_"I just spend so much time with my verbal modules and mathematical intuitions (...) and I try to share my speculative ideas. Hopefully they're helpful."_ They are, I love these videos, they're wonderfully unique.
Just discovered your channel. I subscribed in a few minutes minutes of listening to this video. You seem very acute, which is too rare on this subject. Thanks !
I find that a small amount of MDMA really helps me get into a state of love and acceptance before embarking into freebase dmt. only done it twice but the synergy is something else...
I did 150mg before freebase... it certainly made me brave enough to do the dmt but it also felt very blunting, the visuals seem reduced and my ability to be present/remember the trip. Probably should have done less. But I'm grateful it gave me the courage because I'd been staring at the freebase in the back of my drawer for almost 3 years.
Awesome Andrés! Super interesting as always and such a pleasure to see your curiousity and hear you share your thoughts and experiences - always with openness and a smile :) I feel like an anomaly when it comes to how I react to MDMA and I hope to find some info on that in the future. When I take it, I more just feel "high", like on a GABA or opiate compound, and feel no level of love or intimacy with others (more like fear tbh - very sticky feelings). This is most definitely because of hurt feelings since childhood, and thus a deep fear of being vulnerable. I have noticed, though, that the days after taking MDMA can be great for me as I feel more vulnerable and can cry and release stuff when I'm alone, so it's still therapeutic for me, but it's so interesting to see how my emotional blocks can push down the effect of such a strong empathogen as MDMA.
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Thank you! I know what you mean. In his essay on MDMA, David Pearce argues that it's quite common for the serotonin flood to precede the increase in dopamine, so there is a period early on (say of 45-60 minutes on the comeup) where it's more about blocking any feeling associated with low serotonin. This can feel bad, as you are allowing the social information one has been suppressing and finally taking it in. For many people thankfully this is short lived, and possibly therapeutic on its own (if taken with equanimity, which is always a good idea). But ideally you then transition to a euphoric phase. Some people might need extra dopamine, I'd expect. But I don't feel good about suggesting taking speed along with the MDMA, because, well, that doesn't sound good for you. Perhaps something else, gentler. But I don't know what. Have you combined it with THC? Often that flips the switch. But maybe not.
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I think part of it is dependent on having the intention to love oneself and experience self-compassion too from the start. Telling yourself that you are no less lovable no matter what is uncovered, and that you are really brave for looking at it (or even just intending to do so). You can imagine others in this wavelength cheering on you, congratulating you for the courage. I'd tell myself: "You were just a kid when the conditioning was put on you. You didn't know what to do about it, and energetically troubling things could have happened. But again you were just a kid, and innocent."
@ Very interesting what you describe about the initial phase. I've actually suspected myself to be low in dopamine just in general (unfortunately, this is super difficult to confirm), so that might be a part in it all. I've tried smoking weed but usually avoid it as it seems to dull the effects of the MDMA and make it more "druggy" for both me and friends, so we save that for the comedown. Beautiful suggestions for the self-love mindset, I will definitely take that with me! Thank you so much for taking the time to answer! Much love
What you said about reactance makes me wonder if MDMA could be effective in treating sensory disorders like misophonia (which I would describe as: extreme autonomic arousal resulting from interpersonal context-dependent sensory triggers- causing harsh spikes of negative valence followed by long tails of stress and trauma response). Currently there are no clinical treatments or medications for misophonia but maybe they should look at MDMA?
As for things like narcissism, what might solve it is the combination of mdma lsd and sequences of carefully curated audiovisual material displaying an extreme (and contradictory! to avoid paranoias of indoctrination) material of diverent emotional and cultural qualias
Have you heard of the borax combo? 2 mg of 5-MeO-MPT, 20 mg of 2-FMA, and 80 mg of 5-MAPB. The objective is to closely match the effects of MDMA. People say it's pretty close. I wonder if can achieve the same therapeutic results with less impact on health.
Hello Andrés! Have you tried 5 meo dmt yourself? You present an interesting version of this experience, and yet I wonder if you have tried it yourself and how many times? 🙄🤔 I read the trip report, but didn’t really say that I took it. He saw sparkles of light of amazing unearthly colors, and it was all like the energy of life. Or maybe it’s that on the 5th meo dmt you experience a transcendental white color? and it is so transcendental that it causes an orgasm of consciousness as a feeling of infinite purity, infinite ideality without flaws, like true white? This is my version, so to speak, from the field of “qualia.” This is simply fantastic
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You can draw conclusions from my numerous videos and articles on qualia computing about 5-MeO-DMT. 🙂 We need much sophisticated frameworks to make sense of it. Your language here is beautiful and poetic! But the reality is much more technical and precise in terms of algorithms, wave dynamics, and geometry. Let me know what you think if you go through the content I've put out in the subject. ❤️
There is something I discovered way too late into my very long and very extensive mdma use, if you save a half pill till the morning and you take it just when you leave the club in the morning, then you travel home in this mild come down / very slightly phasing out high state, then there is almost no actual come down will hit you later, even the following days it extremely smooths it out. Plus it's amazing watching the wakenig city behind sunglasses on public transport. This way there is somehow a certain graduality is introduced between the "real" world and the "high" world, which lets you avoid the deep and lasting shock that radical phase change otherwise would cause
@@ObsessiveClarity Also, I said half pill, but I was thinking more like a whole pill probably, depending on how much you did during the night. I guess ymmv have fun :)
When around the minute 34 you talk about undoing knots of trauma, i wonder if the half ring geometric structure of the hypothalamus is built, not as a memory encoding hard drive unit, but as some sort of rope tenser, kind of like the ones at sailing ships for the sails, speaking in analogy
@@EduNauta95 interesting idea! Maybe! I mean, the whole research aesthetic at QRI is figuring out how structure informs function in a holistic way. Different parts of the brain are wave emitters and modulators. I don't know about the hippocampus specifically but I take your idea seriously
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_"I just spend so much time with my verbal modules and mathematical intuitions (...) and I try to share my speculative ideas. Hopefully they're helpful."_
They are, I love these videos, they're wonderfully unique.
It is always a happy day when you upload a new video :)
I love your energy Andrés
you are talking much more quietly in this video than usual, i found that interesting. it's fitting for the MDMA talk. gentle loving vibes
Beautifully put, this is why I have the MDMA molecule tattooed on my wrist. Such a beautiful molecule.
Your videos are literal treasures ❤️
Just discovered your channel. I subscribed in a few minutes minutes of listening to this video. You seem very acute, which is too rare on this subject. Thanks !
Welcome aboard! And thank you for the kind words
Returning after time away. Let’s go Andres!!
I love you Andrés ❤️
I find that a small amount of MDMA really helps me get into a state of love and acceptance before embarking into freebase dmt. only done it twice but the synergy is something else...
I did 150mg before freebase... it certainly made me brave enough to do the dmt but it also felt very blunting, the visuals seem reduced and my ability to be present/remember the trip. Probably should have done less. But I'm grateful it gave me the courage because I'd been staring at the freebase in the back of my drawer for almost 3 years.
Stellar idea
@@erawanpencil way too much man. Try your body weight in mg
Awesome Andrés! Super interesting as always and such a pleasure to see your curiousity and hear you share your thoughts and experiences - always with openness and a smile :)
I feel like an anomaly when it comes to how I react to MDMA and I hope to find some info on that in the future. When I take it, I more just feel "high", like on a GABA or opiate compound, and feel no level of love or intimacy with others (more like fear tbh - very sticky feelings). This is most definitely because of hurt feelings since childhood, and thus a deep fear of being vulnerable. I have noticed, though, that the days after taking MDMA can be great for me as I feel more vulnerable and can cry and release stuff when I'm alone, so it's still therapeutic for me, but it's so interesting to see how my emotional blocks can push down the effect of such a strong empathogen as MDMA.
Thank you! I know what you mean. In his essay on MDMA, David Pearce argues that it's quite common for the serotonin flood to precede the increase in dopamine, so there is a period early on (say of 45-60 minutes on the comeup) where it's more about blocking any feeling associated with low serotonin. This can feel bad, as you are allowing the social information one has been suppressing and finally taking it in. For many people thankfully this is short lived, and possibly therapeutic on its own (if taken with equanimity, which is always a good idea). But ideally you then transition to a euphoric phase.
Some people might need extra dopamine, I'd expect. But I don't feel good about suggesting taking speed along with the MDMA, because, well, that doesn't sound good for you. Perhaps something else, gentler. But I don't know what. Have you combined it with THC? Often that flips the switch. But maybe not.
I think part of it is dependent on having the intention to love oneself and experience self-compassion too from the start. Telling yourself that you are no less lovable no matter what is uncovered, and that you are really brave for looking at it (or even just intending to do so). You can imagine others in this wavelength cheering on you, congratulating you for the courage.
I'd tell myself: "You were just a kid when the conditioning was put on you. You didn't know what to do about it, and energetically troubling things could have happened. But again you were just a kid, and innocent."
@ Very interesting what you describe about the initial phase. I've actually suspected myself to be low in dopamine just in general (unfortunately, this is super difficult to confirm), so that might be a part in it all. I've tried smoking weed but usually avoid it as it seems to dull the effects of the MDMA and make it more "druggy" for both me and friends, so we save that for the comedown.
Beautiful suggestions for the self-love mindset, I will definitely take that with me! Thank you so much for taking the time to answer! Much love
What you said about reactance makes me wonder if MDMA could be effective in treating sensory disorders like misophonia (which I would describe as: extreme autonomic arousal resulting from interpersonal context-dependent sensory triggers- causing harsh spikes of negative valence followed by long tails of stress and trauma response). Currently there are no clinical treatments or medications for misophonia but maybe they should look at MDMA?
another great video ! where can I buy your t-shirt ? :) thx for your work !!
As for things like narcissism, what might solve it is the combination of mdma lsd and sequences of carefully curated audiovisual material displaying an extreme (and contradictory! to avoid paranoias of indoctrination) material of diverent emotional and cultural qualias
Also I would be listening to
These way more if the e audio was on your pod. Much love!
Have you heard of the borax combo? 2 mg of 5-MeO-MPT, 20 mg of 2-FMA, and 80 mg of 5-MAPB. The objective is to closely match the effects of MDMA. People say it's pretty close. I wonder if can achieve the same therapeutic results with less impact on health.
I'm curious to try the borax combo. In all honesty I prefer something longer lasting like 6-apb, doesn't have the brutal crash
Imfinite bliss
Fascinating. ❤
🙏🏼, enjoyed it!
Hello Andrés! Have you tried 5 meo dmt yourself? You present an interesting version of this experience, and yet I wonder if you have tried it yourself and how many times?
🙄🤔
I read the trip report, but didn’t really say that I took it. He saw sparkles of light of amazing unearthly colors, and it was all like the energy of life. Or maybe it’s that on the 5th meo dmt you experience a transcendental white color? and it is so transcendental that it causes an orgasm of consciousness as a feeling of infinite purity, infinite ideality without flaws, like true white? This is my version, so to speak, from the field of “qualia.” This is simply fantastic
You can draw conclusions from my numerous videos and articles on qualia computing about 5-MeO-DMT. 🙂
We need much sophisticated frameworks to make sense of it. Your language here is beautiful and poetic! But the reality is much more technical and precise in terms of algorithms, wave dynamics, and geometry. Let me know what you think if you go through the content I've put out in the subject. ❤️
There is something I discovered way too late into my very long and very extensive mdma use, if you save a half pill till the morning and you take it just when you leave the club in the morning, then you travel home in this mild come down / very slightly phasing out high state, then there is almost no actual come down will hit you later, even the following days it extremely smooths it out. Plus it's amazing watching the wakenig city behind sunglasses on public transport. This way there is somehow a certain graduality is introduced between the "real" world and the "high" world, which lets you avoid the deep and lasting shock that radical phase change otherwise would cause
Ty man
@@ObsessiveClarity Also, I said half pill, but I was thinking more like a whole pill probably, depending on how much you did during the night. I guess ymmv
have fun :)
where is the qualia of the day?
Walnut milk + oat milk -> extremely creamy and sweat. Topical 😊
Ahhh, gnarly’s a perfect descriptor
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When around the minute 34 you talk about undoing knots of trauma, i wonder if the half ring geometric structure of the hypothalamus is built, not as a memory encoding hard drive unit, but as some sort of rope tenser, kind of like the ones at sailing ships for the sails, speaking in analogy
I meant hippocampus, not hypothalamus *
@@EduNauta95 interesting idea! Maybe! I mean, the whole research aesthetic at QRI is figuring out how structure informs function in a holistic way. Different parts of the brain are wave emitters and modulators. I don't know about the hippocampus specifically but I take your idea seriously
Volume really low 💖