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- A short video of a guy with Aspergers Syndrome discussing fixing his mind via Magic Mushrooms 🍄 :)
Hopefully many more videos to come!
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Such a great video and story. I've never been diagnosed but consistently score 39 on the Autism Spectrum Quotient, and I tried magic mushrooms for the first time a week ago, only a small dose, but I kept telling my friend, "this must be what it's like to have a normal brain, I feel like a regular person" lol. All the background noise in my head, the thoughts, the pictures and video flowing through my brain all stopped and it was black inside, if that makes sense. I could actually focus on specific thoughts and actually finish the thought before 100 more pop up, it was so amazing. I'm planning on taking a larger dose and see where is goes from there. Thank you for sharing your story!!
Great to hear that you've had similar benefits from psilocybin! I felt exactly the same when I first took mushrooms. It gets a lot more intense and lot more interesting with larger doses, and the effects last long after the trip ends :)
@@TheRealAlyx so it's okay to try mushrooms while having autism
If you feel like mushrooms will help and want to explore your mind, then its entirely up to you :)
They helped me a lot, and seemed to "go well" with autism at a sensory/linking level
@@TheRealAlyx yeah, it's crazy how it clears up my mind and it's so interesting that others with similar brain types have similar effects, but yeah I'm about to journey to higher doses as soon as I can find more. I definitely want to see how my brain does on 3gs next.
ThirdOptionTV it sucks that they’re not legal everywhere these mushrooms are the best treatment for autism.
I was diagnosed with Asperger's and ADHD as a kid. When I started doing psychadelics, they completely dissolved along with my ego. Best thing I've ever done. Can't wait to see your documentary and I loved hearing your story. :)
Loved the story too, and your little short here, I have an identical one, cheers
This is interesting, I think I have undiagnosed Aspergers and have always gained immense value from psychedelics and cannabis.
I feel like thru much psychedelic therapy, this could teach socially-impaired geniuses how to communicate and ultimately thrive and become happy. A happy mind is a more productive mind, so just imagine how far a happy, socially sufficient genius could go.
I'm Autistic and have ADHD and enjoy microdosing magic mushrooms and LSD... I feel way more clear, I seem to make better decisions, my focus is improved and I feel much more connected, I even feel joy, which had really eluded me for years. Have any other Autistic/ADHD peeps have good experiences with microdosing psychedelics?
How often do you dose?
@@Scooby-Snacks I haven't for a while as I am taking other meds that may contrainducate, but I did the recommended every three days, which is so you get a dose day, an integration day and a rest day (partly to keep tolerance down). Enjoy :)
@@audhdcreativity5899 thanks for taking the time to write back. I'm still working on me. Work in progress
Extremely beneficial and well spoken. This guy deserves so much more subscribers.
I wish everyone was as real as this
This kind of confirms what I've been thinking about. I call the "disconnect"; a human element is missing from life.
Yeah you're right, its the connection to one's own emotion that's missing. Its usually too intense so one learns early on in life to disconnect themselves from "social" and focus on trivial bullshit instead, 24x7, to fill the void while lonely inside and not knowing why. The psychedelics re-balances this by being an entire emotional sensory experience
I've brought this up to try n help my son who has autism and everyone is always negative about it and acts like im crazy for even thinking about it i actually just got kicked out of a microdosing group on Facebook because i brought this subject up its a shame that people dont have more open minds about this
Yeah, some people just have a bias towards "drugs" yet are happy to drink alcohol. One cannot change people
, all you can do is educate and show the science behind psilocybin and psychedelic therapy for depression if they're interested - else go your own way :)
As for your son, if he's interested and wants to try, start with a small dose in a comfortable relaxed emotional setting without phones/computers/external interruptions, and see what he thinks! As long as you show him love and kindness, the mushrooms will show him the himself without the ego in the way
After my first small trip I was very keen on taking more and pretty much did everything else myself a few weeks once I saw the immediate benefit :)
Just read your blog post about your first trip, and it was amazing. Such a radical change with so small effort. I'm looking forward to hear more from you.
Thanks!
I should be posting a new video some time around March. I've been so busy with things recently that I've just not found the time to sit down and edit :)
This is a really nice video. I enjoy watching you talk and be so open. You had a lot of courage going down the rabbit hole. Respect!
Thanks! I certainly don't regret this journey, though there have been difficult times I'm more able and aware of myself now more than ever :)
I love this story ! Thanks so much for sharing - Hope your still doing well
Well done I may pass this on to my son who has similar issues .
Thanks for sharing! My Autism is nowhere near as problematic, but it was enough to affect my professional and private relationships. After my first experiences with psychedelics a lot of things started happening to me emotionally. I was 37 years old when I missed someone the first time. These days people tell me : "you are getting rude again, it is time for you to trip again".
Which psychedelics did you take? I wasn't told before that I was rude. Well, a long time ago, but she was a very rigid person.
I took the one that starts with L and ends with D.
mushrooms LSD and ketamine is the only thing that works for me. and it really works. Like you said, It helped me genuinely care and understand other people for the first time and it always lifts me outof depression instantly and lasts for weeks. it energizes me enough to cope with emotions and not falling into avoiding behaviour, it makes me more stress tolerant. It lets me take in the world.
I'm really big on psychedelics and there healing abilities(add/anxiety/OCD in my case) this is a really cool channel def gonna subscribe keep it up
mate, you are my hero! i have asoerger too and i really need it.
You should try it, then. You could also consider a long Ayahuasca retreat.
I need this. I can't talk to people anymore. I have many sign of asperger's and seems to have gotten worse with age.
I've studied so many drugs with autism and it should be an option! 🙏😍
Sending love to you all!
Hallo.. could we have a chat.. i jave a few questions..
Thanks for your perspective and for the video.
I am Undiagnosed Autistic Spectrum, I too think there should be more study on Mushrooms and Autism. I too have gotten large quality of life gains from my Trip experiences
Please more videos , I'd like to hear about your experience with ayahuasca
I've just done a livestream where I go into detail of what happened, among other things. The recording is on my channel :)
@@TheRealAlyx do you still recommend it? Do you have to keep taking mushrooms to keep the effects?
This is a very inspiring story, and I hope many autistic people and others on the spectrum such as people born with aspergers which would include me and many more can someday get proper help with our various daily problems, as its is clear the research in phydelics even for medical uses Is fought by the uneducated and the inconsiderate. I MEAN HOW DAMN HARD IS IT TO DO SOMETHING THAT IS CLEARLY NEEDED TO HELP STRUGGLING PEOPLE. Oh yeah also to anyone who thinks phydelics are useless, how about you try inventing meaning yourself then see how fast you lose it.
Very uplifting story, hope we move towards therapy and regulation in the UK soon.
Need the tories gone for that! 😁
Alyx, how ya doin' now, mate? Hope you're great. Did you ever watch the mushrooms documentary on Netflix? It talks about mushrooms in general including psilocybin and the founder of the company couldn't look a woman in the eye when he was younger and then took a huge bag of mushrooms as he didn't know how much to take, and he changed. That was Paul Stamets. I love that guy.
Hey, I've been real busy with life recently (relationship trouble got lost in pot to cope with it and lost track for a while..)
I've heard of Paul Stamets, he was on the Joe Rogan podcast talking about his experiences. I've not had the energy to "take in" watching much recently but I do enjoy listening to stuff and playing music a lot
I need this in my life
I may go back to the Netherlands and try some more I did it three times there. Psychedelics have helped me somewhat, but I need more consistently but can't due to legalities.
I agree - I go regularly a few times a year to enjoy Amsterdam 😎, but you can also easily grow your own mushrooms and never run out 😆
..Or maybe look into DMT. its so efficient and you can vapuorise it at any dose level you like using standard e-cirgette sub-ohm pod devices that everyone uses. Just get your mix ratio right for the occasion - Even tiny non visual puffs can bring huge energy and a clear calm headspace in under two songs!
I love you Alyx. I am so happy for you. Keep us posted
God bless you 😆🙏🏻❤️
Thanks! I've got to make an update video soon, life has been all over the place recently 😶
I just read your entire blog account. I would love to know more in order to help my son. He is 18
Hey, you can contact me on the Telegram app if you'd like to chat :)
t.me/XeroxAlto
My son has high functioning autism and struggles with social communication/interaction - the website you mentioned would not load. Is it possible to speak to you?
Hey, my website shut down a while ago but you can still find it on the Web Archive, check the video description for the new link :)
You can contact me on Telegram but I might be a little slow replying: t.me/TheRealAlyx
This is brilliant
Wow! 55 grams bro chill out
THANK YOU.
I managed to get into my 30s before being diagnosed with autism.
I have self medicated for years with cannabis, but now I know what's going on with me, I want to try to construct a more effective support plan, and have been researching the possibility of mushrooms.
Have you any experience with micro dosing?
Useful content, thank you.
Cannabis helps but induces a lot of brain fog for me, it wipes me out for the day of the session but does work great for socializing, relaxing, stress, anxiety etc. Psilocybin could erase those things for 6+months, though it does wear off if the brain isn't producing enough serotonin in the first place. A big trip once a month is best for me to keep the energy going in between :)
I've not really tried microdosing, having never found the "sub perceptual" dose as I'm hypersensitive to everything and noticed even 0.1g mushrooms. I found mega-dosing 5g+ to be a lot more effective :)
@@TheRealAlyx thanks for the tip!
I'm hyper sensitive to some things, like caffeine (makes me nauseous then shut down for days). But things like MDMA and ecstasy I seem extremely resistant to.
Have you found anything your resistant to?
I'm intrigued how the ND brain reacts differently to various compounds, compared to NT brains
@@Asheanae
Yeah I'm similar in other areas, I can get rather high off ambient smoke in a coffeeshop, but equally take 4 space cakes and vape all the way to the peak and love it. Same with mushrooms with my "average" dose being almost 8g + MAOI.
I think autism makes one hypersensitive to everything but also gives a very high tolerance to certain substances & experiences.
My original logic with psychedelic therapy in 2017 was "double the dose until it works", which isn't a bad idea *per se*, I found out that the doses they used in the psilocybin studies for depression would be about half of what I'd need to eventually take to prove effective! Be careful and start small though, you don't want to be driving the porcelain bus all night :o
Exactly the same as me. I was diagnosed last week!
“I was staring at my phone”
Do you still need regular doses of psychedelics to maintain the benefits? Or was it a one off experience that changed you permanently?
Yes to both! Before discovering psychedelics in 2017 I could not have written this post. I'd have overthought it out of existence and felt crap over this reply for days to the point of anxiety meltdown. Socializing was impossible beyond literal logical interactions.
I was unable to understand or feel emotion, couldn't look people in the eye, hold a non-logical conversation, empathize, understand non verbal communications, sarcasm, speech and flow of words and language, musical awareness was just 100% DnB all day to write code to while I played CS:S from breakfast to 3am then woke up alone to do it again in my bedroom all day. I spoke in a monotone logical manner and only felt excited over a dumpster full of IT recycling waste I could dig into. I was isolated from school and put into the "special" department where the difficult kids end up and I learned nothing except how to grow a big ego and retaliate to get sent home where I could relax with a VHS or PC to disassemble. I never felt love, loved or ability to connect with another being. I felt like a shit disease and blamed myself for existing. being "different"/"broken". being unable feel anything for humans but left out and lonely. Some days I didn't get out of bed until 2pm. I've been depressed as long as I can remember.
Then I took 65g of Hollandia truffles + Harmalas in Amsterdam and experienced an 80's themed neon blast of energy/confidence/relief/peace/balance that ended up in ego death/infinity/awareness/pure energy? I lost my body / spacial bounds volumetric space....then I rebooted! The state dissolved into purple and blue cityscapes of scifi glowing tron while I cried into the pillow for over 5 hours as I watched my life playout infront of me. Scenes, places I could be, events I could go to, sitting in a car with a partner looking out over the city as the enormous sun set behind the skyscrapers.. I felt like I had a future, I felt like had hope. I could see more than just tomorrow being writing C or getting angry online dying alone, things reformed over 40 mins and visually I became aware of my body and how every part is interconnected and interdependent and will affect all the others so symptom-whak-a-mole won't ever help for autism as cause vs effect can be so mis-wired and random, which is why I never touched Pharma or other drugs not even a hit of weed til I first took the mushrooms as I was certain I was the one that wanted so much to change
After this trip, I ate lightly & went to bed, woke early which never happens, with energy too!, got up showered fast feeling very v e r y V E R Y strange, left the room and looked my mum in the eyes and said hey! had a chat for an hr through tears of relief and then I felt hungry and so I walked calmly down the street to the bar and walked in & ordered fries and a coke n' lemon and sat down idly on my phone chillin' waiting for my lunch. This was literally impossible 24hrs before to the point of forever asking anyone else present to go get take-out and I'd eat in the car.
I felt zero anxiety. With anything, and, this was the trick, was so full of energy I was able to follow/notice/be okay with/ literally every tiny little sensory thing that bothered me before and now didn't - And I've retained this ability since more or less but not the energy to power it. That lasted a good THREE MONTHS of daily energy from 3 or 4 trips....BUUUUUT...I got sidetracked and distracted and I ended up dating my support worker and further tripping kinda vanished for about six years...oops! ..Well she didn't work out and now I'm trying again after 2 years of processing the heartbreak. I can still manage daily life a thousand times better sober than before I started tripping, even after 7 years. But that sucks mentally wanting to make basically anything work and never having energy to make it because brain screwed up vs. naturally enough serotonin to keep everything powered
Last few times I took mushrooms though ('20, '22), I got this firm feeling / "direction?" that mushrooms wouldn't help and DMT was now the way forward for me. I was like..."ooooo kaaay~". Took two more mushroom trips over the course of a few months and got exactly the same message but all were worth doing. So then I started researching it, reading countless posts and reports and studies, getting all the bits together to build the vape and here I am! it seems to work amazing so far for me in the little doses I've tried but I feel this IMMENSE anxiety/tenseness/aversion to taking it which I'm working to overcome as I've always come out of the experiences laughing and crying about wtf was I so worried about feeling better for usually the rest of the day if not 24hrs from these mini-trips. That alone is life changing if it can bring me this feeling after a toke and 3 songs. World's best anti-depressant :)
I've not yet attempted the breakthrough or combining Vape & MAOI but a trip with harmalas and a is burning in my mind right now
TL;DR: I feel DMT brings me more energy/life/awareness/ability than shrooms, not taking Pharma, and Autism ain't going away and cannot be "cured" but I can live perfectly well for blocks at a time with these plant medicines vs. never being aware that a life could be lived.
I really hope this kinda helps answer your questions, feel free to ask more😁
Alyx, I've been to Amsterdam three times. And twice I did truffles. I have a question for you. You mentioned 65 grams of truffles. Was that at one time? The most I took was 20 grams of one of the more powerful ones. I don't see how I could handle 20 grams. I do have challenges socializing, but since I am in a gray area, people are less sympathetic, and I am trying to get over that. I am willing to give psilocybin another try and even double the dose.
The Grateful Dead is what you need to try on LSD
Yep that was 65g Hollandia truffles at once plus MAOI (harmala extract). Massive trip but the best event of my life
My driving logic behind it was: "double the dose until it works, they can't kill you and I've nothing to lose. You'll know when it works"
After that event I could feel emotion in its entirety for the first time in my life
What about DMT? Have you tried that? Glad to hear you have improved.
No Dmt is an amazing psychedelia, but the High dose of LSD 500mg is more , People enjoy DMT but don't actually change afterwards , High dose of LSD will break down your consciousness through the 4 stages, 1 lose all reason for hours 2 , lose all sense of self for hours , 3 become the observer of the duality of reason and silence for hours , then finally becoming absent (which is the becoming truly one with the biggest most basic of all consciousness for a few hours) , DMT is too short for people to actually realize they can live in any of these consciousness whilst not on anything at all
Is your website down? Would love to read more, thank you
Hey, yeah it is down but the web archive has a complete copy of my blog, check www.thirdoption.tv or via web.archive.org :)
Do you have a video about your ayahuasca trip?
I don't, but its the one trip that I genuinely believed had failed at the time. After drinking the cup, laying down, relaxing and waiting, I had no visuals other than mild green and a faint flower pattern overlayed onto reality. I thought things like "I've come all this way and done it wrong!", "there goes 900 euro", etc etc.
I think it worked *because* I gave up and let go, as the day after all my energy was back and more! and somehow and the emotional hell of the death trip before was not affecting me, only a memory. I was literally running through Amsterdam buying lunch, chatting, being alive for the first time in my life!
@@TheRealAlyx I've heard you need multiple ayahuasca sessions before it really starts to work in the way people expect.
Where did you go for your session?
@@Asheanae
I think you might be right, I've since taken another 30mg dose and had similar benefits with improved energy and motivation, less sensory overload, better able to process and think etc. It wore off a few days later, but I'm learning a lot about how tryptamines affect my brain :)
I went to Amsterdam for my Ayahuasca ceremony with Maria Johanna, I liked her website and genuine honesty when I googled it back in 2017
I'm curious about how long the effects last for you. I know that after one trip peoples lives can change forever and they wouldn't have to take anymore so I'm wondering if it's sort of the same thing with you.
Do you have to microdose or are you fine for a good part of the week (or longer) without it?
My first few trips did indeed change my life, and what I learned about myself will stay with me forever. However the physical effects of psilocybin like increased energy & motivation etc do wear off within 72 hours or so. I've not taken any microdoses except for a few tests when trying to find out what my sub-perceptual dose actually is (I still notice even 0.1g mushrooms).
I've found that a big trip once a month was the ideal time for me. My next one is coming up soon in fact, on the 2-year mark of my best ever trip in 3 weeks!
Do you still work in computer repairs?
Nope, I quit in 2016 just before I took my first trip. I couldn't stand to work on another customer's PC every day, it just felt hollow and unsatisfying and getting them working didn't bring the same fulfillment feeling it used to - it was just a chore to "fix someone else's problems"
Trip the fuck out bro! Mush + Molly best results!
"It makes people, more people"... that's it right there ! ✌
I turned to psychedelics for a variety of reasons, hoping that it could just give me a slightly new perspective on things especially related to my own aspergers, and over the last couple of months after my last trips, my autistic symptoms started to vastly fade, at least those related to my social issues (sensory processing hasn't gotten any better, but I have learned to understand to take care of myself better!). I actually developed an amazing new understanding of people around me that's even more profound than that of neurotypicals, and in a short span of time found myself with a booming social circle of amazing friends. This was a radical change in my lifestyle as I had spent most of my life in almost absolute isolation.
So yeah, I'm all aboard the psychedelic revolution bandwagon, words alone cannot express the importance and benefit they may hold for us, especially in our current society.
Thank you for sharing.
Wow.. Thanks for sharing man.. Your awareness and the way you articulate yourself is fucking badass.. It's like you said in the video.. when people realise what being people is like, we would all get along so much better
Thank you for sharing your story! I have both autism and SPD (Sensory processing disorder), and I have seen unbelievable benefits from both cannabis and large doses of psychedelics. Sensory overload is honestly one of my biggest daily struggles, and when I get overstimulated I have uncontrollable and often painful 'stims' (self stimulatory behaviors) that cause me to shake or tense my arms, clap my hands (HARD), clench my fists, or make loud sounds. Lights, sounds, abrupt movement, textures, tastes, touch, and even certain emotions like anxiety or excitement all trigger sensory overload for me 🙄 anyways, I recently took a large dose (14 grams)of dried psliocybin mushrooms and to everyone's shock, my stimming STOPPED for almost 4 days! Something that I have never experienced in my entire life 😢 sadly it came back strong and tests my sanity to this day, but I am determined to try micro dosing and continue my exploration and research of these amazing and intentionally suppressed medicines! Cheers mate!
Me too :( I most likely have sensory processing disorder or something along those lines as well -
What you describe is a more intense version of how I experience "overload" from sensory stimulation, but I tend to isolate myself from further input than try to drown it out with more input (though this does work to an extent, very intense scratching and back massage done by someone else to me is deeeeeply intense and leaves me feeling amazing for the rest of the day!)
After my mushroom trips, especially the large ones, I felt relief from this for weeks and I simply did not overload, even in busy crowds etc. It never occurred and freed up so much energy that everything else I'd been unable to process was suddenly *easy* let alone hard to even think about as before.
Cannabis has been amazing for me too, it totally erases sensory overload even during a meltdown, and quiets my mind enough to concentrate and relax which otherwise doesn't occur on its own. I get full psychedelic effects from marijuana and always experience a musical-emotional-sensory-mashed experience that is always positive and "resets" me for a whole day after even a 1hr vape session !
Really sad to hear it came back so bad :( I experienced the same thing but it took me a lot longer to "go back", around 6 months - 1 year or so, but I never got it as bad as you so a direct intensity of experience = longer lasting benefit and quicker "burn off" maybe?
Micro dosing never worked for me but I've heard amazing results from others - I've always been more of the "take it to 11" kinda person :D
Benefits can be experienced with lesser doses, micro dosing. More like a quarter gram. 4 days on 3 days off. The 3 days give your body time to rid the substance so that dependence doesn’t form. A booster dose 6 hours after your first dose can help keep the levels up through the entire day. But don’t take more than 8 hours before bedtime
@Me, Also Me, My opinion on taking them has recently changed after coming to faith, but I have found a miraculous transformation after receiving the Holy spirit! God has changed every single aspect of my life, and I have now found other ways to help my daily struggles 🙏
i feel the same after the same trip also in amsterdam with 30g s of valhalla, i figured i finally cured my depression and i started enjoying everything and finding my love in nature its just great, whereas before i would struggle talking to people and i struggled alot having to look at peoples eyes.. this makes me think, did i really cure depression or did i have/still have a form of autism which never got diagnosed? well i feel great anyways now and its not because of medical services
That sounds rather familiar...I think it might have been a bit of both, but there's no way to tell. Psilocybin literally can create new neural connections and rewrite your personality / outlook on life in 4 hours. It truly has the power to heal the mind
Good luck on your own journey of self-discovery and healing :)
If you are Autistic, you would have always been. It's a different neurology and you are born Autistic. There is so much more to Autism than avoiding eye contact, like sensory in/sensitivities, communication and social difficulties, stimming, meltdowns, intrusive thoughts, hyperfocus- often on a quest for knowledge, truth or to help in some way, etc. etc. You can take tests online if this sounds like you, and then start talking to your doctor.
Has anyone else noticed that they require a higher dose to trip? I think that people with autism have a high tolerance to psychedelics for some reason.
Yes, I've heard of it varying from half a regular dose for full effect, to 3-5x the "normal" dose to feel anything. Everyone's different :)
My average dose is around 6-8g mushrooms + harmala, but that's way too much for many people!
@@TheRealAlyx Something to keep in mind: psilocybin truffles in amsterdam are not sold in a completely dried out form. Fresh truffles may be 5-10 times heavier in weight in comparison to the dried out version. Great video by the way! Very insightful and informative thank you.
@@freddyfish835 Thanks! :)
Yes, all mine were fresh from the Azarius smartshop in Amsterdam
I'm autistic and I've smoked weed before and I still have a low tolerance to it. And I even once got a taste of lsd
this is so weird and might be the only thing that's explained why i don't trip hard. i took a tab of acid and my friends took the same tabs and i only tripped mentally. they got serious visuals and i got NONE. i've done shrooms 15 times and i have only gotten visuals from the highest dose. the mental trip is very very deep though, it's so strange
I love mushrooms so much man, 1st time I tried them I felt like myself again.
Hi there fellow Aspies. I discovered I have Asperger's late in my life and I was an alcoholic (I used alcohol to ease my social anxiety and I had no idea I'm on the Autism spectrum). That's when I discovered how much LSD helps me. I managed to quit alcohol, cigarettes and all kinds of bad habits I had that were making me more anxious over the long run. Psychedelics are the only thing that helps me and has a lasting effect on my condition.
You hero. Glad you've got such great results, gives hope to others.
Thanks! :)
How AMAZING is this?!! The day this is common medicine can't come soon enough.
Amazing story. Have you considered DMT?
Hey! thanks :)
I have In fact been experimenting with DMT on and off for a while now :)
Only small doses so far (
ThirdOptionTV hey mate that's amazing news, I had no idea you were that far along. I agree about DMT it's very advanced and think Ayahuasca would be a much more therapeutic approach to crossing that bridge. I have seen alot of reports regarding the healing many go through after an Ayahuasca trip, definitely food for thought. Namaste.
Alright Joe Rogan... I'll pull it up ....
I think that heavy doses are pretty easy to take with DMT. Its just not popular enough to really know if it can cause complications like I've seen psilocybin and lysergic acid produce - which could have been due to other underlying issues.
I've been adding small amounts to my cannabis rituals, and only once did enough to experience (strong) closed eye visuals, and in the past few months my mood has been very positive and enduring. I've been communicating a lot on social media, and I can actually see the change since December by analyzing my facebook posts... Good stuff.
wow! this explain so many things to me.... I am currently in a "process" to find out if I have Asperger and everything that I read or see online about this seems to perfectly fit with my behavior and thoughts
Yeah going through the mental health system will take a long time. If you feel like psychedelics could help, go for it! they work on all humans universally :)
Exploring yourself is the only way to make progress, sometimes all it takes is a kickstart to begin your own journey of self discovery
@@TheRealAlyx I already booked an appointment with my GP to ask for a formal assessment with a specialist. Thank you!
This is the future fam
Yeah they saved my life too and now I’m using them to tackle some really big issues. They helped me keep a well paid graduate job for 9 months which for me is a big deal.
I’m taking a month off to experiment more and live other parts of life, then gonna find a more suitable job.
There is a way forward, by remembering the past, and then, step by step, like a baby, we can start reaching for the stars.
I love this guy.
that's just so incredible, every word lol
Your website doesn't seem to be working... Was wondering how you've been doing? Have you had lasting benefits from the psilocybin or have some symptoms returned? Are you still taking doses every once in a while?
Hope you're well.
How are you doing now? I'm very intrigued and interested about your experience.
It's so nice to hear you voice what you have gone through and the self-help you have lived.
If I'm understanding this correctly you're finding really big doses more helpful than micro doses? How often do you dose? I'm looking to get off stimulants, I got ADHD bad with Asperger's. My doctor thinks I'm dependent and abusing them. It sucks that something that is helpful that you need daily to function one can say is abuse... I would rather go natural, I've microdosed before it's definitely helpful. I'm scared to take more than a couple hundred mg of equality shrooms at once.
Yep! I tried a few small doses and just felt like it didn't *happen*. I'd sit there for a while, wait for it to hit then feel like all the anxiety of a mushroom trip without any of the emotional release benefit. Big doses redefined intense for me with each successive dose. If you're in tears and laughing about it to each successive song you did it right! When its more intense than one's ego it works, all therapy/release does. Otherwise it gets analyzed out of existence by overthinking ego and in fact fuels the problem making the user work subconsciously to erase and control reality (senses, feelings)
I used to dose 5-7g equivalent mushrooms 2-3 times/month. However I've barely been able to trip once or twice a year recently with the last good big one in July due to a lot of life and relationships getting in the way..
I have also been recently diagnosed with ADHD, stimulants only provide momentary relief by counter-overloading the "negative" sensory input to bring one to a floating neutral. Then it wears off.
Psychedelics stimulate the serotonin system and overload one with energy in every way at once, for me it was extremely sensory musical crossover of 80's blast self aware aware of others aware of everything vs. depressed and isolated in a tiny loop of logical routine trying to avoid all sensory input/change/transition. After the large dose trips I felt able to express my own energy for the first time in my life
Don't be scared just make sure of set & setting and do it with someone you really trust and work up in dose a few g's at a time. A few mg isn't gonna do it tho. It really took the harmala MAOI + ~6g mushrooms equivalent to "get there". You'll feel it when you know :)
This is excellent, I am so happy for you. I stumbled across some psilocybin-active mushrooms in my yard a few years ago and have benefitted greatly from using them therapeutically. My daughter in on the spectrum and I have hope that this will be helpful to her as well. Thanks for sharing
Thanks for sharing, growing mushrooms at the moment, very much relate to your social anxiety
Thankyou very much for sharing this, I feel I'm on the spectrum, my family on my mums side have aspergers, I'm going to micro dose, too frightened to take too much!
Benefits can be experienced with lesser doses, micro dosing. More like a quarter gram. 4 days on 3 days off. The 3 days give your body time to rid the substance so that dependence doesn’t form. A booster dose 6 hours after your first dose can help keep the levels up through the entire day. But don’t take more than 8 hours before bedtime. You can start with .1 of a gram if .25 seems like a bit much
I came here via reading your trip reports and plan to go through your videos as well. This is amazing, truffles helped me in pretty much the same way as they're helping you, and I'm not even sure where on the spectrum (if anywhere) I am. I just know I had major issues all my life and now they are mostly mild and manageable. In between then and now came the mushrooms :)
Glad your happy and motivated, sounds like shrooms gave you that push of confidence you needed
Thank you soooooooooooo much about to take shrooms on nye and was worrying about the old autism and how it would affect me
(cont. trip report: after 0.5g micros thru an entire 20g_my spectrum take)
🍄feel waaay better outdoors_whether sunshine or snowy winter
when the atmosphere hits your body on 🍄_it really feels @ home
so taking 'em indoors_yes you can set a fun session w/ set & setting but_i'll say it doesnt compare to the trip outdoors🌅
💜
I've tripped on a balcony before at sunset on the 23rd floor in central amsterdam - that was amazing!
I've yet to do a "big" trip outdoors yet though, sadly this last year has been a real mess..
Hopefully I can find out what being on mushrooms outdoors feels like again in summer '23
Just a personal question. Are you gay?
People in sexual minority seem to be sensitive, on top of autism/adhd which make them more sensitive. I, myself have a sensitive-disorder that (I think) is amplified with my sexuality. But I see myself as a great, nice and ambulatory guy that has hes weaknesses but also something good. My confidence is great, not always, but I feel smart, like a genius (maybe because of my sensitivity to everything). I am the guy who is looking deeper into things and like to take things to the next level.
But gays (alone, without mental conditions) seem to be more depressed on top of adhd who makes you also more depressed. Its like what I feel - just different. And it pretty much sucks because I cannot "find" connection or relation to others because of my "differences".
Its almost season for magic shrooms and I hope this time it will trigger me, give me a great experience I can take with me in life - BUT also change me the way I wanted. Shrooms wouldnt make me normal and stupid, but smart and better. I will see, and I will write too you and come with a report.
Remember, you are not alone. Many people are like you too. Just enjoy being special, I cant - just yet.
Talk later?
(Sorry for bad english)
Hey, I seem to have missed your comment for a while, oops! I actually did think I was gay for a long time yes (having no life/relationship experience until I was ~25 or so). I never had a true connection with anyone until after I took mushrooms either which lost me 3 relationships previously. (I literally didn't know it was even possible yet alone that it was what relationships are all about).
After my ayahuasca ceremony I worked out that I'm pansexual more than anything, in that I'm attracted to their personality and the actual human consciousness not their body etc.
I think gay people being depressed is down to this failing society treating anyone "different" as "bad" not just "we're all different, it makes us human". Anyone who fakes it for each other is living a life of ego and lying to themselves but people often believe that they must copy others to "fit in", that causes a whole host of problems.
I didn't even know what sexuality was until after I first smoked weed in 2017, I'd never even connected with myself at a sexual level, let alone another person. The whole subject made no sense to me, this also caused huge divide in previous relationships for obvious reasons
Thanks for your comment :)
We should all just be our honest true selves. To quote Marvin from HHGTTG: "Making it up? Why should I want to make anything up? Life's bad enough as it is without wanting to invent any more of it."
@@TheRealAlyx I've noticed that LGBT+ identities are really common amongst Autistic folk. I'm a woman on the spectrum, and suspect I could be polyamorus, possibly, but have always been attracted to men.
Shroom trips are amazing!
Hello, you mentioned something like downloading how socialising works etc my question is does that get forgotten after say 6 months or so untill you do another dose. You may have answered this in the video and I missed it.
Thanks.
Hey :)
I've never forgotten how to socialize or what I learned during the trips, just ran out of energy to apply this after max 2years or so after the last trip, with the peak of the energy lasting ~6 months/dose for me.
Life factors like physical pain and relationship stress do drain it quicker the longer the trip has been though, one's tolerance/ability to to handle these situations scales with the energy and decreases until one is back at the baseline they started with + all the knowledge and experiences of feeling better than that
@@TheRealAlyx ok, thanks for the reply.
Happy for you :) Will try this soon, hope it will cure me!
Alyx, how many grams of truffles did you take maximum at one time. I took 30 grams once in Amsterdam. I did it alone. It was tough. Would love to do it again. This should be legal.
Ever in one go? 108g of truffles + harmala MAOI. Was tripping for 15hrs on that one 😮
My best experience however was 65g of truffles + harmala. Total ego death energy emotion blast life refreshing kinda thing
I may just need massive doses..
@@TheRealAlyx wow. Well done 👍🏾 Congratulations
@@TheRealAlyx 108 grams of truffles? How on Earth? I was tripping balls on 30 Hawaiian (a strong strain). I guess 45-50 grams would be in the heroic dose, but I know it's impossible to overdose on mushrooms, at least. You'd have to eat like many kilograms of it, and it's not so palatable. I am not familiar with Harmala MAOI. Should look it up. Are they also sold at the shops in Amsterdam? I am going to go on a 3 week Ayahuasca retreat this winter to deal with various issues. I enjoyed my psilocybin trips, but I guess I needed some higher dose or micro-dosing, and that's hard when it's not legal.
@@QUINTUSMAXIMUS It was supposed to be 90g that time but the packets weighed in at 108g all total, mashed the lot up and made a very large cup of tea..
45g truffles felt like 4-5g dried mushrooms yes, just around the heroic dose level. I'd say each 15g packet == 1.5g mushrooms equivalent or so. They also may have gotten weaker over time as they don't want dutch tourists to overdo it..
Harmala is sold in Amsterdam yes, I took the Syrian Rue 10x extract from Azarius Smartshop
Have you tried micro-dosing? 0.1 grams dry on day 1 and day 4
I have tried microdosing for a while and did notice some improved energy and motivation, but it fades away quickly the next day. I've found large doses every 3 weeks last much longer and have greater benefit for me :)
Amazing video
( seems activity also stimulates the release of dopamine, take mushroom then start runing up a mountain or somewhere from 5 min to 50 min or more;) take more muishrom, then run more;) then lots of dopamine aparehtlye,;) )
I love your shirt, do you sell any?
Hey, I don't sell any but if you'd like the SVG file to get one printed elsewhere, message me on Telegram :)
Thanks Alyx
Ayuascha experience pls!
Strangely enough I didn't "feel" much during the trip, only saw some mild visuals while my internal monologue was trying to solve why I wasn't feeling it. I went to bed after the experience and woke up without anxiety at all.
No idea how how that happened but the day after I just wanted lunch and walked into the city to get some without any stress! 😮
It lasted about 3 months
Ayahuasca didn't really help me as much as I'd hoped, but I felt some change, so I did benefit, but I prefer 5 MEO-DMT or Bufo Alvarius.
Nekem is adhatnál
This is amazing! Have you ever tried LSD? And if so, what effects did it have on you?
Hey, thanks :) I've not tried LSD but I would if it turned up
@@TheRealAlyx hope it will, lsd is basically the same, but little different from shrooms (but legal somewhere), hope the best for you! ☺
@@TheRealAlyx hope the best for you btw :)
So happy for you man! You seem like a great person to just sit and talk with.