Douglas i really appreciate your videos. they helped me in my darkest times and even now in lighter days they still give me some comfort and encouragement. I have improved greatly since the beginning of the year, but i still feel like im living in the shadow of that hellish time and do have some fear in ever having to go through it again. my guess though is that after you have went through the first bout , that all of those skills and things you learn about yourself and life must make the subsequent bouts a little easier to get through. Thats my hope.
Fear doesn't ever leave, but every morning I say to myself... you have to just keep going girl ...and with the appropriate balance of meds/ supplements and movement/exercise... I've bought a rebounder for each morning bounce into the day... it really helps x
These days I've been feeling so anxious about depression coming back that I didn't even noticed that I was already in it, I feel miserable and useless, wish I was able to overcome this instantly, but now that I've accepted the fact that I'm yet in another depressive episode, I feel this strange sense of relief, although allowing myself to completely succumb to it makes me feel so weak, and I hate that.
I had my first depression episode in 2015. It is now 2018 and my anxiety of relapsing is more strong. It eats away at me . My fear of it coming back is there but I don't feel depressed
I have a complex diagnosis & part of that has been chronic anxiety, ocd ruminating & depression due to the first two symptoms. So when i start to pick up & get some control of myself & my life a week or so later I go back down. I put way too much unrealistic pressure on myself to be consistently well when i use to accept the blips. Now panic sets in on harder days/weeks so i can't just be as anxiety co-exists. Im over therapied in dbt etc & my brain wont shut up about it due to bipolar & bpd. I have to keep hoping things get easier to manage. Thank you for this vid. 😊
Thanks for sharing your story. I agree you should put less pressure on yourself. Here is a video I made called “be kind to yourself“ which I think will be helpful to you. th-cam.com/video/MKA2neCekfM/w-d-xo.html
@@DouglasBloch Oh thank you so much for highlighting my comment & the link. I will check it out soon! The extreme pressure started after a major breakdown due to trauma 3yrs ago.
It's a hard concept to be realistic about the fact that it can return but try not to fear it and just accept it. Part of you wants to make it go forever and another part is scared it will come back forever. Accepting it is something that can come but also go, like bad weather, is definitely helpful because it is realistic. In the past when I felt better I deluded myself into thinking I was cured so when it came back I was not prepared and I panicked. Nowadays I try to just take one day at a time and not think about anything but today. I am prepared for it but trying not to anticipate it because I have fallen into the trap of it coming and going so much that I became hyper aware of my inner world and changes and it exacerbated the anxiety. I find when I start to really panic about it all returning and being hyper focused on my inner world- it's helpful for me to shift my attention outwards and distract.
I have chronic anxiety with slight depression possibly bipolar 2. lately my anxiety has kind of been in check but I've noticed I become bored with life since I'm more living in this middle Zone without more highs and lows. is this common do I actually miss being anxious? I don't know what's going on but mornings have been awfully hard I seem to have a couple of good days couple bad days but nothing great nothing worth remembering just kind of a ongoing One Foot In Front of the other day after day.
+Melly C thank you..lol. yeah explaining in a few sentences without sounding stupid is kind of difficult. plus it is so hard to explain to others exactly what is happening in your life...I just remember usually it gets a little easier but I know it will always come back to complete hell
I have a question does it depend how long u had your anixety cause anixety would keep coming back !? Do u have to keep going out no matter if the anixety come back every time !? Thanks ❤️
I have had periods where the anxiety stays away. When it does come back, then I have to use my tools to deal with it. Actually the depression seems to be more of a problem than the anxiety.
Louis : do u have anyone that can be your safe person or can be there for you to show you support !? . Are you just afraid of people or just the out door !? & @doug : I think both come hand in hand ! . ❤️
Douglas i really appreciate your videos. they helped me in my darkest times and even now in lighter days they still give me some comfort and encouragement. I have improved greatly since the beginning of the year, but i still feel like im living in the shadow of that hellish time and do have some fear in ever having to go through it again. my guess though is that after you have went through the first bout , that all of those skills and things you learn about yourself and life must make the subsequent bouts a little easier to get through. Thats my hope.
Fear doesn't ever leave, but every morning I say to myself... you have to just keep going girl ...and with the appropriate balance of meds/ supplements and movement/exercise... I've bought a rebounder for each morning bounce into the day... it really helps x
These days I've been feeling so anxious about depression coming back that I didn't even noticed that I was already in it, I feel miserable and useless, wish I was able to overcome this instantly, but now that I've accepted the fact that I'm yet in another depressive episode, I feel this strange sense of relief, although allowing myself to completely succumb to it makes me feel so weak, and I hate that.
for me the fear of relapse was stronger than the depressive episode itself
I finally feel happy today. I'm so scared I'll feel sad again tomorrow
What I tell myself is, “if you have a dip, you have the tools to come out of it just as you have done in the past.“
It's okay to feel sad don't beat yourself up over it trust me I have and it just perpetuates itself
Thank you for your honesty
You're welcome.
I had my first depression episode in 2015. It is now 2018 and my anxiety of relapsing is more strong. It eats away at me . My fear of it coming back is there but I don't feel depressed
I have some of the same feelings about anxiety. Just keep breathing living one day at a time and employ your self-care strategies.
@@DouglasBloch Thankyou so much. It means the world you reply so quickly. Do you think it's possible the fear of relapsing will ever go away?
I have a complex diagnosis & part of that has been chronic anxiety, ocd ruminating & depression due to the first two symptoms. So when i start to pick up & get some control of myself & my life a week or so later I go back down. I put way too much unrealistic pressure on myself to be consistently well when i use to accept the blips. Now panic sets in on harder days/weeks so i can't just be as anxiety co-exists. Im over therapied in dbt etc & my brain wont shut up about it due to bipolar & bpd. I have to keep hoping things get easier to manage. Thank you for this vid. 😊
Thanks for sharing your story. I agree you should put less pressure on yourself. Here is a video I made called “be kind to yourself“ which I think will be helpful to you.
th-cam.com/video/MKA2neCekfM/w-d-xo.html
@@DouglasBloch Oh thank you so much for highlighting my comment & the link. I will check it out soon! The extreme pressure started after a major breakdown due to trauma 3yrs ago.
@@RaviShankar-ek5lr yes I am thank you. Its taken a lot of hard work but I am a lot better than I was when I when I wrote my comment.
It's a hard concept to be realistic about the fact that it can return but try not to fear it and just accept it. Part of you wants to make it go forever and another part is scared it will come back forever. Accepting it is something that can come but also go, like bad weather, is definitely helpful because it is realistic. In the past when I felt better I deluded myself into thinking I was cured so when it came back I was not prepared and I panicked. Nowadays I try to just take one day at a time and not think about anything but today. I am prepared for it but trying not to anticipate it because I have fallen into the trap of it coming and going so much that I became hyper aware of my inner world and changes and it exacerbated the anxiety. I find when I start to really panic about it all returning and being hyper focused on my inner world- it's helpful for me to shift my attention outwards and distract.
It seems as if you have a good understanding of your inner dynamics. Living one day at a time is the best way to deal with recurrent depression.
how painful. thank you for this video. I wish we could be cured easily
It can’t be done easily, but it can be done with effort over time and the support of other people.
I love ur fighting spirit.
Thank you.
Thanks Douglas
Don't let tommorow's fears keep you on the ground today.
THANK You
You are welcome.
I have chronic anxiety with slight depression possibly bipolar 2. lately my anxiety has kind of been in check but I've noticed I become bored with life since I'm more living in this middle Zone without more highs and lows. is this common do I actually miss being anxious? I don't know what's going on but mornings have been awfully hard I seem to have a couple of good days couple bad days but nothing great nothing worth remembering just kind of a ongoing One Foot In Front of the other day after day.
You just described my life right not exactly!!!! Hang in there 💜
+Melly C thank you..lol. yeah explaining in a few sentences without sounding stupid is kind of difficult. plus it is so hard to explain to others exactly what is happening in your life...I just remember usually it gets a little easier but I know it will always come back to complete hell
I’m new to this I have questions
I have a question does it depend how long u had your anixety cause anixety would keep coming back !? Do u have to keep going out no matter if the anixety come back every time !? Thanks ❤️
I think u got to do more exspoure mine gotten better then it use to be ! Do u do exspoure !?
I have had periods where the anxiety stays away. When it does come back, then I have to use my tools to deal with it. Actually the depression seems to be more of a problem than the anxiety.
Louis : do u have anyone that can be your safe person or can be there for you to show you support !? . Are you just afraid of people or just the out door !? & @doug : I think both come hand in hand ! . ❤️
Doug: is eye movement do to trauma or abuse or a lot of stress ??! 👀
What was your root cause how did u get it !? What made you scared of people in the first place !?