you might like A LOT pretty much every songs from the album songs by Adrianne Lenker (Big thief's singer). i recommend especially zombie girl, come and not a lot, just forever (And if you can, i recommend to listen to the whole album)
I love how this song chooses to say “we’re nothing with the pills” instead of the opposite, because this suggests our narrator is acutely aware of her possibilities and potential when sober, but is compelled to continue using because of the little highs that come when she uses. This is a microcosm of her relationship to a partner who she feels she is bound to despite their abusive relationship. “I’m the fish and she’s my gills” implies a relationship that is infinitely co dependent, which is horrible considering the following revelation of emotional abuse and manipulation. I really like this song btw
the perfect poetic and verbal form of emotionally abusive / toxic relationships. Applying this song to my life just makes me realise and hold an understanding of all the fucked up shit I've felt / witnessed. I adore it.
I think it is also more than this. It describes the everything that happens in any kind of relationship, humans are chaos, disorder finding life in the search of meaning and multiple meanings themselves.
this song makes me feel so empty and hollow but full and filled at the same time. it sounds like pure pain and emotion, because the voice is coming from the gut.
WHATTTTTT, no way bro, the new one is so much rawer, the vocals being so isolated feels like a panic attack, this version is cool but it sounds like a demo
i saw this live and screamed and cried. this was probably the last time me and my ex girlfriend were happy together in a way. i love this song with my whole heart and it holds so much for me
one of the things i love so much about this song is that it can be taken to so many perspectives. there can be people that take it as relationships, parental issues, expectations, etc
[Verse 1] Watching TV tired, bleeding on the bed The milk has just expired, all the leaves are dead I'm not quiet, you've been quiet, just receiving what you said Reeling feeding feeling filled by everything you fed I see you as you see yourself through all the books you read Overwhelmed with guilt and realising the disease [Chorus] You give me chills I've had it with the drills I am nothing, you are nothing, we are nothing with the pills I am empty 'til she fills Alive until she kills In her vampire empire, I'm the fish and she's my gills [Post-Chorus] Falling, yeah Falling, yeah [Verse 2] I see you there rejecting all your earthly power Protecting and dissecting 'til you've emptied every hour We jumped into the pond and then come under the shower We lay upon my pillow and you open like a flower I wanted to see you naked, I wanted to hear you scream I wanted to kiss your skin and your everything I wanted to be your woman, I wanted to be your man I wanted to be the one that you could understand [Chorus] You give me chills I've had it with the drills I am nothing, you are nothing, we are nothing with the pills I am empty 'til she fills Alive until she kills I’m her vampire empire, I'm the fish and she's my gills [Post-Chorus] Falling, yeah Falling, yeah [Instrumental Break] [Verse 3] I walked into your dagger for the last time in a row It's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow Well, you can't seem to hold me here, you can't seem to let me go So I can't find surrender, can't keep control You turn me inside out and then you want me outside in You spin me all around and then you ask me not to spin You say you want to be alone and then you want children You wanna be with me, you wanna be with him [Chorus] You give me chills I've had it with the drills I am nothing, you are nothing, we are nothing with the pills I am empty 'til she fills Alive until she kills In her vampire empire, I'm the fish and she's my gills [Post-Chorus] Falling, yeah Falling, yeah Falling, yeah Falling, yeah [scream]
I honestly like the official release but removing the flute, 'for the last time in a row' AND the fish/gills line is criminal. It's her art, she can do what she pleases with it. But no one is a lesser fan for disliking ONE song.
THE LAST PART IS SO TRUEEE!! And also we’d probably have all loved it if she didn’t sing the demo first Wait edit THR FORST PART IS TRUE TOO I JUST DIDNT WANT TO COMMENT ON IT
Last part is so true, I'm sick of ppl pretending u have to love every choice a artist does with their music or personal life or ur not a "true fan" look at the ari stans defending cheating just so they can be considered real fans, is it ever that deep 😭😭
I met a girl and her name was sam. She was the most perfect thing I’ve ever met. She understood my humor, my train of thought, my love for poetry, everything. She was perfect and I loved her and she loved me. We broke up almost 2 years ago and I still love her. I dont know if I’ll ever get over her but I know I’ll always love her because I’ve never loved anyone like that before.
I too had a sam. although different nane, I completely feel the same way. and I know I don't ever cross her mind yet she lives rent free in mine and I'm ok with that unfortunately
A bit literal, but I'm picturing a vampire depending on their old, emaciated lover for blood but trying to keep them alive because of how much their mortal lover means to them. And then their lover, nearly a corpse at this point, opening the window and jumping out of the window so they don't have to play this game anymore. Dependent and miserable for both people involved. The vampire joins them last second, burning up in the light of the sun as they plummet.
I love how music like this makes me feel. It's probably not healthy but I just chase this soul crushing feeling I get from things like this. I'm obsessed
I know it ….. the first time I heard it I became manic and then so sad and then empty and then manic again. how it sounds is so horrifying and sad and beautiful and i never thought I would be so GAY for a song god this makes me feel so. weird.
Just a quick reminder, if you’ve been listening to this song, thinking about the same person for more than 2 months, it’s over. Let them go, and I’m sorry for what they’ve done to you
"I see you as you see yourself through all the books you read Overwhelmed with guilt and realising the disease" I read all the time and this shit hits hard holy fuck.
wlw situationships gonna be the death of me. because even with no words i will always be reminded that i can never give what a man gives, and i can always be replaced by one.
Honestly both versions of the song are amazing, but the one line leads to two different stories, this version were she dosent escape and sings very dully as she accepts her complacency while in the official release she is much more angry and emotional as she realizes how awful this relationship is and finally walked into her dagger for the last time and escaped
2:17 This is literally how I've felt these past 2 weeks. My mom has made a friend at work, and that's fine, but it's gotten to the point where she doesn't come home until 2 in the morning. The summer is literally the only time i get to spend with her because she likes my little sister more than me. I'm so tired of being the second choice.
Went to an art-pop bar last month and they had singing as the "art of the day" and a lady sang this and I'm obsessed, she did such a good job!! Sounded just like the song. Wish I could tell her that in person, low-key hopping shell see this so I can tell her 😅
The demo feels more sad,like just getting out of a bad situation.The released version is more angry,like getting mad at what happened in the bad situation.Either way both versions are good but Express different emotions:)
I swear no one is obsessed with this track like i am I listen to it every night I learned the cords despite not touching a instrument in years im currently animating to this song its in my every waking thought I randomly say the chorus mid sentence ugh i just love it so much
Disappointed that they didn't include the solo in the final version, but I actually like "in her vampire empire I am" more than "in her vampire empire I'm the fish and she's my gills," it just makes more sense.
i don’t mind that but i think it’s an amazing line and miss it 😭, but for me the when i walked into her dagger part is what has me still listening to this one
I used to listen to this at a very quiet, lonely and cold time of life. Figuratively and literally. I used to listen to this on repeat in Jan after a horrible experience with family. I met my now ex and she was the kindest and sweetest young woman I knew at the time. My grandfather passed around this time after I had left home for a homeless shelter. I wish I were able to cry and go back to the people of my past but they've all left me (which I don't blame them for) I am now back in bad habits. I drink frequently and get high. Hell I'm almost alone again as I am not able to vent to any of my friends or family and am actively using a yt comment.
Hey I promise life gets better. I just went through some tough times and almost ended it. It gets better and I hope that a light enters your life soon. I’m rooting for you. I know it’s not easy but stick with it. ❤
I had the most devastating breakup, my heart felt torn and spilled - it felt like this song. I am waiting for the future now; but its a different one from what I had once imagined.
Hearing this after a breakdown because your own mom is insecure about her self so she yells at you for her assuming something completely different from what was actually going on trying to get it through her head but she won’t listen instead she yells at you more making you cry and fuss then your voice starts cracking so you run up to your room then a few hours later you come back for your room and she acts like nothing just happened but you almost decided to end your life but she doesn’t know all the harm she’s done to you is just so great to hear this song💃🪩🕺
ik most of us listen to this with some sort of relationship in mind whether it’s romantic or platonic and familial for me i listen to it and i have myself in mind, both the singer and the one with the dagger. after years i was put into multiple institutions for anorexia and was quickly discovered to have borderline personality disorder as well. it’s obvious, ive sort of known my whole life. a culmination of where i come from and who i’ve been. i’m a victim only to myself. and every line hits with my relationship with myself and my mental illnesses and my every addiction. i could rant about each and every lyric but that’s for my notes app. i j wanted to put the broad strokes somewhere.
2:01 am apr 10 listened to this for the first time i’ve never heard of this band but i like how like strange this is i like it though gotta check ‘em out one of these days -2:01
okay I just learned about this drama with the official not being as good, and I listened to the original first, thinking people are overreacting, but this is quite literally better in every possible way.
I walked into your dagger for the last time in a row.. It's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow.. where you can't hold cant seem to let me go.. where i cant seem to surender cant keep control.. You turn me inside out and want me outside in? You spin me all around and ask me not to spin? You say you want to be alone and you want children?! You want to be with me and with him!? oHAIAKAMAAM I CANT WITH THIS OMG
The first relationship after romanticizing them for so long, and having to realize that it’s not healthy what you two do. Building up an idealized version of them and the relationship itself, trying to justify it all, and finally breaking it off and just ending up more alone.
this really, really reminds me of the person that broke me. the only semblance of affection i ever got from her was through texts. then we met in person a year after our first meeting. she did such a terrible thing that even in my daze of submission and affection i got scared and broke up with her. i fell into her traps constantly. she lied and lied only to get what she wanted from me, my mind and my body.. and i loved her. i really did. even though i know how horrible her actions were, sometimes i want to go back to the days when i lived for her attention. it was much easier and arguably less painful than realizing what she did to me. "I am empty 'till she fills/Alive until she kills"
i love all three versions because they all give different feelings to what it feels like. ah yes. words. anyways, i wish more people would give the other versions a chance. i love this version as the raw demo
God I love when songs have that surprising high pitched breathy note it’s so comforting and raw
Psst, you might like big thief's other song 'change' it's really calming and has the breathy notes your talking about
Right
you might like A LOT pretty much every songs from the album songs by Adrianne Lenker (Big thief's singer).
i recommend especially zombie girl, come and not a lot, just forever (And if you can, i recommend to listen to the whole album)
I agree with this comment yes yes…. Yes yes 🤓☝🏽
You should check out cats millionaire and black squares
"You spin me all around and then you ask me not to spin" is when they turn you into someone you hate and hate who they turned you into
My father be like...
@@vaniiarojas4812 real
I feel like this from one of my ex's but I'm healing ❤
oh to be a rotting corpse in an abandoned cabin in the middle of the woods with this song somehow playing over and over from a faulty old radio
yes
The walking dead vibes
what.
What the…
This is so Ethel Cain vibes.
"I see you as you see yourself through all the books you read" UGHHHHH SO GOOD
I love how this song chooses to say “we’re nothing with the pills” instead of the opposite, because this suggests our narrator is acutely aware of her possibilities and potential when sober, but is compelled to continue using because of the little highs that come when she uses. This is a microcosm of her relationship to a partner who she feels she is bound to despite their abusive relationship. “I’m the fish and she’s my gills” implies a relationship that is infinitely co dependent, which is horrible considering the following revelation of emotional abuse and manipulation. I really like this song btw
Analysis ate
i really like you btw
this is all so spot on what the hell, congrats man.
probably the best youtube comment I've seen ever
Love this analysis ❤
the perfect poetic and verbal form of emotionally abusive / toxic relationships. Applying this song to my life just makes me realise and hold an understanding of all the fucked up shit I've felt / witnessed. I adore it.
I think it is also more than this. It describes the everything that happens in any kind of relationship, humans are chaos, disorder finding life in the search of meaning and multiple meanings themselves.
What's this song about??
????m😂😂😂😂😂
this song makes me feel so empty and hollow but full and filled at the same time. it sounds like pure pain and emotion, because the voice is coming from the gut.
this version will always be better than the spotify version idc. its sm more raw and emotional, i'll love this version forever
Me too
they actually took almost all the emotion and it ruined it for me
WHATTTTTT, no way bro, the new one is so much rawer, the vocals being so isolated feels like a panic attack, this version is cool but it sounds like a demo
@@CaddyProd i dont like the lyric changes in the official one to be honest
@@CaddyProd it sounds like a demo because it is one . and its still fucking better then the spotify ver.
I wanted to be your women. I wanted to be your man. I wanted to be the one that you could understand.
real
fire ass line man
Forever listening to this version amen
Lmaoo
Amen🙌🙌🙌🙌
Fr
Unrelated, love to see a fellow Sam gladiator fan in the year 2023
the released version is just as good💀
me imagining the most gutwrenching, bloodcurdling, heartbreaking animatics with my ocs that fits this song perfectly
REAL
Tell me, pls
this is so real
I apologize for the person i become once this drops on Spotify
19th July!!
@xei4547 it’s on Spotify as a podcast
TOMORROW
@@emmamonarrez9518WHEWWWW🥳
It's there now but it sounds so much worse...
This song is all I can listen to. It's been on loop for days 😭
I LOVE YOUR USERNAME AND PFP 🤩
@@websmads THANK YOU
same
CORALLL
CORAL!?!
i saw this live and screamed and cried. this was probably the last time me and my ex girlfriend were happy together in a way. i love this song with my whole heart and it holds so much for me
this song has me rocking back and fourth in a fetal position
Same
one of the things i love so much about this song is that it can be taken to so many perspectives. there can be people that take it as relationships, parental issues, expectations, etc
[Verse 1]
Watching TV tired, bleeding on the bed
The milk has just expired, all the leaves are dead
I'm not quiet, you've been quiet, just receiving what you said
Reeling feeding feeling filled by everything you fed
I see you as you see yourself through all the books you read
Overwhelmed with guilt and realising the disease
[Chorus]
You give me chills
I've had it with the drills
I am nothing, you are nothing, we are nothing with the pills
I am empty 'til she fills
Alive until she kills
In her vampire empire, I'm the fish and she's my gills
[Post-Chorus]
Falling, yeah
Falling, yeah
[Verse 2]
I see you there rejecting all your earthly power
Protecting and dissecting 'til you've emptied every hour
We jumped into the pond and then come under the shower
We lay upon my pillow and you open like a flower
I wanted to see you naked, I wanted to hear you scream
I wanted to kiss your skin and your everything
I wanted to be your woman, I wanted to be your man
I wanted to be the one that you could understand
[Chorus]
You give me chills
I've had it with the drills
I am nothing, you are nothing, we are nothing with the pills
I am empty 'til she fills
Alive until she kills
I’m her vampire empire, I'm the fish and she's my gills
[Post-Chorus]
Falling, yeah
Falling, yeah
[Instrumental Break]
[Verse 3]
I walked into your dagger for the last time in a row
It's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow
Well, you can't seem to hold me here, you can't seem to let me go
So I can't find surrender, can't keep control
You turn me inside out and then you want me outside in
You spin me all around and then you ask me not to spin
You say you want to be alone and then you want children
You wanna be with me, you wanna be with him
[Chorus]
You give me chills
I've had it with the drills
I am nothing, you are nothing, we are nothing with the pills
I am empty 'til she fills
Alive until she kills
In her vampire empire, I'm the fish and she's my gills
[Post-Chorus]
Falling, yeah
Falling, yeah
Falling, yeah
Falling, yeah [scream]
I’ve watched this 17 times in the last 3 days, this song makes me wanna rip my bones out in a good way
that’s the name of my playlist!!!
@@edsterpretzel EYY THATS AWESOME!
SAME 😭
6.33-4 times a day is real
I honestly like the official release but removing the flute, 'for the last time in a row' AND the fish/gills line is criminal.
It's her art, she can do what she pleases with it. But no one is a lesser fan for disliking ONE song.
THE LAST PART IS SO TRUEEE!! And also we’d probably have all loved it if she didn’t sing the demo first
Wait edit THR FORST PART IS TRUE TOO I JUST DIDNT WANT TO COMMENT ON IT
Last part is so true, I'm sick of ppl pretending u have to love every choice a artist does with their music or personal life or ur not a "true fan" look at the ari stans defending cheating just so they can be considered real fans, is it ever that deep 😭😭
YEAH THE FLUTE BRO
All you gotta say is dude the flute player oooh-d'd I'm a ticket buying fan
the "last time in a row" being removed makes me CRAZYYY. without it the dagger lyric feels so out of place and awkward
this song makes me feel like being lost is where i'm supposed to be and it's been such a comfort lately
I feel bad for liking this version so much more then the released version but I literally can’t stand the new one
it fucking sucks , dont feel bad . it sounds like shit . big thief is no longer my favorite band tbh
Don’t feel bad I can’t stand the official release either😭
the note change
I like how angry she sounds in the new one, but this one just flows a lot better with the lyrics and the flute
I am so sad the official release is so different than this
mfw i see y’all guys coming back after the official release
Demo ver better:(((
i js wanna say i love ur pfp
💀
The demo is js better…
Demo is so much better
2:18 this moment will change you your welcome (luv this song so much)
TYSMMMMMM
I met a girl and her name was sam. She was the most perfect thing I’ve ever met. She understood my humor, my train of thought, my love for poetry, everything. She was perfect and I loved her and she loved me. We broke up almost 2 years ago and I still love her. I dont know if I’ll ever get over her but I know I’ll always love her because I’ve never loved anyone like that before.
I too had a sam. although different nane, I completely feel the same way. and I know I don't ever cross her mind yet she lives rent free in mine and I'm ok with that unfortunately
@@AZ-ql6nz same
A bit literal, but I'm picturing a vampire depending on their old, emaciated lover for blood but trying to keep them alive because of how much their mortal lover means to them. And then their lover, nearly a corpse at this point, opening the window and jumping out of the window so they don't have to play this game anymore. Dependent and miserable for both people involved. The vampire joins them last second, burning up in the light of the sun as they plummet.
this song is the music embodiment of my mommy issues and I’ve been sitting here sobbing to this song for the last three hours.
SAME!!! i can only think of my mom with this song 😄
Same thing here but with my dad :')
This version is sm better. They removed the flute, some of the lyrics and ruined my favorite part in the released one😭
I love how music like this makes me feel. It's probably not healthy but I just chase this soul crushing feeling I get from things like this. I'm obsessed
I know it ….. the first time I heard it I became manic and then so sad and then empty and then manic again. how it sounds is so horrifying and sad and beautiful and i never thought I would be so GAY for a song god this makes me feel so. weird.
i dont find this particularly soul crushing compared to like screamo
"im nothing you are nothing we are nothing with the pills" hits so hard
1:34
if someone puts a gun to my head and tells me to sing this entire song without messing up, I'll tell my family I'll be home in five
ive cries to this on loop for 20 minutes
I've listed this over and over on repeat. It gets better every single time.
I'm so inlove with this song😭
Just read 'A spring without you is coming' and I needed this song so bad.
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO REMIND ME ABOUT THE DEPRESSION I FELT WHEN I READ IT
"What do you mean, Dazai? Its always snowing."
ALSO BSD FAN
@@lotusaku. You're so real for that😔
“I wanted to be your woman I wanted to be your man I wanted to be the one that you could understand” hit hard like bricks
Just a quick reminder, if you’ve been listening to this song, thinking about the same person for more than 2 months, it’s over. Let them go, and I’m sorry for what they’ve done to you
Thank you.
……..
Ha……..
Yeah…thanks..
Yeah it hard when there your parents
Ow
its been a year and a half
2:18 reminds me a lot of my relationship with my mother.
i love this song sm i cant wait until it's released
"I see you as you see yourself through all the books you read
Overwhelmed with guilt and realising the disease" I read all the time and this shit hits hard holy fuck.
Sometimes I listen to this while driving my dirt bike debating if I should drive into ongoing traffic and just take a quick swerve
i like the vers on Spotify, BUT THE FLUTE IS JUST WAY TO GOOD BRO 😭
I will always love this version more
SAMEEEE
SAME
SAME
SAME
if this song ever releases on spotify im gonna be so helpless
is there any news it will? been waiting MONTHS for this song ugh!
@@vampbytes_2117 they have hinted it will be released with an album they are creating! No date yet but it should be this year!
july 19th !!
@@sleepyzzz2096 OMG REALLY
About that…
wlw situationships gonna be the death of me. because even with no words i will always be reminded that i can never give what a man gives, and i can always be replaced by one.
the part at 2:19 makes me genuinely nauseous. its so gut wrenchingly sad. its just so sad it makes me genuinely sick to my stomach to hear it
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@@FishVirus peashooter blunt 😎
"Do you think we're friends in every universe?" "60 seconds Percy" 😭
"Do you think we're friends in every universe?"
"You're a size of the universe."
(I THINK)
DTOP IT 😭
Honestly both versions of the song are amazing, but the one line leads to two different stories, this version were she dosent escape and sings very dully as she accepts her complacency while in the official release she is much more angry and emotional as she realizes how awful this relationship is and finally walked into her dagger for the last time and escaped
this is my fucking favorite song after trying to further and failing a situationship
me too
2:17 This is literally how I've felt these past 2 weeks. My mom has made a friend at work, and that's fine, but it's gotten to the point where she doesn't come home until 2 in the morning. The summer is literally the only time i get to spend with her because she likes my little sister more than me. I'm so tired of being the second choice.
"Its like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow"
this song makes me feel so nauseous and upset but I love it sm
Forever gonna listen to this version.
Went to an art-pop bar last month and they had singing as the "art of the day" and a lady sang this and I'm obsessed, she did such a good job!! Sounded just like the song. Wish I could tell her that in person, low-key hopping shell see this so I can tell her 😅
I can’t stop listening to this on repeat
This sounds like one of those songs you would randomly find in Spotify back in 2014 if you happened to like indie/folk music
The backdrop in this video truly adds to the listening experience
The demo feels more sad,like just getting out of a bad situation.The released version is more angry,like getting mad at what happened in the bad situation.Either way both versions are good but Express different emotions:)
This speaks to me on a different level.
I swear no one is obsessed with this track like i am I listen to it every night I learned the cords despite not touching a instrument in years im currently animating to this song its in my every waking thought I randomly say the chorus mid sentence ugh i just love it so much
being a child with bipolar parents that can go to being your best friend to telling you that they wish you were dead
Is anyone going to talk about the art? It’s amazing!! 🎧🗣️
This song makes me feel something, not to sound corny but I haven’t felt something so genuine in months.
Disappointed that they didn't include the solo in the final version, but I actually like "in her vampire empire I am" more than "in her vampire empire I'm the fish and she's my gills," it just makes more sense.
i don’t mind that but i think it’s an amazing line and miss it 😭, but for me the when i walked into her dagger part is what has me still listening to this one
playing this on repeat for ever
YASSS
2:33 is what it feels like to have a mother that chose a man over her child
literally my roman empire.
Me when I walk into her dagger for the last time in a row
this song is so comforting. The vocals are just so perfect
the chokehold this song has on me is insane.
I used to listen to this at a very quiet, lonely and cold time of life. Figuratively and literally. I used to listen to this on repeat in Jan after a horrible experience with family. I met my now ex and she was the kindest and sweetest young woman I knew at the time. My grandfather passed around this time after I had left home for a homeless shelter. I wish I were able to cry and go back to the people of my past but they've all left me (which I don't blame them for)
I am now back in bad habits. I drink frequently and get high.
Hell I'm almost alone again as I am not able to vent to any of my friends or family and am actively using a yt comment.
i hope your good man
Hey I promise life gets better. I just went through some tough times and almost ended it. It gets better and I hope that a light enters your life soon. I’m rooting for you. I know it’s not easy but stick with it. ❤
this song is literally perfect.
I had the most devastating breakup, my heart felt torn and spilled - it felt like this song. I am waiting for the future now; but its a different one from what I had once imagined.
I’ll never get over this song
idk why i keep coming back here to stare at the illustration while bawling my eyes out lol i need help
sorry but this version is better than the spotify version
This but I’m not sorry
i am a straight white cis man but this song makes me feel like a lesbian woman in a crackhouse covered in blood
ur so valid
This is my first time listening to this song, it's so beautiful
"I wanted to be your woman, I wanted to be your man
I wanted to be the one that you could understand"
Hearing this after a breakdown because your own mom is insecure about her self so she yells at you for her assuming something completely different from what was actually going on trying to get it through her head but she won’t listen instead she yells at you more making you cry and fuss then your voice starts cracking so you run up to your room then a few hours later you come back for your room and she acts like nothing just happened but you almost decided to end your life but she doesn’t know all the harm she’s done to you is just so great to hear this song💃🪩🕺
this song never fails to make me sob bro
ik most of us listen to this with some sort of relationship in mind whether it’s romantic or platonic and familial
for me i listen to it and i have myself in mind, both the singer and the one with the dagger. after years i was put into multiple institutions for anorexia and was quickly discovered to have borderline personality disorder as well. it’s obvious, ive sort of known my whole life. a culmination of where i come from and who i’ve been. i’m a victim only to myself. and every line hits with my relationship with myself and my mental illnesses and my every addiction. i could rant about each and every lyric but that’s for my notes app. i j wanted to put the broad strokes somewhere.
This took me forever to find-
Thanks Gnarpy to introducing me to this song
I've somehow convinced myself i need to listen to this song everyday to he happy
saw this live this week and i will never recover
Jealous
this song is such a gem omg
Are you kidding me, where has this band been all my life…xxx
I really love the released version too and don’t understand all the hate towards it, but this version will forever be my favorite
this song is low key keeping me going rn
2:01 am apr 10 listened to this for the first time i’ve never heard of this band but i like how like strange this is i like it though gotta check ‘em out one of these days -2:01
Fuck yeah! We crying and staring at the ceiling while we think about what or who fucked up the trajectory of our lives permanently with this one
okay I just learned about this drama with the official not being as good, and I listened to the original first, thinking people are overreacting, but this is quite literally better in every possible way.
This song sounds like “messy” as concept. It sounds like how my life feels, and it makes me nauseous.
I want to run away while listening to this song on repeat
shakes and cries and throws up (i love this song so much)
I walked into your dagger for the last time in a row..
It's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow..
where you can't hold cant seem to let me go..
where i cant seem to surender cant keep control..
You turn me inside out and want me outside in?
You spin me all around and ask me not to spin?
You say you want to be alone and you want children?!
You want to be with me and with him!?
oHAIAKAMAAM I CANT WITH THIS OMG
The first relationship after romanticizing them for so long, and having to realize that it’s not healthy what you two do. Building up an idealized version of them and the relationship itself, trying to justify it all, and finally breaking it off and just ending up more alone.
I see you as you see yourself thru all the books you have ever read
this really, really reminds me of the person that broke me. the only semblance of affection i ever got from her was through texts. then we met in person a year after our first meeting. she did such a terrible thing that even in my daze of submission and affection i got scared and broke up with her.
i fell into her traps constantly. she lied and lied only to get what she wanted from me, my mind and my body.. and i loved her. i really did.
even though i know how horrible her actions were, sometimes i want to go back to the days when i lived for her attention. it was much easier and arguably less painful than realizing what she did to me.
"I am empty 'till she fills/Alive until she kills"
my based local radio station plays this version - shoutout WFUV
It really was the last time in row‼️ I AM NEVER FORGIVING NOR FORGETTING‼️‼️‼️🗣️🗣️🗣️
i love all three versions because they all give different feelings to what it feels like. ah yes. words. anyways, i wish more people would give the other versions a chance. i love this version as the raw demo