I went through this and it is absolute torture. Something I think is noteworthy is that it didn't start for me until about 3 months postpartum. I had been given antibiotics for a UTI and the intrusive thoughts literally started within a couple of days of the antibiotic. Like 0 to 100. I know mental health and gut health have been linked, so I really hope more research is done on the subject. I was also given an SSRI and am doing a lot better now.
Wonderful video! I struggled for almost 10 yrs with what i thiught was terrible anxiety/"going crazy" and it turned out to be OCD. I was such a depressing scary time. Still tough but knowing it's OCD and NOT me helps!
I am still struggling with that 11 months postpartum. I’m getting better but I was also told I had post partum depression. Nobody mentioned OCD and so I just felt crazy. My therapist told me that I’m having these thoughts because there’s a part of me in the back of my mind that wished I didn’t have my baby. Which wasn’t true at all, but she told me that. It didn’t feel right, and it made me feel worse. My mom actually noticed that some of the symptoms I described to her had to do with OCD. My mom did better figuring out what was wrong with me, than my therapist did. My therapist was great other than that though. But I wish I had been treated from the beginning for OCD. I just barely found out it was OCD. I feel so much less alone, but I still struggle. I still feel like a terrible mom. I’m trying my best
Hey Mama, I’m so sorry your therapist said that to you. That is absolutely not true & I hope you know that. I went through a handful of therapists before I found a psychologist in my town who focuses on OCD. Just think of those intrusive thoughts as just noise, or spam email. You’re going to get through this. Postpartum Support International has great resources. ~ Jenn, I’m the one in the video. 😀
wow. I'm really sorry you had that experience with the therapist. There are therapists who are well trained and understand postpartum ocd well AND can help you feel better if you're still wanting further healing. postpartum support international is a great resource for support. ocd and anxiety will have you feeling like you're a bad mom, but that's the lie that those conditions tell you. You can feel better with the right help. I wish you the best.
Thank you for this video. I had my first episode of OCD earlier this year.I’ve had severe health anxiety for a few years but controlled but this episode was different. I heard a story about a mom who hurt herself because she had a “mental illness” and I instantly spiraled into the dark hole of “what if i develop a severe mental illness and lose control? No amount of reassurance from my psychologist could put my mind at ease that I wouldn’t end up like the poor girl. For months I became ridden with anxiety and panic. My thoughts evolved about fear of harming myself to thoughts about my child who is 2. They are paralyzing. Though they aren’t all harm related, thank God but I have thoughts like “I regret becoming a parent. I wish he would just go away, etc”. It breaks my heart everyday because I’ve never loved another being more than I love my child. I feel like a monster, like the worst parent in the world. Like I don’t know who i am anymore. I’m ridden with guilt every time I look at his face. I wish I could go back in time and undo these thoughts and anxiety. I have noticed that my thoughts always revolve around stories I’ve read online.
I should add that I suffered a traumatic loss at 16 weeks when my son was 1. All of this started about 2 months after so I’m not sure if it’s all connected somehow
I'm so sorry you've suffered in this way and for so long. I would guess that it's connected or at least contributed. help is available, you can work with a therapist who is trained to help you get through this. there are great resources on postpartum.net, including a therapist directory and free support groups. I hope that helps you on the road to healing.
I am 10 month pist partum. Admitted myself because of how scared I was for my baby and myself. No doctor no therapist no psychologist ever told me about this! I thought I was going crazy. I was fighting myself every other second to try and tame these thoughts.
I’m so sorry no one really heard you and understood what you were going through. There’s still help out there with the right therapist who has the training. Postpartum.net is a great resource with free groups and a therapist directory ❤
I relate so much. I had my first intrusive thought my first day home from the hospital. They were horrible. I also looked up my symptoms and saw someone else say they worried they would put their baby in the oven or feel triggered by a pen or pencil. That’s when I knew I probably had pp ocd. I had my intrusive thoughts for almost a year. The first 8 months were intense. I wish I sought help. I didn’t tell anyone for 9 months. They tapered off over time and I tried different coping skills.
I am still struggling with that 11 months postpartum. I’m getting better but I was also told I had post partum depression. Nobody mentioned OCD and so I just felt crazy. My therapist told me that I’m having these thoughts because there’s a part of me in the back of my mind that wished I didn’t have my baby. Which wasn’t true at all, but she told me that. It didn’t feel right, and it made me feel worse. My mom actually noticed that some of the symptoms I described to her had to do with OCD. My mom did better figuring out what was wrong with me, than my therapist did. My therapist was great other than that though. But I wish I had been treated from the beginning for OCD. I just barely found out it was OCD. I feel so much less alone, but I still struggle. I still feel like a terrible mom. I’m trying my best
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I went through this and it is absolute torture.
Something I think is noteworthy is that it didn't start for me until about 3 months postpartum. I had been given antibiotics for a UTI and the intrusive thoughts literally started within a couple of days of the antibiotic. Like 0 to 100. I know mental health and gut health have been linked, so I really hope more research is done on the subject.
I was also given an SSRI and am doing a lot better now.
Oh wow. Super interesting, I’m so sorry it this happened. I think research on this would be great.
Wonderful video! I struggled for almost 10 yrs with what i thiught was terrible anxiety/"going crazy" and it turned out to be OCD. I was such a depressing scary time. Still tough but knowing it's OCD and NOT me helps!
You’re so right that it helps to know it’s not you. It’s a long time to suffer and hope you got the support you needed.
I am still struggling with that 11 months postpartum. I’m getting better but I was also told I had post partum depression. Nobody mentioned OCD and so I just felt crazy. My therapist told me that I’m having these thoughts because there’s a part of me in the back of my mind that wished I didn’t have my baby. Which wasn’t true at all, but she told me that. It didn’t feel right, and it made me feel worse. My mom actually noticed that some of the symptoms I described to her had to do with OCD. My mom did better figuring out what was wrong with me, than my therapist did. My therapist was great other than that though. But I wish I had been treated from the beginning for OCD. I just barely found out it was OCD. I feel so much less alone, but I still struggle. I still feel like a terrible mom. I’m trying my best
Hey Mama, I’m so sorry your therapist said that to you. That is absolutely not true & I hope you know that. I went through a handful of therapists before I found a psychologist in my town who focuses on OCD. Just think of those intrusive thoughts as just noise, or spam email. You’re going to get through this. Postpartum Support International has great resources. ~ Jenn, I’m the one in the video. 😀
wow. I'm really sorry you had that experience with the therapist. There are therapists who are well trained and understand postpartum ocd well AND can help you feel better if you're still wanting further healing. postpartum support international is a great resource for support. ocd and anxiety will have you feeling like you're a bad mom, but that's the lie that those conditions tell you. You can feel better with the right help. I wish you the best.
Same boat! This video is what has me finally figuring out what happened to me
@ Are you doing alright?? I found a Psychologist who actually specializes in OCD & he was really helpful.
@ Just seeing this! Are you doing okay??
God Bless you for this podcast. I needed to find someone willing to open up about this and tell their story.
I’m so glad you found the podcast, there are so many people with stories like this. ❤
Thank you. ❤ always willing to share my story.
Thank you for this video. I had my first episode of OCD earlier this year.I’ve had severe health anxiety for a few years but controlled but this episode was different. I heard a story about a mom who hurt herself because she had a “mental illness” and I instantly spiraled into the dark hole of “what if i develop a severe mental illness and lose control? No amount of reassurance from my psychologist could put my mind at ease that I wouldn’t end up like the poor girl. For months I became ridden with anxiety and panic. My thoughts evolved about fear of harming myself to thoughts about my child who is 2. They are paralyzing. Though they aren’t all harm related, thank God but I have thoughts like “I regret becoming a parent. I wish he would just go away, etc”. It breaks my heart everyday because I’ve never loved another being more than I love my child. I feel like a monster, like the worst parent in the world. Like I don’t know who i am anymore. I’m ridden with guilt every time I look at his face. I wish I could go back in time and undo these thoughts and anxiety. I have noticed that my thoughts always revolve around stories I’ve read online.
I should add that I suffered a traumatic loss at 16 weeks when my son was 1. All of this started about 2 months after so I’m not sure if it’s all connected somehow
I'm so sorry you've suffered in this way and for so long. I would guess that it's connected or at least contributed. help is available, you can work with a therapist who is trained to help you get through this. there are great resources on postpartum.net, including a therapist directory and free support groups. I hope that helps you on the road to healing.
@@MomandMind thank you so much for the link. I will look into it. Thank you again for the video. It really does help knowing I am not alone
@@S1234-b6l yes! you deserve to feel better and i know you can because i did and I see people heal all of the time. best wishes to you!
Hey how are you feeling? Did you think about getting on meds? @user-jz5tm8hg5x
I am 10 month pist partum. Admitted myself because of how scared I was for my baby and myself. No doctor no therapist no psychologist ever told me about this! I thought I was going crazy. I was fighting myself every other second to try and tame these thoughts.
I’m so sorry no one really heard you and understood what you were going through. There’s still help out there with the right therapist who has the training. Postpartum.net is a great resource with free groups and a therapist directory ❤
Watching this and I am struggling with this a lot
I'm sorry you are. it's really difficult. there are resources and help available through postpartum support international www.postpartum.net
I relate so much. I had my first intrusive thought my first day home from the hospital. They were horrible. I also looked up my symptoms and saw someone else say they worried they would put their baby in the oven or feel triggered by a pen or pencil. That’s when I knew I probably had pp ocd. I had my intrusive thoughts for almost a year. The first 8 months were intense. I wish I sought help. I didn’t tell anyone for 9 months. They tapered off over time and I tried different coping skills.
I"m so sorry you suffered for so long. it's never too late for healing, I hope you find additional support if you need it!
I can relate still dealing with it
I am still struggling with that 11 months postpartum. I’m getting better but I was also told I had post partum depression. Nobody mentioned OCD and so I just felt crazy. My therapist told me that I’m having these thoughts because there’s a part of me in the back of my mind that wished I didn’t have my baby. Which wasn’t true at all, but she told me that. It didn’t feel right, and it made me feel worse. My mom actually noticed that some of the symptoms I described to her had to do with OCD. My mom did better figuring out what was wrong with me, than my therapist did. My therapist was great other than that though. But I wish I had been treated from the beginning for OCD. I just barely found out it was OCD. I feel so much less alone, but I still struggle. I still feel like a terrible mom. I’m trying my best