Child molesters are so evil and cruel, it breaks my heart .I wish i could protect every child.You sound like you have done some work to heal yourself. Please be kind to yourself, realize you were not one bit to blame.You are so brave. Please enjoy your life ,keep processing what happened, you are so intelligent, that is obvious. I hope you fall in love and have many good times ahead . Sending you love .💕💕💕💕💕
i am also a adult survivor of childhood sexual abuse and i want to thank you so much for sharing...xxx you are an extremely brave and courageous man. I am now standing on the road of courage, the courage to speak out. I am currently writing my story...it's hard but i am finally facing my pain, starring in straight in the face and i am 44 years old.
Facing the pain is often the way to healing. I didn't realize that until later on in the process. God Bless you and YOUR courage to speak. Not mine, YOURS!
Healing the Wounded Heart by Dan B Allander was so good. Take it slow on that part though, too much too fast isn't good. But its a GREAT book I promise, absolutely amazing. I told him on Facebook I thought he was born to write it.
Wow!!! now I know how my son felt he also got raped at 10, and I had no. clue he told me when he was 17 I cried for days. Thank you for sharing its important for me to understand him . For. awhile I tried to get him to who it was and he wouldn't say but now I know why. God Bless you always.
My heart goes out to you. My best friend, the one I loved so dearly, killed himself, as a result of rape in the marines. He had gone to boot camp, and he was raped there, when he returned he was never the same. He briefly mentioned it to me, but it isn’t until recently that I realized he was indeed raped. My heart bleeds every time I think of it.
I'm an ex marine and I was raped by three older guys soon after I got out of boot camp. I've made peace with it with the help of God but I've made a mess of my life. This goes on more than people know
I've been planning on joining us army, but I see a lot of cases of sexually abuse and bullying in males & females soldiers in all those branches. I am a African dude with a heavy fucking accent 😂, jokes aside, I really want to join, but damn I don't want any PTSD afterwards and end up killing mfs for no reasons.
@@hotshotmose4900 join the marines you having a low accent might stop you been raped it might not but make sure you fulfill your dream and join. Going to war is a big deal and killing another human being is a bigger deal you might never get over. Joining a Veterans club so you can talk to others about your experience in war helps but the nightmares will never leave you until the day you die. Theres been millions of marines live long lives like the 100yr old airforce Black man President Trump had attend his last State of the Nation address where Trump introduced the first Space force recruit the old captains grandson what an honour. I wish you a great service with the marines and long life. Onward.
I am also a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, I can't thank you enough for sharing your story as it made me feel less alone. You are so incredibly brave and strong and I wish you nothing but the best moving forward in life. I'm so proud of you, take care.
I understand Adam. We are the same age and effects me with severe depression and isolation. I even have self-harm thoughts but refuse to give in or stay silent. Family don't care so few that I trust love and comfort me. Adam, thanks for sharing and hopefully we can be each other's support. So many people just do not understand!!!!
I hope you have developed some friends who can help you deal with your situation. Don’t let yourself become a long term victim. Step away from your unhappy past and make a positive move to a better future. It can be yours but only if you let go of your past misery.
Don’t let the sick abuser control your life. You take control and get the support you need because you’re worth it. You are courageous and a wonderful human being.
PLEASE listen to him when he says this is gonna be heavy stuff and that you could be triggered. I was listening to this at work thinking I would be fine but now I'm in the stall crying. No offense I should have known better. But guys, watch this when you have a safe place to cry
Thank you for posting this video! Being raped messes you up in a million ways. While life may go on... the after effects, affect you forever. Those who haven't been there, have no idea of the hell you go through; again & again.
You have a beautiful soul. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I know you'll be able to fight this and overcome this traumatic experience. Sending you lots of love and light
Watching a movie scene of male rape (pulp fiction) has me imagining feelings of what it's like and it's hard not to feel rage, and despair, overall homicidal/suicidal thoughts and I think of it everytime I lay in my bed and... this is ALL from watching that movie scene the day before. I can't even imagine how actual victims has it. My heart goes out to you all.
Thank you for sharing. It is difficult. I read some of the other posts, and I feel for them, too. I, along with my younger brother, was molested for a long period of time by my dad. I pleaded with mom to make him stop, but she had her own set of problems and wouldn't believe me. So, I grew up afraid of everyone and trusting no one. Because of this, I acted differently and predators recognized my predicament. My childhood doctor and a police officer got me next. I was so scared I thought my pastor was going to molest me, but he just wanted to talk to me to find out what was going on. I couldn't tell him because I didn't know myself. For years, I thought my brain just stuffed all the memories into a little box and shoved it into a remote corner of my mind. My dad got remarried and later my stepmother informed me that my dad molested her three daughters. Everything came flooding back with a vengeance. I was a big, blubbering mess for quite sometime. With the help of therapists trained in these matters, I healed and healed some more. Much later, I had an epiphany that these memories were not hiding away somewhere in some dark recess; I truly believed that Jesus took those memories from me and held onto them because, as a little guy, I could not deal with the pain and would have killed myself. He gave them back when I was able to constructively deal with them. Now, as a teacher, I can see in others their pain. With courage, I calmly talk and start the ball rolling for their healing, too. All of you who write these posts have a special key to helping others. It is hard and gut-wrenching at times, but you can do it. You are not alone.
Sorry to hear that, I recommend a few books, they may help, but read slowly and dont rush the healing process. Dan B Allender has a great one. I hope all is well.
+Pauline Davis I dunno about all that, just putting it up to inspire and hopefully show someone a better route to healing. Thanks though. I hope all is well with you and yours.
listening to this..and I hear him say over and over how somehow he loathes himself..even wanting to go back for the man to achieve his orgasm. His self worth has been stolen.. his trust in mankind has been stolen. His religion is his band-aid.. but he still not fixed..he is still in pain..Hope this video has not set him up for another sexual predator. What is the worst here is his identity has been stolen. He is in the drivers seat now.. he still seems out of control with his feelings and emotions. such a attractive man who doesn`t even know the true value of his own life by subjecting himself to sharing his pain and he doesn`t even see his own strength by giving all the credit to the Lord. You are a survivor ..and you have to forgive and most important.. forgive yourself.. you were only a child. you did nothing wrong! Love yourself.. and the gifts you have!
I don't know why i'm watching this at 1 A.M., but your story is so encouraging! I was crying tears of sympathy and happiness at the same time! It warms my heart that you've found God in your life; you're such an adorable, wonderful guy.
I was 4 at the time & was spending the night with my Uncle's family who lived next door. I was so spoiled that I cried for my mom and dad, I knew they were at home and wanted someone to walk me home. I had 3 male cousins and was put to bed w the oldest who was 13 at the time and as we laid there in his bed, I was crying and he tried to comfort me & when nothing worked, he grabs my hand and puts it in his underwear. I immediately pulled my hand out and grabbed one of his blankets and a pillow and laid on the floor. I was mostly in shock from what had happened & although this made me quit crying, I didn't fall asleep but did pretend to be. This cousin today is in prison and will never get out, he did the same thing as an adult to his girlfriends child who at the time was the near age I was when it happened to him, although he went alot further w that child and for more than one occasion.
I think this video is much in need. That is something that needs to more support for males who have gone through this and suffered in silence, due to lack of awareness and support. Although this video is helpful to both male or female survivors of abuse too. It wasn't until recently that I had learned that boys were being sexually abuse just as much as girls have. I am a survivor of narcissist abuse, so I can't relate to mental health and physical issues that come to surface in adulthood, if not dealt with the trauma. C-PSTD, PTSD, etc. I think you are very brave and a wonderful advocate. And God, I am with you all the way on that one. He is an awesome God of love! I know, because he has worked miracles in my life as well! Keep up the good work and God bless, my friend!
You are brave. You will never know how helpful your sharing could be for young people who don’t even have the ability to process sexual abuses and traumas. Thank you.
I can really relate. Found your other vid about surrendering. I have a hard time surrendering because i feel like so much of my life as a child was out of control from molestation to complete family dysfunction abuse etc. Things are even crazier now and last year i was victimized again. I cant trust people they let u down or take advantage. Im having an even harder time trusting God cause I dont understand whats happening to me. And i dont trust myself cause everytime i step out on faith i end up in a bad situation. Im really trying hard to let go despite the depression fear and issues of self worth. Its hard. Sometimes i feel like im going crazy...i havent been to the doctor but i realized over time i have severe anxiety. Thanks for sharing your story its encouraging to see you standing after everything youve been through
This is so touching, you don't hear most males post there stories because they're embarrassed or scared,u really only see females but its also important for males to get recognized that this CAN happen to men as well, you're so brave u inspire me☺😊
+Jalasha Irmani As long as it helps spread awareness, that is the purpose and to show that Christ is there no matter what. I have seen Jesus work slowly in this process of healing and I will make a video on the steps I took and what brought me to those steps, eventually. But I appreciate what you said and I dont take it for granted. Much love!
Such courage and strength to face these extreme life-changing experiences affecting your childhood and adult life. As survivors, it is important to receive essential self-care: appropriate therapy from specialist skilled in male sexual abuse. Participating in healthy 12-step support groups, receiving family support and developing a strong spiritual identity and connection are essentials. Care of the body via healthy diet, moderate exercise, sufficient sleep Etc. Hats off to you for your willingness to share your story with others. God bless!
Well it’s been 7 years since you made this tape and I hope you are in a better place than you were then. You have had a bad time of it dealing with what happened to you. You didn’t say if the people who abused you were family or friends or strangers. You were taken advantage of plain and simple especially considering you were a child at the time. Drugs apparently deadened the pain it caused you. Seven years ago you came to the realization that you needed to deal with the reality of the transgressions that were visited upon you. I hope it turned out well for you. You must be 33 now and I hope you are living a better more reconciled life. Let me know how you are if you will. Pain is not good. Emotional or physical. It does things to us that aren’t beneficial. I hope your is gone.
For you to share this must be difficult so I applaud you. For all on here who have had the same or similar experience, know there is someone out here praying for you. 🙏🏼 You are unique and you are special.
Thank you for sharing, this happened to someone very close to me, he was very young too, it was a group of teenagers, he won't get help ... He suffers from addiction, his way to escape the pain and PTSD. I don't know how to help him.
+CocoCali M I wish I had an answer for that, but some people have to realize their need before they can accept the help, even if you've approached him about the situation. IF you are a Christian I suggest prayer, but if you really want to help, be there for him and see his problems as a result of the trauma and not merely a choice they made on their own. Not that he hasnt made those choices, but they are fruits of a ROOT problem. Just be a friend, in time you may be the one he opens up to in order to get that help. So just be available.
I understand the part where you are talking about the guilt. When we are young or naive we are more vulnerable in persuading ourselves that we owe the world our limitless selves, when what we owe is our loving creation of ourselves.Immense respect for you sir.Thank you!
Loving creation of ourselves... I’m intrigued by your words. Thank you, I need to stop destroying myself from my guilt and shame. I’ve maybe heard but wasn’t hearing that. Adam’s sharing opened my own hidden box of unhealed pain and suffering. Your words , helped me realize creation of ourselves , lovingly is the truth I sought to achieve yet always destroy any time evidence appears it’s happening. I have things to ponder thank you BOTH for allowing me to peak into my self destructive pain and actions.
Oh my goodness, it is….surreal to hear another man give words to so much of what I have experienced and think. I am starting to deal with what happened when I was eight. I struggle with self hatred and feeling like I deserved for it to happen. I also imagine it happening again. And when I am down I think about other guys beating me up. In a twisted way that helps me feel better. The hardest part of dealing with all of this has been to wonder where Jesus was when it happened and He didn’t stop it. However, I am gradually making my way back to Jesus. Thanks so much for your courage sharing this. I realize that you recorded this several years ago and are in a different place. I wish you strength and peace on your journey.
If you ever need to talk, let me know! Peace! God will lead you into healing, it may take some time, some professional help and lots of getting lies out and His truth in, but I am in the same recovery mode. God is able.
I understand. I also have p.t.s. cause of my childhood stuff.... I too am a Christian... You are now on a healing journey like me.... I Pray that God will help you on your journery... and that no matter what happens to you on your healing journey I pray that God will help you keep your faith in Jesus Name Amen.......
I live in vernon, b.c. canada. and I go to the vernon alliance church if you are ever this way come visist us.... bill howse I pray God will bless you really reallly lots....
Thank you for sharing your experiences frankly. I recently opened up to my family about many years of sexual abuse that was done to me by an immediate family member. I hoped to keep my experiences locked up deep and forgotten.
Your are brave. 17:27 I get what you are saying its almost like having rape fantasies i don't see myself having a normal sexual relationship almost like a "if you want it take it" type of mindset the choice was taken away from me and having the choice now is just confusing.
I hear you on that. I know exactly how that feels. It's like your mind is saying you didn't get what you want fully so take it. But you got what you needed and that's survival. That means you overcame one of the most horrific experiences and learned to live through and past it. God will remove that. I've noticed this, there is a cycle that takes place, a cycle that goes around and around and it can be sex, it can be the wrong guy/girls entering your life, its something of the SAME nature that creeps in and stays around. The key is finding that too. I didn't add that to this video because well, it took me a while to recognize some stuff. I hope everything is ok with you and remember, you are the brave one. And trust me, I know what you mean by that and another person who hasn't experienced it doesn't so its frustrating to them, but normal to you. But those are barriers, I call them strongholds because of the Christian thing, but they can be broken through. It's like an intrusive thought that can come into your head in moments even during sex and it causes you to like space out, its hard to explain, but just like guilt, which is normally the first thing a person experiences when this type of thing surfaces, the whole it's my fault, can be overcome, so can that. It just may take time. Granted you don't want to be in that CYCLE to break that. Because its dangerous and I'm not saying you are. Stay strong and if you ever wanna talk, here I am.
RestoredForHim thank you for the kind words I'd definitely like to be able to talk about this more privately especially knowing that it's so much easier to get my point across to someone who is who has almost the same experience and understands my struggles and just what I'm going through as a hole. Thanks.
It's no problem at all. I understand all of what happens and how it feels and even down to the fact it hurts other people by your choices. It really rewires your brain, but there are ways to jump the hurdles, but you go slow. Dan B Allender the Wounded Heart is a GREAT book. I think that's the best of all 20 plus I have.
Keeping the secret is what the enemy wants, because all the.things we keep in the dark the enemy uses this against us. Your are very brave, and courageous you my man, shedding light into those dark places, and acknowledging what happened is the start of the healing process.I We need to remember we the adult was not the one who suffered, we have to realise we were little children. And the child within us needs us the adults to speak out for them as they had no voice, no choice, and no protection. Bless you for.sharing.
Thank you and at the same time I am sorry. If you ever are looking for material to read that definitely helped me, let me know. God Bless Justin and I will be honest, it does get better as you slowly get through things, contemplate them and see them in a different light. Never be ashamed to get some guidance from a professional. Peace my man, keep your head up and know Gods got your back. It. gets. better!
I would like you to know that I landed here from a video that had a short clip of your video on victoms of abuse. I also see that you posted this many years ago. I just wanted you to know that I am so incredibly sorry you were sexually abused, and am so hoping that you are doing well today. Here's sending you a huge hug and wishing you the best that life has to offer.
I'm sorry that you went through this as well. I recommend a book by Bessel Van Der Kolk, M.D. titled The Body Keeps the Score; Brain, Mind, and Body in The Healing of Trauma (amazing book).
I told 5 of the closest people to me. All 5 didn’t believe me and I only speak to 1 of the 5 people now. Be careful who you open up to as once that shit is out there’s no going back. My advice is try to find peace from within yourself as you cannot find peace in external validation, your issues are your issues to deal with and someone else who hasn’t experienced the same cannot relate.
Man, I'm not even worried about that, I did this for the people. If anyone cuts ties with me the strings were cut on purpose. I'm for the helping of another person.
May God comfort you with great comfort. The LORD heal you everyday, forever.🤍 And thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry for all that happened.
This video was put on You Tube in 2014. It is now 2021. I don't know where you are or how you are now, but I hope you are well and happy. There is one particular aspect of your video (I won't say which item) that I have experienced as you have. I have never revealed this to anyone and probably never will, but it gave me tremendous comfort to know that I am not alone in this. Thank you for your courage. God's blessings upon you.
God bless you brother. I was abused when i was 9 by 3 seperate males (on numerous occasions). As a christian I can forgive them, but the pain is still there. I will be undergoing theraputic help, and I am in constant touch with my pastor. Stay strong.
GOD BLESS you brother for this testimony. The brethren and I are going to a gay pride event in less than two weeks to do some evangelizing and ministering, so this was on time. Whatever advice you have would be great because I know that many individuals out there have been hurt deeply through the lust and demons of others. My fiancé also went through this when she was younger, so it has been a battle for her to overcome, but through Christ she has certainly been strengthened a great deal, amen.
Dont be critical or judgmental is my top one. It's the goodness (love of God) that draws a person to repentance. (Romans 2:4). Be that example of the love of God. New Living Translation: Rom 2:4 Don't you see how wonderfully kind, tolerant, and patient God is with you? Does this mean nothing to you? Can't you see that His kindness is intended to turn you from your sin?
What a credit to you, man hold you head your courage to face this for the Benefit of others is impressive ... Find your peace within man and be happy you so deserve that... God bless....
Thank you so much adam!. I have never seen such an open and honest explanation of how it affects us as adults. i can relate to so much that you talk about. im going to look on facebook for you. its good to hsve support systems. God bless and thanks again for being so brave
You are such a brave and caring young man. Thank you for your courage. No doubt you will save many people heal many people and reach many people that need to hear your message. I am a counseling student and also have bipolar disorder. Suicide and death were my closest friends growing up. Talking with someone about these issues is crucial for healing. And yes, Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. He helped me through my struggles and my darkest times so that I could help somebody else. It's not about us it's about him. And it's about you. Because indeed, he did die for us to show that he cares enough to give us his life. Thank you very much for your powerful testimony. It gave me hope even though I didn't suffer similarly. Certainly, it will give many people hope to heal.
+Darryl Jackson No doubt, anytime you wanna talk hit me up! I have a FB.com/elevated4Him. God Bless man, you've already endured the worst that could happen. Now you are free to pursue your goals, dreams and desires.
Wow this was such an amazing testimony. I think the most raw & powerful thing I've ever heard. Bless you & your family & I hope you have a wonderful Christmas of 2021. 🙏✝️♾❤
You are growing wise through Christ helping you deal with your past. All the feelings are completely normal. Keep up your journey and thanks for sharing. It helps someone
I just ran across your video thank you for sharing. I don’t know why I’m woke at 1:28 but I ran across your story and I was molested as a child and went to children therapy for years. I couldn’t for a long time hold long term relationships because I have severe trust issues. I been in therapy for a long time and I’m finally ready for a long time relationship and also wanted to wait until my kids were grown. I pray that you are doing better in your healing process.
God bless you for sharing your story. It must've been horrific! My grandchild was born from rape 5 yrs ago. Shes a beautiful, healthy, happy, loved little girl. Her mama found a good man who loves my girls with all his heart. You can have that too some day, if you so desire. You deserve every happiness. My daughter is healing. Shes happy most of the time, considering what she went thru. Lots of abuse as well, before the rape. We don't talk about it because my daughter is a private person & we live in a rural community. Both girls are loved immensely. May you find what you're looking for, with God's help & guidance. Big hugs!
Great insights Adam. We have many videos on childhood sexual abuse that may help you through the rest of this - I especially love Diane Langberg's video. They're at www.PurePassion.us. Choose the thumbnail called "Child Sex Abuse". There are dozens of testimonies and teaching there. Bless you.
Thank you for opening up about your abuse. Something similar happened to me when I was young and it took me some time to work through it. I wish you the best.
You are a precious child of God....He loves you so much! Thank you for your courage and honesty and for reaching out to others. He “works all things together for good for those who love Him”. And He is giving you work to do for Him in these dark times.
I hope you are happy now, or at least happier. Maybe you have already considered this, but if you haven't, I would definitely recommend emdr with a hypnotherapist. I was assaulted(not raped), by someone I trusted, in my late teens and it really messed me up. I went through all the typical symptoms that assault victims go through.
As the man (Gen 1:26-28) KJV, a husband (Gen 2:21-25) and a father (Gen 3:16), the minister of God (Rom 13), teacher (Eph 4) and one of the survivors who was bullied in school, I am so sorry this happened to you. If I could have protected you from being harmed, I would have, but I can not be everywhere all at once.
Right, I was called to preach and have, but lately, it's like......I mean if you see this, pray for me to return. I don't know how I got away, how I...just got apethatic, but all I can say is I still believe prayer can resensitize the heart to the Holy Spirits voice and work.
this has helped me understand my boyfriends situation. i appreciate this i only got through half because i am at work. but it did get me emotional. he is ALWAYS on guard. alcoholic and has signs of drug use ptsd etc. ... anyways i dont wana put his business out there like that but this was helpful as to why his path is the way it is.. i thank you so much for htis video you have helped so many people. keep looking towards God and you shall be healed within time.
F*** that s*** I remember everything I remember everything and I used to wonder why what was I doing I never go to shame I didn't even know what that meant but I used to just sit and go why what am I doing. This is a big help thank you so much 😭😭🤧✨💜✨🏆🏆🏆😎
It doesn’t matter whether it was rape or not! Abuse is abuse, and it’s all just as bad. When I was young I was abused, and because it wasn’t rape everyone except my husband has minimized my experience including pastors and supposed friends and loved ones. I can relate to men because people tend to minimize their abuse. Just know that you have every right to hurt. Never believe anyone if they minimize you and never minimize your abuse. I have and it’s really messed me up.
Well the great thing is, today can change that. It's a choice, it may be terribly tough, but it can still take place. Slow and steady is better than "one day ill go into this."
This message was very honest and helped a lot of people. I think it would be interesting to hear about your life now that eight years have passed. Please post an update
You are a lovely young man, This was not YOUR fault!.....Those bastards hurt you because you were there and you were young and Innocent and you knew nothing about this side of life. I feel for you...anyway your lovely and thats a fact!!!!
Well said, accurate from my personal experience and a good message of salvation to those who've been down this road. I'm saved but I still think from time to time that God must hate my guts. It's a daily struggle. God bless young man, you've got a lot of intestinal fortitude to say the least.
Only by God's Holy Spirit can anyone do what is right. People are evil because of the devil and falling angels and once we understand people sin in ignorance and they are not in their right mind because they are under the influence of the devil. I find reading the Word of God shows me to not take things personally because it has nothing to do with us and what others do to us we can forgive because their actions are from evil spirits. We have to constantly walk in the spirit so we do not do the things of the flesh. We all at anytime can harm someone if we do not accept Jesus to help us not harm others through His Holy Spirit. I have been where you were I have forgave those that harmed me as a child and now I do understand the spirit behind the evil actions I can forgive the person and pray for them. In time God does completely heal anyone that starts to forgive and understand that people sin in ignorance. No one can force anyone to accept Jesus only He gently opens eyes and God takes time with us to allow us to heal from the pain. He will also keep us not remembering certain things that would harm us if we remember what happened in our past. God is very kind and loves everyone He wants us all to love and forgive one another because we all have hurt someone and need forgiveness. May God fill everyone with His Holy Spirit so we can all forgive and love one another through the pain in Jesus Name Amen.
Sometimes perpetrators of child sexual abuse or domestic violence are victims of sexual abuse themselves. If they don’t seek healing through Jesus, they may stay inside the vicious circle.
Ok I'm half way and to start with I'm glad you did this..BUT you should have written it all down and rehearsed it a few times before making your video..I was a victim too but I was made to believe I wasn't and I remember everything and don't hesitate to say it. RESTORED BY HIM you don't seem restored. You are still affected by this past. You are holding back and you may not remember because you put it away and you didn't want to remember then or now...I'm 69 and all my memories are vivid...I was depressed and suicidal and on drugs and alcohol and then I was saved and reborn and nothing mattered..I asked God to forgive them ONCE and I know HE did. Fom that day forward I didn't need a crutch, I didn't want or need anything to kill that memory. I wanted to remember every detail of what happened and I did and remembering everything didn't mean what it had meant before. I wrote everything down and I've lived a wonderful life. God Bless You.
For 69 you shouldn't form any type of accusation towards someone who was around 26 or so when they did a video to help others, not themselves. That's blatant ignorance in itself. Most people don't know what it does to a person, so I took my own approach. By Gods divine will my wife and I met through this video itself. As far as being fully restored, life in itself is a restoration process and Christ isn't finished with anyone according to the Bible. Philippians 1:6. I've been through the fire. However, I do notice you said "God forgave them" but if they don't acknowledge their own wrongs, how could God forgive them? The main focal point on many abuse victims is SELF-forgiveness. A lot of people pretend in videos, I didn't. I didn't need to do various remakes and retakes because I trusted God to use the video as it was, raw and unfiltered so that my life experience could help someone else. Now, if you want a presentation, theologically and psychologically, I could do that in about 2 hours. However, my video was to show the flaws in me, people and how God can help, but at the same time not force God down a persons throat, because that's wrong. The video is here for one purpose; to help, not to promote my ability to speak. I could have written it, as I did a book. And, yes I remember everything, from words to smells. And through that I glorify God, because I see He is a good God and sovereign, as I said He aligned me and my wife through this video.
You need to forgive yourself. You did nothing, but respond as a kid who doesn't understand what's happening. stop apologizing. You have no need to. This was forced upon you. you have no culpability. It's so hard to let go. be strong for yourself.
Yes its true we try to forget it but it keeps hunting us it keeps coming in my dream i cant tell it to others beacuse im ashamed and your story is like mine i was 8 but the man did not ask me he force me i said no but he black mail me that if i do not do what he want he will do it with my sisters so i let him and he said my family will leave me beasue they will be ashamed so i did not tell any but now im 14 but a movie tregger it and im shaking and i cant stop crying
@@EquippedForHim praise God, you are yet trusting in him ! Be encourage and know that whatever happens in life, God allows for reasons sometimes unknown . However, we should know that it's working for our good . Therefore, it should make us better, instead of bitter. Be strong in the Lord and keep the faith. Stay in touch and know, I will be here to help. God bless .
Wow somebody had the nerve to actually talk about it that is amazing I find myself identifying with every word I used to think what am I doing to attract this I don't understand.
Child molesters are so evil and cruel, it breaks my heart .I wish i could protect every child.You sound like you have done some work to heal yourself. Please be kind to yourself, realize you were not one bit to blame.You are so brave. Please enjoy your life ,keep processing what happened, you are so intelligent, that is obvious. I hope you fall in love and have many good times ahead . Sending you love .💕💕💕💕💕
i am also a adult survivor of childhood sexual abuse and i want to thank you so much for sharing...xxx you are an extremely brave and courageous man. I am now standing on the road of courage, the courage to speak out. I am currently writing my story...it's hard but i am finally facing my pain, starring in straight in the face and i am 44 years old.
Facing the pain is often the way to healing. I didn't realize that until later on in the process. God Bless you and YOUR courage to speak. Not mine, YOURS!
Thank you. I am now openly living as a adult survivor of childhood sexual abuse and feel so much strength in living this way.
Healing the Wounded Heart by Dan B Allander was so good. Take it slow on that part though, too much too fast isn't good. But its a GREAT book I promise, absolutely amazing. I told him on Facebook I thought he was born to write it.
Wow!!! now I know how my son felt he also got raped at 10, and I had no. clue he told me when he was 17 I cried for days. Thank you for sharing its important for me to understand him . For. awhile I tried to get him to who it was and he wouldn't say but now I know why. God Bless you always.
I just wrote this, maybe it's for you? equippingu4him.com
My heart goes out to you. My best friend, the one I loved so dearly, killed himself, as a result of rape in the marines. He had gone to boot camp, and he was raped there, when he returned he was never the same. He briefly mentioned it to me, but it isn’t until recently that I realized he was indeed raped. My heart bleeds every time I think of it.
God Bless you Tia.
I'm an ex marine and I was raped by three older guys soon after I got out of boot camp. I've made peace with it with the help of God but I've made a mess of my life. This goes on more than people know
@@fredalwatkins4506 Yes it does, God Bless and God will help you.
I've been planning on joining us army, but I see a lot of cases of sexually abuse and bullying in males & females soldiers in all those branches. I am a African dude with a heavy fucking accent 😂, jokes aside, I really want to join, but damn I don't want any PTSD afterwards and end up killing mfs for no reasons.
@@hotshotmose4900 join the marines you having a low accent might stop you been raped it might not but make sure you fulfill your dream and join.
Going to war is a big deal and killing another human being is a bigger deal you might never get over.
Joining a Veterans club so you can talk to others about your experience in war helps but the nightmares will never leave you until the day you die.
Theres been millions of marines live long lives like the 100yr old airforce Black man President Trump had attend his last State of the Nation address where Trump introduced the first Space force recruit the old captains grandson what an honour.
I wish you a great service with the marines and long life. Onward.
I am also a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, I can't thank you enough for sharing your story as it made me feel less alone. You are so incredibly brave and strong and I wish you nothing but the best moving forward in life. I'm so proud of you, take care.
I understand Adam. We are the same age and effects me with severe depression and isolation. I even have self-harm thoughts but refuse to give in or stay silent. Family don't care so few that I trust love and comfort me. Adam, thanks for sharing and hopefully we can be each other's support. So many people just do not understand!!!!
I have already buddy.
I hope you have developed some friends who can help you deal with your situation. Don’t let yourself become a long term victim. Step away from your unhappy past and make a positive move to a better future. It can be yours but only if you let go of your past misery.
Don’t let the sick abuser control your life. You take control and get the support you need because you’re worth it. You are courageous and a wonderful human being.
May God give you true friends, neighbours.
PLEASE listen to him when he says this is gonna be heavy stuff and that you could be triggered. I was listening to this at work thinking I would be fine but now I'm in the stall crying. No offense I should have known better. But guys, watch this when you have a safe place to cry
Sorry about that my friend.
+RestoredForHim that's totally okay 💖
Thank you for posting this video! Being raped messes you up in a million ways. While life may go on... the after effects, affect you forever. Those who haven't been there, have no idea of the hell you go through; again & again.
Not a problem, as long as it sheds some light.
You have a beautiful soul. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I know you'll be able to fight this and overcome this traumatic experience. Sending you lots of love and light
+xxNitroaaaaxx Thanks.
Watching a movie scene
of male rape (pulp fiction) has me imagining feelings of what it's like and it's hard not to feel rage, and despair, overall homicidal/suicidal thoughts and I think of it everytime I lay in my bed and... this is ALL from watching that movie scene the day before. I can't even imagine how actual victims has it. My heart goes out to you all.
+The KOЯNY BEEFPIE I appreciate that.
Bruh that scene go crazy I was 10 when I watched that bs with my parents. I have baby boomer spycho parents so they don't give a fuck what they watcg
You could have bit his D
Thank you for sharing. It is difficult. I read some of the other posts, and I feel for them, too. I, along with my younger brother, was molested for a long period of time by my dad. I pleaded with mom to make him stop, but she had her own set of problems and wouldn't believe me. So, I grew up afraid of everyone and trusting no one. Because of this, I acted differently and predators recognized my predicament. My childhood doctor and a police officer got me next. I was so scared I thought my pastor was going to molest me, but he just wanted to talk to me to find out what was going on. I couldn't tell him because I didn't know myself. For years, I thought my brain just stuffed all the memories into a little box and shoved it into a remote corner of my mind. My dad got remarried and later my stepmother informed me that my dad molested her three daughters. Everything came flooding back with a vengeance. I was a big, blubbering mess for quite sometime. With the help of therapists trained in these matters, I healed and healed some more. Much later, I had an epiphany that these memories were not hiding away somewhere in some dark recess; I truly believed that Jesus took those memories from me and held onto them because, as a little guy, I could not deal with the pain and would have killed myself. He gave them back when I was able to constructively deal with them. Now, as a teacher, I can see in others their pain. With courage, I calmly talk and start the ball rolling for their healing, too. All of you who write these posts have a special key to helping others. It is hard and gut-wrenching at times, but you can do it. You are not alone.
Sorry to hear that, I recommend a few books, they may help, but read slowly and dont rush the healing process. Dan B Allender has a great one. I hope all is well.
you are so strong and brave, you have helped so many people, you truly are a child of God.♥
+Pauline Davis I dunno about all that, just putting it up to inspire and hopefully show someone a better route to healing. Thanks though. I hope all is well with you and yours.
Sorry if my words upset you, wishing you well , and i still think your awesome.
Pauline Davis
No, no, I am fine. Trust me. lol.
♥
Thank you for sharing your story to empower other men to understand that there is nothing to be ashamed of if they have been victimized.
+Brianna Rivera As long as it helps, that's all that matters to me.
Thankyou for sharing. You're words have absolutely helped me 💙
listening to this..and I hear him say over and over how somehow he loathes himself..even wanting to go back for the man to achieve his orgasm. His self worth has been stolen.. his trust in mankind has been stolen. His religion is his band-aid.. but he still not fixed..he is still in pain..Hope this video has not set him up for another sexual predator. What is the worst here is his identity has been stolen. He is in the drivers seat now.. he still seems out of control with his feelings and emotions. such a attractive man who doesn`t even know the true value of his own life by subjecting himself to sharing his pain and he doesn`t even see his own strength by giving all the credit to the Lord. You are a survivor ..and you have to forgive and most important.. forgive yourself.. you were only a child. you did nothing wrong! Love yourself.. and the gifts you have!
What an honest and intelligent man
I don't know why i'm watching this at 1 A.M., but your story is so encouraging! I was crying tears of sympathy and happiness at the same time! It warms my heart that you've found God in your life; you're such an adorable, wonderful guy.
+Madison Molloy Thank ya!
I was 4 at the time & was spending the night with my Uncle's family who lived next door. I was so spoiled that I cried for my mom and dad, I knew they were at home and wanted someone to walk me home. I had 3 male cousins and was put to bed w the oldest who was 13 at the time and as we laid there in his bed, I was crying and he tried to comfort me & when nothing worked, he grabs my hand and puts it in his underwear. I immediately pulled my hand out and grabbed one of his blankets and a pillow and laid on the floor. I was mostly in shock from what had happened & although this made me quit crying, I didn't fall asleep but did pretend to be. This cousin today is in prison and will never get out, he did the same thing as an adult to his girlfriends child who at the time was the near age I was when it happened to him, although he went alot further w that child and for more than one occasion.
I am sorry to hear about all that. I hope everything is going well in your life. God Bless
I think this video is much in need. That is something that needs to more support for males who have gone through this and suffered in silence, due to lack of awareness and support.
Although this video is helpful to both male or female survivors of abuse too. It wasn't until recently that I had learned that boys were being sexually abuse just as much as girls have.
I am a survivor of narcissist abuse, so I can't relate to mental health and physical issues that come to surface in adulthood, if not dealt with the trauma. C-PSTD, PTSD, etc.
I think you are very brave and a wonderful advocate. And God, I am with you all the way on that one. He is an awesome God of love! I know, because he has worked miracles in my life as well!
Keep up the good work and God bless, my friend!
This is true, very few talk about men, to be honest. I am sorry about your events, healing is available. God Bless!
What a brave and beautiful man. This is going to help so many men accept themselves and reach for help. Thank you.
This is the most real account of sexual abuse I have heard.. your amazingly strong for sharing. Thank you.
thank you so much I am going through some stuff with my stepfather and this is really a relief to see I'm not alone.Thank you really
No problem at all. You'll get through it, remember the keyword is "through."
Thank you for being brave and honest. Your openness is rare.
Wow man, i truly commend your bravery in sharing such a traumatic event
If it helped, it was worth it.
god bless you bro, u are brave
You are brave!
You are brave.
You will never know how helpful your sharing could be for young people who don’t even have the ability to process sexual abuses and traumas.
Thank you.
I can really relate. Found your other vid about surrendering. I have a hard time surrendering because i feel like so much of my life as a child was out of control from molestation to complete family dysfunction abuse etc. Things are even crazier now and last year i was victimized again. I cant trust people they let u down or take advantage. Im having an even harder time trusting God cause I dont understand whats happening to me. And i dont trust myself cause everytime i step out on faith i end up in a bad situation. Im really trying hard to let go despite the depression fear and issues of self worth. Its hard. Sometimes i feel like im going crazy...i havent been to the doctor but i realized over time i have severe anxiety. Thanks for sharing your story its encouraging to see you standing after everything youve been through
Have you tried a doctor by now?
+Aiyanatb Hope you're doing better now?
This is so touching, you don't hear most males post there stories because they're embarrassed or scared,u really only see females but its also important for males to get recognized that this CAN happen to men as well, you're so brave u inspire me☺😊
+Jalasha Irmani As long as it helps spread awareness, that is the purpose and to show that Christ is there no matter what. I have seen Jesus work slowly in this process of healing and I will make a video on the steps I took and what brought me to those steps, eventually. But I appreciate what you said and I dont take it for granted. Much love!
❤❤❤❤Love to u as well
If you need prayer and talk about anything, not just a subject like this. Peace!
Let me know, that was left out so it didnt make much sense lol
Lol, made plenty of sense❤ inspired me to upload my story and try and help spread awareness as well😘
Blown away by this. You have the heart of a lion dude. God bless you.
You do too.
Such courage and strength to face these extreme life-changing experiences affecting your childhood and adult life.
As survivors, it is important to receive essential self-care: appropriate therapy from specialist skilled in male sexual abuse. Participating in healthy 12-step support groups, receiving family support and developing a strong spiritual identity and connection are essentials. Care of the body via healthy diet, moderate exercise, sufficient sleep
Etc. Hats off to you for your willingness to share your story with others. God bless!
Yes mam that is all true. Unfortunately, the betrayal often leads us to do more FOR OTHERS than ourselves at times. We forget about us often.
@@EquippedForHim always sadly in my case. I can’t do for myself at all. Only pleasure I get is helping others.
Thank you so much for this man…for having the guts to be so honest-just thanks.
not a problem I just hope it helps others. Have a great weekend.
Well it’s been 7 years since you made this tape and I hope you are in a better place than you were then. You have had a bad time of it dealing with what happened to you. You didn’t say if the people who abused you were family or friends or strangers. You were taken advantage of plain and simple especially considering you were a child at the time. Drugs apparently deadened the pain it caused you. Seven years ago you came to the realization that you needed to deal with the reality of the transgressions that were visited upon you. I hope it turned out well for you. You must be 33 now and I hope you are living a better more reconciled life. Let me know how you are if you will. Pain is not good. Emotional or physical. It does things to us that aren’t beneficial. I hope your is gone.
Thank you for your candidness and bravery, Adam.
+Jacqueline Minnis Thanks for your love and support. Its not unnoticed.
For you to share this must be difficult so I applaud you.
For all on here who have had the same or similar experience, know there is someone out here praying for you. 🙏🏼 You are unique and you are special.
I appreciate it and I hope it helps others find solace in some degree.
My sister always said to pray with your tennis shoes on because god is and will do the heart work, but YOU have to do the footwork.
Thank you for sharing, this happened to someone very close to me, he was very young too, it was a group of teenagers, he won't get help ... He suffers from addiction, his way to escape the pain and PTSD. I don't know how to help him.
+CocoCali M I wish I had an answer for that, but some people have to realize their need before they can accept the help, even if you've approached him about the situation. IF you are a Christian I suggest prayer, but if you really want to help, be there for him and see his problems as a result of the trauma and not merely a choice they made on their own. Not that he hasnt made those choices, but they are fruits of a ROOT problem. Just be a friend, in time you may be the one he opens up to in order to get that help. So just be available.
I understand the part where you are talking about the guilt. When we are young or naive we are more vulnerable in persuading ourselves that we owe the world our limitless selves, when what we owe is our loving creation of ourselves.Immense respect for you sir.Thank you!
Loving creation of ourselves... I’m intrigued by your words. Thank you, I need to stop destroying myself from my guilt and shame. I’ve maybe heard but wasn’t hearing that. Adam’s sharing opened my own hidden box of unhealed pain and suffering. Your words , helped me realize creation of ourselves , lovingly is the truth I sought to achieve yet always destroy any time evidence appears it’s happening. I have things to ponder thank you BOTH for allowing me to peak into my self destructive pain and actions.
@@growbydoing7290 this answer has elevated my spirit ! So grateful for having the chance to communicate our deepest thoughts 🙏
@@irenezerva5274 Thank you again Irene , I truly appreciate you.
Oh my goodness, it is….surreal to hear another man give words to so much of what I have experienced and think.
I am starting to deal with what happened when I was eight. I struggle with self hatred and feeling like I deserved for it to happen. I also imagine it happening again. And when I am down I think about other guys beating me up. In a twisted way that helps me feel better.
The hardest part of dealing with all of this has been to wonder where Jesus was when it happened and He didn’t stop it. However, I am gradually making my way back to Jesus.
Thanks so much for your courage sharing this. I realize that you recorded this several years ago and are in a different place. I wish you strength and peace on your journey.
If you ever need to talk, let me know! Peace! God will lead you into healing, it may take some time, some professional help and lots of getting lies out and His truth in, but I am in the same recovery mode. God is able.
You are a very strong man for going through this stuff. I am sure this will help other males out there feel not alone.
+TheSharz97 That is my goal. God Bless!
I understand. I also have p.t.s. cause of my childhood stuff.... I too am a Christian... You are now on a healing journey like me.... I Pray that God will help you on your journery... and that no matter what happens to you on your healing journey I pray that God will help you keep your faith in Jesus Name Amen.......
+Shy billy He's the only one. I appreciate your words.
I live in vernon, b.c. canada. and I go to the vernon alliance church if you are ever this way come visist us.... bill howse I pray God will bless you really reallly lots....
Mad respect, friend. You are not alone. Please keep healing and love yourself.
Thank you
I applaud you. Your very brave for this. You have strengthened me. And completely inspired me.
+Imani Adrea I appreciate you much.
This happened to me as a little girl and once I saw that “thing” I ran like crazy and told his father!!!👀
Good thinking
@@EquippedForHim IKR
Thank you for sharing your experiences frankly. I recently opened up to my family about many years of sexual abuse that was done to me by an immediate family member. I hoped to keep my experiences locked up deep and forgotten.
Keep your head up, it gets better. Go slow and do it the way you need to.
Your are brave. 17:27 I get what you are saying its almost like having rape fantasies i don't see myself having a normal sexual relationship almost like a "if you want it take it" type of mindset the choice was taken away from me and having the choice now is just confusing.
I hear you on that. I know exactly how that feels. It's like your mind is saying you didn't get what you want fully so take it. But you got what you needed and that's survival. That means you overcame one of the most horrific experiences and learned to live through and past it. God will remove that. I've noticed this, there is a cycle that takes place, a cycle that goes around and around and it can be sex, it can be the wrong guy/girls entering your life, its something of the SAME nature that creeps in and stays around. The key is finding that too. I didn't add that to this video because well, it took me a while to recognize some stuff. I hope everything is ok with you and remember, you are the brave one. And trust me, I know what you mean by that and another person who hasn't experienced it doesn't so its frustrating to them, but normal to you. But those are barriers, I call them strongholds because of the Christian thing, but they can be broken through. It's like an intrusive thought that can come into your head in moments even during sex and it causes you to like space out, its hard to explain, but just like guilt, which is normally the first thing a person experiences when this type of thing surfaces, the whole it's my fault, can be overcome, so can that. It just may take time. Granted you don't want to be in that CYCLE to break that. Because its dangerous and I'm not saying you are. Stay strong and if you ever wanna talk, here I am.
RestoredForHim thank you for the kind words I'd definitely like to be able to talk about this more privately especially knowing that it's so much easier to get my point across to someone who is who has almost the same experience and understands my struggles and just what I'm going through as a hole. Thanks.
It's no problem at all. I understand all of what happens and how it feels and even down to the fact it hurts other people by your choices. It really rewires your brain, but there are ways to jump the hurdles, but you go slow. Dan B Allender the Wounded Heart is a GREAT book. I think that's the best of all 20 plus I have.
Keeping the secret is what the enemy wants, because all the.things we keep in the dark the enemy uses this against us.
Your are very brave, and courageous you my man, shedding light into those dark places, and acknowledging what happened is the start of the healing process.I
We need to remember we the adult was not the one who suffered, we have to realise we were little children.
And the child within us needs us the adults to speak out for them as they had no voice, no choice, and no protection.
Bless you for.sharing.
Thank you very much.
Wow, so much of what you’re saying is mirroring my life. Thanks for your honesty
Thank you and at the same time I am sorry. If you ever are looking for material to read that definitely helped me, let me know. God Bless Justin and I will be honest, it does get better as you slowly get through things, contemplate them and see them in a different light. Never be ashamed to get some guidance from a professional. Peace my man, keep your head up and know Gods got your back. It. gets. better!
I would like you to know that I landed here from a video that had a short clip of your video on victoms of abuse. I also see that you posted this many years ago. I just wanted you to know that I am so incredibly sorry you were sexually abused, and am so hoping that you are doing well today. Here's sending you a huge hug and wishing you the best that life has to offer.
I'd be interested to see the video, but thanks and the same to you. Thank your for your time and comment. God Bless my friend.
I'm sorry that you went through this as well. I recommend a book by Bessel Van Der Kolk, M.D. titled The Body Keeps the Score; Brain, Mind, and Body in The Healing of Trauma (amazing book).
Definitely will check it out. Dan B Allander has amazing books as well; healing the wounded heart.
I told 5 of the closest people to me. All 5 didn’t believe me and I only speak to 1 of the 5 people now.
Be careful who you open up to as once that shit is out there’s no going back.
My advice is try to find peace from within yourself as you cannot find peace in external validation, your issues are your issues to deal with and someone else who hasn’t experienced the same cannot relate.
Man, I'm not even worried about that, I did this for the people. If anyone cuts ties with me the strings were cut on purpose. I'm for the helping of another person.
May God comfort you with great comfort. The LORD heal you everyday, forever.🤍
And thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry for all that happened.
I'm so proud of you! God bless you, your teaching everyone that watches this.🙏
Thank you very much, I hope it helps someone. God Bless.
This video was put on You Tube in 2014. It is now 2021. I don't know where you are or how you are now, but I hope you are well and happy. There is one particular aspect of your video (I won't say which item) that I have experienced as you have. I have never revealed this to anyone and probably never will, but it gave me tremendous comfort to know that I am not alone in this. Thank you for your courage. God's blessings upon you.
No problem, God bless you as well. Still things linger....
God bless you brother. I was abused when i was 9 by 3 seperate males (on numerous occasions). As a christian I can forgive them, but the pain is still there. I will be undergoing theraputic help, and I am in constant touch with my pastor. Stay strong.
+perromanchado You are doing the right thing. Stay on that track.
Man I really fought the urge to not throw up. Jesus that’s horrible that these things are happening to children.
GOD BLESS you brother for this testimony. The brethren and I are going to a gay pride event in less than two weeks to do some evangelizing and ministering, so this was on time. Whatever advice you have would be great because I know that many individuals out there have been hurt deeply through the lust and demons of others. My fiancé also went through this when she was younger, so it has been a battle for her to overcome, but through Christ she has certainly been strengthened a great deal, amen.
Dont be critical or judgmental is my top one. It's the goodness (love of God) that draws a person to repentance. (Romans 2:4). Be that example of the love of God.
New Living Translation: Rom 2:4 Don't you see how wonderfully kind, tolerant, and patient God is with you? Does this mean nothing to you? Can't you see that His kindness is intended to turn you from your sin?
What a credit to you, man hold you head your courage to face this for the Benefit of others is impressive ... Find your peace within man and be happy you so deserve that... God bless....
Thanks!!!
Thank you so much adam!. I have never seen such an open and honest explanation of how it affects us as adults. i can relate to so much that you talk about. im going to look on facebook for you. its good to hsve support systems. God bless and thanks again for being so brave
You are such a brave and caring young man. Thank you for your courage. No doubt you will save many people heal many people and reach many people that need to hear your message. I am a counseling student and also have bipolar disorder. Suicide and death were my closest friends growing up. Talking with someone about these issues is crucial for healing. And yes, Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. He helped me through my struggles and my darkest times so that I could help somebody else. It's not about us it's about him. And it's about you. Because indeed, he did die for us to show that he cares enough to give us his life. Thank you very much for your powerful testimony. It gave me hope even though I didn't suffer similarly. Certainly, it will give many people hope to heal.
thank you for the kind words. God Bless.
Thanks for this brother i relate to you more then you know
+Darryl Jackson No doubt, anytime you wanna talk hit me up! I have a FB.com/elevated4Him. God Bless man, you've already endured the worst that could happen. Now you are free to pursue your goals, dreams and desires.
+Darryl Jackson oh i know so well his story from a womans point of view
Wow this was such an amazing testimony. I think the most raw & powerful thing I've ever heard. Bless you & your family & I hope you have a wonderful Christmas of 2021. 🙏✝️♾❤
You as well. God Bless! Have a great day tomorrow.
Thank you for sharing your story. I'm sorry that happened to you. I also am a survivor. God does have a plan!
+Larry Clemson You are a survivor, exactly right. I hope all is well with you.
God is good! He continues helping me along the road to healing.
You are growing wise through Christ helping you deal with your past. All the feelings are completely normal. Keep up your journey and thanks for sharing. It helps someone
I appreciate it, please pray for me as it still has its lingering effects. I appreciate it.
You really have a beautiful spirit. I think you've found your calling. You are an incredible speaker, orator. Bless your heart.
I am so sorry this happened to you. You look awesome, I cannot say why there are monster out there! my heart is broken.💔💯
I just ran across your video thank you for sharing. I don’t know why I’m woke at 1:28 but I ran across your story and I was molested as a child and went to children therapy for years. I couldn’t for a long time hold long term relationships because I have severe trust issues. I been in therapy for a long time and I’m finally ready for a long time relationship and also wanted to wait until my kids were grown. I pray that you are doing better in your healing process.
Same to you! I hope all is well. Keep on keeping on. You should look at my video of how I met my wife.
@@EquippedForHim I will definitely look at that video
God bless you for sharing your story. It must've been horrific! My grandchild was born from rape 5 yrs ago. Shes a beautiful, healthy, happy, loved little girl. Her mama found a good man who loves my girls with all his heart. You can have that too some day, if you so desire. You deserve every happiness. My daughter is healing. Shes happy most of the time, considering what she went thru. Lots of abuse as well, before the rape. We don't talk about it because my daughter is a private person & we live in a rural community. Both girls are loved immensely. May you find what you're looking for, with God's help & guidance. Big hugs!
Well said, well done 💖! Thank you for your courage. You are blessed & forgiven 🙏.
hey you,
whatever life throws at you, even if it hurts you, just be strong and fight through it. Remember strong walls shake but never collapse
+angel princess I appreciate that!
My pastor has the same poster in his prayer room in the church as you have!
I never thought I'd live to see 40 but I'm still here!
Great insights Adam. We have many videos on childhood sexual abuse that may help you through the rest of this - I especially love Diane Langberg's video. They're at www.PurePassion.us. Choose the thumbnail called "Child Sex Abuse". There are dozens of testimonies and teaching there. Bless you.
+David Kyle Foster Thanks for the info!
Thank you for opening up about your abuse. Something similar happened to me when I was young and it took me some time to work through it. I wish you the best.
Thanks, I appreciate it. Hope all is well.
You are a precious child of God....He loves you so much! Thank you for your courage and honesty and for reaching out to others. He “works all things together for good for those who love Him”. And He is giving you work to do for Him in these dark times.
Thank you for sharing. Your compassion for others shines through any touch of pain and sorrow from your past. Reflections of God for sure.
No doubt, thanks for watching I appreciate it.
I hope you are happy now, or at least happier. Maybe you have already considered this, but if you haven't, I would definitely recommend emdr with a hypnotherapist. I was assaulted(not raped), by someone I trusted, in my late teens and it really messed me up. I went through all the typical symptoms that assault victims go through.
As the man (Gen 1:26-28) KJV, a husband (Gen 2:21-25) and a father (Gen 3:16), the minister of God (Rom 13), teacher (Eph 4) and one of the survivors who was bullied in school, I am so sorry this happened to you. If I could have protected you from being harmed, I would have, but I can not be everywhere all at once.
Right, I was called to preach and have, but lately, it's like......I mean if you see this, pray for me to return. I don't know how I got away, how I...just got apethatic, but all I can say is I still believe prayer can resensitize the heart to the Holy Spirits voice and work.
thank you so much for this video. this is one of the best videos to help me heal
Not a problem, God Bless! Enjoy the journey and take it slowly.
this has helped me understand my boyfriends situation. i appreciate this i only got through half because i am at work. but it did get me emotional. he is ALWAYS on guard. alcoholic and has signs of drug use ptsd etc. ... anyways i dont wana put his business out there like that but this was helpful as to why his path is the way it is.. i thank you so much for htis video you have helped so many people. keep looking towards God and you shall be healed within time.
+givemecoffee 89 no problem at all, hope all gets well with him. Be his support and if he talks about it, just listen. God Bless! Pray for him
is there a way i can message you?? on youtube?
givemecoffee 89
I honestly have no idea how to look for messages on youtube, but if you have a Facebook.com/elevated4Him
sure i will message you its semaj marie saucier
Cool deal, still prefer Facebook lol.
Thankyou for sharing. Men are getting their voices.
Amen and Amen.🤍
And thank you for sharing your story.
Thanks for your story. I'm a male survivor as well.
+Alex Trebeck No doubt! Keep your head up!
RestoredForHim thank you my friend :)
F*** that s*** I remember everything I remember everything and I used to wonder why what was I doing I never go to shame I didn't even know what that meant but I used to just sit and go why what am I doing. This is a big help thank you so much 😭😭🤧✨💜✨🏆🏆🏆😎
It doesn’t matter whether it was rape or not! Abuse is abuse, and it’s all just as bad. When I was young I was abused, and because it wasn’t rape everyone except my husband has minimized my experience including pastors and supposed friends and loved ones. I can relate to men because people tend to minimize their abuse. Just know that you have every right to hurt. Never believe anyone if they minimize you and never minimize your abuse. I have and it’s really messed me up.
Well the great thing is, today can change that. It's a choice, it may be terribly tough, but it can still take place. Slow and steady is better than "one day ill go into this."
I'm so sorry this happened to you, you are a brave guy .thank you for sharing, I pray peace over your life .
Its all good. Thanks.
Respect for opening up like this i was 12 years old I'm now 31 and still struggle to speak out about this
I believe you are an earth angel Adam who God uses as a vessel to heal others . Im priviledged to hear your share .
Yes indeed
This message was very honest and helped a lot of people. I think it would be interesting to hear about your life now that eight years have passed. Please post an update
I plan on it, thanks for the information. Sub if you can, I have to write out an outline of the changes.
You are a lovely young man, This was not YOUR fault!.....Those bastards hurt you because you were there and you were young and Innocent and you knew nothing about this side of life. I feel for you...anyway your lovely and thats a fact!!!!
+Mary Oh I jumped that hurdle of self blame. Its totally against nature and Gods will to blame yourself for anything.
You're amazing. So strong 💙🖤
Thank you Adam,
I am passing this along to my best friend.
No problem, just hope it helps.
Well said, accurate from my personal experience and a good message of salvation to those who've been down this road. I'm saved but I still think from time to time that God must hate my guts.
It's a daily struggle. God bless young man, you've got a lot of intestinal fortitude to say the least.
Romans 8:1
Thank you thank you so much I don't know how many years has been it but I have to say thank you I can't hardly talk 😭😭🤧 thank you ✨💜✨
I feel better just listening to you.Thank you Adam
Only by God's Holy Spirit can anyone do what is right. People are evil because of the devil and falling angels and once we understand people sin in ignorance and they are not in their right mind because they are under the influence of the devil. I find reading the Word of God shows me to not take things personally because it has nothing to do with us and what others do to us we can forgive because their actions are from evil spirits.
We have to constantly walk in the spirit so we do not do the things of the flesh. We all at anytime can harm someone if we do not accept Jesus to help us not harm others through His Holy Spirit. I have been where you were I have forgave those that harmed me as a child and now I do understand the spirit behind the evil actions I can forgive the person and pray for them. In time God does completely heal anyone that starts to forgive and understand that people sin in ignorance.
No one can force anyone to accept Jesus only He gently opens eyes and God takes time with us to allow us to heal from the pain. He will also keep us not remembering certain things that would harm us if we remember what happened in our past. God is very kind and loves everyone He wants us all to love and forgive one another because we all have hurt someone and need forgiveness. May God fill everyone with His Holy Spirit so we can all forgive and love one another through the pain in Jesus Name Amen.
SparklePeace you are spot on. I love your message.
Sometimes perpetrators of child sexual abuse or domestic violence are victims of sexual abuse themselves. If they don’t seek healing through Jesus, they may stay inside the vicious circle.
Ok I'm half way and to start with I'm glad you did this..BUT you should have written it all down and rehearsed it a few times before making your video..I was a victim too but I was made to believe I wasn't and I remember everything and don't hesitate to say it. RESTORED BY HIM you don't seem restored. You are still affected by this past. You are holding back and you may not remember because you put it away and you didn't want to remember then or now...I'm 69 and all my memories are vivid...I was depressed and suicidal and on drugs and alcohol and then I was saved and reborn and nothing mattered..I asked God to forgive them ONCE and I know HE did. Fom that day forward I didn't need a crutch, I didn't want or need anything to kill that memory. I wanted to remember every detail of what happened and I did and remembering everything didn't mean what it had meant before. I wrote everything down and I've lived a wonderful life. God Bless You.
For 69 you shouldn't form any type of accusation towards someone who was around 26 or so when they did a video to help others, not themselves. That's blatant ignorance in itself. Most people don't know what it does to a person, so I took my own approach. By Gods divine will my wife and I met through this video itself. As far as being fully restored, life in itself is a restoration process and Christ isn't finished with anyone according to the Bible. Philippians 1:6. I've been through the fire. However, I do notice you said "God forgave them" but if they don't acknowledge their own wrongs, how could God forgive them? The main focal point on many abuse victims is SELF-forgiveness. A lot of people pretend in videos, I didn't. I didn't need to do various remakes and retakes because I trusted God to use the video as it was, raw and unfiltered so that my life experience could help someone else. Now, if you want a presentation, theologically and psychologically, I could do that in about 2 hours. However, my video was to show the flaws in me, people and how God can help, but at the same time not force God down a persons throat, because that's wrong. The video is here for one purpose; to help, not to promote my ability to speak. I could have written it, as I did a book. And, yes I remember everything, from words to smells. And through that I glorify God, because I see He is a good God and sovereign, as I said He aligned me and my wife through this video.
You need to forgive yourself. You did nothing, but respond as a kid who doesn't understand what's happening. stop apologizing. You have no need to. This was forced upon you. you have no culpability. It's so hard to let go. be strong for yourself.
Yes its true we try to forget it but it keeps hunting us it keeps coming in my dream i cant tell it to others beacuse im ashamed and your story is like mine i was 8 but the man did not ask me he force me i said no but he black mail me that if i do not do what he want he will do it with my sisters so i let him and he said my family will leave me beasue they will be ashamed so i did not tell any but now im 14 but a movie tregger it and im shaking and i cant stop crying
Sending you much love and prayers❤️🙏🏻
Glad to hear from you again ! How have you been doing ?
Can't complain, God willing going to do a more consistent level of TH-cam videos for Gods glory. And yourself?
@@EquippedForHim praise God, you are yet trusting in him ! Be encourage and know that whatever happens in life, God allows for reasons sometimes unknown . However, we should know that it's working for our good . Therefore, it should make us better, instead of bitter. Be strong in the Lord and keep the faith. Stay in touch and know, I will be here to help. God bless .
Wow somebody had the nerve to actually talk about it that is amazing I find myself identifying with every word I used to think what am I doing to attract this I don't understand.
Thank you for sharing your story! I'm also a Survivor of Rape and Sexual Abuse.