First, I just want to acknowledge the courage it took to make this video and be so vulnerable and honest. I wasn't sure why youtube recommended this video to me, but your story sounds nearly identical to mine. In 2022 my roommates drove me to attempt suicide, which lead to me having to give up my two dogs and move into a psychiatric group home/nursing home for a couple months. Luckily now I'm living with my dad instead, but I still can't get my dogs back... They're with my cousin, and I know they're being taken care of even better than I could manage (I was too broke to get them to the vet), but I still feel like a complete failure for having to let them go. I'm shaking typing this because it sucks to be reminded of how much I had to give up just to stay alive and still wondering if it's worth it some days. I'm going to be 37 in September, and I have very little going on in my life because of several disabilities. I don't write, play guitar, or follow my spiritual practices like I used to, but I'm still an author, musician, and Reverend, just as you're still an author despite time between writing sessions. I also don't especially feel like a "man" or any gender really, so I know how that can mess with your sense of identity. I don't want to offer any false platitudes or say that things will definitely get better, but things happen at certain times for a reason, like me seeing this video today. For me, it's a reminder of everything I've been through and survived. For you, I hope my story makes you feel less alone, and that you still have time for so many things to change. If you'd like to talk sometime, or if you'd like a tarot reading for your birthday, I'm happy to lend an ear and/or read some cards. Be well, fellow traveler, I'll be praying for you.
I hope you feel better, allowing one's self to feel the sadness is part of it. Sometimes we get stuck in a rut because we ignore the issues or run away from them by not processing them, so allowing yourself to feel these things is one of the steps. After that you can think "okay now what am I going to do to move forward" and start planning, which seems what you are doing.
You are absolutely right. That's sort of what I realized when I broke down; I'd been suppressing so much, but we HAVE to let ourselves feel things in order to move on from what's causing us pain. Thank you so much for your kind words.
I've been there. Thank you for telling us how you feel. You are not alone. Trying to live up to expectations is a unwinnable race. What has helped me is start by the minimum thing you can feel good about. I'll see you around
If there's one good thing that's come from the internet, it is learning that we aren't alone in our struggles, and many others have experienced much of what we've experienced ourselves. Thank you for your kindness! I will bear this in mind.
Trauma is a beast to deal with & the first step is recognizing that it's there. You've made progress with that already. It's really good that you're letting yourself feel those heavy emotions & showing yourself kindness. I really hope you feel better. You have so much self awareness & that is a great tool to help you work through these complex feelings & events. I think that finding a trauma therapist would be very beneficial for you. I relate a lot with what you talked about & I wish you all the best. Take care of yourself 🩷
I've definitely been working on studying all sorts of philosophy, therapy techniques like cognitive reframing and such, and even more spiritual practices like meditation and mindfulness, so I guess self-awareness is inevitable when you look into such things. I appreciate your kindness so much! I know where my trauma lies, now it's just a matter of learning how to overcome it. Much of it is related to grief, which I know never truly goes away, but learning to live with it would be beneficial. Thank you so, so, SO much, and I hope you take care of yourself as well!
I’m rooting for you man‼️❤️ I’ve also been realizing a lot of trauma/scary emotions. It’s worth it to address it because that’s how your true beautiful self will shine. GOOD LUCK MAN
It's very worth it to acknowledge our emotions and our trauma. Acknowledging those parts of ourselves is the first step to healing, after all. Thank you so much for your kind words! I'll be wishing the best for you as well!
I just stumbled upon this video but I am SO sorry to hear you're going through such a rough time:( But posting such a raw and vulnerable video so publicly is so brave which only further proves your strength. I hope things begin looking up for you soon, you deserve happiness:)
Hey man, I am in a similar headspace. It's horrible. If you're able, get therapy. You deserve to feel better. And therapy can help. You got a road ahead of you. Make it a good one. Much love ❤
You deserve to feel better too, that's for sure. I'm absolutely sending good vibes your way. Life's full of challenges, and I hope you can overcome them and come out the other side in better condition.
Hey man. I'm the same age as you, feeling like shit about life myself. Its ok to not be ok. I don't know you, but the algorithm seems to think I should. Subscribed. I know we're the oldest we've ever been, but if we could see the forest for the trees I know we would see that we still have the majority of life's opportunities ahead of us. Also, as a lifelong cat owner and confessed "cat person" I am so so sorry to hear about your cats. Please keep on. Don't count yourself out yet my friend.
I've been a similar place man. Not nearly as bad as you have it, so i can't speak for you. I can see you are probably not a religious person, and I don't want to force it onto you, but God has helped me incredibly through all of my trials and tribulations. it sucks so much to be in a place where you need help but can't seem to ask no matter what, and i pray that you do get the help you deserve. even if you don't believe, I'll only pray for you rise.
My spiritual beliefs are kind of complicated to explain, but nonetheless, I appreciate your kind words all the same. Having something like that to turn to can make a huge difference, and thank you so much for your prayers. I know I will be hoping the best for you as well.
The algorithm brought me here, sending a big virtual hug! I hope things get better for you! My 20s were awful, mostly due to my own thoughts. I was a prisoner of my own mind and living for others. The stress of trying to fit into society’s mold drove me to a mental breakdown. I have to say that life started making sense to me in my 30s. I because more self-assured, confident, and content with my life. I also started eating healthier and getting more exercise, as cliche as that sounds. Now that I am in my mid 30s, I feel much better, physically and mentally, than I did 10 years ago! You just never know what the future holds. You may be a late bloomer like I was. You’re in my thoughts tonight ❤️.
I look at these feelings this way. When your world feels as if it has turned upside-down change the way you see it. It is situation the/your "world" is not ending its just the beginning of a new path.
Showing yourself being weak in public is always a mistake and you should not do this as it will make things worse. I know it's not fair but please trust me. This world is merciless
I really, really think you missed the mark. There are times where we cannot repress our emotions no matter where we are, and the last thing I would have on my mind if I was upset in public was “oh man, I’m so weak. People see this weakness and it’ll make things worse.” That’s absolutely not true. People aren’t gonna care, and those that do will ask you if you’re doing okay. I’ve never seen a situation where someone is upset and there’s been a negative response from anyone involved.
I understand what you're saying but I'd have to disagree. Everyone is afraid of being vulnerable these days, and it takes a special kind of strength to show others you're not afraid to feel. I think you missed the point by a long shot. I hope things get better for you.
Sorry to hear you are going through such a hard time. Sending good vibes your way. Keep it up ❤
Thank you so much! Your kind words are very much appreciated. I'll be sending good vibes your way as well!
You're not alone.
First, I just want to acknowledge the courage it took to make this video and be so vulnerable and honest. I wasn't sure why youtube recommended this video to me, but your story sounds nearly identical to mine. In 2022 my roommates drove me to attempt suicide, which lead to me having to give up my two dogs and move into a psychiatric group home/nursing home for a couple months. Luckily now I'm living with my dad instead, but I still can't get my dogs back... They're with my cousin, and I know they're being taken care of even better than I could manage (I was too broke to get them to the vet), but I still feel like a complete failure for having to let them go. I'm shaking typing this because it sucks to be reminded of how much I had to give up just to stay alive and still wondering if it's worth it some days. I'm going to be 37 in September, and I have very little going on in my life because of several disabilities. I don't write, play guitar, or follow my spiritual practices like I used to, but I'm still an author, musician, and Reverend, just as you're still an author despite time between writing sessions. I also don't especially feel like a "man" or any gender really, so I know how that can mess with your sense of identity. I don't want to offer any false platitudes or say that things will definitely get better, but things happen at certain times for a reason, like me seeing this video today. For me, it's a reminder of everything I've been through and survived. For you, I hope my story makes you feel less alone, and that you still have time for so many things to change. If you'd like to talk sometime, or if you'd like a tarot reading for your birthday, I'm happy to lend an ear and/or read some cards. Be well, fellow traveler, I'll be praying for you.
I hope you feel better, allowing one's self to feel the sadness is part of it. Sometimes we get stuck in a rut because we ignore the issues or run away from them by not processing them, so allowing yourself to feel these things is one of the steps. After that you can think "okay now what am I going to do to move forward" and start planning, which seems what you are doing.
You are absolutely right. That's sort of what I realized when I broke down; I'd been suppressing so much, but we HAVE to let ourselves feel things in order to move on from what's causing us pain. Thank you so much for your kind words.
I've been there. Thank you for telling us how you feel. You are not alone. Trying to live up to expectations is a unwinnable race. What has helped me is start by the minimum thing you can feel good about. I'll see you around
If there's one good thing that's come from the internet, it is learning that we aren't alone in our struggles, and many others have experienced much of what we've experienced ourselves. Thank you for your kindness! I will bear this in mind.
Realizing you are struggling is a huge step forward, even if admitting it to yourself feels like a step back
Trauma is a beast to deal with & the first step is recognizing that it's there. You've made progress with that already. It's really good that you're letting yourself feel those heavy emotions & showing yourself kindness.
I really hope you feel better. You have so much self awareness & that is a great tool to help you work through these complex feelings & events. I think that finding a trauma therapist would be very beneficial for you. I relate a lot with what you talked about & I wish you all the best. Take care of yourself 🩷
I've definitely been working on studying all sorts of philosophy, therapy techniques like cognitive reframing and such, and even more spiritual practices like meditation and mindfulness, so I guess self-awareness is inevitable when you look into such things. I appreciate your kindness so much! I know where my trauma lies, now it's just a matter of learning how to overcome it. Much of it is related to grief, which I know never truly goes away, but learning to live with it would be beneficial. Thank you so, so, SO much, and I hope you take care of yourself as well!
I’m rooting for you man‼️❤️ I’ve also been realizing a lot of trauma/scary emotions. It’s worth it to address it because that’s how your true beautiful self will shine. GOOD LUCK MAN
It's very worth it to acknowledge our emotions and our trauma. Acknowledging those parts of ourselves is the first step to healing, after all. Thank you so much for your kind words! I'll be wishing the best for you as well!
It’s never too late to turn your life in a radically different direction.
I just stumbled upon this video but I am SO sorry to hear you're going through such a rough time:( But posting such a raw and vulnerable video so publicly is so brave which only further proves your strength. I hope things begin looking up for you soon, you deserve happiness:)
Happy birthday, hope you’re feeling better and be kind to yourself!
Hey man, I am in a similar headspace. It's horrible. If you're able, get therapy. You deserve to feel better. And therapy can help. You got a road ahead of you. Make it a good one. Much love ❤
You deserve to feel better too, that's for sure. I'm absolutely sending good vibes your way. Life's full of challenges, and I hope you can overcome them and come out the other side in better condition.
take care of yourself
Sending you so much love. I am here with you.
Hey man. I'm the same age as you, feeling like shit about life myself. Its ok to not be ok. I don't know you, but the algorithm seems to think I should. Subscribed.
I know we're the oldest we've ever been, but if we could see the forest for the trees I know we would see that we still have the majority of life's opportunities ahead of us.
Also, as a lifelong cat owner and confessed "cat person" I am so so sorry to hear about your cats.
Please keep on. Don't count yourself out yet my friend.
Internet hugs, my guy. This thunderstorm will pass.
Big hugs xoxo
Thank you so much! I appreciate that!
sending good vibes
Things will get better
I've been a similar place man. Not nearly as bad as you have it, so i can't speak for you. I can see you are probably not a religious person, and I don't want to force it onto you, but God has helped me incredibly through all of my trials and tribulations. it sucks so much to be in a place where you need help but can't seem to ask no matter what, and i pray that you do get the help you deserve. even if you don't believe, I'll only pray for you rise.
My spiritual beliefs are kind of complicated to explain, but nonetheless, I appreciate your kind words all the same. Having something like that to turn to can make a huge difference, and thank you so much for your prayers. I know I will be hoping the best for you as well.
You've got this
Feel better man!
Thank you very much! I know things will improve at some point; they always do! Good times and bad times are inevitable.
Just keep swimming brother
Never watched you before but keep your head up and keep working
Thank you! I'm certainly going to try my best.
Hope you are doing better!
Hang in there man.
The algorithm brought me here, sending a big virtual hug! I hope things get better for you! My 20s were awful, mostly due to my own thoughts. I was a prisoner of my own mind and living for others. The stress of trying to fit into society’s mold drove me to a mental breakdown.
I have to say that life started making sense to me in my 30s. I because more self-assured, confident, and content with my life. I also started eating healthier and getting more exercise, as cliche as that sounds. Now that I am in my mid 30s, I feel much better, physically and mentally, than I did 10 years ago!
You just never know what the future holds. You may be a late bloomer like I was. You’re in my thoughts tonight ❤️.
I look at these feelings this way. When your world feels as if it has turned upside-down change the way you see it. It is situation the/your "world" is not ending its just the beginning of a new path.
God has never looked at you and wished that he saw someone else.
Showing yourself being weak in public is always a mistake and you should not do this as it will make things worse. I know it's not fair but please trust me. This world is merciless
I really, really think you missed the mark. There are times where we cannot repress our emotions no matter where we are, and the last thing I would have on my mind if I was upset in public was “oh man, I’m so weak. People see this weakness and it’ll make things worse.”
That’s absolutely not true. People aren’t gonna care, and those that do will ask you if you’re doing okay. I’ve never seen a situation where someone is upset and there’s been a negative response from anyone involved.
@@thespecialist3608my concern is that the internet is full of predators. People will reach out to guys like this, lead him on and exploit him.
im sorry about whatever's happened/happening to you, that would make you say this
I understand what you're saying but I'd have to disagree. Everyone is afraid of being vulnerable these days, and it takes a special kind of strength to show others you're not afraid to feel. I think you missed the point by a long shot. I hope things get better for you.