I totally agree with you. There’s nothing more settling to my soul than sticking to my routine and keeping consistent. Discipline gives you freedom ❤ Thanks for your comment
As a former substance abuse therapist, I STRONGLY encourage you to attend meetings daily, even if you can only do online. I was very concerned when you said you haven't been to one since you got out of prison. All this positive preaching is nice, but without the support of other recovering addicts & some humility you'll relapse.
Every time you find yourself annoyed with the "house arrest" restrictions, remember how it was in prison. Appreciate the limited freedoms you have....... once upon a time, there was no such things as "house arrest" and "early release'. When I find myself not able to afford to buy anything but cheap food, I think of what I was forced to eat "on the inside", and cheap canned spaghetti "becomes" the best fettuccine Bolognese I've ever had. Consider your life before prison, too...... you have it better now, and with your new perspective of life, things will just get better for you. Hang in there, boss.
Haha! You are totally right. It’s all relative. Everything I have now is luxury compared to other times. Just having my health and sanity after so much drug use is a miracle in and of itself. I appreciate your comment ❤❤
Hi! I imagine you already know this, but if for some reason you don’t, you can go to meetings online. I went to an online OA meeting that was like a three month thing for newcomers. I really happy for you. I know you’re gonna make it. Do it for the ones we’ve lost, like my son. ❤
I’m so sorry to hear about your son. I guess I should have known that there are online meetings, but it never occurred to me until you just mentioned it. Thank you for the tip! ❤❤❤
How does the ankle monitor work? Where are you allowed to go, and how often? How do showers work? I don’t mean to pry, but I truly don’t know about this area.
That laundry mat side trip though!!! You're adorable, Brian. Btw, the style, volume level, and even the existence of the background music is perfect. It is a nice touch and idk anyone else who does it on these types of videos.
🥰🥰 Thank you. I want to work more on the production stuff when I have more time to dedicate to it. I want to make videos where there is more stuff going on 🤔
How long was your prison sentencing and how long is your house arrest. You have special gifts to contribute to this world. Pls. stay clean.. There is so many people rooting for you. I am praying for you.
I love that you are able to talk your way through this with us. Look at all the practice you're getting to master bringing yourself back to reality. Over and over. Good or bad. Or originally perceived good or bad anyway....if that makes any sense. Always glad to see your face. You're absolutely a bright spot out here in You Tube Land
🥰🥰 you are a bright spot on my TH-cam channel 🥰🥰 Yes, this channel is actually turning out to be good therapy for me. Just making the videos forces me to get my head straight around everything. I love it. And you are the best as always 🥰
Loved your above the arm and below the arm demonstration - I really needed that today - not about taking drugs but about if I don't continue to do all the good things that keep me regulated, it's so easy to gradually slide further down. It applies to so many things. Thanks for making this channel - way to make the best of a difficult situation. I wish you the best.
You’re awesome! I’m glad that that helped. I never know how the things in my head are gonna come off 😅. Yes, I am realizing that addiction stuff kind of relates to everything else in life. ❤❤❤
You’ve gotta watch The Sopranos. If you haven’t already. There’s an entire b-plot where Junior is on house arrest pending and during his trial. You’d love it.
Oh my gosh. My friend has been trying to get me to watch The Sopranos forever 😅 Your comment may have done the trick to actually get me to start. Thank you ❤❤
Im with you bud, I was runnin n gunnin for awhile but went hard and early.. thankfully I made it out and mostly "unscathed" miraculously.. IV users will understand. I was on suboxone for years and switched to methadone recently. Very difficult stabilization but still good.. thankfully my actual career and family life came after the craziness, but the damage lingers and affected everything. Your story is interesting and I would be hard pressed to put my face out there talking about it. Stay strong
I love your explanation of the graph in addiction.. wow spot on my friend. Keep taking care of yourself… try not to worry too much about that date in September to get off house arrest.. you got this.. thanks for the video…. Have a great week… talk soon.. p.s. your hair cut looks great 💜
❤ Thank you Jen 🥰🥰 My sister came over and cut it for me. You are awesome. I know I came off a little frustrated in the video, but I actually couldn’t be happier with my life. It doesn’t matter what happens in September, I’m as content as can be ❤❤
I understand the excitement and the disappointment if all goes wrong. For now settle down and just work the program and be extremely grateful that you are not sitting in a jail cell. Enjoy little things like a fresh breeze and the sun on your face. Have faith it will happen when it's time. ❤
I appreciate your comment. I know I seemed a little frustrated in the video but I actually couldn’t be happier these days. I’m absolutely loving life! Your encouragement is so helpful and means the world to me ❤❤ thank you so much
@@SmilesforMiles2024 I am glad you are feeling better and that you are looking forward to your future. I do understand how you can be extremely frustrated though - you can say you are in limo, stuck in a holding pattern of sorts and secluded from others. No need to apologize - that's how you feel. Although it's not easy to do I hope you can appreciate the little things in life that you are able to do - some of the things that were taken away from you when you were locked up. Please don't get discouraged no matter what your time will come. I just pray you will be ready for it when it happens. I'm curious are you working? Also is it possible for you to apply to get your nursing license back in the future? Please take care of yourself. ❤️
I'm relieved to hear you talk about this issue. It's far too easy to allow intense feelings of anger and disappointment as an excuse to say "f-it!" and allow your lizard brain to start running the show again.
@@SmilesforMiles2024 I had never looked at it quite that way before seeing this video. Thank you so very much for sharing that insight. It's been very helpful this past week.
Something I've learnt that I've keep pretty close is "get to > have to". Reframing your perspective every now and again just changes how life feels. You do this really well - like "I get to do laundry" instead of "I have to do laundry". I wonder whether there might be room for a bit of that, should the house arrest news not go according to plan. Not to get caught up in toxic positivity or anything, but really as a hack to see certain things a little bit differently. If you're curious about the idea, check out Mel Robbins.
I have no idea how I found this channel, but it is outstanding. And even if I have never walked a mile in your exact shoes, when I am NOT taking care of the things I can control, like myself and my health, and instead not eating right, skipping yoga, watching too much Netflix instead of working on my creative writing, etc., I experience this exact thing you describe! You are very relatable and informative and encouraging!
Thank you so much for your kind words ❤❤. I am starting to realize that the more I take care of what I can control (myself), the more OK I am with everything that is not in my control. It’s actually a really fun way to be in the world 😊😊
Sorry, I Know This Is A Stupid Question, But Can You Go To The Doctors, Supermarket, ETC. I Just Discovered Your Channel. I Am No One Important,But I Am Sure Pulling For You, And Thay All Goes Well Thru The Summer. Hang In There. Greetings From🌴San Diego.
Have you considered hiring a Consultant to help facilitate your release (someone who knows what you need to do to get paroled)? Crossing your fingers and hoping may not be enough. I’ve never had experience with a parole board. But…since you are incarcerated for drugs and you were using IV drugs wouldn’t the parole board want to see evidence of ongoing sobriety? 12 step meetings, therapy, aftercare. Wouldn’t they want to make sure you have developed and utilized resources in your community (obviously while abiding by the constraints of house arrest)? Wasn’t that the point of getting house arrest (besides just getting out of prison)? Will maintaining a job, meeting with your parole officer, being a good boy with your ankle monitor be enough to get you released?
So true, we learn to live basic and look after ourselves and have boundaries! However as we go back into life we have to fight all arounds us and remind ourselves where we were and we aren't going back there! Thats what keeps me sober! Never going back to being stripped of everything! So excited for you and yes prepare for either but i know you will be fine! Your amazing keep going and we fully support you! 🎉
That’s such a good point Janice! It’s easy to not go back when we know how little there is to be enjoyed doing all of that over again. Too much suffering. No thanks, I’m good on all that for one lifetime ❤❤❤ you’re awesome!
You are doing such a great job Brian! Remember there is a light at the end of the tunnel and you are determined to get your life back together,if any negative thoughts enter your mind try to practice positive self talk,think about all the things you are thankful for in your life. Thanks for sharing your story with us and your honesty,you are giving inspiration and hope to others.
It gives me so much inspiration to read your comment. Thank you so much ❤❤. To be honest with you, even though I might have sounded a little negative or resentful in this video, I couldn’t be happier or more grateful to be exactly where I am today ❤ You are awesome! Keep being awesome 😊😊
Hey, you are inspiring. It is brave for you to tell your story. Are you going to get your license back. It would be cool if you talked about ur nursing experience.
Hi Brian, your very welcome for the Super Thanks donation. I am inspired by your hard work to improve yourself and you seemed to have really learned your lesson to not go back on drugs. With your thoughts on your possible release from House Arrest in Mid September I hope that works in your favor. With people being released from Prison early for good behavior, I hope they take that into consideration for House Arrest as well. I think it is in your favor that they trusted you to go out on House Arrest fairly early and you got to be out of the jail environment for the rest of your sentence. One suggestion I would have for when your are released, is that you have a plan to keep you busy and surrounded by people that you trust and are looking out for your best interest. It will be important especially at first to make sure you are in the best and encouraging environment possible. It is important to stay out of any environment that can tempt you to cause any relapse. No need to worry about these types of videos I enjoyed hearing about your current situation.
Thank you for all of that. You are awesome! Yes, I definitely pretty specific plans for how I’m gonna work things in my life as I transition out of this circumstance. I am so fortunate to have so many wonderful and supportive people in my life. I couldn’t be more blessed, and I am so excited to keep on the healthy path, with good people all around me. It was so good to read your comment. I so appreciate your wisdom! ❤❤
You have a new subscriber from the UK keep it up Bro you have come along way and just try to appreciate what you have got, rather than what you have not take care wishing you all the best. ♥️
Thank you so much! ❤ I hear you 100%. I get a little annoyed with the system sometimes, but honestly, I couldn’t be more grateful for my life today 🥰 I appreciate you subscribing! I still can’t get over how far away from me some of you are 😄
Hi Brian I viewed a different episode from this. I was intrigued by your experience of the American prison system.Congratulations on being 'drug free'' please please don't relapse. You are a very intelligent guy and you come across as having a lovely personality. I've just completed a UK degree in Psychology and about to undertake a Masters course in Forensic Psychology so I have a particular interest in experience of prison life. I'd like to know if I'm not prying or likely to cause you upset how and why you became involved in illegal drugs. Well done again with your intentions to remain drug free.
Brian: Thanks for sharing this helpful way of thinking about your life. You experience and express what the Stoics (Epictetus) taught .. if we focus on what we can control we can be successful no matter what are the outside circumstances (what we cannot control) They contend that this is the path to happiness.. developing our character and choosing our actions. Your Mindfulness practice helps you focus and have the equanimity more often to just let be what you cannot control. I have no doubt that is a way of thinking and living that leads to happinees.
6:26 “if you stop working on yourself…” diet, schedule, screen time instead of meditating - wellbeing decreases gradually until it’s so bad that drugs actually sound helpful. This feels similar to bipolar disorder. If I don’t sleep, get movement and nourishment, then my brain starts gradually making cocaine (mania). Sleep is not optional, and I have to use every tool I have to get to sleep. On that note, good night 🌙
I somehow came across one of your videos the other day and I have been trying to catch up since then. I’m really glad you decided to start a TH-cam channel! I’m sure “public opinion” can have its ups and downs, to say the least. I hope everything altogether exceeds any expectations you might have had when you started this whole journey. Sending you lots of positivity and best wishes from (very) small town Louisiana 💞
Brian thank you so much for your time. I’m not on house arrest but my car is being fixed and I have no way to go anywhere and it’s been this way for a while. I have to ask friends for rides to go anywhere. Stuck at home, and I’m currently not working because I broke my neck last summer and then got super sick from a stomach ulcer. Boom boom! I have one surgery tomorrow. Nervous which is why I’m up now watching TH-cam. My life isn’t very good right now and I really am enjoying what you are sharing. What should I do? I’m limited with no car and I’m really sick right now. What would you suggest that I can do to not hate my home? Boredom is taking over. I used to always always work and be busy and now my body is failing me and nothing can get better until my surgeries are done. I can’t control anything until my surgeries are done. Maybe I just need to pray… I’m not super religious but maybe prayer would help me. Thank you Brian for putting out content! ❤
I’m 7 years 10 months sober from alcohol and 1036 days from kratom. I’m an AA person and love it, but I have learned some great principles from your perspective and experience that have really helped me think of recovery in a new way. Im trying to implement some of these new ways of thinking in my journey and will keep coming back to hear more! Thanks for being here.
It was so cool to get a shout out! Thanks Brian :) I don’t know if you saw my other comment on ur last video, but I’m 28 and this is the first time I’ve ever commented/engaged on here. Everything you’ve put online has resonated so much with me & made me want to connect with you & the community you’re creating. Plus I think I have a lil crush on you hahah don’t ever doubt that you matter! P.s. your song covers are great you’re super talented!
Wow! Thank you Lauren! Well, I have a lil crush on your name 🥰🥰To be honest with you, I’ve never engaged on any social media before I started this channel! 😅 So we are in this together!!! You are so kind, and awesome, and sweet ❤❤. Thank you so much for engaging with me. It really means the world to me ❤❤
@@SmilesforMiles2024 Well that could very well be true but I bet $$$ you don’t want to go out with someone probably older than your Grandma. I do love the slots though and I know you live in Reno.
Oh my goodness. You are too kind. Sorry for the late reply. I didn't realize that these were here until just now. You are awesome. Thank you thank you!!
Hi Bryan. Former addictions counsellor here. One of your videos landed in my feed. I watched a couple, including your first one. I think sharing your journey out loud to help yourself and others is fantastic and I’m sure you’ve learned a lot about yourself in the process already. I will pray for you in this time of self reflection and ongoing recovery. Keep it up. 🙌🏼
Truly? Do you feel online telling or teaching others all about early sobriety is a good thing? I am curious. Learning about the spiritual principle of anonymity is a vey deep road. Online, in this format, I do not believe should be how one learns about themselves, make money, or pass his time. I have not heard one time about a sponsor, either.
@@lynnees9828 considering he’s on house arrest, I’d say this is better than nothing. And it’s his choice to be anonymous or not so I’m not sure why that should bother anyone. By talking out loud and sharing, it’s allowing his brain to process what he’s learning. Yes, going to self help groups in person will be helpful when he can do that, but there’s nothing wrong with what he’s doing. Everyone’s journey looks different and what works for one person may not work for another, and that’s absolutely fine.
@@amberweiss3815 Agreed, yes. I was educated by old timers and learned truly about anonymity, is all. There is a reason it is said it is the spiritual foundation but you are right, not everyone follows or is a friend to Bill or Bob. Everyone has their own path. Thanks for answering.
Brian, congratulations on reaching 5,007 Subscribers. I think it speaks highly of you as a person and your determination to be successful in your recovery journey.
I somehow stumbled across your channel the other day, and instantly I knew you just speaking about your journey past, present, and future is going to help more people than you realize. Keep doing what you’re doing ❤️
If luck factors in, you sure have plenty of that because I’m positive you have a LOT of well wishers. I’m curious if you have a parole officer or something of that nature that checks on you? I’m a bit surprised they haven’t explained a process to you
What do you suppose will happen after you do get off the monitor? Will there still be restrictions and/or regular and surprise urine testing, a curfew, a requirement to find and keep employment, or any other such things? Do those rules and limitations vary for each individual, or is there an established program for parolees to follow? Also, do you think you would be allowed to ever work in the heathcare field again if you chose to do so?
The hardest part is behind you, you’ve achieved sobriety- you did something that many die trying. Let that be your strength to face no matter what. Your behavior and attitude screams success. Let your YT channel be your distraction ❤
Attended the day you knew your downfalls, and you should’ve never became a nurse to be able to take care of people. You knew you had stressors before you were even a nurse and you put peoples life in your hands because you are selfish at the end of the day. And everyone wants to make excuses for you saying oh everybody has problems. Have problems on your own and not take peoples life in your hands.
Hey sorry if this is a bit of a silly question but like, can you explain what you're allowed to do on house arrest? Like I am assuming you can go out to get prescription drugs or go food shopping? Is the ankle bracelet confined to say, not alerting until you are 5 miles from your house? Who is allowed to visit you and is there limitations on that? Thank you in advance is the ankle monitor on all the time or can you take it off sometimes? like what if ur leg itches??
Remind yourself to BREATHE. One thing jail/prison will teach you in spades is PATIENCE. A healthy dose of self-discipline will keep you safe.
I totally agree with you. There’s nothing more settling to my soul than sticking to my routine and keeping consistent. Discipline gives you freedom ❤ Thanks for your comment
As a former substance abuse therapist, I STRONGLY encourage you to attend meetings daily, even if you can only do online. I was very concerned when you said you haven't been to one since you got out of prison. All this positive preaching is nice, but without the support of other recovering addicts & some humility you'll relapse.
Every time you find yourself annoyed with the "house arrest" restrictions, remember how it was in prison. Appreciate the limited freedoms you have....... once upon a time, there was no such things as "house arrest" and "early release'. When I find myself not able to afford to buy anything but cheap food, I think of what I was forced to eat "on the inside", and cheap canned spaghetti "becomes" the best fettuccine Bolognese I've ever had. Consider your life before prison, too...... you have it better now, and with your new perspective of life, things will just get better for you. Hang in there, boss.
Haha! You are totally right. It’s all relative. Everything I have now is luxury compared to other times. Just having my health and sanity after so much drug use is a miracle in and of itself. I appreciate your comment ❤❤
Hi! I imagine you already know this, but if for some reason you don’t, you can go to meetings online. I went to an online OA meeting that was like a three month thing for newcomers.
I really happy for you. I know you’re gonna make it.
Do it for the ones we’ve lost, like my son. ❤
I'm sorry you lost your son. Sincerely I am. Can't imagine.
I’m so sorry for your loss,God bless you
I’m so sorry to hear about your son. I guess I should have known that there are online meetings, but it never occurred to me until you just mentioned it. Thank you for the tip! ❤❤❤
Meetings can fill up the toolbox for when life gets lifey. Every one is different - you can take what you need and leave the rest.
How does the ankle monitor work? Where are you allowed to go, and how often? How do showers work? I don’t mean to pry, but I truly don’t know about this area.
That laundry mat side trip though!!! You're adorable, Brian.
Btw, the style, volume level, and even the existence of the background music is perfect. It is a nice touch and idk anyone else who does it on these types of videos.
🥰🥰 Thank you. I want to work more on the production stuff when I have more time to dedicate to it. I want to make videos where there is more stuff going on 🤔
How long was your prison sentencing and how long is your house arrest. You have special gifts to contribute to this world. Pls. stay clean.. There is so many people rooting for you. I am praying for you.
I love that you are able to talk your way through this with us. Look at all the practice you're getting to master bringing yourself back to reality. Over and over. Good or bad. Or originally perceived good or bad anyway....if that makes any sense. Always glad to see your face. You're absolutely a bright spot out here in You Tube Land
🥰🥰 you are a bright spot on my TH-cam channel 🥰🥰 Yes, this channel is actually turning out to be good therapy for me. Just making the videos forces me to get my head straight around everything. I love it. And you are the best as always 🥰
Wishing you all the best Brian. For your future in maintaining sobriety and for your TH-cam channel ❤
Thank you so much. I really appreciate you taking the time to write that 🥰🥰🥰 you’re awesome.
Loved your above the arm and below the arm demonstration - I really needed that today - not about taking drugs but about if I don't continue to do all the good things that keep me regulated, it's so easy to gradually slide further down. It applies to so many things. Thanks for making this channel - way to make the best of a difficult situation. I wish you the best.
You’re awesome! I’m glad that that helped. I never know how the things in my head are gonna come off 😅. Yes, I am realizing that addiction stuff kind of relates to everything else in life. ❤❤❤
You’ve gotta watch The Sopranos. If you haven’t already. There’s an entire b-plot where Junior is on house arrest pending and during his trial. You’d love it.
Oh my gosh. My friend has been trying to get me to watch The Sopranos forever 😅 Your comment may have done the trick to actually get me to start. Thank you ❤❤
Im with you bud, I was runnin n gunnin for awhile but went hard and early.. thankfully I made it out and mostly "unscathed" miraculously.. IV users will understand. I was on suboxone for years and switched to methadone recently. Very difficult stabilization but still good.. thankfully my actual career and family life came after the craziness, but the damage lingers and affected everything. Your story is interesting and I would be hard pressed to put my face out there talking about it. Stay strong
You are super, and thanks.
Oh my goodness Nate ❤❤❤ you shouldn’t have! 😊 You’re awesome. I love you.
Keep yourself safe, continue meetings 😊 love hearing the authenticity of your journey
You got this!
And your hair looks nice 🤗
Awe 🥰🥰🥰 Thank you! My sister came over and cut it for me 🥰
Good stuff brother keep strong ! God bless 🙏
Thank you so much. You’re awesome for commenting ❤❤❤
Are you half Asian? Did you go to federal or state prison ?
You’re espousing 12 step recovery. Meeting makers make it.
What happened to your marriage?
I love your explanation of the graph in addiction.. wow spot on my friend. Keep taking care of yourself… try not to worry too much about that date in September to get off house arrest.. you got this.. thanks for the video…. Have a great week… talk soon.. p.s. your hair cut looks great 💜
❤ Thank you Jen 🥰🥰 My sister came over and cut it for me. You are awesome. I know I came off a little frustrated in the video, but I actually couldn’t be happier with my life. It doesn’t matter what happens in September, I’m as content as can be ❤❤
Stay humble life can come in through the back door.
Have a plan of what u are going to do if it doesn’t happen
I understand the excitement and the disappointment if all goes wrong. For now settle down and just work the program and be extremely grateful that you are not sitting in a jail cell. Enjoy little things like a fresh breeze and the sun on your face. Have faith it will happen when it's time. ❤
I appreciate your comment. I know I seemed a little frustrated in the video but I actually couldn’t be happier these days. I’m absolutely loving life! Your encouragement is so helpful and means the world to me ❤❤ thank you so much
@@SmilesforMiles2024 I am glad you are feeling better and that you are looking forward to your future. I do understand how you can be extremely frustrated though - you can say you are in limo, stuck in a holding pattern of sorts and secluded from others. No need to apologize - that's how you feel. Although it's not easy to do I hope you can appreciate the little things in life that you are able to do - some of the things that were taken away from you when you were locked up. Please don't get discouraged no matter what your time will come. I just pray you will be ready for it when it happens. I'm curious are you working? Also is it possible for you to apply to get your nursing license back in the future? Please take care of yourself. ❤️
I'm relieved to hear you talk about this issue. It's far too easy to allow intense feelings of anger and disappointment as an excuse to say "f-it!" and allow your lizard brain to start running the show again.
Thank you for your comment. I want to be in a mental space where nothing outside of myself can be enough to make me say “f-it” ❤
@@SmilesforMiles2024 I had never looked at it quite that way before seeing this video. Thank you so very much for sharing that insight. It's been very helpful this past week.
You can be really proud of yourself, you have come a long way. Keep up your awesome effort.
Thank you! You are so kind to say that. I really couldn’t be more grateful for where I am today ❤❤
Something I've learnt that I've keep pretty close is "get to > have to". Reframing your perspective every now and again just changes how life feels. You do this really well - like "I get to do laundry" instead of "I have to do laundry". I wonder whether there might be room for a bit of that, should the house arrest news not go according to plan. Not to get caught up in toxic positivity or anything, but really as a hack to see certain things a little bit differently.
If you're curious about the idea, check out Mel Robbins.
Yeah, finally knew video. And congrats on 5K subs.
Thank you! I really appreciate that! 😊
It's Great that you're aware of the pitfalls...you've got this!❤
You are awesome! Thank you for the encouragement. It’s just lovely ❤❤
You are awesome as well...I love watching your channel and how you're making something positive out of what you've been through❤
I have no idea how I found this channel, but it is outstanding. And even if I have never walked a mile in your exact shoes, when I am NOT taking care of the things I can control, like myself and my health, and instead not eating right, skipping yoga, watching too much Netflix instead of working on my creative writing, etc., I experience this exact thing you describe! You are very relatable and informative and encouraging!
Thank you so much for your kind words ❤❤. I am starting to realize that the more I take care of what I can control (myself), the more OK I am with everything that is not in my control. It’s actually a really fun way to be in the world 😊😊
Sorry, I Know This Is A Stupid Question, But Can You Go To The Doctors, Supermarket, ETC. I Just Discovered Your Channel. I Am No One Important,But I Am Sure Pulling For You, And Thay All Goes Well Thru The Summer. Hang In There. Greetings From🌴San Diego.
Have you considered hiring a Consultant to help facilitate your release (someone who knows what you need to do to get paroled)? Crossing your fingers and hoping may not be enough.
I’ve never had experience with a parole board. But…since you are incarcerated for drugs and you were using IV drugs wouldn’t the parole board want to see evidence of ongoing sobriety?
12 step meetings, therapy, aftercare.
Wouldn’t they want to make sure you have developed and utilized resources in your community (obviously while abiding by the constraints of house arrest)?
Wasn’t that the point of getting house arrest (besides just getting out of prison)?
Will maintaining a job, meeting with your parole officer, being a good boy with your ankle monitor be enough to get you released?
One day at a time, Brian. And keep the faith. I’m sure things will go your way.
So true, we learn to live basic and look after ourselves and have boundaries! However as we go back into life we have to fight all arounds us and remind ourselves where we were and we aren't going back there! Thats what keeps me sober! Never going back to being stripped of everything! So excited for you and yes prepare for either but i know you will be fine! Your amazing keep going and we fully support you! 🎉
That’s such a good point Janice! It’s easy to not go back when we know how little there is to be enjoyed doing all of that over again. Too much suffering. No thanks, I’m good on all that for one lifetime ❤❤❤ you’re awesome!
I wish I could do a super thanks honey when I get life together I will❤
You are doing such a great job Brian! Remember there is a light at the end of the tunnel and you are determined to get your life back together,if any negative thoughts enter your mind try to practice positive self talk,think about all the things you are thankful for in your life.
Thanks for sharing your story with us and your honesty,you are giving inspiration and hope to others.
It gives me so much inspiration to read your comment. Thank you so much ❤❤. To be honest with you, even though I might have sounded a little negative or resentful in this video, I couldn’t be happier or more grateful to be exactly where I am today ❤ You are awesome! Keep being awesome 😊😊
You’re in a great state of mind. Keep at it.
Comments like this make it easy to stay in a great state of mind! Thank you ❤❤❤
Man, listening to you has been a huge motivation, hope all is well
Hey, you are inspiring. It is brave for you to tell your story. Are you going to get your license back. It would be cool if you talked about ur nursing experience.
Damn, I’m early
Yes...i thought the same thing when i got on here. And why do we think this is noteworthy? Idk...humans are weird.
You’ve been doing so well. Can’t wait for you to be out!
Great analogy using your arm to describe psychological states, very accurate.
🥰 Thank you. That’s very kind of you to say 🙏
Super thanks?
Do you plan on trying to get your nursing license back?
What do you plan on doing for work if it’s not nursing? 🤔
is your sentence finished if they take off the monitor? or do you still have to do something like community service?
Good reminder of focusing on what you can control.
It’s all we can do ❤❤ Thank you for your comment
Thank you for being very inspiring!
Thank you so much!! You are too kind ❤❤ Thank you for inspiring me 🥰🥰
Thank you for making such helpful and insightful content. Fantastic work.
Thank you so much! I just saw this! Sorry my reply is so late. Much appreciated!
Hi Brian, your very welcome for the Super Thanks donation. I am inspired by your hard work to improve yourself and you seemed to have really learned your lesson to not go back on drugs.
With your thoughts on your possible release from House Arrest in Mid September I hope that works in your favor. With people being released from Prison early for good behavior, I hope they take that into consideration for House Arrest as well. I think it is in your favor that they trusted you to go out on House Arrest fairly early and you got to be out of the jail environment for the rest of your sentence.
One suggestion I would have for when your are released, is that you have a plan to keep you busy and surrounded by people that you trust and are looking out for your best interest. It will be important especially at first to make sure you are in the best and encouraging environment possible. It is important to stay out of any environment that can tempt you to cause any relapse.
No need to worry about these types of videos I enjoyed hearing about your current situation.
Thank you for all of that. You are awesome! Yes, I definitely pretty specific plans for how I’m gonna work things in my life as I transition out of this circumstance. I am so fortunate to have so many wonderful and supportive people in my life. I couldn’t be more blessed, and I am so excited to keep on the healthy path, with good people all around me. It was so good to read your comment. I so appreciate your wisdom! ❤❤
You have a new subscriber from the UK keep it up Bro you have come along way and just try to appreciate what you have got, rather than what you have not take care wishing you all the best. ♥️
Thank you so much! ❤ I hear you 100%. I get a little annoyed with the system sometimes, but honestly, I couldn’t be more grateful for my life today 🥰 I appreciate you subscribing! I still can’t get over how far away from me some of you are 😄
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My son recently lost his step brother to an accidental heroin overdose. He was 21. Thankyou for sharing
You are inspiring. You would make a great recovery counselor.
Wow! Thats such a nice thing to say. Thank you 🥰🥰 Once I’m done with the confinement stuff I just wanna do whatever I can do to be the most helpful. ❤
Hi Brian I viewed a different episode from this. I was intrigued by your experience of the American prison system.Congratulations on being 'drug free'' please please don't relapse. You are a very intelligent guy and you come across as having a lovely personality. I've just completed a UK degree in Psychology and about to undertake a Masters course in Forensic Psychology so I have a particular interest in experience of prison life. I'd like to know if I'm not prying or likely to cause you upset how and why you became involved in illegal drugs. Well done again with your intentions to remain drug free.
Brian: Thanks for sharing this helpful way of thinking about your life. You experience and express what the Stoics (Epictetus) taught .. if we focus on what we can control we can be successful no matter what are the outside circumstances (what we cannot control) They contend that this is the path to happiness.. developing our character and choosing our actions. Your Mindfulness practice helps you focus and have the equanimity more often to just let be what you cannot control. I have no doubt that is a way of thinking and living that leads to happinees.
I wish you luck. I know the date is fast approaching. 👍🏻🇨🇦
6:26 “if you stop working on yourself…” diet, schedule, screen time instead of meditating - wellbeing decreases gradually until it’s so bad that drugs actually sound helpful.
This feels similar to bipolar disorder. If I don’t sleep, get movement and nourishment, then my brain starts gradually making cocaine (mania). Sleep is not optional, and I have to use every tool I have to get to sleep. On that note, good night 🌙
Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out!❤
Thank you so much! You are awesome ❤
@@SmilesforMiles2024 I share out to over two million people! I hope it helps.💯💞
@@SmilesforMiles2024 Thank you! You are the Awesome One! I’m sharing out with over two million people. I hope it helps.💞
I somehow came across one of your videos the other day and I have been trying to catch up since then. I’m really glad you decided to start a TH-cam channel! I’m sure “public opinion” can have its ups and downs, to say the least. I hope everything altogether exceeds any expectations you might have had when you started this whole journey. Sending you lots of positivity and best wishes from (very) small town Louisiana 💞
Brian! ❤
Brian thank you so much for your time. I’m not on house arrest but my car is being fixed and I have no way to go anywhere and it’s been this way for a while. I have to ask friends for rides to go anywhere. Stuck at home, and I’m currently not working because I broke my neck last summer and then got super sick from a stomach ulcer. Boom boom! I have one surgery tomorrow. Nervous which is why I’m up now watching TH-cam.
My life isn’t very good right now and I really am enjoying what you are sharing. What should I do? I’m limited with no car and I’m really sick right now. What would you suggest that I can do to not hate my home? Boredom is taking over. I used to always always work and be busy and now my body is failing me and nothing can get better until my surgeries are done. I can’t control anything until my surgeries are done. Maybe I just need to pray… I’m not super religious but maybe prayer would help me. Thank you Brian for putting out content! ❤
Don’t worry, they will let you off ;)
I think they will probably too, but if not, ehh 🤷♂️, everything will be just fine ❤️
Hey Brian, I wanted to ask you , did you or do you have any family support?
I’m 7 years 10 months sober from alcohol and 1036 days from kratom. I’m an AA person and love it, but I have learned some great principles from your perspective and experience that have really helped me think of recovery in a new way. Im trying to implement some of these new ways of thinking in my journey and will keep coming back to hear more! Thanks for being here.
Your amazing
No, YOU’RE amazing ❤️❤️
It was so cool to get a shout out! Thanks Brian :) I don’t know if you saw my other comment on ur last video, but I’m 28 and this is the first time I’ve ever commented/engaged on here. Everything you’ve put online has resonated so much with me & made me want to connect with you & the community you’re creating. Plus I think I have a lil crush on you hahah don’t ever doubt that you matter! P.s. your song covers are great you’re super talented!
I’m too old for him but he’s adorable
Wow! Thank you Lauren! Well, I have a lil crush on your name 🥰🥰To be honest with you, I’ve never engaged on any social media before I started this channel! 😅 So we are in this together!!! You are so kind, and awesome, and sweet ❤❤. Thank you so much for engaging with me. It really means the world to me ❤❤
@@Melissa-y2uI’m probably older than you think 😉
@@SmilesforMiles2024 Bless your heart!
@@SmilesforMiles2024 Well that could very well be true but I bet $$$ you don’t want to go out with someone probably older than your Grandma. I do love the slots though and I know you live in Reno.
Gràcies!
Realmente lo aprecio! ❤❤
Thanks!
Oh my goodness. You are too kind. Sorry for the late reply. I didn't realize that these were here until just now. You are awesome. Thank you thank you!!
I hope it goes well for you with the parole board! Thanks for sharing your story:)
Thank you! I appreciate you being here ❤
No zoom 12 step meeting?
Hi Bryan. Former addictions counsellor here. One of your videos landed in my feed. I watched a couple, including your first one. I think sharing your journey out loud to help yourself and others is fantastic and I’m sure you’ve learned a lot about yourself in the process already. I will pray for you in this time of self reflection and ongoing recovery. Keep it up. 🙌🏼
Or sorry. Maybe it’s Brian. 🙃
Truly? Do you feel online telling or teaching others all about early sobriety is a good thing? I am curious. Learning about the spiritual principle of anonymity is a vey deep road. Online, in this format, I do not believe should be how one learns about themselves, make money, or pass his time. I have not heard one time about a sponsor, either.
@@lynnees9828 considering he’s on house arrest, I’d say this is better than nothing. And it’s his choice to be anonymous or not so I’m not sure why that should bother anyone. By talking out loud and sharing, it’s allowing his brain to process what he’s learning. Yes, going to self help groups in person will be helpful when he can do that, but there’s nothing wrong with what he’s doing. Everyone’s journey looks different and what works for one person may not work for another, and that’s absolutely fine.
@@amberweiss3815 Agreed, yes. I was educated by old timers and learned truly about anonymity, is all. There is a reason it is said it is the spiritual foundation but you are right, not everyone follows or is a friend to Bill or Bob. Everyone has their own path. Thanks for answering.
Are you dating anyone?
Brian, congratulations on reaching 5,007 Subscribers. I think it speaks highly of you as a person and your determination to be successful in your recovery journey.
I somehow stumbled across your channel the other day, and instantly I knew you just speaking about your journey past, present, and future is going to help more people than you realize. Keep doing what you’re doing ❤️
If luck factors in, you sure have plenty of that because I’m positive you have a LOT of well wishers. I’m curious if you have a parole officer or something of that nature that checks on you? I’m a bit surprised they haven’t explained a process to you
What do you suppose will happen after you do get off the monitor? Will there still be restrictions and/or regular and surprise urine testing, a curfew, a requirement to find and keep employment, or any other such things? Do those rules and limitations vary for each individual, or is there an established program for parolees to follow?
Also, do you think you would be allowed to ever work in the heathcare field again if you chose to do so?
The hardest part is behind you, you’ve achieved sobriety- you did something that many die trying. Let that be your strength to face no matter what. Your behavior and attitude screams success. Let your YT channel be your distraction ❤
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I just found you today. Are you leaving the house working as a Nurse during this time? Thank you!
Attended the day you knew your downfalls, and you should’ve never became a nurse to be able to take care of people. You knew you had stressors before you were even a nurse and you put peoples life in your hands because you are selfish at the end of the day. And everyone wants to make excuses for you saying oh everybody has problems. Have problems on your own and not take peoples life in your hands.
You should have learned as a child that if you don't have something nice and encouraging in a comment you should not write anything at all.
This was EXTREMELY helpful. Thank you so much!!
Hey sorry if this is a bit of a silly question but like, can you explain what you're allowed to do on house arrest? Like I am assuming you can go out to get prescription drugs or go food shopping? Is the ankle bracelet confined to say, not alerting until you are 5 miles from your house? Who is allowed to visit you and is there limitations on that? Thank you in advance
is the ankle monitor on all the time or can you take it off sometimes? like what if ur leg itches??