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Doctors and Veterinarians have some of the highest suicide rates in America. Not sure about the rest of the world but Im sure numbers are similar. Passion fatigue is so real and can seriously fuck up your mental health. Take care of yourself folks
I’ll never forget my nurse who held me as I cried and screamed out when my daughter died. Her embrace in that moment was everything. She sobbed with me. I’m sure she still hears my cries. You could tell she felt the pain with me.
one the very few times I saw my mom cry was when her patient of many years committed suicide. she sobbed on her bed praying for him. I didn’t know what to do. It broke my heart. medical professionals are so strong and deserve so much
@@Cookiedough2365 If God just decided to forgive you for no reason once you've already died there'd be no point in repentance, people like you are the ones who make non believers think the bible makes no sense at all
My dad was a nurse, and one day I noticed he seemed off when he came back from work. Turns out he saw a man lose his life after getting hit by a train. They had found the guys wallet and he had a picture of his kids in there. :(
My neighbors kid committed suicide. The mom was screaming for help outside. I ran to help and kicked the bedroom door in. Got him down and did cpr. I got his heartbeat back but no breathing. Medics showed up and took over. He was in the hospital for a few days and then the family came by and told me he passed away in the hospital. It hurt. It still hurts. 💔
One of my old friends committed suicide. I was so shocked. Even though I haven't seen her in years just the thought that someone you have memories of, laughed with, ate with, cried with and prayed for is no longer on the earth hurts. I cried and prayed to God to please spare my friend from facing eternal condemnation. I still ask myself if I had kept contact with her would I have made a difference?
@@lol-lc8vd people believe what they want to believe, it sucks when doctors don’t get recognition for saving a patient’s life. but we can’t really blame people for thinking somebody who’s been pulling the strings their whole life isn’t the one who saved them. they see it as a mere miracle. god is at their mercy; which is a thought process i really hate. if something good happens they praise god. when something bad happens they say “god’s plan”. - and i’m left there thinking half the time, *“what kind of plan involved giving me crippling anxiety, huh, sharon?”* sorry, kinda went off on a tangent.
@@stevjiro I believe god leaves our lives mainly to us and doesn’t interfere much unless he should.But I do thank god for when I get better.My cousin was dying and his heartbeat stopped.And my aunt prayed and she’s not a Christian she doesn’t believe in god.A couple seconded after my cousin came back and some people will say it’s coincidence but I believe god saved my cousin because the doctors called him dead.I respect what you say but some of it is gods plan but I doubt god would want you to have crippling anxiety.Have a good day and I wish you the best 😄
I have mad respect for everyone who works in the medical field, as well as everyone who responds to 911 calls. You guys deal with a LOT of traumatic things and deserve all the best for the work you do.
@@romoxy That sucks, though they're not first responders they deserve mental health help/treatment/coverage too, a lot of those calls could mess up your mental health for the rest of your life
We just get used to all these things. I remember the first time I saw a patient die, actually he was brought-dead, and it was very hard hitting for me too see a body so pale, he was just lying on the bed, his son was in disbelief and wanted us to “resuscitate” him somehow. I felt REALLY bad. Then I sort of got used-to seeing deaths since there was at least one in the ER every single day.
@@anti_fascist brooo I was going to nurse school and cuz i was late literally every morning i was watching dead patients for a whole month or so but i got used to it
As a young nurse my first death was so sad I started crying. When I asked the consulting neurologist to pronounce patient since he was available in the floor, he noticed I had been crying and he asked me if it was my first death. When I told him it was he gave me a hug and allowed me to cry in his arms. He had this fatherly demeanor. It was a kind gesture.
whenever my dad loses a patient his mood for the whole night shifts. it sucks to watch. he has such a sad demeanor. i respect doctors so much. you guys go through a lot.
I don't even know your dad and i still feel so proud of him because i know the next day when he walk into the hospital and meet his new patient he keeps a smile on that face.
I remember growing up and my dad would come home looking really dejected only to hear that one of his patients passed. He would make friends with them and them passing away bummed him out a lot.
Yes. My dad is technically an airplane mechanic (his actual college degree) who became a doctor. He’d rather be fixing “sick” planes but he became a doctor to end generational history of just barely getting by. He’s intubated more people in the last two years than his first 10 years or so of being a doctor. He acts hard and says pronouncing all these people dead, calling families to let them know prognosis and let them make the decision as patient advocate to withdraw supports. Even in our small county hospital we see this. Will he ever seek counseling? Fuck no. “I’m too busy to try to be happy”. Goddamn immigrant mentality right there. May I one day fill his massive shoes just a fraction as a doctor too. So much love for YOU as a child of a doctor too. People don’t really talk about how kids of doctors experience life, the guilt and feelings of not achieving the same, feeling distant from your parent(s) because their very important job pulls them away from you. Hugs to you, dude.
Yknow you also see different people i these professions, some people take it way too hard, they care too much. Nursing teacher was tell me another nurse had injected a patient with potassium without adding water to it, for those of you that dont know it essentially eats holes in your veins and you internally hemorrhage to death, they later found that nurse in the broom closest after she had commited suicide by the same method.
I'm glad you made the right decision for yourself. I'm a still-new firefighter-EMT, and it is not the job you want if you cannot witness tragedy regularly and manage it. I think about the things I have seen, a lot; but I can also crack up with belly laughter at the stupidest jokes my partners make. Those little moments of unfiltered joy and camaraderie make the job for me. You will find your calling elsewhere, and be successful there. Stay safe
@@TheOutlawMan Thanks for the positivity. Good luck to you. My bro in law is a firefighter/paramedic, it is such a hard job, I have so much respect. You are amazing. Right now I'm helping my brother (a cop) edit a book he wrote of first responder stories surrounding the events of October 1. I love it because I'm able to support first responders but I'm doing my thing I'm good at. I'm excited to help get hero stories out there.
@@pangolin7398 yup. I'd heard so many stories from my first responder family members I thought I'd be okay but I wasn't :/ it hit me so hard, not to say that it doesn't hit first responders hard, I know it hits them hardest of all, but they are tough enough to deal with it, I was not.
Damn, one time when i had testicular torsion the nursers messed up big times with a old guy that was on my right side, he ended up dying and the nurses couldnt give any fucks. Shits wild
@@katincko the nurses probably did but they can't show it in front of the patients. I know a nurse and she told me that they do care and after a while they get kinda use to people dying but they aren't allowed to show it.
@@rubyhayley3118 and to be honest I don't really think that the only reason is that they're not allowed to show it. It could be that nurses think that if they show any emotion, negative emotions it's unprofessional. It sounds absurd that it's unprofessional but some people really think that if doctors and nurses show any negative emotion then they are being unprofessional. (Got this explanation from my mum who is a nurse)
My mother is a doctor and she says the worst things are 1) breaking the news to the family 2) she gets VERY close to her patients and it’s like her children and moving away is so incredibly painful. 3) a patient dying is horrible because all you think is that you could have done better. And 4) when no one visits them. It’s painful to not even see friends there so a lot of doctors usually act like family to them and I find this very sweet. (:
My best friend is a pediatric nurse. After his graduation when he really started working... I remember I asked him one day how his first couple weeks had gone. He just smiled at me and said, "it's been good. But I had my first kid die in front of me..." he paused for a long moment, "honestly, I'm not ok. I spent the whole night crying. I know it wasn't my fault, but that doesn't make it hurt any less." That was a year ago, but I still remember his voice saying it. He's so strong. Nurses, doctors, anyone who does this stuff is so strong. I have the utmost respect for all of you.
Seeing someone die in front of you is traumatic. Especially a kid. I have respect for health workers that go throught that and still continue to help people and be strong. (Of course if you are traumatized you should talk about it with someone and thats okay)
I was going to study to become a nurse and this is exactly why I didn’t go forward with my career. It breaks my heart in pieces seeing people sick, I’m not strong enough to keep it together in situations like that.
Mad respect for your friend and other doctors and nurses. It takes a lot of guts to keep going. I have wanted to be in the medical field before but I can't take things dying. My birds for ONLY 2 months died suddenly and I couldn't handle it. Can't imagine how it would feel to have a real human die in front of you
I'm watching this after giving a 24 shift as an anesthesiologist and the last patient today morning was a 3 days old little guy who needed surgery. I hope he makes it.
@@derekdempsey8506It's not to that person. Jut shut up when you have nothing better to say, really. This is so disresoectful. Nobody should even work for thag long so yeah, it does matter to others
It‘s Not only Doctors, it‘s everyone in the health care system, we do care about who we work with ❤️ No matter the age, the disseases, human or animal.
My mom's a nurse, and it's really sad to hear the stories she tells :/ she was there when COVID first started, and they didn't know what it was. She was the one working on strictly COVID floors for months, seeing people dying from it and wondering if she was next. It was so scary for her and I love how strong she is for getting through it..❤️
People never think about what doctors, nurses, vets, vet techs and all those in that type of field go through. They see people/animals die, people in pain and crying and worse. I had to put my dog down today. Me and my family have had him since 2012 and he was the best thing we could have asked for. We were all crying messes. When they sadated him I held onto his body until he fell asleep. I couldn't leave him. The nurses had to stay there and euthanize him while seeing me and my family crying and hugging him. I could never do something like that for a living without feeling massive pain.
My dog also passed away I can't cry in front of people I just waited til they left and I cried my eyes out he was my child before my human child u know like that dog saved me from hurting myself I was 15 when I got him I'm 29 now
therapists (anyone in that field) too. imagine trying your best to make things better for your patient and they end up killing themselves anyways. that'd be heartbreaking
@@venusflytrap8079 I totally forgot about therapists, thank you. And that is true. They listen to everyone's sad stories that scarred them and they have to deal with lots of horrible things
I’m a vet tech and let me tell you it can be very stressful on a daily bases, I’ve also cried over a couple dogs that I thought were special to me. We have to be professional and not cry in the rooms but once the dogs got brought to the back I cried a lot. If I don’t have much of a connection with the dog then euthanasias won’t bother me. It’s sad to say but I’m very used to helping put animals down. It’s part of the job and most times it’s a very old animal that’s struggling. Unfortunately it’s the circle of life so we have to accept it.
The stories i heard from my dad broke me, and how he kept all those feelings inside him without showing any sign of sadness just broke me even more, respect to all the doctors out there
I think there's no escaping emotions and why even though your dad didn't share them with you it still clearly affected you, I would say this is why we need honesty.
I still remember the first time i saw a patient die, she had been my patient for a few weeks ...she was fighting cancer...after she let out her last breath i ran out the room n cried like my world had crashed... she was a lovely lady and seeing her die wasn't easy for me. Still not something i handle well
You did amazing. Their job in the circle of life was over. You tried your best to extend it. You did your best and don't worry. I'm sure they're doing well in paradise 💜
I don't often cry. I regard being there at the end as an honor. To be one of the last people to talk to and hold the hand of a human before they walk from this life can be beautiful. That they feel comfortable enough to let go with me is lovely. You brought her love in her final days. Be proud of that.
My mom works in a nursing home so whenever a resident passed she'd be off a little that day. Not to long ago she told me that every time someone passed they'd open the windows (no matter the weather) so their souls could be freed. Broke my heart a little.
They also got shifts that can go up to 36 hours in some countries. Usually they get to the hospital when it’s dark outside and get home when it’s dark. :(
@@happynese4819 and it's really sad that in some countries, they don't have a chance to go home, rest, eat, drink or provide themselves any basic necessities
I remember my first patient that passed. I was a wreck I literally had to take a break and collect myself. I cried in front of the family but was professional about it. They told me they never had a medical professional show emotions before. I was like I can’t help it and I will be a s transparent as possible because we are all the same.
@@SuperCoolZomb1e my mother use to study nursing, the worst part for her was seeing kids with horrible injuries most of them cause neglet parents. Was difficult but not imposible
Heres the thing, if you work in the medical field you are told "don't make a connection with a patient" But you are trying to save that person's life how can you not? You as a nurse are literally whipping there ass against how can you not form an attachment
Talk up medical care work. We've recently got a lot of recently graduated high-schoolers interested in the profession. They're making more than I did before I joined them.
My first death was a 75yr old Man, he was CKD in dialysis, had Cardiomyopathy and died on Emergency Room, it was my 3rd day duty. I still remember his name, his face and the stare he gave me. Its been 13yrs, now.
If someone calls the suicide prevention hotline, they're unlikely to commit suicide immediately. The people that should worry you are divorced men over age 40 who have recently lost their job.
I still remember my first “death” .it was about 9 years ago. I remember vividly the exact sequence of that event. Sometimes, i would cry because of that.
I’m so sorry you had to witness that and many others (I assume) I feel like the most heartbreaking death would be when you grow a bond with that patient and they pass, either way it’s still heartbreaking when someone dies, even if you don’t know them. Your very strong
I saw a bunch of patients dying in training. It's sad because some of them had strong personalities and fought till the last days. I will always remember their smiles and the extraordinary lives they had and told me. It's sad I couldn't do anything. I didn't get depressed, I was just sad, but I always think the best way to give them respect, honour and gratitude is to remember them. Sadness leaves, good memories stand.
To every doctor/nurse/vec I just want to say it was not your fault, u did everything you could to save their live, I know u suffering and remember U're a hero, and I'm grateful for having u 💙
I’m a senior firefighter for a volunteer department with 8 years on the job, no matter how well training or educational programs prep you to see things on the job, it cant ever prepare you enough until you live it/experience it (police officers, paramedics, firefighters, military, nurses, doctors,emergency dispatchers, etc… the list is endless with a high stress/high risk work environments). I was one of those people that thought I was ready, that it would never affect me, I have been to so much tragic events that unfortunately resulted in the ending of peoples lives. Some of the worst happened within a 9 month timeframe (horrible vehicle rollover involving kids, a fatal fire, and medical aid request for a patient VSA which was a family friend). There is no worse of a feeling then working on chest compressions for 40 minutes and trying to get a shockable Rhythm for the AED before the pronouncement on time of death on a person that just suffered a heart attack and lead into a cardiac arrest while the family are begging you to save them with fear and true sadness in their facial expressions, then after suffering defeat putting a blanket over the body, someone who was just a bit ago was drinking coffee and joking, laughing with family and playing with their grand daughter, and telling the unfortunate news to the family, and watching their lives tearing apart in front of you, then going to another call resulting in yet another death, it compiles and fills the glass until it spills over. I started have night terrors and scared of sleeping because I was reliving the memories, constantly feeling in danger, avoided people and public spaces, affected work and firefighting, depression, etc… I wanted It to end, to end it all. I felt as if I was getting deeper with no way out. I finally realized I needed help. I was diagnosed with Chronic Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) over the accumulation of the bad calls over a small timeframe. I got the help and I’m back to doing what I do best. What we do here in this world we live in, sadly we will see things and participate in that might have a horrible and unfortunate outcome, unfortunately we can’t change what already has been written. But never loose site on why you do any of these jobs which is you want to save lives and give people a second chance at life, but we are others problem solver’s fixing an issue that someone can’t fix on their own, and to offer that helping hand. You will win some and lose some and it’s okay feel bad/emotional with what we witness, we are human at the end of the day, it’s not a sign of weakness to admit your not okay, it actually has the exact opposite it is a sign of strength that you want to get better, and that you identify that there is an issue to address, sometimes talking goes along way, be okay with not being okay and get the help, that works not just for first responders but for all jobs in the high stress/high risk professions. Sorry for the long message but Seeing this video I’m able to relate. With telling my story, I hope maybe it helps someone someday identify that their not okay and need help or to scared to get help,to look and get that help. I’m tired of seeing the stats of suicide related deaths rapidly increasing number continue to climb it is time we help look out for one another and offer a helping hand to one of our own to flatten this curve, we maybe in positions or different professions but we all took an oath and with that we should stand united together especially though this (first responders, military, nurses, doctors emergency dispatchers, etc..). Just remember we CAN NOT help people if we need help aswell.
I also have C-PTSD (I think it’s called complex PTSD?), which happens when you experience traumatic events frequently throughout a prolonged period of time. Sometimes you finally feel safe, but then another traumatic incident occurs and you feel the same feelings all over again. Once you finally feel safe again, another traumatic experience happens. Over time, this can lead to feelings of constant fear, anxiety, and issues with sleeping (for me it’s nightmares that are so intense I wake up with bruises, having thrashed around in my sleep). Keep your head up, friend. You’re a witness to such intense emotion that it may sneak its way in unexpectedly, and that’s perfectly normal. Keep your head up :)
I’ve never forgotten. What it felt like the first time I did CPR on the OR table. Or the first patient I lost. But I also remember the first one I just knew wasn’t going to make it, yet somehow did.
This is why whenever someone tells me I should become a doctor. I could never handle the pain of losing a patient, and I have so much respect to the doctors who’ve had to go through that pain.
My deepest respect to doctors worldwide: The training, the stress, the depression, seeing someone's life taken in front of you... all of these experiences become routine for doctors when they never should.
The upmost respect for every one in the health field, how you all are holding up through this pandemic, I'm so sorry but thank you so much for all the hard work you do, ❤
This video really speaks the truth. As an EMT student my first time seeing a person die in front of me really left a mark on me mentally for a while. Still keeps me up some nights
Tbh whenever my parents convince me to be a doctor or a nurse, they will always say “to save people’s lives” i often explain to them that it’s a heavy burden to loose someone who you are trying to save. Watching this video just proves it even more, doctors who just lock away their feelings but still knows how to make people around them smile and for themselves they are generally strong.
My parents, especially my mom, wanted me to get into the medical business. Like doctor or nurse. The biggest reason why I oppose their wish is exactly this. I can't even handle the thought of losing a patient. I won't survive being a doctor or a nurse. I even had a massive breakdown whenever I nursed my cat back to health from a minor illness. I used up many reasons to make them not putting me into medical school/major. Even things like "I can't stand the smell of medicine, it made my head hurts so much". Thankfully they agreed to let me choose something else.
@@Nofian-s1g thats good they agree for you to choose another major! Hope you will achieve the dreams and goals ahead!! I hope your cat is doing well too, having parents forced their dreams to their children can really be stressful..
this. My moms a nurse. She raised me as a single mom for a long time, and had me at a young age. i was there for her college graduation, and every other step of her journey to becoming an RN. therefore, I’ve learned how much nurses and other people working in the medical field go through. it absolutely destroys me to see my mom beating herself up over things she tried her hardest to save. one year on her birthday she came home from work crying because a little girl passed and she felt like it was her fault since she couldn’t save her.i honestly just wish people in the medical field were more appreciated. 💞
Men I almost cry after reading this... Your mom is incredible and all nurses and people that works at hospital or 911... Are just amazing people, your mom is a very nice personn keep her close to tou. I wish to you and to her all the best
I would appreciate them more if they listened to my dad instead of reading what should be out of a book. That being said this made me cry and I appreciate their sacrifice. It's hard all around...
We will never be appreciated. We are one person trying to cater to, save, please, bathe, feed, 6 other people who believe they are the most important of the 6. It's impossible.
I felt that, my dad is a cardiologist and my sister is currently studying medecine and i can tell you that it's so much work and pressure to be in the medical field, i think it's time to not take caregivers for granted, they are humans not robots
I remember my first patient who passed away. I can’t remember his name, but I remember his face clear as day, what his eyes looked like. I was terrified. Even 4 years later as a nurse, I’m still a little hurt and heartbroken when a patient dies. Even if I only knew them for 5 minutes
Thank you for making these type of videos... Being in the medical field myself it's hard mentally & emotionally , especially during this pandemic... Please everyone be kind to one another and be patient with the ones working in the medical field you don't know what we have had to deal with that day !!! My depression was at a all time high in 2020 until now so I understand...
♥️❤️ as a nurse, and a scrive the very first time I witnessed death in the hospital… whew…it’s hard 😪😪 It was a father, his daughter was there. I called my daddy immediately after. The next one was a teenage boy. I called my little brother right after too, and my mommy.
This right here is why medical staff hate this pandemic. The normal level of death is hard but now you're treating people who will die from an illness that could have been managed better but there's non medically trained people refusing all measures of protection because it can't possibly be that bad..but it is but people outside of medical staff can see it because people are dying on ventilators and not dropping in the streets. It makes these deaths so much worse. There is no way to manage that kind of frustration.
Correct that it hasn't been "managed" well. A little bit of corruption going on with big daddy government and the medical industrial complex. That's all.
many healthcare workers have developed ptsd from the amount of death they’ve seen. my dad is a nurse and when the pandemic was at its worst, he would come home and breakdown and cry because of the amount of people he’d see die a day. it’s terrible.
@@420chuu Yes. I've seen quite a few of them looking exhausted, defeated, terrified, and yet still keep going. It was a scary time for all of us. It's been a scary time. I just got out of hospital to work in IT. I couldn't do it anymore, especially with the system falling apart.
My mom works in the medical field. One of her patients passed recently and it was so heartbreaking to see her so hurt about it. 😔 Doctors, nurces, CNA's, etc. are always so close to death. Hats off to them for continuing to stay strong and help save lives.
I was in the ER waiting for someone to set my bone back in place, when we heard Code Blue. The nurse who was with me dropped everything and excused herself. I just heard the time of death and someone crying in hysterics. The nurse came back to me and you could see the absolute change and her eyes were glassy. I pray that the first responders that saw too many deaths during this pandemic get the right treatment for their mental health or a shoulder to cry on and to talk to.
I walked in to the ward round today to find some of the nurses and midwives crying. Turns out a patient discharged themselves against medical advice and they were extremely worried about her, but couldn't do anything about it either. It's not just death that affects HCPs, but any unexpected patient outcome. It can be a new diagnosis, a sudden traumatic patient event, or even realizing that there are some patients that can't be helped, no matter how hard you try. Stay safe out there everyone, and if you experience something upsetting, please dont hesitate to talk to someone, and if you're on the other side and see someone struggling, don't be afraid to step up and help them if you can.
We do know them, if even a little. Even with my traumas. I see what they came in with. What was important enough to keep with them. I hear the stories their family tells. By that final time call, we have found a way to humanize a medical record number and they are ours in the end.
The feeling of doing everything you can to save someone's life, but sometimes you just can't help them ... Or the feeling of being unable to help ... I respect doctors so much, thank y'all for spending so much time away from family, helping other's family get better. Though I will never understand, y'all - Are just the best.
I’ve always wanted to be a nurse knowing the happiness I’ll sacrifice for the patients. But it’s what I want to do and I’m ready. I want to make a difference
Man I really expected something else because a lot of social media docs act so chill. This messed me up more than I'd care to admit. Good on you for putting content out there that exposes the mental tolls of these jobs.
Doctors act that way intentionally. In ems school one of the first things they tell you is that you must be able to project calm. Because if you’re freaking out, then your patient and anyone who’s there with you will likely be freaking out too and that will make things much worse. By projecting calm, even if you’re internally freaking out, you’re able to control the situation and keep things from getting worse.
I remember when my father passed away the doctor told us he wouldn't make it and he had to sit and watch me my mom and sister break down in tears. I wonder how many times he had to witness a scene like that.
I can’t wait to go to medical school. To save people. To heal people. To become a hero. But knowing the horrors doctor’s experience, it scares me. Thank you to all the medical professionals out there. You’re true heroes
You can do it! It is indeed hard but don't give up, think about every life you can save. We will always need doctors, nurses and health professionals. And every person you help will be grateful and will remember you.
Just be aware that there will be many people you will not be able to save. Not because the technology or knowledge is lacking, but because they simply don't have the money to pay for it. And there's nothing you can do because the corruption runs very deep throughout the entire medical industry.
@@saiphyart Thank you so much that made my day 😭 I won’t give up! For any people who’s lives I save, even if they don’t remember me, all that matters is that they’re alive.
@@freya9056 I’ve been thinking about this. And I think I’ve come to terms with it. Sometimes there will be people I cannot save, and that’s not my fault. I thinks it’s the people I do save that really matter :)
I’m a Home health I had a patient passed away in my arms . I will never forget what I saw 😢He was so good to me.May he Rest In Peace.He was a very well known judge 👨⚖️
It's to be expected. Some of them see life come into existence. Some see life get taken away. Kudos to our workers in their field for doing their all fo their patients.
I mean, it's totally logical and in my opinion doesn't even need to be normalized cos it's been normal since the beginning. How are you expected to stay sane when you're facing numerous people's pains and deaths, plus the patient's family's slanders? And the fear of making mistakes because even the simplest mistake can ruin someone's life? The pressure is crazy
@@yungdaggerdick6257 So it's normal that doctors are supposed to keep up a perfect straight face for the next patient rather than needing time to deal with the pain of losing the person they were trying to save
It’s gotta be so stressful and burdensome. We just have the conversations and watch the content and have conversations but us here online need to remember they are THERE. I can’t imagine what it must feel like. I know it’s not easy but they’re there. And they still showed up the next day. I know it’s a skit but it’s representing real life. Good for the doctors who persevere!!
I have so much respect for doctors, nurses - really anyone who has to work with dying people everday. My aunt is a nurse and even though she is a bit dramatic sometimes, I've comforted her multiple times about her job. She talks about people dying like it's just normal at this point, and it makes me feel so bad for her. She's cried to me so many times about the stress of it all but at least she's getting better! : )
I've had pneumonia 8 months after my birth, I'm always so grateful of the doctors and nurses saving my life, but also knowing that sometimes they couldn't save people like me, at that age, older or even younger, it's really heartbreaking, so terrible what they go through, what they had to see in order to try and save someone, they work so hard for us and i truly wish the best for them
This made me cry. I can’t even imagine the pressure doctors and nurses are on each and every day. I’m a trainee to become a nurse and these things really make you realize how fragile and significant life really is..
I'm at my last year of high school, and because of my pretty good grades people keep telling to be a doctor. As for me I don't, because I know how hard it is and I know for sure if I couldn't save somebody and he died on my hands I'll have a major break down. So a real respect to all you doctors out there who are still holding on you are truelly amazing ✨
Don’t be a doctor just because you make good grades. Shadow different types of doctors, shadow nurses, shadow in different areas of healthcare. Being a doctor or a nurse is a calling, and a very stressful one at that; you need a better reason than good grades. Also consider your quality of life if you do choose to go into healthcare.
My dad has been a family doctor for over 25 years. Since the pandemic he’s intubated more people in the past two years than his first 10 years as a doctor. He’s seen his LONGTIME patients, HIS patients as their primary care provider for not only them, generations of their family too, die of covid/post-covid related issues. He’s an airplane mechanic at heart. That’s his actual college degree. He wasn’t called to the field like many are, he became a doctor to challenge himself and hope to end generations of barely getting by. He grew up in wartorn now Bangladesh and watched bodies pile up on the streets, his white Canadian Christian missionary family using their privilege to smuggle people, regardless of “side” to safety. He SAYS he’s unaffected by this past and by covid but I see it in his face. I can now tell when my airplane mechanic father who happens to be a doctor has had to pronounce multiple people dead in one day. He acts all hard but he’s not. Even periphery healthcare workers, folks who aren’t technically clinical/licensed, folks who work housekeeping, laundry, maintenance, all that, are affected by their patients dying. They too build relationships. It’s heartbreaking
Doctors nurses CNA paramedics police... all deal with this in different ways it's something they barely even touch on in the medical field in training.
This is why I changed my mind about being in any type of medical field. I love helping people but things like this would weigh on me. I’m already so fragile.
aww, im so sorry for your loss 💙 i cant imagine what you must've felt. my mom watched one of our cats get put down in 2022 and my aunt watched one of hers get put down in 2018. they both said their pupils dilated before they went limp. i know i wouldnt recover from that if i saw that happen to my other cats. i hope you're doing well now
Thank you for being transparent about this. Imagine the doctors, Respiratory Therapist, Nurses ,etc during The beginning of Covid. Losing many patients back to back . Counseling should be a requirement for healthcare workers
Aaaaaaaaand this is the one that finally convinced me to subscribe. Doctors aren't infallible, unshakable, perfect gods. Doctors are people too. We absolutely need to normalize talking about how difficult the profession is on a person's mental and physical health. Without Healthcare professionals our civilization as we know it would very quickly crumble around us. We need to start taking care for our Healthcare staff just as much as they care for us.
I can’t imagine the mental pain a nurse goes through after a patients death. The feeling where u can’t forgive yourself because you feel like you should’ve tried harder to save them and im the moment I can’t even think about the amount of pressure and all your thinking about is keeping your patient Alive and feeling that you could’ve done more is absolutely heartbreaking. For me it’s the fact that both the family and the medical staff are all hurt inside. I pay immense respect to all medical staff❤️❤️ your amazing don’t give up❤❤❤❤
My least favorite is when im coding patients in the ICU with COVID on the night shift, only to have someone at lunch outside the hospital the next day lecture me on how COVID isn’t a big deal.
I’ve spend almost a year living in the hospital practically in and out every other week and the days I’d be out would only be like four days max till I was readmitted again for chronic stomach pain which turned out to be gastroparesis. Anyway in the incredibly long journey I witnessed so many code blues and having neighbours in the next bed die within hours of getting to know them. I was in a spiral of depression sickness and death all around me and it still has an effect on me to this day I think about those people so I cannot imagine being the actual doctor or nurse on the front line actually talking to them and actually living through the trauma of being unsuccessful at saving someone’s life even when there may not have been a chance. I can’t imagine the hurt and realizations of how cruel life can be. Depression is real. Doesn’t matter your title. Depression sucks
Yea. I can imagine how some feel about their experience in seeing dead people in hospitals. It's sad! But it's what life is. God bless all the nurses and doctors.
Fully Vibe with you. Female 20+yrs in Healthcare and 13+yrs Fire Fighter & EMS. Thank you for this and all your videos. On point& correctly depicted for us all.
I was a nurse at 21. I never felt weird when a patient died. Im 38 now, am also an ARNP. Ive seen lot of death in my profession. A good book to read is the 5 stages of death and dying by Elizabeth Kubler Ross (I think thats her name) its very very good 🧡
Sending abundant prayers to all serving in the medical field. I pray hard everyday and give thanks for you and all you do. May you find support inyour times of struggle. 🙏
I'm currently going for my AEMT and my clinical and ride along from last year still bother me I was 18 and had bvmed a dying 60 year-old and witnessed a chest tube being installed in a 23 year-old that shot her self in the chest, Idk what I'm doing with my life and ever since seeing that shit it's kinda put me in a downward spiral ever since.
Help yourself first. Primary rule. Take time off if you can, therapy is included in some medical professions. It doesn't get easier, you just learn that not everything is in your control.
Hi may I ask is this recent? Is it because you were in thinking why did this young person do this? The older persons condition would they have recovered and did you relate to them?
Yeah true but sometimes it hits you later on when you don’t expect it. I’m fine when something happens and might never think about it again or it’ll randomly hit me how fucked it was. Kinda random really.
I used to work in an aged care facility for years where death is expected. You spend time with the residents on their last days and trying to make their life still meaningful. Its really sad when they go. You get desensitised over time. In Palliative Care, plenty of times I have been on their last breath before declaring death and also cleaning up their body before the funeral staff comes.
my dad works as a respiratory therapist for a veterans hospital (and frequents the covid unit since 2019), he’s seen so many healthy people die from covid weekly and i know it eats away at him. before he used to work the vents in er in a college town, saw kids with gunshot wounds and dying from fucked up frat party pranks. medical professionals are single handedly bearing the weight of the world. he gets angry and depressed sometimes and refuses to talk about it, but regardless he’s one of the most empathetic people i know, and he’d do anything to save someone.
I wanted to be a vet because I didn’t care about gore but I cant stand seeing a dead cat because i once found my cat dead in the grass when i was younger so it just reminds me of her :(
Nothing like watching a person pass away. I saw a man get ran over bleed out and pass away. That moment being with a total stranger brought me to clarity of humility. And respecting my fellow sisters and brothers of humanity knowing none of us is different no matter race, religion, nor sexuality. In the end we're all the same and we're all ONE
My ob retired last year. He was a phenomenal doctor, he actually delivered me, my sisters and my son. I had a molar pregnancy years ago that required a DNC. He was really worried about me hemorrhaging and being at risk of dying. He knew that the insurance process would prolong the whole approval process by months and that I could die during the waiting. He told me to go to the er that next day while he was on shift at the hospital and say I was pregnant and bleeding and then he'd be able to do the procedure right away. He saved my life. I was 21 with 2 children. I'll never forget what he did for me. I also have really bad endometriosis and asked him to do a hysterectomy on me, he refused because I was so young and he said it would put me through early menopause and destroy my bones. I'm so grateful to have been a baby that he delivered and eventually a patient that he cared deeply for.
Thank you so much for showing the truth behind medicine I work in clerical for scheduling for a specialty department and scheduling pts rn is difficult. It makes me sad when pts talk about how a Dr doesn't call them back the same day or doesn't meet there demands... I've seen drs who are honestly traumatized and at times cannot speak. Drs have feelings, emotions, health problems and LIVES outside the hospital. Please be kinder and more patient with our drs, nurses and everyone who works in or for medicine. We all play an important role.
Thank you all for the kind words and support. My YT channel is dedicated to showing behind the scenes of being a Doctor. I don’t glamorize medicine. I show you the good, the bad, and the ugly. I also fight for the mental health of all healthcare professionals. If you are vibing with it, hit that subscribe button! And if not, no worries at all, thank you for watching :)
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@@ahmedstudios3680 Society
Doctors and Veterinarians have some of the highest suicide rates in America. Not sure about the rest of the world but Im sure numbers are similar. Passion fatigue is so real and can seriously fuck up your mental health. Take care of yourself folks
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You are not alone. My mom is also a nurse so she saw a lot of people die
I’ll never forget my nurse who held me as I cried and screamed out when my daughter died. Her embrace in that moment was everything. She sobbed with me. I’m sure she still hears my cries. You could tell she felt the pain with me.
Absolutely Kayla. I'm a nurse too, and I can tell you, you'll be remembered by the nurse that held you.
What happened to your daughter
This comment alone made me burst into tears ❤️😭
@@perhapsno261 shortly after birth she passed away, they don’t know why.
@@blacknwhitejuly R.I.P to Your baby 😢 that’s so sad
I wish you get lucky with another baby
one the very few times I saw my mom cry was when her patient of many years committed suicide. she sobbed on her bed praying for him. I didn’t know what to do. It broke my heart. medical professionals are so strong and deserve so much
May God heal his soul and forgive his sins. Your mother is a great warrior ❤
@@Cookiedough2365 If God just decided to forgive you for no reason once you've already died there'd be no point in repentance, people like you are the ones who make non believers think the bible makes no sense at all
😓🤕✨❤SORRY
God bless her that is terrible
May the patient rest in peace
My dad was a nurse, and one day I noticed he seemed off when he came back from work. Turns out he saw a man lose his life after getting hit by a train. They had found the guys wallet and he had a picture of his kids in there. :(
Im so sorry💔
rest in peace so sorry ops
omg that's absolutely heartbreaking
@@mhkp1719 does it matter?
@@mhkp1719i don’t think this is necessary
My neighbors kid committed suicide. The mom was screaming for help outside. I ran to help and kicked the bedroom door in. Got him down and did cpr. I got his heartbeat back but no breathing. Medics showed up and took over. He was in the hospital for a few days and then the family came by and told me he passed away in the hospital. It hurt. It still hurts. 💔
Hugs for you.. big hugs
You did well, I hope you are all doing ok now ❤
I've never sobbed so hard at a comment before. Respect to u man ❤
I’m so sorry to hear this and for all of your loss
One of my old friends committed suicide. I was so shocked. Even though I haven't seen her in years just the thought that someone you have memories of, laughed with, ate with, cried with and prayed for is no longer on the earth hurts. I cried and prayed to God to please spare my friend from facing eternal condemnation. I still ask myself if I had kept contact with her would I have made a difference?
I couldn’t imagine watching someone pass away, knowing you tried everything
but when the patient survived they started thanking god 💀💀
It comes with the territory or sometimes just happens in life.
@@lol-lc8vd people believe what they want to believe, it sucks when doctors don’t get recognition for saving a patient’s life. but we can’t really blame people for thinking somebody who’s been pulling the strings their whole life isn’t the one who saved them. they see it as a mere miracle. god is at their mercy; which is a thought process i really hate. if something good happens they praise god. when something bad happens they say “god’s plan”. - and i’m left there thinking half the time, *“what kind of plan involved giving me crippling anxiety, huh, sharon?”*
sorry, kinda went off on a tangent.
@@stevjiro No no, I agree.
@@stevjiro I believe god leaves our lives mainly to us and doesn’t interfere much unless he should.But I do thank god for when I get better.My cousin was dying and his heartbeat stopped.And my aunt prayed and she’s not a Christian she doesn’t believe in god.A couple seconded after my cousin came back and some people will say it’s coincidence but I believe god saved my cousin because the doctors called him dead.I respect what you say but some of it is gods plan but I doubt god would want you to have crippling anxiety.Have a good day and I wish you the best 😄
I have mad respect for everyone who works in the medical field, as well as everyone who responds to 911 calls. You guys deal with a LOT of traumatic things and deserve all the best for the work you do.
911 operators aren’t considered first responders sadly so they don’t get some of the stuff other first responders get
@@romoxy That sucks, though they're not first responders they deserve mental health help/treatment/coverage too, a lot of those calls could mess up your mental health for the rest of your life
We just get used to all these things. I remember the first time I saw a patient die, actually he was brought-dead, and it was very hard hitting for me too see a body so pale, he was just lying on the bed, his son was in disbelief and wanted us to “resuscitate” him somehow. I felt REALLY bad. Then I sort of got used-to seeing deaths since there was at least one in the ER every single day.
@@anti_fascist brooo
I was going to nurse school and cuz i was late literally every morning i was watching dead patients for a whole month or so but i got used to it
There needs to be mental healthcare for doctors
I never thought about how the doctors would feel when a patient dies 😕
The doctors always ask how you're going, but no one ever asks how the doctor is going.
@@ironmaiden12369 Damn, that hit hard..
Loool that’s one of the reasons I just became a pharmacist. Wanted to be a nurse. But I’m too emotional for it. I don’t handle grief properly
Most likely the death would hit them but overtime working with these things they'd get used to it
@@Alien_From_Another_Universe No, U just get numb
As a young nurse my first death was so sad I started crying. When I asked the consulting neurologist to pronounce patient since he was available in the floor, he noticed I had been crying and he asked me if it was my first death. When I told him it was he gave me a hug and allowed me to cry in his arms. He had this fatherly demeanor. It was a kind gesture.
Yes people die all of time especially in your work environment
whenever my dad loses a patient his mood for the whole night shifts. it sucks to watch. he has such a sad demeanor. i respect doctors so much. you guys go through a lot.
I don't even know your dad and i still feel so proud of him because i know the next day when he walk into the hospital and meet his new patient he keeps a smile on that face.
I remember growing up and my dad would come home looking really dejected only to hear that one of his patients passed. He would make friends with them and them passing away bummed him out a lot.
Yes. My dad is technically an airplane mechanic (his actual college degree) who became a doctor. He’d rather be fixing “sick” planes but he became a doctor to end generational history of just barely getting by. He’s intubated more people in the last two years than his first 10 years or so of being a doctor. He acts hard and says pronouncing all these people dead, calling families to let them know prognosis and let them make the decision as patient advocate to withdraw supports. Even in our small county hospital we see this. Will he ever seek counseling? Fuck no. “I’m too busy to try to be happy”. Goddamn immigrant mentality right there. May I one day fill his massive shoes just a fraction as a doctor too. So much love for YOU as a child of a doctor too. People don’t really talk about how kids of doctors experience life, the guilt and feelings of not achieving the same, feeling distant from your parent(s) because their very important job pulls them away from you. Hugs to you, dude.
Yknow you also see different people i these professions, some people take it way too hard, they care too much. Nursing teacher was tell me another nurse had injected a patient with potassium without adding water to it, for those of you that dont know it essentially eats holes in your veins and you internally hemorrhage to death, they later found that nurse in the broom closest after she had commited suicide by the same method.
@@sm00gzbearomg the profesionals ,it's too hard ohh God
That is crazy
I can't imagine what she must be thinking
Watching someone die is a big part of why I dropped out of EMT school. I couldn't handle it. Respect to healthcare workers .
I'm glad you made the right decision for yourself. I'm a still-new firefighter-EMT, and it is not the job you want if you cannot witness tragedy regularly and manage it. I think about the things I have seen, a lot; but I can also crack up with belly laughter at the stupidest jokes my partners make. Those little moments of unfiltered joy and camaraderie make the job for me. You will find your calling elsewhere, and be successful there. Stay safe
I talked to an EMT when I was laying in an ambulance and he said there were a lot of people that they couldn't save
@@pangolin7398 Yeah, that's just how it is sometimes
@@TheOutlawMan Thanks for the positivity. Good luck to you. My bro in law is a firefighter/paramedic, it is such a hard job, I have so much respect. You are amazing. Right now I'm helping my brother (a cop) edit a book he wrote of first responder stories surrounding the events of October 1. I love it because I'm able to support first responders but I'm doing my thing I'm good at. I'm excited to help get hero stories out there.
@@pangolin7398 yup. I'd heard so many stories from my first responder family members I thought I'd be okay but I wasn't :/ it hit me so hard, not to say that it doesn't hit first responders hard, I know it hits them hardest of all, but they are tough enough to deal with it, I was not.
"I couldnt save them....." i heard a nurse say that while crying when i was in the er because i had a swollen wrist,it broke me
oh my god that’s so sad :(.
Damn, one time when i had testicular torsion the nursers messed up big times with a old guy that was on my right side, he ended up dying and the nurses couldnt give any fucks.
Shits wild
@@katincko omg..are u okay?
@@katincko the nurses probably did but they can't show it in front of the patients. I know a nurse and she told me that they do care and after a while they get kinda use to people dying but they aren't allowed to show it.
@@rubyhayley3118 and to be honest I don't really think that the only reason is that they're not allowed to show it. It could be that nurses think that if they show any emotion, negative emotions it's unprofessional. It sounds absurd that it's unprofessional but some people really think that if doctors and nurses show any negative emotion then they are being unprofessional. (Got this explanation from my mum who is a nurse)
My mother is a doctor and she says the worst things are 1) breaking the news to the family 2) she gets VERY close to her patients and it’s like her children and moving away is so incredibly painful. 3) a patient dying is horrible because all you think is that you could have done better. And 4) when no one visits them. It’s painful to not even see friends there so a lot of doctors usually act like family to them and I find this very sweet. (:
My best friend is a pediatric nurse. After his graduation when he really started working... I remember I asked him one day how his first couple weeks had gone. He just smiled at me and said, "it's been good. But I had my first kid die in front of me..." he paused for a long moment, "honestly, I'm not ok. I spent the whole night crying. I know it wasn't my fault, but that doesn't make it hurt any less." That was a year ago, but I still remember his voice saying it. He's so strong. Nurses, doctors, anyone who does this stuff is so strong. I have the utmost respect for all of you.
Seeing someone die in front of you is traumatic. Especially a kid. I have respect for health workers that go throught that and still continue to help people and be strong. (Of course if you are traumatized you should talk about it with someone and thats okay)
Vet as well
@@twisteddeath8492 yeah, seeing an animal dying must be painful too, especially also seeing the pain of the owners
I was going to study to become a nurse and this is exactly why I didn’t go forward with my career. It breaks my heart in pieces seeing people sick, I’m not strong enough to keep it together in situations like that.
Mad respect for your friend and other doctors and nurses. It takes a lot of guts to keep going. I have wanted to be in the medical field before but I can't take things dying. My birds for ONLY 2 months died suddenly and I couldn't handle it. Can't imagine how it would feel to have a real human die in front of you
I'm watching this after giving a 24 shift as an anesthesiologist and the last patient today morning was a 3 days old little guy who needed surgery. I hope he makes it.
Did he?
did he...? also how long did it take you to become one?
@@derekdempsey8506It's not to that person. Jut shut up when you have nothing better to say, really. This is so disresoectful. Nobody should even work for thag long so yeah, it does matter to others
@_._._.Nobody._._._ arnt you great a faceless coward....
@@derekdempsey8506 I explained why it isn't unnecessary. If you have nothing better to argue with than insulting me, I guess I'm in the right
It‘s Not only Doctors, it‘s everyone in the health care system, we do care about who we work with ❤️
No matter the age, the disseases, human or animal.
Yes, an animal
A female to be exact
My dentist was really sad when I didn’t floss sams thing
@@thevrguy5016 lmao
@@thevrguy5016 lmfao, this made my day
My mom's a nurse, and it's really sad to hear the stories she tells :/ she was there when COVID first started, and they didn't know what it was. She was the one working on strictly COVID floors for months, seeing people dying from it and wondering if she was next. It was so scary for her and I love how strong she is for getting through it..❤️
People never think about what doctors, nurses, vets, vet techs and all those in that type of field go through. They see people/animals die, people in pain and crying and worse. I had to put my dog down today. Me and my family have had him since 2012 and he was the best thing we could have asked for. We were all crying messes. When they sadated him I held onto his body until he fell asleep. I couldn't leave him. The nurses had to stay there and euthanize him while seeing me and my family crying and hugging him. I could never do something like that for a living without feeling massive pain.
My dog also passed away I can't cry in front of people I just waited til they left and I cried my eyes out he was my child before my human child u know like that dog saved me from hurting myself I was 15 when I got him I'm 29 now
therapists (anyone in that field) too. imagine trying your best to make things better for your patient and they end up killing themselves anyways. that'd be heartbreaking
@@venusflytrap8079 I totally forgot about therapists, thank you. And that is true. They listen to everyone's sad stories that scarred them and they have to deal with lots of horrible things
@@nikkiboza4237 out world really doesn't deserve such good animals like dogs/cats/e.t.c
I’m a vet tech and let me tell you it can be very stressful on a daily bases, I’ve also cried over a couple dogs that I thought were special to me. We have to be professional and not cry in the rooms but once the dogs got brought to the back I cried a lot. If I don’t have much of a connection with the dog then euthanasias won’t bother me. It’s sad to say but I’m very used to helping put animals down. It’s part of the job and most times it’s a very old animal that’s struggling. Unfortunately it’s the circle of life so we have to accept it.
The stories i heard from my dad broke me, and how he kept all those feelings inside him without showing any sign of sadness just broke me even more, respect to all the doctors out there
I think there's no escaping emotions and why even though your dad didn't share them with you it still clearly affected you, I would say this is why we need honesty.
@@Dan47702 Yeah, emotions should be allowed to be expressed, at least enough so that their charge doesn't build up during suppression.
@@letsdomath1750 but can you explain it with math? Only joking that'd be crazy! I like how you put that though!
You can lose your license and certs if your seen or labeled as mentally unstable or unwell. That's why they keep it in
I still remember the first time i saw a patient die, she had been my patient for a few weeks ...she was fighting cancer...after she let out her last breath i ran out the room n cried like my world had crashed... she was a lovely lady and seeing her die wasn't easy for me. Still not something i handle well
Just know you did a great job and just like you.. she's sharing her story of knowing you and how lovely you are with the angels💙💚💜
You did amazing. Their job in the circle of life was over. You tried your best to extend it. You did your best and don't worry. I'm sure they're doing well in paradise 💜
Just know that she’s so grateful to have had a great person like you in their life. Hope you’re doing okay🌼💚
Damn I almost cried reading that bc I know I’m am not the one here that have a family member fighting with cancer too. Hard to read that
I don't often cry. I regard being there at the end as an honor. To be one of the last people to talk to and hold the hand of a human before they walk from this life can be beautiful. That they feel comfortable enough to let go with me is lovely.
You brought her love in her final days. Be proud of that.
My mom works in a nursing home so whenever a resident passed she'd be off a little that day. Not to long ago she told me that every time someone passed they'd open the windows (no matter the weather) so their souls could be freed. Broke my heart a little.
This is why I have mad respect for our doctors, nurses, and vets I can’t imagine what they have to go through everyday
They also got shifts that can go up to 36 hours in some countries. Usually they get to the hospital when it’s dark outside and get home when it’s dark. :(
@@happynese4819 and it's really sad that in some countries, they don't have a chance to go home, rest, eat, drink or provide themselves any basic necessities
I remember my first patient that passed. I was a wreck I literally had to take a break and collect myself. I cried in front of the family but was professional about it. They told me they never had a medical professional show emotions before. I was like I can’t help it and I will be a s transparent as possible because we are all the same.
Oh god I’m planning to work in a children’s hospital so I’m not looking forward to that part of it
@@SuperCoolZomb1e same but after this it seems so intense
@@SuperCoolZomb1e my mother use to study nursing, the worst part for her was seeing kids with horrible injuries most of them cause neglet parents. Was difficult but not imposible
Heres the thing, if you work in the medical field you are told "don't make a connection with a patient"
But you are trying to save that person's life how can you not?
You as a nurse are literally whipping there ass against how can you not form an attachment
God bless those that sacrifice their selves in the pursuit of helping others. ❤
Talk up medical care work. We've recently got a lot of recently graduated high-schoolers interested in the profession. They're making more than I did before I joined them.
🙏🏻🤍
My first death was a 75yr old Man, he was CKD in dialysis, had Cardiomyopathy and died on Emergency Room, it was my 3rd day duty.
I still remember his name, his face and the stare he gave me.
Its been 13yrs, now.
Dude after this I can't even imagine what the people on the other end of the suicide prevention hotline are dealing with
If someone calls the suicide prevention hotline, they're unlikely to commit suicide immediately. The people that should worry you are divorced men over age 40 who have recently lost their job.
@@CharliMorganMusic yeah definitely
@@CharliMorganMusic why?
@@dimplebear6939 Because if a man has no bitch and he ain’t getting the bread. He feels likes hes bringing no value.
i agree. i hope they’re getting help too. it seems like a job that would weigh on someone.
I still remember my first “death” .it was about 9 years ago. I remember vividly the exact sequence of that event. Sometimes, i would cry because of that.
I’m so sorry you had to witness that and many others (I assume) I feel like the most heartbreaking death would be when you grow a bond with that patient and they pass, either way it’s still heartbreaking when someone dies, even if you don’t know them. Your very strong
I nearly witnessed one of my good friends get killed. Luckily i was there to save his life...
I wish you peace, it's extremely difficult to witness this, doesn't matter if it's part of the job you can never be trained on someone's passing.
@@shyryTsr2k what happened to him??
U got me curious
Sending love and support! Thank you for what you do
I saw a bunch of patients dying in training. It's sad because some of them had strong personalities and fought till the last days. I will always remember their smiles and the extraordinary lives they had and told me. It's sad I couldn't do anything. I didn't get depressed, I was just sad, but I always think the best way to give them respect, honour and gratitude is to remember them.
Sadness leaves, good memories stand.
To every doctor/nurse/vec I just want to say it was not your fault, u did everything you could to save their live, I know u suffering and remember U're a hero, and I'm grateful for having u 💙
I’m a senior firefighter for a volunteer department with 8 years on the job, no matter how well training or educational programs prep you to see things on the job, it cant ever prepare you enough until you live it/experience it (police officers, paramedics, firefighters, military, nurses, doctors,emergency dispatchers, etc… the list is endless with a high stress/high risk work environments). I was one of those people that thought I was ready, that it would never affect me, I have been to so much tragic events that unfortunately resulted in the ending of peoples lives. Some of the worst happened within a 9 month timeframe (horrible vehicle rollover involving kids, a fatal fire, and medical aid request for a patient VSA which was a family friend). There is no worse of a feeling then working on chest compressions for 40 minutes and trying to get a shockable Rhythm for the AED before the pronouncement on time of death on a person that just suffered a heart attack and lead into a cardiac arrest while the family are begging you to save them with fear and true sadness in their facial expressions, then after suffering defeat putting a blanket over the body, someone who was just a bit ago was drinking coffee and joking, laughing with family and playing with their grand daughter, and telling the unfortunate news to the family, and watching their lives tearing apart in front of you, then going to another call resulting in yet another death, it compiles and fills the glass until it spills over. I started have night terrors and scared of sleeping because I was reliving the memories, constantly feeling in danger, avoided people and public spaces, affected work and firefighting, depression, etc… I wanted
It to end, to end it all. I felt as if I was getting deeper with no way out. I finally realized I needed help. I was diagnosed with Chronic Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) over the accumulation of the bad calls over a small timeframe. I got the help and I’m back to doing what I do best.
What we do here in this world we live in, sadly we will see things and participate in that might have a horrible and unfortunate outcome, unfortunately we can’t change what already has been written. But never loose site on why you do any of these jobs which is you want to save lives and give people a second chance at life, but we are others problem solver’s fixing an issue that someone can’t fix on their own, and to offer that helping hand. You will win some and lose some and it’s okay feel bad/emotional with what we witness, we are human at the end of the day, it’s not a sign of weakness to admit your not okay, it actually has the exact opposite it is a sign of strength that you want to get better, and that you identify that there is an issue to address, sometimes talking goes along way, be okay with not being okay and get the help, that works not just for first responders but for all jobs in the high stress/high risk professions.
Sorry for the long message but Seeing this video I’m able to relate. With telling my story, I hope maybe it helps someone someday identify that their not okay and need help or to scared to get help,to look and get that help. I’m tired of seeing the stats of suicide related deaths rapidly increasing number continue to climb it is time we help look out for one another and offer a helping hand to one of our own to flatten this curve, we maybe in positions or different professions but we all took an oath and with that we should stand united together especially though this (first responders, military, nurses, doctors emergency dispatchers, etc..). Just remember we CAN NOT help people if we need help aswell.
Damn. Worth the read
I also have C-PTSD (I think it’s called complex PTSD?), which happens when you experience traumatic events frequently throughout a prolonged period of time. Sometimes you finally feel safe, but then another traumatic incident occurs and you feel the same feelings all over again. Once you finally feel safe again, another traumatic experience happens. Over time, this can lead to feelings of constant fear, anxiety, and issues with sleeping (for me it’s nightmares that are so intense I wake up with bruises, having thrashed around in my sleep). Keep your head up, friend. You’re a witness to such intense emotion that it may sneak its way in unexpectedly, and that’s perfectly normal. Keep your head up :)
Highly appreciated!!!
Thank you for taking the time to write this. I hope you're doing well. Take care, stay safe and strong!
I’ve never forgotten. What it felt like the first time I did CPR on the OR table. Or the first patient I lost. But I also remember the first one I just knew wasn’t going to make it, yet somehow did.
This is why whenever someone tells me I should become a doctor. I could never handle the pain of losing a patient, and I have so much respect to the doctors who’ve had to go through that pain.
My deepest respect to doctors worldwide: The training, the stress, the depression, seeing someone's life taken in front of you... all of these experiences become routine for doctors when they never should.
I can see this 100% accurate.
My mom is a nurse and has patients dying and always comes home in a sad mood, it’s a sad job for her and I feel bad.
The upmost respect for every one in the health field, how you all are holding up through this pandemic, I'm so sorry but thank you so much for all the hard work you do, ❤
"A doctor goes through more than death"
I have major respect for doctors, firemen, paramedics and cna
This video really speaks the truth. As an EMT student my first time seeing a person die in front of me really left a mark on me mentally for a while. Still keeps me up some nights
Tbh whenever my parents convince me to be a doctor or a nurse, they will always say “to save people’s lives” i often explain to them that it’s a heavy burden to loose someone who you are trying to save. Watching this video just proves it even more, doctors who just lock away their feelings but still knows how to make people around them smile and for themselves they are generally strong.
My parents, especially my mom, wanted me to get into the medical business. Like doctor or nurse. The biggest reason why I oppose their wish is exactly this. I can't even handle the thought of losing a patient. I won't survive being a doctor or a nurse. I even had a massive breakdown whenever I nursed my cat back to health from a minor illness.
I used up many reasons to make them not putting me into medical school/major. Even things like "I can't stand the smell of medicine, it made my head hurts so much".
Thankfully they agreed to let me choose something else.
@@Nofian-s1g thats good they agree for you to choose another major! Hope you will achieve the dreams and goals ahead!! I hope your cat is doing well too, having parents forced their dreams to their children can really be stressful..
this. My moms a nurse. She raised me as a single mom for a long time, and had me at a young age. i was there for her college graduation, and every other step of her journey to becoming an RN. therefore, I’ve learned how much nurses and other people working in the medical field go through. it absolutely destroys me to see my mom beating herself up over things she tried her hardest to save. one year on her birthday she came home from work crying because a little girl passed and she felt like it was her fault since she couldn’t save her.i honestly just wish people in the medical field were more appreciated. 💞
your mom is amazing, truly. i hope you’re both doing okay. i’m sending y’all sm love and hugs. stay safe guys
Men I almost cry after reading this... Your mom is incredible and all nurses and people that works at hospital or 911... Are just amazing people, your mom is a very nice personn keep her close to tou. I wish to you and to her all the best
I would appreciate them more if they listened to my dad instead of reading what should be out of a book. That being said this made me cry and I appreciate their sacrifice. It's hard all around...
We will never be appreciated. We are one person trying to cater to, save, please, bathe, feed, 6 other people who believe they are the most important of the 6. It's impossible.
Fatherless child
I felt that, my dad is a cardiologist and my sister is currently studying medecine and i can tell you that it's so much work and pressure to be in the medical field, i think it's time to not take caregivers for granted, they are humans not robots
I remember my first patient who passed away. I can’t remember his name, but I remember his face clear as day, what his eyes looked like. I was terrified. Even 4 years later as a nurse, I’m still a little hurt and heartbroken when a patient dies. Even if I only knew them for 5 minutes
Thank you for making these type of videos... Being in the medical field myself it's hard mentally & emotionally , especially during this pandemic... Please everyone be kind to one another and be patient with the ones working in the medical field you don't know what we have had to deal with that day !!! My depression was at a all time high in 2020 until now so I understand...
I can’t imagine it but it’s great to know you really care for your patients.
♥️❤️ as a nurse, and a scrive the very first time I witnessed death in the hospital… whew…it’s hard 😪😪
It was a father, his daughter was there. I called my daddy immediately after. The next one was a teenage boy. I called my little brother right after too, and my mommy.
This right here is why medical staff hate this pandemic. The normal level of death is hard but now you're treating people who will die from an illness that could have been managed better but there's non medically trained people refusing all measures of protection because it can't possibly be that bad..but it is but people outside of medical staff can see it because people are dying on ventilators and not dropping in the streets. It makes these deaths so much worse. There is no way to manage that kind of frustration.
SCREAM THIS FOR EVERYONE TO HEAR. Please. You nailed it.
Correct that it hasn't been "managed" well. A little bit of corruption going on with big daddy government and the medical industrial complex. That's all.
many healthcare workers have developed ptsd from the amount of death they’ve seen. my dad is a nurse and when the pandemic was at its worst, he would come home and breakdown and cry because of the amount of people he’d see die a day. it’s terrible.
@@420chuu Yes. I've seen quite a few of them looking exhausted, defeated, terrified, and yet still keep going.
It was a scary time for all of us. It's been a scary time. I just got out of hospital to work in IT. I couldn't do it anymore, especially with the system falling apart.
Real experience here th-cam.com/video/4G6e4TaJxkI/w-d-xo.html
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My mom works in the medical field. One of her patients passed recently and it was so heartbreaking to see her so hurt about it. 😔 Doctors, nurces, CNA's, etc. are always so close to death. Hats off to them for continuing to stay strong and help save lives.
I was in the ER waiting for someone to set my bone back in place, when we heard Code Blue. The nurse who was with me dropped everything and excused herself. I just heard the time of death and someone crying in hysterics. The nurse came back to me and you could see the absolute change and her eyes were glassy. I pray that the first responders that saw too many deaths during this pandemic get the right treatment for their mental health or a shoulder to cry on and to talk to.
I walked in to the ward round today to find some of the nurses and midwives crying. Turns out a patient discharged themselves against medical advice and they were extremely worried about her, but couldn't do anything about it either. It's not just death that affects HCPs, but any unexpected patient outcome. It can be a new diagnosis, a sudden traumatic patient event, or even realizing that there are some patients that can't be helped, no matter how hard you try. Stay safe out there everyone, and if you experience something upsetting, please dont hesitate to talk to someone, and if you're on the other side and see someone struggling, don't be afraid to step up and help them if you can.
My mom is a medical nurse and she gets very sad when someone dies cause it’s heartbreaking even if u don’t know them😢😭
We do know them, if even a little. Even with my traumas. I see what they came in with. What was important enough to keep with them. I hear the stories their family tells. By that final time call, we have found a way to humanize a medical record number and they are ours in the end.
My soft heart could never bear anyone in pain. Thank you doctors, nurses and all the behind the scene teams . We are grateful.
The feeling of doing everything you can to save someone's life, but sometimes you just can't help them ... Or the feeling of being unable to help ... I respect doctors so much, thank y'all for spending so much time away from family, helping other's family get better. Though I will never understand, y'all - Are just the best.
I’ve always wanted to be a nurse knowing the happiness I’ll sacrifice for the patients. But it’s what I want to do and I’m ready. I want to make a difference
Man I really expected something else because a lot of social media docs act so chill. This messed me up more than I'd care to admit. Good on you for putting content out there that exposes the mental tolls of these jobs.
Doctors act that way intentionally. In ems school one of the first things they tell you is that you must be able to project calm. Because if you’re freaking out, then your patient and anyone who’s there with you will likely be freaking out too and that will make things much worse. By projecting calm, even if you’re internally freaking out, you’re able to control the situation and keep things from getting worse.
I remember when my father passed away the doctor told us he wouldn't make it and he had to sit and watch me my mom and sister break down in tears. I wonder how many times he had to witness a scene like that.
Aww i hope your father is happy up there in heaven!
I can’t wait to go to medical school. To save people. To heal people. To become a hero. But knowing the horrors doctor’s experience, it scares me. Thank you to all the medical professionals out there. You’re true heroes
You can do it! It is indeed hard but don't give up, think about every life you can save. We will always need doctors, nurses and health professionals. And every person you help will be grateful and will remember you.
Just be aware that there will be many people you will not be able to save. Not because the technology or knowledge is lacking, but because they simply don't have the money to pay for it. And there's nothing you can do because the corruption runs very deep throughout the entire medical industry.
@@saiphyart Thank you so much that made my day 😭
I won’t give up!
For any people who’s lives I save, even if they don’t remember me, all that matters is that they’re alive.
@@freya9056 I’ve been thinking about this. And I think I’ve come to terms with it.
Sometimes there will be people I cannot save, and that’s not my fault.
I thinks it’s the people I do save that really matter :)
to all doctors or medical professionals everyone is so grateful for you, you support the entire world
I really don’t know how they are handling these episodes, so depressing 😔
I’m a Home health I had a patient passed away in my arms . I will never forget what I saw 😢He was so good to me.May he Rest In Peace.He was a very well known judge 👨⚖️
It's to be expected. Some of them see life come into existence. Some see life get taken away. Kudos to our workers in their field for doing their all fo their patients.
I mean, it's totally logical and in my opinion doesn't even need to be normalized cos it's been normal since the beginning. How are you expected to stay sane when you're facing numerous people's pains and deaths, plus the patient's family's slanders? And the fear of making mistakes because even the simplest mistake can ruin someone's life? The pressure is crazy
They are not talking about the feelings being normalized but normalizing talking about those feelings.
If you gotta normalize it,
It ain’t normal
@@yungdaggerdick6257 So it's normal that doctors are supposed to keep up a perfect straight face for the next patient rather than needing time to deal with the pain of losing the person they were trying to save
@@Katlove687 yes it’s their job to do exactly that
Real experience here th-cam.com/video/4G6e4TaJxkI/w-d-xo.html
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It’s gotta be so stressful and burdensome. We just have the conversations and watch the content and have conversations but us here online need to remember they are THERE. I can’t imagine what it must feel like. I know it’s not easy but they’re there. And they still showed up the next day. I know it’s a skit but it’s representing real life. Good for the doctors who persevere!!
I have so much respect for doctors, nurses - really anyone who has to work with dying people everday. My aunt is a nurse and even though she is a bit dramatic sometimes, I've comforted her multiple times about her job. She talks about people dying like it's just normal at this point, and it makes me feel so bad for her.
She's cried to me so many times about the stress of it all but at least she's getting better! : )
I've had pneumonia 8 months after my birth, I'm always so grateful of the doctors and nurses saving my life, but also knowing that sometimes they couldn't save people like me, at that age, older or even younger, it's really heartbreaking, so terrible what they go through, what they had to see in order to try and save someone, they work so hard for us and i truly wish the best for them
This made me cry. I can’t even imagine the pressure doctors and nurses are on each and every day. I’m a trainee to become a nurse and these things really make you realize how fragile and significant life really is..
I'm at my last year of high school, and because of my pretty good grades people keep telling to be a doctor. As for me I don't, because I know how hard it is and I know for sure if I couldn't save somebody and he died on my hands I'll have a major break down. So a real respect to all you doctors out there who are still holding on you are truelly amazing ✨
Don’t be a doctor just because you make good grades. Shadow different types of doctors, shadow nurses, shadow in different areas of healthcare. Being a doctor or a nurse is a calling, and a very stressful one at that; you need a better reason than good grades. Also consider your quality of life if you do choose to go into healthcare.
Never in a million years would I have thought about this…… makes me feel a lot different about doctors……..
My dad has been a family doctor for over 25 years. Since the pandemic he’s intubated more people in the past two years than his first 10 years as a doctor. He’s seen his LONGTIME patients, HIS patients as their primary care provider for not only them, generations of their family too, die of covid/post-covid related issues. He’s an airplane mechanic at heart. That’s his actual college degree. He wasn’t called to the field like many are, he became a doctor to challenge himself and hope to end generations of barely getting by. He grew up in wartorn now Bangladesh and watched bodies pile up on the streets, his white Canadian Christian missionary family using their privilege to smuggle people, regardless of “side” to safety. He SAYS he’s unaffected by this past and by covid but I see it in his face. I can now tell when my airplane mechanic father who happens to be a doctor has had to pronounce multiple people dead in one day. He acts all hard but he’s not.
Even periphery healthcare workers, folks who aren’t technically clinical/licensed, folks who work housekeeping, laundry, maintenance, all that, are affected by their patients dying. They too build relationships. It’s heartbreaking
Doctors nurses CNA paramedics police... all deal with this in different ways it's something they barely even touch on in the medical field in training.
lmfao!!!
aw. i never even thought of what doctors would experience, this must hurt :(
They are human too
A complete stranger possible pedophile dies: doctors let’s pray
This is why I changed my mind about being in any type of medical field. I love helping people but things like this would weigh on me. I’m already so fragile.
Anyone who works at hospitals,i just wanted to thank you for what you do for us!! You try your best and without you we wouldnt be alive
Our doctor cried with us, when we disconnected my sister. He said he hated to see such a young person suffer so much and lose her life.
I just watched my cat pass away the other day, it was so heartbreaking his eyes were open and his tongue sticking out. I'll never forget it.
aww, im so sorry for your loss 💙
i cant imagine what you must've felt. my mom watched one of our cats get put down in 2022 and my aunt watched one of hers get put down in 2018. they both said their pupils dilated before they went limp. i know i wouldnt recover from that if i saw that happen to my other cats. i hope you're doing well now
Thank you for being transparent about this. Imagine the doctors, Respiratory Therapist, Nurses ,etc during The beginning of Covid. Losing many patients back to back . Counseling should be a requirement for healthcare workers
She needs a hug❤
I’m not even in the med field, but I’ve witnessed someone die infront of me and it left me in shock for a few days..
Aaaaaaaaand this is the one that finally convinced me to subscribe.
Doctors aren't infallible, unshakable, perfect gods. Doctors are people too.
We absolutely need to normalize talking about how difficult the profession is on a person's mental and physical health.
Without Healthcare professionals our civilization as we know it would very quickly crumble around us. We need to start taking care for our Healthcare staff just as much as they care for us.
My mom once told me that she still remembers her first time seeing a patient passing away. It’s been more than 20 years but she still remembers.
I can’t imagine the mental pain a nurse goes through after a patients death. The feeling where u can’t forgive yourself because you feel like you should’ve tried harder to save them and im the moment I can’t even think about the amount of pressure and all your thinking about is keeping your patient Alive and feeling that you could’ve done more is absolutely heartbreaking. For me it’s the fact that both the family and the medical staff are all hurt inside. I pay immense respect to all medical staff❤️❤️ your amazing don’t give up❤❤❤❤
I was 5 and it was my sister.
It takes time to adjust.
Soo sad and true doctors are people too 😭
My least favorite is when im coding patients in the ICU with COVID on the night shift, only to have someone at lunch outside the hospital the next day lecture me on how COVID isn’t a big deal.
This ❤. Wow! I have so much love for this video. Thank you for making awareness! thank you so very much, it’s incredibly important!
I’ve spend almost a year living in the hospital practically in and out every other week and the days I’d be out would only be like four days max till I was readmitted again for chronic stomach pain which turned out to be gastroparesis. Anyway in the incredibly long journey I witnessed so many code blues and having neighbours in the next bed die within hours of getting to know them. I was in a spiral of depression sickness and death all around me and it still has an effect on me to this day I think about those people so I cannot imagine being the actual doctor or nurse on the front line actually talking to them and actually living through the trauma of being unsuccessful at saving someone’s life even when there may not have been a chance. I can’t imagine the hurt and realizations of how cruel life can be. Depression is real. Doesn’t matter your title. Depression sucks
OMG my mom is a docter and now I know how it feels when letting someone down.
Thankyou mom and all the other docters including both of you
Yea. I can imagine how some feel about their experience in seeing dead people in hospitals. It's sad! But it's what life is. God bless all the nurses and doctors.
Fully Vibe with you. Female 20+yrs in Healthcare and 13+yrs Fire Fighter & EMS. Thank you for this and all your videos. On point& correctly depicted for us all.
I was a nurse at 21. I never felt weird when a patient died. Im 38 now, am also an ARNP. Ive seen lot of death in my profession. A good book to read is the 5 stages of death and dying by Elizabeth Kubler Ross (I think thats her name) its very very good 🧡
Never sad?
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Sure but never enough to question my career.
They are Human, no surprise just respect.
I literally just witnessed my first patient death yesterday in our office. This video hit deep 🥺
Sending abundant prayers to all serving in the medical field. I pray hard everyday and give thanks for you and all you do. May you find support inyour times of struggle. 🙏
Doctors do so much for us, you can always talk about how you are feeling. There is nothing wrong about it
I'm currently going for my AEMT and my clinical and ride along from last year still bother me I was 18 and had bvmed a dying 60 year-old and witnessed a chest tube being installed in a 23 year-old that shot her self in the chest, Idk what I'm doing with my life and ever since seeing that shit it's kinda put me in a downward spiral ever since.
Help yourself first. Primary rule. Take time off if you can, therapy is included in some medical professions.
It doesn't get easier, you just learn that not everything is in your control.
Hi may I ask is this recent? Is it because you were in thinking why did this young person do this? The older persons condition would they have recovered and did you relate to them?
Makes me feel better to see people trying to help in the comments. Thank you for responding, you guys, whether Ian does or not.
I’m so sorry
Really inspirational
You guys are truly Hero’s. Thank you for all that you do an all that you’ve been through these past couple years.
I can't even imagine how hard it is for doctors and nurses...I guess I never really thought about it🥺
This fades away once you've put some years in and seen/been through the exact same situation time and time again. Desensitization is a helluva thing.
Yeah true but sometimes it hits you later on when you don’t expect it. I’m fine when something happens and might never think about it again or it’ll randomly hit me how fucked it was. Kinda random really.
I used to work in an aged care facility for years where death is expected. You spend time with the residents on their last days and trying to make their life still meaningful. Its really sad when they go. You get desensitised over time. In Palliative Care, plenty of times I have been on their last breath before declaring death and also cleaning up their body before the funeral staff comes.
my dad works as a respiratory therapist for a veterans hospital (and frequents the covid unit since 2019), he’s seen so many healthy people die from covid weekly and i know it eats away at him. before he used to work the vents in er in a college town, saw kids with gunshot wounds and dying from fucked up frat party pranks. medical professionals are single handedly bearing the weight of the world. he gets angry and depressed sometimes and refuses to talk about it, but regardless he’s one of the most empathetic people i know, and he’d do anything to save someone.
I appreciate how you touch on mental illness and help other by speaking up 💚
I wanted to be a vet because I didn’t care about gore but I cant stand seeing a dead cat because i once found my cat dead in the grass when i was younger so it just reminds me of her :(
Nothing like watching a person pass away. I saw a man get ran over bleed out and pass away. That moment being with a total stranger brought me to clarity of humility. And respecting my fellow sisters and brothers of humanity knowing none of us is different no matter race, religion, nor sexuality. In the end we're all the same and we're all ONE
My ob retired last year. He was a phenomenal doctor, he actually delivered me, my sisters and my son. I had a molar pregnancy years ago that required a DNC. He was really worried about me hemorrhaging and being at risk of dying. He knew that the insurance process would prolong the whole approval process by months and that I could die during the waiting. He told me to go to the er that next day while he was on shift at the hospital and say I was pregnant and bleeding and then he'd be able to do the procedure right away. He saved my life. I was 21 with 2 children. I'll never forget what he did for me. I also have really bad endometriosis and asked him to do a hysterectomy on me, he refused because I was so young and he said it would put me through early menopause and destroy my bones. I'm so grateful to have been a baby that he delivered and eventually a patient that he cared deeply for.
Wow, what an extraordinary physician he must be!
Thank you so much for showing the truth behind medicine I work in clerical for scheduling for a specialty department and scheduling pts rn is difficult. It makes me sad when pts talk about how a Dr doesn't call them back the same day or doesn't meet there demands... I've seen drs who are honestly traumatized and at times cannot speak. Drs have feelings, emotions, health problems and LIVES outside the hospital. Please be kinder and more patient with our drs, nurses and everyone who works in or for medicine. We all play an important role.