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Wow! This was so good. I’m going through psychosis currently. I was honestly scared to keep listening but Im glad I did. When you got to the greyzone part that hits very hard because that has been my 40 years. I have bipolar with the psychosis so I don’t last very long in psychosis but it is intense because I’m in the grey zone of the spiritual battle. My mother recently went to heaven and I finally understand where my dad came from. He has been lying to me my entire life and trying to squeeze miracles out of me by pushing me into places he’s terrified of. I knew the first time I went to the hospital like 20 years ago that my dad understood what psychosis is like. But he comes at it from such a different angle that we become polar opposite in that realm. There was no possible way to break through to him. Every thing fell on deaf ears and I had lost all hope in any kind of salvation. I feel like I won’t let him fool me again because I finally learned his tricks (and my siblings see it now too). But I’m afraid I’ll forget and he will send me back to that special place again. The grey zone really sucks. But there are parts of it that I simply cannot ignore. Before I went through all my Hokies poker I had a dream. It only lasted for a split second but in it I felt the most overwhelming peace, love, joy that I have ever felt. I was standing in a picture of a field and I was looking at Portland Oregon. But it was the most gorgeous city I have ever seen. The field was flat and the sky was the ocean of blue grey. It was completely silent yet at the same time it was the loudest thing I have ever heard. I felt faith hope and joy knowing that I could move around with this peace and love. When I woke up I said “God is so real!!!” The dream was the most real thing I had ever felt. I was currently living in Portland at that time. After the dream I moved around a lot and went to the mental ward. To this day I’m still recovering from that dream. I haven’t that peace since then but I know with all my soul that the real deal is worth dying for. And the good news is that I don’t have to do what Jesus did. There is only one God and he is all things pure.

I learned a lot from this. Thank you so much <3

You look great.❤

Would you share the book title you thought was possessed? I believe in the pathology of all dis-eases and there being a root and stem. Thanks for sharing parts of your journey. 🎉

Bless your heart and thank you for sharing. Any advice for family going through this with loved ones?

Hey Carolynn, I have been diagnosed Severe OCD and have had several trips to Mental Health. I also have Psychotic episodes which went undiagnosed for decades. I saw your show and bingo! My cRaZy thoughts and belief's about the whole world following me and knowing what I'm doing and saying at all time, it is Psychosis, without a doubt. I have an appt with my Doc on the 7th. Thank You! 😄😄😄😄😄😄

Is there… And I don’t know if it’s fair to ask this question, but is there a way to help slow or stop the process besides just getting them to a hospital and supporting them financially/emotionally? I was depressed, and I know the signs of suicidal people, and how to support them. But is psychosis in any way similar? In the sense that there IS a real and actionable way to support someone through it?

Fascinating, but it's called Suspension Of Disbelief ❤❤❤

You are an inspiration. Thank you

You are beautiful

As always, thank you. Your hair and makeup also look awesome! 💜🌈

Wow... great way to explain it!

The Downward Spiral! 😞😞😞

You're the best Carolynn 🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈

Scary!😢❤

i am able to read after many years of struggle. first it was concentration but i mastered that on a moderately high level. then it was comprehension. i am proof if you truly want to read and have schizophrenia or related diseases you can. but i no longer use that as advice to problems. i would tell a person to try something creative like drawing or writing and of course a musical instrument. and there are many other things that are creative. i consider myself a smart person and i know I've experienced burnout. i can't work because of it and it really is true. i heard regular exercise can alter one's DNA for the better. i love to take walks most every day. it's going to be rainy here tomorrow and i need to walk to the store for food. i hear Seattle has a lot of rain. but i did hear it's usually drizzle but i don't know if that's true?

So amazed by your journey.

My god, nobody cares about your lies. And don't spread misinformation, delusions cant be counter or overcome by definition- the only delusional thing is your need for attention and underhanded means to get it.

It took.me a long time and work I initially had to.learn how to.memorise facts slowly and steady

Respect for battling through, great video

What people forget is a single gene can be expressed 200,000 different ways. It's about epigenetics, not the genes. Epi = above. Epigenetics = above the genes.

This is just autisme. Wich i have.🥺🥺😥😥

Too bad you didn't have those intrusive thoughts just before you decided to dye your hair that color! Would have been rather helpful or maybe when you're about to get all those piercings. But hey you only got one life you live it how you like

I have a doctor I trust now though ^-^ so much <3333

You were right about medicine but I was too sick to agree. I also didn’t trust any of the doctors

You are a huge inspiration to me. I’m finally taking meds. Idk if I’d write a book, would be painful but I’m definitely gonna start reading again. Never doing drugs or alcohol again. Cutting back on caffeine. On meds for hallucinations and sleep. I’m so ready to be the person I need to be and deserve to be.

Alcohol was mine. Weed would put my mind in a terrible place.

Thank you

I see what you describe, a form of Telepathy.

I have a friend who is experiencing delusions and psychosis and I want to help them to see that. They’ve been homeless for a little over a year now because of it. But they truly believe what they’re going through and feel everyone is trying to control them. So I feel so sensitive about how to help them realize what they believe isn’t true without upsetting them or making them feel like they’re not being heard or that I’m in on it or against them/trying to trick then. I don’t know how to approach the topic.

This is the most disgusting thing I've ever seen, not heard. Please seek immediate medical attention for your brain.

I have a family member who is displaying delusional paranoid schizophrenia and is refusing to get help. Me n my family need help. Can you advise me?!

🎉 dangerous. Making videos explaining this must be a coping skills of yours😊 stay on the recovery path and always prevent a relapse and never get into a crisis

Is that a common thing with delusions? Compulsions being able to overcome delusions or at least used to overcome delusions?

Thank you for this ❤

That's really inquisitive, Carolynn! 🙏🙏💖💞💞💞🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈💝💚✨♥️☺️🌸🌸🌷🌷🙏

hello Carolynn! I hope you're doing well. my daughter has been on several drugs also, none actually worked plus gave her TD. Most recently she even tried the new cobenfy and that one did not work either unfortunately... i know you said you dont want to reveal what works for you. i'm so curious though to see if what you're on could work for my daughter.... what letter does it start with? ha!

Do you have any resources or videos on how to survive the shame and guilt of public embarrassment from psychosis? Thanks so much!

Thank u for sharing!! 😊❤

Your perfect xoxo

Hi gorgeous

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Thank you!

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I had that speech problem too in my worst psychosis episode! Thank you SO much for sharing this. We need to talk about it when we are ready. ❤

It's a bit off to talk about this while smiling. 😅😂😅

Does it matter ? Unfortunately yes, my brain protected itself and made me psychotic. My psychiatrist recognised my psychotic depression and the medications literally snapped me out of it. Everything, said in this video is 100 percent shared by me. Psychosis is like the best dream, where all your questions are answered. Once the medications kick in, you wonder why you have been disbelieving the clocks and estimating the time in the hospital by the shadows on the wall outside. Psychosis or a religious experience ? Often debated. 8 years after my psychotic break, I am still questioned by my family, are you sure you are okay ? Yes, but I still see my psychiatrist every 6 months and my psychologist every other week. This posting, is very helpful .

As someone who has experienced psychosis, it is 2025 and my psychosis started in 2017. Your video is so spot on. I don't know how many people have recovered. I call my psychosis happy, I could read minds, it was a reality that felt kept from me. I could read car number plates, they told me how many people had died of covid,

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