What Cptsd Emotional Flashbacks Feel Like
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And even worse I can mistakenly attach them to present events which ends up destroying the present.
I have both PTSD and CPTSD flashbacks and they make feel like I'm loosing my mind. Then I get shamed for crying and screaming which makes it worse...another trauma on top of the original trauma.
If I have visual auditory and emotional flashbacks does that mean I have both PTSD and CPTSD
I just have to hear someone speaking about a good time in their life when they were young and it sets me into depression. I have to walk away. So much turmoil within myself and I could never figure out what it was. I just discovered CPTSD and just the last couple of days have had me understanding so much!! I'm 68 now, my mother was an abusive, narcissistic alcoholic who took pleasure in pitting my siblings against me and just made me feel worthless overall. I later found out that she was treated this way by her own parents. I have been in therapy possibly half my life and not one therapist mentioned anything about PTSD, much less CPTSD. They listened and told me I should get out more. I am an introvert and now that I'm retired you pretty much can't budge me from my home. Now that I have a new light at the end of the tunnel, I will continue to learn and help and understand myself as much as I can. Thank you so much for your video! p.s. I also just quit my therapist of three years to find another who specializes more in trauma.
As a 18 yr old currently stuck alone (single parent, only child) in my abusive household, this is so inspiring. My father is a borderline bipolar narcissist who takes enjoyment in belittling me and giving mixed signals (plus his memory is somewhat gone due to chronic drug use). What you shared makes me believe that I have hope to be able to get help and be recognized. I’m moving out soon (2 months 🎉) but this period of my life has been so unfathomably hard that it’s difficult to keep going (though there’s no way I’d ever stop). I suspect I might have CPSTD (as does my bf with a medical background). Your story gave me some more hope, thank you.
I’ve watched soooo many videos on cptsd and this is the first one to help me understand my friend with MD, panic attacks and cptsd. I often wondered why did she just randomly have a panic attack? By this video explains it, thank you
I'm 41 in few days and been suffering cptsd for few yrs now and currently feel like my latest flashbacks feel like Pandoras box
I find the flashbacks downright annoying at times c
This explanation is so clear and logical. Thanks a lot! Also explains all the examples you have detailed in your earlier videos. Your work and help is extraordinary.
This was so compassionately and beautifully articulated- you have explained my whole adult life…
This is an incredible explanation! Wow! It makes such helpful sense.
Perfect explanation
Such a good description I’ve watched otters and yours is the best I’ve seen that relates to true experience
Thanks so much 🙏🏻
Started therapy yesterday. Trauma… wow i can so relate 2 what she is saying at the beginning this is something that ive been dealing w/for 8 months over a traumatic experience i had 3 decades ago smh. Its so messed up that i went thru hell for all these months yes I get it, (this person reminds me of this person! All ehat she is saying is what i am going thru 😢 facts, as i beated up a few ppl cuz they either said or did something reminding me of the person that bettayed me! .. and im not even the violent type n yes true, its as if i am 15 again its so bizarre and scary…& now im going 2 continue having extensive therapy edmr, cognitive behavioral therapy & i literally was so ashamed to finally admit that indeed, i needed therapy. But as i am listening 2 her.. oh man she is so spot on. As if u are right there reliving the moment, feeling it as well..: it is horrible. I encourage anyone that goes thru a traumatic experience to PLEASE dont block it out.. cuz u will.. w/out therapy wake up one day & suddenly be feeling all these scary and horrific symptoms of cptsd/ptsd. Pls get therapy right away dont be ashamed 2 seek help. Emotional flashbacks yes, a cologne smell, door shut, words getting told 2U.. that ur bad, reminiscent 2 what was told 2U whilst u was going thru that traumatic experience. Wow.. punished.. being overpowered by someone u trusted like family. Not good. And yes i did not thjnk about it and suddenly it just.. talking about nightmares and all. God bless u id u r going thru this pls seek therapy I pray you do! And stick to it i will cuz this is bad… gbu amen 🙏.
thank you
If your highly intellectual analytical and like relentlessly questioning type person, it’s very possible I would think that you can learn to associate things with those emotional flashbacks.
I think I'm having these keeps going back to when I was 16 😞 that I feel the phyical symtoms
You can feel like you are losing your mind with a visual one too
I have visual auditory and emotional flashbacks they make me fell like im not real.
@Joshsaudhd when I feel certain emotions my mind takes me back and replays some of the events
@@marijka9933 Yep that sounds like what I exsperience as well. My emotions do get very intense when this happens to can be crying and/or anger. My brain starts replaying my trauma. But don't see visual flashbacks talked about in the context of CPTSD quite often. Just emotional that's why I wonder if I have PTSD and CPTSD or only CPTSD it's confusing. Due to dsm 5 I was only diagnosed with PTSD and I'm 15 but went through 6 years of childhood abuse and bullying. And show the symptoms of both PTSD and CPTSD. Additionally to this diagnosis I have Autism, ADHD, SLD, OSFED, RSD, Epliepsy, POTS. and so it can get hard at times. I sit here and wonder if adhd was a misdiagnosis as it says I have the hyperactive type but I'm not physically hyperactive and think I'm more internaly hyperactive witch I have seen in the context of inatentive adhd.
Please please can you help me?
I have had a problem for so much of my life and I don't know what it is.
My life is split in 2, my happy years before my dad died and then my sad life after he died.
The problem I'm having is sometimes I recall a conversation with someone or an event from the good or bad years very vividly and it leaves me feeling the exact same emotion I was feeling. I remember these events in a very detailed way and I end up feeling sad or like I wish I had justice when these things happened 20 years ago.
My brain is stuck in the past
I dont know if these are traditional flashbacks because they don't feel like they are happening at that moment and theyre not like a video playing on loop. I don't know if it's an emotional flashback either as I am aware of the event causing the emotion.
It's basically an old event, not so much trauma based (although it was from an era of grief and trauma) and the event makes me feel sad and I dwell on it too much.
Please do you know what I could read up on for this?
Thank you so so so much ❤🙏
Just a thought, maybe google a bit about rumination. 😊
True had an emotional flashback while also having a very nasty thing happen. The man I was with at the time got angry because I reacted to what happened. But what happened was disgusting. Then he made me keep quiet. Went into freeze mood. Here I start pleas as if in a stressful situation in instead of banging my fist on the table and saying stop and no. Became physically ill. But learned to never keep quiet again. I betrayed myself. Got over myself. This is what my life looked like as a child. No more ever.
Itchy nooossse haha ❤
I was once talking with my therapist. She told me that I'm running away from talking about bad stuff and I'm switching into talking about how well I'm coping to get approval and mask that I'm sometimes hopeless, that I don't know what the heck I'm doing. And that made me spiral into this strange state, I felt bad, I felt sad, I felt heavy, soon after I started having "hamster wheel" thoughts that I couldn't put a finger on. All I know is that the main theme was really shame based with a bit of "so I messed up, now this therapy doesn't make sense if I'm hiding painful stuff from my therapist". I felt really disconnected from myself, really heavy, almost depressed, I wanted to hide, run away from people I love (my boyfriend for example). I also had this thought that I've done something wrong but I'm hopeless, I have no idea how to fix this ("someone please tell me how to fix this, how to do it right"). It felt so over the top, so irrational, I felt like I'm going crazy, it took me two days to get out of this because I also started thinking that I don't want to feel this, I'm scared that I'm loosing control, why do I feel this, what made me feel like this?
Hi! ❤ I don't really have an answer for you on how to fix it.. But I do want you to know that you're not alone in all this and thought it might help a bit if I share some of myself. I've had exactly the same feelings and thoughts during therapy sessions, and often when I wake up. I go in that awful negative spiral. At this moment I notice it's happening again. The last one lasted for 2 weeks, I pushed everyone away and had thoughts like: "why is this happening again", "I must be doing something wrong" (I tried a lot of therapy and techniques like grounding/somatic work etc. to 'fix' it). I felt scared, desperate, hopeless, frustrated and didn't feel like myself, I was very disconnected. Going to bed with anxiety, waking up with it. I called the suicide line at one point. Also felt a lot of shame. I hate that dark, foggy layer that is waven through everything. And my thoughts don't stop, it's like my brain is panickly looking for an answer to how to fix it. Because if you fix it you know how to feel better right? Right know I'm scared it will happen again, that nothing works. Last Friday I had a bit of a breakthrough. I went spiraling again, and I started to name everything I thought and felt (even my feelings of shame while doing that). And after a few minutes I realized: I am not my thoughts, I am not my feelings, it's something I experience but I do not have to "act" upon it. I don't have to "fix", only feel it and "dive" in to them. Don't resist them but give them space. I always feel very identified with, like I am those awful feelings and thoughts, but thats not true. There is some awareness of "you" inside of you when you spiral, and I guess it takes practice and awareness to focus on that feeling. Trying to realize that you can 'seperate' from the thoughts: "this isn't helping", "I will spiral again and won't get of it", "what can I do to fix it right now". I'm in it again now and honestly, my thoughts are very strong. I'm typing all of this and I'm like, even when I "know" all of this stuff, I still feel anxious and it's not helping. But I guess thats also a thought I don't have to "do" anything with? Pff it's so hard. During my session last friday my therapist asked me to give a shape to the feeling, a color, give it a funny name. Eventually I was talking to it, it felt weird but it helped. It turned into my little me. My little me told me: "you keep running around trying to finding answers, but that all doesn't help, I want you to listen to me, hold me, love me". I think compassion for yourself, instead of being hard on yourself, also helps. But the thing is, when your in it, nothing helps... It's such complicated stuff. During the visualization with my inner child, I also imagined some "protectors" and gave them a voice. One of them was like: this isn't helping, this is stupid, find another therapist etc. And I said kindly and calm to him: "listen, I know you're trying to help, but it isn't helping rn, you can quiet down a bit so little me can take the stage". Not in an angry way, it was okay that "he" was trying to help. And then I tried to listen to the little me again, to her feelings, her thoughts. Let her feel heard. I'm going to try to do that again right now. Sorry for the long text, I hope it helps a bit reading about my process, hope you (or anybody else) can get something out if it. For me standing still and pause also helps, what do I really need right now? I wanted to let you know you are not alone in all of it, although it feels like it. I read you're message. You're really strong enough to get through it. I'm thinking about you and I'm sending you a lot of love. Everyone who deals with this (men I wish I knew some of you in real life, or even online), we are not alone, we are together in this journey. We are not alone in this "suffering". It sucks, it really sucks. But it sucks for all of us if you know what I mean haha. And I do still believe there is light on the other side of everything. Look at how far we all are, we take steps, we really do (although it doesn't feel like it, I know it!). Sending everyone dealing with this a lot of love and thank you for reading everything if you came this far.
The 8 passengers stuff recently triggered me quite a bit. I’ve been stuck on a loop of buried old memories and emotions for a couple days now. Ugh. It’s hard to talk about it because outside people don’t get it.
The part about visual component of PTSD isn’t true, there are plenty of people with aphantasia and PTSD who obviously don’t have visual flashbacks.
Visual flashbacks is not a necessity of PTSD diagnosis
My emotional flashbacks have me stuck in a loop of despair and wanting to d13. 💔I have trouble identifying them but that's my only clue that I am in my emotional flashbacks. Depending on how bad the trigger is, I can be stuck in it for days or weeks at a time.
I've been stuck in the fetal position sucking my thumb whenever I'm alone for 9 days now....will this stop?
Listening to this made so much sense for me realising that an emotional flashback doesn't need to be visual. But I'm wondering if an emotional flashback can leave actual pain in the body . My narcissisticmother caused me to internally react to something she was doing on mothers day she was manipulating a situation of competition between my sister and myself .. I never said anything but felt it so intensely in my body ..the next day I awoke with such pain in my shoulder I couldn't move my neck without pain for almost a week . Is this possible for such resentment manifest this way ?
Yes - so interesting that you brought this up. I made an Instagram post last week talking about how when I was in a relationship with someone I feel was high on the scale -I had intense pain in my hip at times, to the point that I had to go to the hospital because I couldn't walk. When I began training as a biofeedback practitioner and had my first scan done it revealed an energy block in my hip. No doctor could ever explain the pain - and when you learn about how our emotions affect our body right down to the cellular level - it all makes sense. I'm going to leave a link to a page on my website that talks about bioenergetics and trauma - you may find it helpful to check out: www.micheleleenieves.com/can-bio-energetics-help-you-on-your-recovery-journey
I was in a relationship with a deeply abusive person- I used to get sharp excruciating pain in my back that would immobilize me. I would have these skin crawling sensations like ants or worms were crawling all over my body- went to my hospital and they said it was psychosomatic… headaches, nausea… and feeling like I am having a nervous breakdown. All of this.
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That's strange - email me the email you used to sign up and I can go into the membership site and see what happened!!!! nar.coaching@gmail.com
I keep oscillating between listening to what u have to say and admiring ur simple elegant beauty. Then I have to pause and rewind again to listen what u said. Is this fair ?