Why I Don't Think of Myself as Being "In Recovery"
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I was addicted to opiates and Adderall throughout my 20's. From Vicodin, to Suboxone, to kratom. After many attempts at quitting I will be 4 years sober this year. I have held the same perspective about my "recovery", seeing it more as a healing journey that eventually leads to a thriving life well lived. And it has. I am so grateful for what I went through, and for the darkness that had a hold of my heart and mind. But today I am free. No one can tell me different. It was refreshing hearing another sing the same tune. Thank you for sharing ❤️
It’s so refreshing for me to hear from you as well. I was expecting a lot of hate from this video but I knew there were others out there who must have thought about it like this. So awesome to hear that you have 4 years under your belt. I hope to be there soon myself 🙏❤️
These stories are inspiring from many perspectives. Thank you.
What is kratom?
@@June-tb4viYou can Google it. Most of us who have used it and stopped refuse to promote it in any way. It can have some negative consequences for sure.
I think once you truly DECIDE you’re done (not just decide…. but DECIDE) and you experience that "shift" that you talk about…. then there’s no going back to using. You can call it recovery. You can call it anything. It doesn’t even need a name. You just know.
I wholeheartedly agree with you. And I certainly have no problem when people refer to that as “being in recovery.” I have just found it helpful for me to think of it a little differently. Thank you. I love the distinction you made between deciding and DECIDING. That really resonates. I found that once I DECIDED, it also came along with a refocusing, a real engagement with other things that were more important to me. And with that new focus the fear I had around drugs fell away and instead I just was no longer interested in them in any way. ❤️
Happy that you have recovered from the compulsion to use, that often comes after choosing to stop. That lingers
It definitely lingers for a quite a while. At least that was my experience. When it finally fell away it was so exciting because it was replaced with this excitement for all of the other possibilities, all of the other options I had to refocus on what really mattered to me in this life. Thank you so much for commenting 🙏🙂
The very first paragraph of the Foreword, in the Big Book, states "recovered" twice. After 13 years now, I am recovered. It took a couple years to get that way. In fact, I rarely mention my "past" at all. I simply dont drink, and dont use drugs of any sort. A Buddhist monk also helped me early on. Good for you!
I am so happy for you. I have found Buddhist philosophy and meditation practice to be an indispensable part of the way I am moving forward. I love that. Thank you so much for sharing ❤️
No one right easy to Recover, JUST RECOVER! 🙏🕊️
Personally I think that Everyone is Addicted to Something.
Your honesty is going to be a great asset for you. I wish I had that shift in my mind, I’ve always felt like I needed relief from my own thoughts.
I find you so incredibly inspiring. In one of your videos, you talked about keeping promises to yourself even if they are small promises. That really stuck with me.
Oh my gosh 🥰 it warms my heart to read this. I find inspiration from comments like this. Thank you so much ❤️🙏
I’ve been sober from the exact same substances as you, since 4/20/21🖤 so my 3 years is coming up. Love all of what you said🫶🏼🩷
That's very inspiring... Means we can do it!!
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4/20 😂😂😂
Wise words. Recovery is possible. After recovery to a physical and mental homeostasis then continued growth through hard work patience and continual compassion towards yourself and others happens. I am so glad to have gotten 4 1/2 years of therapy, thank you Washington State. It's like what a very older wise counselor told me when I was 25 he said you guys are lucky you're here at a young age and an ability to do something about your issues work on them and be able to grow and make the changes in your life possible to have peace with yourself and others. Very very wise old Vietnam veteran who had put the time and work into his own life.
our past is our greatest asset. AA Big Book. We are recovered! The obsession has been lifted. ❤
Your channel randomly popped up on my feed… fascinating story! I’m currently “cleaning up” my life. Mental framing has been huge for me! A challenge everyday but we continue trying to be better ❤️ peace and love to everyone on this life journey
Thank you so much for watching and commenting 🙂 it is challenging at times, but I’m having so much fun reworking the way I frame everything. May you be happy and inspired on your journey as well ❤️
Sending love andpeace
funny, you remind me of Happilyeverhanks, both which ‘were’ ICU trama traveling nurses now full-time YTers traveling in their RV!
As a occupational therapist in training your opinion about recovery is very interesting for me. Thank you for sharing!
I really appreciate you saying that. I am still working through this things day by day and am just sharing my thoughts. All I want to do is learn and grow as much as I can and share my experience 🙂❤️
Congratulations on all of your progress.
Keep going
Algorithm is crazy .. thanks for this video !❤
Thank you for watching 🙏
I appreciate hearing your perspective on this! Framing ia so important and has such a profound effect on our life!
Thank you so much for taking the time to write this. It motivates me so much to hear your appreciation. Thank you thank you 🙏
Proud of you praying for you 🫂🙏🏽🫶🏽 you got this 💪🏽
You’re awesome! Thank you so much ❤️🙏🙂
I like your thinking, it makes sense and I imagine I would be the same but for the moment I’m not sure I’ll ever be ‘recovered’ but hey time will tell! Haha! One thing that confused me when I started recovery was people always seem to count the days whereas I don’t, I’m not really sure why… My Counsellor says it’s completely normal and not everyone does it so don’t read too much into it 🤷🏻♀️
Thanks for sharing your story 😊
love the honesty and being yourself. appreciate your story and desire to help others 😁
Thank you so much for watching and commenting. It means a lot 🙂
Thumbs Up 👍 and video shared out!❤
thanks for this vid :)
Thanks for your comment! 🙂 I appreciate you ❤️
I understand what you're saying and It makes sense to me. All of the videos I've seen of yours contain powerful and unique messages. Your perceptions are unlike the average Joe and is refreshing. It is clear to me that the Universe or Whoever or Whatever decided a while ago how They are going to use your journey to benefit others. You did a great job clarifying your aversion to dictate "what works for everybody" and were quite classy in your delivery, imo. Hugs and much love to you!
I am already getting a smile on my face when I see that you have left a comment, even before I read it. You always have the most kind and thoughtful things to say and it encourages me so much! I hope to fulfill what you said. I am feeling more and more prepared to start living in a way that benefits others. That seems like a good way to spend my time here in this life ❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏
@SmilesforMiles2024 Absolutely! It is encouraging to me to see your responses because I know you are getting/reading my comments! I think the day is coming soon when you may not have the time or opportunity to reply as often as you do now, so I'll enjoy it while it lasts! As always, hugs and love, Melissa
@@My2centsarenecessary that time is rapidly approaching it seems. But if I can find a way to search for you in the comment section I will! 🙂🥰
@SmilesforMiles2024 that would make me happy. Do you have a fb for this channel? That's the only social media I do. I could also find you there if I feel you're not getting the positive vibes you deserve. Not in a stalkery way though. 😊
@@My2centsarenecessary I don’t have one for the channel. Maybe I should make one. I’m bad with social media. I have a Facebook but i don’t use it much. Brian Collins on FB 🙂
That’s how I feel. I’ve been in recovery since 2009. I have had no relapses and I will never ever do opiates again. Ever.
Totally agree about the importance of framing… it’s always made me sad to hear people describe themselves as a “chronic relapser” because that assigns ownership and identity to the relapse instead of the part of themselves pursuing sobriety. Anyway, I think you’ll find lots of folks in 12 step who use the “recovered” terminology, even the literature uses the recovered terminology. After 15 years, I’m no longer active in 12 step but still identify with being “in recovery” similar to being in remission but still not cured. The addict is still in there but it’s just feeding on a more healthy diet (only now I call it a “passion for running” lol 😂)
11:49 I got tangled up in hard drugs, and all I can think of recovering is the innocence, and that can not happen. I saw what I saw I know what I know, cant undo it.
I agree. We definitely can’t undo what we saw, what we did, or what we know. It’s a huge learning experience, but that experience can make us so much more aware of so many new ways to approach our lives and our relationships with others. Thank you so much for commenting 🙏🙂
Love what you’re doing, man! The concept in this vid really resonates with me, because I’ve done a similar thing. I’ve always referred to it as a ‘strict abstinence policy’, but that doesn’t really explain everything to the approach. I’m going to share your perspective on my channel if that’s cool? Hope u have a good day :)
I would be honored for you to take whatever you want to share on your channel. AND I’m gonna check out your channel! Thank you so much for watching and commenting ❤️
@@SmilesforMiles2024awesome, thanks!!
Hearing you talk about Kratom makes me want to try it.
But all urges pass if you let them.
"all urges pass if you let them." So true. So much wisdom there. I appreciate your comment
I wouldn’t suggest it, there’s some studies coming out about Kratom and kava and stuff showing that long term use can cause liver damage.
I take 3g of Kratom TID for pinched nerve in my neck. I take a steroid pack Q6-12 months when it gets really bad. Does this amount of Kratom alarm you? No other daily meds.
I wonder if the term "emerging" might work?
Song you should check out “Sun Bleached Flies,” by Ethel Cain. ♥️
It is puzzling how drugs are available in prison.
No offense but it's really not you have a lot of drug users in there and people coming off drugs and people that are very desperate to get drugs and so they will find any way to get drugs in their believe me I know. Even the staff sometimes are in on it to some point and almost every institution not every staff member but there's always one or two usually. I am not saying this to criticize your comment at all I'm just saying how it truly is inside. May peace be with you 🙏
To first detach, only to be faced with your horror again, and then deny it resolutely, and be aware of the importance of continuous maintenance of the proper order of things. Inspiring.
12:06-12:13 😂😂😂😂
12:25-13:00 well said. There are many people who identify with "recovering" and this is just where they stop. Forever.
14:00 I don't mean to be a prick in this, but the word empower is whack. People have the power, they don't need empowering. The very idea is self-defeating.
I appreciate everything you said here. You have insight. I love your comment. I like your perspective on the word “empowered.” You just helped me clarify my relationship to it. Thank you for that 🙏
I’ll give you something to recover from
Love you Jolie ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Hi Bryan. Nice to "meet" you. Thank you for sharing. Just commenting to support you and bolster the algorithm.
Jackie in GA, the Southern grandma aka PrissyHippie
Thank you for your support 🥰 and for commenting and watching 🙂 it means a lot to me. It’s nice to meet you too. You’re in Georgia! That’s so cool!
Did you go to classes?
Did the prison help with withdrawal? I wonder do they care or are you a number...
Never once you did drugs in prison?
If too personal its ok to ignore me ✌
Some do, some dont. Its more common today to have staff that assist with opioids specifically due to the increasing numbers of addicts. Having a clinic and Doctor you already get maintenance drugs from helps also, then you could possibly get a script sent while incarcerated if they stock and dispense it. I personally had to dry up in a cell cold turkey, it sucks and I dont recommend it at all.
I like thinking of it this way. Yeah, you might need programs and systems initially but after? I don't want to be 60 something on methadone. I don't want a lifetime of meetings and talking about how I was an active addict. I'm on drugs now & my life doesn't revolve around them that much! All posting on Facebook about how long they have off drugs - funny enough, a good percentage of those people get back on later. There's so much in life that has nothing to do with them so unless it's tied to your job, it seems so limiting to get stuck in that phase.
I think there are drugs...and drugs.
Does that make sense?
Say it with me. Cunning, baffling, and powerful. Your return to use is way more patient than you. Check back at year 5.
Keeping newly recovering addicts in fear is imposing YOUR will upon them. Knock it off.
I will check back with you in 5 years, and you can say “I told you so” 🙂 thanks for your comment 🙏
At year 5 he will have figured out how to manage urges and dismiss them. It’s all about what he has in his toolbox.
They lessen overtime.
Even if urges are strong they will ALWAYS pass if you let them.
If I’m isolated and don’t stay connected to my support system that’s when I’m most susceptible to succumbing to the power of Cunning and baffling.
Also, a support network doesn’t have to “recovery” related.
@@MsRotorwings I am so blessed to have an unbelievable support system 🙂. Thank you for sharing that ❤️
I've sincerely and desperately gone to so many meetings and have been given horrible advice by "my sponsor". I had three sponsors in a row relapse - well, the second guy got a young woman pregnant and bounced - what any good man does... He's dead from an OD now. The third guy I relapsed with. He had 5 years, working the steps. Then there was the big book thumper with 20 years who blew his head off... Is that recovery? I want it to work, but I think the people that it works for probably also could've done nothing and would stop using. There's no rhyme or reason, either one stops and suffers or not. I stopped counting the days but I suffered my way through polysubstance dependence.
This guy is a CON. He’s not in recovery or clean and sober of his own volition. He’s a convicted felon who got caught. And now he’s entertaining people with stories. He’s dangerous. He claims he could get his nursing license back if he wanted to. In some cases this is true. I certainly wouldn’t want a convicted felon taking care of anyone I love. Recovery requires courage and humility and self honesty. He’s fooling everyone especially himself. Once he’s free I’d bet anything he uses again. Don’t bother responding to my comments. I won’t ever be on this irresponsible site again. Do snark amongst yourselves.