I'm OCD: Here's What That Means | My Life with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

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  • @dannyllerenatv8635
    @dannyllerenatv8635 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +22

    The intrusive thoughts at some point almost put your body on "autopilot" if that makes any sense. That's how I experience OCD.

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

      Yes! I feel this way sometimes as well

    • @dannyllerenatv8635
      @dannyllerenatv8635 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@SchizoKitzo If you've ever watched the anime Soul Eater, Death the Kid is basically how I have OCD, albeit not as dramatic, but yeah lol

  • @lisatomihiro3488
    @lisatomihiro3488 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    So while it's normal to occasionally have intrusive thoughts ODC focuses on these thoughts and blows them way out of proportion is what I think you are saying. Please correct me if I misunderstood. Thanks for the video.

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      You got it right! Exactly

  • @laureeeee
    @laureeeee 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    I read about ERP a while ago and the thought of it it's somehow terrifying for me. I guess that's the point lol

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

      It was scary for me too but it helped so so much

  • @Catlily5
    @Catlily5 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    I have borderline OCD. It can be bad but I am not bothered by it all the time.
    Once took a 7 hour bath. I normally take an hour long bath. If I am doing well it is a half hour. A couple of times a year the OCD gets worse and it will take me 3 or 4 hours to take a bath. It is a vicious cycle because the longer it takes me to bathe the less often I want to bathe. The less often I bathe the longer I feel that I have to scrub myself.
    Unrelated to bathing, I get into obsessive thoughts like that I am lazy, or a racist or I don't deserve a pet. One of these thoughts keep going through my head. I tell myself that I don't want to think about it anymore but my brain keeps sending the thought.
    Watching TH-cam videos or reading can distract me from them but often when I stop the thoughts come back. OCD can be hell.

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      OCD is horrible and I hate that you suffer with it as well. And it’s always wild to me how differently it presents in others so thank you for sharing!

    • @Catlily5
      @Catlily5 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@SchizoKitzo Thanks for the video.

  • @lucsgabriel1052
    @lucsgabriel1052 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    Clomipramine saved my life. I've tried Citalopram and Fluvoxamine before and both would make me hypomanic, but somehow I got along with Clomipramine. My OCD before was terrible. There were times I couldn't concentrate on anything because of my obsessions/compulsions. Nowadays it's just a little devil that says mean things in the back of my mind. Don't get me wrong, I'm not free from OCD. I still obsess about whether or not I'm a pedophile all the effing time. But at least it doesn't make my life hell. Thank you for the video, it's very educational! 😊

  • @summermazur3064
    @summermazur3064 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Clomipramine has helped me as much as Zyprexa has helped you. I've had OCD since age 3-4, became severe at age 11 1/2. Finally found clomipramine my senior year of college. Love your channel and hearing your story. Mental health education and destigmatization are so important.

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      So glad you found meds that worked for you!

  • @JackalopeWren
    @JackalopeWren 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    The edits around the DSM bring me such joy everytime! I definitely feel like I have a better understanding of OCD now

    • @JeffreyWilliams-dr7qe
      @JeffreyWilliams-dr7qe 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Operhs grad level book club has frequently covered the DSM widely.

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Awesome! Glad to hear it!

  • @JamieTheSassenachLass
    @JamieTheSassenachLass หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I'm not sure if this is either compulsion or obsessive. But I can NOT stand blankets on the floor especially MY blankets! People whistling, smacking food, popping fingers or any other body part, rubbing hands together, hearing the shriek of the guitar strings when someone is playing it. Absolutely full nightmare! People chewing loudly, smears on mirrors or glass. I'm a perfectionist, that is a bipolar trait I believe. People (hubby or my grown kids) using my brush, omg that is one that will launch me into mars lol. I always wash my brush before and after I wash my hair. I don't like when my personal items, of anything I own, gets moved. It drives me nuts! So. There's me in a nutshell. I'm sure there's more, but I can't think of anything else at this point.
    * I detest anyone mopping my floor except me, I will give them the look of hell fire shooting out my eyeballs if they even attempt it.
    touching anything sticky on my hands, I can't do the sticky hand thing. Being a mom, that was fun! Kids are sticky thing connoisseur
    that sucked! lol

  • @NavigatingthePeriphery
    @NavigatingthePeriphery 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    I can definitely relate to this video. At 8 I was diagnosed with OCD and at 22 with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. Definitely feel it was a precursor. I struggle with OCD still and the hypervigilance I experience is excruciating.

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      I do wonder if there’s a more serious relationship between the two given how common the two are together

    • @NavigatingthePeriphery
      @NavigatingthePeriphery 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@SchizoKitzo I do as well. My psychiatrist says it is being looked in to in more detail. We'll see...

  • @allie54774
    @allie54774 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    I have it alongside cptsd, bpd, osdd, autism and adhd. It definitely ties in to those other conditions in my case.

    • @CarpeDiem23
      @CarpeDiem23 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I think you should change your doctor, or even better country..

    • @allie54774
      @allie54774 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      @@CarpeDiem23 why?

    • @CarpeDiem23
      @CarpeDiem23 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@allie54774 Because only in usa so many people have a bunch of psychological diseases in the same time, and nowhere else in the world, and do you wonder why? Country where parents take their children to the doctor at the slightest strange sign, a doctor who of course determines that some of the disorders ARE in question... and only to inject as many drugs as possible because the pharmacomafia rules the health care system, which is the worst and most expensive in the world there.. I am absolutely sure that in fact, you don't even have 60% of what you stated, that's why. Be well, wake up

    • @CarpeDiem23
      @CarpeDiem23 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      ​​@@allie54774TH-cam keeps deleting my answer, anyway.. Because you live in the only country (I'm assuming usa) where so many people have a bunch of disorders in the same time, where parents take their children to the doctor at the slightest strange sign in behavior, a doctor who of course determines that some of the disorders are in question..only to inject as many drugs as possible because the fa Rm ako mo b rules the health care system, which is the worst and most expensive in the world.. I am absolutely sure that in fact, you don't even have 60% of what you stated, that's why. Be well, wake up

    • @allie54774
      @allie54774 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @CarpeDiem23 lol incorrect. I live in the UK, and suffered my whole entire life until the past 5 years (I'm now 35) undiagnosed with these disorders. Suffered very significantly. Its taken the past 15 years in and out of mental health services where the puzzle pieces have all fit together. The only medications I take are an ssri, low dose of blood pressure medication and over the counter allergy pills and vitamins. I'm in group psychotherapy now & have been for the past 3 years. Nice job on making a bunch of assumptions about me though!

  • @EmmaXO-lb9sf
    @EmmaXO-lb9sf 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I am diagnosed with OCD, Depression, and ADHD.
    It’s interesting the way dual diagnosis work and how common different ones are.

  • @BlackOpMercyGaming
    @BlackOpMercyGaming 29 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    An example of a compulsion would be NEEDING to slap a book twice every time you reference it lol

  • @aeternasherra7801
    @aeternasherra7801 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Thank you so much Kit. I also suffer from OCD along with bpd and osdd and this helps me understand the ocd a lot more ❤️

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Glad to have helped!

  • @mjlove6574
    @mjlove6574 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Very good video Kit! I suffer from OCD since I was 10. Thank You for this video ❤

  • @gckinsey
    @gckinsey 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Thank you for this clear and understandable explanation of OCD! Videos like this are really important when there are so many misconceptions about OCD floating around (and so many people saying things like "I'm so OCD" when they just mean they're highly organized).
    I think the biggest thing I learned was that you can be diagnosed with either obsessions or compulsions on their own-I always assumed you had to have both to be diagnosed. It also makes a lot of sense why it's so hard to get diagnosed in the first place, when it's so hard to talk about really messed up intrusive thoughts with another person and worry about facing judgment in order to get help.
    I also appreciate you sharing about how OCD affects your life. What it did to your eating patterns sounds especially rough. I'm glad that medication and therapy have been helpful and that your OCD is well managed now. Thank you again for making such an informative video!

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  4 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Thanks for the comment GC! OCD is so much more than just being organized and it wasn’t until I started researching it that I truly started to understand what was up with my brain. Stay awesome!

  • @avasinclara
    @avasinclara 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    ohhh cd yes its not fun. Thank's a lot for sharing your life with this comorbidity. very entertaining and informative.

  • @stoneyvowell1239
    @stoneyvowell1239 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Thank you for sharing your experience. It is very helpful. I like some of your explanations as well. People could use more practical associations to help figure out things for themselves.

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Glad I could help! I worked hard on those explanations so thanks!

  • @Vsp712
    @Vsp712 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    In 2022 I owned 3 brand new cars within 4 days during a manic episode that actually led me to the psych ward I'm now 2 years later and open to trying medication again after getting out of the psych ward last week. I'm trying to do my best but it's hard when I'm so unmotivated to do anything even things that I like to do. The cars were a Nissan NV200, a Nissan Juke, and a Toyota Prius. I ended up losing about 7000$ through the trades in 4 days. Really messed me up I wasn't thinking straight at all and the Nissan dealership definitely took advantage of me seeing my struggle

  • @Readmybumpersticker
    @Readmybumpersticker 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I am also diagnosed Schizoaffective bipolar type and OCD. I find OCD worse than Schizoaffective sometimes.

  • @laureeeee
    @laureeeee 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I have never been diagnosed with ocd but I have struggled with intrusive thoughts in the past. Sometimes I think I did something horrible and don't remember it and now everyone is looking at me like I'm a monster but they are afraid of talking about it in front of me for some reason. The thought comes to me and I tell myself "no way that happened" but then it's like another part of my brain does believe it and repeats the "what ifs" over and over. And that's only one of the ways my mind betrays me on a daily basis. It's weird because on the outside I just seem to be a quiet and relaxed person but my mental space is a disaster

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      I always tell people that they wouldn’t last ten minutes in my brain between the voices, racing thoughts/depressive thoughts, my monologue, and my intrusive thoughts. It’s a mess.

  • @mentalhealthwithalana
    @mentalhealthwithalana 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Would you ever be open to making a video explaining or giving advice on how you stopped self harming? Totally ok if you are not comfortable just thought I'd ask. ❤

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      This is the closest I have:
      From Hurt to Healing: The Three Reasons I Quit Cutting
      th-cam.com/video/VqywDKZVgx0/w-d-xo.html
      I won’t be making more because the community guidelines surrounding the issue are too much to tiptoe, and monetization is basically impossible (that video is not monetized) Hope this helps enough tho! The piggies are super cute in it :)

  • @roberttravers7587
    @roberttravers7587 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Good video!😁

  • @il3mendo
    @il3mendo หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you. I mentioned the idea of kissing my best friend, the idea that I forgot to switch off the stove turning the house down on fire, the idea that someone followed me and judged me everytime, that people could have listen to my thought and much more . I have adhd with Schizoaffective disorder. Do you have any Pica history ?

  • @ShadyPlatinum777
    @ShadyPlatinum777 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This is definitely my experience with OCD

  • @mohammedbaban-rm5wv
    @mohammedbaban-rm5wv 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    two years ago I had been studying so hard at the age of 26 and all of a sudden a devastating palpitation that lasted four months and restlessness and then after the palpitation disappeared I have got vicious ocd and then depression and headache, we don't have a health system in Iraq so the physicians were only for one year prescribing me medications with zero benefits and no one told me to change my bad lifestyle, I'm gonna change my lifestyle and I know no one in the world know if I'm gonna get rid of the ocd and depression or they gonna stick with me for good

  • @hettyherz
    @hettyherz 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    One of my friends always checks several times if the door is locked despite the fact she just locked it with her key like a second ago. And after she did all the checking and left, sometimes she even comes back home just to check it again, even if she left 20 minutes ago. We discussed that and haven't noticed other OCD related behaviour, and probably she doesn't have an OCD, but it still looks excessive and sometimes funny (she's the first to laugh). I have intrusive thoughts and sometimes irrational way of choosing clothes or paths, but my doc told me it's just a typical bipolar thing (in my case, I mean) and I was never prescribed with any meds to manage this specific symptom. A therapy was suggested, but I am so resistant to any type of a psychological therapy that it's just a waste of time (my mind sees it as a way to manipulate, control and change who I am). For the last decade there was not a single therapist who could get through my resistance. All my sessions always turned into a conversation about people's behavior patterns, history, psychiatry or philosophy, or even an argument why I think the therapist is wrong about something.

  • @cre8ivelife554
    @cre8ivelife554 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    If it were easier I'd unplug the oven after using it. I'd still wake up after sleeping 20 minutes and go check lol ugh

  • @gh0stpyram1d
    @gh0stpyram1d 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    nice video thanks for making this. I have clinical ocd was diagnosed as a kid and still in treatment. Genuine question for you how do you tell the difference between loud ass intrusive thoughts and AVHs? Curious how and if you make a differentiation. Thanks and thanks for raising awareness for this . i cant tell you how much it annoys me when ppl say "im so ocd" like ... bruh ...

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      All I can say to answer that question is to stay tuned! You’re not the only one to ask it and I do listen to my audience 👀
      Glad you liked the video!

  • @martin_fuentess
    @martin_fuentess 17 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Why you don't take Sertraline? I would really appreciate an answer to this question. Thank you so much for all your content, it's so helpful!!!!

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  16 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      Honestly, it’s because my doctor hasn’t told me to. Simple as that. Glad I can make content you find helpful!

  • @maermydionkhyngmaker
    @maermydionkhyngmaker 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    i have, from time to time, considered that i might be a bit ocd. but in self evaluation, i know it's really just part of my paranoia. if i am distracted or simply on autopilot, i will do things without applying enough thought to remember. so i would drive thru town, the get a bit obsessed about whether i stopped at the red lights. or i might push the lock button on the car remote 3 or 4 times to make sure it is locked. but the reality is that it's my paranoia about the red lights because i do not directly remember stopping at any. or it's my paranoia about the functioning of the car remote and my need to hit it a few times to make sure the button press registered.

  • @jarofdirt16
    @jarofdirt16 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I have an appointment with my psychiatrist this week about switching meds and my ocd is really flaring up. I had a hospital visit a couple years ago from switching meds and do not feel safe switching meds without being in the hospital but also cannot afford to miss work. The medication is lamictal which you said you're on and I have just seen some pretty scary videos about its side effects which I know will happen with any medication I look up incldung seroquel xr which I am on right now and have been for a couple years. Just feel really lost and hopeless right now and I am really scared. My diagnosis is major depressive, generalized anxiety and ocd.

    • @jarofdirt16
      @jarofdirt16 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Just really need someone that understands because the littlest things take over my life and I feel so much shame for having nothing left to give when I only work 30 hours a week and do nothing besides that :( I just want the constant torment to end

  • @aurinkona
    @aurinkona 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    when you've been through the system and mi rigamarole long enough, you learn that diagnoses are only helpful in the very beginning, to name the demon.
    eventually, it becomes simply a matter of which meds work and if you can tolerate the side effects-and this will give you insight into how useless diagnoses are at the end of the day.

    • @Catlily5
      @Catlily5 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Medication is based on diagnosis. When I was misdiagnosed I didn't get the right medication and it was hell. So I would say that a diagnosis is definitely important if you are being medicated (and even if you aren't being medicated for non-medicine treatment options).

  • @alexandermatthewsmusic
    @alexandermatthewsmusic 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I'm schizo too and have OCD I won't mention I actually wrote a book along those lines but great example the kissing one I never had that one unless I came across certain people 🙂 laughter is the best medicine aye kit kat ha

  • @kinzhe83
    @kinzhe83 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I guess I'm lucky I only triple check, or more, if I took my meds when I go on a long trip. I also wash my hands every time I was outside, at least for like 20 seconds, I don't know if this is ocd or just legit bacteria eradication. But yeah, I don't know if that qualifies me for ocd. Thanks as always for nice and informative video Kit.

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Thanks for the nice comment Kinzhe!

    • @Catlily5
      @Catlily5 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Are your hands raw from washing them so much?

    • @kinzhe83
      @kinzhe83 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@Catlily5 I might have not made myself clear, when I said outside I meant whenever I go outside my house for some chore or drive a car, basically when there's lots of touching potentially unclean objects, and I don't do that a lot so my skin is fine.

    • @Catlily5
      @Catlily5 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@kinzhe83 Oh, ok. I walk outside a lot just to check what is going on and walk back in so I wasn't sure what you meant.

  • @dodoismus369
    @dodoismus369 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Hello, can I ask you? Where do you see the main difference between strong OCD obsession and psychotic delusion that you are aware of?
    Because last year I had my very intensive psychopatological episode stemming from my new and one of the first partner relationship in my life. The beginning of the episode was OCD based and I have never had anything psychotic, but from the experiences of other people I can see that my obsessions were very delusion-coded.
    I experience it as if there were two distinct opinions in my head at the same time and this tends to be so strong I even personified the OCD. For example last year I had the obsession (one of many) when my OCD thought that my mom killed my queerplatonic partner and served his meat as a lunch to me instead of a turkey. At that moment I rationally knew that it's not true, but it's like a part of my brain just belives it fully at the moment. It's like an endless fight with a hypnotist in your head that is giving you bizzare suggestions. Also I experienced a lot of aphophenia and sometimes it was a bit referential delusions and paranoia coded as well.
    So sometimes I thought about what exactly makes my experiences different from someone with delusions that is aware of them.

  • @ivaylohandarov4080
    @ivaylohandarov4080 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    The worst type of osd is when it's a situation and you have to react in a particular way.i had a allergec reaction to lamicdal stivan Johnson syndrome it was really bad

    • @gloomye5596
      @gloomye5596 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      about to start this one and i'm nervous , were the side effects really bad ?

    • @ivaylohandarov4080
      @ivaylohandarov4080 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@gloomye5596 its very rare ,like 1 in a million,i was unlucky

  • @ivaylohandarov4080
    @ivaylohandarov4080 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    My first diagnosis was osd.

  • @JeffreyWilliams-dr7qe
    @JeffreyWilliams-dr7qe 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Is this a new version of aversion therapy and nicotine abatement thru the smoking of multible cartons of Chesterfields in one sitting?

  • @JeffreyWilliams-dr7qe
    @JeffreyWilliams-dr7qe 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wasn't OCD an OK show the ole WB?

  • @somes3cretcat
    @somes3cretcat 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Also what music do u use in the background?

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      It’s called “No. 10 A New Beginning” by Esther Abrami from the TH-cam audio library! 🎶

  • @trentBurger-xz3dn
    @trentBurger-xz3dn 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    CDO had to put it alphabetical order

  • @somes3cretcat
    @somes3cretcat 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Are those real candles?

    • @SchizoKitzo
      @SchizoKitzo  5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Heck no my hair has caught on fire twice from candles. I love me some good fake ones for ambiance tho!

  • @KevinChristensen-h8x
    @KevinChristensen-h8x 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Iused to suffer from obsessive compulsive disorder. I got rid of by finding god and giving everything to him. I stopped being ocd

    • @Catlily5
      @Catlily5 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Lucky you!

  • @jantaljaard835
    @jantaljaard835 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Only Jesus Christ can help hwr.

    • @Catlily5
      @Catlily5 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Jesus Christ might approve of using the help that is available. Like medication and therapy.

    • @439801RS
      @439801RS 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      So why hasn't he?