Everywhere At the End of Time Review ~ This Album is LIFECHANGING
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 24 ธ.ค. 2020
- This is a documentary I've been wanting to make for a long period of time and now that I finally have I feel amazing. This video took me a full week of planning and editing to create and I'm very happy to share it with you all.
Everywhere At The End of Time is an album documenting Dementia and it's progression. It gives listeners a medium to share with the declining brain of someone suffering from dementia being through a musical format. Created by the Mind of Leyland Kirby, and depicted through the album covers by Ivan Seal. This was an 11 year project and a 21 year setup all the way from "Selective Memories of The Haunted Ballroom" in 1999.
LISTEN TO THE ALBUM HERE
Everywhere At the End of Time ~
• The Caretaker - Everyw...
Other Caretaker Albums
Selective memories of the Haunted Ballroom ~
• Video
An Empty Bliss Beyond this World ~
• The Caretaker's An Emp...
Everywhere, An Empty Bliss ~
• The Caretaker - Every...
A Stairway to the Stars ~
• The Caretaker - A Stai...
Additional Amnesiac Memories (A less known album but very anxiety inducing) ~
• Video
Heartaches by Al bowly
• Heartaches
SYNAPSES RETROGENISIS
www.franciscanministries.org/...
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This is the only video on my channel thus far exploring long form content and existential subjects such as dementia. Most of my other content is just me playing games. That’s all fun for me to do and I enjoy making that content, but I fully intend on making more videos like this. Especially recently since my uncle is near death at this point and my grandfather who is now living in our house with me and my father, has just recently been diagnosed with dementia. I plan on making a follow up video to this one. Not just discussing this album (which I will still discuss in greater detail in this follow up video) but other caretaker albums as well. The video will not just solely be a caretaker deep dive either, but it will also be a look into how dementia has effected my family’s life, the correlation between adhd and dementia, and the symptoms I have seen personally as a result of living with a dementia patient. I intend on the video being 2-4 hours long discussing every minute detail of this disease. I might also make a follow up video to that video making a familiar album to EATEOT in the form of my piano playing (the instrument I am attending college for) and the effects that me receiving dementia in the future would have on it. As a small disclaimer, I am not a psychologist nor an expert in the field. I will try to do enough research and knowledge from articles, stories, and personal experience to justify covering the topic. Thank you for the support everyone
It is commendable that even with such personal connection to this music and disease you still endeavour to really allow every single view to understand what this is like. The effort is insane! thank you :)
I am sorry to hear about what is going on with everyone, I hope for the best possible outcome despite the bad circumstances. Stay strong, my prayers go out to your family!
Stage 6's art is not the backside of a canvas. It's a piece of matboard, which is a formica (edit: i think it's actually Samsonite) board used as an easel for a work in progress. A paper is typically taped to it with blue masking tape, and then the art piece is painted or drawn on.
Here, there is not only no artwork, but no paper. The masking tape holds nothing to the board. Not only are the memories gone, but there is nowhere any new ones could be put.
This should be higher up and on every single review’s comments. Everyone seems to assume it’s the backside. Thanks for the clarification.
I knew it was a canvas, but I thought the tape was where you put the painting on but now I realize it was too small. You also forgot about Terminal Lucidity, a condition where someone with a neurodegenerative disease remembers for the last time (usually happens on the day of death)
Yeah if I could go back and change it I would. It makes a lot more sense actually
@@Metronomical3 I'm just thrilled you noticed my comment lol
I’ve been looking at these comments for a year now and they’ve honestly given me a lot to think about
EATEOT is genre-bending, like somehow drawing in 4 dimensions. It is beyond like or dislike. I have listened to nothing close to it. Your commitment and seriousness show that you are trying to do it credit. Much respect, sir.
Or…… *have you?*
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Something that beautiful as EATEOT can't be liked or disliked. It's a masterpiece that is beyond any evaluation.
@@DevCoreFelix I wouldn't say that, all art should be evaluated
A book I recommend is Out of Mind. It's a translation from Dutch about a man who goes through all the stages of dementia in about 9 days or so and it's both fascinating and horrifying as we see it from his perspective.
The MC, Maarten, lived through the Nazi occupation and that plays a part in his fractured memories--he wanders off and gets brought back by a neighbor, and thinks that that's an American soldier and they've finally come to liberate everyone (even though he has lived in America for years). He thinks a doctor is someone hiding from the Nazis, wants his wife to get food for the man, "maybe he hasn't eaten in days!"
That sounds really interesting thanks for the recommendation 👍
Author?
@@crazyboutferrets Literally just saw this bro, sorry. J Bernlef, you might find some of his poetry
thank@@Aladayle
For everyone who has had a the looming feeling of existential dread, watch a cat video or something that makes YOU the reader happy. Play a game, read a happy book, listen to recognizable music and most important of all: spend time with the ones you love.
Turns out that most of those things have shown to decrease the chances of getting Alzheimer's
@@coreyford3556 Woah thanks
Stage 4 art looks like a painting of a woman after being scraped by a paint scraper. You can see some indents on her face, and her "hair" might actually be half of her face smudged.
What ab the shoe?
I still don’t understand the shoe it’s just kinda sitting there
@@Metronomical3 If you're talking about her neck and shoulders it makes it look like the woman is a bust statue - her head framed on something blocky and flat.
@@Metronomical3 for me, it looks like something that is 'vaguely' human. It looks human, but it also looks wrong. You can't confirm or deny it's what you think it is.
Edit: Fixed a spelling mistake.
I came across this video while at work at my auto shop. Honestly, I listened to this album twice over. I watched my great grandpa, who served in the Luftwaffe in WW2, succumb to this disease, along with my grandma. I'm 25. Seeing my great grandpa slowly forget everything he had done since WW2 and seeing my grandmother slowly forget who i was when she raised me more than my mother did, it's...heartbreaking. Thank you for this video. It was amazing, thank you.
Thank you for the kind words. I’m very sorry for what happened to your grandmother and grandfather. This disease is heartbreaking and seeing the person they were being torn apart with no hope in preventing it is depressing and terrible. I just hope you and your family coped well. I am horribly sorry for your loss
Don’t fear too much! They are really close to finding a cure for this disease that can fully stop it! I really hope it happens in less than 30 years… but I am staying strong and hoping it comes sooner or later!
I might actually sit through this
Do it, it’s a cool experience
Do it while ur eyes are closed while laying in a bed
stage 4 could be a subtle callback to william utermollen, who had a terrifying journey from 1995 to 2002 where he drew his face as he declined from alzheimer's disease, more specifically, his 2001 sketch that has no eyes or lips but just a nose.
I saw the drawings before and that makes sense when that may be what people with dementia would view themselves as
@@Metronomical3 they're damn terrifying.
Yeah, I've heard of that artist, and the final drawing just depicts how dementia can destroy your sense of self
actually that drawing was in 2000, there were 2 more drawings until he couldn't draw his face anymore. The 1st one is a *insert madness combat grunt face* with a paint splash in the top left. The last one is just curved lines on the top left with some scribbles.
The 1st one : i think it's called Coffee Stain but search up "William utermohlen 2001"
The last ever : Erased Head II
I met you in rec room vr and you seemed like a good dude, subbed :)
Lmao that’s awesome 😂 thanks dude 👍
You put some much effort into this and it deserves more recognition
Damn you must’ve spent hella time on this, respect 💯
Sure did. So many hours of sleep lost. was worth it to cover this masterpiece
Wow, this is reeeaallly good. the script is phenominal, it really shows that you are passionate about this. the way its set into stages is really amazing. you matched the visuals with the music so well too. you have a career in this dude. 👏👏
also the 4th stage cover reminds me of girl with pearl earrings but flipped
Thanks man, I really spent a lot of time on this video. Also the woman must have a pretty shit taste in fashion with that shoe under her hair
@@Metronomical3 on g
This album is incredible. You can tell the attention to detail put into it.
Eateot is so sad if you have anyone with dementia in your life, after I listened to the album it made me realize what’s going on in someone’s head with dementia. My grandpa had dementia he passed away a couple weeks ago. Dementia is a horrible thing
Thank you for making that video it was good content keep up the good work
16:50 that's a really interesting interpretation and I can definitely see that now that you mention it. It's also possible it has to do with the fact that the people around them are no longer recognizable, or even distinct.
Thanks for making this video man. I was recently diagnosed with Lewy Body Dementia and this helps me prepare and understand my future. It makes the fear acceptable.
You can do it! Spend time with those you love, and know that when you get through it, you will be in a better place!
What is Lewy Body Dementia? (no this isn't a joke i am serious)
@@koijtoh Here is a quote I got from googling it.
"Lewy body dementia (LBD) is a disease associated with abnormal deposits of a protein called alpha-synuclein in the brain."
How are you doing now?
@@koijtoh Lewy Body Dementia is exactly as the name suggests.
Dementia caused by Lewy Bodies.
It is quite similar to Parkinson's Dementia, I've heard.
This video kept me watching even though I don't understand it at all lol
PLEASE READ: I messed up on stage 5 and forgot to give the spoiler timestamp. To those who need to know skip to 19:39
I also messed up on stage 5 with the song titles and not mentioning “sudden time regression into isolation”. I am sorry for some of the mistakes I made in this video. I’m not perfect but I tried to cover the topic the best I could.
I left links to all sources in the description
this is so fucking pog isnt not even fathomable. On a serious note, I need my gold member rank RN
@@ChefBeardardee thank you, and did you reach the rank level?.
i always saw the choir at the end as a representation of terminal lucidity. with the solid minute of silence following being the death of the patient the album follows. Great video by the way
Dude you go you have more will power than me so far
Edit:God bless your family and may your uncle get better
At this point the sad thing is it’s not possible for him to recover. The only bit of release from the suffering is death and it’s terrible. I’ve cherished memories with him while we’ve had them. This kind of death is a fate I wouldn’t wish upon my worst enemies.
But thank you for the kind words
@@Metronomical3 May your family get through this
@@spectre9091 thank you for that. I worry about my aunt because she’s his caretaker and she is being drove backwards because of the difficulty it is to look after him.
@@Metronomical3 Remember this it may sound cliche but if I was dying or if I was suffering from something the only thing I would say is “Don’t worry about me my time will come soon focus on making your life the best it can.
12:57 what disconnected my guy
My keyboard probably idk I made this a year ago 😂
Movies that might give you a Caretaker-like vibe:
The Cabinet of Dr. Caligary (1920)
The Last Laugh (1924)
Un Chien Andalou (1928 short film)
Vampyr (1932)
Nightmare Alley (1947)
Vertigo (1958)
Carnival of Souls (1962)
Alphaville (1965)
2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)
They Shoot Horses Don't They? (1969)
THX 1138 (1972)
Slaughterhouse Five (1972)
Images (1972)
Eraserhead (1978)
The Shining (1980)
The Last Battle (1983)
Prospero's Books (1991)
Dancer in the Dark (2000)
Requiem for a Dream (2000)
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004)
Stage 4 artwork looks like the Girl With a Pearl Earring. The scarf on her head and the way she is looking over her shoulder. Maybe this signifies the person's favorite painting looking like a jumbled mess to them. Something that made the person what the were seeming as unfamiliar as everything else.
I took it as a person they once knew, maybe a wife, or sister, or mother, or friend who they only somewhat vaguely remember, they are beginning to turn away as the last memories of them fade away into nothingness. eventually they will be fully turned away from the person and nothing but their silhouette from behind will be visible, clearly a person who was once there but now no longer is anything but the back of a head jumbled and unrecognizable.
I think the last 5 minutes of the album is up to interpretation. I've read several interpretations online. Some say it represents the few moments of clarity a victim has before they pass away and others say it represents the victim passing away and finally finding peace.
I honestly don't know how I would interpret it. Listening to this gave me an idea of what my grandmother went through before she passed away. She did have dementia, but that's not how she died. She died of colon cancer, which she never even knew she had because we never told her.
That’s so sad. I’m sorry
@@Metronomical3 Thank you.
I do find the dozens of song passages similar to Pink Floyd’s 1968 title song, A Saucer Full of Secrets starting with random keybord notes and drum solo mixed with chaotic random sounds then playing into a more cohesive music played at the end like the haunting funeral choir. My own dad is in the late stages of dementia, this album just nails it
Some have said that the Stage 4 picture is the Girl with a Pearl Earing but with dementia.
Yes
Can see that
What does it matter how my heart breaks. All is I remembered. Nothing matters.
25:00-25:42 made me so sad bro jesus christ, i hope your uncle isnt suffering anymore, and i also hope youve been getting the needed support ever since🙏🙏
Solar Sands is also how I learnt about The Caretaker's exploration of dementia.
18:36 ngl this scene absolutely broke me when I first listened to it
Did you know that people with adhd are like 3x more likely to develop dementia later in life or even earlier. I have adhd and it’s terrifying to think about it, I already have difficulty with my short term memory and I’m only 20, my life has chunks missing from it especially the last few months. And it makes a lot of sense too because my brain at least, is always thinking about things and constantly going but thoughts get tangled sometimes and I feel that is reminiscent of dementia to come. Bring weed into play and it gets worse sometimes I lose whole days
Oh lord... this actually made me scared of whats to come, i have something very similar to ADHD called ADD. I forgot what it meant but it is something that some people do have.
I wish you the best of luck, Alzheimer's and other forms of dementia are something that nobody should have to ever deal with.
OH FUCK I HAVE ADHD
I have ADHD and just give myself the copium that once I'm old Enough that dementia becomes a worry, we will have a cure.
I'm 63 and scrambled eggs. An artist witha thousand things already bouncing around, now losing the moment to moment. Like that MEMENTO movie, only worse. Everything is an inch away from retrieval, but out of my grasp. Holding a thought is like holding a lizard. Still glad I found this. My Dad
I have to say, the footage at 5:45 was nostalgic and so calming. It reminded me of those fibreglass christmas trees that change colour which were all the rage in the late 90's when I was about 4 or 5
Ivan just look so done with everything
He kinda does 😣
I’ve listened in full this album. From start to end. It is so depressing. I might as well as give you my experience.
Stage 1
I liked staged 1, it wasn’t that bad compared to the rest. Stage 1 for me felt off. It is was strange, A3 especially. The music was bearable and even good, just strange. The crackling of the music seems normal, just some recording problems. With the context its so much worst. Its your memories being “faded”. You can remember it, just some details are gone. The stage cover seems so familiar, but I put my finger on it. It just seems like a piece of paper, but its slightly off.
Stage 2
This stage for me felt like you are starting to know what’s happening to you. You start to realize that something is off, and it’s something serious. There is more white noise here. The crackling is much more common and louder. To me, the cover arts flowers look like there withering. The two sides of the vase look like people, a man on the left and a woman on the right.
Stage 3
This stage showed me what I’m really getting into. The music has gotten destroyed. You can still remember, just details big and small are gone. Names are forgotten, people are forgotten, your parents are forgotten, your children are forgotten, your partner is forgotten. The cover art just reminds me of an overgrown plant. Vines destroying your head.
Stage 4
I felt scared. I felt alone. I dont know how to describe. Memories mishmashing. Intersecting and bisecting. The world is gone, only white noise remains. The sirens. Oh god the sirens. The hell sirens. They struck fear into you. I can’t describe it. At some points, the white noise stops and some actual music comes out. Its so disturbing, yet you pray they come. The cover art looks like a person contemplating there life, or lack there of. Its just her, going through white noise.
Stage 5
The music, its all so broken. Every memory is shattered, torn, raptured. You can think, just what you can think is complete nonsense. The album cover looks like a girl dancing, with her holding her dress. But she’s so distraught, there is only but faint memory of her.
Stage 6
Nothing. This is nothing. You are nothing but a husk. You cant do anything. You exist, but cant think. The crackling of the vinyl record and echos of wind fills the air. The album cover is so
f/cking terrifying. Its a canvas. An empty canvas. There is nothing left. But has it ever had something to begin with? You forgot how to forget. The ending. The ending was so depressing. Terminal lucidity, where you gain lucidity for the last time. You have all your memories back, but the end is coming, soon. It was like a choir of angels. Lifting you up to the heavens. The last minute… the last minute. It was nothing. No wind, no crackling, just nothing. You’ve died. There is nothing left. Your gone from this world, your pain has ended.
I can’t describe what this album did to me. It changed me, it broke me. I felt… broken… after listening to this. I think I can relate to my grandmother a little more now. Im so sorry for your uncle, I think after listening to this album, I get it. Treasure everything. Every moment, everyone, everything. I hope your uncle is doing well, i hope his life will remain peaceful.
Hey Dylan, this was an awesome video man. I just wanted to say that and thank you for the work you put into it. EATEOT moved me like nothing else I've ever experienced in my life, and I've watched so many video essays about it. But I love how you broke things down and how much respect you showed to Kirby, the project itself, as well as the original artists it sampled, like Al Bowlly - who was an awesome musician with a very tragic life.
I really appreciate this comment thank you :)
All I can say is .... well, I can't even think of what to say. I have listened to this before, not in its entirety of course, but it was never explained to me. This was... an experience.
cool vid man
The letters on the track titles are the sides of the vinyl releases. You can only fit 20 minutes per side of a record and the letters change every 20 minutes
Stage 4's cover is my personal favorite, not just in the meaning I put behind it, but also because it just looks the most appealing to me.
I imagine stage 4's cover is what a patient observes as they look at someone, particularly, a family member. Of course, you can tell you're looking at somebody... but you don't know who - a common problem nearly all patients experience, and probably one of the most heartbreaking issues when suffering from this disease.
Additionally, while granting this album a thorough listen alongside a friend, him and I came up with an interpretation for stage 5.
Stage 5 is like gazing at an old painting in your room. I saw an old man strolling down some stairs with a cane in his hand, assumedly dancing his way down. You can't make out much at all about the person, even though you've been given a full display of their figure in comparison to stage 4; the leg is bloated, the body and arm are too rough, but you can somewhat make out the cane and hand that is holding it. My friend however pointed out that the stairs are still there in the cover because they are so simple and geometric. The man and his suit are all too detailed and complex for your degrading brain to remember. But the stairs? Simple enough for even a kid to recall.
I absolutely love this. There’s another piece of music that involves disintegration over a period of time. It’s also very good. “The Dissintigration Loops”, by William Basinski. Also a haunting masterpiece I must say.
I should listen to this album again. I did not remember the hell sirens, stage 5 clarity, or the stage 6 organ, despite them being huge “landmarks” in the album.
The last song broke me
I started crying so much!!! i wish dementia didn't exsist
The moments of clarity i stage 5 are so impactful and even more so when they are ripped away. It makes it clear just how frustrating and horrific the disease is. You have no control at all.
You forget what you want to remember, and remember what you want to forget. Unless you have dementia, in which case you forget both.
Good video
The last 5 minutes could be as you said, but it could also represent terminal lucidity - where memory comes back for a little bit, and then they die.
Nice
This is a good review of EATEOT, but I don't t think you should have spoiled the end of stage 6 by including it here.
underrated video
There was an artist called William Utermohlen who was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s and did self portraits. I think they make a good comparison to EATEOT.
00:24:51 this is the part where i would get angry. just all of the plagues and entanglements are causing such a nusense, and it's hard not to be angry at them at about this part (for me, at least.)
I'm 70 now. And I think it's slowly starting
I am sorry to hear that. I can sit on my high chair and say that I have a rudimentary understanding of dementia and its effects on people, but unless if I get it when I grow older I will never truly understand what it is like. However, if my advice means anything to you, go be with the people you love. Enjoy the memories while they are still there. You may lose them someday, but hold on to the ones you have and love the people you know. Stay strong my friend
@@JamesR624 ah good to know i'll delete it right now.
thank you for notifying me of my bullshittery.
Stage 4 genuinely scared me when I heard it after being made aware what it represents. It does a scary good job of confusing you while also just flat out scaring you. I felt like an infant being surrounded with unfamiliar and unsettling noises, incapable of making sense of what I was hearing. Live life while you still can and be kind to everyone.
I know adhd too, but I get just so lost in the songs voiceless lost tune and somehow i can handle it for at least a song or 2.
I personally believe the last 5 minutes isn't a funeral but rather something like terminal lucidity or the moments right before death as the angels sing and you are lifted to heaven presumably? I think the last minute of silence is the death of the patient.
Girl with the pearl earring
Came here from Pooop live stream 👀
Nice 👍 you remind me of someone...
Ah! A fellow ADHD sufferer! Glad to see that there are others with attention spans like a 2 year old!
Hahahaa good to see ya fellow person with adhd 😭😭😭
@@Metronomical3 Don't worry, my friend! We're in this together!
*ah same..*
Remember, we have cured dementia in rats like six or seven times at least. And yet in humans zero times. This is due to our lack of willingness to give humans brain damage and then study ways of curing them with complete disregard for their health and safety. Probably a good thing, but it would be great if we had a way of getting the benefits of human experimentation without the uhm... war crimes and atrocities associated with that.
Nope. Not a good thing. Purely making more people suffer and hiding the selfish reality of the situation behind virtual signaling. We could, also study people that already have it but that'd go against the profts of the drug companies and nursing homes that make a fuckton of money off f this suffering.
Remember, there's no money in curing something, but there's a LOT of money in prolonging or masking or ignoring it and telling the family memebers that it has to be this way.
Spooky songs
The everywhere at the end of Time stage 4 album cover might be a loved one from the past through the victims mind which could be the person they had dated or known in the past which the back of the distorted face could possibly resemble hair of the loved one but due to the distortions nobody knows
Yeah,this album can change your life,but not in a good way....
For the people who listen to this as an introspective view on dementia it can be life changing, giving the viewer a deeper look into the minds of victims and it adds a new layer of sympathy. However, for the people this album is portraying it’s definitely life changing in a very dark way
I wish you had addressed the other parts of the p/a tracks. You really only go over the beginning and temporary bliss state. You never go over J1 L1 M1 N1 P1 Or Q1. Those tracks are so peak...
I've been thinking of this video quite a bit recently. My uncle passed away recently and my grandfather was recently diagnosed with dementia. I have thought of making a follow up video and in this follow up video I will discuss these tracks and other caretaker projects. This disease is becoming more apparently common within my family and with the links between ADHD and dementia it scares me to think that this may one day be my fate.. I will voice my concerns in the future though
Sounds good@@Metronomical3
Would you ever do another EATEOT video
Hey! It’s been a while since I’ve been on this platform hence the wait for my response to your comment. Since I first made this video I focused my channel on more comedic content, but after taking a very long break I’ve considered coming back to make longer reviews on interesting topics. Another EATEOT video might be included considering as time has passed I have more content and introspective looks on the album to base a review on. Expect me to be returning to the platform in the coming months :)
I’m glad your back on the platform I really hope to see another EATOT video as well thank you for responding to my comment I really appreciate that ❤️ thank you so much I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day :)
666 Likes. Nice
the writing in this video kinda ruin the vibe of the original experience not gonna lie