I am truly grateful for all the love and support surrounding my decision. Seeing all your comments filled with kindness and so many of you sharing your own stories means the world to me. I'm doing my best to reply to as many of you as I can, even though it may take me a few weeks, but I just wanted to say a huge THANK YOU to everyone in this space. Your encouragement means the world! 🙏❤
As a mother of a 20 year old who watched your acceptance video years ago- I applaud you. Regardless of the path you choose, continue to shine your light bright- you are so right dear, life is just so fragile and when you feel the peace that comes with a bold decision such as this and you have strong family support- you will thrive- there is no doubt in my mind- you are a difference maker
Thank you so much for the continued support! It means so much to know that there are people out there who have been cheering me on since the beginnings of this channel. Best of luck to your 20 year old :)
Watched this three times to fully understand what you were trying to convey and how I could relate. My daughter was her high school's sole valedictorian, was entreated by and accepted to many high-end universities and also chose U of A, and is today residing in the Honor's Dorm. Your videos, and more to the point, you, were a significant part of the reason she chose that path. You were also gracious enough to respond to her with advice, and unbeknownst to me, I now find you inspired my other daughter who still goes to Highschool by responding to her in regards to attending an upcoming HOSA SLC event. The fact you respond to those you influence in such sincere details underscores your true intent as to why you take such great effort to create your videos. Simply said, you're a good person, a testament to those who raised you. The daughter now going to U of A, quite serious about her studies, was recently involved in a group project in which she did most, if not all, of the work. She was teased for her efforts and even insulted by the males in the group for her dedication to the project. She shared with me her emotional response. She was hurt, saying to her professor, "I thought I'd find more serious people when I came to college." My suggestion to my daughter and to you: distance yourself from the bitter and the potentially jealous. Flourish amongst respectful peers, people as serious as you who are optimistic, hopeful, who spread joy, and who pride themselves on the good they can bring to this world. Believe me, they're out there. They're just a little harder to find. And don't let anyone write you off as naïve. You're not. You're just better. Always know that wherever you go there will be people with problemed personalities seeking someone like you to blame, to vent upon and who get-off on your vulnerabilities. Stay strong. So you know, I totally agree with your decision, can relate to it personally, and believe you're on course to an even brighter future than you first imagined. Let nothing change the good that you are. Believe me, it's people like you who give those who wish to escape the unethical tentacles of those who feed on depravity... hope.
I am so sorry to hear that your daughter has experienced similar things at UA, I truly hope things can get better for her. Wishing your other daughter the best of luck in HOSA and so glad I was able to play a role in both of their lives in a small way, at my level. I am very grateful for your kind message and appreciate your words of wisdom. Your girls are lucky to have you as their mom! ❤️
This is such a wonderful comment. I hate the pervasive attitude today of nonchalant non-caring people who tear down those that do. I’m really concerned what will happen to the next generation.
You made the right and best decision. I can't imagine what you have had to endure and glad you were able to make it out of there with strong grades in your classes. You have a supporter here.
I applaud you for choosing you. At the age of 20, I was nowhere near as emotionally mature as you are. You are an incredibly bright, highly intelligent, beautiful young woman and the world is your oyster. I wish you all the very best on whichever path you choose to take next. Whatever field you select will be blessed to have you. Keep shining and block the negativity and naysayers. You’ve got this. 💛
This is so valid. I also initially went into undergrad as a pre-med, I felt ended up switching into computer science/ more engineering which was more tailored to my own interests. Life is a journey and I’m so proud of you. It’s not easy and you deserve to be happy and enjoying your life in & outside of academia:)
Hi Lydia, thank you for sharing your story. I just want to say you're so much more than medicine. When I first came to UA, believe it or not, you were one of the first students I interacted with. Your warmth and encouragement made me feel like I could succeed and thrive at the university. People like you are rare to find, and I am not talking about your scientific caliber or passion for medicine, but rather your love for seeing others succeed and being a positive beacon of energy. I am so sorry you didn't receive the same love and encouragement you give to others, but I’m happy that you were able to recognize your worth. Hopefully, your video can bring awareness to the toxic culture at UA and the pre-med community in general.
@kritikasingh8886 Thank you for sharing all of this. This really means a lot, considering the fact that you can relate to UA/premed toxicity firsthand. You are such a kind person, and I picked up on that right away when I met you. I have no doubt you're going to do amazing things and am so glad and humbled to hear that I had a positive impact somehow on your experience starting college :)
hey lyd- i just want to say I am so proud of you for being able to speak your truth. I am so sorry that fellow premeds were not able to honor you as you deserve, and the despicable things just go to say more about them rather than you. I am honored to have followed your journey since your senior year of high school (and my junior year of high school!) I know you'll go so far in the humanities or wherever you choose- as someone who is a STEM major and a humanities minor there are always so many new fields to look at aside from the sciences! I am so grateful I stumbled upon your channel a few years ago and i'm so excited to see where this channel will go and where your journey will lead you, Lyd!! you're such a motivation to me and I'll be cheering you on from here! a little update on me: got perfect scores on my french exams, got an A- on my lit essay, and i'm somehow doing well in college! no shows yet with the equestrian team but we finished 3rd overall so far for the fall season! recruitment is coming up for my sorority so I'm super excited to meet new PNMs! As always I send SO much love and many bisous and hugs, Lyd
So grateful for your continued support, Zyna. You've been such a positive influence and I always look forward to your comments and updates. Congrats on your equestrian team's outstanding performance and enjoy recruitment season!! 💐
Having a nurturing environment that also makes you mental stable is very important alongside the educational aspect. If you feel that any environment is unhealthy..you owe it to yourself to walk out and that is the most respectful thing you can do to yourself. I genuinely appreciate the courage you have built through all these experiences. I am rooting for you!
Wonderfully mature video. It’s crazy that a 17 year can be expected to know what they want to do for the rest of their lives at such an early age and I personally think these programs are a bad idea in general. Years ago, I wrote an essay in my high school newspaper detailing how I wanted to be a Biomedical Engineer when in fact I had no idea what it actually meant (I think I thought that the name sounded cool). College in general should be a time of exploration where you try to figure out next steps. I got my degree in chemistry and briefly thought about getting a PhD until my 3rd year of college when I realized that I didn’t want to be in a lab for the rest of my life. No offense to chemists, but I’m a people person and I realized then that I wanted to go into medicine. I was 22 when I started medical school and at the time the average age of my classmates was 26…. so fortunately I was surrounded by a much more mature group than you certainly have been (there was even a 52 year old grandmother in my class). Even then I had a few medical school classmates who I would never let touch me as a physician in the real world …. so realize that not everyone is likely to have the same level of commitment and dedication that you have shown the last 2 years. I would say it’s way too early to make decisions at the age of 20. Maybe put medicine on the back burner while exploring something else as you can always come back to it. You’re going to do great no matter what you do !!! I have a sixth sense about these things.
this video just came across my recommended page out of nowhere and im glad it did. i am so inspired by your insight and integrity. so many would choose to chase money or the perceived notion of success, and cause themselves moral injuries they will never be able to recover from in the process. to ignore your passions, emotions, and/or curiosity is to betray yourself, and im so glad you have chosen to save yourself from that pain. some of these comments are so unsympathetic or misunderstanding your points and i'm sorry to you for that. life is too short to be miserable. i am of the personal belief that there is nothing this world can offer you that is worth sacrificing your wellbeing/health (physical or mental). at the end of the day, you are living your life for YOU. you have proven you are capable time and time again, and you have now proven you are the expert on what is best for you, I hope you never doubt that. insight like this into your own life is so valuable. i am confident you will find your way, and I hope you are too. Whether it's medicine, another field of stem, humanities, art, or any other field you find, if it brings you fulfillment and contentment, you are in the right place. you will not run out of time to find the right place for you. i am wishing you all the best, thank you for sharing your story.
Lydia, when I first say saw your acceptance videos about a year ago I knew academically you would thrive, but I’m 20 years older than you and I worried about your innocence being torn in this world of medicine. I commend you for taking control of your life and not pushing through just to see if things would change for too long. Your an excellent student and I know you will crush any avenue you choose to pursue in life. For life is not linear and it would be nice to know why things work out the way they do after so much time, effort and energy put into something but the creator of all things is our guide and you are definitely in-tuned with your inner being. Keep listening to yourself and continue to say enough when it’s enough. From this video I’ve seen the growth and maturity in such a short time with what you allow us to see. You young people really motivate me to be better and to think more critically of myself to take risk and go after the desires of my heart. Don’t worry none of us know what we’re doing but all you can do is do your best. Keep going and thanks for sharing your story and life with us strangers. I hope you find your happiness and peace as you move forward. Sounds like your going to grad school lol 😂 curious to see what’s next. Blessings to you!
Your ability to make such a difficult decision and share your thoughts is so commendable! I respect the hell out of your decision and I'm looking forward to seeing what you come out with next!
The terrifying thing is that the people you described are going to become doctors. As a PA, in my training, I almost considered doctors to be superheroes. The pinnacle of what one would achieve in medicine. In reality, many physicians are selfish, cruel, power hungry, and money driven. At my current practice, my supervising doctor was truly the most narcissistic person I have ever known. She was a TERRIBLE doctor, and downright mean to everyone that she viewed as beneath her (which was everyone... lol). It took us 2 full years to gather enough evidence against her that we could fire her. It really is that hard to fire a doctor! There are some AMAZING doctors (and PAs, and nurses). But medicine really can be incredibly toxic. Good for you for seeking another path!
To be honest, medicine has gone downhill over time. I don’t think the current generation wants to be doctors. The most intelligent and talented individuals do something different. Greed and money is overtaking the profession. Patients are at risk. “Doctors” are unethical and self serving only. Terrible to use patients to line their own pockets. The future of medicine is dismal. Maybe that’s why there is always a shortage of medical professionals.
Lessons learned early can be such a gift. You are a bright person and unfortunately, ppl for whatever insecure reasons get jealous of your success. It is easier to be a target if you are active on social media but, you know what, you should live your life the way that makes you happy. It just sucks that people don’t know their boundaries. But in trying to please them, you should never abandon your personal success. Changing environments can be so helpful and an underrated method to treating a malignant situation. In this case, you made a fantastic decision. Taking your time to carefully decide your career cannot be stressed enough.
I definitely recognize that having a public presence on social media has made things tougher for me, but I continue for the students who are able to get some kind of value or inspiration out of my videos. Thank you for your wonderful comment and support!
@@BSMDLyd seeing independent success from social media, the freedom to be your own brand is liberating enough to warrant social media presence. Forget the people who are negative. Internally, they don’t have the creativity or drive to do this and so in turn try to create an artifical celining by discouraging all others from carving their own path in life. Plus, you can go to a far better medical school or another type of path if you so choose!
Oh Dear , I never comment but I'm genuinely saddened by this. Lydia I wish you true happiness as you have given us your followers. Thank you for taking us along for the ride.😔
I am so proud of Lydia! This is truly a blessing in disguise! I am excited for your next chapter and so glad that you will be taking us along with you on this ride!
Your acceptance video randomly popped up on my feed a few months ago even though I'm not at all in your demographic with my age or career. I was interested in your story because I'd never heard of the BSMD program. I was really impressed by your maturity in your decision making, specifically putting an emphasis on your scholarship opportunity and not wanting debt to guide your future choices. Even though things are working out a bit different than you might have imagined you have done very well for yourself. Getting a bachelor degree in 3 years, having no debt and from what it sounds like, you've been able to really chart your own path with class choices. Being debt free already gives you a huge advantage. I've watched other college decision videos and have found myself in disbelief at the number of people that don't even seem to give thought to the full ride scholarships they get at good schools (or even their state school) and will choose the Ivy League and the debt. I wonder in 10 years if that will seem worth it.
So sorry u had to go through this . I have followed u since ur college acceptance. U have strong work ethics and a smart kid. U don’t need this program to succeed. So happy u took a stand against toxicity.. Goodluck to u ! I am sure u ll excel !!
Hey Lyd, you were an inspiration to me regarding college. I am not interested in becoming a doctor but your work ethic, studying habits, and routines have helped me tremendous as a college freshman. I am sad to hear you will be taking a pause on your medical journey, you would have been a fantastic doctor, a true kind heart, intelligent, bright. Hope things go well for you in the future.
Thank you so much, Amy. I didn't have anyone to look up to when I started college, so my whole goal was to inspire and support the next generation of students and show them it could be done. I'm so glad you've gotten that in a sense from my videos and I plan on continuing to post studying-related content :) Thank you for the feedback and hope college is going well for you!
Lydia I've been watching you since your original college admissions decisions video. I also happen to be an Academic Advisor/Counselor at a large university similar to U of Arizona. I am sorry that you have experienced what you have so far. I work very closely with college students and I can confidently say that you are much too mature for them at this stage haha. Even though you all are technically adults, there is still so much maturing that needs to happen. You have also always seemed so confident and sure of your path. The average college student can definitely feel threatened by that. I hope that whichever path you choose brings you nothing but peace and happiness!!
As a parent of a high schooler who shares the same dream of becoming a doctor one day, I have been following your channel for over a year and have often used your successful experiences to guide and encourage my daughter. Your recent decision was unexpected, and I know it must not have been an easy one. However, I am truly amazed by your courage in following what feels right to your heart. Your decisiveness and maturity at just 20 years old are incredibly impressive! Thank you for sharing your journey and honest reflections; they are truly inspiring. Wishing you all the best in your new endeavor! I look forward to seeing your updates here in TH-cam.
Thank you so much! Glad I could play a part in your high schooler’s journey. Don’t hesitate to email if you guys have any application related questions, I’m sure they’ll be a fantastic doctor someday!
This is what my daughter is facing in her high school for being a valadectorian. But ther is no choice for us. She has to finish one more year. You have been an inspiration to my daughter. As a mom, I support your decision and do whatever makes you happy. All the very best❤
Congratulations to your daughter on this incredible achievement! 🎉 I was also the valedictorian of my high school and faced similar exclusion and bullying, but never to the extent that I encountered in college. I hope she can be surrounded by kind people in her future who will support and uplift her. Wishing her the best ❤️
Congratulations on taking your life into your own hands, and steeling it in a direction that more closely aligns with your values and wishes! Your decision was brave and your strength admirable. I’ve experienced a similar situation while studying to enter nursing school. The number of people who are going into medicine whose behavior disgusts and alarms me is unsettling. You are young, intelligent, driven, and kind. You will be wonderful at whatever you choose to do next. Good luck!
Wow you’re incredibly brave, so well spoken and so inspiring. Your message resonates me so much as I figure out what I want to do in the future & can I also just say how heard I felt as a student at the UofA as well, finding the social atmosphere toxic too. Thank you thank you thank you for this! Looking forward to see where life takes you! :)
Lydia I’ve followed your journey from your acceptance reaction video and I wish you the very best. You’re so smart and give off very kind vibes, I hope everything gets better for you. It takes real strength to be able to remove yourself from a situation you’d thought was best for you for a very long time but this is the first step that will open up so many doors for you. So many opportunities and experiences await you, there’s something so empowering about knowing your future is in your hands ⭐️
Congratulations for having so much perspective as such a young age, holding for a long time while you were having doubts and eventually following your instincts and trusting the future! With your rigor and motivation and positivity, I am sure you will be successful any path you choose!
Lydia, right on for listening within and being deeply honest with yourself. Your commitment to honesty has been one of the consistent themes I’ve seen throughout your story - it says so much about your character. Seriously 👏🏼👏🏼. Keep honoring your inner wisdom. You’re on the right track. Hope you keep sharing your story!!
I understand what you’re saying and I wish you well. I worked in U.S. healthcare for 20 years in multiple hospitals across the U.S. (I’m an occupational therapist.) There are some great people in healthcare but it can also be kinda cold, competitive, and nasty. I’ve seen what you’ve experienced and a lot of people go through the demanding training only to leave later in life because they can’t take it anymore. It’s definitely not the warm and fuzzy place people think it is. You seem like a great person who’s on top of things. All the best to you.
This BSMD journey really touched me in a way that made me aspire to be like you. Your journey to medical school kept me up longer than I'd like to admit and I've watched your decisions reactions video at least 10 times at this point. Thank you for making me dream while finding what I truly loved and I will continue and hope to be on this same track you were on but create a different environment from the one that you unfortunately had to go through. I wish you all the best of luck for your mental health and hope you find what truly inspires you as you finish up your Bachelors. I'll be on the channel every step of the way!!
THIS is what the world needs! People to go out and create healthier and more inclusive environments in their educational settings, workplace, and beyond. I’m so touched to hear that my videos inspired you and wish you the very best as you navigate your own journey! 💐
I’m so proud of you for sharing this and making that difficult decision! So happy that you’re doing what’s right for you!! I’ve loved following your journey and your videos and zumba classes have always given me so much motivation and joy. Can’t wait to see what’s next for you girl! :)
I am sorry to hear one of Americas best has chosen to walk away. I understand you guys don't like being beaten up on both mentally and physically but I welcome the challenge. I am happy that you are going into a field that you will love. God Luck and Gods speed.
You are so switched on and sound like you have a very supportive family, which is fantastic. It's hard when things don't work out the way you planned, but I'm sure you will find where you fit! I hope you can relax a little now and enjoy being a twenty year old uni student without the toxic environment.
Its interesting that many young ppl are witness unexpected deaths and illness among their peer group. This was a very rare thing and is now becoming very common. I commend this young women on her corage to follow her unique path. I believe the medical institutions are bot promoting true golistic health and many young ppl are atarting to wake up to this.
There are so many awful comments, and it's disheartening to see you go. I love your content, but I understand this isn’t about us-it’s about you. It’s incredible how much of an impact one’s environment and peers can have, especially when most people focus solely on the academic side. Your response was eloquent and well-spoken. I’m still processing everything you shared, and I can’t imagine what you've been going through. I’m glad you prioritized your well-being and didn’t let negativity push you to a breaking point. Wishing you all the best, Lydia.❤
Thank you so much, I truly appreciate your kindness here. I saw you supporting me in another thread and the original poster must have deleted it but I wanted to thank you for your kindness and depth ❤️
Wow, Lydia…I am so proud of you for doing what is best for you. I am sorry your college experience wasn’t the best it could be. I just spent my weekend with my ASU band alums honoring one of the best college professors I ever had who passed away this summer-he was loved by all of us, and, boy, did he love us all like his own family. I sometimes don’t realize how lucky I was to have such a supportive network throughout college. I am sure you will find your passion and everything will work out exactly as it is meant to be. ❤
As a last year med student myself, I fully understand what you went through. I also loved humanities but completely cut them off my life to focus on medicine and science, always choosing the most difficult and energy-consuming path for myself. As if I was only able to think of myself as "worthy" only if I was doing hundreds of hard things at the same time. It's extremely healthy that you were able to figure this out at such a young age, always put your wellbeing first and best of luck for whatever comes next!
Hey Lydia. I have always felt a lot of joy and support every minute in your zumba classes. I am sorry to hear what a struggle it has been in the program. You are an accomplished and motivated person, and I have no doubt that you will shine in no matter what career path you choose. All the very best for the future. I will miss you.
I and many others look up to you and I want to thank you for sharing this message that so many of us need to hear. I am wishing you happiness in your future.
You are so young and have many fulfilling years ahead of you to aspire to be everything you want to be in whatever field you choose and I'm sorry that you encountered so many toxic people. As an older female I have come to learn to trust my inner instinct which has led me away from several unhealthy situations and people and I don't regret it for one second. What I found hard to learn is that what other people think doesn't matter and now I have the mantra that if they don't align with my values, feelings and ethics then they don't deserve an ounce of my consideration or my big heart. Go out there and be bold, forge ahead and above all else remember that you are unique and you are enough and with hard work and perseverance you will realize your dreams and find the "people" who were meant to be in your life for all the right reasons. Best of luck to you young lady.
Humans are highly capable of understanding their environments and sensing when things are off. What is unfortunate is that society has silenced our ability to tune-in to that "gut feeling", something that has been pivotal for survival since the dawn of time. When I look back, I can recall very specific instances where my gut was definitely signaling that this was the wrong place for me, but that I ignored these signs and passed it off as anxiety or a lack of resilience. Thanks for sharing your mantra, trusting your inner instincts is an essential part of life and I definitely resonate with your statement about values and ethics. I appreciate your well wishes! All the best to you as well.
Way to follow your heart Lydia! I really don’t comment on videos but just wanted to encourage you in your exploration! I always thought medicine was for me but in undergrad I didn’t take a single prerequisite course because I thought I wasn’t smart enough. I went on to open my own brick and mortar photography studio right after graduation and had a successful business for 11 years. I couldn’t shake the desire to be on medicine and just started medical school at the age of 33. That all to say there is always time to explore and chase dreams. And if you decide to come back to medical school at some point it will always be there as an option!
WOW! What a neat journey! How's med school going for you so far? You have such a unique background and I am sure that will help you when it comes to creating relationships and establishing rapport with your patients. Thank you for sharing your story 🙏
It has been mostly good. It is very challenging academically but we all know that. The hardest part I think is that there is a lot of toxic things that happen in medical education. I hope to someday have a positive impact to make it a better for experience for students across the board.
I'm sorry to hear about what you had to go through. You're an amazingly intelligent and ambitious person, and the fact that you were able to put up with these struggles for so long is truly remarkable. There's no doubt that you're going to be an amazing doctor that any medical setting would be lucky to have. Those "friends" at UofA who were just trying to use you will realize what a mistake they made seeing you as nothing more than a tool for their plans when you're leagues ahead of them one day.
That's just how human beings are. It's not abnormal for people to try to gain things from social interactions, it's literally just basic human psychology. Do you think they came to school to make friends or something? It's almost like you're suggesting they should have been doing something else, instead of trying to reach their goals. Which just seems backwards & illogical. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rational_choice_model#Rational_choice_theory_in_social_interactions supporting evidence to my claim
You most likely just need a good break and to live life outside of medicine until you are called back and when your heart tells you to return Find peace within alternate encouraging environments ✨🙌🏼👍🏼
Hey Lyd I just wanted to say that following your gut and intuition is the best thing you can do for yourself, don't put so much pressure on finding out what you want to do in life! Let it come to you through being curious:) I had no idea what I wanted to do when I was your age (didn't even care for college) and then suddenly out of nowhere at 24 I started my pre vet journey! Follow your heart and do things to please yourself❤ I can't wait to see you grow!! And since you're still in school I would love to see your study techniques, your work ethic is insane!! I love it. I'm wishing you peace happiness and clarity girl!! You got this
I love reading about everyone's non-traditional paths to their careers, this is so inspiring!! It seems like we are shifting away from the rhetoric that people need to go into med or vet or career straight out of college and society is starting to value people who took the time to explore and figure out life more. Wishing you the very best and I will definitely continue to post videos regarding my study techniques, thank you for the suggestion ❤
lydiaaaa I LOVE YOUR TH-cam VIDEOS and i think so highly of you. your setting a fantastic example by prioritizing YOURSELF. keep making youtube videos!!!!!!
As someone in med school in my 30s, you can always find your path back to medicine if that is the right fit for you. From watching your video I think you'd be a natural in the psychology (phD) or psychiatry (MD/DO) realm. The culture of mental health counseling is also great, and you can do something along the lines of LCHW to phD or even psyD. I recommend checking out psyD as a possible career path as well. Best of luck, try to enjoy this time as much as you can. Hope you find a more supportive environment 💕
Thank you for sharing your story! It’s incredibly brave and inspiring to hear your perspective and I am glad you are prioritizing your wellbeing above all else. Thank you for being who you are and I wish you the best in the future!
Your transparency is commendable and courageous. Medicine is full of people who don’t dare stray from the quota and do their own thing. Others want to copy from others, others want to put down others who they feel like are doing better than them, and others don’t develop a true identity of their own and formulate their own beliefs. When I was in college, I resonated with some of what you have said about others being mean and jealous just because you are flourishing. I can 100% agree that at times I was jealous of others however my response was to focus on the work that they were doing not put them down. If they were doing well and had a 4.0 it’s bc they were putting in the work, so that gave me determination to put in the work. It’s like they just inspired me to do better. Why do people not see it that way and instead are malicious towards you. I would even literally help people so much when they weee struggling. I didn’t mind helping.
Reaching the end of medical school, and happy… but still see much of what you describe. Your decision seems very well thought out and congratulations on the new way forward.
Good luck to you. It is clear you're very intellectual and mature for some one only twenty. This is the perfect time to explore who you are and find what's sets your heart and mind on fire. You may decide to come back to medicine if that is your thing or you may not seeking more in the arena of the humanities whatever you choose I wish you success and prosperity and happiness and community.
Good for you, Lydia! I am so proud of you. This must have been such a tough decision, and there will be many times in your life when you think you made the wrong decision. But I assure you that there will be more times when you will think you made the right decision. Trust me. I'm 49. As long as you love what you do and keep a positive attitude, you'll do great!!
I’m proud of you for taking this step! This is most definitely a hard decision, and at the end of the day you have to do what’s best for you. I am sorry about the things you had to endure while at the University, and I hope that wherever life takes you, you are treated in the best possible way. Best of luck to you!!
Hi Lydia, Thank you for sharing so much about what’s been going on and your thoughts on everything. I’m really sorry for the dark sides you’ve had to experience and witness, but I also deeply admire your courage in making decisions and your thoughtful reflection on life and its meaning. I’m genuinely happy for you as you step into this new chapter of your life, and I can’t wait to see what your next journey holds!
Hi Guo, thank you- I appreciate your kindness. Excited for all the great things you're getting to experience while you're in AZ! Hope all is well for you.
I am so happy for you. You have to do what is best for you and your mental wellbeing. Follow the passion that lies deep within your heart and always be true to yourself and the decision that you have made. You are beautiful, profoundly intelligent, and blessed. Continue moving forward. Can’t wait to see what you do next. Your biggest cheerleader. God’s continual blessings upon you and your precious and beautiful blessed life. You’re in my prayers❤️
I came into my program as a premed and soon realized that the program from my school never treated students as students but as numbers. Students are often pitched against each other rather than encouraged to improve together. Long story short, I am no longer premed and I am in a field that I love so much and enjoy so good for you for realizing this early!
Lydia, I am so sorry to hear how you were treated. While not in the same boat, I had a similar experience in giving up my guaranteed seat in a highly competitive and sought-after program. This was two years ago and I am now graduating next semester. Even now, as I thought I had figured myself out, I am still learning so much more through my mentors, and just as they have encouraged me I want to encourage you - hold onto that life-long desire to learn. Do not let anyone try to stop you. I would have never been in the seat I am in now had I not followed my instincts and gone to where I was more comfortable and happier. I guarantee that as long as you let your passion fuel you - you will end up wherever is perfect for you.
Loved reading this. I'm so happy to hear you're in a place now that is comfortable and happy for you yet still encourages constant growth. Thank you for sharing your story!!
When I was in college 31 years ago, my best friend and roommate suddenly died. At the time I was pursuing a triple major, but that crushed me. Like you, I tried to push through by sheer force of will … until I couldn’t. I, too, took real actions to leave, but my family and professors intervened to reduce my course load and even designed a research class for the next semester that would allow me to focus on what I loved most. From experience, I can tell you that at the time I saw no other option until those around me acknowledged my suffering and provided an environment of healing. Many in the comments will be quick to agree and support whatever you decide. In my experience, having other viewpoints made out of kindness was invaluable. From what you have shared with us, you’ve been enthralled with medicine since you were very small - you’ve had this passion your whole life. I truly hope you have sought out help from professors you respect and admire. Perhaps they know of options you haven’t imagined. I am truly hoping you heal and take the best path forward.
This is an awesome video! You are so wise beyond your years, sad to hear the environment was so toxic. I wish you all the best and can't wait for another video when you are ready !!
No judgment here. You must do what you think is best. No one can live your life but you. And after watching this video I know for certain that you will succeed in whichever path that you choose to take
Hey Lydia, I've been watching your videos for a long time and I wanted to thank you for posting this even though it was hard. You inspire me and everyone watching, and I'm so glad you still plan on sharing your journey with us. Thank you for doing what's best for you and reminding me to do the same.
Hi Lyd, I applaud you for your courage and I wish you an awesome and fulfilling life :) I made the same decision to drop out of a BA/MD program in a top 25 school when I was 21, and I met with a mentor who made the same decision as myself a decade ago from the same school that the program director connected me with. The key is staying true to who you are: "He who loses wealth loses much; he who loses a friend loses more; but he that loses his courage loses all." - Miguel de Cervantes. I want to share with you that if you live by this courage and live a life true to yourself, it is incomparably better than the alternative. I also want to share with you that as you live, this will not be the first nor the last time you will be called upon to stand up for yourself and use this courage. You have to make a conscious decision to stay true to yourself and live by this courage every single day for the rest of your life - which is not easy, but it is much more worthwhile than the alternative of losing your courage and losing all. :)
Wow! So shocked but 100% behind you! What a brave and mature decision! Hope you don’t stop making videos, excited to see where life takes you with it without medicine. ❤️
I was very overwhelmed with toxicity during medical school. From faculty and preceptors, I honestly hated life and was extremely miserable. But its just a TRANSIENT season in your life, you'll one day blink and before you know it youre a physician. Honestly, if I were you I would not give up on medicine. I only had a high school degree when I was 26 years old, but now i'm a physician. You have PLENTY of time. It is absolutely in the realm of possibility to become a physician (certainly with your grades). It feels like yesterday when I was facing all that damn toxicity and wanting to quit, but its over now and in hindsight it all goes by so quickly and am so glad I continued through. There are many fulfilling careers outside of medicine and only you know what's right for you, but its just a shame that the toxic culture forces out so many hard working students. Note, if you do end up applying to medical school, delete this video. Medical school Admission committees are petty and will take offense
im glad you were able to find happiness in an environment that is so degrading and overwhelming, but this is not the case for everyone, nor should it be. it was your choice to make an immense sacrifice of your time and happiness in the hopes of finding fullfillment at the end of the long, winding road, but this was your luck, and many others are not so lucky. for quite a few, the road only gets more narrow and suffocating. this was the choice you made for YOURSELF, and im happy it worked out for you, but just because it did, doesnt mean it will for everyone. by telling someone to keep pushing forward despite being pressed up against what seems to be an immovable object means you are potentially damning them to a life of regret and agony. you found the right place for you, and once again, im happy for you. but your right place is not the right place for everyone. saying things will get better for her because they got better for YOU is very self centered. she has clearly done a monumental amount of soul searching and questioning her path, and she made her choice and chose a better one for herself. unlike you, im not going to say what I think she should or shouldnt do, or what I would do if I was her, because i'm not and it doesnt matter what I would do. its her life and her choice.
As you already know, all your current education will go toward 1,000 000 other interests and careers you will have in your life. No time wasted. Have fun in your future!
Thank you for listening to yourself. ❤ Best wishes with your journey. I hope you will do great things. I have been HURT by doctors more times than I have been helped. This is sad.
I am so sorry to read this. I’m hoping that the next generation of physicians will do better, hopefully the people I was surrounded by only represent a small handful of future doctors. Thank you for your support ❤️
Im so happy for you Lydia and thank you for sharing this update with us. I would have never expected this since your life looks so perfect, but thank you for educating us about the dark sides of the medical industry. I work in vet med and it's absolutely the same and I wish I had your courage to step away from a career I love. It's so unfortunate that medical industries are so toxic even though we're supposed to be taking care of others. I hope you find happiness pursuing your other career paths and I can't wait to see where life takes you.
Thank you so much for your constant support on this channel. I’m sorry to hear you experience similar things in the vet world, but I know that your patients and their families are lucky to have a provider as caring as you! 🐾
Thank you for sharing your story and experience. I decided to walk away from medicine recently as I was never all in with it. As much as I'd love to help people with their health, it's not where I can most effectively help people. I've decided to pursue a joint bachelor of education and social work instead. I think my skills are better suited in those fields.
There was a part of me when I wanted to quit medicine back in 2019. I’m always crying whilst studying. But I keep pushing and trying. Everyday I question myself why I entered. Everyday I question myself why I had to go through this when I can work as a pharmacist somewhere. I became unhappy. I saw my classmates during my undergrad already earning and traveling the world- Living their best life; Marrying the love of their life; Building family. I deactivated my social medias for a year because I’ve been comparing my life with theirs. I continued medical school, hoping and praying everyday that my efforts will come into fruition. During 1 year internship, I became so exhausted and overwhelmed.. the toxicity in the medical world is difficult to bear, but here I am, I recently passed the physician licensure exam. I’m now applying for internal medicine residency. Indeed, there’s more to life than working tirelessly and the life-long learning that comes with medicine. I wish you success in your future endeavors! I know you’ll do great! 🌷✨💖
To this I would say congratulations. Myself and a newly found friend, were in the same place as you until last spring semester. We had found ourselves surrounded by angry or envious people who didn’t seem to have a true passion for medicine. You are not along to some degree, keep your head up.
Lydia, I am the mother of a 21 year old college senior and a 19 year old sophomore. I have been following you since your acceptance and I’m as proud of you for choosing yourself first and making this decision. As I tell our kids, sometimes change is the answer and you should always, always be true to the part of you that’s curious about a big change. I could not think of a better example of maturity and resiliance than you. I can’t wait to see what lies ahead for you, and so very glad you are chosing yourself. I also commend you for recognizing that a toxic environment is not a condition of growth, and that life is too short to live in a world of hurt. Fly high, shine bright and I look forward to cheering you on no matter where the journey leads. Love and luck to you, beautful
I completely agree with your thoughts about the university and Tucson overall-that's why I'm finishing my final two semesters online. I'm on the traditional path and an older student, so I can relate to what you're saying about the people; I've noticed it as well. I'm moving to Washington state to focus on living life fully while staying committed to finishing these last two semesters strong with the goal of getting into medical school. You made the right choice, and I wish you all the best. Take care. 😊
Obviously this was not an easy decision. Lots of jealous losers out there unfortunately. I do not think medical school has changed much since I’ve attended. There was a well demarcated hierarchy in medicine and the superiors let you know. Borders on bullying. Again, I doubt it’s changed much at all. You seem very qualified and should be accepted into another med school no problem.
I have a few friends going through residency right now and this seems to be a common experience. I’m sorry you endured this and hope things have turned around for you since then. Thank you for the kind comment 🫶
Lydia, we're here for you. I'm sure all of us are here because we admire you- not just academically, but as a person! I am so in awe of your clarity and I'm excited to see you make strides in this world
I am truly grateful for all the love and support surrounding my decision. Seeing all your comments filled with kindness and so many of you sharing your own stories means the world to me. I'm doing my best to reply to as many of you as I can, even though it may take me a few weeks, but I just wanted to say a huge THANK YOU to everyone in this space. Your encouragement means the world! 🙏❤
As a mother of a 20 year old who watched your acceptance video years ago- I applaud you. Regardless of the path you choose, continue to shine your light bright- you are so right dear, life is just so fragile and when you feel the peace that comes with a bold decision such as this and you have strong family support- you will thrive- there is no doubt in my mind- you are a difference maker
Thank you so much for the continued support! It means so much to know that there are people out there who have been cheering me on since the beginnings of this channel. Best of luck to your 20 year old :)
Watched this three times to fully understand what you were trying to convey and how I could relate. My daughter was her high school's sole valedictorian, was entreated by and accepted to many high-end universities and also chose U of A, and is today residing in the Honor's Dorm. Your videos, and more to the point, you, were a significant part of the reason she chose that path. You were also gracious enough to respond to her with advice, and unbeknownst to me, I now find you inspired my other daughter who still goes to Highschool by responding to her in regards to attending an upcoming HOSA SLC event. The fact you respond to those you influence in such sincere details underscores your true intent as to why you take such great effort to create your videos. Simply said, you're a good person, a testament to those who raised you. The daughter now going to U of A, quite serious about her studies, was recently involved in a group project in which she did most, if not all, of the work. She was teased for her efforts and even insulted by the males in the group for her dedication to the project. She shared with me her emotional response. She was hurt, saying to her professor, "I thought I'd find more serious people when I came to college." My suggestion to my daughter and to you: distance yourself from the bitter and the potentially jealous. Flourish amongst respectful peers, people as serious as you who are optimistic, hopeful, who spread joy, and who pride themselves on the good they can bring to this world. Believe me, they're out there. They're just a little harder to find. And don't let anyone write you off as naïve. You're not. You're just better. Always know that wherever you go there will be people with problemed personalities seeking someone like you to blame, to vent upon and who get-off on your vulnerabilities. Stay strong. So you know, I totally agree with your decision, can relate to it personally, and believe you're on course to an even brighter future than you first imagined. Let nothing change the good that you are. Believe me, it's people like you who give those who wish to escape the unethical tentacles of those who feed on depravity... hope.
I am so sorry to hear that your daughter has experienced similar things at UA, I truly hope things can get better for her. Wishing your other daughter the best of luck in HOSA and so glad I was able to play a role in both of their lives in a small way, at my level. I am very grateful for your kind message and appreciate your words of wisdom. Your girls are lucky to have you as their mom! ❤️
This is such a wonderful comment. I hate the pervasive attitude today of nonchalant non-caring people who tear down those that do. I’m really concerned what will happen to the next generation.
Wow this is unexpected but so brave of you to share!! Someone will watch this who is going through the same thing, and will find hope in you.
That’s the hope 🙏 thank you so much!
@@BSMDLyd Giving a up is so brave. you are on your way to homelessness on a fast track
You made the right and best decision. I can't imagine what you have had to endure and glad you were able to make it out of there with strong grades in your classes. You have a supporter here.
I applaud you for choosing you. At the age of 20, I was nowhere near as emotionally mature as you are. You are an incredibly bright, highly intelligent, beautiful young woman and the world is your oyster. I wish you all the very best on whichever path you choose to take next. Whatever field you select will be blessed to have you. Keep shining and block the negativity and naysayers. You’ve got this. 💛
This is so valid. I also initially went into undergrad as a pre-med, I felt ended up switching into computer science/ more engineering which was more tailored to my own interests. Life is a journey and I’m so proud of you. It’s not easy and you deserve to be happy and enjoying your life in & outside of academia:)
another failure XD please go back the kitchen
I'm so glad you found a major that appealed to you and your interests! Proud of you too!!
Hi Lydia, thank you for sharing your story. I just want to say you're so much more than medicine. When I first came to UA, believe it or not, you were one of the first students I interacted with. Your warmth and encouragement made me feel like I could succeed and thrive at the university. People like you are rare to find, and I am not talking about your scientific caliber or passion for medicine, but rather your love for seeing others succeed and being a positive beacon of energy. I am so sorry you didn't receive the same love and encouragement you give to others, but I’m happy that you were able to recognize your worth. Hopefully, your video can bring awareness to the toxic culture at UA and the pre-med community in general.
the clueless coming to the aid of the mediocre
@kritikasingh8886 Thank you for sharing all of this. This really means a lot, considering the fact that you can relate to UA/premed toxicity firsthand. You are such a kind person, and I picked up on that right away when I met you. I have no doubt you're going to do amazing things and am so glad and humbled to hear that I had a positive impact somehow on your experience starting college :)
I NEVER EVER EXPECTED THIS WATCHING YOUR WHOLE JORUNEY BUT YOU ARE SO TALENTED AND CAPABLE I KNOW WHEREVER LIFE TAKES U U WILL SOAR
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hey lyd- i just want to say I am so proud of you for being able to speak your truth. I am so sorry that fellow premeds were not able to honor you as you deserve, and the despicable things just go to say more about them rather than you. I am honored to have followed your journey since your senior year of high school (and my junior year of high school!) I know you'll go so far in the humanities or wherever you choose- as someone who is a STEM major and a humanities minor there are always so many new fields to look at aside from the sciences! I am so grateful I stumbled upon your channel a few years ago and i'm so excited to see where this channel will go and where your journey will lead you, Lyd!! you're such a motivation to me and I'll be cheering you on from here! a little update on me: got perfect scores on my french exams, got an A- on my lit essay, and i'm somehow doing well in college! no shows yet with the equestrian team but we finished 3rd overall so far for the fall season! recruitment is coming up for my sorority so I'm super excited to meet new PNMs! As always I send SO much love and many bisous and hugs, Lyd
So grateful for your continued support, Zyna. You've been such a positive influence and I always look forward to your comments and updates. Congrats on your equestrian team's outstanding performance and enjoy recruitment season!! 💐
Having a nurturing environment that also makes you mental stable is very important alongside the educational aspect. If you feel that any environment is unhealthy..you owe it to yourself to walk out and that is the most respectful thing you can do to yourself. I genuinely appreciate the courage you have built through all these experiences. I am rooting for you!
Thanks for the support! Yes a supportive environment is critical in any field but especially in studies as difficult as medicine!
I never thought I'd see the day you leave. I'm happy you're making the right decisions for yourself, Lyd. Stay strong
Wonderfully mature video. It’s crazy that a 17 year can be expected to know what they want to do for the rest of their lives at such an early age and I personally think these programs are a bad idea in general. Years ago, I wrote an essay in my high school newspaper detailing how I wanted to be a Biomedical Engineer when in fact I had no idea what it actually meant (I think I thought that the name sounded cool). College in general should be a time of exploration where you try to figure out next steps. I got my degree in chemistry and briefly thought about getting a PhD until my 3rd year of college when I realized that I didn’t want to be in a lab for the rest of my life. No offense to chemists, but I’m a people person and I realized then that I wanted to go into medicine. I was 22 when I started medical school and at the time the average age of my classmates was 26…. so fortunately I was surrounded by a much more mature group than you certainly have been (there was even a 52 year old grandmother in my class). Even then I had a few medical school classmates who I would never let touch me as a physician in the real world …. so realize that not everyone is likely to have the same level of commitment and dedication that you have shown the last 2 years. I would say it’s way too early to make decisions at the age of 20. Maybe put medicine on the back burner while exploring something else as you can always come back to it. You’re going to do great no matter what you do !!! I have a sixth sense about these things.
this video just came across my recommended page out of nowhere and im glad it did. i am so inspired by your insight and integrity. so many would choose to chase money or the perceived notion of success, and cause themselves moral injuries they will never be able to recover from in the process. to ignore your passions, emotions, and/or curiosity is to betray yourself, and im so glad you have chosen to save yourself from that pain.
some of these comments are so unsympathetic or misunderstanding your points and i'm sorry to you for that. life is too short to be miserable. i am of the personal belief that there is nothing this world can offer you that is worth sacrificing your wellbeing/health (physical or mental). at the end of the day, you are living your life for YOU. you have proven you are capable time and time again, and you have now proven you are the expert on what is best for you, I hope you never doubt that. insight like this into your own life is so valuable. i am confident you will find your way, and I hope you are too.
Whether it's medicine, another field of stem, humanities, art, or any other field you find, if it brings you fulfillment and contentment, you are in the right place. you will not run out of time to find the right place for you. i am wishing you all the best, thank you for sharing your story.
Lydia, when I first say saw your acceptance videos about a year ago I knew academically you would thrive, but I’m 20 years older than you and I worried about your innocence being torn in this world of medicine. I commend you for taking control of your life and not pushing through just to see if things would change for too long. Your an excellent student and I know you will crush any avenue you choose to pursue in life. For life is not linear and it would be nice to know why things work out the way they do after so much time, effort and energy put into something but the creator of all things is our guide and you are definitely in-tuned with your inner being. Keep listening to yourself and continue to say enough when it’s enough. From this video I’ve seen the growth and maturity in such a short time with what you allow us to see. You young people really motivate me to be better and to think more critically of myself to take risk and go after the desires of my heart. Don’t worry none of us know what we’re doing but all you can do is do your best. Keep going and thanks for sharing your story and life with us strangers. I hope you find your happiness and peace as you move forward. Sounds like your going to grad school lol 😂 curious to see what’s next. Blessings to you!
Your ability to make such a difficult decision and share your thoughts is so commendable! I respect the hell out of your decision and I'm looking forward to seeing what you come out with next!
The terrifying thing is that the people you described are going to become doctors. As a PA, in my training, I almost considered doctors to be superheroes. The pinnacle of what one would achieve in medicine. In reality, many physicians are selfish, cruel, power hungry, and money driven. At my current practice, my supervising doctor was truly the most narcissistic person I have ever known. She was a TERRIBLE doctor, and downright mean to everyone that she viewed as beneath her (which was everyone... lol). It took us 2 full years to gather enough evidence against her that we could fire her. It really is that hard to fire a doctor!
There are some AMAZING doctors (and PAs, and nurses). But medicine really can be incredibly toxic. Good for you for seeking another path!
To be honest, medicine has gone downhill over time. I don’t think the current generation wants to be doctors. The most intelligent and talented individuals do something different. Greed and money is overtaking the profession. Patients are at risk. “Doctors” are unethical and self serving only. Terrible to use patients to line their own pockets. The future of medicine is dismal. Maybe that’s why there is always a shortage of medical professionals.
Lessons learned early can be such a gift. You are a bright person and unfortunately, ppl for whatever insecure reasons get jealous of your success. It is easier to be a target if you are active on social media but, you know what, you should live your life the way that makes you happy. It just sucks that people don’t know their boundaries. But in trying to please them, you should never abandon your personal success. Changing environments can be so helpful and an underrated method to treating a malignant situation. In this case, you made a fantastic decision. Taking your time to carefully decide your career cannot be stressed enough.
I definitely recognize that having a public presence on social media has made things tougher for me, but I continue for the students who are able to get some kind of value or inspiration out of my videos. Thank you for your wonderful comment and support!
@@BSMDLyd seeing independent success from social media, the freedom to be your own brand is liberating enough to warrant social media presence. Forget the people who are negative. Internally, they don’t have the creativity or drive to do this and so in turn try to create an artifical celining by discouraging all others from carving their own path in life. Plus, you can go to a far better medical school or another type of path if you so choose!
Oh Dear , I never comment but I'm genuinely saddened by this. Lydia I wish you true happiness as you have given us your followers. Thank you for taking us along for the ride.😔
Thank you Richard !
I am so proud of Lydia! This is truly a blessing in disguise! I am excited for your next chapter and so glad that you will be taking us along with you on this ride!
Shes very eloquently spoken. Shes incredibly engaging. It definitely holds your attention
Your acceptance video randomly popped up on my feed a few months ago even though I'm not at all in your demographic with my age or career. I was interested in your story because I'd never heard of the BSMD program. I was really impressed by your maturity in your decision making, specifically putting an emphasis on your scholarship opportunity and not wanting debt to guide your future choices. Even though things are working out a bit different than you might have imagined you have done very well for yourself. Getting a bachelor degree in 3 years, having no debt and from what it sounds like, you've been able to really chart your own path with class choices. Being debt free already gives you a huge advantage. I've watched other college decision videos and have found myself in disbelief at the number of people that don't even seem to give thought to the full ride scholarships they get at good schools (or even their state school) and will choose the Ivy League and the debt. I wonder in 10 years if that will seem worth it.
So sorry u had to go through this . I have followed u since ur college acceptance. U have strong work ethics and a smart kid. U don’t need this program to succeed. So happy u took a stand against toxicity.. Goodluck to u ! I am sure u ll excel !!
Hey Lyd, you were an inspiration to me regarding college. I am not interested in becoming a doctor but your work ethic, studying habits, and routines have helped me tremendous as a college freshman. I am sad to hear you will be taking a pause on your medical journey, you would have been a fantastic doctor, a true kind heart, intelligent, bright. Hope things go well for you in the future.
Thank you so much, Amy. I didn't have anyone to look up to when I started college, so my whole goal was to inspire and support the next generation of students and show them it could be done. I'm so glad you've gotten that in a sense from my videos and I plan on continuing to post studying-related content :) Thank you for the feedback and hope college is going well for you!
Lydia I've been watching you since your original college admissions decisions video. I also happen to be an Academic Advisor/Counselor at a large university similar to U of Arizona. I am sorry that you have experienced what you have so far. I work very closely with college students and I can confidently say that you are much too mature for them at this stage haha. Even though you all are technically adults, there is still so much maturing that needs to happen. You have also always seemed so confident and sure of your path. The average college student can definitely feel threatened by that. I hope that whichever path you choose brings you nothing but peace and happiness!!
As a parent of a high schooler who shares the same dream of becoming a doctor one day, I have been following your channel for over a year and have often used your successful experiences to guide and encourage my daughter. Your recent decision was unexpected, and I know it must not have been an easy one. However, I am truly amazed by your courage in following what feels right to your heart. Your decisiveness and maturity at just 20 years old are incredibly impressive! Thank you for sharing your journey and honest reflections; they are truly inspiring. Wishing you all the best in your new endeavor! I look forward to seeing your updates here in TH-cam.
Thank you so much! Glad I could play a part in your high schooler’s journey. Don’t hesitate to email if you guys have any application related questions, I’m sure they’ll be a fantastic doctor someday!
This is what my daughter is facing in her high school for being a valadectorian. But ther is no choice for us. She has to finish one more year. You have been an inspiration to my daughter. As a mom, I support your decision and do whatever makes you happy. All the very best❤
Congratulations to your daughter on this incredible achievement! 🎉 I was also the valedictorian of my high school and faced similar exclusion and bullying, but never to the extent that I encountered in college. I hope she can be surrounded by kind people in her future who will support and uplift her. Wishing her the best ❤️
Congratulations on taking your life into your own hands, and steeling it in a direction that more closely aligns with your values and wishes! Your decision was brave and your strength admirable. I’ve experienced a similar situation while studying to enter nursing school. The number of people who are going into medicine whose behavior disgusts and alarms me is unsettling. You are young, intelligent, driven, and kind. You will be wonderful at whatever you choose to do next. Good luck!
Wow you’re incredibly brave, so well spoken and so inspiring. Your message resonates me so much as I figure out what I want to do in the future & can I also just say how heard I felt as a student at the UofA as well, finding the social atmosphere toxic too. Thank you thank you thank you for this! Looking forward to see where life takes you! :)
Lydia I’ve followed your journey from your acceptance reaction video and I wish you the very best. You’re so smart and give off very kind vibes, I hope everything gets better for you. It takes real strength to be able to remove yourself from a situation you’d thought was best for you for a very long time but this is the first step that will open up so many doors for you. So many opportunities and experiences await you, there’s something so empowering about knowing your future is in your hands ⭐️
you will end up following her to the homeless shelter
Congratulations for having so much perspective as such a young age, holding for a long time while you were having doubts and eventually following your instincts and trusting the future! With your rigor and motivation and positivity, I am sure you will be successful any path you choose!
Lydia, right on for listening within and being deeply honest with yourself. Your commitment to honesty has been one of the consistent themes I’ve seen throughout your story - it says so much about your character. Seriously 👏🏼👏🏼. Keep honoring your inner wisdom. You’re on the right track. Hope you keep sharing your story!!
This means a lot, thank you so much 🙏
The world is still a good place because of people like you. Keep your good ethical work going on ….
I understand what you’re saying and I wish you well. I worked in U.S. healthcare for 20 years in multiple hospitals across the U.S. (I’m an occupational therapist.) There are some great people in healthcare but it can also be kinda cold, competitive, and nasty. I’ve seen what you’ve experienced and a lot of people go through the demanding training only to leave later in life because they can’t take it anymore. It’s definitely not the warm and fuzzy place people think it is. You seem like a great person who’s on top of things. All the best to you.
This BSMD journey really touched me in a way that made me aspire to be like you. Your journey to medical school kept me up longer than I'd like to admit and I've watched your decisions reactions video at least 10 times at this point. Thank you for making me dream while finding what I truly loved and I will continue and hope to be on this same track you were on but create a different environment from the one that you unfortunately had to go through. I wish you all the best of luck for your mental health and hope you find what truly inspires you as you finish up your Bachelors. I'll be on the channel every step of the way!!
THIS is what the world needs! People to go out and create healthier and more inclusive environments in their educational settings, workplace, and beyond. I’m so touched to hear that my videos inspired you and wish you the very best as you navigate your own journey! 💐
life could be short. follow your heart cause you'll never know when you can't anymore.
I’m so proud of you for sharing this and making that difficult decision! So happy that you’re doing what’s right for you!! I’ve loved following your journey and your videos and zumba classes have always given me so much motivation and joy. Can’t wait to see what’s next for you girl! :)
I am sorry to hear one of Americas best has chosen to walk away. I understand you guys don't like being beaten up on both mentally and physically but I welcome the challenge. I am happy that you are going into a field that you will love. God Luck and Gods speed.
So proud of you for choosing you! It’s a hard thing for a lot of people to do. I will continue to watch your journey. You’re going far 😊
You are so switched on and sound like you have a very supportive family, which is fantastic.
It's hard when things don't work out the way you planned, but I'm sure you will find where you fit!
I hope you can relax a little now and enjoy being a twenty year old uni student without the toxic environment.
What a strong and beautiful soul you are. Good for you in following your inner voice. I will be looking forward to your new adventures
Its interesting that many young ppl are witness unexpected deaths and illness among their peer group. This was a very rare thing and is now becoming very common.
I commend this young women on her corage to follow her unique path. I believe the medical institutions are bot promoting true golistic health and many young ppl are atarting to wake up to this.
There are so many awful comments, and it's disheartening to see you go. I love your content, but I understand this isn’t about us-it’s about you. It’s incredible how much of an impact one’s environment and peers can have, especially when most people focus solely on the academic side. Your response was eloquent and well-spoken. I’m still processing everything you shared, and I can’t imagine what you've been going through. I’m glad you prioritized your well-being and didn’t let negativity push you to a breaking point. Wishing you all the best, Lydia.❤
Thank you so much, I truly appreciate your kindness here. I saw you supporting me in another thread and the original poster must have deleted it but I wanted to thank you for your kindness and depth ❤️
Wow, Lydia…I am so proud of you for doing what is best for you. I am sorry your college experience wasn’t the best it could be. I just spent my weekend with my ASU band alums honoring one of the best college professors I ever had who passed away this summer-he was loved by all of us, and, boy, did he love us all like his own family. I sometimes don’t realize how lucky I was to have such a supportive network throughout college. I am sure you will find your passion and everything will work out exactly as it is meant to be. ❤
As a last year med student myself, I fully understand what you went through. I also loved humanities but completely cut them off my life to focus on medicine and science, always choosing the most difficult and energy-consuming path for myself. As if I was only able to think of myself as "worthy" only if I was doing hundreds of hard things at the same time. It's extremely healthy that you were able to figure this out at such a young age, always put your wellbeing first and best of luck for whatever comes next!
Hey Lydia. I have always felt a lot of joy and support every minute in your zumba classes.
I am sorry to hear what a struggle it has been in the program. You are an accomplished and motivated person, and I have no doubt that you will shine in no matter what career path you choose.
All the very best for the future. I will miss you.
I am so proud of you for making this decision. Also thank you for sharing this, I needed to here your message.
I and many others look up to you and I want to thank you for sharing this message that so many of us need to hear. I am wishing you happiness in your future.
Thank you so much and same to you!
You are so young and have many fulfilling years ahead of you to aspire to be everything you want to be in whatever field you choose and I'm sorry that you encountered so many toxic people. As an older female I have come to learn to trust my inner instinct which has led me away from several unhealthy situations and people and I don't regret it for one second. What I found hard to learn is that what other people think doesn't matter and now I have the mantra that if they don't align with my values, feelings and ethics then they don't deserve an ounce of my consideration or my big heart. Go out there and be bold, forge ahead and above all else remember that you are unique and you are enough and with hard work and perseverance you will realize your dreams and find the "people" who were meant to be in your life for all the right reasons. Best of luck to you young lady.
Humans are highly capable of understanding their environments and sensing when things are off. What is unfortunate is that society has silenced our ability to tune-in to that "gut feeling", something that has been pivotal for survival since the dawn of time. When I look back, I can recall very specific instances where my gut was definitely signaling that this was the wrong place for me, but that I ignored these signs and passed it off as anxiety or a lack of resilience. Thanks for sharing your mantra, trusting your inner instincts is an essential part of life and I definitely resonate with your statement about values and ethics. I appreciate your well wishes! All the best to you as well.
Way to follow your heart Lydia! I really don’t comment on videos but just wanted to encourage you in your exploration!
I always thought medicine was for me but in undergrad I didn’t take a single prerequisite course because I thought I wasn’t smart enough. I went on to open my own brick and mortar photography studio right after graduation and had a successful business for 11 years. I couldn’t shake the desire to be on medicine and just started medical school at the age of 33. That all to say there is always time to explore and chase dreams. And if you decide to come back to medical school at some point it will always be there as an option!
WOW! What a neat journey! How's med school going for you so far? You have such a unique background and I am sure that will help you when it comes to creating relationships and establishing rapport with your patients. Thank you for sharing your story 🙏
It has been mostly good. It is very challenging academically but we all know that. The hardest part I think is that there is a lot of toxic things that happen in medical education. I hope to someday have a positive impact to make it a better for experience for students across the board.
I'm sorry to hear about what you had to go through. You're an amazingly intelligent and ambitious person, and the fact that you were able to put up with these struggles for so long is truly remarkable. There's no doubt that you're going to be an amazing doctor that any medical setting would be lucky to have. Those "friends" at UofA who were just trying to use you will realize what a mistake they made seeing you as nothing more than a tool for their plans when you're leagues ahead of them one day.
That's just how human beings are. It's not abnormal for people to try to gain things from social interactions, it's literally just basic human psychology.
Do you think they came to school to make friends or something?
It's almost like you're suggesting they should have been doing something else, instead of trying to reach their goals. Which just seems backwards & illogical.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rational_choice_model#Rational_choice_theory_in_social_interactions
supporting evidence to my claim
Thank you so much, Humzah. Grateful for your support
You most likely just need a good break and to live life outside of medicine until you are called back and when your heart tells you to return Find peace within alternate encouraging environments ✨🙌🏼👍🏼
Hey Lyd I just wanted to say that following your gut and intuition is the best thing you can do for yourself, don't put so much pressure on finding out what you want to do in life! Let it come to you through being curious:) I had no idea what I wanted to do when I was your age (didn't even care for college) and then suddenly out of nowhere at 24 I started my pre vet journey! Follow your heart and do things to please yourself❤ I can't wait to see you grow!! And since you're still in school I would love to see your study techniques, your work ethic is insane!! I love it. I'm wishing you peace happiness and clarity girl!! You got this
I love reading about everyone's non-traditional paths to their careers, this is so inspiring!! It seems like we are shifting away from the rhetoric that people need to go into med or vet or career straight out of college and society is starting to value people who took the time to explore and figure out life more. Wishing you the very best and I will definitely continue to post videos regarding my study techniques, thank you for the suggestion ❤
lydiaaaa I LOVE YOUR TH-cam VIDEOS and i think so highly of you. your setting a fantastic example by prioritizing YOURSELF. keep making youtube videos!!!!!!
You'll be fine. Keep up with the healthy mentality and good things will keep on happening. Good luck!
As someone in med school in my 30s, you can always find your path back to medicine if that is the right fit for you. From watching your video I think you'd be a natural in the psychology (phD) or psychiatry (MD/DO) realm. The culture of mental health counseling is also great, and you can do something along the lines of LCHW to phD or even psyD. I recommend checking out psyD as a possible career path as well. Best of luck, try to enjoy this time as much as you can. Hope you find a more supportive environment 💕
Thank you for sharing your story! It’s incredibly brave and inspiring to hear your perspective and I am glad you are prioritizing your wellbeing above all else. Thank you for being who you are and I wish you the best in the future!
Your transparency is commendable and courageous. Medicine is full of people who don’t dare stray from the quota and do their own thing. Others want to copy from others, others want to put down others who they feel like are doing better than them, and others don’t develop a true identity of their own and formulate their own beliefs.
When I was in college, I resonated with some of what you have said about others being mean and jealous just because you are flourishing.
I can 100% agree that at times I was jealous of others however my response was to focus on the work that they were doing not put them down. If they were doing well and had a 4.0 it’s bc they were putting in the work, so that gave me determination to put in the work. It’s like they just inspired me to do better.
Why do people not see it that way and instead are malicious towards you.
I would even literally help people so much when they weee struggling. I didn’t mind helping.
Reaching the end of medical school, and happy… but still see much of what you describe. Your decision seems very well thought out and congratulations on the new way forward.
Good luck to you. It is clear you're very intellectual and mature for some one only twenty. This is the perfect time to explore who you are and find what's sets your heart and mind on fire. You may decide to come back to medicine if that is your thing or you may not seeking more in the arena of the humanities whatever you choose I wish you success and prosperity and happiness and community.
Good for you, Lydia! I am so proud of you. This must have been such a tough decision, and there will be many times in your life when you think you made the wrong decision. But I assure you that there will be more times when you will think you made the right decision. Trust me. I'm 49. As long as you love what you do and keep a positive attitude, you'll do great!!
I’m proud of you for taking this step! This is most definitely a hard decision, and at the end of the day you have to do what’s best for you. I am sorry about the things you had to endure while at the University, and I hope that wherever life takes you, you are treated in the best possible way. Best of luck to you!!
Hi Lydia,
Thank you for sharing so much about what’s been going on and your thoughts on everything. I’m really sorry for the dark sides you’ve had to experience and witness, but I also deeply admire your courage in making decisions and your thoughtful reflection on life and its meaning. I’m genuinely happy for you as you step into this new chapter of your life, and I can’t wait to see what your next journey holds!
Hi Guo, thank you- I appreciate your kindness. Excited for all the great things you're getting to experience while you're in AZ! Hope all is well for you.
I am so happy for you. You have to do what is best for you and your mental wellbeing. Follow the passion that lies deep within your heart and always be true to yourself and the decision that you have made. You are beautiful, profoundly intelligent, and blessed. Continue moving forward. Can’t wait to see what you do next. Your biggest cheerleader. God’s continual blessings upon you and your precious and beautiful blessed life. You’re in my prayers❤️
I came into my program as a premed and soon realized that the program from my school never treated students as students but as numbers. Students are often pitched against each other rather than encouraged to improve together. Long story short, I am no longer premed and I am in a field that I love so much and enjoy so good for you for realizing this early!
I am so glad to hear you found a field you’re passionate about!! That is fantastic :)
I really needed this today.
Lydia,
I am so sorry to hear how you were treated. While not in the same boat, I had a similar experience in giving up my guaranteed seat in a highly competitive and sought-after program. This was two years ago and I am now graduating next semester. Even now, as I thought I had figured myself out, I am still learning so much more through my mentors, and just as they have encouraged me I want to encourage you - hold onto that life-long desire to learn. Do not let anyone try to stop you. I would have never been in the seat I am in now had I not followed my instincts and gone to where I was more comfortable and happier. I guarantee that as long as you let your passion fuel you - you will end up wherever is perfect for you.
Loved reading this. I'm so happy to hear you're in a place now that is comfortable and happy for you yet still encourages constant growth. Thank you for sharing your story!!
When I was in college 31 years ago, my best friend and roommate suddenly died. At the time I was pursuing a triple major, but that crushed me. Like you, I tried to push through by sheer force of will … until I couldn’t. I, too, took real actions to leave, but my family and professors intervened to reduce my course load and even designed a research class for the next semester that would allow me to focus on what I loved most.
From experience, I can tell you that at the time I saw no other option until those around me acknowledged my suffering and provided an environment of healing.
Many in the comments will be quick to agree and support whatever you decide. In my experience, having other viewpoints made out of kindness was invaluable. From what you have shared with us, you’ve been enthralled with medicine since you were very small - you’ve had this passion your whole life. I truly hope you have sought out help from professors you respect and admire. Perhaps they know of options you haven’t imagined.
I am truly hoping you heal and take the best path forward.
cry me a river
This is an awesome video! You are so wise beyond your years, sad to hear the environment was so toxic. I wish you all the best and can't wait for another video when you are ready !!
So so proud of you! Thank you for sharing this ❤
Anyone else think she’s very cute 😂, anyways her self awareness is amazing. What u have said is everywhere on Earth, not just in medicine tho
No judgment here. You must do what you think is best. No one can live your life but you.
And after watching this video I know for certain that you will succeed in whichever path that you choose to take
Thank you for your support!
Hey Lydia, I've been watching your videos for a long time and I wanted to thank you for posting this even though it was hard. You inspire me and everyone watching, and I'm so glad you still plan on sharing your journey with us. Thank you for doing what's best for you and reminding me to do the same.
Hi Lyd, I applaud you for your courage and I wish you an awesome and fulfilling life :) I made the same decision to drop out of a BA/MD program in a top 25 school when I was 21, and I met with a mentor who made the same decision as myself a decade ago from the same school that the program director connected me with. The key is staying true to who you are: "He who loses wealth loses much; he who loses a friend loses more; but he that loses his courage loses all." - Miguel de Cervantes. I want to share with you that if you live by this courage and live a life true to yourself, it is incomparably better than the alternative. I also want to share with you that as you live, this will not be the first nor the last time you will be called upon to stand up for yourself and use this courage. You have to make a conscious decision to stay true to yourself and live by this courage every single day for the rest of your life - which is not easy, but it is much more worthwhile than the alternative of losing your courage and losing all. :)
this is SHOCKING to me you are an idol to me and I am older than you. a 3.9 gpa to boast this is just inconceivable.
Wow! So shocked but 100% behind you! What a brave and mature decision! Hope you don’t stop making videos, excited to see where life takes you with it without medicine. ❤️
Thank you so much! I don’t plan on stopping anytime soon :) grateful for your support!
I was very overwhelmed with toxicity during medical school. From faculty and preceptors, I honestly hated life and was extremely miserable. But its just a TRANSIENT season in your life, you'll one day blink and before you know it youre a physician. Honestly, if I were you I would not give up on medicine. I only had a high school degree when I was 26 years old, but now i'm a physician. You have PLENTY of time. It is absolutely in the realm of possibility to become a physician (certainly with your grades). It feels like yesterday when I was facing all that damn toxicity and wanting to quit, but its over now and in hindsight it all goes by so quickly and am so glad I continued through. There are many fulfilling careers outside of medicine and only you know what's right for you, but its just a shame that the toxic culture forces out so many hard working students.
Note, if you do end up applying to medical school, delete this video. Medical school Admission committees are petty and will take offense
im glad you were able to find happiness in an environment that is so degrading and overwhelming, but this is not the case for everyone, nor should it be. it was your choice to make an immense sacrifice of your time and happiness in the hopes of finding fullfillment at the end of the long, winding road, but this was your luck, and many others are not so lucky. for quite a few, the road only gets more narrow and suffocating. this was the choice you made for YOURSELF, and im happy it worked out for you, but just because it did, doesnt mean it will for everyone. by telling someone to keep pushing forward despite being pressed up against what seems to be an immovable object means you are potentially damning them to a life of regret and agony. you found the right place for you, and once again, im happy for you. but your right place is not the right place for everyone. saying things will get better for her because they got better for YOU is very self centered. she has clearly done a monumental amount of soul searching and questioning her path, and she made her choice and chose a better one for herself. unlike you, im not going to say what I think she should or shouldnt do, or what I would do if I was her, because i'm not and it doesnt matter what I would do. its her life and her choice.
you should be the one making a youtube channel, instead of this retard
Continue on your path to discover your passion, there you will find your tribe. I wish you much success and happiness!!!!! Nancy
Thank you Nancy!! 🫶💐🥰
Both of my parents are doctors so I saw how tiring, exhausting and time consuming medicine can be. I realized there is no way I can commit to medicine
As you already know, all your current education will go toward 1,000 000 other interests and careers you will have in your life. No time wasted. Have fun in your future!
You are an amazing human, you deserve everything amazing.
You are so brave and congratulations for the new journey🥰, can’t wait for future updates❤
Thank you for listening to yourself. ❤ Best wishes with your journey. I hope you will do great things. I have been HURT by doctors more times than I have been helped. This is sad.
I am so sorry to read this. I’m hoping that the next generation of physicians will do better, hopefully the people I was surrounded by only represent a small handful of future doctors. Thank you for your support ❤️
@ I hope so too.
Sorry to hear about your experience. Hope you find a place fits you.
Im so happy for you Lydia and thank you for sharing this update with us. I would have never expected this since your life looks so perfect, but thank you for educating us about the dark sides of the medical industry. I work in vet med and it's absolutely the same and I wish I had your courage to step away from a career I love. It's so unfortunate that medical industries are so toxic even though we're supposed to be taking care of others. I hope you find happiness pursuing your other career paths and I can't wait to see where life takes you.
Thank you so much for your constant support on this channel. I’m sorry to hear you experience similar things in the vet world, but I know that your patients and their families are lucky to have a provider as caring as you! 🐾
@@BSMDLyd thank you for the encouragement!! All of us will always support you no matter what you pursue in the future❤❤
may god lead you. found peace in whatever you do
Thank you for sharing your story and experience.
I decided to walk away from medicine recently as I was never all in with it. As much as I'd love to help people with their health, it's not where I can most effectively help people. I've decided to pursue a joint bachelor of education and social work instead. I think my skills are better suited in those fields.
There was a part of me when I wanted to quit medicine back in 2019. I’m always crying whilst studying. But I keep pushing and trying. Everyday I question myself why I entered. Everyday I question myself why I had to go through this when I can work as a pharmacist somewhere. I became unhappy. I saw my classmates during my undergrad already earning and traveling the world- Living their best life; Marrying the love of their life; Building family. I deactivated my social medias for a year because I’ve been comparing my life with theirs. I continued medical school, hoping and praying everyday that my efforts will come into fruition. During 1 year internship, I became so exhausted and overwhelmed.. the toxicity in the medical world is difficult to bear, but here I am, I recently passed the physician licensure exam. I’m now applying for internal medicine residency. Indeed, there’s more to life than working tirelessly and the life-long learning that comes with medicine.
I wish you success in your future endeavors! I know you’ll do great! 🌷✨💖
Follow your dreams and listen to your heart! Life is short, be happy with your decision you are blessed! You are Very beautiful ❤as well!
so brave to speak out about this.
To this I would say congratulations. Myself and a newly found friend, were in the same place as you until last spring semester. We had found ourselves surrounded by angry or envious people who didn’t seem to have a true passion for medicine. You are not along to some degree, keep your head up.
You are so mature!! Congratulations on your big move!! I loved the vídeo!!
Sending love and admiration from Brazil 🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷
I am sad to hear I enjoyed your journey ❤ best of wishes.
Lydia, I am the mother of a 21 year old college senior and a 19 year old sophomore. I have been following you since your acceptance and I’m as proud of you for choosing yourself first and making this decision. As I tell our kids, sometimes change is the answer and you should always, always be true to the part of you that’s curious about a big change. I could not think of a better example of maturity and resiliance than you. I can’t wait to see what lies ahead for you, and so very glad you are chosing yourself. I also commend you for recognizing that a toxic environment is not a condition of growth, and that life is too short to live in a world of hurt. Fly high, shine bright and I look forward to cheering you on no matter where the journey leads. Love and luck to you, beautful
Hugs for you, Lydia.
I completely agree with your thoughts about the university and Tucson overall-that's why I'm finishing my final two semesters online. I'm on the traditional path and an older student, so I can relate to what you're saying about the people; I've noticed it as well. I'm moving to Washington state to focus on living life fully while staying committed to finishing these last two semesters strong with the goal of getting into medical school.
You made the right choice, and I wish you all the best. Take care. 😊
Thank you for your support, wishing you the best in your final two semesters and best of luck on your med school apps! You got this!
Obviously this was not an easy decision. Lots of jealous losers out there unfortunately. I do not think medical school has changed much since I’ve attended. There was a well demarcated hierarchy in medicine and the superiors let you know. Borders on bullying. Again, I doubt it’s changed much at all. You seem very qualified and should be accepted into another med school no problem.
you are WISE beyond your age. I endured the same environment in residency. it was terrible.
I have a few friends going through residency right now and this seems to be a common experience. I’m sorry you endured this and hope things have turned around for you since then. Thank you for the kind comment 🫶
I've been struggling with something similar and your video really inspired me to reflect on what's important to me :)
I hope your struggle can be resolved soon ❤️ glad my video could help
Well said! You are very wise and very intelligent!😊
Lydia, we're here for you. I'm sure all of us are here because we admire you- not just academically, but as a person! I am so in awe of your clarity and I'm excited to see you make strides in this world
This means a lot, thank you 💐