It’s totally Maisy’s nose in the ultrasound pictures. My favorite thing is watching Flynn entertain Wesley, such a great bond between them! Hang in there! Erik is a champ and such a great partner. I love you with bangs but that is completely your choice. This comment is everywhere because I’m just typing as I watch the vlog. Sorry not sorry. Take care!
I just wanted to say, as someone who has been a fan for years now, that you and Erik have struck gold finding each other. I know you only show parts of your life on the internet, but seriously you guys are life partners. I’m sure that seems weird to hear, but it really isn’t that common. Your love and support for each other and your children is admirable. All the love.
I was thinking the exact same thing! As a momma with migraines, debilitating period cramps & tendonosis in both shoulders, I've been there, too. Trying to be patient with your Littles as part (or all) of your body is screaming, can be extremely difficult! But we get through it, it f**king sucks in the moment, & for me a lot of the time it involves tears, but we somehow make it through! You've got support from all the Mommas who've had those days too! ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍
Yeah no sorry but she definitely sounds like an entitled and incredibly privileged person complaining about a bunch of shit that a normal person would dream of having. I’m actually really sorry for you that your parasocial relationship with her makes you blind to that.
I know she’s going through a lot but it kinda annoyes me how she had her own show she lives in a amazing house she has wonderful kids a wonderful husband and she is depressed I’m not sure how u could be depressed with a happy life I am depressed I have nothing she owns and I would be happy if I had her life and she has wonderful friends knows lots of celebrities and has lots of money
@@theredhood0772- I raised three children as a single mom in public housing and even I understand that money cannot buy happiness. Colleen loves her family and she is very grateful for the things she has. She says that constantly. But that is has nothing to do with pain and depression. Constant pain puts a lot of stress on your neurological system. It pushes the chemicals that balance the brain receptors to their limit and beyond. That is why so many people that suffer from chronic pain also suffer from depression. It’s not a state of mind, it’s a chemical and physical imbalance. What helps? Support and helping the body and brain back into balance. Colleen, please don’t let comments like this in. You are good. You are grateful. You are worthy. You are just hurt and sick right now and you can get help for that just like any other illness you might have.💕
I can totally relate about clogged milk duct/ “hitting a wall” I struggled with both today and I found myself doing the same thing you were doing, rocking and kissing my 7 mo. It’s hard but thank you for sharing the hard moments. I feel alone because no one in my family has pumped I almost started giving my baby formula exclusively but seeing you power through pumping gives me hope that I can continue this pumping journey. Thank you for sharing your experience and making me feel less alone and understood in the process. You’re not alone 💜
Re: the sleep regression.. I noticed that every time my babies were about to learn a new thing (be it a physical task, a verbal, cognitive task) or grow they would eat non-stop and go through a phase where they would refuse to sleep.. then they would sleep a ton and not eat. It could be that they're working on some developmental task. Hang in there mama - this is such a hard season. Regarding gender expression, in my opinion, as long as you respect their wishes when they let you know what they want to wear (bathing suit and cowboy boots, Halloween costume, etc), I think you're doing fine. They're wee babes yet, and you're doing great!
Exactly! The one bad sleep regression my son had, 2 days after it ended he was fully walking. His dad and I were like “yep that makes sense!” 😂 their brains are just working overtime to learn this new skill and they don’t have time to sleep!
Wesley’s little shoulders popping up when he giggles is the cutest thing ever! I love seeing such pure family moments like those 💕✨ thank you so much for sharing your life with us 💕✨ love you Colleen 💕✨
Hope your having a lovely day! Also by the way cut your bangs girl, you look absolutely beautiful with and without bangs but if that’s what you want, GO FOR IT!!!! 😁😁
I'm pregnant with my second baby and have been struggling with dissociation and depressive thoughts in my pregnancy. I didn't experience this at all with my first, so it feels super strange to me, but I wanted to thank you for your honesty in your vlogs about your experiences with perinatal depression. I'd already been watching your vlogs for awhile when I got pregnant, so I was able to recognize the symptoms early on and flag them both to my therapist and my midwife. If I hadn't seen you normalizing these symptoms and the diagnosis I think I would've just wondered what on earth was wrong with me for not being able to be happy for a planned and wanted pregnancy. On your really sad days where you feel overwhelmed, overtired, and challenged it is a) okay to feel that way and to name those feelings and b) by sharing these moments you've been doing such a huge favour to all of us mamas out there wondering if it's just us. Thank you!
Hey Colleen! As someone who also has dermatilomania, I find that it’s hard to talk to most people about it because all they can see is my behavior, not my thoughts/urges. All they see is me tearing apart my skin, not me dying for some relief. To others it seems bizarre, like “how could she be able to do that to herself? if it hurts so bad, wouldn’t she just stop?”. They don’t understand the numbness you feel during the episode. They don’t understand that the pain you feel right before an episode is just about as painful as what you feel after the episode. So in our minds it’s totally logical (albeit seemingly uncontrollable). It’s painful to have that urge. It’s relieving to act on that urge. And it’s painful to deal with the consequences. It’s a vicious cycle, but that’s what most people don’t understand. I think it helps a lot to be validated by those who understand. So I just want you to know that I understand you and support you through your journey. We’ll find ourselves urging less and less, we just gotta support one another! Love you❤️
It sounds like you've got mastistis which is an infection of the milk duct. You probably need some antibiotics to get rid of it. Your doing amazingly pumping and feeding the twins. 😊❤️
If that’s the case and you do get antibiotics just remember, antibiotics can weaken the effect of your birth control. You are probably aware of this but I had a friend you didn’t know and her pharmacist did not mention it and she got pregnant.
Yes that’s what I was about to comment. The blood was probably because she already has mastitis! But it’s no big deal. Nothing a little antibiotics can’t knock right out! 😊
@@abigailchautems6277 there’s actually only one antibiotic that interferes with birth control and it’s not very often prescribed; it’s called rifampin. Generally if you make sure to tell your prescriber that you’re on oral birth control they’ll be sure to prescribe something that isn’t contraindicated.
I had mastitis while i was battling a staph infection in my emergency c section incision and was on IV antibiotics for staph but needed oral antibiotics it was one of the worst pains I’ve experienced. I likened it to being stabbed in the boob!!!
Tortilla talk: What advice do you have for people in relationships? this is super random but i am totally in love with yours and Erik's relationship. It just seems like you two are made for each other, especially through the podcast, we really get to see you both together and all the love
Tortilla Talk: Would you ever have Erik play Patrick in one of your Miranda vlogs? Do you think he would want to? A Miranda family channel would be the greatest thing on the internet! Sending love!
When Colleen answered the answer about her skin picking disorder, she mentioned that the fan has been following her for 5 years and I thought wow that's so long! And I recalled myself following Colleen since I was 15, and I'm already 24 this year. That's 9 years, can't believe that... Colleen, I love love love to watch your content! I've stopped watching videos of other content creators that I've started following at the same time as Colleen and Colleen is the only one left that I'm still watching. Love you!! Fans from Malaysia, hope to see you one day!
I’m mom of three kids. I get this so much!! There are sometimes where I just want 5 minutes to myself. Mom life is hard sometimes. I feel like my drowning sometimes. You are amazing mom!!
Re: dermatillomania; I also pick at my nails/face and loved ones telling me to stop has never helped. My man noticed it and said the same thing, I told him it's an anxious habit and the next time he noticed my thumb was torn up he just took it and kissed the spot without saying anything. It's such a small gesture but it's really effective in making me feel loved and supported and eases the urge a bit.
I love love love the vlogs. I’m not a mom(maybe will be one day) but I think it’s incredibly important to show the real and difficult(although I’m sure rewarding) process of being a mother. It’s so amazing to see you be open about you’re experience and normalize the different aspects of having babies. You’re doing amazing.
You don't need to be a "mother" to understand being overwhelmed. Life has low points..... that doesn't reflect poorly on who you are as a human. As a matter of fact, it shows that you are a human, having real human emotions! Lol ❤️
Being overwhelmed as a mother in my experience is very different than being overwhelmed in any other stage of my life. Unless you are one, I don’t think you can understand it
@@emmavalentine3174 yes! Being overwhelmed as a parent means you literally have someone else’s life in your hands. Your decisions affect them. It can be physically and mentally exhausting. It’s a whole different ballgame.
@@BrendaD72 not to mention hormones play such a big role at this stage. Being a mom is by far the hardest thing I’ve done, and breastfeeding (either pumping or from the boob) is really hard.
I agree. Being overwhelmed is something we all have in common as humans. I appreciate you for pointing out that Colleen and all of us are not alone through tough times. I hope she sees your comment
I agree with everyone saying mastitis, kudos to Eric, that's what hubbies are there for mama he's your partner there to help you the way you help him! Hopefully you get it figured out at the Dr!
When I was younger, I (and my family) didn't know what dermatillomania was or that I was experiencing it. So any time I was picking, my family members would verbally call it out. It was humiliating for me. Your videos made me realize I was probably experiencing that and inspired me to ask my husband to respond in a way that is most helpful to me (for me, that's physical touch without forceful intervention or verbal acknowledgement), and it's really helped! Thank you for continuing to talk about it, it really is helping people ☺️
Tortilla talk question: Seeing how much going to Santa Barbara makes you and your family very happy, would you consider moving there again? Or is it better for y’all to stay near LA? (:
I actually loved the part at the end with the rocking and dimmed light because it had kind of a calming effect on me. I'm not saying you should do your tortilla talk questions in the dark but that's what I'm saying :D (Just kidding, do it however you wanna)
Tortilla Talk: When picking out Wesley's and Maisy's name did you try to make them matchy? I know that a lot of people like my grandmother chose names that matched for their twins. Also, I love watching your show. I look forward to it when I get home everyday. You both are great parents and have great kids. Can't wait to keep watching them grow and change.
Just gotta say, you’re a great momma! I’m trans, and not everyone thinks this way, but I love my baby pictures. It’s hilarious seeing little me in a dress and bows 😂
I've never been diagnosed with this issue but it does sound very familiar to an issue I have that I've never shared except with my husband, and the way you describe dealing with it is exactly how I told my husband to react to me, I never knew that it could be an actual medical problem I just always assumed it was just me , so thank you for sharing so much, you have no idea how much it means to me. ❤❤
I had 5-10 clogged ducts last week and it was terrible. My husband sucked some out too. The other thing that helped was ice packs and ibuprofen!!!! The inflammation builds up and can prevent the clogs coming out. After feeding/pumping I would lay on my back and put a bag of frozen peas on the clog. I really think it was the key to getting my clogs out. Good luck Colleen. You got this.
I’ve struggled with dermatillomania for as long as I can remember. You were the first person I’ve heard talk about your struggles with it. I’ve had the same thing happen with family and my boyfriend pointing out when it’s particularly bad. I talked with my boyfriend about not pointing it out because it seems to make it worse. For me, it’s worse when I’m anxious and other people noticing increases that anxiety. Since then, when it’s happening, my boyfriend starts to hold my hand but doesn’t say anything. I’m still slightly embarrassed but I also look at it as a reminder to try to stop and to focus on the comfort of being together instead. I appreciate you pointing out it’s a lifelong struggle. It helps me to not shame myself so much when it gets worse than normal.
Thank you for bringing up hitting a wall. You are not alone. Had a breaking point over this exact topic last night. Fellow mom, very often I feel like I'm filling up everyone else's cup and no one is helping replenish mine. It gets so hard because people say that the babies will be okay and I need to put my needs first but my god that is so much easier said than done. The four month sleep regression is the absolute worst! So much love to you, you both are incredible parents! 💓
One time I got a clogged duct because one of my babies got a bad latch and gave me a blister on my nipple. 😭 I had to pop the blister and then massage it out. Thankfully I avoided mastitis! I hope it resolves soon, Colleen.
Flynn making Wesley laugh was one of the cutest moments I have ever seen, and I think you are beautiful no matter what your hair looks like so whatever makes you happy is what you should do,
Ouch! I'm so sorry you struggle with that so often while pumping ((Flynn making little Wes laugh is everything! Living for it right now... so sweet!! 💜))
Colleen, i cant tell you how much i needed this upload today. My dad had a heart attack earlier this morning and my day has been rough yet your vlogs still tend to make me smile, thank you so much.
I just want to thank you for being open about your dermatilloania. I’ve been in therapy for over a year for my anxiety and ADHD and just finally opened up about my skin picking. You helped me be brave enough to admit it. Doing telehealth for therapy has made it easy for me to hide cause she can’t see the small red dots and scabs on my legs where ive picked at ingrown hairs or keratin bumps and I can pick at my cuticles or heels off camera. I’ve been struggling with how to bring it up to my spouse cause I hide it out of shame but I need his help in trying to deter me. The suggestion of distraction without bringing attention to the picking sounds like what I need. Thank you so much for that. You are a wonderful human and mother. Parenthood is hard. I just have one kiddo and I feel like I have my hands full! Kudos to you and your family for raising 3! It truly takes a village to raise kids and I’m so glad your family (friends included!) is so supportive and full of love for you and those kids! ❤️
Colleen, thank you so much for talking about your dermatillomania. I have a similar thing where I rip and pick my nails off. I’ve had multiple toenails removed but every time they grow back I rip it right back off. If my boyfriend or family member calls me out on it, I get really embarrassed and then all I can focus on is ripping it off in private. Thank you for talking about it it’s so helpful and makes me feel seen.
Using a warm compress, then a massager or the end of an electric toothbrush on the area for a few minutes then pumping usually helps. You may want to “dangle pump” meaning let your ladies hang while pumping. That helps as well. These methods helped me when I had clogged ducts. Good luck. ❤️ Edit: Ha! I wrote that too soon. I just watched you dangle pump. 🙁
Omg I totally understand how ur feeling I had the same clogging problem and it hurt so bad it killed me and I have a high tolerance for pain. Ur so lucky u have a husband who loves u so much mine was horrible. I suffered alone. It was horrible. Keep ur head up mama. U got this.
The Wesley & Flynn footage made my DAY!! The twins are at that stage where they are more interactive and it is so fun for everyone. Love watching their sibling bond grow!!
ADVICE/QUESTION: Hi Colleen! I notice that you receive a lot of baby clothes and said that the twins grow out of theirs really fast. Since it would be a waste to throw the clothes away, do you donate them? Love you
TTQ: Has anyone ever actually thought you were miranda sings, and it wasn't a joke? TTQ: how long have you known Kory? I love you so much, I will see you at the live show that I am going to! I love you :)
Many years ago, i didn't know Colleen had other channels, i had only heard of Miranda Sings, so i thought she was actually like that 😅 When i did find her other channels and saw the real her, i was so relieved, since Miranda Sings is pretty arrogant and rude 😅 But now i finally understand the humor in it 🙂
She talked about it a lot of times. 1. Yes, for a couple of years when she just started doing Miranda, no one knew her, most of the people believed she wasn't acting, also Miranda was much more chill and less of a character at the times. 2. They met in college, performed together and are best friends since then.
I just love that you are open to any type of way your kids want to be. It's great that while you style your kids how you want/like them to look based on what you know, but as soon as they are able to have a say, listen to that. Y'all are amazing parents, truly an inspiration!
I just wanted to say I love watching your videos they have gotten me through the worst time of my mental health. I have been watching you since I was about 9 or 10 (fifth grade) and I’ll be 19 later this year (graduated high school last year)
Thank you for helping this new mom feel less alone! I’m sitting here at 1 in the morning with a baby going through teething & four month sleep regression. I have tears in my eyes watching you explain how your feeling as I relate so much. So thanks you ❤️🩹🙏🏻
Love the bangs, I didn’t like bangs either but I like them now!! Esp.. to keep growing the long beautiful curly hair. I twist my hair and then use thinning shears to thin a bit out. Helps a lot for the bulk.
Idk why but you rocking and doing tortilla talk in the dim light unlocked some random comforting memory and feeling….reminded me of cozy nights staying at my grandmothers house, I think it was the lighting and the dull fan sound ☺️
Thank you for talking about your skin picking disorder because I too have dermatillomania and honestly hearing others talk about it just makes feel better about myself. I hope you see this comment, I know you're super super busy all the time but I messaged you on Instagram on this subject and would love to just be able to talk to you sometime about it. You rock girl 🙂
Tortilla talk question: Do you think that you’ll use the jolly jumper with the twins? Considering how much Flynn liked it maybe they would too! Ps i love your vids❤️
with the dermatillomania subject, i’ve never been diagnosed with it, but i have the feeling i have it. i started with biting my nails since i was really little, when i finally stopped biting my nails, i moved to my skin around my fingers, and toes. my mom has been the one that i talk to the most about it, and luckily it hasn’t been super bad, but i’ve also felt the same when she’d stop me from biting or picking at my fingers. she would move my hand away or grab my hand and hold it and try to move my attention somewhere else and it never really seemed to help. so i definitely feel the same way you do! i ended up telling my family to ignore it, cause it’ll happen one way or another and bringing it to mine and everyone’s attention makes me only think about when i can do it again without everyone noticing and also making me extremely embarrassed by it. so even though i’m not actually diagnosed with dermatillomania, i understand where you’re coming from completely! much love to you and your beautiful family, Colleen!
I spent my entire 8 week maternity leave dealing with 3 back to back to back post partum infections that required iv antibiotics and iv fluids. It was incredibly painful and I was dealing with the ins and outs of being a first time mom to a preemie. So....totally understand that wall. Thank god for a supportive partner. It killed my milk supply, too. But finally feel normal again now and my milk supply is back!
Hitting a wall sucks.. but it is okay to take two minutes to take a breath. I have three and I've had to take a couple breaths and pick back up on what I was doing. You can do this Colleen!
Love you Colleen! TTQ:Have you ever met a person that actually thought your personality was like Miranda?Love you so much with all my love and support,love Zoe❤️
When I was in high school, a girl told me we weren't allowed to laugh at Miranda because she is actually mentally challenged. I didn't know much about Colleen at the time but I was like "I'm pretty sure that's not right..." And she flipped out at me.
Hoping you feel better ASAP! Thank you for your openness about your skin picking disorder…. sharing your thoughts and feelings has helped me to better understand my teenage daughter’s struggle with skin picking. The content you create and provide is such a joy for me and my two daughters to enjoy together… sending you and your beautiful family much love & light! ❤️
I had what I thought was a clogged milk duct too about 8 years ago. It was so painful and nothing worked! I even had my husband try sucking it out and it didn’t work. When I went to the doctor they said there was puss in it and they had to make an insertion to get it out. Definitely go get it checked because it could definitely affect the breast milk. Hope you feel better soon 💜
Hi Colleen, I just wanna say, you dress your kids the way you wanna dress them. People will have their opinions, but if you wanna put Maisey in pink or put a bow on her, do it. If she wants you change that when she's older she can. But for right now, if you want to put bows on her, dress her in pink or put her in dresses, do it. I love you and your cute little family!❤
i noticed you guys have a trampoline in your backyard now! i don’t know how long you’ve had it but it seemed to be fairly new, i’m sure flynn is going to have a blast on that!
I think you should do a q and a like that where you are like caring for the twins and answering questions! It was really relaxing and enjoyable for me!🥰
Short hair girl. I deal with kids all day, hair long enough to put in a ponytail is just right. Bangs will constantly get in your way and you always regret having to wash them all the time. Also, you do you. Do what makes you happy
I had some very painful clogs with my 3rd baby, and I used warm, moist heat - wet wash cloth with heating pad on top. I also would stand in the shower to give that warm, moist heat. You might have done this, but I was able to get rid of some stubborn clogged ducts.
It’s totally Maisy’s nose in the ultrasound pictures. My favorite thing is watching Flynn entertain Wesley, such a great bond between them! Hang in there! Erik is a champ and such a great partner. I love you with bangs but that is completely your choice. This comment is everywhere because I’m just typing as I watch the vlog. Sorry not sorry. Take care!
I just wanted to say, as someone who has been a fan for years now, that you and Erik have struck gold finding each other. I know you only show parts of your life on the internet, but seriously you guys are life partners. I’m sure that seems weird to hear, but it really isn’t that common. Your love and support for each other and your children is admirable. All the love.
Totally agree 🥺❤️
Awww this is sweet!
i agree they’re so perfect for each other
Flynn making Wes laugh is the cutest thing I’ve ever seen
Just guys bein dudes :)
Same bro
With his fish language when he was a baby 😂😂😂
@@awrodarczyk kids being kids*
So true
You never sound like a brat. It is HARD to be in pain and trying to deal with life. We are here for you. Vent to us as much as you need!!!!
@@makaroes3601 - prayers of healing and comfort!!
I was thinking the exact same thing! As a momma with migraines, debilitating period cramps & tendonosis in both shoulders, I've been there, too. Trying to be patient with your Littles as part (or all) of your body is screaming, can be extremely difficult! But we get through it, it f**king sucks in the moment, & for me a lot of the time it involves tears, but we somehow make it through! You've got support from all the Mommas who've had those days too! ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍
Yeah no sorry but she definitely sounds like an entitled and incredibly privileged person complaining about a bunch of shit that a normal person would dream of having. I’m actually really sorry for you that your parasocial relationship with her makes you blind to that.
I know she’s going through a lot but it kinda annoyes me how she had her own show she lives in a amazing house she has wonderful kids a wonderful husband and she is depressed I’m not sure how u could be depressed with a happy life I am depressed I have nothing she owns and I would be happy if I had her life and she has wonderful friends knows lots of celebrities and has lots of money
@@theredhood0772- I raised three children as a single mom in public housing and even I understand that money cannot buy happiness. Colleen loves her family and she is very grateful for the things she has. She says that constantly. But that is has nothing to do with pain and depression. Constant pain puts a lot of stress on your neurological system. It pushes the chemicals that balance the brain receptors to their limit and beyond. That is why so many people that suffer from chronic pain also suffer from depression. It’s not a state of mind, it’s a chemical and physical imbalance. What helps? Support and helping the body and brain back into balance.
Colleen, please don’t let comments like this in. You are good. You are grateful. You are worthy. You are just hurt and sick right now and you can get help for that just like any other illness you might have.💕
So cute to hear them babies laughing!! Seems like they were just born yesterday!
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Honestly, tortilla talk with dim light and mama rocking her baby is super relaxing lol
Yes, and that white noise machine and the soft chime background music. 😴
Mad props to Erik for being willing to do anything to help you 😭❤️ We need more people like that in the world
I can totally relate about clogged milk duct/ “hitting a wall” I struggled with both today and I found myself doing the same thing you were doing, rocking and kissing my 7 mo. It’s hard but thank you for sharing the hard moments. I feel alone because no one in my family has pumped I almost started giving my baby formula exclusively but seeing you power through pumping gives me hope that I can continue this pumping journey. Thank you for sharing your experience and making me feel less alone and understood in the process. You’re not alone 💜
Re: the sleep regression.. I noticed that every time my babies were about to learn a new thing (be it a physical task, a verbal, cognitive task) or grow they would eat non-stop and go through a phase where they would refuse to sleep.. then they would sleep a ton and not eat. It could be that they're working on some developmental task. Hang in there mama - this is such a hard season. Regarding gender expression, in my opinion, as long as you respect their wishes when they let you know what they want to wear (bathing suit and cowboy boots, Halloween costume, etc), I think you're doing fine. They're wee babes yet, and you're doing great!
Exactly! The one bad sleep regression my son had, 2 days after it ended he was fully walking. His dad and I were like “yep that makes sense!” 😂 their brains are just working overtime to learn this new skill and they don’t have time to sleep!
This!
That is called a leap!
Wesley’s little shoulders popping up when he giggles is the cutest thing ever! I love seeing such pure family moments like those 💕✨ thank you so much for sharing your life with us 💕✨ love you Colleen 💕✨
Hope your having a lovely day! Also by the way cut your bangs girl, you look absolutely beautiful with and without bangs but if that’s what you want, GO FOR IT!!!! 😁😁
Jesus loves you 🤍
I say cut em!!!!!!! I love them 😍
@SillySanta If you're a hater, go away
Agreed!! It’s just hair, it’ll grow back and she definitely deserves a little change!!
YES!! LOVE THE BANGS!❤️
I'm pregnant with my second baby and have been struggling with dissociation and depressive thoughts in my pregnancy. I didn't experience this at all with my first, so it feels super strange to me, but I wanted to thank you for your honesty in your vlogs about your experiences with perinatal depression. I'd already been watching your vlogs for awhile when I got pregnant, so I was able to recognize the symptoms early on and flag them both to my therapist and my midwife. If I hadn't seen you normalizing these symptoms and the diagnosis I think I would've just wondered what on earth was wrong with me for not being able to be happy for a planned and wanted pregnancy. On your really sad days where you feel overwhelmed, overtired, and challenged it is a) okay to feel that way and to name those feelings and b) by sharing these moments you've been doing such a huge favour to all of us mamas out there wondering if it's just us. Thank you!
Mad respect for Eric, mad respect to you for sharing a sensitive moment in your mom journey.
Warmed my heart.
Hey Colleen! As someone who also has dermatilomania, I find that it’s hard to talk to most people about it because all they can see is my behavior, not my thoughts/urges. All they see is me tearing apart my skin, not me dying for some relief. To others it seems bizarre, like “how could she be able to do that to herself? if it hurts so bad, wouldn’t she just stop?”. They don’t understand the numbness you feel during the episode. They don’t understand that the pain you feel right before an episode is just about as painful as what you feel after the episode. So in our minds it’s totally logical (albeit seemingly uncontrollable). It’s painful to have that urge. It’s relieving to act on that urge. And it’s painful to deal with the consequences. It’s a vicious cycle, but that’s what most people don’t understand. I think it helps a lot to be validated by those who understand. So I just want you to know that I understand you and support you through your journey. We’ll find ourselves urging less and less, we just gotta support one another! Love you❤️
Exactly. Like Colleen said in her blog after this one, you hit the nail right on the head with what you said. I feel that way too.
It sounds like you've got mastistis which is an infection of the milk duct. You probably need some antibiotics to get rid of it. Your doing amazingly pumping and feeding the twins. 😊❤️
If that’s the case and you do get antibiotics just remember, antibiotics can weaken the effect of your birth control. You are probably aware of this but I had a friend you didn’t know and her pharmacist did not mention it and she got pregnant.
Yes that’s what I was about to comment. The blood was probably because she already has mastitis! But it’s no big deal. Nothing a little antibiotics can’t knock right out! 😊
@@abigailchautems6277 there’s actually only one antibiotic that interferes with birth control and it’s not very often prescribed; it’s called rifampin. Generally if you make sure to tell your prescriber that you’re on oral birth control they’ll be sure to prescribe something that isn’t contraindicated.
I had mastitis while i was battling a staph infection in my emergency c section incision and was on IV antibiotics for staph but needed oral antibiotics it was one of the worst pains I’ve experienced. I likened it to being stabbed in the boob!!!
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Tortilla talk: What advice do you have for people in relationships?
this is super random but i am totally in love with yours and Erik's relationship. It just seems like you two are made for each other, especially through the podcast, we really get to see you both together and all the love
Tortilla Talk: Would you ever have Erik play Patrick in one of your Miranda vlogs? Do you think he would want to? A Miranda family channel would be the greatest thing on the internet! Sending love!
Omg that would be amazing
honestly idk if they can…im pretty sure netflix owns patricks character. it would be so cute if they could tho!!
He has, in the video called the truth about miranda sings baby
Oooh Great question!! I hope she sees this!
Netflix needs to let her have her stuff
When Colleen answered the answer about her skin picking disorder, she mentioned that the fan has been following her for 5 years and I thought wow that's so long! And I recalled myself following Colleen since I was 15, and I'm already 24 this year. That's 9 years, can't believe that... Colleen, I love love love to watch your content! I've stopped watching videos of other content creators that I've started following at the same time as Colleen and Colleen is the only one left that I'm still watching. Love you!! Fans from Malaysia, hope to see you one day!
I’m mom of three kids. I get this so much!! There are sometimes where I just want 5 minutes to myself. Mom life is hard sometimes. I feel like my drowning sometimes. You are amazing mom!!
Flynn making Wes laugh is the most adorable thing I’ve seen in a while
Re: dermatillomania; I also pick at my nails/face and loved ones telling me to stop has never helped. My man noticed it and said the same thing, I told him it's an anxious habit and the next time he noticed my thumb was torn up he just took it and kissed the spot without saying anything. It's such a small gesture but it's really effective in making me feel loved and supported and eases the urge a bit.
I hope everything goes OK with you. It's hard enough being a momma and being in pain on top of it sucks. Feel better ❤
You’re such a good mommy, and such an inspiration to so many of us. You work so hard and still there for you kid’s, love your channel
Jesus loves you 🤍
I love love love the vlogs. I’m not a mom(maybe will be one day) but I think it’s incredibly important to show the real and difficult(although I’m sure rewarding) process of being a mother. It’s so amazing to see you be open about you’re experience and normalize the different aspects of having babies. You’re doing amazing.
You don't need to be a "mother" to understand being overwhelmed. Life has low points..... that doesn't reflect poorly on who you are as a human. As a matter of fact, it shows that you are a human, having real human emotions! Lol ❤️
It’s almost like you’re diminishing what she’s feeling like as a mother.
Being overwhelmed as a mother in my experience is very different than being overwhelmed in any other stage of my life. Unless you are one, I don’t think you can understand it
@@emmavalentine3174 yes! Being overwhelmed as a parent means you literally have someone else’s life in your hands. Your decisions affect them. It can be physically and mentally exhausting. It’s a whole different ballgame.
@@BrendaD72 not to mention hormones play such a big role at this stage. Being a mom is by far the hardest thing I’ve done, and breastfeeding (either pumping or from the boob) is really hard.
I agree. Being overwhelmed is something we all have in common as humans. I appreciate you for pointing out that Colleen and all of us are not alone through tough times. I hope she sees your comment
I agree with everyone saying mastitis, kudos to Eric, that's what hubbies are there for mama he's your partner there to help you the way you help him! Hopefully you get it figured out at the Dr!
When I was younger, I (and my family) didn't know what dermatillomania was or that I was experiencing it. So any time I was picking, my family members would verbally call it out. It was humiliating for me. Your videos made me realize I was probably experiencing that and inspired me to ask my husband to respond in a way that is most helpful to me (for me, that's physical touch without forceful intervention or verbal acknowledgement), and it's really helped! Thank you for continuing to talk about it, it really is helping people ☺️
Tortilla talk question: Seeing how much going to Santa Barbara makes you and your family very happy, would you consider moving there again? Or is it better for y’all to stay near LA? (:
I actually loved the part at the end with the rocking and dimmed light because it had kind of a calming effect on me. I'm not saying you should do your tortilla talk questions in the dark but that's what I'm saying :D (Just kidding, do it however you wanna)
Eric is such a hero! What a wonderful example of a loving husband! Going above and beyond for the love of his life! 💛👊💛🤗
The combo of the rocking, lighting, and soft talk was actually super relaxing and kinda therapeutic lol 🤍
Yeah agreed
I actually felt nauseous watching the rocking 😩 I had to come read the comments hahhaa and just listen
Unintentional ASMR
Yes i thought the same and was looking for a comment that said this lol! Very asmr and peaceful . Would love to see her do it more to end vlogs 💕💕💕💕
Tortilla Talk: When picking out Wesley's and Maisy's name did you try to make them matchy? I know that a lot of people like my grandmother chose names that matched for their twins.
Also, I love watching your show. I look forward to it when I get home everyday. You both are great parents and have great kids. Can't wait to keep watching them grow and change.
Just gotta say, you’re a great momma! I’m trans, and not everyone thinks this way, but I love my baby pictures. It’s hilarious seeing little me in a dress and bows 😂
It made me so happy to hear her acknowledge the difference between their assigned sex at birth and whatever their gender is when they’re older :)
Oh please
@@janesmith8050 If you don't like it then leave. No one wants your negativity here.
I’m trans and I like my baby pics too lol 😂
@@janesmith8050 “oH PlEaSe” stfu if you don’t like what they said Jaír scroll past 😆
I've never been diagnosed with this issue but it does sound very familiar to an issue I have that I've never shared except with my husband, and the way you describe dealing with it is exactly how I told my husband to react to me, I never knew that it could be an actual medical problem I just always assumed it was just me , so thank you for sharing so much, you have no idea how much it means to me. ❤❤
I had 5-10 clogged ducts last week and it was terrible. My husband sucked some out too. The other thing that helped was ice packs and ibuprofen!!!! The inflammation builds up and can prevent the clogs coming out. After feeding/pumping I would lay on my back and put a bag of frozen peas on the clog. I really think it was the key to getting my clogs out. Good luck Colleen. You got this.
I’ve struggled with dermatillomania for as long as I can remember. You were the first person I’ve heard talk about your struggles with it. I’ve had the same thing happen with family and my boyfriend pointing out when it’s particularly bad. I talked with my boyfriend about not pointing it out because it seems to make it worse. For me, it’s worse when I’m anxious and other people noticing increases that anxiety. Since then, when it’s happening, my boyfriend starts to hold my hand but doesn’t say anything. I’m still slightly embarrassed but I also look at it as a reminder to try to stop and to focus on the comfort of being together instead. I appreciate you pointing out it’s a lifelong struggle. It helps me to not shame myself so much when it gets worse than normal.
Aww Flynn with Wesley was the cutest I love baby giggles 😀
Thank you for bringing up hitting a wall. You are not alone. Had a breaking point over this exact topic last night. Fellow mom, very often I feel like I'm filling up everyone else's cup and no one is helping replenish mine. It gets so hard because people say that the babies will be okay and I need to put my needs first but my god that is so much easier said than done. The four month sleep regression is the absolute worst! So much love to you, you both are incredible parents! 💓
One time I got a clogged duct because one of my babies got a bad latch and gave me a blister on my nipple. 😭 I had to pop the blister and then massage it out. Thankfully I avoided mastitis! I hope it resolves soon, Colleen.
Omg, that sounds extremely painful!
This stuff is scary.
I'm going to be doing this in 18 weeks
omg i kind of loved the low lighting and rocking back and forth combo at the end... it was so soothing tbh
Flynn making Wesley laugh was one of the cutest moments I have ever seen, and I think you are beautiful no matter what your hair looks like so whatever makes you happy is what you should do,
Ouch! I'm so sorry you struggle with that so often while pumping
((Flynn making little Wes laugh is everything! Living for it right now... so sweet!! 💜))
Colleen, i cant tell you how much i needed this upload today. My dad had a heart attack earlier this morning and my day has been rough yet your vlogs still tend to make me smile, thank you so much.
Big air hugs to you and your family.
I’m so sorry
@@WOOAHthatshot thank you so much
@@BridgetBean1725 thank you
That must be so rough I’m so sorry :(
Flynn making Wes laugh is absolutely adorable & precious 💖💗💖
colleen is like a breath of fresh air after choking on mcdonald's sprite. love ya colleen 💓
This right here 😂💕
HAHAHAHAHAHA WHAT
Wait... WHAT 😂
I laughed so hard this! Lol
@@zahrakarim3546 its true 🤷♀️
I just want to thank you for being open about your dermatilloania. I’ve been in therapy for over a year for my anxiety and ADHD and just finally opened up about my skin picking. You helped me be brave enough to admit it. Doing telehealth for therapy has made it easy for me to hide cause she can’t see the small red dots and scabs on my legs where ive picked at ingrown hairs or keratin bumps and I can pick at my cuticles or heels off camera. I’ve been struggling with how to bring it up to my spouse cause I hide it out of shame but I need his help in trying to deter me. The suggestion of distraction without bringing attention to the picking sounds like what I need. Thank you so much for that. You are a wonderful human and mother. Parenthood is hard. I just have one kiddo and I feel like I have my hands full! Kudos to you and your family for raising 3! It truly takes a village to raise kids and I’m so glad your family (friends included!) is so supportive and full of love for you and those kids! ❤️
Wes laughing at Flynn was adorable!
Colleen, thank you so much for talking about your dermatillomania. I have a similar thing where I rip and pick my nails off. I’ve had multiple toenails removed but every time they grow back I rip it right back off. If my boyfriend or family member calls me out on it, I get really embarrassed and then all I can focus on is ripping it off in private. Thank you for talking about it it’s so helpful and makes me feel seen.
Using a warm compress, then a massager or the end of an electric toothbrush on the area for a few minutes then pumping usually helps. You may want to “dangle pump” meaning let your ladies hang while pumping. That helps as well. These methods helped me when I had clogged ducts. Good luck. ❤️
Edit: Ha! I wrote that too soon. I just watched you dangle pump. 🙁
I died laughing at Flynn making Wesley giggle. They are both the cutest little thing. Maisy as well.
Omg I totally understand how ur feeling I had the same clogging problem and it hurt so bad it killed me and I have a high tolerance for pain. Ur so lucky u have a husband who loves u so much mine was horrible. I suffered alone. It was horrible. Keep ur head up mama. U got this.
The Wesley & Flynn footage made my DAY!! The twins are at that stage where they are more interactive and it is so fun for everyone. Love watching their sibling bond grow!!
ADVICE/QUESTION: Hi Colleen! I notice that you receive a lot of baby clothes and said that the twins grow out of theirs really fast. Since it would be a waste to throw the clothes away, do you donate them? Love you
Oh my god stop 😭❤️ Watching Flynn make Wesley laugh literally just gave me the most serotonin I’ve had all week. How stinking cute are they 🥺❤️
TTQ: Has anyone ever actually thought you were miranda sings, and it wasn't a joke? TTQ: how long have you known Kory? I love you so much, I will see you at the live show that I am going to! I love you :)
Many years ago, i didn't know Colleen had other channels, i had only heard of Miranda Sings, so i thought she was actually like that 😅 When i did find her other channels and saw the real her, i was so relieved, since Miranda Sings is pretty arrogant and rude 😅 But now i finally understand the humor in it 🙂
She talked about it a lot of times. 1. Yes, for a couple of years when she just started doing Miranda, no one knew her, most of the people believed she wasn't acting, also Miranda was much more chill and less of a character at the times. 2. They met in college, performed together and are best friends since then.
I just love that you are open to any type of way your kids want to be. It's great that while you style your kids how you want/like them to look based on what you know, but as soon as they are able to have a say, listen to that. Y'all are amazing parents, truly an inspiration!
I just wanted to say I love watching your videos they have gotten me through the worst time of my mental health. I have been watching you since I was about 9 or 10 (fifth grade) and I’ll be 19 later this year (graduated high school last year)
Eric is so adorable! You have such a great family dynamic. Thank you for sharing with us.
The baby giggles are so sweet I love them 💗
Thank you for helping this new mom feel less alone! I’m sitting here at 1 in the morning with a baby going through teething & four month sleep regression. I have tears in my eyes watching you explain how your feeling as I relate so much. So thanks you ❤️🩹🙏🏻
Tortilla talk question-
Would you ever consider uploading content you have saved but didn’t put in vlogs?
So much love to you from Ireland 💜
Love the bangs, I didn’t like bangs either but I like them now!! Esp.. to keep growing the long beautiful curly hair. I twist my hair and then use thinning shears to thin a bit out. Helps a lot for the bulk.
such an amazing momma!!!! also i love love love your hair short!
Idk why but you rocking and doing tortilla talk in the dim light unlocked some random comforting memory and feeling….reminded me of cozy nights staying at my grandmothers house, I think it was the lighting and the dull fan sound ☺️
Thank you for talking about your skin picking disorder because I too have dermatillomania and honestly hearing others talk about it just makes feel better about myself. I hope you see this comment, I know you're super super busy all the time but I messaged you on Instagram on this subject and would love to just be able to talk to you sometime about it. You rock girl 🙂
I was shocked when she said that she has it... it's nice to hear someone else has it. I have it as well.
The way Flynn was playing with Wesley so cute. He is gonna have such a awesome relationship with his siblings. We get to watch them grow up.
Tortilla talk question: Do you think that you’ll use the jolly jumper with the twins? Considering how much Flynn liked it maybe they would too! Ps i love your vids❤️
with the dermatillomania subject, i’ve never been diagnosed with it, but i have the feeling i have it. i started with biting my nails since i was really little, when i finally stopped biting my nails, i moved to my skin around my fingers, and toes. my mom has been the one that i talk to the most about it, and luckily it hasn’t been super bad, but i’ve also felt the same when she’d stop me from biting or picking at my fingers. she would move my hand away or grab my hand and hold it and try to move my attention somewhere else and it never really seemed to help. so i definitely feel the same way you do! i ended up telling my family to ignore it, cause it’ll happen one way or another and bringing it to mine and everyone’s attention makes me only think about when i can do it again without everyone noticing and also making me extremely embarrassed by it. so even though i’m not actually diagnosed with dermatillomania, i understand where you’re coming from completely! much love to you and your beautiful family, Colleen!
hope u feel better soon Colleen xx
I’m currently stuck at home sick with Covid and it’s not a great time, but watching wes and Flynn play together has made my day!
Ahhh Flynn making Wes laugh with the same sound he used for the word water as a baby got me feeling so emotional, Flynn has grown so much!
I spent my entire 8 week maternity leave dealing with 3 back to back to back post partum infections that required iv antibiotics and iv fluids. It was incredibly painful and I was dealing with the ins and outs of being a first time mom to a preemie. So....totally understand that wall. Thank god for a supportive partner. It killed my milk supply, too. But finally feel normal again now and my milk supply is back!
ahhhhh you are seriously such an amazing human. For your hair, do what ever makes you happiest! You are beautiful regardless. Sending so much love!
the twins laughing makes my day and colleen playing with bubbles with flynn i can’t discribe how happy it makes me
Hitting a wall sucks.. but it is okay to take two minutes to take a breath. I have three and I've had to take a couple breaths and pick back up on what I was doing. You can do this Colleen!
So sorry for the pain colleen :( feel better soon !!!! 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿
Love you Colleen! TTQ:Have you ever met a person that actually thought your personality was like Miranda?Love you so much with all my love and support,love Zoe❤️
Jesus loves you 🤍
oooo! good onee
When I was in high school, a girl told me we weren't allowed to laugh at Miranda because she is actually mentally challenged. I didn't know much about Colleen at the time but I was like "I'm pretty sure that's not right..." And she flipped out at me.
Hoping you feel better ASAP! Thank you for your openness about your skin picking disorder…. sharing your thoughts and feelings has helped me to better understand my teenage daughter’s struggle with skin picking. The content you create and provide is such a joy for me and my two daughters to enjoy together… sending you and your beautiful family much love & light! ❤️
I had what I thought was a clogged milk duct too about 8 years ago. It was so painful and nothing worked! I even had my husband try sucking it out and it didn’t work. When I went to the doctor they said there was puss in it and they had to make an insertion to get it out. Definitely go get it checked because it could definitely affect the breast milk. Hope you feel better soon 💜
The rocking, lighting and soft talking at the end was very comforting. I hope the doc can help relieve your pain! Much love 🤗❤️
You’re doing an amazing job! Sending you love!
Nothing is as sweet and angelic as a baby's precious laugh!
Thanks for sharing it made my day! ❤️❤️
This was the most relaxing tortilla talk EVER! Please do more of this
Awh Colleen I am so sorry you’re going through this. I hope it is an easy fix! But you are so strong & you’ve got anything that comes your way.
Bangs and shorter hair! It’s so cute
I have had mastitis before and WOOF it hurts and feels miserable. Sending healing vibes your way.
Hi Colleen, I just wanna say, you dress your kids the way you wanna dress them. People will have their opinions, but if you wanna put Maisey in pink or put a bow on her, do it. If she wants you change that when she's older she can. But for right now, if you want to put bows on her, dress her in pink or put her in dresses, do it. I love you and your cute little family!❤
i noticed you guys have a trampoline in your backyard now! i don’t know how long you’ve had it but it seemed to be fairly new, i’m sure flynn is going to have a blast on that!
you are a ROCKSTAR Colleen.❤️
I personally love you with bangs! Side bangs, straight across love it! I say go for it 😌
Hearing Wesley laugh was adorable! ❤️
I think you should do a q and a like that where you are like caring for the twins and answering questions! It was really relaxing and enjoyable for me!🥰
Short hair girl. I deal with kids all day, hair long enough to put in a ponytail is just right. Bangs will constantly get in your way and you always regret having to wash them all the time. Also, you do you. Do what makes you happy
Seeing Wes laugh is the sweetest thing !!!
Colleen! Look into wake windows to align their naps during the day, so they will sleep better at night ❤️
Colleen it's very very normal to feel this way especially if you aren't sleeping well. I feel for you I've been there. Sending you positive vibes.
I had some very painful clogs with my 3rd baby, and I used warm, moist heat - wet wash cloth with heating pad on top. I also would stand in the shower to give that warm, moist heat. You might have done this, but I was able to get rid of some stubborn clogged ducts.
I told myself in needed to go to bed but here I am! I’m not ashamed that I stayed up to watch Coleen!
Girl, cut those bangs!!!!! Do what makes you happy 💕
When Flynn was making Wesley laugh, you could see Wesley try to copy his tongue motion! How amazing is that? Melted my heart