living with liver disease, a vodka Christmas tale... , information on live video
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- a story about yesterday and what happened at my parents house on Christmas with vodka, update on live video
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Hello there YT video watching people
Hardest thing to do (for me anyway) was having to disassociate from my group of friends/neighbors of almost 20 years. As it became more and more evident to me that i had a problem and needed to stop id have comments made like "that better be alcohol in that cup" or simply have someone put a beer down in front of me... that, to me was the end end of the road, i had to leave the group if i was going to stay sober. I'm sober going on five years now and i have not formed any type of significant friendships, without alcohol i find it difficult to socialize, so i definitely see how that triggered you. Good job wit videos, i appreciate them...
Thank you for that. I k ow exactly what you mean about your neighbors... I went through the same thing and moved thinking that would solve my problem.... nope. I'm happy to hear that you have 5 years! That's so awesome!!! Keep up the good fight! God bless!
@@liverdisease-qb6rkLD I’m very sorry that you went through that experience. I’d Never disrespect you nor anyone else like that. I guess some people try to justify alcohol as being a Normal Thing in our culture. Plus some people under the influence can do some pretty selfish things. I’m sure I’ve been selfish sometimes when I was drinking heavy but that’s Not cool. Plus it’s a way of conditioning our youth to think that drinking is Normal which could lead them down the same road we went down. You’re a very nice person and you don’t disrespect anyone. Nobody should try that with you either.❤
Congrats on your wonderful Time sober ---
Stay 💪 strong...Unfortunately, we can't pick our families...Glad u were able to recognize your triggers and didnt lapse or relapse.
Thank you! It was a mistake, but it really bothered me. Wanted to share. God bless
All of my family lives many states away.. There's no way they would ever have a holiday party without alcohol, so the distance is a blessing to me
I totally get that. Sorry that you don't get to spend time with them though! Thank you! God bless!
Your videos make me a little sad. My brother passed from complications from his alcoholism 3yrs ago and I WISH he had been able to overcome the addiction. Protect your sobriety at all cost. Keep making your videos. They are inspiring. Best, Maria.
Protect your soberity. Yes yes I do! I always think, as long as I'm sober everything will be ok. & everything is.
I'm sorry to hear that... I wish he had too. This is why I am making these videos. So that people like your brother don't pass away in vain, they are a message to others, that one day maybe this won't be such a problem for our society any longer. Maybe one day. We have to start somewhere.... thank you for sharing and God bless you.
Sobriety is mine and I am not going back!!
Not leaving was a show of great strength. You did the right thing. You showed how if others were selfish, you did not get selfish too. You are looking much healthier and are in a good place compared to where you were. I find in my own condition is that when my health is good and I am feeling well I want to drink. The fight at this time is at its more difficult for me personally. I only drink max 3 cans a day but I can go on a binge at any time and thats where my addiction hits me health wise. Continue the fight you are winning.
Thank you! I completely understand where u are coming from. It's the same here... I start feeling a little better, the thoughts come in. I start thinking.... it will be ok to have one, and no... it's not ok. The addict mind is always playing with you and trying to get u to fold. Thank you for this! God bless!
And thank u for saying I look healthy! I did not look this way this time last year. I need to find some pictures of then.
@@liverdisease-qb6rk absolutely what you say. Same with cigarettes. Folks relapse thinking they can smoke 3 a day max. Within a week they are smoking half a pack and then the whole damn thing. For most of us, total abstinence is KING
I am so sorry you had to go through that! So disrespectful - you can tell them I said so too! My nephew died in 2022 after a car wreck in which his damaged spleen (he was alcoholic and had cirrhosis) started bleeding a few days later and he bled out. If only we had him back! I am a tee-totaller for the most part. Alcohol is something that nobody really needs, and I can't believe your own family would do that. Family needs to be supportive of any member with an addiction!!
Thank you for your comment! I really appreciate it! I'm so sorry to hear about your nephew. Did the bleeding in his spleen come from tge accident? I'm sorry if I'm asking too much. God bless!
@@liverdisease-qb6rk Yes. He went to the hospital after the accident, but either they didn't catch it, or it started bleeding later - I have no doubt it was from the accident. The accident was on Monday, and he died Thu night or Friday. One of his roommates came home and found him unresponsive. What was so awful is that he was in Las Vegas and we live in NC. It took over a month to get his ashes home.
Well done yesterday considering what you confronted. Getting triggered is a major issue for most. You walked through it feeling the emotions dealing with them & conquering that difficult moment. That is real personal growth! Keep them videos a coming! Helping one person at a time!❤
Thank you!!!! I didn't really think about it that way, but now I do. I really appreciate you saying that! I sure will keep em coming! God bless! Thank you for watching!
Right? Amazing strength
Great choice you made to walk away especially after a triggering event. My husband’s father made a stupid comment about consuming alcohol in a positive way literally the day after my husbands (his sons) funeral from alcoholism. I can’t stand the sight of even a wine glass since his death and have not had anything at all in years. Living with alcoholism in my house was enough for me to never want any more at all. There is such an alcohol approving culture in our country that is crazy.
Thank you, and I'm sorry he said that to you. It really is a drinking culture around the globe. It's really sad. It needs more awareness of the damage it causes. Thank u again! God bless!
Thanks for sharing so honestly, I feel for you for having to go through that yesterday. God bless.
I really appreciate that! And thank you! God bless!
I’m 3 months alcohol free. We went to supper at Cheesecake Factory, and were seated in the bar area, much to my dismay. Couldn’t get out of there fast enough. I love your story, and honesty.
I have been there... was at a restaurant in Charleston. Got seated in the bar area. Not comfortable at all! Thank you or everything and that's so awesome!!!!! 3 months is a long time. I remember when I got there. I could not believe it! That's really cool! It's so awesome to keep hearing so many people who are just like you! Really makes me smile! God bless!
Thanks for your message about relapse today. People who are not alcoholics like we are don’t understand relapse is part of the process. It’s hard when people who live in the Bible Belt down south and the Mormons in Utah just tell you pray it away. So many people think this is not a disease and just a moral defect that all you have to do is go to church and pray to God. This is why I like your channel you understand addiction and are not judgemental.
Thank you. No... I am not one to judge anyone. I am a human being like everyone else here and know that we all are imperfect. We all relapse. I heard a saying once that we are all between relapses. I don't know how much weight I put in that statement. But, it's the point of it that matters. Thank you! God bless!
Relapse doesn’t have to be part of the process.
Thanks for the vid
You're welcome! God bless!
Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas. Hope all are sober and safe. Ten plus years of continuous sobriety here. Bless you all.
That's great to hear! That is so awesome! 10 years!!! Good for you! God bless!
well done ---
Thank you so much for continuing with the videos, I hope your health improves, and I hope we continue to get to see your improvement for a long time to come :)
Thank you so much! I will continue to do this as long as I can! God bless!
Really sorry to hear that happened to you on Christmas Day. Honestly, and please forgive me since I do not know your specific family dynamic, but it didn't sound like they did that intentionally. Especially given that your whole family knows all the shit alcohol has rung you through. Sounded like dad just wanted some vodka and it was out and it just happened like that. That's not to say he shouldn't have taken more precaution by hiding it or whatever. But with your brother coming out to talk to you, your mom, and wife, you know they all love you so so much. It sounds like you have a sweet and caring family. I am happy for you. I am happy you didn't drink. I am happy you stayed :)
Thank you! Yes, I think it was a mistake as well. It really pertained to these videos, so I had to share. I do have a caring and loving family and I am very grateful for that! I have been on the liver ward of many hospitals and it is very sad. Many people are laying there dying with no one at all with them. It really makes me cry whenever I am there. Thank you for watching! God bless!
@@liverdisease-qb6rk God bless you!
Please get on with it. 😊
This is definitely the most relatable story you’ve told, my whole family drinks and as I walk in their door it’s shoved in my face. One of the biggest reasons I can’t stop. How am I supposed to sit through a whole day around drunk people constantly asking me why I’m not drinking? I’m 23 and drink 2-2.5liters 80 proof Smirnoff vodka a week and I’m stuck in this cycle of binging Friday afternoon-Sunday night and going through 2 day hangover s every Monday and Tuesday.
I completely understand where you are coming from. I would probably remove myself from that situation for a while and focus on you. You really don't want to go down the road I did. I promise you! I am so lucky to still be here after everything. I wasted a big chunk of my life away on that stuff. Thank you for watching and for the great comment! God bless
Why do you walk into their home if you know what is going on? You say they are why you can't stop. No one is forcing the vodka into your throat. You are out of control because you are a problem drinker. Full stop. Blessings friend
LD I needed to hear this again today.
Ya know it’s always our side of the family that’s so screwy.
Talk about walking into a twilight zone
I’m not so sure where the resentments have come from at times when we finally have some sobriety under our belt.
I’d like to say for me it’s almost as if in some demented way some can b jealous when we show up strong.
Thanks again
I recently relapsed after a year of sobriety..I gotta promotion at work and thought I deserved it for one night...It got out of control again..I should have known it would...Your videos have really inspired me..God bless you brother.
I am so sorry that happened to you. I completely understand how you got triggered. It happens and you handled it well. This really spoke to a moment I went through in the past and I was triggered. Once triggered it was a process to get past it. Thank you gf or sharing.
Thank you for watching again and thank you for saying that! I really appreciate it. God bless!
@@liverdisease-qb6rk you’re welcome. All your videos are so helpful and I want to make sure that you know that you are appreciated. Even if it triggers us in the end we really try to fight through it and that’s what I saw in your story. You fought through iteven when it was hard.
I had 4 years sober. I too have had major health issues and almost died. But i feel it is MY problem and i need to take responsibility for my own issues. If i was diabetic i wouldn't expect people to not have Christmas cookies out. I am not the fenter of the world. I am struggling right now. But it is MY struggle. Just my opinion.
Thank you for sharing. I appreciate your opinion. I am also diabetic and do not expect people to refrain from having sweets around. Thank you for sharing and congratulations on your sobriety. Thanks again. God bless
It is good that you went outside to deal with your feelings. I think you are a bigger person for staying and not upsetting the family. Most liver programs do not allow CBD at all. CBD impacts liver enzymes even without the THC.
I was not aware of that. Thank you! Thank you for saying that about going outside. I do not take cbd. I have once or twice, I didn't really care for it. Just made me really tired and I'm already tired enough as it is. God bless!
Most programs probably don't allow it but It has not shown up in my enzymes in several years, but that may be just me, others may be differernt.
I like taking nutritional supplements. I have no problems with better living through supplemental chemicals.
That’s crazy that happened to you.
Yeah... it is.... it's unfortunate, it happens to a lot of us all the time. People just don't understand the trigger it causes. Thank you! God bless
Family can hurt us the most!
You're not a kidding! Thank you! God bless!
Yes
My heart goes out to you having to emotionally process what seemed like a huge disrespect to you but you handled it well for the sake of others. If it were me, I would have respectfully but resolutely left in view how high the stakes are for me, and knowing my weakness.
I appreciate that! Yeah.... I almost left. But decided that staying was the right thing to do. It would have made Christmas for all the grandchildren one to remember and i didn't want to be the centerpiece of that. It would have ruined their day. By the time I got back inside, it was put away. Thanks again for everything! God bless!
Merry Christmas You look really healthy in this video. I am so proud of you. I grew up in an alcoholic family. Both parents. Lots of physical and mental abuse was given to all of the children. I am glad you are now giving your children a healthy environment which will enable them to thrive. I am praying for you and your family. Stay healthy! You are an inspiration. I wish my parents had given me the ability to have some sort of a stable healthy environment. Their addiction has a profound effect on me to this day. Ptsd. Depression and anxiety. ❤
You aren’t alone ❤
I had the same.
Fd up family!
No contact & now they are after our 19yo son.
Proud he spoke up & laid a nice big boundary down!
Woah he is our kid.
Lol
My mom would beat my dad up. So hard
Man.... I'm really sorry to hear that. I was headed down that path myself that would have created problems for my kids for the rest of their lives I'm sure. I can see the difference that my stopping drinking has made everyday and I am so grateful that God gave me this gift. He gives me the knowledge everyday to keep me away. Thank you so much again! God bless
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I am so proud you chose to live and be there for your family. Just remember they need to hear I am sorry as yhe trauma is real. You can heal some of that with open discussions with them and allow them to express there pain and or questions. I wish my parents could have made the choice of sobriety and opened the floor up for conversation. It would have helped alot with the healing. Take care. I ❤️ your honesty and willingness to help others through your videos. Thank you.
@@Kristen10-22 I tried to give you my face - book link but it blocked the message. I a. In Myrtle Beach under first name and last name of utube address. No wanderlust just name. Reach out. Birds of a feather. Take care Kristen.
You are living the same life that I am, am! You got this. Thank you for putting yourself out there.
You're welcome! And thank you for watching! God bless!😊
I appreciate these vids. I'm sorta binge watching them. I always quit and start drinking I'm quitting now again for about a week. My problem is I like other things as much or more. That addiction just goes into another substance..needless to say this time I deleted some numbers and am bent on really getting my life together.
That's awesome! And great to hear! Thank you! God bless
Man. I really appreciate your videos! Talking about your personal struggles takes balls. Melatonin/ashwaganda/
Cbg is good.
Thank you for that! I appreciate you watching, and thank you for the suggestions. I have looked into cbg, looks like is has great potential! God bless!
I used to take melatonin until I started getting migraine headaches, it came to the point I was having migraine headaches three or four days a week , I narrowed it down to the Melatonin.
Nothing is safe.
I understand how you must feel. Everyone, especially family, should curse alcohol to hell and never touch it after what has happened to you. Instead, they act like it is some innocent social pleasantry. STILL!
Unfortunately yes. I wish it wasn't so. I really would like for none of them to drink knowing how destructive it is. I can't make anyone change though. Only myself. Thank you again! God bless!
Sorry you had to go through that bro glad you made it through it ! Prayers!
Thank you brother! I really appreciate you! How have you been doing? God bless!
I’m doing okay, feeling a lot better I’m at day28 sober. I just found out I have sleep apnea I did one of those at home sleep studies. So once I start that treatment along with not drinking I should feel amazing hopefully
@krishayles3716 that's awesome man! Good for you on 28 days! Sucks about the sleep apnea though. I used to snore really really bad when I drank, like to the point where nobody would sleep around me because I was so loud. I'm sure I had sleep apnea. After I quit and some time went by, it went away. My wife says that she has to touch me sometimes at night because I'm sleeping so quite that it scares her. All the best to you brother! God bless!
I would have been upset too. It was malicious. U did the right thing. Let it go, u know u have to. I would have left.
Exactly like what carb addicts go thru during the holidays.
My first public outing after I quit was a superbowl party at a friends house. Of course there was a lot of alcohol. Nobody said anything that day but someone asked me afterward. All of my friends were heavy drinkers, even members of my household, so alcohol is always around. Thankfully it doesn't tempt me.
Man... I wish I didn't get tempted at all. After all I have been through with my health, I still think about it sometimes. Especially when I'm having a really bad day. Beer, wine don't bother me at all. It's the liquor that gets to me. Thank you! God bless
I remember trying to lay on the cool hard floor and rolling around in so much pain that I prayed to die. I never want to experience that ever again! Alcohol is not the answer, alcohol kills. @@liverdisease-qb6rk
Hey there. Good video. You are relatively new to sobriety so it is understandable that you were triggered. I would have felt the same way at your stage of sobriety. I used to get triggered in restaurants. I am 17 years sober now, and I don't get triggered like that anymore. I still avoid situations where there is a lot of drinking. I just don't like being around people that are getting drunk. As you get further along in sobriety, situations like you experienced won't bother you as much. But it takes time, and it takes a lot of work with you recovery program. Good luck, and don't drink.
it's a real journey of discovery and we hit these speed bumps which aren't really wrong but they are indeed jarring and force us to look at things --- I was so impressed with the strength LD showed by respecting the kids /not wanting to ruin the holiday / but not really " folding " either -- Everyone learned about everyone that day So it was a day of True giving. The spirit of Christmas
I ❤ your courage!!!!
I had to go no contact with my family to keep my sobriety & sanity.
U have 100% validation
I get it
It’s a visceral feeling inside us.
It scares the shit out of us!
Your helping so many but more so you r still SOBER!
I’m so sorry & yeah it sucks
It automatically triggered me into tears. I mean.... I cried like a child. I wasn't expecting to feel like that. It was really the first time since I quit drinking for that I have been triggered so hard. First time I have seen vodka in almost 2 years. I had no idea it would make me feel like that. I have been around people drinking wine and beer, hasn't bothered me at all, but those weren't my drinks. I drank vodka and I drank the brand that was sitting there. Also.... I only bought half gallons of it. I mean... it was the exact bottle I have literally chugged out of before. It was a real eye opener. Thank you! God bless
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I know exactly what you feel.
I feel the same
I can’t imagine my brother falling to his knees crying.
I am so sorry.
That’s the power a pain med or Adderall has over me.
If my cancer comes back or if I need surgery again addiction will follow or I’ll end up in the ground.
We can’t control it.
The moment almost sounds like it triggered in you something else the little one inside you went through as well.
Those were tears for your childhood self. 13yrs in trauma therapy teaches u lots.
Way to work through the feelings.
Sounds like u had an awakening. ♥️
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I’m jealous of your reaction. Something in me won’t allow me to feel that deep.
Bank that feeling deep in your soul
@Kristen976 thank you. I don't usually get that emotional over anything. I guess just a lot has just piled up in me emotionally over time and it finally came out. God bless!
Thank you for your honesty and openess, your videos are helping others , your awesome. Im so sorry that happen to you at your family christmas gathering , im sure it hurt you , and was upsetting and unsettleing , and confusing. Sometimes families may do things like that, just not thinking. Hopefully next time around you wont run into that problem. Stay strong , you did the right thing & your doing so good. I hope your feeling better today and i wish you a good day, keeping you in my prayers. Keep your head up and God Bless you. 🙏 💕 😊👌✌️✨️
Thank you so much for that! I really appreciate everything. I hope it doesn't happen again as well and I don't think it will. I talked about it yesterday with my mom and told her how bad it hurt my feelings. It hurt my feelings more than anything, I just felt like it should have never of happened. It's ok though, I have forgiven and moved on now. Thank you again! God bless!!!!
I'm glad your OK now, and are trying to move on. I'm in my 60s and my mom Is in her late 80s now, and still she can do and say hurtful things , and I try to just look over it and move on, because I really don't think she even realizes it would bother or hurt me. I'm happy your mom talked with you, and I hope you won't run into that problem again while with your family. Keep doing what your doing. You are awesome. Your in my continued prayers. God Bless you and your family 💕 😊🙏👍.
Thanks for another video man!!! I needed to hear this. I didn't drink yesterday but I have been beating myself up on how I got here and why I didn't stop drinking sooner. Crazy because my dad is 72 in a couple of months and he just told me he's slowed down on drinking and is down to only 2-3 shots a day and a 16-20oz beer.....smh. I just can't help feeling that me being 42 I have AH is just a little unfair but it is what it is. Can't do anything about that now
Thank you man! Yeah... that does really suck. I know exactly how you feel. Why did it happen to us so young. Nothing that we can do though except keep trucking forward. I'm glad it helped today brother! God bless
@liverdisease-qb6rk again thanks for these vids. I feel like I'm not doing this alone
@Jeffburns1980 you're welcome! You definitely are not alone brother!
Hi bro thank you for other video
Hey man! You're welcome! Thank you for watching! God bless!
Hey man I totally understand. I just got back from Charleston and I am not going to lie ....it was tough. I thought a lot about you on multiple occasions over the last 4 days. People have no idea what kind of pull this drug has on us. It's like asking a starving man to not eat food laid out in front of him. But those of us who deal with it understand bro.
Man.... you are not kidding about that analogy. It's so true. It really isn't understood by one's who don't suffer with this disease. Thank you for thinking of me over the past few days, I was hoping all was well with u after u messaged me the other day. I know that you were having a tough time the other day. I'll be down there next Wednesday. I'll send u a message and see if you are around. I would love that cup of coffee! God bless!
I think it helps to think of sleep as extreme relaxation. A person should spend the last hour before getting under the bedsheets focusing on slowing down and calming the mind.
Please remember that you do not have to stay twelve hours at the holiday party at your child hood home. It's better for your mental health if you find an excuse to cut the visit short.
It's up to you whether your tolerance level is three hours or fifteen minutes.
Love this reminder. We use it in my stop smoking group. Plan to stay an hour if you can .. then know where the exit is. WE walk in our own Power. B O U N D A R I E S -- they are for us to stay safe and genuine to ourselves
greetings. yesterday sounded like a challenge. kind of hard to tell if it was a FU, or oversight. regardless, i can understand how that would be received, coming across it like that. i rem being at family reunion dinners, when i was in my sober period of 2.5 years, 2019-2021, and attempting to decline, politely, all the liquor that kept being offered to me. it was so uncomfortable. No thank you is often not enough, and i do not want to get into a back-and-forth either. none of us do. it is so strange, when it comes to alcohol, to say no, means you are some kind of freak. i'll take the freak-tag, thank you very much.
some of my trying-to-stay-sober hacks:
-i watched videos like yours
-i sought out videos and articles detailing the benefits to your body and mind, from day-to-day, week-to-week, and so on.
-this may be odd, and i was never a driver and a drinker, but i watched YT videos on DUI arrests. those pretty much reinforce how bad drinking can get
as for CBD: i have osteoarthritis in my knees. several years ago, when i was first diagnosed, i went to a day-long workshop, sponsored by our provincial (Canada) medical system. a female nurse headed up this workshop, detailing everything osteo. when it got to the end-stages of the workshop, she got down to treatments. she went through the pharmaceutical and over-the counter remedies, which took up a lot of the pages in the workshop's accompanying workbook. and then, barely mentioned in the workbook, was CBD. this nurse, and we could tell her hands were handcuffed, but she spent the majority of this segment of the workshop on the benefits of CBD, and how opur brains already have CBD receptors in them, and they are there for a reason. i could tell she couldn't say PICK THESES PICK THESE, but i knew that was where she was hoping we would head.
and RE the livestream, you said noon. what time zone are you, and could you make sure to specify the time zone, so we can adjust accordingly. i am PST, and based off of where you live, you are either 2 or 3 hours ahead of me.
peace.
Thank you. I think it was a fu. But, still doesn't excuse it. Shouldn't have been out. Sorry u went through that, and yes, no is never enough for some reason. I'll never understand that. Thank you for watching and God bless!
Our family was rightfully bothered by our drinking. They can also become annoyed by our recovery/sobriety.
It's a fine line.
This is true... we live in the same town and do not get together as a family very often... maybe twice a year. Thank u for the comment! And thank you for watching! God bless
This was a wonderful test for you -- It's Life -- you are meeting Life --- you considered your children which is beautiful -- you Rose to the situation and acted very maturely. You have issues with your dad but truly it is their home. So now you know you will have to think about boundaries as you go forward. Our triggers are our problems friend. My opinion. The world is not going to cater to us. What I will say without knowing you or your family they say when one family member has a problem, " the whole family is sick " and this is so True. Just as you are not perfect, your parents aren't either ... decide your boundaries going forward. You play offense and lead with your power. You handled it very well. I am happy to hear you are able to cry --- big love to you -- friendship
I absolutely feel you. Ugh ...
Thank you for the comment! Sorry, I hate that you know how I feel about that.... hope things are doing good for you! Happy new year! God bless
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I was raised by an alcoholic mother. It made me miserable my whole young life. I was the youngest in our single parent household. No one ever cared about how much her alcoholism bothered me..even after older siblings moved out, they always came back to party at our house of course toting their cheap beer w them. To this day, the hair on my neck stands up whenever I hear a flip top can opening up.
@@maryqc8418 I'm sorry. I really am. God bless. Happy new year btw!
I live in South Carolina and I’m having liver problems from all the years of drinking and my girlfriend’s family they drink and I can’t let it bother me. I destroyed my own life. I have temptation sometimes but I know how bad my health is.
I was a heavy drinker in my 20's and 30's, then it just tapered off as i had to get busy with life, work etc. Same for some of my old friends. Nowadays if we get together we laugh and make fun of each other for some of the funny sh*t that happened/we did back in the day. Old friends that dont drink anymore are the greatest too.
That sounds really cool that you guys can do u that. That's awesome! Thank you for watching, and God bless
Just wanted to wish you a merry Xmas. I hope you are doing well.
Thank you! Merry Christmas to you! God bless!
@@liverdisease-qb6rk Your videos are legit. Love em.
@@liverdisease-qb6rk You ever heard of Kieth Whitley? Very interesting story with alcohol
@@jamesmontana29 no... I have not. Does he have videos on TH-cam? God bless
Seems like this will be a slip and not a fall, which I'm very happy to see. Does your liver disease allow you to carry and take antabuse in crisis situations or no? I have found success with that tactic in emergencies but I have no major liver issues.
Hello! I'm not really sure what Antabuse is. So no... I don't. Thank you for the question! God bless
Yep you look very healthy.
My b day lol
I’ll b on the lookout
Lives can b tough I think trying to catch all the ?’s.
Mods I think help you.
I’m so sorry you’re having rough nights with your stomach.
Thank u! Did u say it's your birthday? If so... happy birthday!
@@liverdisease-qb6rk yep the 30th.
Thank you 🙏🏻
Life goes by so fast 💨… reminds me of a Linkin Park song lol
LD Personally I feel like after everything that you and your family have been through within the past three years, I think that was very Disrespectful of you and yours. It would have hurt my feelings very very badly. I’m very glad that your Mom put it away.
Sleep….
Hmm I see a psych I’m on Seroquel.
Cbd makes me feel nothing really.
When the doc sent me home from The PaRC on no Klonopin after 20yrs of taking 1mg at night nothing helped me.
Wide awake for days/nights
I wonder if he could ask his doctor. I used to be a nurse until it ran me into the ground. I know if you’re honest with docs they will gladly help you while going through detox.
I almost died from going cold turkey off Klonopin. Addiction is but the symptom. For me it covered up my fear of those in authority, anxiety, ability to leave the house, mood disorder etc
Thank you for all that. Definitely adding to my notes. I want to.make a video on ways to beat the withdrawal. God bless
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Valarian ROOT works perfect for withdrawal. Take more then the recommended dose because you're really trying to calm your nerves and sleep. It's my go to every time. You can get it at health food stores.
It's doesn't make you super drowsy like melatonin or CBD might. Its really calming. I highly recommend it.
Thank you! I appreciate you sharing! God bless
I think it’s odd that adults will bend over backwards to accommodate allergies…I am allergic to strawberries and friends and family will be sure to reassure me that the fruit salad has had no strawberries near it, peach short cake for everyone instead of strawberry etc…but when it comes to booze …we’ll Boyo, you are on your own! It is OK to talk smack to you and about you and drinking…but not consider just removing it from social situations when you will be participating. I think most people are not able to understand addiction…or really don’t want to..
A friend of mine had liver disease (autoimmune) and her liver specialist signed off on her getting a medical marijuana card for her neuropathy, so liver wise it could be a case by case thing and perhaps cbd would be fine and something to look into.
I also suffer from neuropathy. Thank you for the advice! I appreciate you continuing to watch and hang out in the comments! That's so awesome! Thanks again! God bless
I know dandelion root tea helps with blood sugar.
CBD totally fine
THC makes me paranoid.
Keep rockin it
Thank you!
Well, any girl I ever dated would've disappeared in a heart beat if I did anything like this, If I displayed any weakness or problems at all, even if we were married, they'd be gone, as soon as it was most convenient.
Same thing would happen even if it wasn't my fault, I could wreck a motorcycle, get sick, whatever, and they would abandon me on the hospital bed. That's the quality of women I'm accustomed to.
What I'm trying to say is you have a rarity for a wife. In this day and age they'll leave over the most minor of inconveniences, let alone being married to a guy that drank so hard he became basically useless at one point.
Careful with full spectrum CBD, there is some THC in there. I accidentally got myself high, thought I was rufied.
Damn! Really? How much thc was in the oil? That must have been so uncomfortable! I couldn't imagine, thinking u were just taking cbd and then got high! Thank you for sharing! God bless!
@@liverdisease-qb6rkNot sure how much but my own fault. There’s a little graphic that is “THC!” in a triangle. And ingredients include Delta8 and Delta9 THC. Lesson is we always need to read labels. Takes a few seconds. Next time! May you have a new year of better health and happiness.
@thejeffstein thank you so much and the best to you as well! God bless!
Recognizing that sabotage but that said I think there’s a lot of sabotage going on. For some it’s self sabotage, others it’s people around us. Christmas itself can be a big trigger. Emotions and expectations fall short and suffer. Often drinking results
Yes. You are correct. Thank you again! God bless
I don't see any problems with taking cbd. I had some success with the sleepy time teas that have chamomile and Valerian root in it. For withdrawal symptoms I've taken Kratom in a tea form. Kratom can be addicting as well but it def beats putting posion in your body.
Thank you for your feedback! I will definitely be adding these to my notes. God bless
@@liverdisease-qb6rk yeah opiate addicts should do their best to stay away from Kratom.
U tube has videos on how to get off that.
Jesus is the chain ⛓️💥 BREAKER!
Don't apologize. To do that to you is unbelievable. Obviously your family has alcohol problems of their own. I am sorry for you. Dont worry you spoiled their Christmas. They spoiled yours. So inconsiderate
I’m never mess in with shots they alway creep up , mom didn’t want me to drink but bottle was left outside had the worst hangover I never want to feel that way
I completely understand that! For real! Thank you! God bless!
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I will do better my friend thank you I’m quitting soon
1 more thing man...like I said in my earlier comment my dad still drinking like a fish. He's cut down to 2-3 shots and a 16-20oz beer a day. You can imagine what he was doing. He was trying to come to xmas dinner drinking also. We had xmas din at my house so since it was over here I don't allow any alcoholic beverages in my home. But my dad was trying to bring it anyway....can't choose family man...smh
I just don't understand the logic behind that... why can't they just refraine for 1 day, or half the day even when we go over to their houses? After everything we've been through.... and no... u can't choose. Sorry u went through that brother. God bless
@liverdisease-qb6rk I don't know either man! But I try to be understanding because, at one point, I was that guy. If I did take some time off, maybe I wouldn't be in this situation. However, ONE day out the year isn't too much to ask. Also, you were just asking to not have it in your face smh...God bless you and your family man!!! Here's to a great and positive new year!
@Jeffburns1980 absolutely!!!! Cheers!
In my experience, vodka is the easiest alcohol to overdrink. After the first couple of drinks, I can't even taste it and the next thing I know, I'm ready to hit the floor.
I call it show respect. If i go somewhere family or friends & they drinking ok. I keep it brief but visit. I try distract if tgere are kids or pets or i will offer to tidy up etc. Then join back in till.i think why am i here? Say my goodbyes. My home is no alchol. None. My space my rules.
I completely agree with you! And it's your life! Thank you! God bless!
Your family should had known better, the fact they still drink in front of you is unbelievable. I would have left, but I understand why you didn't.
There is no easy moments.
Unfortunately not.... but we gotta keep truckin! Thank you! God bless!
Maybe they got drunk and sloppy and just gave it no thought about setting the bottle their, I think you will get to the point were looking at liquor won't bother I've been sober 9 years and alcohol dosent bother me anymore at first it was really hard but with time I think stuff like that won't bother you so much,I use to dream that I was drinking when I first stopped and the cravings were bad but I don't even think about alcohol no more
Thank you! I actually made a video a week ago about dreaming I was drunk. I still do it sometimes. I mean, I am drunk in my dream. If you haven't seen it, go watch that video. I explained it in the video. Thank you again for the comment! God bless
Sounds like something my own dad would do to me
Normally I would want people to carry on as usual to take the spotlight off me and to watch them get drunk actually reaffirms the decision to quit. In YOUR case though, good grief you were on deaths door! C'mon Pa are you that obtuse?
Satan knows how you have a crew now behind u, u have a purpose.
Nothing is a coincidence
Good for u !!!
I’m so sorry that happened to u.
If a bottle of Vicodin ES was there I’d have taken the bottle.
I’d see it as u did too.
I’m sorry. So happy u have your brother. So lucky
I never thought of it that way, that makes total sense! Damn.... glad I have everyone here with me. First thing I think of everytime it pops in my head now. I have too many people with me in this, can't give in. Thank you for giving me another perspective! God bless
@@liverdisease-qb6rk u bet… instead of seeing it as your dad I envision the way Satan had it all put together for u just when u walked through that door. He had cvs on my vm after I left iop. It was the day before Vicodin changed to a schedule higher class.
Omg for a split second I thought
I could go nobody would know.
Refill of 60. Then I thought wtf I was shaking so hard. I called back told on my habit, told them to never give me Vicodin again to the pharmacist.
He said congratulations u did it!
When they say “Satan is doing push ups in the parking lot getting stronger”
He literally is waiting to catch us.
The Nxt day I didn’t feel happy or proud.
I felt like damn u idiot. U could have had your pills today.
That soon went away and I just keep saying
Satan u will never catch me again!
Relapse?
Relapse Queen here. I think some of us have to fall a lot for us to want our sobriety
I’m a brutally honest person.. so brutal i’m probably a unicorn. I’m going to tell you str8: nobody has to accommodate you because you have/had a drinking problem. Nobody! I know you suffered & your family knows how much you suffered. But if you can’t handle being around alcohol too bad man. As strong rational men we have to be able to separate logic from emotion. Thats what gives us our strength. So it’s cool to cry & be upset. But nah bruh. The world doesn’t owe you nothing. Not even family. Peace ✌🏿
This isn't brutal honesty, this is being a douchebag. Can does not equal should. You think I'd blow cigerette smoke at my dad?!! No, that'd be a douche move. Why is alcohol any different? You're just selfish.
And a douche, apparently.
Why do your parents have a unique ability to fluster you and "push your buttons"? Because they installed the buttons!!
Your father owes you an apology. You probably won’t get one, the fact that he did it means he is quite aware of what he did.
I don't understand why you'd be so bothered, if I went through the health problems you went through because of drinking my first reaction if I saw vodka my stomach would turn and I would have no interest in drinking.
Back in my drinking days my choice was vodka, I used to drink vodka straight, I don't drink anymore and if I see vodka I have no urge to drink.
You're raging alcoholic but that's your problem.
Dysfunctional families
Have you ever considered, that alcohol in parts of yout family has a firmer grip on someone, that you dont know of? Maybe alcohol has more meaning, than you think it has.
Yeah.... I actually have now. I just thought about it on the way home last night. I really hope not! Thank you! God bless
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I don't have to lecture you, that's rude.
But, I know that from my sister.
I know, when somebody drinks, I know the smell, open the cabinet and see vodka. The cheap kind.
From there, I knew. In the end, she has to find her own path. I do not confront, she doesn't see.
But even driving a car, I smell her.
But, that's when all theory falls apart.
Who am I, to confront her, when she's in clear denial.
So, I don't.
I see myself in her behaviour.
And, I know for sure, that addiction runs in my family, since my granddad.
But nobody talks about it, nobody wants to.
They feel offended, when I talk about it, so I don't.
And to find stocked vodka, like in the weirdest places?
That's probably "that" number one red flag.
My father was drinking too.
@@glutitis thank you for sharing! God bless
I had to stop at 12:06
Sounds like the devil is chasing you boy. He knows how close you are to God, your sobriety he’s just itchin to make u break!
I get it. Been there with my family. All alcoholics, opiate abusers long ago.
Damn U showed courage !
Thank u! Crazy isn't it?
Mushrooms bro with withdrawals
For real? You don't have a bad trip? I would think with the level of anxiety that comes with wd that shrooms would not be a good idea. When I did them, when i was a teenager, set and setting was all we talked about with shrooms. I would be scared as he'll to try that... have you done this before? How did it help I'd you don't mind answering? Thank you! God bless
U gotta do Microdose. U can’t do a lot like maybe…. .5 for the first time …help me with anxiety makes feel clam almost like a drunk feeling it help me so much
Please be careful with taking any canabis substances with your liver history. You were and are in 4th stage, incurable, liver disease. I have cirrhosis even though I am not a drinker and so I have been watching a lot of videos on cirrhosis. I got cirrhosis because I am a sugarholic but I have 2 close relatives with alcoholism. You can take my word, it is so so hard to just give up sugar and all carbs, I crave it. And alcohol turns into sugar, so I do know cravings. I came across information on taking any type of CBD oil or canabis products when you have serious liver disease. It can trigger your liver into another deadly episode that nearly took your life before. I don't have the video book marked and can't remember what the name of the chemical interaction is called but it can definitely mess you up further. Just a warning so you don't crash and burn. Take care.
Thank you! Thank you for all the feed back. If u find that video, can you send me the link. It's probably in your history if it's on TH-cam. I would really like to watch that. Thanks again! God bless!
You should know what you did it to yourself. You can’t blame people because they want to drink and you drink to excess like I did if you can’t handle it you just stay away.
I understand. Keep strong😊
Thank you! God bless