Life Is Meaningless. I want to die. Ugly. My experience. Suicide Attempt. Loser. No relationship
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Episode 65 | Life Is Meaningless [RE]
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I have an overwhelming number of viewers who have seen my "Life Is Meaningless" BeyondBipolarBlog Video. It doesn't only have a lot of views, but it is at 94% rating. That is incredible for something that is only a minute long. But because of it's content I thought I try to justify it. I am getting a lot of comments on people who want to commit suicide, who regret not being able to commit suicide and plenty of others that find no purpose in living. We live we die scenario. I want to try to clarify a few things in this video. I added much more content and wisdom on my own perspective regarding this previous video I have released. I thought I give you my own response to this video: • Life Is Meaningless. ... . Thanks for listening to me. I want to try to share a greater impact to mental health, and if I can spread awareness and clarification, I have done a good job trying to find my own purpose in this so called world.
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My name is Travis Balitz. I have been living with Bipolar Disorder since 2008. I have had many other diagnosis such as anxiety, depression, schizoaffective disorder and bipolar type 2 . I am currently diagnosed with bipolar type 1. There have been many ups and downs in my life. Here on this channel I am advocate for Mental Health. I share my experiences, good and bad and in between. I also give advice and share my general experience with hospitalizations, partial hospitalizations, group homes (IRTS), dialectical behavioral therapy, personal therapy, psychiatric experiences and my knowledge on all of the medications I have been on. I hope you can learn something from my channel. Also do not be afraid to reach out if you are in a dire situation. Please contact the suicide hotline if you are at a risk for your mental health. Number is here: 800-273-8255. Text BRAVE to 741741. Thank you.
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The reason why I hate life is because of how we have to work our whole lives we’re literally just slaves serving for a piece of paper
it’s a rat race
@@emmy4537 yep
hey guys I just want to check up on my viewers. I should probably check in and see if you are all doing okay? How is life treating you?
@@BeyondBipolarBlog little better
Literally.... and I’m still in school but realized that.
There's just no meaning. No matter how hard you try. You lose everything. I just want to go home.
try to stay positive. Life can get very hard. But I do want you to try to have hope. Suicide is very hard to deal with, especially the thoughts. However, within time you just gotta believe things will get better. I wish you the best of luck.
@@BeyondBipolarBlog I'll be 42 this month. I make 10k a month. It's never enough. I'm just tried. I seen so much death and misery. I'm seriously burned out.
@@tech-hqvip3290give me 20.000$ come to Greece and i want to show you something that you probably haven't seen anything like this, a life where you live for spiritual things. Search about mount Athos. I say 20.000$ cause i really need money, I don't have any 😂
Yes, people lives lives of perpetual discontent. Set out one fire, your mind invents another to take its place.
@@tech-hqvip3290 Hey just checking on you, you doing alright ?
I have been suffering since the day i was born in this human society. i mean the world is a wonderful place but the people living in it is just crule inhumane species.
i hope you are feeling better these days.
The majority ya..but not all is like that..
Reality is perception, if you feel like that it is probably why you see it that way, don't embrace hopelessness change your profile pic, your nickname and all that wich feed your negativity. It is a choice to feel that way, as it is to feel happy, you gotta find balance. Blessings
@@simonehawthorne2647 most are especially the fucking rich
I honestly don’t know why I bother waking up anymore
sorry to hear that try to be positive
pls be positive bro if youre just gonna live atleast be happy we are all just gonna die anyways live life happy
@@decently123”just be happy bro” you solved it congrats! You should be a physiologist now
@@slaydog5102 what bro
@@slaydog5102bcs they domt know our pain.. we are suffering and. Some people like me and you never had luck on money and just life ..
I don’t know how this video came on my feed but i want to say something.I am a 71 years old man.Never married,no friends .
As a man who has been insulted his whole life , I am telling you guys by experience people can feel pity for you but never wanted to be with you .I have never been hugged, kissed or had a relationship. Every single women rejected me. I need to go alone to bed, wake up alone. When I am sick nobody takes care about me. Vacation, restaurant visits, hiking. I need to do it alone.
hi robert, it seems like your situation seems very difficult to be in. At the very least I am not sure how you can get by surviving with no additional support. If I was in that situation I would very likely be pretty depressed and very hopeless. It is great that you are able to be independent but everyone needs a social circle. I do not know if you have hobbies but considering when I am out and about, I have made some acquaintances at the gym. I have been single 6.5 years but I am at a point in which I am relatively sufficient without a significant other. I hope in the future you do find an inclination to do have hope and desire to have support. I see a dog in your photo, I am hoping for the very least you have a companion and a pet can make a great one. Cheers.
Robert big hugs!!! Rejection hurts...im sorry
May i ask what was your career?
Believe me, you are lucky, relationships only ruin lives, trust me, I envy you a lot, free of stds and mental trauma and of course, no money lost.
@@ken2181 I used to work as an engineer in uppsala,sweden
I’m not sure how I found your video but I just want to let you know that I truly appreciate the time that you put into it. Depression is so lonely. It means a lot knowing that there are other people out there that care enough to share their struggles and speak motivation
Bro everyday i struggle with loneliness so it takes 2 to tango. My audience is important as I who share my mental health experiences. The more I can spread the word of mental wellness will do anyone justice. Stay well friend. Trav
Depression is the lack of discipline, discipline to control your thoughts and not let them control you and take over your entire existence.
I think life is a game but a cruel game.
I so frustrated with my life. My disorder and bad choices ruined my life.
I hear you but any small changes will lead to a drastic change later in life.
@@BeyondBipolarBlog I agree
I just want to go. I am prepping my exit. I've set a date
@@iamthechangemaker you still here?
@@swimfloats yes, little did I know that the night I wrote that would be the night of my spiritual awakening.
I was let into 'the secret' during deep meditation as i sought permission to leave, asking whether my job was done. No, did not get that permission but a gentle scolding as I was let into the Earth field of intelligence.
I'm not religious but all of a sudden deities from some Indian religion I know nothing about show up in my meditations. Jesus was but one prophet of many and we are created in the image of ET.
The universe is a multiverse and it is TEEMING with life way more advanced than us.
I am a tool, working on a higher mission now. Nothing cult-y, I still despise organised religion, but I now understand enough of this matrix to blaze my own path. I understand that since I am king within my thoughts I am also king of my feelings and reactions. I take responsibility for making my own life better and that takes courage to change myself too.
Diet can have a big effect on mental health. When I eliminated most carbs and went on a Keto diet my mood improved tremendously. Don't give up. You are a good person. We need you.
I did the same thing, only I eat mostly whole plant foods. I would not suggest doing keto long term. We're designed to use glucose as our main fuel.
@@Itsunclegabby Complete vegan dogma nonsense. The archeological evidence is crystal clear. Cooking hearths, bone cut marks, chemical analysis of teeth, countless spear points and meat processing tools, etc, etc all indicate the majority of calories came from animal sources. Roots, shoots, tubers & berries were basically hors d'oeuvres.
@@Itsunclegabbyeither diet..People have told me cutting out sugar and junk really helped with mental health and depression..
Helped with better mood.
Also...fasting is a great too for depression!
Keto diet is objectively the worst diet in the mainstream. Scurvy city. No carbs? Humans evolved as herbivores & only later became omnivorous. Perhaps take that into account.
I feel like my life is meaningless at times, because I have done things that I really regret. I've gone through my parents' death but I know that my Mom and Dad wouldn't want me to kill myself. I can't even imagine how much pain I would cause my cousin and my uncle.
Good for you, Bro, for trying to help others through your own struggle. Keep fighting, Bro.
Thank you, I will. I hope you do to.
Life sucks.
Sometimes it does but this to shall pass. And if it is untolerable consider fighting for the right meds. I have tried 30 and finally found the right cocktail
@@BeyondBipolarBlog ive tried meds bro they all affect my sex life. I hate that shit. Been on six different antidepressants with little to no success
Have you tried a snri like cymbalta? That is what i take for my antidepressant
@@BeyondBipolarBlog yes im on fluvoxamine right now and it doesnt do much makes me more relaxed at higher dosage then i currently take but it affects my sex drive and function its so annoying
@@BeyondBipolarBlog i never tried cymbalta
60 years old. 50 years of garbage. Never gets better.
sorry about that... i hope i am not in that predicament. my depression comes in waves every couple years sometimes every year. I hope you do make peace with yourself before you pass. All I can say is that perhaps someday you will fight your demons, perhaps find people to connect with, or support when necessary.
Thank you for making this video
No problem 😊
Stay positive man. We are all trying to get through it together 🙏
appreciate it. hope people see this and realize that people are rooting for you.
Hope u spend your life joyfully.. Good job
thank you for the kind words
You got new subs from me buddy.
Happy to know many people have same thinking with me. Life is really meaningless, but don't do suicide, but make it as reminder to always enjoy every second, don't worry to much, don't stress too much.
bro im here for you. thanks for subscribing. I wish you the best in your mental health journey.
Interesting. Thanks for sharing.
Blessings and good luck for you
appreciate it.
keep posting videos you will make it big one day trust me
Thank you, I will
People have been nasty to me my whole life. Im cursed.
Sorry to hear that. Hopefully you can find people that will encourage you and lift you up. It's hard to find.
I like to learn ,experience things that are pleasant that life has to offer as much as i can as i try to avoid unhealthy things and toxic people at the same time before my time is up on this planet.😉
dude it's okay not to feel okay. we all go through stuff just trust in God he has a purpose for u. u seem like a likable dude but since this video I see u made changes u seem more confident thank God. u inspire me bro life is rough but it's okay
i hope you get better i think life is beautiful and some are hating me for saying this I use to be like this but i only thought that life is pointless but i changed i hope you be happy bro
thanks for the appreciation. I wish you the same.
One day atta time. Life is hard. But sooner or later, we’ll all be going away. My advice for people who want to off themselves is to wait a while. Wait a few years. Life will take care of that for you. It’s all in motion. You don’t have to do anything. So hold on! Life is a ride, that’s all..
Yeah but the ggod thing is that this jail has an exit ticket i already bought one just witing for mom and dad to first so i can finally be free of this jail.
@@HIDHIFDB I’m sorry brutha. Please don’t do anything rash to you or your loved ones. Choose good. Choose wisely..
Thanks for this follow up
You bet
Your video helped me. Thank you.
You're welcome!
You create your own meaning, life isn't good or bad. The problem is people care too much about what others think. Isn't it obvious that the whole point is to just enjoy life? To be with it and to enjoy it. The point isn't to control life, but to be with it and let it happen. Life isn't serious, its like a dance or a play. You forget about yourself and you begin to talk about all these things that are completely outside of you, you are the thing which you were looking for this whole time.
great perspective
God is real and he created everyone with a purpose.
@@1sgr1999 @1MXNEY MOVES You create that purpose, you are the purpose. It is as it is overthinking only brings suffering. . Do what makes you happy not what makes the God of the Bible happy, the God of the Bible is just a conceptual image fashioned in the form of an evil tyrant. The universe itself and consciousness is God. So why not make the universe and nature happy by spreading love and positivity? No need to be angry and hate life snd fear hell. Heaven and hell is a state of mind you're not going anywhere because you're already there, you're already in hell. The only real thing that exists is the present moment this had been proven. So now quit looking at things that are outside of you like heaven, hell, and God and just be one with the universe and focus on your life, your world , your universe. You can make it however you want it be and look at things however you want we are the creators of our own reality.God is in your heart and your heart is timeless and you can't put a name on that feeling of love. Heaven is within us.
@@1sgr1999 if he did when children wouldn't die, what was there purpose dying?
That’s lame. I need a real purpose otherwise I’m killing myself.
Life has no meaning, true, however death has no meaning either. At least life can be interesting, death is nothingness.Happiness doesn;t exist, try to have an interesting life. Forget about meaning and happiness. Focus on Interesting things.
Life is hard. Dying is easy.
it is hard, but it could be harder if the last resort fails, not only that it can get pretty messy and people may miss you. even if not if you find people to reach out to, and try you will find much more meaning in life.
Bro, I know exactly what you are going through. I suffer from schizophrenia and bipolar issues myself. I've been hospitalized over twenty times. I have regret killing myself before because I already seen my future going nowhere and it revealed before my eyes. So my life is pretty much at a dead end now. I can't get a job nobody wants to hire me because I'm I'll but it's ok I'll just sit here and waste my life playing video games. If anyone can help me I appreciate it.
Hey I hope you start feeling better. This post is pretty old and right now I am in a totally different journey in regards to my mental health. Don't give up. Best option is to reach out to resources a psychiatrist support networks or hospitals for med regulation and or therapist, if alternatives get yourself courage to find peer groups to hang out with. Friends are hard to come by so I understand it can be tough when feeling low but befriending those in network of settings above could help as well. Cheers
Thanks for speaking out
thanks for watching. if i am communicating directly to you then I've done what I intended to. I hope you the best of life.
I have adhd, hypersensitivity, asperger, depression, ugly, poor.
I feel you, my friend.
I wonder why I was born, is it only to suffer?
video is pretty old, i think i've come to terms with most of the things that happened in my life, cause if I didnt find some silver lining I would continue to be in pain wondering why my life is so shitty. I hope you have found peace with yourself, or find a way to make peace with what you are given, have faith and pursue what you can do in spite all the challenges life throws at you. Suffering may lead to success, depending upon how you look at it.
@@BeyondBipolarBlog your outlook regarding life seems to have improved.
Thanks man. I don't think there is any reason for life.We are made to come back. Rencarnations. But I've had 2 OBEs and we don't die. And it's great out of the body but killing yourself is not the way to go Find out what happens when we leave the body. So you can not come back out. Cheers
prison planet.
I refuse to come back to this planet
me too@@HIDHIFDB
Don't wallow in those thoughts, the thoughts that you allow to reinforce in your mind become what you are. You become better and better at those negative thoughts, soon you become an expert in negativity.
Block it.
Blocking it doesn't do anything. Ignoring it just makes it grow inside you and eventually you'll explode.
Lie to yourself and pretend life is actually worth living. Brilliant.
@@alexcapon3620 like I said, those who practice something become good at that thing.
Practice getting constantly angry, you soon become good at anger.
Practice negative thoughts, soon become good at that. Practice pleasure, become good at pleasure.
Practice in self pity, become really good at self pity.
Your choice. What's it gonna be? Focusing on what you know to be better for you is part of DISCIPLINE, something they don't teach these days. Pick what you need to focus on, to become good at that, and THAT'S what improves your life, block out the negativity.
Wow so lie yourself to like this shitshow to be happy!!! Fuck and people call you crazy when you say that you already have a gun to leavr this nightmare.
@@motherofallemailsbro Im 22 and all my friends are in relationships, starting their careers and about to get married. How am I supposed to ignore negetive thoughts that arise when I see all that? Im an actual loser, even my parents know it. Theres no way I can delude myself to believing otherwise
Hi bro you're not ugly actually. you look very average. to boost your attractiveness: simply grow out your hair into a style that fits your face shape and grow out the mustache and goatee. I speak from experience and after doing those 2 things plus working out, I became handsome and it totally changed my social life and happines. I love you brother and God loves you too, don't quit okay, Life has meaning.
Thanks for reaching out. I do feel better these days and I'm glad you came across this channel and especially this video. I hope youbhabe a blessed 2024.
Wow brother, I'm glad that you're feeling better, much love and I wish you all the best my friend
@@BeyondBipolarBlog
Hello man i dont know if you see this or not but i really understand you. Im an ugly female and life is harder for me too. Everyday and everything is so exhausting. People will say things gets better but no they dont we just get numb to our problems and used to it. There's no day i havent think about killing myself haha im still going with the days. I hope people like us find somthing to keep themselves living or just exist until the abyss take them. Love your content. Keep going.
sometimes the best option is finding a way to numb the pain with proper medication. It isn't the way out for some people but it does ease it a bit. I hope you find ways to deal with it if therapy doesnt work if u haven't tried it try it. Sometimes it takes developing a better sense of perspective and gratitude to find what you are seeking for a better life.
Don't think about life so much think about living instead
the meds i am on has helped
@@BeyondBipolarBlog good to hear always look up at how good things can get don't look down at how things are now
I definitely understand your feelings man. I feel this too. But lately I’m thinking about how being present in the moment and enjoying the details of everyday life. That’s the core of life. And yes there’s no meaning for life. Because living and sensing the details of life is the mean and the end. Life is an amazing experience. I’m struggling with depression, loneliness and stuff going on my life. But I believe in that. Life is too short, why the rush to end my life when one day I’ll die anyway when I can enjoy it...love and connection is the most outstanding idea in this existence. Thanks for the vid btw.🌸🌸🌸 hope you the best.
hey brother are things going well for you? It has been 3 months since you posted. Just checking up on you.
@@BeyondBipolarBlog yes I'm still alive thanks I appreciate it! also I'm actually a girl.
Sorry about that. I apologize. I am glad things are well
@@BeyondBipolarBlog no worries. what about you? are you doing alright?
@@greengirl4985 i am doing pretty well. Continue to get better my friend.
life is meaningless but its not a sad thing.
existential dread is not necessary, its a simple biological reaction to something the system assume to be bad.
the discomfort you feel when you think "life is meaningless" is a knee jerk reaction in your system.
you had the idea that "life is meaningful" ingrained in your brain and now its this idea that is disappointed.
life has always been what it is, meaningless existence.
and thats not a bad or good thing, its just what it is.
its infinite potential, you get to do stuff and see stuff everyday.
theres nothing more than that.
now transcend the nonsense existential dread and enjoy what you get to have :)
love, aum
thanks for your deep thoughts. I will definitely think about it.
Mann fucc life… the higher ups are in control of all these things making us regulars feel less & less significant everyday.. the only ones that matter drive expensive cars & live in a big mansion… yea yea yea… I’m glad more of us are starting to wake up.. this shyt ain’t about anything, life will only get better the more us regular folks continue to wake up… I’m sorry if matrix has gotten to you & feel depressed or down but life won’t feel pitty for anyone… just wake up eat & be thankful for that!! Nothing else really matters in the end..
I answered and said, "If I have found favor in thy sight, O Lord, show this also to thy servant: whether after death, as soon as every one of us yields up his soul, we shall be kept in rest until those times come when thou wilt renew the creation, or whether we shall be tormented at once?" 76 He answered me and said, "I will show you that also, but do not be associated with those who have shown scorn, nor number yourself among those who are tormented. 77 For you have a treasure of works laid up with the Most High; but it will not be shown to you until the last times.
78 Now, concerning death, the teaching is: When the decisive decree has gone forth from the Most High that a man shall die, as the spirit leaves the body to return again to him who gave it, first of all it adores the glory of the Most High. 79 And if it is one of those who have shown scorn and have not kept the way of the Most High, and who have despised his law, and who have hated those who fear the Most High -- 80 such spirits shall not enter into habitations, but shall immediately wander about in torments, ever grieving and sad, in seven ways.
81 The first way, because they have scorned the law of the Most High. 82 The second way, because they cannot now make a good repentance that they may live. 83 The third way, they shall see the reward laid up for those who have trusted the covenants of the Most High. 84 The fourth way, they shall consider the torment laid up for themselves in the last days. 85 The fifth way, they shall see how the habitations of the others are guarded by angels in profound quiet. 86 The sixth way, they shall see how some of them will pass over into torments. 87 The seventh way, which is worse than all the ways that have been mentioned, because they shall utterly waste away in confusion and be consumed with shame, and shall wither with fear at seeing the glory of the Most High before whom they sinned while they were alive, and before whom they are to be judged in the last times.
88 "Now this is the order of those who have kept the ways of the Most High, when they shall be separated from their mortal body. 89 During the time that they lived in it, they laboriously served the Most High, and withstood danger every hour, that they might keep the law of the Lawgiver perfectly. 90 Therefore this is the teaching concerning them: 91 First of all, they shall see with great joy the glory of him who receives them, for they shall have rest in seven orders.
92 The first order, because they have striven with great effort to overcome the evil thought which was formed with them, that it might not lead them astray from life into death. 93 The second order, because they see the perplexity in which the souls of the unrighteous wander, and the punishment that awaits them. 94 The third order, they see the witness which he who formed them bears concerning them, that while they were alive they kept the law which was given them in trust. 95 The fourth order, they understand the rest which they now enjoy, being gathered into their chambers and guarded by angels in profound quiet, and the glory which awaits them in the last days. 96 The fifth order, they rejoice that they have now escaped what is corruptible, and shall inherit what is to come;
and besides they see the straits and toil from which they have been delivered, and the spacious liberty which they are to receive and enjoy in immortality. 97 The sixth order, when it is shown to them how their face is to shine like the sun, and how they are to be made like the light of the stars, being incorruptible from then on. 98 The seventh order, which is greater than all that have been mentioned, because they shall rejoice with boldness, and shall be confident without confusion, and shall be glad without fear, for they hasten to behold the face of him whom they served in life and from whom they are to receive their reward when glorified.
99 This is the order of the souls of the righteous, as henceforth is announced; and the aforesaid are the ways of torment which those who would not give heed shall suffer hereafter." 100 I answered and said, "Will time therefore be given to the souls, after they have been separated from the bodies, to see what you have described to me?" 101 He said to me, "They shall have freedom for seven days, so that during these seven days they may see the things of which you have been told, and afterwards they shall be gathered in their habitations."
102 I answered and said, "If I have found favor in thy sight, show further to me, thy servant, whether on the day of judgment the righteous will be able to intercede for the unrighteous or to entreat the Most High for them, 103 fathers for sons or sons for parents, brothers for brothers, relatives for their kinsmen, or friends for those who are most dear." 104 He answered me and said, "Since you have found favor in my sight, I will show you this also. The day of judgment is decisive and displays to all the seal of truth. Just as now a father does not send his son, or a son his father, or a master his servant, or a friend his dearest friend, to be ill or sleep or eat or be healed in his stead, 105 so no one shall ever pray for another on that day, neither shall any one lay a burden on another; for then every one shall bear his own righteousness and unrighteousness." 2 Esdras 7:75
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love you
thank you love you too.
I'm gonna do it soon, I don't care about living or achieving forget life it's boring I'm done
When you get sick and tired that may be it but hopefully with better times you can consult otherwise. Reach out if u need to
@@BeyondBipolarBlog I'm looking for a gun and I can't find one, it's the easiest way to die
It is unfortunate that you feel this way. Please try to reach out to support or get into the hospital. If things are still dire please call 911. Life gets hard. I have been there butbi have also experienced ways to get out of the depression
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I feel the same way. Death seems to be the only escape from this twisted and dark world. I spend the entire day doing nothing except chores, videos and reading, watching videos.
But then when life is good and have everything you could want and need but still feel this way sucks. That's when the people around us are affected and is hard.
I'm 49, my fiancee left me, I've wished I was dead many times, but I go on. I know I won't find love again, and it seems like that should be enough to give up, but I can't. And none of you should either. Enjoy what you can, while you can, because ending your life is not the answer. Life may surprise you one day and I hold out hope for all of you that it will. Don't give up.
the fact that you are living is a testament to your endurance to live life inspite all of the shit you been through. I am only 37 but I can only imagine that life will always have more set backs. I do wish you find promise and peace in your life as well. Take care.
“Nobody exists on purpose. Nobody belongs anywhere. Everybody's gonna die. Come watch TV”
― Morty
I have noticed an incredible increase in the trend of average/normal looking people calling themselves ugly/repulsive, etc. Quite frankly it seems like anyone on a scale of 1-10 that's below an 8 thinks they're some unlovable troll. Sad!
Mental Health can really contribute to how one feels about one self... this video is pretty old so I have a pretty different perspective on how I view myself. Of course there may be days which I may not feel as confident or not think highly of myself or consider myself a failure, but with ebs and flows I am sure everyone can relate. Hope the people that are not subscribed to this channel which is like 99 percent according to my analytics are not actually wanting to commit suicide in spite believing life is meaningless. I attempted to make a little bit more positive perspective on this subject matter regarding depression suicide and self worth. Hope everyone can at least find some way to contribute and value their lives in the end in spite the daily struggles that one may experience. Cheers.
I’m terrified of the real possibility of hell. The only reason I’m still here. 🥺
hang in there life can be tough. I do hope and pray things will get better for you.
I talk about all of the same type of life issues and solutions here on my channel. I relate to everything your saying. Life is up and down, round and round...SBN RESONATE
i subbed your channel! take care!
There's only one meaning to life, and it's to enjoy/be as happy as you can be within the realm of your own situation and whatever lifespan you have remaining on earth. Stop thinking if there's egg first or chicken first.
great perspective as well.
title is quite literally my internal monologue
you're not alone. According to the analytics on this video 44.8 percent are searching up this video. also here are the search terms:
life is meaningless
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so you can see its pretty frequent. also Not subscribed - 98.1% so it is concerning cause the average view duration is 2:34 and I have a lot to say about how life can have meaning and i dont want to attribute myself to people hurting themselves, killing themselves or feeling hopeless. I hope in the end you and others can see that despite the click bait title that to find peace and harmony to live a fulfilling life. Cheers.
I was your 69th subscriber. Nice
thanks bro thanks for the support
@@BeyondBipolarBlog It's the least I can do. Thank YOU for making quality content that is authentic and relatable
Life does suck. Researching to end it asap.
hang in there... hopefully you do find some relief in spite what you are going through. with time there will be a better solution instead of finding away to end your life. reaching out to someone is the first step. I don't know you but I do hope you read this message and at least try to get the support you need in order to find meaning in your life again.
The second I took my Christian name seriously, repented of sin, & accepted Jesus as lord & saviour, everything got a lot better.
bro I am glad you are doing better
I also hate everything and my existence is misery.
I gave an honest effort at thinking there's hope. I genuinely tried. 3 months ago had a good paying job, and a nice apartment. As of now I've been living out of my car for a month and a half, which is going to be towed any day. I'm broke, hungry, and alone. I'm unimportant, and am pretty useleless.
So, yeah, some of us are hopeless.
hey man if you are struggling i would go to ssa.gov and apply to Social security disability if eligible. You will need a psychiatrist to sign off on you but if you are in a debilitating state you should be eligible. The length of the forms is incredibly long so it will take time. If you have access to a public library it should be posssible. I am not sure if you are homeless if it will affect benefits or not. And if not there are local state programs that may assist you out of homelessness, you will have to look into that. I am sorry to see that you feel lost in a society that may overlook and may not pay attention to you, but you are not alone. Everyone comes up with hopeless times some more than others but it is possible to escape the negativity if you keep pushing forward. just never give up. Keep trying and keep moving forward. Cheers.
It's too late for all that. Just gonna hold on as long as I can. Thank you, though. I wish you the best.
I saw you and I instantly liked you
thats I appreciate it
Life is just a random,meaningless experience that began suddenly and will end suddenly. Nothing stays forever, I don't believe in anything or anyone, I'm just waiting for my death.
i hope you find peace with yourself, if you can find a glimmer of peace, you may be able to turn the other cheek. Its hard when you feel down and find no way out, but if you can try to take a step in the other direction who knows you may find what you are looking for
My heart goes out to you.
thanks bro.
I've known since I was 3 years old watching my Dad beat my Mom, life was not good. Then my beatings and torture came starting at 5. What's not to like?
Very sorry to hear about your experiences since they are so personal... I hope you have come to heal and find yourself through such a traumatizing life events. I juat hope you can recover.
LOL so honest. We need to overcome negative emotions through positive actions.
well I do hope you find a fulfilling life with a more positive outlook on life yourself. Take care.
The struggle is real meaningless isn't bad, but coming here to see the same bs everyday, I'm sick dude
Stay strong n don't give up
you too mate.
Oh WOW How very Comforting LMFAO!!!!.
Not giving up has never given me anything.
@@TheFracturedfuture it has actually, it prolongs the sufferings and allows fate to cure up some more horrible situations it will throw at you.
@@FoB39 Haha I guess you're right.
Enjoy it while you got it. There's bad times but there's good times tio. Bad people but good people too. Enjoy the little things. Things you taking for granted. Everything is meaningless or seems to be but everything has a purpose too lol. Probably part of that chaos theory lol
I know a lot of sexy attractive people physically, but once they speak and treat people the way they do they become very ugly! It’s all about how you treat others and yourself
agreed.
I can second this comment I done seen it too many times since high school
it's true that life is meaningless, but you can beat that meaninglessness by embracing it and having the will to live despite that meaninglessness
lifes much better now that I gone through tms and on a new antipsychotic, meds arent for everyone and ive tried 30 but it seems to only help in the end.
i have same thoughts
this is a much better video
All of life is cope. Its the cope of individuation. You only find catharsis when you cease egoic existence either through literal death or ego dissolution through transcendentalism or meditation.
sounds pretty sigmond freudish
You're right about life being inherently meaningless, of course it is because fundamentally it's just genetic material making copies of itself--that's what life basically is and that's what all life forms do.
Humans also have psychological lives, though. We are conscious. Any meaning in life is only what we create in our heads and cannot be pre-defined because it's likely to be at least a bit different for everyone.
So, there is no meaning--except for what we create.
It wont let me comment on you. Alex ward..I wish I was strong as you. Well done.
i wasn't always as strong... i found the right meds, developed a better sense of thought process with therapy, better social network and physical exercise... all that can really help.
@@BeyondBipolarBlog thought process therapy sounds really good. I am quite negative and its the reason I dropped out of university and unfortunately picked up a needle, which I cant break away from. I will watch some more of your videos. Glad you sound in a better place.
What is Bipolar like? I have schizophrenia but was symptom free for 9 yr plus already. I feel schizophrenia is sometimes quite fun but everybody schizophrenia experience is unique. I talked to someone on the internet, he said he don't find it to be fun at all.
short video of depression >th-cam.com/video/Qt49vfmPIrI/w-d-xo.html
I would say if there is a gracefull exit..
A pill something that would opt me out, i would take it rather sooner then later..
Purpose is soo relative, especial from a bigger universal Perspektive
I am alone. No kids, no man, no ex , familie left me because I am chronic ill ( colitis or , crohn ) , 41 surgery s , colectomie , abces fistula with drains. I asked; God , give me the power to survive ! 1000 thousands times non stop . I love Earth , I love Nature, and I knew this would happen on Earth. The Big Turning . A few days in a month without pain. More surgeries are coming . NO I DONT WANT TO GO TO THE HOMEFRONT 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 I want to see the balance and rest on Earth , and in people , in a few years . I am 61 , fighting for my life was the only option. Your life is so important, you don’t realize it . So many people you reach, so many life energie you give. People can survive with your videos. You are a good person, with struggle s I had too ! I ask for you; God , give this struggling man the power to survive , and every obstacle banning out of his life . 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼. I understand you , and I wish you from now on many good and pure energie , a good mood , a good health. And take life how it comes. Greets , 🇳🇱 Kimberley , the Netherlands 💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽 Good times are coming, in 1-2 years the World gets better 🌍🌏🌎🌴🌵🌿🪴🌳🌴🌵🌿🪴🌳🌴🌵🌿🪴🌳
I appreciate the lengthy message... i hope other people read this!
That shape around your mouth like the fleshy truangular thing that pokes out, i got the same thing going on with my face, thought i was the only one...
ah i never noticed that actually.
Live you life
Life is Struggle!!!
it is and it can be painful, difficult, purposeless, but to find meaning within it is really what makes the most sense to try to come to terms with. If you cant find a lesson in everything you do, you are going to constantly wonder why the hell you are a live. My best advice is to be kind to yourself, dont judge yourself to harshly and try to have a positive outlook in spite all the hell life may have to throw at you, cause you can sure do the opposite but that will only make life so much harder on you. There is no good quality life if all it does is bring you pain and you put pain on a pedestal. I hope you find worth in what you do in life, friendships, support, hobbies, job, family, spiritual wellbeing, financial, anything that will better your life is something that you should really aim for, having goals is essential to find self actualization.
thinking of you
thinking of you too! hope life is going better for you.
Imagine you are given the option of experiencing years of pain and suffering on one hand, or on the other, no pain or suffering at all. Only a small amount of the population which enjoys suffering and pain, aka masochism, would choose to suffer. I know what I would choose. Best of luck in life and best of luck in death.
give yourself the opportunity to seek help, that is the best thing to do, and finding that is hard, but during better days, always best to look and find out cause so many do it, take their life, and people may see warning signs, but never ask if they are okay. I just hope you are doing ok and managing life today.
Self defeating behavior, I lost my left leg above knee 5 years ago and I’ve suffered enough. I made myself grow up and face things that I never had the strength to do. Things are greatly on the up & up. I’ve done more in 2 weeks than in the past 2 years and recently landed a job that will get my financiallly straight and more. No one’s coming to save you, show up for yourself
dont you think he already knows that no one is coming to save him and that is one of the reasons he hates his life? i'm sorry what happened to your leg but your comment was pointless
Life is easier for some people who are blessed
yep all we can do is try to remain positive which is really hard to do
Praying for you.
That's the equivalent of saying: Doing absolutely NOTHING for you.
@@nonexistenceisbliss9528 How do you know?
I've had every combination of SSRI, SNRI, MAOI, amphetamines, electro-convulsive therapy, transcranial magnetic stimulation, testosterone replacement therapy, ketamine, etc. None of that worked for my depression. Faith in Christ is the only relief I have. If you say otherwise, you can fuck off with your "muh atheism."
Psychiatrists don't even know what they're saying, they're paid to push pills based on an antiquated DSM. I don't expect some random edgelord online to provide an objective answer, either.
That's not going to do shit, if that's what you're shooting for then keep praying.
MAN UR GOOD LOOKING NOT UGLY.
ah thank you... sometimes we are own worst critic.
stop lying dude, hes sub 5.
How are you ugly? I understand if you have been told so, but I honestly don't think you are ugly at ALL.
a guy thinking another guy is good looking doesnt matter. Its what the women think and Ive seen from experience that when it comes to average guys there's a huge disparity in the way girls and guys see you. Girls often see average guys as ugly whereas men seem to think average guys are ok or even good looking
It is meaningless. Unfortunately it took 50 years to figure that out. All of my problems would be solved if I did not exist, the problem is that would create grief and problems for my family. So that is the dilemma
i hope you do come to terms to find some hope in your life. It can be really hard to live life without it. I challenge you to keep trying and get yourself out there in spite how difficult it may be. You may find someone or something that may benefit you. Cheers.
Your video came up randomly. I am only 3mins in and the reason l am here is because l have a close family member whose been going through the same thing for nearly 20. years so l can relate. I try to help in any way l can.
Please please do not harm yourself. We are all here for a reason. God has a purpose for everyone. My heart is breaking for ppl like yourself. First and foremost love yourself, l know, easier sad than done, l shall pray for you and others. It is very unhelpful to dwell in your feelings especially if they are negative as it negativity only begats negativity and its harder to pull yourself out of it. I am trusting that you will find your true purpose in life. Sending out love & healing vibrations. 🌷⚘
i appreciate the concerns. unfortunately one of my more viral videos people are looking up "suicide" in their search engines after looking up the analytics for the video. It was really a video on my experience with suicide and the reasons on why living is encouraged. I hope more people see this message as it spreads awareness that people are not alone when it comes to SI and suicide.
Dude I wish I looked like you, seriously man you're not that ugly
Appreciate it bro.
I don’t hate life. I just hate my choices in Life I feel like whatever I do I make mistakes sometimes I’m thinking I just want it to end so I can never make a mistake again but I don’t want to die I Believe in God 100% but my faith was so little I always forgot him most of the times because I want to do what I want to do. And that’s why I make a mistake again. I love my family i love everything in this world. I don’t hate people. I just hate the way what I choose in life. I always regret the past. I’m always alone I prefer to be alone because when I'm with someone I feel like other people don’t like my presence because I can't show the real me. I have no problem with my looks I just feel like I want to be alone so i don’t want to being burden with someone else.
I can understand what you think, but try to remember this that mistakes can often lead to wisdom. And just because you made mistakes in the past doesn't mean you can start making better choices now. And regarding relationships/friendships, its always better to be alone than someone that brings a toxic environment into your life. Things should come once you feel you are read and love yourself the way you should. Try to remain hopeful. This video is pretty old so I hope it does provide some wisdom. Cheers.
@@BeyondBipolarBlog thank you for your words, somehow the weight of what I feel is reduced because of your video and other people that I'm not alone in what I'm going through, I'd rather continue no matter what I face in life I hope everything gets better for you to me you are a very beautiful person inside and out thank you for the message I hope you have peace and happiness thank you very much
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LMAO the title, i can't. I feel like that sometimes
well try to have faith and stay positive
There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death.
~Proverbs 14:12
Now, brothers and sisters, I want to remind you of the gospel I preached to you, which you received and on which you have taken your stand.
By this gospel you are saved, if you hold firmly to the word I preached to you. Otherwise, you have believed in vain.
For what I received I passed on to you as of first importance : that Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures,
that he was buried, that he was raised on the third day according to the Scriptures,
~1. Corinthians 15:1-4
Simon Peter, a servant and apostle of Jesus Christ, To those who through the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ have received a faith as precious as ours:
~2. Peter 1:1
God bless you!
I'm 35, still live at home, never had a gf, only slept with 2 women, low paid job, sole breadwinner, 98% sure that I probably have bipolar.
well its best to get that checked with a psychiatrist if its inhibiting you from a decent life. I have been single 7.5 years and counting, life gets easier once you accept it and perhaps something good comes along. I hope life gets better for you as well.
I know how you feel I will never know human female love
You aint missing much
i know how you feel
sucks i was just in the hospital christmas and now I just had issues with si still... but since i started another antipsychotic i seem to increasing it every 2 months.. considering tms.
Love gives life meaning. Unfortunately, not all of us have it. Love of family, friends, career. We have the rest of our lives to die. Someday it will come for all of us.
I have been single 6 years. I wanted to marry a girl I loved. But my family denied it and felt she was not good for me. But it is my biggest regret to not stay attached to her. I know there are people that want to be with me. But something about her triggered something that I wanted to make something more with her. Sadly she married had kids and moved back to korea. So unfortunate for me. But perhaps I can find someone even better.
To me it's quite similar to passengers clutching to each other on the Titanic. We're all doomed, but some people cling to each other to ignore the dark fate awaiting them.
I can get through it, i can also eat a razor but why?
You are far from ugly. I promise!
Thank appreciated
Please try doing trt and see if it helps you
has it helped you?
You have a solid jaw line
thanks.
Depression and anxiety ain't shit I want to die because I have an illness that makes life hell every day.
Fuck this life I fucking hate it with a passion I don't care what anyone says.
it is now time to never give up. It sounds cliche but I have had 7 hospitalizations, and in a group home on suicide watch. I have tried over 30 different medications. It may feel like it doesn't get any easier but if you do your best to get up and try , you are closer to the goal of stability. I even had pstd out of the meds I have been on due to the horrible side effects. I went from hating my life, suicidal everyday, to managing things much better. I get where you at, the problem is you need to find where you want to go, and hopefully it isn't about ending your life. You are probably defensive now thinking it won't get any easier, and I am wrong but coming from a guy that was hopeless, that did want to give up , i kept at my mental health journey and I have found success. This means you can to
Trav, BeyondBipolarBlog
@@BeyondBipolarBlog I have struggled with mental illnesses for a long time but that is nothing compared to a debilitating physical illness, now I have both. I never gave up fighting my mental illness yet I didn't get anything good from it instead now on top of that i'm physically ill. That's the reward I get for not giving up and fighting.
I really don't give a shit if things get better anymore my body is literally tired of living.
That "things get better" cliche is bull shit, I wish I would've never been born.
If you like your life despite your struggles then more power to you. I however don't see the point in struggling so much when in the end our only reward will be old age and or death.
@@TheFracturedfuture the meaning of life is finding it. Just because your time is death that should give you the benefit of finding that meaning. I do not understand the power of a physical illness for I do not have it, so I will never understand that point of view. Ultimately it is your decision. If you choose to take your own life, try to learn to find meaning in some type of social group. Lack of friends lack of happiness, can largely be countered when you try to explore by reaching out to others. It makes life much more easier than feeling isolated in your own pain. I can't tell you that life will get better, I can't tell you to not give up, I can't tell you to not take your life, but I can still try to encourage you to try to explore some kind of meaning in life. In the end it is your decision and choice to do what you want to do, and I am not here to convince you to do things you do not want to do, but from my perspective my choice is to try to reach out to you when you are in a dire situation at least try to listen to your predicament. Good luck.
Travis, BeyondBipolarBlog
@@BeyondBipolarBlog I really appreciate that. Thanks for your kind words.
@@TheFracturedfuture no problem... please comment if you have unsettled issues, most people are just looking to be listened to... i won't judge... so please reach out when things are tough. Trav