It's not your fault Your not a problem You are perfect You aren't fat You aren't skinny You aren't the problem You aren't a bad person You are wonderful You aren't a crybaby Your don't deserve them You love yourself You are clean You are kind Your are the person that everyone wants Your skin isn't a paper... don't cut it Your face isn't a mask... don't hide it Your heart isn't a door... don't lock it Your size isn't a book... don't judge it Your life isn't a movie... don't end it Your neck isn't a rope... don't hang it Your body isn't for sale... don't sell it Your brain isn't a stone... don't crush it Your life is an inspiration...be proud of it Love yourself.. you are perfect no matter what you do. The past of you suffering will end Your suffering will end Don't c^t your body your hair Don't kill your self yet. If you have a pet it will make your problem go away They get mad at you for being soo perfect They blame you because you are so pretty/handsome/stunning You are brighting the world.. you are a true star Keep going.. it will past. We love you don't stop being kind to everyone The kindness will speard and the kidness will also pay you back. They love you they just don't wanna show the loveness for you You are so perfect that everyone gets mad and jealous Give everyone a second chance not too many tho your eyes is perfect your nose is perfect your height is perfect your skin is perfect your mouth is perfect your hair is perfect your face is perfect your body is perfect your hands is perfect your fingers is perfect your teeth is perfect your waist is perfect Your torso is perfect your legs are perfect your thighs are perfect your tounge and everything is perfect YOU are perfect love your body and everything You are so greatful for what you have. Ignore the bad people you dont want them to get attached to you And leave your fake friends You deserve better. Don't give up Cheer up aswell Pretty/handsome/stunning person. We are proud to see you alive. We are so proud We love your smile We love your laugh We love your personality So don't give up We love you. We love you so much Don't end it too fast. Don't commit Don't get controled Don't make them control you like a puppet Do your own way Do everthing you like Ignore the rude people Ignore the hate Ignore getting yelled There's people by your side and always be. We love you no matter what you do to yourself. They don't know what your been through They ain't been in your shoes Don't belive them they are liars Love youself. We are proud of you existing here We love you so much.. NEVER GIVE UP You're precious You made it this far. And it's so amazing that you are still here
Exactly. I’m showing signs of depression and my parents don’t believe me. “But you’re always so happy! It’s just hormones! You dont have depression!” You can’t fucking see into my brain. It pisses me off when people say this shit to me. I just wanna scream at my parents. The only time I feel safe to cry is at night.. when I’m alone in the dark, just me and my phone. It’s when I can cry and listen to music without anyone knowing . That’s why I love the nighttime, I feel safe. I’m in my own little world.. ( sorry for ranting in ur replies sm, I tend to do this )
Some people just don't know how to be supportive. I am sorry that they aren't being helpful and supportive, Sugarcane. Please know that you have people here though, alright? Please protect yourself
Bro fr it’s all good and chill then every thing is fucked up im also going into 8th grade and moving to a new school because my mom lost custody over me because she was mentally and a little physically abusive so everything is new and fuck up🥲
I didn't even think I'd live to see 13, but I turn 18 in two weeks and tomorrow I start college classes (putting myself through btw) as an art major. I still struggle, I think I always will, but things get better. Trust me. Keep going and know that I'm so proud of you for it.
i never thought i'd see 11, but i'll be 15 in four months. so glad i kept going, because now i have the most amazing circle of people and the best online community
I’ve been trying to convince my parents to get me diagnosed with auDHD but due to their age, they refuse to believe me. It’s especially difficult in school when my educational needs aren’t met cause they’re a “distraction” Doodling in my sketchbook isn’t me ignoring you, I’m sorry that I physically can’t sit and stare at a board for 8 hours every day. If anybody is reading this, I hope you get through your hard times, you’ll overcome this ❤ Update: I’m getting a diagnosis in most-likely December
same here, and my own teacher doesn't believe me she thinks that I would've had adhd if I was hyper but it's not all about hyperactive energy it can also be about stress excessively talking and plus, I'm hyperactive in afternoons, BTW I wake up in the middle of the night with tons of energy, and my mood swings a lot EDIT: I also have PTSD
what state are you in and how old are you cause i know some laws and if your 12 or older you can get a diagnosis without parental consent in certain circumstances. im in the u.s by the way, and i am 11.
*Timestamps:* 1): Alien Blues - Vundabar / 0:002:35 2): My Alcoholic Friends - The Dresden Dolls / 2:365:20 3): I'd Rather Sleep - Kero Kero Bonito / 5:217:11 4): Blue Hair - TV Girl / 7:1210:35 5): This Is Home - Cavetown / 10:3614:17 6): Cigarettes Out The Window - TV Girl / 14:1817:32 7): Sarah - Alex G / 17:3220:25 *Pin, maybe?*
*i have schizophrenia, Bipolar Disorder, and extremely high ADHD. I was never normal, even when I was a child. I only had (and still have) only a small group of friends (2 people, calling them S and M) that I know will actually understand me. I was born in the same hospital as S, so we have known each since birth. I met M in 3rd grade. When I was a child, no one understood me because my word would come out as gibberish most times and I mostly talked about the things I saw (example: weird shadow creatures no one else saw) so they didn’t want to be friends with me. There were also times where I had random mood swings due to Bipolar. One second I’m laughing with my friends, the next I’m on the verge of tears. Then a few weeks later I would have an amount of energy that was almost otherworldly because of the ADHD. S and M were the only ones that were there for me when I was sad. They were the only people I could trust to tell them if I’m doing okay or not. With most people, I would just say that I’m fine. But with S and M, I could actually tell them if I was not okay because I knew they wouldn’t judge me for it. When I was kid, I thought it was normal for kids to be like me, but it’s not. I now know that I’m not normal. Hell, some might even call me weird (which I am, and I’m fine with that). I’m fine with being called weird and not normal because I’ve been called it my whole life.*
as someone with extremely high adhd and like 5 other disorders, I feel you. It fucking sucks, doesn't it, being called weird by everyone? But, here's the thing. The ones who call you weird... are weird too. Just in a different way. The mean way. Those who don't judge you are the real ones.
"Stop complaining! Your life is perfectly fine! People have it worse!" Yeah, but sometimes I want to focus of myself than others, lady. (REMINDER THAT THINKING FOR YOURSELF ISN'T NARSSISTIC!)
FINALLY YES! AND THAT VENTING OR SAYING YOUR PROBLEMS ISNT BEING AN ATTENTION SEEKER. its especially for me though, i dont know about you but i hope you understand :) (also that you cant expect the younger friend or 'happy all the time' friend to be weak and not understanding)
I'm 13....and I'm going through so much pain...like crying everyday and thinking about suicidal things... It's because of my family of course.Strangers in the internet comforts me than my family. I'm hoping to my pain to end...Like things are going well but then, it goes bad again..And I'm losing all of my hope.But I'm still sane.And I think my pain won't last forever.And if you're gone through those things or even worse, i hope your life would get better.Don't lose your hope.I love you, even if i don't you..❤️🩹 (I wanted to share my feelings because my family is not listening to me...)
Don't worry dear, almost everyone passes this phase. Don't end it but challenge yourself to make it to highschool. I promise you in this situation you're in right now, you'll be learning so much stuff from it. Cheeer upp :}} !!
I used to be the smart, intelligent kid that had her future fully planned. I am great with languages, good in maths and just kind and good in psychology. But now in 8th grade everyone is talking about the future and I’m not ready. I have no idea what I wanna to after school. I always wanted to be an actor but is it really that realistic? Math is going downwards. It feels like my brain is just turning off and I don’t know how to react. Because I don’t want to fail. Now or ever. I know that I’ll go to college but then what? I was planning on kms after college to avoid the problem but I’m afraid of pain. I don’t know what to do and I can’t tell anyone cuz I’m a damn attention seeker that never got enough attention because “everything was so perfect with me”. UPDATE: So, I actually know what to do after I graduate school! I’m thinking author since I got talent or design logos (Grafikdesigner in german) Also, I had my last talk with my therapist! But something still wrong with me. My anger issues that I worked on are getting a lot worse and I’m getting more and more violent. I always have the urge to hit my head on something or pull out my hair and even though I don’t actively try to off myself, that thought is still wandering in my mind and I will not get therapy again or tell anyone. I don’t want to annoy anyone with my update and if it triggers someone I’ll stop😋 LOVE Y’ALL AND DON’T OFF YOURSELF❤️ (STAY HYDRATED AND GO GRAB SMTH TO EAT NOW🥪)
I dont know if this will help at all, but I used to feel the exact same way. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and wanted to just end it. As a senior now, I figured out what I wanted to do by volunteering with programs I thought would be fun. Getting a job also helped a lot because I had money to pursue my interests. All I'm saying is hang in there and try things out. (:
I used to have straight A’s and be so happy in the start of seventh grade last year. It started to get worse and my mom comforted me, but now I’m in eighth grade and my grades are slipping. I can’t get comfort because now my dad and my mom are the ones against me. They call me all sorts of names and always take my brother’s side. My mom sometimes apologizes for saying and doing things that hurt me but really, she doesn’t change and says sorry over and over again. I feel as if I am just all alone. I used to do SH and I told my mom because I thought she would comfort me. Instead, she threatened me that she would mill herself if she saw me do it again. Now I have trust issues and am afraid to get help. I hope you all are doing well.
Hey it’s okay. I get it and ik how you feel about this all but try to get help with teachers and ask if you can stay in their class for lunch to practice on your work, that’s what I do and ask for tutorials, and if you trust an adult like your aunt tell them about it and see if you can stay after school for tutoring okay? But be safe out there ❤🫶
I'm losing my mind. I can't remember how many times i cried. I have school in a few days . I dont want to live anymore. I'm tired. I just want to die and make everyone forget about me. I've suffered enough. I grew up surrounded by fake friends and barely any real friends. I HATE MY SO CALLED "FRIENDS". I BARELY HAVE ANYONE THAT CARE ABOUT ME. I HATE BEING THE ONE LEFT OUT. I HATE EVERYONE. I JUST WANT TO BE KID AGAIN. I HATE MYSELF. I HATE THIS STUPID LIFE. I HATE EVERYTHING thank you so much for listening to my vent/rant. It means a lot [ Edit: Thank you all for your support, you all are like friends to me and I hope you all are doing great, take care to everyone and thank you again, love ya'll ♡ ]
I'm sorry... I... understand... but you probably wouldn't like being a kid like me... been depressed since I was 9, now 11 and getting better but I miss the depression, it comforted me. WHATS WRONG WITH ME. WHY AM I HERE? WHATS MY PURPOSE? WHY..... why... please... WĤƳ‐
i was diagnosed with ASPD as sociopathic at fourteen after traumatic events. almost 20 now, my life has been nothing but a melancholic slog ever since; wouldn't wish this on anyone. hope it ends soon.
I hope you know that it doesn't matter what you are diagnosed with, you are still a human being, and deserve love and care. Keep going, you have people who believe in you
You're a person. As long as you try to be a good person, that's enough. If you admit you're not perfect, and try to fix your mistakes, that's enough. If you're just trying to make the world a slightly better place than you left it, for yourself and others, then *that's enough.*
I started 9th grade last week and let me just say I never thought about offing myself until this moment. Everything was perfect until the end of 7th grade. I figured out that my whole life was a lie and everyone around me is untrustworthy. I cry every night and fake smiles in public. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone because they will tell someone and I don't want to go to the mental hospital like my siblings because I promised I wouldn't be like them and I now have anxiety and depression and I don't know to feel anymore. I don't want to get out of bed anymore when little me used to wake up excited to go to school and see my friends. What happened to me? I was the one to cheer up everyone in elementary school. I was the brightest person in class and now I can barely make my teachers happy without tons of stress. I'm the therapist friend and everyone relies on me weather is drama or venting. There is so much about thats wrong and every time I get in trouble I go home and cry and wonder why I am like this and I feel so bad for everyone. I don't want to go back to therapy it never helped. I act like im so positive about my body and how "Smart and pretty" I am. I got into the school I wanted too and I have good grades but highschool is so stressful. Im in marching band and I also want to join gymnastics, cheerleading, and theatre? I am putting so much pressure on myself and I am digging myself into a deeper and deeper hold that I will probably never get out of. I am scared of the future, I really am. There is so much more I could say but I don't think I could do it. I just pretend all day and cry at night. What am I to do? I also have autism, adhd, AFRID (an eating disorder), sensory, and so much more I haven't been dignoased with. No one in my family understands my brain and I still have tantrums at 14. I feel like a terrible and incompetent person. Not that I feel like a burden, my family is great but I feel dumb. All 5 of my siblings are also mental but they don't know how I feel currently. I don't want to live anymore..
No matter what you're going through٫ know that 1. Everything will get better٫ I promise٫ and 2. You're not alone. I deal with bad anxiety and social anxiety٫ depression and an ed. Life doesn't feel real sometimes. But if you focus on the bad things happening٫ you'll never get time to see the good things٫ okay? If you can at least find one thing that makes you happy٫ I can guarantee you'll get better. ❤
I'm so sorry you have to go through that, Sugarcane... Please know that we are people that will protect you, no matter who or what you are. Don't end it all, there are people who need you. I hope you know that are protected and loved here
i'm gonna be honest here... this is sooo relatable also pleas keep going, i'm in 9th grade now, and just because it doesn't get easier doesn't mean you don't get stronger, you do
Hey guys:) Im a military brat so ive been moving around pretty frequently since childhood. We finally settled down and when talking to civilians kids i realized connections meant so much more to them than they do to me. I cant love anyone not even my own family. In the back of my mind everyone and everything could be ripped from me at any moment. So i don’t connect with ppl. Theres no fixing it and its hard to explain. But i cant have a best friend or significant other because i cant truly care about anyone without the fear of loosing someone again. And it hurts like shit tbh. Dont be like me u guys are stronger. Dont worry about me thats the last thing i would ever want i want to die without anyone remembering me. But i dont want to die and i dont want to live. I don’t know what i am anymore
It’s ok I’ve been there too I stopped loving everything and anything but it eventually got worse and worse then it finally started to get better then I met the person who means the world to me it will get better eventually, it takes time.❤
Man…….this his hard………I know the feeling. All my life I always have had different friends they’d always leave we’d talk on the phone some to but then they’d just stop replying so It made me where I literally cannot force myself to make new friends I don’t really see the point so nowadays I only have like 1 friend and we never even see eachother anymore we only can talk over the phone
I'm going to move like sometime at the beginning of next year, and i'll have to say goodbye to my best friend in the whole world, and i'm not ready at all, all i can think about is how i'm going to be ripped away from him in a couple months with no way to contact him bcs we both don't have phones or anything to stay in contact. I'm afraid of leaving, but also that he will forget me and eventually i will mean nothing to him bcs he will never think of me again.
I don't know what it feels like but that hits hard and I want to care about you as someone did to me and I want you to live happily and love happily so try please but you don't have to try I guess I just want you to be happy 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 Virtual hugs
school sucks man. i begged my mom to take me out of the school i was at for middle school and she wouldn’t. all my friends hated me 8th grade year and turned on me. i stoped showing up to school. and i started Sh and i had to wear my pe uniform and it was short sleeved and i had cuts all over my arm and people told the school and they told my parents. then kids started saying i only was doing it for attention. my old friends who i didn’t talk to anymore invited me to get my nails done but then one of them told me they only invited me because they felt bad… i was the only person who didn’t go to grad
IM SO SORRY-ALSO WHY TF WOULD I CUT MYSELF FOR ATTENTION? I DONT ANT ATTENTION ON IT! AND IF I WERE TO DO IT FOR ATTENTION YOU SHOULD BE CONCERNED IM GOING AS FAR AS HURTING MYSELF FOR ATTENTION!
Hey you! All of you lovely people out there! Yes, you! Listen to me, even through your insecurities, your fails, your mistakes, your wins, your rights, your hurts, even your acts. I will still love you for you. Please, stay alive, not for others only but for you too. As one person said once dinner isn't over! What that means is to live your life the best you can because once it's done, it's over, you cant go back, that's why you need to do your best! Even when you're confused, you can still do something great! Go do some good to this world because everyone needs it so we can get motivated and follow in YOUR footsteps! Go donate to a charity, or you can help just by talking about it and aspiring others to! Bring joy by an instrument or judt be there for someone when they need it, you dont even have to say anything, actions will speak louder than words. Now get up and take care of yourself! Okay? I love you for who you are!!!
And thats why id ont like therapist usaly they give the most basic advice give you mabey a hug say its ok and thats all or mabey some pills witch if you dont keep them on you you get more depression
👽🔵 Alien Blues 🔵👽 (My teeth are yellow, hello World) 0:00 - 2:35 🍻👥 My Alcoholic Friends 👥🍻 (Six is not a pretty number 8 or 3 are better) 2:36 - 5:20 🌻💤 I'd Rather Sleep 💤🌻 (Now I know what's real and what is fake) 5:21 - 7:11 🔵🎭 Blue Hair 🎭🔵 (There's really no way of of if their eyes you'll always be a dumb blonde, and she cries over nothing) 7:12 - 10:34 ❤🏫 This is Home🏫❤ (Get a load of this monster, he doesn't know how to communicate, his mind is in a different place) 10:35 - 14:18 🚬🌃 Cigarettes out the window🌃🚬 (When you call my name there will be no answer, I always call your name) 14:19 - 17:33 👧💆♀️ Sarah 💆♀️👧 (Sarah runs to feel the burning in her lungs and clear her head) 17:34 - 20:27
To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you This is not mine but you can also copy this to make someone's day :>
bro, my brother just saw that i was listening to this and legit said: "what the heck? you're not depressed, stop pretending, your life is so easy" like, my guy, 10 mins ago you called me an idiot bc i disagreed that tea could smell like cigeretts... i mean, that's not why i'm here, but still, just fueling the flame
Stop pretending my ass, how would he know you have it easy. Even if u do, having an easy life doesn’t automatically make someone depression free. Some of us are just built like that and a little positivity could maybe help. I can totally relate but now that I’m older the best advice I can give is that don’t listen to other people who think they know you better than you yourself do. Let them go on flapping their mouth and try not taking much of it to heart, they aren’t living the same life as you, do what you want feel what you want but know that in the end things will get better. You may have to work hard to get to that position but strive hard for it you won’t regret it!!
You know, I'm only in 5th grade and stress is real. It really hurts to have to cry almost everyday and to always cry myself to sleep..... You are perfect❤
i’ve been were you are. the only things that ever seemed to understand me were fictional characters/worlds. it was so lonely. but i promise you from the bottom of my heart that there are people out there like you who escape to different worlds. i would suggest joining internet groups that focus on the things you love if you haven’t already. also, you learning to be alone with yourself will benefit you so greatly in life. a lot of people don’t know how to entertain themselves or just be by themselves which can lead to them not knowing the person in the mirror. if you live in a place where you can’t find people who will make you feel like you can share the things you love then you can write own Your Reality (i had to get a DDLC reference in there somehow 😋)
Hey guys, im currently in 8th grade... i have friends that barely care, no family that cares, and i have autism, ADHD, and schizofrenia... life is hell, and i feel bad for everyone that has to go through the same things or worse in this cruel world. Im beyond help, but please... try to get better and dont end up like me. 😓 Edit: tysm for the support, I'll try to get better. Also forgot to mention my bipolar.
Even if no one near you cares, we do. Leave them behind, but don’t leave yourself behind in the process. You are strong. You can do this. ❤ God luck to you, in whatever you decide is best.
I still remember the days when I was younger…6 or so when I had no care in the world and “supportive parents”…what happened to the days now…being all by yourself on your own team…faking a smile everyday not to worry the other people even though they hate you too 😔 it’s an endless loop until u end it all…
I hope you're doing okay and everything is getting better. I know it hurts now, but you have valid emotions and feelings you need to let them out or risk tearing yourself apart from the inside out. You deserve the care and affection you want. You deserve to be heard when you speak, and I bet you have the loveliest, and the most beautiful things to say. Not only that but you have some of the wisest words of wisdom. I was suffering from dysmorphia and ed. Bullying in my school and domestic abuse in my house made it worse. My dad cheated on my mom and blamed her for being "not enough." I dropped school and fell into a strong depression and dissociation. I isolated myself for almost 3 years, it hurt me badly. I didn't know what to do or how to approach it. But I stayed silent about it for so many years, when I finally broke I had to be hospitalized. So talk to someone, please. You're important. You're not the only one who feels lost. You're not alone. You don't have to be like anyone. You deserve someone who will love you, and will miss you for who you are.
I can relate to these songs a 𝚕𝚘𝚝…life is going to be hard but it’s not going to get any 𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚒𝚎𝚛 if you’re negative all the time…that’s what I learned..
Yeah no matter how broken we push forward you cant run from everything especially the truth. Stay positive guys even if your lying to yourself find a reason to keep going
These songs really help me stay calm when I'm feeling like I want to end it all, but I have friends who are there for me and protect me, even though I feel like I'm just a burden to them, being a clingy person who has abandonment issues... Stay safe everyone, eat, drink water, and stay healthy
This is the first time I’ve told anyone this I’m feeling really weird and alone, my mind is just so overwhelmed with everything that I made my self a imaginary friend to deal with my stress. He talks to me and I talk to him. It’s really difficult on me i just don’t know what to do anymore. My brain is yelling my hands are shaking my head hurts my eyes are really sore and my body hurts my mind is just getting worse I can’t even feel the connection between me and my body it’s like I’m just in a haze of numbness and fear and anxiety and depression. I want to be free and healthy but I’m just not. And I don’t know what to do :
ever since summer my two closest friends have been ignoring me, it's like they don't even acknowledge I'm there. I have a few classes with just me and them, (my only friends in those classes). I try to socialize with them in group work, but they always pick each other, never me. I'm starting to get tired of it, they make jokes on how I'm 'ugly' or 'annoying' and I'm sick of it. "can i work with you" - 1 "yeah!" -2 "can i work with you too?" - me "No-" I'm so tired of it, they only things keeping me sane are my two other friends, I don't know what I'd do without them.. but even they make jokes about me sometimes, I have no idea how to tell them I hate it, when 1 and 2 make jokes about me, all I do is smile, I can't stop my face from smiling, I hate it, I just wanna be able to tell them to shut up. I just want to be able to stand up for myself, to tell them I don't like it. I've told myself over and over and over again "I'm gonna stand up to them today." "I'm going to say something." but I never do. I hate it I hate it I hate it. I hate myself, I hate school, I hate how toxic everyone is nowadays, there's no one I can love, there's no one to find comfort in, there's no one to hug without them thinking I'm weird. I just want someone to appreciate me. My friends 3 and 4 are great friends, but they say they'll be nicer and never end up doing it. I want someone that I can laugh and run with. I want someone.
I am so sorry. They are not good friends. As hard as this could be, you really need to get new friends. If you ever need someone to talk to come back to this comment section. Me and many other people are always here to listen. I know I don’t know you, but you are beautiful, and I am very proud of you.
This may have been created a while ago but im currently blasting this on my speaker with led's that change with the bass so this is bomb. W playlist, sving this 100%!!
The amount of "people think I'm mentally ill cause (something that has nothing to do with mental illness)" And then there's me with autism, ADHD, social anxiety, and a language processing disorder, who was expecting some fellow neuro diverse friendos :'3
This playlist helps a lot. I am/have neurodivergent, social anxiety, adhd, anger issues, (undiagnosed depression) and few others. Iv always felt left out and trapped in my room. And I keep screwing up I’m so tired and slowly fading. These songs help me relax and let out some bottled up feelings. Especially sense right now my parents are going threw a second divorcee and my step dad took the house and my real dad doesn’t want me at his house because my stepmom hates me and my mom works two shifts so I don’t get any/enough attention.
⚠typical vent sesh, ignore or dont⚠ i had a gf back in 8th grade, it was a stable relationship and i genuinely felt appreciated for once,... until late october. For some reason the 'popular' girls decided it would be real funny to spread rumours of her being some child molestor/school shooter/drug addict - i thought it would just be some week-long bit, i told my gf not to worry too much, and not to listen to them. But after about a month, it was clear people didn't want to let up with these weird false accusations... people were starting to target me too, once they realized i was her bf. saying the same things, but some went far enough to tell the principle i had a weapon in my locker, it was such a fucking headache- i didn't do anything about it, i didn't want to encourage them, but the insults and rumors kept spreading for us both. sometimes i had to stop myself from crying in the middle of class. after around early december, i decided maybe if i stopped being with her, the allegations would stop. they did, people went back to ignoring me, but now she sort of had to put up with people's insults by herself. everytime i hear some of these songs i just remember how much of a horrible person I am, how I ghosted probably the only person that will ever like me. how i refused to speak to someone as weird and relatable as i am, over some petty false claims and drama. 10th grade just started last week, and i was sort of scared realizing that my ex goes to my school again. i cant stop thinking about how much she probably hates me
It’s ok! I would just try to talk to her and talk it out and fix things between you guys because it’s in the past. It was a while ago you should feel better if you talk to her and face it. It makes things better when you actually face your fear,etc.
I have dermatilomania. It’s a skin picking disorder that can be caused by OCD, and in my case is. I hate myself for picking my skin. I hate going to school because people stare. I hate my parents because they say it looks like I’m on drugs. I hate my parents because they just make it worse. I hate my skin. I hate my brain. I hate my family. I hate who I am.
I wish I could relate to you but I can't but that is what makes you you. don't hate you're self because of it be thankful that you have it don't like people staring at you stare at them hate you're family because they say mean things say mean things back if they get mad they started it first. aka do things back to others because they did it to you and love you're self bye:)
Friends becoming more distant Depression getting worse Being angry most of the time Trying to makw other peoples lives better but ended up making it worse Even have some family issues All i could really say is that its been shitty for the past years, almost given up a few times. But I think this school year (10th grade) would be my point where i could either change, be the same shitty self, or even end myself (less likely to happen). Im hoping that something good would happen to me and to you all as well:) i just wished i could go back at time to fix my past mistakes but oh well, "it is what it is". Im also running out of times using that phrase to ease the feeling
I believe that you’ll get through this! No one deserves that, especially you. You are not alone I am experiencing a very similar situation, I hope things will get better for you!❤❤❤
I recently had a lot happen. Stress got to me, and one little thing at a cheer camp (I'm on my high school's cheer team) was the last thing to set me off. I talked to my mom about how since 8th grade, I would come home and cry for no reason. We ended up getting me a therapist. I've only seen her three times, but she's moving, and now I have to adjust to a new one. Cheer has been really overwhelming, but I can't quit. I told my mom I was thinking about quitting, and her words were "I've put too much time and money into this, you can't quit." I don't know if she's on my side or not. On top of all of this, I'm having a sexuality crisis. I thought I wa sa lesbian in 8th grade, and dated one of my best friends. It was a good relationship until my sister found out and made us break up because she had her own experience in middle school she regretted (she literally just kissed her trans ftm friend a few times). Now, this friend asked me to homecoming as a friend, and my mom is being weird about it(my sister told my mom my friend and I were dating when it happened). She asked me a few times "you guys know you're going as friends, right?" But I might like that friend again. I just don't know anymore.
And they said we were too young to experience that... We're in this together, we'll get through it together. But some of us can't take it, don't be those people, you're strong and independent. Don't commit suicide it's not worth it...
I have anxiety but I didn’t tell my family because they see it as more of a phase. It was really bad while I was 9-12 years old, I cannot sleep at night and is just scared of everything at night. The dark, the past, the future, the present, everything. It just feels like doom is coming and your heart pounds fast and you just have that bad feeling. It’s like the feeling you get when you forget an important piece of homework at home. I got over it now, by like 80%. I hope everyone who is struggling with anything in their life can solve it, and have a better day ♥️ I like how we made this comment section a judgement free venting zone, it’s comforting knowing I’m not alone ♥️♥️♥️
All i am is someone who walks around aimlessly, someone with no purpose in life, someone with no goals, ever since i have done something wrong, i lose one privilege, everything i enjoyed, all of it was lost with one word, "no" Nothing i had ever done was right, everything i did was wrong, from one simple mistake, to almost costing ones life. even if i something i did was right, they would still have a reason to be angry, to scream at me, to hurt me, everything, all thier issues was given for me to solve. All i wanted was love, all i needed was affection from them, but all i got was neglect an abuse, i had done everything for them to love me, but the didnt even acknowledge it. Hey, if you need to talk to someone, feel free to ask me anything.
i just want to say something really quickly because i have no one else to irl! ive been watching a livestreamer for about 2 months now and shes really sweet, she has a small following and i love her so much. ive made good friends with a lot of the people in her chat and we've bonded together a lot. i made friends with one person, i dont know how old he was but i think he was pretty young. he came in chat one day and said that he was starting chemotherapy the next day. we all sympathized for him and over the next few weeks i started to worry more and more for him. i told my church to pray for him this sunday, yesterday, because he was really worrying me and i didnt know how he was doing. i got news today from my livestreamer that he passed, and i knew that it was before i asked my church to pray for him because his friend came in the chat on his account and didnt say much but said hello. i just feel like somehow its my fault and i could have been doing more for him but i know i couldn't have been, but i still feel guilty.
Funny thing everybody thinks I’m mentally ill for being determined and absolutely obsessed with soccer moving across the country next year because that’s where I got recruited and my parents ain’t helping me one bit not paying for bills or moving fees or just appliances because they are so sure that I’m stupid and crazy to follow my dreams like they never did
two out of my three siblings have some type of neurodiverngency and dont expirence puberty correctly so me being the only kid in the house who hit puberty normally makes me feel fucking insane sometimes (chronic depression and anxiety run in my family)
it sucks so much when you just want to hang out with friends, a bestie or someone special, only to know all of your friends are with their bestfriends, with a so called special-friend and you're alone...I don't want to get between friendships of these people, so for the 5th year in my life I'm stuck with myself, and people I call friends just because we don't have any tension and I talk to them from time to time. I miss my bestie, even if she cut contact with me 5 years ago...
Please, let's take a moment to appreciate the fact that the author of the video is so kind and that he responds to everyone by giving advice and by saying nice things. For the author of the video: if you need to vent, you can write a comment down here. ❤ I remind you all that the world needs you, stay safe, your enough. ❤
I was missdiagnosed by doctors my whole life. Now that i turned 18, everyone says it's BPD that's taking over me. I'm taking 11 different kinds of anti depresants, anti psychotics, stabilizators and more. Today i heard i should be going to mental hospital once again, to adult one this time. My pills are increasing to 14 pills from friday. I had been s'harming for 6 years, started as 10 year old, after being a victim of SA from a man that never had consequences. I'm home schooled beacuse i'm too scared to look people in the eyes. I had a dream to be a model, a real model. Now that medications messed up my health, i'm fat and insecure. I was a beautiful girl before i started taking so many meds. I still want to be a model. But i'm too psyhically fragile, and too big physically. I don't have anyone who could talk to me. I don't want to have anyone talking to me, im hurting people i love, that should never happen. I have a boyfriend, just so yall know, its semi fresh thing. He's 34.. awful person, racist, homophobic, transphobic, anti-woman rights, addict. I love him and i want to fix him, tho i know i never could. I'm on my way to another therapy session right as i'm writing this. I hope my struggles will end soon, in whatever way. Please, never let yourself get so low. Let me be your example, what poor mental health care is doing to humans. I love you all, i'm so glad i'm a human at the end of the day, i have my body working and legs walking and hair growing. I'm glad, and i thank whatever is above us. I'm grateful for life
I relate to this playlist... Vent I guess? (I never vented before) So about 7 months ago I told me parents that i'm a Therian, after hiding it for 2 years. When I did my father tried to understand what a Therian was, but my mother... She repeatedly told me that 'i'm mentally ill' or 'I need to be put in a mental hospital' those words hurt so much... She told my siblings that I 'identify as a bobcat, and to call me a cat' my father did support me though, he let me make masks and do quads. The same night my mother went through my room, and threw out all my dragon puppets and as many drawing as she could find, then after she gave me a cinnamon bun saying that she's so sorry... I didn't forgive her because she just threw out years of hard work. My mother took away all my art supplies been it was 'rotting my mind', How was drawing rotting my mind? My escape was Murder Drones, it helped me so much. So thank you Glitch and everyone else who worked on Murder Drones you help me not commit. They also helped make a me character who helps me when I think of doing self h@rm, because she's from Murder Drones. BTW KEEP GOING, I'M SO PROUD OF HOW FAR YOU MADE IT!!
To those of you reading this who have had or are currently having a difficult childhood, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I know theres many adults out there who say that their childhood years were their best years, but they have not been through what we have been through. Youe adulthood isn't going to be worse than your childhood, things will improve and get better. I will describe my childhood below for those who want to read, however I will be discussing sensitive topics. I've dealt with anxiety disorder for as long as I can remember, even as a young child. I had a family member that was hit by a drunk driver and unfortunately did not survive, and my dog died of cancer around the same time. This made me worry a lot since anyone I cared about could die without warning. I was also bullied in school, and had a difficult time making friends, ans when I did the friendship usually only lasted a few months. When I tried to talk to my mom about it, she didn't care and pretty much told me it was my problem. My mom has never actually cared about my well-being. If I did something that made her upset, even minor things like leaving something on the floor for example, she'd yell until I cried and then yell at me more for being too sensitive and crying. There was also the time where I dislocated part of my spine, and I was told that I was being dramatic, and it took about 2 weeks before my dad actually took me to see a doctor. Around the time I was 13, I also realized I happen to be queer, but both my mom and my dad got really angry about this and sent me to a conversion therapist (which is not a real therapist) to try and turn me straight. I've even been told by my mom that my feelings do not matter. However things do get better, and this is not my entire life, only the years living with my parents.
Love how everyone does their vent not like I'm thinking i should not be feeling here when the others actually have not one but multiple mental issues and my only excuse is feeling worthless
it feels like i cant do anything right anymore i just want to off myself but i cant because my friends need me but everyday is getting more and more difficult it feels like im gonna break at any moment and i feel like a disapointment to my entire family because im failing *every single* one of my classes even the easy ones like art- i just cant anymore
I know that people are venting here, but I wrote a little smth smth abt a character and I wanted to share it, however this may be triggering for some people so i just wanted to give a warning.. I trudged through the forest, my head facing down, my boots covered in mud and my shotgun slung against my shoulder. The exact same question running through my mind. “Why do you destroy things?” The truth is I don’t know. “Exactly.” I wonder if I’ll ever know. I look up quickly at the sound of a twig breaking, I quickly grab my shotgun that was hanging off my shoulder and hold my finger over the trigger, seeing a small fox staring at me, I look into its black, mysterious eyes, its red fur and long tail. We stand in silence as I see the red fox tense, my finger inching closer and closer towards the trigger. My gaze narrows as I pull the trigger- “Why do you destroy things?” I point the shotgun upward at that question echoing in my mind, the fox fleeing. I let out a sigh, picking up the shotgun and continuing home. “My Johnny!” My mother smiles as she places her hands on my face, squeezing my cheeks playfully. “Hi mother.” I smile back as she hugs me. “Now go greet your father.” She gestures to my father who is sitting on his wooden rocking chair, reading the local paper. “Hello father.” I say, fixing my posture as his eyes don’t leave whatever he’s reading. “Go wash up.” He demanded coldly. “Yes sir.” I murmur, my posture relaxing slightly as I go to the tub, grabbing my clothes as I finish scrubbing all the dirt off my body. I finish cleaning myself and go to see my younger brothers who are playing marbles. “Johnathan! Would you like to join us?” They asked, their smiles bright and youth plastered onto their faces. “Ah, we’re about to have supper soon. You should go clean off your hands. They’re probably filthy.” I nod, heading to my room and grabbing a book off a shelf and opening its pages. “Supper!” Josie, my sister, called out to me. I head to the dinner table to see my younger brothers already at the table. “Mother is getting Father.” Josie murmured, when Mother appears back in the room before Father enters, I can already tell he’s not in the best mood. Mother serves Father first, then us and she herself sits down at the table. “Are you sure you should eat supper today?” He asked, I clench my fist under the table, Josie uncomfortably shifting in her seat at Father’s comment towards Mother. “Hm, I suppose you’re right.” She says, not wanting to stir up trouble and she simply puts her plate to the side. I look at Josie who is staring down at her plate. Suddenly my appetite is lost. “Ah, Mother. I actually think I’d rather not eat as well. Excuse me-” I begin as I stand up from my seat before my father bangs his fist on the table, I pause. “You will sit and eat the food your mother has cooked for you.” He mutters, his voice low and dangerous. I nod, sitting down and picking back up my fork. “Thank you for the meal Mother, and to you Father for purchasing the ingredients.” I smile, everybody else is silent. The rest of the night was awkward, and I couldn’t wait to just go to school the next morning. Anyway, I hope you all have a wonderful day/night! just know that you are loved despite what everyone else says, and remember you must feel pain in order to feel joy, and to heal you must feel broken first.
I'm not afraid of who I'll become, I'm afraid of what will happen to me in the future. I actually experienced epilepsy at a fairly early age, thereby messing up my mother's mental state, I feel guilty about it (her memory deteriorated due to the stress of losing me) After I went to school and was not sociable, I did not want to talk, then I became shy to talk, then I was afraid to talk to someone...I overcame my own social phobia, became more sociable and helped people. But my mother's condition is getting worse every year and I can see it through the way her nose is bleeding due to a heart condition, she had surgery at an early age and doctors assumed that she would only live to 30-35 years old. She is a strong woman who gave birth to two children (me and my brother), and raised us including cousins (5 children in total). I try not to worry in front of her so that she doesn't get upset, but if she's gone, I don't know what will happen to me and my family...One day, when we were sitting at the table and drinking tea talking about everything, she told me, "When I die, don't cry." In childhood, I was often forbidden to cry or get angry. But, I'm sorry Mom, I'm going to cry. Besides, I can't stop picking at my scars, and pulling out my toenails a little...I just can't stop.
I have HUGE signs of bipolar disorder and it's really frustrating and hard to live with. I keep telling my mom that i think it's something mental and she said "My kids arn't mentally sick". They keep saying, "Pray on it", I even tried to break my arm ON PURPOSE which was a huge low on my list of SH. I wanted to see if they would care. If they took me anywhere then to protect myself from hurting me anymore. And all that is locked up because I HAVE to be happy. If I'm not she says "stop acting like a teenager. Be happy".
The world changed that day. The world changed so much thanks to one thing. The day the quarantine started. Fallen stars, new words, losing people. Great grief and pain came to this now forsaken world. Once a childhood favourite to this rotten world. All the accusations and all the stuffed up sh!t New trends, lead to death. Haters, furry’s, therians, (not saying I hate them)but how could we hate this world we used to love so much? Because though pressure is lighter everyone has lost motivation to find out new things without the internet. Though pressure is lighter suicide is more common now. Self harm is more common. So how did we come to this? The world broke that day. When we finally grew up.
I listen to music like this a lot my friends call me depressed and say “your so depressed like who hurt you so much” it hurts every time and then the next day they say “your way to nice to have anyone who doesn’t like you”
Pepole think im mentally ill bcoz of dressing grunge and being one but listening to mel[in my country being grunge in 7th class is weird,for some reason]and the big ones always thout i was a weirdo but havent seen how funny and nice i rrly am..
This is a vent, read if you want :) A few months after I was born, I had something in me like a fatal disease which made me really weak and I would not be able to open my eyes or do anything and I was basically already dead. However, I managed to survive it since the doctors helped me through it but they had no idea what to do since I had an unknown virus. Now I dont weigh a lot and I’m sometimes made fun of for my weight. But all throughout my primary school everything was ok and when I got to highschool everything was a lot worse since I was mentally bullied a lot for being quiet and got called “bestie” by popular people but I was fine with it although I had no friends and felt alone most of the time. In year 8 the bullying got worse since these people decided to call me and make fun of me on call by treating me like a baby and do some things (they forced me to read bedtime stories, took pictures of me in my pyjamas and made a gc about me being “sexy) but I was scared to tell a teacher so I stayed silent. I also had a guy who liked me and made some weird comments to me and when I sat next to him in science, he would go close to me, but I barely knew him so I was grossed out so I asked to move. But my mental state was genuinely getting worse around this state since this all kept happening and more disturbing comments were made towards me. But next year in year 9, this is really where things took a turn. 15th October was the day this happened, when I found a mans body in the forest (died to s#!c!d3) and this was the day where I was going to see my friend so I had to hide it the whole time. Then the next day I went to school and told my friends about it and they laughed at me for it and made jokes about it. I was really upset bc I thought they’d act differently but they didnt. I didnt get school therapy since genuinely no one cared about it. No one cared about the guy who died (no one came to collect his body) which makes me feel awful and I wish I couldve helped even if I didnt know. This continued to eat me up for a while and bc I was constantly alone (people only ever texted or talked to me for help with work bc I was “smart) I couldnt feel happy anymore. Then, sometime in December or January, these boys in my class noticed me and bc one of them liked me and I said no, they started harassing me by making comments about my appearance and kept asking me out again and again. I said no every time and then they started making weird comments about my rear and then in an english class one of them grabbed my bag and tried to rip it off. Why? Even when I got a high score in class, even when it was near my birthday, they said theyd give me “birthday kisses” and theyd find my address and give me flowers for valentines day. WHY? By this time I also found out my family had issues I didnt know about, my nan and grandad argue every day and my mum and dad didnt love each other, my cousins dont like me or my sister and basically every part of my family made everything worse money wise. I get yelled at for doing one minor thing wrong. My dads of the family is also mentally insane, since my cousin killed a goose before using a fence. My dog also might get put down bc he’s considered vicious. Im disgusted at what happened over everything. It genuinely feels like I’ve just been going through every day without trying anymore. My classmates dont even care about me, im meant to be the smartest and they only care about my grades and I get screamed at by them when I dont get a good grade. Im tired. But I have to keep it up so I dont get embarrassed when I accidentally vent. I know I’ve vented to my french teacher before and I felt mortified afterwards. The only time I like of the day is when I go to sleep, but even then I wake up in the middle of the night most of the time so I have to deal with my thoughts for ages. Right now, it feels like I cant make friends anymore since I just keep to myself all the time. Its genuinely depressing, but I just need a break from everything. Im sorry for this going on for so long but I just needed to get all my feelings out.
I love you so much, regardless of your gender, where you are from, your style or anything else, and even if I don't know you, I hope your life will be better and you will be happy. Never give up on your dreams and keep going. Love yourself.Don't give up too early. You're special.
(TW: i dont know what specific warning to put, just be aware its a little sensitive.) Im 14 years old. Im 14 years old, and i always get told to step up, that i have to be the bigger person out of 3 adults living in the same house, my sister is "the mother" yet i cook for our dad, i clean up after everyone, and if i dont im lazy, and rude, and im called childish because i have all day to myself while they all work. My sister tells me "dont do it because everyone else tells you to, do it to make it easier on yourself" but my brain doesnt work that eay, im constantly beating myself up because i cant do the simplest of a task like doing 15 dishes because im so depressed my brain is constantly working on things to keep it occupied and feeling okay, so when i think about doing the dishes, a task i was traumatized into doing by my step father, it instantly drains me, and makes me feel like shit. When i do work up the abilty to sit there and do the dishes my legs, back, and shoulder ache like id lifted 20 200 pound weights because of my health issues that no one will take me to the hospital to get diagnosed and treated to help me live like a normal person. I need therapy, my father was told this by my mother because the one time i got a physical all of the papers they gave me to fill out showed that i have issues with anxiety, so i was given options for therapy and meds to help with it, my father was told this, he did nothing because he "doesnt have time" when he spends 3-4 hours after work sitting in his room playing games and telling me to cook for him, and i feel like im not allowed to feel like shit because the one time i told my friend about this they simply told me "that does kinda sound like an excuse, at least -- isnt happening to you like it is with me" so i shut down, i complain sure, "my dad made me make him food again" "i have to do the dishes, sigh" but i never go into detail abour how much it hurts that my sister would tell "i cant do the dishes, its not my job to take care of everyone here" and would make her 14 year old little sibling do it instead. Im 14, taking care of my father, cleaning a house big enough for 5 people, cleaning up after everyone. All because i dont have a job so im selfish if i dont want to spend the time i have to try and learn how to start making money by selling things by doing dishes and feeding my piece of shit father who cant be bothered to acknowledge that his dickish behavior is so disgusting and hurtful that when i turn 20 im going to move out, whether i have a place to solidly move into or not. Im only 14, trying to learn how to make myself money asap to be able to pursue a career, i have a bank account, my id, almost everything i need, i just need one more thing, but i cant do it until im 18 because PayPal and any other money holding app doesnt allow minor use. I just wanted to be a kid, now im stuck between a rock and a hard place with nothing to do but sit here until i get the strength to leave. I miss when things were simpler, i miss when my momma used to make me sandwiches when i wasn't feeling good enough to do it myself... I miss when i could stumble into my moms room at 4PM, telling her i need her, and she would hold me and hang out with me while she could before she had to take care of her 4 other children... I wouldve stayed with her, but the man she chose to marry after divorcing my father gave me so much trauma that now even though he has changed i cant be in the same house as him without being so anxious to the point i cant enjoy myself and the company of my momma. I miss my momma and how she was understanding. I feel like im dying sometimes, since i havent gotten any of my medical conditions diagnosed im constantly worrying what a sharp pain in my stomach is, cuz for all i know i could just need to eat or my intestines could be about to explode and kill me, im so terrified that my physical issues could literally kill me, and i could tell my father i feel like im dying and he would just go "call your mom about it, im busy". Thank you for reading, though i doubt someone would care about a 14 year old on the internet. (TW for this bit: mention of pet death and slightly detailed mentions of pet remains) Edit: i didnt mention it, but i also have two guinea pigs i solely take care of cuz no one else will do it, theyre all “too busy”, i used to have three, but recently my little girl died, the one i named and loved the most of the three, her name was dahlia, she was my pride, my everything, always let me hold her, i buried her and grabbed the cleanest path stone i could to put over her, i sometimes decorate it to help myself cope, but it doesnt take away the burning i feel knowing i was possibly the reason she died, i always heard her chewing on tape in the cage (the tape was necessary to keep the bedding from falling out of it through a massive hole) and i think maybe she ate so much tape that it clogged her up, and she ended up dying because of it, and its so painful to think about it because she wouldve had to be like that for weeks possibly before dying, my poor baby girl suffered while i laughed and played games, she died and i didnt even notice until probably two or three days after her passing, she smelled terrible… she felt so soggy on the bottom… ive never cried harder then when i had to clean the cage after that and i scooped up the remaining fur in her final resting place, i actually paused and just sobbed over my other two babies before i could bear continuing… it still strikes me, the pain of losing her, and i dont want to be responsible for the other twos death, but my only option is to get them to a vet to make sure theyre okay, or i give them away to someone else… i love my babies too much to give them away, but at the same time…. It hurts so bad knowing they may be better off in a loving and well caring environment where theyll be taken care of and properly loved… i dont deserve them…
Your a lot like me I’m 14 aswell I have 7 siblings and am basically the mother of the house sense my step mom refuses to take care of my younger siblings. My parents are getting a second divorce and I’m forced to move away because it’s to expensive to live in Florida so I’m moving to south California. My mom won’t take me to therapy and iv devolved social anxiety and depression. I had adhd aswell and those don’t mix well. I’m sorry your life is so shitty but your not alone. I know I’m some random stranger on the internet im free to talk to if you’d like to vent to me. My names koda btw :)
🥀TW: a slight vent🥀 A year ago, I lost a parent to a sickness. I was very close to them, so it broke me. I had also recently started a new school, so I was also stressing about that. I had to move out of my childhood home, and away from all of my friends. The parent that I was staying with after that I wasn’t very close to, and barely saw a lot. We fought almost every single day, and I felt lonely and isolated. When I was in fourth grade, I went into a new friend group, which contained (I’m gonna use the first letter of their names) S, N, L, V, and H. S, V, and me started bullying H, and eventually we got in trouble, but everyone blamed me, showing that they weren’t true friends and didn’t take any part of the blame. Then all of the parents from the kids in my friend group started talking about me, with me knowing because the kids in my friend group told me. The next year, it started to happen. I started to get suicidal thoughts, plans, etc. I started scratching myself and cutting myself with any sharp objects, and S and V were on board with it and supported my self harm. I was a very troubled child, and was exposed to a lot of adult things, which messed up my point of view of the world. Whenever the parent that was still living caught me cutting, they would yell at me and basically call me a disgrace. I started to feel less confident, and hated myself a lot. I developed ADHD and social anxiety, and I finally realized how toxic my friend group was. S, started hurting me, punching me, choking me, tackling me, calling me names like b*tch, little f*ck, etc. The other kids at school also started picking on me, calling me names, body shaming me, and my parent still didn’t understand. I still feel alone and isolated to this day, and I still did back then. I honestly hate middle school, and I hate people. That’s all I really have to say. 🤷♀️
I lost myself in my big mind. It’s like a bottle full of pain bottled up yet bursts so I have to get another one, it’s like I was made to pain, I was questioning life, when I was was freaking 9. My mother, is apart of the trauma, the trauma of twisting, breaking my arm, emotionally abusing me, manipulating me 24/7 , only to be told to someone else. Pain falls down into tears, I didn’t get to cry or weep for any of this, smile.. for your sister. I was more of a mother figure cause my mother, you know how she is. I was questioning life after all these years, 9 years old, got sexual harassed/assaulted. I bet she’s never gonna visit my grave , if I did. I bet she wouldn’t care. She didn’t know I had disorders: PTSD, depression, AFRID, etc. she didn’t sign me up for therapy, so I coped with my friends and internet, she yet again tells me to study. 24/7. I feel tired, maybe I could sleep forever?
I'm sixth grade currently. Diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety and depression since i was THRID GRADE. I was forced to mature since i was 8. I had many school struggles since i was 9, lost family members since then, and my mom thinks of me as a failure and a disappointment. I have no idea what I'll do when i grow up and my life is messed up. I wouldn't wish this to anyone, not even the persons i hate the most. In school, im seen as the "always happy and kind friend" but I'm tired of it.
To the random strangers that feel safer venting in the comments than to family and friends. You aren’t alone. I care about you. You’re loved. I’m here for you.
bro people be like your life could be so worse while i walk through the school halls and people scream when they see me or my friends in the hall bc they think we're weird and people throw rocks at us :)
I’m in 8th grade now, I have like four friends, I lost the others, some of them just decided I wasn’t worth their time anymore and decided to stop talking to me, some turned into my bullies, one sexually harassed me and caused me numerous amounts of pain, my other friends moved schools and now I’m left with four friends, one of the four friends I have left im stupidly in love with even though they told me that I probably had no chance with them and that they would never date me, most of my friends parents hate me, people at school talk about me and I have to watch the ass hole who harassed me loved by everyone as he rubs it in my face that he got away with causing me all that pain, my parents aren’t home very often and I don’t really get to talk to them about my problems cause my moms extremely difficult to talk to and my dad would tell my mom what I tell him, and whenever I talk to my parents I feel like a criminal being interrogated, everything is so hard and I don’t know how to deal with it
@berenicelopez7303 Listen I'm older than you and just know everything will be ok just try your best and just wait everything will work out the way it's supposed to 💜💜
Vent I am really hating my life rn. Im always invisible to people. Nobody ever noticed that im even there, nobody notices if im gone. Im just someone that fills an empty space. Nobody listens and nobody cares. They only care if I start ignoring and being quiet. "Are you okay?" They asked. But I always say the same thing. "Im fine." After all, they would only care if im hurting myself. They care for one day, the next when i act alright. Its back to square one. I dont exist in anyone's life. I barely even exist in mine. Im just a ghost. I dont get why i am always invisible to people. I treat them all so well but I barely get the same treatment. I am a people pleaser because i want to be noticed. I want to be known. I dont only want to be known as "the ghost girl" or "the one whos too nice" I require attention and love. Everyone does. But im too scared to ask for it. Because thats selfish. I never ask for anything. I dont even ask my own parents for the most basic things. I say yes too quickly. I agree to things im not so okay with. Im too stupid. Im the ildest daughter so i have to be a straight a student to be a good model for my siblings. But all ive been doing is barely passing my tests. I study. I work hard. I really try to. But my parents dint acknowledge it. Im tired. Exhausted even. But whos going to listen to my problems anyway. They all have their own.
I’m not ready to be an adult…I don’t want to be grown anymore I want to rewind and be a child,i want to be that careless carefree light hearted little girl that didn’t care about much…but that little girl is now a girl who has turned suicidal and heavily depressed and anxiety ridden…I don’t want to die but my inner child and I are slowly dying more and more in a dark place where no one can pull me from and it hurts…I want to feel careless and not hurt anymore by my medical condition because it’s always the one thing that drags me down with a heavy tug of metal chains…and I can’t claw my way out…Im running a damn marathon but I’m barely moving forward…I don’t know what to do anymore…
I'm feeling nice to see that someone else gets it, but I'm also feeling really sad that you feel like that too. It sucks. Yearning to go back to your childhood, when you were ok, growing up and realizing things got worse and not better like they said it would..
@@Dontaskquestionsnoanswer yeah…it’s nice knowing that this pain isn’t just an individual experience that no one else experiences…it suck so much that you know life will only get worse and you can’t stop thinking about how it’s going to get worse…it’s like a curse that you can’t get rid of…and that curse is called growth,reality,and realization…
I'm Thirteen, and due to huge family problems i never eber thought id make it through 7. The trauma i have been through puts me in a state where i can't walk or even talk. So when i was very little i tried to commit. But anywho if you are reading this i just want you to know what ever you are going through, just know there are people out there who need you. I love you so much. -Ruby 29.08.24.
Vent read it if you want or don't ig: I vented to my friend about my suicidal thoughts and sh and told her about it thinking she would understand since she would vent to me occasionally. The next day I get called into my school office and have to talk to "some people" (if ykyk) about not being safe in my house and having suicidal thoughts which is super ironic considering I just told her the night prior.... She didn't stop there she continued to tell my friends and people in her classes since we have different classes, so after that she told our friend and her parents and his parents so that got brought to my dad's attention which ofc I got in trouble for and got punished for but I guess that's what I get for trying to have someone understand right???? She has also told one of our online friends my entire address and sent them pictures of me. I have no idea what I did to deserve that but I guess that's the price you get for trying to vent to someone. I just can't understand why she would tell people I'm suicidal because that's personal information and she's spreading it throughout my grade......
I am so sorry. She is not a good person at all. She shouldn’t be telling anyone about that. If you ever need anyone to talk to, come back to this comment section. Me and many other people are always here to listen. I don’t know you, but you are very strong, and I’m proud of you
Everything used to be so normal during the elementary years and i was genuinely happy, i cant say the same for highschool years. This sucks and i dont know how to fix it
Hey, everyone ! I'm hopping from playlist to playlist willing to lend an ear to anyone wanting to vent their feelings. I've been through a horrible depression and it hurt like shit, but you gotta remember IT DOES GET BETTER !! you just gotta search for the right people !! No matter what happens, don't let anyone or anything get you down. I care about everyone here, and I hope you all get through this 💪💪 YOU /DO/ MATTER !!!! If you fall down IT IS OKAY to rest, JUST DONT QUIT.
So I have an addiction and some people know what I'm talking about it involves your hands and it's disgusting to me I'M JUST A CHILD i'm just a child is what they all say. I'm just a kid and I got harrased by a sick digusting person! I can't help it i've been doing this my whole life...oops i forgot,IT'S NOT MY LIFE! IT'S MY PARENTS BEECAUSE I'M THIER PROPERTY putting me in a choke-hold at 5 years old is NOT "restraining me" manipulating me is not "helping me in the real world" letting your kid geting harrased by someone 2 YEARS older than her IS NOT HELPING! "your my kid you live in my hous who are you? YOU'RE MY DAUGHTER! I'M YOUR MOTHER STOP ASSULTING ME!" "DON'T SMILE AT ME YOUNG LADY!" why? are you afraid that i'm smileing while your abusing me? does it make you feel weaker in some sense? why are you upset i'm happy or smiling?
When you start questioning existence, is when you realize, that no matter what you do, you shouldn't care of others opinions. Even though you know what you want, somehow we still crave approval from others. No matter how often this fact is going to be presented, it will always stay like that. It feels like you are alone, annoying or just left in the dust, because nobody thinks that you are normal. And here is where it gets complicated. I feel in general that normalcy can't clearly be defined at all. Almost Everything is subjective to one's mind, and being able to understand that, is what I think makes me feel more unique. Maybe even luckier than them. I don't live a life chasing after every trend or trying to fit in the crowd. And that is okay. A life almost alone isn't as bad as you may think. It gives time to reflect and focus on things others could only dream of. So, try to make the best out of it. Don't let others talk you down, just because they don't like some aspect of your personality or something. If they don't like it, you don't need to feel obligated to keep contact with them and then after some time distancing or unfriending. Just if it becomes apparent that it isnt working out, forget it happened and move on to the next person and try again. Everyone is different and it will take some time. Stay safe, Take care, and have a nice time.
my friends are so fake :( . my “friends” always go out shopping, have sleepovers, and go di different events all without me. they’re also all mean to eachother and me. (for a little background knowledge i have some really fucked up teeth and i havent gotten braces yet.) this is about one of my so called friends lets call her k. so on friday she points at my face and says “ addy you know that tooth kind of looks like it was just tilted sideways” and laughed. that’s just one example and my only good friend ( lets call her v) is in kansas but i live in nebraskanow because i moved and now i never get to see her anymore. :/
Try and pull through even if it’s just one more day. Make that your goal. Try and go one more day every time you think about it. I’m proud of you for pushing through and living despite your stress!
being in 3rd form in high school is something i can manage while bottling up my emotions but its just so difficult with my mother.... however those whose reading this comment,dont try suicide or self-harm because at the end of the day your going have scars on your skin that you may regret doing in the first place,vaping or smoking isnt going to help which can lead to an addiction and cause health problems so if you feel burned out just stop,think for a bit and drink so water (it helps)
"Your parents abused you for a reason!" They didnt abuse me when i was 5 or 6 so why now what did i do to get abused?.. "He had mental issues that's why he SA'd you" and i had mental issues to so why did i get punished for fighting back? "Why cant you be normal and eat like a normal person its not that hard to eat and when to not eat" why did you starve me for days to get me into the habit of not eating? "Why do you have so many disorders?! Your just so weird" most of them I'm born with the rest I was given by you people..
I am so sorry. You should not have got punished back. It’s not your fault for getting in trouble. I am sorry you got starved. You are beautiful, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. I am so sorry people are making you feel bad about yourself. I don’t know you, but you are very brave, and I’m proud of you
@@JustAnotherDistraction yeah, like if your asking why u have depression, thats like telling an asthmatic person there is so much air, and its like, bruh, not everyone has everything
There have been many hard times in my life but im honestly at my worst right now, i was just reading comments and wasnt even planning to listen to the music but now the music is on repeat and i want to vent. Ive never vented to anyone, but im sure that on this platform not many ppl will judge me for saying this, im 12 years old and even though it seems like im pretty young, im not. I am not a kid. I try my best to be like the adults around me.i do not act anything like a child. I think i have a disorder but i dont have any proof, i have asthma, i have adhd which is not diagnosed but i know this by experience, im bipolar because i have really big mood swings and i only live with my mom so not many people see me and my mom isnt really sure if i have anything else other than asthma, im not sure either, im in 7 th grade but i havent started studying because we have to move to UK after a few months and honestly it was a very risky and a very bad move to move to move me out of school because the first term of my school has already ended and exams have started but im still in my countey and havent left, im watching kids around me living a happy life and going to school while im stuck in my home, listening to the playlist im a giving a reference that " now i REALLY DO KNOW whats real and whats fake" and "are you tired of me yet?" Because I AM tired of myself. I am sick, im depressed, I DONT KNOW. I just figured that my "bestfriend" hates me, my mom told me to not care about it and although I'm trying, it definitely hurt when i found out about it, she tells me she loves me and shes completely lying, i dont know who t believe anymore, the only person i believe in is me,myself, i and my mom. My mom is really supportive but she just doesnt get me properly, i mean she probably does but im just really out of my mind, whenever im talking, the words just come out of my tongue and when my mom replys to me its in a angry manner because after a while i realize that what i said was a rude comment. I dont even rememeber saying it but i dint want to tell my mom this. I need help. Seriously, in my religion its a pretty bad thing to havs suicidal thoughts but i cant help it. I wont dissapoint my family and wont do anything like that at all but im still just a half dead living body...
If the people around you truly care, they won’t be disappointed in you, so find your people and it’ll help you find yourself! And stay strong, I know what pain feels like, and when you feel like all the pressure is on you. I’m 13 and I’m not that smart. But I hope my words mean something to you.
614th subscriber!!also to people that.need it,you mean everything to som people,including me even tho it doesn't seem like it,its true and you'll meet them someday,you just met pne
I'm actually so scared, I was starting to get better and now I feel like just how I did in grade.8, which is bad. I don't think a 15 year old should feel like this. I know I'm not mentally ill, but everyone makes me feel like it. By saying it's not normal to be crying every day, being bi, being trans, and it isn't normal to shut down and shut everyone out, and I get told to ask for help. but when I start to talk about my issues I feel like it's pointless, cause I bring it up to people I don't think it's just hormones, that's making me cry 24/7 or it's not my period. and everyone's like "well if you weren't in your room". They don't get it, my room feels so much better to be in though away from everyone and I get asked a lot "why can't you be feminine more often, I don't get why you don't like it." I've tried being normal for my family, but it isn't me, I don't like being a girl, I don't like my chest, hair, waist, etc. I don't even feel like myself half the time in general. I don't even feel like a human half the time. I've tried being normal, dressing up girly, letting my sisters do my hair and makeup and nails. I've also tried getting back into my hobbies but it seems like everytime I get better I go back to my 8th grade self, but even worst. I barely eat now, my sleep is messed up, I barely take care of myself. and I'm scared.
I’m not the mentally ill child apparently. They all see me happy so how would I be the mentally ill child 🙃 I’m totally telling the truth. :P I’m used to this I have been going through something since I was like 7 😃
you have nothing to be sorry for and im sure your an amazing person and if you wanna talk i can give you my pinterest (only thing im allowed to friend ppl idk bcuz my parents dunno i have it and they monitor who i talk to on other stuff) but js remember that your loved
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It's not your fault
Your not a problem
You are perfect
You aren't fat
You aren't skinny
You aren't the problem
You aren't a bad person
You are wonderful
You aren't a crybaby
Your don't deserve them
You love yourself
You are clean
You are kind
Your are the person that everyone wants
Your skin isn't a paper... don't cut it
Your face isn't a mask... don't hide it
Your heart isn't a door... don't lock it
Your size isn't a book... don't judge it
Your life isn't a movie... don't end it
Your neck isn't a rope... don't hang it
Your body isn't for sale... don't sell it
Your brain isn't a stone... don't crush it
Your life is an inspiration...be proud of it
Love yourself.. you are perfect no matter what you do.
The past of you suffering will end
Your suffering will end
Don't c^t your body your hair
Don't kill your self yet.
If you have a pet it will make your problem go away
They get mad at you for being soo perfect
They blame you because you are so pretty/handsome/stunning
You are brighting the world.. you are a true star
Keep going.. it will past.
We love you don't stop being kind to everyone
The kindness will speard and the kidness will also pay you back.
They love you they just don't wanna show the loveness for you
You are so perfect that everyone gets mad and jealous
Give everyone a second chance not too many tho
your eyes is perfect
your nose is perfect
your height is perfect
your skin is perfect
your mouth is perfect
your hair is perfect
your face is perfect
your body is perfect
your hands is perfect
your fingers is perfect
your teeth is perfect
your waist is perfect
Your torso is perfect
your legs are perfect
your thighs are perfect
your tounge and everything is perfect
YOU are perfect love your body and everything
You are so greatful for what you have.
Ignore the bad people you dont want them to get attached to you
And leave your fake friends
You deserve better.
Don't give up
Cheer up aswell Pretty/handsome/stunning person.
We are proud to see you alive.
We are so proud
We love your smile
We love your laugh
We love your personality
So don't give up
We love you.
We love you so much
Don't end it too fast.
Don't commit
Don't get controled
Don't make them control you like a puppet
Do your own way
Do everthing you like
Ignore the rude people
Ignore the hate
Ignore getting yelled
There's people by your side and always be.
We love you no matter what you do to yourself.
They don't know what your been through
They ain't been in your shoes
Don't belive them they are liars
Love youself.
We are proud of you existing here
We love you so much..
NEVER GIVE UP
You're precious
You made it this far.
And it's so amazing that you are still here
I'm literally crying I just read the entire thing tysm
❤
I read the entire thing, thank you so much
I screenshot all of this and send it to my mom and said "why can't you be like this mom"❤😢
Same to you
"You don't have a reason to be depressed! Life could be much worse!"
It could be 𝐬𝐨 much better.
real. (you need to talk ml? you can vent to me. I know im a stranger to you but you can talk to me.)
Frfr 😔
Saying "why do you have depression ? Life is beautiful" is like saying " *why do you have asthma there is so much oxygen* "
@@sokmengchea2653 fr
Exactly. I’m showing signs of depression and my parents don’t believe me. “But you’re always so happy! It’s just hormones! You dont have depression!” You can’t fucking see into my brain. It pisses me off when people say this shit to me. I just wanna scream at my parents. The only time I feel safe to cry is at night.. when I’m alone in the dark, just me and my phone. It’s when I can cry and listen to music without anyone knowing . That’s why I love the nighttime, I feel safe. I’m in my own little world.. ( sorry for ranting in ur replies sm, I tend to do this )
Why are random strangers on the internet more supportive than my own family?
Bc your family will never understand what you have gone through (Speaking from experience.)
Its because they have gone through the same\ Similary experiences while your family hasen't. Also, they never understand (Speaking from experience)
Same
Some people just don't know how to be supportive. I am sorry that they aren't being helpful and supportive, Sugarcane. Please know that you have people here though, alright? Please protect yourself
good question, their probably real shitty if their not supportive
i'm not ready for eighth grade, it feels like yesterday when it was 5th grade and life was normal, why is everything now so screwed up
Dude same, it was normal one moment and then all hell breaks loose another, it friggin sucks
Bro fr it’s all good and chill then every thing is fucked up im also going into 8th grade and moving to a new school because my mom lost custody over me because she was mentally and a little physically abusive so everything is new and fuck up🥲
I understand that, I'm starting 8th grade on the 19th. It feels like not to long ago but so long ago everything was perfect
oh dude, just wait till 10th. this shit sucks even more
Fr, I'm going into 8th grade as well and I'm truly not ready
I didn't even think I'd live to see 13, but I turn 18 in two weeks and tomorrow I start college classes (putting myself through btw) as an art major. I still struggle, I think I always will, but things get better. Trust me. Keep going and know that I'm so proud of you for it.
Same but I thought younger
I used to think i wouldn't be in this world when I turn 18 but now in one and a half month I'll be 18....
13, and... IM STILL HERE! Kinda suprised, but im happy now.
i never thought i'd see 11, but i'll be 15 in four months. so glad i kept going, because now i have the most amazing circle of people and the best online community
I'm Thirteen and I think the same. But it's crazy sometimes I feel like a twenty year old woman stuck, trapped even. In a thirteen year olds body.
I’ve been trying to convince my parents to get me diagnosed with auDHD but due to their age, they refuse to believe me. It’s especially difficult in school when my educational needs aren’t met cause they’re a “distraction” Doodling in my sketchbook isn’t me ignoring you, I’m sorry that I physically can’t sit and stare at a board for 8 hours every day. If anybody is reading this, I hope you get through your hard times, you’ll overcome this ❤
Update: I’m getting a diagnosis in most-likely December
same here, and my own teacher doesn't believe me she thinks that I would've had adhd if I was hyper but it's not all about hyperactive energy it can also be about stress excessively talking and plus, I'm hyperactive in afternoons, BTW I wake up in the middle of the night with tons of energy, and my mood swings a lot
EDIT: I also have PTSD
Ive been diagnosed but my mom still doesnot think it affects me at all and my teacher keeps telling me to “controll” it
I have autism too and no one believes me either it’s ridiculous
wait what? how are we so similar? im literally going through the similar situation as you right now.
what state are you in and how old are you cause i know some laws and if your 12 or older you can get a diagnosis without parental consent in certain circumstances. im in the u.s by the way, and i am 11.
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Thanks
thank uuuuu ^^
Thank youzz
Your a life saver omg tysm 😭
Thanks bro
*i have schizophrenia, Bipolar Disorder, and extremely high ADHD. I was never normal, even when I was a child. I only had (and still have) only a small group of friends (2 people, calling them S and M) that I know will actually understand me. I was born in the same hospital as S, so we have known each since birth. I met M in 3rd grade. When I was a child, no one understood me because my word would come out as gibberish most times and I mostly talked about the things I saw (example: weird shadow creatures no one else saw) so they didn’t want to be friends with me. There were also times where I had random mood swings due to Bipolar. One second I’m laughing with my friends, the next I’m on the verge of tears. Then a few weeks later I would have an amount of energy that was almost otherworldly because of the ADHD. S and M were the only ones that were there for me when I was sad. They were the only people I could trust to tell them if I’m doing okay or not. With most people, I would just say that I’m fine. But with S and M, I could actually tell them if I was not okay because I knew they wouldn’t judge me for it. When I was kid, I thought it was normal for kids to be like me, but it’s not. I now know that I’m not normal. Hell, some might even call me weird (which I am, and I’m fine with that). I’m fine with being called weird and not normal because I’ve been called it my whole life.*
I hope u are ok now
Your friends, S and M, sound incredibly supportive and understanding!
as someone with extremely high adhd and like 5 other disorders, I feel you. It fucking sucks, doesn't it, being called weird by everyone? But, here's the thing. The ones who call you weird... are weird too. Just in a different way. The mean way. Those who don't judge you are the real ones.
"Stop complaining! Your life is perfectly fine! People have it worse!" Yeah, but sometimes I want to focus of myself than others, lady. (REMINDER THAT THINKING FOR YOURSELF ISN'T NARSSISTIC!)
FINALLY YES! AND THAT VENTING OR SAYING YOUR PROBLEMS ISNT BEING AN ATTENTION SEEKER. its especially for me though, i dont know about you but i hope you understand :)
(also that you cant expect the younger friend or 'happy all the time' friend to be weak and not understanding)
So true 😭😭😭 like JUST BECAUSE I HAVE EVERY BASIC NEED MET DOESN'T MEAN I CANT BE SAD
I'm 13....and I'm going through so much pain...like crying everyday and thinking about suicidal things... It's because of my family of course.Strangers in the internet comforts me than my family. I'm hoping to my pain to end...Like things are going well but then, it goes bad again..And I'm losing all of my hope.But I'm still sane.And I think my pain won't last forever.And if you're gone through those things or even worse, i hope your life would get better.Don't lose your hope.I love you, even if i don't you..❤️🩹 (I wanted to share my feelings because my family is not listening to me...)
what exactly happens? (only if you’re comfortable sharing, you don’t have to) ❤don’t give up
@@GGamerrrr My family gets mad at me when im crying or telling them what makes me upset...They don't even want me to smile or laugh...
@@GGamerrrr And being bullied at school....
Don't worry dear, almost everyone passes this phase. Don't end it but challenge yourself to make it to highschool. I promise you in this situation you're in right now, you'll be learning so much stuff from it. Cheeer upp :}} !!
@@valkkejeuwheg Thank you sooo much you're soo kind😭💝 (Also you can tell me if something bothers you i'll listen :D)
I used to be the smart, intelligent kid that had her future fully planned. I am great with languages, good in maths and just kind and good in psychology. But now in 8th grade everyone is talking about the future and I’m not ready. I have no idea what I wanna to after school. I always wanted to be an actor but is it really that realistic? Math is going downwards. It feels like my brain is just turning off and I don’t know how to react. Because I don’t want to fail. Now or ever. I know that I’ll go to college but then what? I was planning on kms after college to avoid the problem but I’m afraid of pain. I don’t know what to do and I can’t tell anyone cuz I’m a damn attention seeker that never got enough attention because “everything was so perfect with me”.
UPDATE: So, I actually know what to do after I graduate school! I’m thinking author since I got talent or design logos (Grafikdesigner in german) Also, I had my last talk with my therapist! But something still wrong with me. My anger issues that I worked on are getting a lot worse and I’m getting more and more violent. I always have the urge to hit my head on something or pull out my hair and even though I don’t actively try to off myself, that thought is still wandering in my mind and I will not get therapy again or tell anyone.
I don’t want to annoy anyone with my update and if it triggers someone I’ll stop😋 LOVE Y’ALL AND DON’T OFF YOURSELF❤️
(STAY HYDRATED AND GO GRAB SMTH TO EAT NOW🥪)
I dont know if this will help at all, but I used to feel the exact same way. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and wanted to just end it. As a senior now, I figured out what I wanted to do by volunteering with programs I thought would be fun. Getting a job also helped a lot because I had money to pursue my interests. All I'm saying is hang in there and try things out. (:
fr. I used to be a gifted kid or wtvr but now everyone has their whole life planned out and I’m just struggling to stay alive
Please don't k!ll yourself.
First don't kys and second I relate but you'll figure it out I'm 7th grade and I get it school is a sh!t show
My father forces me to be "smart" because its "in my genes" but im stupid and i have severe memory loss so idk what im supposed to do
I used to have straight A’s and be so happy in the start of seventh grade last year. It started to get worse and my mom comforted me, but now I’m in eighth grade and my grades are slipping. I can’t get comfort because now my dad and my mom are the ones against me. They call me all sorts of names and always take my brother’s side. My mom sometimes apologizes for saying and doing things that hurt me but really, she doesn’t change and says sorry over and over again. I feel as if I am just all alone. I used to do SH and I told my mom because I thought she would comfort me. Instead, she threatened me that she would mill herself if she saw me do it again. Now I have trust issues and am afraid to get help. I hope you all are doing well.
Hey it’s okay. I get it and ik how you feel about this all but try to get help with teachers and ask if you can stay in their class for lunch to practice on your work, that’s what I do and ask for tutorials, and if you trust an adult like your aunt tell them about it and see if you can stay after school for tutoring okay? But be safe out there ❤🫶
i want u to know that ur not alone
I'm losing my mind. I can't remember how many times i cried. I have school in a few days . I dont want to live anymore. I'm tired. I just want to die and make everyone forget about me. I've suffered enough. I grew up surrounded by fake friends and barely any real friends. I HATE MY SO CALLED "FRIENDS". I BARELY HAVE ANYONE THAT CARE ABOUT ME. I HATE BEING THE ONE LEFT OUT. I HATE EVERYONE. I JUST WANT TO BE KID AGAIN. I HATE MYSELF. I HATE THIS STUPID LIFE. I HATE EVERYTHING
thank you so much for listening to my vent/rant. It means a lot
[ Edit: Thank you all for your support, you all are like friends to me and I hope you all are doing great, take care to everyone and thank you again, love ya'll ♡ ]
It will get better bro dont give up, im sure theres people that cares about you.
I may not understand the way you feel, but i can relate somehow..i see what your going through and trust me, it will get better, you can do it ❤
@@Number1Johnnysimp ❤️❤️
i feel you
I'm sorry... I... understand... but you probably wouldn't like being a kid like me... been depressed since I was 9, now 11 and getting better but I miss the depression, it comforted me. WHATS WRONG WITH ME. WHY AM I HERE? WHATS MY PURPOSE? WHY..... why... please... WĤƳ‐
i was diagnosed with ASPD as sociopathic at fourteen after traumatic events. almost 20 now, my life has been nothing but a melancholic slog ever since; wouldn't wish this on anyone.
hope it ends soon.
Oh….
I hope you know that it doesn't matter what you are diagnosed with, you are still a human being, and deserve love and care. Keep going, you have people who believe in you
@@PansexualSayla you, internet person deserve a thanks.
i appreciate your kind words
i wish the best for you, sir/ma'am.
You're a person. As long as you try to be a good person, that's enough. If you admit you're not perfect, and try to fix your mistakes, that's enough. If you're just trying to make the world a slightly better place than you left it, for yourself and others, then *that's enough.*
I started 9th grade last week and let me just say I never thought about offing myself until this moment. Everything was perfect until the end of 7th grade. I figured out that my whole life was a lie and everyone around me is untrustworthy. I cry every night and fake smiles in public. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone because they will tell someone and I don't want to go to the mental hospital like my siblings because I promised I wouldn't be like them and I now have anxiety and depression and I don't know to feel anymore. I don't want to get out of bed anymore when little me used to wake up excited to go to school and see my friends. What happened to me? I was the one to cheer up everyone in elementary school. I was the brightest person in class and now I can barely make my teachers happy without tons of stress. I'm the therapist friend and everyone relies on me weather is drama or venting. There is so much about thats wrong and every time I get in trouble I go home and cry and wonder why I am like this and I feel so bad for everyone. I don't want to go back to therapy it never helped. I act like im so positive about my body and how "Smart and pretty" I am. I got into the school I wanted too and I have good grades but highschool is so stressful. Im in marching band and I also want to join gymnastics, cheerleading, and theatre? I am putting so much pressure on myself and I am digging myself into a deeper and deeper hold that I will probably never get out of. I am scared of the future, I really am. There is so much more I could say but I don't think I could do it. I just pretend all day and cry at night. What am I to do? I also have autism, adhd, AFRID (an eating disorder), sensory, and so much more I haven't been dignoased with. No one in my family understands my brain and I still have tantrums at 14. I feel like a terrible and incompetent person. Not that I feel like a burden, my family is great but I feel dumb. All 5 of my siblings are also mental but they don't know how I feel currently. I don't want to live anymore..
We must live
Don't die.
I'll miss you, Internet Stranger.
No matter what you're going through٫ know that 1. Everything will get better٫ I promise٫ and 2. You're not alone. I deal with bad anxiety and social anxiety٫ depression and an ed. Life doesn't feel real sometimes. But if you focus on the bad things happening٫ you'll never get time to see the good things٫ okay? If you can at least find one thing that makes you happy٫ I can guarantee you'll get better. ❤
I'm so sorry you have to go through that, Sugarcane... Please know that we are people that will protect you, no matter who or what you are. Don't end it all, there are people who need you. I hope you know that are protected and loved here
i'm gonna be honest here... this is sooo relatable also pleas keep going, i'm in 9th grade now, and just because it doesn't get easier doesn't mean you don't get stronger, you do
I feel you on so much of that. I’m really sorry you feel that way. Life is really rough rn.
Hey guys:)
Im a military brat so ive been moving around pretty frequently since childhood. We finally settled down and when talking to civilians kids i realized connections meant so much more to them than they do to me. I cant love anyone not even my own family. In the back of my mind everyone and everything could be ripped from me at any moment. So i don’t connect with ppl. Theres no fixing it and its hard to explain. But i cant have a best friend or significant other because i cant truly care about anyone without the fear of loosing someone again. And it hurts like shit tbh. Dont be like me u guys are stronger. Dont worry about me thats the last thing i would ever want i want to die without anyone remembering me. But i dont want to die and i dont want to live. I don’t know what i am anymore
It’s ok I’ve been there too I stopped loving everything and anything but it eventually got worse and worse then it finally started to get better then I met the person who means the world to me it will get better eventually, it takes time.❤
Man…….this his hard………I know the feeling. All my life I always have had different friends they’d always leave we’d talk on the phone some to but then they’d just stop replying so It made me where I literally cannot force myself to make new friends I don’t really see the point so nowadays I only have like 1 friend and we never even see eachother anymore we only can talk over the phone
This hits hard even when you have the same moments in life… But trust me, things will get better someday :)
I'm going to move like sometime at the beginning of next year, and i'll have to say goodbye to my best friend in the whole world, and i'm not ready at all, all i can think about is how i'm going to be ripped away from him in a couple months with no way to contact him bcs we both don't have phones or anything to stay in contact. I'm afraid of leaving, but also that he will forget me and eventually i will mean nothing to him bcs he will never think of me again.
I don't know what it feels like but that hits hard and I want to care about you as someone did to me and I want you to live happily and love happily so try please but you don't have to try I guess I just want you to be happy 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 Virtual hugs
school sucks man. i begged my mom to take me out of the school i was at for middle school and she wouldn’t. all my friends hated me 8th grade year and turned on me. i stoped showing up to school. and i started Sh and i had to wear my pe uniform and it was short sleeved and i had cuts all over my arm and people told the school and they told my parents. then kids started saying i only was doing it for attention. my old friends who i didn’t talk to anymore invited me to get my nails done but then one of them told me they only invited me because they felt bad… i was the only person who didn’t go to grad
IM SO SORRY-ALSO WHY TF WOULD I CUT MYSELF FOR ATTENTION? I DONT ANT ATTENTION ON IT! AND IF I WERE TO DO IT FOR ATTENTION YOU SHOULD BE CONCERNED IM GOING AS FAR AS HURTING MYSELF FOR ATTENTION!
Want*
@@denis4639 Yeah fr. I'm not doing it for YOU!
Hey you! All of you lovely people out there! Yes, you! Listen to me, even through your insecurities, your fails, your mistakes, your wins, your rights, your hurts, even your acts. I will still love you for you. Please, stay alive, not for others only but for you too. As one person said once dinner isn't over! What that means is to live your life the best you can because once it's done, it's over, you cant go back, that's why you need to do your best! Even when you're confused, you can still do something great! Go do some good to this world because everyone needs it so we can get motivated and follow in YOUR footsteps! Go donate to a charity, or you can help just by talking about it and aspiring others to! Bring joy by an instrument or judt be there for someone when they need it, you dont even have to say anything, actions will speak louder than words. Now get up and take care of yourself! Okay? I love you for who you are!!!
thx bro
Your a amazing person 😊
@Mokaa_ov you are too :)
thx bro keep on spreading good in the world :)
When ur parents force u to go to a therapist who is only agreeing w u for money:
Facts
Real, I went to a therapist and I was telling her about my SA experience and after like 15 minutes of me talking all she said was "okay"
And thats why id ont like therapist usaly they give the most basic advice give you mabey a hug say its ok and thats all or mabey some pills witch if you dont keep them on you you get more depression
same, you're not alone because I am here
👽🔵 Alien Blues 🔵👽
(My teeth are yellow, hello World)
0:00 - 2:35
🍻👥 My Alcoholic Friends 👥🍻
(Six is not a pretty number 8 or 3 are better)
2:36 - 5:20
🌻💤 I'd Rather Sleep 💤🌻
(Now I know what's real and what is fake)
5:21 - 7:11
🔵🎭 Blue Hair 🎭🔵
(There's really no way of of if their eyes you'll always be a dumb blonde, and she cries over nothing)
7:12 - 10:34
❤🏫 This is Home🏫❤
(Get a load of this monster, he doesn't know how to communicate, his mind is in a different place)
10:35 - 14:18
🚬🌃 Cigarettes out the window🌃🚬
(When you call my name there will be no answer, I always call your name)
14:19 - 17:33
👧💆♀️ Sarah 💆♀️👧
(Sarah runs to feel the burning in her lungs and clear her head)
17:34 - 20:27
The fact i know all these songs🥲
To whoever reads this,
i love you
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love your insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love your failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on your sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you when you're in pain
i love you when you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love your wounds
i love your scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you when you lie
i love you when you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you when you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you when you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you when you have a headache
i love you when you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you need help
i love you when you're mature
i love you when you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you when life is meh
i love you when you're responsible
i love you when you're irresponsible
i love you when you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love you at your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
From the stranger on the internet who loves you
This is not mine but you can also copy this to make someone's day :>
This helps alot. Thank you
We have the same name :) and I’m a therian too!
Thank you miss/sir/other
STOP MAKING ME CRY!
@@CerealSundaeCantDraw Right?
bro, my brother just saw that i was listening to this and legit said:
"what the heck? you're not depressed, stop pretending, your life is so easy"
like, my guy, 10 mins ago you called me an idiot bc i disagreed that tea could smell like cigeretts...
i mean, that's not why i'm here, but still, just fueling the flame
It’s going to be ok fuck your brother( sorry if that offended you) he don’t know what your going through
Stop pretending my ass, how would he know you have it easy. Even if u do, having an easy life doesn’t automatically make someone depression free. Some of us are just built like that and a little positivity could maybe help. I can totally relate but now that I’m older the best advice I can give is that don’t listen to other people who think they know you better than you yourself do. Let them go on flapping their mouth and try not taking much of it to heart, they aren’t living the same life as you, do what you want feel what you want but know that in the end things will get better. You may have to work hard to get to that position but strive hard for it you won’t regret it!!
You know, I'm only in 5th grade and stress is real. It really hurts to have to cry almost everyday and to always cry myself to sleep..... You are perfect❤
A video game cares and understands me better than my friends…
Guess if I have nobody else, it’s Just Monika.
i’ve been were you are. the only things that ever seemed to understand me were fictional characters/worlds. it was so lonely. but i promise you from the bottom of my heart that there are people out there like you who escape to different worlds. i would suggest joining internet groups that focus on the things you love if you haven’t already. also, you learning to be alone with yourself will benefit you so greatly in life. a lot of people don’t know how to entertain themselves or just be by themselves which can lead to them not knowing the person in the mirror. if you live in a place where you can’t find people who will make you feel like you can share the things you love then you can write own Your Reality (i had to get a DDLC reference in there somehow 😋)
Hey guys, im currently in 8th grade... i have friends that barely care, no family that cares, and i have autism, ADHD, and schizofrenia... life is hell, and i feel bad for everyone that has to go through the same things or worse in this cruel world. Im beyond help, but please... try to get better and dont end up like me. 😓
Edit: tysm for the support, I'll try to get better. Also forgot to mention my bipolar.
Even if no one near you cares, we do. Leave them behind, but don’t leave yourself behind in the process. You are strong. You can do this. ❤ God luck to you, in whatever you decide is best.
My dear.Please.Take care of yourself.
Pls survive... we care about you! :
this is so real. i must be friends with you 💔 (you just seem cool lol)
I don’t care if this is fake, I hope you’re okay. ❤🙏
I still remember the days when I was younger…6 or so when I had no care in the world and “supportive parents”…what happened to the days now…being all by yourself on your own team…faking a smile everyday not to worry the other people even though they hate you too 😔 it’s an endless loop until u end it all…
Won't die someone cares for you even at your lowest and so does god
Even if I don’t have a religion that still made me feel better,ty…
I hope you're doing okay and everything is getting better. I know it hurts now, but you have valid emotions and feelings you need to let them out or risk tearing yourself apart from the inside out. You deserve the care and affection you want. You deserve to be heard when you speak, and I bet you have the loveliest, and the most beautiful things to say. Not only that but you have some of the wisest words of wisdom. I was suffering from dysmorphia and ed. Bullying in my school and domestic abuse in my house made it worse. My dad cheated on my mom and blamed her for being "not enough." I dropped school and fell into a strong depression and dissociation. I isolated myself for almost 3 years, it hurt me badly. I didn't know what to do or how to approach it. But I stayed silent about it for so many years, when I finally broke I had to be hospitalized. So talk to someone, please. You're important. You're not the only one who feels lost. You're not alone. You don't have to be like anyone. You deserve someone who will love you, and will miss you for who you are.
I can relate to these songs a 𝚕𝚘𝚝…life is going to be hard but it’s not going to get any 𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚒𝚎𝚛 if you’re negative all the time…that’s what I learned..
Yeah no matter how broken we push forward you cant run from everything especially the truth. Stay positive guys even if your lying to yourself find a reason to keep going
If the toxic never goes away it will ll be hard...
Wise
These songs really help me stay calm when I'm feeling like I want to end it all, but I have friends who are there for me and protect me, even though I feel like I'm just a burden to them, being a clingy person who has abandonment issues...
Stay safe everyone, eat, drink water, and stay healthy
This is the first time I’ve told anyone this
I’m feeling really weird and alone, my mind is just so overwhelmed with everything that I made my self a imaginary friend to deal with my stress. He talks to me and I talk to him. It’s really difficult on me i just don’t know what to do anymore. My brain is yelling my hands are shaking my head hurts my eyes are really sore and my body hurts my mind is just getting worse I can’t even feel the connection between me and my body it’s like I’m just in a haze of numbness and fear and anxiety and depression. I want to be free and healthy but I’m just not. And I don’t know what to do :
ever since summer my two closest friends have been ignoring me, it's like they don't even acknowledge I'm there. I have a few classes with just me and them, (my only friends in those classes). I try to socialize with them in group work, but they always pick each other, never me. I'm starting to get tired of it, they make jokes on how I'm 'ugly' or 'annoying' and I'm sick of it. "can i work with you" - 1
"yeah!" -2
"can i work with you too?" - me
"No-"
I'm so tired of it, they only things keeping me sane are my two other friends, I don't know what I'd do without them.. but even they make jokes about me sometimes, I have no idea how to tell them I hate it, when 1 and 2 make jokes about me, all I do is smile, I can't stop my face from smiling, I hate it, I just wanna be able to tell them to shut up. I just want to be able to stand up for myself, to tell them I don't like it. I've told myself over and over and over again "I'm gonna stand up to them today." "I'm going to say something." but I never do. I hate it I hate it I hate it. I hate myself, I hate school, I hate how toxic everyone is nowadays, there's no one I can love, there's no one to find comfort in, there's no one to hug without them thinking I'm weird. I just want someone to appreciate me. My friends 3 and 4 are great friends, but they say they'll be nicer and never end up doing it. I want someone that I can laugh and run with. I want someone.
I am so sorry. They are not good friends. As hard as this could be, you really need to get new friends. If you ever need someone to talk to come back to this comment section. Me and many other people are always here to listen. I know I don’t know you, but you are beautiful, and I am very proud of you.
This may have been created a while ago but im currently blasting this on my speaker with led's that change with the bass so this is bomb. W playlist, sving this 100%!!
Aw thx :]
The amount of "people think I'm mentally ill cause (something that has nothing to do with mental illness)"
And then there's me with autism, ADHD, social anxiety, and a language processing disorder, who was expecting some fellow neuro diverse friendos :'3
i have adhd, extreme anxiety and depression! Nice to meet you! xD
The only thing i got that relates to you is social anxiety and extreme self conciseness lol keep pushing bro
Same
I have bipolar 1 disorder, cPTSD, and ADHD. The neurospicy club is sometimes a little too welcoming 😅
Bonjour (Ciao) (Salve) I cant decide a language
This playlist helps a lot. I am/have neurodivergent, social anxiety, adhd, anger issues, (undiagnosed depression) and few others. Iv always felt left out and trapped in my room. And I keep screwing up I’m so tired and slowly fading. These songs help me relax and let out some bottled up feelings. Especially sense right now my parents are going threw a second divorcee and my step dad took the house and my real dad doesn’t want me at his house because my stepmom hates me and my mom works two shifts so I don’t get any/enough attention.
⚠typical vent sesh, ignore or dont⚠
i had a gf back in 8th grade, it was a stable relationship and i genuinely felt appreciated for once,... until late october. For some reason the 'popular' girls decided it would be real funny to spread rumours of her being some child molestor/school shooter/drug addict - i thought it would just be some week-long bit, i told my gf not to worry too much, and not to listen to them. But after about a month, it was clear people didn't want to let up with these weird false accusations...
people were starting to target me too, once they realized i was her bf. saying the same things, but some went far enough to tell the principle i had a weapon in my locker, it was such a fucking headache- i didn't do anything about it, i didn't want to encourage them, but the insults and rumors kept spreading for us both. sometimes i had to stop myself from crying in the middle of class. after around early december, i decided maybe if i stopped being with her, the allegations would stop.
they did, people went back to ignoring me, but now she sort of had to put up with people's insults by herself. everytime i hear some of these songs i just remember how much of a horrible person I am, how I ghosted probably the only person that will ever like me. how i refused to speak to someone as weird and relatable as i am, over some petty false claims and drama. 10th grade just started last week, and i was sort of scared realizing that my ex goes to my school again. i cant stop thinking about how much she probably hates me
It’s ok! I would just try to talk to her and talk it out and fix things between you guys because it’s in the past. It was a while ago you should feel better if you talk to her and face it. It makes things better when you actually face your fear,etc.
Don't blame yourself for doing what you thought was right.
I have dermatilomania. It’s a skin picking disorder that can be caused by OCD, and in my case is. I hate myself for picking my skin. I hate going to school because people stare. I hate my parents because they say it looks like I’m on drugs. I hate my parents because they just make it worse. I hate my skin. I hate my brain. I hate my family. I hate who I am.
I wish I could relate to you but I can't but that is what makes you you. don't hate you're self because of it be thankful that you have it don't like people staring at you stare at them hate you're family because they say mean things say mean things back if they get mad they started it first. aka do things back to others because they did it to you and love you're self bye:)
Friends becoming more distant
Depression getting worse
Being angry most of the time
Trying to makw other peoples lives better but ended up making it worse
Even have some family issues
All i could really say is that its been shitty for the past years, almost given up a few times. But I think this school year (10th grade) would be my point where i could either change, be the same shitty self, or even end myself (less likely to happen). Im hoping that something good would happen to me and to you all as well:) i just wished i could go back at time to fix my past mistakes but oh well, "it is what it is". Im also running out of times using that phrase to ease the feeling
I believe that you’ll get through this! No one deserves that, especially you. You are not alone I am experiencing a very similar situation, I hope things will get better for you!❤❤❤
Please don’t do that you are loved, deserving, and amazing in every way. I’m here for you.
Sometimes I just cant handle life any longer and everything just feels confusing 😕
I recently had a lot happen. Stress got to me, and one little thing at a cheer camp (I'm on my high school's cheer team) was the last thing to set me off. I talked to my mom about how since 8th grade, I would come home and cry for no reason. We ended up getting me a therapist. I've only seen her three times, but she's moving, and now I have to adjust to a new one.
Cheer has been really overwhelming, but I can't quit. I told my mom I was thinking about quitting, and her words were "I've put too much time and money into this, you can't quit." I don't know if she's on my side or not.
On top of all of this, I'm having a sexuality crisis. I thought I wa sa lesbian in 8th grade, and dated one of my best friends. It was a good relationship until my sister found out and made us break up because she had her own experience in middle school she regretted (she literally just kissed her trans ftm friend a few times). Now, this friend asked me to homecoming as a friend, and my mom is being weird about it(my sister told my mom my friend and I were dating when it happened). She asked me a few times "you guys know you're going as friends, right?" But I might like that friend again. I just don't know anymore.
I haven’t been ok since 10. Its been 13 years and im starting to understand that this will never go away. Something is fundamentally wrong with me
And they said we were too young to experience that... We're in this together, we'll get through it together. But some of us can't take it, don't be those people, you're strong and independent.
Don't commit suicide it's not worth it...
It’s not a POV anymore…
@@Strabiemochi59975 that……that hit hard
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The fact this relates😖
“I’d never thought high school would be this bad”
I have anxiety but I didn’t tell my family because they see it as more of a phase. It was really bad while I was 9-12 years old, I cannot sleep at night and is just scared of everything at night. The dark, the past, the future, the present, everything. It just feels like doom is coming and your heart pounds fast and you just have that bad feeling. It’s like the feeling you get when you forget an important piece of homework at home. I got over it now, by like 80%. I hope everyone who is struggling with anything in their life can solve it, and have a better day ♥️
I like how we made this comment section a judgement free venting zone, it’s comforting knowing I’m not alone ♥️♥️♥️
Omg meee to but sad
All i am is someone who walks around aimlessly,
someone with no purpose in life,
someone with no goals,
ever since i have done something wrong,
i lose one privilege,
everything i enjoyed,
all of it was lost with one word, "no"
Nothing i had ever done was right,
everything i did was wrong,
from one simple mistake,
to almost costing ones life.
even if i something i did was right,
they would still have a reason to be angry,
to scream at me,
to hurt me,
everything,
all thier issues was given for me to solve.
All i wanted was love,
all i needed was affection from them,
but all i got was neglect an abuse,
i had done everything for them to love me,
but the didnt even acknowledge it.
Hey, if you need to talk to someone, feel free to ask me anything.
i just want to say something really quickly because i have no one else to irl!
ive been watching a livestreamer for about 2 months now and shes really sweet, she has a small following and i love her so much.
ive made good friends with a lot of the people in her chat and we've bonded together a lot.
i made friends with one person, i dont know how old he was but i think he was pretty young.
he came in chat one day and said that he was starting chemotherapy the next day.
we all sympathized for him and over the next few weeks i started to worry more and more for him. i told my church to pray for him this sunday, yesterday, because he was really worrying me and i didnt know how he was doing.
i got news today from my livestreamer that he passed, and i knew that it was before i asked my church to pray for him because his friend came in the chat on his account and didnt say much but said hello.
i just feel like somehow its my fault and i could have been doing more for him but i know i couldn't have been, but i still feel guilty.
Don’t worry, dude we’re here for you.
Funny thing everybody thinks I’m mentally ill for being determined and absolutely obsessed with soccer moving across the country next year because that’s where I got recruited and my parents ain’t helping me one bit not paying for bills or moving fees or just appliances because they are so sure that I’m stupid and crazy to follow my dreams like they never did
Keep following your dreams. You’ll do great
Keep following your dreams bro you got this
Hope that years later i will see you on a soccer match gingerman!! Keep going and do not let anyone stop you from following your dreams!!
you'll do great, i'm sure of it
two out of my three siblings have some type of neurodiverngency and dont expirence puberty correctly so me being the only kid in the house who hit puberty normally makes me feel fucking insane sometimes (chronic depression and anxiety run in my family)
it sucks so much when you just want to hang out with friends, a bestie or someone special, only to know all of your friends are with their bestfriends, with a so called special-friend and you're alone...I don't want to get between friendships of these people, so for the 5th year in my life I'm stuck with myself, and people I call friends just because we don't have any tension and I talk to them from time to time. I miss my bestie, even if she cut contact with me 5 years ago...
same... though i never had the best friend... it's always just been me
Please, let's take a moment to appreciate the fact that the author of the video is so kind and that he responds to everyone by giving advice and by saying nice things.
For the author of the video: if you need to vent, you can write a comment down here. ❤
I remind you all that the world needs you, stay safe, your enough. ❤
I was missdiagnosed by doctors my whole life. Now that i turned 18, everyone says it's BPD that's taking over me. I'm taking 11 different kinds of anti depresants, anti psychotics, stabilizators and more. Today i heard i should be going to mental hospital once again, to adult one this time. My pills are increasing to 14 pills from friday. I had been s'harming for 6 years, started as 10 year old, after being a victim of SA from a man that never had consequences. I'm home schooled beacuse i'm too scared to look people in the eyes. I had a dream to be a model, a real model. Now that medications messed up my health, i'm fat and insecure. I was a beautiful girl before i started taking so many meds. I still want to be a model. But i'm too psyhically fragile, and too big physically. I don't have anyone who could talk to me. I don't want to have anyone talking to me, im hurting people i love, that should never happen. I have a boyfriend, just so yall know, its semi fresh thing. He's 34.. awful person, racist, homophobic, transphobic, anti-woman rights, addict. I love him and i want to fix him, tho i know i never could. I'm on my way to another therapy session right as i'm writing this. I hope my struggles will end soon, in whatever way. Please, never let yourself get so low. Let me be your example, what poor mental health care is doing to humans. I love you all, i'm so glad i'm a human at the end of the day, i have my body working and legs walking and hair growing. I'm glad, and i thank whatever is above us. I'm grateful for life
I relate to this playlist...
Vent I guess? (I never vented before)
So about 7 months ago I told me parents that i'm a Therian, after hiding it for 2 years. When I did my father tried to understand what a Therian was, but my mother... She repeatedly told me that 'i'm mentally ill' or 'I need to be put in a mental hospital' those words hurt so much... She told my siblings that I 'identify as a bobcat, and to call me a cat' my father did support me though, he let me make masks and do quads.
The same night my mother went through my room, and threw out all my dragon puppets and as many drawing as she could find, then after she gave me a cinnamon bun saying that she's so sorry... I didn't forgive her because she just threw out years of hard work. My mother took away all my art supplies been it was 'rotting my mind', How was drawing rotting my mind?
My escape was Murder Drones, it helped me so much. So thank you Glitch and everyone else who worked on Murder Drones you help me not commit. They also helped make a me character who helps me when I think of doing self h@rm, because she's from Murder Drones.
BTW KEEP GOING, I'M SO PROUD OF HOW FAR YOU MADE IT!!
I'm so sorry that happened to you. You didn't deserve that.😕💗
@@Rudy-o7m Thanks. (I don’t know how to respond)
honestly- i don't support therians myself, but, i'm so sorry that this happened to you!! i hope your mother accepts who you are one day ❤️
@@coca_.lizard I hope so too
To those of you reading this who have had or are currently having a difficult childhood, YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
I know theres many adults out there who say that their childhood years were their best years, but they have not been through what we have been through. Youe adulthood isn't going to be worse than your childhood, things will improve and get better. I will describe my childhood below for those who want to read, however I will be discussing sensitive topics.
I've dealt with anxiety disorder for as long as I can remember, even as a young child. I had a family member that was hit by a drunk driver and unfortunately did not survive, and my dog died of cancer around the same time. This made me worry a lot since anyone I cared about could die without warning. I was also bullied in school, and had a difficult time making friends, ans when I did the friendship usually only lasted a few months. When I tried to talk to my mom about it, she didn't care and pretty much told me it was my problem. My mom has never actually cared about my well-being. If I did something that made her upset, even minor things like leaving something on the floor for example, she'd yell until I cried and then yell at me more for being too sensitive and crying. There was also the time where I dislocated part of my spine, and I was told that I was being dramatic, and it took about 2 weeks before my dad actually took me to see a doctor. Around the time I was 13, I also realized I happen to be queer, but both my mom and my dad got really angry about this and sent me to a conversion therapist (which is not a real therapist) to try and turn me straight. I've even been told by my mom that my feelings do not matter. However things do get better, and this is not my entire life, only the years living with my parents.
Love how everyone does their vent not like I'm thinking i should not be feeling here when the others actually have not one but multiple mental issues and my only excuse is feeling worthless
Vent all you want ml, I will never compare your problems to anyone else’s no matter what.
it feels like i cant do anything right anymore i just want to off myself but i cant because my friends need me but everyday is getting more and more difficult it feels like im gonna break at any moment and i feel like a disapointment to my entire family because im failing *every single* one of my classes even the easy ones like art- i just cant anymore
I am so sorry. Please don’t hurt yourself. You are very strong for being here, and I am proud of you.
@@SophieElizabethFoster im trying- its okay and thank you
@@MILLIE_THE_WIERDHHFAN your welcome💗
I know that people are venting here, but I wrote a little smth smth abt a character and I wanted to share it, however this may be triggering for some people so i just wanted to give a warning..
I trudged through the forest, my head facing down, my boots covered in mud and my
shotgun slung against my shoulder. The exact same question running through my mind. “Why do you destroy things?” The truth is I don’t know. “Exactly.” I wonder if I’ll ever know. I look up quickly at the sound of a twig breaking, I quickly grab my shotgun that was hanging off my shoulder and hold my finger over the trigger, seeing a small fox staring at me, I look into its black, mysterious eyes, its red fur and long tail. We stand in silence as I see the red fox tense, my finger inching closer and closer towards the trigger. My gaze narrows as I pull the trigger- “Why do you destroy things?” I point the shotgun upward at that question echoing in my mind, the fox fleeing.
I let out a sigh, picking up the shotgun and continuing home. “My Johnny!” My mother smiles as she places her hands on my face, squeezing my cheeks playfully. “Hi mother.” I smile back as she hugs me. “Now go greet your father.” She gestures to my father who is sitting on his wooden rocking chair, reading the local paper. “Hello father.” I say, fixing my posture as his eyes don’t leave whatever he’s reading. “Go wash up.” He demanded coldly. “Yes sir.” I murmur, my posture relaxing slightly as I go to the tub, grabbing my clothes as I finish scrubbing all the dirt off my body. I finish cleaning myself and go to see my younger brothers who are playing marbles. “Johnathan! Would you like to join us?” They asked, their smiles bright and youth plastered onto their faces. “Ah, we’re about to have supper soon. You should go clean off your hands. They’re probably filthy.” I nod, heading to my room and grabbing a book off a shelf and opening its pages. “Supper!” Josie, my sister, called out to me. I head to the dinner table to see my younger brothers already at the table. “Mother is getting Father.” Josie murmured, when Mother appears back in the room before Father enters, I can already tell he’s not in the best mood. Mother serves Father first, then us and she herself sits down at the table. “Are you sure you should eat supper today?” He asked, I clench my fist under the table, Josie uncomfortably shifting in her seat at Father’s comment towards Mother. “Hm, I suppose you’re right.” She says, not wanting to stir up trouble and she simply puts her plate to the side. I look at Josie who is staring down at her plate. Suddenly my appetite is lost. “Ah, Mother. I actually think I’d rather not eat as well. Excuse me-” I begin as I stand up from my seat before my father bangs his fist on the table, I pause. “You will sit and eat the food your mother has cooked for you.” He
mutters, his voice low and dangerous. I nod, sitting down and picking back up my fork. “Thank you for the meal Mother, and to you Father for purchasing the ingredients.” I smile, everybody else is silent. The rest of the night was awkward, and I couldn’t wait to just go to school the next morning.
Anyway, I hope you all have a wonderful day/night! just know that you are loved despite what everyone else says, and remember you must feel pain in order to feel joy, and to heal you must feel broken first.
Your character seems awesome
wowowowowowow
I'm not afraid of who I'll become, I'm afraid of what will happen to me in the future. I actually experienced epilepsy at a fairly early age, thereby messing up my mother's mental state, I feel guilty about it (her memory deteriorated due to the stress of losing me) After I went to school and was not sociable, I did not want to talk, then I became shy to talk, then I was afraid to talk to someone...I overcame my own social phobia, became more sociable and helped people. But my mother's condition is getting worse every year and I can see it through the way her nose is bleeding due to a heart condition, she had surgery at an early age and doctors assumed that she would only live to 30-35 years old. She is a strong woman who gave birth to two children (me and my brother), and raised us including cousins (5 children in total). I try not to worry in front of her so that she doesn't get upset, but if she's gone, I don't know what will happen to me and my family...One day, when we were sitting at the table and drinking tea talking about everything, she told me, "When I die, don't cry." In childhood, I was often forbidden to cry or get angry. But, I'm sorry Mom, I'm going to cry.
Besides, I can't stop picking at my scars, and pulling out my toenails a little...I just can't stop.
You will get through this I believe in you❤❤ I hope things get better for you! ❤❤❤
I finally got the help I needed, so why don't I feel better? There's not even a hint of the slightest change.
same tho...
I have HUGE signs of bipolar disorder and it's really frustrating and hard to live with. I keep telling my mom that i think it's something mental and she said "My kids arn't mentally sick". They keep saying, "Pray on it", I even tried to break my arm ON PURPOSE which was a huge low on my list of SH. I wanted to see if they would care. If they took me anywhere then to protect myself from hurting me anymore. And all that is locked up because I HAVE to be happy. If I'm not she says "stop acting like a teenager. Be happy".
The world changed that day.
The world changed so much thanks to one thing.
The day the quarantine started.
Fallen stars, new words, losing people.
Great grief and pain came to this now forsaken world.
Once a childhood favourite to this rotten world.
All the accusations and all the stuffed up sh!t
New trends, lead to death.
Haters, furry’s, therians, (not saying I hate them)but how could we hate this world we used to love so much?
Because though pressure is lighter everyone has lost motivation to find out new things without the internet.
Though pressure is lighter suicide is more common now.
Self harm is more common.
So how did we come to this?
The world broke that day.
When we finally grew up.
I listen to music like this a lot my friends call me depressed and say “your so depressed like who hurt you so much” it hurts every time and then the next day they say “your way to nice to have anyone who doesn’t like you”
Pepole think im mentally ill bcoz of dressing grunge and being one but listening to mel[in my country being grunge in 7th class is weird,for some reason]and the big ones always thout i was a weirdo but havent seen how funny and nice i rrly am..
This is a vent, read if you want :)
A few months after I was born, I had something in me like a fatal disease which made me really weak and I would not be able to open my eyes or do anything and I was basically already dead. However, I managed to survive it since the doctors helped me through it but they had no idea what to do since I had an unknown virus. Now I dont weigh a lot and I’m sometimes made fun of for my weight. But all throughout my primary school everything was ok and when I got to highschool everything was a lot worse since I was mentally bullied a lot for being quiet and got called “bestie” by popular people but I was fine with it although I had no friends and felt alone most of the time. In year 8 the bullying got worse since these people decided to call me and make fun of me on call by treating me like a baby and do some things (they forced me to read bedtime stories, took pictures of me in my pyjamas and made a gc about me being “sexy) but I was scared to tell a teacher so I stayed silent. I also had a guy who liked me and made some weird comments to me and when I sat next to him in science, he would go close to me, but I barely knew him so I was grossed out so I asked to move. But my mental state was genuinely getting worse around this state since this all kept happening and more disturbing comments were made towards me. But next year in year 9, this is really where things took a turn. 15th October was the day this happened, when I found a mans body in the forest (died to s#!c!d3) and this was the day where I was going to see my friend so I had to hide it the whole time. Then the next day I went to school and told my friends about it and they laughed at me for it and made jokes about it. I was really upset bc I thought they’d act differently but they didnt. I didnt get school therapy since genuinely no one cared about it. No one cared about the guy who died (no one came to collect his body) which makes me feel awful and I wish I couldve helped even if I didnt know. This continued to eat me up for a while and bc I was constantly alone (people only ever texted or talked to me for help with work bc I was “smart) I couldnt feel happy anymore. Then, sometime in December or January, these boys in my class noticed me and bc one of them liked me and I said no, they started harassing me by making comments about my appearance and kept asking me out again and again. I said no every time and then they started making weird comments about my rear and then in an english class one of them grabbed my bag and tried to rip it off. Why? Even when I got a high score in class, even when it was near my birthday, they said theyd give me “birthday kisses” and theyd find my address and give me flowers for valentines day. WHY? By this time I also found out my family had issues I didnt know about, my nan and grandad argue every day and my mum and dad didnt love each other, my cousins dont like me or my sister and basically every part of my family made everything worse money wise. I get yelled at for doing one minor thing wrong. My dads of the family is also mentally insane, since my cousin killed a goose before using a fence. My dog also might get put down bc he’s considered vicious. Im disgusted at what happened over everything. It genuinely feels like I’ve just been going through every day without trying anymore. My classmates dont even care about me, im meant to be the smartest and they only care about my grades and I get screamed at by them when I dont get a good grade. Im tired. But I have to keep it up so I dont get embarrassed when I accidentally vent. I know I’ve vented to my french teacher before and I felt mortified afterwards. The only time I like of the day is when I go to sleep, but even then I wake up in the middle of the night most of the time so I have to deal with my thoughts for ages. Right now, it feels like I cant make friends anymore since I just keep to myself all the time. Its genuinely depressing, but I just need a break from everything. Im sorry for this going on for so long but I just needed to get all my feelings out.
I love you so much, regardless of your gender, where you are from, your style or anything else, and even if I don't know you, I hope your life will be better and you will be happy. Never give up on your dreams and keep going. Love yourself.Don't give up too early. You're special.
I love you too
@@yerahgoru5295 💝
(TW: i dont know what specific warning to put, just be aware its a little sensitive.)
Im 14 years old.
Im 14 years old, and i always get told to step up, that i have to be the bigger person out of 3 adults living in the same house, my sister is "the mother" yet i cook for our dad, i clean up after everyone, and if i dont im lazy, and rude, and im called childish because i have all day to myself while they all work. My sister tells me "dont do it because everyone else tells you to, do it to make it easier on yourself" but my brain doesnt work that eay, im constantly beating myself up because i cant do the simplest of a task like doing 15 dishes because im so depressed my brain is constantly working on things to keep it occupied and feeling okay, so when i think about doing the dishes, a task i was traumatized into doing by my step father, it instantly drains me, and makes me feel like shit. When i do work up the abilty to sit there and do the dishes my legs, back, and shoulder ache like id lifted 20 200 pound weights because of my health issues that no one will take me to the hospital to get diagnosed and treated to help me live like a normal person. I need therapy, my father was told this by my mother because the one time i got a physical all of the papers they gave me to fill out showed that i have issues with anxiety, so i was given options for therapy and meds to help with it, my father was told this, he did nothing because he "doesnt have time" when he spends 3-4 hours after work sitting in his room playing games and telling me to cook for him, and i feel like im not allowed to feel like shit because the one time i told my friend about this they simply told me "that does kinda sound like an excuse, at least -- isnt happening to you like it is with me" so i shut down, i complain sure, "my dad made me make him food again" "i have to do the dishes, sigh" but i never go into detail abour how much it hurts that my sister would tell "i cant do the dishes, its not my job to take care of everyone here" and would make her 14 year old little sibling do it instead. Im 14, taking care of my father, cleaning a house big enough for 5 people, cleaning up after everyone. All because i dont have a job so im selfish if i dont want to spend the time i have to try and learn how to start making money by selling things by doing dishes and feeding my piece of shit father who cant be bothered to acknowledge that his dickish behavior is so disgusting and hurtful that when i turn 20 im going to move out, whether i have a place to solidly move into or not. Im only 14, trying to learn how to make myself money asap to be able to pursue a career, i have a bank account, my id, almost everything i need, i just need one more thing, but i cant do it until im 18 because PayPal and any other money holding app doesnt allow minor use. I just wanted to be a kid, now im stuck between a rock and a hard place with nothing to do but sit here until i get the strength to leave. I miss when things were simpler, i miss when my momma used to make me sandwiches when i wasn't feeling good enough to do it myself... I miss when i could stumble into my moms room at 4PM, telling her i need her, and she would hold me and hang out with me while she could before she had to take care of her 4 other children... I wouldve stayed with her, but the man she chose to marry after divorcing my father gave me so much trauma that now even though he has changed i cant be in the same house as him without being so anxious to the point i cant enjoy myself and the company of my momma. I miss my momma and how she was understanding. I feel like im dying sometimes, since i havent gotten any of my medical conditions diagnosed im constantly worrying what a sharp pain in my stomach is, cuz for all i know i could just need to eat or my intestines could be about to explode and kill me, im so terrified that my physical issues could literally kill me, and i could tell my father i feel like im dying and he would just go "call your mom about it, im busy".
Thank you for reading, though i doubt someone would care about a 14 year old on the internet.
(TW for this bit: mention of pet death and slightly detailed mentions of pet remains)
Edit: i didnt mention it, but i also have two guinea pigs i solely take care of cuz no one else will do it, theyre all “too busy”, i used to have three, but recently my little girl died, the one i named and loved the most of the three, her name was dahlia, she was my pride, my everything, always let me hold her, i buried her and grabbed the cleanest path stone i could to put over her, i sometimes decorate it to help myself cope, but it doesnt take away the burning i feel knowing i was possibly the reason she died, i always heard her chewing on tape in the cage (the tape was necessary to keep the bedding from falling out of it through a massive hole) and i think maybe she ate so much tape that it clogged her up, and she ended up dying because of it, and its so painful to think about it because she wouldve had to be like that for weeks possibly before dying, my poor baby girl suffered while i laughed and played games, she died and i didnt even notice until probably two or three days after her passing, she smelled terrible… she felt so soggy on the bottom… ive never cried harder then when i had to clean the cage after that and i scooped up the remaining fur in her final resting place, i actually paused and just sobbed over my other two babies before i could bear continuing… it still strikes me, the pain of losing her, and i dont want to be responsible for the other twos death, but my only option is to get them to a vet to make sure theyre okay, or i give them away to someone else… i love my babies too much to give them away, but at the same time…. It hurts so bad knowing they may be better off in a loving and well caring environment where theyll be taken care of and properly loved… i dont deserve them…
Your a lot like me I’m 14 aswell I have 7 siblings and am basically the mother of the house sense my step mom refuses to take care of my younger siblings. My parents are getting a second divorce and I’m forced to move away because it’s to expensive to live in Florida so I’m moving to south California. My mom won’t take me to therapy and iv devolved social anxiety and depression. I had adhd aswell and those don’t mix well. I’m sorry your life is so shitty but your not alone. I know I’m some random stranger on the internet im free to talk to if you’d like to vent to me. My names koda btw :)
@ its nice to know im not alone, im Jamie but my friends calls me white
@@WeirdRósBán well it’s nice to meet you Jamie or white what ever your prefer more
The fresh wounds are burning…
🥀TW: a slight vent🥀
A year ago, I lost a parent to a sickness. I was very close to them, so it broke me. I had also recently started a new school, so I was also stressing about that. I had to move out of my childhood home, and away from all of my friends. The parent that I was staying with after that I wasn’t very close to, and barely saw a lot. We fought almost every single day, and I felt lonely and isolated. When I was in fourth grade, I went into a new friend group, which contained (I’m gonna use the first letter of their names) S, N, L, V, and H. S, V, and me started bullying H, and eventually we got in trouble, but everyone blamed me, showing that they weren’t true friends and didn’t take any part of the blame. Then all of the parents from the kids in my friend group started talking about me, with me knowing because the kids in my friend group told me. The next year, it started to happen. I started to get suicidal thoughts, plans, etc. I started scratching myself and cutting myself with any sharp objects, and S and V were on board with it and supported my self harm. I was a very troubled child, and was exposed to a lot of adult things, which messed up my point of view of the world. Whenever the parent that was still living caught me cutting, they would yell at me and basically call me a disgrace. I started to feel less confident, and hated myself a lot. I developed ADHD and social anxiety, and I finally realized how toxic my friend group was. S, started hurting me, punching me, choking me, tackling me, calling me names like b*tch, little f*ck, etc. The other kids at school also started picking on me, calling me names, body shaming me, and my parent still didn’t understand. I still feel alone and isolated to this day, and I still did back then. I honestly hate middle school, and I hate people. That’s all I really have to say. 🤷♀️
I lost myself in my big mind. It’s like a bottle full of pain bottled up yet bursts so I have to get another one, it’s like I was made to pain, I was questioning life, when I was was freaking 9. My mother, is apart of the trauma, the trauma of twisting, breaking my arm, emotionally abusing me, manipulating me 24/7 , only to be told to someone else. Pain falls down into tears, I didn’t get to cry or weep for any of this, smile.. for your sister. I was more of a mother figure cause my mother, you know how she is. I was questioning life after all these years, 9 years old, got sexual harassed/assaulted. I bet she’s never gonna visit my grave , if I did. I bet she wouldn’t care. She didn’t know I had disorders: PTSD, depression, AFRID, etc. she didn’t sign me up for therapy, so I coped with my friends and internet, she yet again tells me to study. 24/7. I feel tired, maybe I could sleep forever?
I'm sixth grade currently. Diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety and depression since i was THRID GRADE. I was forced to mature since i was 8. I had many school struggles since i was 9, lost family members since then, and my mom thinks of me as a failure and a disappointment. I have no idea what I'll do when i grow up and my life is messed up. I wouldn't wish this to anyone, not even the persons i hate the most. In school, im seen as the "always happy and kind friend" but I'm tired of it.
To the random strangers that feel safer venting in the comments than to family and friends. You aren’t alone. I care about you. You’re loved. I’m here for you.
bro people be like your life could be so worse while i walk through the school halls and people scream when they see me or my friends in the hall bc they think we're weird and people throw rocks at us :)
I’m in 8th grade now, I have like four friends, I lost the others, some of them just decided I wasn’t worth their time anymore and decided to stop talking to me, some turned into my bullies, one sexually harassed me and caused me numerous amounts of pain, my other friends moved schools and now I’m left with four friends, one of the four friends I have left im stupidly in love with even though they told me that I probably had no chance with them and that they would never date me, most of my friends parents hate me, people at school talk about me and I have to watch the ass hole who harassed me loved by everyone as he rubs it in my face that he got away with causing me all that pain, my parents aren’t home very often and I don’t really get to talk to them about my problems cause my moms extremely difficult to talk to and my dad would tell my mom what I tell him, and whenever I talk to my parents I feel like a criminal being interrogated, everything is so hard and I don’t know how to deal with it
This is the perfect vent playlist
Listening to this at 11 years old..
I'm 10
Im 8
@berenicelopez7303 Listen I'm older than you and just know everything will be ok just try your best and just wait everything will work out the way it's supposed to 💜💜
girl go do your homework
@terran9705 (Respectfully) Be quiet. 🙂 (Please)
Vent
I am really hating my life rn. Im always invisible to people. Nobody ever noticed that im even there, nobody notices if im gone. Im just someone that fills an empty space. Nobody listens and nobody cares. They only care if I start ignoring and being quiet. "Are you okay?" They asked. But I always say the same thing. "Im fine." After all, they would only care if im hurting myself. They care for one day, the next when i act alright. Its back to square one. I dont exist in anyone's life. I barely even exist in mine. Im just a ghost. I dont get why i am always invisible to people. I treat them all so well but I barely get the same treatment. I am a people pleaser because i want to be noticed. I want to be known. I dont only want to be known as "the ghost girl" or "the one whos too nice" I require attention and love. Everyone does. But im too scared to ask for it. Because thats selfish. I never ask for anything. I dont even ask my own parents for the most basic things. I say yes too quickly. I agree to things im not so okay with. Im too stupid. Im the ildest daughter so i have to be a straight a student to be a good model for my siblings. But all ive been doing is barely passing my tests. I study. I work hard. I really try to. But my parents dint acknowledge it. Im tired. Exhausted even. But whos going to listen to my problems anyway. They all have their own.
I’m not ready to be an adult…I don’t want to be grown anymore I want to rewind and be a child,i want to be that careless carefree light hearted little girl that didn’t care about much…but that little girl is now a girl who has turned suicidal and heavily depressed and anxiety ridden…I don’t want to die but my inner child and I are slowly dying more and more in a dark place where no one can pull me from and it hurts…I want to feel careless and not hurt anymore by my medical condition because it’s always the one thing that drags me down with a heavy tug of metal chains…and I can’t claw my way out…Im running a damn marathon but I’m barely moving forward…I don’t know what to do anymore…
I'm feeling nice to see that someone else gets it, but I'm also feeling really sad that you feel like that too. It sucks. Yearning to go back to your childhood, when you were ok, growing up and realizing things got worse and not better like they said it would..
@@Dontaskquestionsnoanswer yeah…it’s nice knowing that this pain isn’t just an individual experience that no one else experiences…it suck so much that you know life will only get worse and you can’t stop thinking about how it’s going to get worse…it’s like a curse that you can’t get rid of…and that curse is called growth,reality,and realization…
It hurts that this was caused by people who were meant to love me.. I was just happy and wanted to be accepted. Now I barely smile.
I'm Thirteen, and due to huge family problems i never eber thought id make it through 7. The trauma i have been through puts me in a state where i can't walk or even talk. So when i was very little i tried to commit.
But anywho if you are reading this i just want you to know what ever you are going through, just know there are people out there who need you. I love you so much.
-Ruby
29.08.24.
Vent read it if you want or don't ig: I vented to my friend about my suicidal thoughts and sh and told her about it thinking she would understand since she would vent to me occasionally. The next day I get called into my school office and have to talk to "some people" (if ykyk) about not being safe in my house and having suicidal thoughts which is super ironic considering I just told her the night prior.... She didn't stop there she continued to tell my friends and people in her classes since we have different classes, so after that she told our friend and her parents and his parents so that got brought to my dad's attention which ofc I got in trouble for and got punished for but I guess that's what I get for trying to have someone understand right????
She has also told one of our online friends my entire address and sent them pictures of me. I have no idea what I did to deserve that but I guess that's the price you get for trying to vent to someone. I just can't understand why she would tell people I'm suicidal because that's personal information and she's spreading it throughout my grade......
I am so sorry. She is not a good person at all. She shouldn’t be telling anyone about that. If you ever need anyone to talk to, come back to this comment section. Me and many other people are always here to listen. I don’t know you, but you are very strong, and I’m proud of you
i hate myself again:D wish me luck to being clean!
Everything used to be so normal during the elementary years and i was genuinely happy, i cant say the same for highschool years. This sucks and i dont know how to fix it
I would never treat my family the way they treat me if I was them, so why do they think it's normal
Hey, everyone ! I'm hopping from playlist to playlist willing to lend an ear to anyone wanting to vent their feelings. I've been through a horrible depression and it hurt like shit, but you gotta remember IT DOES GET BETTER !! you just gotta search for the right people !! No matter what happens, don't let anyone or anything get you down. I care about everyone here, and I hope you all get through this 💪💪 YOU /DO/ MATTER !!!! If you fall down IT IS OKAY to rest, JUST DONT QUIT.
So I have an addiction and some people know what I'm talking about it involves your hands and it's disgusting to me I'M JUST A CHILD i'm just a child is what they all say. I'm just a kid and I got harrased by a sick digusting person! I can't help it i've been doing this my whole life...oops i forgot,IT'S NOT MY LIFE! IT'S MY PARENTS BEECAUSE I'M THIER PROPERTY putting me in a choke-hold at 5 years old is NOT "restraining me" manipulating me is not "helping me in the real world" letting your kid geting harrased by someone 2 YEARS older than her IS NOT HELPING! "your my kid you live in my hous who are you? YOU'RE MY DAUGHTER! I'M YOUR MOTHER STOP ASSULTING ME!" "DON'T SMILE AT ME YOUNG LADY!" why? are you afraid that i'm smileing while your abusing me? does it make you feel weaker in some sense? why are you upset i'm happy or smiling?
I’m so sorry. Your mother is horrible. I don’t know you, but you are very strong, and I’m proud of you
When you start questioning existence, is when you realize, that no matter what you do, you shouldn't care of others opinions. Even though you know what you want, somehow we still crave approval from others. No matter how often this fact is going to be presented, it will always stay like that. It feels like you are alone, annoying or just left in the dust, because nobody thinks that you are normal. And here is where it gets complicated. I feel in general that normalcy can't clearly be defined at all. Almost Everything is subjective to one's mind, and being able to understand that, is what I think makes me feel more unique. Maybe even luckier than them. I don't live a life chasing after every trend or trying to fit in the crowd. And that is okay. A life almost alone isn't as bad as you may think. It gives time to reflect and focus on things others could only dream of. So, try to make the best out of it. Don't let others talk you down, just because they don't like some aspect of your personality or something. If they don't like it, you don't need to feel obligated to keep contact with them and then after some time distancing or unfriending. Just if it becomes apparent that it isnt working out, forget it happened and move on to the next person and try again. Everyone is different and it will take some time. Stay safe, Take care, and have a nice time.
my friends are so fake :( . my “friends” always go out shopping, have sleepovers, and go di different events all without me. they’re also all mean to eachother and me. (for a little background knowledge i have some really fucked up teeth and i havent gotten braces yet.) this is about one of my so called friends lets call her k. so on friday she points at my face and says “ addy you know that tooth kind of looks like it was just tilted sideways” and laughed. that’s just one example and my only good friend ( lets call her v) is in kansas but i live in nebraskanow because i moved and now i never get to see her anymore. :/
dw its okay, i'll just suffer in silence, that usually works🙃
I'm 2 years cleann :3 !! Don't know if I can make this 3 years because I've been getting stressed out from EVERYRHING lately😶
Try and pull through even if it’s just one more day. Make that your goal. Try and go one more day every time you think about it. I’m proud of you for pushing through and living despite your stress!
being in 3rd form in high school is something i can manage while bottling up my emotions but its just so difficult with my mother....
however those whose reading this comment,dont try suicide or self-harm because at the end of the day your going have scars on your skin that you may regret doing in the first place,vaping or smoking isnt going to help which can lead to an addiction and cause health problems so if you feel burned out just stop,think for a bit and drink so water
(it helps)
"Your parents abused you for a reason!" They didnt abuse me when i was 5 or 6 so why now what did i do to get abused?..
"He had mental issues that's why he SA'd you" and i had mental issues to so why did i get punished for fighting back?
"Why cant you be normal and eat like a normal person its not that hard to eat and when to not eat" why did you starve me for days to get me into the habit of not eating?
"Why do you have so many disorders?! Your just so weird" most of them I'm born with the rest I was given by you people..
I am so sorry. You should not have got punished back. It’s not your fault for getting in trouble. I am sorry you got starved. You are beautiful, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. I am so sorry people are making you feel bad about yourself. I don’t know you, but you are very brave, and I’m proud of you
"Why are you depressed, there is so much to be happy about!"
"Why have asthma, theres SO MUCH AIR!"
As an asthmatic person, I agree 😔
@@JustAnotherDistraction yeah, like if your asking why u have depression, thats like telling an asthmatic person there is so much air, and its like, bruh, not everyone has everything
"shame shame shame on you" hits, btw new sub you deserve it!
There have been many hard times in my life but im honestly at my worst right now, i was just reading comments and wasnt even planning to listen to the music but now the music is on repeat and i want to vent. Ive never vented to anyone, but im sure that on this platform not many ppl will judge me for saying this, im 12 years old and even though it seems like im pretty young, im not. I am not a kid. I try my best to be like the adults around me.i do not act anything like a child. I think i have a disorder but i dont have any proof, i have asthma, i have adhd which is not diagnosed but i know this by experience, im bipolar because i have really big mood swings and i only live with my mom so not many people see me and my mom isnt really sure if i have anything else other than asthma, im not sure either, im in 7 th grade but i havent started studying because we have to move to UK after a few months and honestly it was a very risky and a very bad move to move to move me out of school because the first term of my school has already ended and exams have started but im still in my countey and havent left, im watching kids around me living a happy life and going to school while im stuck in my home, listening to the playlist im a giving a reference that " now i REALLY DO KNOW whats real and whats fake" and "are you tired of me yet?" Because I AM tired of myself. I am sick, im depressed, I DONT KNOW. I just figured that my "bestfriend" hates me, my mom told me to not care about it and although I'm trying, it definitely hurt when i found out about it, she tells me she loves me and shes completely lying, i dont know who t believe anymore, the only person i believe in is me,myself, i and my mom. My mom is really supportive but she just doesnt get me properly, i mean she probably does but im just really out of my mind, whenever im talking, the words just come out of my tongue and when my mom replys to me its in a angry manner because after a while i realize that what i said was a rude comment. I dont even rememeber saying it but i dint want to tell my mom this. I need help. Seriously, in my religion its a pretty bad thing to havs suicidal thoughts but i cant help it. I wont dissapoint my family and wont do anything like that at all but im still just a half dead living body...
If the people around you truly care, they won’t be disappointed in you, so find your people and it’ll help you find yourself! And stay strong, I know what pain feels like, and when you feel like all the pressure is on you. I’m 13 and I’m not that smart. But I hope my words mean something to you.
@JustAnotherDistraction thank you and i appreciate you for telling me this :)
0:01 I THOUGHT MY HEADPHONES BROKE-
Hehe :]
i don't think i'll ever be healthy, i don't think i ever was. but it doesn't really matter anymore, it probably never will
614th subscriber!!also to people that.need it,you mean everything to som people,including me even tho it doesn't seem like it,its true and you'll meet them someday,you just met pne
Sorry some I meant
And one at the end
I'm actually so scared, I was starting to get better and now I feel like just how I did in grade.8, which is bad. I don't think a 15 year old should feel like this. I know I'm not mentally ill, but everyone makes me feel like it. By saying it's not normal to be crying every day, being bi, being trans, and it isn't normal to shut down and shut everyone out, and I get told to ask for help. but when I start to talk about my issues I feel like it's pointless, cause I bring it up to people I don't think it's just hormones, that's making me cry 24/7 or it's not my period. and everyone's like "well if you weren't in your room". They don't get it, my room feels so much better to be in though away from everyone and I get asked a lot "why can't you be feminine more often, I don't get why you don't like it." I've tried being normal for my family, but it isn't me, I don't like being a girl, I don't like my chest, hair, waist, etc. I don't even feel like myself half the time in general. I don't even feel like a human half the time. I've tried being normal, dressing up girly, letting my sisters do my hair and makeup and nails. I've also tried getting back into my hobbies but it seems like everytime I get better I go back to my 8th grade self, but even worst. I barely eat now, my sleep is messed up, I barely take care of myself. and I'm scared.
I’m so sorry. You are not mentally ill. You are amazing. I know I don’t know you but you are very strong for being here, and I’m proud of you
@@SophieElizabethFoster same to you, the being proud and amazing part.
@ you are so welcome! What I said was totally true. You are amazing, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise
I’m not the mentally ill child apparently. They all see me happy so how would I be the mentally ill child 🙃 I’m totally telling the truth. :P I’m used to this I have been going through something since I was like 7 😃
Go through it for more years please
@@SigmaFaxOFFICAL PAHSHAH 😭
I'm sorry for everything I've done. I'm so sorry for existing.
you have nothing to be sorry for and im sure your an amazing person and if you wanna talk i can give you my pinterest (only thing im allowed to friend ppl idk bcuz my parents dunno i have it and they monitor who i talk to on other stuff) but js remember that your loved
You don’t need to be sorry ml
Im not ready for 5th i wanna be back in prek where my dad was here and alive
I am so sorry. I don’t know you, but you are very strong, and I am proud of you