I’m a 74 year old guy who had a kundalini awakening at 31. Many retreats and many more awakened moments but never yet able to overcome myself, my negative ego, my karma I’m old enough, experienced enough to know better and be better. Been climbing the mountain and rolling the rock up like Sisyphus only to have it and me end up in the valley again, again and so on. The last high energy attempt was October of 2019 during a retreat that may have crushed me for the last time. You see near the end of the retreat I gave a massage to a woman that she viewed as assault which led me to a four month jail sentence and thirty years of unsupervised probation. Five years ago I thought I was at a point of break through of lifetime patterns of isolation, self hate and more but that was not to be. I don’t see a way forward but I do more often turn my negative thoughts over to the field, the void, the angels. Even now sharing this with the world is another example of letting go of the shame, blame and punishment.
@@CanadianDrifter777 I glad that you gained a little from my overlong sharing which may also be tmi. Keep hoping maybe in my next breath I’ll get it or more likely at my last one. A psychic reader said I would live a long lonely life and l’m thinking when my old dog dies so will I.
I just went through what you're speaking about this past week, every time I watch one of your videos, I feel like this is the answer to the next step, it feels so soothing, and it resonates with me in a way I had not yet experienced, until now, so much gratitude to you, beyond measure!
This is hard to contemplate when you are the caretaker. - I’m not exactly sure I have my own life. - I appreciate your words of wisdom. I do take to heart what you have to say.
My big physical challenge is others control my money! I am about to change that! When I do I will be able to spend my money as I wish, which means I can attend retreats, which I need desperately! I am living in the US, I was relocated by hurricanes, I am a citizen, but don’t belong here, at all. 5 years of much time alone, art, gardening, and self healing and development. Just two months to go, Imagine I am 67….but within I am free, still the visions, the dreams, the calling, the messages…I need a tribe, a guide, a human to help me thru these times. Blessings to you, and thank you. Sofia
Very revealing Message. TUSM Ralph. You make good sense. Feeling the frequency of higher calling. Know there’s more in this life & going for it. Shamanic techniques, especially Inca Peru after visiting Machu Picchu Sacred Ground changed me. It’s amazing & know I lived there in. A Past Life. TUSM again! Resonating 💎💯🌺🌠
thank you for sharing this message, it means a lot to me to hear someone describe a similar experience. I had those extreme panic attacks and also had a tough time trying to go to sleep for several weeks, it became so extreme that even meditation was impossible, I finally got better and now I am grateful for the experience as it rid me of dualistic beliefs that were holding me back
I have indeed lost everything over the last two decades, which has forced me to change. I believe I have changed, but still feel fundamentally stuck. It's as if there is some invisible force attached to me that keeps me from reaching the peak. I am no longer in the valley, but the peak seems to get further away.
You have such a way of phrasing things! It’s so clear, Ralph! It’s like you are walking around on the inside of my soul! Thank you! Much much much love from Michigan
Extremely traumatic experience did bring me into a crash in health from all the heavy energy but that led to awakening. One point I thought there wasn't a end to all the problems but as I sat meditating I saw a image of a elephant so I started searching for it and immediately I was directed to Ayurveda and Lord Ganesha. These unprocessed emotions, thoughts and illnesses are called Ama. 15 years can bring radical change internally and at some point change has to become external and even that can start another level of growth and understanding. I had a great therapist that was more forward thinking than traditional in her practice and understanding and its a great space to receive validation and support. It takes time. Funny I seen roses growing around me in a dream so I bought some seeds a year ago and I tried everything to get them to sprout. I gave up on them basically and just let nature take its course now they have sprouted and of course it takes years to see the flowers doesn't it lol.
I keep hearing that suffering and trauma are catalysts for growth and change - and it pisses me off. I am here to find a different path for expansion. 💙✌️
Noone said that it's fun being stuck in a muddy swamp of trauma and hardship. But fighting your way through the mud and slowly inching towards dry land makes your muscles grow big and strong. By the time you've finally made it out if the swamp, you will be _much_ stronger than anyone who never had to walk through it. And if me saying that pisses you off... good! Anger is much better than apathy. Allow the anger to energize you and bring out the warrior in you. Use it to your advantage and keep on walking through the mud, towards freedom. You got this! 💪
I may be wrong, but it sounds like you're not in it at the moment? If that's the case, then from this neutral standpoint, choose a different path when the option arises. Through mindfulness, discernment, and intention, the challenges that arise will be in direct correlation to your growth, making things happen for you and not to you. Any unhealed trauma obviously has to be dealt with, but once that's done, happy trails. ❤
Thank you Ralph. I saw this video 3 hours ago and its like you have read my diary. I have never written diary though so its even more strange. Its sonn 2 a clock at night and i feel kind of restless and released at the same time.....yes i am more sensitive and I kind of are changing too fast.... Contact you in some days. God bless
been through this …. countless times. even when you know. the “how” to heal, it is challenging….. but doable. boundaries, healthy habits, and choosing yourself first … always , then it extends to others. thank you for sharing your wisdom, experience & gifts ✨✨💛🌻💛✨✨
“You can surround yourself with people who are truly aligned and benefit you..” Um. Where they at exactly? I don’t know a single person in the 3D who is on this spiritual journey. Not one. If there’s such a community that exists then pls let me know where I can find them and I’ll bring my two year old son and relocate to join them asap. 😂👌🏽
I’m a 74 year old guy who had a kundalini awakening at 31. Many retreats and many more awakened moments but never yet able to overcome myself, my negative ego, my karma I’m old enough, experienced enough to know better and be better. Been climbing the mountain and rolling the rock up like Sisyphus only to have it and me end up in the valley again, again and so on. The last high energy attempt was October of 2019 during a retreat that may have crushed me for the last time. You see near the end of the retreat I gave a massage to a woman that she viewed as assault which led me to a four month jail sentence and thirty years of unsupervised probation. Five years ago I thought I was at a point of break through of lifetime patterns of isolation, self hate and more but that was not to be. I don’t see a way forward but I do more often turn my negative thoughts over to the field, the void, the angels. Even now sharing this with the world is another example of letting go of the shame, blame and punishment.
Thanks for sharing all that! I’m 57 but can relate to your struggle. Just reading your comment helped me.
@@CanadianDrifter777 I glad that you gained a little from my overlong sharing which may also be tmi. Keep hoping maybe in my next breath I’ll get it or more likely at my last one. A psychic reader said I would live a long lonely life and l’m thinking when my old dog dies so will I.
Have been pushing the rock uphills for my entire life. Wish I could say keep on keeping on, but I feel this would be hypocritical.❤
@@WillFinch-k4jI thought when my old dog died, I would too. He died 3 weeks ago and well…here I am still…
Thank you 🙏
Epic talk! Thank you!
Yes indeed still carry some kilo in my back pack thankyou for your wisdom 💛
I just went through what you're speaking about this past week, every time I watch one of your videos, I feel like this is the answer to the next step, it feels so soothing, and it resonates with me in a way I had not yet experienced, until now, so much gratitude to you, beyond measure!
It completely applies to me. There is no energy for emptying the heavy.
Indeed truly yes absolutly imense definetely actually yes
I appreciate very much your support ❤😢😊
This is hard to contemplate when you are the caretaker. -
I’m not exactly sure I have my own life. - I appreciate your words of wisdom. I do take to heart what you have to say.
My big physical challenge is others control my money! I am about to change that! When I do I will be able to spend my money as I wish, which means I can attend retreats, which I need desperately!
I am living in the US, I was relocated by hurricanes, I am a citizen, but don’t belong here, at all.
5 years of much time alone, art, gardening, and self healing and development.
Just two months to go, Imagine I am 67….but within I am free, still the visions, the dreams, the calling, the messages…I need a tribe, a guide, a human to help me thru these times.
Blessings to you, and thank you.
Sofia
15:30ish, exactly! I lost my tribe, we were dispersed by Mother Nature! Here I have been up in utter seclusion, lol! I love humans I need them….🥹
Agreed. Relocating asap ! Need my Tribe. 💚💚💯🙏🏻🌠🌺🦬
Very revealing Message. TUSM Ralph. You make good sense. Feeling the frequency of higher calling. Know there’s more in this life & going for it.
Shamanic techniques, especially Inca Peru after visiting Machu Picchu Sacred Ground changed me. It’s amazing & know I lived there in. A Past Life. TUSM again! Resonating 💎💯🌺🌠
I do shadow work- everything has collapsed but now I’m just changing direction ❤😢😊😢😢😢😢❤
This definitely applies to me. 😮💨
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thank you for sharing this message, it means a lot to me to hear someone describe a similar experience. I had those extreme panic attacks and also had a tough time trying to go to sleep for several weeks, it became so extreme that even meditation was impossible, I finally got better and now I am grateful for the experience as it rid me of dualistic beliefs that were holding me back
I have indeed lost everything over the last two decades, which has forced me to change. I believe I have changed, but still feel fundamentally stuck.
It's as if there is some invisible force attached to me that keeps me from reaching the peak.
I am no longer in the valley, but the peak seems to get further away.
So much fears, anxiety, anger, stress, trauma trigger whole day long until now everything collapses into another level- but here I am still a baby 😮
Thank you Ralph 💕🙏
You have such a way of phrasing things! It’s so clear, Ralph! It’s like you are walking around on the inside of my soul! Thank you! Much much much love from Michigan
Peace be with you. Expecting too much in a short time resonates with me. I need to treat this work more as a journey. Thank you for sharing!
Thank you very much 🙏❤️🤗
people should also work on the fabric and texture and material the glass is made of, it is not enough to empty the glass...
Very good video 👍
Extremely traumatic experience did bring me into a crash in health from all the heavy energy but that led to awakening. One point I thought there wasn't a end to all the problems but as I sat meditating I saw a image of a elephant so I started searching for it and immediately I was directed to Ayurveda and Lord Ganesha. These unprocessed emotions, thoughts and illnesses are called Ama. 15 years can bring radical change internally and at some point change has to become external and even that can start another level of growth and understanding. I had a great therapist that was more forward thinking than traditional in her practice and understanding and its a great space to receive validation and support. It takes time. Funny I seen roses growing around me in a dream so I bought some seeds a year ago and I tried everything to get them to sprout. I gave up on them basically and just let nature take its course now they have sprouted and of course it takes years to see the flowers doesn't it lol.
❤️🙏🏻😊
I keep hearing that suffering and trauma are catalysts for growth and change - and it pisses me off. I am here to find a different path for expansion. 💙✌️
Noone said that it's fun being stuck in a muddy swamp of trauma and hardship. But fighting your way through the mud and slowly inching towards dry land makes your muscles grow big and strong. By the time you've finally made it out if the swamp, you will be _much_ stronger than anyone who never had to walk through it.
And if me saying that pisses you off... good! Anger is much better than apathy. Allow the anger to energize you and bring out the warrior in you. Use it to your advantage and keep on walking through the mud, towards freedom.
You got this! 💪
I may be wrong, but it sounds like you're not in it at the moment? If that's the case, then from this neutral standpoint, choose a different path when the option arises. Through mindfulness, discernment, and intention, the challenges that arise will be in direct correlation to your growth, making things happen for you and not to you. Any unhealed trauma obviously has to be dealt with, but once that's done, happy trails. ❤
Thank you Ralph.
I saw this video 3 hours ago and its like you have read my diary. I have never written diary though so its even more strange.
Its sonn 2 a clock at night and i feel kind of restless and released at the same time.....yes i am more sensitive and I kind of are changing too fast....
Contact you in some days.
God bless
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How do we release heavy energy when we not sure what caused it?
🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️
been through this …. countless times. even when you know. the “how” to heal, it is challenging….. but doable. boundaries, healthy habits, and choosing yourself first … always , then it extends to others.
thank you for sharing your wisdom, experience & gifts ✨✨💛🌻💛✨✨
It’s definitely the hot 🔥 phase
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“You can surround yourself with people who are truly aligned and benefit you..”
Um. Where they at exactly? I don’t know a single person in the 3D who is on this spiritual journey. Not one.
If there’s such a community that exists then pls let me know where I can find them and I’ll bring my two year old son and relocate to join them asap. 😂👌🏽