hope. My husband suffered from depression last year but Glory to God is doing really well now. I am currently recovery from serve burnout. Sending you a big virtual hug. God bless, Love Rachel
I am right there with you when it comes to the beginning of this year. To me it just didn't really happen at least in my head. I truly don't remember it. Depression hit me hard years ago and I have good months but winter hits me hard with seasonal depression added. I also work retail during the holidays... I am very happy to hear you've been getting help and the work you have been able to do. I had finally taken the leap for therapy and had two sessions then covid hit and my therapist didn't do online therapy. They didn't tell me when he opened again so I have yet to find another one despite knowing I need it. I do wish you the best and know you're not alone. We can walk through this together.
Laura you are very brave to share all your vulnerabilities. Well done on getting the help you need. Be very kind, gentle, caring and patient with yourself. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Mary, Joes wife 🙇♀️👏💪👍🙏💐🐕🦺
Laura I respect you so much for being real and sharing this part too. This is indeed how to GYST when the S is coming at you relentlessly and insidiously! For the last year after stumbling across one of your videos I've been inspired by your dedication to letting go of un-necessaries and prioritising what's important. I've watched you holding home and family together, supporting everyone far and near. You've been a rock, a sort of Life and Home CEO, someone so warm and relatable to so many of us. You've even done it while your own health and vitality have been under par for a long time. I can't help wondering in all this prioritising, where YOU come? Who's looking out for Laura? Where's her version of Super Bowl adventures?! Glad to hear of your dear friend in Ireland, and that in time there will be fewer miles between you! I wanted to cheer out loud hearing you finding a great GP and therapist and having the courage to give yourself this opportunity to gently rebuild. Allergies in themselves can be utterly depleting, can't they, as can the medications we need. Is there any possibility of Long Covid or similar do you think, as well as all you've been dealing with? So glad to hear of your plans to find some sun in California! Hang on in there through this time of uncertainty and upheaval. We're all rooting for you xx💖
Thank you for sharing you thoughts and feelings on this! February has been a lousy month for me for quite a while now, both mental health wise and kind of overall. Sending hugs ❤
Hi from Germany. Please wear brighter colorful clothes like in the video with Scout. If you look good you will feel better soon. I had depressions for almost 20 years. It takes time but they will go. 🌸
Aww Laura... Sorry to hear you are feeling like that... I am not feeling top myself, and I read about an app someone recommended called Finch... It's like a tamagotchi in a way and when you do things like get out of bed, survive the day, the little critter grows... I am finding it oddly helpful!
So sorry to hear about your struggles, but also happy for everything you have managed to achieve despite the difficulties. I think I needed this kind of an honest and real video just now. It's near the end of the March now, and I'm still coming to terms with the passage of time. (a quarter of 2024 gone just like that??) Last week had been tough in particular: some absolutely dreadful family news and a traumatising situation I've been in, things piling up at work, and as a result, slipping even lower with basic self-care. But that's kind of on par with the rest of the year so far. To give an idea, I've moved to a new place just after Christmas, and I STILL haven't finished the deep clean I've been meaning to do, just the bare minimum I need to exist (like, I have cleaned two kitchen cabinets that I can use now, the rest are just sitting empty with the previous tenant's crumbs and dust). There have been good moments and things that made me happy, but overall it's been so tough to find the energy to do even the most basic things. So many things are stressful, and now I've made the decision to quit the new job that is making me deeply uncomfortable (the business is very shady and they literally lied to me about it during the recruiting process), but this comes with its own worries like being able to afford my bills and finding a new job. I do hope April is better, for all of us.
I am so proud of you too, you are still strong and brave 💪I'm sorry for what you're going through. Thank you for sharing your story ❤ ps check your shopping bags for your keys, I'll often drop mine in there if I'm carrying in groceries
Sorry it was a bad month. I've had my share of struggles since the year began, and I know I'm far from done, so I totally understand how you are feeling. Big hugs.
Thank you for your vulnerability. For me February was just off. It was weird and unproductive and big shifts just came out of the blue and threw everything out of whack and turned all my priorities upside down. Now I feel all a drift and like I have zero time to complete things that I have spent years being indecisive about. I hate this limbo land I’m in. Ugh 😩 and March is going to be more of the same.
It’s been a rough new year so far. Last year, I left my old career, started a new one, got married, and lost my mom to dementia. Once the holidays hit, my mental state just crashed. Exhaustion, mom grief, and seasonal depression hit like a truck. On top of all that, my husband and I are caretakers for his grandmother, who’s slowly declining. My eating habits went downhill with zero interest in exercise or any movement whatsoever. Now that the days are getting longer, and I’m working with a great therapist, the heaviness is lifting a bit. But it all still feels a bit endless. Hoping as the weather gets warmer it will lift a bit more.
There has been a lot going on in your life, well done for keeping it together! You are strong and will get through, we are here for you. Holding the space for you and thinking of you. Take time for yourself, take care xxx
So sorry to hear about your month. Same here though, doc put me home for the rest of the month, and upped my meds, and I'm looking for a therapist. Hang in there! And proud of you that you share this with the world, it helps!
Laura I’m sorry to hear you feel this way, just to say we all support you every step of the way and don’t be to hard on yourself, take some self love/care of yourself. ❤ sorry just as an extra have you had your vit D levels tested. X
I'm glad you are trying to take care of your mental and physical health. Give it time. On a positive note, think about how much lighter you feel from decluttering. Going thru this time would have been much heavier and stressful for you. Thanks for sharing.
THANK YOU for being so honest and open. You are not alone. ( Have you ever looked into SAD, which you might know stands for Seasonable Affective Disorder? Basically to me it is heavy depression that affects people during the months with less sunlight and cooler temperatures. It's Heavy. Hope this might help). And you are a great example of taking Good effective steps to reach out for Help. Congrats on that!!! I may follow!
Hi Laura, greetings from Donegal. Thank you so much for your honesty. I am sending you much love and prayers. This too shall pass.....believe this to be true..brighter days are coming, you are doing the work and you will see the rewards, I promise.
I'm not sure if this applies to you, but a lot of what your feeling can also be signs of perimenopause or menopause. The brain fog, the mental health issues, the sleep issues. I've been struggling a lot over the last year or two as my body is changing.
Thanks for your honesty on the shitty month you've had. But now you're into a new month, therapy is there to help and you have a lovely family supporting you. ❤ My February was okay, I always think it goes so quickly. But brighter mornings and lovely sunsets make me smile. So I'm looking forward to getting stuck into tidying the garden, taking some photos of items to sell or ultimately donate just to clear them out. Must make a list! 😏📃
I’m sorry to hear you had such a rough month…. 🤗 *hugs* (if that’s ok) Yeah, the weather has been crazy here too. I hope you’ll have much better days soon.
1. Sorry you are feeling like this. I’m glad you’re doing all the steps needed to help yourself. ❤ 2. You are so brave for sharing your truth. 3. I love that you say and HOW you say lovely.
I'm sorry to hear what you've been going through. I'm just getting over a head cold that amplified my Seasonal Affective Disorder. Perhaps your allergies are having that same effect of added heaviness in your head. Hopefully, waking up early will work in your favour when the clocks go forward this weekend and the extra bit of daylight will help you feel better.
It's been pretty pants here too, gloomy and wet weather wise and in terms of my interior. I am trying to get back to doing some stuff, but a little knitting is all I have managed outside work really. It looks normal on the outside, but rather Eeyoreish on the inside.
It's been a long time since I've stumbled into your channel. I'm so sorry it's been difficult lately. For what it's worth, though, you aren't alone. I'm sitting here amazed that you can write a bucket list for April. I can't even. As an aside... I wish I could download someone else's bucket list. Wouldn't that be nice? I could just put in two parents, two boys, ages 7 and 11, our available times and our budget and list would come to me. Someone with more energy than me should start this. :)
My plan for march is definitely letting my ankle heal, and return to the garden as soon as I can, because I miss that so much. Not being able to do anything is soo bad for my mental health. Also I am trying to get back into events and social life, but that's been my plan for month, and every time something new came up to disrupt my plans, so we'll see.
Hopefully march is brighter for you. For a motivational TH-cam try Laura on garden answer, she’s unintentionally motivating. It’s not peak season for her yet, but it is motivating to watch someone get a ton of work done and it’s mostly outdoors. She does mostly pretty landscaping and flowers kind of stuff.
This is one of the reasons i always have paper calendars. Plus you can write more in and look at multiple sides simultaneously and i can look at it while talking on phone and don't have to worry about battery power time etc!.. i find electronics are not always the best solution. On planes a reada paper back book.. better for eyes, no battery issues etc Totally get how you must have felt, especially with depression. I have burnout and depression.. and the smallest thing derails me. I have been off work 4 weeks.. 3 weeks for me to recover from exhaustion and covid stuff still lingering from xmas/new year.. but 1st week sick with youngest who brought bug home. 2nd week tooth OP. After 3rd week, with nothing new, I felt better and ready for work. But then, 4th week written off for son who is ill again. Just cancelled this weekend away for my bday because kid sick. Was really in need of it because haven't had vacation since last summer. Car going in garage for work 1000€+. Scared to book trip home to UK until car is sorted. Work messing me around again for summer semester. .. year to date.. SHIT!.. Try and remember.. tomorrow is a new day..that is what i tell myself.. although i have been doing that for a decade.. and still feel no nearer to feeling like "my old self." Ps. Same as you, the only thing that "keeps me functioning" is because i have to function for my kids. I have to as single mum, isolated abroad with no support. "high functioning depression" is a thing. Been watching psychologists on you tube. Pps. I have had insomnia for years.. especially between 0100 and 0400. .. part burnout and depression but also MENOPAUSE... are you maybe reaching menopause age?.. maybe look it up.. a lot of what you are saying are typical for this "menopausal" life phase.. a beginning to end. Ps. Skiing is great, fresh air, blue sky, sun.. you don't have to go fast! I don't. I meander slowly down the slope enjoying the sun and air etc.
I fell and I landed on my head and right knee in October. That started a bad period of my life since then. Oh, I also got the flu. It ended up with three months stuck inside. And a remodeling. Now I'm dizzy from the third head and knee bump since then. My house is somewhat a mess right now and all I want to do is ABSOLUTELY nothing. I am in therapy now and it is helping. Kathy B
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Thanks for your honesty in not hiding the lousy side of life.
My mom was hospitalized for most of February for an unknown infection which resulted in sepsis. My birthday is February 29th and the only thing I wanted was to spend the day with my mom. I was able to spend the day at the hospital with her so she gave me the greatest gift possible. She ended up passing away at 3:50 am on march 1st, a few hours after my birthday was over. My mental health is now the worst that it’s been in a long time, but I am doing my best to be there for my 5 children and my dad while we are all processing this devastation. 💔
I'm so sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry for your loss of your Mom. Take good care of yourself! Your Mom would want you to be well.
My deepest sympathies. I’m sending you so much love. 💖
Sincerest sympathies to you on the sad loss of your mam 🙏
So sorry for your loss
I just turned 83 so I have a different look at life. I’m just glad I wake up I’m healthy I don’t look my age. I was told I had cataract operation in January that went well on both eyes today I drove myself to Jacksonville Florida, which I live in Palm Coast so that’s about an hour away and I’ve never driven up there by myself, oh I’m a widow so my husband will take me everywhere so I got directions I didn’t get lost once I got to the city but I found a policeman and he was so sweet and guided me on my way had my appointment and will have my eyelids because they’re so droopy Operated on in May so that will make me look better. So I try to keep positive February for me was a little low. I was sad and I cry sometimes in the morning and if I don’t feel like doing anything I don’t do it I like when I accomplish something Makes me feel good but I don’t beat myself up. If I don’t I don’t have the strength I did when I was younger that’s gonna happen to everybody so I’ll do something and then I’ll rest and then I’ll get up and do some more that’s how I get through my day. Life can be a struggle. I do pray a lot that’s something new I mean I believe in God I always have, but I’m leaning a little bit more on him now, but that’s personal and private, but it helps good for you to see the doctors and take your meds. I am on an antidepressant Which helps me I am also on a pain pill because I have arthritis and I’ve had a knee replacement and you know I kind of hurt all over when I get up in the morning. Oh my goodness I think this is going on too long anyway, I wish you do a girl, health and happiness and you will get through it, the ups and downs. Oh boy happens to us all. You are so beautiful and lovely and of course young and you have a daughter which I think children being around them. I think that’s your comic relief. I love when I see my grand children step grand children, because they live the closest because they make me laugh and forget about myself, anyway, good luck Jeannie❤
It is Season Change Time, where... light changes, sounds change, colors change, routines change, sleep changes and spring cleaning commences after being shuttered for at least 3 months. Every season change, I get the same overwhelm because it is a lot of changes that we don't even realize. Took me years to figure out why I felt like this and then it hit me that it is normal for my system to buck at so much change all at once. More light shifts our sleeping pattern, birds chirping everywhere all day when it had been quiet. The colors go from quiet greys to bright yellows and blues. It takes time for our bodies and minds to adjust. It is like we have to relearn how to be busy. Welcome to the new Season.
Laura, things will get better I know. We all love and support you. Sending lots of light and love.
I am right there with you. My job collapsed and I struggle to get up and out. Forget housecleaning or organizing -- I was quite proud of myself to get four contractor bags of garbage out of my house and up to the dump, but my energy fizzled after that. I am awaiting funds from unemployment and literally have $26 left and no way to pay my bills this month. Thank goodness for SNAP - at least I can feed myself! There is a song which has a choral line of: "If it t'weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all." As miserable as all of this is, I know it can't last. Things will get better, I will find a job, I will be able to pay bills and life will improve. I am hoping for sooner rather than later. I wish you all the best of fortune!
I’m so sorry for you, please try to hang on, I’m sure I’m not the only one keeping my fingers crossed for you. All the best!
Sorry its been a bad month. I feel you, handed my notice in work as all just too much - I ended up covering 2-3 roles which was too much and I paid with my health. I'm privileged, I can take time out to figure out what's next. I'm pleased to hear that you're getting help and hopefully March will bring better days. Be kind to yourself 🤗
I think you are SO BRAVE to share all of this with us and I thank you for it, your honesty will help someone going through similar feel less alone in it all. I am not there right now but have been before. I hope the change in the season will give you a boost. Sending love from New England.
Thank you for being open and honest
I’ve been sick for a over a month.. with different things…. It’s been a horrible month…. Starting to think I’m falling into depression too …. It’s just been very difficult
Life does have a way of sucking like that some times. What matters is that you are taking the steps to feel better. Thank you for getting vulnerable and sharing how you've been feeling with us. I wanted you to know that your content is that "motivational TH-cam videos" for me 😊
I've had some health struggles as well, where I can't get stuff done and it makes me feel down to think this could hamper my summer plans. It's refreshing to hear your honesty and real talk, especially in an online world where everything appears to be so perfect all the time. Here's to a better spring for all of us!
Sorry you are struggling. I see you. And I really appreciate your continuing to make content despite the low mood. I'm not where you are, but I am in a transition period, so sort of uncomfortable in lots of ways. We will all be OK. ☘
Thank you for your honesty. So helpful to have real talk about mental health struggles. Be as kind to yourself as you would be to a friend - don’t beat yourself up.
Hi Laura. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so low. I completely empathise as issues with my personal life have been a challenge. The latest piece of 💩 to hit the fan is my broken hand, so my February was crap.
You can and will climb out of this. Best wishes from England. x
Dear Laura, as someone that has been fighting depression for some decades now, I can totally relate to what you're going through. I think you're reacting to it in all the right ways and now hopefully it is a matter of time and you'll feel better. Surviving is a huge goal to have when you're depressed so I guess all else you achieve in March is gravy 🙂. Thank you for being vulnerable online and showing what real life is all about. I sincerely hope you recover soon. Lots of love and good vibes. ❤
Hang in there Laura, this will pass (I’ve worn the T-shirt). Really think about how many hundreds indeed thousands of people you have helped with your wonderful videos. Sending lots of good vibes and hugs.
I've had bad months since mid november, starting out with colics, going on to a bad back, missing out on a lot of social and jojfull events for both of it (and having to change and limit my diet a lot) and then just when I was about to restart with actual living i sprained my ankle mid February and had to stay home and not moving again. That did a lot of bad things for my mental health as well...
It's not been a good time so far.
Wishing both/all of us that things will improve soon!
You get huge gold stars for honesty, my dear. I'm sorry Depression has reared its ugly head, but you are doing something about it; for which you get another dozen gold stars. My goals for March are to visit my mom, get some more submission packets out for my manuscript, and start seeds indoors for the garden.
It really is a cummulative thing, you cope with so much and then the brain and body feel the effect of constant worry and constantly being 'strong'. The dullness of February has seemed longer than ever, it is the greyness that drags one down also, hope it gets brighter for you Laura in all ways.
Sorry you are struggling, it's hard. I am older, single, retired woman and also have been struggling. I lost my mom in 2022 and have been dealing with bother her loss, and finalizing her estate. I've have been dealing with pain for a while and am now having shoulder surgery mid March. Like you, I've been trying to,get out more, it's just too easy to stay at home. I bought season tickets to the local theater which helps me get me out and I watch for different things going on in my area and usually can find a friend or two to go to something different.
Here's to having a better March and hoping the surgery fixes my shoulder problem. Wishing you a better March.
I 've suffered
with major depression year's back and it's not a good feeling, so sympathise with you, it took me ages to learn that you have to try and distract yourself from the negative thoughts that keep going around your head, not easy. Much better now, have ing said that, January wasn't my best month, my car broke down in the dark in a really dangerous place, thankfully a gentleman stoped and came to my rescue but cost me a fortune to get it
fixed, was hoping February would be better and then I got two nasty colds one on top of the other must be over 4 weeks now and still left me with a lingering cough. At least spring is round the corner, but like you temperatures here in the UK are very up and down, gone cold lately.
Unfortunately in life there has to be rain to make rainbows, but you're doing great!! 👏💗
As others have said, you are one of the motivating channels to me. Thank you for being so realistic and relatable. Sending our love and wishing you the best x
Hi Laura,
I’ve been watching your channel for years through the many seasons of your life. I’ve seen you rise to challenges with honesty, courage and humour. Depression is hard. You’ve taken already taken steps to make it less sucky, and things will improve, little by little. You are a woman who does hard things and you will get through this. Sending love and good wishes. Thank you for taking care of yourself.
Kudos to you that you have pushed thru to look for help ! I have tremendously valued your videos and have looked forward to each one . Amazing that during this trying time you have given us new insights , guided us thru a substantial purge of your upstairs and demonstrated how these monthly resets can carry us along ! Bravo Laura and thank you .
I'm sorry you are struggling right now, Laura. My February has also been dire! After 2-3 years of coping with my son's health related stress it has finally caught up with me. I too have started talking to a therapist through work and my second session I basically cried the whole time 😬. I think I can only have 6 sessions and we are narrowing down what to focus on. Many of my friends are going through tough times too so I don't want to offload on them. I know it will get better but I hate feeling like this. I think some of my issues are due to peri-menopause too. Big virtual hugs to all that are having a tough time x
I appreciate your honesty and vulnerability in sharing with us. It’s a tough road and I’m so glad you were able to reach out and get some help. I think that all of us have had some bad and/or sad moments. It is picking up and moving onward that can be painful and it can make the journey even more difficult. I’m going through my own sad times right now and although I should be honest with those involved, I just don’t have the energy to deal with the reactions. Sometimes adulting sucks…
You have so many things to be thankful for, I know it's hard to see all the good things when in the middle of depression. I only have my husband and suffer from several chronic illnesses so am indoors most of time. If it weren't for my personal relationship with my Lord Jesus I do not know how I could go on. Life is hard. Harder still with no family left, was only child and lost my beloved parent 27 and 30 years ago. An activity I learned to do on my hardest days was to look out the window and find one thing of beauty that I could be thankful for, it works! I'm happy you're seeing therapist and not giving up. Prayers for you going up friend🩷🙏
February was one of my worst months also, which is probably why I didn't make time to watch vids from my favorite creators and am just now getting to it. It seems like you're feeling a bit better in your more recent stuff - I'm glad to see that. I'm also feeling a bit better. And I'm proud of you too for just doing what you could given all the responsibility being on your shoulders while your husband was gone and then sick. You do more work for home and content creation than most people do on good days. It's amazing!
Thank you so much for being real and transparent - videos like this are so important - they help those of us who are struggling feel less alone. I admire your courage and ability to share the struggles as well as the triumphs. Thank you.
Dearest Laura sending you biggest hugs🫂 I totally understand what you are feeling as I have been through depression too and it can tough, so I am pleased you are looking into getting some support ❤ I am really wishing you all the very very best recovery and soon you will feel better, take good care of YOU and thank you for sharing real life situations we love you 🥰 xxxx❤❤❤❤
Wait Y2K=vintage 😱 I think of 1960s or older 💀 Separately, sending you love, gratitide, and health of all kinds. So glad you have a supportive bestie and are enjoying daughter time in these tough times. 🥰
Thanks for sharing, it is brave to admit the way you feel sometimes. I have lost all of this year so far. I have been ill, still am. It has not been easy as both my husband and son have serious conditions. I'm starting to recover but feel the depression lurking ready to pounce. Hope the year gets better for all. Stay strong and carry on! xx
It was good to hear you have a friend to support you. I also have friends that help me get through the down times. Sometimes just listening to their problems gives me a break from mine.
I love the idea of going to a Vintagefest. My 6 year old is always asking about the 80’s so that would be something fun for her to experience. I also loved the room declutter video you did with your kid. Very relatable with my own daughter
Sorry to hear about your days being rough. My February pretty much sucked my purse strings as wall thermostat broke /sink bathtub drain clogged up /and my vehicle transmission lines busted out all same week. My March intends to be low spend or no spend days and looking forward to springtime sun and warmth. Be good to yourself, we appreciate you ❤😊
Dear Laura, thank you for keeping it real. I had a lousy February too, all good intentions from NY out the window, just feel exhausted and disappointed in myself along with all the usual sh*t life throws at us. Hugs and here’s to a better month to everyone struggling ❤
I struggle so bad w mental health issues. All we can do is get through each dah. A day at a time. I also suffer from depression and anxiety especially anxiety. I am currently looking after two very elderly parents with no siblings to help me. Plus I am trying to work and deal with everything that goes along is looking after the needs of others on a limited budget and an unsupportive partner. Thank you for your honesty. It helps to know its not just me. Im sure in time things may improve, I hope they do for you. You are a lovely person
Very sorry you had a bad couple of months but love the way you phrased it “here hold my beer”. We all go through bad periods as they say this too shall pass. Hang in there and glad to hear you are taking time for you. You’re doing great!
All the ups and downs may feel like a burden... but, it sounds like you're doing great - keeping on, keeping on. You've got a lot of strength. It's difficult to feel like it when we're still trying to squeeze through the wringer. You've got this❤️♾️❤️🌈
Feb is a difficult month for me, actually Jan too. A year ago my husband was in the hospital for a month and passed in Feb. So this Feb was 1 year. We were together 34 yrs, married most of them. Days go by with me being in "hybernation". I've been going to a group support for widow/widowers for several months. That's been helping me get out of that hybernation more often.
Thank you for sharing what you've been going through and how you're handling it. Hoping that the longer, warmer days and outside help will begin to clear the fog we're all in.
Hey Laura! I feel you. This year seems so hard even though my horoscopes are all so freaking great haha. I guess it's ok to suck sometimes. It might be bad now but it's not forever. I'm sending you a small ball of good thoughts, the best I can conjure atm haha. It's ok to not be at your best. You're still doing amazing as for someone struggling. Look at you, you made your own little enterprise and that's pretty cool. And even if you didn't, that's ok too. I kinda suck I have to accept that maybe it's ok to be no one and do nothing interesting and go nowhere and be friendless and push people away and maybe I still have an innate right to just be, even though it's not impressive existence. Hold on, Laura
Take good care of you Laura & feel proud, in the positive, wonderful way, you are handling everything. Sending warmest “get well soon” wishes & so enjoy & appreciate your channel xo 😘🌺❤️
I suffer from depression as well. Thank you for sharing, that life isn't picture perfect ❤ I also feel like these 2 months of the year, have gone by too quickly 😮 But impressed that you got so much stuff done, while struggling. Take care. Hugs from Denmark 🥰
Thank you for all of this! I totally understand that it doesn't seem like two months have went by already! Time goes by too fast! I haven't accomplished much of anything I wanted to yet for 2024, but I have to just keep thinking that I will and what I have done so far makes a difference. You have taught me that! I re watch older you tube videos too for motivation and ideas I may have missed or forgotten. Baby steps in decluttering, hiccups in life cause pauses in plans. To me and So Many others you show us the hiccups and the lets turn it around and be productive and make things better!! Only take on what you need too, don't create more of a mess by doing too much, and let yourself say it's ok! Life of course doesn't always allow that. I am taking on a change and not liking it, but I need to deal with it. (I always have New years hopes, never works out as well as I hope that's for sure ...) I will make it through it all with family and from your advice and videos!! I follow you because your Genuine and Real with life! You help other and you help yourself !!! I watch you and see the Beauty in you everyday! You ROCK Laura! ❤️❤️
You are a wonderful person! I have watched your videos when I was in Germany (back in my home country of Canada) and when you were in Ireland. You are inspiring! I started my decluttering way back then and it’s a process that continues. I was laid off from a company I’d been with most of my career in August but thankfully found a new job in February. It was a tough time for me. I had no purpose so you can be proud of yourself for being proactive . Your heart is in the right place…your daughter comes first! Your family is very important to you as are your friends. Thanks for your frank and honest videos, Laura! Take good care!
I am proud of you too! 🤩 I know how difficult it can be to seek help when you are depressed. I hope your medication (in combination with your therapy & sleep routine) will enable you to regain your enjoyment of life. I take antidepressants year round but needed to increase my dosage for this winter due to seasonal depression as well as regular depression. Please remember--you are not alone. And thank you for being open about your struggle. It really helps to lessen the stigma of treating mental health issues.
And you kept making videos for us during this down month! we appreciate you, Laura. take heart. ❤❤❤ check clothing pockets if you still haven’t found your car key.
Sending you big hugs ❤ It’s hard to get through the valley’s in life, you’re doing a great job! And sharing helps the rest of us not feel so alone.
Sorry to hear you are struggling and thank you for your honesty! I always dread February. Too much winter, too little sunlight, too many dreary days. Here’s hoping Spring is kinder to us all! 🙏🤞🏻🌷☀️🌈.
This year also hasn't been going how I had hoped, but I think things will get better in the next few months when winter is behind us. I really appreciate you sharing this. It is very relatable and helpful.
Laura, your hopeless feelings sound very difficult. Keep doing what serves your healing and know this WILL pass. It really will. I'm so glad you have found a good therapist to be alongside you. ❤
So sorry you are struggling - May the Lord bless you with healing mercies and fill your heart with renewed hope. My husband suffered from depression last year but Glory to God is doing really well now. I am currently recovery from serve burnout. Sending you a big virtual hug. God bless, Love Rachel
I am right there with you when it comes to the beginning of this year. To me it just didn't really happen at least in my head. I truly don't remember it. Depression hit me hard years ago and I have good months but winter hits me hard with seasonal depression added. I also work retail during the holidays... I am very happy to hear you've been getting help and the work you have been able to do. I had finally taken the leap for therapy and had two sessions then covid hit and my therapist didn't do online therapy. They didn't tell me when he opened again so I have yet to find another one despite knowing I need it. I do wish you the best and know you're not alone. We can walk through this together.
Laura you are very brave to share all your vulnerabilities. Well done on getting the help you need. Be very kind, gentle, caring and patient with yourself. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Mary, Joes wife 🙇♀️👏💪👍🙏💐🐕🦺
Sending big hugs from across the pond in England. Hoping brighter days are just around the corner. X
Laura I respect you so much for being real and sharing this part too. This is indeed how to GYST when the S is coming at you relentlessly and insidiously! For the last year after stumbling across one of your videos I've been inspired by your dedication to letting go of un-necessaries and prioritising what's important. I've watched you holding home and family together, supporting everyone far and near. You've been a rock, a sort of Life and Home CEO, someone so warm and relatable to so many of us. You've even done it while your own health and vitality have been under par for a long time. I can't help wondering in all this prioritising, where YOU come? Who's looking out for Laura? Where's her version of Super Bowl adventures?! Glad to hear of your dear friend in Ireland, and that in time there will be fewer miles between you! I wanted to cheer out loud hearing you finding a great GP and therapist and having the courage to give yourself this opportunity to gently rebuild. Allergies in themselves can be utterly depleting, can't they, as can the medications we need. Is there any possibility of Long Covid or similar do you think, as well as all you've been dealing with? So glad to hear of your plans to find some sun in California! Hang on in there through this time of uncertainty and upheaval. We're all rooting for you xx💖
Thank you for sharing you thoughts and feelings on this! February has been a lousy month for me for quite a while now, both mental health wise and kind of overall. Sending hugs ❤
Hi from Germany. Please wear brighter colorful clothes like in the video with Scout. If you look good you will feel better soon. I had depressions for almost 20 years. It takes time but they will go. 🌸
Aww Laura... Sorry to hear you are feeling like that... I am not feeling top myself, and I read about an app someone recommended called Finch... It's like a tamagotchi in a way and when you do things like get out of bed, survive the day, the little critter grows... I am finding it oddly helpful!
So sorry to hear about your struggles, but also happy for everything you have managed to achieve despite the difficulties. I think I needed this kind of an honest and real video just now. It's near the end of the March now, and I'm still coming to terms with the passage of time. (a quarter of 2024 gone just like that??) Last week had been tough in particular: some absolutely dreadful family news and a traumatising situation I've been in, things piling up at work, and as a result, slipping even lower with basic self-care. But that's kind of on par with the rest of the year so far. To give an idea, I've moved to a new place just after Christmas, and I STILL haven't finished the deep clean I've been meaning to do, just the bare minimum I need to exist (like, I have cleaned two kitchen cabinets that I can use now, the rest are just sitting empty with the previous tenant's crumbs and dust). There have been good moments and things that made me happy, but overall it's been so tough to find the energy to do even the most basic things. So many things are stressful, and now I've made the decision to quit the new job that is making me deeply uncomfortable (the business is very shady and they literally lied to me about it during the recruiting process), but this comes with its own worries like being able to afford my bills and finding a new job. I do hope April is better, for all of us.
I am so proud of you too, you are still strong and brave 💪I'm sorry for what you're going through. Thank you for sharing your story ❤ ps check your shopping bags for your keys, I'll often drop mine in there if I'm carrying in groceries
Sorry it was a bad month. I've had my share of struggles since the year began, and I know I'm far from done, so I totally understand how you are feeling. Big hugs.
I'm sorry Laura. Sending some love all the way from New Zealand. ❤🌏🥰
I'm so sorry to hear ypu have had such a tough time Laura, hoping March onwards is so much better for you. Sending hugs
Thank you for your vulnerability. For me February was just off. It was weird and unproductive and big shifts just came out of the blue and threw everything out of whack and turned all my priorities upside down. Now I feel all a drift and like I have zero time to complete things that I have spent years being indecisive about. I hate this limbo land I’m in. Ugh 😩 and March is going to be more of the same.
It’s been a rough new year so far. Last year, I left my old career, started a new one, got married, and lost my mom to dementia. Once the holidays hit, my mental state just crashed. Exhaustion, mom grief, and seasonal depression hit like a truck. On top of all that, my husband and I are caretakers for his grandmother, who’s slowly declining. My eating habits went downhill with zero interest in exercise or any movement whatsoever. Now that the days are getting longer, and I’m working with a great therapist, the heaviness is lifting a bit. But it all still feels a bit endless. Hoping as the weather gets warmer it will lift a bit more.
There has been a lot going on in your life, well done for keeping it together! You are strong and will get through, we are here for you. Holding the space for you and thinking of you. Take time for yourself, take care xxx
So sorry to hear about your month. Same here though, doc put me home for the rest of the month, and upped my meds, and I'm looking for a therapist. Hang in there! And proud of you that you share this with the world, it helps!
I loved this video, thank you for making this type of content - that said, I hope you don't go through this specific awfulness again!
I’m a new subscriber. I’m sorry you’ve been struggling. I appreciate your honesty and openness and I hope you start to feel better soon. Hugs❤🐦
Be kind to yourself when you are feeling down, I find watching a comedy, reading, doing a jigsaw puzzle all good escapism and a day at a time.🥰
Laura I’m sorry to hear you feel this way, just to say we all support you every step of the way and don’t be to hard on yourself, take some self love/care of yourself. ❤ sorry just as an extra have you had your vit D levels tested. X
I'm glad you are trying to take care of your mental and physical health. Give it time. On a positive note, think about how much lighter you feel from decluttering. Going thru this time would have been much heavier and stressful for you. Thanks for sharing.
So sorry to hear about your issues. ❤
THANK YOU for being so honest and open. You are not alone. ( Have you ever looked into SAD, which you might know stands for Seasonable Affective Disorder? Basically to me it is heavy depression that affects people during the months with less sunlight and cooler temperatures. It's Heavy. Hope this might help).
And you are a great example of taking Good effective steps to reach out for Help. Congrats on that!!! I may follow!
Wishing you grace. I hope you have counseling and medical support. Hugs and good health.
Sending you good thoughts from the US and hoping the spring will bring a boost. This is a tough time of year for so many, myself included.
Hi Laura, greetings from Donegal. Thank you so much for your honesty. I am sending you much love and prayers. This too shall pass.....believe this to be true..brighter days are coming, you are doing the work and you will see the rewards, I promise.
I'm not sure if this applies to you, but a lot of what your feeling can also be signs of perimenopause or menopause. The brain fog, the mental health issues, the sleep issues. I've been struggling a lot over the last year or two as my body is changing.
I hope your year gets better. Been following you for a while. Sending love❤
Thank you for being so honest, I feel like you have just given me a big hug. Wishing you all the very best ❤
Thanks for your honesty on the shitty month you've had. But now you're into a new month, therapy is there to help and you have a lovely family supporting you. ❤
My February was okay, I always think it goes so quickly. But brighter mornings and lovely sunsets make me smile. So I'm looking forward to getting stuck into tidying the garden, taking some photos of items to sell or ultimately donate just to clear them out. Must make a list! 😏📃
Thanks for sharing what’s going on - I hope this fog lifts for you soon!
I’m sorry to hear you had such a rough month…. 🤗 *hugs* (if that’s ok)
Yeah, the weather has been crazy here too.
I hope you’ll have much better days soon.
What i have seen of you - You are Bubbly.
I suffer with ME and winter is worse.
Take care and be kind to yourself
Thank you Laura for your honesty.
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1. Sorry you are feeling like this. I’m glad you’re doing all the steps needed to help yourself. ❤
2. You are so brave for sharing your truth.
3. I love that you say and HOW you say lovely.
Thank you for sharing, good on you for getting some help.
Big cyber hugs. I can understand your struggle and hope you will feel more yourself soon.
HI Laura, I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad. Sending love ❤️
I'm sorry to hear what you've been going through. I'm just getting over a head cold that amplified my Seasonal Affective Disorder. Perhaps your allergies are having that same effect of added heaviness in your head. Hopefully, waking up early will work in your favour when the clocks go forward this weekend and the extra bit of daylight will help you feel better.
We just got back from the 80s Cruise. It was wonderful. The 80s make me happy. The bands were amazing, especially Air Supply.
It's been pretty pants here too, gloomy and wet weather wise and in terms of my interior. I am trying to get back to doing some stuff, but a little knitting is all I have managed outside work really. It looks normal on the outside, but rather Eeyoreish on the inside.
Sending hugs and hope for you Laura💐💐💐
It's been a long time since I've stumbled into your channel. I'm so sorry it's been difficult lately. For what it's worth, though, you aren't alone. I'm sitting here amazed that you can write a bucket list for April. I can't even. As an aside... I wish I could download someone else's bucket list. Wouldn't that be nice? I could just put in two parents, two boys, ages 7 and 11, our available times and our budget and list would come to me. Someone with more energy than me should start this. :)
My plan for march is definitely letting my ankle heal, and return to the garden as soon as I can, because I miss that so much. Not being able to do anything is soo bad for my mental health. Also I am trying to get back into events and social life, but that's been my plan for month, and every time something new came up to disrupt my plans, so we'll see.
Hopefully march is brighter for you. For a motivational TH-cam try Laura on garden answer, she’s unintentionally motivating. It’s not peak season for her yet, but it is motivating to watch someone get a ton of work done and it’s mostly outdoors. She does mostly pretty landscaping and flowers kind of stuff.
This is one of the reasons i always have paper calendars. Plus you can write more in and look at multiple sides simultaneously and i can look at it while talking on phone and don't have to worry about battery power time etc!.. i find electronics are not always the best solution.
On planes a reada paper back book.. better for eyes, no battery issues etc
Totally get how you must have felt, especially with depression. I have burnout and depression.. and the smallest thing derails me. I have been off work 4 weeks.. 3 weeks for me to recover from exhaustion and covid stuff still lingering from xmas/new year.. but 1st week sick with youngest who brought bug home. 2nd week tooth OP. After 3rd week, with nothing new, I felt better and ready for work. But then, 4th week written off for son who is ill again. Just cancelled this weekend away for my bday because kid sick. Was really in need of it because haven't had vacation since last summer. Car going in garage for work 1000€+. Scared to book trip home to UK until car is sorted. Work messing me around again for summer semester. .. year to date.. SHIT!..
Try and remember.. tomorrow is a new day..that is what i tell myself.. although i have been doing that for a decade.. and still feel no nearer to feeling like "my old self."
Ps. Same as you, the only thing that "keeps me functioning" is because i have to function for my kids. I have to as single mum, isolated abroad with no support. "high functioning depression" is a thing. Been watching psychologists on you tube.
Pps. I have had insomnia for years.. especially between 0100 and 0400. .. part burnout and depression but also MENOPAUSE... are you maybe reaching menopause age?.. maybe look it up.. a lot of what you are saying are typical for this "menopausal" life phase.. a beginning to end.
Ps. Skiing is great, fresh air, blue sky, sun.. you don't have to go fast! I don't. I meander slowly down the slope enjoying the sun and air etc.
Highs and lows over here. I got COVID. Feeling better now. February has undone projects all over the place.
I fell and I landed on my head and right knee in October. That started a bad period of my life since then. Oh, I also got the flu. It ended up with three months stuck inside. And a remodeling. Now I'm dizzy from the third head and knee bump since then.
My house is somewhat a mess right now and all I want to do is ABSOLUTELY nothing.
I am in therapy now and it is helping.
Kathy B