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- I've been thinking about making a kind of video diary series on this channel that documents some of my personal development and feelings. I'm hoping that by sharing a process I usually go through alone it might help me navigate some complicated feelings, and also offer dialogue to anyone feeling something similar. Might find it cringe in a few weeks and delete who can say. Or this could be the first of many ramblings!!
“If you're overthinking, write. If you're underthinking, read.”
Love this! It's so true ❤
I have to disagree. Reading only makes you more stupid. I do like what you say although I would change it up.
"If you're overthinking, write to someone. If you're underthinking, read to someone."
Do you see the difference?
Any passive activity will only make you more stupid. Find ways to turn "reading" into a positive activity.
@@kevinerose how is reading to yourself passive or negative?
@@0dteESmini Reading books is a form of brainwashing. If you do so passively, then the author is putting their thoughts into your head and changing your personality. You are becoming more like the author and less like yourself. When you read, study the words, study the writing style, consider the author's views based on your own perceptions. Never let yourself into a trance while reading. If you are studying while reading or reading to another person, you can minimize the harmful effects that reading would otherwise have on you.
@@kevinerose Thumbs up. I have experienced that myself. And i keep wondering why i'm still stupid with all the knowledge i've gained from reading, watching, listening. I need to apply all of that. And it's just too much theory. Not enough practice. Intelligence is over rated especially as doled out in western school systems, entertainment systems, media in general. It's completely out of touch.
“The problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts, while the stupid ones are full of confidence.”
― Charles Bukowski
Nah, it’s “The fundamental cause of the trouble is that in the modern world the stupid are cocksure while the intelligent are full of doubt.”
-Bertrand Russell
@@TomDavidMcCauley its the same
@@TomDavidMcCauleyONE of the problems of this age is the people who are compelled to be their own 'voice of authority' and feel they need to flex and proclaim- it always starts with a dismissive "nah".
@jumpjack7141 Why would you think that? Did they not experience reality?
What a line
“Did you ever think that maybe there’s more to life than being really, really… really ridiculously good looking?” - Zoolander
Stop simping
Simpanzee
@@plato1273 If you think that's simping you don't understand the reference.
What is that a House for ants…. ?
It needs to be at least …………
Twice as Big
Ha Ha! When I read that I totally heard Stiller saying that with that pouty face he makes in the movie. Good movie. 😂
Intellectual humility is such a gift that few people have. Good luck on your journey, and congratulations on starting it
The ability to think about one's own thinking is a sign of intelligence.
It's a sign of greatness
Its just self reflection and mostly regret.
Well, its a sign of having consciousness at least
ALL i do is think about thinking about thinking. Ugh.
@@NewNormalWorldOrder called schizophrenia. Good luck G
self awareness is a major sign of intelligence. I think you are already on the right track.
Not really...
Yeah like 10 iq points for self awareness.....
bro youre in these replies calling her stupid over and over, you got nothing better to do. just say youve never felt the touch of a woman and move on@@Voting-does-nothing
Not major but just a sign of, just like being an average human would.
@@Ebani Thanks.
Always a joy to watch a normal video of somebody sincerely expressing their feelings. Such a simple yet mature use of the internet.
I wish you the best with your future!
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TH-cam used to be full of this sort of content, just people with cameras sharing not caring about views, I used it as a resource to learn about my mental health problems, all gone now thanks to the J
No, I think she should have considered this on her own. It sounds so screwed up putting it out there for strangers for no reason.
I have no idea why TH-cam showed me this but I just wanted to congratulate you on your bravery. And also to say, if you're this reflective about being stupid...you're not stupid.
TH-cam is recommending this to stupid people. Not that it recommended to me... ermm... a friend sent me this. Yes.
On god though.
I don't know why the TH-cam algorithm decided I should watch your video, but I'm glad it did. I'm an old woman, and I see much of my younger self in you, except I don't think I would have been brave enough, or articulate enough, to post a video like this back then, even if TH-cam had existed then. I am so happy for you young woman. I know you have a very rich life awaiting you. I can almost see your mind expanding. Congratulations!
She popped up in my usual feed today also. Glad I listened to what she had to say.
Thank you so much
Same. I'm 48. Been questioning my self worth all my life. It's unfair how when you get older it's easier to be put into a stereotype. I feel it's societal norm to value women in particular on their physical appearance. Women are objectified everywhere. What you have said struck a cord with me and I feel I can relate, also despite the age difference. See many parallels to what you've said with my life and I appreciate the need to share. X
Yeah its the same for me. Great video to watch and very brave video to make, making this is actually a lot smarter than what I would say 90% of what people do, who don't think, is pridefully overconfident in acting out nonsense which does no good. The maker of this video is learning and growing, and more aware of herself and the world around her. That is actually fairly intelligent.
As John Cleese said. It takes a certain amount of intelligence to know you are stupid. Most stupid people are too stupid to even see how stupid they actually are, and they also lack the courage to even admit this which makes them even more stupid.
I'm sixty years old and you came across my feed. I am now subscribed. We are our own worst critic. You're a lovely young woman with a great mind. Carry on, you'll figure it out.
Don't sweat it. You're not a computer. Real life is full of long pauses, and mess ups in speech. Life isn't a movie. Love this video.
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I e been in many k holes and believe me we are in a matrix.
This 👏👏👏👏
Also, pausing to think about what to say is A GOOD THING. I have such a hard time slowing down and saying the right thing instead of just the first thing.....
There is def something going on. Been there too. Best I can describe it is everything is connected through some kind of life-force. Trees really have a part.@@tkehoe78
I (33) have a learning disability. My IQ is approx 80. I got tested twice in school. It is mainly due to the fact that my mother drunk alcohol during her pregnancy (FASD spectrum/Fetal Alcohol Syndrome)
Everything is harder in my life. No matter how hard I try, I always fail. I needed to visit special ed class till 18, I never had many friends, I never had the ability to visit college or achive high education, I only work at sign holder jobs...or fast food...I also never had a girlfriend. A low intelligenc is a severe punishment for your whole life, which affects every aspect of your life negatively.
My IQ is approx 140. This also sucks a lot, socially. If I was in your place, I'd move to a country where an IQ of 80 is slightly above average. But there is no such country for me.
@@xamidiit gets worse the higher you go. No matter how i try to explain things to you, im never really taken seriously, but if im doing my own thing and people are kinda watching, theyre like, wow your really smart.
Then right back to the norm, everyone else is the best at everything
My son has a learning disability that was diagnosed in primary school and high school. He attended special Ed classes until he left at yr 11. He knows his limitations but it doesn't bother him one bit, he's a social person and has no problems getting girls. He's been laid more times than I've had hot dinners. He goes for jobs that appeal to him and almost always gets them. I had learning problems as well but it was never diagnosed back then. It frustrates me when I try to understand certain things especially in maths and technology. When I was an apprentice, I really really struggled with understanding blueprints of a structure and doing the drawings of them. Maths was involved and being able to fabricate steel pipework or structure. I feel so dumb, however I managed to barely pass and gain my qualification.
You don't write like you have an IQ of 80. But I do detect some low self-esteem, perhaps lack in confidence in yourself & ability.
hey man throughout all of that, Jesus still loves you and cares for you. I found a ton of comfort in realizing that a lot of the stuff in this life is pretty meaningless, like they can still bring you happiness but the cant keep you from being sad. but only through Jesus I was able to be happy in any situation. so though your life may be challenging God never intended that for you and he still loves you no matter what.
This made me so happy to watch. It's hard to explain, but it's like I'm watching someone actively discover and develop themselves. I wish you all the best on your journey!
The fact that you already have this level of insight after simply deciding you want to think bigger says a lot about your capacity to grow.
You did badly at school - maybe you had bad teachers, maybe you were going through stress then, maybe the traditional school system is not how your brain likes to learn new information.
Either way, you told yourself a story back then - "I'm not intelligent/smart". Realize this is just a story and doesn't have to be true.
Now's the time to write a new chapter.
Good luck on your journey :)
Society as well as the "educational system" (god help us) are both conditioned to produce lower creativity and intuitional abilities.
Well said.
Energy flows where attention goes. People who made social interactions more important than learning the subject matter did worse, period.
This is one of the most beautiful videos I've ever seen on TH-cam. It's like watching someone becoming human in real time
i agree !! thank you for sharing
It feels very cruel to basically say that people who haven't reached this point intellectually are less than human, or otherwise inhuman.
This is one of the kindest comments on here as well ❤
I remember when I discovered that there's an entirely new dimension that I can problem solve on
It's true though. The more aware you the more human. Hyper vigilance makes you God-like. Not all can bare it though. @@TheLayeredKing
"I was only 17 back then but it seems like I knew more than I do now."
-Waylon Jennings
wheres that from exactly?
@@MagXZaruI second that question
@@MagXZaruwhere corn dont grow
@@KAIh996the song is where corn don't grow
@@DasGoodSoup thank you🙏🏽🙏🏽
Intelligence is a product of curiosity. The more you investigate the more information you take in. Nurture your curiosity. Let it take you into all types of fields, science, mathematics, art, history.
You can learn anything if you put your mind to it. Even if you hated mathematics all through school, you have a different mindset as an adult and can learn it if you are patient with yourself.
Articulating thoughts is fucking hard and embarrassing cus im like TED talk level articulate in my head but i regress to fifth grader at show and tell as soon as it leaves my mouth lol a tip someone gave me is that reading regularly helps straighten out thoughts, and ive honestly seen a difference when I do
Also, just wanted to say I've only been following you for less than a year but you've honestly grown so much as a person in this time, and im honestly proud of you, and whatever direction you decide to go im routing for you! 🤞
haha yes i totally get what you mean! When I start to talk out loud I realise how often I'm saying things like "like, umm, so yeah" LMAO and i hate how it sounds. I have been trying to read more but I'm a very slow reader!!
This is so real honestly
@@haropones you willing become my waifu?
Either this is genuinely on another level or a new AI grift somehow it's to relatable to be true😅
@giovanniguzman6341 There's an easy explanation for that, your mom probably had amalgam fillings in her teeth while she was pregnant and the mercury got into your Cerebellum which is responsible for the language development. Because that part is damaged your brain emulates this area probably in the cerebral cortex. That costs a lot of processing power which is why you cannot think and talk at the same time, it feels like a highway turns into a country road. Other cause could be early vaccines. Males are more affected because testosterone activates mercury.
There is no correlation between intelligence and wisdom. Don't be afraid to know your own heart. Being willing to say " I don't know " is an important first step to true enlightenment
Totally agree. Learning to be okay with not knowing is so important for so much.
No correlation? None? I seriously doubt that.
Having an IQ of 158 myself I can tell you for certain doesn't provide any protection from making poor choices or mistakes.
@@thomasevans1501 As you probably know, being good at logic doesn't make you smart in other areas of the human experience. It's a tricky thing.
@@thomasevans1501 Correlation, as I'm sure you realize, means there is a relationship. There is a correlation between washing your hands and getting sick less. Does that mean that if you wash your hands you are immune to disease? Of course not.
I seriously doubt you have 158 iq. You were lied to.
Honest introspection is like a muscle; the more you use it, the better it gets. Glad you posted this, keep on the journey!
Yeah and also, use it or lose it.
You're self aware, intelligent, and authentic. This medium doesn't deserve you.
I'm 46 now. But when I was in high school, they made reading feel like a chore to me.
Then I was 19 and homeless. Hanging out in a library during open hours just to stay warm. And it was there that I found things I actually wanted to read.
I have ADHD and am a slow reader, but I still love devouring books. I'm still finding new interests and hobbies. Also currently trying to write a novel at the moment.
But yeah, autodidacticism (self education) is a great thing, and the more I learn, the more I realize how much I don't know. So, have fun out there expanding your horizons!
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Wow similar to my experience. I basically flunked my way through high school (distracted by chaos at home and other issues) and never did my homework.
And yesss the library is like the last truly magical public space with SO MANY RESOURCES, from warmth to information, connections with other people, internet access and a sense of community.
These days I'm housed and a bit more stable, and my love for the library has grown even more. I'm there several times a week, and as an avid learner myself, it's my happy place still.
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@@VeganSemihCyprus33 Most go LGBTQ THEN vegan, not vice versa, but whatever u say...
If you live in a van, the library is essential. Space to read and take notes, undisturbed.
@@mitchellactual8883 what world do you live in man
There's a wealth of intelligence in a person who considers themselves, sees areas where they would like to grow, makes a plan to do so, and then executes it imperfectly but relentlessly. I'm so pumped for you and your journey.
I'm evaluated as high "intelligence"/low EQ, and from my experience, you got the better deal, so enjoy! Learn, read, use that big EQ to make lifelong friends. You've got this ❤
The fact that you can have this dialogue is a testament to the fact that you can critically think. As someone who is floundering in life I really appreciate this video
In my own life, I call floundering “basic research”.
@@LilyGazou 😂😂
Goooooood this spoke to me and has made me feel heard and understood in one of the most sincere ways. It's of course not the same but even as a dude I grew up feeling very outcasted because I didn't think I was as attractive as the popular kids. And when I started to look back and reflect the same way you did I realized so much of my youth felt ripped away from me because I focused so heavily on how unattractive I was. And I almost feel like I've said the exact same things as you to myself during my own introspection. I've come a long way since then and I do feel much happier and fulfilled now and I genuinely hope you reap the same benefits! Thank you for sharing!
I am touched. I have tears in my eyes and I'm a 35 years old male. I appreciate your brutal honesty VERY MUCH. I am going thru difficult times right now, once again. Its so easy to get lost in this world. This "survival of the fittest" bullshit needs to stop. The society has a mass psychosis in regards of beauty, technology and performance in many shape of form. Nobody was asked to be on this planet and be in this container we are calling body. But, dont lose hope. We will some day arrive where we belong. I am sure of it. Sending all the ❤ I've got from Germany. I wish this message will reach you, just like yours reached me! : )
For a 27 year old, you look like a sexy 18 year old!
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You have nearly broken free from the propaganda. The class, the gender struggles are a product of a government that hates us all.
Please don't edit this. Start eating clean (take the time to read into that concept of you are unfamiliar) the clean eating will help with your thoughts.
Rational discourse is something to be proud of, it breaks down tribalism and creates the opportunity to create a larger tribe / community.
I had similar self-esteem issues for similar reasons. However I am male. I still endured the feeling that to fit in I needed to achieve a certain higher standard, which was always seemingly unattainable.
As you grow your lexicon and work towards the growth of your field of knowledge, you will find the conversations rewarding at a level that is difficult to convey. But each time you encounter someone you may have relevant knowledge that is of interest to both parties. Conversation with strangers will no longer be dreadful, rather enticing and enriching.
Yes you are pleasant to behold, but as you have no doubt realized, talking to a picture of beauty is a dreadful bore if it cannot speak.
You are becoming in my estimation to full bloom as: Elegant in words and appearance with depth of soul and character. May your journey be onward, upward and fulfilling.
When you find a mate it will be conversations of depth like the darkness of night and and heights that place you both among the constellations.
Your path is only just beginning. ❤
@@jod-mountaintoppower986 Class and gender struggle is created by class and gender and government don't have nothing to do with it. Only grifthers want to turn normal biological occurrence to political ideology to take power.
Don't worry your stay on this planet has a finite limit and your so called container will end up in another container in a hole in the ground. Cheers..!!
Being a reflective person and being honest and true to yourself already makes you kind of smart and kind of beautiful..
Honestly You seem wise and having broad awareness of Your emotions, values and so on. No stupidity detected... You seem like a really great person!! Take care!
You know what this woman needs? Inspirational music. Something like "You're the Best Around".
nothings gonna ever keep you down
Girl i understand. I got the same issues, at almost 50. Always scored low on tests. Math skills are horrible. I hate to read, Im socially awkward, i never know the right things to say. 😢 Still struggling in life, cant find a decent job right now. Im tired of it.
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so is this genetic which means you cant change it?
@@angenehmerweiblicherfussge7000It’s more difficult for those who have learning disorders. They need more support, but usually don’t get it. As an autistic male, I had a hard time socially. Academically, I did ok, but not fantastic. B average student all through school and college. I had a difficult time planning, organizing, and finishing homework. It’s more than likely a lot of people are not suited for the school system.
Just get on with life. Not everyone fits the mold.
It's very easy to become more intelligent by just reading books, preferably nonfiction. And by studying on your own time, nobody is born stupid or has a stupid "gene." Any level of perceived stupidity can be improved. If you struggle with math, Read books about math and write the problems down on a piece of paper. Read a lot of philosophy and history biographies of historical figures you like underline and make notes when you read when you're finished with a book. Write an essay about it; you don't have to show it to anyone if you don't want to. You also do not have to finish a whole book if you don't want to; you can focus on only the chapters that interest you, and most of the time you don't even have to read them in order. Over time, you will become more intelligent, and it's much more enjoyable than when you're forced to do it in school. Just don't get upset if you do not understand something at first. Everything takes time, and you will never be able to learn everything, so there is no point in trying. Only focus on what you want to learn. Force yourself to read 10 pages a day, even if you don't like reading or struggle with it.
You are INCREDIBLY articulate, thoughtful and intelligent! Your wonderful ability to express yourself and your deep self-awareness are proof of that. Your true self is beginning to emerge after a lifetime of hiding behind a mask of trying to please others. You are coming into your power! 😀🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
I've never seen someone make a video with this kind of subject and I just want to say good on you for being so vulnerable and bringing this idea forward that clearly so many others relate to. I will also be turning 27 this year and I feel like I'm in the same place. I would say I was smart as a teenager, but definitely more creative and concerned with "unimportant" things and my looks than book smarts. I just kind of accepted that I would never go to college and I would never have a good job. I never had a plan, and I just kind of always had this feeling that "things would work out ". But now I'll be 30 in a few years and I'm panicking trying to figure out how to become an "adult".
The consensus among my older friends is that you spend your 20's wasting time and figuring out what the hell to do, and that your 30's are when you really start living, which is a bit comforting. I know that everyone lives life at different paces, and then add in the fact that these last few years have not been the easiest to live financially. But I am so tired of seeing everyone surpass me, and I can't just keep working entry level jobs for the rest of my life. In the last year I would say I've made a lot of moves forward to get my life moving towards where I want it to be, and I'm proud of myself for that. But there's still a lot that I slack on that I need to get moving. If anyone has read this, I guess all I can say is having the mindset and a dream is a great place to start, but don't just stay there! Because before you know it, it'll be 2 years from now and nothing in your life will be different if you haven't made any moves. The first one is the scariest, but I wish you all the confidence in the world after you've taken it.
I think there's a very good chance that you also know (of) people who do worse than you. And it's fair to say that as long as we keep an eye on those who do better, that's a sign that we're focused on improving. But it's worth being aware of both - people doing better, as well as people doing worse. It gives us perspective and inspiration, as well as opportunity to learn from other people's mistakes. Not everyone needs a university degree to be successful. As long as we keep improving, it all adds up a lot in time.
thank you for this
As a guy in his late twenties, I didn't expect to relate to a random algorithm recommended video this much at 1am. I don't think I've ever seen anyone talk about these thoughts of one's own intelligence in a similar manner that I've struggled with basically most of my life, I sincerely wish you good luck on your inner journey.
I massively struggle with articulating my feelings too, to see someone else struggle with it in such an open way was very comforting. Wish u the best
Same here
The question should be if you've actually seen anyone articulate their feelings irl and whether or not you have had a safe space to articulate those feelings to others. Your brain might want to spit it out, but it probably never felt safe enough around the other brains. Or there might be another reason. All the answers about you are in your head, you just have to listen.
You probably don't suck at math. The school system teaches you to be a calculator, not a mathematician. Math is just a more precise language to describe the universe and its characteristics, it has no bias, no anxiety, yet I spent years crying into my math sheets as a child and I have to actively work against my own brain that was trained to hate math. Yet I can achieve full points in university math questions...
Tons of stuff are screwed up just by where you are born. Don't be too hard on yourself. All the people around you are inadequate. Some will gloat about their "achievements", but nothing worth anything was achieved by one human being. Isaac Newton wasn't alone, he had books written by former people who devoted THEIR LIVES to knowledge and helpers within the field, same with Albert Einstein. basic, fundamental mathematical logic took thousands of years just to get to this point.
It took all of humanities most brilliant minds thousands of collective years to find out very basic stuff about how the universe works and sometimes often they're even wrong or inaccurate in some respects.
You just have to articulate your feelings more. Write it down, if you don't want to speak.
We've all been stunted by the greediest of us who only think about themselves, not that which is optimal and balanced and is influenced by sound judgement.
Wow. I can’t emphasize enough how much your story sounds like mine. Two years ago I was spending every single waking minute taking pictures of myself, checking my face, looking up surgeries, and feeling like I didn’t deserve to live because, in my very sick brain, my appearance actually burdened others. Now, two years later, I am more okay with myself even if I still have a kind of distorted perception of myself, but it also feels like my brain got kind of damaged after going through all that. I feel like my memory has gotten worse, that I’m not as smart as I used to be, and it just, in general, feels like I’m operating from a lower level of my brain where I have to fight my way to having any articulate expression of myself and my thoughts. Thank you for posting this. I feel less alone, and I hope you continue on your journey to healing
As a man, I have yet to see a woman improved by cosmetic surgery. Often times it just ends up looking a bit unnatural. Women are being preyed on by social media and marketing to feel like they need to get surgery. These people are adept at manipulating you, you don't pay for instagram which means you are the product and they have ultior motives.
thank you so much for sharing this. I've struggled with my weight since 13 and I feel that starving myself and just going through periods of 'tunnel vision' of only focusing on eating and how much I weigh has left me brain damaged lol. For like three months I'd only think of food and my hunger levels. For one, I was self-obsessed and for two, wasn't engaging my brain at all. I'd just distract myself from eating. I feel like you lose a little bit of yourself and your humanity and it kind of feels like your lightbulb inside you dims. I really hope that you continue on your journey of healing and that each day gets easier in expressing yourself. I also hope that your brain comes back because I know it's your super weapon!
Your description of how you’re feeling is eloquent and easy to understand. I didn’t come to the realization that you’ve come to until a much much older age. It is so refreshing to see a twenty something awakening in this way! From this point forward , your life is only going to get better. Your self awareness is astounding-a gift in itself. I think this video will help so many people. Thank you so much!
"if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will forever think it's stupid"
"I've always felt quite emotionally intelligent, but academically..." man, are you me?
Hey, good luck to your journey. You've got this. I have faith in you.
Bro I’m literally the opposite and I can assure you, being emotionally intelligent is much more important than
You were never stupid or ugly or "bad". You just likely weren't given compassion and patience when you were learning and now want to finally accept and love yourself as you are. ❤
You were born perfect... It's this world of crazy ideas that messes with people. (I heal these distortions in myself and others). Good job speaking your feelings 👏 Some people can't even acknowledge them. You have obviously worked a lot at this.
You’re on the right track! I’ve struggled with feeling stupid. People tell me I’m intelligent, but I can’t get on board with that, yet. So, keep up the good work! Keep thinking and have conversations with others, to broaden your experiences and learn.
You don’t seem stupid, to me, already.
The slowness in your speech and your truly taking the time to enunciate your thoughts make this video so insightful. ❤
I honestly wish I could give you a hug. I'm right there with you, I've grown up with ADHD, anxiety, PTSD and severe depression. I struggled in school growing up, there was a brief moment in my senior year of high school that I was a honor student. But it ended there, i wish I would have tried going back to school (College etc) but I've always thought i wasn't smart enough. Outlets I've always used, to feel more educated is learning new languages, learning about astronomy because I'm absolutely amazed by astronomy, another topic is learning about ancient history. But with that aside, just know you're not alone. I can't tell you how many times I tell myself "you're a stupid idiot" it's become second nature for me and it's become comfortable, it became a normal day. Thank you for making your video, it helps me and many others know that we have someone that knows how we feel. ❤
imagine growing up feeling ugly and stupid when the whole time you were gorgeous and brilliant.
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@@VeganSemihCyprus33what
@@VeganSemihCyprus33 There are zero vegans with intelligence.
@@VeganSemihCyprus33 vegans are disgusting
Vegans are terrorizing the climate with carbon
Everything we do with our time takes time away from other stuff we could have done. There are plenty of people who struggle through academia or career training and get to the end of it and realise that their underdeveloped personal aesthetic, artistic sensibility, and social skills are holding them back. That's just to say while you expand your mind in other ways, I hope you don't get caught up in feeling like your personal development thusfar has been wasted. You are right to recognise and value your emotional intelligence. It's great that you like writing, because that's sure to help you whenever you decide to learn something new, both in organizing your own thoughts and in communicating about your progress with friends and followers.
I hope you'll share in future updates, which areas of knowledge, deeper thoughts, or critical thinking interest you most. A reading list? Khan Academy Maths and Science? TH-cam lectures? Horticulture? We all start somewhere, and the world is full of resources to help you learn. I'll be curious to see in which directions you choose to grow.
Ugh this is a super uplifting and encouraging comment, thank you
I just want to say, this video really means a lot to me, and I dont think you're stupid at all. This is a beautiful example of you growing as a person, understanding yourself better, and taking the effort to truly try discover yourself. I love that you want to think more critically and educate yourself further, and I really, really wish to encourage you on continuing this journey. I'm in my early 20s and for the past couple years, I've been doing a lot of introspection and have been working understanding and improving my self image. Stuff like asking those big questions like who am I, what do I believe, what matters to me, and who do I want to be? Until only relatively recently, I felt likely I barely understood myself, but now I have this internal confidence for who I feel I am and the things I believe and care about. And I've been reading more! Even teaching myself stuff through youtube videos lol. And it has all meant so much to me. You've really helped me realize just how important of a choice this is for somebody, to want to learn, to think critically, to improve yourself in a deeper way. I feel like I can finally admit to myself that yes, I am in a better place than I used to be, and yes, I know who I am. I hope this kind of revelation finds you if you need it, and I wish you the best of luck with your future.
Always had the impression you as a very intelligent human. Love that you are going to brain more. Self reflection is a an amazing sign of intelligence fyi.
Never have seen this channel...
Just happened to come across my feed. Very brave of you to open up like this. Remember THIS is the first step so you are on the right track. My daughter (around the same age) has been dealing with very similar things. From the progress I've seen since she made up her mind.... It gets better from here.
Best of luck to you!!!
-Michigan dad
Some really good points in there, and I wish you luck in following up on them.
Stupidity is the greatest feeling. Knowing how stupid we are is the greatest understanding we can have.
Just listening to you talk I can confirm that you are not stupid
I completely understand this feeling, however my stupidly is sadly terminal. Best of luck to you
That sounds horrible. As I grow up, I tend to realize that I never have the right priorities. Kudos for making such a personal and relatable video. And good luck with your development as a person.
You struck a chord with me.
Now take that chord and make your own song with it 😉 Good luck 🤝
I celebrate you for being so incredibly smart and insightful enough to have these awakenings while in your 20s! I didn't learn this until I was 40. So much time wasted. I'm now 45 and I look so old and it's ok. I feel smart now. I am. I'm celebrating you!
I love my notes app. And i do these 5 minute recordings which go way over 5 minutes of my rambling and ranting about things. And whats weird is if i listen back to myself i can agree or disagree in a 3rd person kind of way, be my own onlooker. These videos to myself helps me just with realizing things in general. So seeing other people do the same thing beings some normality to this for me also you being able to post this shows your confidence which is awesome! Knowing theres a possibility for hate to come or for people to misunderstand you and you do it anyway. Idk im gonna this text box rant now so bye
haha i love my notes app too!! spend a lot of time there, but talking out loud definitely offers another dimension of assessing things! I think it's really cool that you do that for yourself :3
The notes app! 👍🏼✍🏼
okay, I have only watched about 3 minutes of this video, but I already need to comment because I already see myself SO much in you. I'm 38 years old... and in school, I did very poorly, and was the "artistic girl". I wanted to do well, but I just thought I was too stupid to do well. It's because I had undiagnosed inattentive ADHD. (found out at 30). My whole life, I thought.. well I'm just stupid. I can't get straight As. I can't have thoughtful convos. I can't have "opinions" because my opinions are always going to be less than everyone else. I also was obsessed with my appearance. I had a really bad eating disorder and was in the hospital for it... and I also have always spent so much time doing my makeup and hair every day. I had a huge obsession with my looks. On top of that, it was the only thing I was ever complimented on. People always said I was pretty, loved my hair, loved my makeup and clothes etc.... it made it worse. I talked to my therapists about this over the years, and have come to realize... it's because I thought it was the ONLY thing I had going for me. I didn't have a "good personality", I wasn't smart... etc. The only way to find a mate, or friends was to look pretty and be respected for that. Well.... I started to challenge that (though I still love a good makeup session). I started to understand how critical thinking worked. How skepticism worked... how asking questions worked. I realized that I was actually quite intelligent.... and everyone around me was just as "dumb" as me. Once you realize that you are CAPABLE of critical thought, and your opinions are actually very valid... your life will change. the fact that you are even thinking this means you are intelligent enough to step into this. I started studying and researching things I was ACTUALLY interested in. Abnormal psychology, philosophy, and even completely obscure things... and that slowly led to other more important things. I began questioning EVERYTHING everyone said to me. I would ask myself if it made LOGICAL sense and if I agreed or not. I challenged EVERYTHING in my head (not outwardly.) and it was a really good exercise for critical thought. I feel like I still have a hard time putting my thoughts into words sometimes.. but I now KNOW that I'm smart. Most people don't exercise critical thinking actually.. and I realized this when I understood politics a little better. People put themselves into categories, and just believe what they are told to believe. I stopped putting labels on myself.. putting myself into categories based on ideas. I'm politically, religiously, and socially homeless..... and it's because i think critically. I no longer feel like I'm stupid anymore. This has literally been something I have struggled with my WHOLE life... I know exactly how you feel.
Many times those people who are "book smart" are not the ones actually blazing a trail, they are just the ones following the leader. It can be hard to think for yourself. If you want it, you can do it.
After much reflection I wonder if it is even possible to think for oneself. If no one had told me that I was on a giant ball of rock spinning on its axis and hurtling through space at hundreds of thousands of miles an hour I doubt I would ever have worked it out for myself.
@@opinion3742So because you couldnt solve one issue with your perception you believe it may not be possible to think for yourself? It is possible to think for yourself and there is objective truth. When you see someone say something, and others tell you they did not say something.... You should trust what you objectively saw and not be gaslighted. Goodluck
@@davidsalvador8989 I see the sun going round the earth. I made an important and meaningful point and you have bastardized it. That is unfortunate. Nobody truly thinks for themselves - and we are talking about thinking here, not about being lied to about something you witnessed with your own two eyes - we inherit a world of influences, information, beliefs and prejudices. And if you had taken proper note you would have been aware of a certain irony in my comment where I start by saying "after much reflection...."
@@opinion3742You got way to offended by my comment. I was pointing out you took a simple point of not being able to tell the world is round and extrapolated that to "no one thinks for themselves." I am not calling you dumb or putting you down. I am just pointing out you are incorrect in this one instance. I know you can think for yourself also even if you dont believe it. Goodluck.
@@davidsalvador8989 You mean you thought I was wrong - as far as you understood what I was trying to say. Could be my bad. But I wasn't being all that serious anyway, even given how much room there is for philosophical inquiry here. Self is a nebulous concept, a complex one. But I get where you are coming from and I don't argue with your point. Good luck to you too. Peace and love.
Much love to this girl she is humble and open
Those are jewels of the heart
Blessings sweet girl good luck on your journey
We are likely witnessing a major philosopher in the making.
Please do write your books - it will help you, it will help us.
okay no need to brown nose that hard 💀
Hard to tell if you're writing something really stupid or just really mean.
woman... philosopher...
Maybe get a degree first 😅 before she write that suppossed "book".. I mean it's a great realization to do : "I want to learn new things, I want to think deeply about stuff" .. now act upon it, enroll in a academic pursuit, a philosophy major perhaps or sociology
I was cooking dinner. Casually listening to my typical podcasts, etc. Immediately, when you hit that phrase, "I think I'm going to start thinking more." That struck me. Thank you. I'm so happy to hear that you're taking a more purposeful belonging to our natural world. To our spiritual world. To the world around you. It's such a wonderful place. But only if we indeed, think more critically, about our surroundings. What is beauty? What is justice? Ponderings such as these are crucial to our survival. To humanity. You have a brave soul.
Comparing yourself to others is the worst. I have had tens of thousands of people tell me I am so smart and intelligent etc etc because of what I do / have done, but I still feel stupid on a daily basis. I feel my knowledge is too niche and limited. I even was lucky enough to have achieved a Master’s degree by 22 and had a 4.0 GPA, but no matter what I did I constantly felt inadequate, and still do. I feel like I am wasting my life. This is mainly because I always compare myself to someone who I believe is more intelligent or better off. I just sometimes wish I wasn’t me. Insecurity is real and happens to us all, same with my image as you describe. I constantly delete posts I make on all platforms soon after because I am afraid I sound too emotional or like an idiot. Good luck out there, you articulate yourself well and are very in tune with your emotions. I’m sure you are super intelligent at least enough to do amazing in this world.
True. Comparison is the thief of joy.
hey, i have a question out of respect for you as a young lad, , how do you learn stuff, how do you read? how do you learn that which is a part of your university course? how do you apply it? how do you make it so that you are constantly thinking about things instead of being a blank person? how do you do a question that isn't apart of your syllabus or past papers? thank you.
@@H786... only focus the most on what interests you. If you don’t know what interests you - do some personal exploring or ask yourself who you look up to, do you want what they are?
Okay so you know what you want to do but your current required work has nothing to do with that goal.. so if you have to write a paper for a class or do something that seems like busy work, focus on a daydream or manifestation of your future and how that paper or assignment fits into the puzzle, even if ever so slightly. This is a huge motivation tactic. Focus on your main goal in life and know that whatever you’re reading for, writing a paper for, etc - although in the short term it might be irrelevant, in the long term it gets you closer to your goal and who you want to be in the longer scheme of life.
How to learn things? Things you are actually interested in? Easiest way for me is to self teach with google or AI for what you want to learn, TH-cam tutorials are good as well. If you mean, how do I learn something you aren’t so interested in honestly… do the bare minimum to get you by - example: try to absorb your lessons while in class rather than waste more time out of class. Don’t waste too much time and focus besides what is necessary to get you to your main goal in life.
Lastly, how to develop new ideas and for example not write on a topic that is something you’ve already written? Try jogging, taking a shower, or even meditating. Mentally note or write down your thoughts during these different sessions of these activities. You’ll notice thinking of new ideas comes easiest when your brain is on auto-pilot doing these things. For me personally, I don’t have to do anything I’m always on overdrive thinking about both terrible and good things, I have panic disorder from it lol - but I have noticed my thoughts do increase when doing the said above activities. I would suggest looking into “guided meditation” and “binaural beats for creativity” if you do plan on trying meditation.
Hope this helped and was what you were looking for.
It's interesting to listen to you, and weirdly relatable despite me having an almost polar opposite experience. For all my life I've obsessed about being intelligent (or at least seeming smart). In many ways I think I've 'failed' to be smart, or at least I look back with regret for all the time I wasted caring about my image as the intelligent guy. I've neglected relationships and passed many an opportunity to learn skills traditionally not considered 'smart'. I've studied mathematics, physics, programming, music theory, philosophy, anything you might consider a 'smart person thing'. I've obsessed about being highly skilled at esports, knowing everything about blockchain and AI.
The truth is, I've only ever been slightly above average at all these things, and whenever something became too difficult and challenged my identity, I would move on from it and find the next thing that makes me seem smarter. I mean, I obviously don't completely regret learning the _stuff_ I learned, but I regret how the obsession affected my life, my social skills, my practical skills, my ego. It went way too far. Even the slightest curiosity led to a full-on obsession.
Lately I've been paying more attention to my soul and what it really wants. There's always been that part of me that loves the peace and quiet, to truly drink in the moment, and to share that with other people. To learn how to cook for someone else, or just say something silly to make someone smile. I don't need to spend years and complete a degree in astrophysics just to be liked and respected by other people. No one has ever liked me because I knew smart things, they liked me for being nice to them, for being emotionally available.
I don't really know where I'm going with this, but I think I relate to your low self-esteem. I overcompensated and never actually solved the thing I truly cared about.
"The fool doth thinks he is wise but the wise man knows himself to be a fool" -William Shakespear
You look good by the way, nothing to worry about at all.
Damn, why is she literally describing me (minus the older sibling part)? With that said, making video diaries is a really healthy way of getting some thoughts out there.
Failing GCSE's and academic testing doesn't mean you're stupid. You were the "art kid" right? That takes a type of intelligence a lot of people don't have. The fact you're able to self reflect puts you above a huge chunk of the population.
Protect her at all costs, I have gone through everything she covered. I feel like im autistic even tho im rlly not, and am a rlly cool person to be around. But its like an accumulation of coping mechanisms that make me inept at specific circumstances usually involving academics.
Uhm hello twin? First you are so beautiful!!!!😮😊. Seriously!!! I can relate!! 2 years ago i cried and told god i didnt want to be stupid that was my prayer 😅. Somehow my prayers were answered and it lead me onto the path going to nursing care school, with A score first time in my life at age 33 and 34. I was stumped but i was so determined to prove myself to be best student. I went deep on youtube and it worked so well!!! What i am saying , you are not dumb..it wasnt your time back then, say your prayer and trust with age and time you will get where you want to be.
You are literally beautiful!!!❤
the first step to becoming less stupid, is to shed the shackles of organized religion and a infantile belief in "gods" and "afterlife" when science is the TRUTH, and society would be much better off, with less "praying" and more studying, and advancing in science and medicine. Congrats on your advancement in life, but I feel you are still holding yourself back from your true potential, out of fear.
Wow. Your self-respect was undermined. You are a physically attractive woman, but your budding self-awareness is making you truly beautiful. I had a hard time as a young person, too. Depressed suicidal. You will not only recover. You will be better than ever. It takes time, but the worst of it is over.
((((Sending you positivity))))
Very profound thoughts. Like having a blank canvas to paint a more meaningful and understandable life for yourself.
You have maturity well past your age, good for you
I'm 70, and the mirror has taught me many hard lessons.
You, on the other hand, have stayed grounded
Now you finally have the key to your future...
This video popped up in my recommendations. I feel the same way at times, questioning my intelligence, and feeling that i'm dumb. Truth is we are not dumb, we just have to find the things that we are great at in life. Im also neurodivergent too, and that played a role in my life where I struggled in school and life, but i've managed to overcome those hurdles. I was seen as dumb and foolish at times, but I know that im not any of those things.
I've been putting off watching this because I wasn't ready to face certain things about myself. You hit so many core truths. I'm excited for you. No matter what you become, I believe in your quest.
I feel the exact exact same way.
I was undiagnosed Bipolar, BPD, Autism and ADHD until I was in my early-mid 20s. I simply had no time to study or have the ability to care as I was so traumatised and was just surviving. I felt like people only liked me for my looks, I had nothing else to offer. Apart from the fact that I was very artistic and talented, but I was just too mentally unwell to actually do anything with it.
I only cared about my appearance. I am still struggling with it at 25, but now I'm on mood stabilisers and have been in therapy for a few years my mind finally has enough space to consider education, because learning is fun and I am safe enough in my life now to enjoy learning, whereas all the time growing up i wasnt safe, my priority was making sure I made friends (by looking good) and keeping my Mum happy (enmeshment).
I have recently been trying to teach myself high school science on Khan Academy. Now I'm a bit better, i've had ti mourn a bit about the thought that this is probably what my peers always felt like in school, a love for learning and an ability to actually retain and understand the topics, and keep up with all of the subjects and homework which I never have been able to.
I would love to be a doctor, it sound silly because im in my mid 20's and dont even have a science GCSE. I have a friend whos a GP and hes so intelligent and uses words to describe mt experiences thst ive never heard, i feel insecure around him because im obviously just less well read. But im growing and trying to not compare myself. The fact that i am thinking like this, wanting to learn, as you said it was clearly deeply embedded, nevaude it HAD to be for me to SURVIVE, but im safe in the present day, so my mind has no use for these coping mechanisms anymore and thats great. I never felt like i had any other options. Major growth.
I think we will look back at this time of our lives when were older and see that we were still so young and it was great that we realised this at the age we did.
Look into the ketogenic diet. It has helped me immensely with my mental health. Bipolar, adhd, brain fog, anxiety etc. best of luck god bless you
first thing u must do is stop telling urself ur not smart enough or intelligent and that's why u cant do xyz, even as jokes. we as human hav to remember ourselves with words, and we don't recognize whether it's a joke or an actual affirmation so.. the same way u've been treating urself badly, u can do it the other way around and tell, but comprehend and believe that you're a smart person. if u really think ur not, it might be hard at first but the point is to try to make it real, bless yourself with new information and put in the work to become what you desire. i also love your accent, i could listen to you talking forever. 💚
I've often felt stupid when I don't know something, and recently I realized I'm actually curious to learn, which has helped me curtail some of that negative self-talk. Not sure if that's helpful for anyone else, but it's still fresh in my mind, and was a big relief for me.
looks fade, expanding your mind will last the rest of your life. Your bravery to even examine yourself that deeply, and talk about it brings me hope for humanity. Secondly you're not stupid, bad grades in school have nothing to do with actual intelligence. Albert Einstein also did poorly in school. Much love and best wishes for your future!!
This internal dialogue that you're having shows that you're thinking. Even if you *are* an idiot, you're on your way to being less of one. I've always been a bit of an idiot, and I always will be, but that will never stop me from trying to improve, and when I look back, I see that I'm a bit less of an idiot than I was ten years ago.
Good luck on breaking free of the beauty standards. They've always weighed down on me and I've never been able to live up to them. I don't think there's anything wrong with wanting to be pretty, but it's clear that the current standards push people into being conventionally attractive while having little to no empathy, intellect, or character.
I felt sad watching this video because of how you are referring to yourself as stupid, you are going to do better things and i feel like i will too
I had this my entire life. Just do what you enjoy. And don't be afraid of people. They are going to love you.
I feel like being seen as the smart one can f you up quite similarly. Getting praised without having to put in effort in the beginning, therefore not developing work ethic and only becoming obsessed with validation etc. Made me a hardcore procrastinator since very early on. Not really trying to achieve stuff by actually being interested etc but only trying to avoid shame and get validated. Also being the fat kid and feeling like being smart is your only redeeming quality really doesn't help. I feel like for the longest time my life was all about running away from stuff and trying not to be found out as incompetent etc. Now I just recently finished uni and feel like I have no identity, few real interests of my own, etc. All in all just a bit lost XD I guess not feeling lost at all is a way of being lost aswell. But then why would you mind if you feel like you got it all figured out
Well speaking your truth - even if it's a bit awkward or you might change your feelings later on - is always a good idea. As you mentioned... even if you bounce back more into your old ways and this was a one time thing for now, nothing wrong with that. There is no point in trying to make a change like that happen with effort. I'm certain this is a authentic and valid notion of yours, that is absolutely worth exploring, but who knows how that unfolds. Feeling like you want to make some commitment and trying to live up to it can easily create frustration. Especially if you announce it publicly. Well those were my 2 cents lol. All the best
I can absolutely imagine the detrimental effects of the other side of this situation too, constantly trying to prove yourself and live up to expectations can be completely crippling. I really appreciate your comment, thank you for reassuring me of my freedom to explore new things!
It's not the answers that count, but formulating the right questions . . .
I know I’m quibbling here, but questions and answers fit together like protons and electrons. They seek one another out and become one. The beginning of course is the shaping of a proper question, which an answer can find and inhabit. The end is their union.
@@Charles3x7 Great analogy!
@@Benjamin.Kaplan thx!
Yes, thank you for your very open thoughts. I very much appreciate you and your desire to learn. I’ve struggled with image issues along with many women. Thank you for your calm, thoughtful, honest, expression. I hope you continue to share your journey with us. Much love 💕
I swear this video came to me for a hard reason. i literally relate to everything the thinking, not wanting to be stupid and the body dysmorphia.
I enjoy hearing people talk about their experience and how the have felt/are feeling. So I really appreciated the video! I am happy to hear that you seem to want to learn more, as I love the feeling of curiosity and being interested in something. And I am always happy to see others feeling this, so I hope you follow those goals and will have fun!
You're not stupid, by any stretch.
Hats off to you for your bravery and realising that your life is too precious to waste away believing in rubbish thoughts that society put on you. I believed in a lie that defined me for the first 25+ years of my life which was "I am good enough. Others are better than me." This tortured me for a very long time. I decided to no longer believe this. It's been 9 years since and I'm still trying to free myself, but my life now has been so much better than when I was imprisoned in that lie. Also what I'm finding is media and authorities want to constantly station us to do what they want so they are constantly trying to lie to us to oppress us. I wish you all the best and wish for your freedom.
i just found this video and im genuinely excited for your future in exploring novel ideas
Thank you for making this , I relate ALOT. Especially with placing way too much emphasis on appearance and also the frustration of not knowing how to or being able to express myself. It was nice to hear someone feeling the same way and I wish you all the best on your journey
I have spent the last week watching videos on Mormonism and how to deconstruct that particular self-inflicted belief system because I have a deep, passionate interest in fighting stupidity. To come here and find a random stranger affirming a desire to think more critically brings me out of my seat in a standing ovation. I am a minute and twelve seconds in, I do not yet know your name, and yet I am filled with admiration. If there is anything I can do to support your efforts at growth and self-discovery, do not hesitate to respond. We all need more of this...
Mormonism is indeed a false belief system, and they preach false, vapid, man-made religion. Seek Jesus, not cults.
No idea who you are, but I feel you, dude. It sounds to me like you are experiencing some kind of awakening, and I think you should ride that feeling as drive to educate yourself further. It is never too late to learn new fields and to empower yourself in new ways. I think what you are feeling is so valid and I wish you the best in figuring out what it means for you in your life. Good luck with your future growth!
I know a great human being when I see and LISTEN to one, which is why I watched the entire video. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. Strength comes from vulnerability like you just showed. Lots of young women could learn a lot from that. Keep up the great work!
I struggled with my self esteem and intelligence for years. It took my best friend Victoria to get me into shape and get me on track. Started going to therapy and started realising that anything can be learned, and there will be things we're good at and bad at. I know at most things I struggle, but I know enough to get by, but I have my craft of filmmaking. Which I've personally done for over 13 years now. I learn stuff technically every day just by forcing myself. I'm 26, learning how to cook, how to look after myself, how to engage with services, how to deal with GP's and doctors e.t.c and really putting myself forward and doing it for myself. I'm so sorry that you have felt this way. Society around us has put a higher value on women for their looks rather than everything else a woman can do. It seems like that is changing, especially with the help of the Internet it's so easy to find very inspiring women online prooving that women just aren't what dress they wear or how their face looks.
Thank you for doing this video, and I wish you well on your journey!
I think a lot of mistake a lack of knowledge or understanding for a lack of intelligence. There are so many things I thought I was stupid in relation to, especially social stuff because Autism, but it turns out it was just because I lacked understanding of those things and hadn't learned enough. Sure, people have varying levels of skill when it comes to learning different things, but that doesn't mean you can't still learn those things. Art for me was something I was never talented with. I always thought I just couldn't do art because I was too stupid in that area, but then I started practicing and practicing. It took me longer than it does for some, but I'm actually a decent artist now, and I'm sure I'll get better as I go. Sometimes we're plenty smart, we just have to work for the things we want to learn.
the things you mentioned are great but not exactly 'higher thinking'. That's basic take care of yourself kind of stuff.
As you get older, you realize that superficial things are completely meaningless. A lot of women stop caring about partying and become less looks focused around age 26-30, and become more focused on personal growth and possibly starting a family.
Most of us only start realising the mistakes we made late in life when it is to late. You said you were in your mid twenties congrats you are well ahead of the rest of us. Incidentally I listened to you while cleaning the dishes so your articulation was engaging and thoughtful.
The ability to adequately articulate is a skill that not many hone. Major congrats to you for opening this dialogue with yourself! I stumbled upon this video blindly. I have never seen your content and I may never again. I just sincerely wish you well. Self improvement is a vast journey. You'll get there as long as you stay gentle with yourself. You got this! Much love to you and your family.
im electrical engineer, making up 200K+. 99% of my work can be done by anyone. literally. and yet here i am grossly overpaid to do basic tasks. the other day, field sent me a problem they could have solved themselves. each time i ask them "this is easy, why even involve engineering?", response i always get is "why should we even try to solve any problem, thats why we have engineering department in first place"......i will never run out of work cause 99% of people dont even bother to think to begin with..
The more adulting I do the clearer it becomes most of being successful is just knowing how to get away with being paid to do something literally anyone could. Goodwill, knowing how to communicate with people outside your field and always promising less than you're sure you'll deliver makes so much of a difference it's almost like magic. Sometimes it even makes me feel like a fraud, even though I'm frequently recognized, praised and rewarded for my work. But at the end of the day I still know those things are so highly valued because most professionals lack those things that moght as well be the bare minimum.
👏👏👏👏👏 respect! Watching you realize what is really important in life is like seeing a flower blooming.
Thank you for this very intimate look into your life and mind. I wish you luck on your intellectual journey I hope it leaves you fulfilled!
TH-cam just recommended this to me and I'm glad it did. Just wanted to say that I, and I'm pretty sure many others relate to you and would love to know more about your journey and development! You've been very brave and have explained yourself perfectly, no reason for you to think that you're stupid or lacking intlligence or wisdom. Sometimes you'll find yourself unable to recall words you know and can use perfectly and it's really frustrating, but you shouldn't let that get to you and put you at odds with yourself, part of being human is finding oneself lacking at times but wanting to improve and move forward despite it. I've been struggling on and off with this very problem and listening to you has been cathartic in a way, so I want to thank you and wish you the best. And of course, liked and subscribed. 😊
It seems like you are emerging from the tunnel of what is a destructive issue for young females, regarding body image, confidence etc, that leads to an outbreak of narcissism. I totally admire you for being so honest online and wish you all the very best for your future. You have insight and awareness regarding your last and where you want to go in the future. You are beautiful soul. God bless.
This spoke to me deeply, as a male who felt the same way trying to conform and fit in society and never fitting correctly. At 27 I’m just now seeking a better future, one step at a time. Rediscovering old hobbies, taking hikes and practicing speaking, trying to learn a new language. It’s extremely hard being autistic, Haro. Almost 30 years into my life and I’m just now realizing that. Your progress will come and so will knowledge and a better perspective and understanding on things you aspire to learn. You’ve got this.
Yeah, I've also been on a similar journey of "unmasking". Society and our peers, especially when we're young, make us feel lesser and wrong if we don't fit into a normalized archetype. What makes us us is suppressed and figuratively, and sometimes literally, beaten out of us. A lot of us spend so much of our life and energy trying to be what we've been told we're supposed to be, and it slowly kills us. But none of it matters. Who cares if some random person or even someone I know doesn't like the way I am, physically or mentally, just because I don't fit into their personal picture of the world? I want to live the way I want to live. I want to like the things I like. I don't want to have to constantly put on a fucking performance for other people just so they like and approve of me. I've spent the past 2 years unmasking, and I'm FINALLY starting to feel happy, and I want that for all of us. Be a good person, but beyond that, be unapologetically yourself and damn everyone who disagrees 🤷♂️
@@haroponesjust jump in at the deep end...Read Carl Jung
At 63, I'm reached a point where I find myself thinking less deeply. Nice to bump into something honest on TH-cam. It's all been so polished and fake this last decade or so. I hope you keep it up, I'm interested in seeing the journey.
I love love love this video! I feel very similarly to you, except I have been hindered by s series of different things: I've had a traumatic childhood and had traumatic experiences as an older teen and am 24 now and I'm barely just now starting to recover. I feel like these experiences have held me back soooo much because I possess a somewhat high level of intelligence, but I lack the resources, the guidance, and the peace of mind! I can definitely see the same "glimmer" of intelligence in you, if that makes sense. You probably won't believe me but you ARE quite articulate, and you seem extremely introspective which is ALREADY a huuuuge step ahead of so many people. You have all the raw material to become a very cultured and articulate person. I am excited to see how this will take shape in your (and my) life.