I listened to Mudvayne every day when I had time while deployed in Iraq! They were an escape from the BS going on around me! Every track they ever recorded saved my life! I Love this band!
I hope you realize now that these lying politicians sent poor people to kill other poor people, not for freedom, not for democracy, but for oil , control and power. So many lives destroyed because of these lies and manipulation
I was on the USS Ashland. Ghost Ship was out on the way over or the way back? But “Not Falling” is all I listened to… and C.C.R. I did learn what depression was. Nothing like smoking a cigarette and, manning a .50 Cal and driving through the desert, up for 72 hrs straight. Good times 😏
It vents the rage, hatred and anger in a way that isn't truly dEsTrUcTiVe!! The MOSH PIT is a place of combat, bit you lift the fallen and send or take them to safety, out of it, to be able to continue together! 🤘🤘🤘
You should read the study that showed people that have more extreme tastes in music tend to have more (I hate this term) emotional intelligence. Digressing, I think that term just sounds narcissitic and fake. All it really means is someone who has developed the human condition and realizes other humans probably feel something similar. Emotional intellipushover. 3rd/4th wave feminist buzzword to manipulate people into always having empathy and being pushovers. And usually the ones who claim to have it are the most narcissitic main character syndrome people who want to come off as altruistic when it's either to manipulate or pander
3 combat tours in Iraq. Mudvayne helped me get thru a lot of metal issues. Especially since my wife (back home) wasn’t giving me the support I needed. I felt alone and no one understood what I was going thru. I went to their most recent concert last year and cried almost throughout the whole concert.
Brother I feel ya have same feelings about Alice in chains Operation deasert storm Layne Staley got me through came home to empty house wife took everything and left while I was deployed only thing she left was my revolver and one round almost used it but my chaplain helped alot
My brother, I'm right with you (only one tour though). Music has been the only thing keeping me going sometimes. Don't give in to the demons. You deserve a fulfilling life. As does anyone else reading this that is going through tough times. I love you. I'm proud of who you've become. And I'm glad you're still here.
I feel it this song got me thru my divorce bc he cheated and lied and stole and tried to make me seem crazy when I caught him so I would scream this song sorry you did not get support thank you for all you have done for us I love her breakdown it hits on the head.
Gotta admit, her final thoughts of the song just left me speechless. I've never thought about it that way. Thank you so much for the insight on this one.
I love your point that you never thought of it this way. That is one of the fundamentals of therapy in bestowing the understanding that each and everyone perceives the world differently, no wrong no right. Well depending on your beliefs.
I have always asked myself this am I happy now if not then what can I change . To be fair I really didn't start doing it until my toxic ass marriage and going thru divorce.
Started playing bass at 60 during Covid. My daughter introduced me to Ryan Martinie playing Dig, (partially for shock factor). I was hooked. Last year went to Mudvayne, Coal Chamber. The tour was called the Psychotherapy Sessions. Chad stopped the show and talked about his darkness and how therapy saved him. He said, The world is a better place with you in it. Ironically, I'm a LPC psychotherapist
Melbourne show? It's a shame you didn't get to see them in their heyday. Saw them in 2001, 2004 and 2005 and the most recent show was a bit of a disappointment :(
@chadfawley2924 There are a ton of "one of the best" albums from every genre. I just never here LD50 be talked about in that way when it absolutely deserves it.
So getting a therapy session on TH-cam , based on a mudvayne song was not on my 2024 bingo card. Thank you for this it has resonated with me more than you could know!
I was like, "Why am I watching this woman try to move to Mudvayne?!" And then she had the nerve to go ahead and describe me! Lol. I appreciate your comment. Mental health is no fucking joke. I think things like this are spectacular to expand outreach. Be well!
The fact that you truly GET this song is a beautiful thing. And your breakdown of it had me emotional. Please don't ever stop doing this kind of reaction. These videos help so many people.
The saddest and most burdensome part of this kind of relationship is the other is never happy, and after you’ve depleted your energy, your will to continue, and stripped yourself of everything that makes you “you”, the relationship ends and you’re left with a festering shell of what you used to be, stinking of self hate and anger. It’s not an easy place to be. This kind of music helps you find a little bit of relief knowing you are not just some detritus without value.
Ive herd this song a million times and never thought this much into it. I just got out of a relationship like that. I have nothing now. No job, no car, living with loving helpful family. Ive never been to therapy or anything like that. Just listing to this song and this woman talk. It sounds like the words are directed straight to me. It makes me feel so much better, The fact that i feel like this is a normal problem people have. Im not alone with these feelings. Thank you so much!
As long as it's not the video!! So then you can hear the whole song!! There's a lot left out in the video! But I do agree with this suggestion!! Ten fold!!
her input at the end was so spot on. 17 years married felt like I was giving and and giving when I finally stopped the demands and all the traits of my wife showed through. till this year when she moved out and feels like a divorce is coming. I've been healing more and more feeling pretty good therapist telling me I'm doing all the positive things they want me to and set goals. no longer do I feel like i'm in a pit trying to climb out of. things will come in waves and I have the tools to make sure I no longer get knocked down.
I listen and hear his pain because that man is me. It was both of us. No amount of therapy will ever heal the scars. Perhaps it isn't their purpose ro heal, but a reminder and a guild to why we strive for better. They teache us great lessons.
Ladies & gentlemen, this is why therepists are a thing. They are trained to think differently to help and understand their patience problems/issues. Taylor, this is my first video of yours I had watched, and before this video I had never heard nor seen your videos or your account. After watching this video I immediately followed your account! Thank you so much for being a therepist and helping those in need!
Been a fan of them since 2001. Their best tracks are all off of their first album, LD 50. I recommend Severed, Death Blooms, Nothing to Gein, Cradle, Dig, and -1. Their second album has some great tracks too: Not Falling, Mercy, Severity, Trapped in the Wake of a Dream, World So Cold, and Skrying.
I was looking for someone to mention "Scream With Me"! That one's hit very heavy and personal to me through several times in life! Though another one that's been really hitting home for me lately, for several reasons, is "Scarlet Letters". Though I know that's not one of their more popular ones, it's just been resonating with me through recent losses, relationship problems, depression, and other shit I don't feel like pulling back up to mind at the moment. Anyways, yeah! That'd be one I'd love to see, her reviewing Scream With Me!
Everything and Nothing would be a PERFECT reaction! The lyrics are deep and instrumentally and vocally, it's one of my favorites from their album LD50, which has 0 skips at all!
Mudvayne is one of the best bands out there. Obviously listen to A World So Cold and Not Falling, plus Scream With Me (mental health related and one of my depression songs)…but also listen to underrated A Cinderella Story. That whole album is great.
I cry every time i hear this song!! And its because of life traumas and stupid shit thats happened throughout my entire life!! Its more remembering where i came from, and what ive molded myself into!! The amazing woman at my side, two beautiful kids that are learning to be amazing people, and not have to deal with the absolute shit i went through!! Love this song!!!!
I'm not a huge Mudwayne fan but your interpretation but I'm 100% going through this in life right now and the way you dissected and interpreted this song
Their 'Dig' is a must. If you want more songs with lyrics w/deep meanings, yes, there's many, I hope you try a couple from Mad Season (Layne Staley: vocals): River of Deceit __ Wake Up. So long as you react to "other than metal" stuff that is. This, their only, album was recorded near the end of '94 and Layne was not in good shape. But he poured a lot into those songs.
Why do people always suggest Dig when talking about Mudvayne. It's literally the worst song on LD50. That doesn't mean it's bad, that album is f'n amazing though and there are so many better songs than Dig. -1, Cradle, Death Blooms, Prod, Nothing to Gein, Severed, etc.
@@ToolFist598 They suggest that song just for the sake of the "Brr-Brr Deng". The bass-line is good, so they compulsively suggest that song. (At least, that would be my guess.)
So great to hear these analysis of songs (as a middle aged guy) that resonated with me when I was a teenager. Probably should have gone to therapy 20 years before I did lol
Yes yes yes. Taylor, absolutely thank you so so much. She broke down every emotional part of myself to me and this song. In my previous relationship I was an anxious overgiver in Her own words. I am 100 in love with this. I gave everything to a narcissist and I got absolutely destroyed. I can't say thank you enough to Taylor for this video. I NEEDED THIS 100%
I gave 100% of myself to a toxic relationship. I got emotionally destroyed. I chose to make bad decisions for myself because I couldn't find worth in myself. After time being alone I'm learing to gain my own power again. I know I'm a avid emotional giver.
"Happy" is on my break-up playlist. Really covers how I've felt since, especially after finding out how much better her life has been since, despite how much she hurt me and how much it still hurts 2 years later.
From ThriceTheThird: @GarrestheWarrior Hello! I think it is natural to be hurting even a few years after going through the loss of a significant other. Even if its through a break-up and not death. It is a similar process, and feeling that we can experience/grieve. I think the best thing we can do in these situations is try to not focus on the individual who is gone, and what they are currently up to in life. More so, focus on ourselves and our self-love/self-care. I think the best thing we can do in these situations is to try to channel the emotions from it, into self growth and becoming something better then we were the day before, even if just gradually/little by little over time. Focusing on how we can make our lives better, instead of how much better the person who hurt us' life is. I think could make a huge difference in how we feel. Regardless I hope you find what you need and can feel a bit better with time. Thank you for sharing with us what you are going through, and feel free to share more if you ever want/need. I have found that talking about what I am going through with peers in a safe environment as helped me a lot in feeling better with the emotions I am dealing with, and I hope the same for others.<3
From DyllonKG: @GarrestheWarrior Hey my friend. I have definitely felt this exact feeling before - this sort of stuckness while you watch the world, and a specific person, thrive. This entirely makes sense. www.loom.com/share/98ee9b1587f34846b799c1fad835e334
I love mudvayne and especially this song. I am going through this exact situation right now so your commentary felt like it was talking directly to me. Thank you for this. I needed it
Almost 20 years later and this song still reminds me of a shitty life that once was. Thanks for reacting to this, this song is underrated and the band is making a comeback! Love the the videos!
They just announced a tour with Megadeth and All That Remains. They are actually playing 20 minutes from my house and im going to find anyway possible to go to see them.
@@BMH-cb9jt Nice. I’m glad you’ll get to. I saw Mudvayne with Deftones, Linkin Park, Limp Bizkit and Metallica at Summer Sanitarium 2003, then saw Mudvayne open for koRn in Toronto in 2006. I’m glad I did. I went to a Megadeth concert, but I was there to see In Flames; not Trivium, Lamb of God or Megadeth
@@cpurday9681how can you not like Lamb of God? Greatest band ever. Saw them live in 07' SOTU Waverly Hills Sanatorium in Louisville KY. 20 bands that day they headline. GWAR played before them, Darkest Hour, Goat Whore, In Flames, Chimaira, Hatebreed,
I healed up from it. She couldn't say anything that I haven't heard before to hurt me, so she used emotional and mental manipulation instead. Years later, I found an amazing woman who doesn't want to hurt me. We got married and have an incredible little boy.
Insane. Insane that I've loved this song since 2005 and have never viewed it as asking myself that question. I needed this. I'm in this situation right now and it's ripping me apart. I'm not happy and she should have never had that power. Thank you. Thank you.
I just discovered your channel not that long ago, and you know what's so great about it is,l that I've told people for years that metal music is therapeutic to me and nobody believes me. Your channel is really showing people that it can be that way despite alot of the hate surrounding this genre
The majority of this song is actually him talking to himself, Its him asking his inner-self if hes happy now, realizing what hes done to himself, tearing himself apart, putting himself in a hole
Man I love her breakdowns of these heavy metal songs. Most metalheads hear the message that artists convey to us, other people only hear the “angry” music or screams like it’s all rage, when the message is in the lyrics and when you get that visceral feeling or goosebumps when the message seems tailored to you by the artist.
The crazy part is when that is how your family "loves". Until you can get away from it you can't even see it and you will pick people to love that treat you the same way. When you get real love it's almost impossible to believe or understand.
I was involved in a relationship with a woman who we promised to ourselves and the higher power that we’d always be together, thick or thin. Completely made me feel wanted and happy from someone for the first time in my life. Then a few months later just completely left me. No reason, just left. So this song really drove home how I felt in a nushell.
Thanks for covering mudvayne. As someone who appears "non-metal" on the surface its great that you took time to validate their music, message, and lyrics, and the power of it. People, especially those of us who love music, feel everything so deeply and its great that all those feelings and the music we love are valid. Also, thank you for your message! Very well done!
@heartsupport I recently went through a divorce and it’s been almost two years since it’s been finalized. This song and the way you broke it down definitely gave me a different perspective on why it’s so impactful towards that situation and how it actually is helping me move forward instead of dwelling in the past . Truly appreciate the reactions and truth given by yall !❤️
I totally agree. When I first heard that song I was dealing with relationship issues I heard this song as being aimed at those who hurt me. Now that I am in a healthy relationship I hear the song being aimed inwards when I make bad decisions and stress myself out
Love how you said a lot of people go through things like this. Music brings people together so you don’t feel alone. Knowing you aren’t alone is half the battle in my opinion.
for me and a friend this song really hits home, not to a relationship but the struggle with alcohol. It's like there are two different people and the sober one is screaming on the inside. stay strong everyone!
I think you're a spot on and I think this is such an awesome analysis of the song and obviously I've listened to it in that capacity and that's why I'm giving you your flowers for this
This is what happened to me. When the other person says "I give and give and give and your still not happy". Me "I didn't ask for it" and then pure anger set's in like I did something horrible. The value on the things we do for each other are not the same to both of us. Doing 10 thing's for me and ignoring the one thing I asked for is not OK.
I have loved that song for years. I have had so many failed relationships. I never knew why I felt such a connection with it. That is until you explained it. I am in a relationship now. That is making feel torn apart emotionally mentally and physically.
If we are on a Mudvayne kick then "Dig" and "Death Blooms" are some of the most popular as well as deep in the philosophy of the lyrics. They have gone on record multiple times as to the meaning of the album name as well as the songs. Mudvayne didn't get the recognition that they really deserved.
Thanks for all that you said at the end of the video. Altho most of the time we know that we are being used, we need someone outside ourselves to tell us what exactly to do in that situation, and that is just what happened to me now. So thank you, it really means a lot for me right now!!
I've learned to keep my self happy. To each their own. Don't change for someone else, is what I learned and burned from. Otherwise it's always take, take, take. Put and end to it and be YOU. Let them like YOU. Not what they want you to be.
Saw Mudvayne during their reunion in Mansfield at Inkcarceration with KSE and Slipknot and others. I never felt so much joy than in that crowd. Metalheads sometimes get this rep of being dark and brooding but we feel everything so strongly and that bonding of music within each other, knowing we are not alone in our feelings, can bring us out of the darkness so well
This song brings up old scars that i cant move past. Legs quit working fell to a wheelchair by 21 and wont ask someone else to try to join. I didnt think i was going to see 29 years old but I'll be 32 in a few weeks so. Life in a chair isn't perfect but its life
Spent half my life in a relationship with one person whom this song is absolutely targeted towards. I never even thought about it so in depth before now. I'm so glad to have left that. The final messages were absolutely impactful. Thank you for this.
Listening to metal can be very cathartic. The emotion that alot of bands put into their music helps the listener to release, even if its just for a little bit
this is genuinely one of my favorite songs, the way its melodic and and heavy at the same time. I also like how rock and metal tackels sadness and mental illness in such a raw way (like this song)
A connection I've made with this song outside of people pleasing/anxiousness is that of forgiveness - sometimes people are forgiven repeatedly but continuously choose to cause ill will/damage etc. After a while, when they have taken you piece by piece it can feel like emotional scars are being reopened and you are left to regrow (heal) from the beginning all over again. This can help sometimes with building emotional resilience and transforming yourself from the inside out but the chaos is still felt and seen from the outside.
I'm not sad, but I feel I have so much sadness inside me. Every time I hear the song can't help but cry without feeling anything, the tears just fall without control.
From toastaintbad: @jcgmusic16 Hi @HeartSupport_Fans, Music have so many different interpretations. It's okay to cry in a certain songs that might relate or not in a certain way. I also cry too in a few songs that I listen to. You aren't alone in type of situation. Some days you are going to happy or sad. Just remember to take care of yourself. Sad doesn't always have to be dark or negative. People do cry to make themselves feel better.
From Micro: @jcgmusic16 It's okay to cry, friend. It's okay to let the tears out. At the end of the day we're only human beings, and allowing ourselves to feel what needs to be felt can sometimes be a real crutch. Maybe this song reveals in you emotions that are usually left hidden or pushed aside, and maybe listening to it brings this opportunity to reconnect to how you feel deep inside. I know for me personally that there are songs that have this powerful effect on me of letting wounds I've been holding inside being expressed somehow. could it be through anger or tears, when I allow myself to embrace the emotion and sit with it, I usually feel a little better after. Like a weight that has been lifted thanks to the magic of music and relating to the emotions it generates in us. I've personally carried so much sadness in me that sometimes I wonder how I'm still functioning. Like you I'm not necessarily sad at other times, but it feels like there is this "soil" in me that is made of sadness, nostalgia, sorrow, sometimes even agony. It feels like there's a pain within that doesn't speak for one source or one time when I felt hurt, but for the accumulation of pain I've been feeling throughout my life. It's scary though because oftentimes it makes me wonder what's inside of me. It feels a little bit like looking at a very dark pit without seeing the bottom of it, wondering how high it is and if it is safe to try to explore it. It can be scary to feel that deep inside there's a lot of sadness, and to just not know what to do with it though. When it catches you by surprise, it can make you wonder how deep it is and for how long ar y ou going to feel sad or cry. What if you open that door,is it ever going to stop? How can you know if you'll regain some control over it or not at some point? Is it going to completely overwhelm you, making you feel like you just can't function anymore? Somehow, we'd rather avoid those emotions, push them away and bury them very deep - and it's a normal reaction. Still, they have a reason to be, a reason to exist, even if we might not always know why it is there at a given moment. It's okay and safe to release the tears when you need it, friend, and I hope that this time doing so brought a little bit of peace to your heart. Music offers these times of self-reflection and quiet where emotions happen to seem so loud inside of us. Somehow, it's a beautiful gift that we offer to ourselves and a powerful way to reconnect with our soul, but it's certainly exhausting. It takes so much energy to let ourselves *feel* and stop pushing away the things we'd rather avoid. If anything, you did well by naming and identifying these emotions when you were feeling them. I hope the sadness will give room for a lot of beauty and joy in your heart moving forward, at your very own pace. -Micro
Her breakdown of this awesome song hits me hard. I have spent my life letting others take from me and trying to be who they want me to be. I am not true to myself and it hurts.
From Micro: @Evo-nt6be Oh, my friend. This is such a heartbreaking place to be in. Feeling like you are present in this world but you can't show your true self somehow. That you had to give up and authenticity in order to be accepted, loved and seen in this world. But the version of you that others see is not your true self, is not who you feel you are deep inside... So you see and feel this huge distance between what others see of you and the way you actually feel every day. You wish to start showing who you really are, but then others are used to see you differently, so there is a risk to feel even more abandoned and alone. Change feels scary and intimidating when you feel stuck under a mask that isn't yours yet allows you to function and navigate in this world. There is no doubt that it hurts to be in this position, and that somehow being aware of it adds even more pain to your heart. As human beings, there is nothing more beautiful and comforting but to feel really SEEN for who we are, without needing to hide anything. It offers this validation that you are enough as you are, that you belong and that there is nothing to be ashamed of when it's about the person you are. At the opposite, having to wear a mask gives this subtle narrative that you have to hide parts of you, that you would have to be ashamed of being you. It makes me thing of these games for children - where you would try to place a cube shape into a circle, realizing that it doesn't work even if you use all of your strength. It's disheartening, but you keep on trying because using the right shape *feels* wrong and unknown. There is something truly intimidating about learning to show our authentic selves to the world, especially when we've been so used to please others and be what they want us to be. For what it's worth, as someone struggling with social and performance anxiety, what you describe has always been a part of my life, and learning to expose more of my own vulnerability is a slow, learning process. It's hard when there's constant doubts in your mind that pressure you to be more focused on how other might perceive you and what they need of you, rather than what truly resonates with your heart. Sending much hugs and strength your way as you navigate this. On a positive note: you are aware of this pattern. You are not simply living it, you also have perspective over it, and that alone is a real strength to cultivate and nurture. It is thanks to this awareness that you might encourage yourself to increment small changes into your life that would allow you to get closer to the person you want to be when you are interacting with others. Being a certain way, wearing a mask, might have been a way to protect yourself and respond to needs you had previously. Now you are aware of how it works and how much you'd like to free yourself from it. There is HOPE with this awareness, my friend. Hope for change to be possible, for embracing new pathways and learning new ways to be in relation with others. I wholeheartedly believe in you. :heart:
I'm still trying to figure out how TF you've never heard of this song it's literally 20 years old.... I had the pleasure of growing up listening to mudvayne... Thank you 98kupd PHX az
Not relationship related. I completely lost myself searching for the approval, love and support of my parents and mudvayne has helped me in the midst of that husk i had become and only now after the last five years of hard work am i rebuilding and growing outside of the hurt. Its an everyday struggle
This song helped me voice my emotions while going through my first divorce. I'm 7 months on the other side of my 2nd divorce and this song is on repeat in my head 24/7. Not helping so much this time around.
I've been listening to Mudvayne since high school, was lucky enough to see them in 2003 w/ Deftones, Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, and Metallica. Hoping to see them again soon (missed them recently when they were nearby)
Thank you so much! Watching one of my favourite songs just embrace you and capture your heart the first time u meet was so cool, Stand in the Corner and scream with me is another one I’d like to see your reaction to
I love your breakdown of the lyrics. Just over a week ago, my wife of almost 10 years asked for a divorce because in her words, she wanted to have fun and she's seen how her depression brought her down, she didn't want mine to bring her down. I supported her for almost years though numerous phases of depression, anxiety, suicide attempts... Yet when I finally realized I was suffering from depression myself, there was nothing there for me. It was soul crushing. The years I tried to give everything I could then to get no help when I needed it most.
From toastaintbad: @chadfricke-fp8ii Hi @HeartSupport_Fans, Thanks, for expressing your concerns! Mental health issues can be exhausting for someone to live through each day. It's good for you to communicate with your wife about the issues that you guys have going through many years. @PlatformReply I agree that it's important to take care of yourself before others. Did you explain your wife about suffering depression too? Depression is hard for others to battle because I used to have it too. I have numerous of mental health issues and keep telling myself to remain positive. Just think of your mental health issues like a wall blocking you to pass through. No one likes to be block by something to go through. Do I expect you to be happy 24/7? No!!! You are going to have good and bad days. I recommend to be really brutal honest on how you feel with her mental health issues. You can't always depend on your loved one to help with your depression and anxiety. I don't want anybody closed to me be more stressful with my mental health issues. People have a outside life and need to take care of themselves. It's okay to vent others but you need to remember on how your words and actions affect someone's mental health. Don't let mental health issues impact her and your marriage. I personally don't know if she is seeing a therapist for mental health issues. If your wife did divorce you, she can't be in another relationship if she doesn't improve her mental health. I hope you & your wife able to fight through this difficult challenge.
@@HeartSupport I reread my original comment and it's almost unreadable. She suffered depression all throughout our marriage and I always supported her. After all those years, I finally needed support from her and there was none. She left to start fucking my best friend instead the same day she asked for the divorce. Needless to say, there's no marriage to save, just lives to salvage and rebuild. On the rebuilding, it's rough. Some days are harder than others. The meds help, won't lie. Progress is being made though. Lives are being rebuilt. I won't let this break me.
From Micro: @chadfricke-fp8ii Wow, friend, my heart goes out to you. It is so hard to be in this position of pouring your heart out and giving everything you have to the very person you love, then being told that as they are doing better and *you* need them now, they choose to move into a different direction than yours. It feels like somehow you don't have the right to go yourself through a rough time. That you would be at fault for having similar needs she had previously. It's heartbreaking to feel like the care and love for someone isn't reciprocated. It is especially during those challenging times that we hope to rely on the people closest to us. The ones we've learn to trust with ourselves. Losing them during such a crucial time feels like hitting the nail on the coffin. It is completely understandable to have expected that, during your own dark times, your wife would have been by your side like you were for her. Just because that's how marriage should be - partnering through the good *and* the bad seasons of life together, not side by side. I'm sorry this has been your experience, friend. It's absolutely heart-shattering to be abandoned that way. I hope you can keep in mind that your struggles are not a fault, and that her decisions are only hers. It certainly doesn't erase the pain and heartbreak... but through all of this you are absolutely worth being supported, cared for, and loved. May the meds keep helping, and may you seek all the support you need. We're in this with you. :heart:
This song makes me think about the person that gave me so much trauma. I won't go into detail because I haven't even talked to my therapist about it. I haven't been diagnosed, but my therapist thinks I have a lot of trauma and that could be the cause of all the personality issues. But I feel the scars still ripping open part. Every day I have to deal with how awful my life was from like 5 to 27. Why I let this person treat me that way for so long? He was my brother. Dropping family isn't easy, but I'm so much happier now. Really feel the friendship interpretation though. I do that like crazy
I've always thought that Chad was singing this to himself. When you live with the kind of trauma that Chad does, you never look outside for all the pain in your life. You always assume the failure of relationships and your world is all inside. So you rip those scars open evaluating all that pain trying to figure out what mistake you made that brought it all on yourself. So you always walk around like a raw nerve, from evaluating and over evaluating every interaction you ever have...because the one constant in all of our painful interactions and failed relationships is us. So it must be our fault right? Trauma sucks dude.
I listened to Mudvayne every day when I had time while deployed in Iraq! They were an escape from the BS going on around me! Every track they ever recorded saved my life! I Love this band!
I hope you realize now that these lying politicians sent poor people to kill other poor people, not for freedom, not for democracy, but for oil
, control and power. So many lives destroyed because of these lies and manipulation
I was on the USS Ashland. Ghost Ship was out on the way over or the way back? But “Not Falling” is all I listened to… and C.C.R. I did learn what depression was. Nothing like smoking a cigarette and, manning a .50 Cal and driving through the desert, up for 72 hrs straight. Good times 😏
Definitely a band that's helped me well serving
Still wish I could scream like Chad 🤘🏽😎
Thank you for your service 🫡
"I love butterflies SO much" - Taylor's first reaction to MUDVAYNE.
Now she's needs to dig
Lmao
@@Michael97Moore Agreed. Happy is a good song, but there are much heavier tracks. Dig is a good one for sure, and maybe IMN or Cradle.
@@Yuri-oj5lk or its softer but do moth by hellyeah
@@Michael97Moorebbr ding bbr ding bbr ding
I love how how most therapists understand and support listening to metal as therapy. It's a safe way to get out the darkest, most painful emotions.
The lyrics are dark sometimes but the music is so badass it still feels uplifting somehow.
Metal music gives voice and a safe escape for inner turmoil and pain. Better than lashing out.
The METAL saved me a few times
It vents the rage, hatred and anger in a way that isn't truly dEsTrUcTiVe!! The MOSH PIT is a place of combat, bit you lift the fallen and send or take them to safety, out of it, to be able to continue together!
🤘🤘🤘
You should read the study that showed people that have more extreme tastes in music tend to have more (I hate this term) emotional intelligence.
Digressing, I think that term just sounds narcissitic and fake. All it really means is someone who has developed the human condition and realizes other humans probably feel something similar.
Emotional intellipushover. 3rd/4th wave feminist buzzword to manipulate people into always having empathy and being pushovers. And usually the ones who claim to have it are the most narcissitic main character syndrome people who want to come off as altruistic when it's either to manipulate or pander
3 combat tours in Iraq. Mudvayne helped me get thru a lot of metal issues. Especially since my wife (back home) wasn’t giving me the support I needed. I felt alone and no one understood what I was going thru. I went to their most recent concert last year and cried almost throughout the whole concert.
I honestly feel that!!!
Thank you very much for Protect in us
Brother I feel ya have same feelings about Alice in chains Operation deasert storm Layne Staley got me through came home to empty house wife took everything and left while I was deployed only thing she left was my revolver and one round almost used it but my chaplain helped alot
My brother, I'm right with you (only one tour though). Music has been the only thing keeping me going sometimes. Don't give in to the demons. You deserve a fulfilling life. As does anyone else reading this that is going through tough times. I love you. I'm proud of who you've become. And I'm glad you're still here.
I feel it this song got me thru my divorce bc he cheated and lied and stole and tried to make me seem crazy when I caught him so I would scream this song sorry you did not get support thank you for all you have done for us I love her breakdown it hits on the head.
Gotta admit, her final thoughts of the song just left me speechless. I've never thought about it that way.
Thank you so much for the insight on this one.
I love your point that you never thought of it this way. That is one of the fundamentals of therapy in bestowing the understanding that each and everyone perceives the world differently, no wrong no right. Well depending on your beliefs.
I have always asked myself this am I happy now if not then what can I change . To be fair I really didn't start doing it until my toxic ass marriage and going thru divorce.
I've just gone through this same frame shift. Speechless.
Amazing speech at the end. Made the song have intense meaning. Suits the energy of the song. Hellofa take!
Started playing bass at 60 during Covid. My daughter introduced me to Ryan Martinie playing Dig, (partially for shock factor). I was hooked. Last year went to Mudvayne, Coal Chamber. The tour was called the Psychotherapy Sessions. Chad stopped the show and talked about his darkness and how therapy saved him. He said, The world is a better place with you in it. Ironically, I'm a LPC psychotherapist
Melbourne show? It's a shame you didn't get to see them in their heyday. Saw them in 2001, 2004 and 2005 and the most recent show was a bit of a disappointment :(
Badass.
I saw them also at ozzfest in 05 @@moventur
LAC Therapist here, just working on my independent license hours, still have anothr 18 months at least. And I love the bass too.
Very cool. Need more in the profession. Are you in AZ
The whole LD50 album is one of the best complete pieces of musical art.
Literally the first must have to any collection
Agreed.. start to finish
Same with ‘The End of All Things to Come’!
I'm definitely a heavy metal/,rock guy but another album that was magic.. BEASTIE BOYS PAULS BOUTIQUE
@chadfawley2924 There are a ton of "one of the best" albums from every genre. I just never here LD50 be talked about in that way when it absolutely deserves it.
So getting a therapy session on TH-cam , based on a mudvayne song was not on my 2024 bingo card. Thank you for this it has resonated with me more than you could know!
I was like, "Why am I watching this woman try to move to Mudvayne?!" And then she had the nerve to go ahead and describe me! Lol. I appreciate your comment. Mental health is no fucking joke. I think things like this are spectacular to expand outreach. Be well!
The fact that you truly GET this song is a beautiful thing. And your breakdown of it had me emotional. Please don't ever stop doing this kind of reaction. These videos help so many people.
The saddest and most burdensome part of this kind of relationship is the other is never happy, and after you’ve depleted your energy, your will to continue, and stripped yourself of everything that makes you “you”, the relationship ends and you’re left with a festering shell of what you used to be, stinking of self hate and anger. It’s not an easy place to be. This kind of music helps you find a little bit of relief knowing you are not just some detritus without value.
Ive herd this song a million times and never thought this much into it. I just got out of a relationship like that. I have nothing now. No job, no car, living with loving helpful family. Ive never been to therapy or anything like that. Just listing to this song and this woman talk. It sounds like the words are directed straight to me. It makes me feel so much better, The fact that i feel like this is a normal problem people have. Im not alone with these feelings. Thank you so much!
I feel what you mean. You're not alone.
We all feel lonely. Few of us are truly alone. We just need to embrace those that are here for us. Even if we don't yet know them. Be well.
This band saved my life and my sanity. Forever and always will be my ultimate favorite band
You should consider doing there world so cold next.
As long as it's not the video!! So then you can hear the whole song!! There's a lot left out in the video! But I do agree with this suggestion!! Ten fold!!
The live version on a (possibly?) Swedish TV show is the best version.
Was going to say this myself. Cold is wonderful
YES!!
I agree. Very powerful song
her input at the end was so spot on. 17 years married felt like I was giving and and giving when I finally stopped the demands and all the traits of my wife showed through. till this year when she moved out and feels like a divorce is coming. I've been healing more and more feeling pretty good therapist telling me I'm doing all the positive things they want me to and set goals. no longer do I feel like i'm in a pit trying to climb out of. things will come in waves and I have the tools to make sure I no longer get knocked down.
I listen and hear his pain because that man is me. It was both of us. No amount of therapy will ever heal the scars. Perhaps it isn't their purpose ro heal, but a reminder and a guild to why we strive for better. They teache us great lessons.
Some other Mudvayne tunes to check out would be IMN and Death Blooms. Both fairly gnarly in their own ways.
Cinderella Story
Death Blooms 💯
I actually forgot about Cinderella story. Going to put that album on now
Death Blooms is still my favorite Mudvayne song. 👍
Chad wrote Death Blooms about his grandmother when she was dying. I wish Mudvayne would write some new music!
Ladies & gentlemen, this is why therepists are a thing.
They are trained to think differently to help and understand
their patience problems/issues.
Taylor, this is my first video of yours I had watched, and
before this video I had never heard nor seen your videos or
your account.
After watching this video I immediately followed your
account!
Thank you so much for being a therepist and helping those
in need!
Been a fan of them since 2001. Their best tracks are all off of their first album, LD 50. I recommend Severed, Death Blooms, Nothing to Gein, Cradle, Dig, and -1. Their second album has some great tracks too: Not Falling, Mercy, Severity, Trapped in the Wake of a Dream, World So Cold, and Skrying.
Don’t forget The New Game and Cinderella Story
Fish out of Water. About drug abuse, etc.
@@superblahman I love that song. That whole album.
All these suggestions these people commented perfect choices for mudvayne music
I requested -1 as well. Just pulls out the despair.
Thank you so much! They have some really great music. ‘Dig’ ‘Death Blooms’ and ‘scream with me’ are all great.
Hell yes!
I was looking for someone to mention "Scream With Me"!
That one's hit very heavy and personal to me through several times in life!
Though another one that's been really hitting home for me lately, for several reasons, is "Scarlet Letters". Though I know that's not one of their more popular ones, it's just been resonating with me through recent losses, relationship problems, depression, and other shit I don't feel like pulling back up to mind at the moment.
Anyways, yeah! That'd be one I'd love to see, her reviewing Scream With Me!
Everything and Nothing would be a PERFECT reaction! The lyrics are deep and instrumentally and vocally, it's one of my favorites from their album LD50, which has 0 skips at all!
Dull Boy by Mudvayne is one that's very close to my heart
all work and no play
Mudvayne is one of the best bands out there. Obviously listen to A World So Cold and Not Falling, plus Scream With Me (mental health related and one of my depression songs)…but also listen to underrated A Cinderella Story. That whole album is great.
Her trying to headbang is so cute.
I love chads voice
Love Chad's growl... If I could I would order my food in the drive thru that way 🤘🏽😎
@@PML78 I especially love his voice in hellyeah moth more especially
I cry every time i hear this song!! And its because of life traumas and stupid shit thats happened throughout my entire life!! Its more remembering where i came from, and what ive molded myself into!! The amazing woman at my side, two beautiful kids that are learning to be amazing people, and not have to deal with the absolute shit i went through!! Love this song!!!!
I'm not a huge Mudwayne fan but your interpretation but I'm 100% going through this in life right now and the way you dissected and interpreted this song
Their 'Dig' is a must. If you want more songs with lyrics w/deep meanings, yes, there's many, I hope you try a couple from Mad Season (Layne Staley: vocals): River of Deceit __ Wake Up. So long as you react to "other than metal" stuff that is. This, their only, album was recorded near the end of '94 and Layne was not in good shape. But he poured a lot into those songs.
Mad season is a great choice. I thing Dirt the song from Alice in Chains or the album itself
Why do people always suggest Dig when talking about Mudvayne. It's literally the worst song on LD50. That doesn't mean it's bad, that album is f'n amazing though and there are so many better songs than Dig. -1, Cradle, Death Blooms, Prod, Nothing to Gein, Severed, etc.
Heard that live before it was released as a single.
@@ToolFist598 yep, dig is easily the worst song on the album.
@@ToolFist598 They suggest that song just for the sake of the "Brr-Brr Deng".
The bass-line is good, so they compulsively suggest that song. (At least, that would be my guess.)
DIG (Live Ozzfest 01’) is absolutely brutal!!! Happy is the friendlier version of that song haha
Went to OZZFEST 2001 in DallasTx... what a line up 🤘🏽😎
hellyeah - hush. please you'll love it
I was coming here to say the same thing! Fantastic song and an epic band!
And moth
And Love Falls
And Black December
Yes!!
So great to hear these analysis of songs (as a middle aged guy) that resonated with me when I was a teenager. Probably should have gone to therapy 20 years before I did lol
Adema- giving in
Yes please
Fun fact: Mark Chavez (lead singer) is Johnathan Davis’ (KoRn) brother.
@@christineghere2461 I know that I got to meet Jonathan and his family at chuck e cheese here in Bakersfield where korns from back in 07
@@chrismunoz7859 that’s so awesome!🤩
Adema with Chavez was legit!
I actually asked Nate to have you do this one for me so thank you both! Loved the breakdown and analysis, Thank You!
Yes yes yes. Taylor, absolutely thank you so so much. She broke down every emotional part of myself to me and this song. In my previous relationship I was an anxious overgiver in Her own words. I am 100 in love with this. I gave everything to a narcissist and I got absolutely destroyed. I can't say thank you enough to Taylor for this video. I NEEDED THIS 100%
I gave 100% of myself to a toxic relationship. I got emotionally destroyed. I chose to make bad decisions for myself because I couldn't find worth in myself. After time being alone I'm learing to gain my own power again. I know I'm a avid emotional giver.
"Happy" is on my break-up playlist. Really covers how I've felt since, especially after finding out how much better her life has been since, despite how much she hurt me and how much it still hurts 2 years later.
From ThriceTheThird: @GarrestheWarrior Hello! I think it is natural to be hurting even a few years after going through the loss of a significant other. Even if its through a break-up and not death. It is a similar process, and feeling that we can experience/grieve. I think the best thing we can do in these situations is try to not focus on the individual who is gone, and what they are currently up to in life. More so, focus on ourselves and our self-love/self-care. I think the best thing we can do in these situations is to try to channel the emotions from it, into self growth and becoming something better then we were the day before, even if just gradually/little by little over time. Focusing on how we can make our lives better, instead of how much better the person who hurt us' life is. I think could make a huge difference in how we feel. Regardless I hope you find what you need and can feel a bit better with time. Thank you for sharing with us what you are going through, and feel free to share more if you ever want/need. I have found that talking about what I am going through with peers in a safe environment as helped me a lot in feeling better with the emotions I am dealing with, and I hope the same for others.<3
From DyllonKG: @GarrestheWarrior Hey my friend. I have definitely felt this exact feeling before - this sort of stuckness while you watch the world, and a specific person, thrive. This entirely makes sense. www.loom.com/share/98ee9b1587f34846b799c1fad835e334
I love Mudvayne so much! Not Falling is my all time favorite!
I truly felt your reaction to the lyrics of this. This song is relatable on so many levels.
I love mudvayne and especially this song. I am going through this exact situation right now so your commentary felt like it was talking directly to me. Thank you for this. I needed it
Almost 20 years later and this song still reminds me of a shitty life that once was. Thanks for reacting to this, this song is underrated and the band is making a comeback! Love the the videos!
They just announced a tour with Megadeth and All That Remains. They are actually playing 20 minutes from my house and im going to find anyway possible to go to see them.
I’m jealous. They’re not coming to Canada.
I want to see Mudvayne and ATR again. Could easily leave without seeing Megadeth again.
@cpurday9681 I seen Chad and Vinnie with Hell Yeah a few years ago. They were amazing live but I've never got to see Mudvayne.
@@BMH-cb9jt Nice. I’m glad you’ll get to.
I saw Mudvayne with Deftones, Linkin Park, Limp Bizkit and Metallica at Summer Sanitarium 2003, then saw Mudvayne open for koRn in Toronto in 2006. I’m glad I did.
I went to a Megadeth concert, but I was there to see In Flames; not Trivium, Lamb of God or Megadeth
Say hi to Phil.
@@cpurday9681how can you not like Lamb of God? Greatest band ever. Saw them live in 07' SOTU Waverly Hills Sanatorium in Louisville KY. 20 bands that day they headline. GWAR played before them, Darkest Hour, Goat Whore, In Flames, Chimaira, Hatebreed,
I healed up from it. She couldn't say anything that I haven't heard before to hurt me, so she used emotional and mental manipulation instead. Years later, I found an amazing woman who doesn't want to hurt me. We got married and have an incredible little boy.
Insane. Insane that I've loved this song since 2005 and have never viewed it as asking myself that question. I needed this. I'm in this situation right now and it's ripping me apart. I'm not happy and she should have never had that power. Thank you. Thank you.
One of the greatest songs ever. Gives me goosebumps everytime! Glad you liked it!
I just discovered your channel not that long ago, and you know what's so great about it is,l that I've told people for years that metal music is therapeutic to me and nobody believes me. Your channel is really showing people that it can be that way despite alot of the hate surrounding this genre
This song still makes me cry. So much pain in these lyrics.
The majority of this song is actually him talking to himself, Its him asking his inner-self if hes happy now, realizing what hes done to himself, tearing himself apart, putting himself in a hole
"peel me from the skin, tear me from the rind. Does it make you happy now"? Underrated song
Man I love her breakdowns of these heavy metal songs. Most metalheads hear the message that artists convey to us, other people only hear the “angry” music or screams like it’s all rage, when the message is in the lyrics and when you get that visceral feeling or goosebumps when the message seems tailored to you by the artist.
The crazy part is when that is how your family "loves". Until you can get away from it you can't even see it and you will pick people to love that treat you the same way. When you get real love it's almost impossible to believe or understand.
I was involved in a relationship with a woman who we promised to ourselves and the higher power that we’d always be together, thick or thin. Completely made me feel wanted and happy from someone for the first time in my life. Then a few months later just completely left me. No reason, just left. So this song really drove home how I felt in a nushell.
"What's my release? What sets me free. Do you build me up just to push me down again" must be the best lines in this song.
Thanks for covering mudvayne. As someone who appears "non-metal" on the surface its great that you took time to validate their music, message, and lyrics, and the power of it. People, especially those of us who love music, feel everything so deeply and its great that all those feelings and the music we love are valid.
Also, thank you for your message! Very well done!
You are the therapist I need. Ive watched like 4 of your videos before thisnone and this one got me to comment and think.
Mudvayne was my therapist for a very long way and had helped me through very difficult times until these days
This helped with a lot of dark times.
With you on that *hugs*
All their albums still hold a special place for me
@heartsupport I recently went through a divorce and it’s been almost two years since it’s been finalized. This song and the way you broke it down definitely gave me a different perspective on why it’s so impactful towards that situation and how it actually is helping me move forward instead of dwelling in the past . Truly appreciate the reactions and truth given by yall !❤️
I totally agree. When I first heard that song I was dealing with relationship issues I heard this song as being aimed at those who hurt me. Now that I am in a healthy relationship I hear the song being aimed inwards when I make bad decisions and stress myself out
Love how you said a lot of people go through things like this. Music brings people together so you don’t feel alone. Knowing you aren’t alone is half the battle in my opinion.
Her reaction to the song is priceless
for me and a friend this song really hits home, not to a relationship but the struggle with alcohol. It's like there are two different people and the sober one is screaming on the inside. stay strong everyone!
I think you're a spot on and I think this is such an awesome analysis of the song and obviously I've listened to it in that capacity and that's why I'm giving you your flowers for this
This is what happened to me. When the other person says "I give and give and give and your still not happy". Me "I didn't ask for it" and then pure anger set's in like I did something horrible. The value on the things we do for each other are not the same to both of us. Doing 10 thing's for me and ignoring the one thing I asked for is not OK.
This is the first track I listen to whether its in the car, the house, the porch, or the gym. Doesnt matter. This song pumps me up
I'm here for it, Mudvayne has some great music!
“Hope is something you give yourself. That is the true meaning of inner strength.” - Uncle Iroh, Avatar the Last Airbender
Love them so much! Started seeing them live when they were playing at bars in Peoria, IL back in the day. Was so heartbroken when they broke up.
I have loved that song for years. I have had so many failed relationships. I never knew why I felt such a connection with it. That is until you explained it. I am in a relationship now. That is making feel torn apart emotionally mentally and physically.
They sound so different live. Top 15 live rock/metal artist I've seen
If we are on a Mudvayne kick then "Dig" and "Death Blooms" are some of the most popular as well as deep in the philosophy of the lyrics. They have gone on record multiple times as to the meaning of the album name as well as the songs. Mudvayne didn't get the recognition that they really deserved.
Mudvayne - NOTHING TO GEIN
Your input about Ed Gein would be interesting.
Also a great song with great lyrics.
I really enjoyed what you said, causing the introspection. Thank you.
Thanks for all that you said at the end of the video. Altho most of the time we know that we are being used, we need someone outside ourselves to tell us what exactly to do in that situation, and that is just what happened to me now. So thank you, it really means a lot for me right now!!
Mudvayne is one of my favorite bands ever. Please keep reacting to their videos..
I've learned to keep my self happy. To each their own. Don't change for someone else, is what I learned and burned from. Otherwise it's always take, take, take. Put and end to it and be YOU. Let them like YOU. Not what they want you to be.
Saw Mudvayne during their reunion in Mansfield at Inkcarceration with KSE and Slipknot and others. I never felt so much joy than in that crowd. Metalheads sometimes get this rep of being dark and brooding but we feel everything so strongly and that bonding of music within each other, knowing we are not alone in our feelings, can bring us out of the darkness so well
The uncensored version has so much more impact.
You emote so well! Lol i absolutely love your facial expressions 😂❤
This song brings up old scars that i cant move past. Legs quit working fell to a wheelchair by 21 and wont ask someone else to try to join. I didnt think i was going to see 29 years old but I'll be 32 in a few weeks so. Life in a chair isn't perfect but its life
Final thoughts hit harder than the song did. Eye opener and helpful with my current relationship. Thank you ❤
Spent half my life in a relationship with one person whom this song is absolutely targeted towards. I never even thought about it so in depth before now. I'm so glad to have left that. The final messages were absolutely impactful. Thank you for this.
Listening to metal can be very cathartic. The emotion that alot of bands put into their music helps the listener to release, even if its just for a little bit
this is genuinely one of my favorite songs, the way its melodic and and heavy at the same time. I also like how rock and metal tackels sadness and mental illness in such a raw way (like this song)
Mudvayne is rabbit hole you can down and not come up for a WHILE!...love this band and many of their messages are heavy!
A connection I've made with this song outside of people pleasing/anxiousness is that of forgiveness - sometimes people are forgiven repeatedly but continuously choose to cause ill will/damage etc. After a while, when they have taken you piece by piece it can feel like emotional scars are being reopened and you are left to regrow (heal) from the beginning all over again. This can help sometimes with building emotional resilience and transforming yourself from the inside out but the chaos is still felt and seen from the outside.
I'm not sad, but I feel I have so much sadness inside me. Every time I hear the song can't help but cry without feeling anything, the tears just fall without control.
From toastaintbad: @jcgmusic16 Hi @HeartSupport_Fans,
Music have so many different interpretations. It's okay to cry in a certain songs that might relate or not in a certain way. I also cry too in a few songs that I listen to. You aren't alone in type of situation. Some days you are going to happy or sad. Just remember to take care of yourself. Sad doesn't always have to be dark or negative. People do cry to make themselves feel better.
From Micro: @jcgmusic16 It's okay to cry, friend. It's okay to let the tears out. At the end of the day we're only human beings, and allowing ourselves to feel what needs to be felt can sometimes be a real crutch. Maybe this song reveals in you emotions that are usually left hidden or pushed aside, and maybe listening to it brings this opportunity to reconnect to how you feel deep inside. I know for me personally that there are songs that have this powerful effect on me of letting wounds I've been holding inside being expressed somehow. could it be through anger or tears, when I allow myself to embrace the emotion and sit with it, I usually feel a little better after. Like a weight that has been lifted thanks to the magic of music and relating to the emotions it generates in us.
I've personally carried so much sadness in me that sometimes I wonder how I'm still functioning. Like you I'm not necessarily sad at other times, but it feels like there is this "soil" in me that is made of sadness, nostalgia, sorrow, sometimes even agony. It feels like there's a pain within that doesn't speak for one source or one time when I felt hurt, but for the accumulation of pain I've been feeling throughout my life. It's scary though because oftentimes it makes me wonder what's inside of me. It feels a little bit like looking at a very dark pit without seeing the bottom of it, wondering how high it is and if it is safe to try to explore it.
It can be scary to feel that deep inside there's a lot of sadness, and to just not know what to do with it though. When it catches you by surprise, it can make you wonder how deep it is and for how long ar y ou going to feel sad or cry. What if you open that door,is it ever going to stop? How can you know if you'll regain some control over it or not at some point? Is it going to completely overwhelm you, making you feel like you just can't function anymore?
Somehow, we'd rather avoid those emotions, push them away and bury them very deep - and it's a normal reaction. Still, they have a reason to be, a reason to exist, even if we might not always know why it is there at a given moment. It's okay and safe to release the tears when you need it, friend, and I hope that this time doing so brought a little bit of peace to your heart.
Music offers these times of self-reflection and quiet where emotions happen to seem so loud inside of us. Somehow, it's a beautiful gift that we offer to ourselves and a powerful way to reconnect with our soul, but it's certainly exhausting. It takes so much energy to let ourselves *feel* and stop pushing away the things we'd rather avoid. If anything, you did well by naming and identifying these emotions when you were feeling them. I hope the sadness will give room for a lot of beauty and joy in your heart moving forward, at your very own pace.
-Micro
The one song that I express towards all of society.
Her breakdown of this awesome song hits me hard. I have spent my life letting others take from me and trying to be who they want me to be. I am not true to myself and it hurts.
From Micro: @Evo-nt6be Oh, my friend. This is such a heartbreaking place to be in. Feeling like you are present in this world but you can't show your true self somehow. That you had to give up and authenticity in order to be accepted, loved and seen in this world. But the version of you that others see is not your true self, is not who you feel you are deep inside... So you see and feel this huge distance between what others see of you and the way you actually feel every day. You wish to start showing who you really are, but then others are used to see you differently, so there is a risk to feel even more abandoned and alone. Change feels scary and intimidating when you feel stuck under a mask that isn't yours yet allows you to function and navigate in this world.
There is no doubt that it hurts to be in this position, and that somehow being aware of it adds even more pain to your heart. As human beings, there is nothing more beautiful and comforting but to feel really SEEN for who we are, without needing to hide anything. It offers this validation that you are enough as you are, that you belong and that there is nothing to be ashamed of when it's about the person you are. At the opposite, having to wear a mask gives this subtle narrative that you have to hide parts of you, that you would have to be ashamed of being you. It makes me thing of these games for children - where you would try to place a cube shape into a circle, realizing that it doesn't work even if you use all of your strength. It's disheartening, but you keep on trying because using the right shape *feels* wrong and unknown.
There is something truly intimidating about learning to show our authentic selves to the world, especially when we've been so used to please others and be what they want us to be. For what it's worth, as someone struggling with social and performance anxiety, what you describe has always been a part of my life, and learning to expose more of my own vulnerability is a slow, learning process. It's hard when there's constant doubts in your mind that pressure you to be more focused on how other might perceive you and what they need of you, rather than what truly resonates with your heart.
Sending much hugs and strength your way as you navigate this. On a positive note: you are aware of this pattern. You are not simply living it, you also have perspective over it, and that alone is a real strength to cultivate and nurture. It is thanks to this awareness that you might encourage yourself to increment small changes into your life that would allow you to get closer to the person you want to be when you are interacting with others. Being a certain way, wearing a mask, might have been a way to protect yourself and respond to needs you had previously. Now you are aware of how it works and how much you'd like to free yourself from it. There is HOPE with this awareness, my friend. Hope for change to be possible, for embracing new pathways and learning new ways to be in relation with others. I wholeheartedly believe in you. :heart:
A often forgotten Mudvayne song is Never Enough. Its my personal favorite from them. But my first song from them was Dull Boy.
I'm still trying to figure out how TF you've never heard of this song it's literally 20 years old.... I had the pleasure of growing up listening to mudvayne... Thank you 98kupd PHX az
Not relationship related. I completely lost myself searching for the approval, love and support of my parents and mudvayne has helped me in the midst of that husk i had become and only now after the last five years of hard work am i rebuilding and growing outside of the hurt. Its an everyday struggle
Seeing them live is even better than hearing the song! Literally goosebumps the whole show and i just wanted to cry all my emotions out at once 🖤
One stanza in "are you feeling happy now" We are decidedly not feeling happy now
I really appreciate your energy and Insight and the content you make. Thank you
This song is pretty much actual therapy.
This song helped me voice my emotions while going through my first divorce. I'm 7 months on the other side of my 2nd divorce and this song is on repeat in my head 24/7. Not helping so much this time around.
Just found your channel. I didn't know reaction videos like this existed. Big fan. Well done.
I've been listening to Mudvayne since high school, was lucky enough to see them in 2003 w/ Deftones, Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, and Metallica. Hoping to see them again soon (missed them recently when they were nearby)
Thank you so much! Watching one of my favourite songs just embrace you and capture your heart the first time u meet was so cool, Stand in the Corner and scream with me is another one I’d like to see your reaction to
I love your breakdown of the lyrics. Just over a week ago, my wife of almost 10 years asked for a divorce because in her words, she wanted to have fun and she's seen how her depression brought her down, she didn't want mine to bring her down. I supported her for almost years though numerous phases of depression, anxiety, suicide attempts... Yet when I finally realized I was suffering from depression myself, there was nothing there for me. It was soul crushing. The years I tried to give everything I could then to get no help when I needed it most.
❤ Just love yourself, you deserve to love and value yourself and care for YOU now.
From toastaintbad: @chadfricke-fp8ii Hi @HeartSupport_Fans,
Thanks, for expressing your concerns! Mental health issues can be exhausting for someone to live through each day. It's good for you to communicate with your wife about the issues that you guys have going through many years. @PlatformReply I agree that it's important to take care of yourself before others. Did you explain your wife about suffering depression too? Depression is hard for others to battle because I used to have it too. I have numerous of mental health issues and keep telling myself to remain positive. Just think of your mental health issues like a wall blocking you to pass through. No one likes to be block by something to go through. Do I expect you to be happy 24/7? No!!! You are going to have good and bad days.
I recommend to be really brutal honest on how you feel with her mental health issues. You can't always depend on your loved one to help with your depression and anxiety. I don't want anybody closed to me be more stressful with my mental health issues. People have a outside life and need to take care of themselves. It's okay to vent others but you need to remember on how your words and actions affect someone's mental health. Don't let mental health issues impact her and your marriage. I personally don't know if she is seeing a therapist for mental health issues. If your wife did divorce you, she can't be in another relationship if she doesn't improve her mental health. I hope you & your wife able to fight through this difficult challenge.
@@HeartSupport I reread my original comment and it's almost unreadable. She suffered depression all throughout our marriage and I always supported her. After all those years, I finally needed support from her and there was none. She left to start fucking my best friend instead the same day she asked for the divorce. Needless to say, there's no marriage to save, just lives to salvage and rebuild. On the rebuilding, it's rough. Some days are harder than others. The meds help, won't lie. Progress is being made though. Lives are being rebuilt. I won't let this break me.
From Micro: @chadfricke-fp8ii Wow, friend, my heart goes out to you. It is so hard to be in this position of pouring your heart out and giving everything you have to the very person you love, then being told that as they are doing better and *you* need them now, they choose to move into a different direction than yours. It feels like somehow you don't have the right to go yourself through a rough time. That you would be at fault for having similar needs she had previously. It's heartbreaking to feel like the care and love for someone isn't reciprocated. It is especially during those challenging times that we hope to rely on the people closest to us. The ones we've learn to trust with ourselves. Losing them during such a crucial time feels like hitting the nail on the coffin.
It is completely understandable to have expected that, during your own dark times, your wife would have been by your side like you were for her. Just because that's how marriage should be - partnering through the good *and* the bad seasons of life together, not side by side. I'm sorry this has been your experience, friend. It's absolutely heart-shattering to be abandoned that way. I hope you can keep in mind that your struggles are not a fault, and that her decisions are only hers. It certainly doesn't erase the pain and heartbreak... but through all of this you are absolutely worth being supported, cared for, and loved. May the meds keep helping, and may you seek all the support you need. We're in this with you. :heart:
She's awesome. If I ever need a therapist I'm gonna pick her.
This song makes me think about the person that gave me so much trauma. I won't go into detail because I haven't even talked to my therapist about it. I haven't been diagnosed, but my therapist thinks I have a lot of trauma and that could be the cause of all the personality issues. But I feel the scars still ripping open part. Every day I have to deal with how awful my life was from like 5 to 27. Why I let this person treat me that way for so long? He was my brother. Dropping family isn't easy, but I'm so much happier now. Really feel the friendship interpretation though. I do that like crazy
I've always thought that Chad was singing this to himself. When you live with the kind of trauma that Chad does, you never look outside for all the pain in your life. You always assume the failure of relationships and your world is all inside. So you rip those scars open evaluating all that pain trying to figure out what mistake you made that brought it all on yourself. So you always walk around like a raw nerve, from evaluating and over evaluating every interaction you ever have...because the one constant in all of our painful interactions and failed relationships is us. So it must be our fault right? Trauma sucks dude.