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thank you so much! i really appreciate that <3

go for it! i hope it can bring you comfort when you feel like you need it. i believe in you and wish you the best <33

hi moon, yes of course i remember us playing valorant together! it was quite a time for me but having you there to play together was always so much fun! i'm not sure if you're wanting advice, or just to be heard, or words of comfort, so i'll just be speaking from my heart if you don't mind. i'm honestly so sorry that you're feeling this way. you're in a lot of pain, and no one deserves that. but especially you, and i truly mean that. how i remember you is always being fun to play with, even when you couldn't say a word because your sister would be sleeping in the room. i remember writing diary entries exactly like this and just being so so so tired and it's so exhausting to have to deal with that day in day out. so for that, i think you're so strong. you've been dealing with this for a long time, and it's normal that you're frustrated that nothing has changed. when you're in this low of a time in your life, keeping going is already an achievement that far outweighs your failures or mistakes. i think you could mostly use giving yourself some grace and empathising with yourself. would you judge a dear friend like this? if you're looking for pointers that i think might help you, i've got some. (if you just wanted comforting words, ignore this) .stop listening to sad, moody or depressive music. just already listening to music that sounds more positive can have a huge impact on your mood .let yourself make mistakes. if you weren't still making mistakes, then what was the point of starting it? do you already consider yourself a professional in what you feel like you're failing in? i'm assuming no, so then it's only a part of the process that you will make mistakes and fail. learn to get comfortable with that .make a list of things you normally enjoy or bring you joy, and do them even if they don't bring you happiness or comfort in that moment. get the belief "i'm supposed to be sad/depressed/upset" out of your head and just let yourself enjoy something. don't ruin your own happiness. (a personal example for me would be rewatching specific youtube videos that i always liked when i was younger, high-energy up-beat songs that i've been liking as of late, looking through my art inspo pinterest board to feel inspired) ((i have a really old video about this called moodlifters if you want more clear and visual examples)) i hope this helped you at least a little bit or that it made you feel a bit heard or comforted. you deserve the best and i really hope you'll feel better soon <33

i'm so glad it was able to help you <3 you're so loved and appreciated

​@@freyaspesomg im gonna cry, you're amazing, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise❤️

i'm so glad you appreciate my presence! it means the world to me <3

@@freyaspes you're are an artist too? that's amazing, you're so inspiring

yeah i'm an artist! i love writing and drawing and doing stuff in 3d and all of the like!

thank you <3

yessir!!!!

thank you so much <3

thank you so much <3

@@freyaspes you are welcome<3

so true! the footage is sped up by 20 times so it does look like i'm being possessed! the first time i noticed it i had a seriously debilitating laughing fit

They'll just add the fancy details in top later on, no worries

i get what you mean! however i'm specifically choosing not to use construction lines/boxes, i feel like it doesn't really serve my workflow, especially with these relatively fast sketches (i just don't have the time to do a whole construction drawing to then go over again later). i'm mostly focusing on the line of action within the poses to capture the flow and essence of the pose instead of getting stuck on trying to get the rigid proportions right <3 thank you for your feedback though, i appreciate it!

@@freyaspes maybe I'm really into webtoon and comics where artists use construction a lot, and they kind of have a process to draw a character from start to finish. And your art type seems different, I guess it is about figurative and fine art. I've seen charcoal artists draw some figures and they used a lot of curvy lines to capture the flow or energy of the pose. It's okay, just follow what you like! I like webtoon comic art in general so my thinking about art might be different from yours

that definitely seems like a very appropriate way to go about drawing from imagination like comic artists have to do! i love learning about how other artists approach techniques and what they need for their art <3

thank you, i'm glad you enjoyed it!

hi! i am indeed doing well! i'm honestly really glad to hear that somebody liked it when i still streamed every so often. it might be something i could get back into! right now my life doesn't allow me to do things that are live, but that might change in the near future! marie (you did spell it correctly hihi) would also be joining probably then. it might be a lot less quiet than my streams used to be since we might just play games together or work on projects at the same time, but i feel like it would still be a very chill and cosy energy. thank you for checking in!

naurrrr i really shouldn't <333

aw that's so sweet <3

omg i'm so glad this video helped you! honestly i just kind of hoped that someone would relate and that it could just help even one person, so i'm really happy that's true! just keep on going and trying and indeed being gentle for yourself <3

thank you!! <33

thank you so much!! i love how he turned out <3

thank you so much <3

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thank you! <3

@@freyaspes Excuse me May I ask. Are you going to study anatomy? Or just have a casual ride😸

i am definitely studying anatomy! these exercises are mostly to get quicker and to plan out future concepts to work out. it's only an hour which is really not a lot when you're trying to do a whole body/bust, especially if you're not starting from a basemesh! thank you for your comment though <3 if you want to see my stuff where i do take the time to do anatomy properly, check out my website!!

@@freyaspes OK, I'll go take a look.😄 In fact, I am also learning anatomy.

we love to see it! good luck <3

thank you so much <3

yesss they're honestly so beneficial to your overall skill! and especially since you can set a timer you can really make sure to keep it as low-effort as possible <3 you've got this!

i've only briefly used blender but i know that zbrush is more specialised and the industry standard! however blender is more of an all-in-one and of course free which makes it way more accessible. honestly i don't really know what software is better, especially since there are pros and cons for both. if i were you i would just continue using blender and getting better there! you don't need fancy softwares to make digital sculpts! just keep on going and improve <3

thank you so much <3

thank you so much! i really appreciate it <3

thank you <3

thank you sweetie <3333

yes i really do, and it's completely normal to go through these times. a video should be up in the next couple of weeks explaining that and another mental health video should be up sometime after that! remember to take care <3

Yes, you're right. Going through your emotions and feelings is completely fine, just don't let it take you down. Shine and Dream on

exactly!! i wish you all the best <333

it's my pleasure, thank you for supporting me <33

thank you so much for this comment!! i'm really happy it made you feel comforted <33

omg stop that's so cute <3333 ily

hihi i did too!! <3

absolutely right sir!! i have opinions and they WILL be heard lmao

my brain really went blank for a second (or more like a minute)

Thank you so much! I've really been trying to be more open in a way that is still helpful for other people, so hearing that it's appreciated makes me really happy 🥰

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yessir 😤❤

Thank you so much for your nice comment! I actually also watch his content and highly enjoy it ❤❤

This made me so happy! Thank you so much!! 💕

Thanks! I really try to make my content entertaining, so I'm glad you enjoy it ❤

Absolutely! Especially the music that immediately puts you in that good vibe ❤

Thanks! ❤

Thank you ❤