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Most men will not be loved these days, you're lucky to have gotten to experience it, most men that are not top shelf are invisible now.
are u inside my head
Useless, meaningless desire. Adult Content makes for a way better experience trust me
@@thesaddestdude3575 you need to get out of your room if you think that, I think you've been brainwashed by blackpill and redpill into thinking you will never be loved if you don't have the best physical features or a lot of money, but if you go outside you'll see most people have partners, and trust me when I say this girls actually don't care that much about looks or money, sure having them might help, but you fall in true love when you know a person and can connect with them, so instead of giving excuses I think you should work on your mentality and personality you'll find you love i have belief In you ❤️❤️
"Until you find they too are human, you do not love them, you worship them." This is beautiful!
Can you explain what is this mean?
@@HekaVerse When attraction to a person is extreme you end up placing them on a pedestal. They are somebody you adore and an object of idealization. It's hard to see flaws when you only want to see the good sides of them but this cannot be. Humans have flaws. Beings that don't have flaws are not human and this is usually reserved for gods. They become something like your religion because you revere them. You see them as perfect and incapable of making mistakes, but to love someone is to love a human. A human makes mistakes and they cannot be so perfect all the time but flaws and quirks are what makes people feel personal and real. They need to be on the same level as you for it to be love, not on a pedestal.
@@Whitechai and it may not even be someone you love, but someone you hate. You worship them, meaning you place them as more dominant and important as you. You view them as a person who’s already figured themselves out, someone who doesn’t like you, but you don’t not like them. You make up your own reasoning for why they wouldn’t like you as you may not like them, or want to like them. But usually it is much simpler. As was said, understanding the other as human and nothing else, nothing to do with yourself, is important in the first step to loving that person in your life.
@@slow_hunter_ Yes
Alot of people external agree with this and still have a hard time doing this.
"It's not that I can't live without you, but that I don't want to."
This.
But does she?
But "want" is a wavering feeling, it can go as soon as it shows up.
@@RedSky8 you can want someone forever. You can need someone only for a while. One implies agency, and choice from both parties, while the other implies compulsion, and a lack of choice.
@@RedSky8"Need" is also not a constant. What are you gonna do when they no longer need you? Leave and find someone who does because you're too insecure to stay in a relationship where the other is not forced to stay with you out of necessity?
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Corny
RAHHHHH LET’S GOOOOOOO
We're reaching the threshold!
If you're speaking like this then, no you are not lol
@@Simply_Jerry it sounds like you might need some hyPE UP IN HEREEEEE LFGOOOOOOOO
To put someone on a pedestal is to deny them the fullness of their humanity.
wow I love this
Ah, I get it now.
Thanks for this
Thats what's happening to me now, someone is putting me on a pedestal and I keep telling him over and over again that he doesn't have to apologise and overthink everything he does.
peterson
"I lower my tone, I play it cool. I'll hold on to this real me-this messy apparition of vulnerability and tears until I find the one; someone who is worth it. But implicitly I understand that this one will not accept the real me unconditionally. I will need to persuade them with something that is not quite me-some general attractive qualities: good looks, pleasant conversation-a worthy mask. Is this deception? To reveal myself later on after I've tricked them into letting me in? All for the selfish desire to be loved; to be at one with the other. And so I play it cool."
Jesus Christ. I felt that deep into my soul.
Very poignant!!!
yep. it was amazing
This got me, that is me. I have always felt this but never able to articulate it, because to say I "play it cool" or "wait a bit" to many does not seem like love because they perceive a lack of passion but instead it's I have too much passion to display but I simply don't want them to enjoy the "worthy mask" more than me
love is a trojan horse.
dazai is that you
why are these videos SO perfectly timed
fosho
I was just planning to talk to my gf and this is so well-timed
Ikr
algorithm
The law of large numbers?
Reminder not to send this to the love that left you, it will not be what brings them back. Only authentic individual growth, in love, can do that. growth takes time, embrace the pain, in fact celebrate it. Be strong, I am here with you internet friend.
I miss her so much. I know she doesn't care about me the same way I do for her right now but, my drat heart won't let my love for her fade away. It's been 7 months but I still yearn for the future that we thought we could have had. To this day, I can't look at other girls the way, I did her. No one is like her. I know there are loads of wonderful people who won't treat me like shit and have exquisite personalities but, I cannot see that. All I see is that they are not her. And therefore they cannot be my soul mate. The world sucks. There is no justice. Good people get shit on, taken advantage of, whereas good things happen to bad people. Biggest example is Henry Kissinger ofcourse. Truth also is defenseless against falsehoods for there isn't anything inherently better about truth. It is just saying things as it is. People prefer truth because actions based on truth usually suceed more than actions based on falsehoods. It is entirely possible for people to live their whole lives in an imagined reality and face no repercussions. I am sorry for this rant. Just got emotional.
@@krishaysrivastav6043 take care . Hope you will be more okay soon.
You're a saviour! In the excitement I was about to share it on my social media (not to lie, in the false hope that she would also see it). But I guess keeping this piece of knowledge to myself for now would be better.
@@krishaysrivastav6043 you'll make it out. I was in the same boat, and I think step 1 was that I stopped judging myself for still having these feelings for her. I can tell you're frustrated with yourself ("my drat heart"), but truthfully those feelings for her will not go away for a very long time. You have to just make peace with the fact that she was clearly a big part of your life, so its only natural that you feel the way you do. Over time it'll get easier, you'll think of her less, and you'll find the space in your heart to move on. It just takes a lot of time. I'm a year and a half out from the extremely painful end of an 8 year relationship, and only recently have I found that I might actually have the capacity to love another. Doesn't mean I never think about my ex, at this point I'm pretty sure I'll think of her on my deathbed.
i needed this. thankyou
“i wish for an us” ouch.
I felt that one, too. And it's true. I'm so much better being part of an "us". More motivated, more energetic, way less doom and gloom, way more positive, outgoing and an overall doer of way more things. I'm simply doing that whole living thing better when I can share it with someone.
I literally had a dream yesterday of making coffee for someone i want to be with and aching for them really interesting common symbolism
i always leave something warm running to fake the feeling of a person being there when im sleeping. i sometimes use a weighted blanket or a hoodie wrapped around myself to fake a hug, simply because i myself cannot achieve that and i desire it to much
i don't see it as an "ouch", rather, as an optimistic desire. just like he said, you should still be content living on your own, and be fulfilled by your own presence. the desire to share that with someone is a beautiful thing, but the absence shouldn't be treated as a lack of fulfillment.
“i wish to be loved for the things i do not even consider lovable” this is exactly how i feel, but i could never put it into words.
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I refuse.
@@thesaddestdude3575 Your loss.
@math_nerd how much math do you know 📝
@@thesaddestdude3575 u will someday ❤️
@@thesaddestdude3575 That is fine too , as long as you are alive, you can become someone you like to see in the mirror and something you like to embody, or grow to the level where you can tolerate the human you are.
You can even be friends with the parts of you that you do not like, while growing as person.
( If this was a satire comment, good joke, i was not able to tell because of the username, and the lack there of of comedic exaggeration)
im glad he picked up on the idea that there are people in this world wanting to live for other people, its caused by a variety of reasons, but im glad that people recognize that is a desire.
Hey! I know someone struggling with this problem (if you see it as such) and wanted to ask if anyone knows the main/general causes for such a trait and if there's anything one can do to help/convince the person with this trait?
@@-Tidae Hey there!! This is a trait known as codependency and typically happens in trauma victims. However, some people without any form of trauma experience this from a low self esteem, people pleasing tendencies, or unhealthy attachment. To help them out, just try to get them used to positivity aimed at themselves or just focusing on them. I'm currently figuring out a way to stop said desires since I am dealing with it myself, but I will let you know when I do!
@@cowreviewer I have a genuine question despite how personal I'll make this sound but, is it just not possible to want to live with someone by your side without being traumatized or having a negative characteristic? Is having something wrong with you a requirement for wanting to be loved by someone? I see people saying that we must enjoy our company always but like the video says, the greater the time we spend alone the harder it gets to deal with it. I sometimes feel like I'm being demonized when people put me in boxes like this just because I feel lonely
@@juliasayllas611 Hey there! Of course you dont have to be traumatized or have any kind of characteristics that have a negative outcome to simply want to be loved or have someone by your side. It of course is not a requirement by any means, it's normally just said because people with those characteristics often have a hard time with things like this. I'm very sorry that you feel that you feel you are being perceived in the way you are describing, but please know that it isn't something you shouldn't take to heart in totality. You are human like the rest of the world and should be treated as such.
I’m kinda glad and scared that youtube recommends me vids that I need to watch..
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.porassss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this
Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is dr.porassss.
"...two shaking bundles of desire draped in our beautiful flaws, whispering to each other, 'It's okay, I'm still here'"
what a good line, reminding me of a song called, "I'm glad you're evil too"
we always say perfect timing, but i think bro simply sees that we are all so human and struggling within the same human condition. we all feel and fear these concepts so much that they're always on our minds. it's universal and constant in a way. regardless, thank u good sir :)
"I think bro" lmao
"If you wished to be loved, love."
im living by this
the timing is wild 😭
Frr it always is
I swear, ugh… pure catharsis.
Fr
God loves you ❤
He’s done it again 🙃
To be loved = to be accepted as we are, faults and all.
And then encouraged to become the best version of yourself.
modern women don't want to do that.
@@jurassicthunder Why not?
@@jurassicthunderno
Got this right after a messy, painful breakup. As i lay in bed, dealing with this grief and post-breakup sickness, anxiety, it feels surreal seeing show up now.. Perhaps the universe is always listening lol.
God’s always listening 💙
One must imagine sisyphus unconditionally loved.
This guy is in my head and observing my personal progression to drop the most perfect, relevant videos to my situation at any point
I find it reassuring to know that regardless of time and age, the human experience is vast and thorough. For better or worse, I feel less lonely when walking a path well walked before.
he's not
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“The beloved fears and hates the lover, and with the best reasons; For the lover is forever trying to strip bare his beloved .” - ballad of the sad café - Carson Mcullers.
Perfect quote
Been in a relationship for a little over a year, and what i’ve found out about myself through this journey with this person is that i am not as loving as a person as i thought. Whether it be my own personal mental health issues or my unwillingness to give a part of myself i’m unaware of, i find that the only thing i want is to be held.
To fall into them and not wake up
the passion and wholesomeness of being without desire
but a willingness to do so
the familiarness of their touch sometimes feels unfamiliar
my mind drift from a point of traumatic repair
as if being operated on by an inexperienced surgeon
i feel as if i am the issue for which i must solve, yet with no desire to solve it
the disconnection from myself and reality seemingly causing a void to form between myself and them
promoted by my unwillingness to change what i’ve spent so much time building
i feel walls being created as if my efforts to keep going are simply me running down the hill to an eventual conclusion
I see what may be coming if change doesn’t happen, tho i have no desire to do so
You will, but it may be after the biggest mistake of your life. keep us updated, and good luck
@@pounchoutzIt definitely might be a huge mistake. I wish goodluck to OP.
Sounds like the few times/only time you have ever been truly loved and in love, ended in absolute heart wrenching tragedy that only your subconscious can see. And it’s protecting you by devoiding you per se of any more negative experiences. Though at the expense of devaluing any experience at all like joy excitement companionship. Those walls are your ego defending itself. One day hopefully someone will come across you and make you *feel* just a littlllleeee more than anyone else. And although it might seem terrifying (well subconsciously it will but you don’t/can’t realize it or admit that to yourself much the less) that is the moment to go all in and jump. I’ve been there. Ranges of just void of feelings to existential metaphysical nihilistic truths/beliefs, the only way out is love. And even if it doesn’t end well, you got a glimpse of what your life *could* be. Why see the world so grey and dull when you once saw it so vibrant and lively. And it was just …. Fun.
"so what do I live for? Simply, I live. And I know that it is better to live with another, side by side".
To live simply for the sake of living, is something I just cannot wrap my head around. For such a long time, after so much struggle, desperation and bitterness, after a childhood where I had to grow, holding onto the loneliness, I've found "the missing part". Or so, I thought. I thought that this deep, cold pit in me, that this void in my mind, heart and soul were simply existing, due to my yet to be created purpose, passion, skills, strengths and so on. And so, I drove myself crazy. I told myself every second, minute, hour, day, that I *have* to find purpose, I *have* to find, no, to create that answer to this big "why?", that hanged over my head, for my whole existence.
Why am I here? Who am I supposed to be? What should I live for?
Sure, I'm young, it's normal for me to worry about these things. But I feel, as if the way I feel and the way I'm trying to live is not right. I drove myself into desperation, because of this desire to know, what it is like to *be*. To not rely on anything or anybody. To know what you want, what you'd like and what you know you need to do.
I never really knew what to do, but did anybody ever, really did?
I'm still lost. I don't have any talents, passion, purpose or meaning. These grand things, that were supposed to be already existent in some hidden form in my life, just like a child develops their self and passions, from a frittle age, have never taken form, or have ever been born.
I grew not as a lonely child, but as a lonely mind, soul and heart. I am as impatient, as I am desperate to find these grand things. Why? Because I cannot meet the end of my life, without knowing how far I could possibly get. And with these things, with purpose, with meaning, a path in life. With passions, that thing, that action or decision that sparks flames inside your heart, that turns your soul on fire, that makes you *love* it. The talent, that so called "gift", that is second to life. That special attribute of one's being. All of these things are the base of finding the answer for that big "why?"
And yet, I couldn't get anything.
We all end up looking for something in life. I don't think the case is that you've not found anything, it's that you haven't found these things *yet*.
In another of Sisyphus/Ben's videos, he talks about mountain climbers as an analogy for the search for meaning in life. To paraphrase, some part of the video discussed the idea that reaching the top is actually an excuse to go climb the mountain. It's not only the summit that we strive for, but the winding, challenging and interesting path along the way that gives the climb itself its meaning. The summit wouldn't be nearly as appreciable if not for the climb.
Your comment really resonates, and makes me think you're being hard on yourself (I have had similar thoughts and feelings about not living right). It sounds a bit like you're lost in expectations that have been latched onto you for a long time. I would hazard a guess that you've taken these expectations on in more ways than one. There is no right way to live. The closest I can imagine to such a way, is one that maximises the fulfillment of you and those around you. What that looks like is entirely up to you. Perhaps there is freedom in discarding the notion of grand purposes, passions, or talents. People often expect a talent to be turned into something important. Whether it's for the benefit of the person with that talent, well that's another question in and of itself.
I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm sorry. Sorry that your closest company has been loneliness this whole time, and that you're still battling some questions that feel really big. If it is any comfort, you will meet the end of your life having fulfilled *some* amount of these things. I know this to be true because you're still here now. You will never find all the answers, nor will you find any definitive ones, but you will find some that work for you. Those bits of life/wisdom are the things you should hold on to, but not so tightly that you never let go, just tight enough that they can guide you to the next answers.
You don't have to be special, you already are.
I find it abhorrent to simply live out my life for no other reason than I was born into it.
Felt this one
you want to find that why? try finding something that you love that also something the world rewards you for. and then stick to it. don't try to change it, be loyal to your why. consistently. at some point your mind will adjust to this why, and you will feel that this is your calling. good luck stranger.
remember to manifest. you are your thoughts.
What I find interesting about this video is that, though the knee-jerk interpretation can be that it refers specifically to romantic love, there's nothing stopping one from interpreting it under the guise of other forms of love.
Another sisyphus update that comes out on "that" day
What day?
@@thesaddestdude3575the day when it couldn’t have been more perfectly timed i assume
@@igotwect3174 Right on the money....
Wizard level timing
I believe that friends are the best version of love and that real friendship satisfies more than relationships.
You postulate a mutual exclusivity that doesn't exist. The relationships I had so far have all been with my best friend in the whole world at that time.
Cool story bro
good 4 u ig
Your belief, does it bring you fulfillment?
@@lonestarr1490 Exactly it's the *exclusivity* of romantic relationships that make them different from friendships and as for me, lesser than friendships
They doubt these grim eyes more than what I have said even when such have shrieked for who seemed they truly are. Now I grieve of losing everything that I never had and I don't know just how much more do I have to lose.
At this point, I don't want to desire love. I just want to be remarkable but forgotten.
5:00
The phrase "I am still here" was...unexpected. Thank you, Sisyphus. Those four little, insignificant words are something that i've come to understand to be the "apotheosis of my being" so to say. I've been repeating myself this for some time now, that simply existing and living is what, in a way, makes me feel...complete. Living, just so I can Live. The simple understanding that sharing my existence with someone else, or just by myself, is what makes... i'd say just about everything feel more valuable and worth experiencing.
I am still here, i'll still experience pain, dread, discomfort, solitude, remorse but also happiness, joy and love, and i hope to share as much as i can with someone else, to value me AND them as people. Imperfect, fearful, irritable, beautifully human people.
I am still here, YOU are still here, WE are all still here, and one way or another, we deserve to be.
pretty dope feeling
i feel epic
1:00 no way he started mewing
Aura +1000
”I am still here.” To say these words to each other until the end of time, thats love.
Not Sisyphus dropping this before my first date with an old friend from high school 😭
good luck bro 🫡
@goodboi6418 Let us know how it went. All the best bro! :)
How did it go bro?
@@vatrapperman7482 She just flew back in yesterday and I saw her all morning. She wants me to pick her up again the same time tomorrow 🫣
@@KalpeshMange92 I think it might be the start of something great 😳
it is getting better
"It's Fine. I'm still here"
Are you in my walls? The timing is immaculate
“I understand that they won't accept the real me unconditionally. To gain their acceptance, I must present something that isn’t entirely me-general attractive qualities, good looks, pleasant conversation, a worthy mask. Is it deception to later reveal my true self after tricking them into letting me in, driven by the selfish desire to be loved?”
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One of the hardest dynamics is love given between an anxious attachchment style and avoidant attachment style. I learned that the hard way.
what is an avoidant attacthment style? is that not an oxymoron?
To be loved is not to be in a romantic relationship but to have a friend that you also love
This makes me think of the quote 'If you want to go fast, go alone, if you want to go far, go together'. One wonderful aspect of love for me is sharing goals and supporting each others goals so that you can do and be more than you can on your own
I've been watching this nonstop help
The lesson of “the awkward moment” is that love is just showing up
Sisyphus, I’m not entirely sure how you always manage to time these videos so perfectly to correspond with it being exactly what so many of us need to hear - but I thank you for it. I like to think myself a sensible person until I spiral emotionally, your videos always manage to bring me back to myself. You and your work are truly inspirational ❤
Avoiding the responsibility of freedom called me out on so many levels and i thank you for that!
this came at the perfect moment
Since I was a teenager and even in childhood, I realized that no one would love me except those who made me, my mother and father, and I was right.
This. I just turned 19 and just feel completely unloveable and it really has been fucking up my schedule and mental health so badly to the point where I would off myself in a couple years. It’s brutal.
this video came out the day I got rejected by the first person I've ever asked. I stayed up for hours wondering why I can't have human connection. I woke up today and saw this and felt a little better about my situation
Life goes on. Allow yourself the opportunity to feel bad, and learn. Then carry on with your life.
"Loves not your ex, but the person who let you talk about them 100 times over."
One cannot be and also not desire to be loved, we are human beings and this is our nature. The relationship is a bond, an enjoinment of two different people as a way to complete one another. To live for the other is to live for yourself to live for yourself is to live for the other.
The timing is universal
"The desire to be loved", We're always actually loved we only do not see it until it's gone, it is more like when a person gets sick and realizes the health he had.
Being loved itself is only a mean that justifies the end of escaping confeontation with emptiness therefore seeking for comfort but we do not realize that our families and many others love us'
Ben,
As many have already stated, your videos are always impeccably timed. I have struggled and grown this past year, and your videos have been a warm solace. I hope your waters have been calm as of late.
Much love.
everyone wants to be loved but no one wants to be a lover
But I do, I want to care for someone, I want to hold someone, I want to be the shoulder they can cry on, I would love to be loved, but I need to love someone.
@@3695B its not just the affectionate acts that make up being a lover, it is also loving all the awkward and weird but true sides of someone and its hard to do that with all the standards of what a 'desirable' person is built upon
Everyone wants that one person who’ll drop everything just to help them out or be with them when shit’s not going so well. Rather than look, I’ve tried to be that person for someone. To genuinely love them despite all their flaws. Their aloof, inconsiderate, and emotionally volatile nature. I see their flaws and have experienced its ugliness… but I still cared about them. I still loved them despite it. It’s not enough, though. Sometimes you’re just never enough despire how much of a fuck you give
That was my biggest mistake, and now I have nobody to love.
@@assistmans I relate to you. But loving someone who seem to care a lot about you only to find out you were only there as a past time for them, they were already waiting for someone and ends it as soon as they get their attention and leaving you behind. Truly heartbreaking. I haven't left nor eaten these past few days. Maybe it would have been better to not care at all.
A week of being lost in the grief of my heartbreak to figure out what I must do to move forward, and I figured it out in 5 minutes simply by sitting to watch a video.
This video showed up to me in the day I decided that living alone is the best option available for me . Until things change i am convinced 100%
not waiting someone to get into my life and make me happy is the most realistic belief , we all deserve love but we should also consider the fact that being loved by somebody needs too much luck to make everything fit for you.
Thank you this Sisyphus. I just went through an altercation at work where a resentful person considered my recent, sudden attempts to connect to others as me being creepy. In reality, it was only one person, but my desire to be seen as good among not just one person but everyone I come across is what made it so damaging.
Now I see that I shouldn't condense this desperate need for admiration into one person, or a circle of friends, or any other flawed, fickle human being. I don't know how, but I need to simply not need validation from another. And if I do love someone, it would be because I love them, not because I think they love me.
Self-love is not enough. If we continue thinking we can just rely on ourselves, we’re basically doomed. I really wish it wasn’t seen as corny or clingy or desperate to just love someone. We sure do have a lack of love in this society anyway.
just wanna say I appreciate you so much man. somehow you always upload with exactly what I need to hear, or at the least, offer something to challenge my perspective on things. i don't want to sound parasocial or anything, but I just want to thank you for inadvertently being a friend when I'm at my lowest. kudos.
This video invokes a certain feeling of warmth which strikes me at the core; soothing the soul as if someone is holding your hand and showing you out of a mental cage. Love your videos man.
So happy to see how big this channel has gotten. Good for you man. Keep going. I'll watch as long as you upload.
Thank you for existing. And much more thanks for putting out these videos. For a while it felt like these videos were my reason for living and kept me out of negativity. Inner work must be done to heal. I hope you all are doing well.
I swear you always drop these videos at the most needed times. Thank you again Sisyphus ❤
this video was really therapeutic for me, im in my first relationship actually. And sometimes i struggle to accept that my partner really loves me, wishing they expressed it as often as i do. Then i also feel selfish for thinking that. Maybe i just need to chill a little lol.
Your videos keep getting better, thank you !
Perfect timing, as always.
I know what it’s like to love someone because i feel it with you sisyphus 55, i go to sleep with your voice of comfort, when you post i get this burst of excitement. and when you don’t, i know you’re okay
your videos always seem to find me when i need them most… thank you
Once again, the timing of that video was perfect. Thanks, Sisyphus55 ❤
i love you sisyphus 55 thank you for being here.
I wrote the whole video out as a calligraphy practice. The message just hits harder every replay. I love it.
This video came at the perfect time. I just had a grave discussion with my girlfriend about our relationship and thus prompted me to talk about it with her yk, and has also painted a clearer path for what i have to do to stay with her. I have followed your channel for a while, and for this video especially, I am truly grateful sisyphus 55. Thank you❤
With every new video, I have the feeling that Sisyphus is reading my mind. Every sentence resonated with me so deeply. And also kudos for the person who makes the animation, it's getting better everytime, while keeping it's unique style. Thank you so much for giving us our little philosophical dose!
I needed this so badly.
Your timing is impeccable. Thank you
This is good timing. Thank you
It's been 4 years and I still feel like I need your videos to reflect on the craziness that love turned me into. I miss those old days when we were younger and more naive and yet it still leaves an almost bitter sweet feeling of contempt left in my mind that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. I don't understand when it all went wrong and I wish I could relive it different for the things that I did but I know the time has long passed and something about knowing that just... hurts
Love you Sisyphus ❤️
Wow this one made me tear up! Thanks for putting it so succinctly and poetically.
I’ve always struggled with the concept of desiring to be loved. I always romanticized relationships, falling in love, and stuff like that. I always wondered why a single sentence in a Wikipedia article, an unfortunate truth that sentence carried which I have seen be true.
The Wikipedia article was about Aspergers, which I read when I was 15, my parents had talked/assured me I had it, so I accepted it. Everything went fine, until I read that most people with Autism, never marry, have unsatisfactory relationships, etc. It broke me, it feels wrong in a way to speak in past tense because it breaks me. My parents always questioned why I got depressed then ended up attempting suicide, I tried to cover up the actual reasoning, but that was it. I could not imagine an existence of not even loneliness chosen by me, but mandatory loneliness.
I have been in the understanding for a long time, that I’m a solitary person, that I’m a person prone to isolation. And I have always sort of outsourced the socializing, and happiness if you will to a prospective partner. The fact I have no friends, barely any social interaction with anyone but a cashier, would be easily fixed by having someone.
The wording has changed, the sentence turned into a paragraph, the quality of the text much improved but the same core concept applies. I’m scared of being alone, of being truly alone. I lived in a country completely alone, I go to movies alone, I go to restaurants alone, I go to festivals alone, I exist alone, and I enjoy that. But at the end of the day, I wish I had the choice, and the opportunity for growth, that only being with other people could bring. But frankly I’m still scared, I’m terrified, of the thought of being alone in the same way 15 year old me was.
And I wish it wasn’t that way, that I could find the tolerance, the understanding that I’m not mentally fucked up, within myself but I don’t think it’s possible to find such things within me. I have tried to season everything with salt and pepper, but the dish is still the same. I love being alone, my mom asks me what I really want to do? To walk 4 hours in the blistering sun, to go sit at a library, with 6 different books I will never read more than 20 pages to, and write. I would love that, but when I had that, if I had that, I’d feel sad, I’d feel jealous, because there won’t be anyone calling me to ask if I want to do dancing, or to the park for a picnic, or to watch movies. I don’t know if I even want to be married, and I try to justify desiring someone, in the same way one might desire to sky dive. Because I’ve never experienced it, and I want to. But I also question, do I really need justification, do I need to justify/defend my desire to want to be loved like everyone else? Do I need to defend my desire to have a social existence?
Sorry for the vent.
I needed this alot. Just 5 minutes of my time completely changed my perspective. That we love because spending time with someone and not just yourself feels better. None of this pedestal bs. Thank you man
i love this youtuber so much
why does a random guy on the internet bring me so much joy..?
Needed this reminder, thank you
the timing of this video cannot be any more perfect.
This is one of the most beautiful things i’ve ever seen!
This was fucking beautiful, the animations, the voiceover, the text and the message. Definitely one of the best videos I’ve seen from you. Keep it up
thank you❤ this was so relatable in a moment where I've never felt so lonely
YES, YES, MANS I LOVE YOU FOR USING A SOULMATE WHO WASN'T MEAN'T TO BE
Thank you man, you've opened my eyes, I've never been able to let my mask down, that was the downfall off all my relationships or attempts at it, I forgot to be me.
I love you Sisyphus 55
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hey sisyphus , Thank you for making videos like this , i hope you too are taking care of yourself . I am going thru some drastic changes in my life right now and this videos help me a lot . thank you
I hope you get through it okay buddy!!
@@floopare1792 thank you , I'll certainly will
They say none of us are islands, but that is not true. In our minds we are and always will be alone. We show people pictures of the island, the welcoming beaches, sometimes even the darkest caves, but no one else will ever set foot on that island and as hard as we fight against the tides, we will never reach another shore.
Good timing, man
How beautiful, listening to this at 4:30 after returning from a late night talk with my best friend about our relationships, ourselves and our futures. Amidst all the uncertainty of the 20s, I feel endlessly grateful to know love, both romantically as well as platonically: the possibility to bridge the gap between our subjectivities, letting ourself forget and perhaps even disbelieve the loneliness of existence. That fleeting moment in which all the barriers between our souls seem to have melted away, leaving only ourselves, makes life worth living.
god, the timing of thissss
As always, this is beautiful!
the timing could never be this real
I’m sobbing. I just came to this conclusion myself so this was very relevant. Every single word you used was necessary. There was no extra yapping. Explained it perfectly man ❤ 😭
I love this side of TH-cam