If you have Complex PTSD you may be particularly likely to experience what some people call an 'emotional flashback', in which you have intense feelings that you originally felt during the trauma, such as fear, shame, sadness, or despair. You might react to events in the present as if they are causing these feelings, without realizing that you are having a flashback.
Yes! Often I get flashbacks where im so terrified, im scared to keep living, because the uncertain future scares the shit out of me (That's how I felt im the past). Those are moments im afraid i'll harm myself
Other characteristics (there are over sixty and counting probably) of complex trauma: depression anxiety shame (but the shame is false) sense of guilt (but the that's false, too) dissociation (when you check out of reality to deal with your past traumas) paranoia hyper-vigilant (because you always suffer from a sense of doom and gloom and something's about to happen anytime) addiction (drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling, what have you) self-harm self-sabotage self-loathing with absolutely zero sense of self-worth, self-esteem, self-respect (because the narcissistic abusers took all that away from you and NEVER made you felt wanted or valued) anger and rage, lots of rage and many times you end up abusing others. Childhood abuse, neglect and trauma, when not resolved, totally messes up your adult life because no one ever taught you how to "adult" and lead a healthy, fulfilled life. So f'ing sad.
@@hsanchezisidora My best guess is that you feel ashamed and guilty, but know that it's false and you have nothing to be ashamed or guilty of. That doesn't stop the feeling, though.
Do you know what's worse? People who leave you because they don't understand or even if they know the reason for your behavior, they leave you because they can't stand your behavior anymore. So you may be working to hide your symptoms and feeling so lonely that no one understands you but yourself.
Knowing how much it hurts my parents to know I'm not okay forces me to hide it all away. I can't tell them, because they'll get worried, they won't understand, and, the worst case of all, they'll just shrug it all off as something simple, "just me being attention-seeking". I just wonder when will that "attention-seeking" will turn into attention-needing. ...at this point I wonder when will it be too late for any kind of attention for the matter...
Don't hide the symptoms. We have to be accepted for who we are, not try and cover up for things we cannot control. A massive part of relationships is communication and understanding. I fell in love with someone that has a few mental health battles. We're learning how to be with each other - how to give support and space when needed. It isn't easy, but it is possible! Good luck xx
I do the opposite, I don't think I have any type of PTSD but as someone who has weird anxiety, I push away my friends because I think my own behavior is annoying and I don't want to be a burden to them - I have a lot of dissociation around them when we're supposed to be having fun, but I just can't - I'm always on Fight of Flight mode so I just leave instead of just sitting there quietly
This comment kind of reminds me of my bf to be honest. I’ve had the feeling for the past 6 months that he's been avoiding me because first of all, on our last date, he was rushing and lied that his mother was calling him for an emergency. Later on, he was skipping school and always rushing home because he was too busy. Then he comes with the "we need space because I'm not doing well in school" and then his mother calls me to blame me for all his school problems even though I haven't been with him whatsoever. After that, I find out he would leave me voluntarily because supposedly he was the best guy for any job anyone needed and he could never turn down a favor. After graduation, he promised we'd have more time and here I am being the world's most patient woman with a guy who can't even say goodmorning to his soon to be ex girlfriend. You know, I think relationships are just part of a life experience. I'm not sure if I'll get into one in the future. It's all too complicated when one deals with others. I gotta constantly give gifts, pay so much in order to meet a family's expectations, and their's always a problem with the other side of the family. I don't think I'll ever get into relationship drama again. But yeah this comment reminded me of that situation because he's mentioned that he has another side of the story, but he keeps getting exposed either by me or his family members. Other times, he says I don't understand, but I always know what's going on when someone spills it to me. It's like there’s two sides of the story and I've only dated a guy hiding behind a mask to have a good appearance. He didn't want to lose me, but he didn't want to keep me either. Kinda sad really. I hope he finds someone who can be more patient than I am. That's why they're relationships and not marriages
@@dr.thunder1567 i can somewhat relate to you. I don't really have friends, but I do feel as if my behavior is annoying and I try to avoid others because I'm usually labled as an outcast and I'd rather just not hear someone ruin my self esteem by calling me weird. I'd rather stay quiet and only talk when I feel is necessary. I can still make good bonds with others though and have a good laugh if I trust them enough, but my social skills suck overall.
I was diagnosed with CPTSD from "relationship trauma" I had no idea what was happening. One month post escape of the relationship, the symptoms just flooded in all at once! Insomnia, racing thoughts, night terrors, cold sweats, brain fog, panic attacks, anxiety, loud noises, car horns
I am much better today, CPTSD diagnosis was over s year ago and I've treated with therapy, medication and self care. Some symptoms still linger like loud noises, car horns, high anxiety periodically, panic attacks and blank out at times.
“IT WILL BE OK.” …One of these days, I will get this dealt with. Your videos make me understand so much about myself and how badly things really are. If anything the soft tone voice also makes me feel calm in researching and learning mental illnesses. …sorry if this comment is phasing randomly, I sometimes find it hard to think, but that’s also probably due to the fact I might have ADHD, but yeah.
Actually, Acute Stress Disorder is what you have when you have symptoms within 1 month of the event that go away. Regular PTSD can still bother you years later. It doesn't have to be categorized as C-PTSD. --Clinical Mental Health Counselor
I was thinking that defining ptsd as a one time event the way it was done here sounds false. The way the video portrays this information it makes it sound as it true ptsd almost doesn’t even exist or that it is a short time period of symptoms. That’s simply not true, I know people that have a ptsd diagnoses and have struggled with those symptoms off and on throughout their lives.
Cptsd has as cause repetitive or long trauma. Yes it can have some different symptoms, and it is far more chaotic, as you don't know where the heck which reaction is coming from sometimes. Sometimes you get triggered in two of the traumas simultaneously. Can't continue describing. People can get informed online. Just, sadly, not here, apparently ...
I recently started getting therapy and made an instant breakthrough when my therapist asked if I experienced any trauma. I never gave much thought to it, but I have PTSD. I was bullied a lot as a kid. But the worst part was a teacher was bullying me. She was my language arts teacher and I was having a hard time. She didn’t make it better she just kept reprimanding me, even taking me to talk to the principal a few times. I then had to go to tutoring (which I’m just now realizing it was probably considered remedial classes) and the kids made fun of me for it. My parents had enough and pulled me out before the last couple weeks when I told them what my teacher said. She stood up in front of the class and said, “You all did really well this year. Where *my name* ’s future in language arts is yet to be determined.” Knowing I have PTSD from my time in that school explains so much now. My anxieties. Making presentations all the way through college (only getting worse each time). My anger when I mess something up. My tendency to go “auto-pilot” when doing things like driving (disassociation). Meeting new people, making new friends and finding a girlfriend. It was only made worse with the lockdowns, I lost all my friends because we lost touch. All my anxiety, depression, irritability, loneliness, and pain stems from one old bag who is probably dead now. And now I’m 27 trying to treat something I didn’t even know I had since I was 12. It sucks. The principal told my mom that “A lot of students that had trouble with her came back to thank her.” I’d sh!t on that woman’s grave if I knew where it was. She was awful.
I had a similar experiences with yours, I get your pain it awful. the treatment that I got was different than the others, I always thought that something is wrong with me, that is why I avoided alot of things because I was too scared to fail, when I remember these stuff I start crying it was horrible. I started talking medicine for anxiety, now I’m a 23 trying to avoid any triggers and a girl who doesn’t know what to do anymore. but on the bright side I found a great recipe for cookies. A side from that I’m happy that you are trying to fix your self, and furious about that woman and the things she did to you. I hope that you become a great person ( and I think you are :) ) and find a great ppl that will always love you and sport you ^^ .
So glad I’m not the only one who’s 27 struggling with CPTSD! Except, instead of your teacher being the bully my parents WERE the bullies. Them, and people I met along the way growing up (“friends,” coworkers, bosses, etc.) added more fuel to the fire. It’s sad how the people you expect to take care of you or help you do the opposite, like playing both the ally and enemy at the same time. People suck
I have quite similar experiences from my younger school years when many of the teachers openly despised me for not being as the other kids and one of them even told me I was too wierd to make friends. I have been lonely and feeling inferior to others my entitre life because of that. Something is severely wrong with soceity when school ruins so many people's life and that is a thing not talked about as trauma enough, I think 😭
I was diagnosed with CPTSD almost a year ago. I am a victim of abuse with my dad, sexually assaulted in high school, bullied through most of my school life, had an awful relationship with my ex and discovered a loved one dead. I am still struggling. I still have irregular emotions, flashbacks, hypervilgence, and a slew of other symptoms. Its a terrible thing to deal with. I really hope we raise more awareness of this new disorder. Since I learned how new it is. Thank you so much for the kind words! Means alot to me. Also glad to be able to show that you are not alone with these internal battles.
So sorry to hear what you have been through… it’s hell on earth battling evil demons that pretend to be humans!! I hope you heal and are able to move forward from your trauma
The awareness is essential, and can seem to be long time coming after one starts investigating. Awareness helps, but then finding ways to recover and heal, part B., can seem elusive and hard to track down.
complex ptsd has completely changed my life especially over the last few years. it sucks that there's so little social awareness about it. i was always called a 'psycho' simply for expressing my emotions that i couldn't hold much longer. im only human too and people need to see that; especially when i do things i regret and hurt the people i love. i've gotten very bad social anxiety which only seems to increase. it feels like there's 500 voices in my head telling me what to do with my life and idk where to start. all i know is there's a difference between interests and passions. and life is too short to not follow your passions. at the end of the day we all reach the same fate. it's just life, it'll be over before we know it
It’s quite hypocritical for folks to say “we’re inclusive” “we’re gonna spread awareness” yet they’ll judge, ignore, and stare at us when we’re going through so much. Plus they’ll try to normalize just to shut us up.
I didn’t know about the dissociation until now!! Nor did I even know I was going thro that with my ptsd!! This is something I’ll definitely be talking about with my trauma therapist when I see her next!! Thx soooo much Psych2go! U’re really changing the world and educating others around the world!! Props to u!! 😊
Ok, sad warning, when you work on dissociation you loose that tool. You can not withdraw for protection. I have developed new tools, but there have been a few traumatic events after therapy that I wish I could forget.
I disassociate so much...my therapist told me to keep pen and paper handy, to track the episodes. I had to stop that because it became terrifying, how much time I "lost." Now when I know I've been in that state, I play detective afterwards, trying to see what I did. "Oh, I ate. Oh, I changed clothes. I wonder why I did that" etc. I also have agoraphobia, in part because it terrifies me to dissociate in public, not knowing where I went, who I spoke to.
I have C-PTSD and though I've mostly recovered from it, there's always that doubt--planted by all the gaslighting and dismissive comments over the years--that my experiences were "all in my head" and that what I think is reality is completely fake/imagined. This video helps so much to confirm my reality that I definitely had/have it. Thank you so much.
Gaslighting and discrediting your experience or disbelieving has it affects. I can tell you what I know, it’s not your fault. th-cam.com/video/ZQht2yOX9Js/w-d-xo.html
I am in the midst of recalling trauma from 37 years ago, at my mother's and maternal grandmother's hands. They changed my entire personality. One of the most noticeable things was what is deemed "Compulsive Compliance," by Bessel Van der Kolk's book The Body Keeps The Score. I became completely incapable of making my own decisions or of deciding with whom to associate. I could no longer say 'no' without an intense fear of losing someone (even if they were awful people, I still clung to them). I concerned myself only with others' needs, believing that I did not even have needs. I lost the ability to truly feel happiness. I was taught that I was not allowed to be happy, joyful, sad, upset, or anything but serene compliance. I was on the verge of an emotional (angry) outburst at all times. I am reading through the book and working on publishing a memoir. I feel my story needs to be told. God's blessings on you all for your recovery work!
Incapable of making decisions...as if my lifetime was never given to me..I never did future,I had no future,incapable of envisioning future, zero personal concept of future .
It's been like this since I was 6. I'm 30 now. As early as age 9, I used to dissociate so hard I'd forget who I was, while my body fought my classmates for me. By the time I tuned back in mentally, I'd be in the middle of a lecture for something I didn't remember doing wrong. The most insidious part of c-PTSD is that it affects me even when I'm _not triggered._ My attention span and memory seem to be permanently damaged, and that's cost me every job I've ever tried to work. When I get stressed, I have seizures that I stay conscious for. This means that even when I work 100% as hard as I can, I still screw up all the time. It's obliterated my confidence. I get self-conscious talking about my past, because there's so many gory details, some people assume I'm making it up. I thought everyone had stories like that. I never thought of my life as uniquely awful, because the good days are _so good_ and I love my friends _so much._ But the fact is, I've seen some shit that a lot of people haven't.
Reading your comment here made me feel as though I was writing my own history. Thank you so much for sharing here! I already feel less alone. I know I don't have much ability to help besides thanking you, but I'll light a candle for you and hope you find some healing and access to care if you haven't been able to yet. 💜
@@taiskye1849 The compassion makes all the difference. I've been venting about this...pretty much everywhere, as I come to terms with it, and it's nice to feel seen and validated. I hope you get some relief too. If the good is as intense for you as it is for me, I hope we both get the chance to bask in it.
@@austin3347 I wanna emphasize first thing: _financial turmoil_ is the main thing that's hurting me right now. When my family was financially stable, it was much easier to focus on my recovery. It just hurts to fight for my life through years of domestic abuse, _and then_ have to fight my stupid workplaces for a living wage when I thought my life was saved. _Before_ the financial BS...recovery started to feel very manageable. After being abused at 6, I had an abusive relationship when I was 14-16, and I was more or less 'normal' by 23. It's just that becoming homeless at 26 after my stepdad died slam-dunked me back to rock bottom. Trauma teaches us a lot of false, toxic lessons, such as, "I deserve to be hurt if I talk back." If I try and chart major breakthroughs, it might look something like... 1) Learn that getting punished doesn't fix anything. I used to beg my exes to beat me for making mistakes, and that terrified them because they were good people. Most people aren't sadistic like that, and those who are, are not good people. Nobody's impressed by my ability to take a beating, just saddened and frightened. 2) Learn that there is nothing I can do to 'deserve' abuse. I used to apologize for 'my part' in my fights with my ex. But there's nothing that I can do -- no amount of back-sass, no amount of being cringy or annoying -- to justify what he did to me. Conversely, somebody who mistreats me _absolutely deserves_ to be stopped by self-defense, if necessary. 3) Learn that my worth doesn't come from romantic/sexual relationships. Anyone worth my time loves me for my humanity, not for anything I _do_ for them. I'm not being graded on a pass/fail scale. Also, 'losing my V card' does not diminish my value as a human. Simultaneously... 4) Learn that romantic/sexual engagements can be soft and kind. A good partner will be okay with me stopping, even if we're in the middle of something explicit, and won't be bitter or try to emotionally twist my arm. My safety is more important than any bodily pleasure. I deserve to check in with myself and make sure that I feel safe. In the course of this lesson, I also found out that I'm asexual, but this also applies generally -- _human relationships_ should be respectful of boundaries and consent, not just in the bedroom. 5) Learn that I was pressuring myself in 5 outta 6 of my relationships. The first one was toxic and abusive as hell, but in all the others, _I was the one who didn't let me say no._ My other 5 exes were, as established, all good people who would've been fine with me saying no, and that's what a relationship should look like. 6) Learn that it's safe to talk to other people. I withdrew hardcore after the abuse. Writing essays in class and posting my thoughts online helped me find my voice, but working customer service _brought me out of my shell._ I realized I can chat with most people without them posing a threat to my safety. When I got my first job, I was so terrified I could scarcely _mouth greetings_ to customers. Over the years, though, I learned how to show interest in other people's lives and get them to open up as much as they're comfortable. Even now, in the grips of my current crisis, I believe that the majority of people are fundamentally good and civil; the traitors who use and abuse others are a glitch in that matrix. But I had to meet dozens of good people, in order to arrive at that conclusion. A support system is so necessary; it takes a village. 7) Learn that I don't belong to anybody else, and nobody else belongs to me. There is never a point where I 'have to' do what somebody else wants me to, and there's never a point where anybody else does, either. I can save us all a lot of heartache if I ask my loved ones, 'Hey, are you able to help me with x right now?' rather than jumping into their arms assuming they're free to drop everything and care for me right this minute. And that's okay. I want them to be here _because they want to be here,_ rather than because they feel like they have to. Relatedly, nobody else _can fix me,_ but they can keep me company while I _get fixed._ It's bigger than any one person. 8) Learn how to love myself. I find that it's easier for survivors to love and empathize with other people, than with ourselves. We're intensely self-critical and willing to take mistreatment, but if we see it happen to someone else, we go into protective overdrive. There's a point where we realize: we are also 'other people' -- I had to imagine seeing a gangly 14 year old British kid who's been beaten to hell, without the lens of self-hatred, and realize how much I would love and care for and protect that kid. Then realize that kid was me, and still is. If I wouldn't tell another survivor that they're stupid or worthless, why would I say it to that child? That would be pointlessly cruel. My therapist also taught me a coping mechanism to lower stress, called a butterfly hug. The way it works is, you cross your arms over your chest like a mummy. Then with your fingertips, you pet, tap, or scritch at the opposing collarbone, alternating left and right. Because of our brains' weird left-right wiring, this allows a person to give physical affection to themselves in a way that's just as satisfying as affection from another person. This got me thinking about other ways that I can literally show affection to myself, such as stroking my cheek, playing with my own hair/petting my scalp, etc. This teaches us that we're not helplessly waiting for _another person_ to give us love, but instead have the power to give it to ourselves. ...That's a lengthy list. Let me know if it's helpful lol I'm sure you know we're all different; some of the toxic lessons I learned might be the same as your girlfriend's, and some of them might be different. Most of these _healing_ lessons are shown, not told; we need a life environment that's safe enough that these things become clear. Just reading it isn't enough. You're a good person, doing the research and reaching out for some way to help her. I wanna emphasize again: you cannot reach in and fix her. Not even trained professionals can do that. That took me ages to understand. But you can give her a nudge here or there, or stand at her back to keep her steady. Keep her company. Navigate life together. I see this distinction as a hopeful thing. Her life absolutely can get better, especially if she has people like you in her corner.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Yes, dr.porass. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
hello reader! I just wanna say.. it's all gonna be ok. I promise.. you're doing so well! and I'm so proud of you..and I love you! I promise you that everything is gonna be ok. I know I've probably never met you.. but I care about you ok? remember that Im proud of you ok? - Me 💚
I was bullied in middle school for 3 years straight and it was an almost daily occurrence that I was bullied. People made fun of me, poked around at me, and generally did as much as they could to make my day miserable. Add the fact I grew up in a household with double standards, my step brother always got away with things, but I would always get worse punishments over things. My parents never helped me talk to the school about the bullying, and constantly told me to just stand up for myself and fight them if I have to. I am not a fighter, I don’t want to hurt anyone, so I just kept telling staff to help me, almost daily. They said they’d help but they never did. Finally in 7th grade, I got so fed up with anger from being bullied that I said things I didn’t mean, and it got me emergency expelled. My bullies, still continue to get away with everything. I was punished and nobody even cared to hear me, I went to a therapist with my dad for a few months because they school told him to. My bullies then began manipulating my words that day and using them to get school security to search my bag, slander my name, and ruin my life. It never seemed to end, finally in 8th grade, on my last day, I finally snapped and fought my bully, but still afraid of punishment, I stopped because I never wanted to fight. I got punished again, and my bully manipulated the fight against me on social media and made my reputation even worse. Finally in high school, I was finally rid of my bullying, but then I would be left alone for the entire 4 years. Nobody ever talked to me, listened to me, or cared about me. I had no friends, no girlfriends, no proms, no dances, nothing. I was ostracized for 4 years, and here I am at 21 years old. My mental health had only worsened since graduating, with no real friends to speak of and no future plans, I began to feel constantly depressed. I sometimes even questioned if the world would be better with me never existing. I had started going to therapy, but i finally had a dissociative episode that caused me to scare my family. My step mom has completely stopped talking to me, and I have had only support in my mental struggles from my older brother and my dad. I found out only 2 days ago that my therapist had diagnosed me with C-PTSD. Honestly, I continue to question why nobody ever helped me, and just let me suffer in school.
I am so sorry for what you went through...my child exactly experienced very similar adversity. Please don't underestimate the role of CBT, DIALECTIC Behavioural therapy and Trauma focused CBT and compassion therapy, exercise and meditation. With the right treatment you will overcome all the symptoms by the time. Indeed,it will take a bit time. Ask your doctor for art clubs and leisure activities....they all involve in fixing the areas of your brain which have been damaged due to the trauma you went through. The good news is you are still under 25 and your brain still develops. 😊😊😊so, if you focus on positive thoughts and forgiveness and regular talk therapies that I recommended you will become much stronger than before. Please don't ignore what I wrote.
The most intense insane for me is the "dissociation". We went driving to a sea and when we came there to the parking lot, I just couldnt remember any meter of the drive, not a single one.
@@austin3347 When it comes to the C-PTSD, she is doing better every day, but you really have to take every teeny tiny progress as a huge leap forward as it's really difficult for her to see past some of her C-PTSD would make her believe about certain situations. An example is that while she might instinctively not trust me because I'm a guy, but I'm her husband too, so some times she literally has to re-think how she formulates her sentences because she realizes some prejudice comes in her way before rational thinking. These moments are worth celebrating 😁
"It will be ok" is the hidden phrase, I hope everyone will be ok and still be happy even after a traumatic event, your happiness can matter to many people
I was diagnosed recently I was physically assaulted by my dentist from the ages of 4-8 and had a hard time going to doctors or dentists because I felt like I couldn’t trust them years later when I was starting my senior year of high school I was shot in a school shooting and I was more scared if the doctors than I was the shooter I was taken to the hospital and rushed into emergency surgery where I suffered from anesthesia awareness I could feel the breathing tube in my throat and the initial stab from the surgeon until I blacked out from pain now I fear so many things and still feel physical pain I’m training to be a nurse but I can’t work in ORs or really anything to do with surgery because the setting brings on the most horrible flashbacks and panic attacks
Those sound like very traumatic experiences. Brave of you to intend to work in a medical setting. I hope you can start feeling that it is not the setting that is evil/dangerous but acknowledge there is evil and danger in this world, but also good.
Wow, I'm so sorry! I was physically assaulted by both my parents and I know what it feels like to be more fearful of them then the pain from something else.
@@altruex hospitals are fine but not surgical wards or the sound of ventilators I’m working with my therapists on the ventilators but surgical settings are just too much for me
The reframing of abuse as “have you considered they weren’t trying to hurt you?” by-possibly- well-intentioned, but poorly trained, and very uneducated, medical professionals can be absolutely infuriating when experienced by emotionally destroyed and exhausted victims. We are already confused, and going through a process of self blame and shame as it is. Reframing an experience that has been scary, confusing, and harmful as potentially positive just so we can ‘think positively’ to make everyone outside of us feel more comfortable, I guess, isn’t what victims or survivors of abuse need.
Medical professionals contributed to my traumas. I have big problems getting the health care I need because of them. Many medics are abusive. It's awful. Love to you. ❤❤❤❤
"It. Will. Be. Ok." guys stay strong also I realized that what I thought was traditional PTSD was actually CPTSD oop we all learn sometimes and thank you to everyone and Psych2Go for spreading awareness and support for so many people. Have a beautiful day you amazing people! Enjoy the summer solstice! (I smell a pun somewhere but I can't exactly find it)
I am 18 yrs old and I tend to have: ✨toughts like,, if you don't touch that tree 5 times, your loved ones are going to die". ✨ I get overwhelmed when I have to talk to adults.☺️ ✨I tend to forget what I was talking about when I get even a little stressed. ✨I can't control my emotions when I habe to say how I feel even if it's something good. I explode into crying the moment I open my mouth. And usually I prefer to stay quiet. ✨I'm always stressed that maybe the person who talks with me gets annoyed by me but tries to be nice and that's why they say we are,, best friends" or,, they love me" bcs they pity me ✨I care too much about others, even strangers I don't know but I'm scared that maybe they won't want my help so I get freezed when someone needs help but I'm scared to do it. ❤I never understood why I am like this but I'm trying. My parents really affected me since I was rly rly young till now and they still are the same and I can't get used with them even now bcs they have a way in which you can't just ignore them bcs you are involved as well without doing anything wrong.
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I was a victim of severe bullying and neglect from staff in elementary school (age 9-12), it's a horrible trauma that's prevented me from feeling safe while driving certain routes, taking tests, being near scoops or school busses, and even getting a job. You'd be surprised how many mundane things happen to tie back to those two and a half years of hell. I've bounced from therapist to therapist, and nothing ever seemed to truly work, EMDR therapy is the closest I've gotten to true relief but even then, it can sometimes do more harm than help. The trauma I've faced has completely uprooted my entire life. It's hard trying to rebuild it; my coping mechanisms have led me to destroying my body and everyday tasks are now incredibly difficult. C-PTSD is a fate I'd never wish upon any innocent soul. To all of my C-PTSD friends out there, stay strong. 💪
I've lost my son's father his 2 cousins a close friend of mines and suffer from domestic abuse also my mother attempted suicide during the pandemic from fear.... I needed to hear this.....I definitely need help and be evaluated....I've been so depressed lately....thanks for sharing I know I'm not alone...peace and love to everyone ❤️🙏🏻🌹
I found the hidden phrase! "It will be ok" I have C-PTSD from narcissistic abuse and I'm trying to learn how to be more compassionate towards myself and acknowledge the impact the abuse has had on me, as well as other trauma related to the pandemic and other triggering things that all happened around the same time, which was right around the same time that I became an adult and was expected to know what to do with my life and be self-sufficient but currently lack the capacity to do because of my current mental/psychological state. I feel like people don't understand how my trauma still lingers or try to cancel my emotions by telling me that I shouldn't be feeling the way I do because my abuser's gone now, or that I'm using my abuser as an excuse to feel or act a certain way
I can relate. I haven't been diagnosed to be fair. I have a lot of difficulty asking for help. Your comment made me feel like I wasn't alone. Thank you.
You confused PTSD and CPTSD. Complex PTSD is not triggered by a car accident. It is caused by repeated cycles of trauma during childhood such as abandonment, neglect, abuse (physical or psychological). Missed opportunity to explain.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts on this. Your feedback helps us improve our further scripts. If we were to talk about CPTSD in future videos, it might be a better idea to use prolonged childhood trauma as an example in the video. We will keep that in mind. [EDIT] To clarify, it doesn't HAVE to be since childhood. While repetitive trauma can take its toll on the individual which causes more severe emotional response, any other traumatic experiences can potentially cause these CPTSD symptoms to manifest too.
@@Psych2go The vast majority of CPTSD experiences are from childhood. Indeed the ACES (Adverse Childhood Experiences Survey) is recognised as the premier measures available to the wider public.
@@Psych2go I left 12 years of physical and psychological abuse every day all day for 12 years, I have high level cptsd, I cant even work. Age was 30-42 years old. I never had no problem in my childhood, I was happy child. It is not truth what he say. YOU are right. Trauma can happen at any age.
With the PTSD medication we're on, the flashbacks have lessened since recovering tragic memories last year. Apparently our childhood was extremely traumatizing and horrifying. Still get flashbacks every 1-2 weeks on average. We have many disorders and diagnoses that are difficult to live with at times but we're learning, with our therapist, to build a successful life that is worth living. C-PTSD sucks and you're going to just have bad days where you're just using coping skills to recover from bad flashbacks.
You described how my life is. I live with c-ptsd, form multiple traumatic situations. But I don’t have so much off memory flashbacks, but more of emotional flashbacks. So everyday things can trigger me into the fear, stress and dread feeling I had at the time of some of the trauma happened. And I struggle a lot with sensory triggers and overloads, it can be really hard to be around people sometimes. But even if things are really hard, I try to except myself for needing time to heal, and I know it’s not my fault.
I’m so happy you used car accidents as an example. I’ve been told to just get over for years. It goes away but when you get told “oh I know what that’s like I got rear ended once” yes you had issues. I 100% understand you don’t mean to be insensitive. That day the fear of losing my mother, pets, life, and new home were horrible. Even after the accident, physical and mental issues follow me. Hell typing this im getting back pain. So that rear ending in a car you had, that you fixed in a quick trip to the mechanic is different. Not one is worse, but they are different and so I how everyone handles it. So thank you for doing car accidents and showing what can happen from it. It’s either brushed off or “oh I’ve done that I know what it’s like”
My therapist didn't say C-PTSD, but it reminded me of when I was at work. Someone said a guy was looking for me, and my friend said they saw a car that looked like my ex's. I had a mental breakdown. I don't remember crying in the corner in the main office. I felt paranoid. My job sent me home for the day.
this example hit me hard. I got in my first crash getting on a highway exit and ever since then, I have had to avoid highways at all costs. Just the thought of getting on a highway en route to where I have to be is very overwhelming. One time, my roommate asked me to bring him Subway while he was at work and I missed the usual turn I take to his work. The next thing I knew the only other way to his work was on a highway. the entire time I was on the highway for the next three exits I was in a state of panic. hyperventilating, feeling like at any second the car would lose control, and it didn't make it easier for me with it raining. I finally got off the highway and just as I was taking the left at the light and I saw his work, I realized, in my panicked state, I was on the wrong side of the road and there was a blocker preventing me to get back on the right side of the road. I just kept crying and saying out loud, "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" while making sure I was driving as far left as I could so traffic could go around me. Not too much time later I finally made the turn to the parking lot of his work, parked, and cried for another 5 min. and after I thought I was done and got control again, I entered the store to deliver his food. only for him to ask me if I was okay, making me immediately start uncontrollably crying again.
I suffered from true PTSD a few years ago. With treatment and help I’ve over come most of the triggers I had. I’ve had recent traumatic experiences from a narcissistic relationship, and have been diagnosed with c-ptsd. Learning about it is good for me to know how I can move forward. Because the triggers are different and the initial reaction is different
This is the first time I ve been able to do this, I was bullied at school x my home life was chaotic. I used to escape by switching off to have a teacher asking me a question so I would quickly have to work out what wad going on first, it even affected my speech. 56 and still not quite climbed that mountain. Thank you all for sharing x making me realise I m not on my own ❤
i was diagnosed with CPTSD but mine is a lot different then seen in these videos. CPTSD has caused me to.. not really remember my traumatic events. my trauma was over years of suffering and confusion as a kid. i don’t remember ANYTHING as a kid, and if i do it’s things that caused me overwhelming joy. my doctor said this is because my brain is blocking out those memories so i don’t have a chance to remember them and start an episode. so i still have these memories but there all clouded and i can’t remember them at the moment. that is until something exactly like the traumatic thing happened. then i’ll get a flashback. i’ll remember the memory instantly and i’ll start to feel every emotion i did when i was a kid. makes me feel very childish in the moment as they are very kid feelings but they are horrifying to experience. so if you don’t remember literally anything from your childhood it might also be a sign of CPTSD
I feel like I experience both ends of the spectrum, blocked out memories and full on ptsd flashbacks. Thank you for sharing this. You have helped me put out the words I couldn't figure it myself
@@FemboiMuffin thank you for this, i’ll look into it more as that sounds a LOT like me and i might have been misdiagnosed.. i’m definitely curious on this now, i’ll talk to my therapist about it as well!
I’ve been under the impression (after it being mentioned in a few therapy sessions a few years ago) that I suffer from C-PTSD, and this video sorta just put the nail in the coffin to get this checked out. Thank you.
These signs apply just as well to PTSD without the C. The difference between the two is that PTSD is caused by one or few events whereas CPTSD is formed over a longer period, such as over one's childhood.
I feel like I have the worst CPTSD ever; I was adopted as a baby, but my adoptive parents had a terminally ill biological child. When she died (I was 3), my adoptive mother tried to stab me to death in my bed. Seven years later, when my adoptive dad was dying of cancer, she tried to kill me with neglect; I was denied medical care for appendicitis for a week (she insisted it was 'just the flu') and came within 24 hrs of a rupture and possibly dying. After my dad passed, the family on the whole disowned me (I was 11) and my "mother" was free to treat me like a house n-word until I graduated from HS. At that point, I was forced into homelessness despite being enrolled in college; my "mother" and stepfather literally forced me into the car, drove me to a neighbouring state, and abandoned me at the mall. I was 17. I won't get into the decades of abuse (relationships, landlords, roommates, etc) that followed, but suffice it to say that I'm severely damaged from all of this. I currently have a manager, Becks T., who likes to trigger my PTSD and label my reaction as a 'red flag'; I fully suspect that she does this to all BIPOC employees, because there are ONLY WHITE PEOPLE working at this store, and the only other brown person who worked there was bullied into quitting not long after I was hired. "DIversity and inclusion" at Joann's my ass....
#Psych2Go I like this video. I myself have CPTSD from being bullied from Gr. 1 - Gr. 11. Please do a video on trauma and non-epiletic seizures. Not alot of people know about it and I myself suffer from it every once in awhile due to past childhood trauma. I'm sure educating more people about it will raise awareness about it! Thanks for all you do!!
I grew up in Chicago, & was active in the gang madness from 1985-2014, & have seen more friends die than i could even count, had 3 attempts on my life & been shot 7 times, as week as stabbed, i served 17 years in prison, 7 of those in solitary confinement, so I'm pretty much "damage goods" at 49, & trying to reclaim, & fix my life since i been free in 2014, but it's been a struggle, especially being a single father, but I've been taking psilocybin mushrooms over the last month & feel better than ALL THE YEARS of meds & therapy I've had over my life & had a breakthrough yesterday that made me feel so much better, it literally rewires your brain & does wonders for most crippling mental health disorders
i think I developed CPTSD from getting hurt every time I showed any emotion. if you have a crazy bitch mom like mine you know what im talking about. I ran away from home at 19 and found a safe place to live and oh my god. Being in a safe environment meant I was safe to express my emotions and thoughts and it set me back so far because there was just so much to process... Its a truly isolating experience. Thank you for this video, I hope more people grow aware of CPTSD
Ive been in a pretty traumatic and toxic “relationship” and I’m having trouble figuring stuff out. I’m only 12 and I dated this girl for a few months and she ruined me. I’m not even joking, she used to send me pictures of her arms after self-harming, would manipulate me, and so on. It may sound like some typical “kids being kids” stuff, but I’m actually so scared of her. She ruined my life. I’m still going to therapy and I frequently have emotional breakdowns, meltdowns, mental breakdowns, panic and anxiety attacks, flashbacks and now I can’t trust anyone out of fear of them turning out like she did. I’m going to therapy to sort this out and I’m pretty sure it’s getting confirmed I have PTSD, but I’m still not sure if I could say I have it. This video really helps making me feel more valid and understood. Edit: I should add I also avoid things that remind me of her. I stopped loving things I really used to love because of her. I seriously will never forgive or forget what she did.
When I was 12 I went through the same experience (with a best friend tho) and you really put into word the exact outcome of my situation like things I didn't know how to describe and made me realize I should probably unpack it properly. We didn't deserve that I'm so glad you're getting help hang in there!!
@@oceanc5357 Thank you, it’s refreshing to hear someone understands me. I feel really bad a lot of people like us have to go through this. What hurts more is that there’s some CRAZY people out there who will randomly come into your life and ruin it. Careful out there!
im 15 and i havent gone thru similar trauma but i always hate seeing people around my age also go thru super unfair shit when they just deserved alot more. i was 14 when everything happened to me and some of it continued this year and i feel alot of the things you feel too, things have calmed down tho because well i started just being on any drugs i can find 24/7 to not remember or get flashbacks or just to feel normal, i also always avoid remembering all the time too im not saying follow my directions, i want u to just not go the direction i went to cope with my situation, it was mostly emotional abuse from my parents, they found some “stuff” in my room and the way it went down was rlly scary and they kept finding things and literally interrogating me and yelling at me that im a liar and it made me felt like i deserved nothing at all i was also forced into telling them alot of my personal life i only trusted with friends i felt safe with or literally nobody they made my life literally hell for months i had 0 privacy was getting everything looked thru it made me feel literally violated i just wanted to be in a home i felt safe in for so long i would cry on my way back from school bc i would have to see them, i also would get yelled at alot too and before any of this happened it would be no problem but it was alot worse and would be personal alot of the times just saying the worst possible things u can to ur kid, ive tried to make myself numb to forget everything, its been sorta working but it only helps so much i cant stop the flashbacks from happening and the intense emotions i get and physical movements i sometimes involuntarily make but im not proud of myself for what ive done to “help” myself i just wish i coped a different way and didnt make this my lifestyle, im never sober and failing every class, used to be a kid that was passing his classes and happy w goals now im failing, living life on autopilot w 0 goals other than to just be happy and lift others up from horrible places like where i was, im maybe starting to find some peace but its always there no matter how hard i try to erase it from my mind ik you dont know me but i hope the best for you and i hope you the therapy youre going to helps you and helps make you feel normal again i wish i had therapy at any time during what happened to me up until now but but just please remember, stay in therapy and feel with the emotions dont numb yourself with drugs or try to pretend to be okay or happy when youre not itll only lead to your misery
2nd comment lmao but just know i feel u and i rlly understand the stuff ur saying ive had some similar stuff happen to me none of what you said sounds dumb or over exaggerated i always hated feeling like my trauma wasn’t “serious enough” what youve gone thru is rlly hard and im proud of you for being strong and going thru it
Hey, Thanks for bringing up this topic. I'd like to recommend Pete Walker's book about cPTSD. He talks about physical flashbacks that may occur besides emotional flashbacks. Was a huge eye-opener for me!
These would be “somatic flashbacks”. I experience these often… I’ll feel the physical pain or other sensations that occurred during a trauma. If it happens by itself, it’s hard for me to recognize I’m having this type of flashback. If I have an “emotional flashback”, or series of flashbacks in combination with the physical pain or sensations (i.e. somatic flashbacks)…? It’s a BIT easier to recognize I’m having one than without the emotional context.
For years I thought the love of another person could help me to heal but of course that didn't happened. I also have bad luck regarding the love of a partner. I was such a precious child, so sweet and intelligent, I can't wait to die.
I think I have C-PTSD to an extent ... I got out of an abusive relationship last year, after living with the person for 11 years. The abuse went on for 8+ years of the relationship. It was mental, emotional, and sexual abuse. Since I've been free I've had nightmares about my ex. I've done things like play a video game, make an online purchase, make plans to go out somewhere, or talk to a friend online, and could swear I heard my ex yelling at me about it. I live with my brother, and I heard him breathing heavily in the hallway out of breath, and the sound reminded me of my ex and I felt panic mode rising. Different sounds and phrases have triggered brief flashbacks or negative reactions. I yell "Don't touch me!" and pull away from physical contact. I'm borderline sex repulsed. I flinch if someone reaches toward me too quickly. I freak out if someone is behind me or touches me from behind. I jump and even squeal at loud noises because my ex would make loud noises to scare me on purpose. And so many other things that are too much to list here.
i didn't know what type of PTSD i had, until i watched this video! Thanks! I thought it was just uncomplicated PTSD because a lot of people explain it as 'nothing was ever fine' so i thought i didn't have it. i got diagnosed with a medical condition when i was young and had to take many different types of medication, and it RUINED lots of my favourite foods, because i associated the food with the medicine. everyone told me i was just being weak, or that my mind was protecting me. i also had to take lots of IVs and injectable medicines. when i was still on the pills (i got off them a while back, i was so happy) it took me a while to eat them, but then i didn't really think about it. i handled my needles with ease, even bragging about getting it done in under 2 minutes! then, just this year, i tried to inject myself, and i did it wrong, and ended up hurting myself. then, whenever i smelled rubbing alcohol, i started thinking of the pain of the needle, whenever i saw someone eating Nutella or smelled it, i thought and i swore i could taste my pills (they were in nutella for years as that was the only thing with the right consistency) and just a few months ago, someone told me to go see someone to get my handwriting fixed (as my body adapted my writing to something less painful, ie; an almost illegible scribble) and now whenever i look at my handwriting i try to correct it or think of that moment. i just thought i'd share.
Please don’t take any advice from this video as it incorrectly defines both C-PTSD and PTSD. I cannot overstate how inaccurate it is. A simple Google search of “c-ptsd vs ptsd” will yield much more helpful information.
I was verbally abused since I was 8 years old by my mom's boyfriend and it kept me from living life, I cover my ears and cry all the time and I'm scared of making little mistakes like spilling something, my own words scare me from talking to people and all I wish is to be normal.
All my life i never really felt like i knew myself even when i thought i did and this feeling got especially worse around when i was about 13 because i made a huge life changing mistake i can never take back and i’ve been in a spiral since. These videos though make me feel like i can get a little closer to understanding who i am and why i am the way that i am and nothing i say or do can express my gratitude
I didn't even know this was a thing. I always joked about having trauma because I would tell myself, "There's no way I have PTSD. It was just the loss of a loved one. It happens all the time." After this, I considered the factors and how much of my life began to change after that. How much my family began to change. A few months ago, we lost three close family members in the span of about six weeks. Since then I've felt even more numb than before. Now my father is at medical risk but wants to prolong any surgery, and it's been flooding back to me...I can't lose another loved one so soon...
It's also common to not remember trauma, it's amnesia around the traumatic event so that you can still function properly. And it's also common to not remember an event as traumatic, there is no such thing as 'traumatic enough' as everyone's tolerance to trauma is different. You are valid.
I honestly don’t think I have this, but acknowledging the fact that I don’t have active effects after almost makes it feel like my trauma isn’t real and I’m just making it all up and everything was fine.
What a coincidence, I was actually just doing sum curiosity-research on cPTSD and then you guys happened to do a video on it-! I hope to talk to my therapist about these symptoms sometime cuz I happen to have quite a few of them =(
I suffer from ptsd.. and every day does get somewhat better, other days, ill cry.. and lose hope, like today, it was raining when i had a flashback.. i bawled my eyes out.. looks up said "im sorry.." and an unbelievable event occured.. the rain stopped and the sun came out, to anyone suffering, it really will be okay, if you don't think so, i understand, but i Believe in you, keep your head up, please
My dog died a year ago and if a memory pops up I start feeling sad but not always cry. I cry more easily and sometimes I just cry and I don't even know why. And because of you, I started to understand more about myself. Thank you for all of these videos. You are the best and I feel like we will be the bestest friends even on earth. Again, thank you. Love, Hedge-Draw 🦔
I've dealt with C-PTSD for over 40 years. It's important to understand it's a scar. You suffered traumatic injury to your psyche. You heal up, but that scar will always ache sometimes. It's not your fault and it's not a choice. If you experiance symptoms it's not because you didn't deal with it. It means your scars are hurting. Professional help can definitely aid and treat it. You will probably always have symptoms, but you can build a life that is fulfilling and content and holds that pain as what it is...only one part of your life and not the whole.
I have Complex PTSD, and a really helpful book (if you struggle with constantly trying to make sense of what holds you back) is "The Novel Cure". Soooo helpful.
I have CPTSD and disassociative disorder. Caused by childhood abuse, bullying, and domestic abuse. My family victim shamed me, called me toxic, unstable and disowned me. Despite their own behaviour perpetuated the abuse. Others dont comprehend the challenges people with CPTSD have
I found nine of those ten coins. I'm also unsure if I have c-ptsd. Does it count when you were abused for so long and you still have unhealed trauma over it years later?
I suffer from C-PTSD… I lived in an abusive house hold for 5 years of my life. Age 0-5, my first home, I witnessed my mum being beaten up and my dad threatened to push me and my mum of a sixth floor balcony, I still hear Screaming and shouting in my head. I am now 17 years old, I still remember some stuff. Even the scent of my house I can remember. At ages 0-5 I was moved house 8 times. My foster home abused me, they never fed me, they hit me and locked me in dark rooms. I never felt good enough. I learnt to dissociate with the world and pretend it was all a dream at a young age, and now I just naturally do it, without even thinking!! I’m currently writing an autobiography to help adopted children and foster children and give them hope for the future!! I’m currently getting help, and I absolutely love my therapist, but life is still hard. At age 8 I first had thoughts of ending my life, and still from this day I have these thoughts, but not as regularly anymore! I hope anyone who’s reading my comment, gets the help they deserves, and you can do it and I’m proud of you all ❤️
I'm usually fantastic at understanding myself and what's inside of me, but recently I've been talking to a therapist of sorts and discovered something that I waded completely bind to. What I've found so far is that because of an event from my father in my past, apparently my "self-esteem" was completely tossed out the window and replaced with a sort of "others-esteem." To elaborate, while I have a self image, my personality self image has no meaning to me. If I see myself one way, it means nothing so long as there are those who see anything remotely different from what I see. The perception of my self-image is completely dependent on how others view me. Back in my childhood, my dad called me a monster and spread rumors about me because of the way he perceived me. At that time, even though I was suffering, the only thing I considered was how others would feel about me. Nothing about me mattered if everyone thought those rumors were true. My dad's lost his trust in me, and my sister couldn't even look me in the eyes. It was only my mother who stood up for me, and my little brother trusted in me. I've always thought these discussions were fascinating, understanding how the brain works, how it reacts to extreme negative stimulus and how it grows and changes over time. I enjoy getting to learn more about myself and people. I have a couple of these things from the video, (especially dissociation, terribly so) so it's nice to get an understanding of what's happening on the inside. Keep up the good work.
There are so many labels floating around. I tried the therapy route for over 30 years. Just word vomiting what happened in my life over and over. Yes, I learned a few tips to calm myself down when panic starts, but that's it. I felt horrible after each session because it was all brought forth every time. So I'm now doing meditation and using binaural beats and frequencies and only at night using Medical MJ to help sleep. I'm learning to live in the NOW. That WAS my Life, It's not who I am now. My last therapist actually told me " There is nothing else we can do to help you. We will be here to manage your meds, and here if you need us. But, regular visits are not doing you any good." I was stunned.😮 That's when I started to change myself and heal myself with what I mentioned earlier. I hope and pray you all find peace ✌️ ❤.
Last January I fled a malignant narcissist after three and a half years of verbal battering and then, physical abuse. Sleeping with the enemy situation to a T, right down to the boat. We had a boat. We had a beautiful home but it was his and he never let me forget it. He threatened my life and I fled with just a suitcase. Stayed in a rat infested but affordable weekly rental motel for three months desperately searching for my own place just flooded, terrified, a wreck. In May I moved into my home and had to see him again finally to get all of my possessions out and it was hard but I started mending. Yesterday mid October I was driving down my street and there he was. Forty minutes away from his home driving down my street. A side street. I almost drove into another car i was so shocked, watching him disappear into my rear view. I slept three hours last night and tonight it’s already midnight and I’m still not tired…I’ve cleaned my little home for hours just terrified and flooded and appalled and unable to stop moving. Bursting into tears uncontrollably and shaking at times..Tomorrow I call my trauma counselor . This is the face of CPTSD. It’s terrible.
There isnt help for us. We just have to exist with it. The treatment doesnt work. Its horrble. I dont think i can go on any longer. I just want God to come and bring me Home 😮💨😔😪
Unfortunately there are no gods. Primitive superstitions have never solved anything.Look towards nature for help,if you love the natural world It will love you right back.😎
I’ve had PTSD now for 5 years. I feel trapped. I can’t trust anyone, I fear being in a vulnerable position. I hate being touched, being approached too quickly and I’m constantly checking doors and windows/ people around me to try and judge their intentions and behaviours. I’ve mentally given up. 😢
I was in relationship with a man Which I gave everything and from beginning to end always treated him so good, killed my self respect for him He treated me like no one ever did for 3 4 months and then.. He just took all of it all of the love and changed 2 years I took the abuse and always waited for him to change But slowly he kept going worse and worse From getting angry for the mistakes he did and the pain HE gave to me To not comforting me and ignoring my tears and pain To never being sorry for the abuse he did A weak and a half ago I was feeling this feeling of ''why things had to turn this way'' I hugged him and asked him to stay like this in a hug for some time He said okay with no sense of sympathy or anything And asked in such a rude and painful way '' am I supposed to comfort you or something '' And that hit very painful and I started crying I told him can I ask a favor He say hmm I told him '' if you're not willing to change and take responsibility for your actions, if you are not going to behave like you are in a relationship with me just break up with me if you don't love me '' He started blaming me and saying You might have found a new man And flipping the question towards me But I didnT give up I kept asking and asking him the same While he kept hitting hitting me with painful things he kept saying about me Then in the end when he knew his topic changing won't help He said '' if you're begging for a break up so here you go I break up with you '' I loved him too much I knew I won't be able to break up with him no matter what happened While I write this everything just gets reminded to me Of the things in writing in mind, We broke up before this and it took him 3 days to move on from me aT that time But I didn't want it to end so I told him to give this relationship one chanCe and at that time he said he's grateful for me taking the move to fix it And he's grateful for all the times I've fixed it and from now He's going to fix any break up (spoiler : he lied) He lost feelings a very long ago but didn't wanted to accept that We broke up And he moved on without anything It took him 3 months or something to get over this old ex Of what 1 -2 years But he moved on in 1 day of our 3 year old relation He moved on and he always used to get angry whenever I used to tell my best friend while crying the things he used to do to abuse me And he always used to say You always tell your friends about me to make me the bad guy I get ptsd from anything romantic I can't watch anime I can't listen to songs I can't watch movies I can't do basic things in life Everything in life gives me ptsd And it gives me several pain in my chest whenever I get reminded of him or a memory relaTed to our relationship Please help
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Interesting... I always assumed this was how normal ptsd was, but it turns out this is a different version of it. I tend to create characters a lot, and I usually end up added some c-ptsd in there. Not really sure why, it's just something I do I guess. Thanks for this, it's good to know that this isn't how all ptsd is, and that it's a different type of one so I may be able to look more into this and do some research into this :)
I tend to project quite a bit of my trauma onto my created characters as well, it seems fairly common considering how many others I've seen doing the same..? But yeah I agree! Psychology is so complex, which I guess is one of the things that makes it so interesting. You learn something new every day, I suppose =) Hope you have a nice day!!
"It Will Be Ok". That's the phrase hidden away in the vid. Actually, that little mini game might be a pretty good tool to help people who have trouble focusing, or dissociate frequently, stay grounded and focused on the vid! It worked on me, and it looks like it worked on a lot of others too! I don't think I officially have a diagnosis of CPTSD, but I fit the criteria, and I know i've basically lost my whole childhood due to highly neglectful/abusive parents. It was so bad back then that I remember having a plan to remove myself from existence at age 10... I'm glad I never had the heart to follow through with it, and i'm in a much safer place now. Still dealing with a lot of the symptoms and side effects from all of that though.
Ah, yes. An old psych liked to describe trauma as two versions: Truama (big T) and trauma (little t). Trauma: a big singular event that can be easily linked to. A car accident, gunfight, injury, etc. trauma: long series of events that leave you with a general sense of unsafety. Long-term abuse, food insecurity, poverty, harassment, disease, etc. You can also mix and match. CW: mention of abuse follows. I knew someone in their last year of undergrad prepping for med school who got mono, had their phone and wallet stolen, and had an altercation while drunk at a party where a guy kept touching them inappropriately. Any of these could result in PTSD for a person. Given who this person was, i think they would have been fine if these events were spaced out. With it all happening in 6 months, though... they ended up with CPTSD for sure.
My math teacher in 7th grade was horrific. I'm autistic, and can't handle loud noises. Despite being told this almost every day, she would yell and scream at the class because of a few people who didn't do their homework. Because of that, I would cry every day in her class. The worst part is, after I switched math classes, she decided to pull a "prank". She walked into my new class, pretending to be the sub, and threw chairs at the ground to scare us. THE ACTUAL SUBSTITUTE WAS IN ON IT. I had emotional flashbacks and SUDDENLY they cared about how it had affected me. I spent the rest of that day in one of the academic support rooms.
Yeah, and one thing people don't really see or understand is emotional traumatic events. Like, I've been in a near death incident from a crash on snowy roads. Scares the shit out of me to get in a car. But when I was 14, I was forced to go to a group counseling thing in my church to cure me from my 'sinful sexual thoughts'. I had to talk about very private things in public for four years until I was old enough to leave. Though not a single traumatic moment, that has led me to really struggle with anything sexual, and it has caused a lot of problem in my pursuit of a significant other. I feel constantly disgusted by myself, and I blame my parents and my church for that. So yeah, trauma doesn't have to be from a single traumatic incident. It can be from completely destroying your sense of safety and security in any area, your home, your family, your friends. Destroying your sense of security causes trauma, even though to some it may seem like a stupid thing.
Why haven't you taken this down and fixed it after so many folks have told you that the information it contains is incorrect? As someone with both PTSD and C-PTSD, you're conflating PTSD with Acute Stress Disorder and suggesting that all those that have uncomplicated PTSD have C-PTSD, which is incorrect. C-PTSD and PTSD overlap a lot in symptoms and both sustain in duration. The difference is in what caused the traumatic stress, intensity of symptoms, and there are a couple symptoms that tend to indicate C-PTSD (but this is not always a given). For the most part, the symptoms you've described as C-PTSD are just PTSD. Very disappointed to see that you are knowingly spreading false information.
I’m so glad for these videos . For all the unlicensed professionals around me who have never gone to school a day in their life for anything mental health . All the people who try to over ride the doctors diagnosis which was severe PTSD and anxiety …. Everyone around me will try and say I’m a sociopath . Split personalities . You wish . No license un professionals who think anyone cares about your un educated opinions . Learn something . Or can your ignorance not handle truth Or does the actual truth not fit your narrative of lies
Excatly, the accident, the flashbacks, the speed, the crying, dissociation, the sleeping disorders, nightmares, pushing ppl away, taking time to acknowledge my own feelings... Etc
41 year old here. Best I can tell, I've lost ~3.5~ years of my life. They are just gone. I meet people that know me, my personality, my likes, dislikes. But nothing can make me recall them. It is terrible, I manage most of the other symptoms (poorly I'm sure, ha) but just losing time like that is really difficult to manage. I am useless to society, can't hold down a job, can't maintain personal relationships, can't be relied on to show up for anything. I have nothing of value that can be trusted to show up. But I know I do have value, just wish I could find a way to share it.
If you have Complex PTSD you may be particularly likely to experience what some people call an 'emotional flashback', in which you have intense feelings that you originally felt during the trauma, such as fear, shame, sadness, or despair. You might react to events in the present as if they are causing these feelings, without realizing that you are having a flashback.
Usually a similar trigger to the one in the past where you felt those emotions.
Yes! Often I get flashbacks where im so terrified, im scared to keep living, because the uncertain future scares the shit out of me (That's how I felt im the past). Those are moments im afraid i'll harm myself
Other characteristics (there are over sixty and counting probably) of complex trauma:
depression
anxiety
shame (but the shame is false)
sense of guilt (but the that's false, too)
dissociation (when you check out of reality to deal with your past traumas)
paranoia
hyper-vigilant (because you always suffer from a sense of doom and gloom and something's about to happen anytime)
addiction (drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling, what have you)
self-harm
self-sabotage
self-loathing with absolutely zero sense of self-worth, self-esteem, self-respect (because the narcissistic abusers took all that away from you and NEVER made you felt wanted or valued)
anger and rage, lots of rage and many times you end up abusing others.
Childhood abuse, neglect and trauma, when not resolved, totally messes up your adult life because no one ever taught you how to "adult" and lead a healthy, fulfilled life. So f'ing sad.
@@olgakim4848 what do you mean by false in shame and sense of guilt?
@@hsanchezisidora My best guess is that you feel ashamed and guilty, but know that it's false and you have nothing to be ashamed or guilty of. That doesn't stop the feeling, though.
Do you know what's worse? People who leave you because they don't understand or even if they know the reason for your behavior, they leave you because they can't stand your behavior anymore. So you may be working to hide your symptoms and feeling so lonely that no one understands you but yourself.
Knowing how much it hurts my parents to know I'm not okay forces me to hide it all away. I can't tell them, because they'll get worried, they won't understand, and, the worst case of all, they'll just shrug it all off as something simple, "just me being attention-seeking". I just wonder when will that "attention-seeking" will turn into attention-needing.
...at this point I wonder when will it be too late for any kind of attention for the matter...
Don't hide the symptoms. We have to be accepted for who we are, not try and cover up for things we cannot control. A massive part of relationships is communication and understanding. I fell in love with someone that has a few mental health battles. We're learning how to be with each other - how to give support and space when needed. It isn't easy, but it is possible! Good luck xx
I do the opposite, I don't think I have any type of PTSD but as someone who has weird anxiety, I push away my friends because I think my own behavior is annoying and I don't want to be a burden to them -
I have a lot of dissociation around them when we're supposed to be having fun, but I just can't - I'm always on Fight of Flight mode so I just leave instead of just sitting there quietly
This comment kind of reminds me of my bf to be honest. I’ve had the feeling for the past 6 months that he's been avoiding me because first of all, on our last date, he was rushing and lied that his mother was calling him for an emergency. Later on, he was skipping school and always rushing home because he was too busy. Then he comes with the "we need space because I'm not doing well in school" and then his mother calls me to blame me for all his school problems even though I haven't been with him whatsoever. After that, I find out he would leave me voluntarily because supposedly he was the best guy for any job anyone needed and he could never turn down a favor. After graduation, he promised we'd have more time and here I am being the world's most patient woman with a guy who can't even say goodmorning to his soon to be ex girlfriend. You know, I think relationships are just part of a life experience. I'm not sure if I'll get into one in the future. It's all too complicated when one deals with others. I gotta constantly give gifts, pay so much in order to meet a family's expectations, and their's always a problem with the other side of the family. I don't think I'll ever get into relationship drama again. But yeah this comment reminded me of that situation because he's mentioned that he has another side of the story, but he keeps getting exposed either by me or his family members. Other times, he says I don't understand, but I always know what's going on when someone spills it to me. It's like there’s two sides of the story and I've only dated a guy hiding behind a mask to have a good appearance. He didn't want to lose me, but he didn't want to keep me either. Kinda sad really. I hope he finds someone who can be more patient than I am. That's why they're relationships and not marriages
@@dr.thunder1567 i can somewhat relate to you. I don't really have friends, but I do feel as if my behavior is annoying and I try to avoid others because I'm usually labled as an outcast and I'd rather just not hear someone ruin my self esteem by calling me weird. I'd rather stay quiet and only talk when I feel is necessary. I can still make good bonds with others though and have a good laugh if I trust them enough, but my social skills suck overall.
I was diagnosed with CPTSD from "relationship trauma" I had no idea what was happening. One month post escape of the relationship, the symptoms just flooded in all at once! Insomnia, racing thoughts, night terrors, cold sweats, brain fog, panic attacks, anxiety, loud noises, car horns
I have some of this too, an accumulation over years. Hope it gets better for you.
Retroactive jelousy is what haunts me more
I experience car horns all the time, so I feel you there homie.
I am much better today, CPTSD diagnosis was over s year ago and I've treated with therapy, medication and self care. Some symptoms still linger like loud noises, car horns, high anxiety periodically, panic attacks and blank out at times.
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Don’t stop what you do. You’ve made such a huge impact on my life because of this channel
Same
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“IT WILL BE OK.”
…One of these days, I will get this dealt with. Your videos make me understand so much about myself and how badly things really are. If anything the soft tone voice also makes me feel calm in researching and learning mental illnesses.
…sorry if this comment is phasing randomly, I sometimes find it hard to think, but that’s also probably due to the fact I might have ADHD, but yeah.
Actually, Acute Stress Disorder is what you have when you have symptoms within 1 month of the event that go away. Regular PTSD can still bother you years later. It doesn't have to be categorized as C-PTSD. --Clinical Mental Health Counselor
I was thinking that defining ptsd as a one time event the way it was done here sounds false. The way the video portrays this information it makes it sound as it true ptsd almost doesn’t even exist or that it is a short time period of symptoms. That’s simply not true, I know people that have a ptsd diagnoses and have struggled with those symptoms off and on throughout their lives.
That. I'm honestly upset that they single-handedly are "teaching" that ptsd is c-ptsd.
How can they do this ....
Cptsd has as cause repetitive or long trauma. Yes it can have some different symptoms, and it is far more chaotic, as you don't know where the heck which reaction is coming from sometimes. Sometimes you get triggered in two of the traumas simultaneously. Can't continue describing. People can get informed online. Just, sadly, not here, apparently ...
@@memyselfi2005 remember that the people who run this channel are not licensed psychologists. so take what they post with a grain of salt
Yes, this video was hard to listen to because it was not the most accurate. 😂
I recently started getting therapy and made an instant breakthrough when my therapist asked if I experienced any trauma. I never gave much thought to it, but I have PTSD.
I was bullied a lot as a kid. But the worst part was a teacher was bullying me. She was my language arts teacher and I was having a hard time. She didn’t make it better she just kept reprimanding me, even taking me to talk to the principal a few times. I then had to go to tutoring (which I’m just now realizing it was probably considered remedial classes) and the kids made fun of me for it.
My parents had enough and pulled me out before the last couple weeks when I told them what my teacher said. She stood up in front of the class and said, “You all did really well this year. Where *my name* ’s future in language arts is yet to be determined.”
Knowing I have PTSD from my time in that school explains so much now. My anxieties. Making presentations all the way through college (only getting worse each time). My anger when I mess something up. My tendency to go “auto-pilot” when doing things like driving (disassociation). Meeting new people, making new friends and finding a girlfriend. It was only made worse with the lockdowns, I lost all my friends because we lost touch.
All my anxiety, depression, irritability, loneliness, and pain stems from one old bag who is probably dead now. And now I’m 27 trying to treat something I didn’t even know I had since I was 12. It sucks.
The principal told my mom that “A lot of students that had trouble with her came back to thank her.” I’d sh!t on that woman’s grave if I knew where it was. She was awful.
"I’d sh!t on that woman’s grave if I knew where it was." That is funny and just sad.
I had a similar experiences with yours, I get your pain it awful. the treatment that I got was different than the others, I always thought that something is wrong with me, that is why I avoided alot of things because I was too scared to fail, when I remember these stuff I start crying it was horrible. I started talking medicine for anxiety, now I’m a 23 trying to avoid any triggers and a girl who doesn’t know what to do anymore. but on the bright side I found a great recipe for cookies.
A side from that I’m happy that you are trying to fix your self, and furious about that woman and the things she did to you. I hope that you become a great person ( and I think you are :) ) and find a great ppl that will always love you and sport you ^^ .
This sounds identical to my experience except he was a math teacher in hs
So glad I’m not the only one who’s 27 struggling with CPTSD! Except, instead of your teacher being the bully my parents WERE the bullies. Them, and people I met along the way growing up (“friends,” coworkers, bosses, etc.) added more fuel to the fire. It’s sad how the people you expect to take care of you or help you do the opposite, like playing both the ally and enemy at the same time. People suck
I have quite similar experiences from my younger school years when many of the teachers openly despised me for not being as the other kids and one of them even told me I was too wierd to make friends. I have been lonely and feeling inferior to others my entitre life because of that. Something is severely wrong with soceity when school ruins so many people's life and that is a thing not talked about as trauma enough, I think 😭
I was diagnosed with CPTSD almost a year ago. I am a victim of abuse with my dad, sexually assaulted in high school, bullied through most of my school life, had an awful relationship with my ex and discovered a loved one dead. I am still struggling. I still have irregular emotions, flashbacks, hypervilgence, and a slew of other symptoms. Its a terrible thing to deal with. I really hope we raise more awareness of this new disorder. Since I learned how new it is.
Thank you so much for the kind words! Means alot to me. Also glad to be able to show that you are not alone with these internal battles.
I really hope you can get the help you need through trauma psychotherapy (if it is financially feasible) 🙏 good luck in your healing journey ❤️
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So sorry to hear what you have been through… it’s hell on earth battling evil demons that pretend to be humans!! I hope you heal and are able to move forward from your trauma
The awareness is essential, and can seem to be long time coming after one starts investigating. Awareness helps, but then finding ways to recover and heal, part B., can seem elusive and hard to track down.
Bessel van der Kolk's book, The Body Keeps the Score, is one good place to start. The last chapters have documented recovery approaches.
complex ptsd has completely changed my life especially over the last few years. it sucks that there's so little social awareness about it. i was always called a 'psycho' simply for expressing my emotions that i couldn't hold much longer. im only human too and people need to see that; especially when i do things i regret and hurt the people i love. i've gotten very bad social anxiety which only seems to increase. it feels like there's 500 voices in my head telling me what to do with my life and idk where to start. all i know is there's a difference between interests and passions. and life is too short to not follow your passions. at the end of the day we all reach the same fate.
it's just life, it'll be over before we know it
It’s quite hypocritical for folks to say “we’re inclusive” “we’re gonna spread awareness” yet they’ll judge, ignore, and stare at us when we’re going through so much. Plus they’ll try to normalize just to shut us up.
So how are you after 1 year bro
I didn’t know about the dissociation until now!! Nor did I even know I was going thro that with my ptsd!! This is something I’ll definitely be talking about with my trauma therapist when I see her next!! Thx soooo much Psych2go! U’re really changing the world and educating others around the world!! Props to u!! 😊
Ok, sad warning, when you work on dissociation you loose that tool. You can not withdraw for protection. I have developed new tools, but there have been a few traumatic events after therapy that I wish I could forget.
I disassociate so much...my therapist told me to keep pen and paper handy, to track the episodes. I had to stop that because it became terrifying, how much time I "lost." Now when I know I've been in that state, I play detective afterwards, trying to see what I did. "Oh, I ate. Oh, I changed clothes. I wonder why I did that" etc. I also have agoraphobia, in part because it terrifies me to dissociate in public, not knowing where I went, who I spoke to.
I have C-PTSD and though I've mostly recovered from it, there's always that doubt--planted by all the gaslighting and dismissive comments over the years--that my experiences were "all in my head" and that what I think is reality is completely fake/imagined. This video helps so much to confirm my reality that I definitely had/have it. Thank you so much.
Mmm yeah. There’s no cure to this. It can only be managed.
@@americanbookdragon Exactly.
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I'm at start after abuse whole life
I am in the midst of recalling trauma from 37 years ago, at my mother's and maternal grandmother's hands.
They changed my entire personality. One of the most noticeable things was what is deemed "Compulsive Compliance," by Bessel Van der Kolk's book The Body Keeps The Score. I became completely incapable of making my own decisions or of deciding with whom to associate. I could no longer say 'no' without an intense fear of losing someone (even if they were awful people, I still clung to them). I concerned myself only with others' needs, believing that I did not even have needs. I lost the ability to truly feel happiness. I was taught that I was not allowed to be happy, joyful, sad, upset, or anything but serene compliance. I was on the verge of an emotional (angry) outburst at all times.
I am reading through the book and working on publishing a memoir. I feel my story needs to be told.
God's blessings on you all for your recovery work!
Incapable of making decisions...as if my lifetime was never given to me..I never did future,I had no future,incapable of envisioning future, zero personal concept of future .
This hits way too close to home for me. Add on the fact that idk if the person could even function without me and you hit the mark.
It's been like this since I was 6. I'm 30 now. As early as age 9, I used to dissociate so hard I'd forget who I was, while my body fought my classmates for me. By the time I tuned back in mentally, I'd be in the middle of a lecture for something I didn't remember doing wrong.
The most insidious part of c-PTSD is that it affects me even when I'm _not triggered._ My attention span and memory seem to be permanently damaged, and that's cost me every job I've ever tried to work. When I get stressed, I have seizures that I stay conscious for. This means that even when I work 100% as hard as I can, I still screw up all the time. It's obliterated my confidence.
I get self-conscious talking about my past, because there's so many gory details, some people assume I'm making it up. I thought everyone had stories like that. I never thought of my life as uniquely awful, because the good days are _so good_ and I love my friends _so much._ But the fact is, I've seen some shit that a lot of people haven't.
Reading your comment here made me feel as though I was writing my own history. Thank you so much for sharing here! I already feel less alone. I know I don't have much ability to help besides thanking you, but I'll light a candle for you and hope you find some healing and access to care if you haven't been able to yet. 💜
@@taiskye1849 The compassion makes all the difference. I've been venting about this...pretty much everywhere, as I come to terms with it, and it's nice to feel seen and validated.
I hope you get some relief too. If the good is as intense for you as it is for me, I hope we both get the chance to bask in it.
Thank you for sharing
Hi, how are you now? And what is an advice for me to help out my 26 year old girlfriend who is having CPTSD from sexual trauma? Will she ever be okay?
@@austin3347 I wanna emphasize first thing: _financial turmoil_ is the main thing that's hurting me right now. When my family was financially stable, it was much easier to focus on my recovery. It just hurts to fight for my life through years of domestic abuse, _and then_ have to fight my stupid workplaces for a living wage when I thought my life was saved. _Before_ the financial BS...recovery started to feel very manageable. After being abused at 6, I had an abusive relationship when I was 14-16, and I was more or less 'normal' by 23. It's just that becoming homeless at 26 after my stepdad died slam-dunked me back to rock bottom.
Trauma teaches us a lot of false, toxic lessons, such as, "I deserve to be hurt if I talk back." If I try and chart major breakthroughs, it might look something like...
1) Learn that getting punished doesn't fix anything. I used to beg my exes to beat me for making mistakes, and that terrified them because they were good people. Most people aren't sadistic like that, and those who are, are not good people. Nobody's impressed by my ability to take a beating, just saddened and frightened.
2) Learn that there is nothing I can do to 'deserve' abuse. I used to apologize for 'my part' in my fights with my ex. But there's nothing that I can do -- no amount of back-sass, no amount of being cringy or annoying -- to justify what he did to me. Conversely, somebody who mistreats me _absolutely deserves_ to be stopped by self-defense, if necessary.
3) Learn that my worth doesn't come from romantic/sexual relationships. Anyone worth my time loves me for my humanity, not for anything I _do_ for them. I'm not being graded on a pass/fail scale. Also, 'losing my V card' does not diminish my value as a human. Simultaneously...
4) Learn that romantic/sexual engagements can be soft and kind. A good partner will be okay with me stopping, even if we're in the middle of something explicit, and won't be bitter or try to emotionally twist my arm. My safety is more important than any bodily pleasure. I deserve to check in with myself and make sure that I feel safe.
In the course of this lesson, I also found out that I'm asexual, but this also applies generally -- _human relationships_ should be respectful of boundaries and consent, not just in the bedroom.
5) Learn that I was pressuring myself in 5 outta 6 of my relationships. The first one was toxic and abusive as hell, but in all the others, _I was the one who didn't let me say no._ My other 5 exes were, as established, all good people who would've been fine with me saying no, and that's what a relationship should look like.
6) Learn that it's safe to talk to other people. I withdrew hardcore after the abuse. Writing essays in class and posting my thoughts online helped me find my voice, but working customer service _brought me out of my shell._ I realized I can chat with most people without them posing a threat to my safety. When I got my first job, I was so terrified I could scarcely _mouth greetings_ to customers. Over the years, though, I learned how to show interest in other people's lives and get them to open up as much as they're comfortable.
Even now, in the grips of my current crisis, I believe that the majority of people are fundamentally good and civil; the traitors who use and abuse others are a glitch in that matrix. But I had to meet dozens of good people, in order to arrive at that conclusion. A support system is so necessary; it takes a village.
7) Learn that I don't belong to anybody else, and nobody else belongs to me. There is never a point where I 'have to' do what somebody else wants me to, and there's never a point where anybody else does, either. I can save us all a lot of heartache if I ask my loved ones, 'Hey, are you able to help me with x right now?' rather than jumping into their arms assuming they're free to drop everything and care for me right this minute. And that's okay. I want them to be here _because they want to be here,_ rather than because they feel like they have to.
Relatedly, nobody else _can fix me,_ but they can keep me company while I _get fixed._ It's bigger than any one person.
8) Learn how to love myself. I find that it's easier for survivors to love and empathize with other people, than with ourselves. We're intensely self-critical and willing to take mistreatment, but if we see it happen to someone else, we go into protective overdrive.
There's a point where we realize: we are also 'other people' -- I had to imagine seeing a gangly 14 year old British kid who's been beaten to hell, without the lens of self-hatred, and realize how much I would love and care for and protect that kid. Then realize that kid was me, and still is. If I wouldn't tell another survivor that they're stupid or worthless, why would I say it to that child? That would be pointlessly cruel.
My therapist also taught me a coping mechanism to lower stress, called a butterfly hug. The way it works is, you cross your arms over your chest like a mummy. Then with your fingertips, you pet, tap, or scritch at the opposing collarbone, alternating left and right. Because of our brains' weird left-right wiring, this allows a person to give physical affection to themselves in a way that's just as satisfying as affection from another person. This got me thinking about other ways that I can literally show affection to myself, such as stroking my cheek, playing with my own hair/petting my scalp, etc.
This teaches us that we're not helplessly waiting for _another person_ to give us love, but instead have the power to give it to ourselves.
...That's a lengthy list. Let me know if it's helpful lol
I'm sure you know we're all different; some of the toxic lessons I learned might be the same as your girlfriend's, and some of them might be different. Most of these _healing_ lessons are shown, not told; we need a life environment that's safe enough that these things become clear. Just reading it isn't enough.
You're a good person, doing the research and reaching out for some way to help her. I wanna emphasize again: you cannot reach in and fix her. Not even trained professionals can do that. That took me ages to understand. But you can give her a nudge here or there, or stand at her back to keep her steady. Keep her company. Navigate life together. I see this distinction as a hopeful thing. Her life absolutely can get better, especially if she has people like you in her corner.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Yes, dr.porass. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this
Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Yes he is dr.porass.
Can dr.porass send to me in UK?
Absolutely, his offerings extend to global delivery, prioritizing complete confidentiality for individuals valuing their privacy.
hello reader!
I just wanna say..
it's all gonna be ok. I promise..
you're doing so well! and I'm so proud of you..and I love you!
I promise you that everything is gonna be ok. I know I've probably never met you.. but I care about you ok? remember that Im proud of you ok?
- Me 💚
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@@SilverShadow02 ♥️
Thanks Jay.
This video makes me feel like someone understands me. CPTSD is so hard to explain to others and videos like this really help. Thanks for making this.
I was bullied in middle school for 3 years straight and it was an almost daily occurrence that I was bullied. People made fun of me, poked around at me, and generally did as much as they could to make my day miserable. Add the fact I grew up in a household with double standards, my step brother always got away with things, but I would always get worse punishments over things. My parents never helped me talk to the school about the bullying, and constantly told me to just stand up for myself and fight them if I have to. I am not a fighter, I don’t want to hurt anyone, so I just kept telling staff to help me, almost daily. They said they’d help but they never did.
Finally in 7th grade, I got so fed up with anger from being bullied that I said things I didn’t mean, and it got me emergency expelled. My bullies, still continue to get away with everything. I was punished and nobody even cared to hear me, I went to a therapist with my dad for a few months because they school told him to. My bullies then began manipulating my words that day and using them to get school security to search my bag, slander my name, and ruin my life. It never seemed to end, finally in 8th grade, on my last day, I finally snapped and fought my bully, but still afraid of punishment, I stopped because I never wanted to fight. I got punished again, and my bully manipulated the fight against me on social media and made my reputation even worse.
Finally in high school, I was finally rid of my bullying, but then I would be left alone for the entire 4 years. Nobody ever talked to me, listened to me, or cared about me. I had no friends, no girlfriends, no proms, no dances, nothing. I was ostracized for 4 years, and here I am at 21 years old.
My mental health had only worsened since graduating, with no real friends to speak of and no future plans, I began to feel constantly depressed. I sometimes even questioned if the world would be better with me never existing. I had started going to therapy, but i finally had a dissociative episode that caused me to scare my family. My step mom has completely stopped talking to me, and I have had only support in my mental struggles from my older brother and my dad. I found out only 2 days ago that my therapist had diagnosed me with C-PTSD. Honestly, I continue to question why nobody ever helped me, and just let me suffer in school.
I am so sorry for what you went through...my child exactly experienced very similar adversity. Please don't underestimate the role of CBT, DIALECTIC Behavioural therapy and Trauma focused CBT and compassion therapy, exercise and meditation. With the right treatment you will overcome all the symptoms by the time. Indeed,it will take a bit time. Ask your doctor for art clubs and leisure activities....they all involve in fixing the areas of your brain which have been damaged due to the trauma you went through. The good news is you are still under 25 and your brain still develops. 😊😊😊so, if you focus on positive thoughts and forgiveness and regular talk therapies that I recommended you will become much stronger than before. Please don't ignore what I wrote.
The most intense insane for me is the "dissociation".
We went driving to a sea and when we came there to the parking lot, I just couldnt remember any meter of the drive, not a single one.
My wife has C-PTSD and I can confirm that she hits all of these signs... 😭
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you got this! best of luck to you and your wife
Hi, how is she doing right now? My girlfriend has CPTSD as well 😭😭
@@austin3347 When it comes to the C-PTSD, she is doing better every day, but you really have to take every teeny tiny progress as a huge leap forward as it's really difficult for her to see past some of her C-PTSD would make her believe about certain situations.
An example is that while she might instinctively not trust me because I'm a guy, but I'm her husband too, so some times she literally has to re-think how she formulates her sentences because she realizes some prejudice comes in her way before rational thinking.
These moments are worth celebrating 😁
"It will be ok" is the hidden phrase, I hope everyone will be ok and still be happy even after a traumatic event, your happiness can matter to many people
I was diagnosed recently I was physically assaulted by my dentist from the ages of 4-8 and had a hard time going to doctors or dentists because I felt like I couldn’t trust them years later when I was starting my senior year of high school I was shot in a school shooting and I was more scared if the doctors than I was the shooter I was taken to the hospital and rushed into emergency surgery where I suffered from anesthesia awareness I could feel the breathing tube in my throat and the initial stab from the surgeon until I blacked out from pain now I fear so many things and still feel physical pain I’m training to be a nurse but I can’t work in ORs or really anything to do with surgery because the setting brings on the most horrible flashbacks and panic attacks
Be strong brother. U will recover.
Those sound like very traumatic experiences. Brave of you to intend to work in a medical setting. I hope you can start feeling that it is not the setting that is evil/dangerous but acknowledge there is evil and danger in this world, but also good.
Wow, I'm so sorry! I was physically assaulted by both my parents and I know what it feels like to be more fearful of them then the pain from something else.
Does being in hospitals stimulate any fear or anxiety ? You mention that it seem to be OR rooms that make you triggered? And youre studying nursing
@@altruex hospitals are fine but not surgical wards or the sound of ventilators I’m working with my therapists on the ventilators but surgical settings are just too much for me
I have CPTSD and I am afraid of every mental health professional because they didn't believe me that I was abused
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The reframing of abuse as “have you considered they weren’t trying to hurt you?” by-possibly- well-intentioned, but poorly trained, and very uneducated, medical professionals can be absolutely infuriating when experienced by emotionally destroyed and exhausted victims. We are already confused, and going through a process of self blame and shame as it is. Reframing an experience that has been scary, confusing, and harmful as potentially positive just so we can ‘think positively’ to make everyone outside of us feel more comfortable, I guess, isn’t what victims or survivors of abuse need.
Medical professionals contributed to my traumas. I have big problems getting the health care I need because of them. Many medics are abusive. It's awful.
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@@callmekerrigan What you said about making others outside of ourselves comfortable...That resonates with me so much. Very well articulated.
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"It. Will. Be. Ok."
guys stay strong
also I realized that what I thought was traditional PTSD was actually CPTSD oop
we all learn sometimes and thank you to everyone and Psych2Go for spreading awareness and support for so many people.
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Enjoy the summer solstice!
(I smell a pun somewhere but I can't exactly find it)
You are probably correct about what PTSD is. The video has the definition completely wrong, which is upsetting me.
@@theveryfirstlostgirl4593 can you elaborate?
@@btcxwxy I wrote several paragraphs explaining in a direct comment on the vid; if you can’t find it lmk and I’ll copy/paste here
yup!
@@Psych2go Eww, you can´t even correct yourself?
I am 18 yrs old and I tend to have: ✨toughts like,, if you don't touch that tree 5 times, your loved ones are going to die".
✨ I get overwhelmed when I have to talk to adults.☺️
✨I tend to forget what I was talking about when I get even a little stressed.
✨I can't control my emotions when I habe to say how I feel even if it's something good. I explode into crying the moment I open my mouth. And usually I prefer to stay quiet.
✨I'm always stressed that maybe the person who talks with me gets annoyed by me but tries to be nice and that's why they say we are,, best friends" or,, they love me" bcs they pity me
✨I care too much about others, even strangers I don't know but I'm scared that maybe they won't want my help so I get freezed when someone needs help but I'm scared to do it.
❤I never understood why I am like this but I'm trying. My parents really affected me since I was rly rly young till now and they still are the same and I can't get used with them even now bcs they have a way in which you can't just ignore them bcs you are involved as well without doing anything wrong.
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I was a victim of severe bullying and neglect from staff in elementary school (age 9-12), it's a horrible trauma that's prevented me from feeling safe while driving certain routes, taking tests, being near scoops or school busses, and even getting a job. You'd be surprised how many mundane things happen to tie back to those two and a half years of hell. I've bounced from therapist to therapist, and nothing ever seemed to truly work, EMDR therapy is the closest I've gotten to true relief but even then, it can sometimes do more harm than help.
The trauma I've faced has completely uprooted my entire life. It's hard trying to rebuild it; my coping mechanisms have led me to destroying my body and everyday tasks are now incredibly difficult. C-PTSD is a fate I'd never wish upon any innocent soul. To all of my C-PTSD friends out there, stay strong. 💪
I've lost my son's father his 2 cousins a close friend of mines and suffer from domestic abuse also my mother attempted suicide during the pandemic from fear.... I needed to hear this.....I definitely need help and be evaluated....I've been so depressed lately....thanks for sharing I know I'm not alone...peace and love to everyone ❤️🙏🏻🌹
Hey i hope you're doing good!
Reading your comment made me feel really sorry for you and i wish the best 'cause you totally deserves it💗
@@otamatone4741 thank you hunnie peace and love to you 🙏🏻❤️🌹
Glad you’re staying strong up to this day. Wishing you the best and hoping you can find the peace and closure from everything you’re going through 🙏🏾
@@LifeandtimesofJ thank you blessings to you ❤️🙏🏻😌
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I found the hidden phrase! "It will be ok"
I have C-PTSD from narcissistic abuse and I'm trying to learn how to be more compassionate towards myself and acknowledge the impact the abuse has had on me, as well as other trauma related to the pandemic and other triggering things that all happened around the same time, which was right around the same time that I became an adult and was expected to know what to do with my life and be self-sufficient but currently lack the capacity to do because of my current mental/psychological state. I feel like people don't understand how my trauma still lingers or try to cancel my emotions by telling me that I shouldn't be feeling the way I do because my abuser's gone now, or that I'm using my abuser as an excuse to feel or act a certain way
I can relate. I haven't been diagnosed to be fair. I have a lot of difficulty asking for help. Your comment made me feel like I wasn't alone. Thank you.
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I do shrooms to help with my issues as well. Golden teacher is one strain I haven't tried but heard good things about it.
I can relate too
You confused PTSD and CPTSD.
Complex PTSD is not triggered by a car accident. It is caused by repeated cycles of trauma during childhood such as abandonment, neglect, abuse (physical or psychological).
Missed opportunity to explain.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts on this. Your feedback helps us improve our further scripts. If we were to talk about CPTSD in future videos, it might be a better idea to use prolonged childhood trauma as an example in the video. We will keep that in mind.
[EDIT] To clarify, it doesn't HAVE to be since childhood. While repetitive trauma can take its toll on the individual which causes more severe emotional response, any other traumatic experiences can potentially cause these CPTSD symptoms to manifest too.
@@Psych2go The vast majority of CPTSD experiences are from childhood. Indeed the ACES (Adverse Childhood Experiences Survey) is recognised as the premier measures available to the wider public.
@@Psych2go I left 12 years of physical and psychological abuse every day all day for 12 years, I have high level cptsd, I cant even work. Age was 30-42 years old. I never had no problem in my childhood, I was happy child. It is not truth what he say. YOU are right. Trauma can happen at any age.
With the PTSD medication we're on, the flashbacks have lessened since recovering tragic memories last year.
Apparently our childhood was extremely traumatizing and horrifying. Still get flashbacks every 1-2 weeks on average.
We have many disorders and diagnoses that are difficult to live with at times but we're learning, with our therapist, to build a successful life that is worth living.
C-PTSD sucks and you're going to just have bad days where you're just using coping skills to recover from bad flashbacks.
"It will be ok " was the message took me 3xs looking thru the video to find that. I tell myself that more times that I admit to 😅💯
You described how my life is. I live with c-ptsd, form multiple traumatic situations. But I don’t have so much off memory flashbacks, but more of emotional flashbacks. So everyday things can trigger me into the fear, stress and dread feeling I had at the time of some of the trauma happened. And I struggle a lot with sensory triggers and overloads, it can be really hard to be around people sometimes. But even if things are really hard, I try to except myself for needing time to heal, and I know it’s not my fault.
Similar here. My things are fight or flight then toxic shame for about 1.5 weeks. My spirals are long.
I have emotional flashbacks when I show Vulnerable emotions to my parents. It makes me Panic and feel like something is wrong and I don't know why
I constantly am on alert but rarely engage in violent behavior. However, if I'm messed with I'll react the same, whether lover, friend, or family.
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The hidden phrase was “ it will be okay”!
No more trauma 😞
I’m so happy you used car accidents as an example. I’ve been told to just get over for years. It goes away but when you get told “oh I know what that’s like I got rear ended once” yes you had issues. I 100% understand you don’t mean to be insensitive. That day the fear of losing my mother, pets, life, and new home were horrible. Even after the accident, physical and mental issues follow me. Hell typing this im getting back pain. So that rear ending in a car you had, that you fixed in a quick trip to the mechanic is different. Not one is worse, but they are different and so I how everyone handles it. So thank you for doing car accidents and showing what can happen from it. It’s either brushed off or “oh I’ve done that I know what it’s like”
i was diagnosed with CPTSD and decided to see what was in this video...for me personally' every single one of these was spot on and i have them all...
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These videos always make me feel so seen that they make me emotional. I wish people understood. It's been 15 years dealing with this.
We’re talking about mental health a lot more today than we were 40 years ago, but we’re still not doing much of anything to beat it.
My therapist didn't say C-PTSD, but it reminded me of when I was at work. Someone said a guy was looking for me, and my friend said they saw a car that looked like my ex's. I had a mental breakdown. I don't remember crying in the corner in the main office. I felt paranoid. My job sent me home for the day.
this example hit me hard.
I got in my first crash getting on a highway exit and ever since then, I have had to avoid highways at all costs. Just the thought of getting on a highway en route to where I have to be is very overwhelming. One time, my roommate asked me to bring him Subway while he was at work and I missed the usual turn I take to his work. The next thing I knew the only other way to his work was on a highway. the entire time I was on the highway for the next three exits I was in a state of panic. hyperventilating, feeling like at any second the car would lose control, and it didn't make it easier for me with it raining. I finally got off the highway and just as I was taking the left at the light and I saw his work, I realized, in my panicked state, I was on the wrong side of the road and there was a blocker preventing me to get back on the right side of the road. I just kept crying and saying out loud, "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" while making sure I was driving as far left as I could so traffic could go around me.
Not too much time later I finally made the turn to the parking lot of his work, parked, and cried for another 5 min. and after I thought I was done and got control again, I entered the store to deliver his food. only for him to ask me if I was okay, making me immediately start uncontrollably crying again.
I suffered from true PTSD a few years ago. With treatment and help I’ve over come most of the triggers I had. I’ve had recent traumatic experiences from a narcissistic relationship, and have been diagnosed with c-ptsd.
Learning about it is good for me to know how I can move forward. Because the triggers are different and the initial reaction is different
"It will be ok " the phrase 🩵🫶🏻
This is the first time I ve been able to do this, I was bullied at school x my home life was chaotic. I used to escape by switching off to have a teacher asking me a question so I would quickly have to work out what wad going on first, it even affected my speech.
56 and still not quite climbed that mountain.
Thank you all for sharing x making me realise I m not on my own ❤
Thank you for sharing
i was diagnosed with CPTSD but mine is a lot different then seen in these videos. CPTSD has caused me to.. not really remember my traumatic events. my trauma was over years of suffering and confusion as a kid. i don’t remember ANYTHING as a kid, and if i do it’s things that caused me overwhelming joy. my doctor said this is because my brain is blocking out those memories so i don’t have a chance to remember them and start an episode. so i still have these memories but there all clouded and i can’t remember them at the moment. that is until something exactly like the traumatic thing happened. then i’ll get a flashback. i’ll remember the memory instantly and i’ll start to feel every emotion i did when i was a kid. makes me feel very childish in the moment as they are very kid feelings but they are horrifying to experience. so if you don’t remember literally anything from your childhood it might also be a sign of CPTSD
The same happened to me, even tho I slowly started to recall everything! You might have dissociative amnesia :)
I'm going to have to look more into disassociative amnesia. Cause after a certain point I couldn't remember anything about my childhood.
I feel like I experience both ends of the spectrum, blocked out memories and full on ptsd flashbacks. Thank you for sharing this. You have helped me put out the words I couldn't figure it myself
@@FemboiMuffin thank you for this, i’ll look into it more as that sounds a LOT like me and i might have been misdiagnosed.. i’m definitely curious on this now, i’ll talk to my therapist about it as well!
I’ve been under the impression (after it being mentioned in a few therapy sessions a few years ago) that I suffer from C-PTSD, and this video sorta just put the nail in the coffin to get this checked out. Thank you.
These signs apply just as well to PTSD without the C. The difference between the two is that PTSD is caused by one or few events whereas CPTSD is formed over a longer period, such as over one's childhood.
"IT WILL BE OK" thank you for the hidden message
"It will Be ok." - Hidden message
I feel like I have the worst CPTSD ever; I was adopted as a baby, but my adoptive parents had a terminally ill biological child. When she died (I was 3), my adoptive mother tried to stab me to death in my bed. Seven years later, when my adoptive dad was dying of cancer, she tried to kill me with neglect; I was denied medical care for appendicitis for a week (she insisted it was 'just the flu') and came within 24 hrs of a rupture and possibly dying. After my dad passed, the family on the whole disowned me (I was 11) and my "mother" was free to treat me like a house n-word until I graduated from HS. At that point, I was forced into homelessness despite being enrolled in college; my "mother" and stepfather literally forced me into the car, drove me to a neighbouring state, and abandoned me at the mall. I was 17.
I won't get into the decades of abuse (relationships, landlords, roommates, etc) that followed, but suffice it to say that I'm severely damaged from all of this. I currently have a manager, Becks T., who likes to trigger my PTSD and label my reaction as a 'red flag'; I fully suspect that she does this to all BIPOC employees, because there are ONLY WHITE PEOPLE working at this store, and the only other brown person who worked there was bullied into quitting not long after I was hired.
"DIversity and inclusion" at Joann's my ass....
"It Will Be Ok"
#Psych2Go I like this video. I myself have CPTSD from being bullied from Gr. 1 - Gr. 11. Please do a video on trauma and non-epiletic seizures. Not alot of people know about it and I myself suffer from it every once in awhile due to past childhood trauma. I'm sure educating more people about it will raise awareness about it! Thanks for all you do!!
Thank you for sharing
"It will be ok"
😭 I actually spaced out half the video and had to go back to find the hidden message
I grew up in Chicago, & was active in the gang madness from 1985-2014, & have seen more friends die than i could even count, had 3 attempts on my life & been shot 7 times, as week as stabbed, i served 17 years in prison, 7 of those in solitary confinement, so I'm pretty much "damage goods" at 49, & trying to reclaim, & fix my life since i been free in 2014, but it's been a struggle, especially being a single father, but I've been taking psilocybin mushrooms over the last month & feel better than ALL THE YEARS of meds & therapy I've had over my life & had a breakthrough yesterday that made me feel so much better, it literally rewires your brain & does wonders for most crippling mental health disorders
i think I developed CPTSD from getting hurt every time I showed any emotion. if you have a crazy bitch mom like mine you know what im talking about. I ran away from home at 19 and found a safe place to live and oh my god.
Being in a safe environment meant I was safe to express my emotions and thoughts and it set me back so far because there was just so much to process... Its a truly isolating experience. Thank you for this video, I hope more people grow aware of CPTSD
Ive been in a pretty traumatic and toxic “relationship” and I’m having trouble figuring stuff out. I’m only 12 and I dated this girl for a few months and she ruined me. I’m not even joking, she used to send me pictures of her arms after self-harming, would manipulate me, and so on. It may sound like some typical “kids being kids” stuff, but I’m actually so scared of her. She ruined my life. I’m still going to therapy and I frequently have emotional breakdowns, meltdowns, mental breakdowns, panic and anxiety attacks, flashbacks and now I can’t trust anyone out of fear of them turning out like she did. I’m going to therapy to sort this out and I’m pretty sure it’s getting confirmed I have PTSD, but I’m still not sure if I could say I have it. This video really helps making me feel more valid and understood.
Edit: I should add I also avoid things that remind me of her. I stopped loving things I really used to love because of her. I seriously will never forgive or forget what she did.
When I was 12 I went through the same experience (with a best friend tho) and you really put into word the exact outcome of my situation like things I didn't know how to describe and made me realize I should probably unpack it properly. We didn't deserve that I'm so glad you're getting help hang in there!!
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Thank you, it’s refreshing to hear someone understands me. I feel really bad a lot of people like us have to go through this. What hurts more is that there’s some CRAZY people out there who will randomly come into your life and ruin it. Careful out there!
I am wishing you the best of luck stay safe , you will get through this , 💛
im 15 and i havent gone thru similar trauma but i always hate seeing people around my age also go thru super unfair shit when they just deserved alot more. i was 14 when everything happened to me and some of it continued this year and i feel alot of the things you feel too, things have calmed down tho because well i started just being on any drugs i can find 24/7 to not remember or get flashbacks or just to feel normal, i also always avoid remembering all the time too im not saying follow my directions, i want u to just not go the direction i went to cope with my situation, it was mostly emotional abuse from my parents, they found some “stuff” in my room and the way it went down was rlly scary and they kept finding things and literally interrogating me and yelling at me that im a liar and it made me felt like i deserved nothing at all i was also forced into telling them alot of my personal life i only trusted with friends i felt safe with or literally nobody they made my life literally hell for months i had 0 privacy was getting everything looked thru it made me feel literally violated i just wanted to be in a home i felt safe in for so long i would cry on my way back from school bc i would have to see them, i also would get yelled at alot too and before any of this happened it would be no problem but it was alot worse and would be personal alot of the times just saying the worst possible things u can to ur kid, ive tried to make myself numb to forget everything, its been sorta working but it only helps so much i cant stop the flashbacks from happening and the intense emotions i get and physical movements i sometimes involuntarily make but im not proud of myself for what ive done to “help” myself i just wish i coped a different way and didnt make this my lifestyle, im never sober and failing every class, used to be a kid that was passing his classes and happy w goals now im failing, living life on autopilot w 0 goals other than to just be happy and lift others up from horrible places like where i was, im maybe starting to find some peace but its always there no matter how hard i try to erase it from my mind
ik you dont know me but i hope the best for you and i hope you the therapy youre going to helps you and helps make you feel normal again i wish i had therapy at any time during what happened to me up until now but but just please remember, stay in therapy and feel with the emotions dont numb yourself with drugs or try to pretend to be okay or happy when youre not itll only lead to your misery
2nd comment lmao but just know i feel u and i rlly understand the stuff ur saying ive had some similar stuff happen to me none of what you said sounds dumb or over exaggerated i always hated feeling like my trauma wasn’t “serious enough” what youve gone thru is rlly hard and im proud of you for being strong and going thru it
Hey,
Thanks for bringing up this topic.
I'd like to recommend Pete Walker's book about cPTSD. He talks about physical flashbacks that may occur besides emotional flashbacks. Was a huge eye-opener for me!
These would be “somatic flashbacks”. I experience these often… I’ll feel the physical pain or other sensations that occurred during a trauma. If it happens by itself, it’s hard for me to recognize I’m having this type of flashback. If I have an “emotional flashback”, or series of flashbacks in combination with the physical pain or sensations (i.e. somatic flashbacks)…? It’s a BIT easier to recognize I’m having one than without the emotional context.
For years I thought the love of another person could help me to heal but of course that didn't happened. I also have bad luck regarding the love of a partner. I was such a precious child, so sweet and intelligent, I can't wait to die.
I think I have C-PTSD to an extent ... I got out of an abusive relationship last year, after living with the person for 11 years. The abuse went on for 8+ years of the relationship. It was mental, emotional, and sexual abuse. Since I've been free I've had nightmares about my ex. I've done things like play a video game, make an online purchase, make plans to go out somewhere, or talk to a friend online, and could swear I heard my ex yelling at me about it. I live with my brother, and I heard him breathing heavily in the hallway out of breath, and the sound reminded me of my ex and I felt panic mode rising. Different sounds and phrases have triggered brief flashbacks or negative reactions. I yell "Don't touch me!" and pull away from physical contact. I'm borderline sex repulsed. I flinch if someone reaches toward me too quickly. I freak out if someone is behind me or touches me from behind. I jump and even squeal at loud noises because my ex would make loud noises to scare me on purpose. And so many other things that are too much to list here.
i didn't know what type of PTSD i had, until i watched this video! Thanks! I thought it was just uncomplicated PTSD because a lot of people explain it as 'nothing was ever fine' so i thought i didn't have it. i got diagnosed with a medical condition when i was young and had to take many different types of medication, and it RUINED lots of my favourite foods, because i associated the food with the medicine. everyone told me i was just being weak, or that my mind was protecting me. i also had to take lots of IVs and injectable medicines. when i was still on the pills (i got off them a while back, i was so happy) it took me a while to eat them, but then i didn't really think about it. i handled my needles with ease, even bragging about getting it done in under 2 minutes! then, just this year, i tried to inject myself, and i did it wrong, and ended up hurting myself. then, whenever i smelled rubbing alcohol, i started thinking of the pain of the needle, whenever i saw someone eating Nutella or smelled it, i thought and i swore i could taste my pills (they were in nutella for years as that was the only thing with the right consistency) and just a few months ago, someone told me to go see someone to get my handwriting fixed (as my body adapted my writing to something less painful, ie; an almost illegible scribble) and now whenever i look at my handwriting i try to correct it or think of that moment. i just thought i'd share.
Thank you for sharing
wow, thanks for noticing! i thought it'd get swept up in the sea of comments...
Please don’t take any advice from this video as it incorrectly defines both C-PTSD and PTSD. I cannot overstate how inaccurate it is. A simple Google search of “c-ptsd vs ptsd” will yield much more helpful information.
I was verbally abused since I was 8 years old by my mom's boyfriend and it kept me from living life, I cover my ears and cry all the time and I'm scared of making little mistakes like spilling something, my own words scare me from talking to people and all I wish is to be normal.
When I saw the letters spell, "it will be ok," I just... broke down and started to cry.
C has destroyed my life. Pointers there pointers here pointers everywhere.
All my life i never really felt like i knew myself even when i thought i did and this feeling got especially worse around when i was about 13 because i made a huge life changing mistake i can never take back and i’ve been in a spiral since.
These videos though make me feel like i can get a little closer to understanding who i am and why i am the way that i am and nothing i say or do can express my gratitude
I didn't even know this was a thing. I always joked about having trauma because I would tell myself, "There's no way I have PTSD. It was just the loss of a loved one. It happens all the time." After this, I considered the factors and how much of my life began to change after that. How much my family began to change. A few months ago, we lost three close family members in the span of about six weeks. Since then I've felt even more numb than before. Now my father is at medical risk but wants to prolong any surgery, and it's been flooding back to me...I can't lose another loved one so soon...
What is someone has C-PTSD and keeps coming back to the triggers on purpose
If the trigger is a person, then theres probably some attachment issues there, but honestly idk
An emotional masochist
Can traumatic events include conversations? Can you feel traumatized by what someone said to you? Thank you guys for the video
Yes
Maybe if it was some sort of torture interrogation
Of course. Verbal abuse is very real and very detrimental.
Yes! And especially if you’re autistic
you can experience it with words, actions, and people that caused the trauma... thats so sasd
It's also common to not remember trauma, it's amnesia around the traumatic event so that you can still function properly. And it's also common to not remember an event as traumatic, there is no such thing as 'traumatic enough' as everyone's tolerance to trauma is different. You are valid.
I honestly don’t think I have this, but acknowledging the fact that I don’t have active effects after almost makes it feel like my trauma isn’t real and I’m just making it all up and everything was fine.
Just when I feel hope that I'm able to identify with the content creator(s), there's an ad enticing me to click on a coin and play a game. 🤦🏾♀️
What a coincidence, I was actually just doing sum curiosity-research on cPTSD and then you guys happened to do a video on it-! I hope to talk to my therapist about these symptoms sometime cuz I happen to have quite a few of them =(
I suffer from ptsd.. and every day does get somewhat better, other days, ill cry.. and lose hope, like today, it was raining when i had a flashback.. i bawled my eyes out.. looks up said "im sorry.." and an unbelievable event occured.. the rain stopped and the sun came out, to anyone suffering, it really will be okay, if you don't think so, i understand, but i Believe in you, keep your head up, please
My dog died a year ago and if a memory pops up I start feeling sad but not always cry. I cry more easily and sometimes I just cry and I don't even know why. And because of you, I started to understand more about myself. Thank you for all of these videos. You are the best and I feel like we will be the bestest friends even on earth. Again, thank you.
Love, Hedge-Draw 🦔
It will be okay ❤
I've dealt with C-PTSD for over 40 years. It's important to understand it's a scar. You suffered traumatic injury to your psyche. You heal up, but that scar will always ache sometimes. It's not your fault and it's not a choice. If you experiance symptoms it's not because you didn't deal with it. It means your scars are hurting. Professional help can definitely aid and treat it. You will probably always have symptoms, but you can build a life that is fulfilling and content and holds that pain as what it is...only one part of your life and not the whole.
I have C-PTSD.
I have Complex PTSD, and a really helpful book (if you struggle with constantly trying to make sense of what holds you back) is "The Novel Cure". Soooo helpful.
I like this description of CPTSD: The tension of unrelased sorrow after loss of fundamental safety.
I have CPTSD and disassociative disorder. Caused by childhood abuse, bullying, and domestic abuse.
My family victim shamed me, called me toxic, unstable and disowned me. Despite their own behaviour perpetuated the abuse.
Others dont comprehend the challenges people with CPTSD have
The secret phrase was “it will be ok”
It’s a nice phrase:)
I found nine of those ten coins. I'm also unsure if I have c-ptsd. Does it count when you were abused for so long and you still have unhealed trauma over it years later?
yes it does..
I suffer from C-PTSD… I lived in an abusive house hold for 5 years of my life. Age 0-5, my first home, I witnessed my mum being beaten up and my dad threatened to push me and my mum of a sixth floor balcony, I still hear Screaming and shouting in my head. I am now 17 years old, I still remember some stuff. Even the scent of my house I can remember. At ages 0-5 I was moved house 8 times. My foster home abused me, they never fed me, they hit me and locked me in dark rooms. I never felt good enough. I learnt to dissociate with the world and pretend it was all a dream at a young age, and now I just naturally do it, without even thinking!! I’m currently writing an autobiography to help adopted children and foster children and give them hope for the future!! I’m currently getting help, and I absolutely love my therapist, but life is still hard. At age 8 I first had thoughts of ending my life, and still from this day I have these thoughts, but not as regularly anymore! I hope anyone who’s reading my comment, gets the help they deserves, and you can do it and I’m proud of you all ❤️
I'm usually fantastic at understanding myself and what's inside of me, but recently I've been talking to a therapist of sorts and discovered something that I waded completely bind to.
What I've found so far is that because of an event from my father in my past, apparently my "self-esteem" was completely tossed out the window and replaced with a sort of "others-esteem." To elaborate, while I have a self image, my personality self image has no meaning to me. If I see myself one way, it means nothing so long as there are those who see anything remotely different from what I see. The perception of my self-image is completely dependent on how others view me.
Back in my childhood, my dad called me a monster and spread rumors about me because of the way he perceived me. At that time, even though I was suffering, the only thing I considered was how others would feel about me. Nothing about me mattered if everyone thought those rumors were true. My dad's lost his trust in me, and my sister couldn't even look me in the eyes. It was only my mother who stood up for me, and my little brother trusted in me.
I've always thought these discussions were fascinating, understanding how the brain works, how it reacts to extreme negative stimulus and how it grows and changes over time. I enjoy getting to learn more about myself and people. I have a couple of these things from the video, (especially dissociation, terribly so) so it's nice to get an understanding of what's happening on the inside. Keep up the good work.
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There are so many labels floating around. I tried the therapy route for over 30 years. Just word vomiting what happened in my life over and over. Yes, I learned a few tips to calm myself down when panic starts, but that's it. I felt horrible after each session because it was all brought forth every time. So I'm now doing meditation and using binaural beats and frequencies and only at night using Medical MJ to help sleep. I'm learning to live in the NOW. That WAS my Life, It's not who I am now. My last therapist actually told me " There is nothing else we can do to help you. We will be here to manage your meds, and here if you need us. But, regular visits are not doing you any good." I was stunned.😮 That's when I started to change myself and heal myself with what I mentioned earlier. I hope and pray you all find peace ✌️ ❤.
This makes so much sense. I've always wondered why I did this. I feel better having something that actually explains my issues correctly
My bf has DID due to cPTSD... 34 years worth of trauma...
Ive heard CPTSD and did go hand and hand alot if times.
Last January I fled a malignant narcissist after three and a half years of verbal battering and then, physical abuse. Sleeping with the enemy situation to a T, right down to the boat. We had a boat. We had a beautiful home but it was his and he never let me forget it. He threatened my life and I fled with just a suitcase. Stayed in a rat infested but affordable weekly rental motel for three months desperately searching for my own place just flooded, terrified, a wreck. In May I moved into my home and had to see him again finally to get all of my possessions out and it was hard but I started mending. Yesterday mid October I was driving down my street and there he was. Forty minutes away from his home driving down my street. A side street. I almost drove into another car i was so shocked, watching him disappear into my rear view. I slept three hours last night and tonight it’s already midnight and I’m still not tired…I’ve cleaned my little home for hours just terrified and flooded and appalled and unable to stop moving. Bursting into tears uncontrollably and shaking at times..Tomorrow I call my trauma counselor . This is the face of CPTSD. It’s terrible.
There isnt help for us. We just have to exist with it. The treatment doesnt work. Its horrble. I dont think i can go on any longer. I just want God to come and bring me Home 😮💨😔😪
I hear you brother or sister
Same, I want out of here asap. I've asked for help from God and he turns a deaf ear
Unfortunately there are no gods. Primitive superstitions have never solved anything.Look towards nature for help,if you love the natural world It will love you right back.😎
Me 2
I’ve had PTSD now for 5 years. I feel trapped. I can’t trust anyone, I fear being in a vulnerable position. I hate being touched, being approached too quickly and I’m constantly checking doors and windows/ people around me to try and judge their intentions and behaviours. I’ve mentally given up. 😢
I was in relationship with a man
Which I gave everything and from beginning to end always treated him so good, killed my self respect for him
He treated me like no one ever did for 3 4 months and then.. He just took all of it all of the love and changed
2 years I took the abuse and always waited for him to change
But slowly he kept going worse and worse
From getting angry for the mistakes he did and the pain HE gave to me
To not comforting me and ignoring my tears and pain
To never being sorry for the abuse he did
A weak and a half ago I was feeling this feeling of
''why things had to turn this way''
I hugged him and asked him to stay like this in a hug for some time
He said okay with no sense of sympathy or anything
And asked in such a rude and painful way '' am I supposed to comfort you or something ''
And that hit very painful and I started crying
I told him can I ask a favor
He say hmm
I told him
'' if you're not willing to change and take responsibility for your actions, if you are not going to behave like you are in a relationship with me just break up with me if you don't love me ''
He started blaming me and saying
You might have found a new man And flipping the question towards me
But I didnT give up
I kept asking and asking him the same
While he kept hitting hitting me with painful things he kept saying about me
Then in the end when he knew his topic changing won't help
He said '' if you're begging for a break up so here you go I break up with you ''
I loved him too much I knew I won't be able to break up with him no matter what happened
While I write this everything just gets reminded to me
Of the things in writing in mind,
We broke up before this and it took him 3 days to move on from me aT that time
But I didn't want it to end so I told him to give this relationship one chanCe and at that time he said he's grateful for me taking the move to fix it And he's grateful for all the times I've fixed it and from now He's going to fix any break up (spoiler : he lied)
He lost feelings a very long ago but didn't wanted to accept that
We broke up
And he moved on without anything
It took him 3 months or something to get over this old ex Of what 1 -2 years
But he moved on in 1 day of our 3 year old relation
He moved on and he always used to get angry whenever I used to tell my best friend while crying the things he used to do to abuse me
And he always used to say
You always tell your friends about me to make me the bad guy
I get ptsd from anything romantic
I can't watch anime
I can't listen to songs
I can't watch movies
I can't do basic things in life
Everything in life gives me ptsd
And it gives me several pain in my chest whenever I get reminded of him or a memory relaTed to our relationship
Please help
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Interesting... I always assumed this was how normal ptsd was, but it turns out this is a different version of it.
I tend to create characters a lot, and I usually end up added some c-ptsd in there. Not really sure why, it's just something I do I guess.
Thanks for this, it's good to know that this isn't how all ptsd is, and that it's a different type of one so I may be able to look more into this and do some research into this :)
I tend to project quite a bit of my trauma onto my created characters as well, it seems fairly common considering how many others I've seen doing the same..?
But yeah I agree! Psychology is so complex, which I guess is one of the things that makes it so interesting. You learn something new every day, I suppose =)
Hope you have a nice day!!
"It Will Be Ok". That's the phrase hidden away in the vid. Actually, that little mini game might be a pretty good tool to help people who have trouble focusing, or dissociate frequently, stay grounded and focused on the vid! It worked on me, and it looks like it worked on a lot of others too! I don't think I officially have a diagnosis of CPTSD, but I fit the criteria, and I know i've basically lost my whole childhood due to highly neglectful/abusive parents. It was so bad back then that I remember having a plan to remove myself from existence at age 10... I'm glad I never had the heart to follow through with it, and i'm in a much safer place now. Still dealing with a lot of the symptoms and side effects from all of that though.
I have ptsd and it sucks! I can't even tell when I'm going into it. I have serious lapses in time when stressed and that can be dangerous .
Ah, yes. An old psych liked to describe trauma as two versions: Truama (big T) and trauma (little t).
Trauma: a big singular event that can be easily linked to. A car accident, gunfight, injury, etc.
trauma: long series of events that leave you with a general sense of unsafety. Long-term abuse, food insecurity, poverty, harassment, disease, etc.
You can also mix and match. CW: mention of abuse follows. I knew someone in their last year of undergrad prepping for med school who got mono, had their phone and wallet stolen, and had an altercation while drunk at a party where a guy kept touching them inappropriately. Any of these could result in PTSD for a person. Given who this person was, i think they would have been fine if these events were spaced out. With it all happening in 6 months, though... they ended up with CPTSD for sure.
My math teacher in 7th grade was horrific. I'm autistic, and can't handle loud noises. Despite being told this almost every day, she would yell and scream at the class because of a few people who didn't do their homework. Because of that, I would cry every day in her class. The worst part is, after I switched math classes, she decided to pull a "prank". She walked into my new class, pretending to be the sub, and threw chairs at the ground to scare us. THE ACTUAL SUBSTITUTE WAS IN ON IT. I had emotional flashbacks and SUDDENLY they cared about how it had affected me. I spent the rest of that day in one of the academic support rooms.
Yeah, and one thing people don't really see or understand is emotional traumatic events. Like, I've been in a near death incident from a crash on snowy roads. Scares the shit out of me to get in a car. But when I was 14, I was forced to go to a group counseling thing in my church to cure me from my 'sinful sexual thoughts'. I had to talk about very private things in public for four years until I was old enough to leave. Though not a single traumatic moment, that has led me to really struggle with anything sexual, and it has caused a lot of problem in my pursuit of a significant other. I feel constantly disgusted by myself, and I blame my parents and my church for that.
So yeah, trauma doesn't have to be from a single traumatic incident. It can be from completely destroying your sense of safety and security in any area, your home, your family, your friends. Destroying your sense of security causes trauma, even though to some it may seem like a stupid thing.
Why haven't you taken this down and fixed it after so many folks have told you that the information it contains is incorrect? As someone with both PTSD and C-PTSD, you're conflating PTSD with Acute Stress Disorder and suggesting that all those that have uncomplicated PTSD have C-PTSD, which is incorrect. C-PTSD and PTSD overlap a lot in symptoms and both sustain in duration. The difference is in what caused the traumatic stress, intensity of symptoms, and there are a couple symptoms that tend to indicate C-PTSD (but this is not always a given). For the most part, the symptoms you've described as C-PTSD are just PTSD.
Very disappointed to see that you are knowingly spreading false information.
I also have both and the fact that this video is still up is infuriating. I’m at a loss.
I’m so glad for these videos .
For all the unlicensed professionals around me who have never gone to school a day in their life for anything mental health .
All the people who try to over ride the doctors diagnosis which was severe PTSD and anxiety ….
Everyone around me will try and say I’m a sociopath . Split personalities .
You wish . No license un professionals who think anyone cares about your un educated opinions .
Learn something . Or can your ignorance not handle truth
Or does the actual truth not fit your narrative of lies
I have ptsd from homelessness , cancer, my younger days with my mom , she struggled and it hurt me , some sins i have done . learning to be strong
Excatly, the accident, the flashbacks, the speed, the crying, dissociation, the sleeping disorders, nightmares, pushing ppl away, taking time to acknowledge my own feelings... Etc
“I will be ok” is the hidden phrase, and I am planning to have family watch this cuz it explains it so well.
41 year old here. Best I can tell, I've lost ~3.5~ years of my life. They are just gone. I meet people that know me, my personality, my likes, dislikes. But nothing can make me recall them. It is terrible, I manage most of the other symptoms (poorly I'm sure, ha) but just losing time like that is really difficult to manage. I am useless to society, can't hold down a job, can't maintain personal relationships, can't be relied on to show up for anything. I have nothing of value that can be trusted to show up. But I know I do have value, just wish I could find a way to share it.