and then I have had the time when I've combined the two, and believe me, it's not good to drink when you're in this emotional dysregulation phase. Sad hard lesson learned.
@@xw7239 today I applied something from one of these videos and I didn't get a panic attack. I almost got disregulated and I was triggered but instead of replying I just closed my eyes and breathed. I have a habit of just disregulated sharing but I felt okay. Putting a pause does help. Also I have been watching Christian messages which helped to deal with the orphan inside me that lacked so much. Christian music in many ways helps to disregulate. They express things that aren't easy to think of or express, you cry it out and know how to articulate your thoughts after. Praying about what I am terrified about expressing to people makes room for God to comfort me. I disregulate and don't feel so triggery. Writing down what's on my mind or my struggles in the form of poetry rhymes and reading it outloud is another release which helped me recover Years ago. After I stopped this my mental health and CPTSD symptoms go so erratic that I lost touch with community and isolated myself in an unhealthy manner. I know I'm only doing this because I'm afraid of having to explain something I didn't understand yet. Now that I know I have CPTSD, I am going to combine what I learn from this youtube channel with God centered resources like scripture so I can get close to Christ again. That made me happy and I did feel free. That was years before I knew I had CPTSD too so it definitely had results. God bless you guys and I know it's hard but if I can find progress you can too. Your good enough and know that it is possible to find peace. Don't Be Afraid to try, it's worth it :)
For all those who criticise sufferers - no one asked to have a difficult childhood or live with the lifelong burden of action by others throughout their lives
But they also have the responsibility as adults of putting in the work, questioning their behavior, listening to others describe their actions and impacts and not destroy others.
Those who criticize are often the major supporters of the individual with CPTSD. And nine of us asked that the person we love, support, and help dump on us when they are disregulated. We are allowed to “criticize”, because CPTSD sufferers often make sure to dump their suffering when they’re upset onto their partner - and that is absolutely abusive.
I’m so deeply grateful for my partner of 23 years; his love has been transformative. One of the most helpful things he does when I’m angry and disregulated, is to listen calmly to what I have to say, and then repeat back to me what he understood. He doesn’t say he agrees or that I’m right; he simply checks in with a “what I’m hearing is…Did I get that fully?” My nervous system is so soothed by this, and over time I’ve learned to offer this kind of mirroring to him as well.
This is actually very nice to hear. I would do the same thing for my soon to be ex-wife and she would ask 'If I was stupid?' or 'Are you even listening?' and I was always told I had poor communication skills. It gives me hope for future relationships.
So true... im struggling with my guy on this right now. It's hard to tell if he's growing or pretending too. He's able to see logic so that's good. It's just a matter of being able to lay things out logically without getting triggered.
@@Slowgroovin It beautiful that we from various walks of life can freely talk about this. I spent my whole life not knowing that I had CPTSD. I am 28 years old and I felt so depressed because I didn't understand why relationships felt so unusually hard. Now that I know I have CPTSD. I can take better strategic steps which can repair the relationships that were damaged within the last 8 years of escalating symptoms. God is good. This community is a blessing. Keep in mind that you all are blessings who has a purpose and you can be happy and make a difference. If you have seen progress than know that we are proud of you. I am new to this but I really wanted to say that. If kid me needed to hear that I'm sure someone else needed too. Have a blessed week :)
I almost broke up with my boyfriend because I felt like he doesn’t deserve to be with a partner who has all the trauma I have, I thought to myself “He deserves someone who grew up in a loving home like he did so she can love him the way he deserves, I don’t know how to do that” but seeing this video is such an amazing confirmation that I made the right choice by staying with him, we can make this work and I can love him the way he deserves.❤️
My therapist told me that breakups are conversations and decisions to make together. I'm glad you didn't jump to making the decision for him. I hope you both are well!
Amazing story! ❤ I have C-PTSD and these year I dated a guy who has a lovely family and friends and I felt like I was less than him (I grew up in a family where traumas were something ordenary and now I don't really have a relationship with them) , I start acting cold to him maybe I hoped he would break up with me and guess what? He never called me back. Fighting C-PTSD is difficult.
I was broken up for this reason and here I am watching this video trying to understand her mind and the reasoning behind her decision. It was like she was trying to ”protect" me?
I now wish I had not broken up with her. I finally feel like I’m aware of the hurt child in me. Finally a communication channel is established. He cries for safety and I sooth that self. But I pushed her away since I thought it might take me too long to start healing. Now I’m healing but I hurt her too much during the breakup. She was a model good person. So much love in her. For you who are contemplating saving your partner from yourself. Please go slow. Don’t make rushed decisions. Seek professional opinion like couples therapy.
Ive started to date this girl that used to be my friend. She reconnected as friends to catch up. One thing led to another and we kissed, i refused sex on the first night even though she wanted to. I dissociate during intimacy and i told her about it. She knows about my past abuse and pain, she used to comfort me when i was sad, still does to this day. She respects my decisions, she respects the fact that it takes time for me to be comfortable intimately and weve grown very close. Now i can kiss her without closing my eyes, she makes me feel wanted and loved, its truly healing. Ive cried the first time we were intimate, i told her that im not used to love and affection. She told me its ok, she can provide that for me, stroked my hair to help me fall asleep. Good people are out there.
I find disregulation comes one of two ways, it either sneaks up on me slowly or hits me like a freight train. I have the best thing my partner can do when it hits me like a freight train it’s it state things in simple facts like, “you’re safe” “I’m not mad” etc and allowing silence. I’m so grateful for her loving me in this way.
My mother has cptsd and she chose me to be her healer. I had to go low contact after 33 years. And all the compassion I had for her has flipped to compassion for myself.
Gosh, I get this so much! I love my mom and don’t want to go n/c … and there are times I feel loving her is like sacrificing my own mental health… there has to be a better way.
I reached my breaking point with my mother who told me all of her stories and troubles. I’ve been no contact for years and it’s wonderful. I now vacillate between feeling anger and indifference. She saddled me with existential pain I’ve carried all my life, as I knew the word abortion since before I knew what it meant. So f* her
Things that partner can do: 1. noitice dis-regulation 2. reduce overwhelm (don't ask too many questions and slow down and keep voice gentle, but don't mention you are doing this) 3. mention what you are noticing (you are overwhelm) and ask is there anything I can do? would a hug help 4. get a little space with a specific timeline (e.g: 1 hr apart) so dis-regulation can be discharged. But don't mention dis-regulation. But no threatening or give the silent treatment. 5. very gently and polite suggest doing the daily practice (writing + meditating). or you can do it and invite them to do it with you
Questions can overwhelm them during disregulation? This is a revelation to me. My wife used to get upset sometimes when I asked questions about herself or something that happened. I couldn't understand why, because literally every other wife I had ever known wished their husband would take more of an interest in their day or their life in general. So I couldn't understand why simple questions seemed to be too much for her. Now I understand. Thank you for this. It was very helpful.
I was married to someone with CPTSD. She was diagnosed with PTSD and ADHD, but I always had a sense that this wasn't the whole picture. I remember asking my own therapist several times if there was a form of PTSD that is centered around attachment and relationships. I was blamed daily, sometimes several times a day for her triggers. No matter how hard I tried to change everything about myself, none of it made any difference. All of our arguments centered around her extreme reactivity and me trying to get her to see that her reaction was 1000x more destructive than anything she was trying to blame me for. I can remember watching Jeopardy on the couch together and making a tiny comment, that slightly disagreed with something she had said and spending literally the next 4 and a half hours listening to her rant and spin out in circles trying to reconcile her reaction, but never apologizing or owning anything she did. This kind of interaction was my entire life. Basically, it reached a point where I had to admit to myself that I was in an abusive marriage and put up hard boundaries. Also unfortunate that we saw a couple's therapist who didn't know anything about CPTSD and we spent the whole time discussing how I can change, be more empathetic, etc instead of ever talking about the underlying issue. Sadly, we divorced. It is a no contact situation for me. I appreciate these videos, though. It's really validating and healing for me to know that I wasn't the cause of all her panic and disregulation. I never thought I believed most of the things she blamed me for, but eventually had to acknowledge that my body still carries the trauma of her words and actions.
Actually I think it could be a Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) more than just cPTSD. They seem to be very similar in some ways but you can also differentiate them in others. Have you read about BPD already? Maybe check it out and try to differentiate. Maybe you are right and it was cPTSD but maybe it was just a BPD and then a whole picture looks different. I hope it helps 😊
@@KasiaJangMiMalinowa ya i've read a bunch about bpd. her reactions weren't violent for the most part. mainly it was panic, but then getting super defensive and argumentative and then blaming me for it. seems to me more like cptsd than bpd. but ya it's hard to determine that from one comment.
I've come to recognize the reactivity and (verbal) explosions that I had were part of C-PTSD. I had been "programmed" to expect and respond with hostility. After watching dozens of videos produced by Anna and Therapy in a Nutshell (Emma) and narcissism survival coaches like Dr. Ramani (spelling?), Danish, Richard (Brannon?), and others, I'm learning about subtle differences between actual narcissism, BPD, and C-PTSD. All these disorders have similar outwardly visible symptoms or characteristics. I think the main difference is what drives those traits out to the surface, the motive or compulsions or, in my case, "programming." Humans are born teachable. We can learn good and bad habits. We can learn to replace bad habits with the good. We can train, in effect, "reprogram" our minds to respond in a different way. It takes time; it takes effort. But first, it takes desire and willingness to change. Through my own healing journey, I hope to guide others toward healing their own trauma. I realize that i still have to put more effort into not getting dysregulated myself when a loved one is trapped in dysregulation. Much success to y'all in your efforts to "reprogram" yourselves and to support others along the way. ❤️🩹
Why is this so shocking to me that no one is supposed to kinda help soothe my discomfort?? That seems so isolating to me. Please keep talking about this - thank you!!
We didn’t get it as children, that’s when other people were supposed to do that for us. As “adults” we are to self-soothe, and it’s why -I think- there are so many drug addictions in the world- people don’t know how to self-soothe. No one ever teaches us how to deal with pain, physical or emotional
If you’re truly in a dysregulated state, “soothing your discomfort” is wayyyy bigger than any person’s ability even with the best intentions. “Supposed to” is a problematic expectation because it’s not anyone’s job to give you what you didn’t receive (and deserved) as a child and it’s unfair to expect it. No one could do that for you even if they wanted to because an adult relationship is supposed to be two adults, not parent and child. No one else can fix you but you.
@@rlud304 There are 1 million examples of how people - grown-ups - very healthfully rely on others for regulation and comfort. This is the biggest reason why people have pets. This is why people grieve together at funerals. This is also why people celebrate together. Having the expectation of shared emotion with others is HUMAN.
I could never understand why, while loathing drama, I did so much to create it. My overwhelming emotions nearly always resulted in threats to break up or run away during conflicts with my partners. All I knew was that I needed to run because I didn’t know what to do with my feelings. I felt and looked like a lunatic and knew how crazy my behaviour was, but I felt powerless to change it. I would make a firm promise to myself never to do it again, but boom, during the next conflict, I was doing it again. As maddening as it is to be the erratic person, how frustrating it must have been for my partners. 😔
This video made me cry. I'm still in the early stages of healing, my partner is amazing, and we have learning moments for us both. It's very very hard. Any relationship would for anyone going through this kind of healing journey - relationships can be triggering - but having someone who's not going anywhere, who's patient and willing enough to learn with you, is so incredible. I feel sorry that he has to go thru this with me, but I'm thankful he's here.
Anna, thanks for trying to address this topic. I tried for 34 years of marriage. But my wife could not admit that she had cptsd, would not recognize or apologize for abuse - even after years of therapy and couples counseling. She could not let go of blame as her defense. Sadly she is even worse since I left 10 months ago- the abandonment wound is too deep. Love doesn’t heal her. It took me years of therapy and work to address my own cptsd. If they can’t admit the problem there is no recovery. I know you do a lot of tough love videos on this.
I just got diagnosed with cptsd, and wow, I was not expecting it at all. At first I was like "ok I'm good" then hrs later I started to feel down about it because I realized how disfunction I can be to myself and others. I don't even mean to be that way.I over think alot, over talk; (because I want to make sure my point gets across), and always in my head about issues I can't resolve. I worry over little things that trigger my anxiety. And have anger issues. It's a lot for me to deal with myself. For the most part, i look stable, carry great conversations, but can get easily triggered by things a person might (taking it the wrong way) It will take a patient, understanding type of person to deal with someone like myself. I have a big heart, and it's hard for a lot of people to see because I don't project as someone who is kind.....Alot to learn. All I have to say is stay away from people who trigger you. And take the appropriate therapy for this type, which is DBT or EMDR. Good Luck to those who have this. ❤
Thank you for watching and sharing your experience with us. If you'd like to try Daily Practice it can help you find clarity, declutter thoughts, and help with getting regulated. Here's a link to the free course: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Nika@TeamFairy
"Stay away from people who trigger you" is easier said than done when committed to that person for better or worse, in sickness and health, til death do us part.
I needed to find this today. I was ready to walk. Tired of being blamed for things I didn't do. Tired of the lack of any healthy communication. Tired of tension and stress and negativity and all the fear based thinking. It's exhausting and doesn't align with who I am at all. It's all much better than it used to be but it's taken its toll on my health. I can do this another day and maybe your videos can inspire him to do his part, which he's been unwilling to do because every therapist weve been to wants him to talk about the trauma and he can't and won't. Fingers crossed he can understand when I present your videos that I'm not trying to fix him, I'm trying to make thisxa partnership. If there are any ideas as to how to best present this, please throw them at me.
Elizabeth, how did it go? Presenting all of this only works if they’re ready for healing or they’re open to considering trying to heal. I takes time to want to heal because healing can be even scarier than the familiar chaos.
I would completely adore having a loving partner like this. It’s very regulating to just have that one person, that won’t escalate it. Heavenly in fact.
I see your beautiful face , a reflection of your heart, and I just want to give you a hug. Thank you for who YOU are and for breaking through the clutter of our minds and bringing relief.
My wife left me because of this. I had no idea I was going through this and had a bad year that made the symptoms get worse, and she couldn’t deal with it. 💔
beyond grateful for this video. this is my wife and I currently. She has disrespected me in so many ways and i have become a doormat. I have made mistakes in the past but that has become the area of focus allowing my wife to take zero responsibility for her actions. I have to remove myself from the toxicity for now but hopefully with counseling and various treatments she can get the help that she needs, learn to apologize, and realize just how awesome i am and how strong our relationship can be. maybe i’ll give an update in a year but she is right. we do not need to put up with emotional abuse
I don't know why the owner of the channel liked your comment, has your wife ptsd because of you? Because that's what you are saying here you made mistakes that became her triggers. Maby this bullshit fly's with this content creator but not with me. If she already had ptsd why did you make it worse? What kind of mistakes? You need to protect your wife or you are not even worthy of her, the way you talk, the disrespect i get why your wife does'nt like your bs i seen a few sentences and i know enough you are a first class narcissist. I think you are the one that needs help, no person in his right mind call's himself awesome. She does not need to apologize you need to be a man and stfu.
I have just started too see one girl who has this. These videos of yours are really helpful because I want to understand her situation and be supportive for her and build this relationship. She hasn’t shown yet these emotions for me but she has told me about them. Thanks for your help.
Likewise her my friend, just getting to these emotions now, and I've been feeling like I've done wrong, but the video has happend me to understand it a little bit more, she is right now mad about me for not remembering the symptoms, and this being my first time with a partner that has CPTSD, i want to learn, understand and build up our relationship together healthy
You truly are a fairy 🧚 god bless you! I do have such CPTSD Nuggets of wisdom. I definitely suffer from CPTSD (as does my partner who also was diagnosed with BPD) and watching this, I not only was able to diagnose, but also, it helped me see where I have made foul-ups in my relationship. Thank you 🙏🏻 have a blessed day! And know that to ever is out there reading this - you are lovable and you can heal! There will always be hope. 🙇♂️☁️🌈🌈
My best friend and roommate for 15 years has both schizophrenia and this ptsd. It hasn’t been till just now that I’ve realized he has this. We have started to argue almost every day this year. I need to learn so much. Having this double whammy is exhausting but he is such a beautiful soul. I feel like God put us together for a reason. I’m committed to help him everyday and I’m in tears to think that I may have been handling this all wrong for years. Thank you for the video, it has helped. I have some reading to do.
Thank you for teaching me healthy boundaries and expectations! ❤️ I was raised to tolerate everyone else but never advocate for my own needs so I’m working on speaking up. However, when I do find people who respect me and welcome my needs I tend to ask for too much that can border on excessive catering. Your videos are so helpful with teaching me how to find and practice balance.
I completely understand, finding that balance can be incredibly difficult, but good for you for working towards that! Thank you for your kind words, I'm sure Anna will want to read this. -Calista@TeamFairy
I am convinced that someone who had it especially hard at home needs a partner who is both unusually intelligent and (even more so) unusually sensitive. And then, you would need some chemistry...!
It's so damn hard. I tried for years and totally lost myself and ended up really tore up about how bad things got. Kudos to people who successfully navigate this
When I was engaged,I dragged my fiancé (with ptsd) to a recommended counselor for some pre-marital advice only to have the counselor say he had nothing to offer us until we came with real problems. I was so frustrated! My fiancé already demonstrated disregulation and I knew if I married him it was going to be hard. I did marry him and it was terribly difficult. I'm frustrated that that counselor couldn't offer some of the basic advice that you offer in this video. 10 years later we are still married. But it's been really hard. I really appreciated this video because it validates that there was advice I should have received to help me from the beginning! Everything you share I now know because I learned it the hard way from trial and error. Also I appreciated you thanking me for hanging in there and loving my spouse. My spouse has thanked me but it felt nice that you said it too. I've built a lot of resilience but it has come at a cost to my own emotional wellbeing a lot of the time. Thank you.
Notice when they're dysregulated, slow down, voice gentle, not a lot of questions or demands. I notice, does it help if I... Get some space, a few minutes apart. Don't threaten the relationship stay polite kind stay out of the drama let the storm pass. Avert the fights. Calm, steady is good.
My husband and I both have Cptsd. We did everything the Crappy Childhood Fairy said we shouldn't. We married after 5 months. We've been together 10 years. We are helping each other heal. It hasn't been easy, but it's definitely worth it.
Your words are so soothing for the ones that want to develop self esteem. The world is not sunshine and rainbows. It is very comforting to hear such kind advice while drawing boundaries
Sometimes he's angry with me, but most of the time he's just angry with everything. Dropping a spoon or getting his feet coiled up in the shop vac will create a string of cussing, swearing, throwing things. Living with this for so long, it always feels like the anger is my fault, even if it's not directed at me. It's like being around second-hand smoke. I don't know if this sounds strange, but he also has a passive/aggressive quality while in the dysregulation.
@@randapalfy9480 I am sorry to hear this! This behavior has been changing since we have both accepted Christ! Jesus is Real, and He through the power of The Holy Spirit will heal. Praise The Living God!
when you said “don’t resort to giving the silent treatment, storming out, or threatening the relationship” that’s all i’ve been doing & now i’m scared that the relationship won’t be the same
Raised with two parents with cptsd and addiction. The funny thing is that I later got an addiction myself. Men with cptsd. I can feel the smell and the energy when I meet them. They remind me of home. I recognize a lot in what you write, I became fearful and avoidant. But worked many years with myself. The addictions I got. Was wanting to help men with cptsd. A long hard work on myself. Got ptsd and became fearful and aviodant. Never let go of myself. Became a doormat. But stop now. Am 49 years old now and want to be part of my own life. No more abandoholic. Took care of both my parents since I was 7. Now it's time for me to live. Will never be bitter. Get up and see this today as an experience. But the road there was painful. But had to go through it all. Got out Out of myself. Get to know myself. Lost myself at the age of 7. Now I am the main role in my own life.
My husband has CPSD. His parents were dreadful to him, and his mother remains false sugar and exploitative. His father has passed away. He also had some very traumatic experiences in past romantic relationships because he was involved with women like his own mother. I had a loving, secure childhood, but suffer from severe hereditary depression and have physical handicaps. I also have ADHD. We’ve been married 10 years, and been together and in love for 12. He’s an amazing man who has done so much for us both, and I’m just in love as ever. We’ve conquered and survived trials that many WITHOUT our challenges would have given up on, and I’m proud of us both. *However* he does have explosive outbursts and does blame me for his actions and feelings. Some of his words and actions are *totally* unacceptable. I do my best to stay calm, and forgive him while ALSO holding him accountable. We have children and he’s an incredibly loving father. The kids are part of the environment we create, which is part of why healing is so vital. I need a support group. Who else out there has been in my place? What helped you?
Hii there. My boyfriend has cpsd and increased PTSD as well. Similarly in my case sometimes his words and actions are totally unacceptable and we both are still young so whenever I meet with him and hang out he behaves normal but when he is alone and empty headed he becomes triggered and blames me. I have noticed him being okay when he's companied and shown love to by actions but still it is so hard for me alone to help him heal
One of the best questions someone asked me is, "Okay, what do you need from me? How can I help?" That one question helped me to realize I was being heard but was not being clear. Plus, just knowing someone was listening really helped.[]
TH-cam was kind enough to show me this video today out of the blue and I'm grateful for that! You really helped calm me down and see that I am on the right path to help my wife! Thank you
This made me realize my partner has never been supportive of my CPTSD… he basically bullied me into hiding my symptoms, he just didn’t want to deal with them, and he would get verbally cruel about them. “ANXIETY ANXIETY ANXIETY THATS ALL YOU EVER ARE!!!!” He screamed that at me as loud as he could while hitting his head against a steering wheel… when I realized his bullying had WORSENED my condition, it broke me deep down. I am currently weighing my options on if it would be worse to stay or leave
For me, being alone is so much better than to have someone that triggers me or doesn't care to understand. Having a pet is incredibly helpful and healing.
You deserve someone who supports your well-being. You deserve someone who supports you in regulating yourself. There ARE people like this out there and you will meet someone like this if you give yourself this chance. I know that a breakup is hard and will probably worsen your symptoms for a while but in the long run it will be worth it. Healing is only possible to an extent if your social system is not willing to grow with you ❤️
I love the mother of my children so much. I've asked her to try and help me understand CPTSD but she offered me nothing. She told me to just be calm speaking and when I was it didn't change a thing. I could never disagree with her without being told I'm "gaslighting" her. I always told her I heard her and accepted her feelings and opinions, but I was told by her that I never validated her. I did exactly as she asked, and somehow, I was still wrong. We are no longer together and not even on speaking terms. It's heartbreaking, to say the least.
It is not always easy to be partnered with someone with CPTSD, that's for sure. Feel free to contact us at hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com and our team will provide you with some helpful materials. Nika@TeamFairy
I wish I'd had this information 6 months ago, you see I fell in love with a beautiful woman who is suffering from CPTSD and wasn't prepared for what was to come. I moved from the US to be with her in Scotland and it was 4 months of the best and worst experience of my life. She endured a horrific childhood, one of 5 children, and one of the two girls born to the family. One of violence, abuse, alcohol, and behavior that can only be called insane, by her parents. A father who sexually abused her, terrified the family, beat her mother, and a mother who as a result of this abuse by her father, became nearly as monstrous. I would love to be able to offer any support to her, but it may be too late.....as I said, I didn't realize the extent of the disorder until it was too late. I reacted as if she was navigating her emotions normally and not from what this disorder produces. I often times didn't even know what set her off, I know now it wasn't even me most of the time. I have moved back to the US, but am planning on returning to Scotland with hopes of seeing her better prepared for what may come.
It’s painful to find out that my wife (after 19years )actually had trauma from past and was in frozen mode the whole time ,I thought out relationship tried talking to her but seems like I was just pushed away …hoping things would change but without anything changing , there was a lot of things didn’t add up and finally when I couldn’t live with it anymore and snapped (her nor me being aware of the trauma being there)I was ready to leave she said something that helped me understand and help her through this trauma and now we are carefully working through this together and she’s getting better….one day at a time
This is helpful thank you. I have CTPSD. It’s been hard on our marriage. I felt sad after an EMDR session and my husband said I should go to a rehab center or away while I’m processing trauma. This was really disregulating and heartbreaking.
We harm the once close to us the most. If you have diagnosed c-ptsd and medication for it someone should have told you the best method to help is individual therapy and if that does not work good enough it's indeed best to go into daythreatment or rehab so all responsibility and pressure is off you. Maby your husband senses you need that? You need to realise only you can find the triggers and how to calm yourself nobody can do that for you. How old are you? Do you follow any therapy? I have c-ptsd aswell, i was raised as a warrior beaten and locked up on daily basis, the rest of the time i got neglected, i got more beatings then food quite literally. I am very paranoid and with every emotion i don't like i get very angry but i manage to regulate most of it and it stays inside it was not always that way i've been locked up for aggression, i sometimes don't speak for days to avoid conflict, what i know for sure is that my wife and my children need to be protected from what i went through.
@@yoachim91i hope you’re doing well💙 honestly I don’t like when people say this to me or ask how I’m doing so I don’t mean it in that manner just saying that i’m thinking about you
@@howdyhow2 Thank you, that is very kind of you, i needed that. I am not doing so good, life is like an emotional rollercoaster to me most of the time, it's exhausting. But we got to do what we got to do. How about you?
Thank you so much for your insights and wisdom. It's only in the last few years that ive been diagnosed with cptsd and its great to finally understand why my behaviours happen. Im not giving up and working on myself is now something i enjoy doing. Im so lucky to have my wife of 17 yrs. She does alot of what you recommend naturally . This will help her and myself so much . Thank you.
Thank you for helping me. My mom had a stroke, and it feels like her disregulation has become unbearable for her. I am trying to support my mom and my own CPTSD has become extreme. I haven’t felt this way since I was a teenager. I get triggered too often. I’m doing my best to stay grounded so that I can be a support to my mom. I’m open to any suggestions if someone else has been in this type of situation with a stroke victim. Or any input at all is welcome. Right now I’m just taking it one day at a time. 🙏❤️
Thank you for this video. It's been very hard. I have a habit of taking my partners feelings personally / taking on responsibility and it very much disrupts her ability to self-regulate. The symptoms are bad esp because of a toxic job she's taken. It's almost daily at this point where there's a "trigger spiral", and I have a lot of the techniques. In the moment, I tend to forget that she has CPTSD and i get all judgemental about why she's thinking about something in a certain way. When I remember, I definitely assume the role of the "fixer" and present, that's definitely created some barriers. It's difficult emotionally right now and has been for the last 2.5 years, and she doesn't trust me to be a safe space, which hurts more than anything. I also think that I might have some symptoms of (more minor) CPTSD as well, which makes it doubly hard. I definitely am very impatient about talking through things as soon as they come up, which creates more opportunities for trigger spirals. Our love is so epic and so worth this work, and I really appreciate these videos to tap into to remind myself that it's not her fault, it's not my fault (even when I'm blamed), and my work is to stay stable, and create boundaries. My next step is to create shared values and agreements about behavior that we can go back to during times like that. Grateful for your wisdom. THANK YOU!
My girlfriend was in an abusive marriage for 7 years and I said something that triggered her and she asked me for space, should I worry I REALLY LOVE HER SHE IS A GREAT HUMAN BEING😔
My fiancé recently got diagnosed with PTSD and i want to learn as much as possible, i feel it’s important to know that.. especially when it’s the one you’ll live with forever
Glad you are open to learn more! I encourage you to watch Anna's videos from the following list: • Don't Let Your Partner Blame You for Their CPTSD TRIGGERS th-cam.com/video/R-LA4bIkOhQ/w-d-xo.html • Is Your Partner Affected by Childhood Trauma? Here's What to Do. th-cam.com/video/050kuj4Aiho/w-d-xo.html • Partner with CPTSD? These Tips Can Help Have a Great Relationship th-cam.com/video/dIWVRnB9O4c/w-d-xo.html • If Your PARTNER Has CPTSD, You'll Want to WATCH THIS th-cam.com/video/mt3hJf9sD4U/w-d-xo.html • Couples That Trigger Each Other's CPTSD Reactions: One-on-One Coaching with Anna th-cam.com/video/-x8W4Wx0CUs/w-d-xo.html • Fighting Doesn't Always Spell the End for Couples with CPTSD th-cam.com/video/9AR0ICl6L2Y/w-d-xo.html • CPTSD: How to Stay Regulated in a Relationship th-cam.com/video/_2A8e9YdJzo/w-d-xo.html And if your fiancé is interested in taking any of Anna's courses, they are all listed in the description section under the video (click "...more" to open the section). We're here to support you both! Nika@TeamFairy
My partner and I both suffer from CPTSD. We love each other. I don’t think we want to be without each other. I’m in your course. He is not. He also has addiction issues. I hope with me getting to the next level of healing that he with see how helpful and her help as well. I encourage but I’m still learning how to do this and keep myself regulated
I wish I watched this video when I was with my ex-girlfriend. I broke up with her because I didn't understand what was going on with me at the time. Now that I understand, I see things differently now. I was scared of the possibility of being alone forever but now I don't doubt that possibility anymore
I am showing this to someone very special to me, and I hope it will help her feel less guilty about not being able to fix me. Your videos have been sooooooooo helpful! I can now regain my agency and self respect by taking my healing into my own hands, and not imposing it on others. I am going through the best time of my life literally right now. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
My Wife has CPTSD and BPD and I love her with all my heart but it is a wild rider with ups and downs I studied for 4years to just try and understand why she is the way she is and I find out she had cptsd and bpd. I have ASD High Functioning and it makes it way crazy hard to understand we’re she was coming from but I fight through all the hard times and tried crazy hard to learn what was going on in her head note I am Nero divergent and think different then A Neuro typical person. So you could only try to understand how hard it is for me to think and talk about feelings in the same way as a person with CPTSD AND BPD. I LOVED HER MORE THEN ANYTHING AND STILL DO. Is it easy in anyway NO it is not but I will say this as a high functioning person With ASD she could never push me away far enough for me to ever leave her. She is my heart and I am trying to learn a way to cure CPTSD AND BPD not for me but for her. I hate seeing her pain and her pain after her spits and how she feels after.
What causes love? Because I can't imagine staying through anything. I can't understand what can make someone feel love when bad behaviour is there. Please explain what makes a person love another person and want to stay?
Make sure you have a line that your wife cannot cross. Self respect is sexy. Abuse can lead to more abuse. This combination of CPTSD & BPD with ASD is dangerous. Do your best to listen and understand. Imagine yourself in her shoes. But remember, you cannot heal her, even if you know how. Personally, learning how only made it harder for me to be around her. Only your wife can heal herself. All you can do is be supportive. But take care of yourself too, especially if she emotionally isolates and pushes you away.
I’m really grateful for your channel and particularly this video. I wish could have been exposed to your content sooner as I’ve filed for divorce a while ago against my now ex wife who has CPTSD. As an empath with a low sense of self worth and lack of self love who deals with people pleasing and codependency, I couldn’t deal with my ex wife’s symptoms of dysregulation. It hurt too much for me, so much so that I would yell in response. Later on, I got diagnosed with major depressive disorder and I would experience suicidal ideation often. I wanted to help, but I believe my above mentioned traits of myself made it impossible for me to deal with it because I wasn’t secure enough in myself to objectively see and understand what was going on. Now that my ex and I have had our space, physical and emotionally, and I’m recovering, healing, and growing from my negative traits of lack of self worth, lack of self love, people pleasing, and codependency, to establishing self love an acceptance of who I am and am recovering from people pleasing and the toxic empathy. I’m actually really considering going back to support her healing and establish a new better environment for our children than we previously had since I feel more secure in doing so. However, I speculate that she might not even want me back at all since I already abandoned the relationship. Also, healing is possible on her own, and she doesn’t need me in this regard. But I felt like the recent discovery for me of what really was going on, instead of our historic mislabeling both of us with either borderline personality disorder or covert narcissism or other kinds of gaslighting from both sides, really me inspired to go back, apologize for abandoning the relationship, share with her that I finally really do understand, at least intellectually and emphatically, what she’s going through and what I was going through, and be a genuine support through her healing even if it means experiencing all the things you mentioned in this video again, plus now the added layer of mistrust since I left. I wonder if it’s worth the risk. Currently, I can’t shake off the feeling that it is worth it.
This sounds really similar to me and my ex! I agree with you, I wish I could've found this channel sooner. I wouldn't say I'm an empath myself, but I took on a lot of responsibilities for my ex and it overwhelmed me. I people please, have low self-worth, and I have depression. I felt like his happiness was my responsibility and I think that was a really big lie to myself. Not a good base to form a relationship on. I tried to help, but I myself wasn't happy and ignored my own needs. I've got resentment 'towards' him and it sucks. He seems to think he has BPD, and he thinks I have it too. I honestly think we both just have C-PTSD. Now I'm taking time away from him after a messy break-up. Not bad, but messy. I can honestly say that I do want to help him and I don't feel pressured to. I just don't want to date him again. Are you doing better now yourself? I'm asking as I've only just started recognizing some of these traits and behaviors in myself and am curious to know if, with work, improvement is possible.
@@bumblebunny I am doing better. I’ve leaned to self regulate via journaling (like my own modified version of the Daily Practice) and learned about attachment theory and attachment wounds that I had to heal from. Once I was able to confront certain profound attachment wounds that my inner child had, I realized how I was projecting my insecurities that stemmed from that onto all my relationships my whole life. It’s a realization that I’m ashamed of and regret, but it is part of my healing and emotional and psychological growth and maturity. I didn’t end up getting back with my ex wife. She introduced me to her new partner who she plans on marrying soon. I’m talking with someone but taking my time, trying to be more secure in my attachment this go around. So, yeah. My ex and I are moving on, cordially coparenting our children. I’ve learned a lot and am still on a journey of healing and growth. I can only hope she’s doing the same. I appreciate your reply.
So I dont see myself like some of these examples. The one thing i did notice. I dont have regulation when my truama comesback. It only comes back when people break my boundries thats the only time. When i am on my own. I can regulate
I'm listening to this so I can learn to love myself or believe that I can be loved because I secretly believe my CPTSD has run all my husband's away. Probably they were just abusive. But I feel if there are 'techniques' for loving someone like me then it can be done.
I feel your pain ,@# I’m an empath , but have had 3 marriages …and wonder where does my CPTSD a play in … I’m loving 100% but as soon as I’m hurt I every to inner and highly hurt anger
Both me & my husband suffer from cpsd, I have learned to somewhat regulate myself but when he is triggered I find it especially difficult because he gets violent, not towards me but the furniture and other objects. He has been in therapy for over 20 years and I feel that have not helped him at all. Thank you so much for these videos.
I have a friend, who Ive developed feeling for, i know is disregulated cause she told me. Not 100% she CPTSD, but there seem to be clues, such as her isolating. I know I have to be super patient with her, learning to be with her has been and interesting journey , more with my ADHD. I think she worth to be loved and be understood. I believe we all deserved to be loved. Im working along with my therapist, so I dont get injured along the way.
One of the biggest reasons why many people don't choose to be there for those with CPTSD is due to ignorance by definition. There is so much to know, and the "average" person doesn't care enough to know. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying they don't care, but it's not common for the average person to get involved in the psych space. Even then, a lot of people are also blinded by moralism, so even if they know you're troubled, it's nearly a 50-50% chance that they don't find the ends justify the means. Encouraging growth and forgiveness is key. Granted, there are SO MANY of those out there who do choose to love and respect, and understand - kudos to them and those of you, or your loved ones, who do. My Fiance and I both developed this understanding and continue to try and learn more.
What if both are victims of CPTSD? How can healing happen!? Both are swirling out of control. This video is aimed at a healthy partner helping the disregulated one…
You may want to watch this video, "Couples That Trigger Each Other's CPTSD Reactions: One-on-One Coaching with Anna": th-cam.com/video/-x8W4Wx0CUs/w-d-xo.html Nika@TeamFairy
I have remained single for 27 years because I know that I am difficult to love and I don't ever want to be responsible for hurting anyone else again. Past relationships partners either became violent with me or cried out of frustration.
My husband has CPTSD and is currently diss regulated my type of personality is that let me help you fix this problem kind of personality and I have come to know that my husband doesn’t want me to help him. He just wants me to support him but I didn’t know how to so here I am looking at this video trying to learn how to support him properly. I know that he needs time to figure things out on his own, but he hasn’t started his healing journey yet, but I’m grateful for this video because I’ve been trying to stand up for myself throughout his dysregulation, and it’s been causing a lot of fights between us.
Your husband should think about individual therapy and after a while have a session with you present if he allows it, you are not going to be able to help or support he has to do that himself with someone who is going to ask him nasty questions that you can't ask without fights. Also gives him the chance to talk about the fights he has with you private and learn from the psychologist what is a good way to react in those situations. I have c-ptsd, and one of the first things to learn is putting things next to you that you can't change and solve the problems you can solve, my biggest issue is extreme anger that i can't let out and nobody can help it's just a fact only the medication specifically for my symptoms flatten the worst and the rest i regulate myself in various ways, i read psychology books, i have a "century bob" boxing stand that get's his ass kicked all the time, i draw a lot because it put's my mind on another mode and breaks some of my worst moments even if i am at work. If he ever talks about going to a psychologist be very supportive of that.
Thank you SO much for this video. It answered so many questions for me, although in my case I was looking for ways to support my mother, with whom I live, who I *know* has CPTSD and so do I. She is 79 and I have seen this brain fog, which made me worried that she has dementia, but I know she had a traumatic childhood. Now I need to be supportive while maintaining my own sanity. I'm so relieved to find some answers!
This is genuinely life changing. I hope for my relationships future I can apply this absolutely amazing information to support someone who means everything to me. 😊
I'm sorry for my partner a TBI and this combined destroyed any chance. She has as well this PTSD from a narcissist mother and I love her before the concussions I was in control completely and now I just can't save us both and neither can she. I miss her she's my best friend she's the person I love more than anything
For me, it kind of was my wife's fault she has adhd and had a tendency to micro-cheat dopamine deficiency, which brought it back out after ot being dormant for years... So now, at 42, I am seeking professional help to get it under control. What made it tougher was neither one of us having self-awareness of our mental illness over the last few months we became self aware which has helped us tremendously.
Just started with a very lovely woman from my childhood. It's definitely something I had no idea/not much idea about, so I thank you for these videos it has already helped me understand so much more than I did before. I hope to help Her through the rest of her life ❤
What I find difficult is a connection where both parties have cptsd and only one has the awareness of it. Understanding them feels like enabling when they hurt blindly with no self awareness. Had to walk away.
My girlfriend has severe DID and PTSD. She just began remembering everything and now she is just beginning to experience serious emotions and flashbacks and I just don't know how to cope with it. Thank you.
Anna has several videos about relationships with folks with CPTSD: Don't Let Your Partner Blame You for Their CPTSD TRIGGERS th-cam.com/video/R-LA4bIkOhQ/w-d-xo.html Is Your Partner Affected by Childhood Trauma? Here's What to Do. th-cam.com/video/050kuj4Aiho/w-d-xo.html Partner with CPTSD? These Tips Can Help Have a Great Relationship th-cam.com/video/dIWVRnB9O4c/w-d-xo.html If Your PARTNER Has CPTSD, You'll Want to WATCH THIS th-cam.com/video/mt3hJf9sD4U/w-d-xo.html Couples That Trigger Each Other's CPTSD Reactions: One-on-One Coaching with Anna th-cam.com/video/-x8W4Wx0CUs/w-d-xo.html Fighting Doesn't Always Spell the End for Couples with CPTSD th-cam.com/video/9AR0ICl6L2Y/w-d-xo.html CPTSD: How to Stay Regulated in a Relationship th-cam.com/video/_2A8e9YdJzo/w-d-xo.html Julie@TeamFairy
Thanks for putting this out. God knows I could have used a family that understood these things but what would help me more is information about what you do when find your loved one have been using it against you intentional for many years through narcissism! I had distanced myself only to discover it was being used against me so its been hard to balance out since there such a sense of betrayal.
My ex husband was abusive (physically, emotionally, legally) and the person I’ve been dating started joking around saying I should stop being so mean to my ex, he’s a good guy. (I rarely speak about him but have discussed some of what happened to me). I told him it wasn’t funny and he doubled down and continued. I got up and walked out. He then said that if I react this way I need help and I snapped. Then I’m over analyzing my reactions to see if I truly did over react, but I don’t think so. Some people have no empathy for what others have been through
My mom has CPTSD. I love her and she be great. The issue I have as her adult daughter (I have 3 minor sisters who she's wonderful with) is that the support only goes one way. I have trauma too. It's way less, I don't even meet the criteria for PTSD, but there's no room for my trauma in our relationship if it looks different than hers. While she believes in working on her issues, she also makes sure to let us know if something triggers her and asks us not to do those things. I think that's perfectly reasonable, but if I try to do the same, she tells me that it's my issue to fix and refuses to make any accommodation for it or even validate my feelings. It leaves me constantly holding back in our relationship and I don't know what I can do about it. She's not part of my emotional support system and this point because she's not capable of it, but she's deeply hurt by that and can't understand why I won't open up.
Ptsd has denied me my whole life from even having any kind of relationship with any other person. I live a quiet life where I don't even speak words .I only communicate by texting a comment now and then..I'd be happy to just find a place to live that I can afford...kudos to anyone that suffers and at least has someone to talk to even better to have relationships..my life is a daily fight to just stay alive.ive never let anyone near me to say the words I love you...
“It’s not the fault of the person with CPTSD”. It’s not their fault they were hurt and traumatized, but if they are disregulated and become mean and abusive - that is 100% their fault. I’m married to someone with CPTSD, it was all set-up from birth to 17, I didn’t meet him until he was 25 - yet when he is disregulated I’m the one he tries to hold accountable for everything. I think it is important that we recognize the abused often becomes the abuser.
I wish this video was about what they a partner COULD actually do, ie, listen, own up, apologise, not shut people down, not walk off mid sentence/abandon etc
My wife and I are going through marriage counseling. She has childhood trauma that was never dealt with. I bought a different house and sold the one we moved out of so we didn’t have to live next to her dad anymore. She was spiraling out of control and was blaming me for everything that was wrong with her. I was so done. She finally agreed to get counseling and we are getting better but I still have my exit open if she refuses to admit I am not the entire problem. I am not one to cheat but I have other women who are sooo nice to me and actually like me. I am way too nice and put up with too much when I should have walked away.
I wish I could learn this as a child as my parents suffering from PTSD keeps on projecting it’s me that should fix them. Ppl with CPTSD should be educated to not blame others 😢
Yes please if you could help us understand this concern of bpd and Cptsd. In a not quite up to par executive functioning type of way. Your very good at that. I diagnosed myself 4 years ago (and haven’t missed a day of studies with some branch)with bpd and it’s been confirmed by numerous doctors now and I have found a great teletherapy program called DBT of Lawrence, Kansas. Just this morning I very uncomfortably had the opportunity though conversation with my 90th attempt at a relationship with my boyfriend to discover this…. Thank god he’s gotten more of a grip on his patience and own self over the last 35 years of trauma we were “blissful “ too and also all the new “memories” traumas we were adding to our lives. Anyways, today was a breakthrough. A big breakthrough Involving anything in regards to intimacy. Wow. I’m mind blown and still a little on and off with the tears streaming during my thoughts coming and going. It hurts to know you are a hurt people hurting people. But I’m glad I’ve been working on self empathy for my inner child as I truly do believe that is the beginning.
Growing up i could see that my father was a raging mystery. We could never understand why he's like that, but we always knew that he had a bad childhood. Recently i started thinking that he can be a narcissist. But I found your videos and now i understand that he most likely has cptsd. But i won't even suggest that to him, he'll just take it as a criticism and get sulky, then ragy again. I'm still very hurt by his behavior and stay no contact. My older brother has symptoms of cptsd himself probably as a result of growing up with a parent like that. My dad made sure my brother isn't happy in his adult life, for that i cannot forgive him. My father MUST HAVE known deep down that HE needs to work on himself. I watch these videos in support of my poor brother, not to excuse my dad.
"Dysregulated talk is like drunk talk. "
Yes!
and then I have had the time when I've combined the two, and believe me, it's not good to drink when you're in this emotional dysregulation phase. Sad hard lesson learned.
@@xw7239 today I applied something from one of these videos and I didn't get a panic attack. I almost got disregulated and I was triggered but instead of replying I just closed my eyes and breathed. I have a habit of just disregulated sharing but I felt okay. Putting a pause does help. Also I have been watching Christian messages which helped to deal with the orphan inside me that lacked so much. Christian music in many ways helps to disregulate. They express things that aren't easy to think of or express, you cry it out and know how to articulate your thoughts after. Praying about what I am terrified about expressing to people makes room for God to comfort me. I disregulate and don't feel so triggery. Writing down what's on my mind or my struggles in the form of poetry rhymes and reading it outloud is another release which helped me recover Years ago. After I stopped this my mental health and CPTSD symptoms go so erratic that I lost touch with community and isolated myself in an unhealthy manner. I know I'm only doing this because I'm afraid of having to explain something I didn't understand yet. Now that I know I have CPTSD, I am going to combine what I learn from this youtube channel with God centered resources like scripture so I can get close to Christ again. That made me happy and I did feel free. That was years before I knew I had CPTSD too so it definitely had results. God bless you guys and I know it's hard but if I can find progress you can too. Your good enough and know that it is possible to find peace. Don't Be Afraid to try, it's worth it :)
For all those who criticise sufferers - no one asked to have a difficult childhood or live with the lifelong burden of action by others throughout their lives
But they also have the responsibility as adults of putting in the work, questioning their behavior, listening to others describe their actions and impacts and not destroy others.
Those who criticize are often the major supporters of the individual with CPTSD. And nine of us asked that the person we love, support, and help dump on us when they are disregulated. We are allowed to “criticize”, because CPTSD sufferers often make sure to dump their suffering when they’re upset onto their partner - and that is absolutely abusive.
You said it on point, what you just said is exactly how I feel. Thank you for sharing 🤗
I’m so deeply grateful for my partner of 23 years; his love has been transformative. One of the most helpful things he does when I’m angry and disregulated, is to listen calmly to what I have to say, and then repeat back to me what he understood. He doesn’t say he agrees or that I’m right; he simply checks in with a “what I’m hearing is…Did I get that fully?” My nervous system is so soothed by this, and over time I’ve learned to offer this kind of mirroring to him as well.
Thanks for sharing! That sounds like a really good practice. -Calista@TeamFairy
He sounds like a wonderful man. You’re lucky, as is he, to have found one another. ❤️
That's wonderful to hear :)
This is actually very nice to hear. I would do the same thing for my soon to be ex-wife and she would ask 'If I was stupid?' or 'Are you even listening?' and I was always told I had poor communication skills. It gives me hope for future relationships.
You are a very very blessed lady
this topic need ALOT more attention, cause its very difficult to be the partner
It’s difficult for both.
Loving someone with CPTSD is easy. Keeping from triggering each other is the hard part.
so true. if the non-cptsd has other issues anxieties it is so hard
Amen!
So true... im struggling with my guy on this right now. It's hard to tell if he's growing or pretending too. He's able to see logic so that's good. It's just a matter of being able to lay things out logically without getting triggered.
@@Slowgroovin It beautiful that we from various walks of life can freely talk about this. I spent my whole life not knowing that I had CPTSD. I am 28 years old and I felt so depressed because I didn't understand why relationships felt so unusually hard. Now that I know I have CPTSD. I can take better strategic steps which can repair the relationships that were damaged within the last 8 years of escalating symptoms. God is good. This community is a blessing. Keep in mind that you all are blessings who has a purpose and you can be happy and make a difference. If you have seen progress than know that we are proud of you. I am new to this but I really wanted to say that. If kid me needed to hear that I'm sure someone else needed too. Have a blessed week :)
@@christopherrosado8420 Thank you. That was very sweet. God bless and help you too 🙂
I almost broke up with my boyfriend because I felt like he doesn’t deserve to be with a partner who has all the trauma I have, I thought to myself “He deserves someone who grew up in a loving home like he did so she can love him the way he deserves, I don’t know how to do that” but seeing this video is such an amazing confirmation that I made the right choice by staying with him, we can make this work and I can love him the way he deserves.❤️
Wow, I'm so glad you watched the video. You deserve a loving relationship :) -Calista@TeamFairy
My therapist told me that breakups are conversations and decisions to make together. I'm glad you didn't jump to making the decision for him. I hope you both are well!
Amazing story! ❤ I have C-PTSD and these year I dated a guy who has a lovely family and friends and I felt like I was less than him (I grew up in a family where traumas were something ordenary and now I don't really have a relationship with them) , I start acting cold to him maybe I hoped he would break up with me and guess what? He never called me back. Fighting C-PTSD is difficult.
I was broken up for this reason and here I am watching this video trying to understand her mind and the reasoning behind her decision. It was like she was trying to ”protect" me?
I now wish I had not broken up with her. I finally feel like I’m aware of the hurt child in me. Finally a communication channel is established. He cries for safety and I sooth that self. But I pushed her away since I thought it might take me too long to start healing. Now I’m healing but I hurt her too much during the breakup. She was a model good person. So much love in her.
For you who are contemplating saving your partner from yourself. Please go slow. Don’t make rushed decisions. Seek professional opinion like couples therapy.
I feel so seen, I am crying.
We're all sending you our support :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Ive started to date this girl that used to be my friend. She reconnected as friends to catch up. One thing led to another and we kissed, i refused sex on the first night even though she wanted to. I dissociate during intimacy and i told her about it. She knows about my past abuse and pain, she used to comfort me when i was sad, still does to this day. She respects my decisions, she respects the fact that it takes time for me to be comfortable intimately and weve grown very close. Now i can kiss her without closing my eyes, she makes me feel wanted and loved, its truly healing. Ive cried the first time we were intimate, i told her that im not used to love and affection. She told me its ok, she can provide that for me, stroked my hair to help me fall asleep. Good people are out there.
I find disregulation comes one of two ways, it either sneaks up on me slowly or hits me like a freight train. I have the best thing my partner can do when it hits me like a freight train it’s it state things in simple facts like, “you’re safe” “I’m not mad” etc and allowing silence. I’m so grateful for her loving me in this way.
THIS!!!!!! omg crying
My mother has cptsd and she chose me to be her healer. I had to go low contact after 33 years. And all the compassion I had for her has flipped to compassion for myself.
Relatable! 🥰
Gosh, I get this so much! I love my mom and don’t want to go n/c … and there are times I feel loving her is like sacrificing my own mental health… there has to be a better way.
I reached my breaking point with my mother who told me all of her stories and troubles. I’ve been no contact for years and it’s wonderful. I now vacillate between feeling anger and indifference. She saddled me with existential pain I’ve carried all my life, as I knew the word abortion since before I knew what it meant. So f* her
goals
Things that partner can do:
1. noitice dis-regulation
2. reduce overwhelm (don't ask too many questions and slow down and keep voice gentle, but don't mention you are doing this)
3. mention what you are noticing (you are overwhelm) and ask is there anything I can do? would a hug help
4. get a little space with a specific timeline (e.g: 1 hr apart) so dis-regulation can be discharged. But don't mention dis-regulation. But no threatening or give the silent treatment.
5. very gently and polite suggest doing the daily practice (writing + meditating). or you can do it and invite them to do it with you
Questions can overwhelm them during disregulation? This is a revelation to me. My wife used to get upset sometimes when I asked questions about herself or something that happened. I couldn't understand why, because literally every other wife I had ever known wished their husband would take more of an interest in their day or their life in general. So I couldn't understand why simple questions seemed to be too much for her. Now I understand. Thank you for this. It was very helpful.
I was married to someone with CPTSD. She was diagnosed with PTSD and ADHD, but I always had a sense that this wasn't the whole picture. I remember asking my own therapist several times if there was a form of PTSD that is centered around attachment and relationships. I was blamed daily, sometimes several times a day for her triggers. No matter how hard I tried to change everything about myself, none of it made any difference. All of our arguments centered around her extreme reactivity and me trying to get her to see that her reaction was 1000x more destructive than anything she was trying to blame me for. I can remember watching Jeopardy on the couch together and making a tiny comment, that slightly disagreed with something she had said and spending literally the next 4 and a half hours listening to her rant and spin out in circles trying to reconcile her reaction, but never apologizing or owning anything she did. This kind of interaction was my entire life. Basically, it reached a point where I had to admit to myself that I was in an abusive marriage and put up hard boundaries. Also unfortunate that we saw a couple's therapist who didn't know anything about CPTSD and we spent the whole time discussing how I can change, be more empathetic, etc instead of ever talking about the underlying issue. Sadly, we divorced. It is a no contact situation for me. I appreciate these videos, though. It's really validating and healing for me to know that I wasn't the cause of all her panic and disregulation. I never thought I believed most of the things she blamed me for, but eventually had to acknowledge that my body still carries the trauma of her words and actions.
Actually I think it could be a Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) more than just cPTSD. They seem to be very similar in some ways but you can also differentiate them in others.
Have you read about BPD already? Maybe check it out and try to differentiate. Maybe you are right and it was cPTSD but maybe it was just a BPD and then a whole picture looks different.
I hope it helps 😊
@@KasiaJangMiMalinowa ya i've read a bunch about bpd. her reactions weren't violent for the most part. mainly it was panic, but then getting super defensive and argumentative and then blaming me for it. seems to me more like cptsd than bpd. but ya it's hard to determine that from one comment.
I've come to recognize the reactivity and (verbal) explosions that I had were part of C-PTSD. I had been "programmed" to expect and respond with hostility.
After watching dozens of videos produced by Anna and Therapy in a Nutshell (Emma) and narcissism survival coaches like Dr. Ramani (spelling?), Danish, Richard (Brannon?), and others, I'm learning about subtle differences between actual narcissism, BPD, and C-PTSD. All these disorders have similar outwardly visible symptoms or characteristics. I think the main difference is what drives those traits out to the surface, the motive or compulsions or, in my case, "programming." Humans are born teachable. We can learn good and bad habits. We can learn to replace bad habits with the good. We can train, in effect, "reprogram" our minds to respond in a different way. It takes time; it takes effort. But first, it takes desire and willingness to change.
Through my own healing journey, I hope to guide others toward healing their own trauma. I realize that i still have to put more effort into not getting dysregulated myself when a loved one is trapped in dysregulation.
Much success to y'all in your efforts to "reprogram" yourselves and to support others along the way.
❤️🩹
Thank You!
It's look like a cluster B, Borderline, who is projeting on you. Therapists misunderstading a Lot and mix both.
Why is this so shocking to me that no one is supposed to kinda help soothe my discomfort?? That seems so isolating to me. Please keep talking about this - thank you!!
We didn’t get it as children, that’s when other people were supposed to do that for us. As “adults” we are to self-soothe, and it’s why -I think- there are so many drug addictions in the world- people don’t know how to self-soothe. No one ever teaches us how to deal with pain, physical or emotional
If you’re truly in a dysregulated state, “soothing your discomfort” is wayyyy bigger than any person’s ability even with the best intentions. “Supposed to” is a problematic expectation because it’s not anyone’s job to give you what you didn’t receive (and deserved) as a child and it’s unfair to expect it. No one could do that for you even if they wanted to because an adult relationship is supposed to be two adults, not parent and child. No one else can fix you but you.
@@rlud304 yes but this isn’t about childishness. It’s about being human.
@@sunnygirl9691 Best of luck to you
@@rlud304 There are 1 million examples of how people - grown-ups - very healthfully rely on others for regulation and comfort. This is the biggest reason why people have pets. This is why people grieve together at funerals. This is also why people celebrate together. Having the expectation of shared emotion with others is HUMAN.
I could never understand why, while loathing drama, I did so much to create it. My overwhelming emotions nearly always resulted in threats to break up or run away during conflicts with my partners. All I knew was that I needed to run because I didn’t know what to do with my feelings. I felt and looked like a lunatic and knew how crazy my behaviour was, but I felt powerless to change it. I would make a firm promise to myself never to do it again, but boom, during the next conflict, I was doing it again. As maddening as it is to be the erratic person, how frustrating it must have been for my partners. 😔
I too am always the one to leave the room/relationship and spout off like a crazy person. I’m very difficult in relationships 😞
God Blesses you with all his Love and healing power.
i feel this so much i always wanna run but i want them to run after me and i get more upset when they don’t
Wow thank you for sharing your experience and having such compassion for yourself and understanding the partners perspective and experiences
@epicgirl65060 I hear this. I wonder if it's a fear of conflict that makes us want to run, yet at the same time, we fear abandonment.
This video made me cry. I'm still in the early stages of healing, my partner is amazing, and we have learning moments for us both. It's very very hard. Any relationship would for anyone going through this kind of healing journey - relationships can be triggering - but having someone who's not going anywhere, who's patient and willing enough to learn with you, is so incredible. I feel sorry that he has to go thru this with me, but I'm thankful he's here.
Thank you for sharing this! Good luck on your healing journey!
Nika@TeamFairy
i’ll pay
Anna, thanks for trying to address this topic. I tried for 34 years of marriage. But my wife could not admit that she had cptsd, would not recognize or apologize for abuse - even after years of therapy and couples counseling. She could not let go of blame as her defense. Sadly she is even worse since I left 10 months ago- the abandonment wound is too deep. Love doesn’t heal her. It took me years of therapy and work to address my own cptsd. If they can’t admit the problem there is no recovery. I know you do a lot of tough love videos on this.
Hugs
Experiencing this in my marriage
Wound is too deep, no recovery unless they admit they have a problem… feels like I’m going to be on the losing side of things. Really depressing. 😢
I just got diagnosed with cptsd, and wow, I was not expecting it at all. At first I was like "ok I'm good" then hrs later I started to feel down about it because I realized how disfunction I can be to myself and others. I don't even mean to be that way.I over think alot, over talk; (because I want to make sure my point gets across), and always in my head about issues I can't resolve. I worry over little things that trigger my anxiety. And have anger issues. It's a lot for me to deal with myself. For the most part, i look stable, carry great conversations, but can get easily triggered by things a person might (taking it the wrong way) It will take a patient, understanding type of person to deal with someone like myself. I have a big heart, and it's hard for a lot of people to see because I don't project as someone who is kind.....Alot to learn. All I have to say is stay away from people who trigger you. And take the appropriate therapy for this type, which is DBT or EMDR. Good Luck to those who have this. ❤
Thank you for watching and sharing your experience with us. If you'd like to try Daily Practice it can help you find clarity, declutter thoughts, and help with getting regulated. Here's a link to the free course: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Nika@TeamFairy
"Stay away from people who trigger you" is easier said than done when committed to that person for better or worse, in sickness and health, til death do us part.
I needed to find this today. I was ready to walk. Tired of being blamed for things I didn't do. Tired of the lack of any healthy communication. Tired of tension and stress and negativity and all the fear based thinking. It's exhausting and doesn't align with who I am at all. It's all much better than it used to be but it's taken its toll on my health. I can do this another day and maybe your videos can inspire him to do his part, which he's been unwilling to do because every therapist weve been to wants him to talk about the trauma and he can't and won't. Fingers crossed he can understand when I present your videos that I'm not trying to fix him, I'm trying to make thisxa partnership. If there are any ideas as to how to best present this, please throw them at me.
Elizabeth, how did it go? Presenting all of this only works if they’re ready for healing or they’re open to considering trying to heal. I takes time to want to heal because healing can be even scarier than the familiar chaos.
I would completely adore having a loving partner like this. It’s very regulating to just have that one person, that won’t escalate it. Heavenly in fact.
My wife has cPTSD.
She is now convinced I’m a narcissistic who fakes my love for her and blames me for all of her suffering.
I love her. This is hell.
I see your beautiful face , a reflection of your heart, and I just want to give you a hug. Thank you for who YOU are and for breaking through the clutter of our minds and bringing relief.
You express my feelings too - so aptly ! 🙂
Yes. Her face has got more beautiful as she has gone along in this journey ❤
My wife left me because of this. I had no idea I was going through this and had a bad year that made the symptoms get worse, and she couldn’t deal with it. 💔
Sorry to hear, hope you both heal well
beyond grateful for this video. this is my wife and I currently. She has disrespected me in so many ways and i have become a doormat. I have made mistakes in the past but that has become the area of focus allowing my wife to take zero responsibility for her actions. I have to remove myself from the toxicity for now but hopefully with counseling and various treatments she can get the help that she needs, learn to apologize, and realize just how awesome i am and how strong our relationship can be.
maybe i’ll give an update in a year but she is right. we do not need to put up with emotional abuse
I don't know why the owner of the channel liked your comment, has your wife ptsd because of you? Because that's what you are saying here you made mistakes that became her triggers. Maby this bullshit fly's with this content creator but not with me. If she already had ptsd why did you make it worse? What kind of mistakes? You need to protect your wife or you are not even worthy of her, the way you talk, the disrespect i get why your wife does'nt like your bs i seen a few sentences and i know enough you are a first class narcissist. I think you are the one that needs help, no person in his right mind call's himself awesome. She does not need to apologize you need to be a man and stfu.
How's it been, mate?
I have just started too see one girl who has this. These videos of yours are really helpful because I want to understand her situation and be supportive for her and build this relationship. She hasn’t shown yet these emotions for me but she has told me about them. Thanks for your help.
Likewise her my friend, just getting to these emotions now, and I've been feeling like I've done wrong, but the video has happend me to understand it a little bit more, she is right now mad about me for not remembering the symptoms, and this being my first time with a partner that has CPTSD, i want to learn, understand and build up our relationship together healthy
You truly are a fairy 🧚 god bless you! I do have such CPTSD Nuggets of wisdom. I definitely suffer from CPTSD (as does my partner who also was diagnosed with BPD) and watching this, I not only was able to diagnose, but also, it helped me see where I have made foul-ups in my relationship. Thank you 🙏🏻 have a blessed day! And know that to ever is out there reading this - you are lovable and you can heal! There will always be hope. 🙇♂️☁️🌈🌈
My best friend and roommate for 15 years has both schizophrenia and this ptsd. It hasn’t been till just now that I’ve realized he has this. We have started to argue almost every day this year. I need to learn so much. Having this double whammy is exhausting but he is such a beautiful soul. I feel like God put us together for a reason. I’m committed to help him everyday and I’m in tears to think that I may have been handling this all wrong for years. Thank you for the video, it has helped. I have some reading to do.
I would love to see more videos for partners and friends of people with CPTSD I think it would be very helpful. Maybe a video a month for us? Thanks
Is very hard to find information for the partners to help . Please make more videos like this.
Thank you for teaching me healthy boundaries and expectations! ❤️ I was raised to tolerate everyone else but never advocate for my own needs so I’m working on speaking up. However, when I do find people who respect me and welcome my needs I tend to ask for too much that can border on excessive catering. Your videos are so helpful with teaching me how to find and practice balance.
I completely understand, finding that balance can be incredibly difficult, but good for you for working towards that! Thank you for your kind words, I'm sure Anna will want to read this. -Calista@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy ❤❤❤
I am convinced that someone who had it especially hard at home needs a partner who is both unusually intelligent and (even more so) unusually sensitive. And then, you would need some chemistry...!
They need someone with very firm boundaries who is loving
It's so damn hard. I tried for years and totally lost myself and ended up really tore up about how bad things got. Kudos to people who successfully navigate this
When I was engaged,I dragged my fiancé (with ptsd) to a recommended counselor for some pre-marital advice only to have the counselor say he had nothing to offer us until we came with real problems. I was so frustrated! My fiancé already demonstrated disregulation and I knew if I married him it was going to be hard. I did marry him and it was terribly difficult. I'm frustrated that that counselor couldn't offer some of the basic advice that you offer in this video. 10 years later we are still married. But it's been really hard. I really appreciated this video because it validates that there was advice I should have received to help me from the beginning! Everything you share I now know because I learned it the hard way from trial and error. Also I appreciated you thanking me for hanging in there and loving my spouse. My spouse has thanked me but it felt nice that you said it too. I've built a lot of resilience but it has come at a cost to my own emotional wellbeing a lot of the time. Thank you.
A very resonant reply for me- just need to change the 10 years married to 40…
Notice when they're dysregulated, slow down, voice gentle, not a lot of questions or demands. I notice, does it help if I... Get some space, a few minutes apart. Don't threaten the relationship stay polite kind stay out of the drama let the storm pass. Avert the fights. Calm, steady is good.
My husband and I both have Cptsd. We did everything the Crappy Childhood Fairy said we shouldn't. We married after 5 months. We've been together 10 years. We are helping each other heal. It hasn't been easy, but it's definitely worth it.
Your words are so soothing for the ones that want to develop self esteem. The world is not sunshine and rainbows. It is very comforting to hear such kind advice while drawing boundaries
Sometimes he's angry with me, but most of the time he's just angry with everything. Dropping a spoon or getting his feet coiled up in the shop vac will create a string of cussing, swearing, throwing things. Living with this for so long, it always feels like the anger is my fault, even if it's not directed at me. It's like being around second-hand smoke. I don't know if this sounds strange, but he also has a passive/aggressive quality while in the dysregulation.
It’s very true! I experience this too.
@@randapalfy9480 I am sorry to hear this! This behavior has been changing since we have both accepted Christ! Jesus is Real, and He through the power of The Holy Spirit will heal. Praise The Living God!
when you said “don’t resort to giving the silent treatment, storming out, or threatening the relationship” that’s all i’ve been doing & now i’m scared that the relationship won’t be the same
Patterns can change over time with effort and knowledge. ❤
Raised with two parents with cptsd and addiction. The funny thing is that I later got an addiction myself. Men with cptsd. I can feel the smell and the energy when I meet them. They remind me of home. I recognize a lot in what you write, I became fearful and avoidant. But worked many years with myself. The addictions I got. Was wanting to help men with cptsd. A long hard work on myself. Got ptsd and became fearful and aviodant. Never let go of myself. Became a doormat. But stop now. Am 49 years old now and want to be part of my own life. No more abandoholic. Took care of both my parents since I was 7. Now it's time for me to live. Will never be bitter. Get up and see this today as an experience. But the road there was painful. But had to go through it all. Got out Out of myself. Get to know myself. Lost myself at the age of 7. Now I am the main role in my own life.
go girl
My husband has CPSD. His parents were dreadful to him, and his mother remains false sugar and exploitative. His father has passed away. He also had some very traumatic experiences in past romantic relationships because he was involved with women like his own mother.
I had a loving, secure childhood, but suffer from severe hereditary depression and have physical handicaps. I also have ADHD.
We’ve been married 10 years, and been together and in love for 12.
He’s an amazing man who has done so much for us both, and I’m just in love as ever. We’ve conquered and survived trials that many WITHOUT our challenges would have given up on, and I’m proud of us both.
*However* he does have explosive outbursts and does blame me for his actions and feelings. Some of his words and actions are *totally* unacceptable.
I do my best to stay calm, and forgive him while ALSO holding him accountable. We have children and he’s an incredibly loving father.
The kids are part of the environment we create, which is part of why healing is so vital.
I need a support group. Who else out there has been in my place? What helped you?
Hii there. My boyfriend has cpsd and increased PTSD as well. Similarly in my case sometimes his words and actions are totally unacceptable and we both are still young so whenever I meet with him and hang out he behaves normal but when he is alone and empty headed he becomes triggered and blames me. I have noticed him being okay when he's companied and shown love to by actions but still it is so hard for me alone to help him heal
One of the best questions someone asked me is, "Okay, what do you need from me? How can I help?" That one question helped me to realize I was being heard but was not being clear. Plus, just knowing someone was listening really helped.[]
TH-cam was kind enough to show me this video today out of the blue and I'm grateful for that! You really helped calm me down and see that I am on the right path to help my wife! Thank you
Wow, I'm so glad you found the video! -Calista@TeamFairy
This made me realize my partner has never been supportive of my CPTSD… he basically bullied me into hiding my symptoms, he just didn’t want to deal with them, and he would get verbally cruel about them. “ANXIETY ANXIETY ANXIETY THATS ALL YOU EVER ARE!!!!” He screamed that at me as loud as he could while hitting his head against a steering wheel… when I realized his bullying had WORSENED my condition, it broke me deep down. I am currently weighing my options on if it would be worse to stay or leave
For me, being alone is so much better than to have someone that triggers me or doesn't care to understand. Having a pet is incredibly helpful and healing.
You deserve someone who supports your well-being. You deserve someone who supports you in regulating yourself. There ARE people like this out there and you will meet someone like this if you give yourself this chance. I know that a breakup is hard and will probably worsen your symptoms for a while but in the long run it will be worth it. Healing is only possible to an extent if your social system is not willing to grow with you ❤️
If he's a bully, it would be better to leave. Full stop.
Maybe you trigger each other
I love the mother of my children so much. I've asked her to try and help me understand CPTSD but she offered me nothing. She told me to just be calm speaking and when I was it didn't change a thing. I could never disagree with her without being told I'm "gaslighting" her. I always told her I heard her and accepted her feelings and opinions, but I was told by her that I never validated her. I did exactly as she asked, and somehow, I was still wrong. We are no longer together and not even on speaking terms. It's heartbreaking, to say the least.
It is not always easy to be partnered with someone with CPTSD, that's for sure. Feel free to contact us at hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com and our team will provide you with some helpful materials.
Nika@TeamFairy
I wish I'd had this information 6 months ago, you see I fell in love with a beautiful woman who is suffering from CPTSD and wasn't prepared for what was to come. I moved from the US to be with her in Scotland and it was 4 months of the best and worst experience of my life.
She endured a horrific childhood, one of 5 children, and one of the two girls born to the family. One of violence, abuse, alcohol, and behavior that can only be called insane, by her parents. A father who sexually abused her, terrified the family, beat her mother, and a mother who as a result of this abuse by her father, became nearly as monstrous.
I would love to be able to offer any support to her, but it may be too late.....as I said, I didn't realize the extent of the disorder until it was too late. I reacted as if she was navigating her emotions normally and not from what this disorder produces.
I often times didn't even know what set her off, I know now it wasn't even me most of the time. I have moved back to the US, but am planning on returning to Scotland with hopes of seeing her better prepared for what may come.
Try again with her 🥺 love knows no time
Please try again with her and be patient with helping her
Nobody comes close to me, as i reflexively push them away, the deregulation is too much for me. Only understanding ppl helps me.
It’s painful to find out that my wife (after 19years )actually had trauma from past and was in frozen mode the whole time ,I thought out relationship tried talking to her but seems like I was just pushed away …hoping things would change but without anything changing , there was a lot of things didn’t add up and finally when I couldn’t live with it anymore and snapped (her nor me being aware of the trauma being there)I was ready to leave she said something that helped me understand and help her through this trauma and now we are carefully working through this together and she’s getting better….one day at a time
Well done to you both. Sending best wishes and hope.
This is helpful thank you. I have CTPSD. It’s been hard on our marriage. I felt sad after an EMDR session and my husband said I should go to a rehab center or away while I’m processing trauma. This was really disregulating and heartbreaking.
We harm the once close to us the most. If you have diagnosed c-ptsd and medication for it someone should have told you the best method to help is individual therapy and if that does not work good enough it's indeed best to go into daythreatment or rehab so all responsibility and pressure is off you. Maby your husband senses you need that? You need to realise only you can find the triggers and how to calm yourself nobody can do that for you. How old are you? Do you follow any therapy? I have c-ptsd aswell, i was raised as a warrior beaten and locked up on daily basis, the rest of the time i got neglected, i got more beatings then food quite literally. I am very paranoid and with every emotion i don't like i get very angry but i manage to regulate most of it and it stays inside it was not always that way i've been locked up for aggression, i sometimes don't speak for days to avoid conflict, what i know for sure is that my wife and my children need to be protected from what i went through.
damn
mom says this to me daily
@@yoachim91i hope you’re doing well💙 honestly I don’t like when people say this to me or ask how I’m doing so I don’t mean it in that manner just saying that i’m thinking about you
@@howdyhow2 Thank you, that is very kind of you, i needed that. I am not doing so good, life is like an emotional rollercoaster to me most of the time, it's exhausting. But we got to do what we got to do. How about you?
I had someone who's enjoyed my disregulation. For you that making work with your partnership you are like super heroes guys
Thank you so much for your insights and wisdom. It's only in the last few years that ive been diagnosed with cptsd and its great to finally understand why my behaviours happen. Im not giving up and working on myself is now something i enjoy doing.
Im so lucky to have my wife of 17 yrs.
She does alot of what you recommend naturally . This will help her and myself so much .
Thank you.
Thank you so much for this video. This explained a lot of what I have been experiencing and how I can better support my partner with her cptsd.
Glad it was helpful!
Nika@TeamFairy
Thank you for helping me. My mom had a stroke, and it feels like her disregulation has become unbearable for her. I am trying to support my mom and my own CPTSD
has become extreme. I haven’t felt this way since I was a teenager. I get triggered too often. I’m doing my best to stay grounded so that I can be a support to my mom. I’m open to any suggestions if someone else has been in this type of situation with a stroke victim. Or any input at all is welcome. Right now I’m just taking it one day at a time. 🙏❤️
We're all sending you support :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Thank you 🙏❤️
Thank you for this video. It's been very hard. I have a habit of taking my partners feelings personally / taking on responsibility and it very much disrupts her ability to self-regulate. The symptoms are bad esp because of a toxic job she's taken. It's almost daily at this point where there's a "trigger spiral", and I have a lot of the techniques. In the moment, I tend to forget that she has CPTSD and i get all judgemental about why she's thinking about something in a certain way. When I remember, I definitely assume the role of the "fixer" and present, that's definitely created some barriers.
It's difficult emotionally right now and has been for the last 2.5 years, and she doesn't trust me to be a safe space, which hurts more than anything. I also think that I might have some symptoms of (more minor) CPTSD as well, which makes it doubly hard.
I definitely am very impatient about talking through things as soon as they come up, which creates more opportunities for trigger spirals.
Our love is so epic and so worth this work, and I really appreciate these videos to tap into to remind myself that it's not her fault, it's not my fault (even when I'm blamed), and my work is to stay stable, and create boundaries.
My next step is to create shared values and agreements about behavior that we can go back to during times like that.
Grateful for your wisdom. THANK YOU!
I do everything just make him happy , fell better. I love him so much
My girlfriend was in an abusive marriage for 7 years and I said something that triggered her and she asked me for space, should I worry I REALLY LOVE HER SHE IS A GREAT HUMAN BEING😔
it’s so hard to not take everything so personal, i love him but it’s starting to feel like i’m giving it my all and it’s getting exhausting
My fiancé recently got diagnosed with PTSD
and i want to learn as much as possible, i feel it’s important to know that..
especially when it’s the one you’ll live with forever
Glad you are open to learn more! I encourage you to watch Anna's videos from the following list:
• Don't Let Your Partner Blame You for Their CPTSD TRIGGERS
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• Is Your Partner Affected by Childhood Trauma? Here's What to Do.
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• Partner with CPTSD? These Tips Can Help Have a Great Relationship
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• If Your PARTNER Has CPTSD, You'll Want to WATCH THIS
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• Couples That Trigger Each Other's CPTSD Reactions: One-on-One Coaching with Anna
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• Fighting Doesn't Always Spell the End for Couples with CPTSD
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• CPTSD: How to Stay Regulated in a Relationship
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And if your fiancé is interested in taking any of Anna's courses, they are all listed in the description section under the video (click "...more" to open the section). We're here to support you both!
Nika@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Ok thank you 😇
I met my love aged 8 and again 3 months ago at my father's funeral. He is so worthy. Thank you for this video xx
I worked a lot on a dysregulated emotional state for over 10 months. I'm much calmer.
I've just discovered your channel..
Been in trauma therapy 3 years, had current lover for 2 1/2. I'm hoping this video helps him. Thank you
My partner and I both suffer from CPTSD. We love each other. I don’t think we want to be without each other. I’m in your course. He is not. He also has addiction issues. I hope with me getting to the next level of healing that he with see how helpful and her help as well. I encourage but I’m still learning how to do this and keep myself regulated
Why is this message so much more positive than the video 'when abused people can't love you back'?
I wish I watched this video when I was with my ex-girlfriend. I broke up with her because I didn't understand what was going on with me at the time. Now that I understand, I see things differently now. I was scared of the possibility of being alone forever but now I don't doubt that possibility anymore
Watching this to understand how to love myself, is this the right video??
I am showing this to someone very special to me, and I hope it will help her feel less guilty about not being able to fix me. Your videos have been sooooooooo helpful! I can now regain my agency and self respect by taking my healing into my own hands, and not imposing it on others. I am going through the best time of my life literally right now. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
My Wife has CPTSD and BPD and I love her with all my heart but it is a wild rider with ups and downs I studied for 4years to just try and understand why she is the way she is and I find out she had cptsd and bpd. I have ASD High Functioning and it makes it way crazy hard to understand we’re she was coming from but I fight through all the hard times and tried crazy hard to learn what was going on in her head note I am Nero divergent and think different then A Neuro typical person. So you could only try to understand how hard it is for me to think and talk about feelings in the same way as a person with CPTSD AND BPD. I LOVED HER MORE THEN ANYTHING AND STILL DO. Is it easy in anyway NO it is not but I will say this as a high functioning person With ASD she could never push me away far enough for me to ever leave her. She is my heart and I am trying to learn a way to cure CPTSD AND BPD not for me but for her. I hate seeing her pain and her pain after her spits and how she feels after.
What causes love? Because I can't imagine staying through anything. I can't understand what can make someone feel love when bad behaviour is there. Please explain what makes a person love another person and want to stay?
Make sure you have a line that your wife cannot cross. Self respect is sexy. Abuse can lead to more abuse. This combination of CPTSD & BPD with ASD is dangerous. Do your best to listen and understand. Imagine yourself in her shoes. But remember, you cannot heal her, even if you know how. Personally, learning how only made it harder for me to be around her. Only your wife can heal herself. All you can do is be supportive. But take care of yourself too, especially if she emotionally isolates and pushes you away.
I’m really grateful for your channel and particularly this video. I wish could have been exposed to your content sooner as I’ve filed for divorce a while ago against my now ex wife who has CPTSD.
As an empath with a low sense of self worth and lack of self love who deals with people pleasing and codependency, I couldn’t deal with my ex wife’s symptoms of dysregulation. It hurt too much for me, so much so that I would yell in response. Later on, I got diagnosed with major depressive disorder and I would experience suicidal ideation often. I wanted to help, but I believe my above mentioned traits of myself made it impossible for me to deal with it because I wasn’t secure enough in myself to objectively see and understand what was going on.
Now that my ex and I have had our space, physical and emotionally, and I’m recovering, healing, and growing from my negative traits of lack of self worth, lack of self love, people pleasing, and codependency, to establishing self love an acceptance of who I am and am recovering from people pleasing and the toxic empathy.
I’m actually really considering going back to support her healing and establish a new better environment for our children than we previously had since I feel more secure in doing so.
However, I speculate that she might not even want me back at all since I already abandoned the relationship. Also, healing is possible on her own, and she doesn’t need me in this regard. But I felt like the recent discovery for me of what really was going on, instead of our historic mislabeling both of us with either borderline personality disorder or covert narcissism or other kinds of gaslighting from both sides, really me inspired to go back, apologize for abandoning the relationship, share with her that I finally really do understand, at least intellectually and emphatically, what she’s going through and what I was going through, and be a genuine support through her healing even if it means experiencing all the things you mentioned in this video again, plus now the added layer of mistrust since I left.
I wonder if it’s worth the risk.
Currently, I can’t shake off the feeling that it is worth it.
This sounds really similar to me and my ex! I agree with you, I wish I could've found this channel sooner. I wouldn't say I'm an empath myself, but I took on a lot of responsibilities for my ex and it overwhelmed me. I people please, have low self-worth, and I have depression. I felt like his happiness was my responsibility and I think that was a really big lie to myself. Not a good base to form a relationship on. I tried to help, but I myself wasn't happy and ignored my own needs. I've got resentment 'towards' him and it sucks. He seems to think he has BPD, and he thinks I have it too. I honestly think we both just have C-PTSD. Now I'm taking time away from him after a messy break-up. Not bad, but messy. I can honestly say that I do want to help him and I don't feel pressured to. I just don't want to date him again.
Are you doing better now yourself? I'm asking as I've only just started recognizing some of these traits and behaviors in myself and am curious to know if, with work, improvement is possible.
@@bumblebunny I am doing better. I’ve leaned to self regulate via journaling (like my own modified version of the Daily Practice) and learned about attachment theory and attachment wounds that I had to heal from. Once I was able to confront certain profound attachment wounds that my inner child had, I realized how I was projecting my insecurities that stemmed from that onto all my relationships my whole life. It’s a realization that I’m ashamed of and regret, but it is part of my healing and emotional and psychological growth and maturity.
I didn’t end up getting back with my ex wife. She introduced me to her new partner who she plans on marrying soon.
I’m talking with someone but taking my time, trying to be more secure in my attachment this go around.
So, yeah. My ex and I are moving on, cordially coparenting our children. I’ve learned a lot and am still on a journey of healing and growth. I can only hope she’s doing the same.
I appreciate your reply.
Wow. Bless you. You are a very good human. You are worthy of love.
So I dont see myself like some of these examples. The one thing i did notice. I dont have regulation when my truama comesback. It only comes back when people break my boundries thats the only time. When i am on my own. I can regulate
Same
I'm listening to this so I can learn to love myself or believe that I can be loved because I secretly believe my CPTSD has run all my husband's away. Probably they were just abusive. But I feel if there are 'techniques' for loving someone like me then it can be done.
You deserve love, thinking you don't is a trauma driven belief that can be released doing this practice: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
-Cara@TeamFairy
Bless your heart girlie
I feel your pain ,@# I’m an empath , but have had 3 marriages …and wonder where does my CPTSD a play in … I’m loving 100% but as soon as I’m hurt I every to inner and highly hurt anger
So it was all your partners that were abusive and it wasn't anything to wIth your PTSD ? Really ?
Both me & my husband suffer from cpsd, I have learned to somewhat regulate myself but when he is triggered I find it especially difficult because he gets violent, not towards me but the furniture and other objects. He has been in therapy for over 20 years and I feel that have not helped him at all. Thank you so much for these videos.
I appreciate this video so much. I will watch it until I master it. I love my partner.
Thank you, for your love and support for us. While indirectly, creating a space to hear each other.
I have a friend, who Ive developed feeling for, i know is disregulated cause she told me. Not 100% she CPTSD, but there seem to be clues, such as her isolating. I know I have to be super patient with her, learning to be with her has been and interesting journey , more with my ADHD. I think she worth to be loved and be understood. I believe we all deserved to be loved. Im working along with my therapist, so I dont get injured along the way.
One of the biggest reasons why many people don't choose to be there for those with CPTSD is due to ignorance by definition. There is so much to know, and the "average" person doesn't care enough to know. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying they don't care, but it's not common for the average person to get involved in the psych space. Even then, a lot of people are also blinded by moralism, so even if they know you're troubled, it's nearly a 50-50% chance that they don't find the ends justify the means.
Encouraging growth and forgiveness is key. Granted, there are SO MANY of those out there who do choose to love and respect, and understand - kudos to them and those of you, or your loved ones, who do. My Fiance and I both developed this understanding and continue to try and learn more.
For context, I am ADHD, PTSD, and CPTSD. I thought I was borderline or bipolar and it took a really long time and years of therapy to boil it down.
What if both are victims of CPTSD?
How can healing happen!? Both are swirling out of control.
This video is aimed at a healthy partner helping the disregulated one…
You may want to watch this video, "Couples That Trigger Each Other's CPTSD Reactions: One-on-One Coaching with Anna": th-cam.com/video/-x8W4Wx0CUs/w-d-xo.html
Nika@TeamFairy
I have remained single for 27 years because I know that I am difficult to love and I don't ever want to be responsible for hurting anyone else again.
Past relationships partners either became violent with me or cried out of frustration.
My husband has CPTSD and is currently diss regulated my type of personality is that let me help you fix this problem kind of personality and I have come to know that my husband doesn’t want me to help him. He just wants me to support him but I didn’t know how to so here I am looking at this video trying to learn how to support him properly. I know that he needs time to figure things out on his own, but he hasn’t started his healing journey yet, but I’m grateful for this video because I’ve been trying to stand up for myself throughout his dysregulation, and it’s been causing a lot of fights between us.
Your husband should think about individual therapy and after a while have a session with you present if he allows it, you are not going to be able to help or support he has to do that himself with someone who is going to ask him nasty questions that you can't ask without fights. Also gives him the chance to talk about the fights he has with you private and learn from the psychologist what is a good way to react in those situations. I have c-ptsd, and one of the first things to learn is putting things next to you that you can't change and solve the problems you can solve, my biggest issue is extreme anger that i can't let out and nobody can help it's just a fact only the medication specifically for my symptoms flatten the worst and the rest i regulate myself in various ways, i read psychology books, i have a "century bob" boxing stand that get's his ass kicked all the time, i draw a lot because it put's my mind on another mode and breaks some of my worst moments even if i am at work. If he ever talks about going to a psychologist be very supportive of that.
Everyone who reads this is truly loved ❤
Thank you SO much for this video. It answered so many questions for me, although in my case I was looking for ways to support my mother, with whom I live, who I *know* has CPTSD and so do I. She is 79 and I have seen this brain fog, which made me worried that she has dementia, but I know she had a traumatic childhood. Now I need to be supportive while maintaining my own sanity. I'm so relieved to find some answers!
This is genuinely life changing.
I hope for my relationships future I can apply this absolutely amazing information to support someone who means everything to me. 😊
I'm sorry for my partner a TBI and this combined destroyed any chance. She has as well this PTSD from a narcissist mother and I love her before the concussions I was in control completely and now I just can't save us both and neither can she. I miss her she's my best friend she's the person I love more than anything
For me, it kind of was my wife's fault she has adhd and had a tendency to micro-cheat dopamine deficiency, which brought it back out after ot being dormant for years... So now, at 42, I am seeking professional help to get it under control. What made it tougher was neither one of us having self-awareness of our mental illness over the last few months we became self aware which has helped us tremendously.
Just started with a very lovely woman from my childhood. It's definitely something I had no idea/not much idea about, so I thank you for these videos it has already helped me understand so much more than I did before. I hope to help Her through the rest of her life ❤
What I find difficult is a connection where both parties have cptsd and only one has the awareness of it. Understanding them feels like enabling when they hurt blindly with no self awareness. Had to walk away.
Ugh, me too! After 10 years I just couldn’t do it anymore. He’s so smart too 😞
My girlfriend has severe DID and PTSD. She just began remembering everything and now she is just beginning to experience serious emotions and flashbacks and I just don't know how to cope with it. Thank you.
Anna has several videos about relationships with folks with CPTSD:
Don't Let Your Partner Blame You for Their CPTSD TRIGGERS
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Is Your Partner Affected by Childhood Trauma? Here's What to Do.
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Partner with CPTSD? These Tips Can Help Have a Great Relationship
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If Your PARTNER Has CPTSD, You'll Want to WATCH THIS
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Couples That Trigger Each Other's CPTSD Reactions: One-on-One Coaching with Anna
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Fighting Doesn't Always Spell the End for Couples with CPTSD
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CPTSD: How to Stay Regulated in a Relationship
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Julie@TeamFairy
Thank You sooo much for making such a difficult topic so easy to understand ❤
Thanks for watching and taking the time to comment :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Thanks for putting this out. God knows I could have used a family that understood these things but what would help me more is information about what you do when find your loved one have been using it against you intentional for many years through narcissism! I had distanced myself only to discover it was being used against me so its been hard to balance out since there such a sense of betrayal.
Dr. Ramini. ☮️💖👍
My ex husband was abusive (physically, emotionally, legally) and the person I’ve been dating started joking around saying I should stop being so mean to my ex, he’s a good guy. (I rarely speak about him but have discussed some of what happened to me). I told him it wasn’t funny and he doubled down and continued. I got up and walked out. He then said that if I react this way I need help and I snapped. Then I’m over analyzing my reactions to see if I truly did over react, but I don’t think so. Some people have no empathy for what others have been through
My mom has CPTSD. I love her and she be great. The issue I have as her adult daughter (I have 3 minor sisters who she's wonderful with) is that the support only goes one way. I have trauma too. It's way less, I don't even meet the criteria for PTSD, but there's no room for my trauma in our relationship if it looks different than hers. While she believes in working on her issues, she also makes sure to let us know if something triggers her and asks us not to do those things. I think that's perfectly reasonable, but if I try to do the same, she tells me that it's my issue to fix and refuses to make any accommodation for it or even validate my feelings. It leaves me constantly holding back in our relationship and I don't know what I can do about it. She's not part of my emotional support system and this point because she's not capable of it, but she's deeply hurt by that and can't understand why I won't open up.
Ptsd has denied me my whole life from even having any kind of relationship with any other person. I live a quiet life where I don't even speak words .I only communicate by texting a comment now and then..I'd be happy to just find a place to live that I can afford...kudos to anyone that suffers and at least has someone to talk to even better to have relationships..my life is a daily fight to just stay alive.ive never let anyone near me to say the words I love you...
Sending you love ❤
@@tripstaholic thanks for the thoughts. Bless u
“It’s not the fault of the person with CPTSD”.
It’s not their fault they were hurt and traumatized, but if they are disregulated and become mean and abusive - that is 100% their fault. I’m married to someone with CPTSD, it was all set-up from birth to 17, I didn’t meet him until he was 25 - yet when he is disregulated I’m the one he tries to hold accountable for everything. I think it is important that we recognize the abused often becomes the abuser.
I wish this video was about what they a partner COULD actually do, ie, listen, own up, apologise, not shut people down, not walk off mid sentence/abandon etc
🧠 TBI Fairy too. I had a wonderful childhood but suffer a lot of the same symptoms from a Traumatic Brain Injury. 🙏🏻Thanks❤
What symptoms do you suffer??
When I get dysregulated it often becomes drunk talk because I want to drink, and often do.
My wife and I are going through marriage counseling. She has childhood trauma that was never dealt with. I bought a different house and sold the one we moved out of so we didn’t have to live next to her dad anymore. She was spiraling out of control and was blaming me for everything that was wrong with her. I was so done. She finally agreed to get counseling and we are getting better but I still have my exit open if she refuses to admit I am not the entire problem. I am not one to cheat but I have other women who are sooo nice to me and actually like me. I am way too nice and put up with too much when I should have walked away.
Thank you for this, you have opened my eyes to a lot
Adhd meds don’t fix the trauma reactions. Adhd strategies for coping with lateness and organization help
I am so thankful for finding you ❤ Thank you for your work Anna 💕
What a kind thing to say! So happy to hear the channel has been helpful, thanks for taking the time to comment. -Calista@TeamFairy
I wish I could learn this as a child as my parents suffering from PTSD keeps on projecting it’s me that should fix them. Ppl with CPTSD should be educated to not blame others 😢
I love this video. It makes me wonder though what the differences are between CPTSD and borderline personality disorder which is treatable too.
I bet a million things are diagnosed where PTSD is actually the issue.
Yes please if you could help us understand this concern of bpd and Cptsd. In a not quite up to par executive functioning type of way. Your very good at that.
I diagnosed myself 4 years ago (and haven’t missed a day of studies with some branch)with bpd and it’s been confirmed by numerous doctors now and I have found a great teletherapy program called DBT of Lawrence, Kansas.
Just this morning I very uncomfortably had the opportunity though conversation with my 90th attempt at a relationship with my boyfriend to discover this….
Thank god he’s gotten more of a grip on his patience and own self over the last 35 years of trauma we were “blissful “ too and also all the new “memories” traumas we were adding to our lives.
Anyways, today was a breakthrough. A big breakthrough Involving anything in regards to intimacy. Wow. I’m mind blown and still a little on and off with the tears streaming during my thoughts coming and going. It hurts to know you are a hurt people hurting people. But I’m glad I’ve been working on self empathy for my inner child as I truly do believe that is the beginning.
Growing up i could see that my father was a raging mystery. We could never understand why he's like that, but we always knew that he had a bad childhood. Recently i started thinking that he can be a narcissist. But I found your videos and now i understand that he most likely has cptsd. But i won't even suggest that to him, he'll just take it as a criticism and get sulky, then ragy again. I'm still very hurt by his behavior and stay no contact. My older brother has symptoms of cptsd himself probably as a result of growing up with a parent like that. My dad made sure my brother isn't happy in his adult life, for that i cannot forgive him. My father MUST HAVE known deep down that HE needs to work on himself. I watch these videos in support of my poor brother, not to excuse my dad.
Sounds like a lot of mind reading going on there.