Art Discussion: Everywhere at the End of Time
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 17 ต.ค. 2024
- Is it a review? Is it an analysis or critique? No! I mean maybe? its a Discussion about a beautiful piece of art I couldn't just leave untouched.
This is my first venture into a "commentary" type of video and I have made several mistakes, technical or research wise, so if there is anything that you feel I didn't
touch on enough or if you just have questions about the piece you think I might be able to clear up I'd love to do a follow up video where I answer them!
Everywhere at the end of time 1-6 - The Caretaker (complete)
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• The Caretaker - Everyw...
Video Inspired by
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Solar Sands: • Can You Name One Objec...
Sources
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7 stages of Dementia - www.dementiaca...
Music
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The CareTaker - Everywhere at the end of time
Ghost Stories Incorporated - Deafening Silence
Dotan Negrin and Prismatic Mantis - Pure Imagination
Video
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Stock Footage Provided by Pexels.com
Life on Super 8 - / lifeonsuper8
Socials Baby (I'm Pretty Quiet)
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Twitch -- / jazzb3ar
Instagram -- / jazzkittenstagram
Twitter -- / jazzbeardropout
UPDATE:
You guys continue to watch, and provide me extremely kind words on this video, Thank you very much, its pretty cliche but it means a lot to have made something and for it to receive the amount of support I have seen here.
I recently removed the song from the end of the video for a few reasons: One, like I said previously I was in the wrong for using the song the way I did and the more I think about it the more I feel to just correct the mistake instead of just addressing it, Two, it is a little irritating seeing the copyright claim tag everytime I open up youtube studio.
For new viewers or anyone who didn't make it to the end, I strung together a bunch of stock footage of a boy and girl going through life, as kids, teenagers, meeting as adults and living a long life married, until they pass away and it ends on the shot of the grave. The song that played was "The Final Shootout" by David Mansfield and there was a quote from the cowboy movie I mentioned Broken trail. Its a quote that the main character often says when another character in the movie dies, Its beautiful and out of place for as cheesy as the movie is. But its stuck with me for a long time, and felt it was appropriate.
Thank you all again for the kind comments, criticisms and conversation Its been really fun :)
END OF UPDATE!
This video has recently been copyright claimed by "The Orchard Music". At first I was little worked up about it as it seems they do have a shady history of incorrect copyright claims, however after looking at the claim (which was for the last minute of the video) it seems I did in fact misuse their music in this video and in retrospect I probably handled a lot of other artists work here less than honestly as far as copyright law is concerned.
I will be leaving the video up and not challenging the claims. I just wanted to be transparent with you guys as well as take responsibility and learn from my mistake. This video has far surpassed any expectation I had of it, Thank you very much
do you recommend listen to this? also i subbed your awesome
Lol thank you. Yes, I do reccomend it! It's very long and sad. But its tastefully and thoughtfully put together to represent dementia as well as possible.
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup ok i will watch the entire thing
what was the quote?
"We are travelers in this world, from the sweet grass to the packing house, birth til death, we travel between the eternities"
One - Easily identifiable, cracks and all
Two - Identifiable, motes of confusion
Three - Identifiable, I can't recall what I was talking about, nature taking full fold regardless
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ah yes, because *Post-Awareness Stage 6 is without description*
Wait ... what are we talking about again? I swear I remember it a while ago. What am I even doing here? I ...
The funny thing about Stage 6 is that it's so much more listenable than Stages 4 and 5. Despite a low piano note here and there and the drumming sounds, it just sounds like your basic dark ambient drone music (except for the very end, of course). In the context of this entire work, that's actually alarming. The character no longer even notices they have a problem and is but a shell. They are no longer disturbed by the messy thoughts and pieces of memories because there are hardly any left. ;(
Uffda that is disturbing ... God I love this project.
Going through this piece myself I had the same feeling at stage 6. There was an underlying sadness at all things lost but also a sense of intense relief that after all that horror and confusion; it seems like it's over.
I had a few people in my life pass due to cancer and, in my eyes luckily, we allow euthanasia here and all but the ones too wracked with brain tumors to respond of them expressed a certain level of calm after all the pain, loss and degeneration knowing that, since it's all without help as it is, at least they get to fade into nothingness knowing that life will move on beyond them.
Right but, is it actually scientifically true? I'm not versed in dementia myself but can doctors confirm stage 6 people don't even notice they have a problem? Or is it that they are simply empty shells but are aware of their problem but can't say it because of something? We'd love to think it's a slope you slowly go down to like it is in the stories, as it's presented to us but I doubt it's scientific.
can't complain about stuff that isn't there after all
This exactly! Phase 6 is almost as if you've forgotten forgetting itself, if you no longer know the feeling due to how used to it you are, you have no reason to feel anything about it. You've given into memory, you've given into crying for help. Not because you're no longer determined, but you can't figure out how.
This entire album is like a shotgun to the chest. I’m the youngest in my family. I’m 14. My mom is around 50 right now and I swear to god I would break down and lose function if she got dementia/Alzheimer’s. My dad died when I was eight. I can’t stop crying right now and I’m losing my shit trying to type. This is the most horrifying audio I’ve ever heard. It’s just the sheer terror of knowing there’s a possibility that I could lose the one person I love the most in the most torturous way there is. Forgetting everything till you’re empty. You mind being destroyed beyond comprehension. Its painful for everyone.
Dearest Malwareyt, I relate to your position and feel some similar experiences, too. It is not easy; and I don’t think that it is supposed to be. Our feelings and our love for others certainly do run deep, and their love for us also. What can sometimes get me through is to find something in the moment that I like, or love, that may be simple: a taste of orange juice, how soft my cat’s fur is, remembering a goofy joke that someone told me, how good it feels after after a bubble bath, watching the flicker of light from a solitary candle, how the rough bark of a tree feels under my hand, the sound of a train from far away, the sound of wind chimes, the changing colors of a sunset, and so on. It does not take away my original feelings, I think that it makes them stronger. It enhances my perspective, somehow. I think that it’s okay to have feelings, maybe it is what we choose to do while we mourn with them. I don’t know if this helps you, yet you can know that someone else out here, “gets you.” Sincere and warm, caring thoughts to you always, A fellow human friend.🕯
@Layne Krusz A piece of shit? Well, I don't know about that, but at least you have enough self awareness to know something is amiss.
Perhaps you're carrying some very heavy trauma and it's too painful so you've shut down the feeling part of you. If that is the case, then you may come to a point when you're ready to let it come out and let yourself fully feel it. It will very likely be the most painful thing you'll ever feel, but once you have gone through it and you're on the other side, you'll feel an immense relief, like you vomited out a ton of poison.
You'll feel reborn.
I hope you do come to a point where you can let this pain out and really feel it.
Only then can you let it go.
There is no way to avoid it, no way around, the only way out is to go through it.
Maybe it's different for you, I don't know. I'm just speaking from my own experience. I was numb for such a long time, until I couldn't bear it any longer. I faced my trauma and let myself feel all the pain and grief I'd been holding on to for years, and finally let it all go.
It was utterly transformative.
Peace and love to you, and good luck! x
Don't worry. You're not alone. Hope you got siblings? Just be your best person.
@Layne Krusz Ok, clearly I was reading too much into your comment. Have a nice life. Or not, whatever.
@Layne Krusz
I don't think that makes you a piece of shit, necessarily.
However, it can mean that you have a lack of empathy, which could mean a couple things.
Perhaps you're a sociopath, perhaps you just aren't that emotional, maybe there's an undiagnosed mental condition you have.
A lack of empathy can _lead_ to you being a piece of shit, but I don't think it necessarily makes you one.
This album affects people because they empathise with the slow torture that is dementia. It hurts to imagine being slowly robbed of your memories, and forgetting the people/things you care about, the album really puts you in that head space and it's a painful one.
This project made me fear my own mortality for a while.
I felt the exact same lol, I also feel a little less excited to get too much older.
Elaina Eberz same
The first time I listened to stages 1-6 in their entirety I just sobbed. The feeling of the decay of a person in audio form was just so horrifying, something almost indescribable. And those last 5 minutes... my god.
Oh yeah, I for sure thought the last 5 minutes was a little optimistic. But yeah 'indescribable' is funnily enough the best way I could describe it.
A marathon to mope too? lol I dont know.
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup Just the choir that fades into this tune of death after hours of fuzziness... it isn't quite clear, but it inches its way into the frame. It's serene and beautiful and horribly sad in a way I haven't felt from "music" before (I use the word music in the broadest way possible).
It's funny how you first need to listen to the whole thing (or almost the whole thing like I did) in order to fully appreciate the very ending of the piece. Without the whole context, it might sound even a bit cheesy. :o
Every time I hear this piece of art I think about my dad, my grandpa, my crush, and life itself. That horrified me but also soothed me in a way, but I felt bad with some of my relatives who have this disease. Im also really terrified about getting older, I could get this and life would crumble in front of me, decaying inside of me. And your right, I cried for 6 minutes after the last 5 minutes of the song.
I feel the last piece of Stage 6 is a call to the condition of Terminal Lucidity where people suffering from dementia temporarily regain their mental faculties for minutes or hours shortly before death. The last moment of Lucidity before death. To say your goodbyes.
my recommendation to those coming in and watching this: don't just listen to "a few tracks on each album." Set a good chunk of your day aside, just one day, and give the whole thing a listen from beginning to end, yes, all 6 and a half hours of it in one go. It's not even just about the fact that this is necessary to get the full effect of this music art piece. It's also that we as individuals and as a culture have lived with our waking hours being increasingly fragmented and divided into shorter and shorter snips of activity, and at the same time with less and less focus as we also double, triple, etc. up on activities at the same time. Once in a while, it helps so much to just clear your day, and devote your full attention to absorbing a singular experience. And if for whatever reason your lifestyle does not ever permit you to do this, even just one day out of a whole month or two, I would take a serious look at your quality of life and make changes. Being able to do this once in a while isn't just good for your mind, it is necessary.
Seconding that motion.
Right on!
I completely agree
the fact that you were jovial in the begining is excellent. with memory loss in dementia, you never know when it sets in. it starts off feeling like a happy daydream. it’s a very first impression in such a real and true way. loved this review.
I had no clue what I was in for lol, thank you for the comment :)
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup neither do they... honestly if I were to die like this I think the last stage before confusion would be the worst because I would know what was about to happen...
See having had someone close die with dementia I didn't interpret those last 5 minutes optimistically at all. My grandpa dissapeared fast on us. And all I could think of for that final bit was the story my dad told of how my grandpa was holding on, nothing to hold on to was left but he kept alive but not really there. Then someone told my grandpa that we were ok, we would take care of grandma and that we would be fine. That was that jarring noise in the ambient music, that crash that allowed them to let go and drift into death. The character dead I interpreted the distorted and somewhat clear ending piece as their loved one's thoughts, the effect his disease had on them. The distorting affect it had on their memories of the character as he moved on, the music left behind is the hopeful part, we remember the good. He died in that harsh moment of clarity.
.... That is all to real.
"It would be criminal to spoil this"
OH THANK GOD I GET TO FINISH THE VIDEO
I would like but it’s at 69 and i don’t want to spoil your fun
As someone who has family that suffers from dementia, It haunted me. You slowly start losing your entire identity, memory. My great grandmother can’t remember me that much and she gets very nervous when meeting family because she can’t recall us.
It’s hard to watch people you love slowly fade away, And this album captures that perfectly.
Dear Honeybee, I’m so sorry for you and your family’s distress and pain. I agree and can definitely identify with your thoughtful words. Be well, friend. 🕯
the ending of stage six sounds kinda like funeral music
I guess I haven't had to hear much funeral music and hadn't considered that as a possibility. Good observation!
Nigga that’s cuz it’s funeral music
@Layne Krusz nah, its not funeral, this is the final moments before and during death
I think of it ... as a ... terminal lucidity moment. Hours before death. It reminded me of Katharina Ehmer's death.
@@themanformerlyknownascomme777 it’s the final moment of clarity, where the patient remembers one last thing before death. Patients usually hum their favorite song.
I believe there's 8th stage too, but everyone manages to die before it can happen. When 8th stage happens, you forget how to breathe, blink etc. You're basically an empty shell that does not think anymore at all.
Yeah its the decay of the "Lizard Brain" which would kill you anyway
thats the part that kills you. it doesnt last very long
The last five minutes are All Star by Smash Mouth, sorry not sorry
What have you done....
that might be fitting for the rumored gen-z version
SomeBODY once told me... something I forgot
@@disjointedhoudini nah 🅱
It's the Minecraft one
Yeah that’ll be mine, probably...
35:35 "I don't know how to feel"
Bingo. That's what's so alluring about this piece. It's so fascinating how we can be told and experience something as horrific and need so much time to process it. Even then we still may just be an unorganized glob of emotion and conjecture.
Everywhere At The End Of Time is honestly the most depressing art I've ever experienced. The fuzzy confusions and horror, leading to droning, and then finally, a somber funeral tune to take off the Caretaker character. Fuck man, its an experience.
It is for sure a downer lol, I don't think I can name anything off the top off my head that really compares, maybe "do androids dream of electric sheep"? But even then the dread I feel slogging through Eateot is probably worse.
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup Ive never heard of that. Ill look it up.
It's an older book, the movie and game is called "I have no mouth but I must scream" Leadhead has a really good video if you are interested!
Thank you for the comment btw :)
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup I saw that. Really dark ending, jesus christ i couldnt sleep after watching a vid on it.
Haha yeah thats a messed up one to. Between those two I could probably curl up in a corner in fear for the rest of my life.
I listened to this earlier today, it was so ... awful, (the feelings not the album) and i would genuinely say the experience itself isnt good, but not because it isnt fun, or sounds good, but because its almost as real as it possibly could be, the suffering you feel after stage 3 is almost real, it makes you feel sick. I often found myself asking "this is cool, but couldnt this have been shorter" but after my viewing, i think the long drawn out segments are perfect. in Stages 4 and 5, its really hard to see the full scope of what youve been listening too, like you forget that this is the same piece of art as stage 1.
Hit the nail exactly on the head, I believe this is the experience Leland Kirby was try to give listeners!
*you forget*
“strange, long, and really good” that’s what she said
You just effing wrecked me dude.
Jazz and his growing group of Very Real friends hahahaha
By stage 3 I got really afraid of losing my own memory, and it made a placebo where I found it hard to remember things and it look alike that happened to you
Yeah I was pretty impacted by the music for sure, during my original reaction I was certainly having a hard time find the right words!
If I can also add, as a hobbyist producer for some 15 years.
Stage 5 and very much stage 6 the artist used a plug in called Paul stretch. This allowed him to pass original tracks we hear earlier into a ethereal spacey pad that shifts gently into new chords.
In the beginning and in different parts of stage six he uses a vinyl needle head scraped on the vinyl this is then digitally altered to the deep sound you here, this is technically telling us the same sounds we hear in part 1+ are present but no longer even recognisable as what it even is.
You are right to censor the ending.
It's cool to get more detail about the techniques used!
Thank you!
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup These are my own deconstructive guesses.
What I know now (from others) is that he did this project digitally, so we can throw out wrangled/dirty tape heads and needle heads as noise source. Although he would have used plug in samplers and old saturator emulators, and more than likely the guy has a hoarde of needle sounds and vinyl crackles.
Which is actually a lot more impressive when you hear some of the ducking he's done.
The horn sound you said sounded like a war horn, that would be one of the the brass sections, stretched and down pitched, esp in part4.
If you want something worked out gimme a shout and I'll see if I can deconstruct it.
Awesome reaction BTW.
It makes me so sad that so few people have listened to or even heard this album, as someone who has listened to the full 6 1/2 hours of it. I can say that you come out of it a changed person, a little haunted maybe, but with such an appreciation of life, and sympathy for people with these kinds of disease or people caring for these people. Also, if you, the reader do go listen to it, read the description, and the comments. They're some of the funniest, most heartbreaking, honest, and sad comments I've ever read. And through that shared experience, you see everyone coming together in the comments, sharing stories, embracing others, and making others laugh; because death is inevitable, and being together might make it a little more bearable.
And not to spoil anything, but after listening to an album that makes you more scared as time goes on, those last six minutes contain some of the most mind-shattering, heart-exploding concepts that I've ever experienced through music.
I really enjoyed your comment! I think its a little unfair to expect most people to have the time or energy to listen to the whole project. But it is a powerful, surreal and beautiful experience is recommend! I certainly felt like I had done a lot of reflecting on what the end of life actually means when it was all over for sure.
The comments are fantastic on the TH-cam video over there haha you are right.
Thank you again for the super insightful comment!
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup Sorry, while I do come off a little forceful and heavy handed, its because of my passion for it, I'm glad that you enjoyed it, well enjoy might be a strong word, experienced might be a better one...
Haha no need to apologize! I feel the same way, I wish more people could listen to it in it's full glory. Experience is the perfect word lol.
Someone who I can actually relate to about this
That's not true, The Caretaker in general is a really popular artist in the online world and vinyl scene. This series has millions of collective views/listens, especially when you consider all of these type of discussion videos(which also rack up hundreds of thousands of views)
"So few people" is a vast exaggeration because The Caretaker is a strange anomaly that pops up on virtually everybody's TH-cam algorithm and is a well known and respected artist.
Ooooh noo dude I was listening to this while I was sleeping and that spoiler alert gave me a heart attack lolol.
Stage 6 is what really got me, that emptiness, at that point you are so far gone nothing is recognizable the things entering the place you exist in who were once your friends are now just empty canvases, when you look in the mirror you don't even recognize yourself you can't remember who you once were everything is so unrecognizable you become distant and no matter how much you are in the real world you will never truly be able to experience what once was
You definitely have the most cohesive analysis of this album that I've seen. I was getting annoyed with the quality of the rest of them and was thinking about making my own, lol.
Stage 5 DOES bring in new samples. It uses some wax cylinder samples, one was just a recording of a guy and his kid.
I'm fairly certain the opening of Stage 5 is meant to sound like electrical sparks, to signify synapses misfiring.
Throughout the entire album, Al Bowfly's Heartaches is sampled; I believe you can even hear it in stage 6.
Another of Al Bowfly's very popular songs, Midnight, The Stars and You was used in Stanley Kubrick's The Shining and was the initial inspiration for The Caretaker project.
A great deal, if not the majority of the samples used were from obscure ballroom records from record shops around Kirby's area.
I'm an avid listener of dark ambient, and Stage 6 is by far the best sonic portrayal of "oppressive, dark nothing" I've heard, which is funny coming from someone whom it could be argued doesn't even make dark ambient.
Whenever I listen to 6 I imagine an infinite void, with occasional flashes of purple lightning, illuminating a solitary lighthouse.
Not sure why purple, but that's what I always envision. Lighthouse is probably because of how much I love Alan Wake.
The end of the album is a callback to Friends Past Reunited from the first Caretaker album from 1999. Even more beautiful with that context.
Another fun project by Kirby to check out, although not even close to the grandeur of this one, is VVM's Death of Rave, and if you liked stages 1 and 2, An Empty Bliss Beyond This World is more of that. I'd introduce a new listener with that album first.
I got in on this album pretty early after it's completion, and it's been very gratifying and interesting to see its growth over the last year.
Thank you for the comment and kind words! I love learning more about the album and I will for sure check out the other one!
Make a video! I'll watch it, I think most people who listening are new viewers without much experience with Leland's work (myself included) itd be cool to hear a perspective of someone who's watched a lot of reviews since it's release and is more knowledgeable in how it was made and what samples were used.
Only semi-related but I think the fact that basically all of us are in stage 1 of dementia is so damn ominous... like... we're already on the way to it at all times??
It is creepy, any second we could get kicked down to stage 2 and the ball starts rolling.
Technically stage zero but yeah...
Sodiumitis I looked it up, and Stage 1 is when there is no impairment yet, but the disease has started. There is currently no way to tell wether a person is in Stage 0 or Stage 1, other than looking at their brain tissue under a microscope, but they are different categories. Functionally they are no different, but being in Stage 1 means that the person will be developing more severe symptoms within the next few months to years, and being in Stage 0 means that they’re normal.
TBH I find the concept of Stage 0 a little weird. For any other disease or disorder, we would just say that they don’t have the disease. Not everyone gets dementia, even if they get really old. In the nursing home I work at, there was a lady who reached 108 years old, and her mind stayed sharp until just a few weeks before she passed. Even then, it was probably the pain medication that made her confused.
@@Sodiumitis The medical document also says there are 7 stages. 1st stage in the album is 2nd stage of Alzheimer's.
Yes, technically everyone is stage 1 dementia, based on the 7 stage theory. Or at least we’re all at the same level as stage 1 dementia because stage 1 is a healthy brain with no impairment. But at the same time, it’s not like we have dementia right now. But a healthy brain is comparable to stage 1.
There’s a 3-stage theory and a 7-stage theory. I like the explanation of the 7-stage theory better myself as I feel it is more descriptive and explains the progression better.
The way the sounds briefly spike, then fade away into reverb at the end of "Long decline is over" reminds me of the last breaths of a dying person. Unfortunately I had to experience this first-hand with my mother not too long ago. Those last breaths are agonizing. The time between gets longer and longer, and just when you think its over, they take another breath- extending their life for another 30 seconds or so until eventually, after a long decline, that next breath doesn't come. Click. The lights burn out forever.
I love the way the sounds spike as well, it's an exactly analogous to remembering something and having it slip off the top of your tongue.
I am very sorry for your experience, I can not imagine, especially with someone that close. My condolences man.
Im trying to imagine what it would be like if I ever got dimensia humming post hardcore songs in a nursing home, i have to laugh at the thought otherwise it would terrify me.
Lol that is a funny thought. Think of the 20 something year old health workers who are going to have to take care of senile air drumming millennial/zoomers in 2060.
I listened to this alone last night, all in one sitting. I started around midnight and by the time it was finished the sun was up. The first 3 stages were generally pleasant to me, even despite the distortions. I was unsettled during Stage 3 but not any more than I would be listening to a creepy story.
The beginning of Stage 4 jarred me even though I was expecting it. The abrupt shift in tone was like a dream suddenly dropping into a nightmare, one that you're aware of but can't wake up from.
Stage 5 made me feel dread in the pit of my stomach like I've never felt before. The music itself was in pain, crying for help. I tried painting during Stages 4 and 5 because the cover art inspired me but had an impossible time focusing on a subject.
I painted a flower but got lost in the motion of the brush strokes and the petals ended up as unidentifiable masses of strokes of color flowing out from the center. I gave up and scraped the top layer away, resulting in a streaky blur or oranges and reds. I didn't take any pictures of it before the scrape, so nobody but me will ever know what it looked like before. It was hard even for me to remember the flower. I think I unintentionally captured what I was feeling during Stage 5 perfectly with that. Struggling to conjure up a simple image from my mind, wandering away from it, and then being left with the vaguest impression of what it had been without hope of recreating the original.
By Stage 6 I was just sitting on the couch, headphones still on and eyes closed. Doing nothing but listening. No longer checking the time to see how long I had left. I didn't feel scared anymore, not at all. Even with the more brutal droning. The chaos of Stage 5 was over and the relative slowness of 6 was comforting.
The last seven minutes, the payoff that every review touches on, I thought of my great-grandmother who died years ago. The last time I'd seen her she barely recognized me. I hadn't been particularly close to her, but somehow that feels worse. I could have known her better. I've been in the empty room she left behind a few times since then. None of the furniture has been disturbed. The other two grandparents I lost weren't to dementia but I thought of them as well. I hope their last moments were as peaceful as I felt at the end of this album. The release of all of the fear and confusion that had built up over the 6 hours before it. I hope mine will be like that, too.
I don't know why I'm writing a whole novel in your comments. Sorry. I have a lot of thoughts that I needed to get out and it's easier to ramble here among strangers than to bother my friends who might be put off by how heavy this was. I did mention it to a friend today but didn't go into quite this much detail.
I went to sleep after listening and was afraid I'd have nightmares, but my dreams were uneventful. I woke up with the cat snuggled up to me. I'm glad to be alive.
That is a solid comment lol, Really thoughtful, well put together, and said. I'm glad to have it under my video lol. I'm pretty sure you nailed everything I think Leland Kirby could have wanted someone to feel and extract from this project, I can't speak for him of course.
But thank you!
I didn't get much in the way of "feels" listening to this, but it certainly got me into the mindset of the demented subject, or at least my understanding based on what I was hearing. In short, it drove me a little mad without my immediate awareness.
Short term memory was stunted, I was on edge all the time, faint horror at common objects, reading skills and understanding others were difficult, and it took me a few seconds of thinking to get names for things and people down.
Funny thing is, I felt otherwise normal. It wasn't as if I woke up in the Matrix and realised all I knew was wrong; I was just confused by the tricks my brain was playing on me in its attempts to find a mindset that fit my environment (the strange music, that is). Certainly an unusual distortion of the mind.
Thats a pretty wild experience, I certainly got feels Probably just irrational existential dread lol. I am glad you got something out of it, even
if that was just an experience. Would you say you enjoyed it at atll? Thank you for sharing!
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup Enjoyed it? To the extent that it offered something totally different to what I normally experience, I would call it a yes. I like a mental challenge, and even though it wasn't "pleasant" in the same vain as, for instance, a 1970s Queen song, it was certainly an otherworldly piece to unravel and make sense of.
I'm practically obsessed with dementia now... Have been since I first listened to it all the way through in early February. It's a macabre fascination to be sure, particularly given the mad scientist attitude I have about it, but the insights are boundless. I even gave my Peter character here dementia too, where he proceeded to off himself in fear of the insanity to come, then become a crazy vampiric demon in the afterlife. His evil super power? Causing his targets hallucinations so terrifying that their brains slowly devour themselves to forget the horrors. Lovecraft, vampires, and mental decay all in one package... what's not to love?
@@AlastorTheNPDemon Well I am glad man! and thats pretty neat lol
listening to this series is a self-discovery journey.
My entire family on my dad's side has a history of alzheimer's and dementia, and my mom's side our family has been pretty lucid throughout their lives. due to COVID, my grandma had to eat unattended in her nursing home, and she choked to death this month. I know that I should have felt bad, but I really felt numb. I had already grieved when she forgot my name, and who she was. The true agony of this album is it's length. Not knowing if I'll continue along my dad's or mom's side is excruciating, but this album, now with this event in mind had let me know that my time is limited. The value of life, in my opinion, is in it's finite nature. Death is necessary in life, and I'm not afraid of death, I'm afraid of time lost. Mentally, I'm at my prime, and until I reach stage two, I know that I'll use my faculties to their fullest extent, and enjoy myself to make up for future lost time.
I'm sorry, but Covid or not, what kind of nursing home would leave an Alzheimers patient unattended to feed themselves? Choking is a real hazard in the later stages, and many would starve to death if not fed by someone else.
"The only truth is music". ~Jack Kerouac
the transition in the audio from stage 2 to stage 3 made me scream out loud
while listening to this i first started to think about my grandfather who has dementia and i think would be in stage 3 currently but as it kept going i started to think about myself and how one day it’s possible i could develop dementia as well and that’s where it gets haunting to me.
Yeah it's a scary thought, I think of all death by natural causes this is certainly the most terrifying, but I think its also inspired me to make good with the time I've got.
Thank you. I literally cried the first time I listened to this. (The first comment I made was copied and pasted from the 6 hour video). I fear my mom getting dementia. It’s nice hearing another person like me giving their opinion. Thank you so much
That's a powerful comment, I bet the community over there appreciated it! That's a rational fear to have, just try not to fixate on it. That stuff just ends up making you crazy and it's toxic for your mind. Enjoy what you have while you have it!
My Step-Father has Parkinson’s disease. And his Parkinson’s is starting to cause dementia. I listened to this album, and looking at him, and knowing what he has to go through every day... it was rough. But it was an important experience. I can relate to him when he has trouble understanding what is going on around him.
It's hard for me to even start it.
Im only 21 and experience alot of jaded and jagged memories from an onslaught of traumatic childhood experiences.
Im going to have to set aside time to subject myself to this in full.
I'm sorry to hear that, Eateot is a pretty powerful set of albums imo. I recommend it however, it gave me a lot of time to reflect and think about what's important to me at the very least.
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup i have since watched the first 3 albums and i have cried a few times.
My dad also suffers memory loss/dementia .. And this just hit way too close to home. I will continue however.. It's made me experience some very deep things.
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup a new gratitude for life and its details is what im gaining by listening to these.
Thats a lot to go through, I wish you the best and don't feel bad if you have take a break for a while. The albums aren't going anywhere!
I appreciate and thank you for sharing your exchange of conversation. I also am still coming through and working on some devastating parts of my life (and trying my most humanly possible way to heal and prepare for, “next ones,”). Listening to and really taking in all that this piece of magnificent artwork has to offer is a serious goal for me. I have to, “find the best time,” and my own personal courage and strength to do so, and I will. Anyone that accepts this great emotional challenge and commits themselves fully, should do so at their own pace. I can see that Mr. Kirby had this in his soul while putting every piece of this puzzle together. I thank him for his endurance, compassion, completion, and his choice of sharing this with others. Thank you for sharing your contributions and carrying on the conversation. Take good care and be well. 🕯
“You forget you’re forgetting” that is brutal
This review is amazing! For me, I had an emotional moment during the last song in Stage 6. Right before the last six minutes, there’s a moment where it’s basically silent but you hear coughs. I saw this as us hearing our family sitting in the hospital while we were on our death bed. That idea made the last portion much more emotional for me. All in all, I googled up ways to prevent dementia and sites said to eat healthy, not smoke, and work-out. Well this is a good reason to finally get fit 😭😭 (Also Im definitely subscribing. your review was amazing)
Hahahaha yeah I've quit smoking, I will have to start working out too! Try to stretch this meat space ship ride as long as possible.
Thank you for the kind words also :)
It's important to always keep your mind busy, aswell. Even after retirement, keep reading/travelling/creating art or writing. Whatever as to not sit around and become a veggie in the fridge.
The fifth stage was the most horrifying to me. I'm autistic and can be sensitive to certain sounds sometimes. So stage 5 literally had me wanting to run away from computer or throw of my headphones cause the sound was so horrible to hear. I hate to think of people's minds becoming so deteriorated and dead thats it's the only way they live life at this point. Still great job on the video and bringing this mysterious and powerful music album's to light.
Underrated
Made me subscribe, and bought the albums. You should do more of these documentaries that take the viewer along.
Maybe improve your audio a bit
Thank you! And I have a few more in the works!
Yeah I think the mic idea would have worked fine if I wasn't a spaz and swung it around the whole time, Im not sure why I didnt have my lav mic as a back up at least lol.
I think that the transitions playing the music loudly got a disgusted 'can you not?' out of me says something and I'm not sure what, outside the fact that I really don't wanna hear that music ever again
Lol the music is abrasive and is supposed to give off the uncomfortable vibe I think, but I probably could tone it down a bit so that is partially my fault.
Noted for future videos! Thank you for the comment :)
This project, and how it makes people feel perfectly sums up my most abstract fears. For a long time after I found out about death when i was young I would get panic attacks and scream out how I didn't want to die in the middle of the night. It wasn't until I was forced to cope with the emotions and face them that I understood what actually terrified me, and it wasn't the end of my existence. My great grandparents went through a rocky point when it came to Alzheimer's and/or Dementia, my grandpa having had issues since i was born and declining to the point that I have no memory of when he was lucid, and my grandma having a fall that put her in a nusing home that kickstarted her issues after my grandpa had passed. Seeing her decline was something that helped me form the thoughts of what I feared, it wasn't the possible endless dark, it was the thought of slowly becoming less functional, less recognizable, and less responsive as a result of getting older that shakes me to my core.
You talk abt your madman ramblings, but I really vibed w all your commentary; I had a lot of the same observations as I worked thru it (and am still doing so). Props to u for listening to that in a room alone at night ahaha good stuff. Keep up the good work
I appreciate the kind words :) yeah listening to it the first time through on a grave yard shift was rough lol
I listened to it one stage at a time, and it deeply disturbed me. I got the same emotions as when I visited my grandpa every few months when he was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s. Like a peek into how bad things had gotten. This is one of the most beautiful and important musical projects of the last decade, and I never want to hear it again.
Not fun seeing a family member succumb to Alzheimer’s but for some morbid reason this album gave me comfort
I can not begin to imagine, My experiences so far have all been at a very young age. I have a friend who has been informed he will begin to have to go through it with a very close family member.
Im glad you were able to find solace in this project, I for sure noticed a lot of people expressing similar feelings in the comments section of the EATEOT video.
“Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable”
I watched my grandmother go through Alzheimer's, and this gave me comfort as well. I think it's because there's a catharsis in the feeling of understanding what that person went through, even if just a little bit.
(Edit: It's 3am and I haven't slept so RIP me)
"Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable"
I would love seeing a review of the 2011 an empty bliss beyond this world. Nonetheless, good work on this review.
Leyland Kirby's creations definetly is something many people seem to have very different emotional reponses to so i appreciate you doing this
I'll have to give that one a listen, Thank you!
Really enjoyed this review, was looking for someone to talk about this album in-depth, looking forward to more content from you.
My grandfather has dementia, seeing him on his decline has been so hard. I cried so hard at the end of this album.
I like the small little edits he made going through more towards the end to make the viewer actually feel what they were supposed to feel confusion or I'm just making it up in my own head
Lol I did try, there are probably a few that are unintentional though
"It was called Temporary Bliss and it was... Not blissful!"
I can so agree with that... I was halfway through that part when a good-ish time turned into a painful one. Stage 4 in general was hard to get through, to the point that I actually breathed a sigh of relief when I got to stage 5...
And while I'm here, I want to share a few of my own thoughts on this album. Stage 3 is my favourite - I'm not sure if I can see myself listening to the whole 6 stages again, but I can actually see myself re-listening to stage 3 at some point. It had enough coherent music to still be a (mostly) enjoyable listen while also simulating a clear feeling of memory loss and confusion. My absolute favourite individual track is also part of stage 3: Hidden Sea Buried Deep. It's a quiet minute and a half of crackles and a faraway piano tune that keeps stopping and re-starting. It gave me a feeling of zoning out while trying and failing to remember something, and it's wedged in between two less-confused-sounding tunes and it's quite disorienting... And to top it all off, it ends extremely abruptly.
I honestly do feel like this album has changed me in some way. I had a full-on existential crisis for a few days after listening and jt has made me much more aware of how horrifying dementia is. I haven't been able to get it out of my head!
This album was quite an experience. I feel like this is the son of man painting and the other paintings of the bowler hat man. Anyone can feel something, whether it be anger, sadness, confusion, happiness, fear, shock, or nothing. Basically EATOT is one of those albums that can’t truly be likes but can’t truly be disliked either.
This project is honestly one of the most incredible pieces of art I've ever heard in my life. I'm only 20 and have no family history of Dementia/Alzheimers, but I've always been scared shitless of it for as long as I've known of it's existence. Nothing else has given me such an incredibly strong feeling of the fear, anxiety, dread and confusion that I imagined the people who suffer with this must feel. It's not often I feel like a changed person after experiencing something like this
Excellent video btw
Agree. EATOT is so good it shouldnt be on youtube.
I wish the audio wasn't so messy but yeah holy shit good video.
Okay, okay, storytime! I was listening to this album a couple months ago and the first song- THE FIRST FREAKING SONG- gave me anxiety!
But yet I pressed onward!
Fun fact: during stage 3 and 4 I thought it was a good idea to drink alcohol while listening. BIGGEST. MISTAKE. OF MY LIFE. I was seeing some veeeery unholy things in my room.
I felt completely unsafe. Once I finally finished the album, I couldn't sleep. When I finally slept, I only got two hours, or at least it felt like I did.
I woke up in a cold sweat.
This cycle continued for like, almost a week and I had some pretty depressing nightmares too.
Luckily with the help of listening to anything else and taking deep breaths I was back to normal. Kinda. I can't listen to this for a second time because it brings up my fight or flight response. Definitely one of the scariest albums I ever heard.
Did you hear a hint of a fall, voices, then angelic sounds? Gives me hope.
As someone with a very bad memory, this project has shook me to my core, and I'm only in section 2.
Its great to see someone else who loves this morbid piece of modern art as much as i do, and its cathartic hearing you put to words what is so difficult to listen to.
Kudos, friend, i hope you came put the other side ok deep down ☆♡☆♡
Thank you for your kind words! I believe it is a beautiful touching piece of work absolutely, and yeah I pulled through lol. I'm glad you enjoyed the video!
Quit worrying about it. You did a good job. My grandmother and father both died from Alzheimer's. This is good ambitious Art. For you to think about it, let alone share your thoughts of it, is pretty cool to me.
Thank you for the kind words, what are your thoughts?
The best in depth review I have found, should have more views. You earned a sub, keep it up!
Haha I appreciate that, thank you!
Dude, there is a lot of new people reviewing this and I love it since I found these volumes recently! Now I’m subscribed ‘cause I’m pretty sure that your content will be this way interesting. Keep it up.
Pd. For a TH-cam channel with a few subscribers you have a nice microphone and a nice background that’s just something to appreciate!
Thank you I appreciate that! This video showed me I have a ton to learn and it means a lot, at least I know Im on somewhat of the right track lol.
I can honestly say this collection is one of the most interesting I've heard and its opened my eyes to Leyland kirby and what ambient music is able to communicate.
I do not have dementia thank God. I do have persistent major depressive disorder. I always had friends, girlfriends, and decent jobs. Then I watched my Dad decline due to cancer. I already had the depression since birth, I suppose, now to cope, I would take first the nerve pills, then the opiates. Now, 16 years later, I have nothing, was asked to leave by my ex and only chance for a family setting and have family nights and stuff as I was her children's Dad, as the father lived on a base far away. But, in March, "for my own good" I was rented a room and slowly phased out after 7 years. The reason was my depression. But I was always happy playing with the kids and didn't act rude, I just isolated touch. Now I've been alone since, and death whispers daily. It is an everyday battle. I am still young, but I sit and stare, and think, or when I can I paint some, read, or watch something worthwhile, I do. I feel like a feeble 89 year old. Though many octogenarians have MUCH fuller and healthier lives than me. That being said, this could be the soundtrack to the handsome and charismatic guy I once was while I am but a shadow of that person now. I'm stuck in myself, on methadone and loads of benzodiazepines, live in a tiny room, surrounded by books I can no longer focus on, half written poems and stories, and unfinished paintings. Years is too long crying, and I believe I should be able to die without the guilt that I'd hurt other people, especially my ex and brother, and Mom n Sis though we aren't close like my bro n I. I don't want pity, please don't take this as such. I am just moved by what this represents. I hope all of the years of nerve pills and random tries at different antidepressants, the IV drug use(I would learn online and after my Dad was settled I would go and do my shot. It spiraled, but I never became a criminal. O had alot of what I needed. My poor Dad died on a spring morning. My brother and I slept in the living room. I went in to see him, said a prayer, and went to my room(I lived there as I have no kids or real responsibilities-later getting my Palliative care certification and studying the Eastern Traditions of death, dying, grief and Spirituality-Shamansim-I think the West needs to approach death differently) I had no needles. So, I used one of my Dads chemotherapy shots with the rubber end you squeeze. It was used(it was my Dad, I'd never shared. I did it alone) There was a few mgs of chemo mixed with my dose. This was as they wheeled him out in a body bag. Later, more traumas happened that bound to childhood traumas I repressed well, and I started drinking at 27 after a few years of severe opiate addiction, and any other escape. It was after a stranger who was murdered died in my arms in front of my building. But I had some good times too. I still had jobs, friends and awesome girlfriends. My shortest relationship is 2 years. I gained 50 pounds in 6 months. I went celibate fur 2 years. I have hope, so do you, who read this. You will be okay. Keep getting up. Small victories. Meditation. Write(I know the lack of energy is a hindrance). We can't let this be the soundtrack of our lives. Sry for the long post.
No need to be sorry, that was a really emotional and moving read. I hope you continue writing, get better and I hope to see some work from you.
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup thank you that's very flattering.
I appreciate your listening to this and uploading it.
I have to say out of every video I've seen about this album, yours is one of the only ones I feel examines it with care towards the content and subject matter in a truly respectful manner. Most other videos are hyperbolic and try to put EATEOT forward as a disturbing internet myth, or some kind of challenge to listen to when in fact I personally don't believe that was what was intended at all. You talk about what it made you feel and you talk very thoughtfully about how it portrays mental degradation sonically and as a long time fan of The Caretaker (listened to these albums quite a while before they blew up in the way they did) I appreciate seeing someone who really gets the art and wants to talk about it specifically, not the bizarre and honestly, oftentimes disrespectful culture that's since spawned due to it. Wonderful video, one of my all time favorites for music analysis.
Shout out to TH-cam recommendations
This review was exactly what I was looking for. In the future though, don't be so hard on yourself. You have a great analytical mind, the self deprecation is unfounded. Your well-formed opinions will be more potent if you say it with your chest. In any case, thank you. This was a great analysis.
I appreciate your kind words! And I'll use that advice, I am new and I thought some might be healthy for the video. But watching it back I may let it get away from me a bit lol. Thank you again :)
You’re so underrated, this was an amazing review of this work of art and is really helpful for me because I don’t have the patience to listen to the full six and a half hours.
Thank you for the kind words :)
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup no problem- i don't get why you don't have as many subs as you should for this level of content, it sucks how people that put barely any work into anything and lie get really popular on youtube and the algorithm is stubborn about everyone else.
Yeah I've seen some strange trends on the site over my years as a viewer lol. I am pretty greatful for the growth I've seen though, I think I've only been seriously posting for a view months and I'm at 200 already, which really surprised me. I might've just hit a trend with people checking out this album after the solar sands video though.
Only time will tell the truth lol, thank you again :)
Dear Jazz and his growing group of Very Real friends, I just finished watching your video here, and I’m pretty impressed with your perspective on comprehension and interpretation. I found out about this project, “Everywhere At The End Of Time,” by The Caretaker a few months ago, and every day since it has not left my mind. I have not listened to all six stages in their entirety as of yet; I do plan on listening to it all, and all at once with headphones. I have seen a few videos of people’s different takes on this very precious work, and I wanted to say a, “Thank You,” to you for your time on your project. I think that I am trying to find the right time and day to fully and respectfully listen; I truly believe that this art and people that have experienced Dementia/Alzheimer’s Disease definitely deserve our recognition. My paternal grandma, Leona, died from Alzheimer’s Disease around 20 years ago. In one of the stages it mentions a possible repetitive/compulsiveness action. My father said that she had a full box of tissues in her bed with her and that she would slowly and calmly pull them out, one by one, and lay them down neatly on top of one another. She had lost her ability to speak by this time. It will be a great day when a cure is found. I would love to see other similar works like this...maybe something to, “describe, indescribably,” something on Bipolar Disorders or other serious mental afflictions. By the way, no, it doesn’t sound like shit! 😊 Thnx.👍
Thank you for the nice and thoughtful comment! I hope you enjoy the albums when you get a chance to listen :)
Thank you for analyzing this; this was one of those artworks that struck me so profoundly that I couldn't get closure from just thinking on my own, so in cases like this I look up analyses in order to combine other people's thoughts with mine. I couldn't bring myself to sit through more than a few minutes of stages 4-6 because dissonant audio puts me in a bad place no matter what the theme of the project is, but I listened to enough of the last track to get chills from the ending when it came and my goodness it was profound. The ironic thing about this project for me was that it made me remember my childhood more clearly, since the ballroom music was nostalgic!
Thank you for watching! It is a tough one to listen to and the music isn't super inviting, profound is the right word I think!
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup Profound indeed! A lot of the tracks I do enjoy recreationally though. It's nostalgic ambient music that goes well with doing some watercolors.
Bro this channel bangs so hard I love it so good
That is incredibly flattering thank you!
That's what she said. This is the only reason I came here... To write this comment regarding the thumbnail.
Lol I appreciate you stopping by!
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup No worries, keep up the good work.
Everything at the End of Time is horrifying, but the background ambience music and the 60(?)hz buzz in your speaking segments also scare me to no end for some reason
Haha the music was on purpose, the mic is completely accidental, I've tried to improve that since!
a lot of people found this album extremely terrifying, and said it makes them fear death, but for me i feel *less afraid of it* after listening to this album. confronting the idea of death makes me feel like i can accept that its going to happen, and that in a way i dont have anything to worry about, i *know* its going to happen to me one day, so i may as well enjoy life while i can.
btw, "surrendering in despair" is the melody of "the lord is my shepherd", which is, fittingly enough in a sort of twisted way, a hymn about surrendering to god
I was originally a bit shaken by the project, but overtime it has made me confront my mortality and come to peace with it, I'm impressed that was your immediate reaction lol.
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup i would say that my reaction to this album was not an isolated thing, it was probably also impacted by having read How To Change Your Mind by Michael Pollan (the book is actually about the science & uses of psychedelics, but some of the interviews in the book kinda caused me to confront my own mortality and reckon with it & gave me alot of perspective, i really recommend it)
as well as practicing meditation regularly and having gone through a lot of existential crisises, depression, dissociation, & dabbling in buddhist philosophy, before accepting the fact that the self is just a illusory story we tell ourselves, & in reality there is no consistently real "self"
death (both literal and egoical) had already been on my brain a lot.
if you haven't heard of it already or interpreted it in the music, here's some food for thought: terminal lucidity is common in dementia and alzheimer's patients, where a few minutes before their death, they suddenly recollect everything they've lost, memory wise. people who they haven't recognized for years at a time all of a sudden become the most clear, vivid image they've ever seen of them, and functionality of the body comes back, if only for a fleeting moment. those last couple minutes of the album really struck a chord for me, as it was so jarring to hear actual cognizant music after hours of droning and warbled noise. after learning about terminal lucidity, i thought that the caretaker was attempting to interpret that in those last few minutes, with the last minute of silence being our character losing their life.
Wax cylinder recordings have a similar effect on me. I particularly like the 1888 choir concert of Handel from the Crystal Palace in London, the end of stage 6 gives me the same feeling.
It hasn't even crossed my mind to listen to wax cylinders. I'll check it out to try and chase the aesthetic. Thank you!
The notes regarding each stage are insightful, and it's very interesting to hear about the progression from a musical standpoint because i lack that knowledge, thank you. I listened to it yesterday, and i found that i constantly wanted to go back towards the end, genuinely a terrifying thought, with the actual disease, it's an impossibility you can only move forward in time getting worse. I was zoning out during the end stages, i didn't want to think, couldn't make sense or comprehend the static, in a sense isolating my thoughts. By the end of it, i was distraught, it put a melancholy tone on that day, but i'm content i experienced it, it was certainly eye opening and now i hold a deep respect.
Thank you for the comment and the kind words :) I certainly wouldn't say Im coming from a musical stand point, I have no knowledge at all except what I need to do it for fun, But I am happy I was able to provide a little insight!
I was talking to a friend late at night about the album a month ago, saying I’m almost at stage 4, and things are lookin pretty good. I accidentally click on the album as I was talking, and *boom.* Distorted notes, sounding like a very toned and stretched out cry of agony, crackling and static all over the place.
I mentally shut down as the wave of madness rushed over me. I could barely move for a good five minutes, feeling as if I’m drowning in the sound, lost to static forever.
I eventually make my way out well before the stage was over, and haven’t touched it since. I know you’re supposed to listen in a single sitting, but my adhd and undiagnosed autism makes that kind of hard? I used the first three stages as ambience as i messed around, but I don’t think I’ll be able to do that if I continue.
I know I’ll make my way through stage 4, and then the rest. It’ll make the ending worth it. I have nobody to connect this too. I have…Beatrice Horseman. (From Bojack Horseman, haha)
She’s the one person, or rather character that I can connect this album to. I won’t spoil much about the show, but Bojack’s mother, Beatrice gets dementia in season 4. Her life was awful, living in I wanna say 1950’s. Most of her life journey left consequences. She takes that depression from her life on her own son. When Bojack drops her off in a nursing home for good, when Beatrice is in at least stage 4 (in a temporary bliss state), she recognizes Bojack…for the first and last time.
I love this album. I will finish it. I will muster up the courage to not shut down like I did before. I’ll set aside time, maybe listen while people are around me to feel safer in a sense. Leyland Kirby is a fucking genius, and I cannot wait to fully appreciate his work.
my man 42:18 made my heart almost stop
Hahaha I love making that cut. I'll try and pave it better in the future though.
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup It's alright it was very loud tho xD (actually it was good because I was kinda sleepy and after that I was AWAKE again)
bro was i the only one to sob at the end..? like how do you NOT cry at that
This is the first video of yours I've watched...... I love you.
i like how detailed it is and how it was like an experiment with field notes etc.
I was listening to this while relaxing with my eyes closed and the mario world music scared the shit out of me
Yeah that was awful mixing on my part lol, I am very sorry.
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup it's alright lol it was kinda funny, btw good video
Thank you!
Thank you for this analysis. 17:35 I had to google Benjamin Libet, too. I love how this piece of art is here on TH-cam as a single video and how everyone gets to listen to and watch it and form their own interpretations.
Haha you are welcome, thank you for watching! And yeah I have a lot of respect for Leland for doing that!
Saying this before watching the full thing but, man, headphones really change the experience. EDIT: I was going to recommend the Sony MDR V-6, I picked them up for $70 about 2 years ago, now they're going for 200$ + so... scratch that lmao
A decent pair of cans for sure can change the experience of this art
I had no idea I'll for sure try that out, o have some artic pros, they are a little nicer on the wallet.
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup Awesome. You'll most definitely extract a new perspective with headphones
There's people out there that wish for this, to forget about their past, their mistakes, so they don't have to remember the pain they might have caused. It's not worth losing everything else, you need to forgive yourself.
I found your channel not too long ago and I like your content thus far! I'm definitely subscribing--you're INSANELY underrated.
Thank you for the kind words! I'm working on some new videos I'm pretty excited about!
To copy from another comment that deserves its merit (@DUPP), C3 uses Seger Ellis' version of Heartaches, not Al Bowlly's (A1). To me this draws the horror more precise. If music is the metaphor for memory then hearing the same music with a different composer or actors is truly terrifying.
Thank you for making this video so so so much, i personally don’t think i am at the best mental state to endure this series, so seeing this review go into detail with the comfort of your commentary allowed me to understand it. Thank u !
I'm glad the video helped! You are welcome!
I mean I listened to the first 3... got bored and skipped to the end.
I may not have cried but damn did I get close.
That is fair I think, 4 is for sure where it becomes much less musical and bit more theatrical. I do believe the whole 6 albums create an incredible progressing experience, however it is pretty unfair to expect most to listen to 6+ hours of staticy garbled up sound.
It is for sure pretty emotional though!
one of my favourite head cannons is about stage 3's "E3 hidden sea buried deep", the same song starting over, again and again, as if desperately trying to remember something, starting from the top but getting stuck every time...
This is so well done. I just listened to the whole project yesterday and I am glad you mentioned physically feeling the cuts around stage 3. It was really making me uncomfortable yesterday to be yanked out of such a droning, descending piece of music. Very good stuff.
The "stages", I feel, are the construction of psychiatrists and psychologists and others trying to understand this. When my grandmother had Alzheimer's, the diagnosis was postmortem. Sliced brain like Swiss cheese. She didn't know us, had no idea where she was or had been. My brother had a Lennon & McCartney book of sheet music, which she cheerfully played on piano perfectly. She declared that "this is circus music". My dad seemed quite different from his mother in the way the progress of the disease affected him. She was happy, it seemed, in the later "stages". My father seemed more hurt, more aware of what he was losing, even early on. He was never aggressive or mean, he wasn't happy about it though. I suppose it would depend exactly where in "cheese", the "bubbles" occurred. That may sound awfully horrible, and I can assure you, it is.
Stage 1 - Everywhere At The End Of Time
Stage 2 - Everywh re At The End Of T me
Stage 3 - Ev y h re At Th End O T me
Stage 4 - E re A En T me
Stage 5 - E A End
Stage 6 -
The one thing the artwork to this piece made me wonder about, and scared me beyond all else: I never considered that during the degeneration of one's brain, what it does to visual and auditory input.
We see it as people forgetting about stuff, but do we care to realize that maybe their entire senses get warped into an unrecognizable mess as well? Part of why they might not recognize you might also be because you simply do not look and sound the same anymore. Comes to speak for the power of consciousness to even try and make sense of that jumble of altered shapes and impressions even though it is bound to eventually fail entirely.
The final section samples a track from The Caretaker's first album, pure genius
it's so awesome to finally find other music essayists on this damn platform
Lol I need to do another music based video.
42:17 scared the shit out of me
9:36
I listened to it and I feel like I should learning piano or keyboard and make something like this called 'Goodbye, Baker.'
Do it!
I will! And I’ll make art like Ivan Seal’s for it too!
I have it all planned!
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup a little under a year ago I made a tribute album. It's a lot shorter and definitely has its own style and probably isn't as good, but I personally enjoyed making it and probably served as a way to cope with my grandma declining further. about a month after I released the album she passed away.
I will give it a listen, is it on your channel?
@@jazzandhisgrowinggroup yeah, it's called In Memory of time. My only personal complaint is that some of the track titles are kind of silly-ish or incoherent but that's because I tried replicating the idea of incoherence that comes with the condition via what is essentially AI-based fancy autocorrect
Here you go:
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This definitely made me subscribe. Great review!
One of the scarier parts for me was the fact that at some point, through my first listen, I couldn't remember some of the previous tracks. It felt very surreal and depressing trying to recolect "It's just a burning memory" but being unable to. All in all its a great experience to have that might open your eyes and understand maybe just a little more what those poor people go through. Also this is a very nice and complete review
I'm 13, turning 14 this year. After I listened to this album, for maybe 2-3 hours, I had this fear of forgetting and being forgotten, this album is so good that it could change you.