Edit: RIP Byron If you are struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts, PLEASE talk to someone. You are not alone and you can get through this. In honour of Reckful, please keep moving forward. Edit2: I felt the need to say a few words about Reckful regarding this documentary as well as apologize about my unfair portrayal of Mitch Jones th-cam.com/video/EEn8xkVmzX8/w-d-xo.html
This whole thing comes across very one-sided, painting him as this great person who's grown past all his mistakes. When you told the Mitch Jones story you completely glossed over the accusations of Reckful making sexual advances towards Mitch Jones GF Mira. They both claimed that the other lied about it, which was the main reason they hated each other so much.
There's a slight inaccuracy here. There were no subscriptions when Byron added his paypal link. There were partners, but it was so that the streamer could play ads and earn ad revenue. Byron was partnered, but he vowed not to play ads in his stream and said if people wanted to support him, they could do so via his paypal.
reckful? most don't know he used my sub rogue techniques i created.. and used them in arena to go undefeated. reckful became famous off my techniques.. and honestly. he's not very good. he used an ally character to duel me / befriend me.. and learned a few things, but for him to get famous off a few of my tricks, when i had literally over 200 secret tricks.. but my techniques took YEARS to create.. lots of theory crafting and testing.. my arsenal of tricks was beyond everyone. even confronted him in a game once.. he did not even respond because it'd ruin his "legacy".. but i win in the game.. i got my own named NPC in the game with the merciless gladiator title ((rarest arena title - that I should have had in 1st season arena, but disbanded too early..).. reckful merely got a shitty token you vendor. you get to kill my NPC in the game. basically. reckful stole my techniques and never gave me credit. many have stolen my tricks for fame. from neilyo to reckful to a bunch of others.. all got fame off my super trick techniques. respect to blizzard for giving me credit tho. i am the best rogue wow has ever witnessed. no one comes close. i was always 10 steps ahead of everyone.
I’ve never had any kind of “celebrity” death tear me up like this. I feel like I’ve grown up with reckful, watched him from day 1 being into the wow pvp community, followed him the whole way, and have personally struggled with a lot of the same issues Byron did. He Truly just felt like another one of my friends, and someone who I feel like everyone felt like they knew intimately because he put a lot of himself out there for others, and was always himself never fake or just using a streaming personality. Hell I remember being the one to tell him in mop that pet battle leveling is broken right now, and that’s how he went and leveled his Dk Aquaniqua. The crowning achievement of my world of Warcraft career was getting my ass absolutely farmed by him in mop and I absolutely loved every second of it. RIP to an absolute legend Byron “reckful” Bernstein you will be sorely missed.
@@urbanpozeb3858 he probably forgets then suddenly remembers all over again. Alzheimer's is evil. And it dosent make you permanently forget. Dementia does that. But the reason alzheimer's is simular is because i see it as worse all together because the person forgets and suddenly remembers again, like it happened yesterday. But with dementia, you forget all together. I just feel for him man. Rest in peace and rest in power Byron and Guy 😓
I didn't know him, did not see any of his streams, did not know who he was until today and still I watched the whole thing to try to understand why this happened to him. Thank you for this video.
I grew up with byrons streams and life journey since i was a young Kid...it feels like a friend is gone. I Deal alot with depression and my croncial diseases, often i cant leave the house. I dont have friends, Byrons streams/ youtube Videos often let me forget about my problems. It breaks my heart that he is gone. I really hope that he is in a better place now and find his inner peace. Thank you byron for beeing you and all the good cries and laugh i had in your streams.❤
@@paselo It is amazing what he did for you and many others. Let me be your friend, I'm no Byron but I'm a good listener and if you want to talk you can talk to me. I don't know you but I also have my own demons and some days are just really hard to wake up. I'm sorry for your loss and my offer stands.
@@Heoz to both of you: I too am here if you all just need to share. I have been there and got out. I have no miracle cure for it, I have a 6 year Journey to improving my mental condition and I know better than most what it feels like. Hit me up if you ever need to chat or vent.
There is no way his father is a healthy person today, no matter who you are, losing not one but two sons to suicide must absolutely break and hollow a man out completely.
What I find fascinating from a psychological standpoint is how he can read the pain his father went through, be fully aware of it and the affect it had, weep for his pain... and the do the same thing himself. Like he literally put his father through it again, fully aware of how his Dad felt the first time. It really goes to show that once you go down the mental rabbit hole, you become blind to everything else, because that makes zero sense. Its very very sad.
I'm a father, my son is alive but I could only imagine that he feels like he failed them completely cause he couldn't help save them and that would be enough to destroy any father 😔
@@schangzz I'm only speaking on what I've heard but I watched the Reckful and HealthyGamerGG (Dr K) "interview" not sure what to call it but Reckful talked about how his mother had been depressed aswell. I can't imagine what shes going through either.
i feel so much for his parents right now.... they have lost 2 sons to suicide. i cant cant even imagine. Rest In Peace Byron, thank you for everything. you will be missed
Suicide destroys families for generations. It's sad they've had to bury 2 boys like this. I could understand if he passed from illness or some other cause but this is another level.
He should of acknowledged the tramua his parents will have to cope for the rest of their lives because of his actions. There are so many people in a worse position than he is in this world. That shows he didn't have common sense either. Also, he should have known that trolls are irrelevant people and nobody takes them seriously unless you are dumb. Especially since he is a twitch streamer. This also shows that he lacked common sense
I never knew reckful. Watching this made me like the guy and was looking forward to watching his content...and that I did not expect that. R.I.P I can only imagine what his family is going through especially his father 😞
That excerpt he read from his fathers book is now so much more haunting knowing that reckful also killed himself, and I just hope his father still has the strength to carry on although I really doubt it. I wish I could have met reckful and been his friend. It sounds really odd but I feel like we could have had a deeper understanding cuz I have similar internal struggles that he did and I would have been a far better friend than that friend who apparently used him.
I cried, smiled, had continuous laughter with this man I followed his passion, his career, everything, all online and somehow he feels like a friend, always by his side :) edit: I can't believe he died... surreal, rest easy bro
RIP reckful, that passage at 1:09:20 by his father makes me so so so sad :( To have another son gone I can't imagine what will happen to him and his mind
A family in the small village I live in lost two of their three kids as young adults to suicide. The third got married, has a little son now and still lives here. I can‘t even imagine the pain.
why reckful... why did you do it? couldnt hold on anymore? Why couldnt you keep sniffing shrooms or seek professional help. Feel so bad for his parents. Reckful knew all this and still did it
I had a friend of mine who killed himself. He was obviously at the lowest point of his life and felt that he had no other choice so that's what he did. He wanted to escape his own mind. The weight of his thoughts became to much for him to bear. It wore him down year after year and day after day until one day last year he had enough and he took his life in a room all by himself. The ripple effect that his death created was huge. It affected everyone who knew him. It changed people's lives forever. I often wonder if was able to have a preview of the aftermath his death created if he would have made a different choice that morning. If he could have seen how many people cared about him maybe it would have been enough to stop him from pulling that trigger. I wear a bracelet with his name on it every day. This bracelet and memories are all that myself and a lot of others have left of him. I know that the struggles of depression are real. I have experienced them myself and continue to do so, but my hope is that someone who is going through a similar struggle reads this and realizes how many people do care about you. And if they were to lose you it would destroy them in ways that you cannot imagine. It isn't worth it and there is always an alternative. Talk to someone and don't try and take it all on by yourself and bottle it all up inside because it will eat you alive. RIP Byron. I never personally met you, but you had a positive impact on thousands of people who watched you.
This shows that reckful didnt have common sense and did not have much compassion for his parents and family. He should of acknowledged the tramua his parents will have to cope for the rest of their lives because of his actions. There are so many people in a worse position than he is in this world. Also, the fact that he took trolls seriously shows that he did not have common sense. Escepically because he is a popular twitch streamer, he should have known that nobody takes trolls seriously and trolls are irrelevant people, unless you are dumb.
@@karmellammy4773 you're thinking from a logical perspective because your mind is somewhat healthy. People with overwhelming depression or other mental illness don't have this privilege. So don't talk about people like that when you have zero clue about what they were going through . This gatekeeping where people try to decide who is allowed to have problems and who isn't, is so fucking retarded and helps contribute to suicides because people aren't allowed to come out with their problems.
Thanks for sharing this with us. You carry such a massive impression out and share such inspiration and sympathy its awesome. Keep it up, you have a really strong heart.
I've been a father for 4 months now.... and the part where Byron read his dad's book really got to me, had me crying for that poor man and his family, hope I can be a good father to my baby girl and protect her of this hostile world. Ty very much for all your work Slush, I only knew Reckful from a few twitch clips and videos but this was amazing to watch
Can’t believe this is real. Went through severe depression and when I felt like trying to get better I used to watch his streams. He helped me so much. I am devastated he didn’t deserve this, he was such a beautiful soul, he just needed our help. Rest In Peace Byron. 💔
one of the biggest reasons I stream, is because it honestly helps my depression, wether i have 1 viewer or no viewers in a day the fact sharing something i do with potentially anybody and everyone who wants to come see makes me feel better. honestly i never seen one Reckful stream but i heard about him and his struggles.... I have thought about some stuff. however sometimes you just don't realize how much your missed or impact people until its too late, and then you dont have a chance to see it!
The loss of a brother, of a son...it was so difficult to hear Reckful talk about that. It seems to me like that inescapable void of depression and sorrow almost drove Reckful to his own end, but out of that darkness came the shining light of his career and ambitions. Difficulty on that level changes people. Its up to us how we face it. Keep moving forward. I know how hard you’ve been working on this and how important this video has been to your own life Sam, Im so glad you finally get to share it with the world. I think Reckful would like it too.
Fly high Byron... I’ve been battling depression for so long now. Most likely was the true reason my wife left 13 years ago and took my girls. Fast forward some years later and I’m hardly recognizable and for a short time lived on the street. There is even a man that my wife let in my children’s life who is now in prison for doing unspeakable things to them. I don’t know if I’m getting better. Fast forward to now and I’m just coming off the best year since 2007. Then Covid hits and my great job is gone. You see when you are so hurt that you actually lose your memory for periods of time just to defend yourself cause it’s own conflicts with people who care in your life. You push them away. It would be nice if at the bottom you think to call someone. But it hurts so bad to speak it out load. I didn’t know of Byron til today. I feel somehow connected to him though. This vid was a great way for me to not only get to know who he is but also to cry a little for him then for me. Also inspired me to type what I’m sure I will regret. Stay strong everyone. You are not alone. Peace, love and try not to give up. I haven’t yet. But the struggle is so terrifyingly real.☯️☮️❤️
You have nothing to regret regarding sharing your story. I think it's very brave of you. You've obviously been through a lot but you're still here and still fighting. That's what's important! Every day you make it through is another win. As Be_3azy said above, it will get better. Believe it.
@@EzMackinCheez my mom passed when I was 15. I'm now 31 and got out of serious depression 1 year ago. Speak the things you really want, even if it's hard to say or fully believe. But over time it will become your reality. ONLY WAY IS UP! Start slow. Your path is yours. So move at YOUR pace. Love!
Damn, the way Reckful acts towards his EX-GF reminds me of myself. i did something similar to my ex of 5 years. 3 years later and there isn't a day i dont regret my decicions. eventhough he was depressed and he commited suicide, there was an aspect of self destruction. and that aspect of your personality is hard for people to handle, since it is up to you to control it. that being said, i know exactly what he is going through, it is like looking in a mirror seeing this video... Rest in peace, not alot of people will understand what you endured but you are no longer in pain. . .
I've never heard of this guy before but today my Twitter TL was just spammed about what happened... That's why I came onto this video... the whole story made soo speechless... especially since I knew the end before.... RIP Byron
1:21:02 "i think you are talking about being alone i think you are talking about being abandoned................." i heard about reckful before but never watched him because i was not interested in the games he played .but after watching this video and reading something about his story i can see how much i can relate to him. I was abandoned by my father when i was 6 years old and because of that i suffered a terrible trauma that lasted many years and made me fall into a huge depression and three suicide attempts.I had nobody and i felt abandoned and alone, i loved my father so much when i was a kid and sometimes i wondered what did i do wrong? , why did this have to happen to me? .Eventually i realized the problem was me and i had to fight against these negative feelings , and i did it and prevailed. now i feel better and even though i had some negative thoughts , they are not as serious as before. I am sorry to hear about what happened to Reckful , that mental battle was too hard for him . living with depression is the worst thing ever . Rip Reckful .
I've been watching Byron since 2010 and you did an excellent job of showing his life unfold through streaming. His death has left so many of us with a piece of our hearts gone. I hope he knew the impact he had on all of us, and how much he helped those of us going through rough times of our own. Rest easy, Reckful. The world will not forget you.
I think a lot people will watch this in the later half of 2020 after Byron's passing, and think that Slush, or someone else, should make a new version of this looking at his death as well, since this video was made 3 months before it. In my opinion, this video's timing and content will forever be the perfect culmination of Byron's story that we were allowed to see from him. Yes he passed away soon after this video, but I think this video not having his ending is how it should be. We shouldn't fixate on his death. We should discus it and learn from it, but not watch it as we watched his life. This video honor's the life he lived more than an updated video showing his death.
He is someone I cried with laughed with and just had a lot of memories with. Sad to see someone with such an impact go and never really being able to find peace with himself. Rest in Peace Byron You touched many of our lives.
I was an old viewer of his stuff I watched him from the goblins vs gnomes update to hearthstone all the way to the game of Jones and a little bit of the travelling stuff, watching this made me want to tweet out to him to tell him how much of an amazing and inspiring person he really was. I feel like there’s a hole in my chest knowing he’s passed away. Rest In Peace Byron, you reminded me to live my life to the fullest back then and I’ll take that lesson again now
it fucken just sucks. I also watched him years ago. I find it crazy that people in comments don't know who he was. I feel so sorry for his parents and closest friends. I dunno as sad as it is, his whole passing and the way he went just annoys the shit out of me. rip.
Never have i really cared about a celebritys death. But this was heartbreaking.. Especially having seen this documentary a few months before. Scenes from when Reckful is reading straight out of his Fathers book, talking about Byron's brothers suicide, kept playing in my mind as I was processing Byron's passing.. Absolutely fucking sobbing when I think of all the things he's done, good and bad, and now he's just gone. The one thing that keeps me at bay is that I know that he is happy now, he is finally free from his demons. I think a lot of us who have watched Reckful for a long time felt really close to him without actually knowing him. Rest in peace, Reckful. I will re-watch this documentary in honor of you.
@@artemperesada3454 i guess, altho i never chat so that's not the case for me here. It's just the fact that I've dreaded this day might come some day, and seeing how he was lately made it even worse.
Excellent video Slush. Engaging narrative and it's clear you put time, effort, and heart into the content. You painted a colorful picture with plenty of detail to relate to Byron.
Shut up you snowflake, go cry over a bowl of onions you fake, you just want to get a heart and likes from people who feel bad for you, freaking cry baby loser,
I honestly didn't know much about Reckful before his death. I feel like its almost insulting to him to check him out only now, but this documentary was amazing. It left me in tears by the end. Again, I don't know him, but he seemed like an honest, genuine, kind person. I hope that his family is doing alright dealing with this. RIP Bryon.
Opening this video i was just curious as i heard before that nickname "Reckful" and i use twitch from time to time so i know a little bit of popular streamers, but i never saw any of his streams, so i thought maybe it would be an interesting video and holy shit i did find the holy grail of youtube. I want to thank you for this rollercoaster of emotions i felt, for all the work, effort and time you put into creating this masterpiece documentary film. The edit, the music choice, the narration, you just nailed everything. The production of this video is so freaking high. Thank you, mr. Slush. Keep on doing the good work and i'll see you at 1m subs.
@Radical Gaming you think your parents would be proud of you if they saw that? You think you may lose friends if they saw that and realized how heartless you are? You think that comment alone could prevent you from acquiring your dream job? Stop saying shit behind the computer because you can, makes you look like a fool
I didn't know anything about Reckful, i just got randomly reccomended into a clip of his last moments on stream and this video followed straight after. The part where he tells HealthyGamer that he was feeling great hit me so hard. I had a similar experience to this specific point, where a few months before i got the closest to taking my life i actually was the happiest i ever remember being. Watching he say he was feeling great, knowing how it ended, the words in my mind were just "The peak before the fall". I wanted to understand what happened to him, but i didn't expect to start crying while watching this video. Sorry for venting out about my own experience like this, just felt like here is the only place this thoughts can have any context.
In my 21 years of life, Reckful's death has been the only "celebrity" death ever that has made me cry my eyes out and caused me to be completely incapacitated with grief. And I never even met the guy. His stream taught me a lot and without a doubt thousands of other people too. He will always be remembered we will miss you Byron. RIP. I miss him already
i didnt know im not alone with this, same after 20 years here hardly ever any deaths affected me, but somehow Reckful's case has been haunting me for the past 3 weeks, strange thing ngl
@@scrumpyjack4380 I found out when I was at a random house. A friend asked me if something was wrong and I was just serious, told her an important person to me killed himself. I cried like a baby on the way home, first time I cried in years. So much pain that day
I’ve never had any kind of “celebrity” death tear me up like this. I feel like I’ve grown up with reckful, watched him from day 1 being into the wow pvp community, followed him the whole way, and have personally struggled with a lot of the same issues Byron did. He Truly just felt like another one of my friends, and someone who I feel like everyone felt like they knew intimately because he put a lot of himself out there for others, and was always himself never fake or just using a streaming personality just Byron. Hell I remember being the one to tell him in mop that pet battle leveling is broken right now, and that’s how he went and leveled his Dk Aquaniqua. The crowning achievement of my world of Warcraft career was getting my ass absolutely farmed by him in mop and I absolutely loved every second of it RIP to an absolute legend Byron “reckful” Bernstein you will be sorely missed.
Topshizzleable honestly I used to love watching the stream when reckful would fuck around with classes he didn’t main and just would be laughing/half trolling with his teammates the whole time as he facerolls to 2500+ at least on aquaniqua lol.
It's so strange this feeling... I have been a fan of his videos for many many years. I did not saw a single stream of him on Twitch or i ever met him in person but some weeks ago i saw this video of him and Dr.K and i started to follow Reckful's news in order to see if he was doing better on his depression. Days later.... With an overwelming feeling and great sadness received the news of his suicide and i am great affected for this since then... and i know he's not gonna read this, but i need to put this out cuz people need to know how great he was and that he was doing of this world a better place. Rest in Peace, Champion. You will be for ever remembered.
i never really watched his streams, and i was never really into this person but the fact that he is dead hits me like a rock. I cant stop thinking about him, his dead and the person he was. I know that he is in a better place now Rest in peace Byron. We will always remember you
I grew up watching Byron, and listening to him read his dad's book crushed my soul. Edit: RIP Byron, you will never know how many people cared about you man.
watching this reminded me of all the tough times and good times watching his streams got me through. all throughout middle school, high school, and now college. i've spent hundred if not thousands of hours watching his stream and then falling asleep to them. Thank you Byron i miss you. thank you
I was recently feeling very lonely due to my lack of social skills, I'm not able to socialize well with people in real life so I barely have any friends and the ones that I have I'm not very close to. And then a couple of days ago on the day of the everland stress test I found it on steam and started playing, I fell in love with it and as soon as it finished I started looking up everything about the creator etc. And now seeing this video and the interview with that psychologist I'm simply in tears. I didn't now anything about reckful before this, but for me he's a hero.
That was like ripping a heart into two... for the father to write that passage....omg.. it was hard to listen to... never mind it was his own experience of losing a son..... reliving the worst experience of his life in vivid detail... horrorful .... writing that book, with those details... over and over.... made it all much worse,..... healing takes time... can't heal when that shits in print...feel bad for his mother and father... cant even imagine
My older brother just recently killed himself. It's been 4 months. Every day I think about the situation...what I could of done to make him better. My anger and rage has become worse than ever...I snap on everything. I don't want to see the rest of my family. In fact I'd be alright with not seeing them anymore. Their all just abunch of bullshit. I've become reclusive. Like a spider.
Feels so weird knowing ill never see one of his streams again. im empty inside right now. i hope reckful is now at peace. If you feel alone please talk to someone.. even if you think its stupid and that people will not understand you. someone will always listen. feel free to msg me if you need to.
Exactly how I feel... knowing I will never hear his goofy laugh and jokes, his game... everything... Reckful was a different kind of streamer, I could love him like a best friend irl just watching him. This is devastating, I can't even sleep.
1:22:02 Why did he actually took his life? I mean, I would be so interested seeing a History of Reckful 2 or something like that, including why he is in heaven now... ;(
@@_Pieman Watch the mizkif video, he goes over how it wasnt planned. He was going through a manic episode, as shown in his tweets and often times people will hurt themselves to try and regain a feeling of control. The police said it was quick and painless, at least hes not hurting anymore. RIP Byron.
Thank you so much for doing this video. I sadly never heard of him before. Started to watch this video just to get an idea of him but couldn't stop till the end. What a person. Gone way too soon. RIP Byron. Sending all the prayers and love to his family and friends. So sad!
Actually if there is a heaven, it's not a place for suicide commiters. I would prefer the version of reincarnation as more lucky character in this game called life.
@@rz6839 not in true Christianity. The only One that decides where a human being will go, heaven or hell, is God. People who dare telling about other people where they will go, are extremely arrogant. That is God's job, thank God.
I've followed Reckful since early 2013, I remember most of these but I stopped watching him for 1 or 2 years, so it's nice to have a recap while I was gone, so thank you, you did an excelent job!
Hold up, let me get the popcorn. Edit: Didn't know much about Reckful before this, the way you unravelled his story was totally captivating. Great video!
RIP RECKFUL I’ve actually been crying so much he was my favourite streamer and Internet personality, he was so awesome and seemed so nice, I really wish I could’ve met him once as he was simply just amazing
I watched this back when you first published it and I cried. I came back and watched it after finding out about his death and this helped me stop crying and find closure for my favorite streamer. He will forever live in our hearts and will never be forgotten... Btw love the support right now from the WoW community for Byron!! and thank you slush for creating this!! Long live Byron's legacy! RIP Byron
I am watching this a couple of times each Year, always crying as soon as i see or hear Byron... Byrons stream was a safeplace for me. He was the reason i became i better person. What happened to byron just shows how cruel this world is. Thank you byron, for everything you did and still do even if you are not here with us anymore. i will always miss you.
Knowing Reckful from his stream since 2014, (his Japan streams were one of the best content I've experienced on Twitch.) But damn this hits me way harder than I imagined, especially because some of the stuff I can relate to. The passage out of his fathers book his the hardest, after leaving your family behind, the sorrow they go through, the emptiness they feel. I'm just glad there's a video like this that really explains the kind of person he was (from an outside perspective) I hope Byron can rest easy now and his family / friends get all the support they need. A sad day for all of us!
I like how this is a 90 min documentary about a guy that plays games streaming on a camera for people to watch. Yet Slush felt the need to tell us what IRL meant because obviously the target audience that would watch this to begin with would never of known that! Thanks sir learn something new everyday. I am new to the webs!
This was so good! i have been a fan of Byron for years, I have loved to be a part of his life, i think alot of us see Byron as a friend when things maybe was hard and you could just log on to twitch and hang out with him. I could relate to so much about his brothers death and depression, about needing to feel fullfilled. Because my dad took his own life when i was at a young age and finding meaning in life when he could just leave me and it so easily hasn't always been so easy, but Byrons streams have always been there to cheer me up. So thank you Byron for being there, you have changed alot of peoples lifes over the years for just being you
What an amazing documentary, as a long time viewer of Byron this video really brought back some good memories. Can't wait to see what your next video will be!
Man, I fucking cried by the end. This guy seemed insanely real, highs and lows, good times and painful mistakes. Wish he'd stuck around, sounds like he was a positive influence on the world. Feel awful for his father too, hope that guy is okay. Christ the pain he must be going through. R.I.P Byron.
@saebica sorry to disappoint you. But you have no idea what's after due to the fact you're still alive. Don't put someone down because of what they believe. You're theory is ignorant.
@@Gobig4l1f3 My theory is logical, but your irational fear doesn't let you live fully. No one matters in this life because unless we write history, we're nothing and never existed.
im not religious and generally agree with your view on death, but don't shit on other people's beliefs, especially when its about the uncertain.@@saebica
Once more I am reminded that each and every human on this earth is as multifaceted and unique as the finest of gems. I think the word for this sensation is sonder? Thank you Slush for making this gem of a video.
Heartbreaking, I’ve never cried for somebody I never met before but he was so special for many of us because like Slush said, he was authentic. Thank you for all the many memories I made on your streams, thank you for the support you gave me without even knowing me or even talked to me once. The world lost a light, paradise is only more enlightened.
I was watching Reckful when he came back to stream in 2012, i was 16, just finished middle school, home alone pretty much all summer, had 2-3 friends over with their PCs sitting, laughing and playing for days, and watching his streams, some of the best times i had.
Dude Byron has helped me throughout so many years just by being himself, it's such a helping hand to see someone struggle in similar ways to yourself, but still being able to make something out of themselves. Like someone else said, it honestly feels like Reckful is a friend, and so amazing to see him do well!
Brilliantly done. I've been following Byron since around when he started in 2012 so seeing it all summarized like this is fascinating. Also that Nicolas Jaar Space Is Only Noise record is awesome
I never heard of him before, but seeing this last scene talking to Dr. Alok made me very close to cry. Trying to share his experience with his community to protect them making the same mistakes is something only a blessed human would do. What an awesome guy. Rest in Peace!
I really didn't see that ending coming. Amazing work you did, and a very special message and example of life that more people should see. Wonderful video, man.
I too lost my brother to suicide, so guys if you're feeling depressed or like no one out there understands you please know that there are people out there who do care and that no matter what you're going through it's not the end of the world rest in peace reckful you will be missed brother
I like to talk to myself that suicide is something I will never do, I would rather starve to death afther running away and hiding till I died of thrist or hunger then commit suicide, afther all I have 4 siblings, 1 oder brother(1,5 year older, with whom I live my whole life in one room) and 3 younger sisters, so if I comited suiced it would hit hard my mother and my sibling as for father and grandmother idk how it would hit them, we live in one house.
What a greatly put up documentary on a guy who inspired me to become a streamer, like a lot others out there, years ago. It is so complete, many moments I myself forgot about his development as a streamer... The up & downs of a guy who always gave himself entirly to his stream, with only few limitations. Such a likable guy who really is easy to relate to on a lot of things. Makes me want to have a beer with him and discuss about gaming, investment, or his crazy breakup stories even though it's quite public already :D FeelsGoodMan.
I certainly wasn't the most active Reckful viewer, I only found him when he first picked up hearthstone, and he was definitely up there as one of the top two or three streamers I watched most on twitch, even holding that place still. I always enjoyed his stream every time I tuned in, no matter what game he was play (or lack there of). The loss of Reckful is truly, truly, saddening, he was inspiring in more ways than I could ever even list. He was one of the most relatable, truthful, open, and down to earth streamers ever. And he never lost touch with who he was or what he loved the whole time. Rest in peace, you deserve every loving thought and memory we all shared with you. I wish I could say more still, but words are still hard about this. I, and the world, will miss Byron
I never realized how much I could relate to a Twitch streamer. The ending sequence hit a little too close to home. Thank you for sharing this with us, and Reckful, you have gained a fan. Best of luck to you both.
Thank you very much for this high quality documentary, I didn't know this person and I didn't know how much he has done for the world and went through. I'm really sad that there are people like him and suffer so much because of unchangeable events. I also fought depression for long time, but my problems are nowhere near what Byron and his family had to go through. I hope all the people with this kind of struggle can find happiness. Rest in peace Byron, I know even in afterlife you must struggle, stay strong. I hope your family will recover from the loss.
I Really appreciate this video because I felt that you handled the dark aspects of the story well and helped me understand him and even myself even a bit more. I've been seriously struggling with my depression since as long as I can remember and it I've also been very open about it. I've felt really alone and bad about myself the majority of my life and I'm really glad that there's people like him who don't want others to feel alone and want to connect others. It's so sad that he's gone and I didn't even know him. Just knowing that he had a similar type of internal struggle and that he wanted to help others is enough for me to care about him deeply.
i knew everything about reckful and still watched the whole video. Kind of wierd to feel for somebody you've never met. Cheers reckful, i hople life gets better for you.
The hardest part about depression. It seems to never go away. Periodically you feel at peace but it always comes back. Some people think it's a cop-out. It is a battle. I totally understand this. May you RiP Byron. I hope you have peace now.
I did not know anything about him until today, and I have tried to find out the reason for what has happened. Thanks for this video, rest in peace Reckful.
I didn't know how serious my suicide attempt back when I was in college until I watched this video. Now I am scared that maybe one day, in some heavy event in my life, this thoughts may come back into my head seeing how Reckful had been battling this on and off through out his life. This is really an eye opener for me as well that I have to watch out for signs if ever the demon comes back for me. I'm sorry we lost a genuine amazing soul in the gaming community, he surely left an big impact to all the gamers who know and have heard of him.
this is giving me goosebumps now, man it hurts that he is gone :/ i watched so many streams and had lots of fun watching his irl streams. rest in piece byron
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Edit: RIP Byron
If you are struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts, PLEASE talk to someone. You are not alone and you can get through this. In honour of Reckful, please keep moving forward.
Edit2: I felt the need to say a few words about Reckful regarding this documentary as well as apologize about my unfair portrayal of Mitch Jones
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our king has returned
Wow, just fk wow.
This whole thing comes across very one-sided, painting him as this great person who's grown past all his mistakes. When you told the Mitch Jones story you completely glossed over the accusations of Reckful making sexual advances towards Mitch Jones GF Mira. They both claimed that the other lied about it, which was the main reason they hated each other so much.
There's a slight inaccuracy here. There were no subscriptions when Byron added his paypal link. There were partners, but it was so that the streamer could play ads and earn ad revenue. Byron was partnered, but he vowed not to play ads in his stream and said if people wanted to support him, they could do so via his paypal.
reckful? most don't know he used my sub rogue techniques i created.. and used them in arena to go undefeated. reckful became famous off my techniques.. and honestly. he's not very good. he used an ally character to duel me / befriend me.. and learned a few things, but for him to get famous off a few of my tricks, when i had literally over 200 secret tricks.. but my techniques took YEARS to create.. lots of theory crafting and testing.. my arsenal of tricks was beyond everyone. even confronted him in a game once.. he did not even respond because it'd ruin his "legacy".. but i win in the game.. i got my own named NPC in the game with the merciless gladiator title ((rarest arena title - that I should have had in 1st season arena, but disbanded too early..).. reckful merely got a shitty token you vendor. you get to kill my NPC in the game. basically. reckful stole my techniques and never gave me credit. many have stolen my tricks for fame. from neilyo to reckful to a bunch of others.. all got fame off my super trick techniques. respect to blizzard for giving me credit tho. i am the best rogue wow has ever witnessed. no one comes close. i was always 10 steps ahead of everyone.
I'm glad you made this video so his legacy will never be forgotten
RIP Reckful
Rest in peace.
😭😭😭😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😭😭😭
:/
@@link-so9wn ok u can go fuck yourself. This legend was greatness.
@@link-so9wn you want people to say that when you die?
Rest in peace Reckful, content creation wouldn't be as it is now without you ❤🙌❤
RIP :(
Wait what....is he really died
I’ve never had any kind of “celebrity” death tear me up like this. I feel like I’ve grown up with reckful, watched him from day 1 being into the wow pvp community, followed him the whole way, and have personally struggled with a lot of the same issues Byron did. He Truly just felt like another one of my friends, and someone who I feel like everyone felt like they knew intimately because he put a lot of himself out there for others, and was always himself never fake or just using a streaming personality.
Hell I remember being the one to tell him in mop that pet battle leveling is broken right now, and that’s how he went and leveled his Dk Aquaniqua. The crowning achievement of my world of Warcraft career was getting my ass absolutely farmed by him in mop and I absolutely loved every second of it.
RIP to an absolute legend
Byron “reckful” Bernstein you will be sorely missed.
@@adrimyracle. yep i dont know when but he died
@@RanzSchwein Today
I feel bad for his dad, the losses he has had to go through, unimaginable.
dude why are you me
Well this is awkward...
In seriousness though, yes. I feel so badly for his father, both son's killed themselves...
Its tough
his dad has alzheimer i think soo its sad cause he probably forgot or idk...
@@urbanpozeb3858 he probably forgets then suddenly remembers all over again. Alzheimer's is evil. And it dosent make you permanently forget. Dementia does that. But the reason alzheimer's is simular is because i see it as worse all together because the person forgets and suddenly remembers again, like it happened yesterday. But with dementia, you forget all together. I just feel for him man. Rest in peace and rest in power Byron and Guy 😓
I didn't know him, did not see any of his streams, did not know who he was until today and still I watched the whole thing to try to understand why this happened to him. Thank you for this video.
same :c
I grew up with byrons streams and life journey since i was a young Kid...it feels like a friend is gone. I Deal alot with depression and my croncial diseases, often i cant leave the house. I dont have friends, Byrons streams/ youtube Videos often let me forget about my problems. It breaks my heart that he is gone. I really hope that he is in a better place now and find his inner peace. Thank you byron for beeing you and all the good cries and laugh i had in your streams.❤
@@paselo It is amazing what he did for you and many others. Let me be your friend, I'm no Byron but I'm a good listener and if you want to talk you can talk to me. I don't know you but I also have my own demons and some days are just really hard to wake up.
I'm sorry for your loss and my offer stands.
Same mate
@@Heoz to both of you: I too am here if you all just need to share. I have been there and got out. I have no miracle cure for it, I have a 6 year Journey to improving my mental condition and I know better than most what it feels like.
Hit me up if you ever need to chat or vent.
There is no way his father is a healthy person today, no matter who you are, losing not one but two sons to suicide must absolutely break and hollow a man out completely.
Even the devil would go damn bro
:(
What I find fascinating from a psychological standpoint is how he can read the pain his father went through, be fully aware of it and the affect it had, weep for his pain... and the do the same thing himself. Like he literally put his father through it again, fully aware of how his Dad felt the first time. It really goes to show that once you go down the mental rabbit hole, you become blind to everything else, because that makes zero sense. Its very very sad.
I'm a father, my son is alive but I could only imagine that he feels like he failed them completely cause he couldn't help save them and that would be enough to destroy any father 😔
@@schangzz I'm only speaking on what I've heard but I watched the Reckful and HealthyGamerGG (Dr K) "interview" not sure what to call it but Reckful talked about how his mother had been depressed aswell. I can't imagine what shes going through either.
Yes being creepy with UR profile PIC helps :) NOT
"What do you do when a champion falls? You pick up his sword and you fight" - Dr. K
RIP Reckful
wow
@@HLmilkcarton fuck you
This should be pinned.
@@HLmilkcarton What did he do
what a shit quote.
i feel so much for his parents right now.... they have lost 2 sons to suicide. i cant cant even imagine. Rest In Peace Byron, thank you for everything. you will be missed
Suicide destroys families for generations. It's sad they've had to bury 2 boys like this. I could understand if he passed from illness or some other cause but this is another level.
It's a tragedy :( I hope Byron finds the peace he was looking for...
My heart broke when I saw his brothers tweet saying something along the lines of "I have siblings anymore"
He should of acknowledged the tramua his parents will have to cope for the rest of their lives because of his actions. There are so many people in a worse position than he is in this world. That shows he didn't have common sense either. Also, he should have known that trolls are irrelevant people and nobody takes them seriously unless you are dumb. Especially since he is a twitch streamer. This also shows that he lacked common sense
@@karmellammy4773 And you should have stayed in school.
I never knew reckful. Watching this made me like the guy and was looking forward to watching his content...and that I did not expect that. R.I.P I can only imagine what his family is going through especially his father 😞
Just got to know him now i feel really sad knowing he's not alive
@@toshinhyanki9019 same. It seems I find these legends all too late. RIP Reckful and RIP Etika
But how did he commit suicide? The world wants to know
@@Bradmhj That's only putting salt on an open wound. Don't you dare ask that it is none of our business and we gotta respect that.
That excerpt he read from his fathers book is now so much more haunting knowing that reckful also killed himself, and I just hope his father still has the strength to carry on although I really doubt it. I wish I could have met reckful and been his friend. It sounds really odd but I feel like we could have had a deeper understanding cuz I have similar internal struggles that he did and I would have been a far better friend than that friend who apparently used him.
I cried, smiled, had continuous laughter with this man
I followed his passion, his career, everything, all online and somehow he feels like a friend, always by his side :)
edit: I can't believe he died... surreal, rest easy bro
I feel the same
Fantastic video. What a rollercoaster of emotions
True PepeHands
Good job knowingly being in a parasocial-relationship?
loser
RIP reckful, that passage at 1:09:20 by his father makes me so so so sad :( To have another son gone I can't imagine what will happen to him and his mind
his poor parents...
Fuck this is so depressing to watch
A family in the small village I live in lost two of their three kids as young adults to suicide. The third got married, has a little son now and still lives here. I can‘t even imagine the pain.
why reckful... why did you do it? couldnt hold on anymore? Why couldnt you keep sniffing shrooms or seek professional help. Feel so bad for his parents. Reckful knew all this and still did it
@@mastermax7777 stop saying it's his fault. This fucked up world cornered him into doing it
Damn I just sat here for an hour and a half and watched this without even knowing who recktful was and that was beautiful
Same here! An hour ago I had never even heard his name, now I’ll never forget it!
I didn't know him before now, I didn't even realize how long I was here for!
Facts bro there was a video about him and I didn’t know shit and I found this.
same bro
Same here!
the best documentary about a streamer/twitch-personality I have ever seen! Saw it on Nymn's stream and the whole chat was clapping in the end!
I had a friend of mine who killed himself. He was obviously at the lowest point of his life and felt that he had no other choice so that's what he did. He wanted to escape his own mind. The weight of his thoughts became to much for him to bear. It wore him down year after year and day after day until one day last year he had enough and he took his life in a room all by himself.
The ripple effect that his death created was huge. It affected everyone who knew him. It changed people's lives forever. I often wonder if was able to have a preview of the aftermath his death created if he would have made a different choice that morning. If he could have seen how many people cared about him maybe it would have been enough to stop him from pulling that trigger.
I wear a bracelet with his name on it every day. This bracelet and memories are all that myself and a lot of others have left of him. I know that the struggles of depression are real. I have experienced them myself and continue to do so, but my hope is that someone who is going through a similar struggle reads this and realizes how many people do care about you. And if they were to lose you it would destroy them in ways that you cannot imagine. It isn't worth it and there is always an alternative. Talk to someone and don't try and take it all on by yourself and bottle it all up inside because it will eat you alive.
RIP Byron. I never personally met you, but you had a positive impact on thousands of people who watched you.
This shows that reckful didnt have common sense and did not have much compassion for his parents and family. He should of acknowledged the tramua his parents will have to cope for the rest of their lives because of his actions. There are so many people in a worse position than he is in this world. Also, the fact that he took trolls seriously shows that he did not have common sense. Escepically because he is a popular twitch streamer, he should have known that nobody takes trolls seriously and trolls are irrelevant people, unless you are dumb.
@@karmellammy4773 Just stop please
@@karmellammy4773 you're thinking from a logical perspective because your mind is somewhat healthy. People with overwhelming depression or other mental illness don't have this privilege. So don't talk about people like that when you have zero clue about what they were going through . This gatekeeping where people try to decide who is allowed to have problems and who isn't, is so fucking retarded and helps contribute to suicides because people aren't allowed to come out with their problems.
Thanks for sharing this with us. You carry such a massive impression out and share such inspiration and sympathy its awesome. Keep it up, you have a really strong heart.
Damn.
I've been a father for 4 months now.... and the part where Byron read his dad's book really got to me, had me crying for that poor man and his family, hope I can be a good father to my baby girl and protect her of this hostile world.
Ty very much for all your work Slush, I only knew Reckful from a few twitch clips and videos but this was amazing to watch
hey, how is life going? Your doughter healthy? Hope so
Have seen your comment and wanted to ask, just curious.
Can’t believe this is real. Went through severe depression and when I felt like trying to get better I used to watch his streams. He helped me so much. I am devastated he didn’t deserve this, he was such a beautiful soul, he just needed our help. Rest In Peace Byron. 💔
i never watched him as a streamer, found out about the news earlier, been crying since. Heartbroken 💔
Keep your head up. Shits tough.
You seem like the kind of person that’s looking for attention
Archons wtf?
@@Archonsx fuck off pls
It breaks my heart that his parents have now lost two of their three sons in suicides... god the pain. If only I can give a hug to them.
Your hug will mean nothing
pianosenzanima just like your words...
@@xxatomantxx67 yes
@@pianosenzanima1 solo un italiano puo' rispondere cosi ad un commento. what a shame
@@pianosenzanima1 So many wannabe edgelords these day's huh, maybe try to be your own person instead of an internet stereotype.
one of the biggest reasons I stream, is because it honestly helps my depression, wether i have 1 viewer or no viewers in a day the fact sharing something i do with potentially anybody and everyone who wants to come see makes me feel better. honestly i never seen one Reckful stream but i heard about him and his struggles.... I have thought about some stuff. however sometimes you just don't realize how much your missed or impact people until its too late, and then you dont have a chance to see it!
Whats your twitch name? I’ll surely stop by.
hope you are doing alright friend. I know how it feels to be in that place its horrible. if you ever need someone to talk to im here.
Keep it up :)
Have you considered dealing with the cause of your depression
Pls link twitch
The loss of a brother, of a son...it was so difficult to hear Reckful talk about that. It seems to me like that inescapable void of depression and sorrow almost drove Reckful to his own end, but out of that darkness came the shining light of his career and ambitions. Difficulty on that level changes people. Its up to us how we face it. Keep moving forward. I know how hard you’ve been working on this and how important this video has been to your own life Sam, Im so glad you finally get to share it with the world. I think Reckful would like it too.
And now he takes his own life. Rip:
It was a good run. Bye run 👋 Byron
Fly high Byron... I’ve been battling depression for so long now. Most likely was the true reason my wife left 13 years ago and took my girls. Fast forward some years later and I’m hardly recognizable and for a short time lived on the street. There is even a man that my wife let in my children’s life who is now in prison for doing unspeakable things to them. I don’t know if I’m getting better. Fast forward to now and I’m just coming off the best year since 2007. Then Covid hits and my great job is gone. You see when you are so hurt that you actually lose your memory for periods of time just to defend yourself cause it’s own conflicts with people who care in your life. You push them away. It would be nice if at the bottom you think to call someone. But it hurts so bad to speak it out load. I didn’t know of Byron til today. I feel somehow connected to him though. This vid was a great way for me to not only get to know who he is but also to cry a little for him then for me. Also inspired me to type what I’m sure I will regret. Stay strong everyone. You are not alone. Peace, love and try not to give up. I haven’t yet. But the struggle is so terrifyingly real.☯️☮️❤️
It only gets better!!❤❤❤
You have nothing to regret regarding sharing your story. I think it's very brave of you. You've obviously been through a lot but you're still here and still fighting. That's what's important! Every day you make it through is another win. As Be_3azy said above, it will get better. Believe it.
Be_3azy thank you I hope you are right.
My GodLikeSpeed thank you so much for your kind words. I’m trying.
@@EzMackinCheez my mom passed when I was 15. I'm now 31 and got out of serious depression 1 year ago. Speak the things you really want, even if it's hard to say or fully believe. But over time it will become your reality. ONLY WAY IS UP! Start slow. Your path is yours. So move at YOUR pace. Love!
Damn, the way Reckful acts towards his EX-GF reminds me of myself. i did something similar to my ex of 5 years. 3 years later and there isn't a day i dont regret my decicions. eventhough he was depressed and he commited suicide, there was an aspect of self destruction. and that aspect of your personality is hard for people to handle, since it is up to you to control it. that being said, i know exactly what he is going through, it is like looking in a mirror seeing this video... Rest in peace, not alot of people will understand what you endured but you are no longer in pain. . .
I've never heard of this guy before but today my Twitter TL was just spammed about what happened...
That's why I came onto this video... the whole story made soo speechless... especially since I knew the end before....
RIP Byron
1:21:02 "i think you are talking about being alone i think you are talking about being abandoned................."
i heard about reckful before but never watched him because i was not interested in the games he played .but after watching this video and reading something about his story i can see how much i can relate to him. I was abandoned by my father when i was 6 years old and because of that i suffered a terrible trauma that lasted many years and made me fall into a huge depression and three suicide attempts.I had nobody and i felt abandoned and alone, i loved my father so much when i was a kid and sometimes i wondered what did i do wrong? , why did this have to happen to me? .Eventually i realized the problem was me and i had to fight against these negative feelings , and i did it and prevailed. now i feel better and even though i had some negative thoughts , they are not as serious as before. I am sorry to hear about what happened to Reckful , that mental battle was too hard for him . living with depression is the worst thing ever . Rip Reckful .
I've been watching Byron since 2010 and you did an excellent job of showing his life unfold through streaming. His death has left so many of us with a piece of our hearts gone. I hope he knew the impact he had on all of us, and how much he helped those of us going through rough times of our own.
Rest easy, Reckful. The world will not forget you.
I think a lot people will watch this in the later half of 2020 after Byron's passing, and think that Slush, or someone else, should make a new version of this looking at his death as well, since this video was made 3 months before it.
In my opinion, this video's timing and content will forever be the perfect culmination of Byron's story that we were allowed to see from him. Yes he passed away soon after this video, but I think this video not having his ending is how it should be. We shouldn't fixate on his death. We should discus it and learn from it, but not watch it as we watched his life. This video honor's the life he lived more than an updated video showing his death.
I have no intention of doing a part 2 but there a few things I feel need to be addressed that I will say in a brief video (that I will not monetize).
He is someone I cried with laughed with and just had a lot of memories with. Sad to see someone with such an impact go and never really being able to find peace with himself.
Rest in Peace Byron
You touched many of our lives.
I was an old viewer of his stuff I watched him from the goblins vs gnomes update to hearthstone all the way to the game of Jones and a little bit of the travelling stuff, watching this made me want to tweet out to him to tell him how much of an amazing and inspiring person he really was. I feel like there’s a hole in my chest knowing he’s passed away. Rest In Peace Byron, you reminded me to live my life to the fullest back then and I’ll take that lesson again now
it fucken just sucks. I also watched him years ago. I find it crazy that people in comments don't know who he was. I feel so sorry for his parents and closest friends. I dunno as sad as it is, his whole passing and the way he went just annoys the shit out of me. rip.
@@7xXSE7ENXx7 I hope he knew God and is in heaven. Sucks to think he could be in hell if there is one
One of the best youtube videos i've ever watched.
Yes my horn is big from this one
Never have i really cared about a celebritys death. But this was heartbreaking.. Especially having seen this documentary a few months before. Scenes from when Reckful is reading straight out of his Fathers book, talking about Byron's brothers suicide, kept playing in my mind as I was processing Byron's passing.. Absolutely fucking sobbing when I think of all the things he's done, good and bad, and now he's just gone. The one thing that keeps me at bay is that I know that he is happy now, he is finally free from his demons.
I think a lot of us who have watched Reckful for a long time felt really close to him without actually knowing him.
Rest in peace, Reckful. I will re-watch this documentary in honor of you.
It's different with streaming celebrities because they actually can talk and connect to the viewers, unlike on TV
@@artemperesada3454 i guess, altho i never chat so that's not the case for me here. It's just the fact that I've dreaded this day might come some day, and seeing how he was lately made it even worse.
Excellent video Slush. Engaging narrative and it's clear you put time, effort, and heart into the content. You painted a colorful picture with plenty of detail to relate to Byron.
Finally finished it. I don't even watch Reckful, but damn this was such a good watch.
he is the real OG of twitch
I don't even know him and i'm crying, Rest in Peace Byron, wish i could've gotten to know you more than i do now. You will be missed
Shut up you snowflake, go cry over a bowl of onions you fake, you just want to get a heart and likes from people who feel bad for you, freaking cry baby loser,
@@gutsandcasca4244 Lol wtf
Cuppa Goon shut up
Same he was an amazing person you could always see the pain he was going through but still he always smiled🙏🙏🙏
Same RIP
I honestly didn't know much about Reckful before his death. I feel like its almost insulting to him to check him out only now, but this documentary was amazing. It left me in tears by the end. Again, I don't know him, but he seemed like an honest, genuine, kind person. I hope that his family is doing alright dealing with this. RIP Bryon.
Opening this video i was just curious as i heard before that nickname "Reckful" and i use twitch from time to time so i know a little bit of popular streamers, but i never saw any of his streams, so i thought maybe it would be an interesting video and holy shit i did find the holy grail of youtube. I want to thank you for this rollercoaster of emotions i felt, for all the work, effort and time you put into creating this masterpiece documentary film. The edit, the music choice, the narration, you just nailed everything. The production of this video is so freaking high. Thank you, mr. Slush. Keep on doing the good work and i'll see you at 1m subs.
And thank you for making my day because this comment said everything I was hoping to deliver with the video ❤️
I had the exact same reasonings
@@SlushTV Your channel is pure gold and it is better than 99% of documentaries out there.
could not agree more
You should try watch his japan streams on his youtube channel
I feel so bad for his dad, losing two sons to suicide. It must be heartbreaking.
@jos molen wtf
heartwrenching
@Radical Gaming You're so funny dude, oh my god, just fuck off.
@Radical Gaming you think your parents would be proud of you if they saw that? You think you may lose friends if they saw that and realized how heartless you are? You think that comment alone could prevent you from acquiring your dream job? Stop saying shit behind the computer because you can, makes you look like a fool
@Radical Gaming damnnn you're funny, hope you know the feeling of his dad one day.
I didn't know anything about Reckful, i just got randomly reccomended into a clip of his last moments on stream and this video followed straight after.
The part where he tells HealthyGamer that he was feeling great hit me so hard. I had a similar experience to this specific point, where a few months before i got the closest to taking my life i actually was the happiest i ever remember being. Watching he say he was feeling great, knowing how it ended, the words in my mind were just "The peak before the fall". I wanted to understand what happened to him, but i didn't expect to start crying while watching this video.
Sorry for venting out about my own experience like this, just felt like here is the only place this thoughts can have any context.
woah, yikess
Hope you are doing well
In my 21 years of life, Reckful's death has been the only "celebrity" death ever that has made me cry my eyes out and caused me to be completely incapacitated with grief. And I never even met the guy. His stream taught me a lot and without a doubt thousands of other people too. He will always be remembered we will miss you Byron. RIP. I miss him already
Weirdly I feel the same, Couldn't give two fucks about random_celeb_01 death, but Reckful taking his own life has really made me quite sad.
i didnt know im not alone with this, same after 20 years here hardly ever any deaths affected me, but somehow Reckful's case has been haunting me for the past 3 weeks, strange thing ngl
You cried? Like tears came out your eyes ? I havent cried since I was a child god damn
@@scrumpyjack4380 some people feel more emotion than others, we can't help it.
@@scrumpyjack4380 I found out when I was at a random house. A friend asked me if something was wrong and I was just serious, told her an important person to me killed himself.
I cried like a baby on the way home, first time I cried in years. So much pain that day
I’ve never had any kind of “celebrity” death tear me up like this. I feel like I’ve grown up with reckful, watched him from day 1 being into the wow pvp community, followed him the whole way, and have personally struggled with a lot of the same issues Byron did. He Truly just felt like another one of my friends, and someone who I feel like everyone felt like they knew intimately because he put a lot of himself out there for others, and was always himself never fake or just using a streaming personality just Byron.
Hell I remember being the one to tell him in mop that pet battle leveling is broken right now, and that’s how he went and leveled his Dk Aquaniqua. The crowning achievement of my world of Warcraft career was getting my ass absolutely farmed by him in mop and I absolutely loved every second of it
RIP to an absolute legend
Byron “reckful” Bernstein you will be sorely missed.
omg it was you!? was his dk a gnome to begin with? I can't 100% remember.
But i do remember the "fishing" on aquaniqua
Topshizzleable lol yeah it was a gnome originally.
Topshizzleable honestly I used to love watching the stream when reckful would fuck around with classes he didn’t main and just would be laughing/half trolling with his teammates the whole time as he facerolls to 2500+ at least on aquaniqua lol.
It's so strange this feeling... I have been a fan of his videos for many many years. I did not saw a single stream of him on Twitch or i ever met him in person but some weeks ago i saw this video of him and Dr.K and i started to follow Reckful's news in order to see if he was doing better on his depression. Days later.... With an overwelming feeling and great sadness received the news of his suicide and i am great affected for this since then... and i know he's not gonna read this, but i need to put this out cuz people need to know how great he was and that he was doing of this world a better place. Rest in Peace, Champion. You will be for ever remembered.
Long time reckful viewer but I had never heard that exert from his fathers book. I've never cried so hard.
this was a recent livestream .. maybe a month ago or so
Time stamp?
@@se7ensinzz398 here this vod you can easily find it from there
www.twitch.tv/videos/533919013
time stamp www.twitch.tv/videos/533919013?t=00h40m01s
Yeah I'd recommend watching his Dr K sessions. Learned a lot about him and relate to him more than I thought. He was dealt some shitty cards :(
i never really watched his streams, and i was never really into this person but the fact that he is dead hits me like a rock. I cant stop thinking about him, his dead and the person he was. I know that he is in a better place now
Rest in peace Byron. We will always remember you
You dont want to die, You just want the pain to go away - RIP Reckful, Be at peace now bro
I grew up watching Byron, and listening to him read his dad's book crushed my soul.
Edit: RIP Byron, you will never know how many people cared about you man.
It's really sad.
RIP Byron
Fantastic video for real. Used to watch Reckful loads back in the day and loved this throwback!
watching this reminded me of all the tough times and good times watching his streams got me through. all throughout middle school, high school, and now college. i've spent hundred if not thousands of hours watching his stream and then falling asleep to them. Thank you Byron i miss you. thank you
I was recently feeling very lonely due to my lack of social skills, I'm not able to socialize well with people in real life so I barely have any friends and the ones that I have I'm not very close to. And then a couple of days ago on the day of the everland stress test I found it on steam and started playing, I fell in love with it and as soon as it finished I started looking up everything about the creator etc. And now seeing this video and the interview with that psychologist I'm simply in tears. I didn't now anything about reckful before this, but for me he's a hero.
Stay strong man. RIP Byron
Keep your head up.
@1:09:00 when Bryon reads his dads passage about his brothers suicide is heart breaking.... rip to both of them, i hope they have no more pain
That was like ripping a heart into two... for the father to write that passage....omg.. it was hard to listen to... never mind it was his own
experience of losing a son..... reliving the worst experience of his life in vivid detail... horrorful .... writing that book, with those details... over and over.... made it all much worse,..... healing takes time... can't heal when that shits in print...feel bad for his mother and father... cant even imagine
My older brother just recently killed himself. It's been 4 months. Every day I think about the situation...what I could of done to make him better. My anger and rage has become worse than ever...I snap on everything. I don't want to see the rest of my family. In fact I'd be alright with not seeing them anymore. Their all just abunch of bullshit. I've become reclusive. Like a spider.
Feels so weird knowing ill never see one of his streams again. im empty inside right now. i hope reckful is now at peace. If you feel alone please talk to someone.. even if you think its stupid and that people will not understand you. someone will always listen. feel free to msg me if you need to.
Exactly how I feel... knowing I will never hear his goofy laugh and jokes, his game... everything... Reckful was a different kind of streamer, I could love him like a best friend irl just watching him. This is devastating, I can't even sleep.
Listening and caring are so different. Majority of the time people just don’t care. Such a fucked up feeling.
Damn that ending was so hopeful, yet here we are.
1:22:02
Why did he actually took his life?
I mean, I would be so interested seeing a History of Reckful 2 or something like that, including why he is in heaven now... ;(
@@_Pieman Watch the mizkif video, he goes over how it wasnt planned. He was going through a manic episode, as shown in his tweets and often times people will hurt themselves to try and regain a feeling of control. The police said it was quick and painless, at least hes not hurting anymore. RIP Byron.
That was what I also thought man :( fuck this
@@ItsJustConnor453 how did he kill himself ?
@@xxplosiivee2653 from what I've seen no one is saying but it he didnt suffer from it that's all that matters imo
Thank you so much for doing this video. I sadly never heard of him before. Started to watch this video just to get an idea of him but couldn't stop till the end. What a person. Gone way too soon. RIP Byron. Sending all the prayers and love to his family and friends. So sad!
This is so sad, but he will not be forgotten
Smile in heaven
Love
Actually if there is a heaven, it's not a place for suicide commiters. I would prefer the version of reincarnation as more lucky character in this game called life.
in every religion, committing suicide makes u rot in hell :( :)
@@rz6839 not in true Christianity. The only One that decides where a human being will go, heaven or hell, is God.
People who dare telling about other people where they will go, are extremely arrogant. That is God's job, thank God.
I've followed Reckful since early 2013, I remember most of these but I stopped watching him for 1 or 2 years, so it's nice to have a recap while I was gone, so thank you, you did an excelent job!
Damn that clip of him reading the passage from his dads book is hard to get through, especially knowing what happened after.
Hold up, let me get the popcorn.
Edit: Didn't know much about Reckful before this, the way you unravelled his story was totally captivating. Great video!
RIP RECKFUL I’ve actually been crying so much he was my favourite streamer and Internet personality, he was so awesome and seemed so nice, I really wish I could’ve met him once as he was simply just amazing
That "hell yeah" soundbite made that situation less dark
i've never in my entire life seen such a great doc about a person. hats off to you Slush! Amazing work, consider me a new fan.
I watched this back when you first published it and I cried. I came back and watched it after finding out about his death and this helped me stop crying and find closure for my favorite streamer. He will forever live in our hearts and will never be forgotten... Btw love the support right now from the WoW community for Byron!! and thank you slush for creating this!! Long live Byron's legacy! RIP Byron
I am watching this a couple of times each Year, always crying as soon as i see or hear Byron... Byrons stream was a safeplace for me. He was the reason i became i better person. What happened to byron just shows how cruel this world is.
Thank you byron, for everything you did and still do even if you are not here with us anymore. i will always miss you.
Knowing Reckful from his stream since 2014, (his Japan streams were one of the best content I've experienced on Twitch.)
But damn this hits me way harder than I imagined, especially because some of the stuff I can relate to.
The passage out of his fathers book his the hardest, after leaving your family behind, the sorrow they go through, the emptiness they feel.
I'm just glad there's a video like this that really explains the kind of person he was (from an outside perspective)
I hope Byron can rest easy now and his family / friends get all the support they need.
A sad day for all of us!
I like how this is a 90 min documentary about a guy that plays games streaming on a camera for people to watch. Yet Slush felt the need to tell us what IRL meant because obviously the target audience that would watch this to begin with would never of known that! Thanks sir learn something new everyday. I am new to the webs!
Getting all the info, merging it together, planning it correctly, narrating it flawlessly. The work it must have taken. I enjoyed it and thank you.
I've just watched this today. Thanks for putting this together.
RIP Byron
This was so good! i have been a fan of Byron for years, I have loved to be a part of his life, i think alot of us see Byron as a friend when things maybe was hard and you could just log on to twitch and hang out with him. I could relate to so much about his brothers death and depression, about needing to feel fullfilled. Because my dad took his own life when i was at a young age and finding meaning in life when he could just leave me and it so easily hasn't always been so easy, but Byrons streams have always been there to cheer me up. So thank you Byron for being there, you have changed alot of peoples lifes over the years for just being you
Thank you so much for putting in the time and effort of making this video. Had me in tears multiple times.
He was gone to soon
R.I.P Reckful
What an amazing documentary, as a long time viewer of Byron this video really brought back some good memories. Can't wait to see what your next video will be!
Man, I fucking cried by the end. This guy seemed insanely real, highs and lows, good times and painful mistakes. Wish he'd stuck around, sounds like he was a positive influence on the world. Feel awful for his father too, hope that guy is okay. Christ the pain he must be going through. R.I.P Byron.
I hope he’s in heaven and not hellll
@@BradmhjSorry to disappoint you, but life after death is life before life: nothing no matter what happens
@saebica sorry to disappoint you. But you have no idea what's after due to the fact you're still alive. Don't put someone down because of what they believe. You're theory is ignorant.
@@Gobig4l1f3 My theory is logical, but your irational fear doesn't let you live fully.
No one matters in this life because unless we write history, we're nothing and never existed.
im not religious and generally agree with your view on death, but don't shit on other people's beliefs, especially when its about the uncertain.@@saebica
I've been following Reckful for years. He's helped me through some really rough times in my life, can't recomend his streams enough.
Once more I am reminded that each and every human on this earth is as multifaceted and unique as the finest of gems. I think the word for this sensation is sonder?
Thank you Slush for making this gem of a video.
Heartbreaking, I’ve never cried for somebody I never met before but he was so special for many of us because like Slush said, he was authentic.
Thank you for all the many memories I made on your streams, thank you for the support you gave me without even knowing me or even talked to me once.
The world lost a light, paradise is only more enlightened.
I was watching Reckful when he came back to stream in 2012, i was 16, just finished middle school, home alone pretty much all summer, had 2-3 friends over with their PCs sitting, laughing and playing for days, and watching his streams, some of the best times i had.
feelsbadman
16 finishing middle school?
Dude Byron has helped me throughout so many years just by being himself, it's such a helping hand to see someone struggle in similar ways to yourself, but still being able to make something out of themselves. Like someone else said, it honestly feels like Reckful is a friend, and so amazing to see him do well!
This was a really good way to honor him. Reckful was an amazing guy. Excellent video.
Brilliantly done. I've been following Byron since around when he started in 2012 so seeing it all summarized like this is fascinating. Also that Nicolas Jaar Space Is Only Noise record is awesome
I never heard of him before, but seeing this last scene talking to Dr. Alok made me very close to cry. Trying to share his experience with his community to protect them making the same mistakes is something only a blessed human would do. What an awesome guy. Rest in Peace!
thank you so much for this video. I miss reckful so much. I used to watch him a lot... he was an amazing dude!
I really didn't see that ending coming. Amazing work you did, and a very special message and example of life that more people should see. Wonderful video, man.
5:30 that's the Snow tribe music from Kameo: Elements of Power! one of my favorite games, underrated af. pleasant surprise hearing it
Wooooooow I couldn’t remember where I heard this before holy shit. Thank you!! I miss this game
Repsect man
4:17 thats Battle Prelude, also from Kameo
I too lost my brother to suicide, so guys if you're feeling depressed or like no one out there understands you please know that there are people out there who do care and that no matter what you're going through it's not the end of the world rest in peace reckful you will be missed brother
I like to talk to myself that suicide is something I will never do, I would rather starve to death afther running away and hiding till I died of thrist or hunger then commit suicide, afther all I have 4 siblings, 1 oder brother(1,5 year older, with whom I live my whole life in one room) and 3 younger sisters, so if I comited suiced it would hit hard my mother and my sibling as for father and grandmother idk how it would hit them, we live in one house.
What a greatly put up documentary on a guy who inspired me to become a streamer, like a lot others out there, years ago. It is so complete, many moments I myself forgot about his development as a streamer... The up & downs of a guy who always gave himself entirly to his stream, with only few limitations.
Such a likable guy who really is easy to relate to on a lot of things.
Makes me want to have a beer with him and discuss about gaming, investment, or his crazy breakup stories even though it's quite public already :D
FeelsGoodMan.
:(
RIP reckful, cried like a baby,as if I had lost a big brother
you were too kind for this world
I certainly wasn't the most active Reckful viewer, I only found him when he first picked up hearthstone, and he was definitely up there as one of the top two or three streamers I watched most on twitch, even holding that place still. I always enjoyed his stream every time I tuned in, no matter what game he was play (or lack there of). The loss of Reckful is truly, truly, saddening, he was inspiring in more ways than I could ever even list. He was one of the most relatable, truthful, open, and down to earth streamers ever. And he never lost touch with who he was or what he loved the whole time.
Rest in peace, you deserve every loving thought and memory we all shared with you. I wish I could say more still, but words are still hard about this. I, and the world, will miss Byron
I never realized how much I could relate to a Twitch streamer. The ending sequence hit a little too close to home. Thank you for sharing this with us, and Reckful, you have gained a fan. Best of luck to you both.
Homie ain’t gone he is just re-queuing going for heavens gladiator title
😭
fuck you dude. this is a serious thing, and your name is wiz khalifas left nut and your making jokes about his death.
hayes this wasn’t him making fun of him calm down.. it’s a nice thing to think about... he’s in heaven gaming it up 🤷🏼♂️
Rizzmaster ok fine but it’s still making a shitty meme about someone who died
hayes am not insulting him or making a meme just saying he is still playing wow in heaven
Just stumbled upon this guy a few days ago, I wish he'd still be here. Rest in peace.
He’s actually still alive and is living under the radar
Thank you very much for this high quality documentary, I didn't know this person and I didn't know how much he has done for the world and went through.
I'm really sad that there are people like him and suffer so much because of unchangeable events.
I also fought depression for long time, but my problems are nowhere near what Byron and his family had to go through.
I hope all the people with this kind of struggle can find happiness.
Rest in peace Byron, I know even in afterlife you must struggle, stay strong. I hope your family will recover from the loss.
I Really appreciate this video because I felt that you handled the dark aspects of the story well and helped me understand him and even myself even a bit more. I've been seriously struggling with my depression since as long as I can remember and it I've also been very open about it. I've felt really alone and bad about myself the majority of my life and I'm really glad that there's people like him who don't want others to feel alone and want to connect others. It's so sad that he's gone and I didn't even know him. Just knowing that he had a similar type of internal struggle and that he wanted to help others is enough for me to care about him deeply.
I have watched this multiple times too many to count and everytime it brings me to tears
Rest well Reckful
You’re a seriously underrated TH-camr
i knew everything about reckful and still watched the whole video. Kind of wierd to feel for somebody you've never met. Cheers reckful, i hople life gets better for you.
The hardest part about depression. It seems to never go away. Periodically you feel at peace but it always comes back. Some people think it's a cop-out. It is a battle. I totally understand this. May you RiP Byron. I hope you have peace now.
I did not know anything about him until today, and I have tried to find out the reason for what has happened. Thanks for this video, rest in peace Reckful.
Sometimes there is no reason. It could be random.
"I love Reckful, he feels like a brother to me, even though i never met him irl" so true !!! .more than 15 years!
I'm no gamer, by any or all means and have no real interest in gaming, or knowledge of Twitch but I enjoyed this doc very much, mind blowing!
I laughed and cried, really good video!
Love you Byron.
I didn't know how serious my suicide attempt back when I was in college until I watched this video. Now I am scared that maybe one day, in some heavy event in my life, this thoughts may come back into my head seeing how Reckful had been battling this on and off through out his life. This is really an eye opener for me as well that I have to watch out for signs if ever the demon comes back for me. I'm sorry we lost a genuine amazing soul in the gaming community, he surely left an big impact to all the gamers who know and have heard of him.
Stay strong friend :)
@@diaco423 thanks for the kind words. ♥️♥️
Hey. I know you’re still here. Stay strong ❤️🔥
this is giving me goosebumps now, man it hurts that he is gone :/ i watched so many streams and had lots of fun watching his irl streams. rest in piece byron
thank you for making this video Slush. Rest in peace, great Reckful.