FLUCTUATING BOTTOM DYSPHORIA
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When Stef and Chase put their vids at the same time and you don't know which one watch first D:
Exactly the same issue!
Mawi Oh my god that was my exact thought 😂
I know, right!? There was not even 1 second between the notifications for me.
YAASSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!
I had forearm phalloplasty 2 years go. It was the last leg in my journey. Go with Dr. Crane. SO worth the wait. And yeah full feeling. My wife argued with me for years against it, once everything healed up, yes it was 3 surgeries but SO SO WORTH IT.
"what the fuck is gender"
LITERALLY SAME
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THIS ISN'T DIRECTLY RELATED TO THIS VIDEO IN PARTICULAR, BUT I'M POSTING IT HERE RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I'M JUST INCREDIBLY HAPPY RIGHT NOW AND I CAN'T WAIT!!!! I'M FINALLY GOING TO BE ABLE TO ORDER MY FIRST BINDER TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!! As a trans guy I get really dysphoric about my chest, so this is going to help immensely! I'm not out, so I'm going to end up lying and telling my parents that it's for cosplay, but whatever works. I just wanted to give a HUGE thank you to Chase. Your videos have helped me so much while I was trying to become more comfortable as I accepted myself as a trans boy. I can never thank you enough. You are absolutely amazing, and don't you ever forget that!!!
Good for you!!! They're so amazing ^~^
Congratulations!
That's amazing. Congratulations
PLEASE do a video on the misconceptions of phalliplasty, all the misconceptions I thought were true until now
I think he already has a video about phalloplasty myths. Not sure.
He already did a long time ago, search on the channel's videos.
I'm sitting here thinking "oh that sucks I have tattoos on both of my forearms, I wonder what I'd do" then remembering that wait Im a cis woman 😂
It's amazing what medical advances they've made for trans men and I can't even imagine the advances they'll make in the next 20, 50, even 100 years 😱
i know right! i've heard of all these..ovaries and stuff that people made, didn't take from something, scientists MADE, and they're functional, making me think "well shit, we gotta get transfeminine people in on this!"
if transfeminine people will be able to have periods and/or children in the next 10 years...DAMN. we did good.
Kali_Dash lol I actually think it would be awesome to get that with an already tattooed arm
Kali_Dash I keep planning tattoos on my arms and then I'm like "wait nvm that will be my dick some day" LOL
I'm getting a tattoo on my arm so I can have a tattooed dick. its gonna say keep off the grass.
Samuel Bastille I'd love to do that. my concern is a lot of surgeons are really particular about the quality of the skin they use.
flatulating bottom dysphoria? I'm so sorry I miss read that.
Is anyone else here dysphoric about their farts?
Man I am, they make me so dysphoric.
Lucas Long #triggered
I'm honestly really glad that you go over topics like these, because this is exactly how I feel! I don't know any other youtuber that talks about the deeper side of being trans.
Last time I was this early I didn't have dysphoria
This is (was) the eairliest you have ever been?
I GOT AN AD! YES
I know it's not as advanced as phallo or metoid, but doctors have just successfully transplanted a peen from one dude to another, so I think that's a plus for us in this case, spurring development for advancements in the area. Makes me want to become a doctor just so I could do something for peeps in this dilemma
www.nytimes.com/2016/05/17/health/thomas-manning-first-penis-transplant-in-us.html
sCREAMS
SOMETIMES HUMANS ARE UNBELIEVABLY AMAZING BEINGS, HOLY SHIT
Oliver M yes I read the article below and it sounds amazing and it is a great thing the doctors are doing. However I can't help but think it is a Little,… I don't know the right word for it, but it feels to be a bit about people really taking to heart when men lose their penises due to cancer or accidents. And that is a good thing don't get me wrong. I'm just having a little bit of feelings about or irritation about the fact that they care so much about those men's mental health but could give a shit about transgender mental health. When reading the article it said that this transplant would be mainly for accident victims or men that have lost their penises in part or completely from cancer. And then this line,"For now, he said, the transplants will be limited to cancer and trauma patients, and will not be offered to transgender people."Direct quote. It's straight up saying, "Don't ask, don't hope, we have cut you off right now,don't even think about asking us if you're transgender about this. "It was a little disheartening to say the least.
SoulWatcher72 it says that?? Holy shit I didn't read that part before, I'm sorry I chose that one! That's absolute bullshit, even more reason to have more trans doctors. I understand that some nerves and some parts are not the same or in the right place for a procedure like that, but there's still more that can be done, like what an asshole for saying that.
I love you Chasey Poo ❤️
I love how you go into these passionate rants, you're so open and honest with us it's incredible.
I was shocked when you said you were almost at 100k subs, you should be at almost 1million!
Watching these videos always makes me feel like I'm not alone... thank you chase
Hey man, just found your channel via your colab with Stef. Thanks so much for this video. As a trans dude with no out trans friends I get real up in my head about how I might be nuts, so it helps to hear that others are going through similar feelings and experiences. Rock on.
I've found that I'm always looking up more things about gender/trans stuff at the same times every year. February-April. I have no idea WHY, it just is A THING. But since I realized there was a pattern, it's kind of helped me to validate my feelings, both when I'm less dysphoric/concerned about it ("those feelings are still valid, my identity hasn't shifted") and when I'm in the throes of it ("I felt this way last year too, it's gonna be ok.") Thanks as always for being super open about things Chase!
Chase, I really want to encourage you (and everyone who might happen to read this comment) to undergo therapy.
I did it myself (for different reasons). And YES it's hard. It's hard opening up to a stranger, it's hard feeling and reflecting on all of these things that might be bothering/hurting you. There will be days when you HATE every second of it, but there will also be days when you walk out of that session feeling relieved. And these days will come more frequently over time and you'll notice your quality of life increasing SO, SO MUCH!
I know making that decision is hard, and undergoing therapy can be even harder at times. But it's really worth it!
I recently came across your channel and you're amazing. I'm non-binary afab and have a ton of dysphoria around my body. Your videos are so real and genuine and are helping me so so much ❤️keep doing you and thanks for sharing your journey
I really love how detailed you are when it comes to what procedures you have done, or maybe want done, bc I have a LOT of anxiety re medical procedures, and im currently beginning to think about top surgery specifically. Having a resource who is so open and relatable is crazy helpful for me, thank you so much
Fluctuating bottom dysphoria is my life 100% of the time, but I didn't realize other people had this and I thought I was weird?? This seriously is so validating for me, thank youuuuu 😭
If you contact Billie Joe Newington he had phalioplasty(?) He documented on his channel. He is more than willing to talk to people. He helped me a lot when I wrote my book "FTM"
Thanks for putting this together man. I am pre everything but I totally feel everything you shared.
Wow, Chase! I cant stop watching your videos. Thank you so much for what you post. I think it is so important for all humans to learn and be informed on this topic. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you
Thank you for this video - not only is it really informative but it made me laugh so much
Also its completely understandable to have confusing and fluctuating thoughts about bottom surgery cos its such a big decision to make
i really like these kind of videos because it turns something that gives a bad feeling (dysphoria) and turn it into something that one can get passionate about with such hopes for the future
You look fantastic Chase. Thank you for sharing your life, your ideas and your struggles with us. I really appreciate your honesty and down to earth style of videos. Thank you! Keep up the great work.
I transitioned 20 years ago when I was 49, when surgery options were a lot less than satisfactory. At this point in my life I don't really want to go through such a major surgery. Nevertheless, I might be tempted if I was primarily interested in sex with women, but that is not the case. I'm happy to just be seen by society at large, as male. I no longer need to wear a packer 24 hours and only stand in public bathrooms for appearance. So I guess this is as far as I will go.
Ofc you can feel grief what never can be or something you can't controll. I might need to get sterilized because of cysts and stuff. I'm griefing even tough i don't want biological kids. It's a big change with every surgery and bottom surgery are a huge thing!
In sweden you have to ae a therapist before, during and after transition.
Good luck! I find your TH-cam today and I LOVE YOU! Keep sharing!
im a cis female and dont know any trans people. i stumbled across your videos and i thought you was born male. youre so cute! (hope that didnt sound offensive bc i didnt mean it to be) i love your channel. very informative.
Tabatha Kennedy You are trying to be nice but for future reference it's not really a compliment to tell trans people they look cis, because it implies cis is the goal. Just so you know.
also another thing to add (not to attack you bc as the other commenter has said you appear very much to mean no harm at all) is that rather than saying "born male" it's better to say in this context that you thought he was a "cis guy". and of course what Many Platypodes said abt "you look cis" actually not being the best compliment!! :) the more you know, amiright?
Hey Jay!! well sorry I'm not "politically correct" but I was being honest. not paying a compliment. to say he's hot is a compliment. to say I thought he was a cis male is an observation. idk how that's offensive. I think everyone takes everything offensive nowadays. geez! and isn't the point of trans is you want to look like a male cuz you feel like one on the inside? Look I love everyone the same and I try not to offend anyone but I'm also not gonna apologize for every single thing I say that gets picked apart. and what may offend one person doesn't necessarily offend everyone.
......Wow, jeez. I (apparently wrongly) assumed that you were a decent person who cared about this stuff, so I decided that you would appreciate it if i educated you on the preferred language of most of the community. I specifically said that I'm not trying to attack you at all and that you obviously meant no harm whatsoever in your original comment, and did my absolute best to try to be as kind as possible when I corrected you. You had no reason to come at me so strongly like that, it was completely uncalled for. I could use this as a Teaching Moment to explain exactly why we corrected you on the things we did, but honestly, after you gave such a rude response to people who were only trying to help, I'd rather not take the time to do that. You clearly don't want to take the time to learn these things, so why should I take the time to teach it?
Also you LITERALLY said "Hope that didn't sound offensive because I didn't mean it to be" so why are you coming at us so angrily when all we did was just suggest minor tweaks in the language of this to make it pretty much entirely non offensive?
I am really glad that you brought up the concept of mourning the "ideal" (cis) penis you can never really have (I mean unless you want to do some Frankenstein-level shit, which I totally don't advise doing. But joking aside) I think mourning is something that people either a.) Totally gloss over or b.) Don't want to discuss it/think about it especially when it comes it things that are not necessarily physically palpable, or rather things you have not "lost" per say but rather will not be able to have. As someone who has worked and studied for years in the funeral industry, I know first hand just how important mourning and proper, healthful grief work can be in order to move on and have a fulfilling, healthful future life. In addition, as a NB trans person and a chronically ill person, I have had to do a lot of mourning for the body and the life I will never be able to have, and even with my background in grief facilitation it is so terribly difficult. Thank you so much for opening talking about this matter because open honest discussion is the only way we as a society will be able to bring mourning --of any thing be it the loss of the loved one, not getting a job, not having/being able to achieve a certain body, etc., etc. -- out of the shadows of taboo and into the open where people can actively work through it and live better lives because of it.
I'm joining the club. Fluctuating dysphoria all the time. Not knowing if I want to go on hormones or if I want surgery. Mostly because of what society thinks so I'm glad you don't have society in the back of your mind! I guess we all need to take our time
I feel the exact same way, this video was very helpful and I'm glad I'm not the only one feeling this way.
Do what you feel is best. Follow your heart.
Seeing this(haven't even finished it yet) has made me feel a bit better about myself. Surgery and hormones aren't right for me (multiple reasons including the fact that I'm almost positive hormones would make me more dysphoric because I want a real working penis and the surgeries and hormones just aren't that for me. As well as the fact that I very much dislike body hair.) My dysphoria fluctuates a lot. This channel has helped me a lot and I've learned so much. It makes me so happy that this channel is here to provide information and let us know that there isn't anything wrong with us.
YOU ARE MY FRIEND CHASE!!!!i was worried when he said you will have a big thing in your pants with Phallo... untill he said the size was like 5. and ive been wearing my FREETOM 5.5 EVERYDAY. it was awkward and bulky at first , until i learned how to pack with it
Omg I didn't know Phallo from the arm meant an extra nerve thank you sm this has changed my whole perspective on which kind of phallo I want 😭🙏🏿🙏🏿
Thank YOU!!! Some days I'm okay with my chest and some days I NEED to totally ignore that it exists. Most days I hate being touched (I'm pre-op for top surgery but I'm on a waiting list) and I bet that's going to change after I get it sorted out. I long to be touched in a way that feels good for me in all ways and dysphoria messes with it. Thanks for posting this.
I feel the same way Chase, with both top and bottom dysphoria. Some days I think "Damn, you know what? I look good, I look fine, I'm awesome and I don't care what anyone thinks" and I don't worry about passing as much. Other days, it's so crippling I can't get out of bed, let alone leave my house and dare to go outside... Obviously that makes life difficult for me and others in the same boat. Worst part is, I live in a small town with NO resources and even therapy is slow going. I've been waiting months for HRT and who knows when I'll be able to have surgery. I know some day I'll be happy but the waiting is killing me. I know who I am, damnit! I don't want to wait! I'm trying to remember your words of wisdom, that our bodies aren't "wrong" they just need some work. I'm trying to be more like you and learn to love my body even the parts that should or shouldn't be there. My bottom dysphoria isn't horrible, I'm intersex so I guess I have a leg-up compared to other ftm guys, lucky me.
Also some days I think "Whywould I even need a packer? Who cares about my bulge? Why do I need to wear a fake peen?" and then other days I spent 3 hours browsing for packers.... I found one that my brain thinks looks exactly like the natural peen I should have and now I want one but can't afford it. lmao.
hard same on that penis grieving, sometimes it feel so bad to have a human body at all, wishing you all the best with your anxiety and figuring yourself out
I have fluctuating bottom dysphoria as well and phallo seems like the best option but its also terrifying so I absolutely understand what you're talk about, Chase. I haven't even had top surgery or testosterone yet but I guess that's what the future's for.
Thank you for sharing this with us... going through any kind of large desicion can be daunting and stressful. I hope you get the answers and solutions you seek!!!
The way you said "I love you so much" at the end of the video I have expected you to do the thing Stef does with her hands
take it easy, don't let the sound of your own wheels make ya crazy- the eagels
love that you can open up like this!!
#femaletocandyshop
It's cuz he want the lollipop. Not to lick it, he just want *it*. 😂
He's a man who knows what he wants 😊
this is so good to hear!! also lmao you do so so many videos on so many subjects but if you ever fancy doing a video discussing the actual ins and outs (lol) of phalloplasty, myths and shit, that would be honestly really fab
I don't even know if I would ever want bottom surgery, because I don't know if *I* could deal with the scar and I can deal with having a poseidon (lol) I guess, but I can't imagine being, you know, penetrated, but you never know what I'll think later in live
IS THAT CASTIEL?
exxplicttjaekitt yessss and I actually drew it myself :D
Ida Witt ADORABLE
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Thank you so much!! I should definitely start watching again, kinda got lost after season 10, but I think I'll wait till it's on Amazon prime lol
Ida Witt Ah, im on season 12. I watch it on showbox (free app, only for androids tho, and has a lot of new movies and shows) I haven't finished the season yet, I'm like on episode...10?
much love, chase! keep being amazing 💖
I've reached the point where, for the most part, I'm okay with not having a cis penis. But what I still struggle with is that I'm basically infertile. I know that I couldn't go through with pregnancy myself after a certain point, but the only way I could have a biological child with my girlfriend would result in a girl 100% of the time, just another reminder of being born with XX chromosomes. I'm definitely going to adopt, because I want kids, but knowing that I can't have a mini me hurts worse than almost anything else.
Imagine_Big idiot! You can't use your brothers or fathers sperm to have a baby! It's completely immoral and would cause god only know what abnormalities/deformities in the foetus!
Hayche what? I'm talking about artificial pregnancy. since I don't have any sperm(since I'm trans) I can use from another person. not on me, ofc. that's disgusting and immoral, but on my future wife (if I ever have one). calm down. I'm not in favour of incest or anything. jeez
... no it wouldn't. It wouldn't be any different if the OP could impregnate his girlfriend himself. Now if his girlfriends brother or father donated sperm then that would be a different story, but that's not what +Imagine_Big meant
I personally don't want bottom surgery. I DO however want top surgery. loves! ❤
Chase, if you do a video on surgeries, do you think you could talk about what made you choose phalloplasty over metoidioplasty (seeing as you don't mention it here)? And also maybe the options people have for retaining their original sexual organs alongside phallo/metoid? I think a lot of people could benefit from those kinds of comparative discussions. Good luck with your decision!
i am 18 years old pre t transboy, i'm starting testosterone later this year. When I was like 13, i asked mom "why didn't you born me as a boy?" My transition has been so fucking long already and im super pumped to finally start t
Thank you for your honesty
I got an add...for fabletics leggings before this video. I'm so happy this video has ads.
Hey Chase, I'm not trans myself but I just wanted to say that I love you and your videos! I find them both entertaining (you have quite a similar sense of humour to me) and educational. I really hope you figure out what you want to do, wishing you all the best ❤️
You know we are getting close to transplants. So very close.
you're such a great speaker damn
"So they don't go and buy a 300 dollar STP and it end up not being good"
@ the Peecock 👀
PLEASE TALK ABOUT THIS MORE..ilyy. AND ABOUT PHALLO SURGERIES CUZ THE INFO AND RESULTS VARY SO MUCH THAT IM LIKE AAAA...??
Something I've heard from other trans guys, that I don't know if it's true, is that you want to get it larger than you want it, because of complications which might make it ways shorter.
I went to a gay male bathhouse recently with a close friend, it was my first time. Interesting and fun but oh man, I REALLY wished I had RFF phallo or at least a peen prothesis that has a tab that adheres to the body. It tore me up so much. The realisation that the peen is the only thing stopping me from enjoying a fun time at the bathhouse and it comes with the most invasive surgery yet is soul-crushing. As someone who is non-binary male, I don't see myself as 100% man and don't see a peen as being an indicator of one's maleness. I needa get me a 5 inch packer!
Chase I'm such a big fan. I find you sweet, funny, kind and courageous. I love your videos and would love one day to chat with you. Until I become a bit more confident, I'm just going to say that you've inspired me in a way that I so needed, and all I can do is say thank you sweetheart xxx
aaw Chase, you're the sweetest! 🖖
I'm pre t, pre-top surgery, and relatively in the beginning of my transition, so my thoughts on this will probably change. My bottom dysphoria is all over the place. I do feel like it's something I should have just been born with but don't need to be a "man". I would feel a lot better about myself if I had a peen. I also enjoy what I have right now. In public, I feel uncomfortable that I sit to pee and stps just don't really work for me. Packing, in general, seems so artificial. Surgery is terrifying and would result in a major life change. This isn't very helpful, but as a fellow trans guy who is part squiggle, I get it.
I love chase so much
Thanks for this video Chase. I also have fluctuating lower dysphoria. It can be a week, a day...even some hours. Also seems worse with certain sexual partners/sexual acts. Still trying to figure it out myself. Not considering surgery yet just because of my work/school schedule but thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings.
This was a really helpful video! Thank you!
love you chase!
I'm not even trans and you're quickly becoming one of my favorite you tubers. Keep it up 🙌
WE WILL HUG YOU THROUGH YOUR PROBLEMS CHASE DONT YOU WORRY
I just wish it wasn't sure a disfiguring option.
I think that's one of the biggest issues for many people.
There certainly are misconceptions though.
I'm super lonely too chase so I also feel like the people I follow and listen to their podcasts and videos are also kind of my friends (obviously not really but you know what I mean I'm sure). So if you're sad so am I!
It's nice not to be alone with this. I'm pre everything at the moment. I have bottom dysphoria pretty bad.
I've been wondering about phalloplasty, and been trying to siphon the myths from the reality.
Though I have been keeping my options open, and am looking at stem cells (dr Anthony Atalla at Wake institute of regeneration) which has had breakthroughs in stem cell phalluses and rabbits. I am currently on a clinical trial list, however they are still in the experimental stage, so it will be a few years yet.
However the other option I have been looking at is organ donors, which have also had improvements in this. However the successful transplant was with a cis male. Concept is possible though.
I'm not entirely sure what route to take at the moment though, so I'm going to keep my options open. Phalloplasty is the closest option though at the moment for me.
yes and increasing :( and there really isnt anything online to alleviate it. im 2 months in on hormones which has helped lower my sex drive so hopefully ill experience atrophy soon but every time i look down and see it or my underwear just isnt fitting right, it makes me really upset and feel like bottom surgery is something i won't ever be able to get and makes me just want to give up on everything. some days are better than others but more and more i find myself thinking or saying i wish "it" would just go away. right now I can't even bring myself to type the actual word. there doesnt even seem to be a way to truly feel like its not there and it sucks soo bad :'(
I have fluctuating bottom dysorphia, but constant top dysorphia.
I'm on my way to my first appointment at the gender clinic and I'm just watching some Chase Ross to help with the nerves
Speaking of bottom dysphoria, the only bottom dysphoria I get is from the monthly cycle and the possibility of pregnancy. Just two weeks ago I was diagnosed with a ovarian cyst and I'm taking ovulation suppression therapy and it feels amazing not having dysphoria. Hopefully I'll be able to get total hysto done sooner or later.
I have etremely fluctuating dysphoria in general. I want top surgery most of the time, at least to take off a lot of my size. But my biggest issue is with bottom surgery. I fear that with the scarring and the inability for it to function like a cis penis I will be forced to wait for years to see if there are more advances in the surgery techniques. Because I'm afraid I'll dislike the end result and end up being more sad than i am already. For now I'm just trying to get testosterone.
you can get phalo without closing up the "front hole" yeah? or "bat cave" as I've heard another trans guy refer to it lol.
Is that other transguy FinnTheInfinnicible? :D
MoonLover, that's the one 😅
Depends ont he doctor. some doctors will not preform any bottom surgery without closing it up. so you'll need to find the right doctor. but that's a given anyway. you want the right doctor with best results.
yes you definitely can
Well I'm glad, one more day with "the bat cave" and there'll be a second one in my head. (Joking I wouldn't actually kms)
You don't have to choose
I think that if you got bottom surgery you would have a rough time during it and before it, but that afterwards you would be more happier. Whatever you end up doing will be right- phalloplasty or not.
I’m so confused about bottom surgery cos for me my dysphoria isn’t super bad but when I get changed it’s like “oh shit I forgot about that”
I'd love to have phallo, more so now that I know my insurance will cover it. But, the complication rates do scare the shit out of me. If there was a slim to none chance that I'd run into a problem, I'd jump at that shit so quick.
My bottom dysphoria is p steady. Yet I still don't know if I want bottom surgery, mostly bc I'm scared of it. I think maybe as the years go on, and I finally reach the financial stability for it, I will be less scared, and more ready for it. My psychic def thinks I'm gonna go through with it, but that's always subject to change.
“I want a cis peen” I FEEL THIS goddammit lol
I feel like a little girl in a candy store that found her fav candy
I feel ya on that chase.
I feel the same way about this 10000%!!! Couldn't hit the like button fast enough
Most of the time my bottom dysphoria isn't a huge issue, I'm fine sitting down to go to the bathroom (for now at least). It's only been a problem lately because for some reason there have been a lot of videos on my facebook of women giving birth. I always end up being severely triggered to the point of feeling physically ill. I hate it.
I'm 13 but sometimes I don't care what I have sometimes I really just want a packer and feel like I would never need bottom surgery and sometimes I really really want it
I just had a dream where I had a peen and it was so interesting cause it felt so, I guess, right? I'm nonbinary and I too want to keep my existing parts and scared of surgery down there. It is just so strange being this far and now thinking about something I never thought of. Chase, your videos help so much and I hope for the best in your situation!!
I had a dream like that before i even knew i was trans!!!
I feel like a partial medioplastly would would be best in this situation.
Hey Chase! I made a similar video about this topic actually. But mine is about bottom dysphoria as a non-binary / agender trans person. Mine fluctuates a lot. However, I feel mine isn't "bad" or "strong" enough to go through it. I may change my mind in the future but for now I feel I don't need it.
IF I were to have any sort of bottom surgery in the future, or sometime soon, that could help my bottom dysphoria it would be metoidioplasty.
There is no reason why you can't have both. You can get phalloplasty but keep the sensation that you love as well. I feel a lot of people don't realize that they can or want to choose something that doesn't resemble a "normal, cis" genitalia. It's obvious that you love reviewing and love that sensation and I don't think that is something you have to pass up on.
If you do choose to have surgery I know you said you would document the whole process, but if the doctor gave you the choice would you film like,,, the actual surgery? I mean, I can 100% understand not wanting to for several reasons,, its a very personal thing to share, and it'd probably be pretty weird to edit, but just to give my opinion,, I would personally really like to see it. watching surgery videos really helps me cope with the idea of it in a weird way?? like it freaks me out at first but I'd rather know than not know,, idk. there just arent many phalloplasty videos out there. Just thought I'd share my opinion!!
Good luck and I wish you all the best no matter what choices you make! surgery/no surgery, video/no video
As an mtf, I'm in a similar situation. I have terrible bottom dysphoria, but surgery could be fatal, cause complications, go wrong in the healing, who knows. Then there's the fear that dilating will take over my life and what if always needing to keep it open just causes more dysphoria? No surgery though, would mean T blockers continuing to affect what I can eat, the appearance and feeling of that area making me feel horrible and I just don't quite know which one is worse yet.
BriannaIsGreat Isn't it possible to get an orchiectomy without vaginoplasty? I wish knew more about transfeminine surgery options
I'm not an expert either, but I'm pretty sure I've heard of some mtf's who've gotten vaginoplasty but without creating an actual vagina, just the external parts. That would give you the female appearance but no need to dilate. It could be worth looking into, if I'm not completely mistaken about this.
John Lang: That..could work D: I hadn't heard of that. I guess it would rule out penetrative intimacy, but for what it would solve, that'd be pretty decent!
Grey Likes Cats: It is, and I think that's definitely up there on my list of possibilities I've really considered. T blockers and the blood tests for them are expensive and those are the bit that sit most in the way. I'd have to be sure I didn't want the full bottom surgery though, because if you don't do them all at once, that causes complications.
I RELATE TO THIS SO MUCH OH MY GOD
Can you make a video about questioning HRT? I'm non-binary (but very masculine) and I'm really confused/anxious about making that decision and then maybe later on regretting it. BTE love the vid chase I can relate a lot to it!!
Hi Chase and thanks so much for all you are doing... if you are still looking for topics to talk about, why not discussing transmen who do no to have physical disphoria and don't want to transition? but are still trans in their heads
(sorry ik i'm late but i'm still going to comment) but i don't really have fluctuating dysphoria i really just stay in a constant state if being unhappy with my body i'm never really content with it i mean i have times when i think about my body more than other times but in all i always have the same perspective
I have the same feels about phalloplasty. I want it, I need it, but it comes and goes on how much I need it. I know and my fiance knows that phalloplasty is in the future for me.