You can tell this was made by someone with a legit understanding of disordered behaviors. My sister has been recovering from an eating disorder for a long time, and a lot of this feels so painfully familiar
Wow. That's one thing I never even thought about. I've always wanted kids, but this scares me. If I can't help myself how am I supposed to help somebody else?
You definitely should NOT have a child if you still had an eating disorder. Focus on recovery the best you can right now. Once you’ve overcame your disorder, you will make an AMAZING mother who is so very caring and loving towards her kids. :)
Erika Alfaro that’s a totally different story. First of all, don’t hate yourself for having a kid while not being in the right mental state. So many people have kids when they’re not supposed to and never own up to it. That fact that you acknowledge it is amazing and shows that you truly have the capacity to be a good parent. From there, you’ve gotta assess your options. There’s staying with you, getting help from someone, or having other people take care of your child, and that could be a temporary or permanent thing. The main focus should be getting better for you and your child and making sure that your child is growing up in a safe and healthy environment. It takes time to get better. You need to be kind to yourself no matter what. Idk that’s just my opinion on it but I’m definitely not a professional.
Thats why i dont plan on having any kids ive had an eating disorder off and on since i was little im 24 now and i dont want to pass my traits for this down to anyone
The sad realization is that Sam in iCarly was a binge eater, which is still an eating disorder but on the other side of the spectrum. Jennette was anorexic and wouldn’t eat. I feel like the character we grew to love was partly a coping mechanism and a way of Jennette saying, “Hey look guys I’m normal.” Edit: I could very well be wrong, and I hope I am. And I hope Jennette doesn’t get offended by my comment, I’ve just always admired her since I was very little. She did a great job with the film.
whats the name for the eating disorder where you dont like people watching you eat, is that just social anxiety or a real eating disorder, it was the worst when i was around 5-7 years old at school i would almost always never eat cuz our recess was in class so... I guess i was also dehydrated the whole day as well :( But im doing better now as i grew up i kind of just set my eating disorder aside and just let it be, i still get this sometimes out of the blue, but nowhere near as bad as when i was a kid, its weird its almost like ihave... self control and it feels nice sometimes i cant control it though but i think i can relate on a personal level to jenette because i know what it feels like, sometimes your stomach feels full when its really not and in my case thats how it was when i felt like people where looking at me. When i was a kid i tried ignoring it as well but for some reason it dint work i threw up more then i would have liked to admit, and i was laughed at, so instead of throwing up (not caused by me, it was caused by me being full even though i was not full) i would just find a way to get rid of the food. I never ever once thought to myself to throw up the food i ate willingly, that is another case completely, and seeing this short film kind of reminded me of when i was the school laughing stock for vomiting after a few bites of my food
@@ernestochang1744 are you autistic? i ask only because i have this experience with food, and i figured out it was extremely overwhelming to have to socialize while dealing with sensory input from eating. i have to eat in quiet, dim environments (i cant eat with my family, and my mom also never ate with family due to the same reasons. its just too much to have to compute at once. id rather eat and enjoy the food quietly by myself than have to socialize AND do all the things a person does in mealtime)
@@angel-gu8co yeah this is a huge point- i think its a different shade of sad because she WASNT a part of the making of the character. scary scary scary to think about if the writing team knew and the damage they probably caused either way.
Eating disorders are very scary. I used to struggle with one. But I got myself help. It is scary how it can effect you. I wasn’t expecting the mom to struggle with it too.👏🏻
I would argue that this mother is only half concerned. In the beginning she didn't touch any of the food on her own plate, and her focus on the daughters disorder could be seen as her diverting attention away from herself. As well as projecting "you should take care of yourself and be a strong independent woman" onto the daughter because she herself probably wishes to be stronger. She also makes wistful comments about other "strong independent women," maybe implying self hatred of not being one herself and/or not thinking she could ever be one. This is a really powerful short film that honestly kinda scared me, great stuff
When I was younger, like 5-6, my mom would feed me the same portions as my dad who was a 6 foot tall construction work. When I would say I was full she would yell and hit me at the table while my dad ate totally indifferent to what was going on. My brothers sat in silence watching when her back was turned towards them. She would scream and scream and I would cry and cry. I was a baby. I was confused. I was full so that meant stop eating. I was crying and shaking while I picked up the spoon and started eating rice. When I swallowed I threw up. This happened often. After that I ate everything on the plate. At 15 I was close to 400lbs and living with my dad, my parents divorced at 11. My dad remained indifferent and uncaring. We never had food. I started obsessively exercising and drinking water until I could not move. Life is surprisingly unforgiving at times.
The wild thing is, I noticed the mother wasn’t eating…but didn’t realize either was her own ED until the end…just thought it was anxiety. Both of my parents and I have had eating disorders. I think it’s “normal” for moms to not want their daughters to live the awful things they’ve had to.
Realistic, raw and candid. All traits of something which has staying power and a dynamic message. All traits which represent the personality of Jennette to a T.
This is powerful. My daughter is such a nice person and I act like the Mom trying to force my child to be healthy. I cannot force anything. It does not work. Yahuah (God) grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. So be it.
Wow. The mom force making her daughter drink-that disturbed the hell out of me. And then her yelling about calories and being obsessive like that to her daughter…wow…really messed up.
She stared at the girl in the mirror with eyes that held nothing at all, and she asked, “Am I beautiful yet?”... But she wasn't, so she wanted to be so thin that everyone could see what she was like on the inside, all failing heart and shattered pieces. -Amy Zhang, Falling Into Place
That mother may have gotten tips from a professional. And what if they couldn't afford it? I see what you mean, but sessions to get help can be insanely expensive.
I think she just wanted her daughter to eat so badly because she’s realized that the daughter’s following her footsteps and she doesn’t know what to do
Emily Reed that’s doesn’t give any excuse to encourage your own child’s life threatening disease? anyways jenette said her mom was her main influence and a big part of the reason she developed an ed. her mom probably pushed her own problems and struggles onto her daughter even if it was unintentional
I saw from the beginning the mother also struggling with anorexia, she didn't touch her food and was really obsessed with here daughter eating. My question is how the mother could puke after not even eating anything?
@@mayaelmorsi6537 yeah they maybe ate something before bed or something. The logic isn't there but it's still a really good short film, it shows how scary a eating disorder is. It gave me some chills.
Not to be triggering but I’ve had anorexia and bulimia for 13 years and after awhile your digestive system doesn’t work right so food will sit in your stomach for hours. At least for me. I could purge 5 hours later
That is very empathetic and self aware of you. However, just because you may have a disease does not mean your children will also have that disease. I myself plan to adopt because I do not want my genetic illnesses to be passed down. Also, as long as you do your best to care for your own health first, then your children's, there is no reason to deny yourself of motherhood. I have an aunt with anorexia and she was an amazing mother figure to me.
Danah D. I’m recovering from an eating disorder and i have a 2years old daughter and i really want my daughted to grow up and know that she’s beautiful just the way she is ❤️
Yeah that is one of my biggest fears. My ed is super genetic, at least two people in every generation of our close family has had an eating disorder. Altough I am the first (known) guy in my family to get it. I'm scared if I have genetic kids one of them will be cursed with it.
I saw it right away. Her hands shook so hard and she kept bringing up literature and film while restricting more dinner than her daughter. I do the exact same thing (except not a mom). concerned about others’ eating habits while completely blowing off your own. I was instantly sad. great piece right off the bat; powerful; you should make something longer. if you have gone through similar I’m so sorry and I will always be here to be your audience when you express it through art 💓
In group family therapy for my sister’s ED, they told us to talk about anything but food at meals and it was weirdly difficult. The mom’s strained conversation reminded me of my family learning how to talk about other things and trying to make it seem natural.
whats the name for the eating disorder where you dont like people watching you eat, is that just social anxiety or a real eating disorder, cuz apparently im the only fucking human being that wont accept eating in front of others,i dont know what it is, and no im not fat
Excellent job. You should be very proud of this. On a lighter note, I don't know how people can pee in front of other people. I can't even pee if I hear someone outside the bathroom lol
@@Cristian-Akuma I haven't been in a public place like a store or restaurant since 2011. So nope lol. I don't do public things because they make me uncomfortable.
It would destroy me if my child, the person i am supposed to protect from any harm, is harming themselves. I didnt struggle with an ed but i struggled with cutting. I hope your mom is being compassionate and understanding, but i also really hope you know that shes just scared cause she cant make you stop, and that must be terrifying. Only because she loves you so much. I hope you stay strong and remember that you are worth so much more than you know, but you will someday if you just keep trying 💖
Addison’s acting always looked so happy and joyful all the time on the Thundermans. This is the first time I’ve seen her portray sadness and hopelessness in her eyes.
HOLY SHIT ITS THE THUNDERMAN GIRL IM SO IMPRESSED. most of the people on those kids shows seem to have no real acting talent, but damn she pulled this off well. i want to see her in more things now :)
Holy crap. This was haunting. Especially the twist at the end. I've never had a eating disorder, but I can't imagine what these people have to endure. Beautiful piece of work here.
John Smith's Basement they aren’t fun. they suck. they hurt so freaking bad. every time you eat you feel sick. like- it’s too hard to explain. it just sucks.
At least you appreciate what others are going through, you have no idea how important that is. When I started opening up to people about my ED it seemed like a lot of them just wanted me to fix myself so they could get on with their lives
I wonder how many people with EDs knew the mom was sick vs people without an ED. I hyperfixate on food, I notice everything. I knew she wasn't eating and that she was trying to turn the attention away from herself, I noticed how she knew all of the eating disorder tricks and the food habits. I wonder if people without EDs noticed any of that
I don't have an ED and I thought she was just a super concerned mom. I thought she might have looked up all the "tricks" of eating disorders to know what to look out for.
I don’t have an ED and I didn’t realise the mum was also struggling. I struggle with addiction and I always pick up all the subliminal things other addicts do. I feel like when it comes to ED’s, MH and addiction we can always tell when someone is one of us
I don’t have ED but I could very much tell the mom in the film had ED. The way she would look at her plate and shake, and how she was so obsessed with her daughter’s eating but not even putting a single bite of her own food to her lips. She had trouble picking up and holding her fork before she could even attempt to start eating. Idk, all the signs were there to me and I was able to pick up on it pretty much instantly. That being said this is an amazing short film
i have an ed (tho i've been in recoery for the past few months) and i noticed right away something was off. the way her hands shook, the way she kept finding ways to keep herself from eating (talking to her daughter about tkam and harper lee), hyperfixating on her daughter's food + knowing all the tricks, it all set off alarm bells. takes one to know one i guess
Harper Lee, who was most likely an alcoholic, only produced another novel: "Go set a watchman". Eating disorders, like anorexia, could well be related to autism as a recent study shows. Autism, as a recent Danish study showed, can not be caused by vaccination. Isn't knowledge great ?
the competitive aspect of eating disorders is so heartbreaking and frustrating and terrifying and yet it rarely gets talked about. i have anorexia myself, and i used to date a girl who also had anorexia. her behaviors honestly probably triggered the illness in me. i can remember how intense it was to go on dates with her. we’d take forever to finish dinner because we’d be watching each other the whole time. she would talk and try to distract me and do everything she could to avoid taking a bite. but i wouldn’t allow myself to eat until she did. and i would never allow myself to eat more than her. so painstaking bite by painstaking bite, we’d watch each other like hawks, each terrified of eating more than the other, without ever acknowledging what was happening. i loved her, but i couldn’t stop competing with her. loving her nearly killed me.
Awesome film, I liked how you showed the lengths the daughter would go to hide her bulimic tendencies from her mother. As a teen who was bulimic for almost 2 years himself, it’s painfully accurate.
This is absolutely the most accurate eating disorder short film I have ever watched. It really shows the horror of Ed and doesn’t glorify it like most films do. You did an amazing job with this
😔😔😔 I just can't watch , I am triggered . My whole life I've struggled with eating disorders from anorexia to obesity and back . My mother , the narcisistic control freak , who ignored me when I cried out for help when my father and brother were sexually abusing me . I am sorry Jennette that you also experienced so much abuse . Angel hugs .
The mom didnt take a bite of her food, she was obsessed with her daughters eating and she would avoid eating by talking a lot. I do the same thing. I'm 17 tho. I avoid eating by talking a lot and chewing my food into tiny pieces when I do get forced to eat.
Chelsea Knots I hope your sister is okay, check up on her. As someone who previously had an Ed just one person checking up on you can make all the difference x
Amazing job Jennette. This was so depressing but it's important to show the dark side of an eating disorder instead of the glorified ones you see in hollywood.
to all the people who think throwing up is just “bulimia” bulimia is when you binge eat a LOT and then get rid of it by using laxitives, or throwing up, or exercising extremely much. anorexia is when you have a extremely low self esteem and you eat as less as possible but you can also be anorexic eating about 1500 calories a day. everyone is different. but dont think throwing up is just bulimia because its also part of anorexia. i know about it because i have both anorexia and bulimia.
there is one last one, where you fast or low restrict after binges. i've had bulimia and AN b/p for 7 years and have had all compensation behaviors at once at times! i hope you are recovering well
I really appreciate you opening up about your eating disorder. I clicked on your instagram earlier today with the intention of finding pictures of you looking beautiful and skinny so i could feel bad about myself in comparison but instead I saw an article about your struggle with bulimia. It really helped put things in perspective for me that even someone who I view as 10x more beautiful than i am could struggle with body image.
I read your article your eating disorders. It was very brave. You did a great job on the video and the article. And hopefully it will help alot of others suffering with eating disorders to seek help. Well done Jennette.
This hit a spot in me. My ex was bulimic, a cutter, and BPD and addicted to meth and was very manipulative. It was the roughest 3 years of my life and was costing me my sanity. Even though she was mentally and emotionally abusive i didnt take it personal because i knew what she suffers from but i had to let go because there was nothing i could do. I felt guilty for it for so long before going to therapy because i felt like i turned my back on her when she needed someone the most but at time i didnt know if i was helping or enabling. she wasnt ready to get help yet and no matter how much i tried they have to be willing to get better. I still love and care for her but i cant relive all that trauma. If any of you know someone who struggles from eating/mental and drug abuse disorders dont beat yourself up if you feel like you can make them better. You can be their support when they need it and help them get to all the resources but you cant save them if they dont want to or arent ready to get help. And if youre struggling with any type of mentall illness, drug addiction or eating disorder depression or suicidal thoughts just know that it does get better but you have to work at it everyday 💚
It feels like you're my ex talking about me. I used to be all that. I ended up breaking up with him because of how guilty I felt, because of all the pain I put him through.
This reminded me of my mom, she was anorexic and unintentionally taught me a lot of behaviors. I remember when people started asking her if I were anorexic she would confront me, but when I’d get food she asked me if I needed that. I will say that I will never forget after I had started losing a bunch of wt she saw a pic of me and my friends and she was so proud of how skinny I was, and that was tough. I just wanted to make her proud, I wish she would have lived long enough to see me get into a stable recovery and be a mom.
You could tell the mom had an ED. She obsessed over what her daughter ate, she talked a lot to avoid eating food, and she knew all of the tricks that people use to hide their ED tendencies.
0:55 - does the mam have an ED too? 1:35 - she totally does omg 3:28 - shes legit talking about herself i swear she has an ED... 7:58 - I stg if shes purging now 8:02 - I CALLED IT omg :((
I’m here after watching way too many videos about James Charles and all his drama and I’m so happy I came across this. This is what TH-cam needs. This is what people should be talking about. This. This is great.
the actresses did an amazing job... i was very surprised to see addison do this... she full filled the part amazingly... + the story line is so meaningful
This is amazing and very emotional. As someone who has struggled with an eating disorder for nine years, this really hit home. From the tension at the start, when she is having a meal with her mother, and clearly nothing else is on her mind rather than the calories she is consuming and the consequent dread of guilt. My eating disorder destroyed my relationship with my mother and it really does change your whole personality. It's sad. The ending was such a plot twist and you are just amazing at writing and directing movies.
This is the best ed short film i’ve watched so far.We see a mother that is worried for her child and doesn’t want her daughter to end up like her but we also see that she is competitive because she has an ed her self so she doesn’t want to feel like she’s the “fattest” one.It’s an excellent film and also kinda disturbing and triggering at the end because it’s so sad seeing a mother being competitive with her own daughter at this kinda stuff. It really showed how anorexia actually works.Well done ✅
The ending surprised me, I did not expect that at all.. To be honest I haven't seen any other film close to this. It's magnificent, I really hope to see more of your creations
This short film left me speechless,it has a great meaning. unfortunately these mental illnesses exist and must be "destroyed" immediately. I pray for all the people who have this pathology to find even a pinch of strength and say to themselves if, aloud, they can do it. You are a strong point for everyone, we love you so much and at any moment counts on me and all the other mccurdians here!💕
The way the mom was literally shaking, not eating, just looking at her food when she was supposed to eat. And trying to force her daughter to eat while acting that way right in front of her.
I think it's the best eating disorder short movie I have ever seen. The acting is absolutely unbelieveble. The mother made me anxious, but this is the reaction it deserves.
Good lord this was everything that I’ve ever struggled with and still do to this day. Before I went to treatment, I had a “work area” set up in my room. A bucket with bags, water bottles, various tools in case I needed them, a speaker, my remote control, hand sanitizer and mouth wash. I would put it to the farthest of my room, so no one could hear and I’d have time to act like I wasn’t doing anything if my parents walked in. The deceit and the struggle you go through to be sneaky and vindictive is so sad and heart breaking. My therapist at residential used to say it’s on par with a heroin addiction. The high I would get off of it. I’ve been “clean” from those behaviors for 2 months, but think about it every single second of every single day. I have to fight myself on not doing it, and not getting that high, and not feeling “amazing”. But let me tell you, waking up in the morning without my sinuses and throat being swollen, not having puffy cheeks, not having to be secretive, it’s so damn worth it. I developed heart problems from purging, and bone density loss. But I thank whoever every single day that I was able to go and get help and the knowledge I need to better myself. If you’re struggling, please get some sort of help. It’s so worth it.
I'm a recovered anorexic. My mom struggled with anorexia and bulimia as well. She is still very thin, and drinks alcohol for most of her calories. This hits really close to home.
I suspected her mom had an eating disorder right from the beginning.. idk why, but I did.
Same lol
spoiler alert!
devious phantom, plus she was shaking pretty bad. thats a symptom of not eating.
Same
Cal R me too. She seemed too obsessed with her daughter eating food.
You can tell this was made by someone with a legit understanding of disordered behaviors. My sister has been recovering from an eating disorder for a long time, and a lot of this feels so painfully familiar
Exactly, it was made by Jenette McCurdy who also struggled/struggles with an ED
The scene where the mother was force-feeding the daughter the drink, legitimately scared me
True it was awkward and intimate and scary
That was the point.
It’s scary being force fed too. That exact scene happened to me with my mom when I had one foot in the grave because of my eating disorder
Peace it's Regan I’m so sorry that happened :( hope you’re better now xx
Elly Green It happened to me though :/ It sucked
Wow. That's one thing I never even thought about. I've always wanted kids, but this scares me. If I can't help myself how am I supposed to help somebody else?
Abigail Buchen you have no idea how helpful helping others can be towards helping yourself ❤️best of luck love kids are amazing
You definitely should NOT have a child if you still had an eating disorder. Focus on recovery the best you can right now. Once you’ve overcame your disorder, you will make an AMAZING mother who is so very caring and loving towards her kids. :)
@@n.fer.2596 what if you already have a kid and still haven't overcome the disorder? Like the kid wasnt on purpose
Erika Alfaro that’s a totally different story. First of all, don’t hate yourself for having a kid while not being in the right mental state. So many people have kids when they’re not supposed to and never own up to it. That fact that you acknowledge it is amazing and shows that you truly have the capacity to be a good parent. From there, you’ve gotta assess your options. There’s staying with you, getting help from someone, or having other people take care of your child, and that could be a temporary or permanent thing. The main focus should be getting better for you and your child and making sure that your child is growing up in a safe and healthy environment. It takes time to get better. You need to be kind to yourself no matter what.
Idk that’s just my opinion on it but I’m definitely not a professional.
Thats why i dont plan on having any kids ive had an eating disorder off and on since i was little im 24 now and i dont want to pass my traits for this down to anyone
The sad realization is that Sam in iCarly was a binge eater, which is still an eating disorder but on the other side of the spectrum. Jennette was anorexic and wouldn’t eat. I feel like the character we grew to love was partly a coping mechanism and a way of Jennette saying, “Hey look guys I’m normal.”
Edit: I could very well be wrong, and I hope I am. And I hope Jennette doesn’t get offended by my comment, I’ve just always admired her since I was very little. She did a great job with the film.
Woah thats deep
whats the name for the eating disorder where you dont like people watching you eat, is that just social anxiety or a real eating disorder, it was the worst when i was around 5-7 years old at school i would almost always never eat cuz our recess was in class so... I guess i was also dehydrated the whole day as well :(
But im doing better now as i grew up i kind of just set my eating disorder aside and just let it be, i still get this sometimes out of the blue, but nowhere near as bad as when i was a kid, its weird its almost like ihave... self control and it feels nice sometimes i cant control it though but i think i can relate on a personal level to jenette because i know what it feels like, sometimes your stomach feels full when its really not and in my case thats how it was when i felt like people where looking at me.
When i was a kid i tried ignoring it as well but for some reason it dint work i threw up more then i would have liked to admit, and i was laughed at, so instead of throwing up (not caused by me, it was caused by me being full even though i was not full) i would just find a way to get rid of the food. I never ever once thought to myself to throw up the food i ate willingly, that is another case completely, and seeing this short film kind of reminded me of when i was the school laughing stock for vomiting after a few bites of my food
she was just acting, i don't think she wrote her character
@@ernestochang1744 are you autistic? i ask only because i have this experience with food, and i figured out it was extremely overwhelming to have to socialize while dealing with sensory input from eating. i have to eat in quiet, dim environments (i cant eat with my family, and my mom also never ate with family due to the same reasons. its just too much to have to compute at once. id rather eat and enjoy the food quietly by myself than have to socialize AND do all the things a person does in mealtime)
@@angel-gu8co yeah this is a huge point- i think its a different shade of sad because she WASNT a part of the making of the character. scary scary scary to think about if the writing team knew and the damage they probably caused either way.
Jennette, this is just awesome. I just found your channel and I'm glad you give visibility to this things.
regards from Spain!
“I’m nothing without you”
Even the song in the radio was spot on
Eating disorders are very scary. I used to struggle with one. But I got myself help. It is scary how it can effect you. I wasn’t expecting the mom to struggle with it too.👏🏻
Arrie xo I am happy you got helped God Bless
Arrie xo I wasn’t expecting that
Arrie xo She did a awesome job
Arrie xo That is scary I used to struggle with it for a while it took me years to get help I was bullied a lot
I’m glad to hear you got help 💞
I would argue that this mother is only half concerned. In the beginning she didn't touch any of the food on her own plate, and her focus on the daughters disorder could be seen as her diverting attention away from herself. As well as projecting "you should take care of yourself and be a strong independent woman" onto the daughter because she herself probably wishes to be stronger. She also makes wistful comments about other "strong independent women," maybe implying self hatred of not being one herself and/or not thinking she could ever be one. This is a really powerful short film that honestly kinda scared me, great stuff
i hope this short film now gets more spotlight since the release of her book!!
When I was younger, like 5-6, my mom would feed me the same portions as my dad who was a 6 foot tall construction work. When I would say I was full she would yell and hit me at the table while my dad ate totally indifferent to what was going on. My brothers sat in silence watching when her back was turned towards them. She would scream and scream and I would cry and cry. I was a baby. I was confused. I was full so that meant stop eating. I was crying and shaking while I picked up the spoon and started eating rice. When I swallowed I threw up. This happened often. After that I ate everything on the plate. At 15 I was close to 400lbs and living with my dad, my parents divorced at 11. My dad remained indifferent and uncaring. We never had food. I started obsessively exercising and drinking water until I could not move. Life is surprisingly unforgiving at times.
The mom was making sure she's eating because she knows what she could turn in like
Omg the mom gives me anxienty
The wild thing is, I noticed the mother wasn’t eating…but didn’t realize either was her own ED until the end…just thought it was anxiety. Both of my parents and I have had eating disorders. I think it’s “normal” for moms to not want their daughters to live the awful things they’ve had to.
The thought that this short film's reference is her life make me sad.
Blessed my own mother took me to see a nutritionist and never took it into her own hands like this.....very scary
The chicken super dry. 1:30
Realistic, raw and candid. All traits of something which has staying power and a dynamic message. All traits which represent the personality of Jennette to a T.
Very very very powerfull, good job Nettie!
This is powerful. My daughter is such a nice person and I act like the Mom trying to force my child to be healthy. I cannot force anything. It does not work. Yahuah (God) grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. So be it.
the ensure scene is genuinely terrifying to watch i know that shit taste like chalk
wait is that noura from the thunder mans? i’m shook this is amazing
Wow. I’m at a lost for words. This is completely brilliant and well put together ❤️
It's so disturbing how she is forcing her to eat when she's not even eating herself.
omg this is by you?! You are my favorite actor in the world and i honestly didn't look at who made it till the end, it's so good!!!
Omg, the final is very sad. Poor girl and poor mom too. Congratulations Jennette it was awesome job, so prond of you
Wow. The mom force making her daughter drink-that disturbed the hell out of me. And then her yelling about calories and being obsessive like that to her daughter…wow…really messed up.
This is very traumatic but is that little girl Nora from the Thundermans. . . Because I'm pretty sure she is. . . . Correct me if i'm wrong heh.
Yep and also very sad 🥰
Wow i cant imagine struggling with that. It makes me so sad to know that people go through this
More people need to see this. I needed to see this. Thank you
excellent short film, I like that young people like you are encouraged to do this kind of videos
This was absolutely incredible! The ending, my god. Truly shows how scary eating disorders are.
I wish purging was that easy
Are eating disorders based off of worrying about the way you look or the way you feel? This is so hard to watch, makes me want to cry.
It’s so sad girls feel like this
Not just girls
Love this its amazing your so talented and amazing so proud love you so much Jennette
She stared at the girl in the mirror with eyes that held nothing at all, and she asked, “Am I beautiful yet?”... But she wasn't, so she wanted to be so thin that everyone could see what she was like on the inside, all failing heart and shattered pieces. -Amy Zhang, Falling Into Place
People r saying they didn't recognize Addison but I clicked becoz of her
Great example of why you should recover with the help of a professional and NOT your parents
That mother may have gotten tips from a professional. And what if they couldn't afford it? I see what you mean, but sessions to get help can be insanely expensive.
@@ArtistryDNA Fair point I have to admit I'm from a country where those kinds of things are entirely covered by insurance
@@cold.raviolis That's really nice. I'm pretty sure here we may not have it covered.
Maudsley is a parental supervision program.
Philine Wreck honestly your right
You can tell the mom was being super competitive and was trying to make her daughter eat more than her.
I think she just wanted her daughter to eat so badly because she’s realized that the daughter’s following her footsteps and she doesn’t know what to do
When you have an eating disorder you do want people to eat more than you so you don’t feel like the fattest one.ur right
her hands were shaking when she took the fork
Maria Monteleone not everyone has it like this
LambertandAllen I’m pretty sure that goes for anything. Not everyone’s eating disorders are the same. Not everyone has eating disorders.
The worst part of this short film is knowing this was Jennette McCurdy's actual childhood. It's so sad.
Really?
except her mom encouraged her ed and helped her restrict ...
probably bc sh knew all the signs and could tell hr daughter had one
Emily Reed that’s doesn’t give any excuse to encourage your own child’s life threatening disease? anyways jenette said her mom was her main influence and a big part of the reason she developed an ed. her mom probably pushed her own problems and struggles onto her daughter even if it was unintentional
I thought I was the only one thinking about Jen when watching this and who instantly got sad when they saw who made this.
I saw from the beginning the mother also struggling with anorexia, she didn't touch her food and was really obsessed with here daughter eating. My question is how the mother could puke after not even eating anything?
Hubba Bubba and so long after ? Idk about others but with me it only works 25-30 minutes after I eat
@@mayaelmorsi6537 yeah they maybe ate something before bed or something. The logic isn't there but it's still a really good short film, it shows how scary a eating disorder is. It gave me some chills.
Not to be triggering but I’ve had anorexia and bulimia for 13 years and after awhile your digestive system doesn’t work right so food will sit in your stomach for hours. At least for me. I could purge 5 hours later
@@flameprincess123 yeah true. My stomach doesn't work that good either. Good point. I myself have only experienced anorexia
maya el morsi do you purge?
This is why I don't want to be a parent, I also have an eating disorder and I am too scared for my future kids to suffer the same deal as me.
Danah D. same for me😓
That is very empathetic and self aware of you. However, just because you may have a disease does not mean your children will also have that disease. I myself plan to adopt because I do not want my genetic illnesses to be passed down. Also, as long as you do your best to care for your own health first, then your children's, there is no reason to deny yourself of motherhood. I have an aunt with anorexia and she was an amazing mother figure to me.
My mother passed her ED onto me and all it made me want, is to never do that to my own kids.
Now my future family is my only motivation to get better.
Danah D. I’m recovering from an eating disorder and i have a 2years old daughter and i really want my daughted to grow up and know that she’s beautiful just the way she is ❤️
Yeah that is one of my biggest fears. My ed is super genetic, at least two people in every generation of our close family has had an eating disorder. Altough I am the first (known) guy in my family to get it. I'm scared if I have genetic kids one of them will be cursed with it.
omg i knew the mom had an ed from the way she knew all the tricks :((
I saw it right away. Her hands shook so hard and she kept bringing up literature and film while restricting more dinner than her daughter. I do the exact same thing (except not a mom). concerned about others’ eating habits while completely blowing off your own. I was instantly sad. great piece right off the bat; powerful; you should make something longer. if you have gone through similar I’m so sorry and I will always be here to be your audience when you express it through art 💓
I do too😕. I got sad too😢. She has gone through something like this xx
In group family therapy for my sister’s ED, they told us to talk about anything but food at meals and it was weirdly difficult. The mom’s strained conversation reminded me of my family learning how to talk about other things and trying to make it seem natural.
whats the name for the eating disorder where you dont like people watching you eat, is that just social anxiety or a real eating disorder, cuz apparently im the only fucking human being that wont accept eating in front of others,i dont know what it is, and no im not fat
Ernesto Chang No idea if that’s an eating disorder. Kinda just sounds like being self conscious.
@@CaitFalconer yeah
Excellent job. You should be very proud of this.
On a lighter note, I don't know how people can pee in front of other people. I can't even pee if I hear someone outside the bathroom lol
I would have kicked her out. theres no reason someone should be in that bathroom with you
So you don't go to public bathrooms for your needs?
@@ryanciani3324 yes there is
@@Cristian-Akuma I haven't been in a public place like a store or restaurant since 2011. So nope lol. I don't do public things because they make me uncomfortable.
no there isnt
omg this mom is rly pissing me off and stressing me out
probably because I'm also in recovery and she reminds me of my mom
It would destroy me if my child, the person i am supposed to protect from any harm, is harming themselves. I didnt struggle with an ed but i struggled with cutting. I hope your mom is being compassionate and understanding, but i also really hope you know that shes just scared cause she cant make you stop, and that must be terrifying. Only because she loves you so much. I hope you stay strong and remember that you are worth so much more than you know, but you will someday if you just keep trying 💖
These mom really is trying her best... And I'm in recovery so I more or less understand what the girl is feeling...
I know for a fact mothers like that aren’t really helping
@@justjo3773 well my mom isn't exactly like her (she doesn't have an eating disorder herself, as far as I know)
Hope you are still recovering and didnt have a fall back, you can do it!!!! I believe in you!
Great work , powerful
omg gab :(
What was she doing here? T-T
@@dzgdgZdghf she used to have an ed
True That!.
Daughter: I’m full
Mother: *surprised pikachu face*
Lol
lol
Lol doooon't hahahahhahahahHa
Spot on tho
🤣🤣🤣
Addison’s acting always looked so happy and joyful all the time on the Thundermans. This is the first time I’ve seen her portray sadness and hopelessness in her eyes.
Don’t mind me. I’m just afraid of everything. Holy crap this is Nora Thunderman?! Omg
I did not even realize that
I didn’t even recognize her at first! Wow she’s talented!
She is so talented
HOLY SHIT ITS THE THUNDERMAN GIRL IM SO IMPRESSED. most of the people on those kids shows seem to have no real acting talent, but damn she pulled this off well. i want to see her in more things now :)
Holy crap. This was haunting. Especially the twist at the end. I've never had a eating disorder, but I can't imagine what these people have to endure. Beautiful piece of work here.
John Smith's Basement they aren’t fun. they suck. they hurt so freaking bad. every time you eat you feel sick. like- it’s too hard to explain. it just sucks.
At least you appreciate what others are going through, you have no idea how important that is. When I started opening up to people about my ED it seemed like a lot of them just wanted me to fix myself so they could get on with their lives
Dont use Holy like that
@@briannavlopez holy mother fucking jesus christ on a spike
They are literal hell.
I wonder how many people with EDs knew the mom was sick vs people without an ED. I hyperfixate on food, I notice everything. I knew she wasn't eating and that she was trying to turn the attention away from herself, I noticed how she knew all of the eating disorder tricks and the food habits. I wonder if people without EDs noticed any of that
I don't have an ED and I thought she was just a super concerned mom. I thought she might have looked up all the "tricks" of eating disorders to know what to look out for.
I don’t have an ED and I didn’t realise the mum was also struggling. I struggle with addiction and I always pick up all the subliminal things other addicts do. I feel like when it comes to ED’s, MH and addiction we can always tell when someone is one of us
I don’t have ED but I could very much tell the mom in the film had ED. The way she would look at her plate and shake, and how she was so obsessed with her daughter’s eating but not even putting a single bite of her own food to her lips. She had trouble picking up and holding her fork before she could even attempt to start eating. Idk, all the signs were there to me and I was able to pick up on it pretty much instantly.
That being said this is an amazing short film
i have an ed (tho i've been in recoery for the past few months) and i noticed right away something was off. the way her hands shook, the way she kept finding ways to keep herself from eating (talking to her daughter about tkam and harper lee), hyperfixating on her daughter's food + knowing all the tricks, it all set off alarm bells. takes one to know one i guess
I don’t have an ED and I didn’t notice
Oh god the ending.... so sad. So tragic...
whats sad? we don't know how it ends
@@ryanciani3324 its obvious why it's sad. Seems like mom has struggled w eating disorders in the past and daughters ED is triggering mom to relapse.
Harper Lee, who was most likely an alcoholic, only produced another novel: "Go set a watchman". Eating disorders, like anorexia, could well be related to autism as a recent study shows. Autism, as a recent Danish study showed, can not be caused by vaccination. Isn't knowledge great ?
the competitive aspect of eating disorders is so heartbreaking and frustrating and terrifying and yet it rarely gets talked about. i have anorexia myself, and i used to date a girl who also had anorexia. her behaviors honestly probably triggered the illness in me. i can remember how intense it was to go on dates with her. we’d take forever to finish dinner because we’d be watching each other the whole time. she would talk and try to distract me and do everything she could to avoid taking a bite. but i wouldn’t allow myself to eat until she did. and i would never allow myself to eat more than her. so painstaking bite by painstaking bite, we’d watch each other like hawks, each terrified of eating more than the other, without ever acknowledging what was happening. i loved her, but i couldn’t stop competing with her. loving her nearly killed me.
She doesn’t want her daughter to be a reflection of herself. Amazing work.
well, the way she wanted her daughter to drink all that liquid made me think if she just wanted her to eat more than her so she feels thinner.
@@srimandava4323 she most likely wants the best for her daughter like most parents do and she wants her to eat but doesn’t know how to get her to
@@aaliyahclark4179 this is not the way u do it, it just makes things worse. Speaking from experience
@@srimandava4323 I'd have to agree with this as well. She definitely was making it like a competition.
It's most likely a competition thing
Awesome film, I liked how you showed the lengths the daughter would go to hide her bulimic tendencies from her mother. As a teen who was bulimic for almost 2 years himself, it’s painfully accurate.
thank u for showing boys can have eating disorders too. im 14 and i have belemia too
@@masonisgreyi know this is 2 years old but I really hope you’re doing well now
im guessing she is anorexic since she didnt want to eat in the first place, her mother forcing her to eat is making her bulimic
This is absolutely the most accurate eating disorder short film I have ever watched. It really shows the horror of Ed and doesn’t glorify it like most films do. You did an amazing job with this
😔😔😔 I just can't watch , I am triggered . My whole life I've struggled with eating disorders from anorexia to obesity and back .
My mother , the narcisistic control freak , who ignored me when I cried out for help when my father and brother were sexually abusing me .
I am sorry Jennette that you also experienced so much abuse .
Angel hugs .
I cannot believe you have struggled through this... that is unbelievable.. I hope you are okay now!!💕
I hope you are feeling better now! I’m so sorry for everything you went through
I can’t even pee if someone is in another cubicle
Same
Lmao same
@The Joker no shit
Same
The mom didnt take a bite of her food, she was obsessed with her daughters eating and she would avoid eating by talking a lot.
I do the same thing. I'm 17 tho.
I avoid eating by talking a lot and chewing my food into tiny pieces when I do get forced to eat.
I see my sister (13) do the same thing. I’m worried about her.
Chelsea Knots I hope your sister is okay, check up on her. As someone who previously had an Ed just one person checking up on you can make all the difference x
Amazing job Jennette. This was so depressing but it's important to show the dark side of an eating disorder instead of the glorified ones you see in hollywood.
Rachel B anorexia is definitely glorified even in online “recovery” communities
omg jennette made this ??????? like from icarly oh my god
artificial sweetness Please do not say God’s name in vain. I think that it is a sin.
yes yes not everyone is christian
@@yesyes9246 quit forcing ur religion
@@esmeraldaalaniz9015 sjdodkdkdc I’m sorry I don’t act like that anymore, I used to think I had to say that but I don’t anymore sorry
@@yesyes9246 happy to hear that lmfaoshdjshdajhdjahsjhjsdhajh
SHES NORA FROM THE THUNDERMANS....IM SHOOK AND THATs Nickelodeon just like ICarly !!!!!!
Naomi B and on brat I think
Shook to the coreeeeeeeEeEeEeEeEeEeeEe
Adison riecke i think
I noticed that too XD I was literally looking for this comment LMAO
Yasss onggg i just noticedd her
to all the people who think throwing up is just “bulimia”
bulimia is when you binge eat a LOT and then get rid of it by using laxitives, or throwing up, or exercising extremely much.
anorexia is when you have a extremely low self esteem and you eat as less as possible but you can also be anorexic eating about 1500 calories a day. everyone is different. but dont think throwing up is just bulimia because its also part of anorexia. i know about it because i have both anorexia and bulimia.
Hope you are doing better!! ❤❤
there is one last one, where you fast or low restrict after binges. i've had bulimia and AN b/p for 7 years and have had all compensation behaviors at once at times! i hope you are recovering well
thank you.
yup anorexia is like 95% a MENTAL illness and 5% a physical one.
u don’t have to binge to have bulimia
I really appreciate you opening up about your eating disorder. I clicked on your instagram earlier today with the intention of finding pictures of you looking beautiful and skinny so i could feel bad about myself in comparison but instead I saw an article about your struggle with bulimia. It really helped put things in perspective for me that even someone who I view as 10x more beautiful than i am could struggle with body image.
and for her, anorexia started as a kid. so her body in the first place was probably not a realistic standard ever
Love the film! Does anyone know the ending song? It’s great ☺️
Orchids by the Famous lives of Men sorry I answered you so late
@@oliviastabler7888 HAHAAAHAH A YEAR LATE
@@oliviastabler7888 thank you so much :) made my day!
Wow, 60 people don’t know what ending credits are for
Amazing jennette you are so good at directing your films you are so inspiring
I read your article your eating disorders. It was very brave. You did a great job on the video and the article. And hopefully it will help alot of others suffering with eating disorders to seek help. Well done Jennette.
This hit a spot in me. My ex was bulimic, a cutter, and BPD and addicted to meth and was very manipulative. It was the roughest 3 years of my life and was costing me my sanity. Even though she was mentally and emotionally abusive i didnt take it personal because i knew what she suffers from but i had to let go because there was nothing i could do. I felt guilty for it for so long before going to therapy because i felt like i turned my back on her when she needed someone the most but at time i didnt know if i was helping or enabling.
she wasnt ready to get help yet and no matter how much i tried they have to be willing to get better. I still love and care for her but i cant relive all that trauma. If any of you know someone who struggles from eating/mental and drug abuse disorders dont beat yourself up if you feel like you can make them better. You can be their support when they need it and help them get to all the resources but you cant save them if they dont want to or arent ready to get help.
And if youre struggling with any type of mentall illness, drug addiction or eating disorder depression or suicidal thoughts just know that it does get better but you have to work at it everyday 💚
It feels like you're my ex talking about me. I used to be all that. I ended up breaking up with him because of how guilty I felt, because of all the pain I put him through.
Bpd is a very difficult disorder to live with especially if people dont get heññ
I feel bad that Jennette had a childhood like this
This reminded me of my mom, she was anorexic and unintentionally taught me a lot of behaviors. I remember when people started asking her if I were anorexic she would confront me, but when I’d get food she asked me if I needed that. I will say that I will never forget after I had started losing a bunch of wt she saw a pic of me and my friends and she was so proud of how skinny I was, and that was tough. I just wanted to make her proud, I wish she would have lived long enough to see me get into a stable recovery and be a mom.
You could tell the mom had an ED. She obsessed over what her daughter ate, she talked a lot to avoid eating food, and she knew all of the tricks that people use to hide their ED tendencies.
0:55 - does the mam have an ED too?
1:35 - she totally does omg
3:28 - shes legit talking about herself i swear she has an ED...
7:58 - I stg if shes purging now
8:02 - I CALLED IT omg :((
Well done, that was... Let's just say it took a different turn than expected. Eating disorders are terrifying.
I’m here after watching way too many videos about James Charles and all his drama and I’m so happy I came across this. This is what TH-cam needs. This is what people should be talking about. This. This is great.
I have been going back and forth with Twitter and TH-cam on the Shane Dawson nonsense. This was better to watch. It’s
the actresses did an amazing job... i was very surprised to see addison do this... she full filled the part amazingly... + the story line is so meaningful
the mom makes me so uncomfortable. well done.
Great job. The dinner table scene was painful to watch, as it should be. That would have to be a painful thing to go through as the child or parent.
This is amazing and very emotional. As someone who has struggled with an eating disorder for nine years, this really hit home. From the tension at the start, when she is having a meal with her mother, and clearly nothing else is on her mind rather than the calories she is consuming and the consequent dread of guilt. My eating disorder destroyed my relationship with my mother and it really does change your whole personality. It's sad. The ending was such a plot twist and you are just amazing at writing and directing movies.
This is the best ed short film i’ve watched so far.We see a mother that is worried for her child and doesn’t want her daughter to end up like her but we also see that she is competitive because she has an ed her self so she doesn’t want to feel like she’s the “fattest” one.It’s an excellent film and also kinda disturbing and triggering at the end because it’s so sad seeing a mother being competitive with her own daughter at this kinda stuff. It really showed how anorexia actually works.Well done ✅
This mother & daughter dynamic is weird afff. Gives me the creeps
The ending surprised me, I did not expect that at all.. To be honest I haven't seen any other film close to this. It's magnificent, I really hope to see more of your creations
its so sad how many parents destroy their children by not taking seriously eating disorders...
Wow this amplifies it perfectly. ❤️❤️❤️ great film. Stay strong everyone 💪
god the way the mom throws up much quicker than the girl always breaks my heart
practice makes perfect :/
i noticed that too
This short film left me speechless,it has a great meaning. unfortunately these mental illnesses exist and must be "destroyed" immediately.
I pray for all the people who have this pathology to find even a pinch of strength and say to themselves if, aloud, they can do it.
You are a strong point for everyone, we love you so much and at any moment counts on me and all the other mccurdians here!💕
The way the mom was literally shaking, not eating, just looking at her food when she was supposed to eat. And trying to force her daughter to eat while acting that way right in front of her.
I think it's the best eating disorder short movie I have ever seen. The acting is absolutely unbelieveble. The mother made me anxious, but this is the reaction it deserves.
“I don’t want to”
“We have to do things we don’t want to do.”
The same exchange I had with my mother :/
I don’t get what exactly the mom threw up because she didn’t touch her dinner at all, but holy damn. This broke my heart
Nopi could’ve been stomach acid
The ending got me. I never thought I could see, taste, smell, feel, and hear a video.
4 days purge free for the first time in over a year eds are so hard to get over
The mother not eating and focusing more on her daughter's problem rather than hers was truly heart breaking to see.
Good lord this was everything that I’ve ever struggled with and still do to this day. Before I went to treatment, I had a “work area” set up in my room. A bucket with bags, water bottles, various tools in case I needed them, a speaker, my remote control, hand sanitizer and mouth wash. I would put it to the farthest of my room, so no one could hear and I’d have time to act like I wasn’t doing anything if my parents walked in. The deceit and the struggle you go through to be sneaky and vindictive is so sad and heart breaking. My therapist at residential used to say it’s on par with a heroin addiction. The high I would get off of it. I’ve been “clean” from those behaviors for 2 months, but think about it every single second of every single day. I have to fight myself on not doing it, and not getting that high, and not feeling “amazing”. But let me tell you, waking up in the morning without my sinuses and throat being swollen, not having puffy cheeks, not having to be secretive, it’s so damn worth it. I developed heart problems from purging, and bone density loss. But I thank whoever every single day that I was able to go and get help and the knowledge I need to better myself. If you’re struggling, please get some sort of help. It’s so worth it.
You know your getting worse when you watch these videos to trigger yourself…
oh my god the mother is literally exactly how they treat you in inpatient. just watching this gives me flashbacks.
this broke my whole entire heart.
this is the powerful short film i’ve ever seen.
hate watching people do sick, but great job!
"So are you ready to kill a Mockingbird yet? " THAT'S WAS IN THE SUBTITLES DID Y'ALL SEE THAT? 😭
I'm a recovered anorexic. My mom struggled with anorexia and bulimia as well. She is still very thin, and drinks alcohol for most of her calories.
This hits really close to home.