Know ALL ABOUT THE HONEYMOON PHASE!! Seen it happen to so many people in treatment and recovering at home. Including myself!! So glad you made this realistic video of real recovery and the mental torture anorexia puts you through. Crying is a good outlet but please keep fighting that bully in your head. The only way to beat this is to do the opposite of what your Ed is telling you to rewire your neural pathways!!
You owe nobody an apology! Do not apologize for feelings. Recovery is difficult no matter what you're recovering from. Just keep going and keep pushing yourself, I know it's hard. I'm mom to two teenage girls and one has a ton of mental and emotional issues from something get bio dad did when she was very small plus losing all of her grandparents starting with her best friend , her papa at 3 years old she was his shadow. She keeps on fighting and you're still fighting and as long as you are taking in air into your lungs you aren't hopeless. You have a change just keep going girl you got this. The mom in me so just wanted to give you a great big hug and tell you everything will be ok when I saw the beginning of this video cuz I can just see my own girls when I saw that pain and sadness. Keep going though you're doing great even when you have a bad day tell yourself you have improved so much and you are still trying and you got this because as time goes on this will get easier. Take care and don't put too much on yourself when you are having a bad moment it's ok you don't ever need to apologize for that.
I respect you Lauren. I respect your honesty and I hope that you are feeling less distressed. This is all part of you healing, these times. You don't have to sugar coat anything. Be you. Be true to how you are feeling always. Wishing you the bestest x
We all believe in you!! Your motivation and determination to recover and get your life back is your strength never give up its going to be hard love but I believe you can do it how ever long it takes you can do this. Breathe and remember why your doing this. Your gonna have bad days so don't ever beat yourself over them it is all part of your recovery! Be you and stay strong 💙
Very interesting, I somehow managed to jump into recovery all by myself when I was 18 by coming across the 'Minnie Maud Recovery' guidelines which sounds like what you described. 3000+ calories for a girl under the age of 25, 3500+ for a male under the age of 25, stop weight yourself and exercising. So I jumped in and started following these guidelines all by myself, no therapy, no nothing, fuck knows how I managed it tbh, but I have never fully recovered I would say, physically yes I feel I definitely reached my weight set point, but not mentally 100%, i'm 22 now. I will never diet again and never have, but I definitely catch myself restricting sometimes without thinking about it, or over exercising, usually when something is stressing me out or i'm just having a bad day, but I catch myself and do my best to push myself back on to the right track. I feel this is something all past eating disorderd individuals have to live the rest of their life like, being cautious. Thanks for sharing!
Nathan Pine Well you my friend are pretty frickin’ bad ass!! It’s quite reassuring to know theres other people that can give real recovery a go by themselves, there is SO much more to life! Keep going Nathan, you seem absolutely awesome and super talented (makeup goals!???) Just a message away! Xx
I admire you and everyone that has fighten against eating disorders, we learn from experiences and you hace grown so much, you are Strong and beatifull, dont let anything destroy all your hard work 💕💕💕
Thank you so much for making this video about your inpatient treatment and your recovery in an adult ward. 1:1 observations are horrible but necessary!! Aww you defo need to take toys in to IP treatment. My own duvet cover was also something I found comforting! Plus my dressing gown. Lol. Sounds like quite a good unit with a good mixture of cognitive therapy and holistic therapies. I hope making this video hasn't been too triggering for you. It all sounds very familiar!!!! All those dining room rules! 😂 I never had to use plastic cutlery though!! 😅 Haha Ubley yoghurts. Oh yeah I remember those!!!!!! 🙈 Plus the sitting time after meals!!! (somehow I managed to get 4 dislikes too, lol) I am also a bit feisty and stubborn!! The tantrums omg!!! 🙄 I am so placid these days now though. Many years later! Definitely focus on yourself, nobody is going to be going home with you and living with you, so you have to focus on your own goals. Definitely also pay attention to those who say 'don't end up like me' I'm 40yrs old now and finally in recovery for 8yrs but prior to that I was in and out since age 13. Such a waste of my life!!!! I'm so glad you're home now and tackling recovery on your own at home!!! DO NOT APOLOGISE FOR CRYING, IT HAPPENS TO US ALL AND IS A SIGN YOU'RE FIGHTING! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻❤️❤️❤️ Love you Lauren xx 😘
I know this video is more than a year old, Lauren, but I just came across it and I'm super proud of you for being open and telling your story. I hope you're doing okay now. Hugs/
Feelings are hard. Emotions hurt. But you are allowed, and it is nice to know you can allow yourself to feel., and to let the pain out. Keep growing with the healing, please. You are doing great choosing healing.
Thank you for sharing, even the hard bits x I'm going ip for anorexia soon (not in the UK though) so I find it very helpful to hear about your ip experience :)
May God bless you. I'm sorry you've had to go through so much. Know that our prayers are with you, and know that God will help you. May Jesus be with you
Ur doing amazing proud of you hun! It’s very hard any diesder what colours ur have bbe I’m a red head but mine light like the bottom on ur. Hair I like the top colour of urs ? Xx
@@laurenleigh5896 ttanks i got a meeting tuesday as the ed unit in oxford referd me to hope spar so hopfully find out if they will emit a 20yr old male at bmi 14
You are such a brave young lady & an inspiration to anyone suffering from an eating disorder ( I currently am, but won't say what for trigger reasons ) The staff at the unit you were in sound wonderful, but your experience in general is a good enough reason for me to want to recover. Take care x
dont worry it will be okey im just to listen for you thanks for sharing your videos enjoy and have fun in the end it will be ok just be stong keep in touch coz i like to see you again in your next videos
You are such a beautiful person! I love your positive attitude and strength... you give me hope. I love your honesty too... because not all days will go well during recovery. Thank you for sharing your bad times... it’s helpful to see you struggle with things that only other Ed patients would understand... i totally get having a hard time adjusting to your changing body... and somehow when someone tells you that you look good... it comes across as you look fat... even though you know in your head you aren’t fat... please keep posting on all of your recovery not just the good parts because you are strong enough to make it and other people need to see it can be done! Sending you love and gratitude... thank you...
I highly enjoyed watching this video of your experiences with anorexia and being in a ward. it's a very touching story and it's nice to see how strong you were and still are! I hope your journey continues to be amazing and you reach the goals you desire. You're such a lovely person; never apologise for crying or having a bad day! We are only human and it's such a natural thing to do. I recently got offered a job as a support worker in a eating disorder clinic it so was nice to hear how the staff made such a huge impact on your life and time inside the clinic. What would you say the staff did to help you and keep you positive whilst being an inpatient? I'd love to have the same impact on young people as the staff did on you. It's so rewarding to help others, which I'm sure you can understand since you share your experiences on such a huge platform to help others. Again, I hope you continue to have a fantastic journey, and continue to stay positive and healthy 🙏🏽🙏🏽
Everything about you, Lauren is brilliant. U are such a lovely character on this earth and I truly wish uuu all the best. (love the Michael Bible calendar btw :D)
to touch on the vegan point - in my experience there was a “normal diet”, the vegetarian menu was replaced with a fully vegan menu for ease and obviously diets to meet religious beliefs, most meat was halal anyway but there were halal/kosher options
that’s cool, vegan wasn’t an option when i was in there - no vegan snacks or anything so it was veggie or meat but im glad you had some good options and beliefs in your unit
@@wak2k voluntary as they said they’d section me then and there if I didn’t accept and my family were crying - but put me on a level 3 and said they’d section me if I tried to leave so yeah ‘voluntary’ but not really🤣
Know ALL ABOUT THE HONEYMOON PHASE!! Seen it happen to so many people in treatment and recovering at home. Including myself!! So glad you made this realistic video of real recovery and the mental torture anorexia puts you through. Crying is a good outlet but please keep fighting that bully in your head. The only way to beat this is to do the opposite of what your Ed is telling you to rewire your neural pathways!!
I'm french so I don't underestand everything but I can tell you you are strong and there is a bad part in every evolution so keep going
You owe nobody an apology! Do not apologize for feelings. Recovery is difficult no matter what you're recovering from. Just keep going and keep pushing yourself, I know it's hard. I'm mom to two teenage girls and one has a ton of mental and emotional issues from something get bio dad did when she was very small plus losing all of her grandparents starting with her best friend , her papa at 3 years old she was his shadow. She keeps on fighting and you're still fighting and as long as you are taking in air into your lungs you aren't hopeless. You have a change just keep going girl you got this. The mom in me so just wanted to give you a great big hug and tell you everything will be ok when I saw the beginning of this video cuz I can just see my own girls when I saw that pain and sadness. Keep going though you're doing great even when you have a bad day tell yourself you have improved so much and you are still trying and you got this because as time goes on this will get easier. Take care and don't put too much on yourself when you are having a bad moment it's ok you don't ever need to apologize for that.
20:50 IKR. It’s like a game and I hate it because in my ward everyone would try and be the last one to finish and it’s really catchy.
LikedGecko 315 one of the first things i noticed while in treatment. everything turns into a competition
‘Only so much banagrams you can play’
Oh lord! Girlie I know right
Ivy payne i’m in treatment right now and i can safely say i’ve mastered bananagrams bc of it
Bryanna Welsh aw hun! I feel your pain. I hope you have lots of friends and family visiting you. Well done with banagrams though hahaha
It’s so awesome to see you’re emotions, it isn’t an easy ride and it shows that you are so strong. ❤️
I respect you Lauren. I respect your honesty and I hope that you are feeling less distressed. This is all part of you healing, these times. You don't have to sugar coat anything. Be you. Be true to how you are feeling always. Wishing you the bestest x
We all believe in you!! Your motivation and determination to recover and get your life back is your strength never give up its going to be hard love but I believe you can do it how ever long it takes you can do this. Breathe and remember why your doing this. Your gonna have bad days so don't ever beat yourself over them it is all part of your recovery! Be you and stay strong 💙
I fucking love you Lauren you’re amazing and so strong !! There will be bad days but you have to keep slaying💛💛💛💛
Very interesting, I somehow managed to jump into recovery all by myself when I was 18 by coming across the 'Minnie Maud Recovery' guidelines which sounds like what you described. 3000+ calories for a girl under the age of 25, 3500+ for a male under the age of 25, stop weight yourself and exercising. So I jumped in and started following these guidelines all by myself, no therapy, no nothing, fuck knows how I managed it tbh, but I have never fully recovered I would say, physically yes I feel I definitely reached my weight set point, but not mentally 100%, i'm 22 now. I will never diet again and never have, but I definitely catch myself restricting sometimes without thinking about it, or over exercising, usually when something is stressing me out or i'm just having a bad day, but I catch myself and do my best to push myself back on to the right track. I feel this is something all past eating disorderd individuals have to live the rest of their life like, being cautious. Thanks for sharing!
Nathan Pine
Well you my friend are pretty frickin’ bad ass!!
It’s quite reassuring to know theres other people that can give real recovery a go by themselves, there is SO much more to life!
Keep going Nathan, you seem absolutely awesome and super talented (makeup goals!???)
Just a message away! Xx
@@laurenleigh5896 hi can u burn this onto a cd or dvd
I admire you and everyone that has fighten against eating disorders, we learn from experiences and you hace grown so much, you are Strong and beatifull, dont let anything destroy all your hard work 💕💕💕
Thank you so much for making this video about your inpatient treatment and your recovery in an adult ward. 1:1 observations are horrible but necessary!! Aww you defo need to take toys in to IP treatment. My own duvet cover was also something I found comforting! Plus my dressing gown. Lol. Sounds like quite a good unit with a good mixture of cognitive therapy and holistic therapies. I hope making this video hasn't been too triggering for you. It all sounds very familiar!!!! All those dining room rules! 😂 I never had to use plastic cutlery though!! 😅 Haha Ubley yoghurts. Oh yeah I remember those!!!!!! 🙈 Plus the sitting time after meals!!! (somehow I managed to get 4 dislikes too, lol) I am also a bit feisty and stubborn!! The tantrums omg!!! 🙄 I am so placid these days now though. Many years later! Definitely focus on yourself, nobody is going to be going home with you and living with you, so you have to focus on your own goals. Definitely also pay attention to those who say 'don't end up like me' I'm 40yrs old now and finally in recovery for 8yrs but prior to that I was in and out since age 13. Such a waste of my life!!!! I'm so glad you're home now and tackling recovery on your own at home!!! DO NOT APOLOGISE FOR CRYING, IT HAPPENS TO US ALL AND IS A SIGN YOU'RE FIGHTING! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻❤️❤️❤️ Love you Lauren xx
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You are such a strong lady i’m so proud of you!!
I know this video is more than a year old, Lauren, but I just came across it and I'm super proud of you for being open and telling your story. I hope you're doing okay now. Hugs/
Feelings are hard. Emotions hurt. But you are allowed, and it is nice to know you can allow yourself to feel., and to let the pain out. Keep growing with the healing, please. You are doing great choosing healing.
Why does she remind me of Annie from ‘The parent trap’
Thank you for sharing, even the hard bits x I'm going ip for anorexia soon (not in the UK though) so I find it very helpful to hear about your ip experience :)
DasMely good luck.
@@AngelicasRecovery Thank you 💜
May God bless you. I'm sorry you've had to go through so much. Know that our prayers are with you, and know that God will help you. May Jesus be with you
First part of the video made me tear up. We can do this Loz
Ur doing amazing proud of you hun! It’s very hard any diesder what colours ur have bbe I’m a red head but mine light like the bottom on ur. Hair I like the top colour of urs ? Xx
my favorite movie is matilda too!
Hi hun , are you still doing vlogs these days please ? Xx
i have servire anorexia and im resrictingeveryday and hate my body and feel fat but is that just my anorexia
yes it definitely sounds like anorexia, i hope you’re receiving help for it ❤️
@@laurenleigh5896 ttanks i got a meeting tuesday as the ed unit in oxford referd me to hope spar so hopfully find out if they will emit a 20yr old male at bmi 14
Pat tested laptop??
You look sooooooo beautiful
I love you very good very beautiful you i like you way you Emotional
You are such a brave young lady & an inspiration to anyone suffering from an eating disorder ( I currently am, but won't say what for trigger reasons )
The staff at the unit you were in sound wonderful, but your experience in general is a good enough reason for me to want to recover. Take care x
two years in a hellhole like the priory actually traumatised me ;(
Tiferet Tsubara s couple of my friends have been in the Priory and they didn't like it there either x
But you can get past that. You´re strong! Believe in yourself
Mette Andersen thank you ❤️ I hope so
Annie Barry yeh it is terrible
And me!
dont worry
it will be okey
im just to listen for you
thanks for sharing your videos
enjoy and have fun
in the end it will be ok
just be stong
keep in touch coz i like to see you again in your next videos
You're stronger than you know🧡 love you Loz, you CAN do this x
Don't apologize for crying. It can be a very healthy thing to do X
You are such a beautiful person! I love your positive attitude and strength... you give me hope. I love your honesty too... because not all days will go well during recovery. Thank you for sharing your bad times... it’s helpful to see you struggle with things that only other Ed patients would understand... i totally get having a hard time adjusting to your changing body... and somehow when someone tells you that you look good... it comes across as you look fat... even though you know in your head you aren’t fat... please keep posting on all of your recovery not just the good parts because you are strong enough to make it and other people need to see it can be done! Sending you love and gratitude... thank you...
it was the worst experience of my life but i’m never sorry for going
I highly enjoyed watching this video of your experiences with anorexia and being in a ward. it's a very touching story and it's nice to see how strong you were and still are! I hope your journey continues to be amazing and you reach the goals you desire. You're such a lovely person; never apologise for crying or having a bad day! We are only human and it's such a natural thing to do. I recently got offered a job as a support worker in a eating disorder clinic it so was nice to hear how the staff made such a huge impact on your life and time inside the clinic. What would you say the staff did to help you and keep you positive whilst being an inpatient? I'd love to have the same impact on young people as the staff did on you. It's so rewarding to help others, which I'm sure you can understand since you share your experiences on such a huge platform to help others.
Again, I hope you continue to have a fantastic journey, and continue to stay positive and healthy 🙏🏽🙏🏽
Everything about you, Lauren is brilliant. U are such a lovely character on this earth and I truly wish uuu all the best. (love the Michael Bible calendar btw :D)
Hey lauren. I used too follow ur instagram but i cant find anymore. Do u have it or not?
Her new account is lozfights 😊
@@timetogetmylifeback is that on instagram? I just cant find it when i search it in.I used too see it but now i cant:(
@@timetogetmylifeback can you send a link too her account?
@@timetogetmylifeback would you mind sending a link too her account please
Were you on section? Cuz they can’t ng if you’re voluntary. Winds me up when units threaten that so freely just to scare you 😡
S P i was practically on a section because if i refused or tried to leave they’d section me straight then and there so it’s like being trapped🙃
I have faith in you 💜💜💜
Damn England no toilet paper in psych wards - I’m in Scotland and we get toilet paper thank fuck aha
to touch on the vegan point - in my experience there was a “normal diet”, the vegetarian menu was replaced with a fully vegan menu for ease and obviously diets to meet religious beliefs, most meat was halal anyway but there were halal/kosher options
that’s cool, vegan wasn’t an option when i was in there - no vegan snacks or anything so it was veggie or meat but im glad you had some good options and beliefs in your unit
I wasn’t even allowed to be vegetarian. It was horrible.
Is this a NHS hospital? 🤔
Yeah! The Barberry in Birmingham
@@laurenleigh5896 can I ask how you got admitted... voluntarily or involuntary
@@wak2k voluntary as they said they’d section me then and there if I didn’t accept and my family were crying - but put me on a level 3 and said they’d section me if I tried to leave so yeah ‘voluntary’ but not really🤣
@@laurenleigh5896 Aww bless ya,.hope your better now.. ❤ my heart goes out to you and other people that are suffering with Anorexia.