I was incredibly worried about my grandma passing earlier this year. She knew this, and after she got better, she started to make me a cookbook. A hand made cookbook with every recipe she made for me in it. I flipped to the last page, and I saw something that made me feel ok. She put in the back of it, under her picture “All I can ask is that you always think of me as someone who loves you.” I’m balling my eyes out just writing this. I love you Mimi, never change.
My Mimi died recently two months ago of cancer. I wasn't able to see her in person, but I was able to speak on the phone just a couple days before she died. I couldn't muster the ability to say anything more than "I love you forever", and I could desperately hear her trying to respond but she was ultimately too weak to speak. Sorry if this story is unnecessary, but you calling your grandma the same nickname resonated with me.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I know even the thought of my Mimi passing sends me into a spiral. You’re story is incredibly moving, and I hope both of our Mimi’s find peace.
I almost lost my grandmother who was very unwell earlier this year, too. On the way home after giving her a hug in her hospital bed, I felt this overwhelming state of sadness, anger, fear, depression…I wanted to die that very day. This album is so profound and powerful to me, and is my full-on fears of losing my loved ones in musical form, which made me reflect on that day when I listened to this album earlier today. I know one day Nanny will no longer be here, and it will hurt the most, because even my brother’s boyfriend believes like I believe that I will spiral afterwards when it happens. My mother’s passing is going to hurt even more so. As for the future, it’s looking bleak to me, because Poppy’s passing didn’t quite sink in, in 2011, and now that I’m older, I fully understand just how depressing and dark life is, and we are all heading towards the inevitable. There is no silver lining in death. There is no bright future or happy ending. We die, and enter the void forever.
Hey Pad! Quick question, just saw that Everywhere at the End of Time is getting pressed onto vinyl! In stages 1-3 and 4-6, first three being £59.99 and 4-6 being £89.99. Do you plan on getting it!
My uncle was diagnosed with dementia a few years ago. He and my Aunt would visit every Christmas to chat and laugh and eat whatever snacks we all made. The last couple visits, he wasn't too different from his usual jolly self, though he did become noticeably more absent-minded and had more difficulty walking up steps or grabbing things right in front of him. About a month ago we were told he had died from heart problems, and we attended his funeral a week later. It was very sad, but on some level I was relieved, for lack of a better word. I didn't wish my uncle was dead of course; rather, I saw it as a small mercy that he was mostly lucid in his last moments, rather than spending god knows how many months or years slowly losing his memories and sense of self. I know the last stages of dementia are utterly soul-crushing both to witness and endure, and I don't think anyone would have wanted my uncle to go through that.
Makes sense. If someone you love is diagnosed with dementia, then one of the best things you can hope for is that something less drawn out and hellish gets them first like their heart. Dementia is literally the WORST way to go and literally nearly ANY other method is less miserable and more humane.
Thanks for stopping by multiple times ! :) this video will always be my favorite one I’ve ever done, really thankful to have people like you return to it. Means a lot!
fun fact if anyone reading this didnt already know: the cover artwork for “eager to tear apart the stars” is a distorted watch. the watch face is at the top right.
I listened to Everywhere At The End Of Time in its entirety during a recent trip to the west coast. At one point, sometime during Stage 4, I was driving through Donner Pass just after a bad snow storm. Nobody was around me and I was surrounded by utter loneliness. In Stage 4 the tracks really start to fall apart and the drone looms above everything you hear. I felt like I was disintegrating along with the music. I eventually made it through the pass and eventually completed the album but some small piece of my mind was left there on that lonely highway, the haunting sounds of the album corrupting my peace, dementing my very state of being. I'll never forget that. This album should come with a warning label. It will eat you alive if you're not careful.
Yea this song made me feel weird and then I disconnected to everything. My mind was tormenting me from just hearing this, showing me false memory's that aren't mine. So then I cried, and cried, and then I finally realized it's just a dang song why the heck am I even feeling this. And it stopped. It still lingers in my head tho.
Fun fact: a few days ago when I first listened to everywhere at the end of time, I listened to it at night. I made it though the first 5 stages. But when the track “A brutal bliss beyond this empty defeat” played, I feel asleep. And I woke up when the terminal lucidity segment was playing, it was probably the most surreal moment of my life. I do wish I had the strength to get through all of stage 6, but it is what it is. Thank so much for this piece of art. Stay strong and take care.
My grandmother is in the middle of this process, somewhere in the middle of album 3 I’d say. I listened to the whole thing once, and it’s given me the ability to stay patient and calm when I answer the same questions over and over, day after day. She deserves that patience and love.
I’m a little late, but my grandmother passed 4 years ago from Alzheimer’s as well, two months after stage 6 was released. All I can say is cherish every moment with her, even through the frustration you’ll feel with the situation. Enjoy her presence and, as you said, stay patient - though she might not be able to communicate it, I know she appreciates it, and you, more than anything. I can’t express the regret I and my dad feel for the times we couldn’t be there for her.
@@MrBet1001yeah forgetting is hard… My grandpa got diagnosed with dementia and it’s scary… it’s not just the decreasing memory…. But his behavior and personality is extremely different from what it used to be…. He never used to be this hostile, depressed or impatient…. Luckily he is still lucid enough right now…. But… there may only be a few more years left of it…. And my memories of him will be corrupted by the horrors this disease will cause him…. It’s gonna be a long road… that’ll only end in death… but at least we have each other…..
@@RatsOnTheIce19 Sorry to hear about your grandpa. My grandmother died from Alzheimer's disease in 2018, after having suffered with the illness for 12 years. I wish I could say it gets easier, but that only really happens at the end. :( One thing that's helped me cope a bit by somewhat avoiding the whole "memories being corrupted by the horrors of the disease" has been to remember her as essentially two versions of the same person. My Grandmother... And my Grandmother with Alzheimer's. Still the same person, but still also... Different. Not to try and forget the bad, but make an effort to remember the good so it overshadows the bad. Or at least takes precedence over the bad. :) That way whenever I think of my grandmother, I remember who she was. Not what the disease turned her into. No idea if I'm making sense here, and sorry if I'm rambling. Anyways, I hope the both of you (you and your grandpa) goes through this horrifying process as well as possible. :)
Both lines of my family all struggle with Alzheimer’s/Dementia, and honestly for a long time I was scared. I couldn’t process losing all my memories forgetting the love of my life, my children. So when I heard about EATEOT I was instantly drawn to it, stage 1-2 scared me the most. Throughout the two I kept thinking that this could be me right now, full of life and joy only for it to be forgotten forever. I had to put it down for a couple months until a few months later where I finally decided to sit down and listen to it in it’s entirety. This time even though 1-2 still had that effect on me I kept going and by stage 4 I was hooked. At this point I wouldn’t or couldn’t stop listening. It’s funny because by stage 6 everyone that I’ve seen is sad..crying all that but it helped me find acceptance. Even if this horrible disease does take me, by the time that happens I will have had such a great and fulfilling life that I know I will have people that love me by my side till the end. If you read this all I truly thank you, and I hope for the best for every single one of you.
yeah. ive got some neurological stuff going on, perhaps neurodegenerative. my memory is already bad enough for me to really resonate with stages one and two, haha, and i'm in my mod twenties -- i talke often with my 82 year old stroke survivor grandfather about neurological stuff, and we find we have much in common. scared the shit out of me, but that's okay. its good to prepare yourself, you know? i've been visiting my grandfather twice a week, lately. my pa passed from covid, and my dad's dad is my only immediate surviving family except my sister. my dad passed a year ago, in my grandfather's living room, and my sister and i both realized how.... limited time truly was, and how badly we wanted to do right by our grandfather. i hope things go well for you. i know your pain, but you're right -- we have loved ones here for us, and bad times tomorrow don't undo good times today. cherish that time with them while you can. truly, it can be yanked away in a moment.
You’re a wonderful grandson Pad. Don’t feel guilty because I’m sure every moment you spend with your grandparents is cherished by them and sometimes with family it’s the little things that make life worth living.
I’m impressed at the quality this video managed to keep for its entire 2 hour runtime. Shows true dedication to the craft. May the ballroom remain eternal.
The Caretaker also made some of the first ever vaporwave-esque music as V/VM. I recall listening to John Peel in the early 2000's as a young lad and hearing his tilted edit of Chris DeBurgh's Lady In Red, which blew my mind at the time as I'd never heard anything like it before. Took about another 7 or 8 years for the rest of the world to catch on to these concepts, with OPN later remixing the same track under the "Chuck Person" name. I've always wondered if he got the idea directly from V/VM aka The Caretaker.
Perhaps. Remember that plunderphonics predates both of them through John Oswald. Also, the V/vm stuff was more about confronting a certain music scene out of fondness for another one (Kirby was not a fan at all with what was coming out in the 1990s compared to the 1980s). Daniel Lopatin was not as confrontational. And maybe that was ultimately sparked the scene. And finally: post hoc, ergo propter hoc. Personally, I think of JLK as an important parallel to the vapour scene as there are a lot of intersections (yes, botched the metaphor but bare with me =] ). And this is why I think what has been happening is bigger than one individual or even a few. Just my thought … for now =]
I got his Lady in Red remix (called "The Lady In Red (Is Dancing With Meat)") on vinyl as a 7" a little while ago. I got the exact same vapor-vibes from it. Although the B-side was a completely busted-up cover of Lionel Richie's "All Night Long" (named "Butcher All Night") which sounded like a Merzbow demotape. Really goes to show the two sides of Kirby's music: Part recognizable and part drenched in static.
@@madspeterrommedahl4679 "The Lady In Red (Is Dancing With Meat)" is my personal "Scariest song ever". I always wondered how he managed to de-harmonize it that way.. I think it goes way beyond any vaporwave I've heard.
I would absolutely kill to have those animated album covers as the background to my desktop computer. It looks incredible! I hope the artists responsible post those loops!
This is “Everywhere at the end of time: The Movie.” Everything from a personal story, symbolism, going in depth to composition of the artwork and music. I knew you wouldn’t disappoint with this video!
I know I’m 10 months late, but the work put into this video has to be acknowledged. Some people don’t realize how hard it is to make a video this long and this high quality. This has to be the best EATEOT video I’ve ever seen. May the ballroom remain eternal.
34:00 I think the last cover of "everywhere" is actually a painting surface that was never painted on. the the adhesive bands(the color of which implying easily removable adhesive) form a rectangle limiting the painting to a specific area, it's a common practice when you paint but don't want to fill the entire page. It's like the image has decayed so much all you can do is refer to it incompleteness.
More than that, all the previous covers were the paintings encompassing the whole frame. The last cover is you looking at the canvass from the bigger picture
I applaud The Caretaker for convincing thousands of people that noise music is good actually. Including me. I don't know how, but Stage 5 just reeled me in somehow. May the ballroom remain eternal.
I weirdly kind of enjoyed having parts of stages 4 and 5 playing in the background at work? They're most often said to be the scariest from what I've seen, but stage 6 was the hardest for me.
@@PadChennington It fits the shoes, thematically. The Overlook Hotel, being an entity encapsulated by one fragment of time, on a more ontological sense. Though even physically possessing itself as an era frozen in time, that being the Gold Room and the various peoples of the hotel.
he was actually comissioned to make music for "Room 237", a documentary about The Shining. leyland is such a big fan of the shining, so he must have been very excited back then
Well, that's it guys. This is it. No one can ever make another EATEOT video. This is the ultimate exploration of this masterpiece. Besides the brilliant video itself, actually talking to Leland makes this something you can't get anywhere else. This is your magnum opus Pad.
The album being discussed in this video is downright terrifying for anyone, but especially me. I'm 21, and have always had heavy struggles with my memory, even at a young age. To see what it could be like if I do end up with dementia or Alzheimer's brings me such anxiety and genuine terror for the future. I can only hope to live a life well enough to grieve fully as it fades.
Me too and I'm 34 now and it's gotten worse. Not only that but my grandma passed away from dementia a month ago and in 2 days I have to put down my dog who also has dementia and cannot do anything anymore. This is the absolute worst way to go and it's horrible and I hope I don't end up getting it but I just decided today that if I do I will start making videos as soon as I'm diagnosed about my memories and the disease as it progresses until I physically can't anymore and die
What are your thoughts on Everywhere at the End of Time? Any other albums or projects you’d recommend for others looking for a similar experience or sound? Let me know in the comments!
I would recommend How To Dissappear Completely if you haven't already. It's similar to EATEOT but a different premise. A Bucket Of Jake did a good video on it
I think it would be great as an art installation, but it's the kind of product that works better on paper and concept than reality. Though enjoying it is definitely not the point, I agree that it's profoundly overrated, and somewhat pretentious. I'd recommend Stalaggh's "Gulaggh" for a more intense and disturbing experience.
I feel the turning point in this is Sublime Beyond Loss...the seedy vibe of it is so unsettling and you feel like the character is drinking themselves into oblivion to temporarily ease the pain of loss of their faculties. Either way, cool video! EDIT: Also I feel that Hag is the pot from Stage 2 but it's exploded like you said and is going everywhere.
Pad, Your story about your grandmother is incredibly well done. You said a few times that you felt like you were selfish, or thinking about yourself only. And it seemed like it was a bad thing. But it's not. Dealing with death is a very personal thing and you didn't do anything wrong by thinning about yourself in relation to your loved ones. I just think it's important to tell you that just in case you are feeling negatively about the way you felt at that point. This video is great.
thank you for saying this. i think that humans are meant to help themselves first, to take care of themselves first (secondly others, of course). and people like to see their loved ones happy, healthy, and independent. i find this is especially true with grandparents, who are just happy to hear from you and see you smiling. pad, it was your "selfishness" that caused that embroidery to come into being. it was probably the catalyst for some of her final carefree moments. because of it you own a _priceless treasure_ of an heirloom, made from her own hand. i can't help but see any of that as anything except a beautiful, lucky thing to be cherished. cheers, and all the best.
May the ballroom remain eternal indeed. (Not gonna lie, Stage sixes ended almost brought me to the point of tears. I'm not ashamed to admit that, and I think it's a wonderful end after the ride you've been taken on.)
@@leomartin7409 It's like they always say, all good things must come to an end, that final sample from Stage 6 is like a goodbye, for us being to hear the 6 hours of our life. The Beginning was happy, Stage 1 and 2 was all joyful with some slight dementia in-between, Stages 3-4 was good, Stage 3 was good, Stage 4 was a jumbled mess, And Stages 5-6 are sad, Stage 5 was still the same as Stage 4, in music. *Stage 6 however, was really sad, it's like The Caretaker died of dementia.*
I listenened to this when i was going through a really bad time. My depression was taking over at a fast pace and gave it a listen during Winter, when my mental health always goes down to suicidal levels of bad. Even worse is i was on my 3rd day of not eating anything and listened to this during the night time which made things much worse. When i finished it, it made me realize i shouldn't take life for granted. I started trying to better myself and now im doing okay. I might listen to the album again some day but it really left a huge impact on me.
Never have I related to a comment so personally. It kinda, slapped me awake in a way. I was in a stupor to cowardly to end my life, to sad to fix it. I was sick, stuck on my bed and then in my recommends I see that everywere at the end of time album. I heard it was really good, so I bit the bullet and watched it while reading. it was an emotional ride to say the least and I am very thankful I listened to it
I finally got around to getting off my back with my depression and got medicated last month. I never thought i could feel... normal. Just... level, ya know? It feels so weird to not be depressed all the time, and part of me wants that back. "Depression is like a wet blanket. Its cold and heavy, but you keep it on. Why? Because you know that it will warm up eventually, and taking it off will take effort and leave you cold and uncovered, even if only for a little while. So you deal with the discomfort just so that you dont have to deal with a new kind of discomfort".
First off: May the ballroom remain eternal. C'est fini. Secondly: Pad, this was one of the best videos I've ever seen that's come out of your channel. This video not only introduces someone to the world of The Caretaker, but it also makes people aware that Kirby has done so much more than EATEOT. I gotta hand it to you, Pad - this is a video that just needs to be experienced with others. Great job, man.
When I listen to this album, I feel like I'm literally in the 20s. I'm young, but I feel like I miss days that never happened. I feel like I'm supposed to remember something I don't. It's amazing what music can do to the mind. May the ballroom remain eternal for all.
My grandmother recently got cancer, seeing her hooked up to machines made me want to cry when I saw her, I don't know how to put this into words but it was depressing to see, and also comforting. The thought of her getting better and thriving kept me from bursting into tears once I saw her, even though I knew it was unlikely. There were so many things I could've payed attention to while I was with her but I never did, I regret it so much. She's always let us take old toys from her basement to our house, and I got many toys from her house, most importantly, Barbies that I played with alone, a lamb plushie that helped me fall asleep when it was dark, and a Christmas dress that no longer fits me. These objects are so important to me and I can't imagine losing them in the middle of the night or just while I'm out of the house, at school, with my mom, anything. I don't want to lose these items, I don't wanna lose the memories of her. I want to cry but I can't, I want to scream but I can't, all I can do is sit and reminisce about her, the stories she told, the times we visited her, the things she gave us, anything. I cling onto those memories like my life depends on it, I want to be happy with her but I feel this constant dread around her and it won't go away, because I know she's going to succumb to death someday, and she won't be with me, but that's ok. It's ok that I'm gonna lose her one day, it's ok that my kids might never meet her, it's ok that I won't have her around me anymore because I'll have those objects in some way, mental or physical. I'll miss her but I'll know that she loved me, and I loved her, I'll know that she tried her best to make me and my siblings happy. I'll feel sad for a little bit but I'll be able to move on, along with everyone else. She'll be with me for as long as I'm alive, as long as I can remember. I don't want to see her die but it will happen, and it's something I need to accept. Writing this helped me so much with dealing with the sadness of possible loss, I feel the need to thank someone for allowing me to do this, but I'm not sure who, but just thank you. Thank you for helping me, and thank you for letting me talk about my worries. Love you, grandma. Have a nice day, reader.
i hope you will be alright and that you can get over that loss without any pain , you can do this i believe in you , no matter how much time it will take , all my condolences towards you and your family , 💗
I understand all too well... thought I was going to lose my gram last year. She raised me and I'm in my 30s but I'm not ready for that. I suppose we never are though... Gram survived uterine cancer despite the hardships of the hysterectomy and difficulty cancer treatments afterwards but last year she had a bone infection in her spine. She came home rather quickly after surgery, she was able to get up and get to the bathroom on her own and everything! I was trained to give her her antibiotics through her PIC line at home and a nurse and occupational therapist were going to come weekly... but the second Sunday she was home, she couldn't stand up. She had this pain in her hip that was unbearable and she ended up in a rehab for months. She didn't have any new hip issues, the pain she already dealt with had just gotten unbearable while her body healed from surgery. But while she was in rehab there were various issues... Random UTIs, cognitive reactions to certain antibiotics and pain medication, depression, anxiety, and one night she woke up from a dream convinced she was late for a wedding and tried to stand from her bed only to have a bad fall afterwards. She told me about the dream a week later, it was crazy all over the place, but she was on a lot of medication and seeing things so I can't tell how much she really dreamed. She'd have these lucid moments where she knew how she sounded and clearly thought she was developing dementia. I kept reminder her we all get loopy on those kinds of meds but I also knew that some elderly people develop dementia in reaction to some antibiotics. She didn't need to know that though, it would've just made it all so much harder. Thankfully she recovered, though she's not as steady on her feet as she used to be and she's more forgetful. She's not out of touch with reality at all for now. She's very scared that it's happening and all I can do is tell her how forgetful I've always been and no one remembers everything after 7 1/2 decades of life - that's a lot of life to remember! It's hard to know if she's more forgetful from the stress or if she's in those beginning stages but for now I still have her lucid and here. I'm not ready for that to change, but I have to focus on what we have now and spend time with her. She likes to watch me play video games, it's like more interactive TV for her and she loves farming sims as much as I do. I try to spend as much time with her as I can, though I'm dealing with my own health issues (sleep apnea, in the process of getting a CPAP so I can actually get restful sleep) that have made that more difficult lately. Hopefully I'll be better soon so I can watch her soap opera, share a smoke on the back porch, and play games for her regularly again. It's so scary though. In spite of all our family struggles and generational trauma, she's the closest thing to a mother I have. Now I feel like thanking you. It does help to put it out into the world, to stop hanging onto it and share it with others even for just a little bit. So thank you, internet stranger. Sending my love💕
I would usually say “I hope things get better” but I’m not sure what to say. I just hope you can heal with time, it sounds like an incredibly rough situation. have a nice day, that’s all I can think to say.
My grandma died when I was turning six due to cancer. Obviously, me, a dumb six year old, was not as sad about it as I am now. Especially her cookie recipe, and everything she did. Hope I'll see her in the afterlife with those cookies. I had been in the hospital the day she died. I had been to her funeral. I saw the coffin. I should've stayed home but my parents were fine with it.
This mega album has really hit me hard. My grandpa is currently going through Dementia, and it's been really hard to deal with. I've been listening to this album everyday while I do computer stuff, and I'll turn it on as ambience to sleep to. I sincerely hope that one day we are capable of curing diseases like Dementia, it's such a horrific and unfair disease. May the ballroom be eternal.
EATEOT has always made me incredibly upset and depressed. but this video added a lot of context, comfort, and humanity to this album. the album is now a lot less scary to face and think about. thank you for this analysis. may the ballroom forever be eternal
people are alive until they are forgotten, and you've really helped your grandmother live forever in some way through this. love this album/the history but your storytelling was absolutely the highlight. went through a very similar time with my grandfather and I'm truly feeling for you
This is amazing work. I work in a nursing home and have always been both fascinated and shocked by the decline of my patients. Even after 14 years I still wonder what goes through their minds as they banter to themselves, speak incoherent, broken phrases, wander aimlessly with a flat affect on their faces and address people both real and imagined. As fascinating as it is is is truly sad and heartbreaking to see them go through it.
I once helped arrange activities for people with dementia, and was often astonished and moved to see people otherwise ‘lost’ come to life when they heard the music of their youth. I saw a man who had lost the power of spoken language burst into song in front of his tearful wife. I saw the difference cats and dogs would make to the mood in nursing homes, too.
May the ballroom remain eternal I think this is, hands down, one of the most important electronic works of the 2010’s if not the 21st century. This shows me that music has many different ways to be listened to and experienced. The grand depth of everything in this 6 1/2 hour long work is overwhelming and the details can be learned about for years. It was important for me in my own personal experience because of what one artist could do with this and creating something original like this.
Dementia and Alzheimer’s have hit my family hard. This album shook me intensely and, at the same time, brought me a sense of closure; I felt at one with my great grandparents one more time. I don’t know if I could ever listen to the whole album as one again, but I am so very glad I did once.
Pad, I may not have watched your content before and such, but I've watched through the entire 2 hours, 21 minutes and 15 seconds of it. YOU DID SUCH AN AMAZING JOB, DUDE. I MEAN IT. I have never seen this entire moniker be so well-detailed and explained, all the way to the ART ITSELF. I am also legitimately AMAZED at the fact that some of the most well-known parts in EATEOT haven't been mentioned at all, if nearly *at most.* And to that, I want to say a HUGE thank you, dude. I mean it. Seeing the whole sample finding process be finally properly explained was also just- Man, I don't even have words for this. In my time in the Caretaker community, I've also made friends with a few of the sample finders, and seeing them be mentioned here for their sheer hard work, be it directly or indirectly, just makes me so proud of them. All this time you have dedicated to this video was entirely worth it. (ps: i may or may not have been one of the inspirations of "Nowhere At A Different Millennium", and seeing it also be mentioned really made a good chunk of my day) (pps: Awwwwh, that ending! My sincerest condolences to your grandmother. May she rest in peace, and may she rest happily.) May the ballroom remain eternal.
This work genuinely terrifies me and I can’t explain why. I feel like It’s supposed to make me sad, but I just feel extremely disturbed just thinking about it. I honestly can’t understand why this work scares me so much
Not gonna lie with that, i really wanted someone to really going deep with this stuff. Like, not only with EATEOT, But more like the caretaker, and also other projects made by kirby and this video...you did a perfect job. Im so thankful for the work you put into this video, and you totally light up my day. Wish you all my support and positivity in the future! (little note down here for others: Everywhere in the beginning of nowhere is a 9+ hours work, similar to EATEOT. The creator of the project was 14 at the time, and he made the project dedicated to her grandmother. I think it's totally worth to check it out, if you like this stuff. )
Thank you so much LavendarCake! And I feel ya on that, I wanted to create something that explored as many possible avenues of Kirby and his work.. took a long time to make but I'm so happy I took my time with it.. thank you for stopping by, watching, commenting and showin some luv!
No matter how many reviews open stage three with Back There Benjamin, it still jumpscares me. Also, a detail some people miss is that a lot of Stage 3’s titles reference neuroscientist Benjamin Libet. The most notable sort of discovery he made was that there was a half-millisecond delay with the brain processing the physical contact and consciously feeling it.
I know the album is a living portrait of dementia... It is raw and cruel and beautiful at the same time... However, as you said at first, it hits differently for everyone. My best friend passed away so many years ago... We were still children, and she was suddenly diagnosed with cancer. I was never allowed to see her at the hospital, my mom told me that children were not allowed to visit, so she never took me when she was joining her mother for visiting day. The day she passed away, I was very sick, and I remember seeing things around me like I wasn't there, like I was a person watching a movie from the outside. I remember my mother telling me that my best friend died and yelling at me not to cry, me crying out of rage and sadness, but still numb inside... Many years later, when I was supposed not to mourn anymore, I was told the things my best friend lived during her last days, and it hurts so bad like I knew I had to be there for her... Listening to EATOF brought me to picture her last days before she was diagnosed with cancer, and picture her last days at the hospital... All those emotions brought back to life: anger, frustration, and finally, acceptance... Thank you very much Pad Chennington for making this video and #maytheballroomremaineternal
Without going into details, I relate to this. Adults do not always handle kids and grief/ loss together well. I hope you are doing well and hope you do not carry guilt. Out of your control and not your fault xx
You should talk about that new genre called Liminal Wave sometimes in the future, greatly influenced by that majestic and profound release of Kirby... But by far, my most favorite take on EATEOT might be the nightcore bass boosted remix of the release, that really adds something and gives this impression of "Speedrunning memory loss to the point you actually forget you forgot".
My grandma passed away very recently and I had stayed with her my whole life. So, I was there to witness ever stage of the dementia setting in. Although I'll never be able to understand the receiving end of what that was like I feel this album did such an amazing job at describing it more me. I was able to put myself in her shoes and see how it went from her taking care of me as a child to me taking care of her and eventually just watching her lying on her bed unable to talk and barely look around anymore. Although there was a sort of relief when she finally went. That through all that pain she was finally able to rest. I definitely feel like the process of going through dementia is more terrifying than death it's a long process of rot and just surviving unable to process what's happening around you and things or people that you see everyday make less and less sense until you just have to sit there and let the world go by without you, so quickly you don't bother to question it while it still remains the most frustrating thing you have to spent the rest of your life with.
4 months ago (edited) 👁 👁 👃 It is my twenty years experience, so take this thing seriously. The doctors will never recommend you this thing because they don't know this thing. It is not the knowledge from books but a knowledge from the long experience of practical. (why mostly rich people die with covid 19 why death ratio is lesser in poor country) Make your diet very very strict for some days if you get affected with covid 19 and you needn't to be frightened of any type covid 19 virus or it's variants. Read this phrase throughly it is my twenty years experience of the hell of pneumonia (when the doctors become helpless and the all medicines are worthless. What would you do then. The medicines are not capable to treat the primordial pneumonia. How they can treat this dreadful covid 19 caused pneumonia , there is only one thing, it is your body who has to fight with covid 19 or covid 21, so be prepared for that. And I make you sure on it that a human body has the capability to kill this virus, no matter how many forms does it change itself. Let's get ready to do so. ) I have lived the hell of pneumonia and inflammation so far. And the doctors prescribed me only things those were, antibiotic. They prescribed me more strong antibiotics when the first one stopped working . When all the antibiotics stopped working I had no way but controlling my eating habits to control the severe inflammation and excessive mucus problems . Because ayurveda described this thing. It is a natural thing to treat pneumonia and inflammation with no side effects. All the friuts, dry fruits, most of the grains [except wheat, gram or cheakpe] , all the lentils (except pigeon food or masoor dal) [ pigeon food means masoor dal not tuwar dal so don't be confused and avoid tuwar dal because it is inflammatory too] and all the vegetables(except green leaves ) and all types of vegetables oil(except mustard oil ) act like poison for a very sensitive pneumonia patient or a covid 19 affected patient(only in some cases because some patients' body act overwhelmingly on covid 19 virus ) because these things are most inflammatory and the main causes to make humans body inflamed . So avoid these things for some days if you get affected with covid 19. Covid 19 may affect you and you can face all types of it's symptoms , but it never be fatal for you if you follow these natural tips for some days after being getting affected. If you have a covid 19 positive test, control your eating habits for some days and take only all types of meaty foods( meat and eggs ) and you can use mustard oil or pure butter clarified to cook them otherwise eat them grilled or boiled. You can also have all types of pure dairy products(which are made from pure animal milk ) , white sugar, sea salt, red chili powder,all types of green leaves like spinach and lettuce,tea, coriander powder or leaves, , turmeric, products that made from pure wheat, masoor dal(pigeon food),Gram(checkpeae ), Mustard oil. Avoid all types of vegetables, Either it is a green vegetable or a root (besides green leaves) and avoid cabbage and cauliflower . It is a very strict diet plan but with this diet you can achieve zero inflammation within 10 to 15 days. To meet your daily needs of vitamin c you can take a half of lemon(lemon acts differently when it is consumed with different foods, with the suggested foods it never be a cause for inflammation ) per day. If you follow this tip for some days, covid 19 or it's variants never never be fatal for you in any case . Note - A human body does take 15 days to produce antibodies and it is the natural way to avoid the over inflammation. It is my twenty years experience over pneumonia and inflammation. it's been two years I won't face neither pneumonia nor inflammation. I have been surviving on a very simple and a very strict diet. To watch how inflammation kills the patient, click on the following link. th-cam.com/video/okg7uq_HrhQ/w-d-xo.html To know vaccine afficacy on covid 21. Click on the following link th-cam.com/video/GsuMMgCm5iw/w-d-xo.html th-cam.com/video/G0g5cq0uE50/w-d-xo.html th-cam.com/video/Cq1Vnkhi8pc/w-d-xo.html th-cam.com/video/GfAwoSINv6s/w-d-xo.html th-cam.com/video/d6NUpzlITN4/w-d-xo.html th-cam.com/video/LkyhqLlItgU/w-d-xo.html th-cam.com/video/KKci-7E83MI/w-d-xo.html th-cam.com/video/_vxe9pJRQcs/w-d-xo.html To know how did i come to know to this thing please read, MY STORY, by clicking on the following link. harshhamde.blogspot.com/?m=1. And to know how you can wash your nose with hot water to kill the virus from nose. Click on the following link.th-cam.com/video/1wesCmNDUW0/w-d-xo.html. You are obviouusly son low grade moron or a Christian. You morons cause more deaths than the VIrus, New COVID variant, R.1, now circulating in Georgia Mutation is one mechanism of life... as long something alive is constantly duplicating in huge numbers, then starts to mutate to something else. as long you give space to the virus, it will mutate with or without vaccines. @👁 👁 👃 This series of recordings is one of the most profound experiences of my life. I'm 60 and it has managed to tease out stuff I didn't know was there. Many many tears flowed but it was worth it. I didn't listen to the whole thing, and I don't think I'll ever have the time to, but I have skipped through to some parts and I'm in tears. My Grandma never had dementia, just the usual forgetfulness that comes with age. She had lived through the second World War, beaten breast cancer and cared for many kids, grandkids and great grand kids in her lifetime I can't imagine how awful it must be, knowing somewhere in the lifeless body of a late stage dementia patient is someone that you knew. Your mother. Your Grandmother etc. I'm thankful that my grandma was spared from something like that, and I can't put into words the level of sympathy I feel for those who suffer/know someone that is suffering through dementia. @greedy first algorithm last #73 Years here. Discovered this series this year. I fear Algorithm sent me TH-cam Old Folks Needs to Die your wasting Young People's Dreams. The Young Hipsters calls us 'Boomers" which is a Elitist Slur, how many times has some young Tik-Tocker publish some Hate Troll Attack on Old Ass Fools: Boomer, STFU. I am 100 % Certain these are Propaganda to Cause Old Ass People to Die and Free The Internets for Really Kip and Cool People, Beautiful People with Brazilian butt lift surgery overcome the effects of genetics by reshaping the buttocks and surrounding . Haw Haw Haw ""You thought it was the most profound experiences of my life?"" LOL nope, it is Propaganda designed to Kill You, sorry to be blunt. If you think about it, you will see that I am correct. Can you still Think for yourself? Can My Thinking precede your wrongness which will lead you into Death Seeking? Do not fall for Suicidal Secret Mind Tricks. *"JEDI DEATH MIND GAMES"*
May the ballroom remain eternal. Regardless of how many times this series has been discussed, I remain intrigued on all the opinions and studies that has comes into fruition. My mom recently passed earlier this year and her battle with dementia was one of the hardest experiences I've had to witness. I still struggle to this day to believe she is gone as I miss her dearly. This series personally hits me hard as I cannot go in without tears falling immediately. Not for the fear it can cause or emotions it brings alone, but how closely each stage mirrored my moms life and the constant progress of symptoms until her passing. Every day was another song towards the end. And the haunting beauty of the ending perfectly represents her story coming to an end. You did a phenomenal job of properly representing this series.
may the ballroom remain eternal And Pad! This is the kind of dedicated and sincere work which elevate it’s creator to a new level. So congrats on Level Up my boy! I wish you the best!
Stage one, for me personally, is about an old person looking back at the old days and remembering their youth. 'Burning memory', and other songs, having altered versions of themselves throughout the album represent the main character forgetting memories and grasping onto whatever piece of the memory they can find. *After all, how can you forget when you don't have any memories to forget?*
Everywhere at the End of Time has helped me understand my father’s dementia. He’s currently in hospice right now and has weeks to live, but I’m at peace knowing that he’s at peace
On a lighter note, those stich art things are surprisingly fun. Like 1000 piece jigsaws or paint by numbers. Also thanks for making this, it's amazing someone put all this into music, which is not easy. Caretaker is very talented, hope he is still making stuff. Definitely an artist to keep an eye on
My friend, thank you so much for stopping by! Can't even stress how much I've learned from you regarding the community, sample hunt, lesser known details about EATEOT, other Kirby works... was an honor working with you bud, keep up the amazing work over at the wiki! :)
Watching this after my grandfather passed away from Alzheimer’s this past June is bringing up lots of feelings and memories. A beautiful deep dive into an incredible piece of work. Thank you
My grandpa died of Alzheimer’s/dementia a month ago, the day after his 76th birthday. The last time I saw him alive was 2 years ago. He was a happy and boastful and proud New Jersey Irish man who loved his family. The last time I saw him alive was 2 years ago. He was still there but more quiet than usual and kinda off to the side in every conversation. My dad had told me about the forgetfulness he was experiencing but I never really saw it. A lot of the family was there with us so maybe he knew not to ask questions. If he’s at the dinner table with a lot of people, including children, then they must be family, right? Asking questions like, “Who are you?” would be concerning and would make people upset, especially kids. Maybe he knew, just for now, to go with the flow. That kind of thing. After the trip though he got worse pretty fast. My dad and his brothers checked in on him pretty frequently (he lived in a different state than me). One month he forgot who my dad was, then the next month he forgot how to use the bathroom. He wandered around outside a lot mindlessly. He was an alcoholic and would walk to the bar way back when so I think it was something like muscle memory. You feel the need to walk somewhere but don’t know why. By this point his wife dragged him to New Orleans and for some reason picked their house in the real legit ghetto. A white old guy wandering around by himself in NO, I have no idea how he never got mugged or even killed. Last weekend we had his memorial service with everything directed by his wife/my step-grandma. It was the most disrespectful day of my life. It was as if she had met him yesterday and had no idea who and what this man was and how he lived and everything. The whole day she never acknowledged his/my family at all. Grandpa had 5 sons including my dad and there was no pictures with his family anywhere. It wasn’t like she didn’t have them because she had all of his family pictures in envelopes and gave them to my dad and his brothers after the service. Every picture that was at the memorial service was of her and her family with him. Funny because they didn’t even like each other and were gonna divorce each other until they both got health problems. The whole day was stuff like that. At the very least though, that night my family got dinner at a nice steakhouse with an empty seat at the table saved for grandpa and ordering for him a medium-rare New York strip steak with a bud lite. All his favorite, and with all of us getting pretty trashed as well. That’s what he would’ve wanted. I mentioned Everywhere at the End of Time to one of my cousins while we were there. I’ve listened to this thing like 10 times and in a weird way helped me with dealing with his struggles while he was alive. I understood better what was happening to him because of it instead of it being fearful wondering or something like that. Watching your video was very refreshing and is getting me through this transitional period in my life. Thank you for your hard work. And idk why, I find “An Empty Bliss Beyond This World” more creepy than EatEoT.
bit-ghost's reaction to the vinyl literally gave me chills, not only because of the unbelievably beautiful music but because of the sheer joy and excitement of discovery. it's unbelievable that a single record could have become this important to so many people, it's fucking amazing.
You should do an essay about the nightmarish noise rock album "you won't get want you want" by daughters. It's my favorite album of all time. It's harsh and effect-ridden guitars, pounding drums, and industrial droning atmospheres serve as the perfect platform for Alexis Marshall's harrowing storytelling, lyrics, and vocal performances as it depicts the story of a man losing his mind as he becomes disillusioned with the manotany of his mundane life and eventually breaks and returns to the scene of something that he once feared
I discovered everywhere at the end of time a few days ago. I haven't had the will to go through the entire 6 hour long album, because of how haunting it sounds but I have been watching a few videos on the subject of the album, such as this one. Everywhere at the end of time for me is a very confusing experience. I myself suffer from ADHD and depression. Both of those can make it hard to remember things at times and with my ADHD it can often heighten my emotions and the speed of my thought process. Anxiety often goes along with depression, and it just makes me think about the future. My own issues already with forgetting things constantly just makes me worry that depending on the future, I may end up in a situation where EATOT reflects what I am or will become. It also kind of hurts me because of the kind of slow burn of the album. I recently lost my grandmother to cancer as well. She had it back since 2014. If she knew...she didn't tell anybody. She ended up dying to the sepsis from the cancer this year. 4:00 in the morning. I'm still... I would argue, in the denial stage. It still feels weird and unfathomable to know she's gone. I know she is... it, just feels unreal. While it's not the exact subject that this album is supposed to represent.. to me this album can also symbolize the breaking down of the body. This is just me. it just makes me think of all the pain that my grandma went through. I miss her.
Who the hell gives this video a thumbs down??? Amazing documentary on this masterpiece. I look forward to repeated listenings of the album as well as this video. There's so much info to take in.
I absolutely love how you managed to turn every album cover into an animation. It makes everything look so real and I think it’s amazing. I especially love how you did Stage 3’s cover, and made it look… alive… like the plant it’s supposed to be. Amazing job
I’m really glad you talked about NATMOS, its a work I like just as much, possibly more than EATEOT, especially its equivalent to Place In the World Fades Away: The Rest is Silence.
I'll edit this when I have watched it all but just know that I audibly cheered when I saw this. Congratulations on finishing this project! Edit: It took a while (2hrs to be precise) but that was incredible. The analysis, the cameos and the fact that video was just so well paced really just demonstrates your talent in writing!
There's a reason why I watch your channel, Pad and it's effort above all else. Note that all my project are based around these musical gems you've introduced me to and I use as inspiration. Thank you for your contribution to my writing, my musical culture and overall to my writing! Never cut your diverse musical palettes out of your life. Keep on searching, listening, sharing and inspiring. Much love
I never stayed til the very end to heard your grandmas voicemail before (Ive seen this video like around 3 or 4 times. but I’m glad I did this time around because even thought it broke me, it was so heartwarming
Pad this vid has absolutely incredible, I can’t wrap my head around how much time and effort you put into this, I was hooked throughout the whole thing, and may the ballroom remain forever eternal
I started to cry at VIII: Stage Four. Amazing video. At this moment I'm thinking about calling my grandma but I can't stand to start shaking and crying and holding back tears knowing that her mind will get foggier and foggier with each month as they go on, quickly forgetting things and becoming irritable. It makes me sad. I'm not going to watch the rest of this video because of how sensitive the topic is for me, but this is a great video. Thank you for covering this amazing album.
I'm on chapter 6 and all I have to say is you're doing a really good job, going over everything. I've learned things I didn't know also the amount of times you've played my favorite track B2 An Autumnal Equinox made me so happy personally!
My grandfather had Parkinson's disease. As morbid as it is, I'm glad he passed. His condition was slow, yet rapid. It slowly took his motor functions over 10 years, reducing him from a proud, tall man of 86 years to a bedridden, gasping, suffering husk of what he once was. Even when the condition progressed, before he was bedridden, his memory was clear as day. Despite the fact that he had hallucinations due to Parkinson's, he could very accurately describe events in his life with little effort or help. When he went to stay at a hospital, his health took a massive decline, leaving him bedridden, gasping, silent, suffering as his organs shut down. The last thing he'd said before it left him dying was "I can't, Linda. I can't". He always was a tough man. Never heard or saw him cry in my youth, but when the disease progressed, I watched him cry 2 or 3 times. Once was when he said to me, "You kids shouldn't have to take care of me", another when he was crying out to my grandmother who wasn't there (she's alive, but COVID only let 2 people visit, those two being me and my sister). I still remember my grandmother breaking down when me and my dad went to break the news of his passing that morning. She saw me and smiled. She thought I came for a visit. Then, she saw my dad, and she just repeated" "No, no" as my dad went to comfort her. He passed November 12, 2021. The part I find funny or interesting is that he lasted through Veteran's Day, passing in his sleep early the next morning. He had served in Vietnam in his young adulthood. Rest in peace, Conley. I hope you're still waiting for me.
Thank you so, so much for this video. I was personally introduced to Caretaker by the algorithm around September 2020. This was around a month after my grandmother, at age 78, was diagnosed with dementia (never found out if it was alzheimers or a similar disease). It didn't make the disease any less sad - having your name forgotten by someone you've known your entire life is nothing short of heart-shattering - but it helped me sympathize with what she was going through, and made it a little bit easier. The first time I listened to Everywhere, I listened to it the entire way through. Since my grandmother was born in the years where these songs were popular, I was curious if she'd recognize the songs from EATEOT. The last time I saw her in person, she recognized Heartaches and Goodnight My Beautiful. She described A2 as "calming." After COVID resurged, I didn't see her again. She died in May from a unrelated medical issue around late stage 2 to early stage 3. It's been a rough journey, but EATEOT - and by extension, the rest of Leyland's discography - were ways for me to get a semblance of what she was going through, and albums like Sadly, The Future Is No Longer What It Was helped me grieve. Not once in my life has music moved me as much as this album did, and not once in my life have I been entranced by an artist's discography more. This video is a love letter to everything Caretaker and Leyland Kirby related, and I can't express how happy I am to be able to finally watch this video. The wait was absolutely worth it. Thank you so much. Here's some more video relevant titles: Long Video Is Over Place In The Algorithm Fades Away The Video Ahead Feels Lonely Hidden Sample Buried Deep
As someone who didn't spend nearly enough time with their grandparents before they were gone and still regrets it to this day, both the album as a whole and this video specifically hit pretty hard. Thank you for your work, and may the ballroom remain eternal.
My memories of this album revolve less around death and more around disconnection. When I first heard about this project, it was last fall, and I wanted to listen to it while at the airport and on the plane to see my then-girlfriend. Listening to this record, as atmospheric as it is, in a big empty airport (a vaccine for COVID-19 had yet to be finished and people were still pretty nervous to be on flights and shit) was just an experience I'll never forget. Being high in the air or at a layover when stages 4-6 happen was just strange and jarring, I swear I almost missed my other flight. After that album, I was interested as hell in the caretaker. I'd listened to "A Stairway to the Stars" the next time I'd visited said partner, and I remember we stayed up all night playing Stardew Valley with friends of ours on a discord call (yeah we're nerds), and I woke up at 4pm or some shit. Something about the lights turned out in this small studio apartment while the clouds outside darkened the early January sky, listening to "cloudy, since you went away" while doing the dishes as quietly as I could, not to wake her. That's just one of many feelings and thoughts when I hear these projects. Those feelings stick with me always, but now they're just burning memories... Amazing video, Pad. You've gained another subscriber today. May the ballroom remain eternal.
After watching this so many times , it’s still my favorite video essay, describe, tells a story, gives examples, explains, invites parts of the community and gives opinion all in the same time! It’s just amazing
Pad, I just finished watching this absolute behemoth of a video, and I can safely say that this is video truly is perfect and your hard work has paid off exponentially. The writing, the editing and the audio are all just perfect. I can definitely see that you put the same amount of passion in this video as Kirby did with his music. One more thing, may the ballroom remain eternal.
May The Ballroom Remain Eternal... My mother died of complications from dementia in 2022. I also had a beloved grandmother die from dementia decades before. After the dust settled last year I began an interesting journey into dementia. It was clinical, sterile research, until somehow Everywhere at the End of Time popped into my TH-cam feed. I'm forever changed from that point on. I've listened to it 3 times to the end, each time discovering and feeling something different. The 3rd time, it took me by the hand and guided me alongside my mother on her lonely, frightening journey. She never made it to stage 6. She was a tough, spirited woman, raising 4 children, losing 2 young daughters early on. (Mom grew up in a period when Thalidomide was popular but the side effects still unknown. One daughter died at 7 years because of what Thalidomide did to her. The other died at 6 months from crib death.) Someone in another thread summed it up beautifully when we lose someone to this disease: There's nothing more sad than mourning the loss of a loved one while they are still here. I've always been a big fan of music from the 30's and 40's. EATEOT added a new facet to this music. Thank you for this video.
The only appropriate way to honor a six-and-a-half hour-long album, is by making an almost two-and-a-half hour video. Hats off to you, Pad. May the ballroom remain eternal.
This honestly might be the best youtube video I’ve seen in a while. I’ve been in love with Kirby’s works ever since last summer and even though I’ve listened to many of his works (including this album) many times, I still find something new to appreciate each time. I dearly hope everyone who listens to EATEOT gives James’ other albums a chance. Rest in Peace to your Nonna May the Ballroom Remain Eternal…
This is a truly incredible video about such a beautiful project. It makes me quite sad seeing that the Sample Hunt segment is the least watched section, since it's incredibly informative to hear the gargantuan task of finding the origins of all the track samples. Everyone who worked on this video did such amazing work. May the ballroom remain eternal.
Researching the sample hunt and hearing stories from the many people behind the search was one of my favorite parts of making this video!! They were all amazing to work with and so dedicated. So much more has been discovered since this vid too!
May the ballroom indeed remain eternal. I have to say, it's impressive how well put together and thought-out this video is. Great work, I hope this gets a lot of views, it deserves every single one of them!
This may be one of my favorite videos on the internet, maybe ever. You left me with such a positive view of an album I was once terrified of. An album that I once felt would hurt me I now see as something that helps many deal with and understand a loss some would consider more painful than death. I could keep going on and on but in reality I just want to say, thank you Pad and thanks to Mr. Kirby. Indeed, may the ballroom remain eternal
I discovered this album by accident on TH-cam not too long ago. I think when part 6 came out. I'm going through marital issues right now and this piece of art found me again... May the ballroom remind eternal Great job 👍
2 things I noticed in Stage 2’s album cover: There seem to be the rough outline of a man and a woman on the sides. The handles of the pot are decayed, perhaps representing how hard it is to hold onto a memory. May the ballroom remain eternal.
The HORRIFYING Sounds of "Girl with Basket of Fruit"
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I wanted you to know that the art your grandma made is either cross stitch or needle point. My mom does them from time to time.
@@HoneyButter_Biscuit thank you for the clarification! I kept finding all sorts of names for it lol
@@PadChennington what are the cover animations in the video
may the ballroom remain eternal
may the ballroom remain eternal
I love how almost every time Kirby's name is mentioned, his face appears like:
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He do be poppin up doe here and there
he do be at the end of time tho
he do be everywhere
Only Kirby and Cameraman will remain at the end.
His hair is stage 3 cover
I was incredibly worried about my grandma passing earlier this year. She knew this, and after she got better, she started to make me a cookbook. A hand made cookbook with every recipe she made for me in it. I flipped to the last page, and I saw something that made me feel ok. She put in the back of it, under her picture “All I can ask is that you always think of me as someone who loves you.” I’m balling my eyes out just writing this. I love you Mimi, never change.
My Mimi died recently two months ago of cancer.
I wasn't able to see her in person, but I was able to speak on the phone just a couple days before she died.
I couldn't muster the ability to say anything more than "I love you forever", and I could desperately hear her trying to respond but she was ultimately too weak to speak.
Sorry if this story is unnecessary, but you calling your grandma the same nickname resonated with me.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I know even the thought of my Mimi passing sends me into a spiral. You’re story is incredibly moving, and I hope both of our Mimi’s find peace.
Make sure to save it, make copies or archive the original for special uses. that is the one thing you cannot lose in your life
as someone who loves my grandmothers cooking this really hits home for me
I almost lost my grandmother who was very unwell earlier this year, too. On the way home after giving her a hug in her hospital bed, I felt this overwhelming state of sadness, anger, fear, depression…I wanted to die that very day. This album is so profound and powerful to me, and is my full-on fears of losing my loved ones in musical form, which made me reflect on that day when I listened to this album earlier today. I know one day Nanny will no longer be here, and it will hurt the most, because even my brother’s boyfriend believes like I believe that I will spiral afterwards when it happens. My mother’s passing is going to hurt even more so. As for the future, it’s looking bleak to me, because Poppy’s passing didn’t quite sink in, in 2011, and now that I’m older, I fully understand just how depressing and dark life is, and we are all heading towards the inevitable. There is no silver lining in death. There is no bright future or happy ending. We die, and enter the void forever.
Happy 5th anniversary to Everywhere at the End of Time :) Enjoy the video!
Hey Pad! Quick question, just saw that Everywhere at the End of Time is getting pressed onto vinyl! In stages 1-3 and 4-6, first three being £59.99 and 4-6 being £89.99. Do you plan on getting it!
Pad you changed my life. Please re-review NEWS @ 11
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May the ballroom forever remain eternal.
@@andrewsimmons8051 deeep
My uncle was diagnosed with dementia a few years ago. He and my Aunt would visit every Christmas to chat and laugh and eat whatever snacks we all made. The last couple visits, he wasn't too different from his usual jolly self, though he did become noticeably more absent-minded and had more difficulty walking up steps or grabbing things right in front of him. About a month ago we were told he had died from heart problems, and we attended his funeral a week later. It was very sad, but on some level I was relieved, for lack of a better word. I didn't wish my uncle was dead of course; rather, I saw it as a small mercy that he was mostly lucid in his last moments, rather than spending god knows how many months or years slowly losing his memories and sense of self. I know the last stages of dementia are utterly soul-crushing both to witness and endure, and I don't think anyone would have wanted my uncle to go through that.
Makes sense. If someone you love is diagnosed with dementia, then one of the best things you can hope for is that something less drawn out and hellish gets them first like their heart. Dementia is literally the WORST way to go and literally nearly ANY other method is less miserable and more humane.
The story of your grandmother, the explanation of EATEOT, The story of James, the emotion… I’ve watched this more than once… but it never gets old.
Thanks for stopping by multiple times ! :) this video will always be my favorite one I’ve ever done, really thankful to have people like you return to it. Means a lot!
@@PadChennington half your views are probably from me at this point
@@PadChennington guess who is back again!!!!!!!
I’m watching it once again lol
I enjoyed this so much, Thankyou for sharing your personal experiences, may the ballroom remain eternal
fun fact if anyone reading this didnt already know: the cover artwork for “eager to tear apart the stars” is a distorted watch. the watch face is at the top right.
Yes! The first time I listened to the album I actually didn't notice it until the very end
As surprising as it is, I knew already it was a watch, just never seemed to question why it looked so distorted either..
Oh, you like the caretaker? Tell me what the stage 5 album is
@@ICE_woomy you see it... It kinda looks, ... I think it's a... 😐
@@ICE_woomy A couple dancing down the stairs.
New Pad Chennington upload = good day :D
Hey Jorge
Sup dude
If Jorge is involved you know it’s gonna be good lol
besties supporting besties
Oh my godddd the callback lmaoo
I listened to Everywhere At The End Of Time in its entirety during a recent trip to the west coast. At one point, sometime during Stage 4, I was driving through Donner Pass just after a bad snow storm. Nobody was around me and I was surrounded by utter loneliness. In Stage 4 the tracks really start to fall apart and the drone looms above everything you hear. I felt like I was disintegrating along with the music. I eventually made it through the pass and eventually completed the album but some small piece of my mind was left there on that lonely highway, the haunting sounds of the album corrupting my peace, dementing my very state of being. I'll never forget that. This album should come with a warning label. It will eat you alive if you're not careful.
maybe that's the point?
Yea this song made me feel weird and then I disconnected to everything. My mind was tormenting me from just hearing this, showing me false memory's that aren't mine. So then I cried, and cried, and then I finally realized it's just a dang song why the heck am I even feeling this. And it stopped. It still lingers in my head tho.
Holy shit that's brave.
That’s the point
Dementia is VERY scary and as this album is trying to tell you about the true horror of it
The clear example of low force of will.
Fun fact: a few days ago when I first listened to everywhere at the end of time, I listened to it at night. I made it though the first 5 stages. But when the track “A brutal bliss beyond this empty defeat” played, I feel asleep. And I woke up when the terminal lucidity segment was playing, it was probably the most surreal moment of my life. I do wish I had the strength to get through all of stage 6, but it is what it is. Thank so much for this piece of art. Stay strong and take care.
Well that's what I call a 1/1 million experience.
Yeah just please don't listen to this before falling asleep...can really mess with you.
@@Ranixo286why?
i fell asleep in stage 2.... got woken up by the hell sirens.
fml
Exact same thing for me. Waking up to that is...haunting. words cannot do it justice
My grandmother is in the middle of this process, somewhere in the middle of album 3 I’d say. I listened to the whole thing once, and it’s given me the ability to stay patient and calm when I answer the same questions over and over, day after day.
She deserves that patience and love.
I’m a little late, but my grandmother passed 4 years ago from Alzheimer’s as well, two months after stage 6 was released. All I can say is cherish every moment with her, even through the frustration you’ll feel with the situation. Enjoy her presence and, as you said, stay patient - though she might not be able to communicate it, I know she appreciates it, and you, more than anything. I can’t express the regret I and my dad feel for the times we couldn’t be there for her.
My grandma is at the same point currently I had to teach her to use her phone because she forgot a couple weeks back.
@@MrBet1001yeah forgetting is hard… My grandpa got diagnosed with dementia and it’s scary… it’s not just the decreasing memory…. But his behavior and personality is extremely different from what it used to be…. He never used to be this hostile, depressed or impatient…. Luckily he is still lucid enough right now…. But… there may only be a few more years left of it…. And my memories of him will be corrupted by the horrors this disease will cause him…. It’s gonna be a long road… that’ll only end in death… but at least we have each other…..
@@RatsOnTheIce19
Sorry to hear about your grandpa. My grandmother died from Alzheimer's disease in 2018, after having suffered with the illness for 12 years.
I wish I could say it gets easier, but that only really happens at the end. :(
One thing that's helped me cope a bit by somewhat avoiding the whole "memories being corrupted by the horrors of the disease" has been to remember her as essentially two versions of the same person. My Grandmother... And my Grandmother with Alzheimer's. Still the same person, but still also... Different.
Not to try and forget the bad, but make an effort to remember the good so it overshadows the bad. Or at least takes precedence over the bad. :)
That way whenever I think of my grandmother, I remember who she was. Not what the disease turned her into.
No idea if I'm making sense here, and sorry if I'm rambling.
Anyways, I hope the both of you (you and your grandpa) goes through this horrifying process as well as possible. :)
*The most brutal effort ever put into a video*
Honestly though I swear I’ve been hyped for this for like, years lol
Dude... I can't believe how long it truly has been lol!.. thank you for all your support on the channel and always stopping by!
same
Both lines of my family all struggle with Alzheimer’s/Dementia, and honestly for a long time I was scared. I couldn’t process losing all my memories forgetting the love of my life, my children. So when I heard about EATEOT I was instantly drawn to it, stage 1-2 scared me the most. Throughout the two I kept thinking that this could be me right now, full of life and joy only for it to be forgotten forever. I had to put it down for a couple months until a few months later where I finally decided to sit down and listen to it in it’s entirety. This time even though 1-2 still had that effect on me I kept going and by stage 4 I was hooked. At this point I wouldn’t or couldn’t stop listening. It’s funny because by stage 6 everyone that I’ve seen is sad..crying all that but it helped me find acceptance. Even if this horrible disease does take me, by the time that happens I will have had such a great and fulfilling life that I know I will have people that love me by my side till the end.
If you read this all I truly thank you, and I hope for the best for every single one of you.
yeah. ive got some neurological stuff going on, perhaps neurodegenerative. my memory is already bad enough for me to really resonate with stages one and two, haha, and i'm in my mod twenties -- i talke often with my 82 year old stroke survivor grandfather about neurological stuff, and we find we have much in common.
scared the shit out of me, but that's okay. its good to prepare yourself, you know?
i've been visiting my grandfather twice a week, lately. my pa passed from covid, and my dad's dad is my only immediate surviving family except my sister. my dad passed a year ago, in my grandfather's living room, and my sister and i both realized how.... limited time truly was, and how badly we wanted to do right by our grandfather.
i hope things go well for you. i know your pain, but you're right -- we have loved ones here for us, and bad times tomorrow don't undo good times today. cherish that time with them while you can. truly, it can be yanked away in a moment.
You're very welcome, and live a great life friend, good luck
Hope you don't get it.
I thought the post-awareness stages were already terrifying. How?
Dementia affects a lot of people! You know, no matter what happens. Your family will never stop loving and caring for you.
Undoubtedly the most awaited Pad Chennington video
can't believe it's FINALLY done and out lol
@@PadChennington may the ballroom remain eternal
@@themandownstairs4765 C’est fini
You’re a wonderful grandson Pad. Don’t feel guilty because I’m sure every moment you spend with your grandparents is cherished by them and sometimes with family it’s the little things that make life worth living.
I’m impressed at the quality this video managed to keep for its entire 2 hour runtime. Shows true dedication to the craft. May the ballroom remain eternal.
Here's a piece of calm, meditation music, made for you Enjoy ! :) th-cam.com/video/q7uE9RMwews/w-d-xo.html
The Caretaker also made some of the first ever vaporwave-esque music as V/VM. I recall listening to John Peel in the early 2000's as a young lad and hearing his tilted edit of Chris DeBurgh's Lady In Red, which blew my mind at the time as I'd never heard anything like it before. Took about another 7 or 8 years for the rest of the world to catch on to these concepts, with OPN later remixing the same track under the "Chuck Person" name. I've always wondered if he got the idea directly from V/VM aka The Caretaker.
Perhaps. Remember that plunderphonics predates both of them through John Oswald. Also, the V/vm stuff was more about confronting a certain music scene out of fondness for another one (Kirby was not a fan at all with what was coming out in the 1990s compared to the 1980s). Daniel Lopatin was not as confrontational. And maybe that was ultimately sparked the scene. And finally: post hoc, ergo propter hoc.
Personally, I think of JLK as an important parallel to the vapour scene as there are a lot of intersections (yes, botched the metaphor but bare with me =] ). And this is why I think what has been happening is bigger than one individual or even a few.
Just my thought … for now =]
I got his Lady in Red remix (called "The Lady In Red (Is Dancing With Meat)") on vinyl as a 7" a little while ago. I got the exact same vapor-vibes from it. Although the B-side was a completely busted-up cover of Lionel Richie's "All Night Long" (named "Butcher All Night") which sounded like a Merzbow demotape. Really goes to show the two sides of Kirby's music: Part recognizable and part drenched in static.
That gravelly way he made the whispered "cheek to cheek" sound... that's stuck with me these 20 years. love that edit.
@@madspeterrommedahl4679 "The Lady In Red (Is Dancing With Meat)" is my personal "Scariest song ever". I always wondered how he managed to de-harmonize it that way.. I think it goes way beyond any vaporwave I've heard.
I would absolutely kill to have those animated album covers as the background to my desktop computer. It looks incredible! I hope the artists responsible post those loops!
Glad to see someone else pointing that out, those animated covers are sick
Same bro
you could record your screen and trim it down so it loops and turn it into a gif
@@RedHatGuyYT how do i screen record on a computer
Obs@@barrianic4
This is “Everywhere at the end of time: The Movie.”
Everything from a personal story, symbolism, going in depth to composition of the artwork and music.
I knew you wouldn’t disappoint with this video!
Ironically still shorter than the original lol.
I know I’m 10 months late, but the work put into this video has to be acknowledged. Some people don’t realize how hard it is to make a video this long and this high quality. This has to be the best EATEOT video I’ve ever seen.
May the ballroom remain eternal.
never too late to this absolute masterpiece.
Ey I'm like, a year and a half late, don't feel alone at all
Ten months later I gotta bring attention to this comment!
34:00 I think the last cover of "everywhere" is actually a painting surface that was never painted on. the the adhesive bands(the color of which implying easily removable adhesive) form a rectangle limiting the painting to a specific area, it's a common practice when you paint but don't want to fill the entire page.
It's like the image has decayed so much all you can do is refer to it incompleteness.
More than that, all the previous covers were the paintings encompassing the whole frame. The last cover is you looking at the canvass from the bigger picture
I applaud The Caretaker for convincing thousands of people that noise music is good actually. Including me. I don't know how, but Stage 5 just reeled me in somehow.
May the ballroom remain eternal.
I weirdly kind of enjoyed having parts of stages 4 and 5 playing in the background at work? They're most often said to be the scariest from what I've seen, but stage 6 was the hardest for me.
@@dr3dg352 if you liked stages 5 and 6 i recommend you the work of lustmord :) king of dark ambient music
@@lau_bowery oh cool, thank you! 😄 I'll check them out.
Imagine James Leyman orchestrating The Shining.
never thought of that, that is definitely an interesting concept!
@@PadChennington It fits the shoes, thematically.
The Overlook Hotel, being an entity encapsulated by one fragment of time, on a more ontological sense. Though even physically possessing itself as an era frozen in time, that being the Gold Room and the various peoples of the hotel.
@@one_man_community WOAH WAIT. This is actually pretty cool, I'm so invested.
he was actually comissioned to make music for "Room 237", a documentary about The Shining. leyland is such a big fan of the shining, so he must have been very excited back then
Well, that's it guys. This is it. No one can ever make another EATEOT video. This is the ultimate exploration of this masterpiece. Besides the brilliant video itself, actually talking to Leland makes this something you can't get anywhere else. This is your magnum opus Pad.
Thanks for remembering me to spend more time with my old ones.
The album being discussed in this video is downright terrifying for anyone, but especially me. I'm 21, and have always had heavy struggles with my memory, even at a young age. To see what it could be like if I do end up with dementia or Alzheimer's brings me such anxiety and genuine terror for the future. I can only hope to live a life well enough to grieve fully as it fades.
Me too and I'm 34 now and it's gotten worse. Not only that but my grandma passed away from dementia a month ago and in 2 days I have to put down my dog who also has dementia and cannot do anything anymore. This is the absolute worst way to go and it's horrible and I hope I don't end up getting it but I just decided today that if I do I will start making videos as soon as I'm diagnosed about my memories and the disease as it progresses until I physically can't anymore and die
What are your thoughts on Everywhere at the End of Time? Any other albums or projects you’d recommend for others looking for a similar experience or sound? Let me know in the comments!
I would recommend How To Dissappear Completely if you haven't already. It's similar to EATEOT but a different premise. A Bucket Of Jake did a good video on it
It’s great, but in my eyes it’s absolutely overrated
I think it would be great as an art installation, but it's the kind of product that works better on paper and concept than reality. Though enjoying it is definitely not the point, I agree that it's profoundly overrated, and somewhat pretentious. I'd recommend Stalaggh's "Gulaggh" for a more intense and disturbing experience.
The most life changing album I've never listened too
Thank you very much Pad.
I will cherish this video.
I feel the turning point in this is Sublime Beyond Loss...the seedy vibe of it is so unsettling and you feel like the character is drinking themselves into oblivion to temporarily ease the pain of loss of their faculties. Either way, cool video!
EDIT: Also I feel that Hag is the pot from Stage 2 but it's exploded like you said and is going everywhere.
Oh nice! I didn't expect you'd be here Masako! Glad your one of many people who like EATEOT.
Sublime beyond loss is scarier than shit but.. I like it, has a nice bop to it
Scary but good
Oh wow that was a surprised but what a welcome one
i'd say the decline doesn't really steepen until F3
Pad,
Your story about your grandmother is incredibly well done.
You said a few times that you felt like you were selfish, or thinking about yourself only. And it seemed like it was a bad thing. But it's not. Dealing with death is a very personal thing and you didn't do anything wrong by thinning about yourself in relation to your loved ones. I just think it's important to tell you that just in case you are feeling negatively about the way you felt at that point.
This video is great.
thank you for saying this.
i think that humans are meant to help themselves first, to take care of themselves first (secondly others, of course). and people like to see their loved ones happy, healthy, and independent. i find this is especially true with grandparents, who are just happy to hear from you and see you smiling.
pad, it was your "selfishness" that caused that embroidery to come into being. it was probably the catalyst for some of her final carefree moments. because of it you own a _priceless treasure_ of an heirloom, made from her own hand. i can't help but see any of that as anything except a beautiful, lucky thing to be cherished.
cheers, and all the best.
... and may the ballroom be eternal
May the ballroom remain eternal indeed.
(Not gonna lie, Stage sixes ended almost brought me to the point of tears. I'm not ashamed to admit that, and I think it's a wonderful end after the ride you've been taken on.)
When the music stops, I stop head bobbing and leave a dislike because the music stopped.
@@leomartin7409 It's like they always say, all good things must come to an end, that final sample from Stage 6 is like a goodbye, for us being to hear the 6 hours of our life.
The Beginning was happy, Stage 1 and 2 was all joyful with some slight dementia in-between, Stages 3-4 was good, Stage 3 was good, Stage 4 was a jumbled mess, And Stages 5-6 are sad, Stage 5 was still the same as Stage 4, in music.
*Stage 6 however, was really sad, it's like The Caretaker died of dementia.*
@@leo.909 but da music
I always listen to the first couple stages while walking through the halls of my school, the hordes of people have never felt so lonely
Sounds like such an interesting experience
I was my mother's caretaker for the last 5 years of her life as she descended into dementia, and death, in 2019. This album is devastating.
I listenened to this when i was going through a really bad time. My depression was taking over at a fast pace and gave it a listen during Winter, when my mental health always goes down to suicidal levels of bad. Even worse is i was on my 3rd day of not eating anything and listened to this during the night time which made things much worse.
When i finished it, it made me realize i shouldn't take life for granted. I started trying to better myself and now im doing okay. I might listen to the album again some day but it really left a huge impact on me.
Never have I related to a comment so personally. It kinda, slapped me awake in a way. I was in a stupor to cowardly to end my life, to sad to fix it. I was sick, stuck on my bed and then in my recommends I see that everywere at the end of time album. I heard it was really good, so I bit the bullet and watched it while reading.
it was an emotional ride to say the least and I am very thankful I listened to it
I believe in you man. Do your best.
I finally got around to getting off my back with my depression and got medicated last month. I never thought i could feel... normal. Just... level, ya know? It feels so weird to not be depressed all the time, and part of me wants that back. "Depression is like a wet blanket. Its cold and heavy, but you keep it on. Why? Because you know that it will warm up eventually, and taking it off will take effort and leave you cold and uncovered, even if only for a little while. So you deal with the discomfort just so that you dont have to deal with a new kind of discomfort".
I hope you are doing better now since you wrote this comment. Make sure you remember to eat regularly and drink plenty of water! :)
As they say, good art should comfort the disturbed, and disturb the comfortable
First off: May the ballroom remain eternal. C'est fini.
Secondly: Pad, this was one of the best videos I've ever seen that's come out of your channel. This video not only introduces someone to the world of The Caretaker, but it also makes people aware that Kirby has done so much more than EATEOT. I gotta hand it to you, Pad - this is a video that just needs to be experienced with others. Great job, man.
When I listen to this album, I feel like I'm literally in the 20s. I'm young, but I feel like I miss days that never happened. I feel like I'm supposed to remember something I don't. It's amazing what music can do to the mind. May the ballroom remain eternal for all.
I start head bobbing.
To me, it's all just haunting stuff, and it makes me lose my appetite immediately
My grandmother recently got cancer, seeing her hooked up to machines made me want to cry when I saw her, I don't know how to put this into words but it was depressing to see, and also comforting. The thought of her getting better and thriving kept me from bursting into tears once I saw her, even though I knew it was unlikely. There were so many things I could've payed attention to while I was with her but I never did, I regret it so much. She's always let us take old toys from her basement to our house, and I got many toys from her house, most importantly, Barbies that I played with alone, a lamb plushie that helped me fall asleep when it was dark, and a Christmas dress that no longer fits me. These objects are so important to me and I can't imagine losing them in the middle of the night or just while I'm out of the house, at school, with my mom, anything. I don't want to lose these items, I don't wanna lose the memories of her. I want to cry but I can't, I want to scream but I can't, all I can do is sit and reminisce about her, the stories she told, the times we visited her, the things she gave us, anything. I cling onto those memories like my life depends on it, I want to be happy with her but I feel this constant dread around her and it won't go away, because I know she's going to succumb to death someday, and she won't be with me, but that's ok. It's ok that I'm gonna lose her one day, it's ok that my kids might never meet her, it's ok that I won't have her around me anymore because I'll have those objects in some way, mental or physical. I'll miss her but I'll know that she loved me, and I loved her, I'll know that she tried her best to make me and my siblings happy. I'll feel sad for a little bit but I'll be able to move on, along with everyone else. She'll be with me for as long as I'm alive, as long as I can remember. I don't want to see her die but it will happen, and it's something I need to accept. Writing this helped me so much with dealing with the sadness of possible loss, I feel the need to thank someone for allowing me to do this, but I'm not sure who, but just thank you. Thank you for helping me, and thank you for letting me talk about my worries. Love you, grandma.
Have a nice day, reader.
Thank you for sharing your story. I can relate to it having seen my own Nana pass from cancer.
i hope you will be alright and that you can get over that loss without any pain , you can do this i believe in you , no matter how much time it will take , all my condolences towards you and your family , 💗
I understand all too well... thought I was going to lose my gram last year. She raised me and I'm in my 30s but I'm not ready for that. I suppose we never are though...
Gram survived uterine cancer despite the hardships of the hysterectomy and difficulty cancer treatments afterwards but last year she had a bone infection in her spine. She came home rather quickly after surgery, she was able to get up and get to the bathroom on her own and everything! I was trained to give her her antibiotics through her PIC line at home and a nurse and occupational therapist were going to come weekly... but the second Sunday she was home, she couldn't stand up. She had this pain in her hip that was unbearable and she ended up in a rehab for months.
She didn't have any new hip issues, the pain she already dealt with had just gotten unbearable while her body healed from surgery. But while she was in rehab there were various issues... Random UTIs, cognitive reactions to certain antibiotics and pain medication, depression, anxiety, and one night she woke up from a dream convinced she was late for a wedding and tried to stand from her bed only to have a bad fall afterwards. She told me about the dream a week later, it was crazy all over the place, but she was on a lot of medication and seeing things so I can't tell how much she really dreamed. She'd have these lucid moments where she knew how she sounded and clearly thought she was developing dementia. I kept reminder her we all get loopy on those kinds of meds but I also knew that some elderly people develop dementia in reaction to some antibiotics. She didn't need to know that though, it would've just made it all so much harder.
Thankfully she recovered, though she's not as steady on her feet as she used to be and she's more forgetful. She's not out of touch with reality at all for now. She's very scared that it's happening and all I can do is tell her how forgetful I've always been and no one remembers everything after 7 1/2 decades of life - that's a lot of life to remember!
It's hard to know if she's more forgetful from the stress or if she's in those beginning stages but for now I still have her lucid and here. I'm not ready for that to change, but I have to focus on what we have now and spend time with her. She likes to watch me play video games, it's like more interactive TV for her and she loves farming sims as much as I do. I try to spend as much time with her as I can, though I'm dealing with my own health issues (sleep apnea, in the process of getting a CPAP so I can actually get restful sleep) that have made that more difficult lately. Hopefully I'll be better soon so I can watch her soap opera, share a smoke on the back porch, and play games for her regularly again.
It's so scary though. In spite of all our family struggles and generational trauma, she's the closest thing to a mother I have.
Now I feel like thanking you. It does help to put it out into the world, to stop hanging onto it and share it with others even for just a little bit. So thank you, internet stranger. Sending my love💕
I would usually say “I hope things get better” but I’m not sure what to say.
I just hope you can heal with time, it sounds like an incredibly rough situation.
have a nice day, that’s all I can think to say.
My grandma died when I was turning six due to cancer. Obviously, me, a dumb six year old, was not as sad about it as I am now. Especially her cookie recipe, and everything she did. Hope I'll see her in the afterlife with those cookies. I had been in the hospital the day she died. I had been to her funeral. I saw the coffin. I should've stayed home but my parents were fine with it.
This mega album has really hit me hard. My grandpa is currently going through Dementia, and it's been really hard to deal with. I've been listening to this album everyday while I do computer stuff, and I'll turn it on as ambience to sleep to. I sincerely hope that one day we are capable of curing diseases like Dementia, it's such a horrific and unfair disease.
May the ballroom be eternal.
EATEOT has always made me incredibly upset and depressed. but this video added a lot of context, comfort, and humanity to this album. the album is now a lot less scary to face and think about. thank you for this analysis. may the ballroom forever be eternal
same here. this video has made it easier for me to appreciate EATEOT as a work of art. it's really rather beautifully made
people are alive until they are forgotten, and you've really helped your grandmother live forever in some way through this. love this album/the history but your storytelling was absolutely the highlight. went through a very similar time with my grandfather and I'm truly feeling for you
This is amazing work. I work in a nursing home and have always been both fascinated and shocked by the decline of my patients. Even after 14 years I still wonder what goes through their minds as they banter to themselves, speak incoherent, broken phrases, wander aimlessly with a flat affect on their faces and address people both real and imagined. As fascinating as it is is is truly sad and heartbreaking to see them go through it.
You're a wonderful person, thank you for doing what you do ❤ :]
I once helped arrange activities for people with dementia, and was often astonished and moved to see people otherwise ‘lost’ come to life when they heard the music of their youth. I saw a man who had lost the power of spoken language burst into song in front of his tearful wife. I saw the difference cats and dogs would make to the mood in nursing homes, too.
May the ballroom remain eternal.
This was really well done.
thank you!
May the ballroom remain eternal
I think this is, hands down, one of the most important electronic works of the 2010’s if not the 21st century. This shows me that music has many different ways to be listened to and experienced. The grand depth of everything in this 6 1/2 hour long work is overwhelming and the details can be learned about for years. It was important for me in my own personal experience because of what one artist could do with this and creating something original like this.
Dementia and Alzheimer’s have hit my family hard. This album shook me intensely and, at the same time, brought me a sense of closure; I felt at one with my great grandparents one more time. I don’t know if I could ever listen to the whole album as one again, but I am so very glad I did once.
Pad, I may not have watched your content before and such, but I've watched through the entire 2 hours, 21 minutes and 15 seconds of it.
YOU DID SUCH AN AMAZING JOB, DUDE. I MEAN IT.
I have never seen this entire moniker be so well-detailed and explained, all the way to the ART ITSELF.
I am also legitimately AMAZED at the fact that some of the most well-known parts in EATEOT haven't been mentioned at all, if nearly *at most.* And to that, I want to say a HUGE thank you, dude. I mean it.
Seeing the whole sample finding process be finally properly explained was also just- Man, I don't even have words for this. In my time in the Caretaker community, I've also made friends with a few of the sample finders, and seeing them be mentioned here for their sheer hard work, be it directly or indirectly, just makes me so proud of them.
All this time you have dedicated to this video was entirely worth it.
(ps: i may or may not have been one of the inspirations of "Nowhere At A Different Millennium", and seeing it also be mentioned really made a good chunk of my day)
(pps: Awwwwh, that ending! My sincerest condolences to your grandmother. May she rest in peace, and may she rest happily.)
May the ballroom remain eternal.
I entirely agree! It's shocking how much dedication was put into this video and I believe Kirby should definitely see this.
Well it looks like you’ve got a new subscription, join the deep Vaporwave club
I agree too! This man should have a movie.
Hearing Bit-Ghost's joy when he realized that it was the right song makes me so happy.
May the ballroom remain eternal
This work genuinely terrifies me and I can’t explain why. I feel like It’s supposed to make me sad, but I just feel extremely disturbed just thinking about it. I honestly can’t understand why this work scares me so much
Not gonna lie with that, i really wanted someone to really going deep with this stuff. Like, not only with EATEOT, But more like the caretaker, and also other projects made by kirby and this video...you did a perfect job. Im so thankful for the work you put into this video, and you totally light up my day. Wish you all my support and positivity in the future!
(little note down here for others: Everywhere in the beginning of nowhere is a 9+ hours work, similar to EATEOT. The creator of the project was 14 at the time, and he made the project dedicated to her grandmother. I think it's totally worth to check it out, if you like this stuff. )
Thank you so much LavendarCake! And I feel ya on that, I wanted to create something that explored as many possible avenues of Kirby and his work.. took a long time to make but I'm so happy I took my time with it.. thank you for stopping by, watching, commenting and showin some luv!
Can you talk about the TH-cam channel, EEGPROGRAMS in a future video?
HELL YEA! God tier video Pad, glad to be here.
My dude! Thank you for joining :) HAPPY WE GOT THAT AUDIO TO WORK LOL
@@PadChennington Nothing like some technical difficulties at an inconvenient time! HAH
Nice
No matter how many reviews open stage three with Back There Benjamin, it still jumpscares me.
Also, a detail some people miss is that a lot of Stage 3’s titles reference neuroscientist Benjamin Libet. The most notable sort of discovery he made was that there was a half-millisecond delay with the brain processing the physical contact and consciously feeling it.
I know the album is a living portrait of dementia... It is raw and cruel and beautiful at the same time... However, as you said at first, it hits differently for everyone. My best friend passed away so many years ago... We were still children, and she was suddenly diagnosed with cancer. I was never allowed to see her at the hospital, my mom told me that children were not allowed to visit, so she never took me when she was joining her mother for visiting day. The day she passed away, I was very sick, and I remember seeing things around me like I wasn't there, like I was a person watching a movie from the outside. I remember my mother telling me that my best friend died and yelling at me not to cry, me crying out of rage and sadness, but still numb inside... Many years later, when I was supposed not to mourn anymore, I was told the things my best friend lived during her last days, and it hurts so bad like I knew I had to be there for her... Listening to EATOF brought me to picture her last days before she was diagnosed with cancer, and picture her last days at the hospital... All those emotions brought back to life: anger, frustration, and finally, acceptance... Thank you very much Pad Chennington for making this video and #maytheballroomremaineternal
Hope you got many miles away from your toxic mother, its a good feeling.
Without going into details, I relate to this. Adults do not always handle kids and grief/ loss together well. I hope you are doing well and hope you do not carry guilt. Out of your control and not your fault xx
You should talk about that new genre called Liminal Wave sometimes in the future, greatly influenced by that majestic and profound release of Kirby...
But by far, my most favorite take on EATEOT might be the nightcore bass boosted remix of the release, that really adds something and gives this impression of "Speedrunning memory loss to the point you actually forget you forgot".
such an amazing experience, all 6 stages are so insanely intricately crafted, i love it.
may the ballroom remain eternal, c'est fini.
aint nothin like it!
Just as the album itself, the ending got me harder than I would've expected. Thanks for this vid man.
that ending is truly something magical, especially after sitting through the whole thing in one go... thank you for watching!
My grandma passed away very recently and I had stayed with her my whole life. So, I was there to witness ever stage of the dementia setting in. Although I'll never be able to understand the receiving end of what that was like I feel this album did such an amazing job at describing it more me. I was able to put myself in her shoes and see how it went from her taking care of me as a child to me taking care of her and eventually just watching her lying on her bed unable to talk and barely look around anymore. Although there was a sort of relief when she finally went. That through all that pain she was finally able to rest. I definitely feel like the process of going through dementia is more terrifying than death it's a long process of rot and just surviving unable to process what's happening around you and things or people that you see everyday make less and less sense until you just have to sit there and let the world go by without you, so quickly you don't bother to question it while it still remains the most frustrating thing you have to spent the rest of your life with.
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How they can treat this dreadful covid 19 caused pneumonia , there is only one thing, it is your body who has to fight with covid 19 or covid 21, so be prepared for that. And I make you sure on it that a human body has the capability to kill this virus, no matter how many forms does it change itself. Let's get ready to do so. ) I have lived the hell of pneumonia and inflammation so far. And the doctors prescribed me only things those were, antibiotic. They prescribed me more strong antibiotics when the first one stopped working . When all the antibiotics stopped working I had no way but controlling my eating habits to control the severe inflammation and excessive mucus problems . Because ayurveda described this thing. It is a natural thing to treat pneumonia and inflammation with no side effects.
All the friuts, dry fruits, most of the grains [except wheat, gram or cheakpe] , all the lentils (except pigeon food or masoor dal) [ pigeon food means masoor dal not tuwar dal so don't be confused and avoid tuwar dal because it is inflammatory too] and all the vegetables(except green leaves ) and all types of vegetables oil(except mustard oil ) act like poison for a very sensitive pneumonia patient or a covid 19 affected patient(only in some cases because some patients' body act overwhelmingly on covid 19 virus ) because these things are most inflammatory and the main causes to make humans body inflamed . So avoid these things for some days if you get affected with covid 19.
Covid 19 may affect you and you can face all types of it's symptoms , but it never be fatal for you if you follow these natural tips for some days after being getting affected. If you have a covid 19 positive test, control your eating habits for some days and take only all types of meaty foods( meat and eggs ) and you can use mustard oil or pure butter clarified to cook them otherwise eat them grilled or boiled. You can also have all types of pure dairy products(which are made from pure animal milk ) , white sugar, sea salt, red chili powder,all types of green leaves like spinach and lettuce,tea, coriander powder or leaves, , turmeric, products that made from pure wheat, masoor dal(pigeon food),Gram(checkpeae ), Mustard oil. Avoid all types of vegetables, Either it is a green vegetable or a root (besides green leaves) and avoid cabbage and cauliflower . It is a very strict diet plan but with this diet you can achieve zero inflammation within 10 to 15 days. To meet your daily needs of vitamin c you can take a half of lemon(lemon acts differently when it is consumed with different foods, with the suggested foods it never be a cause for inflammation ) per day. If you follow this tip for some days, covid 19 or it's variants never never be fatal for you in any case .
Note - A human body does take 15 days to produce antibodies and it is the natural way to avoid the over inflammation. It is my twenty years experience over pneumonia and inflammation. it's been two years I won't face neither pneumonia nor inflammation. I have been surviving on a very simple and a very strict diet.
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Mutation is one mechanism of life... as long something alive is constantly duplicating in huge numbers, then starts to mutate to something else. as long you give space to the virus, it will mutate with or without vaccines.
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👃 This series of recordings is one of the most profound experiences of my life. I'm 60 and it has managed to tease out stuff I didn't know was there. Many many tears flowed but it was worth it.
I didn't listen to the whole thing, and I don't think I'll ever have the time to, but I have skipped through to some parts and I'm in tears.
My Grandma never had dementia, just the usual forgetfulness that comes with age. She had lived through the second World War, beaten breast cancer and cared for many kids, grandkids and great grand kids in her lifetime
I can't imagine how awful it must be, knowing somewhere in the lifeless body of a late stage dementia patient is someone that you knew. Your mother. Your Grandmother etc. I'm thankful that my grandma was spared from something like that, and I can't put into words the level of sympathy I feel for those who suffer/know someone that is suffering through dementia.
@greedy first algorithm last
#73 Years here. Discovered this series this year. I fear Algorithm sent me TH-cam Old Folks Needs to Die your wasting Young People's Dreams. The Young Hipsters calls us 'Boomers" which is a Elitist Slur, how many times has some young Tik-Tocker publish some Hate Troll Attack on Old Ass Fools: Boomer, STFU.
I am 100 % Certain these are Propaganda to Cause Old Ass People to Die and Free The Internets for Really Kip and Cool People, Beautiful People with Brazilian butt lift surgery overcome the effects of genetics by reshaping the buttocks and surrounding .
Haw Haw Haw ""You thought it was the most profound experiences of my life?"" LOL nope, it is Propaganda designed to Kill You, sorry to be blunt. If you think about it, you will see that I am correct.
Can you still Think for yourself?
Can My Thinking precede your wrongness which will lead you into Death Seeking?
Do not fall for Suicidal Secret Mind Tricks.
*"JEDI DEATH MIND GAMES"*
May the ballroom remain eternal.
Regardless of how many times this series has been discussed, I remain intrigued on all the opinions and studies that has comes into fruition.
My mom recently passed earlier this year and her battle with dementia was one of the hardest experiences I've had to witness. I still struggle to this day to believe she is gone as I miss her dearly. This series personally hits me hard as I cannot go in without tears falling immediately. Not for the fear it can cause or emotions it brings alone, but how closely each stage mirrored my moms life and the constant progress of symptoms until her passing. Every day was another song towards the end. And the haunting beauty of the ending perfectly represents her story coming to an end.
You did a phenomenal job of properly representing this series.
may the ballroom remain eternal
And Pad! This is the kind of dedicated and sincere work which elevate it’s creator to a new level. So congrats on Level Up my boy! I wish you the best!
Thank you so much my friend :) ! wishing you the best as well!
Stage one, for me personally, is about an old person looking back at the old days and remembering their youth. 'Burning memory', and other songs, having altered versions of themselves throughout the album represent the main character forgetting memories and grasping onto whatever piece of the memory they can find.
*After all, how can you forget when you don't have any memories to forget?*
Everywhere at the End of Time has helped me understand my father’s dementia. He’s currently in hospice right now and has weeks to live, but I’m at peace knowing that he’s at peace
On a lighter note, those stich art things are surprisingly fun. Like 1000 piece jigsaws or paint by numbers. Also thanks for making this, it's amazing someone put all this into music, which is not easy. Caretaker is very talented, hope he is still making stuff. Definitely an artist to keep an eye on
So happy to be part of something like this. Thank you so much for the opportunity!
My friend, thank you so much for stopping by! Can't even stress how much I've learned from you regarding the community, sample hunt, lesser known details about EATEOT, other Kirby works... was an honor working with you bud, keep up the amazing work over at the wiki! :)
Thank you for this opportunity, Pad. Truly this video was worth the wait. Absolutely a wonderful work
You are a perfect fit in this beautiful piece of art, amazing as always
thank you for being a part of it homie 🙏 much luv!
Hey bro what's up
Sorry I havnt been able to see your newer stuff. Been busy. I’m hoping to find time to catch up
Watching this after my grandfather passed away from Alzheimer’s this past June is bringing up lots of feelings and memories. A beautiful deep dive into an incredible piece of work. Thank you
My grandpa died of Alzheimer’s/dementia a month ago, the day after his 76th birthday. The last time I saw him alive was 2 years ago. He was a happy and boastful and proud New Jersey Irish man who loved his family. The last time I saw him alive was 2 years ago. He was still there but more quiet than usual and kinda off to the side in every conversation. My dad had told me about the forgetfulness he was experiencing but I never really saw it. A lot of the family was there with us so maybe he knew not to ask questions. If he’s at the dinner table with a lot of people, including children, then they must be family, right? Asking questions like, “Who are you?” would be concerning and would make people upset, especially kids. Maybe he knew, just for now, to go with the flow. That kind of thing.
After the trip though he got worse pretty fast. My dad and his brothers checked in on him pretty frequently (he lived in a different state than me). One month he forgot who my dad was, then the next month he forgot how to use the bathroom. He wandered around outside a lot mindlessly. He was an alcoholic and would walk to the bar way back when so I think it was something like muscle memory. You feel the need to walk somewhere but don’t know why. By this point his wife dragged him to New Orleans and for some reason picked their house in the real legit ghetto. A white old guy wandering around by himself in NO, I have no idea how he never got mugged or even killed.
Last weekend we had his memorial service with everything directed by his wife/my step-grandma. It was the most disrespectful day of my life. It was as if she had met him yesterday and had no idea who and what this man was and how he lived and everything. The whole day she never acknowledged his/my family at all. Grandpa had 5 sons including my dad and there was no pictures with his family anywhere. It wasn’t like she didn’t have them because she had all of his family pictures in envelopes and gave them to my dad and his brothers after the service. Every picture that was at the memorial service was of her and her family with him. Funny because they didn’t even like each other and were gonna divorce each other until they both got health problems.
The whole day was stuff like that. At the very least though, that night my family got dinner at a nice steakhouse with an empty seat at the table saved for grandpa and ordering for him a medium-rare New York strip steak with a bud lite. All his favorite, and with all of us getting pretty trashed as well. That’s what he would’ve wanted.
I mentioned Everywhere at the End of Time to one of my cousins while we were there. I’ve listened to this thing like 10 times and in a weird way helped me with dealing with his struggles while he was alive. I understood better what was happening to him because of it instead of it being fearful wondering or something like that. Watching your video was very refreshing and is getting me through this transitional period in my life. Thank you for your hard work. And idk why, I find “An Empty Bliss Beyond This World” more creepy than EatEoT.
bit-ghost's reaction to the vinyl literally gave me chills, not only because of the unbelievably beautiful music but because of the sheer joy and excitement of discovery. it's unbelievable that a single record could have become this important to so many people, it's fucking amazing.
You should do an essay about the nightmarish noise rock album "you won't get want you want" by daughters. It's my favorite album of all time. It's harsh and effect-ridden guitars, pounding drums, and industrial droning atmospheres serve as the perfect platform for Alexis Marshall's harrowing storytelling, lyrics, and vocal performances as it depicts the story of a man losing his mind as he becomes disillusioned with the manotany of his mundane life and eventually breaks and returns to the scene of something that he once feared
Replying so that I’ll remember this
@@edwardtheturtle1082 sure, it's my favorite album of all time. But beware, it's not for everyone
I discovered everywhere at the end of time a few days ago. I haven't had the will to go through the entire 6 hour long album, because of how haunting it sounds but I have been watching a few videos on the subject of the album, such as this one. Everywhere at the end of time for me is a very confusing experience. I myself suffer from ADHD and depression. Both of those can make it hard to remember things at times and with my ADHD it can often heighten my emotions and the speed of my thought process. Anxiety often goes along with depression, and it just makes me think about the future. My own issues already with forgetting things constantly just makes me worry that depending on the future, I may end up in a situation where EATOT reflects what I am or will become. It also kind of hurts me because of the kind of slow burn of the album. I recently lost my grandmother to cancer as well. She had it back since 2014. If she knew...she didn't tell anybody. She ended up dying to the sepsis from the cancer this year. 4:00 in the morning. I'm still... I would argue, in the denial stage. It still feels weird and unfathomable to know she's gone. I know she is... it, just feels unreal. While it's not the exact subject that this album is supposed to represent.. to me this album can also symbolize the breaking down of the body. This is just me. it just makes me think of all the pain that my grandma went through. I miss her.
my condolences
Who the hell gives this video a thumbs down??? Amazing documentary on this masterpiece. I look forward to repeated listenings of the album as well as this video. There's so much info to take in.
May the ballroom remain eternal. Thanks for this great introduction into a new artist for me
My pleasure! Enjoy the journey!
I absolutely love how you managed to turn every album cover into an animation. It makes everything look so real and I think it’s amazing. I especially love how you did Stage 3’s cover, and made it look… alive… like the plant it’s supposed to be. Amazing job
he didnt make it
I’m really glad you talked about NATMOS, its a work I like just as much, possibly more than EATEOT, especially its equivalent to Place In the World Fades Away: The Rest is Silence.
I'll edit this when I have watched it all but just know that I audibly cheered when I saw this. Congratulations on finishing this project!
Edit: It took a while (2hrs to be precise) but that was incredible. The analysis, the cameos and the fact that video was just so well paced really just demonstrates your talent in writing!
Thank you my friend!! Enjoy the video :)
There's a reason why I watch your channel, Pad and it's effort above all else.
Note that all my project are based around these musical gems you've introduced me to and I use as inspiration. Thank you for your contribution to my writing, my musical culture and overall to my writing!
Never cut your diverse musical palettes out of your life. Keep on searching, listening, sharing and inspiring. Much love
I never stayed til the very end to heard your grandmas voicemail before (Ive seen this video like around 3 or 4 times. but I’m glad I did this time around because even thought it broke me, it was so heartwarming
This was such a beautiful deep dive into EATEOT, may the ballroom remain eternal.
Thanks for watching!! :)
Fatherless?
@@t4aha.swhy don’t you enjoy the video, instead of making fun of someone because of a jellybean pfp
Pad this vid has absolutely incredible, I can’t wrap my head around how much time and effort you put into this, I was hooked throughout the whole thing, and may the ballroom remain forever eternal
my dude, thank ya so so much! :)
I started to cry at VIII: Stage Four. Amazing video. At this moment I'm thinking about calling my grandma but I can't stand to start shaking and crying and holding back tears knowing that her mind will get foggier and foggier with each month as they go on, quickly forgetting things and becoming irritable. It makes me sad. I'm not going to watch the rest of this video because of how sensitive the topic is for me, but this is a great video. Thank you for covering this amazing album.
I'm on chapter 6 and all I have to say is you're doing a really good job, going over everything. I've learned things I didn't know also the amount of times you've played my favorite track B2 An Autumnal Equinox made me so happy personally!
thank you so much for the kind words :) I really wanted this to be special and take my time with making it, so happy with how it came out!
May the ballroom remain eternal and may more souls find their peace with this beautiful project.
This is my 3rd time watching this video lol
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My grandfather had Parkinson's disease. As morbid as it is, I'm glad he passed. His condition was slow, yet rapid. It slowly took his motor functions over 10 years, reducing him from a proud, tall man of 86 years to a bedridden, gasping, suffering husk of what he once was. Even when the condition progressed, before he was bedridden, his memory was clear as day. Despite the fact that he had hallucinations due to Parkinson's, he could very accurately describe events in his life with little effort or help. When he went to stay at a hospital, his health took a massive decline, leaving him bedridden, gasping, silent, suffering as his organs shut down. The last thing he'd said before it left him dying was "I can't, Linda. I can't". He always was a tough man. Never heard or saw him cry in my youth, but when the disease progressed, I watched him cry 2 or 3 times. Once was when he said to me, "You kids shouldn't have to take care of me", another when he was crying out to my grandmother who wasn't there (she's alive, but COVID only let 2 people visit, those two being me and my sister). I still remember my grandmother breaking down when me and my dad went to break the news of his passing that morning. She saw me and smiled. She thought I came for a visit. Then, she saw my dad, and she just repeated" "No, no" as my dad went to comfort her. He passed November 12, 2021. The part I find funny or interesting is that he lasted through Veteran's Day, passing in his sleep early the next morning. He had served in Vietnam in his young adulthood. Rest in peace, Conley. I hope you're still waiting for me.
Thank you so, so much for this video. I was personally introduced to Caretaker by the algorithm around September 2020. This was around a month after my grandmother, at age 78, was diagnosed with dementia (never found out if it was alzheimers or a similar disease). It didn't make the disease any less sad - having your name forgotten by someone you've known your entire life is nothing short of heart-shattering - but it helped me sympathize with what she was going through, and made it a little bit easier. The first time I listened to Everywhere, I listened to it the entire way through. Since my grandmother was born in the years where these songs were popular, I was curious if she'd recognize the songs from EATEOT. The last time I saw her in person, she recognized Heartaches and Goodnight My Beautiful. She described A2 as "calming."
After COVID resurged, I didn't see her again. She died in May from a unrelated medical issue around late stage 2 to early stage 3. It's been a rough journey, but EATEOT - and by extension, the rest of Leyland's discography - were ways for me to get a semblance of what she was going through, and albums like Sadly, The Future Is No Longer What It Was helped me grieve. Not once in my life has music moved me as much as this album did, and not once in my life have I been entranced by an artist's discography more. This video is a love letter to everything Caretaker and Leyland Kirby related, and I can't express how happy I am to be able to finally watch this video. The wait was absolutely worth it. Thank you so much.
Here's some more video relevant titles:
Long Video Is Over
Place In The Algorithm Fades Away
The Video Ahead Feels Lonely
Hidden Sample Buried Deep
I like Place in the Algorithm Fades Away 😂
As someone who didn't spend nearly enough time with their grandparents before they were gone and still regrets it to this day, both the album as a whole and this video specifically hit pretty hard. Thank you for your work, and may the ballroom remain eternal.
My memories of this album revolve less around death and more around disconnection.
When I first heard about this project, it was last fall, and I wanted to listen to it while at the airport and on the plane to see my then-girlfriend. Listening to this record, as atmospheric as it is, in a big empty airport (a vaccine for COVID-19 had yet to be finished and people were still pretty nervous to be on flights and shit) was just an experience I'll never forget. Being high in the air or at a layover when stages 4-6 happen was just strange and jarring, I swear I almost missed my other flight.
After that album, I was interested as hell in the caretaker. I'd listened to "A Stairway to the Stars" the next time I'd visited said partner, and I remember we stayed up all night playing Stardew Valley with friends of ours on a discord call (yeah we're nerds), and I woke up at 4pm or some shit. Something about the lights turned out in this small studio apartment while the clouds outside darkened the early January sky, listening to "cloudy, since you went away" while doing the dishes as quietly as I could, not to wake her.
That's just one of many feelings and thoughts when I hear these projects. Those feelings stick with me always, but now they're just burning memories...
Amazing video, Pad. You've gained another subscriber today.
May the ballroom remain eternal.
After watching this so many times , it’s still my favorite video essay, describe, tells a story, gives examples, explains, invites parts of the community and gives opinion all in the same time! It’s just amazing
May the ballroom remain eternal. Thank you.
and thank you for watching!!
Pad, I just finished watching this absolute behemoth of a video, and I can safely say that this is video truly is perfect and your hard work has paid off exponentially. The writing, the editing and the audio are all just perfect. I can definitely see that you put the same amount of passion in this video as Kirby did with his music. One more thing, may the ballroom remain eternal.
OH MY GOD I CANT BELIEVE IM IN THIS VIDEO!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH PAD
I’m so proud of our community! Bravo, Pad. Love all of you folks!
ayyyy!!!! thank you my friend, cheers!
You too, you create great works!
May The Ballroom Remain Eternal...
My mother died of complications from dementia in 2022. I also had a beloved grandmother die from dementia decades before. After the dust settled last year I began an interesting journey into dementia. It was clinical, sterile research, until somehow Everywhere at the End of Time popped into my TH-cam feed. I'm forever changed from that point on.
I've listened to it 3 times to the end, each time discovering and feeling something different. The 3rd time, it took me by the hand and guided me alongside my mother on her lonely, frightening journey. She never made it to stage 6. She was a tough, spirited woman, raising 4 children, losing 2 young daughters early on. (Mom grew up in a period when Thalidomide was popular but the side effects still unknown. One daughter died at 7 years because of what Thalidomide did to her. The other died at 6 months from crib death.)
Someone in another thread summed it up beautifully when we lose someone to this disease: There's nothing more sad than mourning the loss of a loved one while they are still here.
I've always been a big fan of music from the 30's and 40's. EATEOT added a new facet to this music.
Thank you for this video.
Even after all these years, video still hits good and well, May the ballroom remain eternal, May the ballroom remain eternal. ❤
The only appropriate way to honor a six-and-a-half hour-long album, is by making an almost two-and-a-half hour video. Hats off to you, Pad. May the ballroom remain eternal.
I already know that this video is a masterpiece. Huge congratulations for creating this video :)
This honestly might be the best youtube video I’ve seen in a while. I’ve been in love with Kirby’s works ever since last summer and even though I’ve listened to many of his works (including this album) many times, I still find something new to appreciate each time. I dearly hope everyone who listens to EATEOT gives James’ other albums a chance.
Rest in Peace to your Nonna
May the Ballroom Remain Eternal…
Wow. This summary is almost as amazing as the original work itself...
Bloody well done...
This is a truly incredible video about such a beautiful project. It makes me quite sad seeing that the Sample Hunt segment is the least watched section, since it's incredibly informative to hear the gargantuan task of finding the origins of all the track samples. Everyone who worked on this video did such amazing work. May the ballroom remain eternal.
Researching the sample hunt and hearing stories from the many people behind the search was one of my favorite parts of making this video!! They were all amazing to work with and so dedicated. So much more has been discovered since this vid too!
May the ballroom indeed remain eternal.
I have to say, it's impressive how well put together and thought-out this video is. Great work, I hope this gets a lot of views, it deserves every single one of them!
Thank you very much! hoping the same, would love to see this make its rounds through TH-cam! fingers crossed
This may be one of my favorite videos on the internet, maybe ever. You left me with such a positive view of an album I was once terrified of. An album that I once felt would hurt me I now see as something that helps many deal with and understand a loss some would consider more painful than death. I could keep going on and on but in reality I just want to say, thank you Pad and thanks to Mr. Kirby. Indeed, may the ballroom remain eternal
*Remember:* never, *NEVER* call on this guy to read his summer vacation essay
lmfaoooooo we gon be here for a while
I discovered this album by accident on TH-cam not too long ago. I think when part 6 came out. I'm going through marital issues right now and this piece of art found me again...
May the ballroom remind eternal
Great job 👍
2 things I noticed in Stage 2’s album cover:
There seem to be the rough outline of a man and a woman on the sides.
The handles of the pot are decayed, perhaps representing how hard it is to hold onto a memory.
May the ballroom remain eternal.