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One boy’s journey to tribute his hero whilst having a lot of anxiety about the ethical considerations of it the whole time.
I have been trying to make some sense of what Anthony Bourdain meant to me ever since his devastating passing in 2018, and it only took me several months of work and creating an obnoxious 40-minute video essay to get some form of resolution to that. If you don’t know who Bourdain is, I sincerely hope the 30 seconds you watch of this video before you inevitably turn it off might prompt you to watch an episode of one of his shows or read any of his writing; I am genuinely envious of the journey you’re about to go on. If, however, you’re like me, a long-time fan of Bourdain who was still struggling to process his death, I hope you can at some level relate to what I tried to do here and like everyone we love and miss, just enjoy spending some time chatting about them again.
You can buy me a coffee: ko-fi.com/ourewan
Articles
Eater, ‘Roadrunner’ and the Dismal Search for the ‘Real Bourdain’ by Maria Bustillos, July 20, 2021, www.eater.com/22583492/anthon...
New Yorker, A Haunting New Documentary About Anthony Bourdain by Helen Rosner, July 15, 2021: www.newyorker.com/culture/ann...
FilmCred, ‘Roadrunner’ Threatens to Leave Anthony Bourdain’s Legacy in Ruins by Cory Stillman, August 2, 2021: film-cred.com/roadrunner-anth...
GQ, Anthony Bourdain Was the Most Interesting Man in the World by Drew Magary, June 8, 2018: www.gq.com/story/rip-anthony-...
NPR, I Thought I Knew Anthony Bourdain. 'Roadrunner' Shows Us Who He Really Was¸ July 16, 2021: www.npr.org/2021/07/16/101653...
Music
Night Run (Demo) · Chris Greenwich courtesy of TH-cam Audio Library
Visual Media
All footage from A Cooks Tour courtesy of Travel Channel via Go Traveller • Anthony Bourdain A Coo...
All footage from Parts Unknown Courtesy of CNN via All Documentary / alldocumentary
All footage from No Reservations courtesy of Travel Channel
Being a fan of Anthony Bourdain was one of the first opportunities I had to really challenge my developing parasocial relationships and take a critical look at what celebrity and being in the public eye was and more importantly wasn't. His vulnerability in his writing and on screen had a profound effect on my worldview and I genuinely believe that he left the world a better place than he found it. Thank you for this incredibly thoughtful and caring tribute to a complicated public figure.
Thanks Sue!
Fantastic comment, I was going to leave something similar but I think you've voiced it better than I would've done, ty
I don’t usually comment on videos, but this is one of the greatest TH-cam short docs I’ve ever seen. Congratulations, this is a hit.
I learned English, how to eat, and how to dress watching Mr Broudain. Rest in peace sir.
This was the tribute I needed For Anthony Bourdain. I’ve never given two shits about a celebrity except for this man. Road runner left a bad taste in my mouth. This Video was done with Grace About a true gentleman. Thank you
He was a very special man. I miss him. He told me one day, "Rob, just do what you do and fuck everyone else." Sound wisdom Tony.
He is still the one celebrity, living or dead, that I would want to spend an afternoon with, drinking, cooking, eating and talking. I miss him.
Saw this on my fyp, had to come check it out as the clip was incredible! Amazing video dude, can't wait to see what you do next!
Completely agree I cannot wait either for your next video I'm very impressed
I was amazed that this video only had 700 views. This is some professional grade stuff. Keep up the great work man.
Now it's at 29K
52k now 3rd week of April.
If you don’t suffer from depression, you’ll never fully understand it. Fragile hearts hide behind brave smiles. RIP to a legend ✌🏾
The thing with mental health struggles is that everyone’s triggers are different. An airport hamburger would not throw me into depression but something equally mundane just might. The importance of videos like this is to remind us that we are all potentially vulnerable, regardless of what the rest of the world might assume about us.
I am from India. The most comprehensive study of what Tony meant to all of us,who did not know him personally but only through his t.v.shows. why he affected us when we do not give second thought to other inane t.v shows. He was trying to be a good human being like most of us, battling the inner enemies daily.
Sloan Bella has a different story. She's a psychic medium and is very good at it. She has lots of interesting videos
I hope you enjoy them 😊
Ewan, this is excellent and thank you for it. I knew Tony. I cant still not understand we lost him. Even more , why? I wrote a book, similar, but about hotels. I am in the business but I will certainly not be a bestseler, but that is not why I wrote it. Tony was a narrator like no other. Great docu.
What a wonderful tribute. I miss Anthony.
This is the gold standard in making videos.
"An avatar for the human experience" Nailed it. I really, really enjoyed this video, THANK YOU
This was so well done. It is the best piece that I have seen about Bourdain’s life, death and meaning to the world. I have been disappointed with all other works about him since his death. This was fantastically done.
One thing I will say is his darker side and both his strengths and weaknesses were always there. I was surprised that so many didn’t see it and seemed shocked that he was suffering in life with depression. My God. How did people not know? It was so apparent.
The complexities of who he was were always there and not as hidden as everyone made it out to be. I think people just didn’t want to see him as a whole person. They only wanted to see the glorified versions.
We are all complex. None of us are one thing or easy to figure out. Just remember, the dark side does not negate or diminish the good and vice versa. We are all made up of both.
I miss Anthony Bourdain who inspired all of us to enjoy and understand different cultures of cooking. RIP Anthony Bourdain
Man was a legend and his Kitchen Confidenal book is sooooo true lol that's what it was like for me 20 odd years ago coming up tru the ranks in the chef world
Great tribute! I followed Anthony's work for years. I feel he was a gifted writer and keen observer of the human condition. Something I noticed in him was an ever present melancholy behind his seemingly careless demeanor. He reminds me of David Foster Wallace. David's This is Water is a thing of beauty, and yet he ended up killing himself. The mind is a beautiful servant, but a terrible master, indeed. Thanks for sharing!
This is one of the greatest videos I have ever seen. This will be a hit, I can feel it. You hit the nail on the head, and spoke with such poise. I am immensely impressed, and I hope and think Tony would be too.
Only a guess but AB might well have appreciated this. He approached his material like a proper ethnographer, with admiration, respect, and humility. Very well done.
This was excellent dude. Well well done. Couldn't ask for a better documentary tribute to him. It feels like you put a tremendous amount of effort into this video, and it is much appreciated. I hope you win some kind of award for this.
This was a great video albeit a little long, more like a short film. That said, as a 75-year old man and a big fan of Tony's, I'd like to add my thoughts to the plethora of others, if I may.
I started my own life as a child actor in the fifties. In that time, I have known many, many actors, some highly talented, others perhaps less so. So in many ways I looked at Bourdain through the lens of an actor. One of those who first come to mind was a poor boy from Bristol, England by the name of Archibald Leach, who fell in love with performing as a escape from his dreary existence. That young boy literally invented himself as "Cary Grant," first simply ACTING the part, then eventually BECOMING the part that he himself created. But unlike Cary, Tony was someone we could relate to, a real, flesh and blood human being, not an fake Marvel Comic book hero. I think Bourdain was a lot like that, creating a dynamic persona that captivated the entire world, but hiding a deeper, darker nature that he disguised perhaps too well.
When he died, I found myself literally crying like a baby, as though an dear friend had suddenly passed away. In the year following his untimely passing, I have also come to realize exactly what it was that so endeared us to him, and why we still suffer his loss. In acting, it's called, "vulnerability," that rarest of abilities to reveal our innermost insecurities and demons, without artifice. In other words, showing our universal humanity, without fear of "not looking cool." Bourdain had that kind of quality, and it is the one thing that separated him from every other celebrity chef or movie star we have ever known. I still miss him.
This was so beautifully and carefully well made. I didn't expect myself to finish the entire thing, but I'm so glad I did. The ending is particularly powerful and you've done such a great job. Well done 🙏🏾.
Absolutely brilliant work! Keep it up. As a massive Bourdain fan, this video really had an impact on me. Anthony showed many us places of the world that were not accessible to us. He did it with an open heart and respect for the different cultures he encountered. He will be missed.
This is actually mad well researched and done, well on you kid.
I was late in the discovery of the amazing Anthony Bourdain. I've read both "Kitchen Confidential" and "Medium Raw." I have also read "Bourdain: The Definitive Oral Biography" by Laurie Woolever. I am currently watching, "A Cook's Tour." And I have seen "RoadRunner" a few times.
Your tribute is one of the best that I have listened to and I heard it several times. Amazing job!
I totally understand why his death was such a loss. We can only hope that he is resting in peace.
Outstanding! By far the best doc on Anthony Bourdain that I have seen. May he RIP.
Please make more video essays like this. This was incredible.
You got it so right. I have played that game before. Went horribly wrong. If I could have met one person it would have been Anthony Bourdain. Read his books rewatch every episode. A real guy telling a real story wherever he went. Thanks
Anthony Bourdain was indeed a very troubled soul.
Looking back on Bourdain's work and we can see how often he would make jokes about ending his own life. Most of the time it's brushed off as dark humor, but I think like his brother Chris said he had a tragic side to him that he kept from the media.
Post Script~
Just watched "Roadrunner" tonight. It was EXCELLENT, well-balanced and thought out, revealing all sides of the man. I think even Tony may have approved. Well worth watching.
Very respectful. Great work.
This video deserves far more views.
That episode where he has his lonely beer in Tokyo is a moment I have lived many times in Asia. That comfortable loneliness may however been the darkness he kept in his heart and what finally drove him to do what he did. Most of us, did not know. RIP Tony
Fantastic job!! Anthony Bourdain was and will be my ICONIC character, his dead was like loosing a friend that you’ve never meet, but was real to you and someone that admire. Respect for your work!
Others have said it better in their comments. I can only say how much I enjoyed this extraordinary piece on someone to whom I related so strongly while having, perhaps, only a fractionally similar reality. It took me a while before I was able to watch any of Anthony's shows again. Your video has now given me even more permission to do so. Thank you.
Greatly needed, thank you.
This was really excellent. Thank you.
Holy cow man, that was insanely well done, congrats and i think Tony would enjoy watching it as well.
This is fantastic 🔥
Excellent. Totally enjoyed this video.
Amazing video, thank you for sharing!
This video was phenomenal and clearly made with love. Glad you came by my fyp and I hope you can keep making videos!
Thank you. I really needed this. Outstanding work.
Great video.. Anthony was just a man like the rest of us, same shit... Sad ending to a good man. RiP
This is a fantastic tribute to a great man, thank you
Brilliant - thank you.
What a gem this video is. Thank you VERY much!
This is awesome. Thank you for creating this video. There’s so much footage I had never seen before.
He seemed to finally have it all! You never know about the demons.
Thank you. This was a very well thought piece
Brilliant video. Will definitely be sharing with friends. RIP to a legend.
Absolute banger of a video boss. Perfect.
An absolutely superb short doc. Bravo
Great job on this. I've been rewatching a lot of Bourdain episodes recently and found myself asking a lot of the same questions you raised. I especially appreciate the bit about embracing ignorance at the end. Cheers.
AWESOME JOB!!! Really enjoyed it!!!!
This is a really great piece of work!
Great video loves every part of it, keep up the great work man, congrats!!
Thank you for this. I think about Bourdain everyday and am glad to see you uploaded this video a month ago, and that he’s still around for the long haul.
Fantastic video mate, saw it on the fyp and had to check it out
He really was the GOAT. I miss that show and his character so much. There was no other like him. He did it on his own terms. And left on his own terms. Respect.
love your channel! can’t wait for your beatles video
I honestly didnt know who he was and now i am going to watch his show. ♡
The Beatles said it best - "The further you travel the less you know, the less you really know".
I had this same revelation on my first trip to India which is where George Harrison got the inspiration for the song. It's called "The Inner Light".
A great work, man.
Very nice work. The last frame that TH-cam freezes on is how I will remember him. A big smile-amused and inquisitive.
Amazing video, absolutely continue going this is a great channel in the making
And yes this was an excellent well done clip on Tony.. thank you very much ✌
Well done and insightful video. Thanks.
Just found your channel on TikTok ! It’s amazing , great job!
An interesting perspective and very well articulated. Kudos!
This is fantastic! Really well done
Thank-you Ewan, this is a fitting and moving tribute.
Yes, a great tribute, and, and so very sad that he decided to take his own life.
This is incredible, we need to share the word of your channel, this video really showed me the story behind one of my favourite chefs and got me to read his books
FANTASTIC JOB THANK YOU still miss him like brother
Big Bourdain fan! This is the sort of video you like 3 mins in to it! Great work! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
Incredible work
This is such an interesting watch. Amazing in fact!!!!! Thanks for posting this.
This was what I needed to hear, as a huge fan . Thank you.
A tribute worth watching again, again and again....whenever you miss this one hell of a guy. Good stuff!
Well done .I just found your Channel .I am sure it will grow and grow .
When I watched Roadrunner on CNN, I was shocked to see how many times he had made references to killing himself. Even on camera he asked out loud if the people there thought the boat mast I think it was, was strong enough to hold his body weight if he hung himself on it.
Since he was the boss, I wonder if colleagues were afraid to assert themselves and confront him? But nobody said anything, which we now know is the opposite way to handle these things.
But I was also sad to hear that his wife was cheating on him and was photographed by a tabloid in public with the guy.
Anthony had noticed and was visibly frustrated with her carelessness and lack of discretion for getting photographed. But I'm sure he was hurt too. I know EXACTLY how that part felt because it's happening to me right now.
I can def relate as well to the emotional pain that gets so brutal that you are willing to take drastic measures to stop it. I want to live. But I really want the pain gone. The anxiety that keeps you from sleeping, from thinking straight, from going outside, from being with people, or from doing anything that represents normal functioning is so fucking brutal. It doesn't give you a break when you so badly need it.
You can have plenty of money to go anywhere and do anything, but it's useless because the dysfunction the anxiety causes has left you paralyzed.
It just sucks. You can only hunker down in a safe place and wait for it to subside.
Then the depression kicks in that's a result of the anxiety paralyzing you.
It's just so brutal. Pharmaceuticals might help for a short time, but they create new and different problems with their own legacies of suffering. It's no wonder to me that suicide seems like a good option much of the time.
Anthony was such a gem. He was such an amazingly interesting person. Many people thought that because he could handle the stress of the high end kitchens he worked in, that he could handle anything. But it must've been stressful to know that his entire crew at CNN depended on him for their paychecks. And a show about traveling where they were in different countries every other week which weren't necessarily fully developed with the comforts of America and major Western European democracies. They recorded the shows in some struggling countries with unstable regimes. It must've been a challenging schedule.
I do wonder if the toxicology results of the inquest were in fact real. Like did someone pay off the authorities to not release the true results? It's not really anyone's business anyways. He had a right to his privacy.
Loved this video. Thank you Ewan.
Massive Bourdain fan here. Met him twice. At at Les Halle in 2004 etc. I still think of him daily.
A great insight very well done.
Congrats, well-done video. I will miss Bourdain's videos and insights about food, and LIFE, he was thought-provoking, diverse, and fun to watch.
Loved me some Bourdain.
This was a fantastic tribute. Great job. You have a knack for this. Keep going
Man, this content is absolut real, i was searching more about Bourdain and after see this, is like a door close in my head (about suic of Bourdain), congratulations from Brazil.
Thank you for this carefully nuanced approach. I was on the fence about seeing the film, and your video helped articulate my thoughts.
Paraphrasing one of AB’s observations shown here in your tribute, his question posed to the ignorant flippantly suggesting WV culture now forget their historical legacy in coal mining, to move onwards to new work, he asks: ‘The state’s biggest employer now is Walmart, WHAT new jobs?’ illustrates his brilliance. Despite his experience, sharp wit, and hard grit, he purposefully delivered his material in an understated, subtle + humble manner, imo. Only the cool and the wise can truly reach + teach, AND do so without a soapbox or pulpit. Anthony Bourdain was one of a few. He is missed SO MUCH
Excellent analysis and review. I am not one to say that that I love any on-air personality; I don't. But I loved Bourdain. He was a renaissance man - inquisitive, reverential, experimental, social, unpretentious, and sensitive. I also despise using cliches but he was a Sigma Male. I had the luck of running into (not literally) Bourdain at DFW International airport. I didn’t pull out my phone and take a pic, I didn’t ask him for an autograph. We passed each other, I gave him the nod and he gave me the nod right back. Life is complex and someone as complicated as Bourdain like had significant highs and lows. Many of have highs and lows - daily, weekly, monthly, etc. I just wish he had been willing to continue with the struggle and challenge of life. Because that is life and living.
Just stumbled on your channel! Amazing videos, keep up the good work and stay as you are!
Mate this video is fkn amazing. Thank you so much.
Very keen to see what you've got coming next.
great vid! glad im not the only person who has their internal monologue frequently taken over by mark corrigan
This video is great man. Keep it up!
Thanks so much!
Great video!!
GREAT tribute to a great man. New sub. Good luck with the future of your channel!
I think this does a really good job of putting Anthony Bourdain into context, and it's probably the best tribute I've seen. I pretty much grew up watching his shows. I actually saw him live, he came and did a show in my hometown. You have a new subscriber from me, this is really well done.