losing a best friend ~dealing with loss, grief, and pain~
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 6 เม.ย. 2020
- on February 16th of 2020, I lost my best friend and my first love. This video I'll tell you about our story, some memories, and how I've dealt with the loss. I'll also be telling you guys about something very personal to me that I haven't shared online before. I'm hoping this video will allow you guys to turn difficult situations into positive learning one.
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"life is the most unexpected, problematic, but most beautiful thing ever"
stupid quote
im not actually im just speaking the truth this shouldnt be on the internet and this quote she speaking for someone else by love
Post Anything i'm literally quoting what she said because i felt that it was true and it applies to everyone's lives. we all have problems, unexpected things thrown at us, but life is still beautiful. this isn't a quote shes just speaking to someone she loves, she's speaking to us and everyone
allison park this is true, beautiful, and i want to have this mindset for the rest of my life
Post Anything your just miserable, just sort out your own problems first 😕🙃
“He told me that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me, and he did. He did”. WOW. You could write a book with that. I lost my best friend at 16 and I’ve never thought of it that way. You will find him in pieces of everything you do & everything you love. He’ll still be your number one fan. No one has taken the place of my best friend and no one ever will. Trust me Marla, you’re going to live a beautiful and fulfilling life, but I think that you already know that.
This comment is amazing🥺so powerful
Yeah...🥺💕💕💕
Your words are very moving I can’t stop crying
Such beautiful words and both so appropriate and true, stay strong beautiful❤️
Anna Davies when in the video did she say this?
no one:
my youtube algorithm: *You're not sad enough*
I’m bawling my eyes now rn. May his kind soul Rest In Peace 😔
I dont think you are qualified to say that. You don't see her on a day to day basis. Dont be rude
Shut up, no one needs your comment.
Literally me atm
You guys what she meant by this comment wasn't that the girl isn't sad enough from losing her best friend/bf...she's saying that TH-cam recommended this video because it's telling all of us watchers that we are not sad enough so basically here's a video in your feed that you can watch that will make you sad today! I know when you first read this comment it sounds like she is saying that but when you go and re read it, it makes more sense. ;)
Saw your Tik Tok of “why you should take Live Photo’s” and had to hear more after reading comments.
Same
Samee
Sameee she’s so strong 🥺
Same 🥺
Omy same
i don’t know why youtube randomly recommended me this video but my God this is heartbreaking. you have a guardian angel now.
Tara G omg same
Two guardian angels ❤️
Same, never watched so sad and I wish I had the bond they had with someone..
Amen.
Amen
shes already lost 2 best friends in her lifetime, i cant even imagine this pain
She lost 2? That's so sad 😢, Who was the other one besides Lucas?
Brian her friend in 6th grade who had luciemia
Emma and Kylie it’s briana , not Brian it’s a girl
It's an awful pain, I just hope she didn't lose hers like I lost mine... How you lose people dear to u can really scar your mind...
Yeahh it’s hard. Lost a few friends in high school :/
He loved you in 5 days because he had already loved you for all those years before dating
Who else is balling, especially when she read the text message. i’m so sorry soooo sorry. i wanna just hug her
omg me. once she read the text message i starting bailing my eyes out and i cant stop. i wanna hug her too
omg me. once she read the text message i starting bailing my eyes out and i cant stop. i wanna hug her too
omg me. once she read the text message i starting bailing my eyes out and i cant stop. i wanna hug her too.
omg me. once she read the text message i starting bailing my eyes out and i cant stop. i wanna hug her too.
I'm crying my eyes out I'm so sad....😢
soulmates...you guys were soulmates u might not see him but he’s with u all the time to make sure u are never alone
this was so empowering 😢
Soulmates? They broke up, they were friends. I think this is kinda weird that she get clout from this and that she did this video after two weeks
I have great Comments clout? She’s not asking for clout. She’s speaking about her feelings after loosing a loved one. Even though they were friends at the time, they still loved eachother and such a close connection. ‘Clout’ is such the wrong word to use in this circumstance.
Laura Wood literally eveyone in our town knows she is bullshitting. They barely talked, and she gets dramatic and makes a youtube video about it bragging how their relationship was. She is narcissistic af and everyone that knew him hates her
I have great Comments that’s fair enough, sorry I just didn’t think clout was the right word to use
“It was so easy to love him.”
kkjoeweed sums up everything
“No one cared if he died”
The way you spoke of him just broke my heart. You are so strong.
when she looked up and said "thank you Lucas" I fully lost it.
I swear
I dated my best friend. We broke up but remained besties. He ended up getting into a gruesome car accident and passed away. I miss him every day. It doesn’t get easier but you do get stronger. Sending my love
I'm so sorry that happened to you. Stay strong, ily x
I’m in love with my best friend lily but I think I should just remain being best friends with here so I won’t lose her
Santos Byrd nothing wrong with taking the chance if you feel that’s what u want
Yo, I recently broke up with my best friend and we are friends still. Looks like my time has come :(
@@santoast3018 dude ngl if you lose her as your gf you'll lose her if shes just your best friend, the only difference is you wont have made the most of the time together, just speak to her about how you feel, if she doesnt feel the same way then just promise her it wont change anything, shell understand
Here I am, a grown ass man, bawling my eyes out and being totally amazed at how pure this love must have been and how mature a young little woman like you can be. You are amazing and he most likely is so so proud of you right now!
being a grown man doesnt mean you cant show your emotions
He seems like he was a beautiful person. I am sorry for your loss.. but heaven is so lucky to have him.
Chloe boating accident
“Change is inevitable, growth is optional”
The true meaning of “go hug your loved one because tomorrow is never guaranteed”
I’m sorry for your loss. I too am grieving the loss of my husband of 35 years. We were together 37 years, Senior year sweethearts, graduated in 1982, married in 1984, had a beautiful son in 1996 and I lost him 1 year ago yesterday. There will never be another for me. He was my love, my life and my soul. RIP Jeff 08/26/19
Sorry for your loss 💔
I'm so sorry for your loss..... Please read this conforting article, I hope this brings peace and, hope for the future: www.jw.org/en/library/books/dead-live-again-tract/dead-live-again/
Sorry for your loss
Deepest condolences on your loss , may the universe grant you more life, love and uplifting experience fufill your life
i cant imagine getting that news on a plane literally the worst spot to get that new stay strong
Nicky D so sad, my heart breaks for her 💔. Something similar happened to me last year except I was on a bus, My fiancé and I live in LA and I got the news that one of my dogs back home died, and that one of my other dogs only had 2 weeks left as well because she had cancer too. I couldn’t afford a plane ticket so we got on a bus. 5 hours into the bus ride my mom called me, I immediately knew what it was about so I didn’t answer because I didn’t want it to be true, she then texted me “I’m sorry” and then sent a photo of our dog and said “she says goodbye”. We still had almost 3 days of that ride left and it was torture knowing I couldn’t get there any faster to see her one last time. I know people say “it’s just a dog” but they’re family too and she was also the last thing we had left of my pop pop who passed in 2011 😞
@@Jlynn1998 I'm so sorry that sounds terrible
@@Jlynn1998 dogs are family, and whoever says that it's "just a dog" never had one.. I'm so sorry for you, I have a dog too💜💜
hahahahahaha
@@Jlynn1998 I am so sorry. I know how hard losing a dog is ❤️
“life is short... a lot shorter than we expect it to be”
I have to tell you something, I live in the Miami Area and I was walking around the graveyard to see my grandma who just passed and I stumbled across a boy named Lucas Alvarez and I remember thinking “wow he seemed so sweet and I know he’s in a good place” my boyfriend just said if he’s okay with us standing here to move the pinwheel and it immediately moved and here was no wind. God bless him, we saw a mother laying there next to him as well. I come and find this video after and all details about his death unexpectedly , this is crazy. He loves you and he’s with you, I felt a good presence
bublita it was a wild experience. May he Rest In Peace, God bless.
Adam Barton I’m so sorry that this happened it strucks a nerve it does, I can’t imagine losing my best friend and his family is so strong for that I just remember thinking about my grandma and him that God had his plans!
Wow, isn’t that something??🙏🏼🙏🏼 and then you see this video. Omg 😳 God is real and this boy was a pure soul ❤️
I just can say that I’m soooo soooo sorry!! All my love❤️
bubbles I got goose bumps reading this. It was a divine appointment.
NO ONE:
TH-cam : *randomly brings me to this video*
ME: I’m very invested now and I’m bawling my eyes out
Same
Literally same. I can't imagine her pain
Omg sameeeeeee . I just came on TH-cam bc I was avoiding putting laundry away .
Same here
Same and I’m on the bus and everyone’s staring at me..
The people who disliked couldn’t see cause they were crying
Because you’ve experienced this at a young age, you’ll be much wiser and see the world in a different light moving forward.
Abbey blah blah blah
InTeNcE shush
InTeNcE are you being serious? the amount of disrespect in this comment is outrageous. she’s talking about someone who has already lost 2 people in her life. are you serious. grow up. be a decent human being.
shut up, please. this is difficult no matter what age are you. i’m only 18 years old but i already lost more than 5 people and it’s not like that
Abbey no. don’t take away her grief. never tell someone losing a person will help them.
I just lost my boyfriend of 3 years four days ago (he was 25), and it was the most horrific day of my life. Thank you for making this, I don’t feel so alone anymore.
I love you forever Brennan Kern.
I'm sorry for your loss. I hope he's in the better place now~
I’m so sorry for your loss 💔💔 I send nothing but positive energy towards your way
My husband/children’s father died 4 years ago. Always remember. Grief is a place you can go and visit but never ever allow yourself to stay too long. You can get consumed in it. Lost in it. You can still have a wonderful life regardless your circumstance. Focus on that. Living for you both. Truest happy. Find comfort in your memories and strength in his love.
I’m so sorry! Please understand he’s in a better place❤️
Leah Stroud thank you so much, you have no idea how much I admire your strength and how much your words mean to me. I will push on.
who else realised her necklace said "LUCAS"?
this is very touching and it definitely wouldn't have been easy for you. sending you love :)
No it doesn’t, the first letter is an R, it says Rucas
it says rucas i’m pretty sure marla called lucas “ rucas “ 🤍
she just started talking about him and im already crying...
Shine Gatchalian same
Shine Gatchalian I’m bawling
Shine Gatchalian same
Sameeeee🥺
i’m literally balling my eyes out, especially from the tribute
I noticed your necklace of "Lucas" that's really lovely.
Lots of love to you.
Take care.
Seen it too
@@sistermorphine7874 probably a nickname x
I think it might spell marucas. Marla + Lucas
I blamed myself when my best friend died in a car crash, after he passed i stopped eating. I in a way stopped living... my friends had to force me to eat... I fall asleep every night exhausted and looking at photo of him on my phone. Its been 3 years since he passed away and I sometimes just break down and gets moments of extreme depression. He was the kindest, sweetest human being, even though I only knew him for abou 1,5-2 years he was my best friend. It took along time for me too talk about what happened to him without crying. He had just turned 20 when he passed. I miss him so much.... he was a organdonor so after he passed he saved 2 children by dying himself, he was just the best human being even after he passed away.
To Tobias, I hop you are okey wherever you are... I miss you so much❤
I’m so sorry, it was never your fault. He will always be with you. He loved you and he did good for the world ❤️❤️
I want to send my condolences to you ❤️❤️
If you are not better now, maybe a therapy is a helpful thing to feel a little bit better.. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you but maybe a therapy is a good way to talk about it and to find back to life ❤️ xxx Annabel
I have never cried so hard over someone else’s relationship. This absolutely broke my heart🥺
Please write a book, I’d read every word
Yes.
yesyesyes
JocelynKetler me too omg hell yes I would
same.
Ive read a similair book its called “P.S. I love you” in case you would like.. but its very sad u know :/
"We only get one shot and we don't know how long that shot is"
My boyfriend passed away January 3rd 2019 at the age of 17. Just now today April 24th 2020. I can say I am feeling better, that I can speak about things without crying or becoming so sad I’m nights ruined. His passing was the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. It’s okay to be sad and upset it’s okay to still be in love with someone who is no longer here. It will get better over time and your relationship with him is just between you and him and it’s unique and personal and no one can change that. This boy loves you then, today, and always. You have a guardian watching over you wanting you to be happy♥️ stay Strong 💕
What happen
Ohhh baby girl... I hope your doing better!!
I'm really sorry I hope your better
What happened to him
good to know i’m not alone. my bf passed away 2 days ago and i don’t even know how i’m still here. this is the hardest thing i’ve ever gone through. no kid should ever pass away at such a young age. life is so cruel:(
i feel like him breaking up w you was like a signal for you to know how not having him by your side would be like, to start to move on so it wouldn't hurt that much, like something knew it was wanna be harder for you to lose him if he was still your bf if he passed, so letting you move on before would be healthier for you and so you know you will be fine. I'm so sorry for your loss.
you're his forever girl
God, this proves people who say ‘you’re too young to be in love’ so wrong. The love that you and Lucas had was so rare. It still hurts as a viewer and I can’t imagine how much worse it would be in person. You’re doing so well, love. Don’t you ever forget that he’s watching over you.
“Take me back to the night we met”
They say when it’s our time to go our spirit knows even if we don’t know. That’s why he was telling you to enjoy life because his spirit was leading him into his transition. It’s sad
im literally sobbing after watching this I didn’t even know Lucas but he sounds like such a beautiful soul my prayers go out to you, your friends and his family. Your love story was beautiful and I hope you feel better and never give up on your dreams ❤️. (im not good with words sorry)
me too! I teared upppppp
Bianca Benitez same i feel like i know him from what she said
Bianca Benitez ikr
I felt soo sad, I had tears in my eyes, because I imagined what their life would be like ...together.
Be happy. You are his first and last love. He still loves u wherever he is.
❤️
i lost my ex boyfriend to suicide a few months after we broke up. and everyone blamed me for it. i remember the night i got the text it was two years ago and we were still friends i was still there for him. our song was lifer by georgiafloridaline and that song hits a lit harder now. it hasn't gotten much easier but it hurts less. i would do anything to have him. im going to college for human services because of him. you're really brave for talking about him. you've inspired me.
I’m so sorry. I hate when people blame others for suicide..so not okay
I am so sorry... I am sure he would have stayed if he felt he could. Life can be so hard. It’s wrong to be blamed for someone else’s mental health and the result of a crisis. It’s not your fault. 💜
I just read your post & just want to say ... DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF ... & those who blamed you, were so so wrong!
Ask God into your heart to give you peace...
Im so sorry
Sometimes angels come to Earth. They never stay long, the just do the job that they came to do, and then they leave. He was with you in this world for as long as he knew you needed him, and now you have his words, blessing and love to carry you through the rest of your life. 💕
I know this isn’t the same thing but my dog Cash died recently. He was my Angel. He got me through my parents divorce, he would protect me when I was growing up, he would let me pet him and cry and he got me through my anxiety and OCD. Angels aren’t always in the form of a person. But I am always grateful and I love him and miss him. 💖💞🤍
@@caliwa 🥰
Who else thinks she should write a book?😯
I love how she's smiling instead of crying.. like I would cry every sec talking about it.
Ikr I'm sitting here bawling my eyes out and she is sitting there smiling but I can see a few tears but I feel so bad
Xara Axioti she's probably cried so much that there are no tears left to cry
The phrase ‘don’t be sad because it’s over-be happy because it happened’ feels relevant here.
Yesterday was Lucas's birthday...and I wanted to say Happy Late Birthday to this angel. Fly high buddy!
I’m only three minutes in, bawling my eyes out. I’m currently 18 years old dating my best friend, same situation. We’ve been dating for a little over a year and have been best friends since we were 12 and 13 years old. My heart is breaking over the thought of loosing him and you are so strong and powerful for going through this. I can’t even start to imagine how you’re feeling. I’m so sorry for your loss, he is still with you every step of the way.
When she started crying so did I
Mika same
Me too 😢
Me too
Mika me too
Same
I lost my mom on April 3rd at around 10 pm. Losing someone so close to you, even if you know it’ll happen, is such a shock. She had ovarian cancer for 3 years and we always knew she wouldn’t make it. I’m sorry for your loss, and we’ll all be here for you if you need anyone. Wounds like this don’t heal, and this’ll be a hard thing to deal with for a long time. You’ve been so strong, and I’m so proud of you. Again, I’m sorry.
Fireflyfoox so sorry for your loss💗💗
Sorry for your loss♥️🥺
Fireflyfoox so so sorry for your loss❤️❤️
i pray you find the calmest of peace in the time❤️
Fireflyfoox I’m so sorry
I have a hard time saying "I love you" to anyone, including family.
It was hard for me to say when I was young. I found the more I said it the easier it was to say. And it is a very good thing to say I love you to someone who isn't comfortable saying it back to you. I hope you have someone in your life who tells you they love you. If you don't right now, you will. :)
@absleep same
“ he told me to travel to love to experience and he knew how much i loved to travel and experience. I don’t want to hold you back at all. He knows how much he loved me.”
You're so young, yet you have an essence about you that radiates maturity and self awareness that some people only reach in the last years of their life.
Emily James I was thinking this exact same thing as I was watching this
“One day your life will flash before your eyes ....... so make sure it’s worth watching”
Darcy Worthington holy shit that’s poetic
"change is inevitable, growth is optional" such a wonderful quote.
I started dating my boyfriend in the middle of my junior year and he passed away a little over a year ago at the age of 18. if you want to talk ever i’m here for you💓
this just breaks my heart. i’m so sorry.
When you started crying I was already balling my eyes out. I'm so sorry that you have to go through so much pressure. A lot of love goes for you love. You are a strong woman and you will get through this and we are here to help you through it.❤️
Stella Meister don’t be rude, you know what he/she meant. It’s a video ab her bf who passed away, and the person was just motivating her. It was unnecessary and rude for you to do that.
I remember watching this 2 years ago when it was originally posted. I’m here in Summer 2022 after the tragic passing of Cooper Noriega. After watching Sabrina’s TH-cam video (his girlfriend) I was reminded of this story. Very similar. Rest In Peace boys 🤍🤍
this story is so heartbreaking, i started crying 30 seconds into the video. when he said he knew you were the one, he was right. you were his love of his life🥺.i can feel your pain, i lost my dad 2years ago & i know it’s different but i understand the feeling. losing someone you love is such an awful thing to through
I lost my Mum to Pancreatic Cancer on March 31st this year she died in hospital alone because of the Covid-19 restrictions we couldn’t sleep over in the hospital the cancer spread to her brain along with the pain she was feeling she could no longer speak words and she couldn’t recognise us, her funeral was restricted so only 10 people could attend even though I know that without Restrictions the whole town would have been blocked by how much people would have been there, she left behind 4 children including a 4 month old, I know their in a better place may they both rest in perfect peace💕
Toni Kay - I’m so sorry for your loss 💛💐
omg i am so sorry. i pray God gives you peace, comfort, and love in this hard time.
I lost my mom too 🥺 i offer my condolences. I know the feeling of losing a mother. We can survive this. If you need anyone to talk to i am here.
RAKI Thank you 💕
anna rose mabile Thank you ✨
when she looked up and said “thank you lucas” I lost it
This brings back memories of my Colton. We had been best friends for years prior. He was my summer bestie,as he lived in a different province. All year long we'd plan for our summer vacation together. His last summer here, we got incredibly close. I remember our last hug like it was yesterday. As soon as he got home, we were talking about how we were going to rent a duplex and "knock down the walls" so it's one big house.. he joked we'd end up married. We both knew it was true. He passed that October in a brutal accident. I was only 18. I'm 30 now, and life still isn't the same. I've never had a connection as deep as ours, and I still miss him, so much. These connections are truly deep, and they'll follow you through life.
I am so sorry sweetheart!
😭😭😭😭im really sorry for your lost
All through school from age 11 to 17 I had a friend Hannah and she was amazing, the happiest soul you could ever meet and I can still see her now giving me puppy dog eyes because she wants some of my food, we both really liked each other and knew it and use to play on it, she was everything and I wanted to give her the world, we finished term for summer holidays and I was going to make it happen....she got in a car with some guy we all knew and a few friends that weekend and he rolled it throwing her from the car and she died from her injuries, that was 21 years ago and some days a memory comes out of nowhere and it stops me in my tracks because it’s that initial feeling of a huge hole has appeared beneath me but then the beautiful smile and her laugh comes through and I feel ok.
Everything happens for a reason and you beautiful souls were each other’s reason for everything
In case if everybody is wondering, Luca Alvarez passed in a boating accident in the Florida Keys.
My heart goes out to you, Marla Fay
This is so sad😭💔💔...it breaks my heart
The part where her voice started quivering, I started crying. This feeling is all too real. The realization but not wanting to face it becomes so breaking. I cant imagine the pain you're feeling and how much it took you to share this. So thanks for sharing y'alls beautiful story with us and just know God protects his children. He loves you so much. Keep your head up, just when the water seems to be pushing you down you get back up. 💗
Anyone whose friends with you is so damn lucky
Clara ikr she seems like such a genuine and intelligent person at such a young age it’s crazy
This is the most heartbreaking story ive ever heard in my life im literally sobbing omg
he got out of the friend zone. sounds like he was truly legendary. sorry for your loss
My best friend/boyfriend passed away in January. We weren’t together at the time. I felt so alone and I was in so much pain and thought no one truly understood how I felt. I appreciate you for posting this. I know it couldn’t have been easy for you ❤️
A i’m very sorry for your loss sending many prayers and much love💕💕💕
Quotes from this video to live by❤️:
"Love while you can. Live while you can. And since you only get one shot at what inspires you, change the world and leave a legacy that will last beyond you."
"You only get one shot at life and you don't know how long that shot is, so do everything that inspires you and what wil make you grow. Don't hold on to the negative shit in life and just be happy."
"Change is inevitable, growth is optional."
Christel Mellema i love this ..
bless your heart...i’m so sorry that you’ve been through all of this. you’re a very strong person and you’ll become even stronger through this.
I love the wat you talk about him. You can physically SEE how happy he made you. Good luck with life gurlie, u got it.
YOU ARE SO STRONG AND WE RESPECT YOU SO MUCH MARLA
can’t imagine how hard this is for you, stay strong marla🤍🤍
I cannot begin to imagine how hard this was for you (I've personally never experienced losing someone in my life yet) but you had me in tears girl, my heart broke for you, I send all my love to you.
this breaks my heart yet lifts me up at the same time, you can see the strength in your eyes. he is your angel-always watching and always guiding you! you are a beautiful soul M🤍
“He was willing to sacrifice his love and what he wanted with me in order to keep me in his life”🥺❤️
you know, things and situations like this really remind me of how you could be sitting down enjoying your life, watching Netflix, while someone else anywhere meanwhile could be going through absolute hell and you not even knowing..
imnotoK for real I'm so grateful that I'm not going through those things right now and I just wish everyone could be happy
Shut up noob
InTeNcE who hurt u baby
I don’t know you, this just popped up on my page today. Oh girl, my heart aches for you. My ex boyfriend was killed in a skiing accident. The pain doesn’t get better but it gets replaced more with happy memories. I know it sounds like the last thing in the world but one day you are going to find the most amazing love. Lucas will always always always be in your heart. He would want you be to be happy and be in love and to have the most amazing life. Live for the both of you. Take things one day at a time. You should write a book!
i’m watching this crying knowing something so similar happened to me just a week ago. it’s heartbreaking and my emotions come in waves. Life won’t be the same without him but he wouldn’t want to see you holding back. this video was super helpful i apprecite it ❤️
At 4:44 when she said "I got what I wanted" it broke me because of the way she said it
You can just hear the brokenness in her voice
I don't think I've ever seen a guy loving a girl in such a profound and genuine way. Ever. I can't even imagine that.
i’m so so happy he got to experience that kind of love and spend his life with you. he experienced true unconditional love before he passed and most people don’t get that opportunity. remember that he’s watching you and loving you ❤️
my heart aches for you. i’m so so sorry. you’re such a strong and beautiful girl. fly high king🕊❤️
LOVE THAT STARTS WITH JUST A FRIENDSHIP IS THE STRONGEST LOVE EVER. im sending you all my love and support, you r one of the strongest people ive ever seen. i cant even imagine what pain you are going through.
i literally wanna come give u a hug after watching this. i can’t imagine losing someone this way i’m so sorry you’re going through this. you’re so strong💗💗💗💗
I saw the quote about the sky looking prettier when there's someone you love up there on your of your social medias and then this video was recommended. I lost my brother almost six months ago and I could never be strong enough to make video about it. This video is so true and made me cry so many times. Your so strong and thank you for being such an amazing person!
I'm so drenched in tears. I'm sorry for your loss. God bless you girl! Much love ❤💫
"When you lose someone you start to blame yourself" this 100%
I held my moms hand as she lost her 2 year battle to cancer. And it was one of the most difficult things I have ever gone through. I thought of all the things i never said and all the stupid things i had ever done. That kind of loss never fully leaves you. But over time, it becomes easier. Over time, you get through the day crying just a little bit less. Then the day finally comes that you can look back on the memories and smile at the thought of that person. Take it day by day, and know that he will always be with you..
Christine ORTIZ i am so sorry for your loss, please never blame yourself for something out of your control. I am glad you are healing, know it takes time and is not always a straight path but you will become a better person from it🧡
Christine ORTIZ I am SO sorry for your loss❤️my heart is broken and she where with you🙏❤️
I'm sorry for your lost
I am so sorry for your loss. I feel you. My mom was with my grandpa when he passed away and asked if I wanted to go visit him multiple times in that week and I always said no because I thought there would be another time. Then there wasn’t a time and I convinced myself that he thought I hated him when I died and that he could’ve felt more loved if I would’ve just visited him. But now I know that he will always know that I love him so much.
@@lilycherie4316 thank you for your kind words💜
my best friend died over the summer in a boating accident as well. i am so sorry. it was the worst pain and shock. angels are watching us
You can see how happy he makes you. Your eyes shine when you talk about him! He’s your forever love and he’ll love you forever as I’m sure you will too. You deserve the world, Marla. My heart goes out to you, to his family and to everyone who was a part of his life. He’s without a doubt watching over you and everyone he loved.
i’m crying so much and i don’t even know them can’t even imagine going through this you are so so strong ❤️
"The Brightest Star in my life became the brightest star in our sky." Thank you. You have helped me appreciate life and what I have more than I already did. "When you lose someone, you gain an angel you know"
This is called your year of firsts, and trust me when i say it’s going to be so hard. It doesn’t get easier it’s just a matter of finding a new normal. You’ll continue to get waves of memories whether it be from a smell, a sight, a song, really anything it just comes out of nowhere sometimes. And that’s okay. He is so proud of you and all of his friends. And one day you’ll get a dream, and it’ll be him telling you that himself, I promise, if it hasn’t happened yet, it’ll happen when you’re both ready. I’m so sorry you lost your person, know he loved you very much, it was always very clear. We all love and support you and anything you decide to do.💛
i’m actually in tears , lucas was so lucky to have you , and he is still with you and always will be , he seemed so beautiful i love you marla and i hope you’re doing well 😚
You’re guys friendship is what I strive to have with someone. I envy you sm. You are so strong for pushing through your pain girl. 💖better to have loved and lost then never loved at all. He’s watching over u forever. He seems like he was an extraordinary person. thank you for sharing yours and his story! 💕💕
I was with my first true love for 2 years in high school (“high school sweethearts” some would say). I was 2 years older than him, and we met my Junior year (his Freshman year). I was in a group of friends that were, if I had to label it, we were the cheerleaders, dance team, swim team, kinda preppy and popular but not the stuck up popular clique... if that makes sense. And Nick, he was a “skater boy” and was the lease singer and lead guitar player in a pop-punk band called “One Foot Runner” (terrible name... I’m aware...). We had seen each other several times at school but never really hung out. Honestly, I’m a pretty confident and outspoken person... I’m a Leo so I don’t mind having attention on me, but Nick made me shy. His band mates were mutual friends so I went to a show to see them play and at that show I really got the nerve to talk to him. We were both huge Blink-182 fans... along with pretty much all early 2000’s pop-punk and emo-punk. I won’t lie, being the girl that the hot lead singer of the band was talking to was something I loved. We soon started dating and we fit together perfectly. We were inseparable. Since we started dating the last quarter of my junior year, I had already agreed to go to prom with another guy who I was close friends with from church. Nick was never jealous, he trusted me. He actually wrote a song about it. He wrote a lot of songs about me. We were big Star Wars fans too, and one song was Star Wars themed and it was just so personal and I loved it. This was before smartphones and texting was a big deal, back when we still passed actual notes... he’d write to me every class. He always had a note to give me during class change and met me with it at my locker. He did everything for me and made me so happy, and I hope I was able to make him as happy as he made me. I could go on and on about our whole relationship, when I had my first car accident and had double whiplash and was bruised across my chest from the seatbelt that saved my life and how he came to my house and took care of me, how he never missed a single one of my swim meets, how I’d pick him up for school and one time we got in a wreck on the way to school and both had airbag burns all day, how we went to Disney World with my family and we snuck off to the pool after everyone was asleep to make-out in the pool, how my Senior year I took him to prom and we had a great time, except for the drive home when we were holding on to each other for dear life because our driver had us both about to pee ourselves 😂 so many memories I’ll never forget. 99% of the time everything was perfect, even perfectly imperfect. But we did have a few little arguments. His dad lived in Pawley’s Island, South Carolina. So over the summer after my graduation, we spent every moment together except for 10 days that Nick and his best friend Josh were going to SC to visit his dad. I had already been there with him the summer before, and stayed a few nights before leaving to head to Columbia, SC for a dance competition... so I knew his dad already and didn’t want to intrude on his time with his dad this time, and of course it was no big deal that he was going, but obviously I was going to desperately miss him. Well after 10 long days, we made it through it. It was finally time for Nick to come home. And I can’t even remember what was said to upset me so much... but I’m positive I was just being a jealous brat. I was at my best friends house, and we were chatting on AOL Instant Messenger (told you I’m old)... and I was irritated and ready to see my bf and he was about to leave SC so we were talking to him before he left and my best friend wanted to remind him about something going on at their church for when he got home (they went to the same church) and he said something like “okay thanks sweetie” and I lost it. I got on the keyboard and I said the meanest things. “Oh, you want Rachel now? You think she’s hot? Well fucking have her. I hope you get in a car wreck on your way home.” And that’s the last thing I said to him before he left to come home. 5ish hours later, my best friend and boyfriend’s youth leader from their church calls my best friend. I’m still upset but pretty much over it and I’m regretting what I said and hoping Nick gets home ASAP. So when she gets this phone call, I think it’s Nick, and I’m playing all “poor me” like a brat and assuming he’s talking to her about how to apologize (because I was being completely irrational thinking I should be apologized to when I should have done all the apologizing). She gets this look on her face and stares at me. And I said “what is it?” And she says hold on and gets up to leave the bedroom. I’m like what the heck is going on...? I hear her from the other room saying “But are they okay? Wait, who was airlifted by LifeStar? What hospital? He’s unconscious? Josh can’t speak? Oh it’s really bad... ummm yeah Shannon is here with me... did you want to tell her?” And I come sprinting down the hall. I grab the phone and start asking what’s wrong and my bf’s youth leader tells me that “somewhere in the Columbia SC area, there was a brush fire on the side of the interstate, it caused some unexpected traffic. Nick and Josh and Nick’s mom were stopped in this traffic right over the top of a hill going back down a slope. An 18-wheeler came up over the hill and couldn’t stop in time and rear ended them and Nick didn’t have on his seatbelt on in the back seat and he flew out the front windshield of the SUV and landed about 15 feet away from the crash. He’s got road rash on his whole back and he was in a coma and was air lifted to the nearest hospital. They’re keeping him under while they clean out his wounds, his back is raw and has gravel and dirt in it. They’re going to use skin graphs to hopefully help repair his road rash, but it’s pretty serious. Also his ankle and arm were broken. They will slowly try to wake him up after surgery, and they’ll have more information on everything else once they get all the scans back. He’s got a severe concussion but they don’t suspect any life threatening brain bleeding or swelling at this time, and expect he will wake up. Josh has several broken bones in his face and can’t talk, but he’s conscious. He has a severe concussion as well and is in and out of it but he’s responsive and his scans look okay so far. Nick’s mom is okay, just sore. She wore her seatbelt and only suffered minor injuries.” I said “what hospital?” Youth leader said he didn’t know but he’d call back with more information. To say the least, I was hysterical. I was screaming and crying and had the worst panic attack and blamed myself for the whole thing. It wasn’t until well into the next day I got a call from a SC number. I answered the phone frantically and I heard Nick’s voice on the other end. I apologized to him and told him this was my fault. And do you know what he said? Through a lot of mumbling and slurred speech, he says to me “Hey baby, don’t cry. I’m okay. You wanna know what’s crazy? We got hit by that truck right next to the exit we took to go to your dance competition, and guess what? You were right about wearing seatbelts... Remember when we got in that wreck on the way to school and had airbag burns all day? Well this is just a little worse than that... hahaha.... I love you baby. I’m gonna get better and I’ll be home to see you soon.” I was crying and laughing and crying. He was cracking jokes while laying in ICU. I didn’t know what to say. Fast forward 2 weeks and he’s finally on his way home. He comes straight to my house where I greet him with uncontrollable tears, soft hugs, and millions of kisses. He survived. He told me he forgave me for what I had said. And I learned a valuable lesson. We dated for another year after that. But when I went to college, his dad talked him into moving to SC and we only got to see each other 1 time for Christmas before we broke up. Now we both are happily married and have careers and kids. We didn’t end up together, but that relationship taught me so much about life, love, and loss. I just wanted to share this with you to let you know that you’re in my thoughts and I’m proud of you for sharing this story with us. You never know what someone is going through, no matter what they look like on the outside. I hope you’re doing okay.
Jerrianna Otwell there’s many ways people experience loss, grief, pain... Marla is so brave to share her story, and she may never know how much it helps another person get through something similar. I just wanted to share how I had something so special with my boyfriend and it was almost gone forever... And I felt helpless... I just wanted to leave a reminder to everyone that life is precious and it’s important we tell the ones we love just how much we love them and we don’t let pettiness and jealousy get in the way... and for those who have lost someone, you’re not alone. As humans, we all love, we all experience loss and pain, and we all grieve... these are the things everyone can relate to at one point or another. And it’s hard to deal with. It’s important we support each other when we know someone who is going through that pain. If this can offer some comfort to Marla, that’s all I want. And if this helps just one person remember to be nicer, love harder, and live your life as humble and thankful as possible... then that’s all I want.
Wow, that is really powerful, you made me cry so hard.
omg i am speechless after reading thatttt i am sorry u had to go through that even if it was such a long time ago i am glad i took a while to read all of that
Please just see that the mistakes I made could have been avoided... they were petty and life is too short for that... love as hard as you can, tell the ones you love just how much you love them and how much they mean to you, hold them close. Sometimes life doesn’t turn out the way we thought it would... and that’s okay. Things do happen for a reason... loving someone so much just to lose them hurts like hell... but allow yourself to learn through the grief and pain. Remember that every experience you have is an opportunity to learn something, and to use what you learn to be a better you than before.
I’m a Leo and I get into car accidents frequently
when she said “he passed” and her voice broke I lost it. I know how you feel girl😞
Joey Peeps Okay that’s hilarious but completely irrelevant 😂😂
Wise beyond your years! Beautiful inside and out! You're parents also did a great job raising you. I'm very sorry for your loss! You both were so fortunate to have a beautiful relationship like that.
You’re an inspiration 🌸 I had this video on recommendations and I clicked because I tragically lost a great friend whom I loved deeply and never told him so. I’ve been struggling with his passing for a year and blaming myself for what I could have done and didn’t. Then I found your video and thought “there’s people struggling way harder than I and they’re still here!”. The wanting of giving up is huge sometimes, but let me tell you, your video can be a great help, you’re here wanting to fight for life, for living instead of just surviving, that’s what I’ve been feeling this last year that Ive been surviving. I wish you could have someone to comfort and help you in this the way you’re doing it with me and I believe with so many others. You’re amazing 💕 thank you so much for sharing your story, hope it was therapeutic for you talking about it. Much love to you ❤️
ive never cried so hard over someone elses relationship in my life. im so sorry that this happened. you guys truly were meant for each other, he wanted what wouldve been best for you, he cared about you so much i really dont know but i can tell that he loved and cared for you so much truly.
the cover photo for this video really caught my attention. the number 222 that you’re wearing on the jersey is actually an angel number. it represents a message from your guardian angel about unity, love and your relationship with God. it also sends a message about positivity. i thought you might needed to hear that. praying that you heal from this 🤍
Bailea P i didn’t know that and i’m so happy you mentioned that. thank you