Thank you so so much for sharing this❤ So similar to my story! My Childhood was emotionless, an emotional absent narcisstic mother, traumatized father (lost his father in early age). After moving out my life was pretty good. Good jobs, travelling, I loved music, sports, had friends, was eager to learn new things, had a clear mind. My childhood trauma was reactivated at the age of 30 after splitting up with my twin flame that was hell on earth! 2 years later still griefing I met another guy, got pregnant within 6 months, birth was traumatising the time after overwhelming and no sleep and breaks and the relationship was narcisstic. I had a complete shutdown at the age of 36 from severe stress, then we broke up at 38 and I thought now I can start new and leave this horror behind. But I got into functional freeze, brain fog, exhausted, was not able to work as a teacher more than a couple hours a week (migraine, overwhelm), never been able to enjoy life again, being a good mother, having fun, feeling alive. It‘s been 8 years now and I just found out about a year ago that I was traumatized and was fighting with probably (c)PTSD and functional freeze. No doctors, clinic, therapeut, psychiatrist or midwive has ever mentioned someting about trauma or dysregulated nervesystem. And I live in Switzerland a country with one of the best health systems in the world! Really?! Anyway I found some good methods on the way because I never gave up finding relief and SE as well as EFT, emotional code and cqm helped me. I am still working on my childhood wounds but it gets better. Again thank you for sharing your story and inspire me to write mine down💛.
True, we need to feel it to heal it. Also I had a horse riding accident and badly injured my face, it seemed to unlock certain traumas from childhood so I get that
I've done some work on myself and feel I've made some progress, but I am stuck. I came here seeking help in healing rather than obsessing over the trauma and its cause. Recently, despite having a general feeling of confidence around others, I had a boss who reminded me very much of a mean uncle from my early childhood, and I inexplicably felt reduced to the temperament of a scared child anytime I was alone with him. However, in the presence of others, I very much enjoyed yanking his chain, so to speak, and we laugh and pick at each other. It was so odd. I didn't about the nervous system reverting back to those early years. My traumatic event was my mother's passing in Dec 2018. I don't know what happened to the old me. I do miss her, and so do my sons. I appreciate your videos and support. Thank you.
Thank you for sharing!! That's the key to learn how to heal as oppossed to obsessing about the WHY.... It sounds like you experienced an emotional flashback with your boss in the past. There is an over coupling in your nervous system that being alone means.... something - which has to do no doubt with your uncle. Over couplings are challenging because they link two things together that don't belong together AND they don't go away with time - we have to help our nervous system break the coupling dynamics!!! If you ever wan tto work deeper with your nervous system be sure to check out my live weekly zoom meetings - this month (October 2024) we're actually deep diving on the topic of emotional flashbacks 😀. Here's the link if you ever want to check out what the School of Transformation is all about: www.micheleleenieves.com/school-of-transformation
The pandemic did a number on my sense of time, which was already shot because of my habit of dissociating whenever I experienced loss. My body already had no idea what year it was and now I'm in hypervigilance like I'm 6 all over again
Michele, you might want to know that at 2:24 in the video, you said the trauma got stuck in the body but the captioning said the trauma got "stuck in the butt." I thought you might want to fix that if you knew about it.
I related to a lot of aspects and topics in this video, especially with the timeline and how aspects of my identity and feelings shift. I feel confused about what is happening and don’t know where I stand with all of it. I have reflected about this at times - but I just feel… lost? Almost like I don’t know what is happening to me and what to think of these personal changes and feelings associated with traumas. Is there any advice for someone who’s in a similar position within this journey for addressing trauma and how it is affecting me? I’m not sure where to start, how to identify and learn what is happening, etc. lots of confusion here and would love advice on what next steps to take!!! ❤❤
Coming out of our trauma responses and into our authentic self .... isn't easy and doing it alone can feel overwhelming. I'd like to invite you to check out my monthly membership - where I meet live on zoom with survivors of emotional trauma from all over the world- we meet live weekly and we do the inner work together. Each month we take one different aspect of the healing journey and we work on it for that month. For example this month we are working on changing our harsh inner critic and turning it into a compassionate dialogue. Next month in October we are working on Overcoming Toxic Shame. I'll leave the link here for you to check out to see if it's a good fit for you: www.micheleleenieves.com/school-of-transformation
Thank you so so much for sharing this❤
So similar to my story! My Childhood was emotionless, an emotional absent narcisstic mother, traumatized father (lost his father in early age). After moving out my life was pretty good. Good jobs, travelling, I loved music, sports, had friends, was eager to learn new things, had a clear mind.
My childhood trauma was reactivated at the age of 30 after splitting up with my twin flame that was hell on earth! 2 years later still griefing I met another guy, got pregnant within 6 months, birth was traumatising the time after overwhelming and no sleep and breaks and the relationship was narcisstic. I had a complete shutdown at the age of 36 from severe stress, then we broke up at 38 and I thought now I can start new and leave this horror behind. But I got into functional freeze, brain fog, exhausted, was not able to work as a teacher more than a couple hours a week (migraine, overwhelm), never been able to enjoy life again, being a good mother, having fun, feeling alive.
It‘s been 8 years now and I just found out about a year ago that I was traumatized and was fighting with probably (c)PTSD and functional freeze. No doctors, clinic, therapeut, psychiatrist or midwive has ever mentioned someting about trauma or dysregulated nervesystem. And I live in Switzerland a country with one of the best health systems in the world! Really?!
Anyway I found some good methods on the way because I never gave up finding relief and SE as well as EFT, emotional code and cqm helped me. I am still working on my childhood wounds but it gets better.
Again thank you for sharing your story and inspire me to write mine down💛.
True, we need to feel it to heal it. Also I had a horse riding accident and badly injured my face, it seemed to unlock certain traumas from childhood so I get that
I've done some work on myself and feel I've made some progress, but I am stuck. I came here seeking help in healing rather than obsessing over the trauma and its cause. Recently, despite having a general feeling of confidence around others, I had a boss who reminded me very much of a mean uncle from my early childhood, and I inexplicably felt reduced to the temperament of a scared child anytime I was alone with him. However, in the presence of others, I very much enjoyed yanking his chain, so to speak, and we laugh and pick at each other. It was so odd. I didn't about the nervous system reverting back to those early years. My traumatic event was my mother's passing in Dec 2018. I don't know what happened to the old me. I do miss her, and so do my sons. I appreciate your videos and support. Thank you.
Thank you for sharing!! That's the key to learn how to heal as oppossed to obsessing about the WHY.... It sounds like you experienced an emotional flashback with your boss in the past. There is an over coupling in your nervous system that being alone means.... something - which has to do no doubt with your uncle. Over couplings are challenging because they link two things together that don't belong together AND they don't go away with time - we have to help our nervous system break the coupling dynamics!!! If you ever wan tto work deeper with your nervous system be sure to check out my live weekly zoom meetings - this month (October 2024) we're actually deep diving on the topic of emotional flashbacks 😀. Here's the link if you ever want to check out what the School of Transformation is all about: www.micheleleenieves.com/school-of-transformation
The pandemic did a number on my sense of time, which was already shot because of my habit of dissociating whenever I experienced loss. My body already had no idea what year it was and now I'm in hypervigilance like I'm 6 all over again
I struggle with dissociation too.
Thank you ,
Michele, you might want to know that at 2:24 in the video, you said the trauma got stuck in the body but the captioning said the trauma got "stuck in the butt." I thought you might want to fix that if you knew about it.
lol - oh well - just gotta laugh at myself with that one!!!!
@@cptsdrecovery Yeah, it's pretty funny!
I related to a lot of aspects and topics in this video, especially with the timeline and how aspects of my identity and feelings shift.
I feel confused about what is happening and don’t know where I stand with all of it. I have reflected about this at times - but I just feel… lost? Almost like I don’t know what is happening to me and what to think of these personal changes and feelings associated with traumas.
Is there any advice for someone who’s in a similar position within this journey for addressing trauma and how it is affecting me? I’m not sure where to start, how to identify and learn what is happening, etc. lots of confusion here and would love advice on what next steps to take!!!
❤❤
Coming out of our trauma responses and into our authentic self .... isn't easy and doing it alone can feel overwhelming. I'd like to invite you to check out my monthly membership - where I meet live on zoom with survivors of emotional trauma from all over the world- we meet live weekly and we do the inner work together. Each month we take one different aspect of the healing journey and we work on it for that month. For example this month we are working on changing our harsh inner critic and turning it into a compassionate dialogue. Next month in October we are working on Overcoming Toxic Shame. I'll leave the link here for you to check out to see if it's a good fit for you: www.micheleleenieves.com/school-of-transformation