When you break your arm, everyone wants to sign your cast. But when your brain is sick, everyone runs away...and that's when you need people the most. RIP Chester :(
shamrock2228 Mental illness is completely different from a broke arm. Mental illnesses has been so stigmatized in this country to the point where people don't want to confront it because it's "if you have a mental illness, you're crazy. Stay away from him because he might be bipolar" etc. When we start treating mental illness with compassion and understanding, then things will change.
Candie Ray very true. I've struggled with it my entire life. My grandfather, uncle, and cousin committed suicide within 5 years of each other...along with too many friends to count. We desperately need more empathy and compassion in the world.
The saddest thing is that there are probably milions of people, including me, who while watching this interview were thinking "damn, it's like listening to myself"
badbadbad yep.. I totally feel useless even living right now Lost my girlfriend My job Fucked up my study Have a 10k debt now Lost my car, it got stolen Lost my drums, they got stolen Family? I don't have those anymore they were all victims of war Really, I don't see much of a need to live anymore Might just join Chester, he was my savior
But who noticed? No one, you're are NOT brave killing yourself, and before anyone ?s I know I seen my father kill himself! Mental health is Frickin scary
@@lylebump4507 well i guess we all knew since 2004, meteora (just one example cause I could have said hybrid theory) is all about being desperate, feeling sad, angry lonely and so lost, he also talked in a really open way about his own depression in some interviews, but what could we do? This is a medical and personal issue , nothing to do with us all fans and people who never knew him even tho all of us would’ve wished to help..
@@lylebump4507 and I said he was brave because its so hard to speak about your own mental illness it breaks myself in pieces infront of just my doctor and he could do that on media. Suicide is never a solution, never brave but yet it isnt for cowards either. Its just the worst consequence from a mental sickness.
They talk about it they leave hints, but sadly NO one close enough to him was present 🤨,I'm sorry I'm perceived as Blame someone except the PERSON who should be!,we ALL fail in expressing our appreciation and love for everyone around us!!!
This whole conversation between chester and that radio guy is the representation of having depression in front of society that doesn't know nothing about having a depression.
"Being a dad, being a husband, being a bandmate, being a friend, helping someone out" All those things couldn't distract him from himself. Depression is wild.
If you actually wanted to finish his quote he said all those things could and did distract him. He was home alone when he committed suicide and unfortunately his inner demons really got to him that day. He lived with those demons for most of his life so all of things that you said didn't distract him actually did.
I feel like sadly too many actually can, in a lesser or even a more serious degree... relate. But so few speak up. And even when they do, like Chester. They're just not often taken seriously. Everyone can relate to a broken leg, but if they can't understand whats wrong, well then obviously then nothing is wrong because they can't understand it.... And that's the problem with mental health sadly. When you try to explain to someone you have severe anxiety for instance. It's Russian roulette weather or not they understand or tell you to "get a grip".
I was speaking about this at work the other day and there is far to much stigma attached people are told to man up or told that depression is bullshit that was what i was told and i had to hold my tongue if u dont go through it you dont understand how it feels. We lost one of the greatest of all time through depression and many other lose lives through this. People need to speak more about it however i dont have the courage to speak out because of the stigma. Chester helped so many its a shame he didnt have that help.
Dude was fighting demons. Remember, you never know what's going on in someone's head. Show people compassion and cut people slack because you just never know. RIP dude.
I totally relate with this, I lived it. ….but Christ! Christ saved me and as I’ve walked with him my life hasn’t been all sunshine I’ve still taken L’s but He keeps me from hitting the mat and staying down. Cry out to the Lord he’s real and cares. He’s given me a heart for people and a purpose….🙏
@@user-vx6nn1uo4t Religious nut cases make problems worse, preying on people's fears and guilts. Some of us live in reality, not some BS fantasy world. But you do you man. Whatever works for you, but don't be pushing the religious nut case stuff on others. It's a cult man.
Everyone could have depression. He had a beautiful wife and kids, money, fame, and millions of people who look up to him. Still took away his own life, depression is a real problem.
he was sexually abused at a very early age. he said some where, that his earliest memories are getting molested by an old man, a friend of the family. that is something that you CANNOT shake off easily. money success fame, none of it worked. he was touched by a demon at a very early age. god bless you Chester. R.IP
john, the only pro out there is god honestly, and surrounding yourself with gods people.. i dont know if chester ever went to church.. but i wish he did and he got it..
That line: "This skull between my ears, that is a bad neighborhood." Hits so hard. And the fact that the interviewer laughed at it, doesn't anger me, it saddens me. The signs and cries for help had been there throughout the years. R.I.P Chester. You helped so many like myself, through your words and music.
@@royalyinfamous2451 you are so right. That man doesn't understand something like that can hurt so much. His reaction is like an extra drop that makes the bucket overflow.
The interviewer clearly doesn't understand what a depression is like, how you feel about things if you're in a depressive state of mind. I can relate to Chester's words so easily...
Honestly, a hug doesn't help when you're trapped inside a cage in your mind. Finding someone that truly understands will help with time, but as you saw in this conversation, that is very hard to do. When that guy laughed a small piece of him died right there. He never found someone that understood; someone that could help him find the key to the chains that were binding him.
Thats true, i didtn understand why this guy is laughing, sry not normal, chester speeks about problems and this guy is laughing 🤦♂️, i know too what is depressions and most people don't understand it, i trie to kill myself years ago.
@@melaniecatlin4447 I've sat down and thought to myself for hours at times what I could've done to help him. It always ends with me thinking, "No, you couldn't have done anything. You didn't even know about the band at that time." 💔💔💔
"You can make a person laugh, you can make a person smile, but whether or not that person is happy is deeply and utterly out of your control." - Will Smith
Thats not true, it sounds good, but it's not true. It's actually ignorant to say that. Happiness is out of your control? Really? I know it's not, but sounds good to say to someone who is depressed, it nails exactly how the feel. Pretty shity actually.
@@trustenbaker8766 That person has to find happiness from within themselves. Trying to get it from another person clearly didn't work very well for Chester. He had a wife and kids, yet he still didn't want to be alive.
Trusten Baker the quote wasn’t about your own happiness but the happiness of others. you’re not in control of how others feel. you can offer them help but it’s not up to you if they’ll accept it, decline it or even fake accept it to not make you feel so out of control. they’re the ones who have to chose if they think it’s worth trying and accepting help is part of trying.
People see people who have committed suicide and say stuff like this. Like they were never happy and constantly suffering. Its not true. Depressed people still laugh, and smile, and feel happiness. Chester looks great here, because he probably was. He sounds very optimistic, and i can tell hes not faking it by his facial expressions.
"There is another Chester in there. He wants to take me down." Please everyone. Hear that. This is probably the most personally strong messaged video I've ever witnessed.. I'm heartbroken for the Chester that was defeated.. He was trying, so hard, as a father, husband, and man. But that other Chester defeated him, just one time. That's all it takes. Go give someone a hug. You never know how bad they need it..
i get no hugs. yea I actually realised that lm all alone here in a big city. no one actually cares. I dont have another me in my head but instead i have a black guy without a face and a Cape with a weapon and this mans tall fr. well im fuqqed up
@@siakerynhiam2113 Just happened to watch this video, just happened to read your comment, and I want to send you a warm hug and I hope everything good to you, and I hope something beautiful will come on your way. Greetings from Finland!
Chester described what so many of us feel way too often. Fighting to sort all the thoughts and make sense of everything can be overwhelming. Still devastated about his departure, but blessed to have the music. Blessings to his family and friends.
Yes so very true, and most people who have never been there think that a person can just flip it on and off like a light switch. Depression does not work like that
Cemo not only your family loves you, your friends and maybe people, who you doesnt know.. God loves you and you dont know how good your life is gonna be, if you cancel the fight with your deamons. Accept the deamons and let they saying, what they want.. in the end you will get the point, that life is good, no matter how bad you feel sometimes and that it was worth it.. every breath and second in your life to going on!!!! Just never forget, that nothing could beat your heart. And maybe with fighting against your deamons and going on with your absolutely precious life, you'll change the world for somebody, who needs you more than all things in his world!!! Please let your heart win Love!!!!
I was watching Linkin Park in concert back in 2000, a couple of people beside me fell over in the mosh pit and pretty quickly about 10-15 people were lying in the ground in a kind of mini-crush. Mid-way through the chorus, mid-line, Chester stops the song, gets the technicians to put the house lights on and starts trying to coordinate the crowd to pick up the small pile of kids on the floor. He was genuinely concerned about keeping the crowd safe. It was a nothing incident, but the guy cared more about keeping a bunch of 14 year old kids safe then about stage image or performance. A class act
@@Viikk785 Thanks- for whatever reason I can remember it really clearly, and I think in his passing it's relevant to put it out there. My very brief experience of Chester was that he was a thoroughly decent bloke who cared about people.
@Str8 4ward you seem certain about this. Do you know from experience? Did you know Chester personally? Did someone you love and were dear to suffer in a similar manner? Either way, i pray you find peace. To remove that anger from your life. 🙏
@Manic Misanthrope ya but "quaratining" makes things worse..you shouldnt distance yourself from the people you love and people in general bc of a "virus"..people are committing suicide even more bc of this bullshit
Everything he described were the after effects of severe, severe trauma: PTSD, Dissociation, Depression, Depersonalization - I wish we could have helped him.
Sonu Kannadan your either born with it or you can get mental illness from taking to many drugs. I have bi polar I have studied it and when there is no1 there no1 to take to its very easy to do what him and Chris did. Listen to the words in there songs, they were screaming for help and the ppl with the money couldn't hear it. It sucks! Mental illness sucks! If you know anybody with mental illness take time and make plans to hang out with them call for no reason, it's letting that person know at least someone cares.
Bipolar and severe anxiety is what I have been living with my whole life. I have had this exact same conversation with my wife of 23 years. To this day, she has a hard time getting her head around it. People who are lucky enough to be normal don't see it the same way no matter how you try to explain. This guy interviewing had no idea what he is hearing. At no fault to him it's hard for people not going through it to understand. I fight every minute of every day not to end up this way, and always wonder if it will beat me eventually. Some days your stronger than others, ya know?
I'm a depressed agoraphobic person filled to the brim with anxiety and I would've traveled across the world on the next flight if he needed me. I would have literally gone to the end of the earth for him because without him I don't believe I would be alive. I owe him my life. I would give just about anything to be able to save him.
Evalynn 💗I'm with you there. . LP got me through sone realy tough shit and I don't know where I would be ... if.. he , they weren't making music to make me feel like I'm not alone in a screaming crowded world where no one can see me or hear me or understand me... We Are Family! 💟
Robert Gum That is one of the hardest things for me. Linkin Park saved me...their music helped me through so much....deaths, abuse etc...and I wouldnt be here if I didnt hav their music. Almost makes me feel guilt being here when one of the influences (Chester and the band) that helped me isnt. Why did they save so may yet he wasnt saved?
yeah man, this laughter was so bad! its a heart opening to the world there is actually 100 percent NOTHING funny!! RIP Chester, u are lovely and loved!
To be fair he sis say it in an amusing way with a smile on his face and he didn't seem bent at all that the guy laughed about it a bit. Chester didn't find it unreasonable so neither should you.
ME2. I haven't been my "old self" since I lost my son. Nobody wants to hear what is going on in my head and my heart either. Please understand that I'm not complaining bcuz I want for NO ONE to feel what I feel.
If anybody needs to talk... I know i am just a random person on the internet but I like helping and talking to people and I incourage you to talk to people close to you. Nobody can just help themselves with depression. We all need help from somebody else and there is nothing wrong about it
I also have depression. I am not happy but I am also not sad. I just feel empty, nothing. I know theres different kinds of depressions but this is how I feel. This might not be the best way to approach it but this is how I cope with it or how its working for me. I just accepted it. I accepted to have this feeling in my life. I accepted myself to be this way. Before you ask, yea I have been trying to get rid of it for years, I have been trying so hard to be able to enjoy everything again like a child on an adventure but it just isnt happening, its not working. And that is ok. If that is who I am then so be it. I will not let that feeling take over my life. I know its there but I also know that I am here and thats what is important.
Depends on age if your a female bc this numbness happened to over 7 years due to hormonal imbalance. Uk Gps couldn’t give a dam an this is why we go crazy or if lucky for others,we take our life
@@user-pk6bq5xu7b I dont really have an answer to that because it is different for everyone. You need to find out what makes you happy or why you want to become happy in the first place. Do you really want to be happy or do you just not want to be sad anymore? Theres a difference between the two. And like I said in my comment I am not really happy because I tried to be but I just cant be, or I just havent found a way to be yet. So my next step was to just not be sad, and I managed to do that by accepting the way I am and appreciating the things I have in my life. While I am not truly happy, you could say I found a state of peace in myself. Again, this is something that worked for me and it might not for you, and if it does not work for you, you can still take this information to get you at least going, like a first step to where you want to be.
@@user-pk6bq5xu7b 15My eyes are always toward Jehovah, For he will free my feet from the net.16Turn your face to me and show me favor, For I am alone and helpless.
I saw lots of comments suggesting the interviewer is insensitive for laughing. It's as if people never lived and found themselves in awkward or hard conversations. A nervous laughter is such a common thing - I felt like commenting and saying "it's an awkward laughter" will make me the odd one amongst the rest. But I'm glad you said it, because I wouldn't have.
@@NandoGigaba Yeah well said, I feel devastated over Chester's depression and suicide but I understand that a lot of people aren't used to being in touch with such vulnerable emotions that they only thing they can do is shrug and laugh.
Nando Gigaba that was so big of you to admit. I’ll admit, I thought the guy was being insensitive at first as I was going through a bad patch too when this all happened. Looking back, he was probably nervous like you say as what to say.
I cant believe i heard someone explain the same issue i have. And that someone was someone i always listened to. I sure hope this video has raised awareness extremely!
I honestly feel like this everyday i just wait for the end but my family keeps me here. I couldnt see my son without me and wonder how it would make him feel If i was gone. I couldnt do that to him.
Some people just don’t understand the inner darkness of people with depression. We have bullies in our lives but for people like us no one is a worse bully then ourselves to the point that our own inner negativity and hopelessness leads us to justify suicide. That’s the scary thing about being in a dark place you don’t realize how bad it is until it’s too late. To all the people who can relate to this message your loved call someone who can help you. God bless
When you can’t run from the pain, it chases you into places that no normal person can ever see or understand! It can be so bad at times, your mind won’t stop replaying the trauma, the guilt, the shame, the people not wanting to be in this part of your life , only the good and what they can benefit from it! Took me 2 1/2 years to finally understand that I can’t change any of what happened to me. My children suffered greatly and I can’t take that back. But the kicker is even when you think you have come to grips with your demons, those mean little bastards won’t leave you alone! I’m like Chester, I have to be outside of myself because “ in there is a bad place to be! I understand the man perfectly and I struggle with my sanity every single day. And “ In the end it doesn’t even matter!” RIP
Anxious Sushi I was merely referring to the statistic that more women attempt suicide than men but despite this more men actually commit suicide successfully.
It's definitely hurts that the Chester who is battling depression and suicidal won. His songs have definitely helped a lot of people through problems in their life. If only he could have been saved.
Listening to Linkin Park for me is like a bad shroom trip...their songs are so real and raw that they make me really depressed but they also make me feel so validated at the same time. I wish I would have seen them in concert but never got the chance to.
I don't have depression, but I get it completely. Like the second I'm trying to rest, these thoughts start "attacking" me or something? Just how Chester worded it. Btw for everyone who's battling depression and/or other mental illnesses: you're strong and loved. You're not a burden and make this world a better place🖤
I know your feeling. Im 18. I've been bullied like 3 years. Beaten up in bathrooms, and much more things that i don't want to talk about them. I have depression like 5 years, i wanted to die too. So people who read this. Don't bully the others. A lot of people have problems. Rip Chester. You are my biggest inspiration. I became through depression because of you. love you guys.
MAN I wish we still had Chester. For his music, for his message, for all of it. He was such a force for good for all of us that battle depression every single day.
Chester says that his head is a bad place to be, and that he shouldn't be alone, and the guy laughs. you can see the pain in Chester's eyes during this, he must have felt so abandoned and ignored like millions of other men struggling with depression. mens mental health isn't taken seriously, and it's a real shame. we'll miss you Chester
Yeah, sure. Why not just go to a good therapist? He could have afforded the best! No, he was a whinny little B that thought he gets help in an interview! LOL
Come on , what should he do?call the ambulance?, we re talking about tallented, wealthy, artyst, father, friend, with a Group of therapists and medical support.
I don't feel angry about the host laughing. It's what we do to difuse the tension. For the people who are fine and see somebody struggling, one of the things they try to help is just a simple laugh. Also, for him, it might've seen incomprehensible when somebody who seemingly has everything says that he feels lost in his own mind that is a bad neighbourhood.
They guy isn’t a therapist…he’s a radio interviewer. We don’t know if anything was said after the camera and mics went silent. People rarely see suicide coming. It’s a disaster
with an attitude like that and using absolutes then of course your statement is true 100% of the time. Saying CAN'T allows you to make excuses why things aren't your fault. Start looking in the mirror and pointing your finger at yourself for what you have(n't) done. By saying you can't you are giving yourself permission to stop trying and to give up on yourself. It is so sad that people give up on themselves but those around them talk about how capable they are. GET THE FUCK OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY..... and allow yourself to make mistakes. But you have to peel yourself off the pavement sometimes and keep fighting for a better moment or 5 minutes or tomorrow. Stop making excuses for why you "can't" because you can. Start respecting yourself and believing that you are worthy. What the fuck is wrong with you that you don't think you are worthy? 800-273-8255 national suicide hotline open 24/7/365 if you need someone to talk to and you don't even need to give them your real name. You don't even need to be in crisis to call. They are willing to talk and listen and help you. Love yourself to ask for help
Americans in particular don't like to be alone. Even when they are alone, they turn on TV or read newspapers and whatnot because they are disturbed by their own thoughts. Christianity says "God be with you", Buddhism says "Be one with yourself".
I feel this, being trapped inside your own head can break you down and destroy you, it can take every bit of happiness away and leave you helpless and broken. I've been battling my own thoughts for 15+ years, and it doesn't get easier. Every day is a struggle..I do it to myself, it's a very tough cycle to break. I hope everyone finds their peace.
Sad to say but the ones that are feeling the worst and the sickest are the ones that always want to reach out and help others I know this because I'm one of those people
That’s what we do. It’s the helpers in this world who everyone walks away from when they need them to help them for once and just be understood , but they all just find someone else to use when you are used up
@@shaybatty3785 I agree sometimes I think we need to be a bit more selfish to ourselves and get ourselves right as the energy we use up helping people either gets wasted, falls on deaf ears
I can 100% relate to what Chester is saying. I struggle with depression, I'm trapped in my mind. It feels like I'm detached from myself. I'm trapped in the "bad neighbourhood." But one thing that helps me get out of my head is the practice of meditation and exercise. Pain is subjective, we can never understand what someone is going through. So we should open our hearts to everyone. And open our minds to new ideas. I hope we can all take something from this tragedy and support each other, love each other, and take time to listen to each other. Let's stick together, and keep fighting the fight. Peace and love
Chester, here it is Dec 2019 and to this day I have never heard anyone describe depression so precise. The moment you ( anyone with depression) are alone those very dark thoughts come through. I have to listen to this interview and your songs often to keep me going. RIP Chester... I miss you
I would never forget that moment, specially about the host laughing. I get it not most people would react properly but my first thought hearing it was shock and I would have stopped everything to hug him and say "whatever you need I am here bro" after all is everything I needed when I was there
Such courage to talk about this 1. Because it’s on air 2. Its to practically a stranger 3. Because the person you decide to talk to is both laughing and interrupting 4. It’s just a f***ing hard thing to articulate RIP Chester. You will always live on through your music. I lost my brother to suicide and music keeps us connected. We all need to talk about these real problems
@killswitch I don’t think I believe in god anymore but thanks for your words anyway @alduin Give yourself the things nobody else can and find strength in people that can help💞
That's cool. Music keeps me and my dad connected. I lost him about 13 months ago. He straight up sent me videos that I'd never listened to before or have but it would come as a straight up playlist from him. His favorite bands and him speaking to me through them. I'd tune into him and feel when songs were coming from him, and still do. He used to send me vids in life so why would he stop now? That's the beauty of music. And we are all made up of frequency anyway. What is the internet, youtube? Algorithms and frequency.. I'm so grateful for it. It's one of the few things that makes me feel alive, music.
@ Konstantin I totally get what you mean and think that’s the coolest thing I’ve heard. My brother (& my dad) send me moths. I also get songs faintly playing in the back of mind. Music helps me feel something when I’m feeling overwhelmed and numb...stay strong and turn that music up✌️
Its so sad, he explains so perfectly what it's like to be depressed and he is so aware about the difficulties that comes with it and still couldn't win over his thoughts..
OH yea theres this common missconception that selfawareness means you can magically pull yourself out of it and its so invalidating to hear from others esp medical professionals. it doesnt make it any easier it just makes me feel more trapped and that expectation from others compounds that 10 fold. i can also use the self awareness to intelectualize it as a coping mechanism thats sometimes unhealthy disconnect from it.
@@CrypticBore Wow..Holy shit wow...thats about all I can utter beause the way u said that just blew my mind. U are so on point..so true....I couldn't have said it any better or described it in such an accurate way. So I applaude u my friend. And thank you because its so nice to hear someone else wth the same thought.... It gets so lonely sometimes, for me, when no one around me sees or hears or perceives or even thinks the things the same as I do.
Depression is like the weather, when it’s raining, you can’t “wish” it away, or drink it away… just take shelter, be patient and the sun WILL come out. All on its own. Eventually. Peace x
I have always appreciated psycadelics and believe they can teach real lessons about depression. I always hate being depressed, sometimes its a day, maybe a couple of weeks. I always know it will pass, just like the bad parts of a trip. When I experienced those trips I felt extreme anxiety and would sift through experiences and judge myself. It was always hard coming up, but eventually I have some clarity and everything starts moving and I can appreciate everything. So just like the rough parts of a trip, you just ride it out. It's just a part of the experience, soon you can reflect with clarity.
I think a lot of people know what he means by that and that's why so many people found an escape with his music. Including me, I still listen to his music because it helps me escape.
That’s truly what it’s like. It’s the lifelong bully in your head that you can never get away from or reason with. That’s why he tried to distract himself with being around his family and band mates. Only problem is that it’s still there waiting for an opportunity to take over. Eventually it breaks you down and you can’t keep fighting it anymore. Everyone that struggles with this is afraid of the day that you’re so far down that you give in to what it’s telling you to do, which is what happened to Chester.
It's actually true, the comparison that is, I have severe depression which is diagnosed clinically and he couldn't have worded that better. Hopefully, I live to see a cure...
The thing with depression is that you are not sad all the time. When you are with people, you can laugh and have a great time, but the thing is that you come down even harder. Just because you can't see it, doesnt mean it isnt there, but all we as people can do is too help people to talk about it. So many people go around with all these crazy thought and you dont want people to share your burden, because "everyone got their own problems to deal with", but that is so much the wrong way to think. Speak out, because people are willing to listen and understand. Rest in peace Chester, you beautiful man.
Im always amazed how music just opens something in our selfs and helps us relate and not be alone. Hope you are doing better . I can totally understand where you are coming from. Been there, sometimes better other times no so Much but I’m here writing this 😊
Most of the problems get worse from drug's But there is always hope Every one can make it Life is good and short We will not live forever So take it easy and enjoy it
Written a year ago and I hope you’re ok dude…. I miss Chester and wish he could have worked through his stuff. Do what you need to get through yours… people are there for you.
My friend, the only one who can save is the Lord Jesus Christ, apart from Him all perish. Jesus said: I am the way the truth and the life no one comes to the Father but through me." (John 14:6)
Same here. It never goes away, but ironically it was "Blackbirds" that I stumbled across and I thought this song understands me. I've been a fan since day 1 of LP, but Chester was just such an amazing soul. His translation of pain, and depression through his voice is uncanny.
@@greog1108 I agree with you. The Psychologist is best as you talk through your problems and unlike Psychiatrist's they just give you medication and maybe a little chat but a Psychologist is the best if you can afford to see one would be the best- especially if people laugh at you when your trying to express yourself to them- truly- they are not a true friend that does that.
Via Mrs. Bennington (Chester's wife) : "One week ago today, I lost my soulmate and my children lost their hero-their Daddy. We had a fairytale life and now it has turned into some sick Shakespearean tragedy. How do I move on? How do I pick up my shattered soul? The only answer I know is to raise our babies with every ounce of love I have left. I want to let my community and the fans worldwide know that we feel your love. We feel your loss as well. My babies are so young to have lost their daddy. And I know that all of you will help keep his memory alive. He was a bright, loving soul with an angels voice. And now he is pain free singing his songs in all of our hearts. May God Bless us all and help us turn to one another when we are in pain. Chester would've wanted us to do so. Rest In Peace, my love. Always, Mrs. Talinda Bennington"
I am so very sorry for your tremendous loss! Strength, Peace, Love & Light Always! I wish my son, who suffers in his head, would have been able to express himself so clearly! I wish I would have realized that his struggles were way worse than he ever let on! I pray we will be able to get him help, into a mental health facility soon, and out of jail! Of course, I realize that even if, it could still happen, my thoughts always go to the what if though!
Waking Up Dad Chester's wife we all feel for you & your family at this time. I've got chills writing this now as i listen to Chester talk as i can relate to what he is saying in this. he's a in a better beautiful place now. he's shining brightly. he will live on through everyone's hearts & his music. so sorry for your loss. rest in peace Chester you will never be forgotten. god bless xx
Jesus Christ is the Only Way to Heal Your Broken Soul! My Birth Mom died on operating table at the hands of alcoholic Doctor. She went before Jesus. He told her, it wasn't her time. He sent her with a message from him. Thank God, she was already born again Christian. She did Not want to Return to Earth! She did share that Jesus was very dark skinned with deep olive skin tone. Flowing hair of silk. He was wearing a shade of Brown she had never seen or could not describe the shade. Folks, whether you want to believe or Not...Jesus Christ is the Real Deal...John 3:16 Our Days on Planet Earth are Coming to an End! Pray and be Saved. Religion Will Not Save YOU! Blood of Jesus Christ Will! Repent and ask for Jesus to be your Lord and Saviour...Ask him into Your Heart...You Will have Eternal Salvation and Life
@@Leaptab My point is that people are blaming the interviewer for not spotting the signs of a suicidal man when most people miss them too. Mental health professionals are trained to spot signs of depression and sometimes they get it wrong. It's tragic that Chester Bennington died, but the interviewer is blameless.
I have severe depression but I have no support system of any kind yet I take each day as it comes so I salute those who feel the same, it is so God damn hard to fight ur own demons everyday but you are a survivor and u made it til this day.. be strong be proud.. you are not alone
Truth is, you will need to figure most of it out on your own. I learned this the hard way, waiting for something or someone to help. Until I decided nobody was coming that's when I got myself out of bed on my own and forced myself to do the shit I hate. One step at a time.
Its been a month since your comment how are u now? Can you explain to me what exactly you are feeling and where in your body are you feeling this? Hope you are doing verry well.
When Chester said "This is a bad place for me to be by myself." I literally broke down because he was by himself with his thoughts before he made the call. I miss you Chester.
Yes!!! I sing a song in my head since I was a lil girl. I sing over & over...I wanna go home, but idk where home is! Thank you! This lil song has been a part of me.😔
I’ve never been on drugs. I feel the exact same way. I know exactly what he’s talking about. Depression and anxiety to me is like screaming for help but no one can hear you. It’s hanging on by a thread. Whether I have a few dollars or no money at all. My mind is a mess regardless of my situation. It don’t change. Rest easy, Chester Bennington🙏🏻✝️🙏🏻✝️🙏🏻✝️
Richard Alvarez someone please destroy that comment for me. I don't have the energy in me to point out the stupidity in what this guy just said quite enough.
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FlexFlinstonedTM I really feel you ,I try so hard to tell people how I feel and you saying that really helped me to just prove I'm really not alone, I hope one day your mother and brother help you through what ur going through
Sarah Le I don't not to be mean but many people commit suicide die etc were going to too Its sad but people will get over it and move on same will happen to us sorry but its true😕
I wish I could've given him a hug in that momet,especially when the interviewer laughed, and told him you matter no matter what that voice says and I'll tell you that no matter how many times you need to hear it. All these years later and I can still feel his pain.
The warning signs are so clear and yet, we lost someone because mental illness isn't taken seriously enough. Rest in paradise, Chester. You're still loved, thought about, and you still inspire.
I don't think they are so clear, first time I got depressed I started saying I should commit suicide, that was clearer, still people probably didn't take it seriously enough or didn't have a clue how to help me.
At 1.40 (ish) he says its like theres another chester in his head that wants to take him down and doesnt say nice things to himself. Thats my life every day. RIP chester.
Chester... I relate. But you were one of the only reasons why I'm still here. You may be gone, but I'll stand strong for you. Rest in peace, I'll never forget you.
1:18 “i should not be in there alone i can’t be there by myself” he said that with a slight smile but i legit felt the pain that he was trying to explain.. but he was being recorded so he hid it behind..
At 1:23 its really eerie how he points to his head and says "This is a bad neighbourhood, I should not be in here by myself" and the guy laughs and says "what are you talking about".
The saddest thing is that many people (also myself) are sitting here, watching the video and realize that these thoughts are the ones you also have. RIP Chester Bennington
The Problem of a depression is that you can have 5 Million great thinks around and only 1 thing is shit, you brain cant ignore the one thing it ignores the 5million things.. I hope you all know what i mean. My english sucks
A TH-cam Channel Name im pretty scared actually cause ive been depressed for a long time. last night i dreamt that my friend committed suicide. i thought it was true. i dont want to see her in the coffin and in the dream wants to think that there is foul play cos it's impossible that she would do it. i know its not about my friend committing suicide but more of my thoughts actually esp after learning the frontman from this band died. it's my fear maybe . more of myself.
Chester and his music saved me so many times when I struggled in life, like he did for many people, but we couldn't save him. I'll miss you forever Chester, you was an amazing person, musician and human. Met him in 2004 during the 'Rock am Ring' festival, talked to him, told him that his music is my safeplace and he hugged me, I will never forget this moment, thank you for this. ❤
This man is not one of the biggest blessing to the world is ever seen the The biggest blessing in the world has and will have a scene is Jesus Christ if you put this man above him I feel sorry for you even though he was a nice normal human being who just couldn’t take it any more like probably 90% of the Earth feels
Hate how it always tends to be the religious ones who lack empathy or compassion. If he does exist he would feel ashamed as to what is done and said in his name.
I got help after 35 years of dealing with PTSD I was tired of carrying the fucking burden myself. I was tired of being the one that felt the weight. I was so tired of not asking or bothering anyone with my hell! I wanted to feel weightless and not carry the shit. I needed to feel good again like I did last when I was 11 years old, now 47 and I chipped away at myself until I decided I was tired of feeling like I deserved to feel like shit. Life is so much better when you get the help you need.
How many times did he say he couldn't be alone , I think this was no laughing matter , if someone is speaking like this please talk to them these thoughts dont go away .
He just thinks it a joke. Depression is exactly how chester explains it. You can't explain how you feel but you know that what your feeling isn't right.
It's like having your very own custom-made bully living in your mind 24/7. A bully that knows EVERYTHING about you. Your fears, failures, and insecurities - and then feeds on you when you slip just a tiny bit.
Vet4life Coghill there are people that care for you, remember, don't let your other and darker "you" think otherwise, don't let that voice bring you down
I can too. I realize it's something I have to get myself out of. I do tell my boyfriend to tell me what I need to hear when I get like that. I say "tell me everything's gonna be ok." When my internal dialogue is not nice to myself. Maybe I can help someone else by sharing this tip. What is it you need to hear when your down? Ask someone in your life to tell you, when you need to hear it.
Well you see by his reaction, he doesnt feel insulted, cause what he kinda points out before is, whoever hears that and can laugh.. .was never there and doesnt understand. thats kinda my first rule of all of that.... sadly i do know...
It’s not evil he just didn’t understand what exactly he was going through. Men tend to make light about their pain and joke about it, but they never truly understand how much they are all suffering. Sadly that’s why so many men kill themselves, because men are not really encouraged to show how they really are, it’s seen as weakness to society, so we play it down and make light of it
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I owe chester. Please let him know too... an gots some angels.. that i am not letting gooo.😂😚😇🤗😎🤔
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He didn't kill himself
When you break your arm, everyone wants to sign your cast. But when your brain is sick, everyone runs away...and that's when you need people the most. RIP Chester :(
shamrock2228 your absolutely right. How sad..
shamrock2228 Mental illness is completely different from a broke arm. Mental illnesses has been so stigmatized in this country to the point where people don't want to confront it because it's "if you have a mental illness, you're crazy. Stay away from him because he might be bipolar" etc. When we start treating mental illness with compassion and understanding, then things will change.
Candie Ray very true. I've struggled with it my entire life. My grandfather, uncle, and cousin committed suicide within 5 years of each other...along with too many friends to count. We desperately need more empathy and compassion in the world.
shamrock2228 so sad and so true. Pain is pain.
shamrock2228 That is so true. Everyone knows how to help a broken arm, but not many know how to deal with depression and other mental disorders.
The saddest thing is that there are probably milions of people, including me, who while watching this interview were thinking "damn, it's like listening to myself"
badbadbad 100%
Hang in there pal. See what i did haha ?
badbadbad yep.. I totally feel useless even living right now
Lost my girlfriend
My job
Fucked up my study
Have a 10k debt now
Lost my car, it got stolen
Lost my drums, they got stolen
Family? I don't have those anymore they were all victims of war
Really, I don't see much of a need to live anymore
Might just join Chester, he was my savior
Guys seriously seek help, he didnt and now hes dead.
M.L.D Recordz disgusting low life
He wasn't crying for help, he was So bravely describing such a terrible and painful illness..
But who noticed? No one, you're are NOT brave killing yourself, and before anyone ?s I know I seen my father kill himself! Mental health is Frickin scary
He was and i see it
@@lylebump4507 well i guess we all knew since 2004, meteora (just one example cause I could have said hybrid theory) is all about being desperate, feeling sad, angry lonely and so lost, he also talked in a really open way about his own depression in some interviews, but what could we do? This is a medical and personal issue , nothing to do with us all fans and people who never knew him even tho all of us would’ve wished to help..
@@lylebump4507 and I said he was brave because its so hard to speak about your own mental illness it breaks myself in pieces infront of just my doctor and he could do that on media. Suicide is never a solution, never brave but yet it isnt for cowards either. Its just the worst consequence from a mental sickness.
They talk about it they leave hints, but sadly NO one close enough to him was present 🤨,I'm sorry I'm perceived as Blame someone except the PERSON who should be!,we ALL fail in expressing our appreciation and love for everyone around us!!!
He was basically saying "my mind is a prison". As a person who battles depression, I can totally relate. Hope he found some peace.
Nope, he's dead. He doesn't feel anything anymore.
@@MakeMeLo Good. That's what he wanted.
Have it too. How r you now? See you too searching for videos that can describe your feelings? You re not alone at this.
@@Khaine7th Im better, taking sertraline. You?
@@annepatton8727 Yeah... like taking a pills is the solution.
This whole conversation between chester and that radio guy is the representation of having depression in front of society that doesn't know nothing about having a depression.
Great point actually
@@franktheguy8183 Yeah, very well put
Thank you someone gets it❤️👍
That's good, we shouldn't all be depressed!
@@kariyam2202 we all hope it's that easy
"Being a dad, being a husband, being a bandmate, being a friend, helping someone out" All those things couldn't distract him from himself. Depression is wild.
Work keeps me busy, what can I say?
Murder not suicide.
Depression makes you feel isolated theres nothing and nobody there just you and all the things you think are pathetic
@@aq2819 no it's very much suicide not murder
If you actually wanted to finish his quote he said all those things could and did distract him. He was home alone when he committed suicide and unfortunately his inner demons really got to him that day. He lived with those demons for most of his life so all of things that you said didn't distract him actually did.
Chester: "I don't know if anybody out there can relate"
Trust me Chester, so many of us do
I feel like sadly too many actually can, in a lesser or even a more serious degree... relate. But so few speak up. And even when they do, like Chester. They're just not often taken seriously. Everyone can relate to a broken leg, but if they can't understand whats wrong, well then obviously then nothing is wrong because they can't understand it.... And that's the problem with mental health sadly. When you try to explain to someone you have severe anxiety for instance. It's Russian roulette weather or not they understand or tell you to "get a grip".
A lot of people feel this way.
Yes.
Totally relate
I was speaking about this at work the other day and there is far to much stigma attached people are told to man up or told that depression is bullshit that was what i was told and i had to hold my tongue if u dont go through it you dont understand how it feels. We lost one of the greatest of all time through depression and many other lose lives through this. People need to speak more about it however i dont have the courage to speak out because of the stigma. Chester helped so many its a shame he didnt have that help.
Dude was fighting demons. Remember, you never know what's going on in someone's head. Show people compassion and cut people slack because you just never know. RIP dude.
I'm in it if anyone will talk to me I would enjoy. Great comment
@@erik-fn2xf How're you holding up Erik?
I totally relate with this, I lived it. ….but Christ! Christ saved me and as I’ve walked with him my life hasn’t been all sunshine I’ve still taken L’s but He keeps me from hitting the mat and staying down. Cry out to the Lord he’s real and cares. He’s given me a heart for people and a purpose….🙏
@@user-vx6nn1uo4t Religious nut cases make problems worse, preying on people's fears and guilts. Some of us live in reality, not some BS fantasy world. But you do you man. Whatever works for you, but don't be pushing the religious nut case stuff on others. It's a cult man.
@@user-vx6nn1uo4tthat's such a big lie
When he said “there’s a Chester in there that wants to take me down” I hurt.
And Indeed he took him down...
I feel that
2020 and im still missing him and its just. Like Linkin Park isn't complete
@@funtimefoxy3393 same its like he isnt even gone to me its just he hasn't been gone he just been spending time with his friend
@@Mikeplaysdbd It would be amazing if that was the case and t friend was Mike.
Everyone could have depression. He had a beautiful wife and kids, money, fame, and millions of people who look up to him. Still took away his own life, depression is a real problem.
he was sexually abused at a very early age. he said some where, that his earliest memories are getting molested by an old man, a friend of the family. that is something that you CANNOT shake off easily. money success fame, none of it worked. he was touched by a demon at a very early age. god bless you Chester. R.IP
So why didn't he get professional help?
john, the only pro out there is god honestly, and surrounding yourself with gods people.. i dont know if chester ever went to church.. but i wish he did and he got it..
Keith Grenier it will rob YOU of your life, I KNOW ive been being robbed for 26yrs know !!! Ive sliped up and managed this far Idk how but I need help
Greg Payne Seek help.
That line: "This skull between my ears, that is a bad neighborhood." Hits so hard. And the fact that the interviewer laughed at it, doesn't anger me, it saddens me. The signs and cries for help had been there throughout the years.
R.I.P Chester. You helped so many like myself, through your words and music.
Then the guy calls him crazy. For someone in Chesters situation, that made things a lot worse.
@@royalyinfamous2451 you are so right. That man doesn't understand something like that can hurt so much. His reaction is like an extra drop that makes the bucket overflow.
same thought! i was like :"wow" when he said that
The interviewer clearly doesn't understand what a depression is like, how you feel about things if you're in a depressive state of mind.
I can relate to Chester's words so easily...
I wonder what the interviewer now thinks about that interview
I'm a grown man, and I'm not usually emotional, but this made me tear up. I want to go back in time, and give this guy a hug
I would do it too! ❤️🩹❤️🩹
Honestly, a hug doesn't help when you're trapped inside a cage in your mind. Finding someone that truly understands will help with time, but as you saw in this conversation, that is very hard to do. When that guy laughed a small piece of him died right there. He never found someone that understood; someone that could help him find the key to the chains that were binding him.
Thats true, i didtn understand why this guy is laughing, sry not normal, chester speeks about problems and this guy is laughing 🤦♂️, i know too what is depressions and most people don't understand it, i trie to kill myself years ago.
Think we would all go back in time to give Chester a hug 😭
@@melaniecatlin4447 I've sat down and thought to myself for hours at times what I could've done to help him. It always ends with me thinking, "No, you couldn't have done anything. You didn't even know about the band at that time." 💔💔💔
"You can make a person laugh, you can make a person smile, but whether or not that person is happy is deeply and utterly out of your control." - Will Smith
Thats not true, it sounds good, but it's not true. It's actually ignorant to say that. Happiness is out of your control? Really? I know it's not, but sounds good to say to someone who is depressed, it nails exactly how the feel. Pretty shity actually.
@@trustenbaker8766 That person has to find happiness from within themselves. Trying to get it from another person clearly didn't work very well for Chester. He had a wife and kids, yet he still didn't want to be alive.
@@trustenbaker8766Your happiness is not out of your control, someone elses happiness is out of your control... how is that ignorant?!
Trusten Baker the quote wasn’t about your own happiness but the happiness of others. you’re not in control of how others feel. you can offer them help but it’s not up to you if they’ll accept it, decline it or even fake accept it to not make you feel so out of control. they’re the ones who have to chose if they think it’s worth trying and accepting help is part of trying.
preach
Such sad and tired eyes.
Such a beautiful and pure soul.
You are so missed, legend.
Two bottles were found in his house. There were cycles he couldn't break : (
"Sigh" We lost a legend #RipChester
Alyona Romaniuk true
People see people who have committed suicide and say stuff like this. Like they were never happy and constantly suffering. Its not true. Depressed people still laugh, and smile, and feel happiness. Chester looks great here, because he probably was. He sounds very optimistic, and i can tell hes not faking it by his facial expressions.
We have good days and bad days. This looks like a good day, im sure of it
For anyone who watches this and relates like I do, I love you and I hope you stay on your path to finding peace. We can get there
Thank you so much
love you too man , thank you .
Thank you so much, I love you too & am right here with you...
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Jesus loves you! I have been where you are....sigh
Trust the Lord Jesus Christ!
Prayer going up for you and others now
John 3:16-18 KJB ❤
That song... It makes me cry even without hearing the lyrics. "Who cares if one more light goes out, well I do" -A man who died of depression
"There is another Chester in there. He wants to take me down." Please everyone. Hear that. This is probably the most personally strong messaged video I've ever witnessed.. I'm heartbroken for the Chester that was defeated.. He was trying, so hard, as a father, husband, and man. But that other Chester defeated him, just one time. That's all it takes. Go give someone a hug. You never know how bad they need it..
I know right. I’m trying to spread awareness about mental health and we all never know what someone goin thru
i get no hugs. yea I actually realised that lm all alone here in a big city. no one actually cares. I dont have another me in my head but instead i have a black guy without a face and a Cape with a weapon and this mans tall fr. well im fuqqed up
@@suprimemiray6285 ?
@@suprimemiray6285 what
Male mental health needs more attention. The 4x male suicide rate is evidence of that.
“This is a bad place for me to be alone”
Same here,and it's killing me day by day second by second
@@siakerynhiam2113 😦
@@siakerynhiam2113 Just happened to watch this video, just happened to read your comment, and I want to send you a warm hug and I hope everything good to you, and I hope something beautiful will come on your way. Greetings from Finland!
Chester described what so many of us feel way too often. Fighting to sort all the thoughts and make sense of everything can be overwhelming. Still devastated about his departure, but blessed to have the music. Blessings to his family and friends.
Yea i wish i could talk to someone but everyone ignores me
Depression is not a joke is as bad as cancer and is hard to get rid off sometimes you lose yourself in the process
Depression is a horrible thing to live with, but it's complete bullshit to say it "is as bad as cancer."
cancer has no cure
Yes so very true, and most people who have never been there think that a person can just flip it on and off like a light switch. Depression does not work like that
Eduardo Santo How the fuck can it be as bad as cancer? Do you even know what depression is?
FinalKeepss do you know what actual depression is?
I miss him every day.. He was such an amazing human. 😢😢
Every single day.😢
Faz muita falta ... Chester era uma lenda
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I respect that interviewer, he didn't realize how serious this interview was in the beginning, but when he did.. he kept silent and didn't laugh
Yesss agree. People pointing out the host are wrong. It is not his fault.
@@cemo3292 Beyond every dark night there is a brighter day bro
The interviewer check nothing. It's so bad.
@@cemo3292 Hopefully not. The world is better for you being in it.
Cemo not only your family loves you, your friends and maybe people, who you doesnt know.. God loves you and you dont know how good your life is gonna be, if you cancel the fight with your deamons. Accept the deamons and let they saying, what they want.. in the end you will get the point, that life is good, no matter how bad you feel sometimes and that it was worth it.. every breath and second in your life to going on!!!! Just never forget, that nothing could beat your heart. And maybe with fighting against your deamons and going on with your absolutely precious life, you'll change the world for somebody, who needs you more than all things in his world!!! Please let your heart win
Love!!!!
I was watching Linkin Park in concert back in 2000, a couple of people beside me fell over in the mosh pit and pretty quickly about 10-15 people were lying in the ground in a kind of mini-crush. Mid-way through the chorus, mid-line, Chester stops the song, gets the technicians to put the house lights on and starts trying to coordinate the crowd to pick up the small pile of kids on the floor. He was genuinely concerned about keeping the crowd safe. It was a nothing incident, but the guy cared more about keeping a bunch of 14 year old kids safe then about stage image or performance. A class act
That says a looooot waaaw 💓👏👏👏👏👏
Good memory
@@Viikk785 Thanks- for whatever reason I can remember it really clearly, and I think in his passing it's relevant to put it out there. My very brief experience of Chester was that he was a thoroughly decent bloke who cared about people.
T_T
Great story ✌
You can see the depression in his eyes when he's talking. It's so sad
Str8 4ward People do drugs trying to numb something else. Just saying
@Str8 4ward you seem certain about this. Do you know from experience?
Did you know Chester personally? Did someone you love and were dear to suffer in a similar manner?
Either way, i pray you find peace. To remove that anger from your life. 🙏
Mandy Rose I cry every time I watch this
Str8 4ward depression asshole
Deep Dispare
A soul just flickered and disappeared forever. No more thoughts, no more memories, and no concept of time. Where are you Chester, where are you?
"I'm in bad company when I'm alone"
I cant be alone for this
@Manic Misanthrope ya but "quaratining" makes things worse..you shouldnt distance yourself from the people you love and people in general bc of a "virus"..people are committing suicide even more bc of this bullshit
I can truly relate to that.
_My soul hurts for this man . . ._
Everything he described were the after effects of severe, severe trauma: PTSD, Dissociation, Depression, Depersonalization - I wish we could have helped him.
Abigail T how did he get all those physiological illnesses?
Sonu Kannadan your either born with it or you can get mental illness from taking to many drugs. I have bi polar I have studied it and when there is no1 there no1 to take to its very easy to do what him and Chris did. Listen to the words in there songs, they were screaming for help and the ppl with the money couldn't hear it. It sucks! Mental illness sucks!
If you know anybody with mental illness take time and make plans to hang out with them call for no reason, it's letting that person know at least someone cares.
Bipolar and severe anxiety is what I have been living with my whole life. I have had this exact same conversation with my wife of 23 years. To this day, she has a hard time getting her head around it. People who are lucky enough to be normal don't see it the same way no matter how you try to explain. This guy interviewing had no idea what he is hearing. At no fault to him it's hard for people not going through it to understand. I fight every minute of every day not to end up this way, and always wonder if it will beat me eventually. Some days your stronger than others, ya know?
im bi-polar to. totally understand
Fuckin chester man, wish there was a line for u to have all ur fans numbers, we woulda fucking saved u brother, u saved us
+Robert Gum Yes I agree 100%. Wish we could have returned the favor
Robert Gum I really can't stop crying. This is so crazy.
I'm a depressed agoraphobic person filled to the brim with anxiety and I would've traveled across the world on the next flight if he needed me. I would have literally gone to the end of the earth for him because without him I don't believe I would be alive. I owe him my life. I would give just about anything to be able to save him.
Evalynn 💗I'm with you there. . LP got me through sone realy tough shit and I don't know where I would be ... if.. he , they weren't making music to make me feel like I'm not alone in a screaming crowded world where no one can see me or hear me or understand me... We Are Family! 💟
Robert Gum That is one of the hardest things for me. Linkin Park saved me...their music helped me through so much....deaths, abuse etc...and I wouldnt be here if I didnt hav their music. Almost makes me feel guilt being here when one of the influences (Chester and the band) that helped me isnt. Why did they save so may yet he wasnt saved?
The fact the interviewer laughed is the prime reason why men never open up emotionally
yeah man, this laughter was so bad! its a heart opening to the world there is actually 100 percent NOTHING funny!! RIP Chester, u are lovely and loved!
Not just men unfortunately
💯 smh 😤 🤦 😔
To be fair he sis say it in an amusing way with a smile on his face and he didn't seem bent at all that the guy laughed about it a bit. Chester didn't find it unreasonable so neither should you.
ME2. I haven't been my "old self" since I lost my son. Nobody wants to hear what is going on in my head and my heart either. Please understand that I'm not complaining bcuz I want for NO ONE to feel what I feel.
I just wanna give him a fucking hug man... :(
Splorgus go dig him up and hug him then
i miss Chester bennington so much he was the Land Singer of Linkin park i want to have Chester bennington a hug😔😢😞
you are sick in your had
Splorgus same.
I Only Fuck White Men He was cremated so it would be hard lol
"There is another chester in there and he wants to take me down"..... gave me goosebumps. Rip brother..... we miss you
💙
Thank you
Wow
😢
Yeah, that hit on a very real level. Hope you're doing good homie
Anybody suffering depression knows exactly what he's talking bout
I know I can relate to 100% of what he says!!!!!!!!!!!
I am not sure.. If i am depressed but i can hear myself in his words
Totally true!
nope
If anybody needs to talk... I know i am just a random person on the internet but I like helping and talking to people and I incourage you to talk to people close to you. Nobody can just help themselves with depression. We all need help from somebody else and there is nothing wrong about it
I also have depression. I am not happy but I am also not sad. I just feel empty, nothing. I know theres different kinds of depressions but this is how I feel. This might not be the best way to approach it but this is how I cope with it or how its working for me. I just accepted it. I accepted to have this feeling in my life. I accepted myself to be this way. Before you ask, yea I have been trying to get rid of it for years, I have been trying so hard to be able to enjoy everything again like a child on an adventure but it just isnt happening, its not working. And that is ok. If that is who I am then so be it. I will not let that feeling take over my life. I know its there but I also know that I am here and thats what is important.
Depends on age if your a female bc this numbness happened to over 7 years due to hormonal imbalance. Uk Gps couldn’t give a dam an this is why we go crazy or if lucky for others,we take our life
@@yeelahowah7476 Yea, learning to appreciate is important.
@@user-pk6bq5xu7b I dont really have an answer to that because it is different for everyone. You need to find out what makes you happy or why you want to become happy in the first place. Do you really want to be happy or do you just not want to be sad anymore? Theres a difference between the two. And like I said in my comment I am not really happy because I tried to be but I just cant be, or I just havent found a way to be yet. So my next step was to just not be sad, and I managed to do that by accepting the way I am and appreciating the things I have in my life. While I am not truly happy, you could say I found a state of peace in myself. Again, this is something that worked for me and it might not for you, and if it does not work for you, you can still take this information to get you at least going, like a first step to where you want to be.
@@user-pk6bq5xu7b 15My eyes are always toward Jehovah, For he will free my feet from the net.16Turn your face to me and show me favor, For I am alone and helpless.
That’s not depression
It’s far worse
His entire music career was a cry for help.
Everyone listened to his music, bit nobody listened to him
My son who is a forever fan said that same exact thing!
I said the same thing. It's hard not to see his lyrics as a life long suicide note
LilMiss Avakin everyone knew he was struggling, it wasn’t hidden, he was extremely open about his depression.
Depression type of lyrics along with the great music is what Linkin Park is all about. Authentic expression .. ..
The interviewers laughter is nervousness for not knowing what to say. He probably didn’t expect this conversation to get this heavy.
I'm sure that's the case, I highly doubt it's as if he finds his suffering to be amusing/funny.
I saw lots of comments suggesting the interviewer is insensitive for laughing.
It's as if people never lived and found themselves in awkward or hard conversations. A nervous laughter is such a common thing - I felt like commenting and saying "it's an awkward laughter" will make me the odd one amongst the rest. But I'm glad you said it, because I wouldn't have.
@@NandoGigaba Yeah well said, I feel devastated over Chester's depression and suicide but I understand that a lot of people aren't used to being in touch with such vulnerable emotions that they only thing they can do is shrug and laugh.
Thats what im saying Chester kind of had a smile. The music is making it way more sad.
Nando Gigaba that was so big of you to admit. I’ll admit, I thought the guy was being insensitive at first as I was going through a bad patch too when this all happened. Looking back, he was probably nervous like you say as what to say.
*"This place between my ears, is a bad neighbourhood. I should not be there alone.."*
Kinda foreshadows how unfortunately he was there alone
I cant believe i heard someone explain the same issue i have. And that someone was someone i always listened to. I sure hope this video has raised awareness extremely!
We are all there alone. Fight.
That dude should not be laughing. Chester was venting. Just listen dude. Stop laughing.
Note Chester’s response to that
I honestly feel like this everyday i just wait for the end but my family keeps me here. I couldnt see my son without me and wonder how it would make him feel If i was gone. I couldnt do that to him.
Some people just don’t understand the inner darkness of people with depression. We have bullies in our lives but for people like us no one is a worse bully then ourselves to the point that our own inner negativity and hopelessness leads us to justify suicide. That’s the scary thing about being in a dark place you don’t realize how bad it is until it’s too late. To all the people who can relate to this message your loved call someone who can help you. God bless
Sad part is... their are a lot of people that feel just like him
there*
When you can’t run from the pain, it chases you into places that no normal person can ever see or understand! It can be so bad at times, your mind won’t stop replaying the trauma, the guilt, the shame, the people not wanting to be in this part of your life , only the good and what they can benefit from it! Took me 2 1/2 years to finally understand that I can’t change any of what happened to me. My children suffered greatly and I can’t take that back. But the kicker is even when you think you have come to grips with your demons, those mean little bastards won’t leave you alone! I’m like Chester, I have to be outside of myself because “ in there is a bad place to be! I understand the man perfectly and I struggle with my sanity every single day. And “ In the end it doesn’t even matter!” RIP
Me
life!
Including me
When men talk about Clinical Depression, THIS is what it sounds like. Rest In Peace, Chester!
Adidas Love When women do it they complain about being triggered than "attempt" suicide aka deliberately fail at it for attention
+N7 Um... women? Dude we're not all one being lol I guess maybe a few people have done that? But that doesn't represent all of us...?
Anxious Sushi I was merely referring to the statistic that more women attempt suicide than men but despite this more men actually commit suicide successfully.
its not just men, I feel this toon
Kat Rider well I hope you get help and watching this helps you
It hurts me that the "other Chester" won...
Edit: Glad I'm not alone :)
Me too
sad but true
Maan right in feels. . .
@@savagerebel7971 I know what you mean. His music saved my life many times but it's sad to think that his life couldn't be saved
It's definitely hurts that the Chester who is battling depression and suicidal won. His songs have definitely helped a lot of people through problems in their life. If only he could have been saved.
Listening to Linkin Park for me is like a bad shroom trip...their songs are so real and raw that they make me really depressed but they also make me feel so validated at the same time. I wish I would have seen them in concert but never got the chance to.
02:09
"If im outside of myself im great,if im inside all the time,im horrible,im a mess"
Sometime im tired to act that im great all the time
Me too. I'm so tired
"Become so tired,so much more aware" ....
I’m in the same situation
Ama ndine don’t hide it, next time you feel that way just show it, people you trust are very open and usually helpful
Same to me. Or i need to use some stuff just to keep my mind away from my head.
Points to his head “this is a bad place to be by myself”...
that resonates with me everyone with depression knows what I mean.
Me too
Listen to J. Cole's speech on the Love Yourz Mac Miller tribute video
Definitely know what you mean, we all need to know “who cares? I do. Anyone reading this know that we care about you
I don't have depression, but I get it completely. Like the second I'm trying to rest, these thoughts start "attacking" me or something? Just how Chester worded it. Btw for everyone who's battling depression and/or other mental illnesses: you're strong and loved. You're not a burden and make this world a better place🖤
It hurts especially when you know exactly what he is talking about.
Sara Jane i love you and hug you from Germany 😊❤
Sara Jane I wish you find your internal peace.
Sara Jane people are always so quick to judge others. But yet they never know of the demons we fend off.
I know your feeling. Im 18. I've been bullied like 3 years. Beaten up in bathrooms, and much more things that i don't want to talk about them. I have depression like 5 years, i wanted to die too. So people who read this. Don't bully the others. A lot of people have problems. Rip Chester. You are my biggest inspiration. I became through depression because of you. love you guys.
Jakub Kulczyk just remember you are not alone bro...we all ve seen the hell,been there,survived..be proud of us..☺..
MAN I wish we still had Chester. For his music, for his message, for all of it. He was such a force for good for all of us that battle depression every single day.
Chester says that his head is a bad place to be, and that he shouldn't be alone, and the guy laughs. you can see the pain in Chester's eyes during this, he must have felt so abandoned and ignored like millions of other men struggling with depression. mens mental health isn't taken seriously, and it's a real shame. we'll miss you Chester
Yeah, sure. Why not just go to a good therapist? He could have afforded the best! No, he was a whinny little B that thought he gets help in an interview! LOL
Wrong. No one cares about men. At all. In fact in 2023 you’re bad just for being born a man.
Come on , what should he do?call the ambulance?, we re talking about tallented, wealthy, artyst, father, friend, with a Group of therapists and medical support.
I don't feel angry about the host laughing. It's what we do to difuse the tension. For the people who are fine and see somebody struggling, one of the things they try to help is just a simple laugh. Also, for him, it might've seen incomprehensible when somebody who seemingly has everything says that he feels lost in his own mind that is a bad neighbourhood.
They guy isn’t a therapist…he’s a radio interviewer. We don’t know if anything was said after the camera and mics went silent. People rarely see suicide coming. It’s a disaster
Sometimes in life , the only person you CAN'T help is yourself.
Most of the time it’s that way
It happens
Very true especially depression is concerned
with an attitude like that and using absolutes then of course your statement is true 100% of the time. Saying CAN'T allows you to make excuses why things aren't your fault. Start looking in the mirror and pointing your finger at yourself for what you have(n't) done. By saying you can't you are giving yourself permission to stop trying and to give up on yourself. It is so sad that people give up on themselves but those around them talk about how capable they are.
GET THE FUCK OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY..... and allow yourself to make mistakes. But you have to peel yourself off the pavement sometimes and keep fighting for a better moment or 5 minutes or tomorrow. Stop making excuses for why you "can't" because you can. Start respecting yourself and believing that you are worthy. What the fuck is wrong with you that you don't think you are worthy?
800-273-8255 national suicide hotline open 24/7/365 if you need someone to talk to and you don't even need to give them your real name. You don't even need to be in crisis to call. They are willing to talk and listen and help you.
Love yourself to ask for help
Joel Marble this is 100% correct. You CAN always help yourself but you have to want to.
Mental sickness is the worst form of isolation..
"This is a bad place to be by myself" .. these words echo so deep for me - R.I.P Chester
but youre still here, just keep soldiering on. fighting with your own head on a daily basis is tough.
I couldnt agree more
Americans in particular don't like to be alone. Even when they are alone, they turn on TV or read newspapers and whatnot because they are disturbed by their own thoughts. Christianity says "God be with you", Buddhism says "Be one with yourself".
@@danvez5656 thanks Dan ! Day by day
I feel this, being trapped inside your own head can break you down and destroy you, it can take every bit of happiness away and leave you helpless and broken.
I've been battling my own thoughts for 15+ years, and it doesn't get easier. Every day is a struggle..I do it to myself, it's a very tough cycle to break. I hope everyone finds their peace.
I feel you! Hang in there!!
He literally asked for help at the same time as trying to help others
Legend
Sad to say but the ones that are feeling the worst and the sickest are the ones that always want to reach out and help others I know this because I'm one of those people
That’s what we do. It’s the helpers in this world who everyone walks away from when they need them to help them for once and just be understood , but they all just find someone else to use when you are used up
@@shaybatty3785 I agree sometimes I think we need to be a bit more selfish to ourselves and get ourselves right as the energy we use up helping people either gets wasted, falls on deaf ears
thats me
I can 100% relate to what Chester is saying. I struggle with depression, I'm trapped in my mind. It feels like I'm detached from myself. I'm trapped in the "bad neighbourhood." But one thing that helps me get out of my head is the practice of meditation and exercise. Pain is subjective, we can never understand what someone is going through. So we should open our hearts to everyone. And open our minds to new ideas. I hope we can all take something from this tragedy and support each other, love each other, and take time to listen to each other. Let's stick together, and keep fighting the fight.
Peace and love
Chin up my friend. Please talk to as many as you can talk if you need.
Illes Hurkecz thanks brother
Matt Hguab just be strong!
talk to somebody I have it to.It's so sad that beautyfull people die of depression. Chester is one of them.It's make me want to cry
Just remember it will get better and talk to people it will get better
Chester, here it is Dec 2019 and to this day I have never heard anyone describe depression so precise. The moment you ( anyone with depression) are alone those very dark thoughts come through. I have to listen to this interview and your songs often to keep me going. RIP Chester... I miss you
Yeah, intense and very frank
Hey m8, if you are feeling down and need to talk, reply back to this and I’ll give you my Instagram, I’m happy to help
@@josephmartino3908 Thank you, I do not have instagram or social media.... please keep me in your prayers....
J Perry all good man, will do, stay safe
I would never forget that moment, specially about the host laughing. I get it not most people would react properly but my first thought hearing it was shock and I would have stopped everything to hug him and say "whatever you need I am here bro" after all is everything I needed when I was there
I thought the exact same thing!
That would not be appropriate right then but maybe after
Such courage to talk about this
1. Because it’s on air
2. Its to practically a stranger
3. Because the person you decide to talk to is both laughing and interrupting
4. It’s just a f***ing hard thing to articulate
RIP Chester. You will always live on through your music. I lost my brother to suicide and music keeps us connected. We all need to talk about these real problems
Trust God bro 🙏🏽❤️
@killswitch
I don’t think I believe in god anymore but thanks for your words anyway
@alduin
Give yourself the things nobody else can and find strength in people that can help💞
That's cool. Music keeps me and my dad connected. I lost him about 13 months ago. He straight up sent me videos that I'd never listened to before or have but it would come as a straight up playlist from him. His favorite bands and him speaking to me through them. I'd tune into him and feel when songs were coming from him, and still do. He used to send me vids in life so why would he stop now? That's the beauty of music. And we are all made up of frequency anyway. What is the internet, youtube? Algorithms and frequency.. I'm so grateful for it. It's one of the few things that makes me feel alive, music.
@ Konstantin
I totally get what you mean and think that’s the coolest thing I’ve heard. My brother (& my dad) send me moths. I also get songs faintly playing in the back of mind. Music helps me feel something when I’m feeling overwhelmed and numb...stay strong and turn that music up✌️
I find it easier to talk to a stranger about my problems
"There's another Chester in there trying to take me down..."
The hardest fights are the ones with yourself
Seems true brother
True
Exactly cause you know all your weaknesses and blind spots.
You will lose your friends but never lose yourself
He is fighting for people and illuminati is after him thats why
Its so sad, he explains so perfectly what it's like to be depressed and he is so aware about the difficulties that comes with it and still couldn't win over his thoughts..
He laid it out very well and we all missed it
Very true
OH yea theres this common missconception that selfawareness means you can magically pull yourself out of it and its so invalidating to hear from others esp medical professionals. it doesnt make it any easier it just makes me feel more trapped and that expectation from others compounds that 10 fold. i can also use the self awareness to intelectualize it as a coping mechanism thats sometimes unhealthy disconnect from it.
Don't worry kids. Chester is hanging in there like a trooper
@@CrypticBore Wow..Holy shit wow...thats about all I can utter beause the way u said that just blew my mind. U are so on point..so true....I couldn't have said it any better or described it in such an accurate way. So I applaude u my friend. And thank you because its so nice to hear someone else wth the same thought.... It gets so lonely sometimes, for me, when no one around me sees or hears or perceives or even thinks the things the same as I do.
Depression is like the weather, when it’s raining, you can’t “wish” it away, or drink it away… just take shelter, be patient and the sun WILL come out. All on its own. Eventually. Peace x
I have always appreciated psycadelics and believe they can teach real lessons about depression. I always hate being depressed, sometimes its a day, maybe a couple of weeks. I always know it will pass, just like the bad parts of a trip. When I experienced those trips I felt extreme anxiety and would sift through experiences and judge myself. It was always hard coming up, but eventually I have some clarity and everything starts moving and I can appreciate everything. So just like the rough parts of a trip, you just ride it out. It's just a part of the experience, soon you can reflect with clarity.
When he said "I have a hard time with life" that's when it hit me hard, this man is the embodiment of an angel and an absolute legend.
“There’s another Chester in there that wants to take you down” I know what he means
Yeah. The fact that I know what he's talking about scares me
I think a lot of people know what he means by that and that's why so many people found an escape with his music. Including me, I still listen to his music because it helps me escape.
😧😧💔🔫
Mine motivates me, helps me out when time's not right...🤗
Right there with you bud
“There’s another Chester in there , that wants to take me down.” Jesus Christ
i know mate.
That hit so hard. Its so difficult to know that he was struggling so hard and its not like he hid it from the world. How could someone not help
That’s truly what it’s like. It’s the lifelong bully in your head that you can never get away from or reason with. That’s why he tried to distract himself with being around his family and band mates. Only problem is that it’s still there waiting for an opportunity to take over. Eventually it breaks you down and you can’t keep fighting it anymore. Everyone that struggles with this is afraid of the day that you’re so far down that you give in to what it’s telling you to do, which is what happened to Chester.
It's actually true, the comparison that is, I have severe depression which is diagnosed clinically and he couldn't have worded that better. Hopefully, I live to see a cure...
@@yomolicheu My prayers are with you
I feel him 100% his explanation of his mental state resonates with me
The thing with depression is that you are not sad all the time. When you are with people, you can laugh and have a great time, but the thing is that you come down even harder. Just because you can't see it, doesnt mean it isnt there, but all we as people can do is too help people to talk about it. So many people go around with all these crazy thought and you dont want people to share your burden, because "everyone got their own problems to deal with", but that is so much the wrong way to think. Speak out, because people are willing to listen and understand. Rest in peace Chester, you beautiful man.
M J absolutely the saddest people have the biggest smiles in front of people
M J What you said is very real and true.
M J So relatable
I'm writing this comment in tears and anxiety. I always come back to Chester because he helps me push through the stuff in my head. Love you Chester.
Im always amazed how music just opens something in our selfs and helps us relate and not be alone. Hope you are doing better . I can totally understand where you are coming from. Been there, sometimes better other times no so
Much but I’m here writing this 😊
Most of the problems get worse from drug's
But there is always hope
Every one can make it
Life is good and short
We will not live forever
So take it easy and enjoy it
Written a year ago and I hope you’re ok dude…. I miss Chester and wish he could have worked through his stuff. Do what you need to get through yours… people are there for you.
Yeah same brother, don't you worry in 10 years we'll be there free of our troubles, it's a long battle but it's worth it! Good luck to you
@Sean Caelum I'm still around. Thank you so much for the caring gesture. It's rough but I always come back
He saved me, his music saved me. Sadly I won’t get to meet this human genius. Thank you for 19 years and many more
He saved me too when I was younger. His music helped my pain. I miss him.
Stay strong brotha
My friend, the only one who can save is the Lord Jesus Christ, apart from Him all perish. Jesus said: I am the way the truth and the life no one comes to the Father but through me." (John 14:6)
Same here. It never goes away, but ironically it was "Blackbirds" that I stumbled across and I thought this song understands me. I've been a fan since day 1 of LP, but Chester was just such an amazing soul. His translation of pain, and depression through his voice is uncanny.
I watch this video again and again and again hoping to get out of this depression. Thank you Chester.
The interviewer that laughed, is the reason why i don't tell people my problems
Same!
You should go to a psychologist. They don't ever laugh or judge, they listen. It's the way they do their job.
@@greog1108 I agree with you. The Psychologist is best as you talk through your problems and unlike Psychiatrist's they just give you medication and maybe a little chat but a Psychologist is the best if you can afford to see one would be the best- especially if people laugh at you when your trying to express yourself to them- truly- they are not a true friend that does that.
That is the reason I talk to myself when I'm alone......
H-8434 Yawar Manzoor I do too! It’s actually kind of therapeutic for me? 😂
Via Mrs. Bennington (Chester's wife) : "One week ago today, I lost my soulmate and my children lost their hero-their Daddy. We had a fairytale life and now it has turned into some sick Shakespearean tragedy. How do I move on? How do I pick up my shattered soul? The only answer I know is to raise our babies with every ounce of love I have left. I want to let my community and the fans worldwide know that we feel your love. We feel your loss as well. My babies are so young to have lost their daddy. And I know that all of you will help keep his memory alive. He was a bright, loving soul with an angels voice. And now he is pain free singing his songs in all of our hearts. May God Bless us all and help us turn to one another when we are in pain. Chester would've wanted us to do so. Rest In Peace, my love. Always, Mrs. Talinda Bennington"
I am so very sorry for your tremendous loss! Strength, Peace, Love & Light Always! I wish my son, who suffers in his head, would have been able to express himself so clearly! I wish I would have realized that his struggles were way worse than he ever let on! I pray we will be able to get him help, into a mental health facility soon, and out of jail! Of course, I realize that even if, it could still happen, my thoughts always go to the what if though!
when I red this....I was in tears before I knew it.
Waking Up Dad Chester's wife we all feel for you & your family at this time. I've got chills writing this now as i listen to Chester talk as i can relate to what he is saying in this. he's a in a better beautiful place now. he's shining brightly. he will live on through everyone's hearts & his music. so sorry for your loss. rest in peace Chester you will never be forgotten. god bless xx
Jesus Christ is the Only Way to Heal Your Broken Soul! My Birth Mom died on operating table at the hands of alcoholic Doctor. She went before Jesus. He told her, it wasn't her time. He sent her with a message from him. Thank God, she was already born again Christian. She did Not want to Return to Earth! She did share that Jesus was very dark skinned with deep olive skin tone. Flowing hair of silk. He was wearing a shade of Brown she had never seen or could not describe the shade. Folks, whether you want to believe or Not...Jesus Christ is the Real Deal...John 3:16 Our Days on Planet Earth are Coming to an End! Pray and be Saved. Religion Will Not Save YOU! Blood of Jesus Christ Will! Repent and ask for Jesus to be your Lord and Saviour...Ask him into Your Heart...You Will have Eternal Salvation and Life
+r mcgrath amen :)
Chester: I’m really broken.
Host: haha! Dude, what?
Chester: I need help
Host: haha! Cool tattoos bro
I know, it's almost like the host was running a show and doing an interview for entertainment and isn't a mental health professional.
eo what are you talking about?
@@PaulMclauchlin Didn't know you need a degree to know what empathy is and how it works.
@@Leaptab My point is that people are blaming the interviewer for not spotting the signs of a suicidal man when most people miss them too. Mental health professionals are trained to spot signs of depression and sometimes they get it wrong. It's tragic that Chester Bennington died, but the interviewer is blameless.
@@PaulMclauchlin i already knew it. I didnt disregarded his suffering. You did
None of this was ever your fault, Chester. If only all of us could have helped you. We will forever feel your loss. RIP Chester.
I have severe depression but I have no support system of any kind yet I take each day as it comes so I salute those who feel the same, it is so God damn hard to fight ur own demons everyday but you are a survivor and u made it til this day.. be strong be proud.. you are not alone
Stay strong my friend, you are loved 💜💜💜💜💜🙏 xxxx
I hope you will stay strong! Please do something make you happy 🥺❤️
Truth is, you will need to figure most of it out on your own. I learned this the hard way, waiting for something or someone to help. Until I decided nobody was coming that's when I got myself out of bed on my own and forced myself to do the shit I hate. One step at a time.
Its been a month since your comment how are u now? Can you explain to me what exactly you are feeling and where in your body are you feeling this? Hope you are doing verry well.
Hey man you need to talk ?
When Chester said "This is a bad place for me to be by myself." I literally broke down because he was by himself with his thoughts before he made the call. I miss you Chester.
Why didn't his friends help him. In the video it seems to me the soul of Chester was being interviewed but it was him , real Chester;-(
Only Jesus can help someone defeat demons.
Depression is like feeling home sick without having a home to go to.
Yes!!! I sing a song in my head since I was a lil girl.
I sing over & over...I wanna go home, but idk where home is! Thank you! This lil song has been a part of me.😔
Praying to go home every day
We’ve been separated from home since sin entered the world Jesus is the bridge back home
I’ve never been on drugs. I feel the exact same way. I know exactly what he’s talking about. Depression and anxiety to me is like screaming for help but no one can hear you. It’s hanging on by a thread. Whether I have a few dollars or no money at all. My mind is a mess regardless of my situation. It don’t change. Rest easy, Chester Bennington🙏🏻✝️🙏🏻✝️🙏🏻✝️
He really does explain depression very well without just saying "im depressed", i pray that you have now found peace now Chester 💔
Richard Alvarez someone please destroy that comment for me. I don't have the energy in me to point out the stupidity in what this guy just said quite enough.
„There is another chester who wants to put me down..“ wow, that hit so so hard. Right in my heart😔
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Mental Illness is literally your own mind setting out to destroy you.
It's so hard to shut this stupid other voice down.
Are you okay
@@manawoowar5663 no i am not okay. Thanks for asking
Everybody cares when it's too late
Sarah Le that's so true and that's what gets to me knowing it's not a joke anymore after there gone but it was before somehow
FlexFlinstonedTM I really feel you ,I try so hard to tell people how I feel and you saying that really helped me to just prove I'm really not alone, I hope one day your mother and brother help you through what ur going through
@ Sara Le: Yes, they do! It's called ignorance and greed. Not against Chester, but my own experience.
Sarah Le I don't not to be mean but many people commit suicide die etc were going to too Its sad but people will get over it and move on same will happen to us sorry but its true😕
I'm sure people would care if everyone knew he was going to commit suicide, but no one knew
I wish I could've given him a hug in that momet,especially when the interviewer laughed, and told him you matter no matter what that voice says and I'll tell you that no matter how many times you need to hear it. All these years later and I can still feel his pain.
The warning signs are so clear and yet, we lost someone because mental illness isn't taken seriously enough. Rest in paradise, Chester. You're still loved, thought about, and you still inspire.
I don't think they are so clear, first time I got depressed I started saying I should commit suicide, that was clearer, still people probably didn't take it seriously enough or didn't have a clue how to help me.
When someone wants to kill himself there's no fvckin way you could stop it, they sure will find ways
The song “Live Not Survive” by SLT was literally written about this interview 😢 it’s so good but also depressing
Now JDF too we need to seriously take it seriously to many lights being put out too soon.
Agreed ive lost far too many friends from suicide and even been in that place myself
It frightens me how much I can relate to everything he’s saying...
Agreed. Are you ok?
Me too
Damn, Exactly my thoughts.
Keep fighting. It gets better.
Same
At 1.40 (ish) he says its like theres another chester in his head that wants to take him down and doesnt say nice things to himself. Thats my life every day. RIP chester.
Dude are you good? Come fwm bruh!
I feel you man, you're not alone
Feel the same man. 👊
You AREN'T ALONE
@@dwhizzel6471 YOU AREN'T ALONE. WE LOVE YOU.
Chester... I relate. But you were one of the only reasons why I'm still here. You may be gone, but I'll stand strong for you. Rest in peace, I'll never forget you.
remember you are loved
same here
Septic_Blue _Syra that's the same with me
Love❤
R.I.P Chester, Your a you not be here, but legend is.
1:18
“i should not be in there alone i can’t be there by myself” he said that with a slight smile but i legit felt the pain that he was trying to explain.. but he was being recorded so he hid it behind..
"crawling in my skin, these wounds they will not heal, fear is how I fall confusing what is real"
Dude please put the commas in properly or just dont use em, dont be disrespecting.
I don't think you're being disrespectful you are merely putting out lyrics
@@JlYlElNlJ grammar police 🚓🙄
@@JlYlElNlJ leave him alone
@@JlYlElNlJ bruh
I miss him so much,I have depression and his story has help me so much and his music I truly miss him ❤
At 1:23 its really eerie how he points to his head and says "This is a bad neighbourhood, I should not be in here by myself" and the guy laughs and says "what are you talking about".
TheDudecof maybe you have to have been in the same situation as him to be able to get him
TheDudecof | Its not really the dj's fault..
I hate the fact the interviewer laughs when he's trying to tell him something serious :/
TheDudecof well, yeah.. it was very obvious the entire interview.. He was not ok! He was feeling bad😣 And nobody notice,not evem that guy
The saddest thing is that many people (also myself) are sitting here, watching the video and realize that these thoughts are the ones you also have. RIP Chester Bennington
😁
Yep
The worst part is I can really relate to a lot of the things he's saying in this video. Especially when he talks about bad thoughts in his head.
You should talk to someone close. Chester couldn t be saved but at least we could save you
The Problem of a depression is that you can have 5 Million great thinks around and only 1 thing is shit, you brain cant ignore the one thing it ignores the 5million things.. I hope you all know what i mean. My english sucks
A TH-cam Channel Name im pretty scared actually cause ive been depressed for a long time. last night i dreamt that my friend committed suicide. i thought it was true. i dont want to see her in the coffin and in the dream wants to think that there is foul play cos it's impossible that she would do it. i know its not about my friend committing suicide but more of my thoughts actually esp after learning the frontman from this band died. it's my fear maybe . more of myself.
felischs, Very true, my friend.
100 percent
Chester and his music saved me so many times when I struggled in life, like he did for many people, but we couldn't save him. I'll miss you forever Chester, you was an amazing person, musician and human. Met him in 2004 during the 'Rock am Ring' festival, talked to him, told him that his music is my safeplace and he hugged me, I will never forget this moment, thank you for this. ❤
This man is one of the biggest blessings the world has and ever will see
This man is not one of the biggest blessing to the world is ever seen the The biggest blessing in the world has and will have a scene is Jesus Christ if you put this man above him I feel sorry for you even though he was a nice normal human being who just couldn’t take it any more like probably 90% of the Earth feels
@@darrenomara5862 how in the hell can you judge how this person feels...
@@darrenomara5862 you’re a pos
@@darrenomara5862 you clearly don't understand the BLESSING of a true artist and real honest music
Hate how it always tends to be the religious ones who lack empathy or compassion. If he does exist he would feel ashamed as to what is done and said in his name.
"It's insane it's crazy in there. Its a bad place for me to be there alone"
I feel you brother. RIP
Nahar Alshammari fuck yes I agree, I love you all yet I despise myself
For all of you guys who feel like Chester, I wish I could take you a hug and show some love. I wish you the best with your life. Never give up!
Thank you
Thank you. 😢😊
Best for you bro. We're all in it together.
🙏
thank u
I got help after 35 years of dealing with PTSD I was tired of carrying the fucking burden myself. I was tired of being the one that felt the weight. I was so tired of not asking or bothering anyone with my hell! I wanted to feel weightless and not carry the shit. I needed to feel good again like I did last when I was 11 years old, now 47 and I chipped away at myself until I decided I was tired of feeling like I deserved to feel like shit. Life is so much better when you get the help you need.
God bless you Colby. Stay strong The Creator is always with you brother. May your dreams come true now and forever.
When ur going through what he went through you know exactly what he’s talking about
You were molested?
@@lamolambda8349 i am fighting with depression, and it feels exactly the same.
Yup I totally understand what he’s saying because of my social anxiety
100%
Amen
"this is a bad place, this skull between my ears, its a bad place to be by myself"
that line broke my heart :(
The worst part was the guy interviewing him, he laughed
@@isimonsez shocked me how he couldnt tell
How many times did he say he couldn't be alone , I think this was no laughing matter , if someone is speaking like this please talk to them these thoughts dont go away .
Why would he laugh?so mest up
@Simon very true
The radio guy just doesnt get it.
Tree not one bit .
he does in the end
I always thought the same. I always felt like that would have been an interview that went into overtime.
He just thinks it a joke.
Depression is exactly how chester explains it.
You can't explain how you feel but you know that what your feeling isn't right.
It's like having your very own custom-made bully living in your mind 24/7. A bully that knows EVERYTHING about you. Your fears, failures, and insecurities - and then feeds on you when you slip just a tiny bit.
You will always be missed Chester, RIP brother.
He articulated depression so well...always did...very missed
I can relate... RIP
it's going to be alright
Vet4life Coghill you will make it through this i promise
Vet4life Coghill there are people that care for you, remember, don't let your other and darker "you" think otherwise, don't let that voice bring you down
Vet4life Coghill We care about you 🙇🙏
I can too. I realize it's something I have to get myself out of. I do tell my boyfriend to tell me what I need to hear when I get like that. I say "tell me everything's gonna be ok." When my internal dialogue is not nice to myself. Maybe I can help someone else by sharing this tip. What is it you need to hear when your down? Ask someone in your life to tell you, when you need to hear it.
I just wanna go into the screen and give this man a hug because I know exactly what he's saying. RIP Chester
I will never understand how the interview partner could laugh about Chester discribing pure pain.
Evilness.
Well you see by his reaction, he doesnt feel insulted, cause what he kinda points out before is, whoever hears that and can laugh.. .was never there and doesnt understand. thats kinda my first rule of all of that.... sadly i do know...
He just didn't understand it... not his fault. Only Chester knew it and people that go through the same.
because he dont understand the struggle and the pain
It’s not evil he just didn’t understand what exactly he was going through. Men tend to make light about their pain and joke about it, but they never truly understand how much they are all suffering. Sadly that’s why so many men kill themselves, because men are not really encouraged to show how they really are, it’s seen as weakness to society, so we play it down and make light of it