Thank you so so much for this. I've lived a large part of my life in terror. I was raised by a very mentally ill mother. I was told she never picked me up or held me. She was also filled with rage and cruelty so I feared her all the way up to her last breath. I don't feel like I'm inhabiting the right side of my body and I've also suffered from severe tremors most of my life. I've been unable to write since early middle school. I now believe that my body just didn't wire properly due to neglect and the constant terror I felt growing up. I'm nearly 60 now. I'm hoping I can feel like a fully integrated human being sometime before I die.
Thank you so so much for this. I've lived a large part of my life in terror. I was raised by a very mentally ill mother. I was told she never picked me up or held me. She was also filled with rage and cruelty so I feared her all the way up to her last breath. I don't feel like I'm inhabiting the right side of my body and I've also suffered from severe tremors most of my life. I've been unable to write since early middle school. I now believe that my body just didn't wire properly due to neglect and the constant terror I felt growing up. I'm nearly 60 now. I'm hoping I can feel like a fully integrated human being sometime before I die.