I like it when you talk about your own struggles. Makes me feel less alone and less like other peoples lives being sooo much better (which is often how it looks on social media) 🐈
As much as I love seeing you talk about books, it's super comforting to see that not everything is great all the time. That's real life and it makes me feel better that I am not the only one having hard weeks. I hope you are starting to feel slightly better. 🐱
A calming vlog. Also, August has been rough for me as well. It’s okay because as long as we keep pushing through, good times lay ahead. I love you so much girl and keep being the badass you are! ❤️
Emma, I know exactly how you feel about the city! It's so fun to visit and there's so much to do, see, and eat, but for the long-term, I love the peace, quiet, and nature of the countryside too. Remember that you can do anything for a year! Once your lease is up, you can always leave the city. In the meantime, (I know you're already doing this but) do your best to enjoy the aspects of city life that you don't get in more rural areas. I think in the end, you'll look back on your time living in the city as a valuable, growing experience. Hang in there! :)
Looks like eevee makes an appearance! 🐶 so excited for the cottage core aesthetic you’ve got going on! 🧡 you carrying all the tomatoes 🍅 from your mama’s garden whilst wearing your mushroom tee with eevee trailing along is just making me giddy! If it’s one your dreams to leave the busy city one day and own some land in Canada to live this purposeful and cultivating life I know you will make it happen! 🍄🌿You are KICK ASS Emma! also the music you used in the video is just marvelously peaceful!
Miss Emmie, i have to say this is one of my most favorite videos that you have posted.... it has everything that a person could want to see and hear.... from Murakami and Marquez to going home, healing your soul and returning to the city... just a gorgeous and honest video .. Love from Ohio
Oh Emmie I hope things turn up for you soon! I moved to San Francisco alone at age 20 and failed HARD. I was in college and put down 0 roots and ended up dropping out of school from sheer depression and moving back in with my mom in my same little town. Then in my late 20s I moved from there to a bigger city in the Midwest and by that point I knew a little more about how to put down roots. I went to events alone, I met some people (none of whom remain in my life today funnily enough - but the human connection is what I needed), took walks in all the beautiful parks etc. It takes effort to learn to love a new place - explore with an eye out for things and places to love. I did some quick Googling and I wonder if the Allan Conservatory might be a good spot for some soul refreshing. PS - same feel on Brandon Sanderson. I've read 2.5 of the Mistborn series and 100% stalled out last summer and DNFd the last one. I love beautiful writing and god he's dry. 🐈⬛
I can relate to you so much, I actually cried when you arrived back home. Although I don’t live in a big city like Toronto, it’s still a city, and I just don’t like it. The reason why I like summers is because I get to go to a cottage near a lake and it’s just so amazing to have a garden and nature in my surroundings. I feel devastated every time I have to leave. It’s hard to see the perks of living in a city when all you want is peace and nature, so I totally get you. I hope it will become easier, but if it won’t, that’s okay too, not everyone has to love living in huge cities. But I do hope you’ll find little things to love about it. 💚🐈 Also, I was so glad you posted! I wad watching one of your old vlogs when you read The Posthumous Memoirs of Brás Cubas because I just started reading it!
@@emmiereads yes at the same time! 😅 the struggle is real but I try to read both books slowly. for war and peace i'm still at chapter 11 part 1 book 1, not so much happen yet, but I love how Tolstoy introduced and described the characters. for 100 years of solitude I already reached 105 pages, and it's so fascinating! the writing argh! still can't move on from this phrase "The handfuls of earth made the only man who deserved that show of degradation less remote and more certain, as if the ground that he walked on with his fine patent leather boots in another part of the world were transmitting to her the weight and the temperature of his blood in a mineral savor that left a harsh aftertaste in her mouth and a sediment of peace in her heart." arghh mind blown.
I absolutely love it when you're open and go into why you're not doing well, not because I enjoy seeing you suffer (I wish you didn't!), but because it makes your vlogs real and not something romantized and fake that only makes people's expectations rise and never show that life is not perfect, and that we all have good and bad days, things that go well and things that suck and all that jazz. That's why I like your channel: you don't struggle to show reality and not only a fake picture of a perfect life or mental health. Without that, I probably wouldn't enjoy watching your vlogs as much as I do. I hope you're doing better now! I've been struggling with a lot of stuff lately too, so I definitely can relate. May we all do better, in spite of our circumstances. 🐱🐈⬛
Hi Emmie. Your vlogs are more than aesthetic, they’re more calm and serene, and that alone makes them even more satisfying to watch. You seem to be inclined with being productive all the time, and honestly, it’s inspiring to see people like you who constantly and consistently work hard to achieve something great in life. Wishing you all the best.
After two weeks of endless stress, lots of struggles and no time for nothing, a vlog from Emma is exactly what I needed today 🖤 PS: I read 100 Years of Solitude because of you this month and I am obsessed
Can't believe how big Calcifer is getting 🐈!! Also I recently moved back to Toronto for school and I have very similar feelings. The transition to urban life and the city can def be difficult and is not talked about as much because of how romanticized city life is. I adore nature as well and the lack of it in the city is hitting me hard as well, but walking around the city and exploring pockets of nature and parks can help. It for sure can take time but I really hope you feel better soon emma !!
As someone who has lived in the city all my life, I can't, to be honest, completely understand the stress, but hope you feel more comfortable in Toronto soon! As for me, I feel comfort in the city lights-I love looking out the window with lofi music on, blankets wrapped around me. Nevertheless, stay safe and happy 🤍
thank you for being real, it makes me feel less alone in not doing so well when i hear someone else is going through the same thing. this channel is always such a comfort to me
Anyone else kind of hated the thought of lovely Emma here not wanting to rant on us about her struggles to keep the channel comforting and nice for us? 😢 I can only speak for myself, but I'm pretty sure we would all love to hear whatever you feel comfortable enough sharing, Em! Life can't always be comforting and nice, unfortunately, and as much as we love the escape of your videos, we all wanna be here for you. To me, that makes it part of it all; the good and the bad. I'm sending you the biggest hug and I hope I can convey how much we'd not only happily welcome your realness, but also appreciate it :)
I also just moved to a new city and have been having a hard time the last few weeks. Didn’t make the connection, but I like how you said the honeymoon phase is over- I think that’s exactly what I’m dealing with too. Admittedly, I look forward to your videos because it feels like listening to a friend 😅 which is so calming and grounding. Appreciate all you do here! 💜🐆
hopefully as the days go by we can settle in a bit more - I think having a quiet space where I can totally escape from other people is the thing I miss most - sending you all the good things, love that so much:') and thank you!!
I totally understand You! I lived in the cottage all my life, and now when I am in the city (like all year now), it is hard to feel free and calm. Every opportunity to be closer to nature is such a good feeling in my heart. Thank You for your videos, I really love watching them. Hope You will be happier each day. ❤ *Sending a virtual hug* 🐱🐈🌸
Aww, I'm sorry you're having a rough time, Emma. I have been too so I feel you. I hope you can take pleasure in the small things still. Thank you for sharing your perspectives. Thanks for explaining the meaning behind Solitude. I'm about 30 pages from the end but it feels like it's one of those books that is prettier in parts than in the whole. Your explanation of magical realism makes it make much more sense though! You should check out Niall Williams, an Irish novelist; he is very similar to Garcia. Hang in there, Emma, you're a wonderful person and I hope you can have a great week this week!
the small things definitely bring so much comfort - I hope things around you start looking up too, and so happy you got to read it! will definitely check out Williams, thank you so much!
I just watched this vlog Emma, having been following you for more than a year now. I moved to Toronto in 2021 (a huge change as I lived all my life here in the Philippines). Having stayed in Toronto for a year, I also felt the same way about the fast-paced grind and that "monotony" I usually get when I'm in the city. I couldn't take it, I lost all motivation to do the things I used to love (including reading! can you believe??) and I just felt like I lost myself in the heat of it all... I couldn't explain why, I thought it would get better and I was just plainly homesick... but it was different and I knew the energy of the place was affecting me consciously/subconsciously and I did not want to betray that "feeling" anymore. I didn't want to blame the city though, it was filled with so many wonderous areas, activities and people!! but it just wasn't for me too and I know everyone resonate differently. I'm back home now and I'm healing again 💛thank you for sharing your story, I wish you well Emma!
I moved from Tasmania Australia (the tiny island down the bottom) to Melbourne and I hated it. I hated being in a big city for years. I was used to being able to run around in nature my whole life and then although Melbourne has so much to offer, it just was not enough to overcome the feeling of losing myself. Homesickness is real. Be kind and gentle to yourself and one day you will reach a place where you can let go of where you used to be and embrace where (and who) you are now. You may always miss having nature close (I do) but you will come to love the city just as much. Thinking of you because I know how tough This transition period can be 💕
Really feeling for you Emma, I know firsthand how leaving behind a lot of familiar comforts and joys all at once can be downright depressing, especially when equivalent replacements aren’t found right away - it takes time. Hopefully you can find quiet refuges in nature nearby that can become dear to you. Another thought is that sleep deprivation messes with how we think and feel about things in the short term until we get our brain chemicals back in balance : )
This is exactly what I needed this evening ❤️ My lit MA dissertation is due next week and I’ve been frantically trying to get it polished off, this is such a lovely way to take my mind off it all for a little while!
😻 He is so adorable and energetic. 🐈 I’m sorry you’re feeling so homesick. It’s good that you’re a decent train ride away. I’m glad you’re honest with us. It’s good for you and for us. It’s easy to compare and despair while watching videos. I hope things continue to look up, as they seemed to be toward the end of the video. ❤️
😺 I love how open and honest you are about how you feel, either good or negative emotions are welcome. That’s how life is. I had a very difficult year so far, feeling often lonely but watching your videos has helped so much! I’m sanding a big hug 💛
Moving is so difficult. There are so many changes that are heavily tied to comfort and familiarity so it's a massive adjustment. It's okay to find it very hard, and overtime I think you'll settle into things more. Be kind to yourself in the meantime and be sure to not completely dismiss that you don't like it there -- let yourself feel your emotions, it's possible to stay true to yourself in that way while also trying to look for positives when you feel up for doing that :)
😸Hope you are feeling better now than you did when you shot this video! And I hope you find a way to make Toronto feel like home, at least for as long as you are staying there. I always appreciate it when you talk about how you are actually feeling because it makes me feel less alone when I'm not feeling okay as well.
😺Content about mental health may not be able to serve as escapism, but I find that it is much more meaningful. It can actually Help in dealing with difficult experiences, instead of just distracting from them. I recently moved to a bigger city as well, and it's been difficult to adjust. I found that the only thing that truly helps is to not dismiss how you feel, just accept that it is difficult and that yes, maybe that city just isn't for you. Try to find things you like about it, of course, but also remember that you're not stuck there. Everything is temporary, and either that feeling will pass or you can choose to move on to something different.🌻🍄
Sending you love. Moving is so hard especially from somewhere rural to a city. I moved from a little village called Climping (which is by the sea on the south coast of England) to London last September. Even though I know the city well living here has been such a massive adjustment and I still have to go home regularly for for the sea, and the tranquility and the pace of life. I find that I go through phases of enjoying London but it can feel isolating. My advice is maintain your friendships from home but also try and find new friends in Toronto. Ooh and on a completely different note this blog is making me want to pick up One Hundred Years of Solitude! 🐱💙
Your struggle is one that I can relate to a bit. I moved across the world last year, and recently had the chance to visit home for a few short weeks. Being home made me realize just how deeply I missed it, and having to leave again and readjust to my daily life away from the home and people I love has been really tough. Hearing you have similar difficulties makes me feel a little less lonely. I hope you find little bits of joy in your every day and more importantly, kindness towards yourself. Love listening to your eloquent stories and thoughtful insights
It's so interesting listening to you reading Cien años de Soledad in English because I read it this month in Spanish and I have so many quotes engraved in my soul. I also watched the documentary about García Márquez's life and it's so beautiful, and it's kind of magical how so many characters in his novels are from his own life, especially in Cien años de Soledad
Thank you so much for opening and talking about what it’s bothering your mind. Remember that every change in our life will unbalance us in aspects that we have no idea, but somehow our mind, body, soul, end up getting used to it ❤️ ily Emma✨
Cozy but also comforting to hear how you’re really doing. I say don’t worry too much about sharing how you’re really doing, even when it’s bad. We’re here for you 🐱❤️ Take it day by day.
right now in my life i’m going through the phase of coming of age, and so much is happening inside me. not only bc of this phase but it’s an interior changing in general it’s such a lovely gift to get to watch beautiful scenes and listen to someone i like. it’s like we’re sharing our lives. i love your channel so much! ❤️ i’m always rooting for you emma✨💛
There is a book called "this is where I belong: finding home where you are" which I found really helpful when I moved into a new place that I didn't like. I hope as you continue to settle in it gets a bit more homey there for you
The first few months are always the hardest from my experience whenever I found myself living in a new city. Once they pass then things turn to normal. And I always found that making new friends in the city I just moved to is one of the most important parts. Always be happy Emma.
So happy to wake up to this! I finished 100 years and now I'm going back and trying to make sense and process it all. There is so much that happens. The point you are at in this video feels like forever ago. I picked up The Girl Who Drank the Moon for a lighter read and also listening to Sense and Sensibility. Never feel like you can't share right where you're at, Emma. It is appreciated always. As someone born and raised in the big desert city of Phoenix, AZ I feel you. I'm over it and want to leave. Not that I don't love the desert, I do. The desert has a unique beauty and feast for the senses that's hard to describe. Happy you got some time at home 🏡
ah yes I feel like I'm still processing that one from my first time round reading it haha, it stays with your forever - thank you so much, definitely feel better sharing where I'm at in vlogs instead of breezing over it! I'd love to see the desert someday, sending all the love
@@emmiereads That ending in 100 years. I was like "wait....what? What did I just read?!" I could probably read it 10 times and find something new I missed every time. So so much happens. You should visit the desert someday! The desert southwest US has some of the most unique landscapes in the world and so much of it is medicinal. Worth it. I want to visit Canada, I'll get there someday. Glad it helped to vent. Glad you have a kitty and partner by your side. ❤️
Thank you for being so open and honest with us, Emmie. It's extremely refreshing to see and I personally never mind mental health chats in vlogs. On the contrary, it's very consoling to know that we aren't the only ones who are feeling that way. Sending so much love and digital hugs your way xx
Hi Emmie ! Sending you positive vibes ~ sorry it’s been more difficult with the move .. understandably, but I know you will come out from this journey stronger and better for going through it… even though it might not feel that’s the case. Keep finding the simple daily pleasures and gratitude
I've been through a lot of stress this past week and when I saw the thumbnail for your video, I thought, “Thank god.” … And then started crying. I hope you know how much this channel means to so many people. Thank you so much ♥️
I moved to the city over 5 years ago and didn't like it at first. I don't think I will ever get used to the traffic but other than that I feel at home here now! I hope you'll feel at home in the city soon!🐱
I lived in Canada for 2 years in a town with a lot of nature, and I miss it everyday since I left to return to my country. I'm always longing to be back. So I kinda understand how you feel now... but living Canada/nature through your vlogs has helped me. Also the way you are passionate about so many things in life has inspired me a lot, so I was able to find joy in my current situation as well. I wish you happiness Emma 🐱❤
@@emmiereads I lived in Thunder Bay and I'm so happy to say I'm going back to visit for a month in Sept 9th!! my partner is from there and for the 2 years since I've been back to Brazil he has been the one visiting me. I can't wait to see the biiiig Lake Superior again, and go on all the trails ❤️❤️❤️
I was on a holiday in a city not long ago, the view was beautiful, but it was so noisy and there were SO MANY people EVERYWHERE, definitely made me appreciate my home more too, good luck girl. BTW I started reading one hundred years of solitude not long ago, so I'll catch up with those bits of the vlog when I'm deeper into the story ;D
i'm sorry you are struggling, i hope it's getting better since this vlog. i know exactly how it feels to move out of your comfort zone. i've been out of my hometown for about 6 years, but i know those first few months are the hardest. just know you can always go back whenever you want, and the exciting part of life is the impermanence of it all
This book should lift your spirits up: A Street Cat Named Bob by James Bowen. It’s a heartwarming story about a ginger cat (similar to yours) and a struggling street musician/ex-drug addict that this cat gives him an extra energy and helps him out of hard times. This cat has become almost a legend by now, he’s got his own little statue in London as well. Quite a few videos on YT, too. But, as ever, books are better than videos. I read it in one sitting. It’s not like it’s one of the greatest novels of all times, but it is a fine, heartwarming, uplifting story. As a cat owner myself (my pet is a Russian blue named Tom), I also found the book quite informative about cat care and such. Cheers!
emma, I just got to finish this vlog and i really hope you're feeling better about living in the city as time goes on! as someone who has never really like the city i am from but have lived in for most of my life (with some breaks here and there) it's always a back and forth between hating it and actually liking it. when i was younger i couldn't wait to not live here anymore but as i've grown i've started to appreciate the good things about it and tried to always find the positive side to this place which exists as well. I hope that you too will grow to appreciate what you can in it and ultimately grow as a person by having this experience in your life (which i can definitely say for me happened once i lived in different places other than my home city) so I hope this makes sense and I hope you're feeling better
I had one of the most difficult months I've had in a few years now. I was wondering how you were doing and it's so good to have an update from you. You've got this, Emma ❤
Honestly me too and I've heard so many people say that recently. Has something weird and astrological been going on? Would be nice to feel hope that things will get better
i never comment on videos so this is weird for me haha ANYWAYS, emmie, i have never related so much to a video before. i've had to move (once again) because my husband is in the military and it is so hard being away from everything. the familiar places, the people, everything. i understand how you feel and you aren't alone. i appreciate you opening up about how you are feeling. thank you for making these videos because they get me out of my slumps when i'm missing home. also, thank you for sparking my love for reading again. it has had such a positive impact on me and given me a way to escape. you're golden. xoxo
Emma, as strangers we're in a very similar stage in life, both in a new city with our partners for job-related reasons in our early-mid-20s and thinking "hmm. So many things are good but my environment makes me feel not like myself." I've been leaning into childhood-comforts like allowing long, long walks to explore the city to find pockets of familiarity. I think for me allowing this time to be a bit like a lightning bug, a small glow in the expanse of my life that may have its own beauty once it's gone. So many chapters in our lives come and go in shapes we don't expect. Maybe this one can be one that reveals to us new homes in ourselves, and maybe in the space around us in time. Wishing you comfort.
💕🐈⬛💕 I totally understand what you’re going through after moving and missing the nature you left behind 💗🌾🪺 I always enjoy your channel. Thank you for sharing 🌸
I finished 100 years of solitude a few days ago and it was such an amazing experience, every page bears so much story and every character is so detailed that all of them could have their own books. My cat goes crazy over fresh bedsheets aswell
I loved the vlog! Your trip to your home gave me Ghibli vibes! Love to see Evie! Hope you feel better soon about Toronto. You'll see that someday you'll be where you want to be. Lots of love to you and to Calcifer! 💖😻
what you describe in Skyward is essentially the storyline of the first Mavrick movie, where of course in the end we learn that Mavrick's dad was on a super-secret mission. btw: three of those Johnny Rivers' songs were huge pop hits. Sorry to hear about your depression, however a work-a-holic like you will feel that way between structures, like uni, or a major project. The animals look so great, and it's good you're able to find time to play with them, which is pretty much all they ask.
Really appreciated hearing your thoughts after moving. I've moved a few times over the past year and it's definitely been rough. I remember going through phases of loving and hating where I was living. It's so hard at thise stage of life to figure out what works for you; either way you'll grow either to love it or out of it and onto somewhere else:)
So the post honeymoon crash is very common after a big move! They've done studies on it and everything. My college warned everyone about it for our year abroad, it was part of their orientation package. You're at your lowest point after the honeymoon, I remember I felt absolutely miserable and missed home terribly. But soon it comes back to equilibrium, not the high highs of the honeymoon nor the lows of the crash. I can't promise that you'll ever fall madly in love with the city, but this sadness shouldn't be forever. Remember, all things have their time, and this too shall pase
this just made me feel so much better! thank you so much for leaving this, I know ultimately this isn't where I want to be, but definitely looking forward to finding that balance, thank you so much beautiful
hey Emma, I'm sorry you haven't been feeling so hot lately. It's totally okay to not be okay. You can always talk about your true feelings on these vlogs, this is a safe space :). I totally understand city life getting you down. Nature walks usually help me, as well as video games, good books, tea, friends & family time. Sending you lots of good vibes and love
So sorry you aren't feeling well, I hope it passes 💕 but I do very much appreciate your honesty, and in a way it is comforting because life is a constant balance of highs and lows and your channel reminds us all to take comfort in the small things and tiny moments of joy even amidst the larger more difficult times. And it is completely 100% ok to be honest about your feelings about your move and the city. It's good to validate those feelings so that you can make the best and most right decision for you in the future. Sending so much love to you ❤
This video came to me at a point where I am also not doing the best. I am on a different continent and I have been away from nature for too long as well and although I am going home soon I hope you know that you aren't alone in these feelings. Your videos bring peace and comfort even when you are open about things that are weighing on you. I truly hope that you are able to find a spark of magic in the city and that you will gain some comfort that we all get from you
Emma - there certainly must be some place you could go to enjoy nature that may be out an hour or so from the big city? I was born in cobourg Ontario which is about an hour away and there is so much beautiful nature around . Even if you go out for a whole day once a week even ? Ontario is gorgeous 😽
I really love it so much when you talk with us about your feelings and problems. It's so nice and warming and it makes me feel .. less alone? Yeah .. so, i love you and i hope you are feeling better now
I really love how you are honest about your struggles! Your life seems so ideal and picturesque, but of course you are human just like everyone. New places can be very hard, especially when it's full of noises and smells that you're not used to, like loud vehicles and sirens instead of tranquil birds. I hope you have some nature nearby that you can enjoy.
Hey Emma, I recently moved to a new house and left behind my childhood home. That place is gonna be developed and it'll turn into a new building and we can move in again there after all of it's done. I'm also living in the same city. So in a sense, I guess, our experience of moving to a new place is different. However, this new house feels really like I'm staying on a vacation for a while(I have been here for about fifteen days). I still believe I'll go back to the same old building again and jump into my bed. I recently visited my old house and it feels so different. I somehow can't believe it'll be gone in a few months (I mean this building would be destroyed and rebuilt and all). Only those streets and roads feel familiar and close to me, though I'm still living in the same city. I can relate to you in a sense. And I wanna say you're really doing well adjusting in a completely new city. I'm finding it so difficult though i didn't move far away at all. It's so hard to know that I'll never really return to the house where I grew up. It'll be a new and unfamiliar place. But I guess change is a way of life. I'm also waiting for the "honeymoon phase" of my new place to be over. Once, it's done only God knows how I'll feel. Sorry it seems like I went on a little rant. Thanks for being so straightforward about yourself. It also gives us courage to admit some things (for me that I need to finally accept my "new home"). Love you ❤️
I never liked living in Seattle when I first moved there for college and after about 6 months it really grew on me! I ended up not wanting to leave by the time I graduated! Keep positive, you might end up falling in love w the city :)
hi emma! I loved this vlog so much, it had such great vibes! i really love how you always are open about your struggles, it really gives me comfort to hear you being open about your life, and i love that i can identify with the things you are going through as well. i hope that doing these vlogs help you as much as they help me! I hope you have an amazing week and i am looking forward to your next video as always.
🐱 we love you. Moving takes a toll. The last move I made to A new city, it was a struggle. Mentally and emotionally. It took a long time, but I eventually fell in love with it and have stayed. I’m happy you are able to visit home. ❤️ Thank you for always remaining you, and for always staying real.
Beautiful video 🐱. Sorry you have been feeling low, hopefully you will feel better and in time come to like living in the city. There is no feeling like going home. My dad passed away in December last year, I dont have a home anymore to go to with a mom and dad to just recuperate and enjoy family time. I miss that so much. I really hope you feel better and you have the gift of having to go home at times. Cherish it💚 Thank you for your beautiful videos. My next read will be 100 years of solitude, I know I will love it. 🐱🐱🐱
🐱 little comfort cat on the way ! 🐱 so sorry to hear that you're not well ! i can totally understand you, when i moved to a big city for the first time, it was soooo overwhelming and people everywhere, but slowly with time, i found my happy places, the park near the river, the coffee shop that has plants everywhere (feels like a forest haha), the library. also, getting noise canceling headphones was a game changer for me, it cuts out the city noise and all thats left is the music and suddenly im the main character in a movie haha be patient with yourself ! maybe with time you will also find comfort in the city xx
🐱 Emmie you have been such an inspiration for me, you have been healing almost all of my reading slumps and overall you have been saving my life (seriously) I hope you feel better soon and I really appreciate your honesty. It makes me feel like I’m not the only one who feels this way
I hope you feel better soon, Emma! 😺 thank you for creating a comfort place, i really enjoyed your vlog and appreciate you being open about your mental health ❤
😺, hi emmie, thank you for genuinely talking about how you're not doing so well, like the points you mentioned and the situation too, kinda resonated with me a lot and I just felt. . understood? and not alone? ily, just wanted to say that ♡
I really related to your conversation about being in a new city. Two weeks ago I moved about 3 hours away from my family to a different city (I'm from NYC originally). I completely feel similar to you. Even though I grew up in a big city and moved to a smaller city, I was so used to finding ways to interact with nature and lived near a big park in my home city and now it just feels so far away. I honestly have a hard time even leaving my apartment because I just feel so afraid. It's been so great to see how you explore your city and settle into your apartment and I'm trying to take some inspiration from that. I did do yoga in my apartment today so I'm calling it a win!
honestly, i relate to you about living in the city thing, my parents suddenly made us move to a city that i know, but barely know, and they told me that were going to live here. It was really fun at first but then i had a lot of sad episodes and loneliness inside me but i found a few friends and im sort of happy again, not the best but ive kind of adjusted here
😻. I can see the struggle in your eyes, but you’re not giving into it. You are still reading, and going to the gym, and spending some time in what nature is available, and doing some interesting city things, and discovering Little Libraries. As a therapist, this tells me the healthy part of you is stronger than the struggling part. You can do this. You can find your way in this new, not so immediately satisfying environment. There’s the honeymoon, then the struggle, then the finding of balance. Just like any relationship. We don’t just have relationships with people, but with books (as you know) and with cities. Thanks for being you. I don’t think we’re here just for the rainbows and butterflies. We’re here to be with you...just as you are.
Hi Emma, When you mentioned having a "book hangover" after finishing 100 Years, (which I got based on your rec but haven't started it yet!), I thought how apt of a description that is!!! I started chuckling! 😉😉😉
i've also been dealing with the loss of easy access to nature in my life for the last year, and i feel for you. i still struggle with it a lot, and it makes me want to hole myself up in my cramped downtown apartment which doesn't help either lmao. however, i appreciate the limited time i get with nature so much more now than i ever did in the past. it's become an almost spiritual experience. i hope you are able to ease into adapting to your new environment! best wishes
I like it when you talk about your own struggles. Makes me feel less alone and less like other peoples lives being sooo much better (which is often how it looks on social media) 🐈
Couldn't agree with you more. You're absolutely not alone in struggling. I'm having a hard time too like so many people x
As much as I love seeing you talk about books, it's super comforting to see that not everything is great all the time. That's real life and it makes me feel better that I am not the only one having hard weeks. I hope you are starting to feel slightly better. 🐱
A calming vlog. Also, August has been rough for me as well. It’s okay because as long as we keep pushing through, good times lay ahead. I love you so much girl and keep being the badass you are! ❤️
hope September is marvellous for you
august has been hard for me too, glad i’m not alone. wishing you a wonderful autumn!
Emma, I know exactly how you feel about the city! It's so fun to visit and there's so much to do, see, and eat, but for the long-term, I love the peace, quiet, and nature of the countryside too. Remember that you can do anything for a year! Once your lease is up, you can always leave the city. In the meantime, (I know you're already doing this but) do your best to enjoy the aspects of city life that you don't get in more rural areas. I think in the end, you'll look back on your time living in the city as a valuable, growing experience. Hang in there! :)
so glad I'm not alone, definitely agree and yes totally it's becoming a huge growing experience which is amazing in the long run! thanks love xx
Looks like eevee makes an appearance! 🐶 so excited for the cottage core aesthetic you’ve got going on! 🧡 you carrying all the tomatoes 🍅 from your mama’s garden whilst wearing your mushroom tee with eevee trailing along is just making me giddy! If it’s one your dreams to leave the busy city one day and own some land in Canada to live this purposeful and cultivating life I know you will make it happen! 🍄🌿You are KICK ASS Emma! also the music you used in the video is just marvelously peaceful!
it was so nice to see her:') that is definitely the dream, thank you so much beautiful
Miss Emmie, i have to say this is one of my most favorite videos that you have posted.... it has everything that a person could want to see and hear.... from Murakami and Marquez to going home, healing your soul and returning to the city... just a gorgeous and honest video
.. Love from Ohio
exploring around the city looked so peaceful! my favorite hobby is walking around a new city/town and finding a nice cafe or park to people watch
The face you made while reading murakami is an essential part of the ✨Murakami experience ✨
Edit: aaaaaahhhh girll u liked my post love u
Oh Emmie I hope things turn up for you soon! I moved to San Francisco alone at age 20 and failed HARD. I was in college and put down 0 roots and ended up dropping out of school from sheer depression and moving back in with my mom in my same little town.
Then in my late 20s I moved from there to a bigger city in the Midwest and by that point I knew a little more about how to put down roots. I went to events alone, I met some people (none of whom remain in my life today funnily enough - but the human connection is what I needed), took walks in all the beautiful parks etc. It takes effort to learn to love a new place - explore with an eye out for things and places to love. I did some quick Googling and I wonder if the Allan Conservatory might be a good spot for some soul refreshing.
PS - same feel on Brandon Sanderson. I've read 2.5 of the Mistborn series and 100% stalled out last summer and DNFd the last one. I love beautiful writing and god he's dry. 🐈⬛
I can relate to you so much, I actually cried when you arrived back home. Although I don’t live in a big city like Toronto, it’s still a city, and I just don’t like it. The reason why I like summers is because I get to go to a cottage near a lake and it’s just so amazing to have a garden and nature in my surroundings. I feel devastated every time I have to leave. It’s hard to see the perks of living in a city when all you want is peace and nature, so I totally get you. I hope it will become easier, but if it won’t, that’s okay too, not everyone has to love living in huge cities. But I do hope you’ll find little things to love about it. 💚🐈
Also, I was so glad you posted! I wad watching one of your old vlogs when you read The Posthumous Memoirs of Brás Cubas because I just started reading it!
emma, im currently reading One Hundred Years of Solitude and War & Peace. thank you for inspiring me to be brave🌷
ah at the same time?! that's incredible, how are you liking them?
@@emmiereads yes at the same time! 😅 the struggle is real but I try to read both books slowly. for war and peace i'm still at chapter 11 part 1 book 1, not so much happen yet, but I love how Tolstoy introduced and described the characters. for 100 years of solitude I already reached 105 pages, and it's so fascinating! the writing argh! still can't move on from this phrase "The handfuls of earth made the only man who deserved that show of degradation less remote and more certain, as if the ground that he walked on with his fine patent leather boots in another part of the world were transmitting to her the weight and the temperature of his blood in a mineral savor that left a harsh aftertaste in her mouth and a sediment of peace in her heart." arghh mind blown.
I absolutely love it when you're open and go into why you're not doing well, not because I enjoy seeing you suffer (I wish you didn't!), but because it makes your vlogs real and not something romantized and fake that only makes people's expectations rise and never show that life is not perfect, and that we all have good and bad days, things that go well and things that suck and all that jazz. That's why I like your channel: you don't struggle to show reality and not only a fake picture of a perfect life or mental health. Without that, I probably wouldn't enjoy watching your vlogs as much as I do.
I hope you're doing better now! I've been struggling with a lot of stuff lately too, so I definitely can relate.
May we all do better, in spite of our circumstances.
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Hi Emmie. Your vlogs are more than aesthetic, they’re more calm and serene, and that alone makes them even more satisfying to watch. You seem to be inclined with being productive all the time, and honestly, it’s inspiring to see people like you who constantly and consistently work hard to achieve something great in life. Wishing you all the best.
this comment made me smile, so needed this, thank you Sophia
After two weeks of endless stress, lots of struggles and no time for nothing, a vlog from Emma is exactly what I needed today 🖤 PS: I read 100 Years of Solitude because of you this month and I am obsessed
ah that sounds so hard, I hope your coming weeks are a little softer on you
Can't believe how big Calcifer is getting 🐈!! Also I recently moved back to Toronto for school and I have very similar feelings. The transition to urban life and the city can def be difficult and is not talked about as much because of how romanticized city life is. I adore nature as well and the lack of it in the city is hitting me hard as well, but walking around the city and exploring pockets of nature and parks can help. It for sure can take time but I really hope you feel better soon emma !!
As someone who has lived in the city all my life, I can't, to be honest, completely understand the stress, but hope you feel more comfortable in Toronto soon! As for me, I feel comfort in the city lights-I love looking out the window with lofi music on, blankets wrapped around me. Nevertheless, stay safe and happy 🤍
thank you for being real, it makes me feel less alone in not doing so well when i hear someone else is going through the same thing. this channel is always such a comfort to me
Anyone else kind of hated the thought of lovely Emma here not wanting to rant on us about her struggles to keep the channel comforting and nice for us? 😢 I can only speak for myself, but I'm pretty sure we would all love to hear whatever you feel comfortable enough sharing, Em! Life can't always be comforting and nice, unfortunately, and as much as we love the escape of your videos, we all wanna be here for you. To me, that makes it part of it all; the good and the bad. I'm sending you the biggest hug and I hope I can convey how much we'd not only happily welcome your realness, but also appreciate it :)
I also just moved to a new city and have been having a hard time the last few weeks. Didn’t make the connection, but I like how you said the honeymoon phase is over- I think that’s exactly what I’m dealing with too. Admittedly, I look forward to your videos because it feels like listening to a friend 😅 which is so calming and grounding. Appreciate all you do here! 💜🐆
hopefully as the days go by we can settle in a bit more - I think having a quiet space where I can totally escape from other people is the thing I miss most - sending you all the good things, love that so much:') and thank you!!
I totally understand You! I lived in the cottage all my life, and now when I am in the city (like all year now), it is hard to feel free and calm. Every opportunity to be closer to nature is such a good feeling in my heart.
Thank You for your videos, I really love watching them. Hope You will be happier each day. ❤
*Sending a virtual hug*
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Aww, I'm sorry you're having a rough time, Emma. I have been too so I feel you. I hope you can take pleasure in the small things still. Thank you for sharing your perspectives. Thanks for explaining the meaning behind Solitude. I'm about 30 pages from the end but it feels like it's one of those books that is prettier in parts than in the whole. Your explanation of magical realism makes it make much more sense though! You should check out Niall Williams, an Irish novelist; he is very similar to Garcia. Hang in there, Emma, you're a wonderful person and I hope you can have a great week this week!
the small things definitely bring so much comfort - I hope things around you start looking up too, and so happy you got to read it! will definitely check out Williams, thank you so much!
I just watched this vlog Emma, having been following you for more than a year now. I moved to Toronto in 2021 (a huge change as I lived all my life here in the Philippines). Having stayed in Toronto for a year, I also felt the same way about the fast-paced grind and that "monotony" I usually get when I'm in the city. I couldn't take it, I lost all motivation to do the things I used to love (including reading! can you believe??) and I just felt like I lost myself in the heat of it all... I couldn't explain why, I thought it would get better and I was just plainly homesick... but it was different and I knew the energy of the place was affecting me consciously/subconsciously and I did not want to betray that "feeling" anymore. I didn't want to blame the city though, it was filled with so many wonderous areas, activities and people!! but it just wasn't for me too and I know everyone resonate differently. I'm back home now and I'm healing again 💛thank you for sharing your story, I wish you well Emma!
Peace and quiet is actually what I like, am glad you were able to show us this city
I moved from Tasmania Australia (the tiny island down the bottom) to Melbourne and I hated it. I hated being in a big city for years. I was used to being able to run around in nature my whole life and then although Melbourne has so much to offer, it just was not enough to overcome the feeling of losing myself. Homesickness is real.
Be kind and gentle to yourself and one day you will reach a place where you can let go of where you used to be and embrace where (and who) you are now. You may always miss having nature close (I do) but you will come to love the city just as much.
Thinking of you because I know how tough This transition period can be 💕
Really feeling for you Emma, I know firsthand how leaving behind a lot of familiar comforts and joys all at once can be downright depressing, especially when equivalent replacements aren’t found right away - it takes time. Hopefully you can find quiet refuges in nature nearby that can become dear to you. Another thought is that sleep deprivation messes with how we think and feel about things in the short term until we get our brain chemicals back in balance : )
This is exactly what I needed this evening ❤️ My lit MA dissertation is due next week and I’ve been frantically trying to get it polished off, this is such a lovely way to take my mind off it all for a little while!
ah so exciting, best of luck!!
😻 He is so adorable and energetic. 🐈 I’m sorry you’re feeling so homesick. It’s good that you’re a decent train ride away. I’m glad you’re honest with us. It’s good for you and for us. It’s easy to compare and despair while watching videos. I hope things continue to look up, as they seemed to be toward the end of the video. ❤️
😺 I love how open and honest you are about how you feel, either good or negative emotions are welcome. That’s how life is. I had a very difficult year so far, feeling often lonely but watching your videos has helped so much! I’m sanding a big hug 💛
Moving is so difficult. There are so many changes that are heavily tied to comfort and familiarity so it's a massive adjustment. It's okay to find it very hard, and overtime I think you'll settle into things more. Be kind to yourself in the meantime and be sure to not completely dismiss that you don't like it there -- let yourself feel your emotions, it's possible to stay true to yourself in that way while also trying to look for positives when you feel up for doing that :)
😸Hope you are feeling better now than you did when you shot this video! And I hope you find a way to make Toronto feel like home, at least for as long as you are staying there. I always appreciate it when you talk about how you are actually feeling because it makes me feel less alone when I'm not feeling okay as well.
😺Content about mental health may not be able to serve as escapism, but I find that it is much more meaningful. It can actually Help in dealing with difficult experiences, instead of just distracting from them. I recently moved to a bigger city as well, and it's been difficult to adjust. I found that the only thing that truly helps is to not dismiss how you feel, just accept that it is difficult and that yes, maybe that city just isn't for you. Try to find things you like about it, of course, but also remember that you're not stuck there. Everything is temporary, and either that feeling will pass or you can choose to move on to something different.🌻🍄
Sending you love. Moving is so hard especially from somewhere rural to a city. I moved from a little village called Climping (which is by the sea on the south coast of England) to London last September. Even though I know the city well living here has been such a massive adjustment and I still have to go home regularly for for the sea, and the tranquility and the pace of life. I find that I go through phases of enjoying London but it can feel isolating. My advice is maintain your friendships from home but also try and find new friends in Toronto.
Ooh and on a completely different note this blog is making me want to pick up One Hundred Years of Solitude! 🐱💙
the killuaxgon hoodie unDID ME i'm so in love with it 😭😭😭😭
it's too cute :')
Your struggle is one that I can relate to a bit. I moved across the world last year, and recently had the chance to visit home for a few short weeks. Being home made me realize just how deeply I missed it, and having to leave again and readjust to my daily life away from the home and people I love has been really tough. Hearing you have similar difficulties makes me feel a little less lonely. I hope you find little bits of joy in your every day and more importantly, kindness towards yourself. Love listening to your eloquent stories and thoughtful insights
It's so interesting listening to you reading Cien años de Soledad in English because I read it this month in Spanish and I have so many quotes engraved in my soul. I also watched the documentary about García Márquez's life and it's so beautiful, and it's kind of magical how so many characters in his novels are from his own life, especially in Cien años de Soledad
@Marielvin Blanco, where did you watch the documentary as I would love to watch it too. 😊
ah what is the documentary called?! so wish I could read it in Spanish, and yes the quotes and writing are out of this world :')
@@emmiereads it’s called “gabo, la creación de gabriel garcia márquez”!
Thank you so much for opening and talking about what it’s bothering your mind. Remember that every change in our life will unbalance us in aspects that we have no idea, but somehow our mind, body, soul, end up getting used to it ❤️ ily Emma✨
Cozy but also comforting to hear how you’re really doing. I say don’t worry too much about sharing how you’re really doing, even when it’s bad. We’re here for you 🐱❤️ Take it day by day.
right now in my life i’m going through the phase of coming of age, and so much is happening inside me. not only bc of this phase but it’s an interior changing in general
it’s such a lovely gift to get to watch beautiful scenes and listen to someone i like. it’s like we’re sharing our lives. i love your channel so much! ❤️ i’m always rooting for you emma✨💛
There is a book called "this is where I belong: finding home where you are" which I found really helpful when I moved into a new place that I didn't like. I hope as you continue to settle in it gets a bit more homey there for you
The first few months are always the hardest from my experience whenever I found myself living in a new city. Once they pass then things turn to normal. And I always found that making new friends in the city I just moved to is one of the most important parts. Always be happy Emma.
So happy to wake up to this! I finished 100 years and now I'm going back and trying to make sense and process it all. There is so much that happens. The point you are at in this video feels like forever ago.
I picked up The Girl Who Drank the Moon for a lighter read and also listening to Sense and Sensibility.
Never feel like you can't share right where you're at, Emma. It is appreciated always.
As someone born and raised in the big desert city of Phoenix, AZ I feel you. I'm over it and want to leave. Not that I don't love the desert, I do. The desert has a unique beauty and feast for the senses that's hard to describe.
Happy you got some time at home 🏡
ah yes I feel like I'm still processing that one from my first time round reading it haha, it stays with your forever - thank you so much, definitely feel better sharing where I'm at in vlogs instead of breezing over it! I'd love to see the desert someday, sending all the love
@@emmiereads That ending in 100 years. I was like "wait....what? What did I just read?!" I could probably read it 10 times and find something new I missed every time. So so much happens.
You should visit the desert someday! The desert southwest US has some of the most unique landscapes in the world and so much of it is medicinal. Worth it.
I want to visit Canada, I'll get there someday.
Glad it helped to vent. Glad you have a kitty and partner by your side. ❤️
thanks for always putting timestamps in your videos
Thank you for being so open and honest with us, Emmie. It's extremely refreshing to see and I personally never mind mental health chats in vlogs. On the contrary, it's very consoling to know that we aren't the only ones who are feeling that way. Sending so much love and digital hugs your way xx
ah good, so glad to hear, it definitely helps to connect about things rather than glossing over them - I hope you've had a good start to your week!
One of my favorite things about your vlogs is when you read lines aloud. Like the ones you like. It makes me wanna read too.
Hi Emmie ! Sending you positive vibes ~ sorry it’s been more difficult with the move .. understandably, but I know you will come out from this journey stronger and better for going through it… even though it might not feel that’s the case. Keep finding the simple daily pleasures and gratitude
I've been through a lot of stress this past week and when I saw the thumbnail for your video, I thought, “Thank god.” … And then started crying. I hope you know how much this channel means to so many people. Thank you so much ♥️
I moved to the city over 5 years ago and didn't like it at first. I don't think I will ever get used to the traffic but other than that I feel at home here now! I hope you'll feel at home in the city soon!🐱
I lived in Canada for 2 years in a town with a lot of nature, and I miss it everyday since I left to return to my country. I'm always longing to be back. So I kinda understand how you feel now... but living Canada/nature through your vlogs has helped me. Also the way you are passionate about so many things in life has inspired me a lot, so I was able to find joy in my current situation as well. I wish you happiness Emma 🐱❤
ah whereabouts did you live? that's so nice to hear, it helps me a lot to compile little nature diaries as well - sending you all the love
@@emmiereads I lived in Thunder Bay and I'm so happy to say I'm going back to visit for a month in Sept 9th!! my partner is from there and for the 2 years since I've been back to Brazil he has been the one visiting me. I can't wait to see the biiiig Lake Superior again, and go on all the trails ❤️❤️❤️
I was on a holiday in a city not long ago, the view was beautiful, but it was so noisy and there were SO MANY people EVERYWHERE, definitely made me appreciate my home more too, good luck girl. BTW I started reading one hundred years of solitude not long ago, so I'll catch up with those bits of the vlog when I'm deeper into the story ;D
im almost caught up with your videos !! i missed watching your vlogs but exams got in the way. thank you for making them so comforting 🐈💗
Your vlogs always make my Sundays more peaceful! Thank you 😊
i'm sorry you are struggling, i hope it's getting better since this vlog. i know exactly how it feels to move out of your comfort zone. i've been out of my hometown for about 6 years, but i know those first few months are the hardest. just know you can always go back whenever you want, and the exciting part of life is the impermanence of it all
This book should lift your spirits up: A Street Cat Named Bob by James Bowen. It’s a heartwarming story about a ginger cat (similar to yours) and a struggling street musician/ex-drug addict that this cat gives him an extra energy and helps him out of hard times. This cat has become almost a legend by now, he’s got his own little statue in London as well. Quite a few videos on YT, too. But, as ever, books are better than videos. I read it in one sitting. It’s not like it’s one of the greatest novels of all times, but it is a fine, heartwarming, uplifting story. As a cat owner myself (my pet is a Russian blue named Tom), I also found the book quite informative about cat care and such. Cheers!
emma, I just got to finish this vlog and i really hope you're feeling better about living in the city as time goes on! as someone who has never really like the city i am from but have lived in for most of my life (with some breaks here and there) it's always a back and forth between hating it and actually liking it. when i was younger i couldn't wait to not live here anymore but as i've grown i've started to appreciate the good things about it and tried to always find the positive side to this place which exists as well. I hope that you too will grow to appreciate what you can in it and ultimately grow as a person by having this experience in your life (which i can definitely say for me happened once i lived in different places other than my home city) so I hope this makes sense and I hope you're feeling better
I had one of the most difficult months I've had in a few years now. I was wondering how you were doing and it's so good to have an update from you. You've got this, Emma ❤
so sorry to hear that lovely, I so hope September is the month of all good things for you
Honestly me too and I've heard so many people say that recently. Has something weird and astrological been going on? Would be nice to feel hope that things will get better
i never comment on videos so this is weird for me haha ANYWAYS, emmie, i have never related so much to a video before. i've had to move (once again) because my husband is in the military and it is so hard being away from everything. the familiar places, the people, everything. i understand how you feel and you aren't alone. i appreciate you opening up about how you are feeling. thank you for making these videos because they get me out of my slumps when i'm missing home. also, thank you for sparking my love for reading again. it has had such a positive impact on me and given me a way to escape. you're golden. xoxo
Emma, as strangers we're in a very similar stage in life, both in a new city with our partners for job-related reasons in our early-mid-20s and thinking "hmm. So many things are good but my environment makes me feel not like myself." I've been leaning into childhood-comforts like allowing long, long walks to explore the city to find pockets of familiarity. I think for me allowing this time to be a bit like a lightning bug, a small glow in the expanse of my life that may have its own beauty once it's gone. So many chapters in our lives come and go in shapes we don't expect. Maybe this one can be one that reveals to us new homes in ourselves, and maybe in the space around us in time. Wishing you comfort.
💕🐈⬛💕 I totally understand what you’re going through after moving and missing the nature you left behind 💗🌾🪺 I always enjoy your channel. Thank you for sharing 🌸
I finished 100 years of solitude a few days ago and it was such an amazing experience, every page bears so much story and every character is so detailed that all of them could have their own books.
My cat goes crazy over fresh bedsheets aswell
I've had a rough month, and a constant headache this weekend. But I have this relaxing vlog to watch ☺️
I loved the vlog! Your trip to your home gave me Ghibli vibes! Love to see Evie! Hope you feel better soon about Toronto. You'll see that someday you'll be where you want to be. Lots of love to you and to Calcifer! 💖😻
Hang in there, Emma! I love your book recommendations and the way you film your vlogs. Sorry for your rough patch. Take your time 🐱
thank you so much beautiful
what you describe in Skyward is essentially the storyline of the first Mavrick movie, where of course in the end we learn that Mavrick's dad was on a super-secret mission. btw: three of those Johnny Rivers' songs were huge pop hits. Sorry to hear about your depression, however a work-a-holic like you will feel that way between structures, like uni, or a major project. The animals look so great, and it's good you're able to find time to play with them, which is pretty much all they ask.
Really appreciated hearing your thoughts after moving. I've moved a few times over the past year and it's definitely been rough. I remember going through phases of loving and hating where I was living. It's so hard at thise stage of life to figure out what works for you; either way you'll grow either to love it or out of it and onto somewhere else:)
So the post honeymoon crash is very common after a big move! They've done studies on it and everything. My college warned everyone about it for our year abroad, it was part of their orientation package. You're at your lowest point after the honeymoon, I remember I felt absolutely miserable and missed home terribly. But soon it comes back to equilibrium, not the high highs of the honeymoon nor the lows of the crash.
I can't promise that you'll ever fall madly in love with the city, but this sadness shouldn't be forever. Remember, all things have their time, and this too shall pase
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this just made me feel so much better! thank you so much for leaving this, I know ultimately this isn't where I want to be, but definitely looking forward to finding that balance, thank you so much beautiful
@@emmiereads I'm so glad I could help you since your videos have brought me so much calm and peace, which is something I usually struggle with
I hope you feel better and find ur peace nd comfort amidst the noise of city 🤍🤍 sending you loads of love emma 🌸
this vlog is so peaceful and calming, ty for making this content and also for being open with us about how you’ve been feeling. ❤️
hey Emma, I'm sorry you haven't been feeling so hot lately. It's totally okay to not be okay. You can always talk about your true feelings on these vlogs, this is a safe space :). I totally understand city life getting you down. Nature walks usually help me, as well as video games, good books, tea, friends & family time. Sending you lots of good vibes and love
Wishing you well, Emma! 😺 I read One Hundred Years Of Solitude this month with you and it's become one of my favorite books of all time as well! 🌼🌼🌼
AHHH that's fantastic so happy for you!!! it's such an overwhelming beautiful creation:')
So sorry you aren't feeling well, I hope it passes 💕 but I do very much appreciate your honesty, and in a way it is comforting because life is a constant balance of highs and lows and your channel reminds us all to take comfort in the small things and tiny moments of joy even amidst the larger more difficult times. And it is completely 100% ok to be honest about your feelings about your move and the city. It's good to validate those feelings so that you can make the best and most right decision for you in the future. Sending so much love to you ❤
This video came to me at a point where I am also not doing the best. I am on a different continent and I have been away from nature for too long as well and although I am going home soon I hope you know that you aren't alone in these feelings. Your videos bring peace and comfort even when you are open about things that are weighing on you. I truly hope that you are able to find a spark of magic in the city and that you will gain some comfort that we all get from you
Emma - there certainly must be some place you could go to enjoy nature that may be out an hour or so from the big city? I was born in cobourg Ontario which is about an hour away and there is so much beautiful nature around . Even if you go out for a whole day once a week even ? Ontario is gorgeous 😽
I really love it so much when you talk with us about your feelings and problems. It's so nice and warming and it makes me feel .. less alone? Yeah .. so, i love you and i hope you are feeling better now
Watching Emma's videos as it's raining outside is nothing less than calming session. Loads of love to you Emma
That passage where the train first arrives in Macondo is one of my favorites. 🐈
i think your videos gets more comforting and cozier when you speak about mental health.
😺 your vlogs are literally my safe space
I really love how you are honest about your struggles! Your life seems so ideal and picturesque, but of course you are human just like everyone. New places can be very hard, especially when it's full of noises and smells that you're not used to, like loud vehicles and sirens instead of tranquil birds. I hope you have some nature nearby that you can enjoy.
Hey Emma,
I recently moved to a new house and left behind my childhood home. That place is gonna be developed and it'll turn into a new building and we can move in again there after all of it's done. I'm also living in the same city. So in a sense, I guess, our experience of moving to a new place is different. However, this new house feels really like I'm staying on a vacation for a while(I have been here for about fifteen days). I still believe I'll go back to the same old building again and jump into my bed.
I recently visited my old house and it feels so different. I somehow can't believe it'll be gone in a few months (I mean this building would be destroyed and rebuilt and all). Only those streets and roads feel familiar and close to me, though I'm still living in the same city.
I can relate to you in a sense. And I wanna say you're really doing well adjusting in a completely new city. I'm finding it so difficult though i didn't move far away at all. It's so hard to know that I'll never really return to the house where I grew up. It'll be a new and unfamiliar place. But I guess change is a way of life. I'm also waiting for the "honeymoon phase" of my new place to be over. Once, it's done only God knows how I'll feel.
Sorry it seems like I went on a little rant. Thanks for being so straightforward about yourself. It also gives us courage to admit some things (for me that I need to finally accept my "new home"). Love you ❤️
I never liked living in Seattle when I first moved there for college and after about 6 months it really grew on me! I ended up not wanting to leave by the time I graduated! Keep positive, you might end up falling in love w the city :)
hi emma! I loved this vlog so much, it had such great vibes! i really love how you always are open about your struggles, it really gives me comfort to hear you being open about your life, and i love that i can identify with the things you are going through as well. i hope that doing these vlogs help you as much as they help me! I hope you have an amazing week and i am looking forward to your next video as always.
I am soo thankful for you 🐱 You are the calming waves of the sea for me. I wish you better and brighter days!
🐱 we love you.
Moving takes a toll. The last move I made to
A new city, it was a struggle. Mentally and emotionally. It took a long time, but I eventually fell in love with it and have stayed.
I’m happy you are able to visit home. ❤️
Thank you for always remaining you, and for always staying real.
Beautiful video 🐱. Sorry you have been feeling low, hopefully you will feel better and in time come to like living in the city. There is no feeling like going home. My dad passed away in December last year, I dont have a home anymore to go to with a mom and dad to just recuperate and enjoy family time. I miss that so much. I really hope you feel better and you have the gift of having to go home at times. Cherish it💚 Thank you for your beautiful videos. My next read will be 100 years of solitude, I know I will love it. 🐱🐱🐱
🐱 little comfort cat on the way ! 🐱
so sorry to hear that you're not well ! i can totally understand you, when i moved to a big city for the first time, it was soooo overwhelming and people everywhere, but slowly with time, i found my happy places, the park near the river, the coffee shop that has plants everywhere (feels like a forest haha), the library. also, getting noise canceling headphones was a game changer for me, it cuts out the city noise and all thats left is the music and suddenly im the main character in a movie haha be patient with yourself ! maybe with time you will also find comfort in the city xx
Thank you for making all of your videos, I'm finally catching up with them and they offer so much comfort. I love your personality so much. 😺😺😺💕💕💕
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Emmie you have been such an inspiration for me, you have been healing almost all of my reading slumps and overall you have been saving my life (seriously)
I hope you feel better soon and I really appreciate your honesty. It makes me feel like I’m not the only one who feels this way
ah I wish I could give you a big hug, all the love your way, thank you lovely
I hope you feel better soon, Emma! 😺 thank you for creating a comfort place, i really enjoyed your vlog and appreciate you being open about your mental health ❤
😺, hi emmie, thank you for genuinely talking about how you're not doing so well, like the points you mentioned and the situation too, kinda resonated with me a lot and I just felt. . understood? and not alone? ily, just wanted to say that ♡
🐱 your videos help me so much when i'm feeling anxious, really hope you are feeling better. Sending love to u and calcifer ♡
I really related to your conversation about being in a new city. Two weeks ago I moved about 3 hours away from my family to a different city (I'm from NYC originally). I completely feel similar to you. Even though I grew up in a big city and moved to a smaller city, I was so used to finding ways to interact with nature and lived near a big park in my home city and now it just feels so far away. I honestly have a hard time even leaving my apartment because I just feel so afraid. It's been so great to see how you explore your city and settle into your apartment and I'm trying to take some inspiration from that. I did do yoga in my apartment today so I'm calling it a win!
I have not been having a good summer this year and it nice to hear that I am not alone in this feeling. I hope you start feeling better soon.
it's been a rough one for sure, I hope autumn brings lovely things your way
honestly, i relate to you about living in the city thing, my parents suddenly made us move to a city that i know, but barely know, and they told me that were going to live here. It was really fun at first but then i had a lot of sad episodes and loneliness inside me but i found a few friends and im sort of happy again, not the best but ive kind of adjusted here
😻. I can see the struggle in your eyes, but you’re not giving into it. You are still reading, and going to the gym, and spending some time in what nature is available, and doing some interesting city things, and discovering Little Libraries. As a therapist, this tells me the healthy part of you is stronger than the struggling part. You can do this. You can find your way in this new, not so immediately satisfying environment. There’s the honeymoon, then the struggle, then the finding of balance. Just like any relationship. We don’t just have relationships with people, but with books (as you know) and with cities. Thanks for being you. I don’t think we’re here just for the rainbows and butterflies. We’re here to be with you...just as you are.
Hi Emma, When you mentioned having a "book hangover" after finishing 100 Years, (which I got based on your rec but haven't started it yet!), I thought how apt of a description that is!!! I started chuckling! 😉😉😉
🐱 Nothing like pet therapy when you’re feeling down!! Make sure you cuddle Calcifer ♡
Murakami’s translator deserves a shout out too! Also, loooove the experiment on the filter 🐱
Watching your videos with tea is a necessary part of my routine ❤
loved the vlog and i hope you’ll get better soon ❤️🩹😺
i've also been dealing with the loss of easy access to nature in my life for the last year, and i feel for you. i still struggle with it a lot, and it makes me want to hole myself up in my cramped downtown apartment which doesn't help either lmao. however, i appreciate the limited time i get with nature so much more now than i ever did in the past. it's become an almost spiritual experience. i hope you are able to ease into adapting to your new environment! best wishes