I like this. Kinda giving me the vibe of "All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us." ― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring
The philosopher Seneca said: “It is not that we have a short time to live, but that we waste a lot of it. Life is long enough, and a sufficiently generous amount has been given to us for the highest achievements if it were all well invested."
im just imagining some giant that cross dresses in a huge house with huge props to make them seem relatively girl size despite being top 0.1% of all humans for height and overall size
When I was young I never thought I would live past 21. I'm 60 now. I just finished my first novel; my editor is going over now. I have a bunch of other projects involving writing, TH-cam, music etc in the works. I plan on having unfinished projects when I die because reaching goals is a fleeting moment and isn't the point - it's the daily journey where real joy and meaning are found.
Never thought of it that way, the having unfinished projects when you die part, and fleeting moment of the journey instead of destination. I am exactly half your age, and I overthink a lot, a lot of anxiety and avoidance. I’m still working on it, stressing about how much experiences and opportunities that I have missed in my teenage years and most(if not all) of my 20s. But hey, everybody’s journey is different, and that includes where/when the journey begins. Thanks for sharing.
@@avalokiteshvara113 Pick a goal. Take one step, and then another towards that goal. You'll never do ALL the things you want, but you can do a large number of them if you live in the moment, rather than being frozen in place worrying about why you can't do something, or catch yourself in a web of planning that becomes an excuse for inaction.
It’s because that actually does work for a very small percentage of people and our generation grew up watching people our age get rich and famous for doing practically nothing.
@@saberxzeroi hate generalized statements like this. Tell me how happy people are when they dont have a home or are starving? Been there done that, fuck being broke and homeless that shit is the most miserable experience having to have no place to sleep and no food to eat. All this hippy shit completely ignores basic necessities, not everyone wants to be a starving bag of bones bhuddist monk. Look how unhealthy some of them look. Literal walking skeletons some of them.
i struggle with basically everything you mention in this video. Brought this up to my therapist a few weeks ago, and when discussing "careers that make you happy" we concluded that maybe the job itself doesn't have to make you happy, but the values attached to it do. For example, maybe you don't care much about your job, but you care about stability so you can have a job at a public administration. Or maybe you care about working only in the mornings. You need to list a set of values you want in your life and try to find a job that will allow you those values. Not really trying new jobs and hoping for one of them to click somehow.
I never did until I was forced into "something". Also I half-ass that "something" all the time and I don't care that much about the audience (since I don't get paid) so most of the stress comes from the backlash from it rather than the "something" itself.
@haropones yes - the advice above is key. You need to find your values and stick hard to them. Find a job, any job they matches those values and where you work with yourself with your passion, or with a team you like to work with. I work as a LSA in a school now, after previously doing in home end of life care work. I love these jobs, even with lower pay, as they mean something to me and there is purpose to them. Purpose and authenticity is everything.
The final bit, where You said, that sharing the intimate thoughts may help others and is rewarding - that's the most important bit. That feeling after you manage to formulate the emotions, bits of thoughts, impressions into a coherent statement is amazing. It also helps with figuring out yourself - as our minds will create all kinds of fancy-word-labyrinths just to hide from ourselves things that we do not want to see, and naming things for what they are - that breaks those labyrinths, despite sometimes sounding ridiculous. So glad to see You grow once more!
Oh, the human condition. It is fascinating and at times challenging. I have no words of advice, I am also still figuring it out. I am also turning 27 this month. I am doing an IT job that some days I really like, some days I feel low as well. I get interested in things, then get bored of them. Find new friends, then we forget each other. Often I am thinking about my life trajectory; on other days I am just enjoying the sunshine and Nutella after a bike ride. What you're going through is normal, and I wish you all the best!
Just finished watching, I felt like I had alot to say while watching the vid, but now that I've finished it I feel at a loss for words. Great vid, immaculate vibes. To anyone reading, I hope your day is good, and if not that it gets better.
Figure out who you really are, then fall in love with her. Always listen to her. Never neglect her to appease others. You are cool in my opinion, but then again I don't know you, I'm just an admirer of the human that your videos showcase you to be. The most important thing however is for you to enjoy yourself. This takes time, you have plenty of time. You're exactly where you're supposed to be. Thank you for sharing, always good to hear your voice. Oh yeah and I hope you get that unicorn one day.
There was so much i wanted to do and so many people i imagined myself turning into. I turn 22 this weekend and hearing someone talk about things I have been grappling with in the position of someone whose lived a tiny bit more and reached a point of returning to what has meaning to them is important to me. You talking about your insecurities and wanting to be pretty, or successful. How you also struggle with lacking identity and direction. I needed this and I’m glad you posted it. I hope you find what has meaning to you. I hope it gets easier to do the hard things.
I really appreciate your honesty. Not being an "e-girl" myself, I can still relate to a lot of what you are saying, so you are definitly not alone with those feelings. I don't know what kind of content you do apart from your "yapping" videos, as you called them haha, but I really hope that you can find what makes you happy and I think you are on the right track for that! And don't be so hard on yourself, you are doing good, even if you yourself don't feel like that's true right now.
No one is a loser. Life is different for everyone. People do not even agree on what success is. Do not pressure yourself, just do your best. World economy does not help many people. Internet is not a great place to get applause.
I can relate to your story, I studied game design as well and didn't finish. I have a strong interest in art as well! Though I am a decade older than you and can tell you, your resilience lies within your own self journey. Nobody else can compare to what you have exactly gone through. You will get through the hurdles, also it sounds like you are working hard from my perspective. It takes a lot to put yourself out here and speak up. I thought of becoming a social media influencer once and well I don't think it is for me, but to reach out and speak up for those who speak up for themselves I find it empowering. I thank you for your video and I hope you find peace/success in what you want for yourself. Sometimes it can be easier to say I want to feel angry or depressed, than to say I am angry and depressed. Sending you all the good vibes and have a splendid birthday!
As someone who, at 36, also struggles to pick a direct path, I respect your vulnerability so much and I'm incredibly proud of you for posting this. I feel like you're going to be successful at what you're meant to do. You're still young and have so much life left to experience. ❤
Your level of introspection and keen sense of honest observation make you an absolute guru 👌. Watch some of Sadguru's content. Your truth is only relevant to you, but it can be very inspirational to others to see you go through this process of seeking self awareness ❤
I felt that, everything you said. Ever since I was a teenager, I wanted to be a writer. Thought I'd be published (and famous, lol) by 25, 30 the LATEST! I'm going to be 28 in a couple of days. Nothing published. I hardly write. When I do, I sometimes do feel like I know what I'm doing, that I am capable, but I am too lazy (?) to sit down and actually work on something like a novel. Or a short story. I still write for a living, I am a copywriter and I am really good at that. But it's not the same. It sometimes makes writing feel like a chore, when it used to be a creative outlet. I find myself pondering more and more often whether I should have made my hobby my job. In hindsight, maybe not the best decision for me.
Guys don't fall into this trap, she changed her strategy and now uses the image of a cute open casual girl. Or not - I know you'll be holding on to that hope until the last minute =).
It's very refreshing to see how rational and conscientious you are about what is at best a humbling realisation and at worst a profound injury to the Gen Z ego. This is the first step on a new way towards yourself. The road is hard but more rewarding than any amount of conformity ever will be. Wish you the best on your way.
In school, when I was 5, we used to write on paper what we wished our life was like in the future. I remember how I drew myself, my future wife and 2 children infront of a house with a tree next to it and the sun with a smiling face. Well. Now I'm 29, alone and work a job without a regular schedule. At least I got the house (inherited since my dad died 11 years ago). Since my dad died I haven't been the same. The outside world, apart from my work, basically doesn't exist anymore. Life is not always what we dream of when we were younger. No need in chasing those dreams. Reality hits hard.
Kirbs, you are smart, honest and endearingly authentic. Online sharing can feel… it can ruin what we love in some ways. You explain things in clear and succinct ways. Your “followers” may be valuable, beautiful human hearts but you are not obligated to change who you are or put yourself in overdrive. Being you… sharing you… your art… your heart… these are your most precious things. *insert Sméagol quote* It’s beautiful how incredibly insightful you are. Care for yourself. Be mindful for you.
No matter how things land, please know you are a good person. You are loved. You are respected. Everyone here is rooting for you on this exploration journey.
_"Immature poets imitate; mature poets steal."_ Later in the same essay from T.S. Eliot, _"A good poet will usually borrow from authors remote in time, or alien in language, or diverse in interest."_ Taste(s) are incommeasurable and art's also about finding kindred aesthetic spirits in their particularity (and that too can be[come] timeless). You have to go grazing on things to mull over; inspiration is triangulated and bounced-off things you love, other(s') art, nature, whatever. A good art book is a tool, and no one ever regrets adding to one's toolkit or creative arsenal. Originality is overrated. Obsessively trace precursors, forbearers across time and media-- all style is syncretic: the soul - _psyche_ - is a butterfly and feeds and dances asymptotically --Mountains can be climbed brute force straight up with rope on paper, but freestyle forced to follow the natural lines will always be more difficult, more dangerous and more remarkable. Carpe diem as "seize the day" doesn't reflect the _plucking ripe fruit_ connotation of the original. It comes slowly, then all at once _when the time's ripe._ 'Do what makes you Happy' = Appetites Satisfied. Throwing logs on that fire won't make you the fire. Rome truly isn't built in a day-- we have to build a house for being-ourselves and a home for spirit too. Being divided against one's self and inclinations/habits is a moment in that development but needn't be clinged to as a generator of inspiration, creativity ect. 'Knowing what you want' gives you a moving target, confidence in seeing what is Good and doing right by it is what allows one to be at home with one's self always.
Whelp. It's ok to be average. As a matter of fact the very definition of the word means most people are average. What really matter is that you're happy with yourself.
These honest, revelationary videos are the best kind of content. My advice would be, just keep being your genuine self on youtube. There is so much bulls*** content on social media with the soul purpose of actively making people more stupid and I love seeing that people like yourself are going completely the other way. Can't wait to see more videos like this!
you don't need to feel ashamed of your situation, many young people (and 27 is definitely YOUNG) are in your situation, lacking identity and apprehension for the future, even after university. if your life was one day long, at 27 it would only be 8am, THE FLIPPING MORNING!! your life is ahead of you, just try to live it and remember it, become a net positive.
I'm not sure why i was recommended one of your videos or what made me click it but ive watched a few now and *really* relate to you. I'm a little older than yourself, 32, but i lived on the internet my whole life and just assumed that i would make my fame and millions here even though i'd failed, or more truthfully gave up when i got bored, everything i tried growing up. I went through, im still going through sometimes, everything you're talking about and im currently watching my late 20s friends going through it now to.. I think we all do it in our own way, working through our own issues and finding a more "adult" self but your not alone, your late 20s are tumultuous- well done for going back to education now and recognising these things about yourself because it can go on much longer if you don't
I only just found your videos but I'm so proud of you. You won't regret making a change if you're not happy. There are more people rooting for you than you know. Would love to see some art videos!
The Pity Angle seems to be your calling, if views are any indication. They say if you want to be famous you have to give up something in return, like respect, honor, originality, dignity etc.
I'm weeks away from turning 30. To this day I struggle with these exact feelings. My main aspiration was to be a pilot and I have still have yet to achieve that goal due to a mental health diagnosis that is keeping me from getting a medical certificate. It gets me down sometimes, to be honest. However, you and I both have a lot of years ahead of us (Lord willing) so theres no point in beating ourselves up about it.
Thank you for posting these videos. I love these journal/vlogs that you've been uploading here. They're really therapeutic in a sense. You said at the end that this video might resonate less with people but i think seeing other people your age struggle with similar things and seeing people take that journey towards finding themselves really helps against the feeling of hopelessness. It makes your own journey feel a little more possible. And there's lots of people in their mid 20's going through this self finding journey. I wish you the very best on your journey. Excited to see how things go.
Honestly this reflection content about life is unique. I'm still 19 and also still don't know what to do after college. I can't articulate my thoughts and feelings as well as you do. So yeah, your content helps me to reflect on myself too, thanks
It seems like 26-27 is a type of midlife crisis for lots of people. Because they realize that "The special thing" that they have been conditioned to expect from movies etc. never materializes. But after that age, its not so bad because people accept that life is mostly nothing special. And then its all good. Even if you do obtain millions of dollars and all that, life is just as ordinary, only in more luxurious circumstances.
I wonder how much our lack of responsibility in the current generation plays in this. Not everyone ofcourse but most things you just pay someone to take care of or do. For example We don't know how to make our own belongings and we don't fully take care of our own elders or children. I wonder if it's a wake up call to stop outsourcing the most important things in our lives to others. My goals: I want to start making more of my own food, get outside more, and connect with real life people
I went to a Greek Fest at St. Basil The Great Orthodox Church and they sold tons of Food Arts and Crafts even young olive trees in pots and even young Greek Children danced Greek Music and i drank a Greek Beer on Church Grounds.
As someone who dropped out of university at 19 and then spent several years feeling insecure, depressed and like a failure, I truly emphasize with what you went through/are going through. I can't give you any answers but I truly hope you find them.
This is the first of your videos I’ve found but I connect to this content so much. Thank you for this message! Also btw you’re very intelligent and beautiful. It’s so powerful the way that you’re growing, thank you for this conversation about social media and self-identity
Thank you so much for sharing. As someone who grew up chronically online, I can relate. Hopping from aesthetic to aesthetic bc idk my authentic vibe. Recently I've been taking the time to figure myself out and it's been rewarding
you're kind of like me except i never had any grand ambitions. i'm still beating myself up over that. i don't use social media that much but i am terminally online. i cyberstalked you and your fish in the machine painting is genuinely amazing. don't give up on art.
Striving is tough. I dropped out of college and writing music became my world, but, I remember feeling "too old" for the scene at 24. Everything I tried never felt good enough and felt 'tainted' by my insufficiencies. I went back into education at 27 to study music production (this is, after years of heavy depression). Fast forward, and I now have a chemistry degree, but work as an embedded software developer? It's okay not be certain about what you want to do, even now I question it. It's accepting, being confident/true to ourselves in the now that seems important.
It's going to be tough for you because you care about other people's opinions and validation. Also because you are an attractive woman people will not be real with you most of the time for a lot of reasons. You seem very capable of introspection and you have a relatively high verbal acuity. Listening to you talk feels good because of that and the quality of your voice. I know you don't want to say anything bad about pursuing online attention, but I think the environment is generally poisonous. Being a professional artist is also very hard and has a lot to do with image and brand management versus just making beautiful things. I don't say that to discourage you in particular. I just see a lot of people who think their life purpose is going to come from a career when for most people, women especially, purpose and meaning tends to come from your personal relationships. I hope things work out for.
Your introspection will serve you well. This is the kind of content that you seem to find satisfying and is interesting for me to watch. I love the human condition and young people on a quest for discovery. About the unicorn; one of my 3 daughters is your age and for her 27th birthday I gave her an array of "Hello Kitty" items. She called me and sounded like when she was 6 going on about it!. Dream on! Never give up your love for that :)
I turned 23 ten months ago. Left my home 4 months ago, became homeless last month and change, but I have a ‘stable’ job as a mechanic. I didn’t ever picture myself being completely alone in this life, only having coworkers to talk with and no one else. It’s crazy to think that it hasn’t even been such a long time since I was spending lots of time online. Fast forward to now, I’ve left everything behind, e-girl life is gone, focusing solely on whether I’ll keep my job and live or not. I feel some sort of peace in it, even if it’s bitter. I do miss chatting with friends, but they did not care for me at all, it all felt fake, and empty. It’s been tough so far, but having a career with new opportunities with my employer is genuinely far more exciting and fulfilling than being an Internet personality. Really, I’ve been through so much shit, but I still wake up every morning and say life is blessed. Because it is a blessing.
You don't have to pretend to be someone you're not. As a woman, you're perfect just as you are, without needing to conform to trends like becoming an e-girl or anything else that takes you away from your true self. I can relate to this journey because I used to be into the gothic scene and had long hair. At the time, it felt authentic to me, but as I grew, I realized it wasn't truly who I am. I've since discovered my genuine self, and now I don't feel the need to follow trends or fit in. I've found freedom in being true to myself, without needing validation from anyone or anything else.
*ASK YOURSELF THIS QUESTION* "were these / are these MY dreams and ambitions, or are they the ones SOCIETY has installed in me as a kind of default...???" In 2014 I had "made it" I was worth €6 million and i was deeply unhappy - the novelty had worn off and it was not like the movies. I was SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY. I had done the hard work, been lucky, got the money and the cars - why wasnt I happy? I suffered brain damage in a mugging and lost everything. After a while I had the opportunity to realise - *IT WAS NEVER MY DREAM...!* IT was society's dream. I now live in a tiny apartment in Bulgaria writing books and tailoring historical suits and I am HAPPY.
_"Imagine yourself at seven. What did that person want to be 'when they grew up'? and ask yourself how far away you are from that."_ -- Madman John McAfee who actually became a pirate.
I really love the openness and vulnerability in these videos! It may feel embarrassing for you to share some of these thoughts and feelings but I think many people just aren’t brave enough to express them verbally, making it seem more ostracizing than they might actually be. I think it’s super important for us as young people to share our experiences growing up with the great social media experiment, because we don’t have an historical model to compare ourselves to. We’re forced to learn as we go, so the more people sharing their experiences, the more data we all have to inform our decisions. The internet continually evolves to more efficiently extract money from us, by design. The more efficient it becomes, the more forethought and intent is required from us to get what we actually want from using it.
There's no end to the amount of us that dreamed of being an artist and/or wealthy through independent efforts. Negligible odds, certainly none without a forceful desire for doing work in the field. I'm no different. The important next step is to establish a way to make a living so you're not dependent on others. Take dependence to the level of you wouldn't need to borrow to survive a bad week, or to go on a trip. Once you have that, start to make better use of the time you guard for yourself. You have a lot of insight, and you're attractive. Those are things of value and will make the world treat you better (it'll eat you for the 2nd too as I'm sure you've discovered). I truly wish you success, broaden your view of what that means and build confidence through smaller victories.
The internet as a whole has destroyed modern men too if you think about it. 15 year old boys used to go down mines to learn responsibility and start providing for their families, now they play Minecraft and talk bad about women online while contributing next to nothing to society and being of no worth to a woman or a family. You think you’re something but you’re nothing really, just parroting what Andrew Tate or someone said. You can’t really judge women because not a single one wants to get close enough to you for you to really know them 🤷🏻♀️. It’s sad sweetie. Get outside.
I also relate to what youre working towards a lot - im only a couple years older but, ive done far less in life - it feels like youre delicately and meticulously brushing off the dust from this shiny gem of passion youd forgotten about and its really encouraging for me to start doing the same
I went back to finish my degree at 25 and just finished this past May at 28. It was tough but gratifying. Enjoy the process--sink yourself into it. You can do it and will be glad you did! Little steps, one day at a time. Also I realize this may not be the validation you are looking for anymore, but you are a cutie patootie.
As someone who grow up before the internet I can see how a destructive force it can potentially be. ‘Comparison is the thief joy’ is probably the most understated phrase I could use to describe what’s happened. Life is a personal journey, we all don’t start from the same place. It’s important to look within and be connected to your own experiences. Id say go back to your art, focus on learning your craft and finding joy for it. The key is to enjoy it for the process rather than how people react to it. Even simpler than that focus on real life relationships and experiences with friends and families sharing and working together. I actually think there is a sweet spot in the internet that creates genuine communities that build bridges but for them to work you got to get out there and find the things that bring joy to your life whether it’s helping people playing sports exploring or creating things but just for the sake of doing it not for how it’s received. You don’t need an identity just to embrace the journey of life.
the brain fully develops around 24-25 and many people have this transitional period of their lives around that age, specially people who don't have a stable life, job and relations type of stability
There are new studies recently that show that development in many areas of the brain actually continues into your 30s. It's quite interesting to read about.
I am surprised how much I relate to this on so many things…. I’m 24 🤣 but I have been going through so much of the same things… even the feeling of that I have been supposed to be an online influencer… i can put myself in your shoes… I love when I can relate with people… 😊
as a 32 year old, something i awakened to when i turned 30 was a couple truths. 1) nobody actually knows what they're doing; we're all just shooting into the dark doing the best we can. and 2) 30 is actually the beginning, not the "end" of something. In your 20's 30 feels like a death. and it is. but its also the beginning. you're 27 and life doesn't look like you thought. ive felt that, its real and i dont minimize it. and also. its never too late to reinvent yourself or start over and take steps to being who you want to be. never. anyway courage to you!
I was constantly comparing myself to others on Instagram, I HIGHLY recommend deleting your social medias. You will thank yourself later after gaining control of your life again. Otherwise, you will constantly catch yourself thinking negative thoughts about life. This is just what Ive seen with my brothers and myself, this is a hard thing our generation is going through that just seems like its taboo to talk about. Much Love to you :) I hope everything becomes easier, you are a bootiful hooman 🙂💙🧡
I found you from a egirl tik tok dance reposted on insta. I stayed for your energy. And your personality. Not your dance. Not your jokes. But because of who you are. Keep being you. Keep finding yourself. You’ll inspire others along the way. The way you open up and ramble and share thoughts on here in these videos are awesome for me to see. I've been sharing my thoughts to my notepad and camera roll for 8 years now. But to no one. Not a soul. So the fact you open up and people support you on here is awesome to see. So take a step back. Learn more. Do more in the real world. But come back and stay in touch. You've built up a little community here who support you.
This is a key point in your life that is very exciting. Follow your gut. Always listen to that feeling inside of you that (if listened to) nourishes your soul. We are all creative beings, and I would love to see some of the things that you make.
I love women but even I can see how bad the culture of making trends and copycatting eachother is. Making steps away from that, and modern idealism in general, is the best advice!
You Really spoke to me on feeling like a loser I remember when i was 19 20 i had such high hopes for my future like i was into gaming content on youtube and wanted to be a successful gaming content creator and on top of me failing that and not reaching my goals it struck me to the core and I personally was in an abusive relationship that really brought my self confidence down to 0 and a college drop out btw. To this day I still post on youtube and I enjoy it now so I try not to focus on the numbers and i work a 9 to 5 and At times I still feel like a loser and useless but I really appreciate your honesty because i feel like a lot of us 26-30 year old are still trying to find their way and we will
I think one thing I can take away from being super insecure and low self-esteemed as a kid is that I never said stupid stuff on the internet. I already knew that I would aways second guess what I would say so I wouldn't say it anyway. I also hated freebies so saying random shit on the internet for easy updoots was the bane of my existence. Some of the brainrot I read on twitter now makes me wanna gauge my eyes out and Im glad I was insecure bc I didn't have such bad takes. Theres always a silver lining to things.
You say you don't think this vid will be that relatable as the previous one, but this: *"I'd invest in the technology to make Pokemon real"* This is one of the most relatable things I've ever heard
There's just megatons of survivorship bias in the whole content creator / social media industry. We see a few chosen ones who made it but not several tens more times of those who didn't.
All I got for being supportive of my ex's social media platform adventure as a potential secondary source of income were some offhand comments about inappropriate messages that slid in her DMs. A parting message that I'll always remember from her leading to the break up is, "do you even know who I am?" Those feet pic requests in her DMs I think really started to inflate her head, as well as perhaps some notions of gradeur to stardom. I sometimes wonder if she made it big like she dreamed of, or if she feels the way about social media as you do now. I don't think I'll ever know, but i do think that the allure of social media has ruined something that was beautiful in my life. Thanks for sharing your perspective.
sounds like putting too much pressure on yourself to "succeed" in the eyes of others (probably via social media) .. tough to break out of that illusion but so worth trying and just enjoying life for you
Six minutes in and this resonates deeply (25 nb amab). Thank you for taking the time to reflect and articulate a feeling of insecurity I'm still learning to navigate. Cheers!
that's me i have no motivation only hope that someday life will be good. Every time i get myself to do stuff i quit weeks later for -relaxation- reasons. right now even money feels useless, every time i worked all i did go to work and go home. Upgrade my pc and eventually quit, it feels like nothing progressing and i just see endless cycle. Been bullied all my school life for being nice kid that i never feel good enough now and overthink every opportunity i could possibly do.
I think folks of all age see getting famous of some type as something that will improve their sense of self-worth and lead to a better overall life, but no amount of views can fill a self-void of purpose.
I think many people have similar delusions of grandiosity and those visions always include the most attractive career paths. Professional athlete, renowned artist, social media influencer, highly successful TH-camr, model, the list goes on and on. The likelihood that any person will become successful and wealthy in any of those career paths is highly unlikely. Far less than 1% actually. The reality is that if you want to be successful and aren’t apart of that 1% I just mentioned you’ve got to choose a suitable career path and work hard. That’s it. You probably won’t become a successful artist or influencer but the odds of becoming a successful nurse, accountant, financial advisor, computer tech, etc, are much higher. Set a realistic goal, stick to it and eventually you’ll have real purpose and viable success.
With 27, you'll be finished your studies around 30. You still have thirty five years ahead of working or maybe having a family or whatever else you end up deciding on doing. Don't fall into the trap of "I'm too old now...", keep going :)
I also have the problem of needing a lot of social reinforcement to perceive i'm doing well in a task, so far I'm putting my heart in the idea of enjoying the moment and experimenting with things until something does well and its of my liking as well, what i'm trying to say is... be conscious of being you and make a rutine you love. Not like, love.
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Life is short, but much longer than advertised. Never assume it's too late.
I like this. Kinda giving me the vibe of
"All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us." ― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring
Yup live ya life
Life is long and excruciatingly filled with endless suffering, and then we live forever!
@@EnergyCenterTV Assuming there's an after life. Personally if I'm going to live forever, I'd rather stay in this world.
The philosopher Seneca said: “It is not that we have a short time to live, but that we waste a lot of it. Life is long enough, and a sufficiently generous amount has been given to us for the highest achievements if it were all well invested."
Never too late for a pet unicorn tbh.
Brain rot is the most accurate term Gen Z came up with
As a 7feet 300 pounds male i don't want to be an e girl anymore
im just imagining some giant that cross dresses in a huge house with huge props to make them seem relatively girl size despite being top 0.1% of all humans for height and overall size
As a Giga Stacy dwarf, I find this highly relatable.
As a 5'8 150 pounds male I think I WANT to be an e-girl now.
ur 2 feet short from reaching wreck it ralphs level /// i believe u can surpass him gl!
is your name Evan
When I was young I never thought I would live past 21. I'm 60 now. I just finished my first novel; my editor is going over now. I have a bunch of other projects involving writing, TH-cam, music etc in the works. I plan on having unfinished projects when I die because reaching goals is a fleeting moment and isn't the point - it's the daily journey where real joy and meaning are found.
Never thought of it that way, the having unfinished projects when you die part, and fleeting moment of the journey instead of destination. I am exactly half your age, and I overthink a lot, a lot of anxiety and avoidance. I’m still working on it, stressing about how much experiences and opportunities that I have missed in my teenage years and most(if not all) of my 20s. But hey, everybody’s journey is different, and that includes where/when the journey begins. Thanks for sharing.
that's real
i'm 30, i wanna do all these things but i feel so trapped in a loop :c
@@avalokiteshvara113 Pick a goal. Take one step, and then another towards that goal. You'll never do ALL the things you want, but you can do a large number of them if you live in the moment, rather than being frozen in place worrying about why you can't do something, or catch yourself in a web of planning that becomes an excuse for inaction.
"i thought i was gunna be a millionaire while doing absolutely nothing" same, same sometimes i still think i will and i have to tell myself no
Why do we do this lol!!
It’s because that actually does work for a very small percentage of people and our generation grew up watching people our age get rich and famous for doing practically nothing.
Were made to believe money=happy.
Buddhist show and teach us the very opposite, for free so take as yoy wull
@@saberxzeroi hate generalized statements like this. Tell me how happy people are when they dont have a home or are starving? Been there done that, fuck being broke and homeless that shit is the most miserable experience having to have no place to sleep and no food to eat.
All this hippy shit completely ignores basic necessities, not everyone wants to be a starving bag of bones bhuddist monk. Look how unhealthy some of them look. Literal walking skeletons some of them.
I don't even know what the hell is even e girl
"I'd invest in the technology to make Pokemon real." .... muchLOLs. xD
It's going to happen, and we'll remember Harapones.
write that down, write that down
Wouldn't that just be genetically engineering our pets and giving them superpowers in augmented reality?
Wait, they're not real?
god damn it i think i still want it.
i struggle with basically everything you mention in this video. Brought this up to my therapist a few weeks ago, and when discussing "careers that make you happy" we concluded that maybe the job itself doesn't have to make you happy, but the values attached to it do. For example, maybe you don't care much about your job, but you care about stability so you can have a job at a public administration. Or maybe you care about working only in the mornings. You need to list a set of values you want in your life and try to find a job that will allow you those values. Not really trying new jobs and hoping for one of them to click somehow.
That's such a good way of thinking about it
I never did until I was forced into "something". Also I half-ass that "something" all the time and I don't care that much about the audience (since I don't get paid) so most of the stress comes from the backlash from it rather than the "something" itself.
@haropones yes - the advice above is key. You need to find your values and stick hard to them. Find a job, any job they matches those values and where you work with yourself with your passion, or with a team you like to work with. I work as a LSA in a school now, after previously doing in home end of life care work. I love these jobs, even with lower pay, as they mean something to me and there is purpose to them. Purpose and authenticity is everything.
The final bit, where You said, that sharing the intimate thoughts may help others and is rewarding - that's the most important bit. That feeling after you manage to formulate the emotions, bits of thoughts, impressions into a coherent statement is amazing. It also helps with figuring out yourself - as our minds will create all kinds of fancy-word-labyrinths just to hide from ourselves things that we do not want to see, and naming things for what they are - that breaks those labyrinths, despite sometimes sounding ridiculous. So glad to see You grow once more!
Thank you so much :)
these moments of vulnerability are your superpower
Oh, the human condition. It is fascinating and at times challenging. I have no words of advice, I am also still figuring it out. I am also turning 27 this month. I am doing an IT job that some days I really like, some days I feel low as well. I get interested in things, then get bored of them. Find new friends, then we forget each other. Often I am thinking about my life trajectory; on other days I am just enjoying the sunshine and Nutella after a bike ride. What you're going through is normal, and I wish you all the best!
I'm 23 right now and I can fee the hope slowly leaking out of me
:')
23? Damn man your life is almost over!
bruh im 23 and im 2 years already out of hope XD
@@manitso2686 YOU'LL NEVER BE ANY YOUNGER THAN YOU ARE RIGHT THIS MOMENT. I DIDN'T MEAN TO WRITE THIS IN CAPS BUT HERE YOU GO. SORRY FOR SHOUTING.
26 now and same.. :| I hope I'll get out of my current phase, hopefully this year still, but it's getting close and so far barely progressing..
Just finished watching, I felt like I had alot to say while watching the vid, but now that I've finished it I feel at a loss for words. Great vid, immaculate vibes.
To anyone reading, I hope your day is good, and if not that it gets better.
Followed because of Dystopia stayed because of the introspection. You sound like my inner voice sometimes and im here for it. This is peak "egirl". ❤
Figure out who you really are, then fall in love with her. Always listen to her. Never neglect her to appease others. You are cool in my opinion, but then again I don't know you, I'm just an admirer of the human that your videos showcase you to be. The most important thing however is for you to enjoy yourself. This takes time, you have plenty of time. You're exactly where you're supposed to be. Thank you for sharing, always good to hear your voice. Oh yeah and I hope you get that unicorn one day.
Thank you!
the glazing is crazy
@@oby1794 The fact that you had nothing positive or constructive to add to this conversation speaks volumes.
@@oby1794the minimal glazing is crazy*
Good advice @@haropones
There was so much i wanted to do and so many people i imagined myself turning into. I turn 22 this weekend and hearing someone talk about things I have been grappling with in the position of someone whose lived a tiny bit more and reached a point of returning to what has meaning to them is important to me. You talking about your insecurities and wanting to be pretty, or successful. How you also struggle with lacking identity and direction. I needed this and I’m glad you posted it. I hope you find what has meaning to you. I hope it gets easier to do the hard things.
I really appreciate your honesty.
Not being an "e-girl" myself, I can still relate to a lot of what you are saying, so you are definitly not alone with those feelings. I don't know what kind of content you do apart from your "yapping" videos, as you called them haha, but I really hope that you can find what makes you happy and I think you are on the right track for that! And don't be so hard on yourself, you are doing good, even if you yourself don't feel like that's true right now.
Thank you 🥰
this sounds like a great song title *aggressively opens notes*
No one is a loser. Life is different for everyone. People do not even agree on what success is.
Do not pressure yourself, just do your best. World economy does not help many people. Internet is not a great place to get applause.
I like the way you articulate yourself and your honesty. So good
Thank you!
I can relate to your story, I studied game design as well and didn't finish. I have a strong interest in art as well! Though I am a decade older than you and can tell you, your resilience lies within your own self journey. Nobody else can compare to what you have exactly gone through. You will get through the hurdles, also it sounds like you are working hard from my perspective. It takes a lot to put yourself out here and speak up. I thought of becoming a social media influencer once and well I don't think it is for me, but to reach out and speak up for those who speak up for themselves I find it empowering. I thank you for your video and I hope you find peace/success in what you want for yourself. Sometimes it can be easier to say I want to feel angry or depressed, than to say I am angry and depressed. Sending you all the good vibes and have a splendid birthday!
I love seeing you reasoning about yourself and where you are on your life. Great vid.
Thank you!
As someone who, at 36, also struggles to pick a direct path, I respect your vulnerability so much and I'm incredibly proud of you for posting this. I feel like you're going to be successful at what you're meant to do. You're still young and have so much life left to experience. ❤
Your level of introspection and keen sense of honest observation make you an absolute guru 👌. Watch some of Sadguru's content. Your truth is only relevant to you, but it can be very inspirational to others to see you go through this process of seeking self awareness ❤
I felt that, everything you said. Ever since I was a teenager, I wanted to be a writer. Thought I'd be published (and famous, lol) by 25, 30 the LATEST! I'm going to be 28 in a couple of days. Nothing published. I hardly write. When I do, I sometimes do feel like I know what I'm doing, that I am capable, but I am too lazy (?) to sit down and actually work on something like a novel. Or a short story. I still write for a living, I am a copywriter and I am really good at that. But it's not the same. It sometimes makes writing feel like a chore, when it used to be a creative outlet. I find myself pondering more and more often whether I should have made my hobby my job. In hindsight, maybe not the best decision for me.
Guys don't fall into this trap, she changed her strategy and now uses the image of a cute open casual girl. Or not - I know you'll be holding on to that hope until the last minute =).
This is my favorite series on TH-cam rn please make weekly updates
don't you see that's the very thing she was talking about? the audience having expectations of her? lol
It's very refreshing to see how rational and conscientious you are about what is at best a humbling realisation and at worst a profound injury to the Gen Z ego.
This is the first step on a new way towards yourself. The road is hard but more rewarding than any amount of conformity ever will be. Wish you the best on your way.
You're giving lots of healthy emotion and perspective on life. Appreciate that
In school, when I was 5, we used to write on paper what we wished our life was like in the future. I remember how I drew myself, my future wife and 2 children infront of a house with a tree next to it and the sun with a smiling face. Well. Now I'm 29, alone and work a job without a regular schedule. At least I got the house (inherited since my dad died 11 years ago). Since my dad died I haven't been the same. The outside world, apart from my work, basically doesn't exist anymore. Life is not always what we dream of when we were younger. No need in chasing those dreams. Reality hits hard.
Gods of the E-Girls, hear her plea!
Release her from her pact!
Kirbs, you are smart, honest and endearingly authentic. Online sharing can feel… it can ruin what we love in some ways.
You explain things in clear and succinct ways. Your “followers” may be valuable, beautiful human hearts but you are not obligated to change who you are or put yourself in overdrive.
Being you… sharing you… your art… your heart… these are your most precious things.
*insert Sméagol quote*
It’s beautiful how incredibly insightful you are.
Care for yourself. Be mindful for you.
I appreciate how candid and honest you are
No matter how things land, please know you are a good person. You are loved. You are respected. Everyone here is rooting for you on this exploration journey.
_"Immature poets imitate; mature poets steal."_ Later in the same essay from T.S. Eliot, _"A good poet will usually borrow from authors remote in time, or alien in language, or diverse in interest."_
Taste(s) are incommeasurable and art's also about finding kindred aesthetic spirits in their particularity (and that too can be[come] timeless). You have to go grazing on things to mull over; inspiration is triangulated and bounced-off things you love, other(s') art, nature, whatever. A good art book is a tool, and no one ever regrets adding to one's toolkit or creative arsenal. Originality is overrated. Obsessively trace precursors, forbearers across time and media-- all style is syncretic: the soul - _psyche_ - is a butterfly and feeds and dances asymptotically --Mountains can be climbed brute force straight up with rope on paper, but freestyle forced to follow the natural lines will always be more difficult, more dangerous and more remarkable.
Carpe diem as "seize the day" doesn't reflect the _plucking ripe fruit_ connotation of the original. It comes slowly, then all at once _when the time's ripe._ 'Do what makes you Happy' = Appetites Satisfied. Throwing logs on that fire won't make you the fire. Rome truly isn't built in a day-- we have to build a house for being-ourselves and a home for spirit too. Being divided against one's self and inclinations/habits is a moment in that development but needn't be clinged to as a generator of inspiration, creativity ect. 'Knowing what you want' gives you a moving target, confidence in seeing what is Good and doing right by it is what allows one to be at home with one's self always.
Whelp. It's ok to be average. As a matter of fact the very definition of the word means most people are average.
What really matter is that you're happy with yourself.
These honest, revelationary videos are the best kind of content. My advice would be, just keep being your genuine self on youtube. There is so much bulls*** content on social media with the soul purpose of actively making people more stupid and I love seeing that people like yourself are going completely the other way.
Can't wait to see more videos like this!
you don't need to feel ashamed of your situation, many young people (and 27 is definitely YOUNG) are in your situation, lacking identity and apprehension for the future, even after university. if your life was one day long, at 27 it would only be 8am, THE FLIPPING MORNING!! your life is ahead of you, just try to live it and remember it, become a net positive.
I'm not sure why i was recommended one of your videos or what made me click it but ive watched a few now and *really* relate to you. I'm a little older than yourself, 32, but i lived on the internet my whole life and just assumed that i would make my fame and millions here even though i'd failed, or more truthfully gave up when i got bored, everything i tried growing up. I went through, im still going through sometimes, everything you're talking about and im currently watching my late 20s friends going through it now to.. I think we all do it in our own way, working through our own issues and finding a more "adult" self but your not alone, your late 20s are tumultuous- well done for going back to education now and recognising these things about yourself because it can go on much longer if you don't
This girl is lost. Lost in society's bullshit and misery.
I only just found your videos but I'm so proud of you. You won't regret making a change if you're not happy. There are more people rooting for you than you know. Would love to see some art videos!
The Pity Angle seems to be your calling, if views are any indication. They say if you want to be famous you have to give up something in return, like respect, honor, originality, dignity etc.
What are you talking about?
I'm weeks away from turning 30. To this day I struggle with these exact feelings. My main aspiration was to be a pilot and I have still have yet to achieve that goal due to a mental health diagnosis that is keeping me from getting a medical certificate. It gets me down sometimes, to be honest. However, you and I both have a lot of years ahead of us (Lord willing) so theres no point in beating ourselves up about it.
Thank you for posting these videos. I love these journal/vlogs that you've been uploading here. They're really therapeutic in a sense.
You said at the end that this video might resonate less with people but i think seeing other people your age struggle with similar things and seeing people take that journey towards finding themselves really helps against the feeling of hopelessness. It makes your own journey feel a little more possible. And there's lots of people in their mid 20's going through this self finding journey.
I wish you the very best on your journey. Excited to see how things go.
Thank you for your support!
Honestly this reflection content about life is unique. I'm still 19 and also still don't know what to do after college. I can't articulate my thoughts and feelings as well as you do. So yeah, your content helps me to reflect on myself too, thanks
It seems like 26-27 is a type of midlife crisis for lots of people. Because they realize that "The special thing" that they have been conditioned to expect from movies etc. never materializes. But after that age, its not so bad because people accept that life is mostly nothing special. And then its all good. Even if you do obtain millions of dollars and all that, life is just as ordinary, only in more luxurious circumstances.
I wonder how much our lack of responsibility in the current generation plays in this. Not everyone ofcourse but most things you just pay someone to take care of or do. For example We don't know how to make our own belongings and we don't fully take care of our own elders or children. I wonder if it's a wake up call to stop outsourcing the most important things in our lives to others.
My goals: I want to start making more of my own food, get outside more, and connect with real life people
holy shit, thank you for sharing this! I have the same struggle, you are not alone
Number go up, or I go down
I went to a Greek Fest at St. Basil The Great Orthodox Church and they sold tons of Food Arts and Crafts even young olive trees in pots and even young Greek Children danced Greek Music and i drank a Greek Beer on Church Grounds.
As someone who dropped out of university at 19 and then spent several years feeling insecure, depressed and like a failure, I truly emphasize with what you went through/are going through. I can't give you any answers but I truly hope you find them.
19 is also when I dropped out! And a very similar story followed haha :') thank you for your words
You are perfect as you are ❤. Don't define yourself by what you do. Being is actually more important than doing.
This is the first of your videos I’ve found but I connect to this content so much. Thank you for this message! Also btw you’re very intelligent and beautiful. It’s so powerful the way that you’re growing, thank you for this conversation about social media and self-identity
Thank you so much for sharing. As someone who grew up chronically online, I can relate. Hopping from aesthetic to aesthetic bc idk my authentic vibe. Recently I've been taking the time to figure myself out and it's been rewarding
you're kind of like me except i never had any grand ambitions. i'm still beating myself up over that. i don't use social media that much but i am terminally online. i cyberstalked you and your fish in the machine painting is genuinely amazing. don't give up on art.
Thanks :)
Striving is tough. I dropped out of college and writing music became my world, but, I remember feeling "too old" for the scene at 24. Everything I tried never felt good enough and felt 'tainted' by my insufficiencies. I went back into education at 27 to study music production (this is, after years of heavy depression). Fast forward, and I now have a chemistry degree, but work as an embedded software developer? It's okay not be certain about what you want to do, even now I question it. It's accepting, being confident/true to ourselves in the now that seems important.
I really enjoy how self-aware and transparent you are when discussing these thought processes.
It's going to be tough for you because you care about other people's opinions and validation. Also because you are an attractive woman people will not be real with you most of the time for a lot of reasons. You seem very capable of introspection and you have a relatively high verbal acuity. Listening to you talk feels good because of that and the quality of your voice. I know you don't want to say anything bad about pursuing online attention, but I think the environment is generally poisonous. Being a professional artist is also very hard and has a lot to do with image and brand management versus just making beautiful things. I don't say that to discourage you in particular. I just see a lot of people who think their life purpose is going to come from a career when for most people, women especially, purpose and meaning tends to come from your personal relationships. I hope things work out for.
I love your self-reflective videos. If you never do anything else, this alone is valuable.
This means a lot
I actually genuinely like videos like this. Its very personal and no fancy stuff.
big loss for the e-girl community,
Love your awareness. Personaly its relatable in away. I (random person on internet) completely rooting for your success!
Your introspection will serve you well. This is the kind of content that you seem to find satisfying and is interesting for me to watch. I love the human condition and young people on a quest for discovery. About the unicorn; one of my 3 daughters is your age and for her 27th birthday I gave her an array of "Hello Kitty" items. She called me and sounded like when she was 6 going on about it!. Dream on! Never give up your love for that :)
I turned 23 ten months ago. Left my home 4 months ago, became homeless last month and change, but I have a ‘stable’ job as a mechanic. I didn’t ever picture myself being completely alone in this life, only having coworkers to talk with and no one else. It’s crazy to think that it hasn’t even been such a long time since I was spending lots of time online. Fast forward to now, I’ve left everything behind, e-girl life is gone, focusing solely on whether I’ll keep my job and live or not. I feel some sort of peace in it, even if it’s bitter. I do miss chatting with friends, but they did not care for me at all, it all felt fake, and empty. It’s been tough so far, but having a career with new opportunities with my employer is genuinely far more exciting and fulfilling than being an Internet personality. Really, I’ve been through so much shit, but I still wake up every morning and say life is blessed. Because it is a blessing.
You don't have to pretend to be someone you're not. As a woman, you're perfect just as you are, without needing to conform to trends like becoming an e-girl or anything else that takes you away from your true self. I can relate to this journey because I used to be into the gothic scene and had long hair. At the time, it felt authentic to me, but as I grew, I realized it wasn't truly who I am. I've since discovered my genuine self, and now I don't feel the need to follow trends or fit in. I've found freedom in being true to myself, without needing validation from anyone or anything else.
This is it. Authenticity, being true to yourself, that's the thing.
I can totally understanding, thank you for sharing
*ASK YOURSELF THIS QUESTION* "were these / are these MY dreams and ambitions, or are they the ones SOCIETY has installed in me as a kind of default...???"
In 2014 I had "made it" I was worth €6 million and i was deeply unhappy - the novelty had worn off and it was not like the movies. I was SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY. I had done the hard work, been lucky, got the money and the cars - why wasnt I happy? I suffered brain damage in a mugging and lost everything. After a while I had the opportunity to realise - *IT WAS NEVER MY DREAM...!*
IT was society's dream. I now live in a tiny apartment in Bulgaria writing books and tailoring historical suits and I am HAPPY.
Ok, but how is one happy in fucking Bulgaria?
@@vidzorko4492 You obviously have zero Idea what Bulgaria is like - My city is Burgas - google it and weep.
@vidzorko4492 because happiness is a state of mind that doesn't depend on your location.
@@vidzorko4492 keywords in his post- "I suffered brain damage". (I'm pretty sure the story he is telling is fiction)
_"Imagine yourself at seven. What did that person want to be 'when they grew up'? and ask yourself how far away you are from that."_ -- Madman John McAfee who actually became a pirate.
I would watch videos like that from you regularly
I really love the openness and vulnerability in these videos! It may feel embarrassing for you to share some of these thoughts and feelings but I think many people just aren’t brave enough to express them verbally, making it seem more ostracizing than they might actually be.
I think it’s super important for us as young people to share our experiences growing up with the great social media experiment, because we don’t have an historical model to compare ourselves to. We’re forced to learn as we go, so the more people sharing their experiences, the more data we all have to inform our decisions.
The internet continually evolves to more efficiently extract money from us, by design. The more efficient it becomes, the more forethought and intent is required from us to get what we actually want from using it.
Great points! I agree
I think so too!
There's no end to the amount of us that dreamed of being an artist and/or wealthy through independent efforts. Negligible odds, certainly none without a forceful desire for doing work in the field. I'm no different. The important next step is to establish a way to make a living so you're not dependent on others. Take dependence to the level of you wouldn't need to borrow to survive a bad week, or to go on a trip. Once you have that, start to make better use of the time you guard for yourself. You have a lot of insight, and you're attractive. Those are things of value and will make the world treat you better (it'll eat you for the 2nd too as I'm sure you've discovered). I truly wish you success, broaden your view of what that means and build confidence through smaller victories.
We knew social media would destroy modern women from day one☕️
Unfortunately true
Women are not doing well
Wonder what 20 years from now will look like for influencers
The internet as a whole has destroyed modern men too if you think about it. 15 year old boys used to go down mines to learn responsibility and start providing for their families, now they play Minecraft and talk bad about women online while contributing next to nothing to society and being of no worth to a woman or a family. You think you’re something but you’re nothing really, just parroting what Andrew Tate or someone said. You can’t really judge women because not a single one wants to get close enough to you for you to really know them 🤷🏻♀️. It’s sad sweetie. Get outside.
@liamaustin8571 And yet it’s the male suicide rate that is skyrocketing. Funny that. Women are happiest they’ve ever been 🤷🏻♀️
You should go to art school and do an art channel. The artist journey is a great trip
I also relate to what youre working towards a lot - im only a couple years older but, ive done far less in life - it feels like youre delicately and meticulously brushing off the dust from this shiny gem of passion youd forgotten about and its really encouraging for me to start doing the same
I hoped you find your passion again!
I went back to finish my degree at 25 and just finished this past May at 28. It was tough but gratifying. Enjoy the process--sink yourself into it. You can do it and will be glad you did! Little steps, one day at a time.
Also I realize this may not be the validation you are looking for anymore, but you are a cutie patootie.
So YOU are the one to blame for Pokemon not being real
As someone who grow up before the internet I can see how a destructive force it can potentially be. ‘Comparison is the thief joy’ is probably the most understated phrase I could use to describe what’s happened. Life is a personal journey, we all don’t start from the same place. It’s important to look within and be connected to your own experiences. Id say go back to your art, focus on learning your craft and finding joy for it. The key is to enjoy it for the process rather than how people react to it. Even simpler than that focus on real life relationships and experiences with friends and families sharing and working together. I actually think there is a sweet spot in the internet that creates genuine communities that build bridges but for them to work you got to get out there and find the things that bring joy to your life whether it’s helping people playing sports exploring or creating things but just for the sake of doing it not for how it’s received. You don’t need an identity just to embrace the journey of life.
the brain fully develops around 24-25 and many people have this transitional period of their lives around that age, specially people who don't have a stable life, job and relations type of stability
There are new studies recently that show that development in many areas of the brain actually continues into your 30s. It's quite interesting to read about.
If you are neurodivergent, the number get fricked up.
Your brain never truly stops developing.
@@1TieDye1 exactly, sounds more like an excuse to stop developing yourself.
One Unicorn. Sign here please. ____________
As a neurodivergent whose identity held onto being different from others because I was excluded. I feel ya. The internet became my culture.
I am surprised how much I relate to this on so many things…. I’m 24 🤣 but I have been going through so much of the same things… even the feeling of that I have been supposed to be an online influencer… i can put myself in your shoes… I love when I can relate with people… 😊
You don’t need to make Pokémon real But instead you need Jesus
as a 32 year old, something i awakened to when i turned 30 was a couple truths. 1) nobody actually knows what they're doing; we're all just shooting into the dark doing the best we can. and 2) 30 is actually the beginning, not the "end" of something. In your 20's 30 feels like a death. and it is. but its also the beginning. you're 27 and life doesn't look like you thought. ive felt that, its real and i dont minimize it. and also. its never too late to reinvent yourself or start over and take steps to being who you want to be. never. anyway courage to you!
Short bangs. Big brain. Uni girl. Arty Haro ❤
I was constantly comparing myself to others on Instagram, I HIGHLY recommend deleting your social medias. You will thank yourself later after gaining control of your life again. Otherwise, you will constantly catch yourself thinking negative thoughts about life. This is just what Ive seen with my brothers and myself, this is a hard thing our generation is going through that just seems like its taboo to talk about. Much Love to you :) I hope everything becomes easier, you are a bootiful hooman 🙂💙🧡
“ I Can Fix Her 🥃🔥”
I CAN FIX U AS WELL 👉👌
I found you from a egirl tik tok dance reposted on insta. I stayed for your energy. And your personality. Not your dance. Not your jokes. But because of who you are. Keep being you. Keep finding yourself. You’ll inspire others along the way. The way you open up and ramble and share thoughts on here in these videos are awesome for me to see. I've been sharing my thoughts to my notepad and camera roll for 8 years now. But to no one. Not a soul. So the fact you open up and people support you on here is awesome to see. So take a step back. Learn more. Do more in the real world. But come back and stay in touch. You've built up a little community here who support you.
feminism robbed you. you were duped.
This is a key point in your life that is very exciting. Follow your gut. Always listen to that feeling inside of you that (if listened to) nourishes your soul. We are all creative beings, and I would love to see some of the things that you make.
you said everything, Im glad you're in your right track again!
I love women but even I can see how bad the culture of making trends and copycatting eachother is. Making steps away from that, and modern idealism in general, is the best advice!
You Really spoke to me on feeling like a loser I remember when i was 19 20 i had such high hopes for my future like i was into gaming content on youtube and wanted to be a successful gaming content creator and on top of me failing that and not reaching my goals it struck me to the core and I personally was in an abusive relationship that really brought my self confidence down to 0 and a college drop out btw. To this day I still post on youtube and I enjoy it now so I try not to focus on the numbers and i work a 9 to 5 and At times I still feel like a loser and useless but I really appreciate your honesty because i feel like a lot of us 26-30 year old are still trying to find their way and we will
I think one thing I can take away from being super insecure and low self-esteemed as a kid is that I never said stupid stuff on the internet. I already knew that I would aways second guess what I would say so I wouldn't say it anyway. I also hated freebies so saying random shit on the internet for easy updoots was the bane of my existence. Some of the brainrot I read on twitter now makes me wanna gauge my eyes out and Im glad I was insecure bc I didn't have such bad takes. Theres always a silver lining to things.
You say you don't think this vid will be that relatable as the previous one, but this:
*"I'd invest in the technology to make Pokemon real"*
This is one of the most relatable things I've ever heard
There's just megatons of survivorship bias in the whole content creator / social media industry. We see a few chosen ones who made it but not several tens more times of those who didn't.
You hit the nail right in the middle of the damn head
All I got for being supportive of my ex's social media platform adventure as a potential secondary source of income were some offhand comments about inappropriate messages that slid in her DMs. A parting message that I'll always remember from her leading to the break up is, "do you even know who I am?" Those feet pic requests in her DMs I think really started to inflate her head, as well as perhaps some notions of gradeur to stardom.
I sometimes wonder if she made it big like she dreamed of, or if she feels the way about social media as you do now. I don't think I'll ever know, but i do think that the allure of social media has ruined something that was beautiful in my life. Thanks for sharing your perspective.
sounds like putting too much pressure on yourself to "succeed" in the eyes of others (probably via social media) .. tough to break out of that illusion but so worth trying and just enjoying life for you
Six minutes in and this resonates deeply (25 nb amab). Thank you for taking the time to reflect and articulate a feeling of insecurity I'm still learning to navigate. Cheers!
that's me i have no motivation only hope that someday life will be good. Every time i get myself to do stuff i quit weeks later for -relaxation- reasons. right now even money feels useless, every time i worked all i did go to work and go home. Upgrade my pc and eventually quit, it feels like nothing progressing and i just see endless cycle. Been bullied all my school life for being nice kid that i never feel good enough now and overthink every opportunity i could possibly do.
I think folks of all age see getting famous of some type as something that will improve their sense of self-worth and lead to a better overall life, but no amount of views can fill a self-void of purpose.
I think many people have similar delusions of grandiosity and those visions always include the most attractive career paths. Professional athlete, renowned artist, social media influencer, highly successful TH-camr, model, the list goes on and on. The likelihood that any person will become successful and wealthy in any of those career paths is highly unlikely. Far less than 1% actually. The reality is that if you want to be successful and aren’t apart of that 1% I just mentioned you’ve got to choose a suitable career path and work hard. That’s it. You probably won’t become a successful artist or influencer but the odds of becoming a successful nurse, accountant, financial advisor, computer tech, etc, are much higher. Set a realistic goal, stick to it and eventually you’ll have real purpose and viable success.
With 27, you'll be finished your studies around 30. You still have thirty five years ahead of working or maybe having a family or whatever else you end up deciding on doing. Don't fall into the trap of "I'm too old now...", keep going :)
I also have the problem of needing a lot of social reinforcement to perceive i'm doing well in a task, so far I'm putting my heart in the idea of enjoying the moment and experimenting with things until something does well and its of my liking as well, what i'm trying to say is... be conscious of being you and make a rutine you love. Not like, love.