Toxic Shame & Emotional Trauma - How to Feel Enough
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I grew up in a home that looked "normal" from the outside - no alcoholic parents, no physical abuse, etc. BUT when you are repeatedly shamed and invalidated, gaslighted, neglected and ignored, you CAN'T live normally until you heal these wounds,but nobody gets it. People expect you to function at a normal level. I am 55, I've been in and out of traditional therapy for many years with little, temporary improvements. I have learned more on TH-cam over the last couple years than in all my years of therapy. Now that I know it wasn't my fault, I am finally starting to take the steps, to put in the work to heal. Thank you Michele!
I am 56 and I have suffered from toxic shame all my life. It has really hindered me. I never feel like I'm good enough for emotionally healthy men and I never feel good enough at work or when I'm trying to get a job. I've been trying not to be so hard on myself but it's really nice to finally have a label for it and to understand that what it is. I've always known who was the toxic parent. However, it took me until my 50's to realize she was a narcissist. I was really validated when my brother told me she was always jealous of me. I always thought that way but I never said that out loud because I thought it was ridiculous of me to think that. Thank you Michele. You have really helped me to understand my life.
@@kirstenvogel9620 I am doing better. Still working through things. Thank you. I hope you are doing well. That is so many people in your life. Do they all get along together? I can't imagine having that many narcissists getting along together. I was estranged from my mother for years. I lived with her for about a year after the estrangement. She has Alzheimer's. She is still a narcissist at her core though. I'm glad to be out of her house. I would recommend staying away from them. Unfortunately, narcissists are not capable of looking within themselves to be able to see what they are doing. They would not believe it. It is almost impossible for them to change. I hope you can find your own tribe. Family does not have to have blood ties. Take care.
Toxic shame I've never heard of this term but wow do I have it.
Same here and had a very horrible Mother's Day as well
Wish therapists I’ve seen in the past had known & acted on this...
It's resonating strongly with me aswell. For the last 3 weeks I've ignored my friends and wallowed in my misery. Today I start turning things around. Working through this toxic shame should make such a huge difference in my life.
the 3 actual steps / tips from the video start at 13:40 ...
1. start noticing it, how often it comes up to make it conscious.
2. feel it, do not resist, don't hate but validate that shame. don't treat ourselfes the way we were treated back then. compassion, accknowledge it. bc we were made to feel bad and were punished for many years.
3. self-love , give to us what we needed back then. once shame feels seen, heard, loved we can be ourselfes around others.
Thank you Michele. This shame is debilitating and seems to always be there like a computer program running in the background. Awareness is definitely the first step. Thank you!
Steven Huard Wish I could hug you. I have it as well.
Toxic shame should’ve been our last name. After dad died, I went no contact with the pitch fork brigade.
I’ve isolated for awhile now and I’m beginning to Self Actualize and becoming Happier. It all started with reparenting myself.
1: Know Yourself(Years of Gaslighting caused Self Doubt)
2. Stop Comparing Yourself to others(due to constant comparisons made by NMom)
3. Making and Maintaining Eye Contact(Anxiety caused by NMom and Covert Sis)
4. Smiling(Narc Family was offended by my happiness during childhood)
5. Setting Boundaries(This pretty much keeps toxic folk from entering)
Practicing these 5 steps has helped me to become the person I was always meant to be.
Me too! I feel free now. It took retiring & moving away, it was a good thing like a hundred pounds of bricks were lifted off my shoulders.
Doing something what works and is only 70% of perfect is still good enough. (Anything that was not 100% exactly as N-parent wanted was total failure).
The last one, people just don't care about my boundaries and they would just cross my lines even though I stated not to etc, how do I deal with that especially since it's family?
@@natashaaliven1548 Boundaries consist of three elements: 1. Say what you don't like. 2. Say what consequences will happen if your boundaries are not respected. 3. Execute the consequences if boundaries crossed. I guess you are missing one or two points that's why what you do doesn't work.
Exactly... So perfeccionist even Kate Moss would look like a cochroach in their eyes... Or Giselle Bundchen.. 🏃♀️🚮💣
Toxic shame has been running in the background my entire life raised by toxic mother. I always felt less than and never good enough. I remember earning a gold crest at middle school for the best girl athlete in my class and it felt fantastic to be validated as good. The mother withheld it from me, despite my repeated asking to see it, she never did. In adulthood she told me she threw it out. When you’re constantly invalidated by a toxic person, you are conditioned to devalue yourself. I’m reprogramming my beliefs, my core conditioning from birth, self validation and intuition are both connected. By trusting your gut instincts and believing in yourself, you can reprogram and uplevel. By deleting the conditioned unhealthy beliefs, deleting the outdated operating system of not good enough. And replacing with I AM worthy, I AM enough, I AM capable ❤️
Validate! So good. As a child you have no choice over the programming from the parental unit. Now, when the shame surfaces, I need to think, “No wonder you are here! How could it have been otherwise?” And give myself a shameless break
I never considered shame ..when Michele brought it up.. for some odd reason I first felt, comfort. I am so glad I found her channel .I always take something away..
Thanks, Michele. This is so helpful and I needed to hear it again.🌷🌺💕
I have to say it feels like I've been attacked since birth. Both parents were narcs, raped at 3, molested for an extrended period of time around 5 to 7. Almost died like 6 times. Husband was a selfish narc, later found a lover who I finally thought was it, nope he was a narc. Was so low energy I thought I was done for. But started Biofeed back.. My mind has starting to clear finally. Thx for this video. Living alone now, better than with all those people!!! Get out if ya can folks!!!
I've watched a lot of narc videos and explanations from psychologists and doctors. Out of all of them, you stand out for being so practical. So validating. Thank you, really, for sharing. Maybe you have the added benefit of seeing or experiencing non-western insights. Your angle is very, very valuable. I practiced self-healing techniques before I even knew what narcissism was. The talking with oneself and validating feelings is especially rewarding. That's acknowledging and allowing the feelings that come up. Not dictating from external sources (culture, family, etc) "permitted" feelings, but rather, understanding and exploring why we have them. I especially hate when people dictate "you need to forgive" to "feel" better. It's abuse even saying that to someone. The sick tell the normal, you need to be sick like the rest of us. Squash your feelings! I'm glad I didn't. I explored. And validated them. Of course healing can be lifelong. Stay strong folks out there!
This is such an important topic to bring forward. Thank you! For years l felt ashamed for just being me. It was horrible, as l could also never believe nor trust when people actually appeared to like me.
Michelle you are right on the money as always.
What do you mean
Thank you for this video. I always feel like having the feelings I do is me being crazy or too much . I am still healing to this day. Educational videos like this help a lot.
Hey, thanks for the video. Yesterday I was at the ATM and felt guilty for putting in more money because my business is doing well. My mom told me "You will always be poor", just like her. To make money and do well is to abandon her, and betray her, my primary care taker. Instead of pushing this shame away, I think this video does a good job of helping to understand you must validate it! Don't push it away...talk to it, and know it's ok for it to be there; but then re-parent yourself. So...I'm working on it!
Another home run! You look pretty Michele!
THANK YOU michelle for the validation & the reminder to be aware of the/ our subconscious..
I was un the generation of "giving ones opinion is "talking back"..
, arguing..
I continuously have my kids know by telling them word for word " you can tell me anything " & some kids worry of their parents reaction " you dont have to have to have the same opinion to tell me something.
I love hearing the "interanal dialogue ". I/WE aren't alone in this..
That's true and horrifying too. I fear going out for a walk, I always think what would other think about me if I'm this early at 4 for a simple walk. So I stopped going out. And when it's day, I don't want someone to see me. I like being in my room all day, listening to healing from trauma videos and whenever I'm asked to do some work, i do it immediately cause i don't want someone to scold me for not doing the work. My life is going fine, it's just me....who's not happy. Everyone thinks it weak and getting ill, but i don't know, everything's ok....if not then one day it surely will. Thanks for the advice Michele.....god bless you. You helped me alot!🌹♥️
Deep shame has taken a front seat and to hear you talk (several times) about "feeling there is something wrong with me" it makes it clear to me that I've been putting that track on repeat for so long that everything i do and say is viewed through this idea that im being seen as not enough, it has really stiffled me in every interaction (even with loved ones). I had a revelation recently and that boosted me for a few days but then got sucked straight back into this idea of everything im saying not being enough as if i have to always prove myself.
Only when we feel in our bones and keep hold of our inherent goodness can we get to a stage where nothing we do can be seen negatively as we are all humans and doing our best at the end of the day.
Hope everyone watching this can gain something from this
After watching your video I will try hard to get rid of my toxic shame
You put great photos. Showing you have overcome abuse is wonderful.
Introducing; Humility & Pride of the Seven Deadly sins. As well as the 7 Cardinal virtues for sincere internal growth. Would be excellent subjects to discover. Please. Thank You. Dr. JD
Great tips for dealing with Toxic Shame & Emotional Trauma. Thanks for the video Michele.
A very much needed video watching it was only so hurtful ... Please make more videos on this it's very useful. N m a student with almost no money under my narc moms control no body believes me she has a very good image I just feel helpless but thanks to these videos my life is muchhhhhhhh better than before love your videos.
That was yet another great video! I wish they taught this stuff in the public schools :( we would be such a better society if we could identify these traits in our younger years.. thanks Michele.
Well explained Michelle 🌺
Michele *stunning* Lee *gorgeous* Nieves. Hi from UK, chick with the beautiful angelic voice
This was the first time I understood what it means to Validate those Thoughts and Feelings, you know, have them in the present and sit with them, rather than Dissociate from them. It is uncomfortable and I don't like it but I acknowledge the need to do it. I suppose it just became easier and more comfortable to Dissociate all the time. My reality is uncomfortable.
Until it is not... Positive, lovely respectful treatment will totally transform this... And you are not alone... Each day at a time... 🌹
Wow Toxic Shame, Now that I know what I have been feeling, thanks. That feeling inside that has a label, that horrible hurt unworthy Sad unsure of self that is like a roadblock to be me to feel like I belong. Shame Truma. That poor little girl (me) I appreciate being able to be have the acknowledgement
I really really needed this video! I was just having a mental break down. I just came back from a very very LONG day with my narcissistic mother. Then I come back home to my narcissistic boyfriend. I'm really depressed right now because my dad passed away 2 years ago and it's his birthday in 3 days. He was the only positive person in my life. I have no other family or friends 😢😔 I'm really really trying to get through this. It helps not feeling alone and knowing that there's others going through it too 🙏
Do more on toxic shame... you did great at making sense of the structure of toxic shame .
Michele... You are brilliant and beautiful! Thank you for sharing you with us.. I love your work- you are making such a difference. XO
Exactly what i needed. That imposed shame has been my problem еver since i was a child and i've been working on it for a long time now. Several years. Your video is a great confirmation that i'm on the right track and you encouraged me even more. Thank you Michelle for the awesome video!
Well, that hit right into the feelz.
Any other mom's out there, who are still in a toxic marriage, that had a horrible Mother's Day yesterday like I did?
Just wondering if I'm alone in this.
Not alone dear. And we went to my mother's where I am banned from being my authentic self.
Mira Fawn, no, unfortunately you’re not alone on this one. I’m divorced. I have two adult sons and grandchildren, and it was just like any other day. I can’t say I was extremely disappointed since it’s been this way for several years now for any/every occasion. But, yes, I keep hoping and hurting. My birthday is in a couple of weeks, and needless to say, it’s the same, just another day! Understand, I was a single mother, working full time, made sacrifices for their extra curricular activities. Have invested in my grandchildren’s lives as well, but I’m just not worth anything to any of them!
@@mariamartinez5618 Oh my goodness my Birthday is in a couple of weeks too! And yes, it will be, much like Mother's Day, just another day.
Well damn, it's my "dream" to Divorce this man; Years of Narcissistic manipulative and toxic verbal/emotional/mental/financial abuse has resulted in stress-overload and I'm afraid it's all ignited a defective gene. I now have Multiple Sclerosis. *Shockingly* he hasn't been in the least bit empathetic or supportive towards my disease but rather, has somehow turned it around as though *he* is the victim 🤦♀️. I could go on. Well crap, has the father of these unappreciative now adult children of yours been in their lives (whispering lies / slandering your name)? That's definitely a big fear of mine, whether we Divorce or not.
Ridiculously, he's already playing immature and hurtful games to "turn them against me". Mind you, I became a Mother quite later in life. I became pregnant with my first, my son, when I was 36. He's now 6 years old. My daughter will be 5 next month. They are my everything and everything I do is for them. It feels like I have *3* children, my husband being the dismissive, short-tempered, arrogant Teenager 😑.
I used to be full of energy, vivacious and excited to have children one day to go on adventures with.
A recent "Ah-Ha" moment for me was realizing, as everyone around is complaining about how bored they are stuck in quarantine, is that I have been in quarantine since I became pregnant. No exaggeration. I used to try and visit a girlfriend but the texts every 5 minutes and being yelled at upon coming home made me give up. A short trip to the grocery store felt like a *vacation* but would get screamed at for spending too much money (which I cooked and then cleaned up afterwards) or, for taking over an hour. I *stupidly* moved to *his* home state under the premise of having help with the kids from his family, fun camping trips, blahaha. I can literally count on one hand how many times I leave the house (him driving in the nice truck he bought for himself) on one hand per year. Always just an appointment or Dr. Visit. Always resulting in me crying due to his incessant gaslighting and need to fight.
So yeah, needless to say I need to do something but I don't know what or how.
Good times.
Hey, I wish you a Happy Mother's Day ❤. You damn well deserve it. Often, through time, the truth comes out. Perhaps your children will wake up and see the reality of the situation. It's never too late. But I can just imagine how much it hurts right now and I am so, so sorry. Sending you Love ❤❤❤🌈🌷
@@mirafawn1019 OMG, guess I make #3... MY birthday is soon, too. Are we all May/Taurus women? ;) That said, after looooong-term, finally out &.... the same applies, sadly. Just another day & despite being TOTAL no-contact, no matter the baiting & regardless of me even having to come up with a ton of different ways to keep myself & our son (now, just.. of age) safe(r) & somewhere he cannot find..... he STILL manages to try & ruin any holiday in some way. Whether it's having a stranger try & reach out on FB, or in some other way.... a dig, an insult or just that pesky (?sp. thinking it might be 'pesty' now, idk. lol) gnat ya' need to shoo away.... he tries to impact. Leaving, I never knew the level of fkery that was about to ensue. The levels my dumb a$$ gave of benefit/doubt or thinking he'd do the right thing about, or... thinks no normal person would or should even have to consider or think about.... a huge mistake. Not realizing then, that him losing control & for once, NOT being able to hoover us right back in, via love-bombing, empty promises or blame shifting guilt..... would cause him to act as if all bets are off, no limits, discredit, smear my name... cleared ALL accounts, closed all 401k/retirement, stole from our son, destroyed things in our home EVEN... dropped son from insurance & hid the cars! Trying to MAKE us HAVE to come back... for survival. He even reached out to & somehow manipulated the few friends or family left, so they question me, my motives, words, intentions... they criticize, assume, judge... what they don't even know. All while (even if/tho totally have the means) leaving us, at our absolute worst & lowest moment, to fend for ourselves. Like you, after being the responsible one, worked since
@@mirafawn1019 I've always hated that my birthday is in the same week as mother's day.
Another great one from you! Very on point!
Spot on as always!!
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can’t wait to start applying these tips .
Needed this so much. Thank you
I love your videos. I am so grateful you share your experince and the tools to help us when we fall into being triggered with these things. You have really helped me.
Very beautiful what you said, and so true!
Thank you so much Michelle.
This video is very salient to me. Thank you.
Thank you so much for this!!!! 🙏
Toxic shame is what “killed” a budding friendship. This woman was NOT a narcissist. Most of my friendships have been with other narcissists, but this friendship started out on an even playing field, which I wasn’t used to (having been raised by a narc mother, where nothing ever was on an even keel). This friend treated me like an equal, but then our acquaintanceship devolved into her taking the “superior” role. However, I have to honestly say that I put Myself in that position due to my still dealing with c-ptsd, toxic shame, and emotional flashbacks. She must have sensed it because I never could fully just be myself when I was around her, and gradually I sensed a waning interest in our friendship on her part. Like you said, toxic shame can ruin your life if not properly addressed and healed. Thank you! Excellent video.
Gracias! Thank you for this video! I found it very helpful!!
Michele - you do such a fantastic job of explaining. I love listening to you! Been a refuge for many years! Thank you!
You are helping a family heal. Bless you. And yours. Amen.
Needed this today, thank you!
I love this !
Thank you!!!!!!!
This really helped me to understand what is wrong with me.
What sucks is that I've had toxic shame for years and never even knew it. Until I found out about narcissism. And now that I know about narcissism I know why I have shame isn't that sad? Somebody did this to me. I can't believe it.
Wow...im crying..I have been struggling with this and shame needed this so much but didnt know what to do about it. Thank you ❤.
You seem like a very kind and loving person. Thank you so much for your videos they have helped me a lot ❤️
Thank you Michele for a great video on the subject! I watched another video of yours a while ago that was about overcoming emotional flashbacks. I feel these two things connects and your advice was very similar in that video. I've been activiely following the tips you mentioned for about 3 weeks now and must say that I can already see huge improvements! I'm more confident now, have a clearer mind and feel at peace within myself in situations that previously would've caused stress or anxiety. Thank you so much!
I think this video may just have changed my life. Wow. Thank you!
Incredible helpful information! ❤
I really enjoy your videos on toxic shame. You have one from earlier this year and I have been applying these tools and my battle with toxic shame is no longer a battle and I see a way out! I will continue this process until it is finally released fully! 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻you have helped me so much
you're an angel
Thank you!
Thank you so much for this!!! This is an amazing video and I know this is going to help millions i continuously tell myself to shut up when I'm feeling uncomfortable
Thanks, Michelle! I am now at the stage in which I realize how cruel and fast and furious, I had let the world around me become towards me... I thought it was normal... I knew i should be careful with some people, and that some people had no turn back in their pathologies... What i didn t know is that contact zero is the only solution to heal all the devastation they leave along. These totally changed my world... No wonder i was feeling going round in circles... Now i understand i have to let go of the past... The mistakes they made... Well they pay for them... Finally i feel free from crimes i didnt commit, which is pretty much how toxic people let us feeling. Either on a day by day basis, or healing from childhood wound... Something finally made sense in my head that the problem was not me... So i can let go of guilt trips... My mom even told me she gave birth of me with so much pain... Gaslighting me one time i was confronting her... These people are trash... Why justify the evil ones? I know... They are tiring... What totally brought back all my energy was the self respect that brings the no contact... 🏃♀️🚮🌹
Read the book TA TODAY...it's about the inner child...😊😊😊
Michelle, I haven't thanked you often enough for your videos, guidance, support, and education. It has been a huge part of my healing. My current relationship was only 7 months, but the intensity + videos like your + supportive people caused an awareness or awakening. I am reuniting with my self, intuition, and source in an incredible way. Far from healed, but now aware of how from childhood it has been one relationship after another to varying degrees (51 years old). Thankfully I heal and my energy regenerates at a high level. Otherwise, there's no telling what mental or physical state I'd be in now. Point is I'm healing, I'm more aware, and I will be better than ever at some point. Again, thank you Michelle. Namaste and much love.
I sent this to my daughter, her mom is very hard on her!
Same here. It's hard to learn all of this when you were toxic shame as a child but also at the same time realize that you toxic shame your daughter. You wish to be able to forgive and be forgiven. Very hard place to be in life ):
Thank you for sharing knowledge about healing.. I love such videos more than those which only talk about toxic behaviours. Healing type of videos change focus from them to us which is required to be healed..
Thank Michele .
It's hard to acknowledge at first indeed. Spot on. That little thing you can't quite put your finger on. I had only been pondering this myself yesterday wondering what my block is!
I love you Michele❤
Thank you Michelle. Love from Robert xxx
I’m single you made this video. Thank you so much 🙏🏼
Very valuable knowledge.
Great advice! My plan was to quit my job in March, but then Covid came and I had the opportunity to work from home. It was a really good situation for me because I didn't have to be around my Narcissistic boss. Now we're back in the office and her and her flying monkey's are back to their old routine in tormenting me. All I want to do is quit, but there's a pandemic and I feel completely stuck. Everyone is saying to stay strong, but I'm back to crying all the time. What do I do?
Your timing... Just had a hugely, horrible weekend after i made a stupid mistake. A couple of evenings earlier, i heard the pathalogical, seriously toxic, violent narc next door kicking off big time, with her daughter (12) in there, afraid, but trying to be out of the way and calming her mother, who, once again, was angry at another partner, slamming doors and outrageously aggressive for hours, shouting like a thug to the person on the phone she was telling her side of the story to. It brought back flashbacks, and two days later, i made a mistake. I mowed the garden on a national holiday day. I wasn't thinking straight. And i overheard a nearby neighbour trashing me for it, but making me out to be all things bad. I've only spoken to her once in 14 years. But i heard she's not a nice person. This brought back flashbacks and memories. I took the closest neighbours to me, inc her, a bottle of wine with a note, stating I wasn't thinking straight after having witnessed violence the day before, and apologised for mowing my lawn on that day. I've been so angry at myself, i wanted to disappear. But i recognised that I'm still extremely reactive to what i grew up with. And of course, i was the object of shame from very young. From the off. I feel like I'll never be able to live away from shame, because it's all I've known. Anyway, i greatly appreciate your post, today, Michelle. Perfect timing. A lot to work through. Thank you!
you looking good Michele
Excellent!
I love your videos, Michelle. You are so gorgeous, inside and out!😘
Thank you
I felt as you described - wished I had never been born, etc. Seems silly now but I said 'I didn't ask to be born!' It used to hurt SO much to just keep going. I started having counselling when I was 15 years old & have continued to have counselling off & on & continuing now. I'm 50! I feel so much better about nearly everything! Just wish I'd known about narcissism, psychopathy, etc earlier but better late than never, I guess! Theresa
You really had the strength to endure tgat terrible situation and left. I want to leave but i have financial abuse and i have toxic shame. But i didnt identify with the abuser. I decided to go the opposite way. How?
Thank you. How do you handle seeing so many that are clones of your lifelong abusers? Same creeps, different names?
There are so many triggers
Cut them loose and again and again and again... Until these demons understand you are the boss now! 🙌💪
Detach. Set free. Do not stay around them. You have a choice
@@lesleygarvs4640 🙌🏽
Great insight into this topic....want to....and will watch this a few times and write down these things needed to be acknowledged!! (12 wks is a long course comittment time!) I feel like you need certain levels of coping to commit for that long.
I’m 33 yo and have been divorced 2 times. And I’ve had two children with two different men who are both uninvolved. I swear this is because I’ve NEVER felt worthy of a healthy And loving relationship. I was just happy to have anybody to be next to even if it was toxic.
Thank you for the video. I have this awful feeling almost all time, and it’s very hard. But people don’t understand , they think is your fault, that there is something wrong with you. But is a Sing of have been abused
I am suffering heavily from this, I have come to the point to constantly insult myself.
😔 lil by lil ive been working on this part of me on twitter.. its hard cuz soo many ppl usually try to silence stuff n tell others its not okay to be themselves ever or they did sumn wrong just cuz they were themselves.. its sucked cuz i cant even meet others ever cuz of others insecurities n them thinking theyre the only ones entitled to be happy ever.. it why i push others away alot.. they use guilt as a weapon or deflectionally project thier stuff as if it was me being the one who was doing it😔
I thank you so much for this. Now I know what’s going on inside my trembling body. I will keep working on myself. Is everything you offer to tone in free?
Never knew there was a damn word for this.
Honestly I'm much happier being alone during this lockdown than being 10 minutes in my mom's company...Just the idea of being in the same house as her for 2 months and nowhere to escape to. FOR THOSE LOCKED WITH THEIR NARCISSIST, HANG IN THERE, ITS ALMOST OVER!!! BIG HUGS TOWARDS YOU🤗
Wow just wow
I'm pretty sure I suffer from toxic shame. My inner monologue is certainly that I am an awful person. For me, it doesn't go back to my parents, rather 15 years in a marriage with a malignant narcissist. I don't feel like I am strong enough.
Thank you. I found very useful the work of Marisa Peer on feeling good enough. She has a TH-cam channel too.
I was adopted as a child so I understand why my parents didn't trully understand and accept the true me.
Throughout my life whenever I have used marijuana or hallucinogens this feeling of shame is intensified to the point of complete withdrawal. I experience intense shame. I always wondered why but now that I have experienced a couple narcissistic relationships, one for over a decade I am finally learning why. Thank you for teaching. I just wish it would go away. I just want to be happy in my own skin.
It’s me even though I know he is toxic I was shamed to my self. Blaming my self why give him all
I have limiting believes which must be dissolved.
I feel Everyone!!! Why?? Help me please
Why did the narc cross the road?
Because he thought it was a boundary.
Narcissism involves two ppl, n neither is flawless. The fact that this state involves tissue paralysis has cured in leaps after the reversal. Do not engage with toxic ppl. TY.
What if you have been living this so long that you cannot feel anything else much less knowing what feeling like yourself even means?