hi everyone! so, recently lots of people have been asking questions about treatment that aren't food rules, but are more about daily life and general rules. would you be interested in a video about the daily schedule and rules in ed inpatient treatment? let us know! :)
at the mental hospital (i was not treating ED at the time) we had 20 minutes to eat everything in the plate, ever since it only takes me 15 minutes to eat, sometimes i forget i don’t have to eat EVERYTHING someone gives me.
jackie they were quite big, i gained weight because i used to eat little portions. we usually had the big meal, with tortillas or toast, some accompaniment, juice or tea and dessert that was usually jello (which i hate)
I see a lot of people in the comments asking about this so basically when you initially go into inpatient their first priority is to make you gain weight so that you aren’t in a dangerous position physically. This is why patients are forced to eat a lot in a short period of time. This allows patients to then deal with the mental part of the disorder so that when they most likely relapse for a bit / fluctuate in weight they still have enough weight on as not to be at risk of health complications. Thats why it might seem like the rules are so strict and cruel. Keep in mind that recovery is not a smooth road and you will never be completely rid of the disorder but its SO WORTH IT. If any of you are struggling right now, getting help is the best thing you can do for yourself.
@@macyjohnsonnn they wouldn't treat binge eaters the same, but unless they are also purging & underweight, they might not be considered at as high of a risk, depending on their behaviors, etc... & probably wouldn't be admitted to inpatient, because they wouldn't necessarily be close to death... they would need to gain weight however, if they were underweight. And either way, they would need therapy the VERY least, to help them with their condition. Every case is different, although usually treated with strict rules regardless. Anyone with an ED, or severe struggles with food etc, should seek help & let the professionals decide what is best for what condition... and like OP said, it's the best thing you can do if you need help, & so worth it.
Diana Fronsdahl thank you! I had anorexia for two years got very very bad and suddenly last year I “switched” to binge eating. It’s a constant battle in my head between the two. My doctor is about to send me to a ED clinic so I was just curious about how It’d be. Thank you!!
A I know it may feel that way, but you have to remember that those tactics are made specifically to help people get better. Even if it feels restricting or forceful.
a lot of eating disorder treatment facilities don’t fully understand that punishing you for your eating disorder isn’t helpful. at the facility i was at we had ensure when we didn’t complete a meal or snack. we had a nurse who would make us sit and stare at a wall until we finished our ensure or it was bedtime. during that time we would sit there and not be allowed to use coping mechanisms like coloring sheets or writing. i wish that places like these would have a better understanding sometimes, but i do understand why they do a lot of things they do
@@EmThrives Because then you are more likely to survive a relapse. Also. Parents don't even allow toddlers to just go colouring at the table. It's a distraction. And i know many ed patients just go and do something else, be distracted to not feel hungry. So letting you draw could be a way for many to just not eat.
Alas, one of the points of treatment is to force you to be present with food habits, it’s a form of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. It helps the brain break the unhealthy cycles and re-learn that you have to eat. Not saying that every ED unit does it perfectly, there there is a method to the madness, but eating where you have to be present with your food is strongly correlated with lower relapse rates.
I don't have ADHD but I tend to pace without even realizing it. I could be sitting drawing and just stand up and start pacing for 20 minutes. So if I had that rule istg they'd have to glue me to my chair
This would be very bad for most neurodivergent people , I think. I'm autistic and have particularly bad sensory issues when it comes to food and stuff that goes in your mouth , I would break half of these rules not due to my ED but due to my sensory sensitivity. Like "no picking at the food" , it makes sense but there are some foods I cannot (repeat: _cannot)_ eat in normal bites or portions because the texture changes or varies throughout the food item.
I could not do it. I bounce my leg and I literally cannot stop myself even if I wanted to. If I force myself to I'll get really angry/upset soooo y'know
Okay, so I have restless leg syndrome and I can't sit or lay down without moving my legs/feet. I totally understand the rule because of burning calories, but I physically couldn't do that.
the original rules are normally used to help new patients get to a healthy weight as they'll be malnourished and unhealthy, as time goes on they do change and you begin to get therapy and know for yourself what is right and wrong
“feet on the floor at all times” okay but im gay and short, so i would force them to make a compromise with me lmaoo no way am i sitting like a normal person unless they were holding a gun to my head 😂
@@sadboihrs1229 so there is a stereotype ( which is true for so many gay people) about gays always sitting weird in chairs, we can't just sit down, we always sit cross legged, or we put one leg on the chair, we sit in the weirdest ways. That's why the rule would be hard to follow. Hope I explained that in an okay way.
These rules are just so much more triggering. Honestly the no blanket one is torture. What happens if you're like me and always cold? I literally live wrapped in a blanket.
Wow I just realized being required to eat in a ED facility is my hell. I have ARFID. As a result of being force fed and shamed for being picky, I convince myself most foods I don’t like or haven’t tried are disgusting and I throw up every time. Every sleep over and school camp was just adults trying to force me to eat. I just threw up in their hands usually.
yeahhh... im tryna look for arfid specific stuffs but gosh it's hard, general ED centers at least according to these rules sound like Hell, i mean, also for ND ppl too tho like our systems rlly don't take that into consideration, i dont think I could survive this one she's talking about.
they would probably heavily drug you, they gave me these crazy big mood stabilizer pills when I was inpatient (not for ED but I imagine it's similar on that aspect).
When I’m older as a part time job I plan on working in an ED unit since I’ve been through it I feel I would understand their struggles and be able to help better
I am also severely lactose intolerant. Thankfully the second ED facility I went to catered to it pretty decently. I mean, I did have to have some repeat meals... Like lunch was always a ham sandwich... because they didn't have much variety for people with lactose intolerance. And the lactaid pill or whatever doesn't work for me so I just had to have a special menu. The first one... this was 2008... they didn't give two shits. Every time I pass the building while driving I have a horrible intense urge to throw a brick through their window for how shitty they treated me. I can't forgive them yet for what they did.
Ikr😂 i struggle with my wieght and recently got put on vitamins and my step mom always says that if i dont start eating more then shes gonna put me on ensures 😂 i was on pediasure for years as a kid but i hate ensures with a passion. Its like vitamins theyre okay the first few times but after you have them everyday for weeks on end ... it gets kinda old😩
Love the video! Also when you asked at 3:57 “why do I do this pose” subconsciously, humans use body language to express emotions, that pose is often used when we’re trying to gather confidence of strength.
I’ve been admitted for the first time and we have to start eating within 5 minutes or it’s considered incomplete so we get a calorie filled drink instead of the meal and if we don’t start that we get tube fed And today I had to have 2 packs of Santana’s and I dropped one on the floor (not on purpose) but she forced me to eat it and it was fkn horrible
Wow, that is absolutely brutal. I'm so sorry that this is what you're dealing with right now. You are seriously unbelievably strong and resilient for sticking with it. You can do this, don't give up. When you get through this, you can get through anything. Be brave and keep on fighting. xoxo
I literally laughed through half this video the sound affects and stuff were soo funny! But serious questions. Who were these volunteers? It seems like a pretty important part of treatment the meals themselves and I've heard that in treatment centers they usually have counselors and nurses not volunteers. Don't know just sounds like random people off the street LOL! Also some of these rules make absolutely no sense and are no reflection on how people without eating disorders eat. Like if this is supposed to teach "normal eating" having to lick stuff outa containers is not normal!
I believe the voulenteers all went through a but of training before they were able to supervise meals, and if more assistance was needed or if there was an incident, a nurse was called. Yes, some of the rules were pretty bizarre, but a lot of it was because there was such a focus on refeeding and ensuring everyone got all of their calories in. Glad you liked the video! :)
I went in to a facility where they didn’t separate kids based on situations (drug addictions, suicidal, eating disorders,etc) and they treated everyone like criminals. First day I didn’t know how it worked and I went back to my room after eating. I got yelled at and marked up for not waiting in the common area for an hour after eating. I got sick from anxiety and kept puking and the nurses would scold over me while my head was in a toilet. A lot of people I met there ended up back in facilities because they didn’t actually help. It’s really sad
I’m a picky eater and have OCD, I would literally die. But I really appreciate you telling your story, I’m a psych student and I want to work in in-patient care
I hate the scraping and crumb thing like . It's like they're like . How can we cause these people with eating issues to feel even more anxious to eat . Like i would have so much anxiety about getting an incomplete for no reason
Knapsacks are for camping😂 they’re basically backpacks, usually canvas, almost always weatherproofed. _Who would take a camping bag to supper?_ Also, sometimes yoghurt separates (especially the Greek kind) so I get the liquid bit, and draining it off rather than stirring it in can make it unbearably thick. Like eating spoons of cold, whipped butter. Yoghurt itself isn’t a liquid, I don’t think.
this video is so accurate. when i was put into a psych unit, i refused to eat so they made me drink ensure three times a day, every day for two weeks. it was hell. it made me so sick that i couldn't get out of bed. great job on the video :)
I find it easier to eat when I'm being distracted by something else (music, videos, talking to others) because I don't have to focus on my food so not having any form of distraction would stress me out beyond belief. But eating with more than 2 people present in the area would give me an anxiety attack; and those 2 people have to be close friends that I trust. I have to eat my foods in a certain order or a certain way or else it isn't "right" and I get worse. I'd die in treatment.
Honestly, thank you very much for this video. I saw some young girls whose goal was to get to an eating disorder clinic. You show that there is nothing glamorous about eating disorders
I could never live there, I struggle with an ed and I am a REALLY picky eater and if someone would tell me that I HAVE to eat anything I don’t like, I’d sit there and start to ball my eyes out
Marie Jahre same fear here. i’m in the process of recovery but we all know what that’s like so i’m so scared that if i ever have to be in a place like this that ill have to eat foods that i genuinely can’t stomach, not just whatever i consider off limits bc of ed mentality. like i absolutely will not eat fruit or berries in any capacity because im squeamish (is that the right word??) of the pulp and texture, i don’t know how i’d deal with being forced to eat that stuff
@Nah extreme pickiness is it's own eating disorder unrelated to wanting to lose weight, though, Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder or ARFID. (It is avoidant amd restrictive in variety, not amount of food) I have it and it's really hard. The smell of a food I don't like can make me nauseous and when my mom ordered me some peanut chicken without asking me I nearly had a panic attack.
Here's the thing; I don't know if I can count myself as anorexic because while I don't skip/eat very little at *all* meals, I always, 100% skip breakfast 'cause I legit just can't eat in the mornings without feeling super insecure about my weight. I could literally be one strawberry and I'd beat myself up for it. I have zero breakfast as a means of losing weight. I'm scared it'll turn into full anorexia...I don't want that, but if I feel insecure about my weight, I won't eat. There are days when I just don't get up to get lunch at school because I'd feel insecure...I want this to change but I just can't see my body as something to be content with. Everyone says "Girl no, you ain't fat!" but I have the feeling they're just being nice and in their minds and behind my back they call me a pig. It happened once, I heard it, it's bound to happen again.
Anorexia is usually when your bmi is below 17, BUT unhealthy eating isnt just anorexia, as a sufferer of bulimia, theres lots of other eating disorers, and you should see your doctor or a therapist/nutrisionist
35 minutes to eat? Not allowed to shake your legs? Must eat all crumbs? No food talk? You HAVE to have a spread on a muffin?? No mixing of food? This all sounds like a really good way to create a different kind of unhealthy food relationships.
what the hell how do you not have more subs than this ill be forced ip soon and these kinds of vids are really helpful cause i always need to know how things might be when idk at the same time it's pretty scary oof but thank you!
We are so sorry you are struggling. We are also glad you find these videos helpful! If you ever have questions or want to chat, give us a dm! Good luck with IP
thank you for making these videos and sharing them! I am someone who has had an undiagnosed eating disorder and in the past year I gained some weight bc of medication side effect. I am grateful to have these videos as a check for myself to keep myself accountable.
I used to be at a hospital because of depression self-harm and suicide (and the list goes on). I met a guy there and we had a sort of relationship kinda. cause he had an ed (much more concerning than mine) he went into a special unit for it. he would explain to me how strict they would be with food and moving around and it always made my think how is that helping you reconciling with food? it makes it look like food is a task rather than an enjoyment. Normally I'm at the limit of going there but I am scared to go so I hide my ed as much as I can from my family cause I am afraid it'll make it worse
Damn basically all the rules goes against my normal eating habits, that I have now and that I had before my Ed. I'm Glad I was out-patient (or how ever you spell it) cause all those rules would only have made my Ed worse
This is a scary time for you. That being said, this is the right way to go. By accepting treatment, you're choosing recovery and that is huge. All the best to you. You've got this. Xo
I have so many food allergies that I would be scared to go cause I feel like they wouldn’t believe me. But some of them will kill me the others just make me vomit horribly. And that’s just because I have stomach problems in general. So recovery at an actual centre sounds terrifying.
@@immortalvelociraptor7810 if your allergies can be confirmed through a medical exam (like that thing when they poke your arm with a bunch of different allergens. In sweden we call it the dot test) or you have diagnostic paper and stuff I really can't see it posing any problem
Honestly after listening to Nikki Grahames autobiography about ED treatment places. They were bad, I don't have an ED but the stuff they had to eat was insane. Like 4 Weetabix with cream. Not finishing a meal completely then you'd have to eat another one. Punishing not eating with more food. No wonder some ppl struggle to like food. Poor things
Hijab really is just a weird interpretation of the Koran. I mean they probably have certain rules in place for that, it's disrespectful to the persons right to religious freedom to not let them express their religion in the ways they want to and what not. My guess is that people can wear their hijabs until proven otherwise (like if they hide food there). But it's not like not wearing a hijab will have you banished from Islam and send you to Jahannam or what not (idk if Jahannam is the correct way to refer to it, so disclaimer on that. Please correct me if I'm wrong)
Dakota Jordyn oh my god that’s awful, i’m sorry they made you do that. they should have just asked you to change veils after meals to make sure there was no food on your old one...
Its further ingraining disordered eating as people do not eat that way and further presenting food as punishment. Considering that many places do ONLY this with no real supportive counseling or in depth treatment basically just fattening people up and then shipping them out even more disgusted with themselves and having even less control it is no wonder it is one of the most difficult issues to treat. I have heard of people being forced to eat foods that no non disordered person would ever consider eating. Most people do not drink thier salad with a 1/4 cup of dressing on 2 oz of veggies. People dont usually have gravy on everything. Residential places serving gravy on broccoli is a disaster. I enjoy food but were I to be forced to eat gravy on things I would grow severe adversions to the foods ruined by it. It is not ever normal for people to lick out ketchup and sauces from containers. Its completely disordered
I’ve never been in an eating disorder facility but I have been admitted to a facility that also had an eating disorder tract and from talking to people who were patients there they had 45 mins of regular meal time & up to an hour if they didn’t finish it right away (I don’t know about snacks) but usually during the extra 15 minutes it included nurses talking to them about why they didn’t finish on time if that makes sense. They had fully vegan treatment options (some of the patients did have to take supplements if they were vegan but so did patients with food allergies, etc.). And lastly, head scarves (& other religious hats/coverings) were allowed to be worn but were regularly checked by someone who met the religion’s guidelines of being allowed to see the person without it.
It takes me about 2 hours to eat. Since I was a young child & Teenager. And still having this terrible eating Disorder I’m 47 years old with Cerebral Palsy & Anxiety.
It is almost exactly the same as being inpatient in Denmark... kind of funny hearing all the rules from someone else.. I am actually laughing a bit. It sounds crazy with all the rules, but IT IS necessary.
It so is! I had to let go of ANYTHING and everything that could possibly be a food ritual, even if it was "innocent" or "normal". I just needed to "clean the plate" with my relationship with food lol pun intended
I feel like if I go impatient, I'd eat my food and I'd be in the good books until they release me, then I'd relapse and go right back and be like "wassup, gotta get this done so I can go back on the run" and continue cycle😭😅
when i was in treatment there was a teen room we were able to go there and stuff but there were other teens that weren’t in the treatment. so i was talking about what i was eating and got yelled at and they never told me i wasn’t able to talk about my food... i hated every second of treatment
VegucatED I’m going to partial patient on Monday. I’m terrified. But I’m going to document my experience and hopefully it will help to be able to vent.
You are simply adorable and I love your personality ❤ I found your channel after watching the Renfrew Doc. Subbed😘 why was shaking of the legs forbidden WTHH... Your editing is *on point, love it!!!*
very smart girl, wish you good luck and stay positive and healthy..i was in forced treatment neraly dead for many monthgs few years ago and it was much more strick then this i was much more controled but i was in psychatry clinic....i never wanan come back again...but i suffer ed and depression for 20 years of life and never i got fully recovered...but learened exist with it and trying not to fall completly into it...i hope you can recover fully sis
This is similar to my experience ): and honestly I can say this shit was the least helpful thing ever. It felt like the nurses got off on bossing us around and like forcing us to lick up sauce or whatever it was so fucking nasty. What helped me w my recovery was having a personal nutritionist and therapy where the weren’t assholes to me lmao
Hey if you don’t mind I have a question. How often can you use your phone? Is it limited or can you use it as you normally would? Ps. Great video thankyou for the information :)
Hi! At this particular treatment center, we were allowed to use out phones in our room but not during groups or meals. In other treatment centers I've been in though, phones were only allowed if you were off the unit and for a few minutes each day. Depends on where you are. Xo
If you read this, please feel free to comment. I went there 2019. But I will of course respect your wishes and not name where but as soon as you said 35 minutes and showed the package I knew where you were :) it saved my life.
I have a hereditary condition which causes me to need operations to remove my teeth because they dont grow. And with the cutting up food a had an exception but i was right next to a nurse and my friend as we both went into IP at the same time
Oof. I was inpatient ,too. Yk what? They gave a shit about if we are or not. They gave a shit about our psych. AS long as we gained weight somehow, nobody cared. Some nurses even called An eleven year old Ana kid fat, even tho she had already lost 18kg. Aaaaaah. Beautiful Austrian ed clinics
These are a lot of the same rules that were at the treatment facilities I've been to. When you talked about "The Lounge" I got major flashbacks...we used so many coloring books in there... Also, Ensure is the worst. Boost is *slightly* better, but it's still a drink from hell. I remember the sound of the cart going "bumbumbumbumbumbum" down the hall...OOF It's rather weird that you couldn't put fruit or yogurt in your cereal; we could at one of the places. Like, it's NORMAL to do that! I guess they had their reasons, though. One thing that sucked was that we couldn't have cinnamon at one place...my oatmeal was lonely...😅
I'm actually really surprised I made it through the whole video, but it was nice to hear what it's like. Sounds terrible, but I like hearing about other people's experiences.
Some people use it to hide food, eg if you have small pieces of food and you mix it with a sauce, or mix food that really don’t go together so they are put off from eating it. Since they control that you’ve eaten everything and you can’t hide it this way I would guess it’s to break the routine? Same thing as the “no cutting up tiny pieces”-thing. I don’t know for sure, but that’s the most logical explanation.
I drink ensure for fun all the time. It just tastes good. I mainly drink it at night when I’m still hungry but I’m not allowed to eat due to a food fast in my religion.
It's ok to be nervous. this is a scary step to take, and it's also the right thing to do. you deserve to recover, so when you go in there, let them help you. you can do this and you will come out stronger. all the best. xoxo
hi everyone! so, recently lots of people have been asking questions about treatment that aren't food rules, but are more about daily life and general rules. would you be interested in a video about the daily schedule and rules in ed inpatient treatment? let us know! :)
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Yes xx
yes definitely please
Definitely!!
Yes, very much, that would be a lovely video 💜
Omg that's crazy. 35 minutes to eat? I don't have an eating disorder and it takes me like 45 minutes.
Yeah it's quite stressful. They're very strict.
Gaby we had 30 minutes to complete a meal it was hell i now am home and takes ages to eat
Hehehe I have binge eating disorder and every meal takes less than 5 minutes
at the mental hospital (i was not treating ED at the time) we had 20 minutes to eat everything in the plate, ever since it only takes me 15 minutes to eat, sometimes i forget i don’t have to eat EVERYTHING someone gives me.
jackie they were quite big, i gained weight because i used to eat little portions. we usually had the big meal, with tortillas or toast, some accompaniment, juice or tea and dessert that was usually jello (which i hate)
I see a lot of people in the comments asking about this so basically when you initially go into inpatient their first priority is to make you gain weight so that you aren’t in a dangerous position physically. This is why patients are forced to eat a lot in a short period of time. This allows patients to then deal with the mental part of the disorder so that when they most likely relapse for a bit / fluctuate in weight they still have enough weight on as not to be at risk of health complications. Thats why it might seem like the rules are so strict and cruel. Keep in mind that recovery is not a smooth road and you will never be completely rid of the disorder but its SO WORTH IT. If any of you are struggling right now, getting help is the best thing you can do for yourself.
Yes, things may seem weird or cruel, but are for good reason... 💜
Okay but what about binge eaters? They wouldn’t make you gain weight when you go in then, right?
Macy Johnson where i went they had separate units for different EDs so i cant tell you for sure and id rather not spread misinformation
@@macyjohnsonnn they wouldn't treat binge eaters the same, but unless they are also purging & underweight, they might not be considered at as high of a risk, depending on their behaviors, etc... & probably wouldn't be admitted to inpatient, because they wouldn't necessarily be close to death... they would need to gain weight however, if they were underweight. And either way, they would need therapy the VERY least, to help them with their condition. Every case is different, although usually treated with strict rules regardless. Anyone with an ED, or severe struggles with food etc, should seek help & let the professionals decide what is best for what condition... and like OP said, it's the best thing you can do if you need help, & so worth it.
Diana Fronsdahl thank you! I had anorexia for two years got very very bad and suddenly last year I “switched” to binge eating. It’s a constant battle in my head between the two. My doctor is about to send me to a ED clinic so I was just curious about how It’d be. Thank you!!
Was it an eating disorder treatment or a food jail
It definitely felt like a food jail at times
Haha yes
@nabokov orbust then make sure you dont end up there by getting other help if you need it before that point!! 💜
That’s a 10-4.
PeachyBitch the only difference is the focus on mental health
I feel like a lot of these rules would be even more triggering for me...
Same... I feel like that wouldn't have worked for me, but i understand that for a majority of people this might be very necessary.
@@chiafairy7091 it would just introduce more rules around food than i already have
A I know it may feel that way, but you have to remember that those tactics are made specifically to help people get better. Even if it feels restricting or forceful.
@@zoebabineau-julien3552 A lot of ED recovery programs are unsuccessful, so only sort of.
me too, i got so scared listening to this
a lot of eating disorder treatment facilities don’t fully understand that punishing you for your eating disorder isn’t helpful. at the facility i was at we had ensure when we didn’t complete a meal or snack. we had a nurse who would make us sit and stare at a wall until we finished our ensure or it was bedtime. during that time we would sit there and not be allowed to use coping mechanisms like coloring sheets or writing. i wish that places like these would have a better understanding sometimes, but i do understand why they do a lot of things they do
I agree
@@EmThrives Because then you are more likely to survive a relapse. Also. Parents don't even allow toddlers to just go colouring at the table. It's a distraction. And i know many ed patients just go and do something else, be distracted to not feel hungry. So letting you draw could be a way for many to just not eat.
Alas, one of the points of treatment is to force you to be present with food habits, it’s a form of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. It helps the brain break the unhealthy cycles and re-learn that you have to eat.
Not saying that every ED unit does it perfectly, there there is a method to the madness, but eating where you have to be present with your food is strongly correlated with lower relapse rates.
em thrives. Because they do well at least most
That's the reason I got an ed! My parents would watch me until I finished eating. In order for me to eat properly I have to now hide in my room
Ok but I have ADHD so “feet on the floor” or “no tapping your feet” or “no pacing or moving during post meal” would be impossible
Don't forget no standing.
I don't have ADHD but I tend to pace without even realizing it. I could be sitting drawing and just stand up and start pacing for 20 minutes. So if I had that rule istg they'd have to glue me to my chair
i literally said this when i heard “no tapping your feet”
Same
This would be very bad for most neurodivergent people , I think. I'm autistic and have particularly bad sensory issues when it comes to food and stuff that goes in your mouth , I would break half of these rules not due to my ED but due to my sensory sensitivity. Like "no picking at the food" , it makes sense but there are some foods I cannot (repeat: _cannot)_ eat in normal bites or portions because the texture changes or varies throughout the food item.
I like her, she’s got a very charismatic personality and I learned a lot about inpatient treatment.
Ama Atobrah and she is funny
35 minutes? For a meal? My god every single European would die there
Jane Adelaide Lennox yes so true it takes me 30 min at least to eat breakfast alone..
It takes me 10 minutes to eat a meal
Italian: big appetite + big amount of food = at least an hour of face stuffing
Takes me longer than that to eat a sandwich.
@@meganh9416 how
Oh god the SCRAPING was the worst 🙈🙈🙈 wow this takes me back to those eating disorder units!! Swear they made me more paranoid!!
Right!? Had to get every little bit of it. Was quote stressful.
@@BellaSophie yes it was stressful and bad table manners really, compared to how I was brought up at home
Okay but I feel like they’d yell at me for being allergic almost every fruit in existence
They wouldn't. There are always accommodations they can make for patients with allergies :)
However, be prepared to be given the allergens you claim to have and then being closely monitored to see how your body reacts. In humane. X
Eh they were fine with allergies where I got treatment, just as long as you could prove it with test results from your doctor or something like that
Luna Sutherland i mean a simple Allergy test should be enough for them to believe you without checking on you later on
Hey I’m also allergic to most fruits
why the heck was leg-jiggling a problem? what if one of the patients was adhd or autistic and literally couldn't help it?
probably because it burns a lot of calories if you keep doing it
Speeds up metabolism I think
I could not do it. I bounce my leg and I literally cannot stop myself even if I wanted to. If I force myself to I'll get really angry/upset soooo y'know
@@lilstardrops yes. My nursing school mental health clinical was in an eating disorder unit. It can be a behavior to try to burn calories.
Okay, so I have restless leg syndrome and I can't sit or lay down without moving my legs/feet. I totally understand the rule because of burning calories, but I physically couldn't do that.
you look like an older and more beautiful wednesday addams
why thank you!
Yes!!
They say don't do your old rules but replace them with our multiple and intensive rules
the original rules are normally used to help new patients get to a healthy weight as they'll be malnourished and unhealthy, as time goes on they do change and you begin to get therapy and know for yourself what is right and wrong
she looks like these twins on skins. katie and emily
b perez exactly the comment I was looking for cuz that was my first thought lmao
b perez omg yess
Exactlyyyyy
I thought she was gonna have a British accent 😂😂
I was thinking Wednesday addams
when i was in treatment i was constantly given bannana bread lol
Omg me same i couldnt even eat it i was scared of choking on food
lol
Were you ever force fed peanut butter or was that just me?
That sounds good rn but sorry
@@higherhigher9671 it does, lol...
that wretched phrase “engaging in behaviors”
“feet on the floor at all times” okay but im gay and short, so i would force them to make a compromise with me lmaoo no way am i sitting like a normal person unless they were holding a gun to my head 😂
Omg I'm also gay and short, if I sit I need to be twisted into a pretzel
what does being gay have to do with anything?
@@sadboihrs1229 so there is a stereotype ( which is true for so many gay people) about gays always sitting weird in chairs, we can't just sit down, we always sit cross legged, or we put one leg on the chair, we sit in the weirdest ways. That's why the rule would be hard to follow. Hope I explained that in an okay way.
@@creepygirl7079 but everyone does that? theres nothing gay abt it?
@@sadboihrs1229 I'm sure a majority of people does it regardless of sexuality, but again it kinda became a stereotype about gay people 😊
this literally sounds like absolute hell. i would be their worst nightmare with all those rules.
the part about food talk killed me 😭😭 “i like bananas” “NO FOOD TAAAALK”
These rules are just so much more triggering. Honestly the no blanket one is torture. What happens if you're like me and always cold? I literally live wrapped in a blanket.
Wow I just realized being required to eat in a ED facility is my hell. I have ARFID. As a result of being force fed and shamed for being picky, I convince myself most foods I don’t like or haven’t tried are disgusting and I throw up every time. Every sleep over and school camp was just adults trying to force me to eat. I just threw up in their hands usually.
yeahhh... im tryna look for arfid specific stuffs but gosh it's hard, general ED centers at least according to these rules sound like Hell, i mean, also for ND ppl too tho like our systems rlly don't take that into consideration, i dont think I could survive this one she's talking about.
Yeah, as an autistic person I couldn’t have coped with this at all, even now my eating is good(ish) again
Exactly!!! Sounds like an actually personalized he’ll
SOOOO MANY OF THE HOSPITAL RULES ARE DISORDERED IN THEMSELVES!! Like when I came out of there they gave my illness so many new horrible food rules
Yess it's a new he'll entirely
I would get called out the whole time then as I have ADHD and I shake my leg the whole time.
they would probably heavily drug you, they gave me these crazy big mood stabilizer pills when I was inpatient (not for ED but I imagine it's similar on that aspect).
Same id go crazy
When I’m older as a part time job I plan on working in an ED unit since I’ve been through it I feel I would understand their struggles and be able to help better
That's wonderful. It's going to be so helpful for patients to have people on their team that know how they feel.
NO DONTTTTT PlEASE DONT ITS CHILD ABUSE NOT HELP
bruh I'm lactose intolerant really badly me eating dairy would SUCK
If it's a big issue, they will help you make changes to accommodate this. :)
I was thinking this too when they said you weren't allowed to be vegan, I'm vegetarian but also lactose intolerant so it's tough
I am also severely lactose intolerant. Thankfully the second ED facility I went to catered to it pretty decently. I mean, I did have to have some repeat meals... Like lunch was always a ham sandwich... because they didn't have much variety for people with lactose intolerance. And the lactaid pill or whatever doesn't work for me so I just had to have a special menu.
The first one... this was 2008... they didn't give two shits. Every time I pass the building while driving I have a horrible intense urge to throw a brick through their window for how shitty they treated me. I can't forgive them yet for what they did.
wth that sounds horrible D:
it is
It really does
i mean, it is difficult to someone with an ed, but its also necessary treatment.
To someone without ED yes but this is what they have to do to get better.
It's not fun.
Ensure is the work of the devil i swear to god.
Katiebugs ! it helps so much though
Ikr😂 i struggle with my wieght and recently got put on vitamins and my step mom always says that if i dont start eating more then shes gonna put me on ensures 😂 i was on pediasure for years as a kid but i hate ensures with a passion. Its like vitamins theyre okay the first few times but after you have them everyday for weeks on end ... it gets kinda old😩
Honestly, compared to boost, the stuff they gave us at the treatment center I was in, ensure is amazing
Yessssss
FOOL. BOOST IS SATAN’S DAIRY.
Love the video! Also when you asked at 3:57 “why do I do this pose” subconsciously, humans use body language to express emotions, that pose is often used when we’re trying to gather confidence of strength.
I’ve been admitted for the first time and we have to start eating within 5 minutes or it’s considered incomplete so we get a calorie filled drink instead of the meal and if we don’t start that we get tube fed
And today I had to have 2 packs of Santana’s and I dropped one on the floor (not on purpose) but she forced me to eat it and it was fkn horrible
Wow, that is absolutely brutal. I'm so sorry that this is what you're dealing with right now. You are seriously unbelievably strong and resilient for sticking with it. You can do this, don't give up. When you get through this, you can get through anything. Be brave and keep on fighting. xoxo
Wtf?! I'd punch that person... -.-
I literally laughed through half this video the sound affects and stuff were soo funny! But serious questions. Who were these volunteers? It seems like a pretty important part of treatment the meals themselves and I've heard that in treatment centers they usually have counselors and nurses not volunteers. Don't know just sounds like random people off the street LOL! Also some of these rules make absolutely no sense and are no reflection on how people without eating disorders eat. Like if this is supposed to teach "normal eating" having to lick stuff outa containers is not normal!
I believe the voulenteers all went through a but of training before they were able to supervise meals, and if more assistance was needed or if there was an incident, a nurse was called.
Yes, some of the rules were pretty bizarre, but a lot of it was because there was such a focus on refeeding and ensuring everyone got all of their calories in. Glad you liked the video! :)
Walk into the clinic with anorexia, walk out with binge eating disorder.
It’s not supposed to teach normal eating, it’s supposed to get these kids the calories they need so if they relapse, they don’t die.
@@mangooverlord2014 but if they don't eventually teach them normal eating, the kids will just end up trading one ED for another
I went in to a facility where they didn’t separate kids based on situations (drug addictions, suicidal, eating disorders,etc) and they treated everyone like criminals. First day I didn’t know how it worked and I went back to my room after eating. I got yelled at and marked up for not waiting in the common area for an hour after eating. I got sick from anxiety and kept puking and the nurses would scold over me while my head was in a toilet. A lot of people I met there ended up back in facilities because they didn’t actually help. It’s really sad
I’m a picky eater and have OCD, I would literally die. But I really appreciate you telling your story, I’m a psych student and I want to work in in-patient care
I hate the scraping and crumb thing like . It's like they're like . How can we cause these people with eating issues to feel even more anxious to eat . Like i would have so much anxiety about getting an incomplete for no reason
Knapsacks are for camping😂 they’re basically backpacks, usually canvas, almost always weatherproofed. _Who would take a camping bag to supper?_
Also, sometimes yoghurt separates (especially the Greek kind) so I get the liquid bit, and draining it off rather than stirring it in can make it unbearably thick. Like eating spoons of cold, whipped butter. Yoghurt itself isn’t a liquid, I don’t think.
this video is so accurate. when i was put into a psych unit, i refused to eat so they made me drink ensure three times a day, every day for two weeks. it was hell. it made me so sick that i couldn't get out of bed. great job on the video :)
How did you get out? Did you get out after normal treatment?
I find it easier to eat when I'm being distracted by something else (music, videos, talking to others) because I don't have to focus on my food so not having any form of distraction would stress me out beyond belief. But eating with more than 2 people present in the area would give me an anxiety attack; and those 2 people have to be close friends that I trust. I have to eat my foods in a certain order or a certain way or else it isn't "right" and I get worse.
I'd die in treatment.
Honestly, thank you very much for this video. I saw some young girls whose goal was to get to an eating disorder clinic. You show that there is nothing glamorous about eating disorders
Ugh I can't stand it when people glamorize it :(
I could never live there, I struggle with an ed and I am a REALLY picky eater and if someone would tell me that I HAVE to eat anything I don’t like, I’d sit there and start to ball my eyes out
Marie Jahre same fear here. i’m in the process of recovery but we all know what that’s like so i’m so scared that if i ever have to be in a place like this that ill have to eat foods that i genuinely can’t stomach, not just whatever i consider off limits bc of ed mentality. like i absolutely will not eat fruit or berries in any capacity because im squeamish (is that the right word??) of the pulp and texture, i don’t know how i’d deal with being forced to eat that stuff
As a person that enjoys food, what you describe sounds like task avoidance.
@Nah extreme pickiness is it's own eating disorder unrelated to wanting to lose weight, though, Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder or ARFID. (It is avoidant amd restrictive in variety, not amount of food) I have it and it's really hard. The smell of a food I don't like can make me nauseous and when my mom ordered me some peanut chicken without asking me I nearly had a panic attack.
I have an eating disorder too and a ton of sensory issues. They are pretty accommodating.
You would have to eat food you don't like or want and you would cry and no one cares. Every food dislike is your eating disorder.
Here's the thing; I don't know if I can count myself as anorexic because while I don't skip/eat very little at *all* meals, I always, 100% skip breakfast 'cause I legit just can't eat in the mornings without feeling super insecure about my weight. I could literally be one strawberry and I'd beat myself up for it. I have zero breakfast as a means of losing weight. I'm scared it'll turn into full anorexia...I don't want that, but if I feel insecure about my weight, I won't eat. There are days when I just don't get up to get lunch at school because I'd feel insecure...I want this to change but I just can't see my body as something to be content with. Everyone says "Girl no, you ain't fat!" but I have the feeling they're just being nice and in their minds and behind my back they call me a pig. It happened once, I heard it, it's bound to happen again.
Anorexia is usually when your bmi is below 17, BUT unhealthy eating isnt just anorexia, as a sufferer of bulimia, theres lots of other eating disorers, and you should see your doctor or a therapist/nutrisionist
@@ceciliaroldan-koses657 you 👏 don't 👏 have 👏 to 👏 be 👏 underweight 👏 to 👏 have 👏 an 👏 ED
@@ceciliaroldan-koses657 ALL BODY TYPES CAN HAVE EATING DISORDERS. ALL GENDERS CAN HAVE EATING DISORDERS.
@@glitterat Ok but you do have to be underweight to have anorexia, which is whats she said. Calm down with your stupid clapping emojis.
@@dontreadthisplease2416 not always.
35 minutes to eat? Not allowed to shake your legs? Must eat all crumbs? No food talk? You HAVE to have a spread on a muffin?? No mixing of food? This all sounds like a really good way to create a different kind of unhealthy food relationships.
Yess this was exactly my home eating environment and guess what I have now? An ed
It does sound super restrictive, but it's part of the process, especially in the early days of recovering.
what the hell how do you not have more subs than this
ill be forced ip soon and these kinds of vids are really helpful cause i always need to know how things might be when idk
at the same time it's pretty scary oof
but thank you!
We are so sorry you are struggling. We are also glad you find these videos helpful! If you ever have questions or want to chat, give us a dm! Good luck with IP
Im forcefully going IP on friday after relapsing 2 months ago 😭 im scared !
Im forcefully going IP this thurday after relapsing 2 months ago 😭 im scared !
Im forcefully going IP this thurday after relapsing 2 months ago 😭 im scared !
I get admitted IP this Thurday after relapsing 2 months ago and im so scared and nervous! 😭
i’m going to an inpatient center in around a week for the first time and i’m so so nervous
You got this! Fight as hard as you can. Xo
VegucatED thank you so much 😭💖 i’m so beyond nervous but i think i will improve.
How are you now?
thank you for making these videos and sharing them! I am someone who has had an undiagnosed eating disorder and in the past year I gained some weight bc of medication side effect. I am grateful to have these videos as a check for myself to keep myself accountable.
one of the staff who supervised our meal literally made up scrape everything, people would be like she makes you basically eat the plate lmao
Don't forget the yogurt liquid.
I used to be at a hospital because of depression self-harm and suicide (and the list goes on). I met a guy there and we had a sort of relationship kinda. cause he had an ed (much more concerning than mine) he went into a special unit for it. he would explain to me how strict they would be with food and moving around and it always made my think how is that helping you reconciling with food? it makes it look like food is a task rather than an enjoyment. Normally I'm at the limit of going there but I am scared to go so I hide my ed as much as I can from my family cause I am afraid it'll make it worse
Yeah same. Food shouldn't be a task or punishment. All those rules just enforce the ed more
Damn basically all the rules goes against my normal eating habits, that I have now and that I had before my Ed. I'm Glad I was out-patient (or how ever you spell it) cause all those rules would only have made my Ed worse
“Ensure”
*Vietnam flashback*
#relatable
I ate so many peanut butter and jelly sandwiches in treatment 🤦♀️ they put peanut butter in like every meal
as a person who hates jelly i am not ok with them spamming pb&j
dont get me started on crust
Srsly. I still hate peanut butter now after 12 years.
I went there too. I am short, and Elyse made me put my feet on a block, because I kept tucking them up! I loved when I got to level 3 and onwards.
They teachin you how to eat a full course meal like this first than that, I could never I would forget even after being told
I’m leaving for one soon. I’m really really really nervous.
This is a scary time for you. That being said, this is the right way to go. By accepting treatment, you're choosing recovery and that is huge. All the best to you. You've got this. Xo
Hope it went okay
That was a year ago, how you doing buddy
You doing okay now?
I'm sorry you went to hell.
This editing gave me such bad anxiety, but this video was great :)
does anyone else think she is pretty
She has the NICEST hair :)
My anxiety could not deal that 35 minute time limit and the feet on the floor not allowed to move, my slight adhd could not
Watching this while fidgeting, pretty sure I would get kicked out. Glad I don't have an eating disorder, sounds like hell
I just found this channel! You’re going to be famous one day, I’m betting on it!
Thank you so much!!! xoxoxoxo
VegucatED - No problem
*"Everytime I say that I feel like a tool"*
Well damn that makes me what to subscribe immediately
If you don’t like the food can you ask for something else like chocolate spread instead of peanut butter? Because peanut butter makes me wanna puke
It depends on what it was or what the reason was behind it!
I have so many food allergies that I would be scared to go cause I feel like they wouldn’t believe me. But some of them will kill me the others just make me vomit horribly. And that’s just because I have stomach problems in general. So recovery at an actual centre sounds terrifying.
@@immortalvelociraptor7810 if your allergies can be confirmed through a medical exam (like that thing when they poke your arm with a bunch of different allergens. In sweden we call it the dot test) or you have diagnostic paper and stuff I really can't see it posing any problem
Ugh tb to the four years I spent in "treatment". Those banana favoured ensures though, they were the WORST
BANANA FLAVOURED ENSURES ARE A THING!!??? that sounds nasty
@@BellaSophie trust me, this gal is never gonna forget banana ensures
Ugh yes the fruit flavored ones were the worst IMO
ew. banana flavored anything is gross. banana-flavored protein shake or whatever the heck it is sounds like flat-out TORTURE
Honestly after listening to Nikki Grahames autobiography about ED treatment places. They were bad, I don't have an ED but the stuff they had to eat was insane. Like 4 Weetabix with cream. Not finishing a meal completely then you'd have to eat another one. Punishing not eating with more food. No wonder some ppl struggle to like food. Poor things
“no hats or scarves” what if someone had a hijab???
Hijab really is just a weird interpretation of the Koran. I mean they probably have certain rules in place for that, it's disrespectful to the persons right to religious freedom to not let them express their religion in the ways they want to and what not. My guess is that people can wear their hijabs until proven otherwise (like if they hide food there). But it's not like not wearing a hijab will have you banished from Islam and send you to Jahannam or what not
(idk if Jahannam is the correct way to refer to it, so disclaimer on that. Please correct me if I'm wrong)
That’d probably be fine but there could be problems with hiding food so idk
I don’t wear a hijab but I do wear a veil, and they made me take it off, I would have panic attacks everyday because of it.
Dakota Jordyn oh my god that’s awful, i’m sorry they made you do that. they should have just asked you to change veils after meals to make sure there was no food on your old one...
Aren't they split by gender I'm not very educated hence why I watch but cant they take off their hijab around other women
Its further ingraining disordered eating as people do not eat that way and further presenting food as punishment. Considering that many places do ONLY this with no real supportive counseling or in depth treatment basically just fattening people up and then shipping them out even more disgusted with themselves and having even less control it is no wonder it is one of the most difficult issues to treat. I have heard of people being forced to eat foods that no non disordered person would ever consider eating. Most people do not drink thier salad with a 1/4 cup of dressing on 2 oz of veggies. People dont usually have gravy on everything. Residential places serving gravy on broccoli is a disaster. I enjoy food but were I to be forced to eat gravy on things I would grow severe adversions to the foods ruined by it. It is not ever normal for people to lick out ketchup and sauces from containers. Its completely disordered
I’ve never been in an eating disorder facility but I have been admitted to a facility that also had an eating disorder tract and from talking to people who were patients there they had 45 mins of regular meal time & up to an hour if they didn’t finish it right away (I don’t know about snacks) but usually during the extra 15 minutes it included nurses talking to them about why they didn’t finish on time if that makes sense. They had fully vegan treatment options (some of the patients did have to take supplements if they were vegan but so did patients with food allergies, etc.). And lastly, head scarves (& other religious hats/coverings) were allowed to be worn but were regularly checked by someone who met the religion’s guidelines of being allowed to see the person without it.
It takes me about 2 hours to eat. Since I was a young child & Teenager. And still having this terrible eating Disorder I’m 47 years old with Cerebral Palsy & Anxiety.
You do not seem like a "tool" at all! You have a great personality, thank you for sharing your experience!
thank you for this. :)
You are truly courageous for being able to speak up about your experience! I'm a new subscriber and I love your sass and genuine lovable personality!
thank you so much! that's so nice.
more sass coming soon :)
It is almost exactly the same as being inpatient in Denmark... kind of funny hearing all the rules from someone else.. I am actually laughing a bit. It sounds crazy with all the rules, but IT IS necessary.
It so is! I had to let go of ANYTHING and everything that could possibly be a food ritual, even if it was "innocent" or "normal". I just needed to "clean the plate" with my relationship with food lol pun intended
im currently being threatened with inpatient in denmark, i’ve heard so much shit about it, is it rlly that bad?
I feel like if I go impatient, I'd eat my food and I'd be in the good books until they release me, then I'd relapse and go right back and be like "wassup, gotta get this done so I can go back on the run" and continue cycle😭😅
Me: has never rlly had an eating disorder (other thn stress eating).. also me: *ah yes content*
I LOVE THE INTRO! (ben beal) also i love how open you are about this!
Wow, I’m in treatment right now and it’s so different than that. It’s still pretty strict but I’m feeling kind of grateful for where I am now.
Hope treatment is going well!
35 minutes... Spanish meals usually last about 1 hour, 3 hours if you're in a restaurant with family lol
Edit: also you're so pretty 🥺
when i was in treatment there was a teen room we were able to go there and stuff but there were other teens that weren’t in the treatment. so i was talking about what i was eating and got yelled at and they never told me i wasn’t able to talk about my food... i hated every second of treatment
this sounds so difficult but im so glad you got through it! also youre so funny and pretty :))
I’m so scared that I might have to go impatient.
going inpatient can be scary, but it's probably where you need to be. let them help you because you deserve to recover.
VegucatED I’m going to partial patient on Monday. I’m terrified. But I’m going to document my experience and hopefully it will help to be able to vent.
@@MichaelEmerson666 Good luck in treatment! You can do it. Don't give up. That's a great idea. Documenting things for yourself can be super helpful.
it’s not as scary as it seems, you will be ok and in hindsight you’ll be grateful❤️
You are simply adorable and I love your personality ❤ I found your channel after watching the Renfrew Doc. Subbed😘 why was shaking of the legs forbidden WTHH... Your editing is *on point, love it!!!*
My mom signed me out after the first week at this one sanctuary because they treated us like actual crap and they were so rude.
Glad to know what was going on at the other side of the hospital. I was in the Affective Disorders side of a hospital.
At my treatment they had you drink ensure if you didn’t finish your meal or snack in 30 mins it’s like drinking pediasure as a child lol
Lol yes!
I actually love ensure.
yesss but sometimes so much better then food they would give you haha
Sarai Raia sooo true lol
As a person who has been in inpatient facilities for 4 months, all of these rules are very true. It was so bad at some of the treatment centers..
"I'm a tool" instant subscribe XD
very smart girl, wish you good luck and stay positive and healthy..i was in forced treatment neraly dead for many monthgs few years ago and it was much more strick then this i was much more controled but i was in psychatry clinic....i never wanan come back again...but i suffer ed and depression for 20 years of life and never i got fully recovered...but learened exist with it and trying not to fall completly into it...i hope you can recover fully sis
This is similar to my experience ): and honestly I can say this shit was the least helpful thing ever. It felt like the nurses got off on bossing us around and like forcing us to lick up sauce or whatever it was so fucking nasty. What helped me w my recovery was having a personal nutritionist and therapy where the weren’t assholes to me lmao
Hey if you don’t mind I have a question. How often can you use your phone? Is it limited or can you use it as you normally would?
Ps. Great video thankyou for the information :)
Hi! At this particular treatment center, we were allowed to use out phones in our room but not during groups or meals.
In other treatment centers I've been in though, phones were only allowed if you were off the unit and for a few minutes each day. Depends on where you are.
Xo
VegucatED ok thanks! :)
VegucatED ok thanks! :)
Lauz Potat in certain centers you can’t even have a phone
Man that sucks, how would you keep in touch with friends and what not?
My stress went through the roof i am dying
If you read this, please feel free to comment. I went there 2019. But I will of course respect your wishes and not name where but as soon as you said 35 minutes and showed the package I knew where you were :) it saved my life.
I have a hereditary condition which causes me to need operations to remove my teeth because they dont grow. And with the cutting up food a had an exception but i was right next to a nurse and my friend as we both went into IP at the same time
I'm so sorry about your situation. that sounds hard. I hope you are doing well now, keep fighting! you've got this.
And at the table to spreading your food around no shaking your leg and no small bites
THIS SOUNDS EXACTLY LIKE RESIDENTIAL TREATMENT LITERALLY EXACTLY
Oof. I was inpatient ,too. Yk what? They gave a shit about if we are or not. They gave a shit about our psych. AS long as we gained weight somehow, nobody cared. Some nurses even called An eleven year old Ana kid fat, even tho she had already lost 18kg. Aaaaaah. Beautiful Austrian ed clinics
I would do the worst in an ED ward because I am the luckiest eater like idk why but I refuse to eat a lot of foods
These are a lot of the same rules that were at the treatment facilities I've been to.
When you talked about "The Lounge" I got major flashbacks...we used so many coloring books in there...
Also, Ensure is the worst. Boost is *slightly* better, but it's still a drink from hell.
I remember the sound of the cart going "bumbumbumbumbumbum" down the hall...OOF
It's rather weird that you couldn't put fruit or yogurt in your cereal; we could at one of the places.
Like, it's NORMAL to do that! I guess they had their reasons, though.
One thing that sucked was that we couldn't have cinnamon at one place...my oatmeal was lonely...😅
this sounds so emotionally destructive
It made me attempt suicide
I'm actually really surprised I made it through the whole video, but it was nice to hear what it's like. Sounds terrible, but I like hearing about other people's experiences.
the flashbacks i had while watching this LMAO OOPS
I'm going to impatient rehab later on today and this helped me shape up for what to expect. Your voice is awesome and you are really funny 🤣
Can I ask why they wouldn’t allow you to mix your food like yoghurt and fruit or whatever ?
Some people use it to hide food, eg if you have small pieces of food and you mix it with a sauce, or mix food that really don’t go together so they are put off from eating it. Since they control that you’ve eaten everything and you can’t hide it this way I would guess it’s to break the routine? Same thing as the “no cutting up tiny pieces”-thing. I don’t know for sure, but that’s the most logical explanation.
I drink ensure for fun all the time. It just tastes good. I mainly drink it at night when I’m still hungry but I’m not allowed to eat due to a food fast in my religion.
I go into residential treatment come Monday.. it’s my first time and I’m extremely nervous
It's ok to be nervous. this is a scary step to take, and it's also the right thing to do. you deserve to recover, so when you go in there, let them help you. you can do this and you will come out stronger. all the best. xoxo
based on this description i think i know which program this was...ur food cart imitation was SPOT ON!