wow this literally makes me feel so seen weirdly. i feel the same way you do about ucsb but with my hometown. i have a few months before i graduate and go to college but i just want you to know that you aren’t alone in that feeling. i will sit at school and ask my friends “what if i just ceased to exist”. you are so right when you say life is supposed to be happy, not a burden. thank you for saying that. i’m going to carry that with me.
Im so proud of u for choosing yourself time and again. No matter how hard it became, at any given point, u always come back to yourself and give yourself what you truly deserve. That absolutely blows my mind. It's so inspiring. I wish u the absolute best and i hope u have a great if not grand time living the life you want. So much love to u
This video meant so much to me you have no idea, I go through phases where I feel exactly like you did in those journal entries. Luckily right now I’m not in an episode but I felt so not alone knowing not only you but fellow people in the comments have and do feel the same. I live in a small town and my biggest fear is never being able to leave my state and see as much as possible and meet as many people as possible. Seeing you take the steps to be happy , whether conventional or not, is so inspiring and I thank you Vanessa
Thank you so much for voicing your thought process so beautifully and authentically. I definitely relate to you since I am a sophomore in college and this semester has definitely presented me with the most challenges of my entire life, so to see someone else going through these same struggles has made me feel not as alone-I hope you can find happiness and am so glad you've removed yourself from those bad feelings in order to pursue a more meaningful life!! I wish you the best & can't wait to see what's to come
School is so draining and ive really been losing motivation too, but this video and community really helped me feel less alone. Sometimes taking a break is the best decision for your health and I’m so happy for you for making it! Good luck on your gap year Vanessa and I hope you get everything that you want out of it and just overall feel happier!
The amount of comfort and peace this has brought me is insane. I had recently went through this same thing, and I remember crying almost everyday for a month, and never having the motivation to go to classes I would spend all day just sleeping in my dorm room, and just the feeling of being lost, and unhappy even when I went out with friends I ended up moving back home mid-semester. Knowing that I'm not alone in this type of situation makes me so much more excited to go on and do the things that I love in life and that I shouldn't me limited to what other people expect of me, and perceive of my situation. I'm so excited to see all the new and exciting content you're going to be creating in the future
omg vanessa i'm so proud of you, for how far you've come and i'm so excited for you, for the new chapter of your life that you're about to start! The journal part felt so human and comforting, it's always good to know that there's other people who feel the same way as you do. You're so strong for opening up about your mental health. I hope New York treats you like the queen you are, i'm so happy for u ahhh
i've definitely been there vanessa! this is my first year in optometry school after taking a year off and the first time i've moved away from family. it was extremely hard for me to get adjusted and i had so many moments where i felt so depressed studying all day and felt like i didn't want to do it anymore. i'm so glad you've found peace by choosing to take a gap year! i wish you all the best and I hope you're feeling so much happier!
Honestly I was just crying when you started reading your journal. You are so brave and so human to share what you feel and I'm grateful because I get to witness someone like you who I also strive to become, someone who wants to explore the world and see people. I'm so happy and excited for you, Vanessa.
this made me feel so warm and excited for you! like genuinely going for ur passions and what u truly want is what i've realised this year coming out of high school, great to know that we're both on this journey together :)
its amazing how you can just drop things and do u what you wanna do bc there are some people who just need to suck it up even though they are struggling because they don’t have the means to. you go girl!
This is really a video everyone deserves and would benefit from seeing. Thank you for such a true and real look into your life! I wish the best for you. I’m a graduate still in IV trying to figure out my life and this is just a breath of fresh air :)
hi vanessa! i’ve been watching your videos since you had like 10k subs :’) seeing you grow over the years i literally cant express how proud i am of you. i cant be more excited for this next chapter in your life, wishing you nothing but good health and happiness. if anyone deserves all good things in life it’s YOU, such a kind and genuine soul who just wants to see the world. i will be rooting for you forever bestie
sitting here crying rn. thank you for being so vulnerable with us. im currently a first year at uc davis & i resonated with everything you were saying on that rooftop. im just not happy here and this is not the life i want. im finally taking the steps to drop out of ucd, and move to madrid, something I’ve been wanting to do for five years! this made me feel validated in my process and made me realize im not alone :’)
I can’t wait to see your next journey ! You have no idea how much I relate to you right now. I’m dropping out of college as well. My mental health is just really gone down hill these past two years in college. I will also be taking a gap year to travel and truly figure out what I want to do :) hope you continue to make videos bc I love seeing them !
this really spoke to me. Being in college rn I have so much desire to go. Transfer or just leave. I want my career but I feel so isolated when I'm away from any action. I expected the American college experience but in reality I'm lost a little.
girl this video made me emotional. I relate to literally everything you said in this. ive been wanting change so much. I live and grew up in new zealand and I love my home but seriously, I want to see the world, I want to pursue my dreams, I want to live. Im dreading the path im in and my future and my current plans, Im seriously going to consider taking a gap year from uni just like you. Im taking this video as a sign.
This is exactly how I feel. I wish we could all do that but sometimes you just can't. The society has planned out everything. You go to school once you're a child and then graduate and maybe go to university. Once you finish, you go and find a job. Mental health never fucking matters in the real world. It's always about money or grades. If you don't make money then how are you going to survive. I wish there is something that can just give us the room to breathe and live life for once. This video made me cry.. you've definitely made the right decision by doing that. I hope your mental health improves and that you're in a better place now. I wish you nothing but the best
It makes me happy that u value mental health over anything else, I feel like life is a show too and putting up an act EVERY SINGLE DAY is not easy at all. Im so proud of you, taking this step is very difficult. Your very strong Vanessa, and we are always here for you
Something I've always admired about you is your strength, your bravery and how you're so open with us. I really wish the best for you and I just wanted to let you know we're all gonna be here for you all the way
ive been feeling like that for the exact 1 month, it drained the shit out of, the thoughts of giving up is so high. i kept going onward but its exhausted, its very tiring, but im proud of you that ure going to live another chapter now, i wish you nothing but the best
Thank you so much for being so real! That is why you are always my favorite youtube. We all have struggles, but we are all in this together, lots of love
I’m so happy you’ve found what you really want to do, your way to be happy and feel free. Definitely sounds like college is not right for you and you just need to explore and feel free while experiencing different things and making new, real human connections. I’m so proud of you for how far you’ve come! Ilym Vanessa!❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for sharing your feelings and experiences with us, Vanessa. Seeing you grow is truly eye-opening and encourages me to grow as well. I have felt and continue to feel many of the feelings you described in this video and share many of the same thoughts and ideas too. Thank you again for being so open with us. I am so happy that you are putting your mental and emotional health first and that you are brave to do what is best for you. I love you Vanessa, and I wish you as much happiness and joy as possible 💞.
wow … you’re journal readings are so powerful that they touched me so much. I’m so glad I’m not alone. Thank you for sharing, I wish nothing but the best for you.
watched you when i was sad, watch you when i was happy, watch you in high sch, still watching you leaving high school, and really really excited to continue watching you wherever life next leads you
i’ve watched your videos for a while now and you honestly influenced me and how much spend by myself, you make me feel not ashamed to go to town by myself, spend time alone or getting a hot chocolate at a coffee shop by myself. I’m only a young teenager nearly turning 15, however your videos are such comfort to me ❤️
This video (especially the way you expressed yourself in your journal) has touched some buttons on me. I literally started crying because often times i see myself in the same situation. But I´m glad to hear that I´m not alone, and I´m also really really happy that you are doing this for yourself!!! Thank you for making me feel less alone :)
The way you described how you felt just hurt my soul because I have been feeling that for far too long and I didn’t know if anyone else would understand me. Trust me when I say you are one of my favourite people on this earth right now. I hope you’re doing better in NY now
thank you for this video. i feel more understood when i see people talk about this stuff beause I've felt the same for so long. I have to leave for school in like 10 minutes, but I don't have any will to go or even live. And it's not even college or uni, it's school! the education system is just so hard and tiring in my country, I feel like giving up every second day. it's so exhausting that even people from other counries know we are all depressed because of it. I don't even wanna go to uni because i'm already so worn out, I don't wanna do anything after school. I hope to find a way out of this. moving to nyc is bold, but so so cool and maybe i'll be there too one day.
I can understand you so well Vanessa. I’ve been experiencing existantial pains for almost six months. I started to Psico therapy for being able to deal with it. I’ve been using medication. I can tell that its helpful.
Im so excited for you that you’re finally looking more happy again :) I was in a similar situation this year my junior year of college but for a different reason it’s very hard to live and exist daily when your mental health is not the best I’ve finally got out of it this past week or so and It feels like a weight has lifted off my chest :) I’m starting to take classes I really enjoy too !
i related so hard to this video and your whole experience, everything u said was so comforting to hear and im so excited for u :') thank u for always being the most authentic and honest person u can be with us, i really wish for you to be happy and find happiness
Honestly taking a break from UCSB was one of the best things that I have done for myself and my mental health. Wishing you so much excitement and the best of luck un NY!
You are amazing and so blessed I can relate to you so much! I currently attend ucsb and I hate it here:( I wish I could leave but I feel like a failure if I do.🥺good luck on your journey ❤️I hope you are doing better❤️
i started watching a couple years ago and tbh its been a journey, i love watching you and im so proud of you and what you are doing! hope nothing but the best
i love you vanessa i missed you and now i’m crying because you’ve been my comfort person since like 2019 and it just makes me so happy and landon back in the day i had a fanpage called vanessanagoyastan u even followed it , and landon has supported all our fan accounts so big shoutout to him
Omggg not me balling my eyes out this entire video I've been watching your videos for years now and I'm also the same age as you I graduated from hs last year n currently in college just like you And damn I could relate to this so so hard!! I'm currently in dilemma reg college and everything n I could really connect with you and really felt like I was not the only one I literally can't stop crying lol but thank youuu for sharing this I needed this to carry on And So so excited and happy for your new journey ❤️
hi ness ness my lovely pookie bear :) i miss you and im very proud of you, truthfully ive seen you through a lot of your stages and ik we stopped talking as much but i genuinely care for you and love it when you get random bursts of motivation to be on social media. New York will look beautiful on you because chicago looked beautiful on you and chicagos like New York’s cleaner little sister :)! i love you and am so excited to see where you go, how this helps your mental health, and watch the ness we know and love grow into her best self. no pressure to be “an adult” or grow up, only to be at your best, always, because i want to see you at your best, all the time. love u love u love uuu and thank you for your ongoing transparency🤍
this is my first time ever seeing one of your videos but it made me feel everything. its so nice to see people doing what makes them happy. i often feel how you did at times but little by little i’m trying to make it better. i would love to see your videos in the future while you go on this journey
i am so so so excited to follow on your next chapter in nyc when i’m also going to be off from college i related so much to the feelings you described of sadness, pain, and desire to end the pain🥲 can’t wait for the nyc vlogs :)
You are so strong. Sometimes taking a step back brings the most beautiful things. This video came up so randomly on my TH-cam feed and I was drawn to it. I’m so excited for you and so proud of you. Enjoy NYC!
oh girl i related to this so much. i was in a similar mental situation a year ago. i took my gap year, i felt i wasn’t ready to go. do things when you feel right about it, i don’t think i’d change the my choice, but i wish i’d admitted earlier instead of waiting it out and letting the stress build up :/ honestly i also feel like i had no one to relate to so thank you for sharing this
Around 8:00 you’ve literally explained what my life is atm I go to parties and make “friends” and I always end the night realizing I didn’t really want to go in the first place idk why I still do I always convince myself it’s to better me as a person but idk anymore
I took a gap year after my sophomore year initially because of burnout and depression when I went to UCSB. It was a great move and I worked full time in what would be my long term career. It also helped me better focus on what I wanted out of college when I went back. Plus, I was out of money and I needed to save up to pay for my last two years there.
Thank You so much it was a great video it felt so comforting to hear someone's point of view of why they choose the path they wanted to take I support you in what you are doing to make yourself happy
im so glad i watched this because you making me cry in a good way like :") girlie i wish you nothing but the best from the bottom of my heart, thank you for being a friend to us
thankyou so much for this video. It was really comforting, especially the journaling part. You are right life shouldn't be a burden. This video made me realize i should live life the way i want to live it. ily
I’m so excited for you, Vanessa. I can’t wait for you to be happy, truly happy with where you are and what you do with your life. Thank you so much for all the hard work you put in for your viewers! I love you so much 🥰
I'm glad to see you taking a step forward and making that leap. Life doesn't have to feel like a burden and I feel that way at times but since I'm on a mini thanksgiving break and not doing any school I feel more free. Following you on the journey
Okay but I'm so proud of Vanessa for voicing her opinions and doing what's best for her because at the end of day it is her life and she be able to do whatever she wants
I am so proud that you are doing what makes you feel alive, we are in this world to create memories and enjoy. You're doing it amazing.All my love and support, from the other side of the world
wow the journal entries. I resonate so much With them. I feel this societal standards are to stay in one place but I have such a desire to keep moving and seeing everything. i feel so stuck in one place and like it won’t ever be worth it. I want to LIVE life. I’m so happy you are taking the steps towards chasing that happiness. I hope you have so much fun in nyc :))
I'm so happy for you ❤ thanks for the video, I'm in a really bad place as a sophmore in college and found the video really helpful an relatable. Happy for you, ahhhhhh. You're in such a better place and we can see it ❤
this video showed me how much I should appreciate what I have right now. you have everything I only can dream of and I find it so weird that your bore of it and wanna throw it all away but I understand, I mean I feel the same but live in Texas working at chick fil a full time with support of my loving family and amazing co-workers, trying saving up all the money I make to pursue what your walking away from and there probably someone out in this world who could only imagine my so called life.
Fam I hope you are okay and I wish you the best for your new journey whatever you said is true cuz life is not perfect I hope you have a life in newyork as you wish it will be I wish you the best I’ve been watching you recently and believe me I relate to you so much but I hope you get better soon will always wish the best for anyone just always be grateful good Luck for the future:)
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The whole journal section felt so comforting as someone feeling the same things love you Vanessa hope you find a place that makes you genuinely happy
wow this literally makes me feel so seen weirdly. i feel the same way you do about ucsb but with my hometown. i have a few months before i graduate and go to college but i just want you to know that you aren’t alone in that feeling. i will sit at school and ask my friends “what if i just ceased to exist”. you are so right when you say life is supposed to be happy, not a burden. thank you for saying that. i’m going to carry that with me.
Im so proud of u for choosing yourself time and again. No matter how hard it became, at any given point, u always come back to yourself and give yourself what you truly deserve. That absolutely blows my mind. It's so inspiring. I wish u the absolute best and i hope u have a great if not grand time living the life you want. So much love to u
This video meant so much to me you have no idea, I go through phases where I feel exactly like you did in those journal entries. Luckily right now I’m not in an episode but I felt so not alone knowing not only you but fellow people in the comments have and do feel the same. I live in a small town and my biggest fear is never being able to leave my state and see as much as possible and meet as many people as possible. Seeing you take the steps to be happy , whether conventional or not, is so inspiring and I thank you Vanessa
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Thank you so much for voicing your thought process so beautifully and authentically. I definitely relate to you since I am a sophomore in college and this semester has definitely presented me with the most challenges of my entire life, so to see someone else going through these same struggles has made me feel not as alone-I hope you can find happiness and am so glad you've removed yourself from those bad feelings in order to pursue a more meaningful life!! I wish you the best & can't wait to see what's to come
School is so draining and ive really been losing motivation too, but this video and community really helped me feel less alone. Sometimes taking a break is the best decision for your health and I’m so happy for you for making it! Good luck on your gap year Vanessa and I hope you get everything that you want out of it and just overall feel happier!
The amount of comfort and peace this has brought me is insane. I had recently went through this same thing, and I remember crying almost everyday for a month, and never having the motivation to go to classes I would spend all day just sleeping in my dorm room, and just the feeling of being lost, and unhappy even when I went out with friends I ended up moving back home mid-semester. Knowing that I'm not alone in this type of situation makes me so much more excited to go on and do the things that I love in life and that I shouldn't me limited to what other people expect of me, and perceive of my situation. I'm so excited to see all the new and exciting content you're going to be creating in the future
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you’re just so amazing for sharing all this. ily vanessa, u have no idea how much we love you.
i love u guys ❤️
omg vanessa i'm so proud of you, for how far you've come and i'm so excited for you, for the new chapter of your life that you're about to start! The journal part felt so human and comforting, it's always good to know that there's other people who feel the same way as you do. You're so strong for opening up about your mental health. I hope New York treats you like the queen you are, i'm so happy for u ahhh
i've definitely been there vanessa! this is my first year in optometry school after taking a year off and the first time i've moved away from family. it was extremely hard for me to get adjusted and i had so many moments where i felt so depressed studying all day and felt like i didn't want to do it anymore. i'm so glad you've found peace by choosing to take a gap year! i wish you all the best and I hope you're feeling so much happier!
Honestly I was just crying when you started reading your journal. You are so brave and so human to share what you feel and I'm grateful because I get to witness someone like you who I also strive to become, someone who wants to explore the world and see people. I'm so happy and excited for you, Vanessa.
this made me feel so warm and excited for you! like genuinely going for ur passions and what u truly want is what i've realised this year coming out of high school, great to know that we're both on this journey together :)
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its amazing how you can just drop things and do u what you wanna do bc there are some people who just need to suck it up even though they are struggling because they don’t have the means to. you go girl!
You are one of the realist people on youtube, thank you for voicing how you feel! I'm so happy for you, and your next chapter in life! :)
This is really a video everyone deserves and would benefit from seeing. Thank you for such a true and real look into your life! I wish the best for you. I’m a graduate still in IV trying to figure out my life and this is just a breath of fresh air :)
hi vanessa! i’ve been watching your videos since you had like 10k subs :’) seeing you grow over the years i literally cant express how proud i am of you. i cant be more excited for this next chapter in your life, wishing you nothing but good health and happiness. if anyone deserves all good things in life it’s YOU, such a kind and genuine soul who just wants to see the world. i will be rooting for you forever bestie
sitting here crying rn. thank you for being so vulnerable with us. im currently a first year at uc davis & i resonated with everything you were saying on that rooftop. im just not happy here and this is not the life i want. im finally taking the steps to drop out of ucd, and move to madrid, something I’ve been wanting to do for five years! this made me feel validated in my process and made me realize im not alone :’)
It is totally OK to take of some time for yourself and decide where you want your life to go
this video is going to be an emotional roller coaster
I can’t wait to see your next journey ! You have no idea how much I relate to you right now. I’m dropping out of college as well. My mental health is just really gone down hill these past two years in college. I will also be taking a gap year to travel and truly figure out what I want to do :) hope you continue to make videos bc I love seeing them !
yes! live your best life😘😘
I’m so excited for you
this really spoke to me. Being in college rn I have so much desire to go. Transfer or just leave. I want my career but I feel so isolated when I'm away from any action. I expected the American college experience but in reality I'm lost a little.
i hope it all works out
girl this video made me emotional. I relate to literally everything you said in this. ive been wanting change so much. I live and grew up in new zealand and I love my home but seriously, I want to see the world, I want to pursue my dreams, I want to live. Im dreading the path im in and my future and my current plans, Im seriously going to consider taking a gap year from uni just like you. Im taking this video as a sign.
This is exactly how I feel. I wish we could all do that but sometimes you just can't. The society has planned out everything. You go to school once you're a child and then graduate and maybe go to university. Once you finish, you go and find a job. Mental health never fucking matters in the real world. It's always about money or grades. If you don't make money then how are you going to survive. I wish there is something that can just give us the room to breathe and live life for once. This video made me cry.. you've definitely made the right decision by doing that. I hope your mental health improves and that you're in a better place now. I wish you nothing but the best
It makes me happy that u value mental health over anything else, I feel like life is a show too and putting up an act EVERY SINGLE DAY is not easy at all. Im so proud of you, taking this step is very difficult. Your very strong Vanessa, and we are always here for you
Something I've always admired about you is your strength, your bravery and how you're so open with us. I really wish the best for you and I just wanted to let you know we're all gonna be here for you all the way
ive been feeling like that for the exact 1 month, it drained the shit out of, the thoughts of giving up is so high. i kept going onward but its exhausted, its very tiring, but im proud of you that ure going to live another chapter now, i wish you nothing but the best
Thank you so much for being so real! That is why you are always my favorite youtube. We all have struggles, but we are all in this together, lots of love
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Kinda late, but the journal entries were really comforting. I hope you find what you're looking for Vanessa.
I’m so happy for you, you’re an incredibly strong human and deserve all the best. ❤️❤️
I’m so happy you’ve found what you really want to do, your way to be happy and feel free. Definitely sounds like college is not right for you and you just need to explore and feel free while experiencing different things and making new, real human connections. I’m so proud of you for how far you’ve come! Ilym Vanessa!❤️❤️❤️
Good book recommendation: you’re not enough and that’s okay.
I felt like I needed to share this after hearing you reading your entries
will definitely check it out!
Thank you for sharing your feelings and experiences with us, Vanessa. Seeing you grow is truly eye-opening and encourages me to grow as well. I have felt and continue to feel many of the feelings you described in this video and share many of the same thoughts and ideas too. Thank you again for being so open with us. I am so happy that you are putting your mental and emotional health first and that you are brave to do what is best for you. I love you Vanessa, and I wish you as much happiness and joy as possible 💞.
its only going to go up from here! i hope you feel alive and happy in nyc and just know we're all really proud of you ❤️
wow … you’re journal readings are so powerful that they touched me so much. I’m so glad I’m not alone. Thank you for sharing, I wish nothing but the best for you.
watched you when i was sad, watch you when i was happy, watch you in high sch, still watching you leaving high school, and really really excited to continue watching you wherever life next leads you
i’ve watched your videos for a while now and you honestly influenced me and how much spend by myself, you make me feel not ashamed to go to town by myself, spend time alone or getting a hot chocolate at a coffee shop by myself. I’m only a young teenager nearly turning 15, however your videos are such comfort to me ❤️
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I'm so proud of you Vanessa ✌💖 I know your going to do big things wherever you go ❤
that’s so weird that this was on my recommended, i’m also leaving UCSB! it’s terrifying but i’m excited for the future
best wishes to you!!
This video (especially the way you expressed yourself in your journal) has touched some buttons on me. I literally started crying because often times i see myself in the same situation. But I´m glad to hear that I´m not alone, and I´m also really really happy that you are doing this for yourself!!! Thank you for making me feel less alone :)
Bestie honestly you and Melanie are getting me through my 1st year of college
The way you described how you felt just hurt my soul because I have been feeling that for far too long and I didn’t know if anyone else would understand me. Trust me when I say you are one of my favourite people on this earth right now. I hope you’re doing better in NY now
thank you for this video. i feel more understood when i see people talk about this stuff beause I've felt the same for so long. I have to leave for school in like 10 minutes, but I don't have any will to go or even live. And it's not even college or uni, it's school! the education system is just so hard and tiring in my country, I feel like giving up every second day. it's so exhausting that even people from other counries know we are all depressed because of it. I don't even wanna go to uni because i'm already so worn out, I don't wanna do anything after school. I hope to find a way out of this. moving to nyc is bold, but so so cool and maybe i'll be there too one day.
I can understand you so well Vanessa. I’ve been experiencing existantial pains for almost six months. I started to Psico therapy for being able to deal with it. I’ve been using medication. I can tell that its helpful.
my heart hurts hearing your words. I love you forever ness ness! Excited to see where life brings you
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Im so excited for you that you’re finally looking more happy again :) I was in a similar situation this year my junior year of college but for a different reason it’s very hard to live and exist daily when your mental health is not the best I’ve finally got out of it this past week or so and It feels like a weight has lifted off my chest :) I’m starting to take classes I really enjoy too !
i related so hard to this video and your whole experience, everything u said was so comforting to hear and im so excited for u :') thank u for always being the most authentic and honest person u can be with us, i really wish for you to be happy and find happiness
I feel empty a lot of the time. Thank you for speaking the way you do. You make me feel less alone in my feelings. Thank you.
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As a post UCSB grad, I relate SO MUCH TO THIS VIDEO!!! Rooting for you Vanessa
You have no idea how happy I am for you❤you deserve all the best and I'm so excited to see what this new path in your life will bring you❤
so proud of you vanessa! cant wait to see what this new adventure brings
Honestly taking a break from UCSB was one of the best things that I have done for myself and my mental health. Wishing you so much excitement and the best of luck un NY!
You are amazing and so blessed I can relate to you so much! I currently attend ucsb and I hate it here:( I wish I could leave but I feel like a failure if I do.🥺good luck on your journey ❤️I hope you are doing better❤️
i started watching a couple years ago and tbh its been a journey, i love watching you and im so proud of you and what you are doing! hope nothing but the best
thank you so much soleda:-)
i love you vanessa i missed you and now i’m crying because you’ve been my comfort person since like 2019 and it just makes me so happy and landon back in the day i had a fanpage called vanessanagoyastan u even followed it , and landon has supported all our fan accounts so big shoutout to him
AWWWW OMG I LOVE YOU
Omggg not me balling my eyes out this entire video
I've been watching your videos for years now and I'm also the same age as you
I graduated from hs last year n currently in college just like you
And damn I could relate to this so so hard!! I'm currently in dilemma reg college and everything n I could really connect with you and really felt like I was not the only one
I literally can't stop crying lol but thank youuu for sharing this I needed this to carry on
And So so excited and happy for your new journey ❤️
This video and you especially just empowered me so much. All the best Vanessa, excited for u to start a new beginning
We hope the best for you vanessa!! We Love You❤
this video rly made me so emotional. i’m so so proud of you vanessa
hi ness ness my lovely pookie bear :) i miss you and im very proud of you, truthfully ive seen you through a lot of your stages and ik we stopped talking as much but i genuinely care for you and love it when you get random bursts of motivation to be on social media. New York will look beautiful on you because chicago looked beautiful on you and chicagos like New York’s cleaner little sister :)! i love you and am so excited to see where you go, how this helps your mental health, and watch the ness we know and love grow into her best self. no pressure to be “an adult” or grow up, only to be at your best, always, because i want to see you at your best, all the time. love u love u love uuu and thank you for your ongoing transparency🤍
AW i love you steph & missed u❤️❤️❤️
so glad you found you way out of the darkness, sis! wishing you well doing bigger, better and brighter things 💕
this is my first time ever seeing one of your videos but it made me feel everything. its so nice to see people doing what makes them happy. i often feel how you did at times but little by little i’m trying to make it better. i would love to see your videos in the future while you go on this journey
wow, I never heard a TH-camr describe exactly how Ive felt since going to college. I love you and I wish you so much happiness.
i’m so glad you’re doing things that make you happy. i’m so proud of u. i wish you well on this new chapter❤️❤️
i am so so so excited to follow on your next chapter in nyc when i’m also going to be off from college i related so much to the feelings you described of sadness, pain, and desire to end the pain🥲 can’t wait for the nyc vlogs :)
You are so strong. Sometimes taking a step back brings the most beautiful things. This video came up so randomly on my TH-cam feed and I was drawn to it. I’m so excited for you and so proud of you. Enjoy NYC!
it's so liberating to see you go through your plan, I'm so happy for u, can't wait to see what you do :)
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Really love the transparency I’m your videos lately
oh girl i related to this so much. i was in a similar mental situation a year ago. i took my gap year, i felt i wasn’t ready to go. do things when you feel right about it, i don’t think i’d change the my choice, but i wish i’d admitted earlier instead of waiting it out and letting the stress build up :/
honestly i also feel like i had no one to relate to so thank you for sharing this
College isn’t for everyone and I’m glad you’re moving into big things ❤️
Around 8:00 you’ve literally explained what my life is atm I go to parties and make “friends” and I always end the night realizing I didn’t really want to go in the first place idk why I still do I always convince myself it’s to better me as a person but idk anymore
I took a gap year after my sophomore year initially because of burnout and depression when I went to UCSB. It was a great move and I worked full time in what would be my long term career. It also helped me better focus on what I wanted out of college when I went back. Plus, I was out of money and I needed to save up to pay for my last two years there.
I’m so proud of u for making such a big step for the sake of yourself ❤️❤️❤️❤️
i’m so happy for you and your next chapter!
Thank You so much it was a great video it felt so comforting to hear someone's point of view of why they choose the path they wanted to take I support you in what you are doing to make yourself happy
im so glad i watched this because you making me cry in a good way like :") girlie i wish you nothing but the best from the bottom of my heart, thank you for being a friend to us
thankyou so much for this video. It was really comforting, especially the journaling part. You are right life shouldn't be a burden. This video made me realize i should live life the way i want to live it. ily
Can't wait to see u do what makes you happy! So proud of you Vanessa!!
you're the best love you so much. now go thrive!
the emotions in this video 📉📈📉📈📉📈📉
Hope your journey is everything you want it too be❤
I’m so excited for you, Vanessa. I can’t wait for you to be happy, truly happy with where you are and what you do with your life. Thank you so much for all the hard work you put in for your viewers! I love you so much 🥰
i love u more🥰
I’m so excited for you! I’m glad you’re doing what’s right for you!
i’m happy for you vanessa, i’m glad that you won’t be sad anymore. ily vanessa
omg so excited for you vanessa. i really think this is gonna be so good for you 💗
I'm glad to see you taking a step forward and making that leap. Life doesn't have to feel like a burden and I feel that way at times but since I'm on a mini thanksgiving break and not doing any school I feel more free. Following you on the journey
i’m so proud of u for opening up and i’m so excited for ur future. ily nessa and please know ur not alone
Okay but I'm so proud of Vanessa for voicing her opinions and doing what's best for her because at the end of day it is her life and she be able to do whatever she wants
I am so proud that you are doing what makes you feel alive, we are in this world to create memories and enjoy. You're doing it amazing.All my love and support, from the other side of the world
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Vanessa I love you so fucking much I’m so excited for your future
Her dad's chillness made me happy 🥰
wow the journal entries. I resonate so much With them. I feel this societal standards are to stay in one place but I have such a desire to keep moving and seeing everything. i feel so stuck in one place and like it won’t ever be worth it. I want to LIVE life. I’m so happy you are taking the steps towards chasing that happiness. I hope you have so much fun in nyc :))
honestly i’m really happy for you, you should always take the time off and do what you want to do ☺️
i wish you the best on your future journey to nyc and cant wait to see you thrive in the city!!!!!
thank you annie
I'm so happy for you ❤ thanks for the video, I'm in a really bad place as a sophmore in college and found the video really helpful an relatable. Happy for you, ahhhhhh. You're in such a better place and we can see it ❤
this video showed me how much I should appreciate what I have right now. you have everything I only can dream of and I find it so weird that your bore of it and wanna throw it all away but I understand, I mean I feel the same but live in Texas working at chick fil a full time with support of my loving family and amazing co-workers, trying saving up all the money I make to pursue what your walking away from and there probably someone out in this world who could only imagine my so called life.
I'm so happy that your putting yourself first and doing anything to find happiness.
Omg ur nearly at 400k. Goodluck and on journey
Every TH-camr I watch is moving to NYC exiting ❤️
Fam I hope you are okay and I wish you the best for your new journey whatever you said is true cuz life is not perfect I hope you have a life in newyork as you wish it will be I wish you the best I’ve been watching you recently and believe me I relate to you so much but I hope you get better soon will always wish the best for anyone just always be grateful good Luck for the future:)
thank you :-)❤️