What Nate went through, and what everyone else is going through, if your like me you don’t care about yourself only about everyone around you that are going through what you are going through
MyKittyUnicorn 57 you need to know none of this is your fault and your parents choices should not be bared on your shoulders. you can be the strong through this, i know it’s hard i struggle all the time with my mom and her habits. you are strong and loved :) just wanted you to know
Hits hard for me personally. I lost my grandmother back in 2018. An still to this day I miss her laugh,smile, kindness and much more that I cant even describe how she treated me. Then my whole family took a shit down hill.
Probably the saddest song I’ve heard. Pure raw emotion and vulnerability. Mad respect for crying on the track. Most rappers might feel “too cool” to do that but he’s a real one for not giving a f.
He probably made everyone in the room cry. That's what I like to imagine. I would've cried. Not only is it sad, I start to cry when others cry. I'm typing this while listening and i'm crying right now.
Incase some of you didn’t know, NF’s cries are real in this song. They decided the keep it in the recording as NF couldn’t get through the song without breaking, which is why you hear so much emotion in his voice.
You said 'unreal' at the end of your comment and I was just commenting on how raw and real this song and all his music is. That's all. But I knew what you meant.
@@kc-lv4gh Hello, I understand you and I feel bad so I wanted to know if you could maybe email me or send me some of your music I would really like to hear it if you don't mind :)
@@abduallahamin2001 man if you liked it don't forget to subscribe, this is really hard for me. Nobody knows how much I worked to get 100 subs, and 100 is basically nothing
@@kc-lv4gh Bro quit trying to promote yourself by spamming your message everywhere and trying to make people feel bad. It's hard for you? It's hard for everyone.
i lost my mom a year ago to an OD, she was the most amazing person i’ve ever met. I’m so tired of being angry at her but i can’t help it, she left us. She missed all of our graduations because she was too high to come. Her perfume was cigarette smoke. Sometimes I feel so alone like nobody else has experienced it but I’m glad to know it’s not just me, thank u
You’re not alone…I was taken away from my mom at 5 yrs old because of her drug addiction…till this very day she does the same thing…sometimes I love her but most of the time the hate takes over. I vowed to NEVER do this to my children ever. They have no idea the level of emotional trauma this carries throughout your life…it never leaves
@@JunkieJournalTruer words. I lost it when I heard this song and Hope because when Hope dropped it had been EXACTLY 30 years since my mom abandoned my brother and I for her addictions. You’re so right that there are days. She’s still around but just as absent as she ever was. Days when I want to tell her off, days when I miss my mommy…but I too have vowed to NEVER let my daughter experience emotional trauma like this.
I try to tell my dad to stop smoking and drinking but well it doesn’t work and I get abused and I still love him no matter what.....this made me cry my eyes out.....
I'm sorry if I'm being annoying but please hear me out. I'm 14 and I wanna rap. me nor my parents can afford to buy me a laptop or a home studio right now. Since I'm Indian it's even worse, everyone laughs at even the thought of me rapping. Im gonna prove them wrong. I wanna show them that my race is something I can't control. What I can control is that I try my best. Im not asking you to like my content, just give me constructive criticism. One day I'll make it out of this, one day I'll be the greatest.
kgrip okay buddy stop with the copy paste bullshit for likes. If you’re gonna be the best get on with it, and stop complaining. Complaining about shit is weak.
This line hit me hard the first time I listened to it my mom passed without me even knowing the pills got her too sadly I got called home from school and my foster mom was sitting there with my social worker told me my mom ODed this morning it’s been over two years now and I got a picture on my shelf but damn I need the real thing sometimes
Has darkness fades Light glows nah the system has been great for me I love my foster mom but I know there’s shitty homes out their that don’t give a shit about the kids they get
I just found him on spotify. I am sitting here watching my grandsons (3 and 4 years old) sleep 6 months after my beautiful 21 year old daughter died from fentanyl toxicity. I wish I could go back and change so much. NF has a real gift and honesty and pain radiate from each tract. I wish that no one had to feel this way. Thank you sincerely NF for being gonest and sharing your pain. Some of us no longer feel so alone and misunderstood. I am a mama dealing with my own demons who feels like they failed her children and now her grandchildren will grow up and feel this loss and wonder why.
I'm so sorry to see that you lost your daughter. As a mum, wrestling with those thoughts of having failed a child is horrendous, I know. It takes a lot of input and self-reflection (something I only did when I really got into God's word) for us to comprehend ourselves and how we impact others...in both good and less good ways. I pray you come to have compassion on yourself, and that your grandchildren know how much your love them.
he does need a grammy for this work of art. Im sorry, Nate. So sorry. I wish none of this bad stuff happened to you. i wish yyou were ina better life. Thank you for all youve done so far. thank you
same I love it but it makes my eyes water. since its what he's been through and is still going through these emotions. it leaves a big impact on the people who listen to it (especially those who relate to this song). that right there is truly amazing.
When you are a professional at being numb to your pain, so you come to this song to feel something. Almost 34 years old and still feel my parents mistakes. This generation must do better
its not about doing better...we as humans will never do better...its about God...if we can get back to Him, then things can get better...but only, only if we come to our Maker...if we come to our Creator...He Loves Us so much...He just wants us to recognize Him, and only Him...He wants a relationship with all almost 8 billion peoples on the Earth...but we don't want Him...but that is the only way that things will get better, is if we turn to God...Jesus Loves YOU...
"All I feel is pain, everytime I picture you" hits hard...I lost my mom in 2015 to cancer and we weren't close when she died as we'd had a rough relationship over the past few years...but god is it true that like I want to picture her in a better light but I only picture the pain from our relationship...you're amazing Nate never forget that.
I'm not crying because I relate to this song, I'm crying because I know there's people who actually do relate to it. I can feel Nate's pain in every one of his songs and I guess it breaks me to know that he's struggling.
In the future, this will have alot more likes with my reply at 100+ likes. but yes, depressing and heartbreaking to know that this, this is the lives of some people.
It really hits , drugs mess a person up my mom been doing them since she was my age . She isnt gone but she isnt here either , her brains fried and it's just too much
I can't quite understand why I've seen a few people say he was faking the tears. That was real emotion, real tears. He's extremely hurt by what he went through. We love you, Nate. Congratulations on your new bundle of joy.
If he did I fully respect him, I’m being honest if this was my mom I could never forgive her as she died doing and buying drugs which the money could be better spent on my well being. Fortunately I’m 17 healthy about to go University from support by the best mother in the world, love from the United Kingdom
@@r.m7034 what a messed up thing to say, really. I mean, I get what you mean, but don't you understand the gravity of peoples pain? There usually is a reason behind abusing.. Shitty thing to postulate, you couldn't forgive someone for being too weak for their own emotions
Oliver J. It’s just my own personal opinion bro, that you should sacrifice a lot of things for your kids from small things like cigarettes to big things like drugs so that your child grows healthy and if you can’t you shouldn’t have a child or should send him to a safe environment. I get some people in the world are struggling and find it hard to refrain from these actions but in my opinion if you have a child you should no question, because if you do drugs and struggle that’s fine you can screw your life over but if it’s harming others then there’s a problem.if you disagree with me that’s fine bro and take care
@@r.m7034 just for the record, cigrattes are considered drugs as well. And you know, it's not like parents who do drugs doesn't want to quit. Have you heard plof physical dependence? Altered brain chemistry? Withdrawals? Shit like that happen, when you do pills and what not. Quitting drugs, isn't just a dance of flowers :-)
Same here, I had heard a couple of his songs but, didn't decide to really check him out until a couple of days ago. I was in the grocery store listening to this and was about to start crying. He gained a new fan.
"it took everything inside of me not to scream at your funeral, sitting in my chair that person talking was pitiful" honestly that line is so underrated
I am living far away from India and still feel the pain in his songs, I guess he is not that under recognised... I won't like if he gets more media attention because he has a genuine fan following right now and it shouldn't be blown away by idiots following him just coz he's famous
I haven't cried from a song in a while. My birth, "mom" left me for drugs when i was 4. She isn't dead but i know she a'nt gonna live by the time I'm legally aloud to see her again. I feel bad for what people like him have experienced cause i know what its like and i cant imagine whatvid do if life where anymore difficult.
@@Poopydoopysxoopy I think he meant everyone in life has to go through some sort of pain in their life not specifically what's portrayed in the video but anything that has made u hurt in ur life. Everyone has to go through pain in order understand what happiness truly is. If u don't know pain then u don't know happiness because when u go through shit, u learn to appreciate the good times more.
I am a recovering addict & a mother of 3, this song has helped me in so many ways to stay clean. I never want my children to feel like I chose my addiction over them. Everyday is a battle for me to stay clean & I keep fighting to save my children from feeling the pain of growing up without a mother like I did.
I grew up without a mom as well. My mother passed away when I was 7 due to drugs. There is never a day that goes by without me thinking of her and trying to figure out how I could've saved her. I'm in highschool now. Never stop fighting for your kids.
@@leo-e2n5v I am sorry for your loss. I lost my mother at the age of 14, my father had died when I was 2. Losing a parent isn't easy. The one thing I have realized is that there was nothing I could of done to save them. Just like there is nothing you could of done to save your mom. My kids couldn't get me or keep me clean, I had to do that for myself. I got clean because I didn't want my kids to grow up without a mom like I did. If you ever need someone to talk to I am here, I think of my mom everyday too.
Batman Gotham i wish u the best for ur life and families. I hope u will recover soon and had a happy life with ur children and family. God bless you. Love ya❤️
My mom just passed away 2 nights ago. I saw her lying on the floor, lifeless. She struggled with alcohol addiction. I showed her this song/video last year and she made me a promise to quit. Well she broke that promise. Tell your mom you love her while you can.
The weight this song hits me with. I lost my dad a week before I turned 18. I feel like I lost him before that. Alcohol drowned him. The vicodin helped. We tried so hard. A month after he died, we got a letter accepting him into a program that would have helped him. I miss him. I'm getting help because I'm stuck there, where I found him. I miss him, i wish he had given us the ability to help. I love you, dad. I miss you.
@@abbigailfertig3983 Send her this song immediately! Maybe it'll help. "Sometimes I wish I would have just called you. I wish I would have just picked up the phone." -NF 4:47... may it never be you. I'm so sorry you and your sister are going through that. 😢
This song.. tears me apart so bad. My situation was diffrent. I was waiting to see my kids. But they never came. Plans were made and changed . Leaving me waiting. They r grown now. Haven't spoken to me in 4yrs. Tears don't heal. But to anyone holding it in,,,, it's a relief of the weight. Good luck. God bless.
Jesus please help this suffering child of yours. Jesus is hope for the hopeless 😊😊 I pray out loud Psalm 91 each day for a Holy Protective Shield in my life. God bless you enormously
He can be good but all he raps about is how much his fans hate him. It's so annoying he needs to change the subject. Yes Therapy session and the albums before were amazing but after that it's just him complaining about his fans.
@Yes, either u haven’t heard ANY of his songs, or you completely mis heard the lyrics, cause the most he did like that was not about fans hating on him, but enemies saying he was out of control and not stable, but this is how he handles his pain and regret
My mom abandoned me at a homeless shelter when I was 6 years old. I would look out the window every day at a foster home and cried my self to sleep every night. When I was 7 she visited when I was in foster care. When she had to leave I remember hugging her and looking up at her saying why did she have to leave again. 9 years would pass and I would see her again but I didnt recognize her. She found God and changed her life around. Now at 20 years old im doing good for myself. I ship out for the US Army active duty on January 5th. Even though I dont show much emotion and hardly smile anymore It was hard has hell writing this shit. It hurts but I know Im stronger and more successful because of it. I've come a long way and life just keeps on getting better.
God bless you! My mom left me in a different way, but I also ended up in foster homes and remember literally doing the same thing you described. Crying myself to sleep. I just wanted to tell you that so you know you're not alone. Sending you the hugs you deserve.
I relate to this song so much. My mom & dad aren't great people, and even though I didn't always respect them, I loved them. They were there for us and they went through so many hard times to provide, no matter what. My dad worked his ass off to provide and my mother took care of our home, taught us to be better. When I was around sixteen though, their drug use got really out of hand. They tried to hide it but I was always observant and I realized what was happening. They started to act different, not themselves. My dad stopped working, fell back into alcohol. My mother stopped working. Eventually, we lost everything. We lost our house and with no where to go, my brother and I moved away to live with our grandparents. We watched them deteriorate over the years. They we're practically homeless at times, and actually homeless at other times. They stole from us, manipulated us, lied to us, didn't show up and hurt us in so many ways. They stole from my grandparents, the people taking care of their children for them. They ruined relationships to the point where my father wasn't even allowed to be there when my grandmother passed away. I've seen them shooting up, smoking meth, nodding out in front of me. I've had conversations with them where I can't even understand what they are saying. They've robbed people, hurt people, been in and out of jail, etc; You name it, they've done it. They stopped caring about our education, and I was so ANGRY and spiteful at the time that it consumed me. I stopped caring about anything, dropped out of school, and started running the streets and doing stupid shit that I shouldn't have. I influenced my brother to follow in my footsteps. Things are looking better and I have moved on somewhat, but I still haven't fully healed. My parents are still alive but I don't have much of a relationship with them at all because they have just been sinking further down the rabbit hole, and that makes it so much harder. Sometimes I wish they would just die, and most of the time I'm expecting to get that call at any moment. Despite everything though, I'm really trying to grow and keep playing the game despite the cards I've been dealt. Wish me luck...
You're strong g. Stand tall and keep going. You'll pull through. Forgiving is hard and it takes time. Focus on yourself and do what's right for you. But don't let their mistakes dictate your life and influence the happiness you recieve. It's gonna be tough but you're stronger than them man. ❤
Don’t know if you’d see this, but I hope and pray that God will bless your heart and soul, doesn’t matter if you’re religious or not but please remember this. You will be blessed.
My dad left me and then used me , pretended to want me to stay with his gf then he cut me off he has 2 other kids that he loves and cares for but not me I’m numb
I'm sorry if I'm being annoying but please hear me out. I'm 14 and I wanna rap. me nor my parents can afford to buy me a laptop or a home studio right now. Since I'm Indian it's even worse, everyone laughs at even the thought of me rapping. Im gonna prove them wrong. I wanna show them that my race is something I can't control. What I can control is that I try my best. Im not asking you to like my content, just give me constructive criticism. One day I'll make it out of this, one day I'll be the greatest.
"I think of you when i get a whiff of that cigarette smell." Is the line that hits me. My mom was a wild, turbulent soul. She wasnt ready for motherhood, but I loved her. Oh my god I loved her so much. She messed up, over and over again. I felt every aspect of this song, but while my mom had a brief battle with prescriptions they are not what did it. Cigarettes took her, they took my momma. I watched lung cancer destory her, it ripped her apart as vicious as a pack of starving wolves ripping her apart as the cancer masticized to her brain and turned her into even more of a stranger. 37 tumors in her brain that cigarettes planted deep in her lungs and it grew like an invasive weed. I stood by her bedside when they took her off of life support, a shell of her former self, and i gently cried as I told her how much I loved her and it was okay for her to let go. It wasn't okay though. I wasnt ready. It took my once wild, fierce force of a mother, too crazy to have her feet planted on firm ground where her kids needed her...15 minutes to die. I watched life leave her body. I smelled a lady the other day in passing, and she smelled like my momma. No, she smelled like Newport 100s, and it killed me to realize those kids she had with her will probably feel how I feel.
Ya I know how you feel. And how he feels. My sister is an addict and she is not In good shape.I see her probably once every 2 years. She doesn’t barely even know me.I fear everyday that I will wake up,and my mom will tell me she got a call saying she’s gone. Sometimes I wish it could all go away, but that’s not my reality.😢
I know what you mean my father chose drugs over me and now he is possibly in jail wasting away from them. It sucks to not have that space filled with love
Claire Futrell is like to share with you what I shared with Nate: “This song kicked me right in the feels. And I was *not* ready for it. :-/ I was addicted to pain pills for over 6 years. Thankfully, my clean date is also the day I found out I was pregnant with my Daughter, my first and only child. That day was January 10th 2016, and by the grace of a hidden spirit, I have remained dedicated. I have remained strong. And I haven’t relapsed. But, that doesn’t mean it isn’t hard.... it is. It’s so damn hard. Every single day provides a challenge to resist. A temptation I must ignore... *one that is forever present.* Every single day I have to make a choice. A deliberate, selfless, thoughtful decision. Because every single day, one of the many options always available to me is....failing her. And I cannot. I will not. I can’t. I can’t. To say she is worth it, would be a *devastating* under-statement. She is worth so much more than my words could adequately describe. Songs like this keep me on the path with positive outcomes. They put things back into perspective, and they provide a gravely needed reminder. A reminder of why we suffer to live. My sweet baby daughter doesn’t deserve this. She, and all children of drug addicts, should *never* have to endure what Nate and his siblings did when they lost her. Nate, I am so so so sorry. And I am so so so grateful for what you are choosing to do with your talent. This song and this music video alone, will literally save lives. It could be the final thing that makes somebody struggling to get clean, finally get it right. It could be the thing that helps someone who’s close to relapse, stand firm. The effect this song causes within someone simply cannot be ignored. You cannot ignore this when you hear it. *You cannot ignore the way it moves through you.* Please, if you are a parent who struggles with addiction... please.... stay strong. Please make the right choice for your precious little ones. It absolutely can be done. It won’t be easy, but it will be so worth the fight.
@@kaydawn3152 same here but i do not feel sadness for him man he can rot in hell with his decisions. Life is hard when u make wrong choices shit goes to hell. Fuck our fathers man
KGRIP keep believing people are nasty because there jelly but I believe you will make it in life dont suicide but smile instead people are racist coz they don't know how it feels to be like that it's must ssooo scary everyday having to worry about the cops coming just because you're different it's ssooo messed up man like people r just soo messed up but we can stop racism by standing up tall and being the person u r
It isn't underrated in my opinion, though it deserves more views yes. This song here is the most underrated song in my opinion. It only has 1.5 million views for being six years old. th-cam.com/video/ZxQLNxFA1Mg/w-d-xo.html Well at least it is the most underrated song I know of at the moment.
I don’t understand how rappers get famous promoting bad things and flexing their money and belongings their music have no depth no meaning but NF s songs are talking bout the struggle of his life his songs make me cry he pours a piece of his soul into each soul yet he is unrecognized He sings the truth
Its honestly disgusting that its that way in this generation, im young but i understand that this generation and the next ones ate just stupid, theyre ruined honestly
I was a mom at 16 an alcoholic by 20 and an addict to prescription pain meds by 30. My oldest sons life was not easy, not any part of it. Sometimes I feel like his life is better now that he’s out on his own. I’m 2 yrs and 4 months sober and clean now, I’ve apologized to my son more times than I can count but I still don’t feel like I’ve done enough to help him heal from the pain I caused him. ANYTIME I feel the urge to use I listen to this song and it saves my sobriety every time, it saves my kids mom, it saves my life! Thank you Nate!
Sucks to cry when you lost someone so close to you because of someone who never loved you like they said they made up a whole fake person and dont even love them like they said it hurts it hurts so bad inside but I am still alive still blessed to be alive and moving daily so I do my best to forget and just move on from what we had I held on to it this long I held on to our relationship this long because I wanted to feel the love ik that you were denying and u just wanted attention from someone else so I move on no tears nothing to say nothing for u no feelings anymore no love there any more no nothing anymore because you chose to do the things you did and abandon me
Yes it doesn’t matter he is just out here helping us with his music. Also this helps me a lot my mom died when I was in third grade not even to overdosing but she had a disease and it did come back to finish her. So I can relate a lot but it must hurt more for NF because he slowly got to watch it so it must of been like torture.
What really breaks me is the sound of him crying in between lines. This song is so meaningful, that even I, with a mom who is still here and a dad who is healthy, am crying.
Kylie Jade Dear mom. This song describes everything that I have been through. Except one thing. You’re alive. You’re alive and you still neglect the fact that you have a daughter. I used to look up to you. I used to think that my mommy was a super hero. Well not anymore. You just ran off without explanation. The day that you left you looked me straight in the eye smiled and told me you loved me and you’d be back at 6:30. You didn’t come back. And you took my brother with you. That hurt. You abandoned me. I didn’t deserve that. You chose drugs over me so many times. You have done me wrong so many times yet I still love you. I miss you mom. I wish we could have a relationship but you screwed that up. I hope you miss me. I hope you realize what you’ve done. I sit in my room with this song on repeat and think about you. I think about the lyrics and how they perfectly describe our relationship. Me waiting on you to come pick us up from nanny’s but you never did. You calling us and promising us that you’d be there and you didn’t show up. And having pictures of you but not wanting them, because I needed you to actually be there but you never were. You hurt me mom. I just wish that you would own up to everything that you have done. And to anyone in my situation, or in something similar, you are not alone. You are loved. You will get through this. This is what substance abuse does. It affects way more than the person who is using. It affects their family too.
I agree with everything you said. just remember your not alone. there are many other people out there that have the same problem as you do. Remember to be happy. hope you get in touch with your mum again one day.
I’ve just read this all I wanna say is high hopes and that ur not alone im a person who will listen to u i won’t say anything because I’ll mess something up but if there’s something sad or angry on ur mind u can tell me or someone who I trust u probley won’t trust me but just saying.High Hopes ♥️♥️♥️
The exact thing happened to me, but we have each other. There will come a day when there on there death bed and there going to wish we were there. Your not alone
He actually shows what kind of affect drugs has on people. Whereas everyone else makes them sound cool. NF is giving everyone the right message on stuff and that’s what everyone should be doing
I know how that feels it's scary my parents abandoned me from a newborn an now I'm 15 I'm now been in care 15 years and I've been through sexual physical and mental abuse all my life and that's me everyday looking at pictures of my parents instead of seeing them my dad died if a drug overdose and my mum has got schizophrenia and she snot happy so she doses up and I have recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and I'm living in a group home were I really don't like and I have no choice what happens
Jess Clemaon I’m honestly so sorry you had to go through that I can’t imagine how tough and hard that feels but just know something things will get better eventually there will be light at the end of the dark tunnel and you’ll get through this I wish you all the best!
My brother was addicted to drugs he passed away at 23 years of age this song just touched my heart I cried nf is not like other rappers he's an amazing rapper he's different
You are very blessed I'm not much older then you I'm 30 I have my dad for the most part has my back no matter what I lost my to alcoholism when I was 20 she never got to meet any my kids any her grandkids period my sister was 3 months pregnant with my oldest niece at the time but I got 2 kids and my 3rd on the way due in June it brings to my eyes every time especially when he says he thinks about when has kids they won't meet his mother I got kids and it's very painful they will never meet there grandmother but thanks for thinking of us who have lost someone it's hard man
i know right u guys should check out his song let u down if u haven't already and his music proves that u don't have to curs to make music sound cool this is real music!!!
Everything he says I relate to… everything. It’s crazy. I lost my mom to an Overdose in 2011. When I found his music, I just couldn’t let go. I’ve never related to an artist more than Nate. His feelings, how things are hard to let go of, how he relates to the world, his faith. Anytime he releases anything new, it boggles my mind. I need him to keep going.
That’s the most painful song that I ever heard. You can feel in his voice that there is so much pain. The last part hit me so hard. I really love this man so much, I have so much respect🖤
@@abbycoco8868 i hate how my life is rn what happend with my mom and what she did to me and my sister and brothers all i wanted was to have a happy mom and son reltionship.
This song played a huge role in helping me get clean. I’m now celebrating 6 1/2 years of sobriety and being a present mom to my 8-year-old. I first heard this song in rehab when I had 12 days clean-my daughter was with my parents in another state, and it completely broke me. I imagined her singing this about me, and it forced me to confront my addiction in a way I hadn’t before. From that moment on, I was willing to sacrifice whatever it took to stay clean and be the mother she deserved. Thank you, NF.
This will never be just a song. And Nf will never be just a song artist. He is so much more than that.
wait really
Moose Playz amen
who are you
i know eh so much more than that... a copy of eminem!!..smh
Moose Playz eminem dissed him...
the pain in his voice is so real... amazing song..
Leslie Botello ikr it made me cry
Steven Valarezo f hd jfjfj
Vlexvudrv Uoirehtfele all I have
Leslie Botello frrr mann this shit go hardd
The pain is so real I can feel it every time I her this song.
I damn near cried. He needs a Grammy for this
No this is real tears bro
I cry because this is just like my life
Tajae Maynor I did
I cried
Grammys wont accept real emotions smh
To this day, I can't believe how a person can write such a song. Unbelievable. This song should be one of the best songs of all time. 💔
He can write it because this is what he went through and witness....
*I think we need to take a moment of silence to respect Nate and all he's been through*
You can literally hear the pain in his voice.....he's really talented with a sad background....i respect him for being here and being strong.
I agree my mom is starting on drugs and I am scared, I really don’t know my life yet and I don’t know how to hold my life.
Been through the same shit bro
What Nate went through, and what everyone else is going through, if your like me you don’t care about yourself only about everyone around you that are going through what you are going through
MyKittyUnicorn 57 you need to know none of this is your fault and your parents choices should not be bared on your shoulders. you can be the strong through this, i know it’s hard i struggle all the time with my mom and her habits. you are strong and loved :) just wanted you to know
" I don't rap so millions of people will like me ; I rap because there are millions of people just like me ." -- NF
I can feel it ..
Pratiksha Barbate i can feel it...
🖤
Pratiksha Barbate So true..
And that is why NF will go down as one of the best ever, and definitely the most real!
I mf feel it in my soul...
You know it’s a good song when you can relate to it without having gone through this
yea im tearing up cause I can sorta relate my moms an addict but hasn't passed away luckily but yea man
I can totally relate to this as well. You are very right.
Yes I can relate with both my bio parents
I can relate to this both my parents have been addict since I was small but my mom was the only one that has passed
I can relate because both of my parents and my papa used but none of them died respect he makes the best music and he is underated
"I know you're gone, but i can still feel you" hits hard
Real I Miss My Mother
@@ExoticEnemyI miss mines to 😢 We will see them again 🙏 🕊
Yes!! 😢
Hits hard for me personally. I lost my grandmother back in 2018. An still to this day I miss her laugh,smile, kindness and much more that I cant even describe how she treated me. Then my whole family took a shit down hill.
For the ones we lost 😢
NF crying at the end..... that really hit me hard.
Tiauna Hazlett same
Tiauna Hazlett I Cried Too... 💔❤️
He let it all out...like a baby...I wept with him
That made me cry
Yes, that post produced tear...lol
"Why do I feel like i lost something I never had?"
jesus
Same
Deutschland 🇩🇪
(Ok unnötig XD)
I feel like I lost something I never had my dad killed himself when I was 2 months
@@L00ser.lynzzz I'm sorry
@L00ser.lynzzz deleted this
*holds back tears*
hey syndrome i love your work, this song was insane it gave me chills
Syndrome is that new NF type beat coming out now then. 😪😪
Love your work man!
Syndrome new NF type beat?
Syndrome, you're dope af.
Probably the saddest song I’ve heard. Pure raw emotion and vulnerability. Mad respect for crying on the track. Most rappers might feel “too cool” to do that but he’s a real one for not giving a f.
This is heart-breaking...
SLY true
SLY 500 like
ctkthpxjbd you need Jesus admit it
THIS IS BASICALLY HOW I FEEL DAILY, ONLY YAHWEH KEEPS ME GOING
i'm sorry for ur lost
Imagine how he felt when he wrote this song... and when he recorded it in the studio... NF lives on
Gustav Gude must have felt bad
He told the producers to leave the room because he was crying so much
He probably made everyone in the room cry. That's what I like to imagine. I would've cried. Not only is it sad, I start to cry when others cry. I'm typing this while listening and i'm crying right now.
We already know cuz of this vid, The last part isnt even staged, he literally cried, which makes me realise how easy I have it..
Nf ceried singing this song
This guy turns his pain into his art,i've never seen any rapper with a soul like this.
God gave him this gift fam. His ministry has help me out so much especially in areas i didnt think i needed help in!
Another one is called Eminem, check him out
@em101112 dude listen to Eminem older music he had a similar child hood to nf but much worse
Joyner but other than joyner amd mgk no i agree
@em101112 😂😂😂
"Why do I feel like I lost something I never had" that line hit hard I dedicated it to my dad
NF can put so much rage and sadness without cussing TRUE TALENT!
I agree. I need to learn how to stop cursing especially when I get mad. Did NF sing the chorus?
oh, God, get over yourself
@@kiara198923i straight up agree
I think this is one of the few songs with this much rage without a cuss word. And to be honest that just makes me like the song even more
that is so true
Incase some of you didn’t know, NF’s cries are real in this song.
They decided the keep it in the recording as NF couldn’t get through the song without breaking, which is why you hear so much emotion in his voice.
Wow I did not know that thanks
More like real 'real'.
@@randomocitybyaspiegeek890 wym
You said 'unreal' at the end of your comment and I was just commenting on how raw and real this song and all his music is. That's all. But I knew what you meant.
@@randomocitybyaspiegeek890 are u talking to me ???
“I was nothing but a kid who couldn’t understand it” that hit hard
Love your username and pfp 🥺
@@kc-lv4gh Hello, I understand you and I feel bad so I wanted to know if you could maybe email me or send me some of your music I would really like to hear it if you don't mind :)
@@kc-lv4gh don't give up man, keep going, i'm sure u will be something one day❤️I listened to ur music 💙
@@abduallahamin2001 man if you liked it don't forget to subscribe, this is really hard for me. Nobody knows how much I worked to get 100 subs, and 100 is basically nothing
@@kc-lv4gh Bro quit trying to promote yourself by spamming your message everywhere and trying to make people feel bad. It's hard for you? It's hard for everyone.
i lost my mom a year ago to an OD, she was the most amazing person i’ve ever met. I’m so tired of being angry at her but i can’t help it, she left us. She missed all of our graduations because she was too high to come. Her perfume was cigarette smoke. Sometimes I feel so alone like nobody else has experienced it but I’m glad to know it’s not just me, thank u
I cover this song in recovery for. Song analysis 😢
You’re not alone…I was taken away from my mom at 5 yrs old because of her drug addiction…till this very day she does the same thing…sometimes I love her but most of the time the hate takes over. I vowed to NEVER do this to my children ever. They have no idea the level of emotional trauma this carries throughout your life…it never leaves
I'm so sorry for your loss
Me too my Daughter birth mom Picked the Drugs over her and her Bf and her kids.
@@JunkieJournalTruer words. I lost it when I heard this song and Hope because when Hope dropped it had been EXACTLY 30 years since my mom abandoned my brother and I for her addictions. You’re so right that there are days. She’s still around but just as absent as she ever was. Days when I want to tell her off, days when I miss my mommy…but I too have vowed to NEVER let my daughter experience emotional trauma like this.
"don't you want to see your babies grow?!"
I couldn't help it. I cried
I try to tell my dad to stop smoking and drinking but well it doesn’t work and I get abused and I still love him no matter what.....this made me cry my eyes out.....
yeah made me cry too I'm kinda hitting a streak now
I'm sorry if I'm being annoying but please hear me out. I'm 14 and I wanna rap. me nor my parents can afford to buy me a laptop or a home studio right now. Since I'm Indian it's even worse, everyone laughs at even the thought of me rapping. Im gonna prove them wrong. I wanna show them that my race is something I can't control. What I can control is that I try my best. Im not asking you to like my content, just give me constructive criticism.
One day I'll make it out of this, one day I'll be the greatest.
Same I relate to this song my mom is addicted to pills and its like she not here for me
kgrip okay buddy stop with the copy paste bullshit for likes. If you’re gonna be the best get on with it, and stop complaining. Complaining about shit is weak.
"I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing."
This line was the deepest thing I've felt in a long time. Thank you for that NF. ♥
This line hit me hard the first time I listened to it my mom passed without me even knowing the pills got her too sadly I got called home from school and my foster mom was sitting there with my social worker told me my mom ODed this morning it’s been over two years now and I got a picture on my shelf but damn I need the real thing sometimes
I dont even have a picture
@@JustSomeGuyWithInfinity I'm sorry man I'm nearly out the shitty system now just a couple months and I'm moving out
Has darkness fades Light glows nah the system has been great for me I love my foster mom but I know there’s shitty homes out their that don’t give a shit about the kids they get
Same......😓
"Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had"
feel it :(
me too... what is happening
Same
Cried my ass off this song...
Emy I’ve lost everything I have so I have nothing to loose
I to so I fell in a deep depression
I just found him on spotify. I am sitting here watching my grandsons (3 and 4 years old) sleep 6 months after my beautiful 21 year old daughter died from fentanyl toxicity. I wish I could go back and change so much. NF has a real gift and honesty and pain radiate from each tract. I wish that no one had to feel this way. Thank you sincerely NF for being gonest and sharing your pain. Some of us no longer feel so alone and misunderstood. I am a mama dealing with my own demons who feels like they failed her children and now her grandchildren will grow up and feel this loss and wonder why.
I'm so sorry to see that you lost your daughter. As a mum, wrestling with those thoughts of having failed a child is horrendous, I know. It takes a lot of input and self-reflection (something I only did when I really got into God's word) for us to comprehend ourselves and how we impact others...in both good and less good ways. I pray you come to have compassion on yourself, and that your grandchildren know how much your love them.
@@NihouNi Amen ❤ 🙏
Grace and Peace. You honor her through your love ❤
Wish you the best in the future, that’s terrible, much love!
❤️❤️❤️
BIG HUG!
“music’s the only way I can speak to you” damn i felt that
i relate so much
maybe becsuse he already had a wife and kids NOW did you feel That ??
“They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell.” -NF
If that's case I been in prison since 2013 my mom died this way
Charlie Keever I’m so sorry for you. Don’t let anyone you love do that, just say they could die. I’m so sorry.
If pains a prison I had this coming for a long time then...
My dad did the same thing
and if life is pain then i buried mine a long time ago but it's still alive -nf in paralyzed
Just found my new fav rapper. This brought me to tears.
I know right sad I’m in froster care
Naruto Uzumaki am holding it fam. This shit is real
What about killer bee?
@@princemonzzzi2174 your a fukwit
What about Tupac?
he does need a grammy for this work of art. Im sorry, Nate. So sorry. I wish none of this bad stuff happened to you. i wish yyou were ina better life. Thank you for all youve done so far. thank you
I don’t think the crying was there on purpose, HE IS ACTUALLY FEELING THIS
The end was recorded when he had an emotional breakdown during recording and he doesn’t ply the song at shows to keep it raw
Ik
Anonymous Penguin I cry everytime I hear this song
Anonymous Penguin he’s actually crying
@@dalton2478 bruh I'd be crying to if my mom did all this
"The goodbyes are not what hurt, but the flashbacks that follow"
Very true 😭
And the nightmares..
I needed to read this tonight
@@brittneyschannel1 you're welcome. 💙 stay strong sister.
pepe laugh
the raw emotions in his work is exactly why i absolutely love NF.
Katrina IKR I'm fricken crying this dang song geez I live it but it makes me so sad
same I love it but it makes my eyes water. since its what he's been through and is still going through these emotions. it leaves a big impact on the people who listen to it (especially those who relate to this song). that right there is truly amazing.
It made my eyes water to esspicaly at the end when she fell to the floor and died and the part were u can see nate almost crying 😢
nice work tho really emotional gave it a like
Katrina Cmccj is jazz
Xmx
When you are a professional at being numb to your pain, so you come to this song to feel something. Almost 34 years old and still feel my parents mistakes. This generation must do better
its not about doing better...we as humans will never do better...its about God...if we can get back to Him, then things can get better...but only, only if we come to our Maker...if we come to our Creator...He Loves Us so much...He just wants us to recognize Him, and only Him...He wants a relationship with all almost 8 billion peoples on the Earth...but we don't want Him...but that is the only way that things will get better, is if we turn to God...Jesus Loves YOU...
“now a relationship is something we won’t ever have. why do i feel like i lost something that i never had?”
damn
When I have kids u wont be there. 😭😭😭
Damnnnn
That was powerful
I could relate
*The fact you can hear him breaking down throughout the whole song just shows how raw the emotions are...* All my prayers go out to him...🖤
This song soooo relatable 😭 I miss my mom
I miss my dad😭I have a deep level with this song.😭
I miss my dog Riley
@@michaellewis09 its not the same
@@masonbainbridge7902 It may not be as severe but all grief is the same and sucks.
"Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?"
-NF
I can feel it
So true
I lost myself
"All I feel is pain, everytime I picture you" hits hard...I lost my mom in 2015 to cancer and we weren't close when she died as we'd had a rough relationship over the past few years...but god is it true that like I want to picture her in a better light but I only picture the pain from our relationship...you're amazing Nate never forget that.
*Imagine being this strong to share something like this out in a cruel society...imagine being as amazing as Nate is...Nothing but respect*
blah blah respect all the way for this guy, no doubt
I relate to the song...my mom did the exact same thing
All the way through a respectful comment💥🙏🙏🖤
Harley Dawn stay strong, i love you 🖤
@@harleydawn6894 My mom did that too...
"Music is the only place I can go to speak to you." This line really got me.
Canaan B I had to turn around and look @ my phone when he said that, like damn..
Canaan B me to 😢😢😢😢
Canaan B me too😩😩😢😢😢
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I'm not crying because I relate to this song, I'm crying because I know there's people who actually do relate to it. I can feel Nate's pain in every one of his songs and I guess it breaks me to know that he's struggling.
In the future, this will have alot more likes with my reply at 100+ likes. but yes, depressing and heartbreaking to know that this, this is the lives of some people.
I relate to the song too
me a person who relates to this song
It really hits , drugs mess a person up my mom been doing them since she was my age . She isnt gone but she isnt here either , her brains fried and it's just too much
I can relate since my bff died in dec.18 2020
I still cry to this after 6 years. I was 8 now I'm 14. Wow that's a huge impact it's made on me...
❤❤❤
Most rappers of my generation can't even touch the surface of the level of lyrics present in this song, let alone the depth.
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The only one I know that has deep meaning is Eminem but personaly for me NF is closer and deeper.
Playboi Carti does this every single song.
@@gc315official idk dude,i have heard all playboi carti song and his song is not deep like this one.
Juice can in some songs in others his lyrics are very meh
the courage it takes to put something personal out there.
NF DEEPEST LYRICS!!!
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I'm glad he did though because know there is a so g for people that have been through this too
💯💯
*Eminem exists*
@@vtrulygrimm777 did anyone say he didn't? like fr stop putting eminem in everything when he has absolutely nothing to do with this video or comment.
You can hear the sadness in *NF'S* voice.
True
True
Sit In my room, tears run down my face and I YELL
He wanted to record it on his own with noone watching so he could be 100% himself. 😢🙏🌹
Yeah
My dad died of liquor a few years ago, thank you for expressing the emotion I still can't express.
im sorry man
I can't quite understand why I've seen a few people say he was faking the tears. That was real emotion, real tears. He's extremely hurt by what he went through. We love you, Nate. Congratulations on your new bundle of joy.
Ik how he feels BC my mom died when I was 5
wolf x savage country I’m so sorry for your loss, may god watch over you, 💜💜💜
Sometimes life hits you hard and you wish you'd be dead...😔
He saves so many lives (including mine)..and he deserves to find happiness and light😭❤
you dont show emotion like that unless its raw.
He's definitely crying fr
I can feel NF crying. He must really love his mom.
Miss*
If he did I fully respect him, I’m being honest if this was my mom I could never forgive her as she died doing and buying drugs which the money could be better spent on my well being. Fortunately I’m 17 healthy about to go University from support by the best mother in the world, love from the United Kingdom
@@r.m7034 what a messed up thing to say, really. I mean, I get what you mean, but don't you understand the gravity of peoples pain? There usually is a reason behind abusing.. Shitty thing to postulate, you couldn't forgive someone for being too weak for their own emotions
Oliver J. It’s just my own personal opinion bro, that you should sacrifice a lot of things for your kids from small things like cigarettes to big things like drugs so that your child grows healthy and if you can’t you shouldn’t have a child or should send him to a safe environment. I get some people in the world are struggling and find it hard to refrain from these actions but in my opinion if you have a child you should no question, because if you do drugs and struggle that’s fine you can screw your life over but if it’s harming others then there’s a problem.if you disagree with me that’s fine bro and take care
@@r.m7034 just for the record, cigrattes are considered drugs as well.
And you know, it's not like parents who do drugs doesn't want to quit. Have you heard plof physical dependence? Altered brain chemistry? Withdrawals? Shit like that happen, when you do pills and what not. Quitting drugs, isn't just a dance of flowers :-)
Just discovered NF and in a marathon of all his songs.
Me too brother
Yess
Same
Same here, I had heard a couple of his songs but, didn't decide to really check him out until a couple of days ago. I was in the grocery store listening to this and was about to start crying. He gained a new fan.
The same, bri
"it took everything inside of me not to scream at your funeral, sitting in my chair that person talking was pitiful"
honestly that line is so underrated
NF is one of the only artists who carries so much weight in so little time. He puts so much emotion into so heavy of songs
And his songs save lives
Not the only artist, listen to redeemer by palaye royale. And quite a few Eminem songs. And snuff by slipknot, fade to black by metallica
1st album my Movements? There are others to list if I put more thought into it if I cared enough.
Only? Lmao
Don't forget Chester Bennington
NF, the most undervalued, underappreciated, and under-recognized artist out there
I am living far away from India and still feel the pain in his songs, I guess he is not that under recognised... I won't like if he gets more media attention because he has a genuine fan following right now and it shouldn't be blown away by idiots following him just coz he's famous
Sitting at 41m views. This seems like a dumb statement to make.
Litolic yeah, but when you compare it to some of the other artists it’s not too much
“Some lady in the corner watching us while she taking notes” hit me the hardest
You wanna explain me a bit more, why she's taking notes?
Would be thankful for that.
@@ykiikii she's a social work evaluating if the parents are fit to home him
@@louissiff6349 oh, I thought about a psychiatrist but yours makes sense
@@khaleesiii4542 could be that as well.
ZyRiZ II Michael she is a social worker evaluating if the kids are safe enough to be rehomed
I haven't cried from a song in a while. My birth, "mom" left me for drugs when i was 4. She isn't dead but i know she a'nt gonna live by the time I'm legally aloud to see her again. I feel bad for what people like him have experienced cause i know what its like and i cant imagine whatvid do if life where anymore difficult.
stay strong 😔
You dont realize how much you need someone until they are gone.
Mom
Truth 💔
Wise words💔
I knew what I had when I had her, but it still hurts that she's gone. I miss you Mom
Ben Lepsch fr 😔
It wasn’t the song that hit me so hard
It was the fact that so many people can relate
It makes me sick that so many people have to go through this
don't feel too bad. i feel this way and its my fault
Everyone at some point has to go through this.
@@erikas528 that's not really true
@@Poopydoopysxoopy I think he meant everyone in life has to go through some sort of pain in their life not specifically what's portrayed in the video but anything that has made u hurt in ur life. Everyone has to go through pain in order understand what happiness truly is. If u don't know pain then u don't know happiness because when u go through shit, u learn to appreciate the good times more.
Hamilton Champagne yeah I get that
I am a recovering addict & a mother of 3, this song has helped me in so many ways to stay clean. I never want my children to feel like I chose my addiction over them. Everyday is a battle for me to stay clean & I keep fighting to save my children from feeling the pain of growing up without a mother like I did.
I grew up without a mom as well. My mother passed away when I was 7 due to drugs. There is never a day that goes by without me thinking of her and trying to figure out how I could've saved her. I'm in highschool now. Never stop fighting for your kids.
@@leo-e2n5v I am sorry for your loss. I lost my mother at the age of 14, my father had died when I was 2. Losing a parent isn't easy. The one thing I have realized is that there was nothing I could of done to save them. Just like there is nothing you could of done to save your mom. My kids couldn't get me or keep me clean, I had to do that for myself. I got clean because I didn't want my kids to grow up without a mom like I did. If you ever need someone to talk to I am here, I think of my mom everyday too.
I am so sorry for you guys
Batman Gotham i wish u the best for ur life and families. I hope u will recover soon and had a happy life with ur children and family. God bless you. Love ya❤️
@@batmangotham8445 if you ever need anyone to talk to, we are here too!❤️ Not because you can’t do it alone, but because you don’t have to 😞❤️❤️❤️
As for someone with a mother who doesn’t seem to want to be apart of my life or even her grandkids this song hits hard
My mom just passed away 2 nights ago. I saw her lying on the floor, lifeless. She struggled with alcohol addiction. I showed her this song/video last year and she made me a promise to quit. Well she broke that promise. Tell your mom you love her while you can.
Damn man I dont know what that's like but I know it sucks. Try and be strong
Praying for you, stay strong I hope you find peace
I'm so so sorry for your loss please stay strong and keep your head up man :(
Rest in peace brandon mother
I'm so sorry for your loss man. I know how hard it must be for you. Keep going x
watching this video is simple, it takes 3 steps
1. lay down
2. try not to cry
3. cry a lot
Admiral Doge I never cry... because I’ve gone through sad things that are at the same level of sadness of nf’s childhood, and me now.
Davian DDS I’m sorry for that I hope you know there is always someone to talk to and you don’t have to be alone you are never alone💗🙂
taffybananna thxs..
taffybananna I mean I feel like I’m crying inside of my heart.. but I have no clue..
taffybananna I’ve also been alone, but I know god is with me.
Verse 1: Grief
Verse 2: Anger
Verse 3: Acceptance
Now that you put that out there I see it
True....😭😭
mind blown
Ya😦
The weight this song hits me with.
I lost my dad a week before I turned 18. I feel like I lost him before that. Alcohol drowned him. The vicodin helped. We tried so hard. A month after he died, we got a letter accepting him into a program that would have helped him. I miss him. I'm getting help because I'm stuck there, where I found him. I miss him, i wish he had given us the ability to help.
I love you, dad. I miss you.
I legitimately ugly cried. The pain in your voice, I felt that pretty damn deep.
xlarahabetsx you’re hiding your face in your picture lol . Get off this video if you’re gonna be negative
IKR my sister is on the same path. Everyday I wake up fearing I’m gonna get a call saying she’s gone.
@xlarahabetsx pll like you dont deserve to listen to his music
Aww did someone piss in your cheerios that you have to degrade people?
@@abbigailfertig3983 Send her this song immediately! Maybe it'll help. "Sometimes I wish I would have just called you. I wish I would have just picked up the phone." -NF 4:47... may it never be you. I'm so sorry you and your sister are going through that. 😢
You know he's a good rapper when he can make you cry with a track you don't even relate to at all
justOnerandomguy my thoughts exactly.
Yep...
Yup
Yep
Even more so when it does relate and resonate, tearin up writin this...damn
“ I hate the way I remember you”
Damn.
This song.. tears me apart so bad. My situation was diffrent. I was waiting to see my kids. But they never came. Plans were made and changed . Leaving me waiting. They r grown now. Haven't spoken to me in 4yrs. Tears don't heal. But to anyone holding it in,,,, it's a relief of the weight. Good luck. God bless.
Jesus please help this suffering child of yours. Jesus is hope for the hopeless 😊😊 I pray out loud Psalm 91 each day for a Holy Protective Shield in my life. God bless you enormously
I'm a 53-year old man... This brought tears to my eyes! Damn!!
Exactly
God bless
Lmao. You're 14 at most.
Ruben Pereira you never know man
53 years and your name is Mr1soccerboy...
Who loves NF actually love NF.
The love that his fans giving him isn't fake.
He can be good but all he raps about is how much his fans hate him. It's so annoying he needs to change the subject. Yes Therapy session and the albums before were amazing but after that it's just him complaining about his fans.
@@silaee "All he raps about is how much his fans hate him"
Dude what?!?
Are you high or something, or is that an irony that I missed the point of?
@Yes, either u haven’t heard ANY of his songs, or you completely mis heard the lyrics, cause the most he did like that was not about fans hating on him, but enemies saying he was out of control and not stable, but this is how he handles his pain and regret
If u r fake stay away
@@silaee did you have a rough past like him?
i understand why he dose
My mom abandoned me at a homeless shelter when I was 6 years old. I would look out the window every day at a foster home and cried my self to sleep every night. When I was 7 she visited when I was in foster care. When she had to leave I remember hugging her and looking up at her saying why did she have to leave again. 9 years would pass and I would see her again but I didnt recognize her. She found God and changed her life around. Now at 20 years old im doing good for myself. I ship out for the US Army active duty on January 5th. Even though I dont show much emotion and hardly smile anymore It was hard has hell writing this shit. It hurts but I know Im stronger and more successful because of it. I've come a long way and life just keeps on getting better.
💜
Wishing u love and happiness
good luck tomorrow man
@@frostyomnic9995 thank you!
God bless you! My mom left me in a different way, but I also ended up in foster homes and remember literally doing the same thing you described. Crying myself to sleep. I just wanted to tell you that so you know you're not alone. Sending you the hugs you deserve.
I relate to this song so much. My mom & dad aren't great people, and even though I didn't always respect them, I loved them. They were there for us and they went through so many hard times to provide, no matter what. My dad worked his ass off to provide and my mother took care of our home, taught us to be better.
When I was around sixteen though, their drug use got really out of hand. They tried to hide it but I was always observant and I realized what was happening. They started to act different, not themselves. My dad stopped working, fell back into alcohol. My mother stopped working. Eventually, we lost everything. We lost our house and with no where to go, my brother and I moved away to live with our grandparents.
We watched them deteriorate over the years. They we're practically homeless at times, and actually homeless at other times. They stole from us, manipulated us, lied to us, didn't show up and hurt us in so many ways. They stole from my grandparents, the people taking care of their children for them. They ruined relationships to the point where my father wasn't even allowed to be there when my grandmother passed away. I've seen them shooting up, smoking meth, nodding out in front of me. I've had conversations with them where I can't even understand what they are saying. They've robbed people, hurt people, been in and out of jail, etc;
You name it, they've done it.
They stopped caring about our education, and I was so ANGRY and spiteful at the time that it consumed me. I stopped caring about anything, dropped out of school, and started running the streets and doing stupid shit that I shouldn't have. I influenced my brother to follow in my footsteps. Things are looking better and I have moved on somewhat, but I still haven't fully healed. My parents are still alive but I don't have much of a relationship with them at all because they have just been sinking further down the rabbit hole, and that makes it so much harder. Sometimes I wish they would just die, and most of the time I'm expecting to get that call at any moment.
Despite everything though, I'm really trying to grow and keep playing the game despite the cards I've been dealt. Wish me luck...
You're strong g. Stand tall and keep going. You'll pull through. Forgiving is hard and it takes time. Focus on yourself and do what's right for you. But don't let their mistakes dictate your life and influence the happiness you recieve. It's gonna be tough but you're stronger than them man. ❤
You need more recognition from the people in these comments. Stay strong bro🫶🏼
Don’t know if you’d see this, but I hope and pray that God will bless your heart and soul, doesn’t matter if you’re religious or not but please remember this. You will be blessed.
So much emotion and pain bottled up in one person. I feel you NF
XxShadowxX X same here😥
Haliyma Clay oh god....
+Sierra Thurman Not to be overly religious but please don't take God's name in vain
I didn't mean it like that, meant it like "oh gosh". Didn't mean to offend anyone. =p
Pewdiepie p he doesn't
I have never heard a more deep and emotional song in my life. This hits hard for me and I cried for the entire length of the song.
tracy knol What’s the meaning? What happened to her?
@@soto3689 drugs got the best of her
@@soto3689 she had a opioid addiction which is a drug
So did I....Jesus Christ
@gouan 10 Yeah
Still gets me choked up. No kid should ever go through this. I felt Nates pain through this track. I'd hug you if I could bro. Be safe.
Giovani Ortiz but sadly we do😕
My dad left me and then used me , pretended to want me to stay with his gf then he cut me off he has 2 other kids that he loves and cares for but not me I’m numb
I'm sorry if I'm being annoying but please hear me out. I'm 14 and I wanna rap. me nor my parents can afford to buy me a laptop or a home studio right now. Since I'm Indian it's even worse, everyone laughs at even the thought of me rapping. Im gonna prove them wrong. I wanna show them that my race is something I can't control. What I can control is that I try my best. Im not asking you to like my content, just give me constructive criticism.
One day I'll make it out of this, one day I'll be the greatest.
@@_kgrip maybe not the greatest but u could be pretty good
i understand him a lot because my mom left me for drugs as well
"I think of you when i get a whiff of that cigarette smell." Is the line that hits me. My mom was a wild, turbulent soul. She wasnt ready for motherhood, but I loved her. Oh my god I loved her so much. She messed up, over and over again. I felt every aspect of this song, but while my mom had a brief battle with prescriptions they are not what did it. Cigarettes took her, they took my momma. I watched lung cancer destory her, it ripped her apart as vicious as a pack of starving wolves ripping her apart as the cancer masticized to her brain and turned her into even more of a stranger. 37 tumors in her brain that cigarettes planted deep in her lungs and it grew like an invasive weed. I stood by her bedside when they took her off of life support, a shell of her former self, and i gently cried as I told her how much I loved her and it was okay for her to let go. It wasn't okay though. I wasnt ready. It took my once wild, fierce force of a mother, too crazy to have her feet planted on firm ground where her kids needed her...15 minutes to die. I watched life leave her body. I smelled a lady the other day in passing, and she smelled like my momma. No, she smelled like Newport 100s, and it killed me to realize those kids she had with her will probably feel how I feel.
Being the child of an addict is hard to explain to people, but you did it in a beautiful, raw, painful, perfect way.
Thank you.
Ya I know how you feel. And how he feels. My sister is an addict and she is not In good shape.I see her probably once every 2 years. She doesn’t barely even know me.I fear everyday that I will wake up,and my mom will tell me she got a call saying she’s gone. Sometimes I wish it could all go away, but that’s not my reality.😢
You know just me or is all what plays on Ur mind is she could be lying on a floor odd d
I know what you mean my father chose drugs over me and now he is possibly in jail wasting away from them. It sucks to not have that space filled with love
Claire Futrell is like to share with you what I shared with Nate:
“This song kicked me right in the feels. And I was *not* ready for it. :-/
I was addicted to pain pills for over 6 years. Thankfully, my clean date is also the day I found out I was pregnant with my Daughter, my first and only child.
That day was January 10th 2016, and by the grace of a hidden spirit, I have remained dedicated. I have remained strong. And I haven’t relapsed.
But, that doesn’t mean it isn’t hard.... it is. It’s so damn hard.
Every single day provides a challenge to resist. A temptation I must ignore... *one that is forever present.*
Every single day I have to make a choice. A deliberate, selfless, thoughtful decision. Because every single day, one of the many options always available to me is....failing her. And I cannot. I will not.
I can’t. I can’t. To say she is worth it, would be a *devastating* under-statement. She is worth so much more than my words could adequately describe.
Songs like this keep me on the path with positive outcomes. They put things back into perspective, and they provide a gravely needed reminder. A reminder of why we suffer to live.
My sweet baby daughter doesn’t deserve this. She, and all children of drug addicts, should *never* have to endure what Nate and his siblings did when they lost her.
Nate, I am so so so sorry. And I am so so so grateful for what you are choosing to do with your talent. This song and this music video alone, will literally save lives. It could be the final thing that makes somebody struggling to get clean, finally get it right. It could be the thing that helps someone who’s close to relapse, stand firm. The effect this song causes within someone simply cannot be ignored. You cannot ignore this when you hear it. *You cannot ignore the way it moves through you.*
Please, if you are a parent who struggles with addiction... please.... stay strong. Please make the right choice for your precious little ones. It absolutely can be done. It won’t be easy, but it will be so worth the fight.
@@kaydawn3152 same here but i do not feel sadness for him man he can rot in hell with his decisions. Life is hard when u make wrong choices shit goes to hell. Fuck our fathers man
"some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing" that hit my soul
the pain that radiates from his voice has me crying. damn.
Fr
KGRIP keep believing people are nasty because there jelly but I believe you will make it in life dont suicide but smile instead people are racist coz they don't know how it feels to be like that it's must ssooo scary everyday having to worry about the cops coming just because you're different it's ssooo messed up man like people r just soo messed up but we can stop racism by standing up tall and being the person u r
7 years later i still didnt forgive my mother but this songs help when im crying and asking why. thank you NF
listen to mama by nf it might help. God changed him and he can change you too, I understand you may have resentment but he still loves you
@@placefeature5329 thank you so much, i needed this.
no matter how much I see this music video I’ll never stop crying
Literally same I just got done crying again to this video for the 50th time
it hits different when you've lived it...RIP mom :(
@@TheGreatJimbob32 I’m so sorry for your loss🕊 I hope you’re doing great !
frl...
Same
I found NF accidentally on youtube. This is deepest and the most underrated song written!! 😢😭
It isn't underrated in my opinion, though it deserves more views yes.
This song here is the most underrated song in my opinion. It only has 1.5 million views for being six years old.
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Well at least it is the most underrated song I know of at the moment.
Andres Sandoval I found him after I heard his intro 3 music
"There is no accidents"
-Master Oogway
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🗝️🖤🗝️🖤🗝️
🖤🎈🖤🎈🖤
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I don’t understand how rappers get famous promoting bad things and flexing their money and belongings their music have no depth no meaning but NF s songs are talking bout the struggle of his life his songs make me cry he pours a piece of his soul into each soul yet he is unrecognized
He sings the truth
I loved Cardi and rappers like her til I heard how real his music is and hes still underrated
Its honestly disgusting that its that way in this generation, im young but i understand that this generation and the next ones ate just stupid, theyre ruined honestly
Because are you really going to want to listen to sad shit even if it's true?
Emma Fee Zkiss
Emma Fee society is not ready for him..sadly i dont know if it will ever be.
I was a mom at 16 an alcoholic by 20 and an addict to prescription pain meds by 30. My oldest sons life was not easy, not any part of it. Sometimes I feel like his life is better now that he’s out on his own. I’m 2 yrs and 4 months sober and clean now, I’ve apologized to my son more times than I can count but I still don’t feel like I’ve done enough to help him heal from the pain I caused him. ANYTIME I feel the urge to use I listen to this song and it saves my sobriety every time, it saves my kids mom, it saves my life! Thank you Nate!
Keep grinding 💪
Congratulations on your sobriety!Keep going hun, you've got this!!!
First step the hardest part is over with. Now stay clean n keep grindin 💯 RESPESCT
treelon musk that sucks so bad. I let my son see his daddy anytime he asked. I don’t care what’s goin on btw mom n dad, a kid needs their daddy!
I wish my mom was as strong as you.. my mom relapsed😞 no one loves me
its feels good to cry when you haven't for a while.
It really does
Sucks to cry when you lost someone so close to you because of someone who never loved you like they said they made up a whole fake person and dont even love them like they said it hurts it hurts so bad inside but I am still alive still blessed to be alive and moving daily so I do my best to forget and just move on from what we had I held on to it this long I held on to our relationship this long because I wanted to feel the love ik that you were denying and u just wanted attention from someone else so I move on no tears nothing to say nothing for u no feelings anymore no love there any more no nothing anymore because you chose to do the things you did and abandon me
This comment made me cry, it feels good though :)
Fucking words dude
I cry everyday
"They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell.” -NF
JUNE2020. SORRY FOR BEING LATE TO LISTEN YOUR MASTERPIECE 💞💚
Welcome to the family my boi
Better late than never
@@justinbrummett Thank you for the warm welcome 😍😊
Yes it doesn’t matter he is just out here helping us with his music. Also this helps me a lot my mom died when I was in third grade not even to overdosing but she had a disease and it did come back to finish her. So I can relate a lot but it must hurt more for NF because he slowly got to watch it so it must of been like torture.
Damn man, U all really went through a lot..
I'm writing this in tears right now. Keep going, Nate. You mean more to us than you think 🥲
What really breaks me is the sound of him crying in between lines. This song is so meaningful, that even I, with a mom who is still here and a dad who is healthy, am crying.
same 🥺
Hold them close not everybody gets that chance
@@randallhuskey138 true
It made me cry to hear him cy, such pain. You can feel it :(
same
Kylie Jade
Dear mom. This song describes everything that I have been through. Except one thing. You’re alive. You’re alive and you still neglect the fact that you have a daughter. I used to look up to you. I used to think that my mommy was a super hero. Well not anymore. You just ran off without explanation. The day that you left you looked me straight in the eye smiled and told me you loved me and you’d be back at 6:30. You didn’t come back. And you took my brother with you. That hurt. You abandoned me. I didn’t deserve that. You chose drugs over me so many times. You have done me wrong so many times yet I still love you. I miss you mom. I wish we could have a relationship but you screwed that up. I hope you miss me. I hope you realize what you’ve done. I sit in my room with this song on repeat and think about you. I think about the lyrics and how they perfectly describe our relationship. Me waiting on you to come pick us up from nanny’s but you never did. You calling us and promising us that you’d be there and you didn’t show up. And having pictures of you but not wanting them, because I needed you to actually be there but you never were. You hurt me mom. I just wish that you would own up to everything that you have done. And to anyone in my situation, or in something similar, you are not alone. You are loved. You will get through this. This is what substance abuse does. It affects way more than the person who is using. It affects their family too.
I really wish you happines, I feel that because it happens to me too. You´re not alone.
your not alone, you are loved, you are loved
I agree with everything you said. just remember your not alone. there are many other people out there that have the same problem as you do. Remember to be happy. hope you get in touch with your mum again one day.
I’ve just read this all I wanna say is high hopes and that ur not alone im a person who will listen to u i won’t say anything because I’ll mess something up but if there’s something sad or angry on ur mind u can tell me or someone who I trust u probley won’t trust me but just saying.High Hopes ♥️♥️♥️
The exact thing happened to me, but we have each other. There will come a day when there on there death bed and there going to wish we were there. Your not alone
He actually shows what kind of affect drugs has on people. Whereas everyone else makes them sound cool.
NF is giving everyone the right message on stuff and that’s what everyone should be doing
Logic made a song about Suicide
Totally 💗
A. He knows it cause his mom died of an overdose he wrote this song to almost explain his childhood
Rebecca Ruddy I know
Yeahh and This kinda reminds me of Macklemore's "Otherside" &"Kevin"
Man I am such an empath. I literally cried when I heard this song. My mom is still alive thankfully and not on drugs. But holy fuck NF. Love you bro.
same bro
"When you're happy, you like the song. But when you're sad, you understand the lyrics."
What if you're both?
It's like that wit every song
I know how it feels like.
It's almost simular as my story
@@taukietaukie3950 me too :(
"I dont need a picture of my mom i need a real thing" damn, that hit hard
hit dude not hitted
I know how that feels it's scary my parents abandoned me from a newborn an now I'm 15 I'm now been in care 15 years and I've been through sexual physical and mental abuse all my life and that's me everyday looking at pictures of my parents instead of seeing them my dad died if a drug overdose and my mum has got schizophrenia and she snot happy so she doses up and I have recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and I'm living in a group home were I really don't like and I have no choice what happens
And I'm separated from family so I have a had a similar life to NF
That did hit me hard to man
Jess Clemaon I’m honestly so sorry you had to go through that I can’t imagine how tough and hard that feels but just know something things will get better eventually there will be light at the end of the dark tunnel and you’ll get through this I wish you all the best!
this is not a song, it's a story.
these are not lyrics, they're true words.
Finally a comment i can relate to💎💪🏾🤐
Yes
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I just started to cry on my bed watching this sad damn thing.
Yeah teuw
7 years after this song, her crying in the last scene still hits me hard ')
My brother was addicted to drugs he passed away at 23 years of age this song just touched my heart I cried nf is not like other rappers he's an amazing rapper he's different
Dakota Tommasello I am so sorry i understand my dad passed away from addiction to alcohol on August 15 2019 a month ago
@@arianamendoza5092 its a horrible thing😢
Rest in peace to ya brother. Keep ya head up, cause u ain't never go fo' real. God bless u
@@tobiasluecke2292 thank you so much I still struggle through it but that meant a lot thank you
This is the most wholesome comment section ever
Reading all these comments here I realize how easy I have had. I'm thankful I have such loving parents at 29 years. Stay strong y'all.
You are very blessed I'm not much older then you I'm 30 I have my dad for the most part has my back no matter what I lost my to alcoholism when I was 20 she never got to meet any my kids any her grandkids period my sister was 3 months pregnant with my oldest niece at the time but I got 2 kids and my 3rd on the way due in June it brings to my eyes every time especially when he says he thinks about when has kids they won't meet his mother I got kids and it's very painful they will never meet there grandmother but thanks for thinking of us who have lost someone it's hard man
Adnan Awes i have no dad since 2 weeks before my b-day and now im close to 19
@@Erik-xd1tf My condolences, R.I.P.
Ayyyyy we got a 29 or 30 year old listening to NF, this goes to show that nf never gets old ❤️🥺
Stay strong
Even when he's crying and yelling it sounds terrifyingly beautiful...
Clorinda Rose T. True, true
Clorinda Rose T. Right shit is amazing. But heartbreaking same time
same and my anxiety usually gets triggered by yelling but i love music that shows deep meaning loud and clear
Every scream of a broken heart hits harder than most and usually sounds very tragically beautiful 😔
i know right u guys should check out his song let u down if u haven't already and his music proves that u don't have to curs to make music sound cool this is real music!!!
Everything he says I relate to… everything. It’s crazy. I lost my mom to an Overdose in 2011. When I found his music, I just couldn’t let go. I’ve never related to an artist more than Nate. His feelings, how things are hard to let go of, how he relates to the world, his faith. Anytime he releases anything new, it boggles my mind. I need him to keep going.
That’s the most painful song that I ever heard. You can feel in his voice that there is so much pain. The last part hit me so hard. I really love this man so much, I have so much respect🖤
BHC 🖤
Phqntvm yes man 🖤
Yungblud 4 life 🖤🖤🖤
NF All the way
I feel like you yoo
i cry every single time i hear this song. it really sucks when your brain associates songs with traumatic situations
And that's the worst pain of all :/
Facts
True
mvddiiieee that is not the worse pain of all. Not even close.
@@Asdfgqedfglo not for everyone. for me it is because of the pain linked to this song. that is truly my worst pain
What hurts is knowing how fucking badly I can relate to NF’s music...who else can relate to most of his music?
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Me 100% I go to NF every day I love him
Me
@@abbycoco8868 i hate how my life is rn what happend with my mom and what she did to me and my sister and brothers all i wanted was to have a happy mom and son reltionship.
This song played a huge role in helping me get clean. I’m now celebrating 6 1/2 years of sobriety and being a present mom to my 8-year-old. I first heard this song in rehab when I had 12 days clean-my daughter was with my parents in another state, and it completely broke me. I imagined her singing this about me, and it forced me to confront my addiction in a way I hadn’t before. From that moment on, I was willing to sacrifice whatever it took to stay clean and be the mother she deserved. Thank you, NF.
"but I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing" I'm crying so much holy shit...