music was very kindly provided by Chillhop! if you have a youtube or a twitch you can use their music for free by linking your channels to a Chillhop account! here's their website: chillhop.com/ all of the music! Sleepy Fish - Learning How to Skateboard chll.to/4e3b16c3 Aviino - Everything's Gonna B Ok chll.to/2bb7cc98 Kyle McEvoy, Luke Otwell - Ocean View Pt. 2 chll.to/a43defb4 Hanz - Falling Short chll.to/42c65fa1 mommy, Sleepy Fish - man it's late chll.to/b192eb4b Philanthrope, Sleepy Fish - Away with the Fairies chll.to/bd402e1c Hanz - Conflicted chll.to/d4fe6544 Sleepy Fish - The Shore and You chll.to/09306ca4 mommy, Sleepy Fish - travelbag chll.to/a5373e21 Philanthrope, Sleepy Fish - Space Cadet chll.to/13958131 Delayde, anybodyy - Time Went By chll.to/362db4e3 Philanthrope, mommy - soupeddd! chll.to/20d89133 No Spirit - Morning In The Cafe chll.to/fb55b41f Delayde - Southwesterly chll.to/154d119f soundcloud links of these amazing artists: soundcloud.com/sleeepyfish soundcloud.com/user-618288520 soundcloud.com/kylemcevoymusic soundcloud.com/luke-henry soundcloud.com/hanzbeats soundcloud.com/beatsbymommy soundcloud.com/philanthrope1 soundcloud.com/delayde open.spotify.com/artist/1aub8GgJikwSG4wUMWZrzl?si=UY1Mhun3TD-QoSk_xHddkg&dl_branch=1&nd=1 (couldn't find soundcloud, this is anybodyy's spotify) soundcloud.com/nospiritmusic
yes i really do, and it's completely normal to go through these times. a video should be up in the next couple of weeks explaining that and another mental health video should be up sometime after that! remember to take care
Hey frey i don't know if you remember me but we used to play valorant and speak in discord a lot i m too depressed now and this is a message i wanted you to read since you v been on the same boat as i am in now: To my younger self who looked forward to his life i m sorry i couldn't make your dreams come true i m sorry tht you grow up being this depressed and failure human i promise you if i have another chance in life I won't disappoint you but i know it's impossible i already tried my best but nothing is working i m even a failure in finishing my life i don't wann hurt anyone i don't even believe in anything anymore i can't even believe in myself is this life gonna bring me something good or is it just playing me i don't know anymore i too tired of something called life when is my suffering gonna end i act like this good guy who cares about people but no one cares about me i lie to my parents and sister i say that i m doing so good and i don't have anything to worry about but i m worrying about everything i have too many problems and some problems that i can't even solve how can i face my parents when i tell them that i failed and i m a failure i don't know what do to anymore i m just too tired tired of everything when can i die why the hell was i even born i really can't take it anymore
hi moon, yes of course i remember us playing valorant together! it was quite a time for me but having you there to play together was always so much fun! i'm not sure if you're wanting advice, or just to be heard, or words of comfort, so i'll just be speaking from my heart if you don't mind. i'm honestly so sorry that you're feeling this way. you're in a lot of pain, and no one deserves that. but especially you, and i truly mean that. how i remember you is always being fun to play with, even when you couldn't say a word because your sister would be sleeping in the room. i remember writing diary entries exactly like this and just being so so so tired and it's so exhausting to have to deal with that day in day out. so for that, i think you're so strong. you've been dealing with this for a long time, and it's normal that you're frustrated that nothing has changed. when you're in this low of a time in your life, keeping going is already an achievement that far outweighs your failures or mistakes. i think you could mostly use giving yourself some grace and empathising with yourself. would you judge a dear friend like this? if you're looking for pointers that i think might help you, i've got some. (if you just wanted comforting words, ignore this) .stop listening to sad, moody or depressive music. just already listening to music that sounds more positive can have a huge impact on your mood .let yourself make mistakes. if you weren't still making mistakes, then what was the point of starting it? do you already consider yourself a professional in what you feel like you're failing in? i'm assuming no, so then it's only a part of the process that you will make mistakes and fail. learn to get comfortable with that .make a list of things you normally enjoy or bring you joy, and do them even if they don't bring you happiness or comfort in that moment. get the belief "i'm supposed to be sad/depressed/upset" out of your head and just let yourself enjoy something. don't ruin your own happiness. (a personal example for me would be rewatching specific youtube videos that i always liked when i was younger, high-energy up-beat songs that i've been liking as of late, looking through my art inspo pinterest board to feel inspired) ((i have a really old video about this called moodlifters if you want more clear and visual examples)) i hope this helped you at least a little bit or that it made you feel a bit heard or comforted. you deserve the best and i really hope you'll feel better soon
music was very kindly provided by Chillhop! if you have a youtube or a twitch you can use their music for free by linking your channels to a Chillhop account! here's their website:
chillhop.com/
all of the music!
Sleepy Fish - Learning How to Skateboard chll.to/4e3b16c3
Aviino - Everything's Gonna B Ok chll.to/2bb7cc98
Kyle McEvoy, Luke Otwell - Ocean View Pt. 2 chll.to/a43defb4
Hanz - Falling Short chll.to/42c65fa1
mommy, Sleepy Fish - man it's late chll.to/b192eb4b
Philanthrope, Sleepy Fish - Away with the Fairies chll.to/bd402e1c
Hanz - Conflicted chll.to/d4fe6544
Sleepy Fish - The Shore and You chll.to/09306ca4
mommy, Sleepy Fish - travelbag chll.to/a5373e21
Philanthrope, Sleepy Fish - Space Cadet chll.to/13958131
Delayde, anybodyy - Time Went By chll.to/362db4e3
Philanthrope, mommy - soupeddd! chll.to/20d89133
No Spirit - Morning In The Cafe chll.to/fb55b41f
Delayde - Southwesterly chll.to/154d119f
soundcloud links of these amazing artists:
soundcloud.com/sleeepyfish
soundcloud.com/user-618288520
soundcloud.com/kylemcevoymusic
soundcloud.com/luke-henry
soundcloud.com/hanzbeats
soundcloud.com/beatsbymommy
soundcloud.com/philanthrope1
soundcloud.com/delayde
open.spotify.com/artist/1aub8GgJikwSG4wUMWZrzl?si=UY1Mhun3TD-QoSk_xHddkg&dl_branch=1&nd=1
(couldn't find soundcloud, this is anybodyy's spotify)
soundcloud.com/nospiritmusic
I hope you're feeling better now, or something like it
yes i really do, and it's completely normal to go through these times. a video should be up in the next couple of weeks explaining that and another mental health video should be up sometime after that! remember to take care
Yes, you're right. Going through your emotions and feelings is completely fine, just don't let it take you down. Shine and Dream on
exactly!! i wish you all the best
Hey frey i don't know if you remember me but we used to play valorant and speak in discord a lot i m too depressed now and this is a message i wanted you to read since you v been on the same boat as i am in now:
To my younger self who looked forward to his life i m sorry i couldn't make your dreams come true i m sorry tht you grow up being this depressed and failure human i promise you if i have another chance in life I won't disappoint you but i know it's impossible i already tried my best but nothing is working i m even a failure in finishing my life i don't wann hurt anyone i don't even believe in anything anymore i can't even believe in myself is this life gonna bring me something good or is it just playing me i don't know anymore i too tired of something called life when is my suffering gonna end i act like this good guy who cares about people but no one cares about me i lie to my parents and sister i say that i m doing so good and i don't have anything to worry about but i m worrying about everything i have too many problems and some problems that i can't even solve how can i face my parents when i tell them that i failed and i m a failure i don't know what do to anymore i m just too tired tired of everything when can i die why the hell was i even born i really can't take it anymore
hi moon, yes of course i remember us playing valorant together! it was quite a time for me but having you there to play together was always so much fun!
i'm not sure if you're wanting advice, or just to be heard, or words of comfort, so i'll just be speaking from my heart if you don't mind. i'm honestly so sorry that you're feeling this way. you're in a lot of pain, and no one deserves that. but especially you, and i truly mean that. how i remember you is always being fun to play with, even when you couldn't say a word because your sister would be sleeping in the room. i remember writing diary entries exactly like this and just being so so so tired and it's so exhausting to have to deal with that day in day out. so for that, i think you're so strong. you've been dealing with this for a long time, and it's normal that you're frustrated that nothing has changed. when you're in this low of a time in your life, keeping going is already an achievement that far outweighs your failures or mistakes. i think you could mostly use giving yourself some grace and empathising with yourself. would you judge a dear friend like this?
if you're looking for pointers that i think might help you, i've got some. (if you just wanted comforting words, ignore this)
.stop listening to sad, moody or depressive music. just already listening to music that sounds more positive can have a huge impact on your mood
.let yourself make mistakes. if you weren't still making mistakes, then what was the point of starting it? do you already consider yourself a professional in what you feel like you're failing in? i'm assuming no, so then it's only a part of the process that you will make mistakes and fail. learn to get comfortable with that
.make a list of things you normally enjoy or bring you joy, and do them even if they don't bring you happiness or comfort in that moment. get the belief "i'm supposed to be sad/depressed/upset" out of your head and just let yourself enjoy something. don't ruin your own happiness. (a personal example for me would be rewatching specific youtube videos that i always liked when i was younger, high-energy up-beat songs that i've been liking as of late, looking through my art inspo pinterest board to feel inspired) ((i have a really old video about this called moodlifters if you want more clear and visual examples))
i hope this helped you at least a little bit or that it made you feel a bit heard or comforted. you deserve the best and i really hope you'll feel better soon