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- Depression is a lonely and painful condition to live through. However, depression is a common mental health condition, but extremely varied and complex. It is important to know that depression takes many forms. This specific video is more focused on clinical depression, otherwise known as major depression or major depressive disorder (MDD).
This is not professional advice, please seek out a professional if you need help. This video is created for educational purposes and awareness around different topics. Video may or may not be able to go fully in-depth in such a limited time.
Some people might even mistake depression for laziness. To raise awareness, we also made a video on the signs you're depressed, not lazy: • 6 Signs You're Depress...
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Chaitanya, K. (2020, August 17). What Is Crippling Depression. Medicover Hospitals. www.medicoverhospitals.in/wha...
Holland, K. (2019, June 12). What You Need to Know If Your Depression Feels Debilitating. Healthline. www.healthline.com/health/dep...
Kirby, S. (2018, January 8). Getting Through the Day When You Have Crippling Depression | Betterhelp. BetterHelp. www.betterhelp.com/advice/dep...
Mayo Clinic. (2017, May 13). Clinical depression: What does that mean?www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-c...
WebMD. (2008a, May 21). Psychotic Depression. www.webmd.com/depression/guid...
WebMD. (2008b, May 22). The Basics: Depression. www.webmd.com/depression/guid...
WebMD. (2012, May 9). Warning Signs of Severe Depression. www.webmd.com/depression/warn...
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Some people might even mistake depression for laziness. To raise awareness, we also made a video on the signs you're depressed, not lazy: th-cam.com/video/q8HRGiUeZwc/w-d-xo.html Disclaimer: This is an EDUCATIONAL video and not intended to self-diagnosis. Relating to some signs does not equate to severe depression until you get a professional diagnosis by your doctor.
Hii! I love your videos! :D
Ok and Hi!
Hi
You’re very helpful🖤
I agree, but with your help now I understand depression more :D ❤
9 Warning Signs of Severe Depression: **recommended for you**
Lol, surprised it's not specifically addressed to me personally...fml.
I feel personally targeted
Shots fired :D
My brain: *it's time to self diagnose*
TH-cam knows, they always know.
I just want to stop feeling like this. Every fucking day. The same dread and sadness.
You are not alone Patsy
@@stephenlong9536 Thank you.
Hi Patsy you don't know me but my name is Joe and I also have battled depression. It was mostly brought on because of loss. Either a death, separation, move, etc. But one thing that always kept me going was just knowing that you never know what will happen on any given day. Tomorrow you could meet someone or do something that will turn your whole life around. I've been in dark places with so much despair but somehow it always works out. Sometimes I just appreciate the little things like chocolate or rainy days or even funny animal videos on TH-cam. All that really helps. So I just wanted you to know that someone is thinking about you at this very moment and sending you some sunshine. You're a wonderful person! May brighter days lie ahead.
@@josebro352 I hope so. Thank you for your msg.
You aren't alone. I feel the same, I just want the pain to stop. I'm tired of being sad every single day.
I hate when depression is categorized as sadness. I can be laughing and still feel empty
What they mean is that is a potential symptom… not 100 percent
@@debragillen255 not really, people also often say "but you don't look depressed" or "but he was so happy" (when they hear that someone has taken their life)
same...just same
Its definitely me🥺
This is absolutely a real feeling...
I don’t remember ever being happy, all life has been just worrying about something
Blessings and healing for you
Some days are better than others. I look forward to those days. Hang in there, you're not alone. I hope your mind can find peace.
I know how you feel, I went through the same thing, I hope you feel better soon
I couldn't have said it better myself. My anxiety never lets me feel calm, I'm constantly bugging over thoughts and everyday interactions.
@@Josh-de2tjany physical symptoms
I'm not lazy, I'm depressed. It's a constant struggle and it's cost me everything. You lose so much, becoming detached from the world outside.
I’m sorry you are also going through this. Best way to describe it for me is that my soul and life is being sucked out of me more and more everyday, and it sucks because life is short and who knows if there is life after this one. I wanna enjoy it but I have no motivation to anymore or as of right now. All we can do is push ourselves and not give into our minds wanting to give up, we have to keep pushing.
Yes that’s very true bra
@@gemil9933 yes ik and ik there’s so much more life ahead even tho it seems short but there are gonna be better days after gettin through this shii we just gotta struggle through it to find happiness again😑
@Debil that's kinda hard to do when your depressed
are you doing better ?
I'd say depression is less of a sadness and more of an emptiness, things you used to love just feel like a waste of time, and the passage of time feels either too fast or too slow. The awareness of how life is kind of a loop saps all the joy out of everything. and worst of all, you feel guilt for not being able to do anything and it just makes it worse.
Preach
Well said my friend. I feel the same way. I wish it was over. 😔
Yes i used to think of depression as a sadness and altho people keep saying anti depressant drugs help id rather cope with the sadness ans get through the other side without the help of drugs..
To be honest i see so much bad in the world these days ive got to a point that now i cant see any reason id want to stay here and id rather be home with my loved ones who have already passed away and to be honest if that point comes id say its my destiny not suicide because the only person in charge of my life and its path is me and ive always said im comfortable with death its as natural as being born and we are all born to die its just many people cant accept that death will finally come around someday and try to think they will live forever..
I go when i want to go and however my destiny brings that day im happy to be on my way from this life..
Add suffering with OCD into the mix as well and it becomes almost unbearable. 😔
Thats very accurate.
I've had severe depression my whole life it seems. I never had hobbies or interests or activities I enjoyed doing. I don't remember enjoying anything. 😞
Psychiatry is fake and gay
I thought that was just me
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.poress. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
The fact every single one of these points are true in my life is crazy. I’ve been diagnosed with depression…but it’s getting worst over time.
Hugs ❤
Stay strong! You are not alone in this. Things will always get better. ALWAYS!
SAME
The pretence of the world being broken but only for the poor and ordinary people make deppessing thoughts more intense and anxiety states worse 😤
Im the same but i just keep it to myselfb
1. you feel overwhelming sadness, hopelessness and grief 1:01
2. you find it difficult to take care of yourself 1:30
3. you lose interest in your favorite activities 2:03
4. you are overwhelmed with negative thoughts 2:31
5. you feel empty and alone 3:00
6. you feel drained 3:23
7. you experience severe mood swings 3:51
8. you experience psychotic symptoms 4:19
9. you think about death 4:49
I hope I could help! (:
Thank you for the time stamps :)
Thanks❤️
Thanks! :D
istg you comment this under every video this is real dedication tysm
wait a second..how did u...Wait, this video was posted recently...how does your say 6 hours ago. TH-cam is broken again..
Another sign is when you’re around friends who are in high spirits and they are laughing, cracking jokes and smiling, but you feel this deep pit of sadness within you that just grows and to a point where you have to fight back tears.
yeah
Even worser: when you don't have friends around you
@@amina-pr8xt yup
True
You can better understand the pain of those who has depression 😇😇 and try to help them out solve their problem... That will be the first step to come out of it
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Yes, dr.sporessss I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporessss
I have been depressed for a long time, but after taking shrooms few months ago, l feel much happier and highly motivated and my ADHD gone , lost a ton of anxiousness and had a few epiphanies about how I should live my life. I decided to buy an ounce for backup, but haven’t yet felt the need to take any more since then.
I have autism, I was diagnosed with it when I was 15. I tried shrooms and it made me function so much better.
Eek I’m autistic too and might wanna try mushrooms. How do I go about it?
Yeah doc.brenttt is your guide. Man is exceptional with anything psychedelics.
Hello Can he be reached on IG?
Yes doc.Brenttt
The worse thing in life isn't being alone, it's being around the people who make you feel alone.
Then find new people. If you stay around those who make you feel that way then this is entirely your problem and you'll receive no sympathy from me. Sink or swim. Help yourself or fall behind. You're just making excuses otherwise.
@@theincrediblefella7984 sometimes you have no choice. Take school for an example, you have to see these students 5 times a week for a whole school year. Depending on the school you can't change your schedule so you're just stuck with it. As I already said, sometimes you have no choice but to be around certain people.
@@Missile_Guidance_System482then your next step is to integrate and mingle with them, obviously. If they "make you feel alone" then interact with them. Boom. You're no longer alone. I found my wife by doing this.
Once again, you're failing to help yourself and as such you'll receive no sympathy from me.
@@theincrediblefella7984 okay but what if they ignore you or just want you to stay as distant from them as possible? That would be a whole different story.
@@theincrediblefella7984 You are lucky in this regard. Good for you.
We people get ignored and mocked for even trying. What would you do if you were in our situation?
I feel that suicide is an uplifting thought where everything else brings me down. Feels like an escape.
I feel u 100% it's like the thought of walking out the back door of this 💩 life is so exciting. It's the only thing that makes me feel good. I just want to leave this matrix and take that chance on seeing where my energy goes.
Yep
@@BrunoSousa-oi1mwno..no.. There are so many things in life that one can enjoy and feel happy and not alone . just look at the 3rd world country people ,they may be not wealthy but lives are happy .. FIRST THING IS COME OUT OF ISOLATION !! GET HELP
A sad column.
completely agree, same here
When I was depressed, not only did I want to stay in bed but I always wanted night to come so I could go to sleep. I would have loved to sleep all the time back then.
I have had every symptom and a professional diagnosis for 10 years. I am finally at the point where I am using substances to alleviate the negative feelings, and anxiety.
It's not that the world is better off with out me, but I feel better off with out this cold, heartless, and selfishly disgusting world.
Yes I've had crippling anxiety OCD and many other issues I'm guessing I don't realise that haven't been diagnosed for years now..everything hopeless..had heroin crack cocaine and alcohol issues over the years but all that only made me feel worse..absolutely skint and lose all my relationships..hang in there..I know u are Not alone..every day is a fucking battle..I've now got the added stress off bullying from my neighbours too! Never ends! Xx
Read “Blessings” by Mary Craig.
@@lisawhiteman9780I’m sorry to hear that. Some people are just evil. I’ve heard so many stories about crazy neighbors and had to deal with it myself. My sister had to move multiple times the past few years because everywhere she lived there was some neighbor that was a complete and total lunatic. If you have crazy neighbors best bet is to stay away from them as much as possible. My sister was being stalked and my nephew was murdered with fentanyl. It was extremely traumatic for my whole family dealing with crazy neighbors. My anxiety is so bad I barely leave my house and took a night shift job so I can work alone. We have to protect our mental health and family and stay away from toxic people as much as possible. I’m so glad I live in the country now and no neighbors near me.
Keep fighting guys i am also currently feeling like shit and probably destroying my life but we have to go on, suicide is never the solution and the world is definitely not a better place without you, even if you reached rock bottom you can always climb back up, it is never to late
Negativity is a demonic deception. Do not give into it. Ask God for help. Despair is forbidden by God. We must hope in God
I can’t shower for days, and days. I’m about 2 weeks without energy to even wash my teeth, and when someone calls me dirty or lazy I feel more and more depressive and incapable. So stressful, so overwhelming.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back to my school. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES!
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest”
“Whoever drinks of the water I give them will never thirst again”
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I know what its like to not be able to get out of bed. To find it hard to shower, or eat, or brush your teeth. The feeling of emptiness can be unbearable. Im telling you that Jesus Christ makes all things new again! he is the way!
I'm glad that you shared,because my self care becomes neglected as well. People don't talk about that part of depression,and judge. It's nice to know I'm not alone
@@froggydoggy1338 you're not alone!! this is the worts scenerio, I think, and even depressive people don't relate and make me unconfortable sharing these thougths. a really close and dear friend of mine made me feel so humiliated saying I would have bugs eating me because I simply couldn't take a shower or brush my teeth. really, you are not alone
@@crimsonnin2 You say that only because you have no faith and you don’t believe in him. Jesus can heal all things. I myself was diagnosed with clinical depression. I could not eat, shower, or get out of bed. I felt hopeless and alone even when I was around others. I had suicidal ideation, tormenting thoughts, and constant pain. I can tell you 100% that Jesus makes all things new again. I don’t even remember what it was like to have depression and I feel as though I never had it. Jesus is light of the world, he is the light in the darkness. For you to suggest that light pushes further into darkness is absolute nonsense. I’ve been sharing my testimony for about a year and a half now and 95% of responses are positive including atheists who have told me that they have rediscovered their faith or people who have told me what I have written has saved their lives. I would rather try to save 1 life with the good news and gospel of Jesus Christ than have the mindset you have a thousands times over. How do you know your prayers have fallen on deaf ears or do you think I am here for no reason? God operates through his servants. God knows the circumstances of your life from beginning to end. God wants you to be free from struggle and to have peace. God doesn’t want us to follow him in slavery he literally sets you free from the bondage of this life, this world, and from yourself and those thoughts that swim around in you all day. God knows what he’s doing he has a life planned for you that’s way better than what you think following your own path could produce. I’m sorry you saw others abusing and mistreating people. People can attach their ego to anything you know that right? that includes God too. “I put no stock in religion. By the word religion I have seen the lunacy of fanatics of every denomination be called the will of god. I have seen too much religion in the eyes of too many murderers. Holiness is in right action, and courage on behalf of those who cannot defend themselves, and goodness. What god desires is in the mind and in the heart and what you decide to do every day, you will be a good man - or not.” Jesus is entirely good and was totally without sin. That’s just another claim you’re making because you don’t know him and you have no faith in him. Everything seen is temporary all things unseen are eternal. It is not natural for men to be in Hell that’s why God has intervened on your behalf. Everything you do in your short life echoes throughout eternity.
“There are no ordinary people. You have never talked to a mere mortal. Nations, cultures, arts, civilizations - these are mortal, and their life is to ours as the life of a gnat. But it is immortals whom we joke with, work with, marry, snub and exploit - immortal horrors or everlasting splendors. This does not mean that we are to be perpetually solemn. We must play. But our merriment must be of that kind (and it is, in fact, the merriest kind) which exists between people who have, from the outset, taken each other seriously - no flippancy, no superiority, no presumption.” Jesus said go into all the earth and spread the Gospel to all peoples. God gives opportunity to everyone at some point to accept his Son those who have heard and rejected are held accountable for those who do not know about him God will judge that’s up to him. That’s another reason why I do what I do. If I sincerely believe there’s a hell why is that bad for me to tell you what Jesus Christ has done in my life if it could keep you from that place? That’s literally the highest form of love and respect I can give to another person. It’s evident from your speech that you have a certain mode of thinking “you can’t in good faith tell me” “if they were forced” Love doesn’t force itself on anyone or it isn’t love. Christians if they are walking correctly throw seeds. That’s all they do, and that’s all I’m here to do. I didn’t come here to debate with a nonbeliever. I came here to share the testimony of what God has done in my life in the hopes that it helps someone else. God is alive and can be experienced that’s how we know Jesus IS THE WAY the truth and the life. I’ve shared the good news with you, believe it or don’t but from this point forward you are wholly without excuse. What you are doing is using anecdotal evidence because what I’m saying probably makes you more depressed so you think that applies to everybody else when in reality it doesn’t. This is also called “projecting” God does work for everyone, its one universal spiritual body of believers that have been joined and saved regardless of nation, or “xenophobia” or class, or gender, or race. “There is no slave or free rich or poor male or female for all are ONE in Christ Jesus.” The Church is a universal across the entire earth. “No ill will or anything” even though you’re trying to repudiate my own life experiences, the hypocrisy is amazing. People can believe what they like. Like I said im only here to share the good news of what God has done in my life.
@@crimsonnin2 I'm not responding to you again. Ill get people to pray for your peace of mind and for those symptoms to be alleviated but keep this in mind Jesus was only able to perform miracles when people had faith that he could. When the blind men asked God to heal them Jesus asked do you believe I can do this? They said yes we believe. Then he said ACCORDING TO YOUR FAITH LET IT BE DONE TO YOU. Then it said their eyes were opened and THEY SAW. Do you have the eyes to see I wonder?
I think the worst part of being depressed, is that you can't even do something you like because it doesn't give you any good emotions, so you can't even escape or evade from those feelings.
Nothing can make you feel happy anymore. (sorry for my approximative English)
Exactly, I tried picking up the guitar again hoping if I learned a new song my brain would release that reward chemical thing, but everything is just exactly the same before and after I picked up the guitar
Yeh, I feel like that...
Anhedonia :[ Feel better
@@violethill4454 yes... All the things and activities that I used to enjoy... it feels bland. Everything is just grey. Movies, camping, vacations, etc.. it's doesn't mean anything anymore..
@@violetasheila I KNOOW I just hate that I can’t even strive for better things for my future doin things I love because sometimes I don’t see a future and everything causes me to have Crazy mood swings that are sooo overwhelming,thx Guys for sharin I feel alone.
It's been over two years, and I think of him every day.
I miss him.....all the time.
He was kind, and funny, and he kept his promises.
His laugh was contagious and all he wanted was to make other people happy.
When he left this world he took a lot of the colors with him.
Stay, please, for all the people you would leave in your wake.
Thank you for sharing ❤
Every time my parents don't understand what I'm going through, it hurts, it feels like nobody understands me in this world, that I'm all alone. My friends mostly forget that I'm there with them. They give out a "Hey man, how you doing" but I feel like I'm a giant nuisance. Every night, I hear voices of the people who negatively scold me and I start to cry. My school is the main reason for my depression, it is going so rough for me, I'm so worried about the final exams. I feel so bad when everyone around me are happy and joyful but I'm gloomy and sad and ruin everyone's mood for just being there. If I'm talking with someone who does care about me, i either only text them (calling from phone gives me anxiety), or if I'm next to them, I talk quietly. If leave a place, I feel like the person who sat next to me was relieved that I'm gone. I just wish there's someone who listens to me. Sometimes, i just don't want to live anymore, my family keeps fighting, there isn't one day without a fight. My parents keeps telling me that my one and only worry is to study, but I care about my family, I'm the peace keeper in my family, i really hope one day, my parents understand me and tell me it's okay. In all my life, nobody has ever either hugged me or said "It's okay" when I'm feeling down. My parents gets really angry if I cried or get angry, they really hate if I show emotions to them, they tell me to grow up but I have that heavy feeling in my chest by the fact they don't care about my mental health. I had a cat, who would (if she understood or not) sit and listen to what I say, and then if I start to cry, she gets up and meows, she was my best friend, i had nobody left after she died from aging. Even my favorite hobby, drawing, becomes boring and I'm slowly losing interest, i love to help people, it gives me a bit of happiness even if I don't get anything in return, i would never ask for return but if they do return back without me asking, i would take it if they insist but I would feel bad afterwards because they need it more than me, but some people take advantage of my kindness which started trust issues in me, in my 4th grade, I helped a girl who fell from the stairs but then a boy told the headmaster that I talked to a girl, i was suspended for a week but all I wanted to do was help her, my parents didn't believe me and believed the headmaster and the boy, i was devastated that nobody knows the truth and could defend me and everyone was against me, the girl went to another school because her parents were scared. After then, i started to trust only those i truly know, I'm really conscious about the people around me, i started to read people easily to figure out if they're good people or bad people.
Anyways, if you read the entire blabber I wrote, thank you so much, it means a lot to me. I mean what I said.
About that nobody believing you stuff. I just experienced the other side of it. Some incoming patient at the unit strangled a nurse and other patients kept pointing fingers at different men. I believed them and mean mugged one guy. I was wrong. I had recently decided to stay away from gossip and drama because I have seen how destructive it is. It's a hard habit to fix but I've overcome a lot of vices. This one I'm working on now. I'm sorry that happened to you.
I've been accused of all sorts of things out of nowhere too but I'm starting to just roll with it. Nope. That didn't happen. Nice try buddy. Accept whatever consequences dispassionately and say, this will happen again when I'm not here to blame. You'll see.
I feel with you. Im understanding you. I know exactly how you are feeling
@Asikdrake7300 You're life as youve described seems much like mine. Please stay strong. You are important to many. Life is a struggle but worth it. Many people are uncomfortable with emotions,theirs and/or someone else's. My parents made me feel we weren't allowed to have them. Seemed to be alot of negativity from my parents and alot of sibling rivalry. We were seldom given kudos,if ever but constantly told what we were doing wrong. There is no handbook on life or parenthood. If you are still in school I think interpersonal communications may be a helpful class to take if offered. I wish I had taken it(I think it was offered)when I was in school. I find it helpful also to think of anything I am grateful for at least once a day, no matter how simple it is. For instance,just waking up to the sun shining and being able to walk myself to the bathroom and all functions are in working order. Hang in there friend,you got this!! You seem to be a great person and those that don't seem to value you are certainly not worth your time or worrying about.❤❤❤❤
Thank you for all your blessings. I will do better. I'll become strong. I never had someone like y'all who support me when I'm feeling down. Thank you three awesome people, it means a lot to me.
Read “Blessings” by Mary Craig. Google the last chapter “what makes the desert beautiful “
I think the heaviest part of dealing with this is people not truly understanding what it is like unless they’ve been through it. Most people say they do, but then they say something that confirms how clueless they are. “Oh yeah, I’ve been sad too”, “But why don’t you get up and do something productive? It always does wonders!”, “I get it, sometimes we don’t wanna talk…but you could still send me a message. It’s not cool to disappear like that”.
Oh, and the part where people assume you’re either exaggerating for pity or doing it for attention…yeah, no, that’s why I never say anything until I can’t take it anymore.
I totally agree with you. A lot of the times I get empty responses from people who think “it’ll get better just give it time”….
My biggest struggle with depression is seeking help. Every. Single. Therapist I have gone to has but me in a 72 hour hold at a Mental Health Facility causing me to be more in debt. I haven’t gotten any sort of new information from being in those places and I always leave feeling sadder because of the bills I now have to pay. Most of the time therapy feels like a scam and I wish there was more free information out there to help us rather than just make a quick buck from our sadness.
idk who u are mrs perfume lady but this shits facts ppl dont know what it feels like to not want to be here :(
Then it still doesn't matter. No one ever understands.
I promise it's all happening to me now.
Thanks guys
i think sometimes i don’t even understand it and i start to think am i just a bad person or is it my depression ? because how can i just keep hurting people like this. i feel maybe i’m selfish
Wow , you are me...
Trying to hold down a high pressure job and fight depression at the same time is bloody hell. When you're depressed, it's hard to concentrate, and it's easy to forget things, so managers think you're lazy and incompetent, so it's hard to keep a job more than a few years.
This. All my co workers I work closely with think Im dumb and lazy. I have this paranoid feeling (wether true or just in my head) that all my coworkers are working against me. So in result I try and just "do my job" and mostly refuse to help the others out. I guess it's retaliation to my paranoid thoughts/beliefs. But it always seems to be me who gets criticised/judged.
i totally relate to this, i managed to keep it hidden for 5 years in china in a very high pressure job, until the middle of 2019 when i broke, had a team of 10 i was down to 4, i could keep it up, i was burned out, they cut my contract and sent me home, excuse my now corrected red wine typos x
It’s why I’m in severe debt and borderline homeless. I’ve survived the past year off of my friend’s and family’s charity but I’m currently living in someone’s in-law suite with a $400/mo rent that I haven’t paid a penny on in 3 months because I haven’t had a job. It’s great!! :)
Yes. Thank you! I'm tired of being told I'm lazy. No, it's not laziness, it's finding super human strength to do even the simplest of tasks most people take for granted.
This
If you have not experienced severe depression, you can not even begin to imagine what it's like having to live like that. No seriously, you can't!! Not even in the slightest.
When every day is literally the worst day of your life... I've been going through that for almost 40 years now. I have no suicidal tendencies, but at the same time I wouldn't mind going to bed and not waking up. Actually, that would be the biggest relief I can imagine.
This might sound silly, but last year I was feeding little birds (sparrows etc) in my tiny garden and that was the first thing that has given me any kind of joy for decades. This year the birds have not returned.
I totally relate. A lot of days my cats and music are the only things that make me feel life is worth it. I try to talk to people but the past few years I just want to be alone most of the time.
@@MelModicame too.
I grieve for the "me" I once was, and I can't even trace back to when I began feeling this way, and how my once confident, overall content self has devolved into the me of today: someone who has had to stop working because of panic attacks; someone who is so pre-occupied with trying to escape feelings of hopelessness that I forget to bathe; someone who is so afraid to go anywhere that I've associated bathing with going out, and get anxious just thinking about bathing - when I do recall that bathing would make me feel better.
I don't know if any others with depression or anxiety have this experience: I know the coping methods that my therapist has suggested and even agree that they're great ideas and would help, but then when feeling at my worst, be it most anxious or most depressed, I not only don't remember the coping skills that she's taught me, the concept of coping skills doesn't even cross my mind. I know logically that if I practice basic hygiene steps daily, I won't just associate them with something anxiety-causing (leaving the house). They'll become automatic as they used to be, and I'll feel better. The problem is, I've become so used to not taking a shower that I forget about doing it unless I write it down. I feel helpless and a burden to others. My husband has said he has caregiver's fatigue, and I don't blame him. He deserves a partner, not a dependent.
I have noticed a growing lack of self care with myself. I get the basics and even held onto sports... But I don't see myself that way anymore either.
Don't like it at all.
The worst part about feeling like this is when there’s no logical reason. Haven’t experienced any loss or anything to be particularly sad about. Just feel this empty dread everyday. Feel so trapped. Every day it gets worse I try to continue on like nothing is bothering me. Not being able to relate to anyone. It’s totally crushed my ability to socialize with normal everyday people. Even my family has noticed it. Rough man
yes and then the guilt when people tell you that you have nothing to be sad about and that its selfish cuz people have it worse, while i have gone through things that had major roles in my clinical depression i still get those comments and it only makes it feel worse.
I understand this. It's absolutely exhausting having to deal with this emptiness inside me and i can't even have a valid reason for it. Many people around me experienced loss or harsh living conditions and here i am not going through anything like that. The fact that mental abuse is normalized in my place is what makes me unable to express how i feel, given that most people around experienced the same things.
Facttsss when this started when I was 14 I denied it was depression simply because nobody died for me to be depressed etc. My life was good etc. It was stressful however looking back on that stressful part was what pushed me over the edge even though all else was good
It’s a chemical imbalance thing along with triggers you may not even remember…..
I have had good reasons to be Depressed over the years, but there are no "Guarantees" what will set you off and won't. Sometimes I am actually alright, sometimes I am REALLY not. Like now, but that's not a conversation for TH-cam. What I would say is that medication does help, but waiting for it to do so can sometimes almost be worse than suffering the Depression itself. Also, it's Soul-destroying having to pretend everything is okay and that I'm "Okay" when it couldn't be further from the truth.
This sort of things hurts so much, where there is no way to reach except by, perhaps, medication? That even functioning day to day can put you in a hospital bed.
Stay strong, everyone. Things can get better.
I already know I have severe depression yet I still watch these videos and act surprised as if I'm not diagnosed already 💀
Lmaoo Samee 😭😭
Same 🥲
Samr
same☹️
Same
As your typical guy in his mid 20's, who's had depression for well over 4 years i have now reached my breakingpoint. There was one thing that kept me going and that was my dog, i think i actually lived for that sole purpose. in this past week due medical reasons he's pain and quality of life, i had to let his kind soul pass. Everything has never become more meaningless and dark, and i cant stop crying i dont know how to live, but i will try.
Hope your ok. Dont let the bastards grind you down i know its hard as im going through the same motions.🙏
Rest in peace.
Now almost a month later hope you’re doing better, there’s always someone you can turn to to talk about it. Don’t be afraid to as there always is someone who can help you.
@@rileySOG.29 thank you, it’s tough still is. I’am trying to not be someone i dont want to become, and i still try to be good with the few close ones i have. With that being said i still struggle with finding hope or any amount of motivation. But i will always be thankful for most of the people part of my life, including my boss who is understanding and always finds a way to make me smile. But now i am exhausted in both forms and that does not help with my adhd on top, thats nothing new. Anything and Everything is a struggle, my biggest battle is not to get overwhelmed to the point of giving up. Even though, i at least take pride in not having self-destructive behavior as in (alc and dru6).
@@work8078 Thanks i’am currently speaking with psychiatrist, i have spoken to a therapist before due to ptsd and had terrible experience. But this psychiatrist i’am speaking to at the moment is great at asking questions i have not answered myself before. Glad the stigma for seeking mental help has decreased, but the q time where i live is very long.
So sorry 😢
I suffered severe depression and mental disorder several years ago. Was actually diagnosed with BPD. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.
YES very sure of Dr.alishrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Ive done shrooms last month in my house. It taught me how severely traumatized I was from alcohol. I healed from many mental traumas from my past and was able to forgive, let go. Shrooms to me is a remedy not a vice. I even felt more refreshed the morning after. So no hangovers. No depression mood for days. No anxiety.I now have a more calm mind
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
I have severe depression, (been diagnosed) And it sucks. I hope anyone that's having a hard time has a good day at least once or twice! Or maybe more.
Idk if i actually have depression or if it's not that much, i'm already talking with a mental health professional at the place i study, but never talked about this specifically, how was your experience? How did they diagnose You?
@@federicagarridoweisheim870 from my experience. they asked me questions with a lie detector😊
well having a good day is just a dream for me... even if i hv a good day, my "mom" and "dad" r always there to destroy it🙂
I have severe depression too. It sucks. I have severe anxiety alongside it. Hope I can beat it sometime soon
@@federicagarridoweisheim870 Well my mom just talked to My doctor that gives me medicines about How I always said I wanted to die, I had mental breakdowns, And more.. that's how I got diagnosed. Don't know how old I was, But it was a long time ago
I'm currently suffering from severe depression. Trying to stay alive and not harm myself-is the hardest part about my depression. When you see no light at the end of the tunnel, you just want to fall asleep and never wake up. I'm still fighting.
@@mr.valeyard8810 Thanks.
Love to you...xoxo
@@fatimamelo3858 - Gracias.
I hear you. I feel the same. 😢😢😢
@@loulou7963 - I'm still fighting. I'm still here. I know it's difficult, but I want you to do the same.✊✊
I was in the service for 6 years. After I got out I felt all of these symptoms, for a whole year. I waited way too long to get help. Don’t be like me, if anyone ever feels that low, get help, no matter what you’re afraid people may think of you. You can’t help the ones you love if you can’t help yourself. For all the ones fighting this, just know you’re not alone.
So true!
I'm grateful for your service
What if all the ones you love are in the cemetery? Should you still try to go on?
I'm also grateful for liberating all that oil zoo I can drive to work to afford the opiods you also liberated
i don’t have the privilege to and all the wards are fucked up in my area they fucking drug people and leave them in the street i don’t have anything else
I wish I could just sleep and never wakeup again. Life is not a blessing for everyone. For some people its just a curse
You’re not alone feeling this way😢 I hope you’re okay.
@@mychannelnotyours Thanks🥺💜
Quite frankly my life lost all meaning years ago. The only reason I hang on is not wanting to cause anyone grief unnecessarily. Thought like this ever since I was 9 years old. The worst part about growing up sad is searching desperately for a form of happiness that one can never have
True
@@tulsiparashar2513 I feel this way too
Exactly only reason I’m still here is because I don’t want anyone in my family to fall into this pain I feel after I go
Basically this, I don't wish to upset loved ones and I don't want to burden someone with having to clean the meat I leave behind.
Wow I couldn’t related more than this
Living with depression is exhausting because you’re forced to “pretend” that everything is ok in the eyes of others. I was granted full disability after a diagnosis of severe depression. I have few friends, I lost interest in my hobbies I once cherished, I sleep a lot, I only leave my house when necessary, I have a difficult time doing many task, I have a constant feeling of dread, I keep my problems to myself because I fear being scolded for my illness, my depression worsened in 2018 after a serious heart attack, in short it’s like having a dark cloud follow you around no matter what. I do take medication which helps but there’s no substitute for having someone in your life that is a genuine friend.
2018 was the worst wish it was 2005-2016 again
I agree, having a genuine friend is the best cure for depression. I was so glad I had my best friend around when I was severely depressed. Having him around, and that I finally decided to go psychiatrist, together have helped me. Now, I am glad to be no longer depressed. This year, I met a new friend with very amazing personality, but, I found out that she is severely depressed. I feel so sad knowing about it, and I have been trying to help her, to be that “genuine friend” by her side. I hope that she will also feel that.
I had a best friend for 7 years. She was what kept me living because she was the only one that cared. Then she left me to be popular with my bully. I went a year with no friends and my depression got worse. Then my family moved and I have one friend now. She’s the only one left who cares about me. But my depression is much worse and next year I’m switching schools. I don’t know how I’ll make it without friends.
You should try LSD or shrooms my dude, it really helped me reset my brain and level my depression
@@jeremiahsimmons5090 No
Hey all, As a 16-year-old (who has recently turned 16.) who has been battling with depression over the course of my lifetime, I've experienced my fair share of suicidal thoughts, so I thought I should share them here. It all started in elementary school. I was a happy boy, filled with curiosity about the world around me, making friends, and going outside and playing with the neighborhood kids. I was just like every other boy, finding out things about the world around me. I had parents and siblings who truly cared about me. It was during this year in elementary school that it truly happened. I was bullied... Around the age of 8, kids are kicking sand in my face, calling me a weirdo, and even throwing some insults in there. This happened to the point where I refused to go to school or go outside too. I felt as if I was doing something wrong. "Did I do something wrong?" and "Did I do something to make them think I was weird?" I've tried to tell my teachers about this relentless bullying, and they just brushed it off as if nothing was happening. The bullying got worse, and I was treated as a class pariah. At home, I usually do my math homework with my mother. She would hit me and yell at me for failing a math problem. Which made the situation even worse for me at school. I cried at night, hoping that everything was going to get better. My confidence and morale were non-existent. My grades were the only thing that kept me from losing my sanity because they gave me a purpose.
Middle school was the same thing; nobody wanted to talk to me. Which only made me feel saddened as people cast me out. I wanted to tell my parents about all the things, but I just thought it would end up like the same thing in elementary school. I was a quiet kid, trapped within my inner thoughts. All the good things that made me happy, like games, didn't make me feel happy anymore. It felt as if I were trapped within my void. It was like if there was a mountain and I was climbing up, I would just fall again, hitting curves as I spiraled downward. But I also met my first friend there. He was like me-a person that nobody wanted to talk to. It just happened; we just started meeting up every day. Talking to each other and becoming good buds. That was the time when I felt happiness in my life. During 8th grade, it was finally my "birthday." Feeling happy about spending time with family. So, I went downstairs to sing the Happy Birthday song until I saw my family members eating my cake. I felt so saddened and forgotten. I was so filled with emotion that I just ran back upstairs. My siblings tried to call for me, but I was in my room, crying on the bed. This was supposed to be my birthday? Why are these things happening to me? Then they dared to ask me to reuse the cake after the moment was completely ruined. I was just immediately hit with all the terrible memories of my childhood. I wanted to say no, but I was just too generous at that time. Fast-forwarding to the summer of high school, I had my first relationship with a girl in the summer. I was exhilarated, and I did my best to treat her well. It was weeks after the relationship first started, so I got onto Discord and noticed that I had messages from an unknown dude. So, I clicked on his profile to chat with him. He had evidence of my girlfriend cheating on me with him. So, I asked if he had photos, and he said, "Yes." I was immediately hit with photos. I never felt this much pain in my life. I felt so angry and saddened. I just spent the entire night crying myself to sleep. It was tears of pain and betrayal. To not experience these things again, I decided to close my heart. I was just a soulless husk; I felt as if I was done for. I was never invited to go anywhere with my siblings anyway and was given empty responses about my depression. Thanks for listening to my bottled-up problems that I've experienced over the years.
"My god, my god, why have you forsaken me?"
Edit 1: Thank you for the advice and support you gave me, especially for the ones in the comments section. I have some hope that there are good people out there that care for the human beings around the world. It'll be awhile before I can trust people again. 🥲
Bro.... Just believe on God...U will be happier soon..
Hang on. Please. You are worth more than you know. I’m sorry you have a mean family.
The problem is not yours,it sounds more like "theirs"!
Like you I had a miserable school life bullying,ridicule and few Friends!
At different times life seems like this,but you have to look back to a Bad time and think "I survived" that!
I have done this through my life and it focuses your mind on a positive.
Good luck in all you do,it does get better !
Dude, you’ve had a really tough start. I can tell you eventually as you learn about just how bad people can be - you will have most of the skills and character traits to find the very good people that are out there. It will happen quickly if you throw yourself into understanding people. You’ve already started by being vulnerable here on TH-cam. You’re already helping others that share a similar life story to yours. Thank you for showing courage on here! All the best mate! 👍🤗💪
hold in there, friend, things will get better
I don’t fully understand why I feel the need to hate myself, I can’t help it, I can’t stop, I find any compliments I receive are shattered by my negative self talk, I don’t enjoy life like I used to, I used to feel unbreakable and untouchable but now if you asked me what I think of myself I would say unloved, unworthy, and hopeless.
I only recently started attending therapy and I hope to find out how to pick myself up again and be happy with what I see when I look at myself.
Allways make allowances for people you don't know what they are going through may we all have more understanding for them and help more
Yeah it's weird isn't it?
I've made my way around this track a few times it seems, but they keep changing it. Not even sure if it's a circuit anymore.
Welcome to the government psyop. What's the "mission statement" of mankind nowadays? What are we collectively working towards? Answer: destruction!
It's a unilateral policy. The government hates the citizens. There is a trickle down effect. The scapegoat is blamed for the big problems that they didn't cause.
I like the word, "misanthropic". I dont feel depressed. I feel let down by society. It's sad and unfortunate. Nothing lasts forever.
Instead of flying cars and hoverboards we get phones and social media brainwashing apps. We went to the moon in the 60's? Now we're redefining women?
Stop consuming media poison, exercise, and raise a family. Be brave.
To anyone reading this, particularly men, don't let your ego get in the way of seeking treatment. I suffered 10 years with severe depression thinking I could just "Tough it out" finally one day I managed to talk to my doctor about it and got a prescription, I always said "I would paint the walls with my brains before I would ever take medication" and well one day I found myself sitting at my desk with a loaded gun and the bottle of pills my doctor gave me. I decided since death was inevitable what harm could come of taking a pill. Thank god I took the medication because it helped bring me away from the cliffs edge and engage in the things I needed to do to improve my mental well being ie exercising, sleep routine, eating right, meditation ect. Help is there, reach out, take the treatment. Peace be with you all.
Seeking help when all you have is Medicaid is not possible. I just pray for the end.
May I know what medication you took to help you out? I’ve been thinking of just taking the medical help instead of trying to fight the depression on my own just like these past 7 years
But my doctor just wants to put me on skizofrenia meds x.x
@@Interdacted well if you've been diagnosed with schizophrenia you should definitely make sure to take your medication to help you cope better
@@spoooook Lol. My nurse practitioner wanted to diagnose me with schizophrenia when I tried to explain inner dialog. At the time I didn't know the definition. So it was like, "Yeah I can't mentally visualize things so I just talk in my head."
I don't hear auditory voices that are not there. Nor see imaginary people. It would just mess up my brain chemistry more if I took meds that were not needed.
Also he diagnosed me with severe depression if I remember right. And anxiety.
To anyone suffering, I want to say I love you, and your soul is so beautiful, you feel depressed because you have a beautiful heart thats so pure and precious, that was unfortunately hurt..
You'll be ok, you'll get there, well done for even watching this video and seeking self help. Tap into your inner warrior, you've survived what made you depressed, dont forget that 🙏💜
Thanks so much! How are you?
@@nakshatramusic21 I'm great, thank you for asking 😊💜 I have a channel with spiritual content to help people Heal if you need help 🙏 Much love to you xx
this comforted me so much, thank you. i appreciate you so much, i love you so much
@@yunok.mp4612 😊💜🙏
Thank you for such kind words 😊.
I very happy by you Thank you and May God Bless You 😇🙌💚💕🤗
As I watched this, I began tearing up. Now that it's over, I'm still crying, because for at least nine months, I've been feeling just as the video describes. I mentally checked off all of the points described except for psychosis and suicidal ideation. I guess I should be thankful that I didn't have to check those off, too.
I was diagnosed with double depression years ago. This video was beautifully done.
These videos gives me a sort of comfort knowing that I’m not completely alone feeling all of this depression.
Lobo, Reduce negative thoughts with a strong desire to transform from within. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back erect, eyes closed, be still and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight with your thoughts. Slowly they will reduce and relax the mind. No deep inhalation-exhalation or breath counting needed. Anytime of the day or night before sleep sit or lie down and observe your breath. Be as still as possible as it reduces negative thoughts. Make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
You are not alone. I haven't spoken to my 87 year old dad for 6 months because I can't pick up the damn phone. Please go to therapy. It helps me. I'm 4 years in with my therapist and I go 2 times a week. You are wort of happiness. You are important, you took the first step with your comment. I wish you the best. Stay strong. You are doing a great job you made it through today. Hopefully tomorrow is better.
You’re not alone. It’s the normal thing now to be depressed and do nothing all day. People sit around and ponder their feelings all day. Then they cry and feel worthless because they don’t contribute anything to the world. It’s a vicious cycle. Only way to break it is to get off the couch and do meaningful things. Search google and find out how to help your community and improve yourself so that you don’t feel like a worthless pos living a meaningless life.
Love you
My sister's been diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety, and depression. I'm glad I only have two of those but I feel really bad for her.
Please support each other! Sending you all the best wishes, and let me know how I can help provide information/redirect you to resources.
- Monica
@@Psych2go can you please make video on mixed anxiety depressive disorder(madd).
You are doing a very good job Psych2Go.
By your videos I am now aware about my anxiety disorder and depression.
Have a nice day and thank you
same here. hehehhe except that I'm the one with the 3 diagnosis
@@sangeethamelshetty7509 can anyone advise, my son is 29 lost his day at the age of 6, I met his step dad about 20 yrs ago. He was in with a rough bunch in his teens and early 20 s. He drinks excessively and causes argument s. But when sober is loving considerate kind and giving. He hates his stepdad but I don’t no why. Police came to take him away because of trouble I don’t no how to help he won’t admit he has a problem
I think most of the world is
depressed. I hope everyone can
find the help they need to survive.
Stay Strong ❤
I have almost all of those symptoms, almost for a couple of years. These things never go away from me. They just linger in the side and just come back even when slightest of the things go wrong.
It's lonely to live like this when no one knows you are struggling and you don't even want to tell them because you always feel like burden of them.
I can earn money but what i lack is people i can fully trust but i have none. I don't trust my parents with all my problems. I almost hide everything from them because they are busy in there life trying to give me the best as they can but they don't know my life is a lonely life. Its misery when your brain wants to just die and never suffer the pain alone. And at top of that wehn you have self harm and self loathing and way to cope with things even feeling bad is scary at times
Thanks for the Video 🙂
It's unfortunate how many people, me included, can relate to many if most of these signs... I hope all of you are fighting the battle though!
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help..
I have most of these signs but I believe that’s just cause I’m a very lazy human being
Literally relate to all of them 🤦🏾♂️
If I ask you a question
Do you feel these things?
1. Something heavy on your chest
2. something squeeze your heart
3. Always wanting to cry
4. The most important thing - you have in your brain whispers, words, files that open and fantasies that you cannot stop or stop, and even if you want to sleep, you cannot stop talking psychologically
Been there, I was kind of in Hell. The good news is - you can and will recover. The not so good - it will take a lot of time (months for me - to get through the crisis part and years to become fully well again).
I hate my life and most everything around me. But i keep waking up everyday and drag my way thru each day
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back to my school. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES!
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest”
“Whoever drinks of the water I give them will never thirst again”
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I'm proud of you for being a strong person ❤️
why?
@@GhostMonkey772 cool, should've stuck to weed, alcohol gives you wrinkles and so does being a pushy used car salesman-esque xtian
Feeling suicidal sent me to mental health facilities where i was treated wrong, it was cold, and i felt completly alone, sleeping with towels and on plastic beds. Which is exactly why i keep my feeling bottled up 24/7 because what you say or do can extremely effect your life.
Yeah, well, you know, the point isn't to help you but to get you on paper.
Google the last chapter of the book “Blessings by Mary Craig. “What makes the desert beautiful “
Every day I am fighting this depression in all kinds of ways,but I am not getting anything for it,I feel that depression will not leave me anymore and it will be with me until the end of my life.I have endured this burden until now.I hope that people who are struggling with mental problems will reconsider the continuation of their generation.
This is literally everything that I've felt in the recent months.
Can I ask u do u feel 8 one too
Me too 😔
me too damn😭
me too :(
Years.....
How would I describe depression? It’s like hell. Anything that meant something to you stops meaning anything at all. Anything you liked or disliked becomes irrelevant. Nothing has meaning. There’s no point in life. Everything feels dull and empty. You feel as if you are seeing things through a dark lens. A lens that follows you everywhere. It doesn’t let you see the light in anything. You stop feeling excitement, hope, joy, inspiration, and love. Everything feels the same. You feel less like a person because nothing impacts you anymore. You stop caring. This life starts feeling like a burden. Like it’s weighing you down. Anything like money, society, people, goals, and schedules feel heavy. They have no meaning anymore so you stop seeing why you should care. It feel like you’re living somebody else’s life. It feels as if your life isn’t yours anymore but rather an illusion that weighs you down. From that moment on you start craving peace. Peace from this pain, and from this dullness. I used to say that I felt like a robot, like I was booted to do things but I actually didn’t care about doing them. I felt like I was rebooted with zero memory of positive emotions. And that’s how I have to carry myself through life. This is no way of living. It feels as if you’re already dead, as if you died a long time ago and are experiencing hell. As if your destiny is to kill yourself because nothing matters. You feel dead inside, as if your soul died and are forced to live in your body. It’s torture.
yeah, exactly. i do not wish it on my worst enemy.
Hey ..pls take care of yourself..Try to get a proper treatment soon...Ntg is more important than your life .
Yes. It is the worse disease that can happen to anyone. I honestly feel like I can't go on. I pray all the time that God helps me find a way out of this hell.
Just know that it’s not true that your soul died and your living in an empty shell. You are still here! And there are avenues to explore that can help reignite yourself. ❤️ I care for you.
True, I can't even express this much, I don't have energy left in me to do anything
God, i used to be clinical depressed years ago. It still has been by far the most extreme pain i have ever felt, it never goes away because its in your head. My symptoms started manifesting into physical symptoms. Even tho i will never be the same, I really am grateful for a the mental health professionals!
I usually have really consistent feelings of sadness and emptiness, and my emotions are really easy to manipulate. Recently one of my friends told me of their own plans on suicide, and I had a meltdown. I stayed up the entire night, and throughout the entire thing in was seeing shadow figures on and off. This is something i often saw, but i knew it wasn't real, but this time i couldn't tell. I'm just sharing personally my recent experiences. I'm very glad i found this video, and that youd made it, i plan on getting a diagnosis now that i know these things. To anyone struggling.
And as a sidenote, anyone who has suffered at all in any way, diagnosed or not, I'm very sorry. Especially to people struggling right now. Anyone who has lost a loved one to suicide, im also very sorry. Life is really hard and unforgivingly, sometimes we have bad things happen, but it's important to remember that the good times aren't over. Just wait and see, they won't always come easy, but they're somewhere. Thank you, and take care, you wonderful individual.
i hope u r doin fine rn, and i wish u the best in ur life, and i mean every single word 💜💜
The worst part for me has been trying to explain that I'm not depressed because of an actual situation or feeling. It just happens. I can't shut it off or get over it like most other people. It's an actual chemical or neurologic imbalance that requires a lot of different approaches just to function like a normal person.
i hope you get diagnosed if you haven't already, you arent alone in that feeling because my depression is similar. trust me when i say getting diagnosed helps a lot
@@AdachiCat ...No it doesn't. I got diagnosed and it hasn't helped at all. No change in my family or peers willingness to straight up say "so what? get over it."
Therapy and medication won't ever help if your supposed support system can't stop compacting your issues.
@@Cthulhu4President oh sorry to hear that. for me it helped and i hope it gets better for u
hi guys i guess we all are different.professional help also didnt help me.ill do anything to remove this pain im going thru.sometime you think the answer is suicide.thats why sometimes its better to be a wild child to survive in this world.many of us are far too loving and kind so when a major problem hits us i guess god can only help.sav im really happy and glad it helped you.great stuff,pray for us.thank you darryl south africa
Only temporarily does anything help me feel better or maybe there's just too much darkness in my life. Either way, I'm still on the runway never lifting off to change, to get up, to function properly. It feels impossible for to me to do anything. The thoughts and feelings about myself, about my past and future are crippling. It's costed me many relationships and jobs. I'm thankful to not be in some peoples shoes for I know it could always worse....but I do feel I'm headed for worse as my parents are up in years and I depend on them. which in and of itself makes me feel even more of a loser. I am a man of good intentions wish i could save the world like a super hero or something but I cannot even save myself. Is there really any hope to any of this?
I've been like this since I was 6 years old; I'm now 18. It's not normal teenage behaviour to feel completely overwhelmed by emotions and to experience so much psychological pain.
why do I feel this so hard, except change 6 to 4 and 18 to 17. Also when you relate to like literally all these symptoms except for maybe the phychotic one
When I was younger I hated my life (still do but ) I tried to kill myself with a wire the only person that knew was my sister (and she high key taunted me saying I wasn't going to do it) now that thinking about it, an 8-year-old shouldn't want to kill themselves rt? Meanwhile, I wasn't aware of depression or even knew what suicide itself was. I still also suffer from suicidal thoughts a lot but my worst fear is dying which is weird. (im 17 now) I kinda just accepted it and resulted to self-harm. I feel like every time I get depressed I'm getting closer and closer. And I really don't know what to do
@@Nina.444 You are strong!Keep fighting!Take care! ❤
@@Nina.444 i really do hope you get better stay strong Nina
@@Nina.444 you don’t want to die. You just want the pain to end. I almost succeeded in an attempt once. That’s when I came to this realization- a lot of people regret it at the last moment. You are so young, and have so much life to live. Please get help. Best wishes to you. I know it’s easier said than done.
We are Lucky we have Dr and many others who can help people get through tough times
I am related to all signs I've been dealing with depression from one year now and it's getting worse and worse I have suicidal thoughts feeling useless but the saddest part about it is that when no one understands and care about me
hey bro, i hear u and can relate on a real level. the healing process for the mind takes more than an injury, like u gotta surround urself wit people who care abt u, get a good support system, and chase ur own life. idk who u r and u prob don't know me, but i hope u have a good year and life. much luv to u 💜💜💜
I may be depressed or sum but i wont let anyone or even me, to lose interest on music, i will never push music away thats the only thing that can heal me even if it takes time
You are strong keep it up
Music has given same reason to hope for better days!
Thanks! I was just crying a while a go but my mood just changed then i started listening to song again, that makes me feel confident
I think it all about mental health we all need someone to talk to if there is none I think n end up talking. To ur self n then act cray cray
@@OnlyMrs.Kennedy Reduce negative thoughts with a strong desire to transform from within. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back erect, eyes closed, be still and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight with your thoughts. Slowly they will reduce and relax the mind. No deep inhalation-exhalation or breath counting needed. Anytime of the day or night before sleep sit or lie down and observe your breath. Be as still as possible as it reduces negative thoughts. Make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
to anyone suffering, i am proud of you. every day you fight a constant battle on your own that some people don’t understand or validate. you are loved and important, and you are not alone! stay strong
Thanks buddy you too
Thank you so very much
@@prabharavisundar4252 Firstly consult a psychologist if needed. Secondly do the following. Reduce negative thoughts to feel better. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back erect, eyes closed, be still and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight with your thoughts. Slowly they will reduce and relax the mind. No deep inhalation-exhalation or breath counting needed. Anytime of the day or night before sleep sit or lie down on your back and observe your breath. Be as still as possible as it reduces negative thoughts. Make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
I have and am currently experiencing each of these symptoms, it’s been years now…years of PTSD Trauma Therapy, medications & two Enforced Hospitalizations…
I’m crying while I write this, I’m so done feeling this way all the time. I never get peace from my mind other than when I’m asleep. I also hate so many people are going through this and I would love to talk to people and help them the best way I can❤️
I wish your mind peace. You're not alone, there are lots of people here with common comments. Some days are better than others. I wish you more of the better days.
Thank you so much for sharing a comment on such an old video. Thought I wouldn’t see anyone watching this around the time that I am who also suffers the same thing/way 💕
I'm only at junior highschool and in this kind of generation where grades are more important than learning or even health and this huge pandemic, it's so hard to really keep on going where you feel isolated, social anxiety had gone increased, and stressed. Where you couldn't focus on your responsibilities at all, much worse is parents being disappointed by you without them knowing anything. Man this sucks.
I graduated like 2 years ago. I'm 19. It gets worse once you realize that homework and grades were little petty annoyances because once you graduated, you'll be expected to fill that free time back up with nothing but work so u can pay bills
Grades really don’t even matter that much in junior high the only thing you have to fear is your parents
@@Mitksi in Asia, grades matter lmao
Also, without any help and enough knowledge in highschool, by myself, it's a total mess
@@hayes_theo194 :[ I'm sorry. Just know grades don't define ur worth whatsoever and that there are so many ways to live an adequate and awesome life regardless! Not saying u should loosen, just saying that it's not worth being too hard on urself over especially not at the cost of ur mental wellbeing
my big bro has depression and i once witnessed how severe his depression is when it gets triggered really bad. he has both auditory and visual hallucinations. it was heartbreaking to see him smacking his head, covering his ears, crying and telling the voice to stop 💔... im an aspiring psychiatrist and i will do everything to save my brother, i never wish to see him go insane 😭
You’re a good person. I hope your brother finds relief soon
aww, good luck, best wishes!
Damn I cried reading this like I wish someone in my life cared like you care about your brother 😪
Jesus Christ is the Great Physician. He wants your and your brother’s broken hearts; He wants to make you a new creation. He may not make the problems go away or fix them the way you want, but you’ll get through them with His help. If He calls your heart, answer “yes” to Him.
@@elisabethtrotter4564 You are cruel to paint over your **opinion** with 'this IS true'.
Either be honest and say 'This is something I believe' or keep your unjustified claims to yourself.
i turned 20 today. and all i can think about is how ever since i turned 16, i have been in this constant state of darkness, why isnt it getting better. every year on my bday i look back to my previous bday and realise how not a single cell in me has gotten better. every bday i hope that the next one will be better but it gets worse. feels like time have stopped moving, i feel like im stuck and frozen in time.
I’ve been in this state before minus the hallucinations, I come in and out nowadays. It just depends on the day and the triggers. I pray everyone here finds peace. 🙏
Feeling hopeless, worthless, fatigued, sad, crying, wading through treacle, feeling a low grade fever that goes on for months! Not wanting to talk to anybody or see anybody and going out to meet friends was like climbing Everest! That's how i felt.
but u got through it and it was worth
Sorry. Keep fighting.
@@klajdisinanaj3977 Reduce negative thoughts to have a healthier life. Simple practice. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back erect, eyes closed, be as still as possible and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight with your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep inhalation-exhalation needed. Anytime of the day or night before sleep sit or lie down on your back and observe your breath. Stillness brings internal peace. Make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
Poppy, Reduce negative thoughts to have a healthier life. Simple practice. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back erect, eyes closed, be as still as possible and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight with your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep inhalation-exhalation needed. Anytime of the day or night before sleep sit or lie down on your back and observe your breath. Stillness brings internal peace. Make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
Do u have Snapchat
It's the fact that my online friends more for me rather than my parents and school friends is sad
damn same
it sucks but it's true
this was so relateable
i love you
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its sad but its true, my discord friends are the only people that are there for me anymore
I care for you. We all, on here, care for you 💞
Thank you for describing my diagnosis so well.
Yes feel the same ...went to the doctors 3 years ago and i was told i didnt have depression...thats why i never want to talk and the more time goes by the more lonely in this i feel ... my heart goes out to anyone that feels the same
When you're a kid you never think this stuff will happen to you, but now I'm 26 and am relating too much to this video.
I went trough an existential crisis at age 7 man
26..fk man,i just dont know what to tell you
Why are you depressed?
I've struggled with depression and anxiety since I was a child. Trauma and abuse will do it.
@@tommyharris5817 well I meant their family like mom, dad, siblings, cousins, etc. but there are people raising families in their 20s my mom made that mistake with my 2 sisters cuz her and the guy she dated decided to do the tango too early and she ended up a depressed 20 year old single mother in a small apartment with 2 daughters 😬
If you feel like you're losing your mind, its a part of depression. It can relate to many many negative thoughts
Could you please elaborate on this? I feel like I'm good for the loonie bin at this point, and I felt validated by your comment
@@mariasasu8417how are u doing now?
Yeah I feel that
I've felt a number of times I've descended into the darkest places of my mind and also a number of times where I've lost control of my anger and lashed out at people. I honestly feel there are times where I should be in an asylum. Because I can't bear to live this way.
Got out of a toxic relationship a week ago, saw this was recommended to me and clicked to kind of see if I’m better than I was-realizing I matched up with all of them except psychotic thoughts and hallucinations. Lovely
This video makes so much sense to me. I thought I was tripping doubting myself and my thoughts
I had severe depression for the past 2.5 years (and still do but it's much better now). It's really true that you can't understand what it feels like to have depression unless you go through it yourself. The worst 2.5 years of my life by far...but I can say from the bottom of my heart that the ONLY thing that works is getting counselling and learning how to completely sink into your emotions and feel completely with no resistance.
Anastasiya, In life there are only 2 problems--mind and the body. To feel better reduce negative thoughts. Your breathing is closely related to the brain [mind] and gives good relief from stress-anxiety. To relax sit on a chair or lie down, neck straight, eyes closed and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. With daily practice the mind will relax. No deep breathing needed. Do the practice without any expectations. When taking a walk, at office, in college, when reading, before sleep etc observe your breath sensations. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Take morning sunlight walks, reduce negative social media and avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes--Counsellor.
Been diagnsed with Depression and ADHD already, and don't know why but before the video details the warning signs of severe depression I was able to speculate what it might tell...And after most of the signs, could easily correlate with them as if my whole body is feeling every word the video said...Also, am already on 25mg Nortriptyline so maybe my existing depression is dampen down a bit for now so as not to identify every sign...Could be a possibility; anyway I'm on weekly therapy continuously this time( Since last 1.5 years, been on irregular therapy and medicines )....So, let's see!
this makes me feel a little better
@@OZIking56 If you have stress-depression read the msg I sent you and do the simple practice regularly to feel better. Best wishes. Sr. Counsellor.
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Its also difficult because depression makes it hard to do things . Yet everyone keeps telling us that we have to do it cuz everyone else can. Like " what makes you think you can't get your laundry done. Your cousin can get their laundry done when they don't feel good ". Its been normalized that even though you have depression your just as capable as everyone else . When your not . Its debilitating and its hard to do things with depression.
yeah man I feel like i can relate, like in my case I just cant force myself to do a lot of things anymore, studies being one of them. Im doing a masters in physics but maan oh maan do i find it hard to listen to lectures or try working on an assignment, i see people doing such things actively, asking questions in class and things like that, but i can barely listen to one lecture now becauuse it just feels so hard to do anything stressful, i relly hope i can make it through this degree, i reaaally need a break after this, im gonna go away from home for a while and try to just relax somehow
@@ALPlays i suggest seeing a physiotherapist. They can diagnose you if you ask for a psychiatric evaluation. I'm due to get one tomorrow from my therapist
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It is also difficult because when due to mood, difficulty finding motivation, feeling overwhelmed, etc., I fail to get things done that need doing. Then later on, those things become problems that cause stress and just makes the whole situation worse. And yea, it's hard because then I find myself unable to explain to others why I can't even get basic things done and no one respects or believes me.
I understand the importance and power of positive and negative 'self talk' at an intellectual level, but I just can't make it work in practice. I once had a therapist literally tell me to 'fake it till you make it' in the context of focus on positive thoughts for a while, pretending to be happy, until eventually you begin to feel that way. But I can't just turn off unpleasant feelings like a mental switch. Then I feel even more useless because I can't even control my own mind.
I begin to feel that for some of us, we just are what we are and that isn't going to change so just have to find a way to accept it. What I mean is, in my case for example, I'll always feel out of place in the world and, yes, the world would be better off without me. I wasn't born by choice. But I'm here now and as long as I'm here I just have to trudge through it. Knowing that sometimes I'll feel ok, sometimes I'll feel painfully sad and hopeless, other times some where in between. It is an extra burden but the best I can do is to seek ways to continue to function while dragging that weight around.
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It's very hard to survive life this way. I didn't realised that was depression till now. From career faliure, to multiple surgeries to gf leaving. Every dream that i had is completely crushed now. I went from having a good life to having nothing to hold on to.😢
I have had these symptoms while I was in military. I never told anyon tho. This video help me understand what my mental health is experiencing. I have mad depression but have never been medically diagnosed!
i had this one friend who was my best friend for 8 years, she was the best and she was pretty much my everything, she'd saved me from suicide on multiple occasions, earlier this year she told me she didnt want to be friends anymore out of the blue and my depression has only gotten worse, to the point where i intentionally stopped talking to people i thought were friends only to find out they dont talk to me unless i talk to them first, so now i'm literally all on my own, trust issues and worsening depression, i just hope i find someone who actually cares about me that i can openly trust
Head up king
if you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help..
@@damchel1008 I know, the problem is I don’t trust anybody anymore Bc I feel like “well if she betrayed me then anybody else can just as well so better just not trust anybody”
Welcome to nothing and no one in the land of nowhere, next stop the grave.
I don’t know you. But I care. I care if you’re ok.
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I am a 13 year old German teen and the thought of suicide has been in my head for around 4 years. It all started when I first heard my parents arguing. When I heard them screaming I was scared, I didn’t know what to do. I already knew my dad had an alcoholic problem and my mom was already tired of him screaming at her for no reason. But still, I was scared. I couldn’t sleep. For many months i heard them argue EVERY NIGHT. While that happened, I just sat on the stairs, listening to them. Trying to give myself the idea of what’s going on so that I could help. I always had nightmares about my parent divorcing after that. But they stayed together for a while. While my dad’s alcohol problem got worse, my mom talked less and less. She was always doing something in the house so when I needed help with school, I had to ask my drunk dad. My dad (who also has Anger issues) obviously screamed at me when I didn’t know an answer. I feel stupid and often cried, when he asked me why I was crying, I just had to cry more. Should he know why I am crying? He is screaming at his own daughter in anger, just because she didn’t know the answer to a question?
That’s where I started to feel worthless. More and more, stupid. Then, middle school started. All of the sudden, everything was fine. I found my best friend, Emilia. But shortly before 7th grade, my parents got divorced. It was heartbreaking for me, now I know it’s for The best. But at first my parents wanted to seperate me and my brother, No way! My brother was the only one I genuinely told about my feelings, who knows that I’m just not the „funny friend“. We convinced them not to eventually. But times got hard. My mom was totally unhappy, and my dad was almost broke.
I just felt unhappy with life at that point, nothing really gave me joy anymore. At that point I thought about suicide the most. I didn’t want to tell my friends, I didn’t want them to feel like they weren’t good enough or that they did something wrong. I don’t want them to treat me any differently, I just want them to know. I started isolating, being „lazy“, not talking to anyone, listening to music all the time, didn’t leave my room. I was on my iPad the whole day and night. Fell asleep at 5am, woke up at 12pm. My mom called me lazy the whole time. Making me feel even more worthless, she even hit me once and then just left my room. 7th grade „finally“ started. I hated it and I still do, our classes for mixed up again. Now I was in a class full of the „cool kidz“. The ones who’d always bully you, smoke, get into fights and are just popular. I feel like they always eyed me up and down and find me annoying. I’m scared of saying anything in front of them, what If I answer a simple question wrong? What will they think? I struggled with those thoughts.
Just never feeling understood, feeling like I can never tell anyone about my emotions. Feeling like I’m just overreacting, I mean, some people have it way worse than me right? Many things between that have happened as well, I try to not talk about too many details as I try to shut them out due to trauma. But now, 8th grade started. I feel more used to my class but still unhappy. Almost none of my friends are there and they all moved on and got different friends. Friends that are cooler than me. I’m distancing again, online I’m pretending to be someone who I’m not. I’m pretending who I want to be. My mom still calling me lazy, Grades going down but I’m too scared to say anything. I didn’t go to a therapist. What if they tell my mom? I don’t want her to feel bad. But sometimes I just really want to leave, have a quick ending to all of this.
You should talk to your mother, she probably needs help too. Show this video to her and the video linked in the comments - it's not laziness. Maybe you both can find a way to fix what can be fixed... don't be alone, you don't have to deal with this alone. ❤
I wish I could offer you more than comforting words but I want you to know you aren't alone anyway❤️
I've struggled with this since I was younger than 13 too, and while I still struggle and some days I feel like it's worse than ever I promise it does get easier to handle, at least once you learn more about yourself and the things you can do to feel better or get through the the day. Unfortunately learning what works and what to do when you feel that low usually comes from trial and error, so please don't give up and stop trying because you will figure it out, it just takes time.
I know I can get through the hard days even when it feels hopeless and my brain is telling me otherwise because I've gotten through them before, so logically it has to be possible. I can tell you've gotten through hard days in the past too, and that's exactly how you know you are strong enough to get through the hard days in the present. You've already done it. Anything your brain tells you otherwise is a lie and you should try not to believe it as much as you can.
I know you might feel trapped and it can be really hard to talk to people about how you're feeling, but that is honestly much better than isolating yourself and keeping it bottled inside because that makes it harder to fight and it is really hard to feel like you're carrying around a secret about yourself all the time that you wish you could talk about. Even if there is no one in your life that you feel like will understand, if there is somebody that would just be willing to listen and believe you it can help so much. Even if you can't talk to anyone in person, there are lots of groups online or comment sections like these ones where you can tell the truth and unload whatever you need to, and there will always be people out here that understand you, even if we don't know you personally.
I can't give you any concrete advice on what to do because what works is different for every person, but I can at least let you know you aren't alone, and that I do understand what you're feeling inside and how horrible and difficult it is to go through this. Stay strong friend, because you're already strong❤️
Welcome to the upcoming decades of sad and miserable life. Depression and pain don't just go away. They stay. Become a habit . And they will destroy you even more then they destroyed you already. It's an adventure of finding even deeper depth after falling down to what seems to be the lowest bottom of a deep well of pain. Bro, you are only starting your life. Get some help, talk to a psychologist at your school or clinic. Trust me , it's going to be scary, but it's worth it to gather all of your resolve and bravery and just talk how you feel to a doc. They will bring you out from eternal hell and from there you can build your life again.
I read all of this and I just want to tell you , Your voice is heard.
I am going thru severe depression too. There were times when I could've ended it ,if it wasn't for the fact that I don't live alone and my suicide will bring a great impact on others' lives. And this makes it even more miserable. Coz the same people who I'm worried about are the ones who see my tears and laugh at me later. We are a family of seven , I'm in self isolation. I have no friends, no one. The only people who see me are my family who are just too emotionally immature to even grasp what Depression in. Everyone is in Denial.
Everyday is a never-ending loop.
I'm just staying coz I don't wanna die a Virgin 😅. No way I'm leaving without having my dick appointment.
Friends that are cooler than me... Some people have it way worse than me.. I think the same.
I am 4 years older than you. And I don't have much knowledge of the world and even though I also don't like living like this but I want you to continue living. I want you to find happiness and be next to your mom.
I was caught cutting my fingers with blades by mom and she told me that she doesn't understand what's going on my head but she doesn't want to see this again. She is fed up of losing people to suicide.
My father is an alcoholic. He is drinking less since some years but it is always at peak at the time of festivals. Now he is addicted to gambling and now my family is broke. I must say always my family had been always like this. The debts were less. But now it's a lot more. The sole thing I wish for is to grow up and earn and pay off those debts. This is the only way I see I can help my mom. From my childhood I have grown up in poverty, lack of food rarely (I never used to have proper meal back then but atleast got something to eat for survival when things became worse). My parents haven't divorced and never will (taboo in my culture) . My father treats my mom like a servant, beats her and I have seen him choking her neck. My brother and I used to cry but my father threatened us that he will beat her more and many other stuffs like that if we don't stop crying so we just have to watch it. I can't stop him even now when situation like this comes. Though less but the pain is same. I was left in a dark room alone when I wasn't able to solve the maths questions properly. My father taught me. So I have to study and perform good in academics but I don't know whether I like to study that's why I am studying or I am just scared of him. Maybe my classmates think I am lucky for having a financially good family, nice father(because he treats me nice only when I score under top 3 and obey his choices whether be it in clothes to pen or how I live). Some say that I am lucky that I am struggling less because I got supportive parents, have no family problems and I am good in academics (not seriously good tbh but atleast better than them). For them I am living a happy life. Getting everything without much hardwork. I studied hard and got into a school with scholarship. This year I was supposed to enter into a college but I am in home preparing for the entrance exams because I messed up and ruined everything. And I am unable to study because of these thoughts and many things.
I shouldn't write my problems like this. I am a burden anyways. Always complaining about it rather I should work by myself. I am like a bad omen you know.
I now know more about my symptoms and exactly what they may be leading to, thanks to this video. I relate to nearly all the signs here… I think that’s a _different_ sign that I should seek help…
Been through for like 3 years... This year might be getting worse but i won't give up😊
My father died 5 years ago, I was 20 when I started helping him in the hospice program. The doctors gave him 3 months but he held on for 5 years. Watching your hero wither away before you is a wretching experience. Now I'm 31 and feel like my 20s were not mine, not wasted but, I wasn't living them for me. Now I'm tired all the time and feel like I'm 10 years behind all my peers. I know it's all in my head.. I'm getting better bit by bit. My sister just disowned me because she feels I should be over it by now. We all heal at our own pace, don't let anyone try to rush you into thinking otherwise. Progress takes time. I dont know you, but I believe in you. Time heals all wounds, if you let it run it's course. Good luck my friends.
Your sister shouldn't disown you for that. if she can't handle your grief that is one thing, but abandoning you just makes things worse... I am sorry. Sometimes being around people with similar grief can be a relief if you can find the time or energy to see a support group. Best wishes on your recovery
@@saracurran5920 right? She was just mad that I didn't show up for a few dinner invites she sent to everyone. I guess I'm the highlight of their life because I was the only one that they screamed at for ever missing without reason. It is what it is. She'll come around in time, until then I'll just work and play the good brother. As always. Thank you for your kindness 👏 🙇
you get it
i was depressed and stopped drawing for like 5 years??
im 26 and see many artist way ahead of me but its what i want
i wasted 15,000$ once from my first job on my first move i couldve spent it more wisely but atleast now i know and im doing better for myself
Time doesn't heal wounds, we just learn to live with pain
@@tonyjay1723 my god I haven't mentioned to anyone how long I haven't drawn for. It's like that burning inspiration to draw has had a bucket of cold lake water thrown on the flame that used to make me immediately draw it down. Send me your drawings once you start. I used to do tattoos, murals, and concept art for my game nerds that need custom work. I love sci-fi and fantasy work. Best of luck. It's coming back slowly but surely. I wish you the same brother.
I was diagnosed with severe depression a few years ago when I was living in a homeless shelter. It didn't surprise me considering the sexual/verbal/mental torment I suffered as a child. It really hurts my adult relationships... I have no friends to hang out with and a lot of my coworkers usually dont associate with me because I'm quiet. I dont have the energy they have...everything is so draining and I cant afford therapy to help myself. I don't know what to do anymore.
I can definitely relate when you mentioned that your co-workers don't associate because you're quiet. That's the story of my life on jobs. I always start each job trying to be "normal", making stupid small talk, trying not to come across as stuck up or standoff-ish. But that gets exhausting and I slowly start morphing back into my quiet self. Unless there's a really good, deep topic that comes up, I'm not interested in the usual, pointless office chit chat. I'm much better with just doing my job, listening to music or TH-cam documentaries through my ear buds. But when I do this, I can feel the energy of being judged and then people asking me dumb stuff like "Why are you so quiet?" I always think "Ummmm, because I'm here to do a job; not fill the moments of silence with meaningless comments just to pass the time. Why do you need to talk all the time? Are you desperate for love or attention?" But I know that saying that would definitely isolate me more and probably get me fired for being looked at as having a smart ass attitude problem, on top of being antisocial. Maybe I should say that and just get fired, since I hate working with humans anyway. I don't know why people are so offended when someone is quiet. It's like they become extremely judgemental and assume something is wrong with you. But I think something is wrong with people who cannot be quiet on a job. Like, are they starved for attention or something? It's all just so exhausting. Struggling with the simplest tasks like showering, getting dressed, driving, etc. and then dealing with people on a job who have no clue what you've gone through just to make it in to work. And now they expect you to be a chatty patty for several hours a day. I don't have the energy for all of this and really understand why many people commit suicide. Feeling like you're just existing but having to "put on" for the sake of getting a paycheck in order to live is pure torture. It's like being dead already but going through the motions.
I can relate I don’t have anybody to hang out with and when I try to get to know people they look at me and treat me like I’m an alien. I have never had a consistent mate most guys tend to take advantage of me without me even realizing it many I have never met there families they keep me as a secret, one was married and I didn’t know for a while until he told me once I told him I was pregnant!! He pressured me to get an abortion every single day until he finally said you deal with being a single mother on your own I want no part to it. Sometimes I wonder what did I do to deserve being treated so cruel it really hurts me to the core to experience depression everyday!!!
I hope you are doing better. You're very strong and should be proud of yourself for surviving such hard experiences. I hope you have caring relationships but especially a caring relationships with your self. Solidarity and warmth.
@@moonsyoungestsun6550 i can relate to u.
Aaaaawwww bless ya 💛🙏
I quite frequently think about death. I always deal with negative thoughts and mood swings, and I've struggled with suicide in the past. I can relate to this video 100%.
You first have to care enough about yourself and that in itself is a battle. if you don't you end up like me 🙃👍
I just want Everyone to know that I've had/have depression for a Really long time; So Anyone suffering w/ this - I Am Totally on your side! No judgement - just support!!!!!
I’m 35 years old. I’m caretaker to my parents who are both very sick. It’s an isolating experience and I feel like life is passing me by. I’m nowhere near my life goals. I’m struggling financially and have basically given up on starting my own life. It’s even harder seeing former friends going through all of life’s milestones from dating, getting married and having kids, achieving career goals, etc. Maybe I’m just whining but it’s just stuff that brings me down.
Right there with you. It is possible to not be good enough. If it weren’t for people like us though, how would others know they were successful?
Do you have your physical health?
Karami you have a purpose just as important as having children, or maybe more so.... only God knows. He will bless you for enduring this and He USES YOU to provide for their needs at this dark time in their lives. He is loving them with your heart and hands.
I pray that one of my children will love me that much when the time comes that I cannot survive without help! A nursing home is never an acceptable option for my mom and I wouldn't want to go to one either.
Thank you for doing the work and giving of yourself. Realize that you are a HERO, and for sure, there is a reward that is irreplaceable and will be treasured for the rest of your life!
Life will have special surprises for you, but you can't understand that right now. You will be blessed in so many ways, and I hope that when that happens you will remember the one true God who is the lover of your soul.
PS. Don't forget that God uses people to bless us, so keep your heart open ♥️
@@2012Numo if I’m supposed to compare myself to my past then I will always be worthless. I’ll never be as good a person as I was yesterday. I’ll just keep on sinning and hurting people. Some of us only take from the world. I should have ended everything ten years ago.
Caregiver is a very hard job God bless them I'm one too remember we have no rights in a court of law from what I've read on forums so
I kind of became completely emotionally numb a few months ago and I really just stopped caring about most things. Nothing is fun anymore. I can’t maintain direct eye contact with another person because my eyes are so dead that I just look flat out creepy. I’m going crazy and I’m hallucinating black figures and hearing footsteps behind me and whispers at night. I’m starting to get used to it and have began to accept the changes for what they are. I have extremely intense urges that make me feel extremely energized for no reason at all, and it’s becoming to the point that I can barely play sports because I might hurt somebody. I have a small group of people I call friends, but lately it just feels like they’re more of accessories than actual people; like they don’t even exist, or maybe I’m the accessory that doesn’t exist to them. I have so many doubts about everything, but I’ve just accepted that things will never go the way I want them to, and they never have anyway. Maybe I’ve reached the final stage where nothing matters to me at all.
Nice video to get recommended when I am deep in depression.
I never truly realize the gravity of my mental illness until I watch videos like this. I have severe depression, CPTSD, Social Anxiety, and Panic Disorder. Every day is a struggle to just get through the day. I find very little joy in anything I do anymore, and all the things that were a key part of who I am just don't feel interesting or exciting anymore. I'm exhausted every single day no matter how much sleep I get. I constantly feel like something horrible is around the corner. It's like the anticipation of a jump scare in a horror movie, but the jump scare never comes. Just the fear.
I'm so tired of feeling like this.
Hey bro you’re not alone I feel like this everyday . I don’t know how I’ve made it this far but I think it’s my family why I’m still here I don’t want to make them upset what do I do
What were the things you used to enjoy?
You're not alone, idk if that helps but it's all I can say
@@iwantmycheeseback Reminder--To feel better reduce negative thoughts. Your breathing is closely related to the brain [mind] and gives good relief from stress-anxiety. To relax sit on a chair or lie down, neck straight, eyes closed and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. With daily practice the mind will relax. No deep breathing needed. Do the practice without any expectations when taking a walk, at work, when reading, before sleep etc. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a better life. Reduce negative social media and avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes--Counsellor.
omg same here
I have no one to speak to about how horribly this is affecting me. No one understands. 😞
I feel the same.
And it just makes you feel less of a person when they react that way.
I understand. Lots of people are also depressed. Please get professional help. You are worth it.
Please get some help. There are channels out there and support groups to get people like us going.
@@joebradley5021 Very addictive and dangerous
yay i relate to everything-
been diagnosed with depression a year or 2 ago and i just keep getting worse and worse while everyone says they're glad im getting better
*Me who is showing most of these signs:* Ah Shi-
😭ikr. Sis
We* who are showing most of these signs: Ah **** -******************************. This is not cool.
Count me in 😒😔
Me watching the video and reading the comments:
I might be just lazy *panics because I show many signs*
@@suraaiminath670 doubt worry we are here for you Sura Aiminath . I will support you . Don't lose hope on yourself ok . Stay safe.
I am 19 and i feel like i have lived enough 💕🙌
No, your life has only begun
Same age same feeling 🙂😔
14, same feeling
@@CommonwealthAndDaLads mate you are in the wrong place and shouldnt be facing these issues at such a young age 🙄try refocusing on yourself and stay away from social media for a while✌️ you will surely notice the difference..
I’ve had a lot of trouble making friends whatever “friends” are. I constantly am stuck in my head and filled with self awareness. Definitely feeling the mood swings but they feel like personality changes as well, since it feels like my mindset also changes. I live with roommates that invited me to live with them. I warned them that I wasn’t a very happy person as I pretend to be at work. They said it was fine and it was at first. I felt the help when for the first few months but then it started crumbling again. Especially when one of my friends/roommates started giving me giving me the silent treatment cause I asked them not to shine a light in my eyes multiple times. (I feel sensitive to light) It started to feel like the other roommate started avoiding me more as well even though she said she wasn’t taking sides (they were friends before they invited me). Friend 2 hasn’t outright ignored me but definitely avoiding as this is the 4th day in a row by myself in this house. I don’t want to be abandoned again I don’t feel like I can take that again and again. I can’t find joy. My roommate said that I need to “start swimming on my own” this made me angry cause, despite not knowing even a quarter of my life it felt like she dismissed all the loneliness that I have felt. And said “you are emotionally weighing me down” but she “still trying/is my friend” I don’t want to go through this miserable rollercoaster caused by a “friend.” But I can’t be alone anymore. These human f*ckers have infected me. I used to be able to ignore the pain of loneliness but now it hurts so much. I’m very tired of it all. All I see in the future is me standing by myself as I have not made one true friend/ someone who will stand by me as we work through it all. I don’t plan to live past 30 cause I have no hobbies, I don’t go out of the house unless it’s for work. I don’t sleep all the time because I have trouble. But all I do is use background stuff to pass the time till an event occurs ex: work. I can feel myself slipping much earlier than my plans though. It all feels so tiring. Have I been “trying?” have I earned happiness? Why don’t I feel joy anymore? Why can’t I be the perfect puppet I used to be? Why can’t I go back to that hollow shell? Living sucks. Why do you all try so hard? Why do I keep being told to look at the “little happiness” to keep me going? Why do I continue to live? (I know it’s for my family but they are like poison dealing with so I don’t truly experience complete loneliness? They hurt me in harsh ways but I can’t say I don’t love them. I really love them but it hurts to deal/ be around them.) once any of those pillars go then am I allowed to end this suffering? I know I’m not the only one suffering. But I can’t feel the support. I know people have it worse than me, but I still feel so miserable. Sometimes that acknowledgment makes me feel worse: “ I have had such a nice life, why the hell am I like this? Why do I feel this way?” It’s tiring but something I don’t know continues to push me forward even if I hate it all. There is nothing to look forward to.
This world is built to make people suffer. I know I’m different. But it costs a shit ton to figure it out, HOPEFULLY. Hospitals charge you $800 for a fucking 5 minute appointment. No diagnosis, no prescribing, just a FUCKING GUY IN A CHAIR GOING “how are you doing today? Oh, you just started depression medication, so that’ll take two months to start working, hopefully it will get better for you.” -OSF psychiatrist
Most of these systems I’ve had for years on and off. I’m seeking help again and find myself in the lows rather than highs more and more.
I don't really expect anyone to see this or pay any attention to this comment, but.
Back in 2012, I've had all these signs and later was diagnosed with a very severe case of depression. Those of you who too experience it now know how it's like. There was just no way out.
I seriously cannot possibly express just how much finding the right treatment, helps. I was so, so happy and relieved having this video recommended to me only to find out how so many of these symptoms either no longer exist or mostly gone. I will never be fully healed, I know that, depression comes and goes, but when it returns now (needless to say what a hard time it was thanks to the pandemic...), it was so much better to combat it.
Please, seek help. Even if it's a friend or a family who can help you out somehow. It saves life, and it *does* get better. I never believed it will, but it really does!
this is so inspiring to read. thank you and congratulations on your healing process friend ❤️ i’m slowly getting there
Upvoted so people in need may have more chances to see your positive comment. Congratulations for having reached such great achievement, by the way. Wish you the best: you deserve it.
what was your experience, if you don’t mind sharing? like what exactly do you mean by “a very severe case of depression”?
I was there once, over 10 years depression.I recovered, I’m really happy and proud that I didn’t give up and kept trying for years, today I’m good and happy to be back to life. YOU CAN DO IT GUYS💓
I'm glad you're better now, thanks for not giving up 💙
I've been like that for over 3 years and it's truely exhausting, I hope someday I can write a similar comment ..
@@Blue-wt9qi you will , keep fighting and do whatever it takes to get back to life. I went to therapist, talked to my family, read about self love and confidant, fixed whatever bothered me, healed from past trauma, got rid of toxic people, accepted my past and forgave myself. It takes time but it worth the effort💕
It's been a long time since I've given up, and there's only one way out.
@c a don't, hun. It's not funny.
i’m so happy for you! great job :)
35 plus years of depression and anxiety and I just live with it everyday is the same I'll be glad if I'm ever going to be free and be happy again
sending a hug....
Really important to recognise that some traits of adhd can make it seem like you’re depressed, eg self care. Important to understand what is the cause.