I just wanted to give a message to anyone who has been through horrible situations like this, You're not alone. You are loved by so many people and you may not even know it yet, keep your head high and stay strong. Only the strongest heart of hearts can go through terrible things like this. Never give up on yourself, always remember your self worth. ❤️
It’s aggravating how many of us had this done to us and yet it really do feel like we’re alone. I hate that men feel like they can do whatever they want.
For me being a male I feel so mad and pissed that people can just do this to women. I am in a healthy relationship with a sweet girl who had even through stuff like that and it makes me feel that the world we live in is shitty and people need to start to listen.
This song I just found from off tik tok but actually listened to whole thing and now I realize I relate to it a lot more than I thought I did and has influced to tell my own story
As a man I’m 17 hearing stories like this get on my nerves like what makes the male brain feel like it’s ok to do something like that to someone what give a man the right to take someone’s innocence the shit really gets on my nerves
@@Shiftyy_gaming1634 thank you😔 as someone that has been through this I know there are good guys out there my best friend is a guy and he's the one helping me get through this cause others are doing shit. So thank you...
@@julianariley3395 she was just making a point that this happens to so many women, she wasn’t saying that it doesn’t happen to men. you don’t have to go and turn it around like she’s saying it only happens to women like just stfu
@@elainamoore6983 I wasn't turning it around I was sharing my story sorry if it offended you. I was simply saying people are fucked up. And who's she there both guys?...
He was my boyfriend, he said i owed it to him, I had said no so many times but it didn't stop him forcing my clothes off, even when crying and screaming begging him to stop he told me "shut up im almost done", this was only one of so many incidents. I was 15. Its heartbreaking so see guys get away with it and leave so many girls broken.
Oh my God. This gave me chills down my spine. I'm so sorry, I wish I could take all that pain and trauma away from you. You didn't deserve any of it and I seriously wish he's locked up in jail right now. You are loved don't ever forget that💕❤️
I was his training partner in wrestling. I taught him everything he knows, only for him to use it against me that night after he filled my system with drugs. I don’t remember much from it but the next morning gave me ptsd seeing the bruises between my thighs and on my back, and the marks on my wrists and the pain of having to go to school and walk around although my legs could barely hold me up anymore and my body felt wasted. Hey, at least I still held a smile and he got to continue being a star athlete at our school.
You didn’t deserve that at all. This just shows how much of a pure heart you have by how you’re willing to be happy for someone who done such a horrible thing to you. I hope you’re seeking help and trust me, you’ll honestly feel a whole lot better if something was done about it. You have people who will support you through anything, stay strong❤️
It’s honestly heartbreaking reading the stories you guys are leaving in the comments. Remember, you’re not alone. There are people who care about you and support you through anything. Stay strong and keep your head high, you guys are true warriors.
He was my boyfriend, I was only 15. I told him I wanted to wait. He was a first date. He was 23, I was 17. I told him no and that he was hurting me, but he didn’t even acknowledge me. I was 14, and he was 36... it was a stupid Halloween party. October is such a shitty month for me now.
to your standards. I had been talking to my schools social worker when I was in high school, but I’m now graduated and can’t. Trying to find the right one for me
I totally understand, he was my boyfriend of a year and a half, you think you know a person but you never truly do. It happened multiple times, I stayed with him because I didn't want to believe that it was happening and that maybe I was just making a big deal of it but it became real when I would go home and try to use the bathroom but it hurt so bad and I would wipe to see blood. While he's out there living his life im here scared to be with another person thinking they're all the same and now ill never be the same mentally or emotionally. He forever changed and hurt me
Wow 10 years later I find the song that's closest to it.. EDIT: i didnt know my comment would blow up like it did but i pray each and every one of you stay strong 💖🥺
Monday March 23rd She cried because the pain was unbearable, she cried because no matter how strong she was, he was still stronger. He could hear her crying out and begging him to stop, but it only seemed to make him want more of her. The louder she got, the harder he went, the more she wept, the more he took. So he kept on taking what he assumed belonged to him until he was satisfied. And at that moment, the rest of the innocence that she had barely been holding onto, was drained from her eyes. She stared off into nothingness while he spoke in the background. His voice was muffled and her smile was drifting. She felt frozen, lost, isolated, worthless, completely fucking empty. Begging and screaming “ please stop I can’t take it. I mean it”. but he keep on going panic overflowing tears is flowing. Man I barely even know him, why do He feel like I owe him? Any part of me at all, he took that shit as if he fucking owned it. All I’m doing is relaying what I’m thinking but not saying. I’ve been locked up with my own thoughts, I ain’t even fucking praying. I been locked inside my room, I feel like I been going crazy. Why the fuck am I so chill about it? Why don’t this shit phase me? Front seat of his SUV, we drunk and he on top of me. It start to hurt so fucking bad so I’m like, “hold up - get off please.” But he say I ain’t running till he cumming and Imma take the D. And now I’m fucking crying, I can’t take it, he ain’t listening. But fuck it - ya’ll don’t get, ya’ll could never fucking understand. How it feel to be a woman,stuck under a fucking man. Crying and you fighting - and you can’t even move his fucking hands. Lay there and you crying, till he’s done with his fucking demands. Just in case some of y’all motherfuckers uneducated. Let me break it down, shut the fuck up just listen - I’ll explain it. Any woman can change her mind at any time, fuck the arrangements. Matter of fact, it’s the fuck with sometimes she don’t even gotta say shit. I know that it’s hard to understand when you a selfish man. And everything in your life was given to you from someone’s hands. So everything you see in your life, you take it, done it all your life, man, why you think women so pressed to walking round with guns and knives? When I told my wife, all she said was, “ damn, thanks for sharing”. If it ain’t my best friend, then who else is supposed to be caring?told another motherfucker, he ain’t believe it said I was trippin’. What’s the fuck the point of saying shit, that’s why I keep this shit in. And the shittiest part about it was man he was my own motherfucking blood. And I don’t mean a relative, I mean the gang, it fucking sucks. When it be your own people who fuck you up like yo, what the fuck? You supposed to protect me, now I don’t even wanna throw signs up. I’m scarred for life it’s hard to find my old self, I lost my own mind. But just like every other trauma in my life - man, I’ll be fine. I ain’t so snitch, I recognise that karmas real and so am I. So fuck it, keep it pushing, just let him believe in his own mind. I’m good, man - don’t ask me how i’m feeling, how I’m doing. I’ve gone years and years without human connection, ya’ll done ruined my perception and my movement. Talking to myself, I’m fluent. I’ve been screwed over so many times by my own kind, so fuck ya’ll, screw it. My own father have me the greatest piece of advice. She said that “ the older that you get the more you will start to realise.” And now that I been growing up, I see that he couldn’t be more right. This bullshit happened right after I fucking lost him, how ‘bout that. Now everywhere I go I gotta deal with another fucking man. That just ain’t him, I hated him, fucking mad I want him back. Honestly, I just miss my fucking dad.
It truly hurts reading all of these comments and seeing what everyone has gone through. I am truly grateful to find this song and be able to learn more and go more deeply into the consent of what it does to others physically and mentally. It makes me EVEN MORE aware of who I go out with/ who I trust/ and who I can open up to. I am terrible sorry for those who had to go through it. Please know you're worth it, you're loved by so many people even if it doesn't feel like it right now, and PLEASE NEVER give up on yourself even if you feel like you can't do it.. because we all know deep down you most certainly can ok? We are all here for you💗
It happened when i was 6 years old the first few times happened was with my sisters boyfriend at the time and then when my dad relapsed and left for 6 months leaving all of us to fend for ourselves. then the second dude showed up he was my best friends older brother the person i thought of as my own older brother the one i trusted took whatever he wanted from me for those 6 months and i couldn't even speak up about it because i was afraid of him hurting my family. I didn't say anything for 11 years and the sad thing is ill never be able to feel safe in my own room again. But its been a 1 year since i opened up about it im in therapy and im actually getting my life together, im not afraid anymore but i'll never be able to fully forget what i went through those memories will always be apart of my life but i wont let them stop me. For all the others that have been through any type of sexual abuse stay strong keep fighting i know its hard but you can do this your not alone.
I'm truly so sorry that you had to go through that. Reading these stories are honestly breaking my heart, stay strong. I'm so glad you got out of it and you've pushed yourself to talk about it. You're so strong for even being able to go through that.
This. Described what happened to me almost to a t. I was 18. My first month ever away from home. A freshman in college. He was my “boyfriend”. The more I said no or stop, the more he kept going. It’s been a little over two years. I hear his name and I shake. I haven’t done anything with anyone since then. I can’t even go out on a date without having a panic attack or puking from the nerves. Thank you for putting this out. It means so much to so many of us silent survivors.
@@catso7236I’m actually in a very healthy relationship with the love of my life!!! Thank you so much for asking! I’ve found my peace with what has happened to me.
2 years ago I was 13, he was my uncle, he was supposed to care for me. I couldnt breath, I lost myself. I hate men, but it hurts being a trans male myself. You cant escape
I know exactly what you feel it happened with me too when I was 6 up to 12 I'm 14 now I havent told anyone. I guess that's why I'm transgender male too
@Makala Pinterich-Harvey I really hope you and everyone else who has gone through something like this is okay I haven't had this happen to me and I could never understand what you went through and are still going through . I hope your okay and you talk to someone about it.
Someone that was supposed to love me, be my best friend and protect me, did it to me for years. My ex husband said that because we're married I owe him and he took it almost every night. He didn't care if I tried to be agressive and he didn't care if I cried through the whole thing...
@@toyourstandards.832 Thank you so much. It's been 6 years but I still suffer from PTSD and probably will for the rest of my life but I'm working closely with my therapist and advocate for victims of marital/spousal rape.
@@stephaniegonzalez2535 This is something that's impossible for anyone to forget about, if anything, it makes you into a much stronger person. You're doing such an amazing thing by helping others get through it. Keep doing you, don't let your husband win.
This song, I listen to everyday. Bawling my eyes out... when I have the flash backs or nightmares of the constant repeating trauma, I listen to it to feel less alone... especially when she talks about your own blood.. mine was literal blood... from 2-14... and I had no one to help me... everyone I told just hid it, or my mom didn’t believe it and accused me of selling myself to her boyfriend and friend... My dad got mad at first at them but then I guess that hatred faded fast because he never did anything to help me.. never even tried comforting me...
As a man, it’s hard to comprehend songs and experiences like these because you’re left just speechless, in shock, And then I start to think about how victims must feel, that terror, I have so much admiration for people who are able to smile and stand up, despite being broken, It’s Heartbreaking, but know you’re loved, and cared for by the millions of people like me, who can only offer their support, and ear Really all I can say is I’m terribly ashamed of those monsters, who lost their right to be men, let alone to be called humans,
You can do so much more then offer love and support. If you have kids teach them consent, and how to be respectful. Also call out the behavior of friends and family.
This song got me through my own situation. You telling your story allowed me to come to terms with my own story. To be able to actually voice what happened to me to some degree. To anyone else that has been through this, I pray you find peace.
anyone going through this, I love you. stay strong, this is not your fault. you are loved and if anyone thinks otherwise, they could piss off. i am proud you made it far and not let him/her take control over you/your life
i played this for my sister and she said he whole body felt it. ive felt this fear from a man before and im only at the age of 14. this world if filled with fucked up man identities and us women need to stick together through it all because its a scary world out there and i gotta say this is one of the moment heart felt songs ive ever listened to i love you bj and i love your music keep up the amazing hard work and passion you put into your career because one day every bitch that came across you with a negative attitude will realize you made it without them.
He never stopped and my mom said never tell unless you wanna ruin the lives of your siblings. Wtf what about my life? I'm the one dying. I fear men because of him
My dad, my friends dad, nurses in the mental hospitals, and my friend raped me My best friend was raped by her step dad My friends were raped even 3 guys I dated We all tried telling people but we didn’t tell people out of fear My best friend and her mom would be homeless Me I’d be called a liar and other names
This song makes me want to share my story.. I was dating this guy. He always touched me no matter how many times I said no.. no matter how many times I moved away.. then I was with someone I trusted for 3 years.. he stole my virginity in front of my friends while I said no. I ran out of the room when he was done. He continued to do it for years. Sneaking into my room making me vulnerable and taking advantage or doing it in my sleep while grabbing me tightly. Silence does not meen yes.. she’s just tired of saying no
my heart breaks for the ones who have gone through something so horrible like this. it breaks my heart even more to know that my sister and my cousin went through this💔 it hurts more to know that i can’t help them from feeling this pain everyday.
If you're listening to this and related, I am so sorry you had to go through such a horrifying event. Just know that you are beyond strong and it wasn't your fault. Me and so many others are here for you and have noticed your cries for help! I love you don't give up 🤍
It happened to me when I was about 5 or 6, I can't remember, the second time I was about 8. He was my grandpa and I hadn't really pieced together what had actually happened until this summer, I'm a freshman in high school. Now I know why I get nervous so easily and before I told anyone I was so afraid no one was going to believe me and I considered it might be easier on our family if I just died. I finally told my parents after I was supposed to spend the night at my grandparents. I now am able to numb myself to the memory except for whenever I come in contact with a trigger, and I just fall apart. Sometimes i'll be really upset for a few days, and then I can let it go for a awhile. I didn't tell my friends what happened to me, and I have only told a few. I explained why I have so many trust issues and why I am a bit socially awkward. He took advantage of me and took so many things away that no one could ever recover. I have issues with feeling guilty for no reason, and its his fault. It honestly made me a bit upset when one of my friends said "well look at how much stronger it made you". I didn't need to be stronger at 5 or 6. I needed to be protected. HE was supposed to protect me from other things. I didn't understand what was going on. I thought that because my parents and the doctors could see me naked and touch me he could too, even though I felt awful. I can't express how much it means to me to see other peoples stories and to hear a song that so closely applies to me.
I felt this in my soul. I'll forever have a broken rib that healed just under my left breast. I couldn't fight a gun, knife & bat nor his strength. One day though, he'll get his. 💯🙏
Dude I know I’m literally just another follower that just started real deal listening to your music again and deadass thank you for being you and being here for your followers and sharing your life in your music. I needed to hear something and tell you I appreciate everything you do even if it’s not for me. OnMarch23 broke me down cause of me relating too muchh it boy im glad someone made a song showing people how it is and I appreciate you. Thank you
I was 7 and you where 14 when you first touched me. I thought it meant you loved me. It’s sad that I now know that was far from the truth. It continues. You slowly worked your way up to forcing me to touch you. And put my mouth on you. Years went by and I was 13. The day after I got out of the hospital for trying to end my pain, you took it to yet another level. For the first time, you forced yourself onto me. As you took something that was not yours, I laid there in pain and as I was slowly losing my will. Things stopped for a bit but yet again you took me to the corner and did the same thing. It was supposed to be a good night. I had just gotten home from my 1st homecoming as a freshman in high school. After you were done, you said “that’s what your supposed to do on the night of a school dance.” I told my mom but since you were her husbands kid, she didn’t believe me. She acted like I had never told her. I can honestly say you will never get the fucking chance to do the shit you did to me ever again. You’d literally have to kill me first.
This song helps me through my trauma more than I believe anyone understands.... Thank you Bj for speaking up and giving me the courage to do so as well
0:02 , the sigh at the beginning because songs like this have to be created to spread awareness is heartbreaking. It really is tiring knowing that if people weren’t corrupt and pure evil songs like this wouldn’t have to exist. I honestly don’t understand how anyone can be so cruel. It’s awful. Humans are the most pure evil in the universe.
The fact that someone can look someone else in the eye and ruin them entirely is painful to think about. How can you take away a persons modesty, will to live, indact how can u take everything off of somebody, strip them of everything they have ever been, of their entire being, and then have the ego to laugh it off or deny it. My heart goes out to all survivors of rape and SA. It’s not your fault babe. It’s the toxic, evil, awful people who did that to you.
I was 19 and just moved to a new town with my person and their friends. It happened twice in 2 days and when I confronted them they laughed and said “so you’re one of those girls” then I left I lost so much of myself I’ll never be the same I can’t be me anymore. It hasn’t even been a year yet the flash backs went away but then they came back and no one understands
Mine was at a birthday party and he dads friend got too drunk took me away from everyone as i yelled but the music was so loud nobody heard me... it was march 19th 2019 I was 12 years old and that's when I died inside
She cried because the pain was unbearable She cried because no matter how strong she was, he was still stronger He could hear her crying out and begging him to stop But it only seemed to make him want more of her The louder she got The harder he went, the more she wept the more he took And so he kept on taking what he Assumed belonged to him, until he was satisfied And at that moment the rest of the innocence that she Had barely been holding onto was drained from her eyes She stared of into the nothingness while he spoke into the background His voice was muffled and her mind was drifting She felt frozen, lost, isolated, worthless Completely fucking empty Beggin' and screaming, "please stop, I can't take it. I mean it" But he kept on going, panic overflowing, tears is flowing Man I barely even know him, why do he feel like I owe him? Any part of me at all, he took that shit as if he fucking owned it All I'm doing is relaying what I'm thinking, but not saying I been locked up with my own thoughts, I aint even fucking praying I been locked inside me room, I feel like I been going crazy Why the fuck am I so chill about it? Why don't this shit phase me? Front seat of his SUV, we drunk and he on top of me It start to hurt so fucking bad, so I'm like "hold up- get of please" But he say I aint running 'till he cumming I'mma take the D And now I'm fucking crying, I can't take it, he aint listening But fuck it- y'all don't get, y'all could never fucking understand How it feels to be a woman stuck under a fucking man Crying and you fighting- and you can't even move his fucking Hands, lay there and you crying Till he's done with his fucking demands Just incase some of y'all mother fuckers uneducated Lemme break it down, shut the fuck up, just listen, I'll explain it Any woman can change he mind at anytime, fuck the arrangements Matter of fact, its the fuck with sometimes she don't gotta say shit I know that it's hard to understand when you a selfish man And everything in your life was given to you from someones hands So everything you see in life, you take it, done it all your life Man, why you think women so pressed To walking around with guns and knifes? When I told my wife all she said was "damn thanks for sharing" If it ain't my best friend, then who else is supposed to be caring? Told another mother fucker, he ain't believed it, said I was trippin' What's the fuck the point of saying shit Thats why I keep this shit it And the shittiest part about it was he was my own blood And I don't mean a relative, I mean the gang, it fucking sucks When it be your own people who fuck you up, like yo what the fuck You supposed to protect me, now I don't even wanna throw signs up I'm scared for life, its hard to find my old self, I lost my own mind But just like every other trauma in my life- man I'll be fine I aint no snitch, I recognise that karma's real, and so am I So fuck it, I'll keep punching, just let him believe in his own mind I'm good, man, don't ask me how I'm feeling, how I'm doing I've gone years and years without human Connection, y'all done ruined my perception and my movement Talking to myself, I'm fluent I've been screwed over so many times By my own kind, so fuck y'all, screw it My own father gave me the greatest peice of advice, he said, "The older that you get the more you will start to realise That no one actually gives a fuck And won't for the rest of your life" And now that I been growing up, I see that he couldn't be more right This bull shit happened right after I fucking lost him, how 'bout that Now anywhere I go, I gotta deal with another fucking man That I just ain't him, I hated him, fucking mad I want him back Honestly, I just miss my fucking dad
Trying to live your life and everything ends up being scary is so hard. I hate not being able to breath when a man is on top of me even if I told him it was ok. It never ends
Saturday 22nd February 😔 thank you for sharing your story you've given people something to relate to and a way to come to terms. I'm sorry it happened to you but thank you for sharing ❤️
I was 5...it was my dad.... This song knows how I felt then I got away from my dad it started up again when I was 8 with my cousin... It's still happening and nobody is doing anything I told someone but they don't care..
If it's still happening, get out of there. That person clearly should have nothing to do with you, call the authorities, a loved one, someone. Please, get yourself to safety.
Went through this with my step dad at a young age. I wasnt in tears or anything just really confused because it had happened at such a young age. But now...now I understand completely that why he had done was completely wrong and it brings me tears everytime someone brings it up. I wish I had known it was not an okay thing at the age I was but I didn't...
It breaks my heart that anyone has ever gone through this and my heart truly goes out to you. You are beautiful and loved. Never stop seeing the light at the end of the tunnel❤❤❤
He didn't even know me I was 12 and he was 18 he knew better, he took what he wanted and left me alone like I was a piece of trash.. my parents told me I was lying and his bestfriend told me I deserved it....5 years later and I'm still not the same
It was my 20th birthday. We had a party to celebrate. I told him no so many times. My “friends” that were at the party told me it was my fault because I was drunk. But drunk me told him no. I made a police report but they never arrested him, told me they couldn’t find him. It’s been a few years now but I still have nightmares about it.
Sexually assaulted by my mom's husband for 8ish years till I finally had the courage to tell people on 21st May, 2019. Only to find out my mom knew most of the time and did nothing. 17 now and finally getting my life back after so many long and horrible years. We were survivors not victims.
November 23 changed my life.. I was 20 he was 47 and saying "no stop it hurts" multiple times didn't faze him I felt like I left my body and blacked out I had a panic attack after.. I'm a survivor this song has brought so many stories out we are all strong women!! #Keepfightingthefight
This hasn’t happened to me, but I know a couple of people who it has happened to. I’ve stuck by them the whole time, but this song makes me want to go and ask them if I can hug them because I could never imagine the sheer terror when you’re actually the person who goes through this. 🥺
The first one was my father... Then my brother... My brother's supposed "friends". I never got over it. I was made to seem like I lied about it or that it never happened. When I told the police, my own mother protected them. Said I didn't know what I was thinking. Talking about. That it was all in my head. The cops believed her. I'm traumatized. I now suffer from manic depression, anxiety, BPD, PTSD, and suicidal thoughts. I've tried many times to end my life. I'll never get over it. And I'll never forget. To those who been through this kind of ordeal, I'm so sorry, and know you are not alone. Keep fighting. We are all survivors. And this song helped me come out with my story. So thank you.
I’m stull trying to fight it... it’s my grandmas love of her life and I don’t want to break it, this song calms me down. It started when I was 8. I’m 12 now and it’s still going on.
@@jaclyndiercks5085 Darling if it is still going on then you have to ask for help, love. You don't deserve this and neither does your grandma. You have to fight for yourself because this will scar you, no one deserves this hun.
Honestly I listened to this song so many times that I actually relate to it. From what happened to me when I was 13, I finally had the gut to tell someone. Now I'm 20 and that's the best thing I ever had done.
I’m so sorry for everyone your not alone this is why I’m so scared for my daughter to grow up in this world we live in ❤️this song touches my heart I can feel the pain reading these comments are making me cry I know how it feels 💔
This is the first time I’ve been able to get myself to listen to the whole song. This shit hits hard. Why does no one understand this except for the people who have been through this and similar situations
This is why I love music even when I try talking to my parents about what has happened to me they just won't help and counciling made me feel extremely alone I wish that this song came out when it happened so I can see that I wasn't alone
I'm late to this song but I was only 4 or 5 and he was my stepdad, that was the first time. Over the years he would continously do it. I told my best friend when I was 12 and she had also went through the same thing but with her brother. After that we bonded and got closer. For a year she encouraged me to tell my mom and when I was 13 I told her, at first she didn't do anything at all and I hate her for that but when I went with my grandparents he finally went to jail but he went to jail when I had turned 14...I'm 14, I have a boyfriend who knows and does nothing but protects me, my bestfriend told her mom and her brother is away,and I'm in therapy still healing. Thank you for reading my story, stay strong❤
He was my boyfriend four years ago. We went to a hotel. He started taking my pants off and i said no. He continued and I cried. Didnt stop tell he saw me crying. I told my cousin and she didnt care. I have an amazing support system now who loves me for me.
I was sexually assaulted at 13 by a guy the same age that was suppose to be my friend. The cops didn’t take it seriously I had to ride the bus and stay on classes with him. He eventually got took in 2 months later then the judge let him off with a slap on the wrist I got a sorry and a hand shake. Now he is on trial for the same thing he did to me. Bad part is they won’t take what he did to me and mention it cause it was so long ago but I live with the pain and despair everyday since I have to take medicine to handle my PTSD Anxiety and depression caused by it.
Saw this used as a sound on tiktok and had to find it. The 5 year anniversary just came. I'm in a really fucking dark place. But hey at least I was smart enough to hand my gun over to a friend I can trust when I can't trust myself. This shit is so fucking hard to deal with.
This song makes me cry Everytime.. thank you BJ for speaking all woman's truths..I had this happen to me as well and your words have helped me let go and move on in life..thank u
I was at a party one night and he was a mutual friend of mine. I told him no but he didn’t listen and nobody believed me when I told them what happened. It’s been 6 months and I saw him the other night at a party and I froze because I was terrified. The worst part about it was he tried to talk to me like nothing happened
My brother's friend I was 5 6 or 7 and he did everything with me and ofc I was confused bc I was little and I didn't really know anything about that stuff but yeah he did it in my mom's house in the living room and everyone was asleep and yeah I'm 12 right now and I still think about over and over and I wish that stuff that he did to me never happened but life is not fair so.... just got to live with it....and thank you so much for this song it really makes me feel nice bc u understand and so much more people...and all those people out there had to deal with this shit I hope one day u will release u are beautiful and a strong woman and u are so much better then that person ok.thx💕🙂💕💕
I love this so much I was raped by 5 men a man I really trust got paid to let them do it this song hits hard this is the first time I've said it out loud what happened it been a long time and I still have nightmares
When i was in second grade i was going to piano lessons with my friend and we had this teacher who was touching us while we would play and if my friend didn't tell it to her mother it would probably go even further, im so glad she told her because i wouldn't do it. I'm terribly sorry for everyone who has been through this, you're not alone and you are loved
It breaks my heart to read these comments, can’t imagine what you people must’ve gone through! I just hope y’all are doing okay now and just know that you’re not alone, those mfs will pay for what they did! You’ll are so strong, thanks for not giving up, I’m proud of y’all!
it just took me 20 minutes to find this song because i once saw a draco tok video with it and now around two years later i was thinking about it so now i’m here
I heard this song on TikTok and learned every word in one day..I only told my mom and she was supportive of me and didn't judge me for anything. I've had it happen to times...once when I was younger and last one was September of 24..
It’s mad how this hits hard knowing this feeling is the worst I wish I could go back nd never met the guy it’s so hard thank you for this it’s helping me through the bad times ❤️
I just wanted to give a message to anyone who has been through horrible situations like this,
You're not alone. You are loved by so many people and you may not even know it yet, keep your head high and stay strong. Only the strongest heart of hearts can go through terrible things like this. Never give up on yourself, always remember your self worth. ❤️
Thank you , it's sad but I'm been through this my uncle did it to me when I was little... and I still can feel it .. 💔
@@em-mm9hm I'm sorry you had to go through that, stay strong and focus on healing.
Stay strong and keep on healing po❤❤❤
Can this be put on Spotify
You spoke words that I knew image by image. Every. Single. Word.
It’s aggravating how many of us had this done to us and yet it really do feel like we’re alone. I hate that men feel like they can do whatever they want.
I hate guys who think that doing it against a woman’s will is ok...
As a victim myself this comment amongst others couldn’t be more true! #survivor #abuse #menaintshit
For me being a male I feel so mad and pissed that people can just do this to women. I am in a healthy relationship with a sweet girl who had even through stuff like that and it makes me feel that the world we live in is shitty and people need to start to listen.
This song I just found from off tik tok but actually listened to whole thing and now I realize I relate to it a lot more than I thought I did and has influced to tell my own story
Let your voice be heard, speak up about it. You're not alone.
💜💜💜💜💜💜
So do I
Same I just cant tell anyone I already get abused
Same but I jus wanted to listen to the full song but jus remember that ur strong and u can do anything u put ur mind to😁
This had me crying and shaking and for the women who can go and speak up I have so much respect for yall
Hits hard , Im a man but I swear never do anything horrible to anyone. Love the song
As a man I’m 17 hearing stories like this get on my nerves like what makes the male brain feel like it’s ok to do something like that to someone what give a man the right to take someone’s innocence the shit really gets on my nerves
It's so sad it happens to men too... People are so fucking horrible and discusting
@@Shiftyy_gaming1634 thank you😔 as someone that has been through this I know there are good guys out there my best friend is a guy and he's the one helping me get through this cause others are doing shit. So thank you...
@@julianariley3395 she was just making a point that this happens to so many women, she wasn’t saying that it doesn’t happen to men. you don’t have to go and turn it around like she’s saying it only happens to women like just stfu
@@elainamoore6983 I wasn't turning it around I was sharing my story sorry if it offended you. I was simply saying people are fucked up. And who's she there both guys?...
He was my boyfriend, he said i owed it to him, I had said no so many times but it didn't stop him forcing my clothes off, even when crying and screaming begging him to stop he told me "shut up im almost done", this was only one of so many incidents. I was 15. Its heartbreaking so see guys get away with it and leave so many girls broken.
It truly is heartbreaking. I'm so sorry you had to go through that.
Im so sorry..
Oh my God. This gave me chills down my spine. I'm so sorry, I wish I could take all that pain and trauma away from you. You didn't deserve any of it and I seriously wish he's locked up in jail right now. You are loved don't ever forget that💕❤️
the exact thing happened to me at 11 im so sorry
My ex did this to me too and didn't care about my feelings
I was his training partner in wrestling. I taught him everything he knows, only for him to use it against me that night after he filled my system with drugs. I don’t remember much from it but the next morning gave me ptsd seeing the bruises between my thighs and on my back, and the marks on my wrists and the pain of having to go to school and walk around although my legs could barely hold me up anymore and my body felt wasted. Hey, at least I still held a smile and he got to continue being a star athlete at our school.
You didn’t deserve that at all. This just shows how much of a pure heart you have by how you’re willing to be happy for someone who done such a horrible thing to you. I hope you’re seeking help and trust me, you’ll honestly feel a whole lot better if something was done about it. You have people who will support you through anything, stay strong❤️
@@toyourstandards.832 I don't think they are happy for him, I think they were possibly being sarcastic.
It’s honestly heartbreaking reading the stories you guys are leaving in the comments. Remember, you’re not alone. There are people who care about you and support you through anything. Stay strong and keep your head high, you guys are true warriors.
This means a lot and I'm here for anyone who's been through it as well
He was my boyfriend, I was only 15. I told him I wanted to wait.
He was a first date. He was 23, I was 17. I told him no and that he was hurting me, but he didn’t even acknowledge me.
I was 14, and he was 36... it was a stupid Halloween party. October is such a shitty month for me now.
I'm so sorry. Talk to someone - that's your first step to healing.
to your standards. I had been talking to my schools social worker when I was in high school, but I’m now graduated and can’t. Trying to find the right one for me
This put tears in my eyes ngl, I hope you reported them and I hope you have someone to talk to honey, you got this.
@@heyasimp5321 unfortunately I could not report it, but thank you for the kind words. They mean a lot. Thank you
I totally understand, he was my boyfriend of a year and a half, you think you know a person but you never truly do. It happened multiple times, I stayed with him because I didn't want to believe that it was happening and that maybe I was just making a big deal of it but it became real when I would go home and try to use the bathroom but it hurt so bad and I would wipe to see blood. While he's out there living his life im here scared to be with another person thinking they're all the same and now ill never be the same mentally or emotionally. He forever changed and hurt me
Wow 10 years later I find the song that's closest to it..
EDIT: i didnt know my comment would blow up like it did but i pray each and every one of you stay strong 💖🥺
Ikr.. almost 4 years for me 😭
Almost 9 years for me and it still hurts till this day😭😭
5 years for me
3 years
3 weeks...
Monday March 23rd
She cried because the pain was unbearable, she cried because no matter how strong she was, he was still stronger. He could hear her crying out and begging him to stop, but it only seemed to make him want more of her. The louder she got, the harder he went, the more she wept, the more he took. So he kept on taking what he assumed belonged to him until he was satisfied. And at that moment, the rest of the innocence that she had barely been holding onto, was drained from her eyes. She stared off into nothingness while he spoke in the background. His voice was muffled and her smile was drifting. She felt frozen, lost, isolated, worthless, completely fucking empty. Begging and screaming “ please stop I can’t take it. I mean it”. but he keep on going panic overflowing tears is flowing. Man I barely even know him, why do He feel like I owe him? Any part of me at all, he took that shit as if he fucking owned it. All I’m doing is relaying what I’m thinking but not saying. I’ve been locked up with my own thoughts, I ain’t even fucking praying. I been locked inside my room, I feel like I been going crazy. Why the fuck am I so chill about it? Why don’t this shit phase me?
Front seat of his SUV, we drunk and he on top of me. It start to hurt so fucking bad so I’m like, “hold up - get off please.” But he say I ain’t running till he cumming and Imma take the D. And now I’m fucking crying, I can’t take it, he ain’t listening. But fuck it - ya’ll don’t get, ya’ll could never fucking understand. How it feel to be a woman,stuck under a fucking man. Crying and you fighting - and you can’t even move his fucking hands. Lay there and you crying, till he’s done with his fucking demands. Just in case some of y’all motherfuckers uneducated. Let me break it down, shut the fuck up just listen - I’ll explain it. Any woman can change her mind at any time, fuck the arrangements. Matter of fact, it’s the fuck with sometimes she don’t even gotta say shit. I know that it’s hard to understand when you a selfish man. And everything in your life was given to you from someone’s hands. So everything you see in your life, you take it, done it all your life, man, why you think women so pressed to walking round with guns and knives? When I told my wife, all she said was, “ damn, thanks for sharing”. If it ain’t my best friend, then who else is supposed to be caring?told another motherfucker, he ain’t believe it said I was trippin’. What’s the fuck the point of saying shit, that’s why I keep this shit in. And the shittiest part about it was man he was my own motherfucking blood. And I don’t mean a relative, I mean the gang, it fucking sucks. When it be your own people who fuck you up like yo, what the fuck? You supposed to protect me, now I don’t even wanna throw signs up. I’m scarred for life it’s hard to find my old self, I lost my own mind. But just like every other trauma in my life - man, I’ll be fine. I ain’t so snitch, I recognise that karmas real and so am I. So fuck it, keep it pushing, just let him believe in his own mind. I’m good, man - don’t ask me how i’m feeling, how I’m doing. I’ve gone years and years without human connection, ya’ll done ruined my perception and my movement. Talking to myself, I’m fluent. I’ve been screwed over so many times by my own kind, so fuck ya’ll, screw it. My own father have me the greatest piece of advice. She said that “ the older that you get the more you will start to realise.” And now that I been growing up, I see that he couldn’t be more right. This bullshit happened right after I fucking lost him, how ‘bout that. Now everywhere I go I gotta deal with another fucking man. That just ain’t him, I hated him, fucking mad I want him back. Honestly, I just miss my fucking dad.
@@WackyStew some people like to read ahead. Moron
@@WackyStew actually that helped a lot haha I can finally sing it now to the person that made me relate to this horrible experience😁👍😔
@@xen9308 i apologies my gf uses my account to listen to music
It truly hurts reading all of these comments and seeing what everyone has gone through. I am truly grateful to find this song and be able to learn more and go more deeply into the consent of what it does to others physically and mentally. It makes me EVEN MORE aware of who I go out with/ who I trust/ and who I can open up to. I am terrible sorry for those who had to go through it. Please know you're worth it, you're loved by so many people even if it doesn't feel like it right now, and PLEASE NEVER give up on yourself even if you feel like you can't do it.. because we all know deep down you most certainly can ok? We are all here for you💗
It happened when i was 6 years old the first few times happened was with my sisters boyfriend at the time and then when my dad relapsed and left for 6 months leaving all of us to fend for ourselves. then the second dude showed up he was my best friends older brother the person i thought of as my own older brother the one i trusted took whatever he wanted from me for those 6 months and i couldn't even speak up about it because i was afraid of him hurting my family. I didn't say anything for 11 years and the sad thing is ill never be able to feel safe in my own room again. But its been a 1 year since i opened up about it im in therapy and im actually getting my life together, im not afraid anymore but i'll never be able to fully forget what i went through those memories will always be apart of my life but i wont let them stop me. For all the others that have been through any type of sexual abuse stay strong keep fighting i know its hard but you can do this your not alone.
I'm truly so sorry that you had to go through that. Reading these stories are honestly breaking my heart, stay strong. I'm so glad you got out of it and you've pushed yourself to talk about it. You're so strong for even being able to go through that.
This. Described what happened to me almost to a t. I was 18. My first month ever away from home. A freshman in college. He was my “boyfriend”. The more I said no or stop, the more he kept going. It’s been a little over two years. I hear his name and I shake. I haven’t done anything with anyone since then. I can’t even go out on a date without having a panic attack or puking from the nerves. Thank you for putting this out. It means so much to so many of us silent survivors.
How are you doing now?
@@catso7236I’m actually in a very healthy relationship with the love of my life!!! Thank you so much for asking! I’ve found my peace with what has happened to me.
I wish I was as brave as this song makes me feel, damn.
2 years ago I was 13, he was my uncle, he was supposed to care for me. I couldnt breath, I lost myself. I hate men, but it hurts being a trans male myself. You cant escape
I'm so sorry. The worst of the worst happens to the kindest of hearts. You're not alone in this, make sure you focus on healing.
I know exactly what you feel it happened with me too when I was 6 up to 12 I'm 14 now I havent told anyone. I guess that's why I'm transgender male too
@@karma4998 I was eight. He was my uncle. It’s confusing being a trans male and hating men. We’re united
I am 16 and have been...yea 3 times now. I cant even believe how accurate this song is..
I hope you’re seeking help, these things are really tough to go through on your own. Stay strong, keep your head high❤️
I'm also 16, I had been assaulted 3 times at least before I even turned 15. you're so much stronger than you think you are
I got away but he came after me and stabbed me in my back as I was running i lost a part of my soul that night when I was 22
I'm so sorry, I hope you're healing from this and never have to go through that again - you're beautiful.
I'm sorry you went through that
he was supposed to be my dad. I was 6, i was a child.
Im sorry
I'm so sorry, stay strong. That's all you can unfortunately do from now.
@Makala Pinterich-Harvey I really hope you and everyone else who has gone through something like this is okay I haven't had this happen to me and I could never understand what you went through and are still going through . I hope your okay and you talk to someone about it.
I was 7 he was like my uncel
I was 5 6 7 8 9 10 and he was my grandpa I fucking hate it so much im 16 now and the memories still haunt me
Someone that was supposed to love me, be my best friend and protect me, did it to me for years. My ex husband said that because we're married I owe him and he took it almost every night. He didn't care if I tried to be agressive and he didn't care if I cried through the whole thing...
I’m so sorry - the worst situations always fall upon the kindest people. You’re beautiful - keep pushing.
@@toyourstandards.832 Thank you so much. It's been 6 years but I still suffer from PTSD and probably will for the rest of my life but I'm working closely with my therapist and advocate for victims of marital/spousal rape.
@@stephaniegonzalez2535 This is something that's impossible for anyone to forget about, if anything, it makes you into a much stronger person. You're doing such an amazing thing by helping others get through it. Keep doing you, don't let your husband win.
This song deserves more praise
This song, I listen to everyday. Bawling my eyes out... when I have the flash backs or nightmares of the constant repeating trauma, I listen to it to feel less alone... especially when she talks about your own blood.. mine was literal blood... from 2-14... and I had no one to help me... everyone I told just hid it, or my mom didn’t believe it and accused me of selling myself to her boyfriend and friend... My dad got mad at first at them but then I guess that hatred faded fast because he never did anything to help me.. never even tried comforting me...
As a man, it’s hard to comprehend songs and experiences like these because you’re left just speechless, in shock,
And then I start to think about how victims must feel, that terror,
I have so much admiration for people who are able to smile and stand up, despite being broken,
It’s Heartbreaking, but know you’re loved, and cared for by the millions of people like me, who can only offer their support, and ear
Really all I can say is I’m terribly ashamed of those monsters, who lost their right to be men, let alone to be called humans,
You can do so much more then offer love and support. If you have kids teach them consent, and how to be respectful. Also call out the behavior of friends and family.
This song got me through my own situation. You telling your story allowed me to come to terms with my own story. To be able to actually voice what happened to me to some degree. To anyone else that has been through this, I pray you find peace.
anyone going through this, I love you. stay strong, this is not your fault. you are loved and if anyone thinks otherwise, they could piss off. i am proud you made it far and not let him/her take control over you/your life
i played this for my sister and she said he whole body felt it. ive felt this fear from a man before and im only at the age of 14. this world if filled with fucked up man identities and us women need to stick together through it all because its a scary world out there and i gotta say this is one of the moment heart felt songs ive ever listened to i love you bj and i love your music keep up the amazing hard work and passion you put into your career because one day every bitch that came across you with a negative attitude will realize you made it without them.
He never stopped and my mom said never tell unless you wanna ruin the lives of your siblings. Wtf what about my life? I'm the one dying. I fear men because of him
My dad, my friends dad, nurses in the mental hospitals, and my friend raped me
My best friend was raped by her step dad
My friends were raped even 3 guys I dated
We all tried telling people but we didn’t tell people out of fear
My best friend and her mom would be homeless
Me I’d be called a liar and other names
This song makes me want to share my story.. I was dating this guy. He always touched me no matter how many times I said no.. no matter how many times I moved away.. then I was with someone I trusted for 3 years.. he stole my virginity in front of my friends while I said no. I ran out of the room when he was done. He continued to do it for years. Sneaking into my room making me vulnerable and taking advantage or doing it in my sleep while grabbing me tightly. Silence does not meen yes.. she’s just tired of saying no
Im very sorry fr what you went through. Hope you feel better
It’s sad to see how many people can relate. I believe i am stronger from what happened to me. And you all will be too
my heart breaks for the ones who have gone through something so horrible like this. it breaks my heart even more to know that my sister and my cousin went through this💔
it hurts more to know that i can’t help them from feeling this pain everyday.
If you're listening to this and related, I am so sorry you had to go through such a horrifying event. Just know that you are beyond strong and it wasn't your fault. Me and so many others are here for you and have noticed your cries for help! I love you don't give up 🤍
It happened to me when I was about 5 or 6, I can't remember, the second time I was about 8. He was my grandpa and I hadn't really pieced together what had actually happened until this summer, I'm a freshman in high school. Now I know why I get nervous so easily and before I told anyone I was so afraid no one was going to believe me and I considered it might be easier on our family if I just died. I finally told my parents after I was supposed to spend the night at my grandparents. I now am able to numb myself to the memory except for whenever I come in contact with a trigger, and I just fall apart. Sometimes i'll be really upset for a few days, and then I can let it go for a awhile. I didn't tell my friends what happened to me, and I have only told a few. I explained why I have so many trust issues and why I am a bit socially awkward. He took advantage of me and took so many things away that no one could ever recover. I have issues with feeling guilty for no reason, and its his fault. It honestly made me a bit upset when one of my friends said "well look at how much stronger it made you". I didn't need to be stronger at 5 or 6. I needed to be protected. HE was supposed to protect me from other things. I didn't understand what was going on. I thought that because my parents and the doctors could see me naked and touch me he could too, even though I felt awful. I can't express how much it means to me to see other peoples stories and to hear a song that so closely applies to me.
I hope you are doing better. No one deserves this and thank you for sharing love. Just know you are not alone.
You can hear the pain in her voice🥺😔
“any woman can change her mind at any time, f*ck the arrangements” period .
I felt this in my soul. I'll forever have a broken rib that healed just under my left breast. I couldn't fight a gun, knife & bat nor his strength. One day though, he'll get his. 💯🙏
Dude I know I’m literally just another follower that just started real deal listening to your music again and deadass thank you for being you and being here for your followers and sharing your life in your music. I needed to hear something and tell you I appreciate everything you do even if it’s not for me. OnMarch23 broke me down cause of me relating too muchh it boy im glad someone made a song showing people how it is and I appreciate you. Thank you
I was 7 and you where 14 when you first touched me. I thought it meant you loved me. It’s sad that I now know that was far from the truth. It continues. You slowly worked your way up to forcing me to touch you. And put my mouth on you. Years went by and I was 13. The day after I got out of the hospital for trying to end my pain, you took it to yet another level. For the first time, you forced yourself onto me. As you took something that was not yours, I laid there in pain and as I was slowly losing my will. Things stopped for a bit but yet again you took me to the corner and did the same thing. It was supposed to be a good night. I had just gotten home from my 1st homecoming as a freshman in high school. After you were done, you said “that’s what your supposed to do on the night of a school dance.”
I told my mom but since you were her husbands kid, she didn’t believe me. She acted like I had never told her.
I can honestly say you will never get the fucking chance to do the shit you did to me ever again. You’d literally have to kill me first.
This song helps me through my trauma more than I believe anyone understands.... Thank you Bj for speaking up and giving me the courage to do so as well
0:02 , the sigh at the beginning because songs like this have to be created to spread awareness is heartbreaking. It really is tiring knowing that if people weren’t corrupt and pure evil songs like this wouldn’t have to exist. I honestly don’t understand how anyone can be so cruel. It’s awful. Humans are the most pure evil in the universe.
The fact that someone can look someone else in the eye and ruin them entirely is painful to think about. How can you take away a persons modesty, will to live, indact how can u take everything off of somebody, strip them of everything they have ever been, of their entire being, and then have the ego to laugh it off or deny it. My heart goes out to all survivors of rape and SA. It’s not your fault babe. It’s the toxic, evil, awful people who did that to you.
I almost spent 7 years looking for this song and never found it, today with the option to search for music on TH-cam I found it
I was 19 and just moved to a new town with my person and their friends. It happened twice in 2 days and when I confronted them they laughed and said “so you’re one of those girls” then I left I lost so much of myself I’ll never be the same I can’t be me anymore. It hasn’t even been a year yet the flash backs went away but then they came back and no one understands
Everyone who is listening to this song. Read these comments, you are not alone! And you are so strong Queen. Please stay strong. I love you so much.
Mine was at a birthday party and he dads friend got too drunk took me away from everyone as i yelled but the music was so loud nobody heard me... it was march 19th 2019 I was 12 years old and that's when I died inside
Thank you so much for sharing, I'm so sorry you had to go through that. No one deserves this. Stay strong.
disgusting.... ppl
I am so sorry this happened to you.... you’re not alone ❤️
She cried because the pain was unbearable
She cried because no matter how strong she was, he was still stronger
He could hear her crying out and begging him to stop
But it only seemed to make him want more of her
The louder she got
The harder he went, the more she wept the more he took
And so he kept on taking what he
Assumed belonged to him, until he was satisfied
And at that moment the rest of the innocence that she
Had barely been holding onto was drained from her eyes
She stared of into the nothingness while he spoke into the background
His voice was muffled and her mind was drifting
She felt frozen, lost, isolated, worthless
Completely fucking empty
Beggin' and screaming, "please stop, I can't take it. I mean it"
But he kept on going, panic overflowing, tears is flowing
Man I barely even know him, why do he feel like I owe him?
Any part of me at all, he took that shit as if he fucking owned it
All I'm doing is relaying what I'm thinking, but not saying
I been locked up with my own thoughts, I aint even fucking praying
I been locked inside me room, I feel like I been going crazy
Why the fuck am I so chill about it?
Why don't this shit phase me?
Front seat of his SUV, we drunk and he on top of me
It start to hurt so fucking bad, so I'm like "hold up- get of please"
But he say I aint running 'till he cumming I'mma take the D
And now I'm fucking crying, I can't take it, he aint listening
But fuck it- y'all don't get, y'all could never fucking understand
How it feels to be a woman stuck under a fucking man
Crying and you fighting- and you can't even move his fucking
Hands, lay there and you crying
Till he's done with his fucking demands
Just incase some of y'all mother fuckers uneducated
Lemme break it down, shut the fuck up, just listen, I'll explain it
Any woman can change he mind at anytime, fuck the arrangements
Matter of fact, its the fuck with sometimes she don't gotta say shit
I know that it's hard to understand when you a selfish man
And everything in your life was given to you from someones hands
So everything you see in life, you take it, done it all your life
Man, why you think women so pressed
To walking around with guns and knifes?
When I told my wife all she said was "damn thanks for sharing"
If it ain't my best friend, then who else is supposed to be caring?
Told another mother fucker, he ain't believed it, said I was trippin'
What's the fuck the point of saying shit
Thats why I keep this shit it
And the shittiest part about it was he was my own blood
And I don't mean a relative, I mean the gang, it fucking sucks
When it be your own people who fuck you up, like yo what the fuck
You supposed to protect me, now I don't even wanna throw signs up
I'm scared for life, its hard to find my old self, I lost my own mind
But just like every other trauma in my life- man I'll be fine
I aint no snitch, I recognise that karma's real, and so am I
So fuck it, I'll keep punching, just let him believe in his own mind
I'm good, man, don't ask me how I'm feeling, how I'm doing
I've gone years and years without human
Connection, y'all done ruined my perception and my movement
Talking to myself, I'm fluent
I've been screwed over so many times
By my own kind, so fuck y'all, screw it
My own father gave me the greatest peice of advice, he said,
"The older that you get the more you will start to realise
That no one actually gives a fuck
And won't for the rest of your life"
And now that I been growing up, I see that he couldn't be more right
This bull shit happened right after I fucking lost him, how 'bout that
Now anywhere I go, I gotta deal with another fucking man
That I just ain't him, I hated him, fucking mad I want him back
Honestly, I just miss my fucking dad
Trying to live your life and everything ends up being scary is so hard. I hate not being able to breath when a man is on top of me even if I told him it was ok. It never ends
I'm so sorry. Focus on healing, stay strong.
Saturday 22nd February 😔 thank you for sharing your story you've given people something to relate to and a way to come to terms. I'm sorry it happened to you but thank you for sharing ❤️
I was 5...it was my dad.... This song knows how I felt then I got away from my dad it started up again when I was 8 with my cousin... It's still happening and nobody is doing anything I told someone but they don't care..
If it's still happening, get out of there. That person clearly should have nothing to do with you, call the authorities, a loved one, someone. Please, get yourself to safety.
This is such a heavy song I feel your pain im so sorry
Went through this with my step dad at a young age. I wasnt in tears or anything just really confused because it had happened at such a young age. But now...now I understand completely that why he had done was completely wrong and it brings me tears everytime someone brings it up. I wish I had known it was not an okay thing at the age I was but I didn't...
Chill bumps from the moment you started.... crying so bad.... thank you
This just brought back so many memories I worked so hard to lock away. Now im crying. Fuck man.
It breaks my heart that anyone has ever gone through this and my heart truly goes out to you. You are beautiful and loved. Never stop seeing the light at the end of the tunnel❤❤❤
You can hear the pain in her voice
June 11th 2014 “best friend”
Jan. 21st 2015 “dad”
This song has hit me so hard..
I will always find myself listening to this song
thankfully I've never experienced this but it breaks my heart to see all these stories. I'm so sorry to all of you
He didn't even know me I was 12 and he was 18 he knew better, he took what he wanted and left me alone like I was a piece of trash.. my parents told me I was lying and his bestfriend told me I deserved it....5 years later and I'm still not the same
shoot bruh i saw ur comment in my dream....u r strong :( they will pay either way
I’m so sorry… I was also 12 well 12-13 and he was 42.. same thing .. took what he wanted and left me
It blows my mind to see how many other girls have gone through almost the exact same thing.
It was my 20th birthday. We had a party to celebrate. I told him no so many times. My “friends” that were at the party told me it was my fault because I was drunk. But drunk me told him no. I made a police report but they never arrested him, told me they couldn’t find him. It’s been a few years now but I still have nightmares about it.
I relate to this so much. Im crying my eyes out now
Sexually assaulted by my mom's husband for 8ish years till I finally had the courage to tell people on 21st May, 2019. Only to find out my mom knew most of the time and did nothing. 17 now and finally getting my life back after so many long and horrible years.
We were survivors not victims.
i hope everything goes well
Damn this hits hard stay strong baby’s
Ty for making this song 🎵 definitely deserves more recognition
November 23 changed my life.. I was 20 he was 47 and saying "no stop it hurts" multiple times didn't faze him I felt like I left my body and blacked out I had a panic attack after.. I'm a survivor this song has brought so many stories out we are all strong women!! #Keepfightingthefight
I’m so sorry.. I hate men in their 40s because of what my teacher did to me.. I was 12-13 and he was 41-42
@@catso7236 I'm sorry too
This hasn’t happened to me, but I know a couple of people who it has happened to. I’ve stuck by them the whole time, but this song makes me want to go and ask them if I can hug them because I could never imagine the sheer terror when you’re actually the person who goes through this. 🥺
And I hope you never do understand that terror…
The first one was my father... Then my brother... My brother's supposed "friends". I never got over it. I was made to seem like I lied about it or that it never happened. When I told the police, my own mother protected them. Said I didn't know what I was thinking. Talking about. That it was all in my head. The cops believed her. I'm traumatized. I now suffer from manic depression, anxiety, BPD, PTSD, and suicidal thoughts. I've tried many times to end my life. I'll never get over it. And I'll never forget. To those who been through this kind of ordeal, I'm so sorry, and know you are not alone. Keep fighting. We are all survivors. And this song helped me come out with my story. So thank you.
I’m stull trying to fight it... it’s my grandmas love of her life and I don’t want to break it, this song calms me down. It started when I was 8. I’m 12 now and it’s still going on.
Please stay strong, if you need someone to talk to lmk and I’ll be here for you.💕
Wait if it still goin on you need me to call the police?
@@brianamurillo3319 hey I appreciate it and I’m aware your a stranger I know I can’t be picky but no thank you..
@@jaclyndiercks5085 Darling if it is still going on then you have to ask for help, love. You don't deserve this and neither does your grandma. You have to fight for yourself because this will scar you, no one deserves this hun.
Honestly I listened to this song so many times that I actually relate to it. From what happened to me when I was 13, I finally had the gut to tell someone. Now I'm 20 and that's the best thing I ever had done.
I’m so sorry for everyone your not alone this is why I’m so scared for my daughter to grow up in this world we live in ❤️this song touches my heart I can feel the pain reading these comments are making me cry I know how it feels 💔
This is the first time I’ve been able to get myself to listen to the whole song. This shit hits hard. Why does no one understand this except for the people who have been through this and similar situations
This is why I love music even when I try talking to my parents about what has happened to me they just won't help and counciling made me feel extremely alone I wish that this song came out when it happened so I can see that I wasn't alone
I'm late to this song but I was only 4 or 5 and he was my stepdad, that was the first time. Over the years he would continously do it. I told my best friend when I was 12 and she had also went through the same thing but with her brother. After that we bonded and got closer. For a year she encouraged me to tell my mom and when I was 13 I told her, at first she didn't do anything at all and I hate her for that but when I went with my grandparents he finally went to jail but he went to jail when I had turned 14...I'm 14, I have a boyfriend who knows and does nothing but protects me, my bestfriend told her mom and her brother is away,and I'm in therapy still healing. Thank you for reading my story, stay strong❤
I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I'm so proud of you for speaking up
April 17, 2018. The day I died
You've dealt with the pain for two years, just shows how strong you are. Stay strong.
I'm glad you're still here able to make this comment you are strong and brave and you deserve to be happy.
I'm so sorry
❤️❤️❤️ this is what it’s like in my head.... it’s comforting to know there are others
He was my boyfriend four years ago. We went to a hotel. He started taking my pants off and i said no. He continued and I cried. Didnt stop tell he saw me crying. I told my cousin and she didnt care. I have an amazing support system now who loves me for me.
I was sexually assaulted at 13 by a guy the same age that was suppose to be my friend. The cops didn’t take it seriously I had to ride the bus and stay on classes with him. He eventually got took in 2 months later then the judge let him off with a slap on the wrist I got a sorry and a hand shake. Now he is on trial for the same thing he did to me. Bad part is they won’t take what he did to me and mention it cause it was so long ago but I live with the pain and despair everyday since I have to take medicine to handle my PTSD Anxiety and depression caused by it.
This hit hard...even years later 😔
Thank you for this. Wow. 🥺 I pray for you. I pray for us. We are SURVIVORS.
July 7th 2020 this song makes me feel so much better
This is such a powerful song.
Saw this used as a sound on tiktok and had to find it. The 5 year anniversary just came. I'm in a really fucking dark place. But hey at least I was smart enough to hand my gun over to a friend I can trust when I can't trust myself. This shit is so fucking hard to deal with.
🤍🤍🥺
This song makes me cry Everytime.. thank you BJ for speaking all woman's truths..I had this happen to me as well and your words have helped me let go and move on in life..thank u
I was 6, he was my grandfather, it lasted 3 years.
I was 10, he was 11, he was my best friend.
I've never found a song that could tell my story better than I could... Thank you 😞❤️
I was at a party one night and he was a mutual friend of mine. I told him no but he didn’t listen and nobody believed me when I told them what happened. It’s been 6 months and I saw him the other night at a party and I froze because I was terrified. The worst part about it was he tried to talk to me like nothing happened
My brother's friend I was 5 6 or 7 and he did everything with me and ofc I was confused bc I was little and I didn't really know anything about that stuff but yeah he did it in my mom's house in the living room and everyone was asleep and yeah I'm 12 right now and I still think about over and over and I wish that stuff that he did to me never happened but life is not fair so.... just got to live with it....and thank you so much for this song it really makes me feel nice bc u understand and so much more people...and all those people out there had to deal with this shit I hope one day u will release u are beautiful and a strong woman and u are so much better then that person ok.thx💕🙂💕💕
I love this so much I was raped by 5 men a man I really trust got paid to let them do it this song hits hard this is the first time I've said it out loud what happened it been a long time and I still have nightmares
No one should have to go through that, stay strong❤️
When i was in second grade i was going to piano lessons with my friend and we had this teacher who was touching us while we would play and if my friend didn't tell it to her mother it would probably go even further, im so glad she told her because i wouldn't do it. I'm terribly sorry for everyone who has been through this, you're not alone and you are loved
It breaks my heart to read these comments, can’t imagine what you people must’ve gone through! I just hope y’all are doing okay now and just know that you’re not alone, those mfs will pay for what they did! You’ll are so strong, thanks for not giving up, I’m proud of y’all!
Love this ...
This makes me feel less alone🥺 the part about taking the d made me sob 😭 I can relate so much and its not funny
I have listened to this song at least once a day since I heard it for the first time on someone's Snapchat story
Same
@leahhamilton8963 ❤ if you need to talk I'm here for you
This was the only song I could relate to on a deep level and then Spotify went and deleted it
Real. They took it off of Apple Music
it just took me 20 minutes to find this song because i once saw a draco tok video with it and now around two years later i was thinking about it so now i’m here
And this is a reason why I am a femenist, I still can’t believe how these things still happen in the world
I heard this song on TikTok and learned every word in one day..I only told my mom and she was supportive of me and didn't judge me for anything. I've had it happen to times...once when I was younger and last one was September of 24..
I relate too much
I will send out into the universe that all of your beautiful broken souls rediscover themselves. Sending healing and love.💕
When you can relate it just hits different🤦😭stay safe
It’s mad how this hits hard knowing this feeling is the worst I wish I could go back nd never met the guy it’s so hard thank you for this it’s helping me through the bad times ❤️